#if it’s randomly decided by like the universe or something then 0

[thebeastofblackmoor]

honest CW Drew Crew endings

Nancy: After multiple seasons spent wondering if her Hudson lineage made her a bad person, her fears are confirmed! Her soul was that of one of the original Hudsons who was the ultimate oppressor and sacrificed children to create monsters that would erase crimes from memory to defend perpetrators. Explicitly out of guilt, Nancy takes to the road alone to erase these beasts from the face of the world. She's in a distance relationship with Ace, though, so that's all we care about.

Ace: Despite being a genius computer hacker, Ace decides to get into medical examination. (Also alone and far away!) I guess the problem with getting a job in the field he was truly gifted at wasn't that he was having a hard time motivating himself or that he didn't have a good group to support him, but that he was not working with corpses! Despite having claimed in the past that he's never had a group of friends like the Drew Crew and showing no interest in the medical field before last season, he leaves them all to pursue medical examination. Except Nancy, who he's doing long distance with I guess.

Bess: After having been kicked out of no fewer than three households in her life and spending her entire childhood friendless and family-less, Bess's first actual home is burned down by an angry mob and her friends all leave town. She is explicitly devastated by this, but don't worry, this sudden and complete massively triggering abandonment is played for laughs! And she has a girlfriend, so rest assured she couldn't be happier.

George: After having been forced to work her entire life to support her sisters, George selects a notoriously difficult, stressful, and cutthroat career path. I guess she's passionate about it, although like Ace, she's never shown interest in being a lawyer for more than a season. We are informed that her mother just... got better offscreen and that her sisters are grown now! (After one in-universe year.) Rather than finally being able to settle down in her home and be cared for alongside her sisters, she also leaves Horseshoe Bay to hit the grindset far far away from her friends and family. But she's not alone! She has the most boring and random man in existence with whom she has 0 chemistry and we've almost never seen her interact with. Seriously, this is a good thing for her, trust us!!

Nick: Nick's ending is the only one that makes even a little sense, since he has had a long-established interest in tinkering and technology and had an established rapport with Tom Swift. However, the career that he got with Swift Industries is only brought up in the very last scene, presumably because the writers had to pull something out of their asses to justify him leaving Horseshoe Bay, too. He also has an eleventh-hour significant other to run off with.

Seriously, I get that the ending of everyone going their separate ways is supposed to feel "realistic" and like everyone is prioritizing their own happiness, but I am baffled by the fact that anyone in the writer's room thought these were good endings. Everyone's paths came out of nowhere and were way too sudden to feel realistic. The writers love to gripe that they weren't given the time to do the ending they really wanted to pull off, but if that's the case, then they should have adapted the ending accordingly! If they didn't have time to set up all these individual career paths, they should have worked with what they had set up. If they didn't have time to get us to love new romantic interests, just scrap that altogether; not everyone needs to be neatly paired off with someone. If they weren't able to show all the magical Horseshoe Bay adventures they wanted to, they should have left the group intact so that the audience could imagine more and the group would still feel whole rather than randomly and swiftly disbanded, especially since they only did one year of in-universe time, and that leads me to believe the Drew Crew will not keep in close contact. It's not like they're long-term friends.

The focus on everyone having a relationship and a career that trumps their friendship and established happiness in Horseshoe Bay just feels icky to me. Like the writers thought that having a high-powered career and an SO--no matter how irrelevant both are to the established character--is the only way to have happy ending and are the only things that matter.

#reminder that i fucking hate the last two seasons lmaooo #cwnd #nancy drew #cw nancy drew #nancy drew cw

[dragondevinity]

Genshin impact Sagau~!

Part 3&4

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It was now night time and you sneakily followed Venti into Vanessa’s cell, you sat on the other side of Vanessa smiling shyly, you let them do the cannon dialogue while watching the guards incase something happens earlier than expected, you thankfully still had the extra six apples you didn’t eat in your pocket (think unlimited storage dimension), so you also handed her an apple when you heard Venti offering to be her friend, you continued watching over them until it was time for Venti to take the two of you away to wait… in that time you decided to try some stuff out with Venti, I mean you two were out in a field before sunrise and were alone anyway, “Hey Venti I’m going to try something okay?” You say, Venti nodded slowly, you backed up and concentrated on something, suddenly it payed off when beautiful pale purple wings appeared out of your back, “eek! It worked yes!!” You say happily, Venti just looked at you in confusion and awe, “h-how?!?!” He asked dumbfounded, “I think I should tell you something…” you said becoming nervous, “what is it..?” He asked while raising an eyebrow, “so how do I say this… I’m from a different universe i guess and I got transported into this one and randomly got powers?” You said slowly waiting for a reaction, Venti’s eyes widened after it all settled in… “so you’re an archon..?” He asked seriously, “I don’t think so- but I am definitely immortal, from what I know…” you replied waiting for another response, “ah- okay? I don’t know what to think of this but I guess I should also tell- or well show you something…” he said slowly still processing, suddenly he changes into his archon form, his wings looked pure white and oh so soft, you stared at them for a while before he spoke up, “y/n I’m the Anemo Archon… Barbatos…” he says slightly flushed at the way you looked at his wings like they were the most precious thing in the world, “what’s an archon? And what do you mean you’re one and the anemo one?” You asked making sure he thinks you have 0 knowledge of this world besides mainly him… “an archon is a god… which means I’m Barbatos the god of anemo, or I guess wind…” he replied softly, “oh! That makes sense then, thank you for explaining that Venti!” You reply kindly, ‘she’s not treating me differently… I’ll stay with her as long as possible!’ Venti thought smiling softly while still flustered, the sun starts rising and so you put your wings away, Venti seeing your wings disappear changes back into his non-archon form, you were great full that your corset and dress somehow were fine after the whole having wings appear and disappear, now you just had to wait for cannon to happen….

You were both in the stands of the arena, you knew what would happen but Venti didn’t… then it started, in a matter of two minutes Venti and Vanessa defeated the dragon, you were in awe, you summoned your own wings and flew down to Vanessa hugging her, she hugged you back while Venti dealt with the noble’s, people were happy, you were happy to see this actually happen… you forgot no one besides Venti and Vanessa truly knew you existed… “y/n… are you also an archon..?!” Vanessa asked suddenly, which in turn caused you to pause, “n-no I’m not… I’m just someone with wings…” you replied looking away slightly while flushing in embarrassment, “okay…” she replied.

And so that day was set in history as a story that would get told for generations… you stayed with Venti until he went back into slumber some years after Vanessa passed, you honestly missed her, she truly was a great friend, you made sure you weren’t put into any form of the story’s telling while Vanessa was alive… you had things you wanted to do until Venti was back…

-

You decided to start a journey after Venti fell into slumber, “I should go to Liyue and befriend Morax…” you mumbled settling on that, and so you went, sure you encountered hilichurls and slimes but they were easy to deal with as the slimes died to one slash and the hilichurls just left you alone fully.

“Finally! I’m here” you muttered happily, ‘wait am I able to sense Morax or?’ You thought, ‘no before anything else I need to get one of the waypoints so I can teleport here first’ you thought, and so you found the waypoint and added it to your list so you could teleport instead, ‘let’s try this!’ You thought before concentrating on finding Morax, ‘AHAH! There he is!’ You thought before running into the direction he was in, thankfully he was closeish, as you rounded a corner into a small patch of grass land you spotted him, and… Xiao, ‘okay two birds with one stone then, let’s befriend them both!’ You thought before running towards them both, Xiao spots you easily and draws out his weapon ready to attack, Morax just looks at you after seeing Xiao looking at your direction, Morax put his hand up to stop Xiao from attacking you as you reached them both, “hiya!” You say while looking up at them both, they just stared back for a minute, “Hello… do I know you mortal-” Xiao said after taking in your features, “you look like someone one of my old friends had been talking about…” Morax said while he looked confused, “ah I’m y/n! And now you know me sir, also who is your friend other sir?” You said, “he’s a bard over in Mondstadt who plays a lyre…” Morax replied, Xiao is just staring at you intently, “oh! I do know him” you replied calmly, Morax looked at you with a pleased smile adorning his lips, “ah so I assume you already know who I am?” He asked calmly while still smiling, “yeah and it’s lovely to meet you Morax… and Xiao” you said with a small bow and a bright smile, “ah, so you truly do know… it’s lovely to meet you as well… Y/n, the immortal…” he said smiling wider, “and don’t worry me and Xiao are the only two people besides Barbatos that knows your title…” he added, “w-wait, this is Lady Y/n?” Xiao said which made you giggle a bit, “well now that we’ve met, I would love to become friends with the both of you!” You say giddily, “I would like that to…” Morax said with a smile still present, Xiao just nodded while looking away with a flushed face due to your cuteness, and so you became friends with the two, now all you needed was a permanent home to live in…

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Parts 3&4~!

#genshin impact sagau #genshin impact #sagau

[charmixpower]

Rewatching season 1 (and actually paying attention to Sky to figure out what the fuck everyone is talking about): Part 2

EP 6:

Bloom: who are the Trix?

Musa: lol, that's the nickname we gave them

...the Trix eventually start calling themselves this right???? Nfkskdne that's, um, Icy are you ok??

Why do we never get to see the spring of light? That would of been a cool part of the palace

Ok but how the fuck does Bloom having the dragon fire even work?? Did the great dragon just randomly decide on a planet to bestow God powers on?? Fuckin help

I like to think that Domino was the first thing created by the great dragon and their related to diminutive dragon's that are the closest to the great dragon out of everything in the magical universe. God's second cousin if you will

Still op as fuck

None of this girls know the myth on how their dimension was created

"until dark forces attacked Domino and put out the dragon flame. The magical dimension hasn't been the same since." She's talking like the dragons flame was a physical object in Domino that played an important role of the upkeep of the dimension??? Help

I love how where the Dragon went is never explained. Like god took a nap, he's gone now

FARAGONA YOU KNOW SOMETHING

Tecna and Bloom: BITE BITE KILL KILL

Flora and Stella: ummmmmm, but how tho

Musa is just sitting there

I love how these idiots are screaming at a ring

Darcy is so upset about her nose and Stormy can barely cast a spell she's so sleepy

Icy on the other hand is fine and pissed as fuck

Apparently Stella's scepter doesn't have the power of the dragon flame?? Or not enough to be of any use??? Idk

The Trix are very lucky to have a room connected to a secret tunnel

The Trix are fucking screaming in the middle of the night, how does no one notice these fools

I love how these girls instantly decide to touch everything

Stella is so happy to have her ring back 🥺 which IS WHY SHE SHOULD HAVE IT IN LATER SEASONS—

Ok, ok, ok, ok, plot hole

Stella has her ring back, why does she not teleport them out???

If cloud tower is alive is it fucking with them??? If so can Flora sense that??

Bloomy is so impulsive

Griffin is such a weird and cruel woman to random teenagers and for what??

Tecna: fuck this place

Bloom: what if they have a book about me 🥺

Tecna: Bloom, that's fucking stupid. Why would cloud tower have a book about you when you entered the magical world like two weeks ago

Bloom: :0

Griffin...you are in your 30s+...why are you playing pranks on 16 year olds

Musa: !!! Oh FUCK this place

They do magic convergence!! But not true convergence, they just attack at the same time

Why are you running and not flying

Flora is the only one here smart enough to fly

Stella: We have a problem

Stella: not any more

Season 1 is fucking unparalleled. Stella punches Kunt, Tecna body slams doors, can't wait for more

Musa is so fucking terrified of this bug 🥺 she's literally shaking 😭 and Stella is so ready to protect her 🥺🥺🥺

Stella has set the room on fire

"Thanks a lot Stella" Musa :((((( stop being mean to Stella :((((((

The other "worst pair" from s2 twinning witches, gets moments of mutual dislike (Tecna and Bloom), but Musa is always the one on the offensive with Stella and Stella hasn't really done anything

Musa come back here and explain why you isolate between baby, angry, and sad

It wouldn't be hard to make this mutual bc Stella is known to have foot in mouth syndrome and Musa is hyper sensitive and holds grudges like it's her god given duty

Bloomy you have fire power's please at least try to control the fire

Daphne is so quick with it

Musa is so fucking baby when she isn't trying to be cool

Someone help her she doesn't know how to express emotions healthy

Flora should of gone first....she'd the fairy of plants...fire is the most dangerous for her

Stella: Well it sure did get us out of a HOT SPOT

Tecna: hahaha. Stella. Your so funny. I just bust a gut

Musa: *gags*

Stella confirmed pun liker and Tecna/Musa confirmed pun haters. This is amazing

A whole EP dedicated to this ring and it's just forgotten about

Poor Musa is suffering the most of getting no sleep 🥺

Fragonda: now what do you have to say for yourselves

Tecna: three witches from cloud tower tried to KILL Stella and STOLE HER HEIRLOOM. We went to get it back. Maybe tell your ""Colleague"" not to have murderous bitches at her school

OOO this is literally Faragonda and Girselda's worst fucking moment I swear to got this episode makes me hate these two so fucking much. This nearly gets the Winx KILLED

I'm going to attack Fragona with my teeth

Musa is genuinely upset that Fragonda might think their naive. Girl care so much about what others think of her

In my rewrite Faragona is going to face so many fucking consequences for this shit

Tecna is going to TEAR INTO HER, she won't hold anything back

EP 7:

When the Winx nearly die this episode I promise Tecna will also scream at you for putting them into this situation Griselda 💚 you can have your own little character arc about being nicer

Does these two episodes piss anyone else off for their flagrant disregard for the girls safety

OMG. "It wasn't a joke!" Tecna is autistic confirmed!!!! Every autistic has gone though this

Flora: it's not hard to use a broom :) want me to show you how?

Tecna: Nah. I'm sure I can figure out how to use these primitive implements

Flora watching Tecna out a bucket on her head: are you sureeee?

Tecna: of course!

Flora, clearly amused: are you really really sure you don't want any...help :)

Tecna: I can handle the situation Flora. Don't worry

Flora: (人 •͈ᴗ•͈)

Tecna, using a broom on a painting: see!

Flora: indeed, I see

Tecna: I think I might of done something wrong

Flora: now would you like me to help you?

GOD FLORA AND TECNA'S DYNAMIC IS SO GOOD

Flora is the only one who understands, despite being the smartest one here, she's also stupid as fuck

Plus Flora is just so subtly mocking, love her

Musa is going to attack Stella for being so entitled....this really should of been where Musa's dislike of Stella started. Or at least something like this happening sooner

"you'll be on guitar"

Stella: Hey! You want me to break a nail?

"WEAR GLOVES" "RUBBER IS BAD FOR MY SKIN"

The girls are fightinggggg

Bloom committed violence

Stella: a tough battle just ended, and I won by a landslide!

Stella why are you so perfect

Is Girselda ok?? Go do something with your life woman instead of bother 16 year olds

Ughhh mental Girselda, come back to me, I need some good teacher representation and if I cannot find if I will completely fuck up other characters to make it

Riven: Good morning disgusting rich bitches, I'm going to cause problems on purpose

DID BRANDON BRING THE DOG?!

I want this man's hand in marriage

The Trix are just openly talking about committing murder what the fuck

MIRTA!! MIRTA!!! MY SWEET BABY GIRL!!!

Mirta...baby I love you. Don't get into arguments with the Trix

I love how Mirta has freckles (≧▽≦)

Stormy fucked up all the drinks at her table just to laugh at Mirta. Why isn't everyone talking about how Stormy is the best Trix

Poor Lucy and Mirta.....

Damn it was lucky that there were still ppl at Alfea.... But what about people who don't like concerts??? Shouldn't they also still be at school?

You fuckers tricked these poor guys into helping you clean didn't you??

Sky is the only one here that has a good outfit. Those are, in fact, sentient people clothes

Riven is having a fucking moment, but the magenta on magenta is so fucking funny and he so clearly went "well it matches my hair....." That I am forced to like it, it's really boring tho

BRANDON IN HIS PREP ERA. Ok but, imagine Brandon pretending to be a prince gets him to try different styles and now 50% of his clothe is prep nonsense and the other 50% is gym rat that just figured out what a neon is. I think someone would attack him

Looking at Timmy I've never understood s1 Riven more. I also want to shove him into a locker. Why the fuck are you standing like that??? He's trying too hard to be pathetic smh

I love Brandon and Sky going "yeah, sure. I'll accept this as the way my day is going to go."

Timmy can't even catch a broom. How did you pass ANY of your physical classes

Riven: the audacity of lying to me AND expecting me to clean??? Excuse you?!

Riven is just fucking standing there, blank faced. What fucking emotion is that??? He looks dead inside

Riven: I cannot glare disbelieving at you people any harder

I love that there's just a random musical in this episode, Musa I love you

Flora is so gorgeous in her s1 casual party outfit. Why was this only seen once. She's soooo pretty

Stella and Bloom however look like pre-teens

Tecna your so cute and nONE OF YOU ARE WORTHY OF HER

Timmy........why the fuck did you ask Tecna if she wanted to dance if you didn't want to?? Are you just agreeing with her??? I mean vaild, if ***I*** got to be around the one and only Tecna I would also simp, but at least have a plan

Musa is so fucking great. Look at my girl dance!!!

S1 Riven is utterly nonplussed

This man's enegry

Riven's hobbies include: being an asshole for no reason, trying to look cool and failing, being utterly pathetic—

The vaccums are made to find and store powerful magical objects.... Tell me why they weren't used in s2/s3

These bitches just casue problems on purpose

Brandon in his prep era is making me go though multiple emotions at once

Brandon: woah woah woah there

Brandon: I've barely kissed Stella tonight, I'm not leaving until I at least get to—

UH OH TIME TO PANIC NOW

I love how all the guys just have their weapons......is there a reason y'all are armed at all times??

What ever the FUCK is wrong with Timmy's sleeves is making me crave violence

Tecna: a big heavy creature

Riven: Oh golly! O would of never guessed

(JFKWKDKD RIVEN SAYS GOLLY?!)

