#i'm sorry i am not more helpful

[akans-dead-at-sea]

It's alright

30 second timelapse:

#ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd fanart #our flag means death #“I am a brave boy and will NOT cry while getting reference screenshots of Ed” he said. #*barely manages to hit Win+Shift+S through the fucking tears* #I'm sorry but this is the only decent OFMD fanart I got in me for now #I'm shit at drawing people with faces/head and I still gotta learn and find a style but god knows the gay pirates are gonna help me practic #I still need to recover from this scene- this episode- this season- this show goddamnit #ngl at first I liked how I drew Ed's hair but the more I look at it now the less I like it >:C #did I forget to post this? no nope nuh uh I don't know what you're talking about #this absolutely blew up on twitter- lowkey hope tumblr dot com likes it too :> #ed teach #stede bonnet #gentlebeard #ofmd s2e8 #tw blood #blood #akans art

[marshmallowgoop]

no thoughts just Heiji Hattori (HD)

#detective conan #case closed #amv #my amvs #eye strain #heiji hattori #harley hartwell #conan edogawa #shinichi kudo #funimation english dub script #video #happy two-year anniversary to 'no thoughts just heiji hattori'! #while it's not my first amv (it's maybe my... fifth?) #it was the first one i made with davinci resolve and the amv that really got me into editing amvs for real #it's the amv that made me believe i could make amvs 🥺 #and in remastering it i deeply understood how ambitious it was! i thought i did a lot of audio mixing for 'messed up' #but that's not even close to all the audio mixing i did here--cannot believe that i did all this for my first big amv project #it took about 20 hours *just* to remaster! #which is something i've been meaning to do for a while now so i'm very happy to finally share the results! #to make this a 'remaster' and not a 'redo' the only changes i tried to make were to the source footage and audio #video now uses almost entirely hd remastered footage from my blu-rays or netflix rather than my dvds #but oh gosh was it *hard* not to touch anything else! i'd do so many things differently now #but this video will always be really special to me (and i can't believe i did it at all tbh!) #i hope seeing it in hd is fun too! i'm so blown away by all the love this vid's gotten #and that it helped increase interest in funi's old english dub is amazing and 100% what i was trying to do with it! #thank you everyone for all the support <333 i wouldn't be the video editor i am today without this vid or your encouragement for it <3333 #like the original the sources used are mostly from what funi dubbed (but mixed in hd by me!): eps 48-49 57-58 77-78 117 and 118 and movie 3 #but i also used episodes 141-142 174 189 239 263 277 291 293 345 479 491 517 and 522 #and ova 3 and tv special 6 (episode one) and movies 10 and 13 and ops 27 31 and 33 and the funi 5.2 dvd blooper for the one line lol #i'm sorry i've been so absent lately! i hope to be more active now... and there are 2 completely done amvs that i'm just waiting to post...

[skrunksthatwunk]

non-comprehensive haruhi autism creature comp

i mean just look at him she's literally

#kiss kiss fall in love :| #i'm not kidding there's so many panels like this. haruhi is a little bug with big beautiful brown eyes. literally (O_O) #nobody else is drawn like this in the manga it's just haruhi #still going through the manga yippee #ohshc #ohshc manga #fujioka haruhi #haruhi fujioka #i am a big believer in autistic haruhi and this isn't the biggest reason but it is a funny reason to me #also hitting haruhi with the he/she headcanon beam. i can't help it but also i mean. maybe a little more justifiable with haruhi than anyon #else i can think of. like just look at the show idk read the manga #ouran high school host club #ouran koukou host club #woahh fancy fancy pulling out all the stops (i guess) #eugh i should stop writing tags my laundry's been done sitting in the dryer for like. 20 minutes #also sorry these images are so small and busted i uh didn't look at them before posting and am not going to fix them <3

[theoldkyokodied]

I'm posting this here too, just in case anyone who doesn't follow me on insta is interested in getting one of these! You can find the shirt here or dm me to do it over paypal invoice, if you want to save 2€ from etsys greedy little hands.

