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Hi!! I really love your works and I've been a fan ever since, this is my first time requesting to you hihi. Can you make a scenario bf!enha legal line x experienced gf!reader? I saw a lot of scenarios bf!enha x virgin!reader but I don't see with experienced!reader. I hope you'll notice this request. Love lots!! <3

[MDNI] OOF this is right up my allley!! I've done a lot of inexperienced enha with experienced reader so im ver excited to do it again (I think it's very clear that I have a corruption kink) anyways, here's a short drabble for you sweet anon!

bit of a tmi but I literally had to edit this so many times because I kept calling them by my boyfriends pet name. I call him bunny and ITS SO CONFUSING

♡ * . ▪︎ LEE HEESEUNG — dry humping

lately, heeseung's been feeling too needy, and it's becoming evident with the way he keeps on whoring around your apartment that he's just begging to be fucked.

his fans might think, "awe he's such an angel," "lee heeseung is so cute."

yes, fifty percent of the time he is the doe eyed angel that everyone loves and adores, but despite your boyfriend being a virgin, he has the most sluttiest fantasies about the two of you, and its accompanied by the most erotic words. at this point, you don't even know how you've been able to hold out.

well, you kind of do. every time heeseung throws you his "fuck me" look it's always accompanied with a playful glint. one where you aren't sure if he's serious or not, and your not about to be the one who asks the other to be fucked. your pride is just too high to let that happen.

that's why it has taken him up til this point for you to realise;

currently, your adorable boyfriend has claimed his place on your lap. a night supposedly filled with the two of you watching an action packed movie turned to this.

well, he'll certainly be getting some action that's for sure.

it's as if all coherent reason has left heeseungs mind, erotic thoughts about the two of you pressing against each other's skin filling the atmosphere as he sprawls his whole body on top you, not even making the slightest effort to take up some of his weight. however, you don't complain, always savoring the moments he lets you baby him.

"what is it hee?" you ask, peeking a look at his face.

all he does is shy further, curling himself sweetly across your lap that you can't help but awe.

his eyes stare up at you, wide and innocent, and that's when you know for sure that heeseung is playing his game.

he likes pretending be innocent. like he's the most oblivious boy on earth. he takes pleasure in that. he likes to tease you with it, knowing how much you love him and the naturally adorable look his face has when his hair is down.

instead of giving you a clear answer, heeseung starts grinding himself on your thigh, knees digging into the mattress of your couch as he nuzzles his nose into your neck.

this catches you by suprise, and you choke out a groan. heeseung has never been one to do stuff like this. he's always just talk, but tonight seems different. tonight, he seems more desperate and daring, making you second guess his true intentions.

he hums against your skin, breath fanning it causing goosebumps to crawl down your skin. "need you so bad."

"fuck, hee." you sigh out, lifting yourself to adjust your positions, letting heeseung plop onto a more comfortable spot. one where it'll be easier for him to continue his rutts. "what's gotten you so needy?"

grasping his hips, you guide him to a pace you know he likes. spending all these months with your boyfriend makes you feel like you know even the parts of him that he has yet to discover.

thanking you, heeseung retracts his head from your neck, wanting to give you the delight of seeing his face as he moans. and lo and behold, the sight of him just makes you want to cum.

with his hard on guided by you, it drags along the tensed muscle of your thigh. "are you sure about this, baby?"

"mhm." he answers breathless, and mind probably too fuzzy to form coherent sentences as it clogs up in bliss. even with your guidance, heeseung takes his own pace, pressing against you rougher and faster. you wanted to let the sexual tension build up on its own, but it seems as if heeseung is done waiting. though, you wanted to affirm him first. so, you ask more of him.

with the hand that was previously guiding his hips, you slow yhen down to a halt, and he whines cutely at your restrictions. "need you to say it, baby."

"fuck," he sighs out when he feels you caressing his thigh, brows knitting with impatience. groaning, he continues on saying, "just take me already."

"now now..." you halt. "that isn't a nice thing to say, isn't it baby?"

"we'll see about that."

"i don't care." he replies defiantly and you just know you're in for a stand off with your boyfriend. "im a man. I do what I want, and i want you to fuck me."

safe to say that hours later, you have your boyfriend writhing against your thigh. clothes now discarded across the living room as you lean back, watching him roll his hips against you while he tries to please himself all on his own. after telling him that there was no way you'd help solve his problem with that attitude, heeseung has gone to lazily dragging his hard on to clumsily thrusting his hips. but of course, being the strong headed boy that he is, he isn't going to succumb to you without a little push.

his cockhead is rubbing a wet trail across your skin, the illuminating light making it shine while his veins seeming as if they're about to pop with the amount of teasing it's getting. "help me."

"what do you say, whore?" the cute nicknames are long discarded, vulgar once replacing it that affect your boyfriend all the same.

"fuck you. you're such a bitch." he spits out. still, he refuses to succumb to your wants as his need to rile you up seeming to be much stronger than his desire to cum. "I don't need your help. I cant get off on my own, mommy, please."

"sure, be my guest." watching him with a smirk, you know your boyfriend too well not to notice the expression of betrayal that flashes on his face when you easily comply.

unwanting to admit defeat, heeseung picks up his pace, hands planted beside your head, and gripping the head of the couch. his forehead is so close to yours, and all he wants is for you to touch him. to atleast kiss him.

"fuck..." he hisses when his tip meets your clothed pussy for a millisecond, and he looks at it longingly.

noticing his gaze, you rock your leg once, catching him off guard and making him yelp. "baby!"

grinning mischievously, you snicker, "yeah, whore?"

you're left to question yourself when heeseung lifts himself off. you lean forward only to find him kneeling on the ground right in front of you. with your legs that stayed spread apart to accommodate your boyfriend, you look at him in question.

"fuck you fuck you fuck you." he continues to mumble while shuffling across your lap. he's dug his own grave and now, all he wants is to claw his way back up.

"you smell so good..." he says more so to himself as he leans into your center, pointed nose digging itself in your clothed core. heeseung takes a deep inhale, your scent filling his senses right as he breaks.

"your mood swings are gonna be the death of me, hee."

♡ * . ▪︎ SIM JAEYUN — oral & marking

jake, you ever so sweet boyfriend, had just confessed his undying need to have you flat on his tongue, failing to give you the small tiny detail that he's a fucking virgin. the angel doesn't have the slightest idea how to start, and so he just sits there, pondering about what the best course of action was and if he should do it like the porn he watched.

no, definitely not like that.

he doesn't think you'd appreciate the step sister getting stuck in the washing machine trope all too well. jake doesn't have a step sister fantasy. he has a you fantasy. but he'll take any porn he can get that looks slightly decent.

now you know where all his knowledge came from.

"jake?" you ask out of concern when he doesn't move from his spot between your legs. you reach for him and he meets you half way, humming when he feels your run your hand through his scalp in comfort, afterwards leading your palm down to cup his face. "what's wrong, puppy?"

at your question, his eyes widen seeming to have momentarily forgotten about his small dilemma. he squeaks out a reply, answering, "n-nothing!"

jake watches as you giggle, unbeknownst to the true reason that you found him adorable in any situation, shy puppy eyes telling you everything you needed to know. but he has to tell you first. "I can tell something's bothering you, baby. so tell me."

jake was just about to give in before he decides not to, trembling at the mere chance of you feeling repulsed for his inexperienceness. instead of confessing, he abruptly tries connects his tongue with your dripping core. everything should've gone according to plan. with all the porn he's watched and the masturbation that he's done should've helped him— except it didn't.

instead of flattening his tongue against your whole cunt, jake misses and half his tongue goes against the top of your vagina, only the tip hitting your slit.

"jakey~" you call out, trying to mask your amusement, fully knowing that your boyfriend would become even more embarrassed. "honey, come here."

jake couldn't believe this is happening. its like a nightmare come true and he just sits back on his knees stoic, thinking that if he doesn't move for long enough, he would be able to disappear.

"you're disgusted with me, are you?" he says, refusing to meet your eyes in embarrassment. "I knew this wasn't going to work."

"knew what, baby?" you genuinely ask.

"this! I knew t-that if you found out I was a... yknow." he mumbles, nudging you as if he expects the rest to be telepathically delivered to you.

oh, it does. well, not telephonically per se, but you know. you knew your boy too well.

"that your a virgin?" you reply, smirking at him teasingly.

taken off guard, jake gasps into the kiss, and you take that as a chance to put your tongue inside his mouth. as you explore foreign territory, you release a grunt when you feel jake subconsciously suck on the muscle of your tongue. the usual kisses with jake are sweet and it's never like this. but everything is cute if jake is associated with it. so, although making out is anything but innocent, jake makes it feel like a dream.

"yes." he sighs as if to ready himself for a rejection, a break up, a disappointed grunt, but nothing of the sort comes. instead, he's guided up wards by your hands, pressing your lips effectively against him.

you begrudgingly pull away from him, however, the moment you do, you're met with the dazed look on his face, mouth parted in awe while his eyelids fall heavy with pleasure, and his head tilted back slightly as his mind buzzed. you just can't get enough because one look at his eyes, and the next thing you knew is that your diving in to suck on his neck.

however, all temporary pleasure must come to an end. you would've stayed on him for longer if it weren't for the fact that your lungs started to burn for air.

"ahh!" jake hisses when he feels your mouth suck harshly on his skin, surely because you want to leave marks.

leave marks? but... won't that mean that you're marking him because you want people to see it? because you want people to know that he's yours?

does that mean you still like him?

"y-you still... like... me?" he says in between pants.

goosebumps arise and jake is left to clutch helplessly onto your shoulder when he feels your breathy chuckle. you tsk, "you think I'm letting you go because you're a virgin?"

"w-well... yes. id think so. d-dont girls want more experienced guys?" he says, whimpering right after when you release his skin with a pop, leaning back slightly to admire the third mark you had planted.

"fuck, no. I want you just like this, baby." you mumble, lips staying pressed against his skin. "I wouldn't want you any other way." and like clock work, your lips go back down to kiss and mark his neck.

although jake loves the attention you're giving him, he cant help but feel like he has to do something. jake tries to be of service for you, desperately wanting to start something to show his use. noticing this, you take his hand, and guide it towards your wet pussy, lips flushing a deep pink due to your arousal.

"can I try again? will you teach me, please." he pleads with his eyes beaming with want and yearning while he cups your whole vagina in his palm.

"mhm. sure, baby." you agree, freeing him from your lips, and letting him sink back down between your legs. "just don't pressure yourself. you don't need to do good right away."

"but I wanna do good." he presses on while slowly moving his face close to your cunt. his eyes look at your pussy with longing and his mouth is salivating, waiting patiently for your queue because all he wants is to eat you right and for you to enjoy it. "now, hurry and teach me please."

you roll your eyes at your boyfriends antics, nonetheless scoffing out a laugh as you found his eagerness to be incredibly adorable.

spreading your lips apart, jake feels blessed to have a front row view of the way your slick clings to both walls, strings of your wetness connecting them before snapping. your hole is right there, gaping and he swore its like it's telling him to penetrate you.

"your pussy wants me..." jake looks as if he's in a trance. well, in a way, he kind of is. your hole is making it so hard for him to resist the urge to cum in his pants untouched. if he looks at it for a few minutes more he swears he'll do just that.

the way it expands and clenches around nothing looks so inviting that jake pokes a curious finger at your entrance. his finger doesn't even get half way past it before he's retreating, amazed by both the feeling and how it looks so wet, it's dripping.

groaning as he whimpers, jake looks at you pleadingly, begging you to come through with your promise.

"my sweet angel," you coo, swaying his hair back to show his damp forehead. "you're so eager to please."

nodding cutely, he hums, "mhm!"

at that, you grin, teeth biting down on your lips because you're afraid that if you don't, you'll lunge at your boyfriend and mark him up once more. it's a nice idea, but you know how badly jake wants to have his mouth on you, and you swear you could even see drool forming on the edges of his mouth before swallowing it down. "cute."

"thank you..." he trails of, eager eyes waiting for your instructions.

"you know what this is?" you ask, tapping your wet clit which causes a small wet smack to sound out and it's like music to your boyfriend's ears. when he nods, tongue darting out to wet his lips, you continue. "suck it, baby."

and jake doesn't need to be told twice.

quickly, his tongue traces your wet slit, picking up your arousal on the way before engulfing your clit in his mouth. he's so fucking good at it that he doesn't even need to be told before he starts licking your clit, tongue circling around your nub before sucking it between his lips again. you'd think that he's sucking you out like his life depends on it and to jake, that's true, because he swears to God that if he doesn't get to taste more of you, he'll die.

"good boy, jake. just like that." you praise, fingers fiddling with his hair as you watch him press his whole face onto your pussy, his tall nose digging softly against your skin as he caresses your thighs while helping you hold them open for him.

your cunt is salvating, envious of the attention your clit is receiving that you involuntarily start clenching around thin air as it awaits your boyfriend's attention. wanting to teach him something new, you nudge his head further down. "my pussy's asking for you, baby. won't you give me your tongue?"

that's all you have to say before jake complies, licking his lips clean of your arousal before poking his tongue inside experimentally. he groans once again as he tastes you, and your walls welcome his tongue with a delicious clench around it.

it doesn't take long before jake starts fucking his tongue into you, unconsciously placing his nose right on top of your clit so that with every movement, he not only stimulates your insides, but your outsides too.

surpsingly, he's so good you think you're going to cum sooner than expected. sooner than you usually do. the last thing you want to happen is for this to end. not like this, not this quick. so, you pull your boyfriend away, and he whines like a child whose candy has been stolen away from them.

he looks at you like you've betrayed him, like he's about to cry. "why did you do that?!" he whines, trying to go back in but is halted by your hand that's entangled in his hair.

"couldn't let you make me cum that quick, baby." you smirk, wiping the sticky liquid off his chin and cupids bow.

"why not?" he asks in pout. "i wanted to hear you cum~" he whines, eyes closing once he's realised that he's missed his shot, afterwards looking at you with squinted eyes, as if to tell you that he's mad and sulky.

"how about you let me taste you first? then I'll let you fuck me, you virgin." you offer with a tease.

smilling, he rolls his eyes in feign annoyance. when he realises what you just said, his eyes widen, cheeks flaring up afterwards.

"my dick? in your mouth...?"

♡ * . ▪︎ PARK JONGSEONG — blow job & handjob

it's common knowledge to everyone that jay has never had a girlfriend before. of course, along with it came his inexperienceness when it came to sex. back then, he thought that masturbating and sex were cringe. everytime one of his friends brought up any type of horny thought, jay wouod leave the room without a word.

now, jay regrets everything. he should've listened in when his friend told him about how his first time went, as well as the tips he offered to give jay in case he ever got lucky enough to get a girlfriend.

with his looks, of course he did. he just wished he knew shit. trust him, he wants to fuck you, and vice versa. he wants to eat you out, grope your breast, everything.

slowly, he started indulging himself in porn for educational purposes. however, the thought of him touching himself made him feel embarrassed eventhough no one was looking nor was it a crime.

still, its nice to know what to expect and get a grasp of what to do. yes, he knows porn isn't accurate, but that's all he's going to get because he's sure as hell that he's not going to talk about it to any of his friends. they'd make fun of him for sure.

however, after realising that you're the person that arose this drive within him, it only seemed fit that he asks you for guidance. after all, you are his girlfriend, right? it should be safe enough to ask you.

"yeah, kitty?" you ask, hand rubbing him through the thin layer of his boxers.

currently, you're seated against the headboard, jay laying comfortably on your chest and stomach on his back. he had managed to muster up the courage, and ask you for sex and to be honest, he feels incredibly stupid for even thinking that you were going to make fun of him.

continuing to massage him, you feel his penis slowly hardening under your touch, a sudden boost of pride filling you chest. "is this alright, jay?"

fuck yeah, he feels alright. he feels amazing. its like his whole world is spinning in pleasure and he's only getting the bare minimum of your treatment.

"kitty?"

"I know, baby. I know." you nod in understanding, feigning sympathy along the way as in actuality, you bask in your boyfriends shy persona, enjoying the way he asks for you to take care of him.

jay's eyes shut close, suppressing the urge to moan when you trace up the outline of his length, waiting patiently for his assurance. "yes, it's more than alright, but please, I need more."

you snap the elastic of his boxers across his tone stomach, making him jolt. "can I take these off?"

"fuck... yeah. do anything you want." he sighs, body leaning to lay on your chest while his head rests on your shoulder, watchful gaze eyeing the way you carefully take his boxers off.

this is the first time you're seeing his dick, and it looks so pretty you just can't help but stare, eyeing it like you want to devour it whole. however, your dear boyfriend doesn't seem to catch on, seemingly thinking that you were judging his length and how it looked.

"d-dont look, please." he asks quietly, a hand darting out to cover his dick in embarrassment. "I know 'm probably not the biggest you've had but— wh-what are you doing?" he can only watch you in wonder as you abruptly get up, leaving him alone to rest on the hard headboard of your shared bed.

"i need to have you right now or else im going to fucking lose my mind."

jay thinks you're going to leave and panic ensues. he swears he's about to tear up, but before he does, thankfully, the next words you say are catched by his sullen ears, and suddenly, the brewing tears are gone.

situating yourself above his knees, you grap your baby's thighs and drag him towards you. the reason? well, you just wanted to assert some dominance and hopefully, you'll be one step closer to clearing his invasive thoughts.

jay is once again taken by surprise when you suddenly take his dick in your hands, spitting on his head and using your saliva as lube.

your boyfriend can only watch in awe as you start pumping his dick, your mouth going down on him seconds later so you can get a taste of what his precum is like.

"shit! baby— fuck fuck fuck." he chants, mouth parted in awe as he watches you take half of his dick in your mouth. jay releases a dragged moan when you gag on his dick, your saliva dripping out of your mouth before taking it off so you could get some air into your lungs.

"you're so big, kitty," not wanting to leave his aching cock neglected, you let your hand pump him at a slow pace, one where your sure he's still receiving an adequate amount of pleasure to give you breathy whimpers, but not strong enough to build up his climax. "this dick can't even fit inside my mouth."

jay was just about to deny your claims when all of a sudden, you start jerking him off faster, effectively catching him off-guard and swiping his mind clean from his act of denial. "yeah, that's right. this dick is too big isn't it, baby? need both my mouth and my hands to make you feel good, huh?"

"n-no! 'm not big." he manages to grunt out, eyes still closed from so much new pleasure being given to him.

"oh, but you are." you snicker, filling his head with dirty talk as you lean down and lick a long stripe from the base all the way up to his flushed tip, and you don't miss the bead of precum that shoots out. "see? even your dick knows how big you are, baby. don't lie to me."

jay feels like he's on cloud nine as you continue to suck and jerk his length. truthfully, it does look like you're having trouble taking him all inside your mouth, but then again, maybe you just had a small mouth and he's nothing special...

it's as if you heard his thoughts because right on queue, you say, "shit, baby. you have the biggest dick I've ever seen."

and jay's once again left to hide himself in your pillows in embarrassment.

eventhough you don't want to, your mouth leaves his length so you can talk to him face to face, thinking that maybe if you do so, he'd see the truthfulness in your eyes and know you're not lying. "face it, baby. you have the prettiest, fattest, thickest cock out there. i dont even think you’ll fit inside me because youre that big."