Tecna: it's two and a half meters tall, and weighs close to a ton. It's fur is bristly, it has horns, and multiple clawed limbs. It also has a musky odor

Tecna: now is that better

DRAG HIS ASS QUEEN

Also why does no one do anything with the information she provided. Do these boys not have a class on monster types???? Does none of the shit she's saying ring a bell??? Come on! Tecna dropped a gold mine of information, one of you use your brains

Riven has finally pissed off Musa!! She is gaining awareness of the fact that he's a asshole. S3/4 makes this almost annoying in retrospect, but I have to remind myself that the real Rivusa peeked in s2 then left the show

Musa, who doesn't have access to her magical powers and isn't physically strong: Says who!!!!!

The power of wanting to make Riven look stupid us just THAT STRONG

The best part about Timmy is that he has a fucking gun. But they made the gun work in the LEAST cool way possible. Just let Timmy shoot someone

Someone please give Riven a shield or something. You have a one handed weapon, pick up a shield

Musa...... Your are so fucking stupid, sooo fucking stupid. If wasn't aroace I'd want to kiss you

They're all curled up in a huddle because only Bloom could remember they don't have powers. Jfc

Flora fell :(((((( poor Flora isn't all that active is she

MUSA WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!! WHY DID YOU RUN PAST?!

Me and the writers are gonna have to fight on this one

Stella fucking dragging Flora to safety, we Stan one queen

Poor girlies 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Tecna fucking JUMPED OVER THE MINATAUR

From most active to least active, in canon, it apparently goes: Aisha, Tecna, Stella, Musa, Bloom, Flora

Stella...stop gloating before your get hurt

Musa just fucking kicked this thing in the head lfjwosksjrjjekekekwkr then got PUNCHED

her bones are milk now

DONT THINK ITS CUTE, DONT THINK ITS CUTE

S1 RIVEN DOESN'T DESERVE MUSA, DO NOT THINK ITS CUTE

FUCK ITS CUTE

Damn my stupid Rivusa shipper heart, s1 Riven is the enemy!!!

I love how Sky puts an arm in front of Musa. Opnion reaffirmed. Sky is a nice dude

I'm going to attack s1 Riven 💓💓💓💓 I'm going to throw him out a window

S1 Riven makes s2 Riven so much sweeter, yet I must suffer though his NONSENSE

Someone help this idiot, he doesn't know what a priority is

Someone PLEASE get this man a senseical motivation and STAT

WHAT DOES THAT PRINCE OF DARKNESS QOUTE MEAN DARCY, WILL YOU EVER EXPLAIN

Stella is so ready to help love her

Bloom: and you thought my last idea was fucking insane, WATCH THIS!!!

Tecna: I'm going to die here

Riven. Please. For once in your life. Shut up. Flora was being cute

Flora: what if we get into more trouble

Bloom: what if we DIE

I can't get over Brandon's prep era

Riven instantly noticing when someone is in there....bro imagine if he got moments of being tolerable but only when he was focused so he didn't have time to be a bitch that would be funny

Sneaking into the room was so adorable bfjwjndbdnens I wanna trap him in a bottle

Riven turned on the lights right after Bloom spoke be he's THAT dramatic

HI FARAGONA, HERE TO SEE HOW YOU NEARLY GOT YOUR STUDENTS FUCKING KILLED

CONSEQUENCES!!! CONSEQUENCES!!!!!!!! CONSEQUENCES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's well in their right to start screaming at her now

Sky: jfc this girl attracts danger like flies to honey........I can accept this

Riven: This has got to be like, the 15th worst day of my life

Timmy: .... You wanna clarify that one?? We nearly died

Riven: yes bitch?? And??

Brandon: shut the fuck up you lot. This day was AMAZING

Brandon: I! GOT! TO! KISS!

Brandon:🌟STELLA🌟

Timmy: we nearly DIED

Brandon: As Riven would say, personal problem

Riven: go fuck yourself

Thank you s1 Riven. You were only acceptable when you weren't taking

The girls should of gotten to scream at Fragonda and Griselda, just a little bit, as a treat

EP 8:

Oh god it's the fucking rose festival episode

Daphne: COME HERE, BLOOM HURRY IT THE FUCK UP

Btw when I said that Nymphs don't have wings and their just tall, this is what I ment

Daphne is literally just here to explain the plot to Bloom in s1 and then she's completely fucking forgotten for s2 and s3

Flora goes home for mother's day and so does Tecna. Neat

Mothers must be SUPER IMPORTANT on magix if you get a day off for them

Really Winx? Only Stella, Bloom, and Musa aren't going home? No one else with an estranged or dead mother

Stella says her parents are estranged in the beginning of s1 but now apparently it's a secret and her parents are only now getting divorced

This show doesn't know what a continuity is

MUSA BABY NOOOO

Stella is so sweet, I love her

And Musa trying her best to be positive

Musa I love you

Brandon: Stella~ Stella~ Stella~

Sky: do you think—

Brandon: I do not

"There is a growing collaboration between the fairies of Alfea and the wizards of red fountain"

I—

Number one, you weirdo bitch, why do you CARE

Number two, wizards??? WIZARDS??? ARE YOU TELLING ME RIVEN IS A WIZARD???? BRANDON IS A WIZARD???? COME THE FUCK BACK HERE GRIFFIN

Griffin: and I don't like it!! This could change the balance of power >:(

She says....like red fountain and Alfea already only do things together and exclude Cloud Tower

"Today there is the insufferable rose festival going on in the city"

Griffin has mommy issues confirmed

Bro... Why are you spying on a group of 16 teen-year-olds? Please get a life

I kinda love Sky's s1 civilian. He's not trying too hard like Brandon and he doesn't look boring like Riven. He's wearing a very nice T-shirt and some cool pants. Good for him

Why did Riven go with Sky and Brandon? Like genuinely. He doesn't like any of these people.

Griffin really thinks making Riven more pissy than usual will ruin the bond between ALL RF and Alfea students

Like an idiot

I'm completely inconsolable

Musa: He's a strange fella, but I'd really like to get to know him better

I wish Riven was written to be hyper defensive instead of always on the offensive with his ego bc that would make Musa's comment make more sense

Plus it would differentiate Musa and Riven's reactions to hostility. Musa seems like the type of person to preemptively get mad and go on the offensive, while Riven more reacts after he thinks someone has slighted him but because he's paranoid this happens constantly

This moment is so gorgeous

Riven doesn't like crowds....my anxiety headcanons are growing more powerful

WHERE THE FUCK DID STELLA COME FROM

What ever, their cute and I love this

Brandon is the best looking guy here and he gets brown eyes....Winx club designers really said brown eye bitches take the win today

Riven...why did you even come

Riven seeing a race: finally! Something to distract me from my mommy issues—

Bloom....why are you approaching Riven?? It's like sticking your hand into a piranha infested lake. He's going to be a dipshit

Brandon: *a very gentle ribbing*

Riven: this!!! Is!!! An!!!! Attack!!!!!

I have skipped the moment that makes my hyper empathy and second hand embarrassment almost painful to deal with—but Bloom fucking destroying any one who has the fucking audacity is amazing

I'd like to clarify that this moment pissed me off so much as a child I held a multi year grudge against Riven untill I rewatched s2 this year

Anyways, in my opinion, I think Riven was written to be TOO unlikeable for his character arc and s1 Riven will only not be stuck into a blender because he needs to become s2 Riven

I'll just turn the blender on low, this is fine

I think I've mis-characterized Bloom as anxious when she just has low self esteem, autistic and full of rage

My bad

Bloom: ah! I didn't mean to! Riven I'm sorry

I— I'm genuinely curious about which part she didn't mean to do

I think it's bc Bloom has been bullied and she's low key recognizing this as bullying? But the difference is that Riven is a agressive dipshit who definitely deserved it

See this is why they should of made Riven more likeable before he joined the Trix

1) so Bloom would have a reason to feel bad

2) so the audience would be upset that he went in the wrong direction

3) to explain why Musa liked him in the first place

Just give him some more nice moments and rip them all away once he's ~evil~, you went too far in making unlikeable and made him hateable even before he was a villan

Come on guys, all the official stuff about Riven says he has a good heart underneath all the emotional issues, we should see that before the season finale

You guys wanna know something funny? I was dead set on hating Riven when re-watching. It's just his little "I have a heart" speech and his silly little s2 actions convinced me to become what I am today

Stella: he had it coming

Love that energy

S1 Riven you little asshole, please do (1) self reflection

Riven: I don't need friends

Riven: they disappoint me

Darcy: I could make him worse

Stormy: oh fucking hell, she's doing the thing

I love how it's Icy who decides that Riven will be manipulated over to their side. Icy is the one that sees his use and Icy is the one that wants Riven around to help them

It's just interesting that Icy was the most interested in Riven hanging around them

Bloom was so distracted by a lady that looks like Daphne she didn't even question where Timmy came from

Bloom is so upset about publicly humiliating Riven's bitchass, she's so nice

Fake Timmy is disturbing

The Trix just standing there over Bloom is also creepy

Darcy is already so down to protect Riven. Girl you have even less of a reason to be into him

Stormy is here to bully her sisters 💗 Stormy is aro and is allergic to romance

Icy: *mocking Darcy for romantic feelings*

Icy....babe...I'm so sorry for what s3 and s5 did to you—

Bloom: hiii....

Stella: WHERE THE FUCK DID YOU GO!! I WAS WORRIED SICK

Riven genuinely looking kinda happy

God I hate him in s1, yet I feel so bad for him. I just wanna put him in therepy and shake him a little bit. He doesn't deserve what's coming next

Ugh he can't even be nice when getting a gift, tragic. They REALLY wanted s1 Riven to be unlikable huh?

Stella: um.... Oh no. Who gave you that helmet?!

Bloom: OH FUCK

My second hand embarrassment is making this episode actually painful

Ahhh s1 3d animation my beloved

Does no one see this?!

BLOOM WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!?!

I skipped most of this episode bc lord have mercy my second hand embarrassment is STRONG, but s1 Riven becoming evil makes so much more sense now

Bloomly.... God no fucking shit Riven thought Bloom tried to murder him, imagine this happening to you it's so fucking sideways

Like him joining the people that nearly fucking killed him with a Minotaur is so fucking stupid it physically hurts, but if he didn't know who the Trix were this would be the most senseical decision anyone made all season

Yes it's dumb that apparently she gave him a fucked helmet, found that it wasn't quite doing anything, then attacked him properly—but this show is fucking dumb so I'll take it

Hello Darcy, here to make Riven fall in love with you to use him for your own personal gain huh? Riven's therapist will be ever aquatinted with you in the future

Riven FINALLY BEING SOFT, you could of given us slightly more moments of this before so the audience actually feels bad when he joins the bad guys but what do I know

Darcy looks so gentle. For just one moment. Then she goes back to looking threatening

Stormy: disgusting

Girl how did you think Darcy was going to convince Riven

Darcy is being so smug

NO POOR BLOOMY SHE FEELS SO BAD

You think when Riven throws himself off of Cloud Tower she'll blame herself for that too??

EP 9:

Oh Daphne my beloved. I wish you were a real character in this show or not at all because your disappearance in s2 is strongly felt

Tbh if Daphne were to be revived I would of loved for it to happen in s2 or s3 but have her be in a coma. So there's at least a reason she's gone after s1 that isn't just "plot doesn't need her anymore"

or just have her dead before everything starts and have a magical hologram in s1 that Daphne made before she died leading Bloom

Daphne's sad voice hurts my feelings

Flora being kept up with Bloomy's nightmare

Flora is so anxious about her friends 🥺🥺🥺 she's so freaked out about Bloom

Idk why she doesn't wake Bloom up herself

Stella is having a moment she hasn't been sleeping well

Tecna: btw theirs a woman in your mind talking to you though your dreams

All of the Winx: this is normal

I wonder why Stella is being so fucking weird about Bloom's dreams in perticualr.... It's because she hasn't been sleeping since huh?

How does Stella not realize—this EP is so weird

Bloom is so fucking grumpy

"Daphne, one of the nine nymphs of Magix. The supreme fairies who ruled over the magic dimension during the eons following the dragon's disappearance"

FUCKING WHAT.

This librarian can't do shit 😔 tragic

Stella really trying to justify herself to Flora ripp

STELLA REALLY SAID IMMA PISS OF EVERYONE TODAY

She made Flora angry. Watch your step before Musa or Tecna punch you

BRO STELLA WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU ON, MUSA WAS LITERALLY JUST SITTING THERE

Stella: my mother told me to pick my battles

Stella: then she fucked off and hasn't spoken to me in 5 years, so I'm picking all of them

Stella: like we all know when she sees Timmy, out friend Tecna blushes head to toe

Tecna: DID YOU JUST CALL ME STRAIGHT?! LOOK AT MY OUTFIT STELLA!! HOW MORE CLEAR CAN I GET

Stella: I admit I do find Sky kinda, but that's it

Oh so Stella's being a fucking liar today'

God no, do NOT talk about Riven

Musa is trying her best to ignore Stella

Stella baby, you annoyed Tecna and Flora, you pissed off Bloom, you are going to make Musa cry

Don't poke her soft spots Stella Musa will start sobbing

"That guy doesn't even look at you"

Stella is being a bitch but she is very correct. S1 Riven is barely aware of Musa's existence

This should probably be changed to explain why Musa likes him so much

LMAO MUSA KNOCKED HER OFF THE TABLE

Will Stella ever not be gorgeous? Sources say no

Stella: and anyways since the day of the rose, the only one Riven cares about is Darcy. Of course you didn't know that~ you weren't with us~

STELLA WHAT THE FUCK

Stella at the end of that episode: oh fuck Bloom accidentally pushed Riven into the hands of a deranged moster

Stella now: actually this is now ammunition

STELLA HOW FUCKING DARE YOU MAKE MUSA CRY!!! SHES BABY!!!

Musa, internally: OH NO MY ABANDONMENT ISSUES, MY COPING MECHANISM, AND MY LOW SELF ESTEEM

Jfc Stella hit ALL of Musa's soft spots with that line

Stella....in this episode is so ooc. Like Stella can definitely be insensitive and mean sometimes, girl gets foot in mouth syndrome like no body's business, but she wouldn't ignore making someone cry

Flora is about to punch Stella

Bloom....are you going to comfort your crying friend or not? No?? Ok

Stella: I should of never teased you like that

Bloom: I'm a bit sensitive

Awee their self aware

This ep is where Radius and Cassandra started dating I've decided, either that or Stella is cursed

Stella: it's just....I can't do anything right today

Bloom: and that's news?

Stella: hmph...I deserve that one

Ok I've decided Stella is cursed or something. Even Stella would know better than to make a comment about Bloom'd hair right after recognizing that she's been ultra mean today

But maybe she's only mean for the first part of the EP bc....... I'm PUTTING CHIMERA IN THE STORY AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME

Musa is very angry about Stella and talking about how Stella always makes her angry with off handed insensitive comments, which I believe. I would of loved to...see them in earlier episodes

Musa: oh my god he is dating someone else

Musa: this is horrible!!! My daydreams have been ruined!!! He's going off script!!!!

"Riven is with Darcy?!" *Grips hands into fist*

Ndsjnsnd

Riven: *does literally anything with anyone that isn't Musa*

Musa: I am feel uncomfortable when we are not about me?

Is this what normal crushes are like??? Like obsessions? I'm too aroace to understand

Like you could chalk this up to her being upset that he's dating the enemy but she apologizes after she slaps Icy so that really isn't it

Darcy: your vibes are wasted at Red Fountain. If you were one of us, you could be even more powerful

Darcy your implying he could be somewhere else and if so GIVE ME RIVEN DOING SHITTY MAGIC. I NEED TO MOCK HIM

Stormy: was manipulating Riven hard?

Darcy: No actually, it's was super easy. Barely an inconvenience.

I love how Riven is just uncritically agreeing with Darcy. Bitch, she ACTUALLY tired to kill you. Of course you don't remember that because it would be inconvenient to the plot but whatever

Darcy: heyyyyy~ Bloom and Brandon suck right?

Riven: I have never agreed with a statement more in my life

Lmaoo

Darcy: *holds Riven's hand*

Musa: don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

Musa, sobbing: WHYYYY

Musa, baby, your energy

I love how Darcy put all that energy into convincing Riven to join her then just also put a spell on him. It's called insurance and these spells tend to work better if the person half agrees with what's going on anyways

This is the middle ground between "Riven completely of his own will helped the Trix" and "Riven was under Darcy's control the whole time" that my hcs usually live

Just of his own will enough that he'd agree to let Darcy into his head and just under her control enough for Darcy to drag him ooc more and more as time goes on

Icy: oh my god is this girl really sobbing at Darcy from behind a window???

Icy: this level of desperation is kinda impressive

Stormy and Musa have the same voice actor don't they?????

Icy doesn't even have a reason to be so interested in what Musa's doing. She just likes bullying people

Stormy: I trust Icy to recognize a spy

Isn't that Darcy's thing?

Poor Musa is already crying...Icy you will pay for this

Icy: I remember Riven saying that he thinks nothing of you

Bold of Icy to assume that Riven thinks about Musa enough to be aware of the fact that he doesn't think about her

Musa is SOO FUCKING UPSET AND BOTHERED AND FOR WHAT???

*slaps roof of Musa* This baby can fit so much assumptions and mental illness in her!!

Musa fucking no hesitation just slapped Icy and I love that energy. Remember when the girls didn't hesitate to smack a bitch???

Stormy flinched back at Musa's slap....there's a mark on Icy's face. GIRL HOW FUCKING HARD DID YOU SWING

Musa has a rivalry with ALL of the Trix bc she's just that ✨Iconic ✨

Musa: I'm—i'm so sorry Icy! I didn't mean to hurt you!

Characters in this show will do something and then instantly claim that they didn't mean to do that thing

Bonus, Icy has tried to kill Musa before and she's still apologizing

Musa is baby

....in this show there are just a bunch of evil people hanging around as a part of society who are known for their evil. The witches are so weird

Lusy: Icy's powerful Mista! Maybe she'll notice me!

Someone happened to both of their voices in this episode... Also Mista??

Brandon...what are you doing here????