the shirts will be ready for shipping in roughly 3 - 5 weeks from now! and sorry to everyone outside the EU, shipping from Germany is really expensive :(

#i am not tagging this with the usual tags bc i dont want it to show up in the tags #well i can do #iasip genderbend #for people with that term blocklisted #but yeah I'm very excited for this shirt!! had to enlist my friend to help me write an email to a print shop #humiliating experience. but i will be strong for the lesbian cowboys shirt #also labelled this as mature for the nudity. hope that was right. i don't want my account to get nuked #anyway sorry this is not my usual type of post. i swear i am drawing more fanart rn. you can look forward to more toxic yuri macden

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

miles kane, swg3 glasgow 01/02/2024

oh my god oh my GOD i don't even know where to start. last night was hands down not just one of the best gigs of my life, but one of the best nights of my life full stop. it's twenty four hours later and my heart just feels so full and i still can't stop smiling with pure happiness 🥹 i've been to a LOT of gigs over the years, and a lot of those have been really amazing gigs too - but this one. wow. there was truly just something so special about this one that i know i'll carry with me for a long time to come 💗

i feel like i could ramble endlessly about all the things that made it so incredible (i.e. literally everything), so to try and avoid writing an actual essay, here are a few bullet points of my favourite things:

being right in the front row was AMAZING for obvious reasons, but also because of the number of times miles made eye contact with me and smiled at me as he was singing 😭 (naturally any time this happened i smiled back like a total idiot and forgot all the words) me and the lovely human i was there with were the only ones at the barrier who were really getting into it at the start, and i got the sense he loved seeing how much we were loving being there 💗

miles just has the most incredible energy ✨ that's absolutely something you pick up from listening to his music, watching interview etc - but it's quite something else to experience in person. the moment he walks into a room he just gives off such good vibes and such warmth. there's such a sense of groundedness to him as well as all the amazing passion, and also idk. i feel like in person you can really feel the sensitivity and vulnerability that's so present in his music too. he truly lights up a room and just has such a knack for holding everyone captive 💫

getting to witness miles being overwhelmed and unable to stop smiling at how enthusiastic the crowd was truly wonderful 🥹 you could just *feel* how much it all meant to him, and watching him get all the love and appreciation he deserves was just magic 💖

at the end, he came down into the crowd towards me and was making direct eye contact and then he FUCKING SPOKE TO ME??????? 😭 i was too dazed to actually take in what he was saying (i'm pretty sure it was something along the lines of "i like your necklace" but honestly who knows lol), and it was very brief because naturally i wasn't the only person in the crowd he was saying hi to, but fucking HELL. i was totally, totally unprepared 😭 i then had the privilege of a sweaty miles kane leaning over me to high five the people behind me, and i held his hand and - yeah. it was all so truly surreal that i might think i'd imagined it if it wasn't for the fact i can literally see the moment in this video 😭

i was there with @perfectly-clear-from-here and we were both just utterly ECSTATIC after the show, it was amazing getting to share the sheer giddy joy of all that with one of the loveliest humans i know 💜

and then of course (as if all of that wasn't already enough to make it the most wonderful night), we MET MILES after the show 😭😭 i've already rambled about that here so i won't do it again, but - yeah. let's just say he truly is the most wonderful person with the loveliest energy, and he is so easy to be around 🥹

the last six months or so have not been easy ones for me, and this felt like the most wonderful break in the clouds that just - idk. really restored me to myself. it was so special to get to experience live so many of the amazing songs that have got me through and been such a comfort in the difficult times, and i am just so endlessly grateful to miles for his courage in creating and sharing all that he shares 💗

**please do not repost my photos without permission**

#sorry for posting so much about the show but i am just SO STUPIDLY HAPPY 🥹🥹 #i have a bunch more videos that i'll share at some point #including the most beautiful and heartfelt 'don't forget who you are' 💗 #AHHHHHHHHHH #it was quite honestly the most perfect experience i could have dreamed of 💖 #just look at his happy little face 🥹 #i'm so so glad to have been able to help make him feel the impact of his music and how utterly cherished it is by so many people 💗 #(please forgive me and my soppiness - i haven't come down from my post gig high yet 😭) #miles kane #one man band #omb tour #omb era #mk glasgow 2024 #my show #lulu posts