"yn!" he screams out of embarrassment, covering your mouth. "shut up!"

"what?" you say after taking his hand away from your mouth. "if you're not going to accept it, I'll keep going on and on, baby. believe me, I can."

now, jay knows for sure that that isn't a lie. "now you have to let me try and have you."

the key word is try, because eventhough you aren't a virgin and is well expreienced in this field way before meeting the love of your life, jay's cock is making you question your bodies capabilities.

♡ * . ▪︎ PARK SUNGHOON — riding him

"hoon, baby," you call out to your sulking boyfriend, his eyes brimming with tears. "im sorry I got home so late. I was just busy with work that's all. there's no other man, pretty."

lately, insecurities have been running wild inside sunghoon's head. your past lifestyle was filled with drinking and hooking up with random people. you partied every night, bar hopping with your friends until you pass out and wake up in some guy's hotel room.

and then you met sunghoon. a guy who was forced by his friends to join some birthday party thrown at a club. he's the guy who stayed defiantly sat on the couch while everyome else partied around him.

eventually, he was introduced to you by one of his friends and immediately, sunghoon fell in love and you seemed to have fallen as well.

you were complete opposites. he was an introvert while you were an extrovert that could manage to strike up a conversation with anyone. you liked attending parties, he hated loud noises and clogged spaces. he was everything you weren't, yet it was astounding how fast you had managed to catch true feelings.

since then, you're lifestyle abruptly changed for the better. you went from partying at every bar in the country in one night to spending it clogged up inside your shared apartment with him. with him! sunghoon couldn't believe that you left all of that just for him. even your friends found it hard to believe at first, but when they met your sweet boyfriend, they knew you were in good hands. they had bid you farewell, cheering your relationship on.

though you've changed for him, sunghoon still can't help these thoughts that invaded his mind. every time you went out without him by your side, he thought, what if you found someone new? someone better than him and leave him? what if all of a sudden, you realise what you've been missing out on while being chained onto him?

"b-but I called you so many times! a-and a guy picked your phone up, saying that you were busy..." he says, a whimper falling from his mouth at the thought of you having someone else.

"baby," you call out with sadness, hands wanting to thread themselves with his so you can assure him. "that was my boss, honey. my phone was left on the counter when i was serving. he probably heard all your calls and picked it up." you say, booping his nose. "there's no other man, baby. there's only you."

hiccuping through his tears, sunghoon asks, "really?"

"yes, baby." you press, giving his hands a firm squeeze to shownyour sincerity. "i can prove it to you if you want. ill even tell them to open the cctv feeds."

you know sunghoon has these insecurities and so you tried everything you can to make them go away. you aren't the least bit offended that he thought you were unfaithful to him, because you knew that your boy didn't mean it in that sense. he always downplays himself. he always thinks he isn't worth it. but he is, and that's what you want to show him.

groaning, sunghoon wants to physically bury himself. feeling you wipe away the stray tears that have stained his cheek, new ones suddenly gush down at the thought of how caring you are and how much of a douche he is for assuming the worst out of such a small situation.

unable to contain his emotion, sunghoon catches you in a hug. "I'm sorry!" he apoligises mid sniffs. "i-i know you'd never do something like that. I just... I don't know why these thoughts keep coming into my head." he says, choking out a sob as he buries his face into your neck while his arms clutch you closer.

"I hate them. I want them to go away." he announces, a new found dedication pooling inside his dark eyes when he pulls away to meet you. "make them go away, please."

caressing his face with your thumb, you ask him, fully eager to help with however way you can. "what do you want me to do, honey?"

you watch sunghoons eyes shifting from your face down to your chest where his fingers fiddled with your jacket sleeve. you've come to notice the many habits your boyfriend has, and you know he does this when he's nervous or shy to ask you about something.

"will you take my virginity?" his voice is small and when he peeks up to look at your expression, and he's met with your shocked ones, he casts them away and bites his lip, too shy to maintain eye contact. "...please."

"awe but, baby." you groan, pulling his face close to yours by his neck. "are you sure that's what you want to do?"

nodding eagerly, he says, "yes, I wouldn't want anyone else to do it other than you."

you release a whine at that, feeling your restraints come lose with how he's begging you so cute and nicely. agreeing, you pull his head down to meet your lips, and fireworks suddenly erupt inside sunghoons stomach. every kiss that he has with you is electrifying and his body coils deliciously when you back him up against the wall. you press your torso against his, feeling the tent in his pants growing the more you grind yourself on it. with the hand that's on sunghoons tiny waist, you pull him forward to meet your thrusts, a breathy moan leaving your boyfriends mouth.

"I love you, baby. don't forget that." you say, lips temporarily leaving his.

sunghoon could see the change of color in your eyes, your gaze almost looking feral and it's as if you're going to eat him whole which only gets him harder because fuck, yes, please take him. "I love you too."

you hum, lips dragging against his and he tries chasing them, but you tease him everytime, making him whine.

"let's get you on the bed, yeah?" your hand goes under the black sleeping shorts he wore, caressing the plump skin of his ass. "I don't want you to have your first time here."

guiding sunghoon towards your bedroom proves to be a hard task when he doesn't want to ever disconnect his lips from you, resulting in the both of you stumbling over random objects in your way.

finally reaching your room, you turn the handle and push your boyfriend to lay on the soft mattress of your king sized bed.

feeling out of breath, sunghoon pants, chest rising as he waits in anticipation for what you'll do next. you said you were going to take his virginity, and he hopes you skip the foreplay and fuck him already.

"please, hurry." he begs, hands palming the tent in his shorts. "hurts so bad."

discarding your pants and underwear, you crawl on top of your boyfriend, sitting your wet cunt on his bare thighs. "where does it hurt, honey?"

"m-my dick." he stutters, feeling your wetness coat his skin.

"ahh, of course it does." you tease, crawling up to massage the tent in his pants in an attempt to soothe his pain and ready him for the pleasure he deserves. "cute innocent sunghoon can't keep his dick inside his pants anymore, huh? is baby tired of not getting his dick wet?"

sunghoon knows how much of a tease you are so he shouldn't be surprised at this point, but nevertheless, he whines in embarrassment, debating whether or not to throw his pride away and act like a whore or deny every allegation. the latter seemed impractical though, seeing as he is tired of being a virgin. he's had so many wet fantasies of you that there was a time where he had repeatedly woke up to cum in his pants for a straight week.

so, surrendering to his desires, he agrees, "yes..."

impressed, you nod saying, "then I shouldn't tease you anymore, shouldn't I?"

knowing what he wants is for you to go down on him, he nods eagerly. "yes! no more teasing, please. hoonie can't take it."

you make a sound of feign contemplation before finally agreeing with his words. "I guess it can't be helped. I have to satisfy my babies needs. aren't I the best girlfriend, baby?"

"mhm," he agrees cutely, eyes wide and inoocent as he watches you take his shorts off.

"will you be a good boy and grab a condom for me, pretty?" you ask, gesturing at the bedside table.

of course, sunghoon is a good boy so he does as he's told and retrieves the silver packet from your drawer. "extra large? how did you know I was... wait, why do you even have this?"

smilling at him deviously, you shrug as your hands massage the skin of his thighs, fingertips teasingly grazing his dick. "don't know. just had a guess."

at your teasing, sunghoon chooses to let go of the topic for now, wanting nothing more than to be enveloped with your warmth. he watches as you expertly retrieve the condom out of its packet, blowing onto it before rolling it onto his length.

this is the first time you've touched him there, and he can't help but release a quivered sigh at the feeling of your hands finally wrapping around where he needs you most.

pumping his length to make sure he's fully hard, you admire your baby boys dick; how it twitches when you pull your hand away, how clean he looks, and how the precum that's escaped his hole presses against the elastic. "see? fits so perfectly. I knew you were big."

"you look at my dick often?" he asks, a moment of courage passing him before it gets washed up when he sees the dark look of lust on your eyes.

your eyes don't stray away his length when you agree. finally deeming him as ready, you line your core above his length, eyes locking with his as you sink down on his whole length slowly as to let him adjust to the pleasure. sunghoon isn't able to maintain contact, the pleasure taking over him as he closes his eyes in the sensation. "yeah, been wanting to have you ever since I met you."

with heavy breaths, sunghoon watches as you begin to lift yourself off his length, only to go back down on him. it's all done in a slow pace, but sunghoon is already getting so worked up. sure, he had managed to keep his arousal at bay when you sunk down on him, but he knows that if you go any faster than this, he's going to immediately blow his load, leaving you dry and that's the last thing he wants.

"you good, baby?" you ask, small pants of your own somewhat making sunghoon proud.

"y-yeah b-but," he squeaks out, hands trying to find somewhere to grip and you notice, quickly giving him yours to hold on to. when he finds you, he grips onto you hard, trying to ground himself. "I don't t-think I'm going to last long. feels too good."

cooing, you lean down and even that small motion caused by your walls slightly tightening around his aching cock alone makes sunghoon grip your hands tighter. wanting to give him comfort, you give him a kiss on his cheek before you begin to rock your hips against his length. "its okay, baby. tonight's about you anyways. you can cum for me whenever you want."

the thought of him cumming for you already has sunghoons mind spinning and he watches your steady pace on his lap, a moan being released by him because of how good your walls feel. "y-you want my cum?"

"yeah, baby." you agree breathlessly as your stomach and heart fills with warmth. "want to feel you cum inside my pussy."

at that, sunghoon whines, head thrashing to the side at your dirty words. though he knows his cum won't be painting your walls due to the condom, the thought alone raises a wave of pleasure. "g-go faster, please. want to give you my cum."

"yeah? you're gonna give it to me, baby? you're going to fill my pussy up with your babies?" you ask, panting as you comply with his words and speed up your movements, hands staying connected with his as you plant them beside his head.

unable to form words, all sunghoon can do is clamp his eyes shut and give you fast and eratic nods, mouth too busy moaning and whimpering to be used.

you lean close to his ear, wanting him to hear every breath and whimper you make on his cock. "give it to me, hoon. wanna see how pretty you cum for mommy."

that seems to have done the trick as a few minutes later, sunghoon screams out, hips thrusting up to you as he pumps his cum into the condom. you help him ride off his high, only stopping when he hisses from over sensitivity.

watchin him pant, eyes still closed as he relishes in his first orgasm, you coo. "good boy, hoon. you did so good, baby." out of breath, sunghoon was about to thank you, but his words get cut off when he sees you taking the cum stained condom off his length, only to put the rubber inside your mouth so you can suck out all the cum that clings onto it.

CUT! hope you guys enjoyed this! make sure to like and give feedback because smut writing is hard because everytime I try to write a spicy scene, I end up getting too wet and... you know

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jae-daddy · 3 years

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Duff (4)

jaebum au series

one / two / three / four / five / six / seven / eight masterlist

pairing: im jaebum x reader genre: angst, smut, cheating, CEO! i guess too now plot: you are the duff, and guys use you to get close to your bestfriend, turns out jaebum was no exception. but as time goes on the tension between you and your bestfriend’s unoffical boyfriend grows a/n: it so late, I'm literally seeing double rn... hope y’all like it! <3 not edited.

Life is brimming with lessons that teach you how to live without being naive and a fool.

You were already taught a few lessons by life, as it made you jump through endless hoops burning with malicious flames waiting to scorch your skin at slightest touch.

So you found it fair to hold yourself as intelligent and mature.

Therefore, you trusted your conclusion to ignore whatever happened in the elevator with Im Jaebum.

What was said, what was done; none of it mattered.

An important lesson you’ve learnt is people say and do crazy things when they are riding high a shot of adrenaline.

Jaebum’s near-death experience led him to say things that he would not on a normal day. It was only because he was scared that he did. And everyone wants to die an honest man. You were certain if it were Paul in the elevator instead of you, Jaebum might have confessed something outrageous to him too.

So that was not the reason why you were staring at the two males in front of you as they spoke absolute nonsense to you. You already knew not to take what happened in that tiny metal box seriously. Instead, it was another life lesson you knew that made you stare at them as if they had grown two heads: everything has a price.

“Not everyone gets an opportunity like this, y/n,” Paul spoke, a second away from begging on his knees.

You shook your head in distaste, this was not part of the plan. Actually, there was no plan, but if you had one, this would definitely not be it. This was not how you imagined your lottery internship to turn out.

“Paul, I am flattered the company believes me to be capable of such an important role,” you breathed, trying to keep a polite smile as your eyes bounced between the bald man and the smirking jerk. “However, I do not think I would be suitable for this role. I made it clear in my internship contract that I will not have my studies affected by this opportunity. Unfortunately, being the secretary of the -”

“I’m sorry to stop you, y/n,” Paul cut you off, not apologetic at all. You bit your cheeks to hold back a sneer. “We have thought about this through, and believe it to be the best plan of action to take right now. Mr Im is new to this company and is temporary, and while we have made a public announcement, he is still on trial.

“We could get someone in a fixed-term confidential contract, but that’s too complicated.”

Your brows furrowed as you disagreed with that, but you didn't say anything.

“The remaining time left in your contract and Mr Im’s trial period match up perfectly. You already have secretarially role in the company, so you already know the ups and downs, the tricks and tips, so we really believe this is the best way. And about your studies, the summer break began last week. However, if you believe this to be in violation of your contract, we will compensate.”

“Compensate?” You rose an eyebrow, payment would be better than slaving away for free.

“Pay you, just like any other employee,” Paul smiled happily. Finally seeing some indication of interest from your side. He added, proudly, “with all employee benefits.”

You bit your lip in deep thought.

You mentally weighed the pros and cons.

There were pros, so many pros; a better resume, money, free coffee and healthcare, etc. But the con, the big con stared at you in bold, italics, highlighted in large red fonts: you’d be working for Im Jaebum.

If this was someone else you would have said yes the moment they offered it, even without the benefits. But with Im Jaebum, things got complicated.

You weren’t sure if he could maintain the professional relationship between the two of you. And if you were being completely honest, you didn’t know if you could maintain it too.

Even now, with Paul standing at one end of the table, and Jaebum settled on the long side. Your mind couldn’t help thinking about how short your skirt was, and how easy it would be for Jaebum to bend you over the wooden table, and make you a moaning mess.

It would be quite difficult to maintain professionalism when you’d be spending time alone with him. Or maybe, he would use his position to make you suffer. He might end up not coming to work at all, have you do all his work, and just show up to sign and show his face.

So much could go wrong with working for Im Jaebum.

And you also had to consider the fact that you hadn’t talked to him since the elevator incident.

You haven’t been to Heather’s place, too busy with the piled up assignments all due within the last two weeks. The twenty hours of weekly internship didn’t give you any freed up time either. You didn’t get an opportunity to see Heather, or her boyfriend, Im Jaebum, to have a talk.

“Oh come on, y/n,” Jaebum smiled at you, making your blood boil instantly. This was the first thing he said to you in the past two weeks and somehow managed to be an arrogant shit-eater when he did. Your glare didn’t make his smile falter as he sang, “It’ll be fun.”

No way. You thought. There is no way you would be able to work for that self-centred, cocky, incredibly hot jerk.

“We’ll cover your fees.” Paul stopped you before the no on the tip of your tongue tumbled out. You stared at him in shock, as he looked at you expectedly.

“My university fees?” You asked, shocked.

“Yes, all of it.” He nodded.

That’s a lot.

Your eyes fell on Jaebum who smirked at you as if he had the whole entire world at his feet's disposal, and maybe he truly did. He had something similar to that power if the company was willing to go to such extents to make him stay.

The pros were really starting to outweigh the annoying, irritating con.

“Fine,” you licked your lips, with a sigh. “I’m in.”

Paul almost jumped in his place with excitement, “Thank you, y/n! Thank you so much!”

Paul walked out swiftly muttering something about going to the HR and having a contract formed immediately. Your eyes followed him as he left, remaining on the doors that closed behind him.

You could feel his gaze burning the side of your face, and it truly felt as if you were about to combust.

“What?” You snarked, turning towards him annoyed.

Jaebum just snickered as he swirled side to side, carefree, on his chair, “Why are you always so mad, love?”

You rolled your eyes getting up, “I guess this meeting is over.”

“I didn’t dismiss you, y/n,” Jaebum said, stopping his playful actions.

“You’re not my boss until I sign that piece of paper, so,” you gave him a middle finger with a tight smile before walking out the office.

You could hear his light laughter follow you, but you ignored it.

You stopped in your tracks as you remembered something and entered the room once again. Jaebum looked up at you, surprised, before smiling brightly, “Welcome back.”

You cursed yourself for returning after such an amazing exit, but there were more pressing matters than your pride.

“Have you told Heather about what happened?” You closed the door behind you, making sure no one could hear you.

Jaebum’s eyes danced with amusement, as he shrugged, drawling, “What happened?”

“In the elevator, Jaebum,” you gritted through your teeth as you stepped closer towards him.

Jaebum’s smiled only grew as he frowned with feigned innocence, “I can’t seem to remember, maybe if you could help me remember.”

His lazy gaze fell to your lips before meeting your eyes again. A spark ignited deep inside you, and you told yourself it was anger; it was an annoyance.

You clicked your jaw as you smacked your hands onto the desk, leaning over it. Jaebum watched you, carefully, not intimidated a bit, only amused.

Your eyes narrowed at him, before you smiled sweetly, “You were holding my hand and crying like a child.”

Jaebum hissed, unaffected, as he tsked, “I can’t seem to remember that.”

“Did you tell her or not?” You groaned, your annoyance at peak.

What you would do to this man if you got a chance. He wouldn’t be smiling like that, he’d be begging you for forgiveness, for release.

Jaebum smirked as if he could read your mind, “No, I didn't.”

“Good,” you nodded, gulping as his eyes watched you with unsettling darkness. “Don’t.”

He rose his eyebrow, before nodding, “As you wish, y/n.”

You turned and felt his gaze watch you as you walked out. You felt it lower, watching your hips as it swayed side to side. Your hand gripped the cool handle as your shoulders sagged slightly.

You let out a low sigh, “Thanks.”

You disappeared behind the door before Jaebum could reply.

“Babe!” Heather sang as her long limbs fell over you loosely. You laughed, as you helped her sit straight. She leaned against you again, snuggling her face into your neck as she hugged you, “I love the way you smell, baby!”

You chuckled as you patted her red matted hair soiled with glitter and sweat at the back of the Uber, “Thanks Heather, I like how you smell too.”

“Don’t lie,” you could hear her pout, and it only made you smile. “You always make fun of my feet.”

“But that’s only after the gym or a hike, Heather,” you told her, as you brushed the hair off her face.

Heather was completely wasted tonight.

She was already drunk by the time you walked into the club. Jaebum wasn’t anywhere to be found, and you found her with a group of her “friends” that you didn’t like.

They would always make her drink too much, give her a little white sugar, and let her waste her platinum card on those low lives.

You didn’t like the way the guys would touch her as she slumped back onto the couch unable to see straight. You didn’t like the way the girls sitting around would not help her, instead, encourage her to be worse.

You were mad when you were pulling her away from the crowd and towards the bathroom when you had found Jaebum. He had just got to the club himself but was ready to leave as soon as he saw the state Heather was in.

He sat on the other side of Heather, holding her purse, as Heather held you from the middle seat.