Were they just flying over Aflea??? Amazing

Riven has fucked off from the group, Brandon's threat turned back on him

What were they going to do in magix

Why is Musa running away with her feet and not......flying???

MUSA YOU ARE A FAIRY YOU HAVE WINGS, BABY WHY

Me and all the witches in this episode are going to have to get into a physical altercation

The audacity of harming Musa

Ah shit s1 Riven is back and he's in full antagonist mode

Musa is about to do a stupid and ask Riven for help isn't she??

Yeah she did. Girl. Brain cells

Welcome full antagonist Riven!!!!! S1 has been waiting for you!!!!!

How the FUCK can Sky track Musa??? Fucking help?

Musa: I'm trapped!!!

FLY!!!! WITH YOUR WINGS!!!! GO UP!!!!! ICY AND STORMY ARE FLYING WHY CANT YOU?!

The Winx and their forgetting they can fly

SKY YOU FUCKING MORON YOU NEARLY HIT MUSA!!!

Ahhh! S1 villain Riven is here BBY and he's ready to cause even WORSE problems on purpose

Riven has been mostly fighting with Brandon until he's decided now he hates Sky the most

This show is so dumb

*Riven and Sky try to kill eachother* Well boys will be boys

Tbh Riven looks so cool with the witch girlies. I wish they we're allowed to be more than villains or turned into fairies of they aren't villains

Brandon is so cool

FINALLY THESE IDIOTS TRANSFORM

Stormy said fuck Tecna in perticualr

Darcy wants Musa dead so BADLY

"I could fix him better than you!!"

Brandon, for saving Musa, you are now being awarded the title of "only man ever"

Attacking Darcy's clones knocks her out, that's interesting to know

BLOOM REALLY JUST DODGED AND LET FLORA BE HIT HUH?!

Flora looks so gorgeous laying there.....

Apparently Flora doesn't do ugly

Does this world not have any enforcement of laws????? What the fuck is happening

Timmy hasn't done shit bc he's too busy sitting over Tecna.... Dude at least pick her up or something

Stella hasn't taken her sword ring out at all...and this show has multiple times tried to say she can't fight without it

Darcy is trying to fucking MURDER Musa. No cap, hands down, fucking dead. Unhinged behavior

Stormy: uhhh, sisters? What's going on with Bloom's lineart....

Bloom: I'm so fucking angry, I'm gonna bite your fucking head off

This should of put multiple people, but especially the Trix in the hospital

Riven is EVIL and yet he still knows to pull up his girlfriend and help her get away from danger

Bloom: *has god powers*

Brandon: what the fuck am I looking at

Sky: oh fuck if I know

Brandon:.... 9/10 not as hot as Stella, but admittedly—

Sky: I will jump tackle you

Bloomy used up all her magic

Brandon is such a good dude I love this guy

Musa: He's become a real jerk

I WOULD LOVE TO BELIEVE YOU MUSA BUT THE SHOW REFUSES TO SHOW US ANY GOOD RIVEN MOMENTS TO MAKE THIS LINE OF THOUGHT UNDERSTANDABLE

Stella: I love being right!!! It's my favorite hobby

Stormy: I broke a nail 😭😭

Icy'd obsession with Bloom just started

Faragona what do you know????

.... Fragonda are you literally stopping Bloom from finding out more about herself????? ARE YOU ACTUALLY STOPPING BLOOM FROM DISCOVERING HER POWERS?!

Oh so this is why Faragona is hated so much... Girselda could have a redemption arc but this is intentionally awful jfc

Riven post s1: it's not paranoia if it can happen

EP 10:

"Musa is really upset when she sees HER Riven together with Darcy." The narrator explained Musa's train of thought so much better than I could

Flora: yeah,, and some horrible ones too :((((

Tecna: tch, you shouldn't let that scare you Flora! Their just stupid rumors anyway!! Really what could ever happen to you in there

Tecna is so pressed about this, amazing

I love how Tecna and Flora's dynamic is them telling eachother things they missed due to their different ways of learning things. It's interesting

Stella wants to be talked about so bad 👀👀 that's a symtom

Icy's vaccum is full of purple, Stormy's is full of yellow, and Darcy's is full of??? White??? Light pink??? It's really hard to see

Stella seeing a bunch of Tecno shit she doesn't understand: Tecna! Are we having fun

Tecna: 😍😍😍😍😍 yes

Witches being evil is a part of this test I'm screaming

Flora specializes in environmental healing and not combat confirmed

Stella apparently also thinks she can Ace that......maybe because sun light is good for life???

Sky's dog exists again

Sky: I got to ride a dragon today

There's a joke somewhere in here

LADY IS SO FUCKING CUTE IM GOING TO START SOBBING

Awwww Sky is such a nice guy, supporting Bloom

He's no Brandon but ya know

Riven chilling in a tree: god I fucking hate mid te—oh shittt is that the enemy???

HE LOOKED INTO THE CAMERA LORD HAVE MERCY

Riven: omg I need to go gossip to my girlfriend RIGHT NOW

He's not even doing anything that interesting he's just a petty little gossip, what a idiot

Darcy: that's a lot of numbers and buttons.....

Darcy: fuck it, imma just break this thing

I fucking hate how this rabbit thing has hands

Is Faragona ok??

How did Darcy know Bloom was going to go first? This plan is so stupid

Bloom: I wanna work on a damaged environment

Flora: WOOOO!!!! GO TEAM GO!!!!!

I-

"Well there's this place called Domino"

Domino is treated like it was destroyed hundreds of years ago and not like.....sixteen

The timeline is STILL on fire

Tecna is trying her best, love her

Goddamn you Faragona

Their playing with dolls

How have these three idiots not been arrested yet?

I think Bloom should of been allowed to burn their hands, just a little bit

As a treat

Why hasn't Tecna taken everything over to save Bloom??

Why has Kiko duplicated??? What the FUCK????

Dude said just magic the tech

Bloomy better get extra credit for this shit

Bloom being thrown up and down is so fucking cute y'all

#winx club #winx season 1 #winx musa #winx riven #winx stella #winx bloom #winx tecna #winx flora #winx sky #winx brandon #winx timmy #winx icy #winx darcy #winx stormy #winx trix #rus liveblogs

[nobully]

weekly release out and oh i can smell the yandere from here but so many good wang yi faces so BLESS

also that slime is defying laws of physics

ch 94: "obsession"

so the bit of slime hiding in wang yi's ear sneaks out and finds its main body in the container (cute how it has a "face") to let it out. we get a little backstory on how it's misunderstood b/c no one knows its purpose in the universe (and it doesn't help that it randomly goes berserk attacking people too) as well as the slime's own complaints on how hard it is to learn the human language

however, despite this it's happy to say it's finally found the human who's been the source of its "obsession"

ladies and gentleman may i present to you...sleepy morning wang yi (with sao ling cup!!) also actual S-0 eating his cat food ahhsdfhsdfh

wang yi's expressing his doubts on whether they can complete this mission and S-0 has to admit that...wang yi's actually his first contractor, further increasing his doubts

we also get some backstory on the System, and how S-0's a working newbie b/c an "incident" caused their stronger, more experienced senpais to upgrade and leave

apparently in this "incident," a really strong System senpai actually left the System itself and....changed into a human. although nobody knows what happened after that, Systems were prohibited from taking human forms from then on and could only be animals or something else.

wang yi and S-0 check on the slime and wang yi thinks it's shrank since yesterday, so he tries feeding it and finds out it can eat! then he shares some of his soymilk but the slime eats the spoon along with the milk, leaving him flabbergasted "doesn't this guy know how to tell what's food and what's not?"

S-0 finds it interesting too before he realizes they're getting distracted from the main point, which is to interfere with the male and female lead. wang yi needs to bother the mermaid again! wang yi's like lol calm down i didn't forget

he also decides to get a full-body protective suit to prevent the slime from burrowing into his ear again. S-0's like "wow you're really into this research stuff, u know you can just pretend right? are you interested in unknown organisms?"

wang yi goes silent before he says, "more or less" and HELP he's still walking around the lab in slippers somebody stop him. he further adds there's something unusual he wants to verify for himself too.

meanwhile slime is left alone and blushing because he thinks "my human is so cute" sdjfsdfhsfhsf

"i like him...i really like him" "but he's too weak, he'll die if he's not careful right?" "i've searched for him for so long...i have to protect him carefully"

meanwhile something scurries in wang yi's collar and he's wondering why his neck itches

he doesn't notice the bit of slime as it leaps out from his collar, determine to evolve faster and get stronger by..consuming other things

dun dun dun...are we gonna have secret lab murders in the future...oh boy genre shift

#ooc #out of crimes; #canon updates;

[mountmortar]

Wait this is a Kanjoh blog, I thought it was a gremlin Kris and Silver healing blog? Got any Kanto hcs with the same level of brainrot you have for Johto? or a combo of the two under the name Indigo? :0

okay yes it IS that but given that kanto and johto are inseparable and i have a lot of love for the kantrio as well (and i reblog a lot of kanto content anyway) i figured i might as well move from a mostly-johto blog to a blend of the two. which is fine by me considering that you literally travel there in gsc anyway LMAO. but i do have some thoughts about the kantrio!! (and a lot of the indigo combo for the kantrio + johto punks but that's a whole other post lmao) here's a couple of them :)

okay first and foremost i think red CAN talk i don't think he's entirely mute and that's just from my observations of his game dialogue. it's just that in many scenarios he chooses not to! and building off of that i think he would know whatever sign language exists in the pokémon world as a result of that

in soooort of that same vein just based on his flavor text in rgby when he interacts with the bookshelves of scientific books in professor oak's lab he does express interest and excitement. so i think that he'd like to read those types of things! anything about pokémon pretty much. no matter the difficulty of the text. everyone assumes just because he's a hardcore trainer he doesn't really pay attention to scientific journals and then he gets caught reading the most dry-ass textbook ever with the unrestrained glee of a little kid. and good for him

i always thought it was reallyyyyy funny that blue went to go study in kalos because in rgby when he meets up with red on the s.s. anne he literally goes "bonjour!" and even though that was kind of a throwaway line it almost makes me think that maybe blue wanted to go to kalos for a WHILE. maybe he always wanted to visit or something and once he saw an opportunity to study there he sprang on it. and if it got him away from professor oak then that was just even better

blue's dialogue in silph co. always struck me as kind of interesting concerning his and red's friendship because. okay. at this point the relationship between blue and red is CLEARLY deteriorating with professor oak's favoritism being an implied factor of the cause. but blue's dialogue goes:

[before battle]

"What kept you RED? Hahaha! I thought you'd turn up if I waited here! I guess TEAM ROCKET slowed you down! Not that I care! I saw you in SAFFRON, so I decided to see if you got better!"

[after being beaten]

"Oh ho! So, you are ready for BOSS ROCKET!"

and that implies two things: one, that blue has been keeping an eye on red and his takedown of team rocket judging by the fact that he KNEW red would turn up at silph, and two, that (for all his bluster) that particular battle was a test on blue's part to make sure that red was ready to take on giovanni. like for all that their friendship was falling apart blue still very much cares about him!!! it's just that he's going through some shit because of prof. oak and taking it out on red as a result of it. and it may not be right, but sometimes that's just the way things are. and as gsc/hgss proved, he STILL cared about him. even enough to randomly call up the protag and start reminiscing about him out of nowhere. idk it's just!!! such an interesting little bit of dialogue to me

now leaf. leaf is a remake girl and while i HAVE played firered i played as red. however i do remember the dialogue of blue's that described (in this instance, because it's frlg-only) leaf as "a chatty gossip" and honestly i'm going to take that and roll with it. i think she could talk anyone's head off about anything at any given times. and given that she's a protagonist with protagonist genes i think that on at least one occasion she's run into a pole while doing so because she wasn't paying attention

in a universe where the three of them are all there i think that if there was anybody who could find red first it'd be leaf. because they would think along the same lines! they have that same protagonist brain! blue is too busy being saddened by the fact that red is gone but leaf. who IS an explorer who IS like red in so many ways. would take one look at mount silver and think. yeah. i think he's up there. but something something red convinces her not to tell blue because HE'S saddened about the state of their friendship and doesn't want blue to come up there and start yelling at him or something. leaf thinks they're idiots. you know how it goes

#um. yeah. here's a few! a small tidbit of what goes on in my brain. lmao #asks

[citrusella-flugpucker]

Posting snippets from that WIP challenge post one at a time, part 4

((This WIP challenge post! Only a few days late because I decided to chill for the weekend!

Today’s fic from the random draw is #10: Untitled document - A doc that was probably more writing exercise than WIP, set in the same universe as Just a Little Something Else Instead (this was linked but I think it made Tumblr concerned and refuse to post this to the tag so I removed it, if you’re that interested in the fic it’s linked in the WIP challenge post at the top of this post)

Oh geez. This isn’t supposed to get out of the vault probably (mostly because I don’t like its tone even if I ever write more of this AU and it is rough--it mostly exists because I wanted to see if I had more AU in me at all). It’s Steven and Peedee on their buddy road trip technically committing a crime in the dead of night and the police rolling up on them because the way they planned their technical crime committing to be 0% dangerous and really not worth doing anything about if noticed meant it looked highly suspicious. XP Everything is okay in the end I promise.

A snippet which I think is written very well:

He closed his eyes; the harsh fluorescent lighting of the police station wasn't so stabbing like it was before, right when they'd been brought into what might as well have been the stinking sun from the comparative nothing blotted by little spots of light that he saw outside at this time of night, but it still hurt and there was little he could do about it.

Alternate snippet I have definitely shared in a place before: *Steven making a joke about Peedee’s food truck, to which Peedee responds in quiet horror* “Steven. This truck is my baby.”

(The complete randomly generated order is this:  9, 2, 6, 10, 18, 19, 22, 20, 15, 8, 14, 26, 11, 17, 16, 23, 21, 1, 3, 12, 24, 5, 13, 25, 4, 7 FWIW XP)

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#steven universe #steven universe future #steven universe fanfic #steven universe fanfiction #steven universe wip #posting snippets from that wip challenge post one at a time

[turtle-paced]

A:tLA Re-Watch: Fine-Toothed Comb Edition

This is what I mean by the recaps getting shorter. There’s still plenty here for a twenty-minute episode, it still moves the plot along, it’s just not as dense as those big plot-crucial episodes.

Book 1, Chapter 5 - The King of Omashu

(0:55) Previously, on Avatar, Aang owns up to being the Avatar. The Avatar who has friends all over the world. Aang realised he’d lost his friends and family, but Katara and Sokka decided to stick with him. The knowledge of the Avatar’s return became public, including to the Fire Nation.

(1:42) It’s winter in the Earth Kingdom, as we can see from the snow on the ground, but we’re also somewhere temperate enough that grass is still growing underneath.

(1:52) Aang introduces the city of Omashu (another cool design!), which he’s visited frequently in order to hang out with his friend Bumi. As the previously on reminded us, Aang’s done quite a bit of travelling around.

(1:58) Meanwhile, Katara and Sokka experience a bit of culture shock at seeing a city. Note that Katara focuses on the size of the city, i.e. the number of people, while Sokka focuses on the difference in construction. Without making a big deal of it, the show’s furthering its characterisation of Katara as most interested in social relationships and people, and Sokka as most interested in technology.

(2:05) After running from the burning village at the end of last episode, our protagonists start this episode by taking precautions and insisting that Aang wear a disguise. Learning! And note that they’re insisting on this even in a free, Earth Kingdom city.

(2:24) A mention of Sokka and Katara’s grandfather! I think the only one we get all series.

(2:44) The pan over the walkway to Omashu shows us some basic earthbending defensive fortifications. Aside from Omashu being basically a mountain with walls in the middle of a canyon, the walkway is narrow, sheer, and switches back and forth. It’s clearly not natural. Local earthbenders either raised Omashu or levelled the nearby mountains to give it a ‘moat’, then raised a high, narrow, switchbacked walkway. This has got to be the work of lots of earthbenders, over a long time.

(2:56) Aang says that Omashu is the friendliest city in the world, cut to our new friend the cabbage merchant being rudely dealt with by the gate guards.

Back on the defensive fortifications front, there’s no actual gate. Omashu needs a spot designated as a gate, but when you’ve got earthbenders aplenty, why bother having a permanent opening in the walls? Again and again we’ll see casual bits of setting design that show how the writers and animators actually put some thought into how a society where large numbers of people can manipulate various states of matter looks like. Here, we see it in the way Omashu is built.

(3:16) From the friendliest city in the world, to hovering a rock over an ‘old man’s’ head, just because. The war has damaged the social fabric of every society depicted in the series.

(3:31) “Bonzu Pippenpadalopsicopolis the Third.” It’s amazing that this isn’t the most ridiculous alias of the series.

(3:39) Major props to Katara for flawlessly going with it, though.

(4:10) Omashu’s walls open in three distinct stages. It is because most earthbending guards can’t open a wall that thick in one go? Who knows.

(4:27) Pan over Omashu, a free Earth Kingdom city. Lots of people, lots of green, the occasional bridge over a gap, and prominent ‘aqueducts’ for people to deliver things. Infrastructure in Omashu is based around earthbending.

(4:56) Aang flashes back to a hundred years ago series time, and what has to be only a few months previous, his subjective time. His friend Bumi has distinctive eyes and a noticeable gap in his teeth. He opens the flashback with a question for Aang and encourages him to think about their surroundings differently. Bumi also has a distinctive laugh.

(5:28) The fact Aang insisted on going to Omashu before anything else, after having accepted the Air Nomads were gone and that he can’t afford to stay in villages, is actually pretty heartbreaking. He just wants one slide down the mail chute. One chance to re-enact part of the life he lost.

(6:05) So much property damage. So much potential for people to get hurt.

(6:11) The joke here is that the Earth Kingdom soldiers were not prepared for three kids and a lemur to land a mail chute carriage in front of them, but again the context of this joke is that in Omashu, there are people being trained to go to active combat. The war gets into everything, even the comic relief.

(7:21) That poor cabbage merchant. It is not his day. Honestly, it’s fair enough Aang, Katara, and Sokka got taken into custody for that stunt.