[a-s-levynn]

IV

#okay i am appearently fully unable to go without drawing for more the a few days at this point #or i'm just feeling sad again as per usual while also being addicted to the notification induced serotonin #aaand i figure you can put two and two together to get four #anyway it's kinda shitty sorry mr vessel the fourth but i spent like 20 minutes on you instead of going to bed #click for better quality not that it helps much but at least it'll be sharper #sleep token #vessel iv #iv sleep token #sleep token iv #iv #sleep token fanart #levynn tries to draw

[lucacrow]

hey, i'm completely broke after paying for rent and groceries and i don't know how i'm gonna cover a $150 bill i'll have to pay on the 15th. i have some time, but i'll definitely need help, especially since i'll have to figure out food again by then too. if you're able to spare anything, it would be a huge relief right now.

reblogs would help a lot, thank you so much for any and all support while i try to hang in there, and take care <3

#ko-fi #mutual aid #i'm sorry i'm barely scraping by at the best of times and i have been having an Extra hard time for a while #thank you for your patience ;_; #i am trying to apply for disability but it's a really long wait and it's really hard for anyone to get accepted u_u #(i had a more urgent emergency when i first posted but a very kind friend just helped me cover it <3 thank you again)

[hiphopcherrrypop]

next bus ride to school about to be kinda awkward.....

#jojolands #jjba #jojos bizarre adventure #usagi alohaoe #jodio joestar #new jojolands chapter means time for more usagi art! #i need to be physically restrained from putting him on a green background i'm sorry idk what possesses me #alsoooo i don't actually believe in usagi being a traitor (yet at least (ʘ╻ʘ)..) #but if he fr is then it's silly they still have to go to school together #it's too early for him to be a traitor #it's a fakeout right araki. surely #please don't... rip this out of me... #ALSO oh my gawd as a member of usagi nation i may have lost a bit today #but i am also a member of dr/gopaco nation so i wonnnn... #like awww they were abt to be hugging forever so cute 🤞🤣 #jodio in this drawing is stressing me out he looks too scsry buff to me #it was worse and i fixed it but still #i think primary issue is i made his shoulders too broad and the pose isnt helping anything either #whatevs whatevs he’s a joestar i guess 😞😞

[sslowdeathh]

Requested by @narcette, please forgive me for the wait on these!

Cailean. Enoli. Bardou. Conan. Phelan. Conri. Rafe. Raif. Raul. Cuan. Lupe. Loup. Madden. Soma. Vos. Rudy. Kaleb. Lyall. Sirius. Edon. Maugrim. Vastie. Grey. Canid. Ethio. Lytta. Cain. Caleb. Kai. Daug.

Bark barks. Bite bites. Fang fangs. Woof woofs. Ca canine. Bone bones. Cub cubs. Pup pups. Pup puppy's. Puppy puppies. Coy coyote. Claw claws. Can canis. Hound hounds. Fur furs. Grr grr's. Paw paws. 🐾 🐾's. 🦴 🦴's.

He with the sharpest teeth. The fluffiest dog. The cutest puppy. The scruffy one. The (dog bread). Your (personal) companion. Your best friend. His unconditional love. His puppy love.

#✦ liberating rain . . . ( vincent ) #✦ Two shots and I need more #✦ Get back and focus again ，( narcette ) #i'm sorry these are lazy i am tired #also i struggle... very much... with usernames #so no more usernames gamers #🙏 #neoprn #name searching #npt #name inspo #name inspiration #vampire names #name help #name ideas #name suggestions #baby names #name list #pronoun list #pronouns #pronoun suggestions #pronoun ideas #title suggestions #title list #titles #title ideas #theme: #dog #canine

[haneys]

PLEASE DONT TAG AS D/NA/TIONS ETC!!

hey, I didn't want to do this but Im at my wits end. I'm Haney, im disabled physically and mentally, and I need financial help. Recently me and my two friends have been kicked out of the place we've been living at and had to scramble around to find a place that would let us move in. We had no money at the time and we still barely do. We found a flat that let us take our cats and also allowed us to pay some costs like agency fee at a later date to help us. I borrowed 3k PLN from my (also struggling) family to pay the first rent, but we still have to pay 3k deposit to the landlord, and 2.5k to the agency. My paycheck this month was only 2.5k, and girls are struggling with money too, we just don't have enough and I have noone to turn to at this point.