Heather mumbled something in return and you couldn’t understand it.

“By that red letterbox is fine,” you told the Uber driver as he slowed down.

Jaebum got out first, and you helped Heather onto his back before getting out. You turned to the driver, giving him a small smile, “Thank you.”

“No problem, have a good night,” he said, already accepting a new ride.

“You too,” you said, as you closed the door. You turned to Jaebum, with Heather hanging her head over his shoulder. Her long ember curls falling down his chest as he grunted and halted her up.

“Woah, stop,” Heather moaned, heaving.

Jaebum looked at you with terror in his eyes, and you laughed at him, “Come on, let’s get this party animal into bed.”

“Is this where you live?” Jaebum asked as you led him up the small walk to the door.

You snorted and shook your head, “No, this is Heather’s home.”

Jaebum rose his eyebrows, and you continued, as you unlocked the doors,

“Her parents don’t live in this house anymore, so Heather skips between here and the apartment.”

You turned the lights on and took in the home that greeted you.

“They love sure love red, huh?” Jaebum commented, taking in the red couch, red feature wall, and red details spread over the living room and kitchen.

You laughed at that, agreeing with him. The Blacks sure did take pride in their red-haired heritage, and didn’t hide the fact that it was family’s favourite colour, “Mrs Black was going through an interior design phase.”

“Thank god it was just a phase,” Jaebum snickered, making you turn to him with a pointed look as you tried to hide the smile.

“She wasn’t too bad,” you replied and began walking towards Heather’s room.

Jaebum followed behind you, grunting as he adjusted Heather on his back, “No, she was just too red.”

You rolled your eyes as you opened her bedroom door and walked towards the bed. You pulled down the covers and Jaebum gently set her down. You took off her shoes, and earrings carefully.

Jaebum didn’t say anything and just watched you as you walked around the room getting out her nightshirt, and face-cleansing products.

“Why are you looking at me, Jaebum?” You asked, not looking at him. Instead, you pumped out the cleanser on a pad and gently took off the makeup from her face.

“Is there a problem?” Jaebum asked back, making you snort.

You gently turned her face and began the other side, “Yes, it’s making me nervous. I can feel you judging me.”

He was probably thinking what everyone else seemed to think when they saw you and Heather. They never saw the whole you both had for each other, how you would do anything for one another. All they saw was Heather in all her brilliance, beauty and wealth, and you, as her second, her side-kick.

“I’m not judging you,” he replied instantly.

Something about the way he said it made you believe him. You bit your lip, as folded the dirty make-up pads and put them on the side table.

“Then what are you doing?” You took a wet towel, wiping her face. You patted it dry and misted some toner and moisturiser. You turned back and met Jaebum’s eyes that remained on you, “Why are you looking at me?”

“There’s nothing else to look at,” he simply shrugged.

You rolled your eyes and pointed to the wall covered with photos of Heather through the years. Most of them had you in them, celebrating every holiday, and some photos from random days when the sun was shining brightly.

Jaebum stared at the wall as if noticing it for the first time. He got up and slowly walked up towards it. He took in the photos for a while, a small chuckle leaving him sometimes, “How did you two become friends?”

You smiled at the memory, “She saved me.”

You stared at your gorgeous friend, as she got up slightly. She searched around, her eyes disappearing as she smiled spotting you, “Oh, you’re here, y/n. I was going to the store on Wednesday.”

She trailed off, falling back into her pillow dozing off again.

“Her hangover is going to kill her tomorrow,” you turned to Jaebum with a tight smile, as you held up the nightshirt, “I’m going to change her.”

Jaebum instantly turned on his heels and walked out, closing the doors behind him.

You walked out to the smell of coffee and Jaebum sitting at the kitchen counter with two mugs in front of him. You furrowed your eyebrows as you settled on the chair in front of him, “Is this poisoned?”

Jaebum snorted rolling his eyes.

You blew the coffee before sipping it. It was still searing hot, so you placed it down on the counter, and turned towards Jaebum.

You took in his midnight hair pushed back, revealing his forehead. You didn’t know you could find someone’s forehead so sexy, but after seeing his hair down while he was at work, you had to admit it was hot. His piercings that were normally missing during office hours had returned too, a few missing.

You frowned your eyes focusing on his nose and eyebrows, “Why aren’t you wearing all your piercings?”

“It’s a nuisance putting it on and off,” Jaebum shrugged, before pointing to his lips, his tongue coming out to flick the sliver hoop, “Just wore my favourite.”

You held your breath, as the image of the cool metal against your lips, flicked by your tongue, gently tugged by your teeth invaded your mind. Your cheeks heated but you continued like nothing was happening to your body.

“Do you have piercings anywhere else?”

Jaebum smirked, “If you’re into pierced nipples, I can get them done for you.”

You groaned, a ridiculous smile on your face as you shook your head, “Can you ever have a conversation without being a prick?”

“A prick?” he gasped, “that’s a bit harsh. I would say I’m more of a flirt.”

“Oh, so you know? This is a conscious decision. You wake up every day and decide to be the bane of my existence.”

“I do wake up every morning and think of you,” Jaebum smiled at you. He chuckled, seeing you roll your eyes at him.

“You’re ridiculous,” you snorted. Jaebum simply shrugged, smiling.

Something beeped from the kitchen and Jaebum got up. You watched him walk over to the stove and turn it off. He reached for a mug before looking through the drawers for something.

You narrowed your eyes watching him, “What are you looking for?”

“Uh... a strainer?” He turned back to you, scratching the back his head. “I don’t know what it’s called.”

Your heart melted at how adorable he looked standing there, confused and unsure. The smile on his lips was so beautiful as he watched you, waiting for you.

“The second drawer over there,” you pointed, not looking at him as your cheeks tinted rosy again.

Jaebum murmured thanks, before using it to drain the liquid from the pot and into the cup, “It’s a hangover tea. My mum makes it for me every time I get too drunk.”

“You live with your mum?” You asked. Jaebum peered back at you a small smile on his lips.

“Yeah, but I rarely ever get to see her.”

“Why’s that?” You frowned. The way Jaebum talked about her, the lightness in his voice and the softness of his smile, told you how much he adored his mother.

Jaebum shrugged before giving you a cheeky smile, “My house is too big.”

You laughed at that. You were not expecting that at all. You heard Jaebum’s low chuckle as you sobered up.

“What about you?” He asked as placed the cup onto a tray with a glass of water and two tablets he found next to the refrigerator. “Do you live alone?”

“Yup,” you nodded, before frowning, “Not even a pet.”

“No pets?” He asked, sympathetic.

You nodded, “I’m scared of animals. It doesn’t matter what size, or how well-trained, or what the animal is. I am terrified of them all the same.”

Jaebum gasped as if you had confessed to a murder, “What is wrong with you?”

“Wow, I thought this was a safe place,” you mumbled before taking a sip from your coffee that had cooled down. You hummed at the taste, he made good coffee.

“What about your parents?” Jaebum asked, making you stiffen. “Where do they live?”

You remained quiet.

You opened your mouth to tell him what you always told anyone who asks. It wasn’t that you were embarrassed or thought it was something to hide. You didn’t want people in your business and telling them to mind their business when they asked only piked up their interest more.

So you opened your mouth to tell him what you’ve been telling everyone for the past five years, “I don’t live with them.”

Normally you would follow up with something about living here was better for your education or future jobs. You would say something, an excuse, that was reason enough for many young people to move out of their parents home. But what you said surprised you, “I don’t talk to them anymore.”

“Oh,” was all Jaebum said. “That’s cool too.”

You peered up at him with a frown. You took in his relaxed gaze, the smile on his face just like it there was a minute ago. There was no sympathy, no pity. There was no spike in interest or anything.

He really didn’t want to pry. He didn't want to know why unless you told him. He only took as much as you could allow him.

Suddenly there was an iridescent pond shimmering in your chest. It swirled, making your whole body feel alive as you took in Im Jaebum. It felt as if your entire body was one cell, one tiny speck of dust caught in the breeze of Im Jaebum, and it didn’t mind.

You gulped, your body and mind acting quicker than you could control, “They couldn’t stand the sight of at me after they found out I was still doing something I promised I wouldn’t do anymore.”

The faces of your parents appeared in front of your eyes. The shock, anger, the disappointment on their face as they found you lying in a pool of your urine and vomit. The horror in their eyes, their desperateness as they shook your body, pleading for you to reply.

“They didn't kick me out. I left,” you ran a hand through your hair, as you let out a heavy sigh. You thought of the letter you wrote them, the way they had cried when they came to the hospital to meet you during those months, “I couldn’t hurt them anymore.”

“Do you think you would ever go meet them again?” You looked up to Jaebum watching you. You were thankful for the lack of pity in his eyes as he kept his gaze on you.

You sighed again, and it came out as a little laugh, “One day I will.”

You nodded, as you met his eyes. He smiled at you softly, and you smiled back as you scrunched your nose to stop the tears from threatening you, “When I am good enough, I will.”

“I hope that day comes soon.”

You didn’t realise Jaebum had come this close to you as you were talking. He leaned against the counter between you, his eyes intently taking you in. He folded his hands on the dark marble, his face leaning half-way over the counter.

You watched him back.

He was so beautiful.

You huffed out a smile as you shook your head at him. Jaebum instantly changed, leaning back, the playfulness in his eyes glinting once again as he rose an eyebrow in question.

“You’re not too bad, you know?” You smiled at him, before adding, “When you’re acting like a normal human being at least.”

Jaebum laughed at that before giving you a mocking smirk, “You’re not too bad yourself, y/n.”

You grinned about to say thank you, when he added, “When you’re not acting like a stick is stuck up your ass at least.”

“What an asshole,” you shook your head, laughing at him.

Jaebum beamed back, his eyes shining, “What a bitch.”

You took in the dark flecks in his eyes. You noticed their velvety blackness absorbing all light around it, but something else existed in those captivating eyes of his eyes. They didn’t get dragged away into the twilight of his gaze.

Instead, it shone brightly. It glistened, it was golden, white and sparkled like a starry night. It dragged you in, it made you want to lean close to him.

It made you want to place your lips on his and see how that shimmering halo swirled as he pulled you in closer. It made you want to reach for him, to place your hand on his soft cheeks. It made you want to walk around the counter and hug him in the middle of the kitchen littered with red embellishments.

Jaebum’s smile curled into an easy smirk as he winked at you before turning around. He picked up the tray with a cup of tea, a glass of water and Panadol, as walked towards the door the red-haired beauty was sleeping in.

Everything had a price.

Somewhere deep within your heart was a corner buried so deeply in the darkness you had forgotten it existed. The room was cold, dark, and there was nothing. Nothing except for a lone candle standing in the middle of the emptiness.

There had been nothing there for an eternity, and it was almost like magic. It almost felt like a trick of the eye, but then it happened again.

A flame, a spark, flickering at the tip of the candle; it sparked again.

This time it caught on. It burned, slowly getting brighter and livelier.

You watched Jaebum disappear behind the door of Heather’s room.

A sharp ache twisted your heart as you saw his broad back enter the dark room she was sleeping in.

The flame spreading over the wick twisted in shades of ember, their shadows dancing over the room.

You saw a word, you saw a face.

You knew the price for this feeling tugging, craving to grow bigger in your heart. You walked into the room, hidden in a deep corner of your heart. The ivory trail of your dress dragged on the dusty floor, turning brown with every step.

You didn’t look at the walls, you didn’t take in the shapes of the flames.

You took sharp, clear steps. You reached the candle, the flame reflecting softly against you. You closed your eyes, took in a deep breath and exhaled, blowing out the candle.

The flame was gone.

The candle extinguished, the room engulfed in darkness, once again.

You looked to the wall, the photo was no longer there but the image there was burnt into your mind.

The price of this feeling was too expensive.

It was too precious, and you couldn’t afford it.

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kimnjss · 4 years

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get even | ksj

⤑ series: sugar free

⤑ genre: angst, rich!jin x artist!reader, college au.

⤑ rating: explicit

⤑ word count: 4.4K

⤑ warnings: humilation (it’s not a kink here tho), suggestive topics, nudity... (this lowkey pretty tame, ngl).

⤑ A/N: a little late, but i literally just finished this and did like a half ass job editing it, buuut i really wanted to get this out bc OHMYGOD (you’ll see) - don’t forget to let me know what you think, your feedback is my favorite! x

A bet. The second the words left Yuna's lips you felt your blood begin to boil. Was that what all of this was? Why Jin had been so persistent to be around you, to get you to like him... so he could win a measly 100 bucks from his friends. That was it?

You felt sick to the stomach, on the verge of screaming at the top of your lung. How could you allow yourself to be so stupid? To not be able to see past the cheap facade, protect yourself like you had done countless times before. To think you were slowly starting to melt, starting to see yourself becoming comfortable around him. Smiling a bit too wide when texting him into the late hours of the night, moving a little too fast when his name was lighting up your screen.

He had been playing you for a fool this entire time and the only thing you could think of was how could you get even. At this point, he had no idea that you were on to him. Still thought that everything was going according to his plan, boy was he wrong. You were going to get him back, flip the tables so he was the one left licking his wounds. Who the hell did he think he was?

The idea came to you a few hours after hanging up with Yuna. The anger that had blinded you earlier finally subsiding enough for you to properly check the messages that had been flooding your inbox in the time since. Most of which were from the group chat of your best friends. Making a mental note to tell Yoongi about his role in this bet as well, you immediately clicked on the latest message from Jin.

[15:59] seokjin: did you pick a movie for tonight, yet?? i saw something you might like.

Instantly you're scoffing at the reminder that you were supposed to be out with this man in a little over an hour. You had actually been looking forward to this date, a more relaxed setting where you two could truly be yourselves around each other. The hell with that now.

Quickly, you were typing back your response. Ignoring the fact that it was coming in three hours too late. He could wait. If he felt like he could use you as a ploy in this stupid game with his friends. Then he could wait a few hours for your reply.

[18:12] to seokjin: oooh, surprise me then! im getting ready right now, see you in a bit?

Rolling your eyes at your overly enthusiastic you're standing from your position on your bed, moving to your dresser to pick something to wear tonight.

When you were in your early teens and just getting to know Namjoon and his friends, not a day would go by without an argument between you and Jungkook to take place. He always felt the need to try and one-up you, always had an opinion on what you were saying, and never believed you were as smart as him.

The fact you got into your shared middle school solely on recommendation had nothing to do with his thought conclusion. Anyway, something that young Jungkook found extremely amusing was pranking. Loved the thought of tricking someone to the point of them getting upset only for him to shout: 'Relax, it's just a prank.' It was his favorite pass time, especially when you were involved.

Quickly, you were picking up on his tactics and soon enough you were able to counter all of his 'well thought out' deceptions in a way he was the one with the egg on his face in the end. Fast forward years later, you and Jungkook hardly argued as much and he found more interested in girls than pranks... but that didn't mean you forgot how to play along.

The forced learned deception would be applied tonight. How dare that boy think he could pull a fast one on you and get off scratch free? Yeah, right. There was going to be hell to pay. And you were going to make sure of it.

Despite the fact, this was only a movie date and you could pretty much dress down when sitting in a dark room for hours, what you wore held a big part of your plan for tonight. Of course, you didn't want to make it obvious that your goal was to turn heads. Something subtle but undeniably sexy that his jaw was dropping at the first sight of you.

It had been a while since you wore your bright red mini skirt and it fit tighter than you remembered. Deciding the tightness fit the theme of tonight, you're tucking your long sleeve black turtleneck into the skirt; admiring the way the form-fitting material highlights the natural curves of your body.

A large heart belt to give your waist that extra snatch and short black boots to tie it all together. Yeah, this guy is not going to know what hit him once he caught sight of you – you were sure of that much.

Makeup had never really been something that you cared a whole lot for. Loved the way a bare face felt as opposed to being caked up for hours. Tonight was an exception though, you had to play the part, right?

One short, way too detailed YouTube tutorial later, and you're being interrupted by the knock on your front door. With a final swipe of lip gloss onto your softened lips, you're moving from the mirror to answer the door.

“Oh! Are you early or am I running late?” Jin stands on the other door, a large hoodie covering his slender figure and black jeans clinging to his legs. He eyes you shamelessly, seeming to have missed the words that had just left your lips. Bingo! “Here come in, I'm almost done,” You're turning, leading him into your house acting as if you hadn't noticed the way his eyes dropped when he thought your back was too him.

Too freaking easy. Guys were too easy, it was sad.

Just for good measure, you lead him to your couch; delicate fingers wrapped around his wrist. You're gesturing him to sit with a gentle tug of his wrist and his body moves accordingly, eyes never once lifting from you.

“I'll just be another minute,” You promise, watching as he pushes a smile on his face before nodding. You make your way down the corridor and into your bedroom, honestly finished with getting ready but not against making the boy sweat for a little bit.

Ten full minutes pass by of you just sat on your bed, scrolling through your phone before you're deciding that it was time to go. Jin stands as soon as you're exiting the room, composure back in check – that familiar smug look settled on his features once again. He spares you only a single glance as if he hadn't been full-on drooling when you first had opened the door.

“You ready?” His voice sounds deeper than you remember and you can't help but wonder if he was forcing it in hopes to impress you. Not caring much to mull over the question, you're nodding your head. The heels of your boots clack against the hardwood floor as you move to meet his side.

Jin thoughtlessly slides his arm around your waist, a simple gesture that pulls an annoying reaction from you. He leads you out of the front door, waiting patiently on the steps as you lock up.

“No, Minho?” You're asking, noticing the absence of the shiny SUV parked on the curb. Jin is shaking his head, digging into his front pockets for something you can only assume is a key due to the metallic jingle filling your ears. “Gave him the night off... it's just me and you,” He grins and you smile back, of course, your master plan in mind and in no way a natural reaction to the sight of his contagious smile.

He's pulling a silver key from his pocket, clicking the remote and you nearly jump at the sound of the beep. Bright lights illuminating the headlights of the sport's car parked just a few feet from your building. “Is that your car!?” Wondering out loud and neglecting to check the excitement in your tone.

Jin watches with a knowing grin as you make your way over to the vehicle, cautious palms sliding over the fresh paint. You couldn't believe what you were staring at. A 2019 Alfa Romeo Giulia in the shade midnight black; an all-red leather interior... were you going to be sitting in that? This was what he was going to be taking you to the movies in?

“It's nice, right? Got it for my birthday last year... a little bored of it now, though.” You hear the cocky tone of his voice, the 'I'm-so-much-richer-than-you' twang that has your blood boiling. With a roll of your eyes, hands now stiff and dropping to your side you step back.

“It's alright,” You say with a shrug, pulling the passenger's side door open and sliding in before he even has the chance to reach for it. No point in keeping up with his fake gentlemen facade, you could very well open your own doors.

Despite your slight shift in mood, Jin is still smiling. Not thinking twice about you not letting him open up the door you and sliding in on his side. Instantly, he's pulling his seat belt on; twisting the key in the ignition and you melt at the hum of the engine coming to life.

“What's the movie you picked?” You're asking as a few moments of silence passed, the only sound that had filled the car in the past eight minutes was the radio that he liked to keep on low for some reason.