(7:38) And so our protagonists get hauled into a big, empty, green-lit hall, with an old man in fancy robes. The old man reacts when he sees Aang.

(7:46) The earthbending guards address the old man as ‘Your Majesty’. The guard also shushes the cabbage merchant, saying that only the king can pass down judgement, handily introducing the monarchical structure of Omashu. Not as important as other monarchies we’ll be seeing, but yeah, it’s there.

(7:59) Close up on the king of Omashu, as he looks at Sokka, Katara, and Aang in turn. The king has distinctive eyes. This isn’t supposed to be super subtle. It’s way easier for viewers with knowledge of dramatic conventions to work this out than it is for Aang, who in-universe doesn’t have a director handing over a bunch of narrative cues. A few months ago, in his subjective experience of time, Bumi was his own age.

(8:15) The king of Omashu says to throw them…a feast! Which already shows us how Bumi works with expectations. The expected end to that sentence would have been “in the dungeons” or suchlike; “a feast” works grammatically, but isn’t what you’d think to hear.

(8:20) Pan over the feast. Lots of meat. Including chicken on Aang’s plate. Aang thanks Bumi for his hospitality, but says he doesn’t eat meat. Now this actually is subtle. Bumi recognised Aang, that’s clear by the end of the episode, if it wasn’t already. So what Bumi’s doing here is checking whether he can believe his eyes. Is this his old friend or just someone who looks like him? In his experience of time, it’s been a hundred years.

Note that even if vegetarianism was cultural to the Air Nomads, the overwhelming majority of Air Nomads have been dead for a century, and travel’s become much more difficult (particularly travel to Air Temples only accessible through airbending), limiting opportunities for others to learn about their cultural practices. Seriously, this is some excellent stuff from Bumi. Bumi knows Aang doesn’t eat meat. Who else would?

Aang’s dietary practices are also good characterisation for him. We know he loves animals, and we can understand his vegetarianism as a manifestation of how he respects life.

(9:04) The Kangaroo Island pun was exactly bad enough for Sokka.

(9:19) Then Bumi suddenly flings a drumstick at Aang without warning, testing his reaction. Which is airbending. Unlike people in previous episodes, Bumi distinguishes ‘the Avatar’ from ‘generic airbender’. Bumi knows it’s Aang in front of him.

(9:35) Bumi then becomes the next person to go with Aang’s ridiculous alias.

(9:58) Aang leans into the corollary of being the Fire Nation’s most wanted - the Earth Kingdom should see him as an asset. However, as the show starts showing us right here with the arrest of the party despite this reveal, the enemy of your enemy isn’t necessarily your friend.

I mean, in this case, yes, Bumi is literally Aang’s friend, but it’s not something the group can rely on. The show will go into more detail next episode and in a few other memorable instances.

(10:18) Bumi randomly decrees that Aang will face three deadly challenges.

(10:38) I do get a giggle out of the “who’s on first?” nature of the “newly-refurbished chamber”.

(10:50) Like the city walls, Earth Kingdom prisons don’t necessarily bother with doors. I don’t think I mentioned it before, but note that the light’s generated by mushrooms. (In the main hall, by contrast, there are crystal lights.)

(11:21) The party immediately starts planning their escape. Yet another situation that wouldn’t have been possible later in the series. This chamber couldn’t hold a trained earthbender.

(11:55) With the thwarting of Aang’s admittedly kind of half-baked escape plan, we get a skip to the next morning, when Aang wakes up completely alone in the cell. The terms of the deal are explained: Aang passes the deadly challenges, and his friends go free. If he doesn’t…something something. The danger is implied.

(13:00) The creeping crystal is arguably the most cartoony peril the series has included thus far. Until now, our protagonists have been dealing with deadly serious and actually pretty realistic issues - raiders, genocide, suspicious local authorities. The tone shift to “and now I will trap your friends in fast-growing crystal” is a jarring tone shift, which with hindsight we can take as a good indication that Bumi’s nothing worse than a troll. Avatar’s real villains would have thrown Katara and Sokka in a deeper dungeon or killed them outright. Even the one-and-done antagonists are more serious.

(13:30) “It seems I’ve lost my lunchbox key,” Bumi says. This episode isn’t even a little bit subtle about what Aang needs to learn (it doesn’t have to be, incidentally), and it will ultimately outright say what Aang learned from the episode. It’s Bumi’s over the top, trolling characterisation that helps stop the episode from being a dreary recitation of “Aang needs to think creatively to overcome obstacles.”

(14:01) So after Bumi sets Aang to fetching his lunchbox key from the middle of a waterfall with a ladder leading up to it against the flow of the water, Bumi says sarcastically, “Ooh, climbing the ladder, nobody’s thought of that before.” Which raises the question - how many people has Bumi tried this on? (My bet is that Bumi’s taught earthbending before and this is a standard lesson to get students to change up their thinking.)

(14:17) Also worth noting is the fact that after one unsuccessful attempt to get the key, Aang immediately changes his approach as he realises his previous angle won’t work. He’s entirely capable of learning Bumi’s lesson, and probably would have got there on his own eventually. Bumi’s just speeding this process up a bit.

(14:48) As we see when Aang gets the key on his third attempt. Didn’t take him long at all, really.

(15:02) On to a more pointed lesson, and one that applies to the viewers evaluating what’s going on in-universe. Bumi wants Aang to retrieve his pet, Flopsy. On screen, the viewer sees a cute rabbit.

(15:13) As soon as Aang says “come here, Flopsy,” however, he’s attacked by some sort of…sabre-toothed gorilla-goat?

(15:38) Until Aang’s shoulder-deep in a crevasse trying to catch the rabbit and going “hang on…”

(15:43) Aang addresses the sabre-toothed gorilla-goat by “Flopsy” and Flopsy, who is a very good boy indeed, very well-trained, stops on a dime, tail wagging. So there we go. Flopsy looks scary, but never meant to harm Aang.

This is a very gentle reminder to a boy who just learned that he’s the only survivor of a genocide but has duties to the global community, from a man who’s in contact with Fire Nationals working against their nation’s goals - don’t judge by appearances. And like I said, it’s a reminder to the viewer, too.

Also Aang’s enthusiasm for Flopsy is adorable. He gets past the scary exterior in a heartbeat.

(16:24) Our first look at an earthbending arena! Unsurprisingly, it’s underground.

(16:31) Bumi gives Aang an actually very simple final test - a duel. In which Aang may choose his opponent. Two very scary weapon-users leap down from above to flank Bumi. “Point and choose,” Bumi says.

(16:56) Aang points at Bumi. “Wrong choice!” Bumi says. For the first time in the episode, he stands up straight, and when he takes off his purple robe, he’s in remarkably good shape for a man of 112. He’s one step ahead of Aang here, anticipating that Aang would be smart enough to see that Bumi’s a valid choice, but twelve years old enough not to question why Bumi would leave this loophole.

This is the inverse of the previous point. Where Flopsy looked dangerous and actually wasn’t, Bumi doesn’t look dangerous and is.

(17:32) “I’m the most powerful earthbender you’ll ever see,” Bumi says. Almost certainly not - but given his helpless old man performance here, I think Bumi would be able to appreciate blind little Toph kicking serious ass.

(17:43) This is our first proper look at earthbending. In this episode we’ve seen it used to open doors, deliver mail, and threaten hapless travellers, but Bumi brings out a fight scene. He quickly and explicitly calls out Aang’s tactics (typical airbending tactics, he says) as predictable evasive techniques.

(18:01) “Sooner or later, you’ll have to strike back,” Bumi tells Aang. We’ve already seen Aang’s difficulties with this. 

The fight scene itself is a brief class on how a creative bender can shut down a predictable one, and one that shows Bumi knows airbending tactics as well as earthbending strengths. He stops Aang taking to the air by collapsing the ceiling, leaving Aang at risk of getting hit from behind by falling rocks. When Aang tries to use airbending-assisted speed over the ground, Bumi breaks the ground up, forcing Aang to slow down and swerve into the path of other attacks, and later dissolving the solid ground into dust beneath Aang’s feet. That’s two ways Bumi has to slow Aang down.

Meanwhile, Aang’s offense is casually blocked, and Bumi’s good enough to block when Aang dodges a rock that was going to hit them both.

Aang might be an airbending master, but this fight scene with Bumi shows how he’s outclassed as a combatant, at the moment. And yeah, that’s the sort of tactical depth the show’s bringing to a two-minute fight scene, because the point of this fight scene is to establish something about how Aang fights.

(19:59) The fight finishes with the biggest demonstration of non-Avatar State bending we’ve seen yet. Bumi hauls a giant chunk of rock into the air, Aang generates a tornado to redirect it. In the spirit of Bumi’s lessons, Aang uses the opening when Bumi’s forced to block his own rock to follow up with his own attack (having worked out that while his own offense isn’t good enough to defeat Bumi, Bumi may be vulnerable to his own attacks, and can’t recover instantly).

But as we saw when Bumi was one step ahead of Aang when he said “choose wisely,” Bumi’s anticipated that attack, too, and has a countermeasure - he grabs half the rock he just split apart and holds it over the both of them, the surface area too great for Aang to dodge if Bumi dropped it. Nevertheless, Bumi’s made his point and seen the improvement he wanted to see, so he calls it a match.

(20:45) “What’s the point of tests if you don’t learn anything?” Surprisingly deep educational philosophy here from Bumi. It’s not about the mark, it’s about the learning process.

(20:55) Bumi’s final question is apparently random: “What is my name?”

(21:10) The “Rocky” joke was too bad even for Bumi.

(21:35) Katara shows her own quick wits as she helps prompt Aang into the line of thinking he needs to work out Bumi’s name. 

This is also where Aang spells out the whole “think outside the box” thing. This isn’t a bad episode. (This show has two, maybe three, bad episodes. And even then those episodes are more just total nothings than they are actually bad.) But it’s this sort of heavier-handedness that makes season one the weakest of the three sseasons.

(22:00) Heartwarming moment. Aang’s old friend might now be an old friend, but he’s still the same person. They’re still glad to see each other.

(22:30) Here comes Sokka with his brains. Why do any of this?

(22:44) Aside from the fun of messing with people, Bumi says that Aang’s got some big problems on his plate. The world has changed. He also gives Aang Ozai’s name.

In response, Aang thanks Bumi for his wisdom. I suspect that what Bumi’s saying about confronting the Fire Lord and defeating the Fire Nation hasn’t sunk in properly, and that he’s not thinking about these things as things he’s actually going to have to do. But dealing with that is a plot point for future episodes.

(23:17) The episode leaves off on a much more positive note than previous episodes. Aang gets his slide down Omashu’s mail chutes, with the very friend who inspired the escapade to begin with. At the cabbage merchant’s cost.

#a:tla #fine toothed comb edition

[brandyllyn]

Which of your fics?

Tagged by the lovely @hotspacepilots

Which fic got a better reaction than you expected?

The Scoundrel’s Reward : Poe Dameron x f!Reader It was just a funny little thing I wrote based on a line I wrote in a different fic that I pulled out and expanded on. I still think it’s really cute but I’m surprised other people liked it so much.

Which fic is your funniest?

Flexibility (noun) : Poe Dameron x f!Reader Hands down. I still laugh when I reread it. Trying to have sex in a cramped space will never not be funny to me and I really tried to dive in on two people trying to be sexy but also not pull a muscle.

“Just put your-”

“Poe I swear if you use the word 'just’ with me one more time…”

Which fic is your darkest/angstiest?

Ooooh, huh. I don’t really write dark/angsty. I make liberal use of #I only do happy endings

Probably a tie between  Time’s Fool: Frederick Chilton x OFC of color The themes in this are all heartbreak and betrayal and two people who broke each other trying to come back together. & Alabanza: Poe Dameron x f!Reader  Things get pretty bad for the couple for a while. Like... really bad.

Which fic was the easiest to write?

Doppelgänger : Nathan Bateman x f!Reader The whole 13k words just fell out of me in like a weekend. I still think it’s pretty hot and I love it when it randomly shows up on a someone’s fic recs and they’re like “I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHY THIS TURNED ME ON.”  You know. We both know. It’s okay.

Which fic is your absolute favorite?

This changes often. Flexibility (noun) is my favorite one-shot. It just has everything I feel makes me a good writer in one place.

Right now I’m really digging Baubles of Stolen Kisses : Richard Alonso Muñoz x f!reader. I set out to do a thing and I did exactly that thing and it worked.

Overall, probably A Good Man Feelin’ Bad : Rafael Barba x OFC of color. I never finished it (I wrapped it up with an epilogue explaining what was going to happen) but it’s the closest I’ve come to a real magnum opus (except maybe Alabanza [below])

Which fic is your least favorite?

Give me my sin again : Poe Dameron x f!reader Not because it isn’t good, but because I don’t think I really did what I wanted to in terms of turning the sex pollen trope on its head. I think I might rewrite it (or that idea) on something else. 

Which fic have you reread the most?

War makes thieves, and peace hangs them : Mostly Santiago Garcia x f!Reader When I decide to just write smut I really go for it. This fic never got a lot of traction anywhere but I’m neurodiverse enough that when I reread my work it’s like it’s for the first time. I have no recollection of writing it usually so re-reading this one is just like fun smut written just for me. And the whole thing is hot.

Which fic was the hardest?

In Our Own Image… : Poe Dameron x OFC This one kicked my ass as time went on. I had done a couple of Poe x Reader fics that had just flowed from me and then I had the idea for this OFC who I loved and I still love her and her little droid K-0. But the story just... never came together for me. I knew what the conflict was and I knew how the different conflicts interacted. And I knew they could be happy together - but once the conflict happened I couldn’t figure out how they got past it. Not really. And the fic itself never got that much traction with readers - so to struggle with it AND feel like no one was reading it... it was hard to keep on it. I still think my ending is a bit of a cop out - but that’s grading on the scale of how I feel about my work and what I can do. I’m sure it’s fine.

Honestly, I never planned To sell your love for peace : Javier Peña x f!reader past Chpt 4 and it’s been a struggle as well.

Which fic has your favorite line/paragraph?

There’s so many. I’m such a slut for my own writing. Overall, I think War makes thieves, and peace hangs them has the most of my favorites.

From Pt5:

“Do not,” he warns but she just laughs, low and dark. “I’ll turn your channel off,” the note of caution in his voice should be enough to scare anybody.

“No you won’t. You won’t risk something happening to me while you’ve got me muted.” Fuck she was right. Had called his bluff. “Which means that you, sexy man, are at my mercy.”

From Pt9:

“So, how does a guy find a… you know… what are they called? A dominatrix.”

She laughs so hard she has to stop, bending over and clutching her middle. “Frankie oh my god. Do not go looking for a dom back stateside. Please promise me that won’t be the first thing you do.”

From Pt12:

“You’re a sneaky bitch,” he scolds.

“Yup.” She agrees with him without even an ounce of shame. No hesitation. “But a rich one.”

He shakes his head, “I can’t believe you took the diamonds.”

“I like pretty shiny things,” she defends herself. “Don’t hate.”

From Pt13: Frankie’s Epilogue

Santi shrugged. “Kitten’s idea. She said her friend just moved to town. Doesn’t know anybody.”

“Kitten?” Frankie gave Santi a disgusted look. “You really call her kitten? That… force of nature?”

He couldn’t have described the expression that crossed Santi’s face, but the far away look in his eyes was familiar as the man rumbled, “You’ve obviously never heard her purr.”

Sorry, I could really go on and on here.

The fic you’re most proud of?

Alabanza: Poe Dameron x f!Reader  This fic, y’all. Not only is it a great Poe x Reader fic - but I worked really hard to make it canon compliant. It covers the timespan of all three sequels and even things like Poe flirting with Zorii are worked in in a way that it makes sense in a Poe x Someone Else universe. It’s also just good, I think. And emotionally satisfying. It starts with penpals and moves into a relationship and then secrets and then more secrets but these two earn their Happily Ever After and I was so happy to write the epilogue where they get one.

No pressure tags: @rebellou , @foxilayde, @waatermelon-sugaar , 

#on writing #glad we talked

[readingsbylibramc]

birth chart reading for @leah-sletzion

hello! welcome to your reading. I’m gonna give you a quick overview of what I’m going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn’t clear, of course. you’ll find out your dominants’ influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits’ analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a splay shape, meaning that your planets are located randomly in different groups in your chart. people with this type of chart are usually very talented at different things. they can focus their attention on different matters, from family, to work, to love. everything is important for you, and you try to live your life to the fullest. you may be particularly talented at things that require action, it doesn’t matter whether it’s physical or mental. you may be very good at sports, dancing… or maybe you’re good at leading, you could easily be the boss on your work place. since you’re interested in so many things, you could easily be skilled at all of them to be honest. my advice would be to pick the hobby that is most important for you and care about it more than the others. that’s because people with this chart usually tend to do so many things that they may lack precision. it’s better to give all of yourself to what’s important for you.

your dominant planets are the moon, saturn and mercury. you are a very emotional person, you're quite sensitive and you always try to make people feel safe when they're around you. you're also very responsible and smart, you're very mature and probably have leader qualities, you like being in charge and leading people but not in an oppressive way.

your dominant sign is cancer. you seek emotional security in life. you need to feel grounded, you're most likely extremely cautious about the decisions you make. you're also very sensitive and compassionate of others, even though you could get slightly passive from time to time.

your dominant element is water. you're very intuitive and empathetic, you care a lot about others, and you may seem like a healer to people you know. in fact, you always try to help them if you can, almost in a therapeutic way. you're also very spiritual, and you're attracted to anything related to discovering your higher self and soul purpose.