We're around 2k short, not even counting in things like food, and my family is broke, so I have to ask for help. Literally anything will help, because a single dollar is worth quite a lot of PLN. I can do anything in return too: draw, write, help you with homework or projects, teach you polish lang/history, send nsfw content, whatever comes to your mind, just tell me and I'll try my best. I work 10-12h shifts so it might take a while but it'll be done.

I have ppal, and if you're polish ask me for BLIK. I'd appreciate any help and reblogs. Thank you.

^ my photography for attention

#patxt #if you wanna ask abt anything dm me it's just that thr whole story is so long and insane i didnt wanna write a novel here #I'm gonna genuelly explode we have like two days and my paycheck is so shit I don't even have my mobility aids with me my psychosis is #reaching new peaks I. coughs blood dies explodes. I have no idea what to do I'm sorry for asking for money but like this is miserable #we're selling anything we can I'm trying to work more but I'm genuelly so bad health wise and i dont have money for housing yet #alone doctors 🤡 almost everything I eat comes right out of me IMMEDIATELY my leg is flopping ad usual my crutch was left at the last house #and i am so derealized most of the time I don't even know where I am I just. idk. we need help 😭😭😭

[spaceratprodigy]

*gulp* deacon/iris "please just kiss me" intimacy ask........ NYE party- (i am shot)

@oldworldwidgets — [ intimacy prompts ]

It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts

We're not broken, just bent, and we can learn to love again

pose reference

#if u need me I'm gonna be on the floor thinking abt the doomed love of the disaster besties #aud.. aud my love my darling.. this little scene we crafted has been rotating nonstop in my brain for months #it has fundamentally ruined me #but it's so perfect it hurts so good I love seeing the lines blurring I love them not being able to get it right #struggling to communicate through the heartache *chefs kiss* #him.. him being the one to ask.. #I am unwell you are always sending me banger prompts my dear AND you always know how to help put my chaotic ramblings in the perfect words #OUGH miss aud oldworldwidgets I love you with my entire heart and soul you are such a ray of sunshine in my life #also I still have the other two intimacy prompts u sent me for them in my back pocket..... #I've had some ideas of how they can spend the night on the roof under the stars together...... #more on that later #ANYWAY #ilysm I am blowing you so many kisses rn #finally the people get to know who miss iris really kissed on new years eve on this fine day of *checks watch* valentine's day #(sorry nicky ✌😔 just bestie things u know how it is) #my art #sole survivor #fallout #fallout 4 #fo4 #deacon #deacon fallout 4 #deacon fo4 #oc x canon

[rotisseries]

Haunting

Will Byers + Strangers by Ethel Cain

@bylerween2023 | Day 1: Ghosts & Hauntings

unfortunately, it's not looking like my fic for bylerween will be done in time to share today, so I'm sharing the graphic that would have gone with it! strangers is one of my favorite songs, it's very haunting and very will coded, and I felt that it fit for the theme lol. the larger fic idea is that will did die in the upside down, and when mike goes to visit the now abandoned byers house, he sees will's ghost. hoping I can finish it by the november 22nd deadline🫡

#mike after being metaphorically haunted for years and now it's literal:😃😃😃 #strangers is not a song about ghosts but also it is. to the enlightened mind. I get it. ask me i could talk about it #hope this is ghostly enough for the theme #the background thing behind will also has ghosts if that helps. that's blue ghostly artwork #stranger things #byler #bylerween2023 #will byers #day 1 #ghosts & hauntings #tw implied death #also sorry this is more just a will thing and doesn't really have mike lmao. testing the limits on what is a byler post #saw bylerween rb a gifset that just had will though so I hope I'm correct in assuming it's ok if it's got a stronger focus #on only one of them #ok I'm done talking now I am overthinking this everyone enjoy i slaved for hours in picsart like a loser without photoshop #happy bylerween everyone!!