His gaze is shooting in your direction, eyes wide as if he hadn't expected to hear your voice just then. You offer up a gentle smile, blinking your eyes cutely up at him as you wait for his response. Jin's adam's apple bobs as he turns his attention back onto the road.

“It. Have you already gone? It came out a few weeks ago,”

You're shaking your head, ignoring the fact that if you had been the one to choose the movie for tonight – that would have been your choice. Even if you had already seen it, horror films were at the top of your list of faves... which was weird, because you had it on pretty good standing that Jin wasn't into scary movies.

Either way, it wasn't like you planned on having him pay all that much attention to the movie in the first place.

As expected, Jin paid for both your ticket and his. He purchased a large bucket of popcorn for the two of you to share and a couple of drinks to counter to salty effects of the treat. What a shame he was actually a douche bag, otherwise you would've swooned at his catering.

Seats smartly chosen in the back row, where you could see the entire movie screen clearly but avoid being spotted by the other moviegoers. With the risk of being obvious, you lifted the armrest that divided your two seats long before the movie had started. Forty minutes in and several popcorn jerking jumps after, you were taking advantage of your early decision.

“It's a bit cold in here, don't you think?” You spoke with a pout, eyes lifting to grasp his attention. He was staring at you, head shaking in a nod and you could tell he was searching his mind for ways to make you more comfortable. How sweet. “Should we sit a bit closer?” Voice laced with velvet, you're already scooting over the gap before he can disagree.

Not like he planned to, the moment Jin's realizing what's going on; he's moving to close any left space between you two. His arm lifting to wrap around your shoulders as he tucks your body into his side. The movement so fluid and natural that you can't help but wonder how many times he's pulled the same move – no prompting needed.

A few moments passed with your body cradled in his arms, his warmth surrounding you, and the strong scent of his cologne intoxicating you. You had noticed this the first time the two of you went out, Jin was well put together in his clothes and he always smelt so good. Not sure what it was, but the way that he smelt never failed to make your stomach flip.

But it wasn't the time for that. Right now, it was time to put your perfect revenge plan into action. Delicately, the tips of his fingers ran over the swell of his chest, admiring the way the muscle felt underneath your digits. Dropping your hand lower, you spread your palm against his abs.

He had been so invested in the movie during your initial contact, that he hadn't noticed the feeling of your fingers on his chest... or chose not to acknowledge it. Now that you were tracing the ridges of his abs, his eyes were on you, slightly wide as he tried to figure exactly what you were playing at.

You shot him an innocent smile, the tip of your index finger running over the curve of his bellybutton. Flinching at the contact, he blinked hard; breath caught in his throat as he waited. “I never knew you were so... strong,” Voice coming out in a purr, the tip of your finger trailing up the middle of his stomach.

Jin visibly gulped, confusion dancing over his brow as he shifted beside you. Not sure how to react to your sudden shift in behavior. You didn't care to slow down, to explain it to him – this was what he wanted, right?

“I'm finding it so hard to pay attention to the movie,” Scooting closer to him, your hand drops down onto his thigh. Giving the muscle a light squeeze as you lean your body up, lips inches from his pink ears. “Do you want to know why?” You whispered, lips gently brushing over his lobe.

“W-why?” He cleared his throat, fidgeting in his seat; trying to avoid looking in your direction. If he was to turn his head, your lips would be mere inches apart. Just a simple twitch forward and you'd be kissing. No way he'd be able to keep his cool if that were to happen, so he kept his gaze forward. Not risking it.

Fine with you, you weren't done playing. Thumb rubbing circles into the fabric of his pants, mouth closing around his earlobe. You felt him shudder, making a smirk rise on your lips. “I can't stop thinking about you... all the things we could be doing instead of being cooped up in here...”

Jin was no fool, not the one to waste any time. If you were acting like this, saying that you were down there was no way he was going to pass up an opportunity like this. He'd just catch the movie when it came out on Netflix. “Should we go then?” He's mustering up all the courage he can manage to turn his head, dark eyes finding yours in the dim-lit room.

A bit surprised with his quick agreement, you're not letting it show on your face. You're grinning at his words, standing from your seat, and taking hold of his hand. Jin allows you to pull him up from his seated position, his hand landing on your hip. “Wait, slow down.” He's whispering, being considerate to the people scattered you.

“You sure?” Head nodding before you had a chance to mull over his thought process in checking up at you. Reaching for his free hand, you're wiggling out of his grasp and tugging him behind you out of the theater.

Both of you moving so fast, laughter slipping past his lips at your haste and you can't help but join in. You can feel the gaze of the people around you, but you don't care. Don't even bother to present an apology too wrapped up in enjoying yourself and trying to push away the warmth rising in your chest. Now wasn't the time for that.

Jin's stopping you the second the cool night air is hitting your exposed skin. His hand twisting in your grasp until he's able to take hold of your hand. Easily, he's pulling your body into his and flashing you that heart-stopping smile of his. Chests pressed together, breaths mixing and you hadn't realized you had been breathing so heavily before.

Your heart hammers against your chest as you stare up at him, his eyes searching yours. He's slow with the way he closes the negative space between the two of you, his hands lifting to cup your cheeks. And he's leaning in, lips finding yours... the smile breaking onto your lips before you have the chance to fight it.

He's kissing you so slowly and delicately as if you were made of glass. Hands cool against your heated cheeks and you can feel his smile over your mouth. It was all becoming too much, your heart getting too involved over a stupid kiss... this was not part of the plan!

You're pulling away at the feeling of his thumbs brushing against your cheeks, looking up at him with your lip caught between your teeth; trying to look as sexy as possible in this situation. “Come on, we'll have much more fun once we're alone...” Discreet in the way you gesture to the family of five that were making their way into the theater.

Jin's following you without a word, the grin never falling from his plump lips. He's leading you this time, quick steps are taken to his car where he opens your door for you. You get comfortable against the seats, watching as he jogs around to the other side to slide in beside you.

All giddy and smiley, excited that he was about to get some. That he was about to win this stupid bet he and his friends thought would be a good idea... boy, he had no idea what was coming.

Thick laughter leaves your lips as you stumble into your bedroom with tangled feet. Jin's lips haven't left your skin since you were pushing your front door shut, fingers gripping at your hips, eagerly drumming at the exposed skin. He's turning your body to gently push you back against the door, lips dropping to capture yours.

“Don't think... I'll... get tired, of kissing you,” He breaths out deeply, sentence carelessly strewn together his sole focus was the way he was moving his tongue in your mouth. And a skillful tongue it was, too bad this couldn't go all that far – you'd love to know how that tongue in other places...

You're kissing him back with just as much fervor, hands sliding down the front of his shirt until you can grip the hem of the shirt. Slowly you drag it up, inch by inch revealing his well worked on torso to ghosts of your bedroom. He's pulling back then, hands reaching for yours to assist you in his disrobing.

A moment is spared to admire just what he had been hiding underneath all that fabric. Oh, what a shame... Leaning on your toes, you're taking his lips in another lingering kiss careful not to push too far. Plan would go to shit if you were allowing yourself to get lost in his soft kisses.

Easily, you move from your position against the door. Jin watches you the entire short walk to your bed, body turning so he can get a better look at you. You make a show of the way you climb toward your headboard, bare legs crossed as you look up at him. Beckoning him over with your finger, Jin is quick to spring to action, all but running over to the edge of your bed.

He's waiting, noticing how you stopped him just before he was about to climb into bed right on top of you. If only. What a shame. Jin's eyes drop to your thighs, catching the way you rub them together as your teeth nibble at your lower lip. “Take your pants off,” The command coming out whiner than you had hoped but Jin's hands are quick. His eyes on you the whole time he's unfastening his belt and dropping his pants to his ankles.

You're careful not to let your eyes bulge at the sight of the size of his erection, straining against his boxers and just begging for some attention. A rub. A suck. Something. If circumstances were different, you would've been on your knees by now. Begging for a taste. What a shame.

“These too,” The finger you had began to nibble at falls from your mouth, arm extending until you're able to reach him. You trace the tip of your finger over his covered shaft because, fuck... you can't help yourself.

Jin shudders, mouth dropping and you can swear you see his dick twitch underneath the fabric. “You're fucking perfect.” He groans, quick to pull his bottoms down his legs, not even reacting to the way his cock bobs free, slapping against his hipbone. Fuck, he was huge, unbelievably thick, and beautifully veiny. Whoever said God was fair...

Swinging your legs toward the edge of the bed, you're reaching for his hip; pulling his body toward you gently. Forcing your eyes from his pretty cock up to his face. Ignoring the urge to wrap your lips around the tip, just a taste. That couldn't hurt, right? “You think I'm perfect?” There's sincerity in your voice, still not over the initial shock felt when the compliment was falling from his lips.

You couldn't lose your head now, though. Not when you were already so close to your goal. Jin is nodding his head without a second thought and you're grinning, leaning back just a bit so you can get a better look at his face.

“Worth a hundred bucks?”

His eyes turn to moons the moment your words are registering. “W-what? How do you... how do you know about that?” He's stepping back just as you're shooting up from your bed.

“What do you mean how do I know!? How could you try to humiliate me like that!?” You had spent so much time planning and re-planning your revenge that you hadn't put any time into thinking of what you were going to say once the jig was up. Mostly because you were so hurt by what he had done and you couldn't think of a way to express that without punching him a good one.

“I mean-,” You're moving around the room, collecting the clothes that he had carelessly thrown down in the mindset he was going to become a richer man tonight. “Who even does something like that!? Is making a quick buck really that important to you?” You felt yourself holding back, wanted to ask how dare he make you like him just to turn out to be like any other guy.

No way were you going to let him know that his stupid prank was working in any way, though. Keeping the little fact that you were falling for it to yourself was best. “It wasn't like that, Yn! Really.” He's half trying to explain himself to you and half focused on just what the hell you're doing with his clothes. Large hand covering his junk, no longer feeling confident in his nudity.

“Then what was it like, Jin?” You're turning, quick, not realizing that he had been standing right behind you. “Because from what I understand is that you and your friends thought it would be fun to put a price tag on my sex life and who knows how many other girls you're fucking with,” That, had been something that you forced yourself not to consider... but not the words were falling from your lips and realization was hitting.

“It's just you! I mean... please, just hear me out. There aren't any other girls, and-,” You're cutting him off with a lift of his hand. Not really in the mood to be lied to. So ready to get him out of your face so you could be alone with all that you were feeling. “I don't want to hear it. I really don't. You're disgusting, Seokjin.” Your last words are delivered slowly and with your eyes staring into his.

“Yn-” He starts, but stops when he notices your backward steps toward your bedroom window. You push it open without any strain, lifting his clothes. “W-wait, what are you doing!?” He looks panicked as you toss his clothes out of the window, slamming it shut after you see them hit the ground.

“Why would you go and do something like that!?” He's pissed, you can tell... but you don't care. You're done with him. Gave him the thirty seconds of distraught that he earned and now you were over it. For the most part. You'd work it out. It hadn't been that long since the two of you started hanging out. It wouldn't be that hard to get your shit together.

“Hm, I wonder.” You mock with a roll of your eyes, you're passing him crossing your bedroom to reach your bathroom. “You can let yourself out,” There finality in your tone and you mean it, not bothered if you never saw him again after this.

“You're not even going to let me explain?” He sure is talkative for a dude clutching his junk while his designer garments soaked in mud. “There's nothing to explain. Get out.” There's a droop in his shoulders following the sternness of your words. He's making his way toward your door with slow steps and you feel your heart crunch.

Hated that it had to be like that, that he had to be like the rest of them. That you even bothered to give him a chance in the first place. It was so clear to you in the beginning, but you thought to give him the benefit of doubt, wanted him to be different... everyone was the same.

“To think I was starting to change my opinion about you,” The words slip without your full intention. He's turning to look at you, but you're quick with the way you pull the bathroom door shut. Not having it in you to actually watch him walk out.

– rich, spoiled and a bit of a womanizer. but underneath all of that, there’s a heart of gold. and no matter how determined she is to reject him, he won’t stop trying until she sees he’s kinda sweet.

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chil2de · 3 years

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It’s fine love, take your time with the responses 💕Yeah I heard he’s taking a break but he left things on a cliffhanger?!?! You have my sympathies. My sister was telling me about a flashback arc involving gojo and geto and I am pretty excited about that

No I get what you mean about gojo, I like him and I definitely wouldn’t say no to him in bed but… there’s just others that I like more. I haven’t even met yuuta yet but you make him sound so sweet 🥺🥺 I’m ready to protect this precious boy with my life

Just looked up naoya and you’re right, he’s so hot. Why do they make the assholes so goddamn pretty? From what you’ve told me and the pictures I’ve seen the song ‘quit’ by cashmere cat and Ariana grande seems like the perfect way to describe how I’ll feel about him (it could probably apply to toji as well)

Side note: I read some of the stuff you wrote for akaashi last night… babe they were all so good!!! God he’s so soft and you write him so well. Definitely sending in some requests for him once I finish my reread. You mentioned that you were planning a second part for ‘you’re lovesick, not homesick’ and I know this was months ago but are you still planning that? It’s fine if you’re not cause the first part was so amazing on its own

Oh the heels are no big, I wear them so often that now they’re kinda comfortable and only hurt when they’re new. But I get what you’re saying about them making your feet sore, when I first started wearing them a few years ago I was in so much pain. Hey I’m more than happy to help you get through all those sweets as long as you’re okay with me treating you to a spa day (this has become a game of ‘you hang up first’ and I refuse to hang up first but I am running out of things to say so you might win this one) - 🥰

aaaaa sorry this came so late dhfhfhsh i swear i posted this last night but perhaps not?? anyways hi again! it’s for his physical health i’m pretty sure he’s overworked considering the latest chapter was extremely sketchy and rushed. the gojo arc is *chefs kiss* despite us both stating he’s not our favourite, but i think with that one i started liking him a lot more

i kid you not when you said quit by cashmere cat i started BARKING i love that song so much! i mean it has views on yt but it’s severely underrated, considering ariana anyway and you’re so so right! i actually had the exact thought when toji and naoya were introduced, realistically irl they’re probably both the worst men you could get with LMFAO but... they’re just, built different? this is one of the many reasons why i kin yuuta so much, i’d get along with him and itadori so well it’s the crackhead energy sometimes ig

edit : the song that resonates with toji the most for me is wicked games by the weeknd, it’s literally.. made.. for him. i can’t fathom it, the lyrics were literally FOR HIM there’s a mention of scars and well, toji has a scar on his mouth + mental trauma

i haven’t written haikyuu for moooonths, seriously it feels like a whole millenia.. but i’m really glad that you liked my take on akaashi! he’s just so precious!!! protect him and yuuta at all costs i would trust both of them with my drinks at a party

i apologise dearly for cackling HAHAH but yea! i started writing the second part and kinda left it, i’m not sure why? it’s just one of those where i’d open up the document, stare at it thinking before leaving it to work on something else. this actually happened recently, and now i have a nsfw 4.5k word fic for takasugi sitting in my google docs that i just can’t bring about to polishing and finishing it off. i’ll try again tonight see if anything pops up, partially because there’s just so many characters that i can choose from as a whole across every fandom that it can get a little overwhelming, but i’ll be fine! pinky promise!

(hey though what if we pull a reverse psychology and just.. don’t hang up? you know? like those posts that are clearly edited to show someone being on a phone call for a year, except it’s real😳😳 okay no im joking HAHA my creative liberties have run up the wall, or maybe i’m just letting you win this one.. i’ll say the latter, take the win for yourself baby <3)

#added an edit b sure to read it if you havent already #in this post i mean aaa #thank u for the sweets and spa day tho <3 #i made a cake yesterday i saved u a slice <3 it’s chocolate tho

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softyoongiionly · 5 years

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Fear and Dumplings: Chapter Twelve

Confronting your fears for a final grade sounds unappealing but, with Yoongi as your partner, things might not be so bad.

Summary: You’re in your final semester at University when your Abnormal Psychology professor assigns you a partnered project surrounding your greatest fears. Lucky for you, your partner just so happens to be a cute boy named Min Yoongi.

Pairing: Min Yoongi x Reader

Genre: Underground Rapper! Yoongi, Soft!!! Yoongi, Fluff!!!, some moderate angst (later), smut (later later), slow-ish? burn.

Word Count: 7.1k

A/N: Friends...this was ALOT. I didn’t edit it too much cause I was so excited to get it out to you so, please forgive any typos. I hope you like it!

Warnings for this Chapter: language, smut, mentions of anxiety/ insecurity, DID I MENTION THERE WAS SMUT OH MY GOD IM ON FIRE

Warnings for the Fic: mentions characters confronting their fears, characters in uncomfortable situations, emotional moments between characters, mentions of bad parenting, explicit language throughout the fic, moderate angst, and very explicit smut later in the story.

Chapter 12: Pain and Pillow Talk

“Did you talk to him?”

Yoongi shifts on the lawn chair, gnawing on his bottom lip. He looks nervous.

“Uh…yeah I did. I hope that’s ok, I know it wasn’t really my place, I just…”

Your brows furrow as you place a hand on his thigh, the arm rests from your chairs touching one another.

“Whatever you guys talked about, must have worked. I walked by the bedroom after I went pee and, I heard noises that I could have lived the rest of my life without hearing.” You laugh and, Yoongi’s posture softens, chuckling along with you. His hand moves to rest on top of yours, nimble fingers curling under your own.

Yoongi cat eyes flit to yours, a nervous smile pulling at the corner of his mouth, “Jungkook and I, share the same…uh situation.”

“Do you have a crush on Jimin too? Cause seriously, if you do, I won’t be mad, just know that half of this city has a crush on him so, the competition might be a little rough.”

You smirk, eyes holding his, biting your lip in an attempt to reign in your laughter. Yoongi snorts, relaxing further as he shakes his head.

“No, I’m a little preoccupied with another crush I’ve been dealing with, thank you very much,” He answers quickly, eyes narrowed and accusing as they point directly at you. His answer makes you want to kiss him. Although, most things he does make you want to kiss him. “But uh…Jungkook and I both like…everyone, regardless of, gender or…anything like that…”

You throw your teasing smile out of the window, eyes softening as you squeeze his hand gently. It touched you that Yoongi felt comfortable enough with you to discuss his sexuality and, you wanted to ensure that you handled the information with respect.

“I’m really happy you decided to share this with me, it means a lot. Thank you.” You lean over to kiss his cheek and, the soft skin quickly heats up at the brush of your lips.

Yoongi looks slightly confused, his eyes narrowing again as he regards you carefully.

“What?” You giggle under his gaze, your fingers interlacing with his, shaking his hand lightly.

“You don’t think it’s like…weird or anything?”

“Weird? Of course not. First of all, your sexuality is 100% valid, 100% of the time and, there is nothing to be weirded out by. Second of all, my two childhood best friends are currently having sex upstairs so; my ability to be shocked is kind of lost to me right now.”

Yoongi smiles then, a chuckle breaking past his lips as he nods, “That’s fair. Well…thank you, for being cool about it. I’ve usually had to do more explaining in the past or, sometimes, people aren’t as uh…cool about it.”

There is some pain in his eyes as he finishes his sentence but, you refrain from pointing it out, choosing instead to squeeze his hand again.