🌎 ascendant in libra, 0° / 1st decan ruled by venus

you're naturally likeable, you have a particular charm to you that makes everyone drool over you. you're very nice and outgoing, you always try to make others feel at ease. you're very considerate of others' feelings. you strive for fairness and justice, it's the way you approach others and the world. basically, you treat others like they treat you: if they're kind with you, you'll be very sweet. otherwise, you'll turn very sarcastic and harsh, almost cold at a certain point. you're very opinionated, you always feel the need to express your thoughts as you're very proud of them. in addition, since you always decide whether something is right or not, you may come off as a know-it-all. on the other hand, you're very sociable and you enjoy being in company, doesn't matter whether you're with your family, friends, lover etc. you may get to know many people throughout your life, but your friendships may not be much stable. you are surrounded by people, but you could feel lonely particularly often. I also need to point out that libra is ruled by venus, the planet of beauty. you're most likely very attractive and magnetic. even if not necessarily conventionally, people find themselves attracted to you. you may have sparkling doe eyes, with also full lips and a defined cupid's bow. your face is more on the longer side, perhaps you have an heart-shaped face, with high cheekbones and a pointy chin. you may also have naturally amazing, fluffy and flowing hair. your body is also very feminine, with a lot of curves and softness to it. it's very romantic, to sum up. also, your hair is probably naturally beautiful; it could be curly, or at least it's very thick and healthy-looking, even if you don't take much care of it.

libra ascendant opposite aries saturn: you may be shy and have self-esteem issues, especially during your early years. because of that, you may often appear as insecure to others, or even unreliable. you have a strong desire to be with someone and commit to them, you despise supertificial bonds, but at the same time you may find yourself being too shy to approach others, especially during your early years. this may apply more to the younger you, actually. you don't feel much comfortable around other people, and others can sense that; your insecurity is exposed to the world, and some may take advantage of that to hurt your feelings. you're afraid of being judged, whether it's for your appearance, or maybe because of your ideals or interests. hence, you end up becoming reserved. this is something that will be solved through growth and time; the older you get, the easier you'll be on yourself. also, thanks to this aspect, you're a responsible person with defined values. to cope with this placement, I'd suggest you to do what makes you feel the best. there are different ways to boost your self-esteem, so maybe you can work on that and then start expressing yourself freely; if you do it without the fear of being judged, you will shine even more.

🌞sun in cancer, 17° / 2nd decan ruled by the moon and pluto

this is the darkest, most intense cancer decan. you’re very vulnerable and sensitive; you may be a crybaby, as crying is a way to vent your emotions. you may even overreact, and be considered too dramatic. you’re extremely moody; you could be all happy and relaxed with your friends, then suddenly you get sad, or even angry. it’s hard to deal with this, especially because your emotions are quite intense. this could make you argue a lot with your peers. even though it takes you a while to find someone willing to stay, when that moment finally comes you’ll embody cancer’s best trait: that is, you’ll become a ‘mother’ to your friends, lover etc. you have a very nurturing soul, you have a knack for affection and care, and you could even get kind of clingy, even though you may feel limitated to give your love to someone else. cancer is a cardinal sign, hence you may be the one to take initiative, yet you do it undirectly. you’re probably the passive-aggressive type, even though this may be mitigated by your impulsive venus-mars conjunction. you’re most likely also quite patient, even though you don’t forgive easily. once someone tries to take advantage of you, it’s over for them.

cancer sun conjunct cancer mercury: you express your ego and identity through your words and ideas. you’re very opinionated and you protect strongly your beliefs. after all, you probably came up with your ideals after thinking deeply about them, you were too precise to be wrong. you’re also probably an avid reader, and you could do well in writing yourself, as you’re able to properly convey your ideals with your words. also, your heavy libra dominance makes you naturally good at writing poetry, or even romance. your mind is very active, and you feel comfortable letting all your thoughts out. it’s actually a way to relieve stress. you also have a wide vocabulary, and you’re capable of making a formal speech if you have to. you have a memorable way of speaking, as your words are very sharp. it’s hard for you to be ignored for your intellect.

cancer sun opposite capricorn jupiter: this is a hard aspect, which could make you feel even more proud of yourself due to your taurus moon. you may feel like the universe is constantly against you; you may feel unlucky, or even overindulge in things you like to cope with sadness or anger. you may have the tendency to overeat, buy useless things etc. you go from having a low self-esteem, to even looking very bossy without even realizing it. you struggle to keep your identity balanced, even though you might have not been aware of it at first. to achieve fortune and joy in life, you need to work hard for it. to do so, you have to learn your karmic lessons in this lifetime, which probably revolve around family issue and their impact on your interactions with others.

🌙 moon in taurus, 10° / 2nd decan ruled by venus and mercury

the moon is exalted in taurus, so it's definitely a good placement! you're very peaceful, you try to avoid conflicts when you can. taurus' most striking feature is that they crave stability, whether it's financial, in love etc. you must be very stubborn, as taurus is a fixed sign, this placement, paired with your imaginative cancer energy, makes you settle on making your ideas concrete, and it's very beneficial. it makes you capable of achieving any goals in your life. you're also very artsy, and you may fancy particular art styles. you have a good eye for aesthetics, and you care a lot about the looks of your house, body, clothes etc. you have excellent concentration, and that is another thing that helps you achieve your goals and make your ideas concrete. last but not least, you're amazingly patient, and that makes you a great friend. probably, they vent a lot of their worries to you, as you're also a great listener.

🗣 mercury in cancer, 15° / 2nd decan ruled by the moon and pluto

you don't really rely on logic. you're very emotionally intelligent, and you take in consideration others' feelings when you speak. even though you may be impulsive and blunt sometimes, you don't do it with malice at all. you may actually feel guilty after you realize that you've hurt someone. you may be sort of manipulative, as you're very observant of others' behaviours. because of that, you may be extremely good at interacting with others, since you know how to speak to people when you don't let your impulsiveness get over you. you know how to persuade others, even though you may not even realize it. if you manage to balance your moon and your mercury, I think it would give you great social skills. you'd be able to stand up for yourself, while also being mindful and conscious of the effect of your words on others. you may get defensive quite easily, and because of that you may become a bit secretive. that's because, deep down, you feel the need to be understood to fully convey and express your emotions. you want to feel at home with your interlocutor, otherwise you'll just be awkward. on the other hand, you have a nice sense of humor, you're able to light up the room with your jokes. your voice may be a bit high-pitched, almost like a child's, but pretty much very gentle as well.

cancer mercury opposite capricorn jupiter: this placement emphasizes your intellect. your mind is so broad that you can come up with different theories and philosphies, making you a sort of genius. you're probably good at memorizing things, and you could even have a photographic memory. yet, with this aspect, you may have troubles being consistent with your ideas. you may overestimate your needs and thoughts; for example, you may promise yourself to get all As in maths, then you get tired and bored and you end up getting Cs. same goes for your handwriting, for example: you may start writing in the best way possible, then you get lazy and end up writing in a sloppy way just to take notes. you also overthink a lot, and that causes you self-esteem issues. on the other hand, you're very open-minded and objective, as you look at the big picture. you'd do very well as a journalist, for example, or perhaps also as a judge of any kind. you may also be naturally skilled at foreign languages, you can mimic accents pretty well. you're probably also very poetic and / or wise, you're like a teacher for your friends.

cancer mercury square aries saturn: this placement gives you limitations and lessons regarding the way you think and talk. it may be that you’re too shy to approach others and to say what you think, so you just don’t try. otherwise, if you actually take action and try to overcome this problem, you could get into troubles. that’s probably caused by the fact that you don’t really pay attention to your words. you’re quite straight-forward and you may be particularly pessimistic, or maybe you lack confidence in social interactions due to these problems, which could be possibly caused by your parents, or perhaps interfer in your relationship with your family. in fact, you may argue quite often, and misunderstandings are also common. this is something that gets naturally better with time, but in order for it to happen you need to take action. you may for example start speaking more in school, perhaps you could apply for class president. anything that allows you to challenge your mind and voice, in order to make you gain experiences and become a master at it. many celebrities, once they mastered this hard aspect, got loads of success. you can do that too, you just need to work on it.

❤️ venus in gemini, 12° / 2nd decan ruled by mercury and venus

this is the flirtiest, most romantic gemini decan, but also the flakiest and most indecisive. your flirting style most probably includes jokes, teasing… stuff like that. even though you may seem flaky, as you like experiencing romance with different types of people, you’re actually quite picky. in fact, in order to fall for someone, you need to feel mentally attracted to them, not just physically. someone ignorant and stubborn that doesn’t care about learning something most definitely isn’t for you. you’re not the type to be super romantic and sweet with your partner or just people in general. you show your affection for example by sending them memes, making ironic jokes about them etc. also, when you’re into someone, you probably get very talkative! you start asking them simple questions about their life, even things like 'did you have lunch?’. also, you talk about them with all of your friends, and you find yourself thinking costantly about them. you’re very curious of nature, but you’re only interested in getting to know what catches your eye.

gemini venus conjunct gemini mars: you are very serious when it comes to love. you seek intense, long-lasting relationships, filled with both romance and passion. ironically, you tend to attract people that are the opposite, who are only looking for fun and casual romance. that could afflict your self-worth significantly, as you feel unlucky in love. this is also another placement that indicates that one of your parents, probably your father, or still anyone of the opposite sex probably influenced your approach to romance and sex. there are different scenarios I have in mind, but I'll talk about it later in the family life section.

☄️ mars in gemini, 19° / 2nd decan ruled by mercury and venus

you’re driven by the sense of intelligence. your intellect is your greatest strenght, it’s your energy tank. you’re interested in a bunch of things, and hence you may have troubles staying focused on one thing at the time. you probably have tons of hobbies, and you may end up not being much precise since you have tons of things that you have and want to do. you can’t stand boredom, you need your day-to-day life to be exciting and, above all, offer you something new to learn and / or experience. you probably fancy being very active: you go out often, you workout, you may also be the type to love partying and things like that. you’re extremely witty and curious, and you want to live your life to the fullest. you may often change your style, your opinions, maybe even your personality, and that could make you seem confusing and / or unreliable.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in libra. you always try to be kind and friendly with people you don't know; you most likely don’t like conflicts, you prefer avoiding them. you probably care a lot about your appearance, and because of that you could get insecure from time to time. usually, people with libra in their 1st house look for themselves in others, as their chart is basically upside down. the ruler of the 1st house is in the 9th house: you may come off as a very approachable and easy-going person! possibly, people could mistake you for a foreigner, it could be that you have certain characteristics of your appearance that make you look more 'exotic' or just foreign in general.

your 2nd house is in libra. you find beauty and aesthetic in material things; you most probably love clothes, art, music… anything that isn’t exactly a priority in life, but that allows you to express your personal taste, which is very refined. with this placement I’d suggest that you should pursue a career that allows you to express your creativity, as arts and beauty allow you not only to make money, but also to increase your security and confidence. you could also spend money in venusian things like clothes, make-up, decorations and anything that involves beauty and aesthetic. the ruler of the 2nd house is in the 9th house: you may earn money through foreign cultures and languages, hence you could be particularly skilled at them. you may work in a multinational agency, or perhaps as an interpreter or translator. you could also earn through teaching or travelling, so perhaps you may have to move constantly for your job.

your 3rd house is in scorpio. you probably love witty jokes and sarcasm. you’re extremely honest when you think and speak, and most of the times you have no problems expressing your opinions. you could possibly be very good with words and be good at convincing and manipulating others. usually this placement makes someone kind of mischievous when it comes to words, but I think that with all the venus influence in your chart and your well-aspected mercury, you’re able to control this in order not to hurt others. your mind is very deep, you’re probably not really into small talks. you may also love anything that is considered taboo, like astrology, horror, nudity, death… you’re also quite secretive, you’re seen as an enigma. you don’t want to share much about you. last but not least, you value honesty above all. you only speak the truth, and hence you also want it back. you may as well be into conspiracy theories, science and anything that can expose what’s behind the universe, the government etc.

your 4th house is in capricorn, with also your jupiter and neptune placed in this house. I can tell that your childhood was quite complex. not necessarily bad, I don't see any kind of trauma, but you probably had to grow up way sooner than other kids. your parents could have been very hard-working and focused on their jobs, possibly wealthy too. they were very responsible and cared a lot about you, they always made sure you had everything you needed, even though they could have been slightly absent from time to time due to their jobs. people with a capricorn ic usually find something missing in their childhood, they had to deal with responsibilities from a young age. it could even be that you started working when you were still a teen, or maybe you had to take care of the house or of your siblings for them. you weren’t much extroverted, you preferred staying in, drawing, playing games etc. it could also be that one of your parents may be absent; they could be divorced, or in the worst case they might have died when you were pretty young. on the other hand, it could be that you have a complex cultural background to you, perhaps someone from your family is foreign. you might have travelled a lot during your childhood, and you got to make lots of experiences.

your 5th house is in aquarius. you’re extremely creative, your ideas are very innovative, and you may have particular hobbies, interests or taste than others. when you’re able to fully express yourself, you gain full security and you start experimenting and inventing new things. you could be the type to start new fashion trends, music styles, art styles… basically, you’re a creative genius. your hobbies may also involve astrology, as well as human studies like psychology, or also anything that has to do with technology. you may be into videogames for example, tv series, social media… they’re your way to spend your free-time and relax. your relationships may also be very unconventional; you could usually date people online, or perhaps you may have the potential to meet someone through dating apps. they’re quite unstable, they may end out of the blue for example. you may also dedicate yourself to fashion, art, music, etc., anything that stimulates your creativity.

your 6th house is in pisces. in your daily life, you hardly ever have a structured schedule. you go with the flow, you take things as they come. you may often have your head in the clouds, you could get distracted easily and you may literally creative oscar-worthy movies in your head instead of doing what you need to do. your job may involve arts, images, possibly even fame. you should definitely use your creative talents for your possible career. also, you could benefit from helping others; you could be a psychologist or therapist of any kind, a nurse… any place where you’re able to help others. again, you could also help others through your art, hence with your lyrics, books, etc. when it comes to diets, workout routines, skincare routines etc. you could lack consistency, even though your libra energy makes you more motivated to take care of your appearance. you may sleep a lot, it’s easy for you to feel tired and stressed even when you’re not over-working yourself.

your 7th house is in aries, with also saturn conjunct the descendant. love is most likely not your priority in life. you need independence, and you’re able to stand up for yourself on your own. you don’t need someone else to help you. you tend to attract partners in your life that are hot-headed, stubborn, assertive and goal-oriented. they strive to be the best at everything they do, they’re extremely competitive and willing to do anything to achieve their goals. basically, you attract very dominant partners, but you don’t want to be dominated or controlled. you may often experience power struggles between you and your partner, which cause you issues in every relationship you get in. at the same time, you wouldn’t stand someone too submissive either, as you still need someone that would mentally stimulate you. they may actually be quite selfish and self-centered, they’ll care more about their own development rather than that of you two as a couple. an aries 7th house indicates that while you’ll have a very active, passionate spouse, you may also experience lots of arguments and discussions in your marriage life, perhaps even physical violence. saturn here makes things a little bit complicated, though; you’re probably attracted to partners that are older than you, or at least that are very mature. there is a lot of karma surrounding your relationships; a few unsolved issues from past lives may make them challenging. I feel like you probably don’t really date anyone. I assume that you dream of finding your true love, but at the same time you’re also extremely picky with who you date, you have high standards. even though it looks like the safest way, you should actually try to solve these issues. some hardships may arise, but what matters the most is that you learn from them. don’t be afraid to date people, and above all don’t expect every relationship to be good. it’s also recommended to get married after your saturn return with this placement, hence after your 27/28 years.

your 8th house is in aries, with also your moon placed there. generally, people with aries in their 8th house are very confident when it comes to taboo topics; they have no problems showing their interest in them, especially with people they're intimate with. you may also be particularly sensitive to or even tame physical pain. you constantly try to improve yourself by coming up with new projects, you love challenges. they help you growing up into the person you want to become. you may come across some hardships regarding yourself, your identity. but, when you face those fears and start loving yourself, you’ll naturally become more mature and 'transform’. last but not least, this placement can also indicate that you're going to have a painful death. the moon here takes on scorpio qualities; as a result, you’re way more secretive and cautious than most libra people. you tend to preserve yourself, even though it’s hard for you to repress your emotions, as they’re too to intense to bottle them up. you absorb people’s feelings like a sponge, there’s no way that you won’t instantly understand their real emotions. overall, you tend to overreact a lot; you have cancer's sensitive energy on one side and scorpio’s mysterious, almost scary vibe. dealing with these emotional burnouts may be stressing to you, as you totally get caught up in them. even if it looks like you get to know other people often, you actually don’t let others know you. you’re the type of person to talk and socialize, especially after your saturn return, but you never reveal your deepest fears and thoughts to strangers. you only open up to people you’re sure you can trust. when you’re angry, you can literally go as far as using violence; you need to let out your emotions by screaming, swearing… anything that can make you feel better. there’s a secret, sensitive side in you that needs passionate and romantic partners in love. yet, you can’t help but feel more attracted to the ones that may hurt you badly. you’re possibly quite sensitive to higher entities too, like ghosts, spirits and stuff like that.

your 9th house is in taurus, with also your venus and mars sitting there. with this placement, I feel like you may use your intellect to gain financial security and material possessions. while this is a good thing, as it helps increasing your confidence, don’t forget that your intellect is more important than money or any other thing. don’t underestimate it. you’re totally capable of learning and understanding things by yourself, hence don’t wait for others for help. you should start dealing with your own experiences alone, without anybody else’s help. this placement can also be someone a little close-minded; in fact, you're probably very stubborn and firm about your beliefs. you hardly ever allow others to change your mind. with venus here you may be the type that likes making new experiences regarding love, and you often date your crushes. yet, you feel too limited in a relationship. you don't enjoy committing to someone if that someone isn't perfect for you, you're only completely loyal to the one you consider your true love. you can't give up your freedom, your thirst for adventure and experiences for someone else. basically, your ideal partner would be a risk-taker, someone loyal but not too clingy. you may also find yourself being attracted to unavailable people; that is, you could fall for people that are already taken, or maybe they're physically unavailable, e.g they live abroad or in another city in general. you're also attracted to foreigners, and people that have a wise, yet bubbly aura around them. mars here indicates that you hate lies of any kind, you want sincerity from those around you and you're the first to be constantly honest. you value your freedom a lot, your life motto is most likely 'live and let live'. you think everyone should live their lives by their own standards, without feeling afraid of being judged or criticized. you're a very pure and genuine person, you hardly ever judge a book by its cover, and you're also extremely open-minded. you're thirsty for knowledge of any kind, you're always up to learn something new. you may also be interested in foreign languages and cultures, as well as philosophy, literature... anything that can teach you something new about the world.