[gotchibam]

Just wanna say I finally updated the trello queue for the ko-fi doodle requests! Sorry it took so long but also thank you sm for being patient w/ me ;_;

#weirdly enough I was expecting more for some reason @_@ #might be bc i've gotten around 70+ reqs before..... #for those who don't know i've gotten so much reqs before too & finished all of em in a span of several months #longest doodle(s) to be finished & sent took around 7 months i think (im very sorry for those ppl ;_;) #said i'd never do it again but well... here I am again #it's not gonna take as long (I hope) don't worry but yeah it may take a few months for some (i'm sorry in advance) #thank u all sm for the support & kind messages! and to that kind & generous supporter thank you so so much as well (I cried reading ur msg) #I really appreciated that & it made me emotional ;_; but it makes me happy that my art has somehow helped you even just in a small way too #bam blabs

[crescentfool]

I noticed you're a Ryomina!!! How did you get into it? And do you have any good fanfics/doujinshi you can advice me to read? ANYTHING on Ryomina actually? I'm dying for anything about them!!! Thanks!!

yes!!! it's me!!! i'm ryomina fan (one of many)!!! thank you for visiting my askbox, i'll do my best to answer all of the questions because it always makes me happy to see that ryomina sparks joy for people! :D

...this got really long because i like linking to things, so i'm putting it under a read more (IM VERY NORMAL ABOUT THEM)

how did i get into it? i got into persona 3 around august 2021 through the movies- at the time my only experience with the persona series was with P5R / P5S / P5D. p3 was the one that interested me the most (i thought minato was very pretty + i caught wind that the themes of the game were very resonant with people). i picked the movies over the game because i'm a guy who plays games at a snails pace, haha.

admittedly, i did latch onto ryomina because of the scenes in the third and fourth movie (i have mentioned in the tags of this art i drew how much i felt like i was exploding and blasting off to the moon watching it).

but what really dug me into the ryomina hole (and what has kept me there) was thinking about how much ryoji encapsulates the themes of p3- and how interconnected his fate is with minato. i wrote some musings about their dynamic here, if you're interested!

tl;dr: what if we were both boys and we were mirror images of each other and i inherited your kindness and looks but god doomed our narrative even though we're soulmates

on ryomina fanworks recommendations:

regarding fics: i'm going to assume that you've probably read the fics that have the highest kudo ratings on them, so i won't really be listing those.

a personal favorite fic that i always hold close to my heart is Eurydice's Vow by crescentmoontea, which explores the idea of ryomina in p5r's third semester. this was the first fic i read about ryomina and it made me tear up lots...

i also think a lot about I Alone Await You by Nail_gun, literally scrumptious writing that captures the ryomina dynamic so so well. actually check out Nail_gun's other ryomina fics while you're at it too!

other fun fic i'm fond of: can't get my mind out of those memories (what were they?) by foxmulder_whereartthou. ryoji being homeless lives rent free in my head and it's all because of this fic. there's a bunch of other fun ryominas from the same author too (i still need to read them)

BkZa555 also has some fun AU scenarios if you're into that too, notably with Zagreus (P5-Setting, Ryoji focus) and The Definition of Insanity (TIME LOOP fuckery!), but they're currently ongoing.

these were some ones that came to my mind first- as i have the strongest recollection reading them. admittedly i haven't really been reading fic this year, so i don't have many recommendations from fic that came out this year. but if you're so inclined to let ryomina consume your soul, i definitely recommend giving the newer works in the ryomina tag a look-see and see if it strikes your fancy!

as a side note, i do have a few ryomina fics that i've bookmarked on my ao3 here, though i have to say that i'm not sure how well they hold up in terms of like... what i would seek out of a fic these days. but they made past me happy so i bookmarked them, LOL. it's kind of outdated (my collection of fic recs has my old username *disintegrates*).