“You can talk to me about it as much as you want but, only if you want to. I’m always here either way…” You assure him and, Yoongi leans in suddenly, pressing a soft kiss to your lips. You smile into it, leaning against him before he pulls away, his eyes containing a renewed softness.

“Thank you…seriously.”

You’re still sort of smiling as he pulls away, nodding your head in acknowledgement, “You’re welcome.”

He smirks, looking at you for a moment before his hand comes up to scratch behind his neck. He directs his gaze towards the rest of the party that had yet to settle down.

Your phone vibrates in your pocket and, you move quickly to retrieve it from your pocket, hoping to receive some sort of update from your friends.

BROS FOR LYFE (JIMIN): Kookie and I are gonna stay at my place tonight, is that ok with you guys?

A smirk is on your lips as you see the text come through.

Guess the time they had in the bedroom wasn’t enough.

BROS FOR LYFE: It’s ok as long as you guys aren’t driving.

BROS FOR LYFE (Jungkook): We’ll get an Uber, Mom, don’t worry.

BROS FOR LYFE: then, you’re good. Have fun ;)

BROS FOR LYFE: wait, where’s Tae? Aren’t you guys supposed to be driving back in the morning?

BROS FOR LYFE (JIMIN): We saw him on the way out of the room; he was heading into another room with some girl.

BROS FOR LYFE (Jungkook): They were making out, it was really gross.

Shaking your head, you respond, your brows rising

BROS FOR LYFE: I’ll call an Uber too

BROS FOR LYFE (JIMIN): Noooo Y/N just come with us, it’s ok, we can have them stop at your place first, or you can stay at mine

BROS FOR LYFE (Jungkook): Or you can stay at yours…

You giggle at that, knowing damn well that staying under Jimin’s roof would be a bad idea.

BROS FOR LYFE: It’s ok guys, I’m still hanging out with Yoongi and, I don’t know when he’s planning on leaving. Also, I can take a hint Kook, I’ll find my own way tonight but, like, you two have fun. Just try and remember that Jimin’s neighbor is a sweet old woman named Helen who would probably have a heart attack if she heard what I heard earlier.

BROS FOR LYFE (Jungkook): lmao get rekt Helen

BROS FOR LYFE (JIMIN): Helen is a freak Y/N, she’s hit on me ever since I moved in.

“Everything ok?” Yoongi’s looking at you curiously, smirking as he notices you giggling to yourself.

You bring your attention to his; still laughing lightly as you nod to your phone, “My friends are abandoning me…”

“Wait why?” Yoongi chuckles, eyes darting to the upstairs bedroom momentarily. “Did they not…finish up yet?”

“Apparently not. Tae was our DD but, he’s upstairs too…doing god knows what.”

Yoongi shakes his head, smirking in disbelief before he brings his gaze back to yours, a slight hint of nervousness appearing in his chocolate eyes. “I can take you home, or you can…stay at mine, we live really close. It’s up to you…”

A smile finds your lips, giddiness swirling in your chest as you cock your head, trying to play it cool.

“Do you want me to stay the night Yoongi?” Your tone shifts lower to tease him, your knee nudging against his causing him to roll his eyes. Pink cheeks always give him away though and, you bite your lip, enjoying the affect you have on one another.

Pursing his lips, he smirks, trying to contain a much bigger smile. He’s still trying to play it cool too, even after everything that’s happened between the two of you.

“You can, if you want to.” He insists, almost defiantly, nudging your knee back.

“Do you have to wait till your friends leave?”

He shakes his head, eyes wandering over the rest of the backyard, which was still displaying dozens of party goers, “No, Namjoon and Hoseok drove separate, we followed each other here, cause I couldn’t remember where this place was…”

“Alright, you ready to go then? Or did you want to stay and hang out for a bit?”

Yoongi stomach does somersaults as he looks toward the door eagerly, his head shaking, “No, I’m ready….are you, staying with me? Or am I taking you home?”

You smile, starting to stand up, brushing your hands on your jeans before turning towards him, offering a hand to him, “I’ll stay with you,”

Yoongi’s stomach could have joined the Olympics at this point but, ever the cool guy, he tried his best to refrain from literally jumping for joy.

He smiles ( :] ) taking your hand, interlacing your fingers with his as he lets you lead him out of the party.

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“You came on a good night,” Yoongi explains, as he’s unlocking his front door, smirking slightly as he turns back to you, the door cracking open. “Normally, this place is a disaster but, Hoseok had a girl over the other night and, actually decided to clean up for once.”

You giggle, nodding in understanding as Yoongi leads the two of you inside, “Is he the messy one?”

Yoongi snorts, nodding, “Yes, in more ways than one…”

You snicker, stepping through the threshold, your eyes scanning your surroundings. The house was pretty nice. The walls were painted white and littered with various photos full of the three men who lived in the house and, what you assumed was their families. As the two of you walk passed the front hall, you enter the living room which displayed a giant flat screen and, a black U-shaped couch that essentially took up most of the room. To your left, Yoongi pointed out the kitchen, complete with modern appliances and barstools at the front of the island. You wondered how they ended up in such a nice house but, you decided it wasn’t really your place to ask but, it was certainly an upgrade from your tiny apartment.

“My room is over here but, you’re uh…welcome to sleep out here too if you feel more comfortable, it’s up to you.”

Yoongi sounded nervous, far more nervous than you’ve heard from him in a while. You turn towards him, smiling softly, taking his hand in yours, “As comfortable as the couch looks, I think I’d rather sleep in your room, with you, if that’s ok…”

He relaxes slightly but, only slightly, his furrowed brow smoothing out as he returns your smile, his fingers lacing with yours once again.

“It’s right down the hall here,” Yoongi gestures to a hallway that extends from the living room, still holding your hand as he leads the way. He’s eager as all hell but, to you, he seems relatively relaxed.

The thing is, Yoongi had never had anyone he liked in his room before. This was mainly due to the fact that the last real crush he had was in high school and, Yoongi was far too terrified to talk to him. So, as far as romance goes, Yoongi is like brand new in this department, he doesn’t know what he’s doing and, he’s really afraid he’s going to mess things up. The last person who slept in his bed was Hoseok and, even then, Yoongi never really developed feelings. For the longest time, Yoongi assumed he would end up alone. He was fine with that. Then, you came along and, quite frankly fucked him all the way up, both figuratively and literally (lmao). He’s really trying to take things slow but, it’s difficult when you keep doing and saying all the right things. Yoongi feels comfortable messing around and, pretending like everything is SUPER CHILL but, deep down, he’s desperately trying to suppress the fact that he’s falling for you. Hard.

He opens the door to his bedroom, ushering you inside, hoping to god that you can’t hear how fast his heart his beating. You smile as soon as he turns the light on, revealing the room to you. The first thing you notice is the smell, clean laundry, you weren’t sure if his detergent was just potent or if he had an air freshener somewhere but, either way, his room smelled amazing. He steps in behind you closing his door softly, biting his lip as he watches you scan the room. Yoongi’s room is tidy, everything in it’s place. Black shelving adorns his walls, holding various photos and, sports memorabilia, his bed is covered in a fluffy black duvet that looked ridiculously inviting at the moment. A desk sits in the corner of the room, holding a big monitor and several synth pads and speakers. In front of the desk sits a computer chair that has a jersey hanging on the back, Agust D stitched into the material.

You turn back to Yoongi smiling, feeling his nervous energy, “Do you make music in here too?”

He nods, shifting in his stance slightly as he moves toward you, his eyes flitting to his desk, “Sometimes yeah, I can’t always afford studio time but, I have everything I need right here. It’s just better to work at the studio; they have all the equipment I prefer working with…”

You shuffle over to his desk, careful not to touch anything cause like, this is his passion and, if you broke something you would be mortified. Fondness is practically screaming in your chest as you notice a few characters on Yoongi’s desk: some from cartoon shows, some from basketball teams.

“Did you make the beat that you rapped to?”

He nods again, moving to sit sort of awkwardly on the corner of his bed.

“Yeah it was a beat I had for a long time but, I kept toying with it until I finally got something I liked…”

Turning away from Yoongi’s desk, you move to set your purse on one of his nightstands.

“I really hope you keep at it, you’re so talented it’s insane. I’m surprised you haven’t put your stuff out there…”

He blushes, shying away from your compliment as he picks at the skin around his fingertips.

“Stop,” He chuckles, looking over at you, “…it’s just a stupid beat I made.”

Your eyes widen incredulously, “Yoongi…nothing about your music is stupid like, honestly you were so good. You’re definitely in the right field…you had me swooning over you and shit, it was embarrassing.” You giggle and, Yoongi’s brows raise, a smirk on his lips as he cocks his head.

“You were just checking me out the whole time? How do you know the music was even good then?” He teases, his heart swelling 2000 times bigger at your praise.

You chuck a pillow at him, giggling, “First of all, I check you out all the time so, that wouldn’t have affected my judgement, second of all, if you released a mixtape, I would be the first person to buy it and, that’s not just because I like you, it’s because, your song was that good.”

Yoongi chuckles, looking away from you for a moment, his eyes shifting around, trying to figure out his response, he sighs and then looks back you, a renewed sense of softness in his gaze,

“Thank you, that’s uh…that’s really kind of you to say.”

“You’re welcome…Agust D…” You break the slightest bit of tension, a smile on your face as you move to the button of your jeans, undoing them before starting to shimmy out of them. Yoongi snorts at your comment but, honestly, your praise renewed something in him that he hadn’t felt in a long time.

Maybe he would release his mixtape….

“I hate wearing jeans…” You mutter, brow furrowed as you struggle to tug them down your legs.

Yoongi feels another sensation stirring in his pants as he sees the lace of your underwear. Images of the last time the two of you were together playing on a loop in his head as he he looks away from you again, frustrated at how easily you could fluster him.

You managed to get your jeans off before slipping your bra out of your Team Jungkook t-shirt. The clothes were folded and set on the floor before you turn your attention back to Yoongi.

“Are you ok?” You prod gently, confused at why he was avoiding your gaze.

He sighs, nodding as he turns back to you, averting his gaze from your underwear, “I’m good I…I uh normally sleep in just my boxers, if that’s cool with you...”

“Yeah, of course…” You trail off, not convinced by his answer.

He’s nervous. You could feel it in the air of his bedroom, his tension radiating off of his body.

“Let me…uh,” He starts, trying to speak over the lump in his throat as he stands, pulling his jacket off before his finger pinch the neck of his t-shirt and pull it over his head. You’ve obviously seen Yoongi without his shirt on before but, there was something about it that really got you. He had a bit of a tummy and, you honestly had to resist the urge to pinch it. You busy yourself with pulling his duvet back, stealing a glance or too towards him in the process. He pulls down his jeans, bending down momentarily to collect his clothes off of the floor to throw them into his laundry basket.

“The remote is on the nightstand if you want to turn the TV on, I have Netflix…” He murmurs, padding over to his dresser to take his jewelry off.

Why is that attractive? Why are you still staring at him?

Turn the damn TV on…

“Should we finish the dragon documentary? That should put us right to sleep…” You joke, your thumb pressing on the power button of the remote.

Yoongi chuckles, turning towards you momentarily, “No.”

You laugh in return, his smile lingering on his mouth as he turns back around to finish what he’s doing.

“Your loss, dragons are the #1 sleeptime aid in the world…”

“Shut up.” He chuckles again, finally feeling himself relax as he turns back towards you.

Yoongi is going to die.

That’s it, that’s the final straw.

When he spots you, cozied up, underneath HIS duvet, on HIS bed, in HIS room, he literally feels his heart being assaulted in his chest. Your eyes are narrowed in concentration as you browse Netflix, not noticing Yoongi’s minor breakdown in the corner of the room. Subconsciously, you use your free hand to push back the duvet, inviting Yoongi to the spot next to you. He sighs, heart choking in his chest as he makes his way over to the bed, he pauses near the light switch, hesitating slightly, looking over at you.

“Is it ok if I turn the lights off? Or do you need them on?”

Yoongi sleeps in absolute darkness and, knows very well that, if he has to leave the lights on, he will probably have some serious trouble falling and staying asleep. However, he knew of one of your greatest fears and, he would rather deal with a sleepless night, than deal with you feeling afraid.

“Oh yeah, go ahead, I don’t sleep with the lights on, I just have some source of light, like my laptop or my TV or something….” You smile mid-sentence, your gaze moving to his, “Thank you though…”

Yoongi nods, returning your smile before flicking off the lights and, approaching the bed. There’s a stirring in your chest as he slides in beside you, heat radiating off of his body as he does. Yoongi feels his anxiety rising once again, unsure of how to deal with all of the feelings inside of him. He wants to hold you, of course he does but, he’s not sure how you feel about him. The two of you were having sex quite a bit, sex that was so good that it left an impression on him.

He knows you like him but, how much? What if you were just having fun?

What if you didn’t feel the same? What if he was just a good time to you? Were you like that? What if-oh…

You move towards him during his internal crisis, your body, soft and sweet smelling, tucks into his. He feels goosebumps form on his arms as your hair touches his bare chest, the annoying organ under his sternum asserting itself once again.

The increase in Yoongi’s heartrate didn’t go unnoticed. You felt it against your cheek as you snuggled into him, a soft smile on your lips. It was hard for you to understand why you affected Yoongi this way; he always seemed so calm and collected. You knew differently however, you knew he was always feeling more than he let on.

“Comfy?” You murmur to him, as your hand rubs gently against his ribs, attempting to reign in his nerves.

Yoongi is annoyed with himself, he doesn’t understand why he reacts so wildly to your touch.

“I…no…I’m sorry, I’m not…” He stutters, cursing himself for making this otherwise sweet moment, incredibly awkward.

Your heart sinks slightly and, you pull away from him, sitting cross legged in the center of the bed, eyes widened in surprise.

“Shit…I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have assumed you wanted…I’m sorry I made you uncomfortable…” You amend, feeling your cheeks heating up in embarrassment.

Yoongi joins you in sitting up, his face twisted in discomfort, he reaches for you then, placing his hand on yours as he shakes his head.

“No…no, it’s not you, you didn’t do anything wrong, I’m just…fuck, I’m sorry…” He wipes a hand over his face and, his cheeks are on fire at this point. “You did nothing wrong, it’s my fault…I’m the one being awkward.”

You accept his hand, your head tilting curiously but, you stay silent, knowing he had more to say.

“I’m not normally like this…I,” He sighs, his free handing wiping over his face, “Everytime I’m around you, I feel like…this feeling about you and, I don’t know how to convey it or…ask for…I don’t know what do…shit, I’m sorry I can just take you home if you want, I understand if you don’t want to stay…”

Your brow furrows then, confusion evident on your features, “Yoongi, I don’t want to leave…just talk to me yeah? What’s going on?”

A breath comes out of his nose then, his chest flushing to match his cheeks, he’s fully embarrassed, he doesn’t even know what the fuck he is trying to say, let alone, how to say it.

“I’m not used to wanting to…do stuff… I guess, I’m sorry…I know its… “He cringes at his confession, regretting every single moment that has recently passed, wishing desperately that he was more casual, like Hoseok, or articulate, like Namjoon. But he wasn’t. He was Yoongi and, Yoongi had spent many years denying his own feelings thus, denying his own desires.

You smile then, everything becoming apparent, a relieved giggle passing your lips. The sound brings Yoongi’s gaze back to yours, his heart stalling momentarily.

“I would hope you still wanted to have sex with me, we’ve only been at it for the past week…” You attempt to joke with him, trying to lighten his mood and lessen his embarrassment.

“You don’t understand though, it’s every time we’re alone, my mind, sometimes, just goes straight to sex and, it feels wrong sometimes...like it’s inappropriate and, when you leave or, when I leave, all I can think about is you and…what we do together and, I’m turned on all the time, I feel like I’m in highs school again...it’s really distracting and, I feel like I’m being…gross” He agonizes, trying to understand why you’re so relaxed.

“Yoongi,” You’re giggling again, scooting closer to him, “there’s nothing gross about wanting someone…I feel the same way about you.”

His expression relaxes slightly, his eyes shifting around, “You do?”

“Yes,” You scoot closer then, your knees touching his as your thumb soothes over his knuckles.

“…I mean, every time we’ve done anything, it’s been because I came onto you so…”

Yoongi’s face turns up then, his body relaxing further as he nods, “I guess you’re right about that but, it’s only because, I don’t know how to…ask for it? Or come onto you? Fuck…I sound ridiculous…”

“Ok that’s it…” You mutter, pushing his hands to the side before nudging him back against his headboard and settling into his lap, your panties against his boxers. He gulps, biting his lip as you do, a smirk sort of playing on his mouth. “You are not ridiculous, or gross, or weird, or anything like that…I like you…”

You kiss his lips then, so soft and sweet, “I want you…I think about you…” You place a kiss on his mouth between each dose of reassurance, your fingers lacing with his. “You don’t have to feel ashamed…”

Yoongi’s breath is picking up slightly, his lips responding against yours, “I don’t want to feel ashamed…I just have so much going on inside my head sometimes…I don’t know what to do with it.”

You nod, understanding very well what that’s like. Moving from his lips, you sit back on his lap, admiring the way he looks illuminated by the light of the TV.

“With me…” You smile at him, your expression softening as the two of you regard one another, he can’t help but return your smile as he feels his anxiety slowly leaving him. “I want you to feel like you can talk to me ok? I know it isn’t easy and, shit gets complicated but, I really want to make you comfortable, this is all new to me too, I’m not expecting anything from you, I just like being with you...”

Your words melt the remainder of Yoongi’s frigid fear, his heart singing in his chest as he pulls you closer against him, “I like being with you too...”

Settling against the warmth of Yoongi’s bare skin, you wrap your hands behind his neck, leaning in to nudge your nose against his, “Cool, so we’re on the same page...”

“I guess...” He mutters stubbornly but, his nervous energy is clearly diminishing as he leans into your lips, a renewed sense of playfulness in his eyes.

“Kiss me you fool...” The dramatic flair in your voice would normally warrant an eye roll from Yoongi but, this time, he just shakes his head, a low chuckle rumbling between the two of you as he presses his lips against yours.

He takes his time, kissing you slowly, his hands still on your hips, squeezing gently as he does. This time, kissing him felt different, you could feel how relaxed he was under your touch, his breath leaving his nose gently as you slide your hands up in his hair. Your nails scratch gently at his scalp whilst Yoongi slowly introduces his tongue to the kiss. You accept him graciously, letting yours play against his. The kiss is dirty, filthy even but, neither of you are rushed to further things along.

Yoongi’s hands explore the skin over your hips, his fingertips admiring the softness, rubbing against your hips. You nudge his nose, nibbling on his bottom lip for a moment before, reconnecting once again. Yoongi’s hardening against you, his boxers stretching over him as he presses himself against your panties. You smirk into his lips knowingly but, say nothing, choosing instead to begin kissing into Yoongi’s neck.

Nuzzling against his neck, you place a few whispery kisses against his skin, taking time to find the spot that makes him shiver the most. His breath hitches slightly as your lips reach the apex of his neck, near the beginning of his collar bone.

“I...” He stutters out the syllable, an inquiry heavy on his tongue, his dick plumping further in his boxers. “Can you...bite me?”