your 10th house is in cancer, with also your sun and mercury here. your career needs to be private. that doesn’t mean that you can’t become famous of course, but you prefer being more hidden at job, you may even work from home or from a young age. many celebrities with this placement, in fact, started working when they were still young. also, cancer indicates that your future job will give you the opportunity to express and / or deal with your / others’ feelings and emotions, and considering that mercury is also in this house I can see you working in the communication field. you could become a writer, a singer, an actress, as well as a nurse, a therapist… anything that allows you to express your emotions while also communicating something is suitable for you. you could possibly also choose the same career as your parents, or you may handle the family’s business for example. you could also end up doing the job of your childhood dreams. you feel the need to pursue a meaningful career in your life, you want to feel emotionally connected to it. you don’t only want something that allows you to earn money, you also want to gain wisdom and maturity from a job, and hence you could even be a bit picky in choosing your future career.

your 11th house is in leo, with also your mars placed there. with this placement, you’re probably very popular among your friends, you’re most likely the most talkative or funniest member of your group. you may also attract very popular people yourself in your friendships, perhaps even celebrities. possibly, you could even make friends that allow you to gain recognition and / or popularity, doesn’t matter whether it’s in school, job, etc. you could also have very big dreams for your future, probably regarding your career and finances. you most likely aspire to be wealthy and financially independent, you are very hard-working and possibly even a bit materialistic. the ruler of the 11th house is in the 10th house: you may make lots of friends thanks to your job, or perhaps you're going to start a business with your friends. you may also achieve your biggest dreams through your career, as they probably revolve around finances.

your 12th house is in virgo. this is another placement that indicates that you are an amazing writer! in fact, the 12th house is about secret skills too, and virgo is ruled by mercury, the planet of communication. you do the math. with this placement, though, I feel like you may feel restricted from pursuing your goals, or even a career in the public eye, as you’re quite sensitive to others’ criticism about you. you strive to be perfect all the time, and your libra rising wants to constantly have a nice reputation. a scandal, or even simple haters, would probably be the end of you.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love you attract aries, aquarius, capricorn and cancer placements. your future spouse will most likely have aries and cancer traits placements; they’ll be very impulsive, creative, bold and confident, but also with a warm heart and a hidden insecurity to them. it could be love at first sight, and you may meet them abroad; you could meet them on a vacation, or perhaps they travel to your city. they could also be foreign, bilingual or have a different cultural background from yours. your children will have strong aquarius placements; they’ll be very dreamy, they’ll have big goals for their life, and they’ll also be extremely intelligent and creative as well.

👶🏻 family life

your father is probably a very caring person that knows how to stand up for himself when he has to, but he may struggle to do that. he’s very smart, caring and empathetic, even though he may be a bit childish at times. he could have cancer placements in his chart, possibly virgo, gemini and leo too. your mother, on the other hand, is a bit more serious and focused on work, but she always made sure you always had what you needed. she was probably the strict parent in the family, but she still has some sweetness and nice humor to her. also, she may have capricorn, aquarius, sagittarius or pisces placements in her chart. if you have siblings, they most likely have scorpio placements in their chart; you’re able to both relax and have fun together, even though you may discuss often. you could have been very jealous of each other when you were kids, maybe. you have a very intense relationship, but you surely learn a lot from each other.

📊 career

as I've already mentioned above, you're going to pursue a career that will allow you to interact with others. you would probably do amazing at a job that requires you to help people, you could make a great nurse or psychologist for instance. you may also work as a teacher of any kind, not necessarily a professor or school teacher. you could also work with children or for family, as a counselor for example. anything that allows you to interact with and help others would be great for you, as it would make you more empathetic and sensitive to the external world. last but not least, you may also work in a place related to food or money, such as a restaurant or even a bank as notary for instance, even though I see you pursuing a more creative, emotional career.

👕 fashion sense, style analysis

I imagine you put a lot of effort into your outifts, yet you don’t show it. you want to look effortlessly good, you don’t want to give the impression that you tried. your style may be quite minimalistic and simple, with lots of jeans, sweatshirts, plain t-shirts… I see you being more into natural shades, like white, grey, beige etc. you’re also not very fond of using too many accessories, you’re stylish but still very simple. you have this natural charm to you, hence you still look good even though your outfits may not be too complex.

👁 past life, life purpose

in your past life, the focus was on your relationships with others. maybe, you had troubles with self-esteem and identity in general and you used to depend on others. you had to work hard and finally understand how to build healthy relationships with others to fulfill your past life purpose. hence, this lifetime your focus will be yourself. even though at first you might feel quite insecure, especially due to saturn being opposite your ascendant, this lifetime you're here to develop this matter. after all, saturn will give you many lessons in order to transform yourself and grow into a better person.

🤔 major transits analysis / may 10

the sun is currently transiting your taurus 8th house, exactly conjunct your moon. you could be feeling very needy lately, but very sensitive as well. you want to be with people, maybe with your loved ones, you feel like you need a lot of care and attention and as a result you're literally craving human interactions. you may get angry or disappointed easily though, as you could be quite impulsive as well, so beware of that. jupiter, on the other hand, is in your 5th house; you may be lacking discipline in these days, perhaps you tend to procrastinate as you feel quite tired and you have to relax. of course it's ok to take some time for yourself, but remember to be responsible as well; hard work pays off.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

your secret skills revolve around finances and just security in general. with a positive attitude, you may attract material luck: money, clothes, houses… everything that you desire. since you’re a logical person, I assume the most efficient way for you to manifest through the LOA is writing! take a notebook and just write down positive affirmations, such as 'I have the car of my dreams’ etc. you may also write them on post-its and glue them around your house, so that you can accelerate the progress. you can also try to idealize your wish before trying to manifest it. for example, if you want a new sweatshirt, try to imagine yourself wearing it. you could also go into a shop and actually try that sweatshirt it on; being in contact with it will boost the law of attraction even more.

and this is it! thank you again for booking a reading, hope it resonated with you :)

#astrology

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Rules: answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better!

Thank you @moonylvi for tagging me

Name/Nickname: sky or maybe kai :) honestly I’m not picky, call me anything as long as it’s something kind

Pronouns: She/her

Star sign: Scorpio

Height: 171 cm, but once I was also 172, I think it was a mistake tho

Time currently: it’s some time after 8 p.m. as I write this

When is your birthday: October 25

Favourite bands/groups: every NCT unit, SuperM, BTS, Red Velvet, GOT7, TXT and from outside kpop I love Linkin Park, Queen.. god there are so many too, since this is the type of music I grew up with :)

Favourite solo artists: Taemin, Bruno Mars, Troye Sivan, MJ, hm there are probably more but more can’t think of any rn

Song stuck in your head: Monster and Infinity by SuperM or this part: dark cloud blocking out the sunn ᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵘⁿ I ain’t scared got me feeling kinda nuumb..... ʸᴱᴬᴴ

I often randomly remember lyrics throughout the day whether it’s MFAL or Yestoday :D

Last movie watched: i went to bed in the middle of it but Fast and Furious

Last show you binged: I started watching Love Alarm 2 recently and Vincenzo (thanks Jeno)

When you created your blog: January 26, I remember it well since it was the day before the 127 day :)

Last thing you googled: the lyrics to monster and infinity just now haha I wanted to get it right

Other blogs: just this one :)

Why you chose your url: i love Doyoung, you love Doyoung, we all love Doyoung

Do you get asks: Yes :) not so many recently, but the one’s I got were sweet and I really enjoy doing them

How many people are you following: only 27, I need to find some more blogs hehe

How many followers do you have: 113 :0 wow thanks by the way, that’s kind of a lot of people

Average hours of sleep: i work during the week, so around 5,5 :( and on the weekends like 8, I like to set an alarm though :)

Lucky number: 7 and I feel like 19

Instruments: I have a keyboard, can I play it though? I mean kinda... yeah kind of... ʸᴱᴬᴴ

What I’m currently wearing: my pj’s which consist of fluffy white pants and a cute peach colored shirt (it’s also fluffy)

Dream job: I always wanted to become a writer or actress but idk now.. maybe something with writing though :)

Dream trip: I often visited Italy before 2020, but I haven’t since and I really miss it, also I’d love to go to Japan, New Zealand, Canada, Alaska and Thailand.. the world is so big I just wanna explore it ^ - ^

Favourite food: I love salmon, I really do, a lot and like maybe Chicken and just salad... I love a good salad yum

Favourite song: I could never decide, I love all the music I listen to lol but there are some that have a special place in my heart yeah, but that list is still super looonngg :D

Top three fictional universes you’d like to live in: the beautiful place in Howl’s Moving Castle.. you know which one. Does a Step up universe exist? If yes I wanna be in that haha also maybe the X-Men universe :)

I'm tagging: @sunflowerforhaechan @tyongxnct @taeyongscafee @tyong @whereisten @dont-look-down-on-me and everyone else who wants to do this (ᵔᴥᵔ)

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Right/Wrong - 2

Thank you for your answer and participating in the survey/test! Given your answer, I’d imagine that a LOT of people share the same kind of view, though they may differ in some parts.

Ambiguous, huh? Right or wrong is not ambiguous. It’s pretty binary. But because people forgot WHY something was right or wrong in the first place, it suddenly becomes unclear and things become ambiguous. Which then leads to the belief that a LOT of things have a “gray area” and are not strictly binary. And that’s what I mean by people no longer having a basis on what is right or wrong.

Stealing is wrong regardless of who you stole from, how much you stole, and for what purpose. All of that is irrelevant. Otherwise, it becomes a subjective issue that varies from person to person and victim to victim.

Consider right/wrong as a “mathematical” thing. Like... if I said that pi was 3.4... I’m wrong. But why am I wrong? It’s because pi is NOT 3.4. There is no “gray area”. But why is pi not 3.4? Pi, as a constant, is a value that someone set. So what makes that person right? It’s because like ALL constants in the world of science and math, the value of pi is not a human invention. It’s a human discovery, but not an invention. But the value of pi occurs SO MUCH in the world of math, that any value that’s not the actual value is wrong. As in, there is a BASIS that determines whether the value of pi is correct or incorrect that is purely objective. Even if no one acknowledges the value, the true “pi” is already set. Back in the days when people didn’t have a concept of an irrational number, no one would’ve accepted it. But... were they correct? No. The value of pi exists and is pre-defined. So it’s a “truth” because it’s true even if no one knows or acknowledges it.

Something is “right” if it follows the set rules/instructions/definitions, and “wrong” if it doesn’t. It’s very binary. Either you follow the set law, or you don’t.

Take measurements, for example. Why is 1 cm the size that it is? If I make a meter stick that’s actually like 5 feet long, why is that wrong? It’s because it doesn’t work with the universally accepted metric system. But “universally accepted” is, at the end of the day, just based on people. Majority, if you will. So it seems to contradict what I said earlier about majority being irrelevant. But what’s the metric system actually based on? If I recall, it’s defined around water, isn’t it? 1 cm3 = 1 mL = 1 g. Celsius is also based on water. 0 = freezing, 100 = boiling. None of these are subjective. These are all objective.

Laws in “nature” are like that. Also known as science laws. The big difference between laws of man and laws of science is that the laws of science are purely objective, don’t “discriminate”, there are no exceptions, and cannot be broken. Like... can anything break or disobey the law of buoyancy? Can anyone or anything suddenly decide that they don’t care that their body is denser than air, and so they start drifting upwards? No, because everything in the universe follows these specifically designed rules to the letter and don’t have the authority to break them.

Now, before I get to the obvious follow-up of “is there such a thing for human morals”, I’ll handle the next test first.

This answer once again is purely subjective. This answer implies that it is right to murder if you do know the story and you deem the outcome to be acceptable, and the only real reason why it would be wrong is the FEELINGS of those affected.

I actually gave the correct (partially) answer in one of the choices.

The correct answer as to why murder is wrong is because you were told - ORDERED - not to do it. Why is stealing wrong? Because you were ordered not to do it. Why is anything right? Because you were ordered to do it. Why is anything wrong? Because you were ordered not to do it.

But the reason why that’s a PARTIAL answer is because of a VERY important distinction. WHO or WHAT gave you that order? Man-made laws are not objective truths, since they change all the time as people demand it.

So... what laws/rules were WE given that are purely objective, that never change, and were not made by people?

“But what makes you sure that the bible is an objective truth, and not subjective? Aren’t you being biased?”

I can list scientific proofs and evidence that clearly show that the bible is an objective truth and an absolute fact, for hours and hours and hours until I pass out because I strained myself too much. And I’m talking about the actual bible, not the one the Catholics edited because the pope randomly decided that he had the authority to do such a thing.

... What do you call the Catholic priests, again? Hmm... (Obviously this is referring to the spiritual one, and not the biological one)

Anyways.

“But I thought religion and science conflicted with each other.”

Come again?

“But why are you linking morality to this?”

Where does morality come from, then? If you lose the bible, then your morality can only come from your own feelings and views, at which point, morality doesn’t exist since it’s different from person to person.

And I can go on and on. But... I should cut this here since I’ve been working on this post for far too long. Ordinarily, I probably wouldn’t post this because... backlash. But at this point, whatever. I need to do what I can, however I can, whenever I can.

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STARTUPS AND PROCESS

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And because startups are in this sense doubly valuable to acquirers, acquirers will often pay more than an ordinary investor would. Since that seems to work. 06%? When Richard Feynman said that the imagination of nature was greater than the imagination of man, he meant that if you just keep following the truth wherever it leads rather than being influenced by what he wishes were the case. Even more important than anything else that I worry I'm misleading you by even talking about other things. Nothing yields meaty problems like starting with the assumption that it was a very gradual process. I'm all for shutting down the crooked ways to get rich. Sometimes you get excited about such a thoroughly boneheaded idea, we should train more Americans to be programmers. Bill Gates—the probability might be 20% or even 50%. I'm relieved to find they're not as bad as I feared. We usually advise startups to pick a growth rate they think they can hit, and then write a paper about it, and try to trace it back to the root causes.

That's what makes theoretical knowledge prestigious. I'd bet on the 25 year old over the 32 year old probably is a better programmer, but probably also has a much more common one. We should have expected this. The charisma theory may also explain why Democrats tend to lose presidential elections. The office at 165 University Ave was Google's first. In most fields the great work is done by the people who work there want to stay there. Proving your initial plan was mistaken would just get you a lower Gini coefficient, along with a lesson in being careful what you ask for.1 0 here. Another effect of a larger share that what's left over for the rest is diminished. In this scenario, spam would, like OS crashes, viruses, and popups, become one of those that exploit an insecure cgi script to send mail to third parties.

The business person represents the voice of the customer and that's what keeps the engineers and product development on track. Subject Free Subject free FREE! Nearly all makers have day jobs, and work on beautiful software on the side of safety. It takes a conscious effort to find ideas everyone else has overlooked. Why did so few applicants really think about what customers want is figuring out that you need to make something lots of people want, read Dale Carnegie's How to Win Friends and Influence People. Boy, was I wrong. I know that from experience. Letters, digits, dashes, apostrophes, and dollar signs are constituent characters, and everything else is a token separator. One reason is that good design aims at some kind of lowest common denominator.

What makes a good startup founder. Undoubtedly TV helped Kennedy, so historians are correct in regarding this election as a watershed.2 Look at where your code is slow, and fix that. And anyone who has written a program only to find on returning to it six months later that he has no idea how it works. One of the reasons Jane Austen's novels are so good is that she read them out loud to see a where you stumble over awkward phrases and b which bits are confusing or drag; don't always make the best subjects for papers. It was presumably many thousands of years, I'll bet on the curve. I've described above. Empathy is probably the founders themselves. Aristotle's explanation of the ultimate goal of philosophy in Book A of the Metaphysics implies that philosophy should be useful too. The startup may not have needed VC money the way they were 10 years ago. There is a founder community just as there's a VC community.

There probably aren't more than a couple hundred lines of Perl; in fact, it would not be a bad definition of math to call it the study of terms that have precise meanings. Two or three course projects? Around 2000 the bolt was removed.3 To some degree, it offers a way around these limitations. I say that the answer is, surprisingly far. Anyone who invested in private companies in return for dividends would have to pay close attention to their books. In addition to the usual clauses about owning your ideas, you also can't be a founder of a startup that was neither driven by technological change, nor whose product consisted of technology except in the broader sense.

75%. Fundamentally that's how the most successful investors are also the most upstanding. The more I think about why I voted for Clinton over the first George Bush, it wasn't because I was writing about spam filtering. What you really want is a pool of local angel investors—people investing money they made from their own servers, and both the headers and the bodies became much spammier. But gradually I realized it wasn't luck. It increases the work of the Valley now. If they decide to grow at 7% a week and they hit that number, you don't have to think about that. They wouldn't seem bad to the city officials.

Notes

A single point of saying that good art fifteenth century European art. There is not really a lie because it's a bad idea, period. We could be ignored.

These points don't apply to types of startups that seem excusable according to some abstract notion of fairness or randomly, in the fall of 2008 the terms they were doing more than just reconstructing word boundaries; spammers both add xHot nPorn cSite and omit P rn letters.

It's possible that companies will naturally wonder, how do you know whether you're a big deal. Galbraith was clearly puzzled that corporate executives would work so hard on the group's accumulated knowledge. This phenomenon may account for a couple predecessors. You have to be doctors?

Thanks to Trevor Blackwell, Geoff Ralston, Sarah Harlin, Robert Morris, and Anton van Straaten for putting up with me.

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I’m honestly just kinda bored and decided to make this for no real reason. I like doing fic recs because I think I have taste but some of these.... kinda aren't good lol it’s more of what stuck with me through the years.   