regarding doujinshi: i have not read all the ryomina doujinshi available, but as a starting point, please take a look at this list from pandora-scans from livejournal!

notably, this is where you can find the strawberry-chan say good bye doujin- which features a small and cute comic from shuji sogabe (the p3/p4 manga artist), as well as other artists. the existence of this doujinshi is the funniest thing to me because it's like "HEY if you're wondering what the volume 8 cover is really gay it's because sogabe contributed to a ryomina doujin." this fact makes my head spin (positive). it explains a lot about the manga.

regarding persona side material:

i know you didn't ask for these but i thought that i mine as well list these too, since i feel that the side materials have some fun expansions on ryoji and minato's interactions. i haven't... watched/read all of these but, hey, i like to share these things!

for comic anthologies for the persona series (some of which have ryoji!). if you're interested in reading them, here's a scanlation index from maboroshi-no on tumblr. i don't think this is a comprehensive list, but i think it will be a great starting point!

for some translations of the persona 3 drama cds, check out imaginary-numbers on dreamwidth! ryoji and minato interactions can specifically be found in the persona 3 character drama cd vol. 1, and for the audio + english subs, you can watch this video on youtube:

and ohh the musical. ryoji singing and dancing gives me so much joy. i haven't watched the musical in it's entirety (only fragments), but here are some links that may be of interest to you:

Ao no Kakusei (The Blue Awakening), Sakuya version - playlist for the first p3 musical, translated by Phoenix Maiika.

Ao no Kakusei (The Blue Awakening), Kotone version - playlist for the femc version!! also translated by Phoenix Maiika on YouTube.

Persona 3: The Weird Masquerade (English Subtitles) - playlist by rumio!

P3 Weird Musical DVD & Soundtrack Booklet Scans by rumio_k - twitter thread that links to these funsies, if you don't have twitter, here's the publicly shared drive link.

god. these sure are a lot of links, huh? i hope you enjoy them- pick and choose whatever sounds most appealing! (if this overwhelmed you im sorry GKLHLDH i just like being very comprehensive in my answers about things so i got carried away).

and as a reminder, you (and anyone else reading) are always welcome to browse my tags/archive and reblog things from there anytime! i have... nearly 300 ryomina posts which, while mostly consists of art, has a few fics, meta, hcs, gifs, memes, and whatnot scattered about.

or browse the minato and ryoji tags too! there's.. nearly 1k minato. and 500 ish ryoji. and they're going to keep on growing because i can't stop being obsessed with archiving these things. god help me i am so deep in this hole called ryomina hell and now you're here too. welcome aboard!

there's always going to be a lot of fun ways to enjoy rotating ryomina around in one's brain, i think- they're a pairing with such fun symbolic imagery that is So Deep (to me) but ALSO they're immensely hilarious and weird guys (affectionate). so i love to share these things in hopes that it gives you joy too! they are the most couple ever (to me) (i'm biased)

thank you again for the ask! i hope it can satiate your need for more ryomina, and be a nice aide in exploring the p3 fanspace :)

#ohhh do i even main tag this #fuck it we ball i'll tag it #lizzy askbox #persona 3 #ryomina #ryoji mochizuki #minato arisato #i'm in a bit of a hiatus in terms of like.. looking at new ryomina stuff outside of fan art so i haven't seen Everything #but i would like to get back to it when i can be more cognizant and present to appreciate them #the grind to being a ryomina encyclopedia never stops! #my files and links are all messy i can hardly keep track of all the ryomina things... maybe i just need to make a neocities- #like cat's souyo archive (cat is an inspiration to me) #but FUCK man ryomina is so good. thank you for the follow and sending me this ask #i'm very sorry about the excessive length i can't help myself i'm very dedicated to wanting to know lots of things about them #i had a lot of fun answering this! #times like this make me want to return to like. my fic recommendation collection.. i gotta rehaul that stuff tbh #maybe after i've seen all the ryomina stuff i can make a ryomina iceberg based on what i've seen peple talk about (or not talk about) #it'll be a long while though. i feel like i've hardly scratched the surface even though i wouldn't call myself a casual enjoyer #ANYWAY BYE. no one ever apologize to me about being excessive because I AM very excessive and repetitive. LOL. have a good morning? evening