His voice is low, shaky but, certain, the rasp in his tone going straight to your clit. You nod, dragging your teeth gently against his neck, causing another shiver to run through him, his heart picking up in his chest.

Testing the waters, you bite down on him gently, your lips suctioning against his skin. You feel his hips rise up slightly at your motions, his head lulling back against his headboard, providing you better access.

“Harder...” He doesn’t ask this time, his dick fully erect against your panties, mouth agape.

You smirk to yourself before giving him what he wants and, sinking your teeth into his skin. Not hard enough to draw blood but, pretty damn close. You suckle his sensitive skin into your mouth, laving against it with your tongue, knowing full well that your motions will leave a mark.

“shit...wait...I…oh fuck...” Yoongi’s breathy voice, desperate and wanton, claws its way out of his chest, his hips stuttering beneath you, his hands clutching yours. His boxers were sticky against the inner parts of your thighs, the sensation causing you to pull back, alarmed. Yoongi lets out another breath, his head thrown back in pleasure, his cheeks dusty pink with embarrassment.

You bite your lip, watching him in disbelief, wrapping your brain around the fact that he had just cum from you biting his neck.

“Shit, shit…I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I didn’t…” His breathless, his chocolate eyes widened in shock as he comes down from a pretty powerful orgasm. Yoongi is mortified and, quite sure that if you didn’t want to leave before, you would definitely want to leave now.

“Shhh…” You whisper, moving in towards his mouth, capturing his lips. Shaky breath escapes his nose as he cautiously kisses you back, his whole body feeling rather sensitive.

“I’m…I’m sorry, I’m really sorry…I don’t know what happened, I just felt your teeth and…” He’s stuttering at this point, his words swallowed against your kisses until you finally break away from him, giggling as you do. Your eyes hold all the fondness in the world as you bring your hands up to hold his cheeks.

“Why are you apologizing for cumming?”

“I…I don’t know, you didn’t finish or, we didn’t fu…” He trails off, narrowing his eyes at you, “See? You’re laughing at me, oh my god, I’m so fucking lame, please just leave me here to wither away and die…”

Your giggles grow in volume then as you try to resist the urge to pinch his cheeks that are now squish between your palms, “I’m not laughing at you... listen to me…”

Yoongi is full on pouting between your hands, his own hands bracing themselves against your hips, feeling slightly uncomfortable in his now, sticky boxers.

“You aren’t lame…” You assure him, a smile lingering on your lips, “you’re fucking hot and all we need to do is get you hard again but, we can’t do that if you wither away and die can we?”

Yoongi snorts his eyes shifting from side to side before finding yours again. He can feel himself plumping up at the mention of you getting him hard and, although he’s thoroughly embarrassed, he doesn’t doubt your ability to do so.

“No, we can’t…” He agrees, cat eyes peering deep into yours as he lets out another breath.

“I don’t want to hear you criticizing yourself anymore, understand?” The tone you use is firmer than normal and, Yoongi perks up at the sound of it, nodding eagerly in response. You smirk, your suspicions slowly being confirmed one by one. “Say it aloud…”

“I..I understand…” He breaths, eyes completely locked onto yours

“Good boy…” You whisper against his lips before pressing a gentle kiss to them

Yoongi feels his heart skip a beat at the nickname, his dick continuing to swell in his boxers.

He’s never recovered from an orgasm so fast but, the way you’re talking to him, the way you’re ordering him around, it’s doing something to him.

A smirk finds its way onto your lips, “You like that don’t you?”

He nods again, rendered speechless, he’s captivated, his embarrassment diminishing once again.

“Do you want to be my good boy Yoongi?” Still smirking, you take his lip between your teeth, the movement causing him to let out another, sharper breath, his body turning to puddy beneath you.

“Yes…” His voice is muffled by your teeth, his nipples hardening at the sound of your voice. It was still you but, something had shifted, you sounded so powerful, so sure, and so fucking sexy.

“I’ve had my suspicions about you…” You release his lip, hands releasing his face and moving to his hands that we’re now clutching on your hips. Lacing your hands with his, you bring them above his head, pinning them against his head board, pressing his skin into the wooden bars. Yoongi feels a whimper at the back of his throat, his neck stretching to watch the movement of your hands, gritting his teeth lightly.

“The night I dyed your hair, you whimpered when I tugged on it, when we fucked in your car, you gave yourself to me so willingly, the other night, you came so hard when I scratched you…” You’re listing out the bits of evidence and, Yoongi’s eyes close, overwhelmed by you, shaky breath escaping his nose. When he opens them, they’re black with desire, wide with submission, his gaze goes straight to your pussy. “…and now, you came just from me biting your neck…”

“I like pain…” He blurts out, his voice trembling but assured, dark eyes still staring into yours. There’s no shame in his explanation, his inhibition slowly shredding with each passing moment. “I know you do…” A giggle passes your lips as you press his wrists harder into the wooden bars.

“It makes me really hard…when I jack off, I dig my nails into my thigh, sometimes I choke myself too…bet you didn’t fucking know that did you?”

His challenging you, he knows it. He wants to rile you up, he wants to let go for once…

He wants to get fucked up.

For the moment, you’re speechless, not expecting Yoongi to be so forward. He was usually quiet, subdued, even shy when the two of you went at it. You had never seen the wild look currently in his eyes, you want more of it.

“ Doesn’t surprise me…” You counter glancing behind you, toward his closet, trying to figure out your next move. “ Do you have a tie or something?”

Yoongi smirks, knowing full well what you were thinking, “Are you planning on tying me up Y/N?”

The sound of your name sounds sinful on his plushy mouth and before you can answer, Yoongi speaks up again,

“The only way I’m letting you tie me up is if you use those panties you’re wearing, which I’m pretty sure are soaking wet by now…”

His request throws you for a moment and, your mouth falls agape momentarily, a detail that doesn’t go unnoticed by him and, this time his smirk grows, his head cocking to the side, eyes still taunting yours.

“Ask me nicely then and, you might get what you want…” Your breathing is growing slightly uneven. Yes, you were very comfortable fucking Yoongi into next week but, this, the way he was talking, was new territory for you.

He wasn’t wrong though, your panties were soaked…

“Y/N?” His eyes go wide with innocence now but, his tone is still taunting, “Will you please tie me up with your panties?”

Biting your lip, you snap, releasing his wrists before moving off of his lap, slipping off of your panties and, straddling his waist yet again.

“Wrists up…” You order and, he obliges, still smirking and, as you hold your panties on your fingers you return his smirk, leaning down momentarily, brushing your lips against his, “By the time I’m finished with you, you’re gonna be so fucked out that you won’t remember anything but, the way my pussy feels around you…”

Yoongi gulps, his smirk faltering as he opens his mouth, leaning up against your lips but, you don’t respond, choosing instead to pull away. He sighs at the loss of contact, obsidian eyes shooting up to where his wrists are, watching intently as you use your panties to tie him to his headboard.

You sit back on him, admiring the way his body looks, stretched out and vulnerable to you, his cheeks and chest flushed, his nipples hardened, his stomach trembling as you run your nails over his hips.

“You said you liked pain right?” You whisper, eyes sultry as they hold his, your fingers moving delicately over his skin.

He nods, hips rising slightly against your touch, his dick painfully hard in his boxers, “Yes…”

“How does this feel then?” You dig your nails into his pale skin, scratching hard over his hips, leaving aggravated ruby marks with your movements.

Yoongi throws his head back, a gasp leaving his lips, his eyes shutting tightly as he nods again, “Good…do it again please…”

You want to admonish him for demanding you but, you don’t want to discourage his newly found confidence so, instead, you oblige. Dragging your nails over his ribs this time, you press harder, scratching him all the way down to the band of his boxers. Yoongi shivers, his face turning up in a mix of agony and pure pleasure, a smile appearing on his lips.

“Holy…fucking shit…” He chuckles, his vision going hazy as he tries to focus on you, the sensations in his body overwhelming him. His lips are wet, his dark gaze flitting between your hands and your face, “I’m so hard right now…”

“I can feel that, you’re twitching around underneath me…” You quip, fingertips brushing over his clothed length, the motion causing him to jump slightly.

“I don’t think I can wait anymore…I feel like I’m gonna cum again and, I want to last for you…” He sounds slightly panicky, his breath picking up as you start to grind against his dick, your bare pussy pressing into his boxers. “Please…please fuck me…”

You bite your lip, smiling down at him, rolling your hips against him once again, a low whimper breaking past his swollen lips as you do.

“Do you think you’ve earned that Yoongi? Do you think you’ve earned my pussy?” You whisper, grinding against him again and, you can only imagine how raw his wrists must be from how hard he’s been fighting against his ties.

He shakes his head vigorously, his expression growing smaller, staring up at you, adoration creeping into his gaze, “I could never do enough to earn your pussy jagi…”

The words hit you like a ton of bricks, your stomach dropping as you lean down to his lips, kissing him suddenly. He responds, his lips eager as he moans into your mouth, his arms burning from how much his straining but, he couldn’t give less of a fuck.

“That was a good answer…” You giggle and he returns the sentiment, chuckling into your mouth.

“I meant it…”

You tug his boxers down his legs, resisting the urge to take his swollen length into your mouth. His dick is pulsing with arousal, some of it still covered in his previous orgasm. Yoongi couldn’t recall a time where he had been so hard in his life, his brain filled with nothing but, you

“Don’t cum until I say…” You assert, stroking him in your palm before lining him up at your entrance, your pussy aching to be filled by him.

Through his whimpering, he nods, his hips raising against yours, completely desperate for you, “I’ll be good for you jagi, I swear…just please, I can’t wait any longer.”

So, you oblige, slowly sinking down onto him, taking every bit of him that you can, the feeling sending a sinking feeling into your stomach.

“Shit…” He gasps, sweat forming on his forehead, his gaze zeroing in on where the two of you are joined, the sight alone making him drool.

Your nipples harden under your t-shirt and, you take the opportunity to pull it off, exposing the rest of you to Yoongi’s hungry gaze. The sight of you fucks him up everytime, his gaze being pulled from your cunt to the rest of you, his eyes looking up at you in awe.

The pace on his dick quickens, causing both of you to be short of breath, his length curving up in just the right place, white hot pleasure wickedly coursing throughout your body.

“You’re so fucking pretty...” Yoongi’s shaky voice makes your clit throb, your hands coming down to brace against his injured hips as you start riding him faster.

He’s staring at your face now, not even glancing toward the rest of your body, his tone certain and unyielding, “You know that right? You know how pretty I think you are right?”

Yoongi will admit, he’s not thinking clearly, his logic is out to lunch, everything about you turning his brain to mush.

“You should look in a mirror sometime…” You quip, meeting his intense gaze. The resolve within you as breaking as it usually does and, you already feel yourself nearing the edge.

“I can’t believe it…I can’t believe I have someone so pretty…riding my dick so fucking good, I must have been a good boy huh? To get so lucky?” Yoongi is blabbering at this point, his eyes going in out of focus, the corners of them collecting moisture and, he feels like he’s gonna cry if he doesn’t cum soon. Then again, he feels like he’d cry regardless…

“You’re the best boy Yoongi…you deserve to feel this good all the time, I want to make you feel good all the time…will you let me? Can I keep fucking you this good?”

Hips are frantic now, your clit begging for attention, throbbing and buzzing between your legs and, you finally give in, the pads of your fingers rubbing against it, the motion causing you to tighten around Yoongi’s length.

His eyes bug out then, your words and the tightness of your cunt becoming too much, “Y/n please, please can I cum, please, I can’t…I…”

“Cum for me baby…” You whimper, your resolve breaking completely as you feel yourself tip over the edge, your head falling back on your shoulders as your pace picks up fully, the sound of skin smacking on skin echoing throughout the room.

“Thank you jagi...fuck thank you so much…”

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Roughly fifteen minutes later, the two of you are curled up under the duvet, your fingers gently applying cream to Yoongi’s shaky hands. His expression is one of pure bliss as he lets you tend to him, his heart melting as you press a kiss to each of his wrists.

“Thank you. “ You murmur, as you finish rubbing the cream into Yoongi’s raw skin, biting your lip as carefully tend to the more sensitive spots.

Yoongi watches you fondly, admiring the way you look, face flushed, glowing under the light of his TV. His brow furrows, voice still not 100%, “For what?”

“For tonight, for sharing more of yourself, I really appreciate everything you told me…everything…” You smirk, catches his glance for a moment before giggling, returning to what you’re doing.

“I don’t think I’ve ever felt this comfortable before so, you should be thanking yourself…” He insists, returning your smirk before leaning in and, kissing you, his lips taking you off guard.

“I’m happy you feel so comfortable then…” You amend, giggling against his lips as he pecks you over and over, your hands coming up to hold his cheeks.

“Stay in the morning yeah? I want to make breakfast…” He insists, smiling softly as he pulls you closer to him.

“Can I have it in bed?”

He smirks, leaning towards your lips, mischief in his eyes, “I’ve made it pretty clear that you can have whatever you want in bed…”

You giggle again, kissing him, pushing his disheveled blonde hair to the side, “ I’m holding you to that…”

“Good.”

Good: the biggest understatement of all time.

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survivormagictreehouse · 4 years

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Episode #7 “#Zachexposed Party” -Jess

-VI was voted out and now I’m forever sad. I wish you the best VI and hope you feel better soon! Goal #1 can never be accomplished now so that’s a bummer. But at least my alliance member RACHAEL wasn’t voted out! And now we’re doing Touchy Subjects with 95% negative answers. Drama here we come!

-We won another Challenge! Annie Tribe curse has been officially broken! Touchy Subjects was the name, and me winning was the game. I don’t ducking know. But I scored the highest on my tribe and won a ~mysterious package~ which turned out to be an idol clue. “Find the idol will no longer be a walk on the shore. In order to succeed, two items you will need.” So at least three searches in the idol search I suppose. I might share the clue with JESS and BIRCH and have them help me find the idol. Though I might just tell them part of the clue or something so they don’t have the whole picture. I’m undecided. I’m really hoping the other tribe votes off ALI, COLLIN or RUTHIE, since I think I’m the least likely to work with any of those three. RACHAEL must stay, BODHI I could work with and TIMMY I’m neutral on. CINDI is a bit of a wildcard but I think I could manage to work with her as well. JESS is speculating there’s a merge after the vote and I’m inclined to agree with that. A new idol search and we’ll be at 13 players which is a typical merge. I did not come into this game expecting to win, or even make the merge. But now I think I have a real shot at going far. Imagine me getting to FTC twice in a row in Atomic. How cool would that be?

Death by Skittle

-(this is for last round i am a bit late) Last round in the video challenge, which I ended up somehow becomming the editor for. First of all, I asked for the video clips to be in by sunday night so that I could do the video and be done with it, but Chips put it off and ended up making us wait till Monday morning which really set us back. Then Keegan submitted videos with almost no sound and little feeling so it was hard to use any of his clips. Then Jess decided to edit the video I made, and when she did that the lyrics didnt match the song anymore and it almost cost us the challenge. We also found out Birch has a +10 advantage, so need to be aware of that.Birch and Chips are my biggest targets on this tribe, and i am still ina really good spot with Zach and Jess, and close allies with Gavin and Keegan

-This round was touchy subjects. The tribe thought that I was the mvp of the tribe which makes me a possible target with the merge coming up. It was also revealed birch is not in a great place on my tribe and they also said they believe the majority of the tribe thinks I am next to go. I am concerned about my placement with them. Overall this round made me a bit nervous, but excited to hope for a merge in the future.

-There's a Mesopotamia/Svalbard alliance with Bodhi, Rachael, Collin, and me which I love cause I love all those people except Rachael sometimes but she hasn't had to do schoolwork once this game so that's nice. I'm just kidding I love Rachael as long as she doesn't have homework. Cause when she has homework that means she's voting me out. I swear the moment she has to do schoolwork its' done. And then Ali and Bodhi are on weird ground because of how Bodhi got rid of Ali in Lover BUT I REALLY WANT US TO HAVE AN ALLIANCE CALLED THE LOVERS CAUSE 1) Ali is very loyal so, like, I want to work with him 2) THAT NAME IS GREAT AND I DEMAND IT IN MY LIFE Then there's Timmy who has only spoken to me on call or in tribe chat. Nothing beyond that. So, like, bye Timmy. Bodhi also has an issue with Timmy but Rachael swears he's okay. But I don't want to have two Timmys anyway. What even are their last initials? Don't care enough to learn them. BYE TIMMY! Then there's Ruthie who is very sweet and I don't think super strategic? At least not at this point. She just seems like a nice mom. I don't even know if she is a mom. But she would be a nice one to, like, a 3? year old. Idk. Mom vibes. So I'd like to keep her in and I'm assuming that touchy subjects leads to a swap or merge (but this is a very early merge) so, like, hopefully she doesn't have to go after Timmy. It's absolutely insane to me that all of the tribals I've been to have been easy votes? Something spicy needs to happen sometime. Other tribe has had interesting votes. Not us. Couldn't be us.

-So Timmy thinks Collin, Rachael, him, and I are voting Bodhi out and possibly Ruthie as well. Yet he has still not messaged me once. Sir, why would I vote out Bodhi, whom I love dearly, to save your sorry ass when you have not even spoke to me? This dude either has an idol or is just crazy cause, like, that is not how you play Survivor. Do you actually want to stay? Then talk.

-okay! so we have quite a bit to catch up on... but on the bright side. WE WON IMMUNITY FOR ONCE! HALLELUJAH! i got sent to the treehouse which was EXCITING and i found the idol clue... which was literally to the idol i had so that was DISAPPOINTING to say the least. however, i also found the location of the other idol but someone else has it, which is good info to have at least. i posted a lot of my important information in my confessional, so i am just going to repost it here. basically, jess and i had a really good call about how we are not on the bottom, but are not in a good spot come merge. it's clear who is in power over here (zach, keegan, timmy)--because birch is with keegan, so we can't make a move against zach. so, if we lose again chips will leave (who is arguably a number for us because jess has him wrapped around his finger). on the other hand, i kind of have an in with zach and keegan--so i want to be able to milk that for as long as possible to get information on others in the game. but i am really not liking the closeness of timmy and zach especially (kind of keegan, but he has been a bit more lowkey the past few rounds, which is smart on his part). i just have a lot of adjusting to do, and i need to start planting seeds to turn people against each other (especially if we are merging soon). i feel good with rachael obviously, but i don't know how close she is with keegan/zach--but i do think she would turn on them eventually (just not anytime soon). im hoping the apparent alliance of 6 (now 4) and keegan/timmy/zach kind of battle one another and take each other out and i can just play the middle and watch them crumble.