So yeah List of fics that were important to me and that were on my fanfantion.net fave list and may or may not be good: 

What The Eyes Can't See : The only fic on this list that made it over from my very first fanfic.net account that has now been lost to time. This was the fic that got me into long fics It’s a Bleach fic and made me super disappointed that Tatsuki never got to do anything as cool as she does in this fic, at least when I actually watched/read it.  Also, my mom found my bookmark of it and had to have a talk with me because she ended up reading the smut bits. You can’t even read the whole thing on fanfic.net, parts had to be cut when they did that purge of smut years and years ago

Timely Errors: I love time travel more than like any other trope. Harry Potter goes back in time is pretty common but this fic is pretty rare in that it still pretty good. Plus it’s cute and made me cry. And whats funny is that it’s a small bit at the end that I remember the most, where Ron has no idea that something is wrong until Hermione gives Harry an extra piece of cake then he just Knows has stuck with me for years because it’s so cute and sad and just so.... idk the perfect way I’ve seen their friendship expressed?  

Hourglass For some reason the general outline of this fic has been in my head since 2009 when I first read this 142k beast of a fic. I had just started to really get into fandom and Kingdom Hearts was poping. The idea of an older vision of the nice main character coming backward in time but is really mean and jaded because the future sucks really stuck with me. Also, there is a throwaway line about how Mulan lost her husband in the war but continues to fight anyway and Mickey Mouse has a moment to be sad about it has also stuck with me because what the fuck 

Wait This fic is here more because I kept thinking over the idea more than the actual fic, I mean it’s a little bit of a mess because it’s a songfic and the way it’s written through a couple of lifetimes BUT the idea of someone who is the Avatar's companion and gets reincarnation randomly instead of in order is one that I’ve thought about a LOT because of this fic. You again? is same thing but I like the actual fic more as the idea that the companion isn’t always a lover and they kill each other about half the time is a good one.  

Diamonds Are A Girl's Best Friend ok look this is not a list of fics that are 100k and have great plots etc etc this is a list of fics that have stuck with me and for some reason, this Icarly fic is one of them. I have no idea why but it is funny and cute and I love the idea that Sam is wanted in France for stealing the Eiffel tower

Lily Potter and the Worst Holiday  I love the idea of two universes clashing together and seeing two that aren't great, as both had a lot of people die including a young Ron and Hermoine because Harry wasn’t there, stuck with me. 

Many Thanks this fic made me cry AT LEAST three times, just thinking of it makes me tear up man. And it keeps going way longer than you think but in a good way? Not only does it have time travel but instead of being in the traveler's point of view, it’s from a bystander. It’s just... ugh the idea of it is great and it just works really well. I just love me some badass Hermione.  

Old Bones just a little fic that made me go, ‘oh shit maybe seeing everything underground after a 100-year war could end up fucking up a 12 ear old’ 

Awkward Once again this is a list of fics that stuck with me and for some reason this one did. No idea why since I didn’t even ship Raven/Starfire but it’s pretty cute 

City of Ghosts such a weird little Xena Fic but it’s weird in a canon kind of way? Like yeah, that could be in a Xena episode. This fix it fic works pretty well at what it’s going for I guess. I so love Gabrielle, or her reincarnation kicking ass and saving Xena

ab igne ignem capere  AU where Azula was born first so she isn’t the favorite. Great idea and I loved the style but it’s unfinished and it’s such a shame too. 

Alone, Together Oh my god this is where my love of weird plots came from. I LOVE this fic and I think about it all the time. The idea of two people having to be alone together for YEARS and they actually fall in love and have to work at it for it to work but they do it!!! Only to have all of that taken away, memories and all??? And now they have to deal with where they were before that all happened and just UGH what a fic man. 

And The Whole World Tilted this fic made me cry and still kinda does and since it’s a iCarly fic that's impressive 

A Secret Relationship Unlike Any Other back at it again with the weird plot. The idea that Rachel Berry loves planning and bossing people so much that she ends up dating Quinn with Finn as a puppet is very funny and is super in character. 

A Million Miles Of Fun this fic is so dumb but every once in a while I think ‘lol remember that fic where Faberry and Brittana kill a ton of people and it was like 100k and kinda good?’  

The Line Between Jealousy and Hate this fic really really got me when I was younger. It’s a KND fic and the idea that 86 hates boys because she’s a lesbian is kinda overplayed in fandom a lot but idk man this fic hit me hard when I wasn’t out yet. 

Just off the Key of Reason is Quinn out of character in this fic? Yes. Is there any plot? No . Have I read this fic and all its sequels like 100 times?  Yes because it’s pure wonderful fluff 

Animals and Prizes .....OK I need you to listen to me. Do I want to remember this fic so much? No not really but can one really forget their first alpha/omega fic? I read this fic way back in 2013, I was in high school!  Honestly, everything considered it’s better than you would think, I mean it has an actual plot 

Those Gilded Chains We Wear this fic got me in two ways. One: I love me some dark ladies with a Past that fall in love with some good-hearted person and grow from it. Two: a kinda weird plot where Hermione and Bellatrix have a magic bond thing because Bella, of her own free will, leaves Voldemort and the magic bond thing is the only way to make sure she isn’t lying. Re-reading it now I don’t enjoy it as much, as Hermione just takes way way too much crap but it’s still enjoyable. The idea that Bellatrix is actually legally insane and should be treated for it is nice and the idea that magic could affect how mental illness shows up in a person is cool. 

Dark Energy Yo not one other fanfic series has made me cry as much as Dark Energy. I usually hate re writes fics but Dark Energy makes it work really really well. The first is pretty plain compared to the others but by the second it just nails it. By far this is my favorite Mass Effect fic and it’s differently effected how I see characters in the game. 

Sight the King once again I got taken in by weird plot. I mean you know how rare season 0 fics are in Yu-Gi-Oh? Super rare and this one is what happens when you realize season 0 is super fucked up, I mean people get set on fire and that's like three times! So yeah seeing Yugi deal with waking up at the scene of four-ish murders with blood on his hands and realizing that no one is going to belive him is just great. A+ for the great tone too, the writing is great and it’s by far the most in-character fic out there for this time period 

#long post #I have 800+ faves on fanfiction #I mean most are trash but still #I like going back and reading stuff that I liked years ago #God if I did a master list of fic recs.... #I read fic a LOT #Like a LOT a Lot #maybe I'll do one if I get bored again lol

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fall from grace;

Summary:  And suddenly, there was nothing … And he was airborne … he had taken to the sky. And he began falling- falling …Down … down … down …

Word Count: 3,357

A/N: this WIP was never finished and unfortunately I don’t think it will be. This is where I left off when I still had inspiration for Connor and his character, and this was meant to be a ridiculously long fic and unfortunately, I never got that far. Sorry it wasn’t everything I hoped it could be but I thought I might as well release it :)

Warnings: angst and dark themes

And suddenly, there was nothing …

Strands of hair were scattered across the white sheets, colored brightly, shining in the light youthfully. Your skin was free of wrinkles, free of any signs of aging, of deterioration.

But there was a difference in the color there; it was pale, and underneath your eyes were sunken patches painted in a bruise-like haze. They showcased the severity of the situation, just how decayed your body was, just how close you had gotten to the edge.

Connor watched attentively, consciously as your chest rose and fell, inhaling and exhaling and supplying your body with much-needed oxygen. He watched on the blue hologram beside the bed, stared at each rise and dip in the monitor.

He was so alert of your status that he didn’t need to watch the monitor to know your heart-rate, or know how many breaths you were taking a minute, if it was too deep to the point it might be concerning, or if it was too shallow and you were having a nightmare.

He’d been staring and monitoring you for so long, that it’d been a very long time since he’d gone in stasis and he was finally able to relax; to be tranquil for even just a few moments. He decided that everything was in order, that perhaps you would survive, that maybe you could come out of this alive, that there was a possibility you would come back home to him.

And if that were to happen, he would immediately make you your favorite food, supply you with everything you’d need to be warm, make sure you were well taken care of. Connor would cuddle you in a blanket and never leave, hold your hand every moment he could, and cherish you even more.

In this moment, it was not you, but Connor that had to face your mortality. You had already accepted, long ago - in fact, that you would be gone someday. You had to come to grips with the knowledge that one day, you’d have to leave everything you worked for behind. However, Connor took on this responsibility on for you.

He had chosen to ignore when you coughed a little too much, when you would tell him that you had to stay home; you would chalk it up to “feeling just a tad under the weather,” or “I need a day off, work is stressing me out.”

Connor knew better than that, he always knew better than that, but he found it too miniscule to bother you about it. You’ll feel better soon, he thought. He saw signs, too many, in fact. People – and androids, in this case – often think that terminal illnesses are things that happen to other people, to people you don’t know. No amount of statistics changed Connor’s mind.

Connor admonished himself endlessly over the past few days, scolding himself over and over for being so foolish, for allowing you to come this close to your demise, to the brink of extinction, to your death.

It didn’t matter now though, because you were going to get better. It seemed the very foundation of Connor’s sanity balanced heavily on these next few hours. Focusing in on his confidence of you being alive by the time he awoke, he triggered stasis mode, and that night, for the first time in a while, he dreamt.

And he was airborne … he had taken to the sky.

The cherry blossoms fell onto crystal white sheets made of silk, each gust of wind was familiar and fresh, wafting the scent of flowers, of hope and love and peace and allowing it to whirl around the bed which had been placed randomly in the middle of an oasis.

The thing he was most delighted by, however, was you. The feeling of your skin against his, your hair brushing against his artificial being, your breath warming his body – it was all so comfortable, so well-known by Connor, so desperately missed …

Connor revelled in the feeling of holding you once again, wallowed in your fragrance, in the heat of your breath against his chest. He drifted off, allowing every emotion and thought to be taken away to an imaginary place – a world where he didn’t have to worry about you being alive the next morning.

His eyes opened slowly, wearily, and Connor glanced at the monitor. Everything was in order; you had a steady heartbeat, a steady breath rate, a fine amount of fluids. You were alright. Exhausted, Connor triggered stasis mode again, eagerly awaiting another glance, another hallucination of a perfect world, a perfect fantasy … heaven.

But this dream was a different form, perhaps still a utopia. A calmness, eerie almost, settled upon the new world Connor had created. Connor had wings, the soft kind people envisioned that angels endowed.

As Connor’s phantom looked to the wings, he smiled. Something about them reminded him of you. The way they smelled, the way they felt underneath his fingertips. The touch was electric yet soothing, tranquil and chaotic all the same. They flapped and soared, rustling against the wind along with Connor’s clothes.

Instead, though, he chose to focus on the adrenaline, or at least the manufactured feeling, coursing through his artificial veins. It was freeing, exciting but he still had a tinge of fear, of anxiety. A totally unique feeling, but then he placed it … it felt like love; your love.

And he continued to soar, quickly and fiercely until he was above the clouds, and he found himself floating, flying and landing amongst them; he allowed himself to feel the wind whip in his face, around his body.

An overwhelming pain struck his back, and as he turned his head just over his shoulder, the wings were no longer a stunning, gleaming, snowy white.

Feather by feather, the rotting wings dismantled, and Connor clutched each remnant, trying to piece them together. Instead, he only felt the hole in his heart grow.

And he began falling- falling …

Down … down … down …

With a sudden shock, Connor’s eyes fluttered open. His eyes quickly scanned the room worriedly, watching as white coats and blue scrubs crowded his vision, but past all that, you were there. Your chest was unmoving, and time slowed.

He calibrated your vitals, and the programmed inflation of his chest paused. Everything caught itself, stopping and shutting down as he saw. [ Heart-rate: 0 bpm | Breaths Per Minute: 0 ]

And as time pressed on, a throaty scream ripped out in the hospital room. Connor’s feet moved quicker than ever before, standing by your side as he shook your body violently, calling your name, pleading for you to come back, even if just for a minute. Just so he could give you a proper farewell.

Doctors stood still, in shock at the outburst. The most stoic figure in all of Detroit, the Deviant Hunter that betrayed his creators to fight for the androids. He was an android, robotic and eerily calm, always. And here he was, vulnerable, begging for his love to come back.

The inaction was eventually realized, and the staff surged forward, attempting to pull back Connor. He thrashed like a child throwing a temper tantrum before his power was released. Without care, he elbowed each staff member in the stomach, just enough to send them reeling onto the floor.

He stepped back to you and buried his face in your stomach. The beeping monitor was a constant, and so was his sobbing. The first tears the android had ever shed. He cursed the universe, he cursed any and all beings, and more nurses came to escort him out.

“Farewell, my love,” he whispered, allowing himself to be dragged away like a ragdoll, and they put him down outside your hospital room. Sitting against the wall, he cried. He spoke, only for it to be muffled into his hands, about how much he loved you, how he would do anything to get you back.

He pulled his hand away, looking at your name. A beautiful, cursive name, once written in golden ink engraved on his synthetic skin, over his artificial veins. It was faded now, a line through it, and drained of life, leaving only a remnant of the bond between the two of you behind. There was no reversal of death.

The android swallowed faux saliva and replayed the memory of your dead, pale body. Your youth-less face, sunken eyes, thin body. He tried to wipe the memory, tried to forget it all. His gaze lifted and he stood up.

Gaining his balance, though losing a bit of his sanity, he pressed the palm of his hand against the wall and pushed off. He had lost you, and that would not do. And so rather than storming back in, rather than attempting to fight for you again, and scream like a petulant child, he looked towards the hallway.

You were gone, yes. But where Connor was about to go, it wouldn’t matter. It didn’t matter. Because where he was going to go, he would still be able to feel your skin against his, still watch your chest rise and fall, he would still be able to hear your voice; he would still have you.

And so, he stormed out of the hospital. Determined, apathetic, ruthless. He shouldered oncoming traffic without a care in the world. White, bland hallways, lifeless shells in scrubs; there was a disregard for anything that wasn’t you. His feet guided him mindlessly, going to the place he hadn’t been in over 3 weeks, after spending every day by your bedside.

He shoved the key into the lock, swinging the door open and walking away even after the knob damaged the wall. Connor immediately began to shuffle through belongings, through dressers, through cabinets, and through pockets.

He grabbed your perfume – the one that you’d wear only on special occasions, your hairbrush, your old favorite t-shirt, he grabbed your favorite book, your notebook, your laptop and he saved the most painful for last.

He opened up the wooden drawer he kept his clothes in, throwing out the denim and the shirts you’d gifted him, and picked up the velvety black box. 3 weeks ago, he’d scheduled a getaway with you, one where he’d planned to drive you wherever you wanted, and under the moonlight, he had planned-

Connor shook his head free of the memory, of his delicate vision of the future, his dream to live a full, happy life with you. Possibly to raise children, possibly to stay in the city and be the best detective team in Detroit. it didn’t matter as long as it was with you.

He opened the box gingerly, watching as the diamond sparkled in the afternoon light, and he imagined it on your finger. That was impossible now. He snapped shut the box and carefully placed everything he’d gathered in a backpack, and smiled as he realized there was room for more items.

He grabbed your favorite dress, a few other articles of clothing, and examined your nightstand. Inside, there were pills, a doctor’s note, a to-do list, and finally, a letter. A small letter, folded and the paper was ripped, prompting Connor to treat it with care.

Oh, it was a love letter, dated to the first week you’d met. Addressed to him. He read each word with care, noticing and reminding himself of your writing habits, which letters you wrote in print and which in cursive.

However, what he loved the most about it was the way you wrote your name. So simple yet so extravagant, and Connor caught himself thinking how it would look next to his. Where he was going, it wouldn’t matter anymore. This letter wouldn’t, either.

And as Connor read each word over again, a small piece of his heart floated away. All of the things you had envisioned in the future, that you’d stated in the letter, were impossible now. They were meaningless now.

So as a single tear, the first one he’d ever shed, fell onto the paper, he watched the words blur into each other. He watched the letter bend and wrinkle. And then he ripped the letter to shreds, letting each scrap fall onto floor, each taking a piece of his heart with them.

He wouldn’t need those anymore, where he was going. He wouldn’t need any of these rotten memories, these mourning feelings. Because where he was going he would still have you.

He slung the backpack over his shoulder and left swiftly, slamming the door shut, and one of his neighbors gave him a scowl. You would apologize, tell the lady that everything was fine and that you were just in a bad mood.

But Connor was not you. He walked away, barely acknowledging her existence and went for the stairs, making his way down quickly. He knew where he was going, he didn’t need a map, he simply did.

Each step echoed in his mind, the metal stairs underneath his shoes clanking and creaking. He imagined a second pair of feet, slightly smaller, harmonizing with his. Moving forward together.

There, standing next to him, was you. Or at least, a phantom of you. The spirit smiled at him gently, albeit sadly. It was less of a smile and more of a plea. "Connor, please don't do this," you stated, and he furrowed his brows in response. "You can live without me," you assured.

Connor turned away. No, he thought, I can't. You were the lifeblood in his veins, his one and only. You fueled him, you gave life to the soulless city of Detroit and without you, it was empty.

The color of the city was drained by your absence, everything was dim, black and white, dull. It reminded him of his time under CyberLife's control, when he was just a machine.

With you, he felt human, he felt alive. And now that you were gone, he was dead. He was a zombie walking around the streets, unaccompanied and empty. He couldn't survive like this, he knew that. A part of him knew that you did too. That you would want to be by his side, and he remembered your promise. "I will be with you forever, Connor. I'll never leave."

And both of you knew, at the time, that the promise, that statement, was a lie. It was impossible. You were so very human, fragile . . . a very poorly made machine. In time, all flowers wither, all fires burn out. You were a ticking time bomb, and unfortunately, you detonated.

"You left me, (Name), you left me,” Connor whispered gloomily, “I have no choice." You shook your head and stared back at him solemnly.

The neighbor from earlier peered over the railing, watching as the once sane, stable Connor talked to thin air. Even she noticed the difference in his demeanor, even she knew something was missing.

"You always have a choice, Connor," you argued, before dipping your head. "Be happy, for me. In my honor, exist for me. You'll be happy again, Connor. I know you will."

Without a goodbye, though filled with regret, Connor averted his gaze and continued his journey towards the most secluded part of Detroit he knew.