[hamartia-grander]

Starting to slowly realise I'm really not doing well mentally and it's. concerning. I feel like I should take a break from tumblr bc it takes some of what little energy I have but it's also my source of joy with friends so idk what to do, like I'd miss y'all more than I'd feel good about being away. But if you notice me talking less/not responding in days it's bc I just cannot. I leave your message notifs up so I don't forget tho <3

#Personal #Feeling dreadful bc so many friends have shared with me things they wrote that I SO GENUINELY AM EXCITED TO READ #I've just had literally no time nor energy for ANYTHING I enjoy in like a month #And I'm also literally not sleeping. I'm either not sleeping or I have recurring nightmares that wake me up. It's god-awful #Therapy isn't helping either cause atp I already know everything they're advising me about it's just not working #Nothing's changed either which ofc makes me feel worse. No meds changed no habits changed nothing crazy happened #I'm just suddenly worse than I've been in years which is Not Good #I feel awful for not being able to read my friends' things if I could let y'all see my mind you'd know I want to read what you write so bad #I just can't right now. I'm sorry #Not to mention work and school have been especially more demanding recently and I literally get home after 8 every single night #Don't even eat dinner til past 10pm #Doing hw until 3am etc etc #It's like high-school all over again but I'm an adult with more responsibilities than ever

[beanghostprincess]

Let's say chocolate is a metaphor for traditional relationships that happen to appear good but are too sickly sweet for Sanji to handle and after WCI he ends up not liking chocolate. At least for a while. He needs to move on from what happened first. But he wants to force himself to like it because he should like chocolate. It is one of the most basic ingredients when making sweets and it is also everywhere.

So what if it makes him want to throw up? What if his stomach betrays him when cooking? What if he needs to stop every two seconds to breathe because his lungs don't work properly when he smells chocolate? He will keep trying and trying to make it work. Everybody loves chocolate, after all, he should too.

But then, one day, Usopp sees everything he has around the kitchen. Like. That's an awful lot of sweets and a disgusting amount of chocolate and he doesn't seem like he has slept in a week. So of course he is concerned. "Why- What's all of this about, Sanji?" He tries to hide his nervousness with a laugh.

Sanji grips the counter tighter. So much his knuckles turn white. "I- I don't know. I guess I was just. In the mood for chocolate." But he doesn't sound sure at all. In fact, he looks like he's about to cry.

"Well." He looks around the room without wanting to touch anything but approaching Sanji a bit to check on him. "Luffy can have all of my portions because I kind of... Not like chocolate?"

"You don't- You don't like chocolate?"

"No? Too sweet. I actually pretty much hate it? The smell already makes me ill."

"Me too."

"You what?"

"I think I don't- I don't think I like chocolate anymore. Is that- I don't know if I ever did. Is that alright?"

"Why wouldn't it be alright, Sanji? It's just chocolate. Nobody can force you to eat it. Or cook it if you really don't want to."

And Sanji realizes that maybe... Maybe it is alright for him to not want chocolate, and a wave of relief takes over him for a solid second.

#sometimes i think about sanji and his internalized homophobia #he's a bit too much like me it's scary-- anyway #i don't like chocolate that much either like. talking literally here #so maybe sanji looks a little gayer and less bi in this post but have you considered that i needed to make it like this bc i'm projecting #i have no idea where i wanted to go with this. chocolate in theory are like. just the concept of traditional m/f relationships #but it ended up looking more like girls in general and look. look. maybe. maybe it's okay for sanji to be a little gay in this one #usopp has absolutely no idea what's going on but he just knows sanji is very very fucked up and needs help rn #also something something usopp doesn't like chocolate and sanji forces himself to like it until he realizes he doesn't have to #idk i don't think he hates chocolate in this one maybe he just needs a little more time to like. eat chocolate #what the fuck am i saying this doesn't make any sense i just woke up i am so sorry #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso #one piece #whole cake island