-ARE WE SURPRISED MY CONFESSIONAL IS LATE AGAIN? I AM NOT... BUT I AM SORRY. anyways, this round the challenge was touchy subjects which was LOVELY for me because i am fucking AMAZING at knowing what other people are thinking so i basically knew i had it in the bag from the get-go. When we won, and I got that secret advantage which was an idol clue... that literally made no sense to me. however, i think i need to find two keys in order to get the idol... so, the first step for me is to hunt down these goddamn keys i guess. anyways, back to the tribe stuff... so, following the challenge and the post-winning glee emerged, jess and i went on call and discussed everything we were thinking. we were both very worried about crackhead zach's connections, and basically knew that we were merging, and he would be kind of untouchable as a result. however, if we were to have thrown the challenge, it would have been the perfect opportunity to take him out. however, it was too late to consider that, and we just had to continue our discussion about the game further down the line. so, on the topic of zach, jess mentions the "alliance" made between her, timmy, and zach. we both knew zach and timmy were very close, but this just confirmed it even more. basically, zach brought up the idea of making a 9 person alliance excluding ali, birch, chips, and i believe cindi. which, from that point, they could side with either me/keegan, or side with the other four (i don't know why i am being paired with keegan but go off i guess). i obviously didn't like hearing that, and it made it even more clear to me that he is playing not only a messy game, but an extremely wishy-washy game too. his loyalties seem to be all over the place, and i never see myself being one of his top priorities with collin, timmy, and rachael (and others) in the game. so, when the time is right... i am going to be the one to send his ass to ponderosa. i just hope i can keep my idol in the process for protection further down the line.

https://youtu.be/UolbDzsPoho (round 6)

https://youtu.be/wLA8Pt4bXlQ

https://youtu.be/jn8XxFsmPQU

So it’ll probably be between myself and Bodhi at tribal tonight because I don’t really want him gone. He’s talking to me about a plan but he’s not giving an concrete answers and with that then I can’t help both of us. I already told him ruthie but he didn’t want to and I said that’s fine I only said her bc she seemed the easiest option, tbh I don’t really want her gone either since she’s not a threat. But when asking who he wants after that bc he said we could have our og tribe and ruthie vote together he didn’t give a name. The concern is, Rachel and Cindi are friends and I don’t think will vote each other. The biggest threat is Rachel because of her outside connections with Cindi, Zach, and I think Timmy Z, so concern is there.

https://youtu.be/cX7Ieh2o3QU

https://youtu.be/HGm7ukcUEcU

Ladies, gentlemen, or whatever you identify as.... welcome to Phase 1 of the.... #Zachexposed party... hosted by me, Jess! I've decided I've been tame for too long and there needs to be a shake up. I haven't decided how quickly I want to do this BUT if I win first immunity I'm going for it. Zach is arguably the most dangerous player in the game right now. He's literally playing the game I typically play and I see right through it. No "large groups", working with small groups only, making people feel like they are his "true number ones" and attempting to align their interests with all the other groups. In his mind right now he sees himself covered by 8 people.

The 8 people: 1. Jess 2. Timmy Z 3. Gavin 4. Cindi 5. Rachael 6. Collin 7. Collin 8. Either Timmy L or Bodhi How does this all work exactly?

Let me break it all down for you: He has an alliance with: - Me & Timmy - Keegan & Gavin & (Rachael) - Me & Gavin & Timmy & Keegan - Connections with: --> Collin/Rachael/Cindi on the other tribe. I don't think it is a coincidence that the other tribe wants him on their team... ANYWAYS.

What is phase 1 exactly? - Planting the seeds, laying down the blue print, and rallying the misfits. How: Rallying the troops: - I told Chips about the old tree house idol clue and the whole next round we are merging message I recieved. --> Obviously that builds a continued line of communication and hopefully trust. He feels pretty alone and I really think he's CRUCIAL to my game. - I also told Birch about my findings because those two (Chips and Birch) would never compare notes on me I don't think? --> Birch also feels a bit alone and they are CRUCIAL to my game. Lastly, I have an "alliance" with everyone else and they will tell Gavin everything before me so I'll be in the know.

The ammo: - I can use the fact that the other tribe wants ZACH with them as another counter point - Confessionals of proof that Zach/Collin have been close recently which might not even mean anything to people but it counts when you got NOTHING. - The knowledge of him having an alliance with me/Timmy - The knowledge of him having an alliance with Keegan/Gavin - The knowledge of him having an alliance with Keegan/Gavin/Rachael - The knowledge of him being extra close with Rachael so whatever connections she made.. he has a head start on. - I also know he's close with Collin so they could essentially do the whole "control one side and you control the other"

HOWEVER THE MOST IMPORTANT PIECE OF EVIDENCE/ AMMO IS: - Zach has basically given me the key to the palace today where he told me we could flip on Gavin/Keegan at 9 and "go with the other four" meaning.. Cindi/Bodhi/Collin/Rachael. Meaning.... he exposed who is he close with and people might wonder how they fit into his plans. Can't go to final 2 with 8 other people... 7 people will get cut and that's on mathematics. I'm not entirely sure how to go about this all... this is probably going to either tank my game or change the game. If Zach is as well connected as I think he is... this is going to be hard. I'll need to flip the people not in on that plan such as Ali, Chips, Birch, myself, Gavin, Ruthie... but there is NO WAY Ali just votes with us like that.. he has his allegiances. So I have to be subtle about this or I go gun blazing and be crackedt. I know we are merging tonight and it will be a new game and I'm excited.

-this tribal is about to be messy af. timmy threw my name out to ali, bodhi and ruthie with the logic that "itd be entertaining" and that im well connected which is fair. but im also well connected so like...ali and bodhi both told me about it which is cute. so if everything goes the way timmy wants it to go, its gonna be ali, bodhi ruthie on me and me, cindi and collin on bodhi leaving timmy as the swing vote. HOWEVER the tribe wants timmy out unan. bodhi and i might throw votes on ruthie just to protect me in case of an idol but yeah. its gonna be a fun one.

-there has been talk of a 2-1-1-1-1-1 split for this vote. i really wanna do it but cindi said no :'(

-also if i find out through this whole mess that Bodhi was playing me, i think i will cry for the rest of my life

hello so confessional time. I've been really deflated and second guessing myself but I'm turning it around. timmy is going home tonight and love him but he is donezo. in other news: - cindi, collin and bodhi...? defo a group. - had a kill bill sirens moment thinking cindi was blindsiding me earlier because of a miscommunication related to the fact that there are two timmys in the cast - am now in an alliance with cindi collin and ruthie co loves of my life - I think I made rachael mad today NNN my bad but im prepared and READY for 13th

So... I guess I am not very well liked on my tribe based on touchy subjects. I kind of got that impression anyway since I have been borderline inactive with the move. Anyway Jess told me that there is a merge coming up according to the tree house or whatever so... I hope I dont fizzle out and get booted right at merge. Not sure who to connect with but!!! I am ready to swing if the other side needs me .

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survivor-mesopotamia · 4 years

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Ep. #2 - “Shit ain’t over till the fat lady sings and I didn’t warm my pipes.” (Cameron)

Day 4: Well. I survived my first tribal council of the season, and even though it went exactly according to plan, while I slept my entire day away, I'm still really hesitant to tell myself that I'm doing well on my tribe. I'm really nervous that my tribe mates are playing me, and that I'm really boo boo tha fool here. I called Megan post-tribal, and I was finally able to get some closure on something that happened between us in our personal lives, which felt really good. After that, she asked me about the idol, to which I had responded "Wait, Julian didn't tell you?", which hopefully sows some seeds of doubt in Megan about Julian. Ideally, if the Enlil tribe has to go back to tribal council, the four of us can bear witness to a Megan vs. Julian war. Because unfortunately, the connections I have outside Enlil, are shared with either Julian or Megan. If Megan and Julian are going after each other pre-merge, or during a swap scenario, I don't have to share those connections anymore. After that, Megan and I just talked about the nudes we received during quarantine ~ I then promptly ran to Will to tell him about the potential crack I just formed between Julian and Megan, which was met with genuine excitement. I think I'm really gaining Will's trust, and I think we vibe so well together. Love that guy! Overall, it wasn't a very productive day because I woke up at 4:30p PST. Love that for me, thanks for shading me @ Tribal Bodhi.

going into this scavenger hunt as the tribe that went to tribal last is worrysome. It's a challenge that's fully dependent on our activity, so we are at a serious disadvantage against the other two tribes that get to choose someone less active to sit out. We don't have that luxury. The point/life system eases the blow, however, since we can get less active players 1 life while more active players can get 3. In case we lose, I'm trying to connect with everyone on the tribe. I really don't want to vote anyone out though. I have an alliance with Julian and JJ, and one with Will on the side. Chrissa wants to work with Julian, JJ and myself, and I think Megan and JJ have something on the side. I'm nervous for who would be the target in the vote, and any vote would hurt all of our games collectively. Hopefully we win because the next vote will not be easy AT ALL.

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jj and zachary are so fucking annoying to this challenge and if i vote for you first at the swap, its probably because youre typing too much during this challenge sorry not sorry xoxo - sincerely johnny a month from now

let me be clear with andrew I was not calling his hosting unfair i was calling the fact that a majority green item giving him a point unfair not the hosting but lack of yellow, also i have a headache i don't feel that good. and I just don't think zach should have had a point for it nothing against hosting obviously i watch a movie trivia thing where literally they have a challenge to challenge any questions that are unfair, that doesn't mean they are calling the question writers or the answer writers unfair.

Zach just won the tribal challenge for us which is fantastic. We can maintain the illusion of a unified tribe longer, which keeps us together in a swap situation, and Zach has clearly painted a challenge target on himself over the last two challenges which will make him go before me if our Triforce ever becomes the minority. I'm really happy with my position in the game right now

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me and monty trying to find the idol and decode this annoying ass video https://imgur.com/a/lu7sbMu

Forgive me father for I have sinned it's been approximately three days since my last confession so far can't complain really we be winning they hating we be riding pretty damn clean I've got a majoritu alliance I didn't start so odds of it falling around me and being the first voted out slim to none thank the sweet baby jesis and all that good shit. Oh well that's all for now

JULIAN’S HOST CHAT GUEST, ZEE:

I am filling in a confessional because you told me to. I am in front of my fan because it's hot. I'm thinking that it seems pretty stupid to ask me for a confessional. Julian's prod chat isn't very interesting because he's distracted.

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also just threw out madison's name to johnny. if this shit backfires on me ill be ):

https://youtu.be/Pqck1gayfJU

https://youtu.be/FMay7NycsPw

yo yo yo homies!!! fuck the scavenger hunt and the mobile Skype app !! Lowkey scared but I think I’m close with everyone on the tribe except madi soooooooooo that’s probably who will go tonight. I’ve connected a lot with Monty and am hoping we can work together closely moving forward 💕not sure how useful my relationship with Zach is going to be come swap/merge bc it seems like he’s ALREADY making himself a target like the big doof he is. More later 💋

https://youtu.be/Qg47yupj1bQ

https://youtu.be/vUK8A1qWVoA

Hello tumblr survivor world! Sorry I didnt confess for episode 1, I was going to but i accidentally exited out of the page when i almost finished writing it. Anyways, it was just a cast assessment for my tribe so tl;dr everyone on my tribe is great and its really sad that we have to vote someone out now. So this whole weekend I was away so I was REALLY worried that I would be voted out since I sat out of the challenge. But after talking to Johnny and Isabelle, it seems like Madison will be voted out tonight. Which is so bad bc this her first game in a year, but hey it's our first vote and it's not me so it's not really the time to make a stand. _________________________________________________________________________________________ Okay I took a break from writing this confessional and there's moreeeeeeeee so part 2 I guess. So I had a call with Johnny and we came up with an alliance of me, him, Isabelle, and Benji. What an iconic alliance, right? But also while Johnny and I talked we got onto the topic of idols and why it is that there hasn't been an idol post yet. I brought up that wayyyyyy back when in Malaysia and some other games around that time, some of the idol hunts were less clear cut. We ended up looking at the blog and clicking the "idol system" tab and it brought us to some weird crab video with audio that sounds like a pokemon cry? Idk part of me thinks its just a joke but I also have to consider that it might be SOMETHING. It said remember to like and subscribe so I sent a screenshot of me liking and subscribing to see if that would do anything but nope. Johnny said he'd do some thinking about it and get back to me later if he figures something out. Also tribal seems super clear cut so I'm a bit less worried now but y'know how it is I can't not worry about tribal.

i just spent $8 on a spectogram and STILL cant find this fucking idol im gonna kms... monty im sorry im steam rolling ahead looking for this thing without telling you, but thank you for the first clue xoxo... if i get stumped in the future ill reach out for SURE (but idt you trust me that much so this seems kinda valid to me) ((FOUR HOURS LATER: i told monty lololol)) ALSO FOR FUCKS SAKE I think madison is gonna go, and truthfully, im fine with it because it's the easiest thing to do due to her poor performance in the past few challenges and just being the least AROUND the tribe, but i know that it'd probably be better for me long term to get rid of abby because i just dont see her as a long term ally for me. i think she's close to JJ and Megan on the other tribe, and she's becoming much more acclimated to the tumblr survivor community that i just BET that she maybe has an additional connection on the rookie tribe. If I can attempt to break that up before we get to a swap, I think that's what im going to have to do figure out if we lose another challenge before a swap... i dont really want to see ANYBODY else go besides abby if im thinking about a second boot. i bet it wont be easy to take her out tho also, if madison goes, this is like...... lowkey vindication for game changers???? last night i talked about this with monty and i was like hmmmm "is it ugly to bring up past game history?" and his response was "not if it's within the same series" .... so. vindication

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omg i just told madison how to find the idol system thing i hope she doesnt tell anyone i told her about it LMAO........ this almost seems too easy.i got added to two alliances today. why do i not feel safe? is it me going? WTF IS GOING ON

excited to be first boot because no one will TALK TO ME!

Things haven’t changed much since my last confessional! As far as I know the tribe hasn’t started into alliances and we’re all riding some excitement at having so far avoided tribal. I think the rest of the tribe and I are all feeling good and just focusing on making the tribe switch without losing any members.

from round 2 https://youtu.be/fk002uG2HoI

Hi sorry I forgot to do a confessional this round so this will be short imma just say a few things 1. I don’t trust julian one bit he can stop being shady to me 2. I can’t believe we aren’t going to tribal I’m so fkn happy i was able to pull out the win for our tribe because I didn’t want to lose anybody else 3. I love and adore will with all of my being and he’s my number 1 ally right now 4. I find it highly doubtful that there’s only one idol in this game and that you can’t find it until merge but that’s as far as I can get in the idol search for now so I guess there’s nothing I can do about it 5. I’m still having fun can’t wait to fuck up another flash game yay!!!

My Purple edit is amazing right now. But having played more games than most of these newbies, I have decided to take on the role of teacher and becoming more of a "role model" for these newbies. I feel like I have the closest bond with Zach, and I need to get a little closer with Collin. I have Grace from past games, and then there are the others who I do not really have any strong bonds with at the moment. I guess I need to start going to them more and show that I want to work with them.

https://youtu.be/yhwXzqrTcsA Confessional 2 for round 2

https://youtu.be/TVnpwqc8XLY

Madison voted out 6-1

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dwtspd · 7 years

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DWTS S24 W5: Disney Week!

HELLO ALFONSO!!! And the overrated bow tie kid from SYTYCD (yes I know his name but he really can’t go without his bow ties can he). Not the biggest rah-rah Disney opening, but the glittery road was set up very nicely. Witney is a cute fairy.

Rashad and Emma - Beauty and the Beast foxtrot Did they get this movie because of Emma Watson? Anyway, this was a really good dance! The song was a bad match, but Emma did what she could with it and Rashad handled it perfectly. At the beginning I felt like his footwork was a little draggy - might have been the boots. Anyway, the scoring was RIDICULOUS. 7-8-9-8 T32

Nick and Peta - Pinocchio jazz There’s something about Nick’s personality that suited this dance very well. Thought this dance was not bad. It was very enjoyable and while Nick’s movements could have been sharper sometimes, he kept on time. When the dance has lots of fast small movements, it can be easy to slip up but I didn’t see any stumbles anywhere. That said, he shouldn’t have scored higher than Rashad. CAI is smoking something weird tonight. 9-8-9-8 T34

Erika and Gleb - Finding Dory viennese waltz Erika can dance. And while this dance FINALLY gave us an Erika that was just graceful, no sexiness or anything, it still didn’t really have much of an impact. The spin with the flying confetti at the end was a nice touch. Also, it’s Disney night. At least make your costumes have the same colour as the fishes, come on! 8-8-8-8 T32 Yeah CAI is irrelevant tonight.

Heather and Alan - Frozen jazz First of all I am so over Frozen. Secondly, First Time in Forever is one of the stupidest songs EVER. It’s literally about Anna’s crazy despo need to find a boyfriend. Third, HEATHER IS A PROFESSIONAL DANCER. OF COURSE SHE WILL BE GOOD AT JAZZ. SO GIVE HER CHOREOGRAPHY THAT ACTUALLY SHOWS HOW GREAT SHE IS. This dance was literally running around, a spin here, a lift there, climb on the judges’ table, look excited, more running around, the end. Pretty sure Maks choreographed this. Also pretty sure he stole the fountain from Val and Ginger’s disney item and sprinkled flour over it. 8-8-9-9 T34 If the score is for Heather’s performance skills, sure. If it’s for the dance, way overscored. Even Nick had more jazz content than this.

Bonner and Sharna - Wreck it Ralph tango Okay Bonner, you impressed me this week! Not that I had very high expectations, but I feel like he really liked this dance (even though his smile looks more loopy than happy), and he also handled it well. I didn’t see heel leads until the end but there were some, and his footwork was pretty good. He kept level, his frame was decent, and didn’t look like he was thinking too hard about the choreography. Now that they’ve stopped the showmance edit, maybe people will really start to sympathise with his backstory and be inspired to vote. Given that, if he can sustain this improvement, he could force a shock elimination. 7-8-8-7 T30

Normani and Val - Mulan paso doble FINALLY. I don’t think Im’ the only one who’s been waiting for Make a Man out of You to be used. Normani rocks the bun. Val...not so much. I thought the dance was okay until they brought back the staffs. And then I slam my face into the table because Val, *old Han Solo voice* that’s not how a staff works. You don’t just swing it. Anyway, Donny Osmond singing live! I thought there was one too many leg kicks put into there. Sure, Normani is young enough to kick her leg high, bit do note that she bends her supporting leg when she does so. I also thought her shaping was inconsistent. Sometimes she nailed it and sometimes it wasn’t there. 10-9-10-10 T39 I don’t think it was THAT good. It was good, but not 10-worthy.

David and Lindsay - Cars jive There’s a Cars 3????? Honestly I feel like Cars should have stopped at the first movie. David had pretty good kicks and flicks, bar the not pointed feet. When he wasn’t kicking however, this dance was rather tame. He’s still really entertaining nonetheless, which is commendable since he is not a performer by profession (Bonner should take notes). I don’t think the song selection was horrible. Regardless, I think this dance will still be memorable to viewers, even if just for the red jumpsuit. 7-7-8-7 T29

Nancy and Artem - Enchanted jazz Another pretty tame jazz choreography wise, but at least there was much less needless running around. There will still running around though. Artem tried to incorporate a some different types of jazz into this dance. I’m not sure all that blended together well. Nancy was a great performer still, and she looked great in that costume! It was fun and cute. 9-9-9-9 T36

Simone and Sasha - Moana contemporary Confession time: I haven’t watched Moana. I thought this was a great dance and CAN SOMEONE MAKE CARRIE ANN TAKE A BREATHALYZER TEST BECAUSE HOW CAN ANYONE GIVE THIS THE SAME SCORE AS NICK? I get Len giving it a 9, but wtf CAI. Personally, as someone with a contemporary background, I thought this dance looked a bit like high schooler self-choreography, but by DWTS standards that makes a good contemporary. I don’t think it was very gymnastic-ky. Maybe the way Simone attempted some of the leaps was as if she was doing gymnastics, but she wasn’t as stiff and “hold the pose”-y as in some previous dances and transited between most moves nicely. And to the people saying this dance wasn’t emotional enough to be a contemporary - CONTEMPORARY DOESN’T HAVE TO BE SLOW AND ANGSTY ALL THE TIME. I’ve literally seen a dance about planting flowers win a competition before. In any case, this should have gotten the highest score of the night. 9-9-10-10 T38

As announced through the night, Erika, Nick and Normani are in jeopardy. Normani is safe, obviously. She’s only there because TPTB can’t resist pimping Val each season and need his partner to get more votes, beacuse Val’s choreo just isn’t cutting it. Down to Erika and Nick...going home is...Erika. She could have gone further, but she and Gleb couldn’t find a way to make it work.