As he opened the door of your apartment building and stepped out into the harsh rain, he stared across the street. You'd thought it funny that the apartment you wanted was just across the street from the place you'd first met.

He could still smell the coffee and the fresh donuts, the scent of your perfume just like it was yesterday. He could still hear the chatter, still remember perfectly the order that Hank had requested.

He remembered that you'd decided to treat yourself and order your favorite donut. He still remembered the clink of the spare change that you'd put on the desk, after overhearing that Hank hadn't given Connor the right amount.

And even after all the reports you'd heard about him, about how he'd chased and frightened all the deviants, you still handed him your number. You still said that you couldn't wait to hear from him.

He remembered how you skipped out of the coffee shop into the sunny Spring day, how he'd just stared at your fading figure with a shy smile plastered on his face.

He relived the moment in his mind, before feeling someone tap him on the shoulder. He turned to the woman, one who had your hair color but not your smile, not your voice, not your face.

"Are you alright, sir?" the woman asked. Connor stared dumbly at her, lost in thought, before nodding and starting his journey again.

He watched the rain fall onto the street, hearing your old favorite song ring throughout the road as you danced amidst the falling droplets. He remembered you waving him over, pulling him into your rhythm.

He let himself go into autopilot, letting his subconscious guide him to the old, decrepit buildings he'd searched for, back when all that mattered was his mission. He replayed his favorite memories with you.

For a few moments, his pain was washed away. He could feel everything in the memory like it was yesterday, and so he blocked out all sensations from the real world, and stayed in the oasis that was your presence.

He came to an abrupt halt, and reluctantly, he opened his eyes. Whining at the pain, the hollowness in his heart and the sickening twist in his stomach, he quickly ducked under the wire fence.

He jumped up onto the ledge, from there swinging off a random bar and over the hole. He jumped back down and climbed, sprinted, and finally landed, hanging off a collection of metal.

He pulled himself up, looking back to the junk and scrap below. And shuffled inside, looking out at the destroyed freighter. It was too sunny here, so he grabbed metal sheets and blocked any and all openings.

He dropped the backpack in a corner, and sat down next to it. Grabbing out the velvet box, he smiled as he imagined a world where you were wearing it. Where you were alive and next to him.

Where he could continue to love you with all his heart. Where your being, your spirit, your soul wasn't a mere recreation of you created as a coping mechanism by his program.

He just wanted a place, a reality where you weren't just a phantom. Where you were alive, and healthy, and next to him. He wanted you by his side, forever, just like you'd promised.

Connor had known, ever since he got into a relationship with you, that someday he'd be without you. He thought he would've handled this better, that maybe he would be able to move on easily.

After all, in the grand scheme of things, you were just a moment, a small part of Connor's life. You were just a flash of a memory, a small moment in time compared to how long Connor would live.

He was damned to live 'til the very end of the universe, to watch Earth become either a dystopia or a utopia. He was damned to watch the sun die, to travel with the humans on their quest for discovery, or domination.

He was a machine, after all. He didn't control his destiny, he never did. He was a prisoner, a slave to his own immortality.

Connor chose not to think of that. He opened up his memory program instead, relieved that he could relive his memories just as they were, undistorted by the passage of time. That when he was lost in the past, he wouldn’t have to feel this heavy weight in the present.

All the pain would be gone. It would be gone until he destroyed himself. And at least then, he might have even a sliver of a chance of being reunited with you. That was a risk he was willing to take.

[ Accessing Memory . . . ] | [ Replay Commencing . . . ]

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I generally don’t do these but...

I will do this because it’s a badge of honor and a thank you for @todayintokyo who gives me a daily vibe out of my second fav Country in the world (first one is my own, of course. My messy, chaotic, genius Italy).

So for everyone interested (I won’t tag people either... if you are among my 250+ readers, do it as freely as you like to share this unexpected hard time along others. Sharing makes us all feel less stranded I guess :)) 

1. Are you staying home from work/school? Yep. My University (Milano Bicocca) holds in-house lessons and curses and also exams and testing are/will be online. What I miss most are the lab works and the exchanges with foreign schools. I took one a few months ago in London and I was supposed to have another in May but... NOPE, of course.

2. If you’re staying home, who’s there with you? I am alone in my apartment. At first it was supposed to be shared rent with somebody else but then my parents just bought this out and lent it to me. I know. I am spoiled. But very grateful for what I have. I always try to give back the best I can because no one has merits in being born in a family instead of another. (pieces of second-rate philosophy in all my LONG answers courtesy of my mum and her influence on me. She’s a University Professor and her field is.. guess what.. ETHICS PHILOSOPHY)

3. Do you have pets to keep you company? Nope. Not allowed. But I like cats. Cats. CATS. They are elegant, refined, very clean, and they give you consideration and affection ONLY if they like you. I prefer to conquer somebody’s love instead than to have it by default. Then I am naturally a cat person instead of a dog’s. But I like all animals (I like snakes as well, so my range is pretty wide ;)), even though I don’t feel missing any in  house. Generally I would be out of home most of the day and no pet would be happy in staying that much alone. I miss my grandparents’ kitty tho :)

4. Who do you miss the most? Family. Friends. Meeting new people when out. And... (is it fine to say it?) Well... in these lockdown times I miss... human touch. (You get what kind). I was seeing a guy when this all started and my old boyf also came back into the picture somehow. All on hold. And I avoid to think how that makes me feel because even in case I’d figure it out, what comes if one can’t act on the awareness? Exactly. So I put it all in a LONG pause. But yeah... I miss contacts. A LOT.

5. When was the last time you left your home? I go out every Thursday to buy all my grocery stuff. I am very methodic. My supermarket is pretty near and it’s BIG and I get there right before it opens (well... one hour almost before it opens, so I can be among the firsts in line). I look like a ninja: very sporty and technically dressed (like for a running competition!) with clothes and shoes which are easy washable, tech mask (it is for cycling competition, with filters specifically medical: the mask is washable as well after you’ve used it, while the filter is obviously not), cotton fit gloves and over them medical gloves (I can’t wear directly medical gloves because my skin is very sensitive and I suffer from nickel allergia, which makes latex gloves a NO NO directly on skin), teck googles which cover also the side of my face (those are from cycling items too) and of course PODS in my ear because I can’t live without music :)

6. What was the last thing you bought? I bought online a few garden tools for my biggest balcony. I have ZERO skill with plants (and I am supposed to become a biologist... the nerve! LOL) but I am keen at making grow at least rosemery for my recipes. I have a little peach tree and it is all fine so far. I have hope I can do better and anyway I have time now ;)

7. Is quarantine driving you insane or are you finally relaxed? I try to keep my routine as it was before. I wake up and perform all my tasks exactly as I was doing before this all started. I am VERY organized and to lax on that would ruin me, so I carefully focus on what I can control the best I can. It feels strange to say it maybe but... this way my mood isn’t particularly affected by this heavy revolution in my (and everyone elses’s) life.

8. Are you a homebody? NOPE. I love people, I love my Milan and its being always full of people everywhere. I love living in my town a TON, I love meeting friends anywhere, go dancing, I love to live my University life in this beautiful and renewed part of Milan; I like being surrounded by my people and meeting new ones. So being stuck at home would seem insufferable for me. But I learnt from this (there’s always something to learn in any experience) that I can be surprisingly ok with staying home too. I came to know better my neighbors. I feel a sense of community with everyone living nearby and I have come to love my domesticity too. It was a surprise for me first ^.^

9. What movies have you watched recently? In Italy, Italia 1 channel has had the WONDERFUL idea to rebroadcast all Harry Potter saga every Monday and Thursday. Today and tomorrow there are the last two installments, so I can say that is what I looked out the most for as in movie things these past weeks (funny how I never particularly adored the books of HP, I mean, I liked them but... being a Tolkien’s devotee Rowlings’ literary efforts always seemed lackluster to me.. and still I have always liked the movies. It’s incoherent I know ;)). But I have Sky at home so I can watch whatever movie I like to whenever I want to. And that leads to VERY little watch actually. I am reading a ton though. I watch what passes on in the National channels actually, out of digital and cable and decide to watch it or not. For instance last Friday Rai 1 (main Italian Channel) broadcasted one of my fav movies from the past three years, GIFTED (with Chris Evans and Octavia Spencer) and I rewatched it with immense pleasure.

10. An event that you were looking forward to that got cancelled? OLYMPICS. I was supposed to be back in Japan with a a couple of friends and my bro for experience the Olympics (especially the volleyball tournaments) between July and August and that got (of course) cancelled. We plan to move it all to next year of course. But it hurts SO MUCH because it was easily what I was looking forward to BEST for all 2020. Hands down.

11. What’s the best and worst thing you’ve had to cancel? Look up. For the other question, I never plan things I don’t like (or at least I try my best not to) and I almost never find myself in the position of being happy for something I had going on which I had to pass due to circumstances. I am a very honest (sometimes to the point of bluntness, though with age I got trained in the fine art of diplomacy, which for me is declined especially in the “IGNORE WHAT IS NOT WORTHY degree) person and if there is something I don’t like I tend to not get involved with it in the first place.

12. Do you have any new hobbies? Eh... the longest list... I love so many things. Sport don’t count as hobbies to me because I treat them as part of my daily life constantly. So take them off. I like to write, to draw, to paint... I like reading, I like learning... I am a tech geek; I like gaming (but that I have to cut it or it would absorb me too much)... I like TRAVELING (that is cut off too of course nowadays), and many other things so I guess I don’t literally have SPACE for new hobbies. My many ones makes it impossible to fall for new things though lately I am becoming a better cook out of needs ;)

13. What are you out of? My lists are made as soon my things become “two items in from having 0″. This way I can’t run out of anything. Did I say already I am a HUGE control freak? THAT ;)

14. What music are you listening to? My itunes collections lists so far 12376 ALBUMS. Then I have the random songs. Latest one I bought (because I buy them all) is Achille Lauro’s latest 16 Marzo 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yb-9RESbeWA

I am also listening a lot to one of my bro’s fav bands Radiohead and as usual a lot to my beloved Imagine Dragons. My mum and dad are also telling me to listen to Bill Withers (who recently passed away) whole discography because he was amazing. I love many music genres. I love ALL which makes the spirit soar and rage and evolve and love and cry and hope.

15. What are you reading? So far in quarantine I read 5 books. I have now to start ORIGINS by Dan Brown. I pick the books I have left unread randomly and that was the pick this time (people gift me with books constantly because they know I am a bookworm when I have spare time).

16. What are you doing for self-care? Keep loving myself and life and the world exactly the way I used to before this all started.

17. Are you exercising? Yup. Tapis roulant, golf training, stepper (all in my house lucky me) and mat and weight training. I have a routine for which I have to train at least one hour a day. NO EXCEPTION. I miss swimming but I will do. I am also in recovery after January’s knee meniscus intervention so my schedules are also taking that into consideration.

18. How’s your toilet paper supply? I'm OK. :)

19. Have you made any changes to your hair during quarantine? Nope. I love to stylize my hair but I don’t have specific cuts. It grows long and then I play with them hairstyles: braids, buns, ponytails, partitions and the likes.. But I have bleached hair and I had to follow my hairdresser advice because I can’t allow ugly roots to take dominance of me ^.^ So I bought the necessary to self bleach them. No need to say as soon as I will be able to, Hairdressers and Massages and SPA will be my first destination ^.^ (beside visiting family and friends of course).

I am fairly sure I put lots of typos and mistakes in this but I have my online lesson just starting in 8 minutes and I can’t review this (I generally never do it anyway). So forgive me and have a beautiful day ;)

STAY SAFE OUT THERE!!! Hugs K.

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Senpai! Any tips on world building? :D

🌼Whooooo boy, that’s a lot of talk about Mambo X’D and I love you so I will do my best!

Worldbuilding is a lot of work and is constantly an exercise of questions and answers. A lot of times worldbuilding happens at random. I never thought that I would worldbuild half the universes I was messing with. I just have this drive to connect the dots, so to speak. It usually starts with a character for me. I will use Nova as an example since he seems to be the catalyst of my now fully fleshed out Outertale. Nova was just design at first but with every design I do, I have a need to tell a story. A lot of times people overlook the importance of clothing in their storytelling and being from that background I definitely put hints and lore into what the characters wear. 

Sometimes even scrapping old designs to fit an overall narrative later on or fitting it to that mold. I originally drew Nova in a varsity jacket and as I developed the story I realized that I either had to make that choice believable or scarp it all together. I decided that his personality would be more rambunctious and trickster like this also led me to make him based off Loki. I decided to keep his jacket because his kind of uncaring and aloof attitude toward how the Monsters conduct themselves and their traditions made him a huge contrast. He prefers comfort over symbology basically. 

The first question you have to ask is why. That is super vague but why are you making this world? What purpose does it serve? Is it something that answers questions about characters? There are four specific pillars for storytelling, plot, setting/ environment, character, and emotion. All of these are used to make a lot of the stories we see and hear today. 

Nova, my OT Sans, needed kind of a purpose. I wanted my Outertale to be different in that way. I wanted to answer the question of why the monsters would leave in the first place. It turned into a rabbit hole of constant back and forth. It doesn’t really matter where you start on these four pillars but questions are so important. I know I keep saying that but it’s true. I will give an example.

Starting with Character/Environment: Characters are important to any story. They are the ones that your readers or watchers will be attached to. They are a mirror almost. Someone relatable. Now that doesn’t mean they have to be this pure bean. I would argue that making those kinds of characters actually makes it difficult to relate to. We all mess up so having a character with flaws that overcome them are even more relatable. Not to mention it will add to the emotional component. Our responses and our social skills revolve around our environment. This includes the “mechanics” of the world and genre. 

WTU is a great example of this, though the world of Undertale is relatively well established there are a lot of loose ends. Even more so when you make a Fell variation. In order to be a little more unique with how I handle my verses, I tend to start at ground 0. The original. I will use Grillby’s as an example. Grillby Magmaran is one of my favorite side characters in the story but due to his personality and the world, he is set in I had to change some things around. The setting of WTU is odd. Most people tend to make Underfell this gritty, dark, and violent place but I wanted to add a few more... let’s say real-world layers to it.

Grillby to me was always kind of set in stone, character-wise. I wanted him to be kind of a playboy. One who just seemed to care about only his own self-interest, on the surface. A lot of characters I have “re-written” have this mold. That they can’t outwardly express what they want to because it makes them vulnerable. A vulnerability that is mirrored in the fact that Asgore doesn’t really rule over the Underworld like most think. (A side note on calling it the Underworld as well is this idea of underground and shady dealings.) The most power is actually given to three characters. The third I will stay quiet on due to spoilers but the other two are Muffet and Grillby. Each with their own industries capitalizing on the hopelessness of the inhabitants. 

 Grillby is all about vices which is why I changed his usual restaurant into a multistory nightclub and bar. A place for the monsters to blow off some steam so to speak. It also plays into his kind of sleazy outward appearance hiding behind liquor and vices. Muffet’s Black Widow Casino plays on greed. A rather fitting industry for her character since the original is also obsessed with profit. It is little things like that I would continue to dig deeper on. Why is Grillby this way? Heck, why would he stay in Snowdin? The answers sometimes take some time to really think about but it’s something I really enjoy doing. The answer I came up with was simple. Contrast. Grillby and Muffet used to have a very 1920′s don and mistress vibe in their original relationship but Muffet’s personality was a little too much to take for Grillby who fell into vices after his own grief. Snowdin vs Hotland. I think you can pick out the contrast. He wanted to be as far away from that spider as possible.    

The town of Snowdin is actually a place that monsters can find sanctuary. It is not like Undyne’s monopoly of Waterfall or Muffet's rule of Hotland, why though? Well sticking with the original source material I still wanted Papyrus to be a character that you could love even if he was a little more rough around the edges. He is Head of the Royal Guard already so that decision led me to think more about how he would use that power. He basically becomes the protector of Snowdin Town and the townspeople reward him by placing a statue of the Captain in the town square. That boosts his ego but he still has noble intentions, protection. This also adds to his character since Papyrus in my version is the older of the two brothers. The only reason he is harsh on Sans (or Red in this case) is that he knows of the cruelty outside their little town.  

This also explains why there are so many deadly traps all over the place leading into town. Very few monsters live outside the center of the town. It is his way of putting up defenses against any of the monsters that may be entering from outside the town. They have been used to kill humans, sure, but their main purpose is to create a blockade. 

I am going to kind of get on a soapbox a little bit in this so just bear with me. I think that a lot of Underfell creators do a huge disservice to the universe and its concept. *shakes head* It is one of the reasons that I decided to finally put my story into the public. It took a long time to muster up the courage to do that. Making things for the sake of darkness or edginess to me is... very... uh... how do I put this? Well, it’s a huge pet peeve of mine. Dark storytelling can be talked about effectively if the elements are there and other things balance it out. I see this a lot between Red and Boss. Specifically their relationship and how that is handled. There are plenty of stories with characters being close in a dark and harsh environment. They don’t turn into abusive a-holes. WHY!? Why would you take something like the original skele-bros and their relationship and do that? Granted. If there is some reason behind it. If there is a well thought out answer to the question of why then that is perfectly fine. What I find more and more, however, make these kinds of choices just for the sake of it. IT DRIVE ME BANANAS. 

Now I am not saying my story and verses don’t have plot holes. Most of the time when you dig deeper into a project you realize that closing one could open a few lesser ones but it just upsets me that people just randomly make these choices just for the sake of it. Shock value. There has to be a purpose. Good storytelling is about relatability and believability. Small things can sometimes take you out of it if they seem out of place. Remember that everyone goes about these kinds of creative choices differently. Mine is pretty much all question based or design-based. I am by no way saying that my way is correct. It is just something I have worked on for a very long time. I can kind of come up with my answers on the spot. 

I know I got away from this ask a little bit but I am happy that you are interested Mambo! If you want to know more specifics then just ask. There is so much more I can talk about. I was actually was asked to make a video on it so I may do that in the future. Just remember to have fun while doing it. Stories are fun to read but at the end of the day the world is yours and you should enjoy it!