Next week will be boy bands vs girl groups. I think the girls are in a better position than the guys.

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blaurascon-kzk · 4 years

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KZK Discord Digest [Weeks of Mar 20 - April 2]

SUMMARY: Skipped the DD last week because ... I got sidetracked. Bunching it in with this week's! The Fire and Ice kit for the Direwolf is live! This was originally intended to be a preorder bonus / limited-time LE at the Direwolf launch, but since it's so overdue, it's going to be a permanent addition to the store. Folks who preordered the Dires (up to and including December 30, 2018) can get the kits for free by hitting the green crystal below the vendors, and folks who didn't can pick them up for 800L (they come together!). Also, introducing the Retro Western Dragon! Styled after late ps1 / early ps2 games, this "demake" started as a fun de-stressing project and ended up turning into a full avatar, complete with devkit. This is also a permanent addition to the store, you can pick it up for 800L. Additional skins to come! (The Retro Western also served as a BOM test for Kat - he's excited to see if we can apply it to the proper Dragon update. It's still in early planning stages, but exciting!)

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Mar 26

Kat03/26/2020 @everyone Progress has slowed dramatically due to a back injury (only myself to blame), but Im doing my best to push forward on this project nonetheless: One of the promised perks for those who preoered were a set of fire/ice themed skins/accessories. The fire doggo is almost done--just needs new eyes and some cool flame effects (will be borrowed from the fire kirin), and then it'll be on to the icey boy. These parts will come prefitted for all 3 sizes of direwolf, as well as appliers for solid and emissive-compatible versions. Hope you guys are excited!

These will be FREE to those who proerdered, and for sale to everyone else for a lmited time.

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Mar 28

KatLast Saturday at 7:21 PM @everyone Here's a teaser of the Hoarfrost Direwolf. the third pic on the right is during midday (default) to show how the emissive mapping can play with the lighting to look like snow on the surface of glowing ice.

These'll be dropping tonight. There won't be any formal database support for these, but there will be a kiosk for anyone who preordered before the direwolf launched originally.

I wanted to put these and the plushies out at the same time, but I know there's a lot of excitement for these especially. I'll keep you guys up todate as progress is made on the plush stuff. :heart:

KatLast Saturday at 7:31 PM @everyone Last bit o spam for now--the appliers for the hellhound and hoarfrost will come in 2 types: no alpha, and emissive masking. the Hoarfrost shown above is the emissive option. Here's the non emissive option, for folks who don't wish to set of Geiger counters in the next town over.

The Hellhund has a non alpha option as well, but the markings/coloration are the same (This is in case there's some rendering fuckery) but what it lacks in alternate colors, it makes up for with a few extra little decorations, that should make modding a dream.

The adornments on these avatars are rigged, with the exception of the horns and the hellhound shackles, BUT, there will be static versions of all the little tid bits so you can stick it on whatever you want, like all the kirin parts. I can't wait to see what you guys do with em!

KatLast Saturday at 10:43 PM @everyone Sometimes I get to make cool vendor pics like this. Enjoy this little teaser!

Oops I spy a typo. That'll be fixed on the final version :eyes: KatLast Saturday at 11:58 PM @everyone Very please to say that the ice and fire Direwolves are now available in the main store, to the right of the Direwolf vendors.

For those who preordered, purchases made on or before December 30th, 2018, qualify for the free bonuses. Just click the green crystal just below the fire and ice vendor.

Thank you all so far for your patience. I can't wait to see what you all do with these mods.

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Mar 29

KatLast Sunday at 7:26 PM @everyone So I noticed during development that one of the claws for the Hellhound was acting kinda silly. I didn't even think to check if it might've accidently gotten weighted to another bone--seems it did. That's something Ill address tonight and fix asap. These skins aren't in the database, but not too many have sold just yet so fixing it and returning the update shouldn't be a terribly exhausting process. Thank you to @Zoriah for bringing it to my attention. :slight_smile:

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Mar 30

KatLast Monday at 12:59 PM @everyone So some of you have noticed the little teaser I dropped in #teasers-and-wips last night...

Just gunna make sure you all know to reign in your expectations and know that this little project was 'for fun'. Not reinventing the wheel here, just making something for shits and giggles and figured a little teaser might do well. Love you guys :heart:

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Mar 31

KatLast Tuesday at 12:20 PM @everyone I wanted to make an announcement ahead of April Fools.

Desperate times call for desperate measures. Right now with the world on the brink of chaos(quite literally), April Fools couldn't come at a better, or potentially worse time.

This April Fools, I will be tripling down on the no shock value links rule, with special attention to April Fools themed posts. Content that could cause panic, worry, or anxiety, is strictly forbidden(aside from legitimate articles with important information regarding this pandemic).

I know it's usually a time for jokes, but please keep them light hearted.

What have been some of your favorite legitimately funny in the best way possible April Fools jokes?

Mine is the first time I stepped foot in the Super Adventure Box in Guild Wars 2. I still have that first song stuck in my head...

Just be kind to each other, always, mk?

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KatYesterday at 2:48 AM @everyone I've teased it, and now its ready...

A new age for all Dragon-kind. I'm pleased to announce Kinzart's newest, most high definition dragon avatar to date, unlike anything SL has ever seen.. These visuals will blow you away. Its got rigged wings. Its got BOM layers.. Its... 1902 tris?.... Huh. That doesn't seem right.

Oh well! Happy april fools day everyone! The Retro Western Dragon is on sale now in the Mainstore, for just 800L!

(I want to point out that I began work on this project around a month ago--a little something to destress amidst crunch on the lions, direwolf devkit stuff, and so on. I LOVE intricately hand painted Pixel textures and low poly models, so I had to bring my love of this dying art form to second life! April fools just seemed like the perfect time! I hope you all don't mind!)

@everyone I know a lot of you saw the teasers and thought 'NEW DERG?!' Well you're half right!...

This av was also a bit of a.. tech test for me--BOM is new territory for me, so this just felt like a fun way to test the tech and make something neat.

Best of all? Its going to be a permanent edition to our lineup--and if there's enough interest, we may expand on this idea, and 'demake' some of your favorite Kinzart avatars!

Just think... what I've learned here will be useful later this year when the dragon updates go into production.

#kzk-dd #kzk

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survivorelara · 6 years

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Episode #3: “This tribe can literally suck my left nut.” - Toby

Well after goofing my confessional days (sorry hosts who have to figure that one out.) I got an alliance chat together so that we can communicate without goofing up the challenge the only downside is that we haven't started yet due to nobody being on. (The sucky thing of people having different timezones.)

I'm hoping we can pull another win out of this challenge, I'm trying to just keep things casual overall, I can't exactly start making big moves or anything out of the gate. (Making this 4-man alliance is as big as it's gonna get for now.)

Just gotta stay low, do my part in challenges, and work social magic on people... ew did I really try to tell myself that I have social magic?

I feel like a loser. Even though I was saved. I can be stubborn sometimes and it makes me look bad. I hate that.

ok I started writing this yesterday.... and then forgot to send it... anyways hi this games going pretty good still? we havent gone to tribal and i really think I have some good allies on my tribe. also legacy woo!!!! I’m a bit overwhelmed with work irl but as always I’m going to ignore it

RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304 RoxyToday at 3:54 PM 201 202 203 304

oh? you want to hear about my master strategy? the one where i vote for odd instead of logan? well, it's actually a really complicated plan that involves: 1. voting early because i was about to go into a really long class that i cant use my phone in 2. that's it. this is only the FIRST step that leads to me skillfully placing myself in the FTC where i win by a vote of 8-0-0.

Me? Sabotaging a challenge?? For a joint tribal council???

It's more likely than you think.

hi.......... so immunity challenge isn't going too well... half of our 24 hours is up and we're on 67. i mean that's mainly because no one was awake when i was so i really expect everyone to be popping off when im sleeping.... i don't want to go to tribal at all (even less than if it were to just be our tribe going to tribal, despite us having the numbers) because i can see this flipping on us somehow... or an idol being played or some shiz. hopefully,,,,,,,,, the other losing tribe if we go really aren't close and don't have our ~incredible~ group morale so the chance of an idol being played is minimised.... i can't really do anything rn except be optimistic and help with immunity but no one is on! ughhhhh if i dont get to play my legacy myself im gonna be s0000000 sad. i think if i go i'll give it to andrea bc i mean i knew louise beforehand but it isn't that fair to give it her because of pre-existing relationships... and andrea's a queen so.

Well we got into the challenge a little late unfortunately. I'm also worried I might be acting more... leaderly than I wanted to coming in, but hopefully I'm garnering more respect and appreciation rather than Oh, he's bossy, or Oh, he's good at this he's a threat, etc etc.

Ideally we wanna avoid that double tribal, but if we go then we'll just hopefully stay 6 strong, because I mean if we don't that means our tribe has a snake, which would suck.

I'm hoping to keep my, overall casually gameplay up, though my social game is lacking a bit, if I talk a bit more with people I think I'll be able to get people on board the Kori train.

We are currently at 420 as a score and I kinda hope it stays that way lawllll I doubt we are going to win but I honestly wouldn't mind some excitement as far as a tribal council will go. If we lose we will have 6 going against whatever other tribe we are againsts 5. So I wouldn't by any means say this is being thrown because we have all been trying however nobody has really been panicking today which is fun. I have really enjoyed talking with Big Z as we have been getting these numbers in together the last few hours, and am hoping if we swap together we will have a good connection going forward. I want to make everyone feel good and comfortable working with me

A combined tribal council... I really don't know how to feel. I'm already set for tribal council tonight, but I just want to know who will be attending alongside us. Like, its just something that is so defeatist and shit, but like if you fuck up on 203 out of all numbers and its just you and one other person... that's concerning.

Like that is my mood when I woke up. We lost at the number 203. Probably the other tribes are in the high 1000s and idk. I'm just begging for the worst at this point.

I take it back. No one cleared 500. That's just pathetic. Truly, it is.

Wow we were trash and now we have to vote someone out if it’s me I’m gonna 🔫🔫🔫🔫 everyone before I leave they’re all getting super soaked

FUCK BITCH! We're going to tribal with the other damn tribe. FUCK! No idea what's going to take place lol. Maybe if I keep a low profile I might be safe. IDK if being under the radar is such a good thing. I haven't played like this in a while. But if something happens I might snap.

THE STREAK CONTINUES

Although tbh I'm getting kind of bored with all of the nothing happening in our tribe so hopefully something interesting or exciting happens soon

https://youtu.be/tIiYdEMW6Dg

No idea what's gonna happen, and based on the vague implications, I think we might be seeing a swap of some kind perhaps of 2 tribes of 7 plus one person exiled.

ALTERNATIVELY It's a live challenge next... both have me mildly stressed but I'm ready to embrace either with open arms.

My patience grows thin with each passing hour that these Zosma's dont answer my one about this vote. At this point, Im gon a throw out a name to my Auva's and call it a day. But then again, Dylan and Odd are too awol to be trusted- thus aggravating me a little more. So if this is my final confessional of the season, better give me that OTTN5 edit.

Hello I hope we don’t swap I wish we went to tribal my tribe sucks and loris is definitely a snake and John is meh and Emma is inactive and kori is scary and I wanna work with zosma or like literally anyone else and I think I forhot someone OH big z he’s iconic but doesn’t talk to me smh

im so lucky lmaoo the rest of the cast can suck my dick also loris is kwl

I think we are probably going to rocks me and drew discussed the idea of getting both sides to vote for each other so when rocks are drawn we’d both be safe but he got worried about the idea of someone flipping and him dying which I understand but idk I’m ready to go balls to the wall

heuse1acToday at 4:05 PM Oh Sam calls me "dude" that might be my vote we're gonna have to see

DANI LIKES TO SING, KWEEN. Toby r e a l l y loves talking about himself. Sam is definitely straight. Unfortunate.

Y e e t h a w 🤠 Toby flopped in the counting challenge that I was ready to go the distance for & I’m not exactly sitting pretty for this joint tribal. I have a feeling that I could be targeted by Auva just because from an outsider’s perspective, I’ve done well in the past few challenges. There’s a lot of speculation that we’re gonna swap after this round, so I want Auva to know that I personally want to work with them in the future. Then together we can lower Revati’s numbers since they’re a bit too stronk right now. Drew T. tells me that himself, Drew H. & Roxy have been more on the “livelier” side as opposed to Odd & Dylan, whom I presume are on the bottom. Apparently Odd argued with the hosts as he was in the middle of a timed challenge & has rubbed some people the wrong way. So...why don’t we just vote out Odd for that reason? All I need to do is convince one person from Auva to flip & we avoid going to rocks, but I’m not shying away from rocks either. Dani said she’d go to rocks if Louise or I were in jeopardy, Roxy doesn’t want to kill me, Drew H. wants to play this game with me, & Drew T. let me know I wasn’t receiving votes. Maybe it isn’t the end of the world?

Toby finally found out that the idol was hidden under 39 & someone had already found it. I decided to stick to my guns by not claiming I have it because that only gives people incentive to vote you out. I have been leading Zosma’s votes which isn’t the position I’d ideally like to be in, but no one else is stepping up to the plate. I make my Odd pitch & say that we should tell the rest of Auva that they should vote out someone disposable to them instead of going to rocks for that person. Zosma & Auva are stubbornly solidifying themselves against the other for this vote, but I believe I could get Drew T. to flip. If not then I guess I’ll be drawing for rocks. :o

I want to make a longer one when I get home but for now im ready to did to rocks and join my boy jack in the robbed premerge with 0 votes club YEEEEEEEEET

Joint tribal is interesting. I think it will just be a tie. We will see.

Odd is voted out 5-3-2.

#episode #flyinghigh

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survivorunfinishedbusiness · 6 years

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Episode #1 - Mama Didn’t Raise The Type Of Bitch Who Gives Up - Kevin

PRESEASON CAST ASSESSMENT: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzWcL7aqszI

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175321847783/immunity-challenge-1

honestly mo and isaac are gonna eat shit this season...its time for revenge!! MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA...and i love julia rae she is a goddess if anyone fucks with her ill kill them

Bitch I’m here, feeling my shit. Suckin these hoes dicks for the first few days but a bitch has gotta do what a bitch has gotta do. They don’t know it yet but they got a storm coming. Hurricane Daniella...

FIRST OF ALL!!! You have Kevin, Anna, RTP, Mo.... and im not on a tribe with ANY of them??? But instead you put be on a tribe with people I dont know, people i've never talked to, and Colin, whom I love, and Nicholas, whom I'm hoping will forget Mongolia and actually work with me... It's official, I'm fighting the hosts...

I won't be making any confessionals because I hate this font. Just kidding. The tribe is good, not great. I have a moderately negative history with 3 people, a very positive history with 1, and no history with 2. Who knows what will happen.

Also, literally the entire tribe is like "Let's just be messy and search 3 spots every day for the idol, who cares." And Im like alright lets do it... apparently there are other items in the game as well, so im hoping to find something of use!

Can Bodhi leave, like now??? He's already said "well in another month you might be sitting on jury again, voting for me to win!", like no you make statements like that, I take you out. I'm not here to do nothing like in Himalayas, I am here to play and Bodhi is not part of that plan. And now basically the entire tribe has idol searched so that's alarming, so I just joined in. So assessment of my tribe: Bodhi: ew no next. Colin: I swear every game we play together he gets so excited to work with me and then backstabs me, so this will be interesting. Amanda: I'm going to want to work with her because she does have connections and that can help me right now. Dani: We were talking about Big Brother so I get good vibes from her and wouldn't mind working with her. Nicolas: nice, would be happy to work with him, but also if he gets on a tribe with Julia that could/will be bad. Kori: hasn't spoken yet so no opinion yet. This is a great tribe but also would have loved to be on a tribe with Jake, Rhone, and John Coffey.

TY HOSTS FOR GIVING ME JULIA <3 like wow ty!!! And well so far I like Ryan (not M) and also Mo and ughh what’s his name Isaac ? bc they are the ones talking to me 😂 idk if the other aren’t talking to me bc of the BB premiere. But I’m watching it sooo maybe the shud be tryin more 🤷🏻‍♂️

O YES AND OMG I SAW DANI WAS CASTED <3 i LOVE HER SOOO MUCH

Music video challenge is mofo fat and it can choke I hate it soooo much

First I’d like to thank y’all for casting me and hopefully I can do better than I did the first time. I like my tribe and I think I really mesh well with Blake and Mo and others. RTP and I have already determined that we’re good with each other. Blake and I have established an alliance between the two of us so hopefully that sticks and he can be someone I go deep with and he’s easy on the eyes so that helps. More to come later! I’m very excited!

I am SO excited to finally be back here in the Survivor Athena series. It’s been over 2 years since my last game here and the vibes so far are so good. I’m hitting things off great either Anna so far and having Jake, Colin, and Mo who I just recently played with in Big Brother: Furby with me again is yet another advantage that I hope we can work through once merge comes (Not going to get too ahead of myself though). Being on the same tribe as Rhone is rough considering the last game we played wasn’t exactly... great? It was my first ever ORG and we never really saw eye to eye, however it’s been over 3 years and I’m excited to see how he’s changed since then. I’m stoked for this Immunity and I’m hoping our tribe has what it takes to keep us all safe this week <3

I'm watching all the intro videos and I'm going to send my opinions on everyone as I go: Julia: actually obsessed and want to be her best friend so I think her and I will click really well because she seems really funny and sweet and I know Emily likes her so anyone that emily likes i vibe with. Timmy: he got second and got 0 votes for him thats wild, he seems like an easy merge boot or even swap boot just from his video? is that fucked up..? Colin- um I love him??? his makeup is fuckin killing it and i really want to be his FRIEND i'm so excited to meet him and talk about dance and all the things he likes!!!! John- his intro video is interesting!! i'm excited to talk to him and get a feel for whether or not we will click but he seems v smart and like, remember in Hogsmeade when I said Alex C thought he was rly good and i let him just think that? yeah he seems like one of those (i love u alex c) Nathan- look me in the eyes when I tell you this. I FUCKING LOVE NATHAN. ok im obsessed with him. we already have an alliance chat and we are going to KILL IT OK??? DYNAMIC DUO #1 Isaac- a character, don't know if we are gonna vibe well?? kinda seems like a stephen and if thats the case then obv we will but idkkkkk im getting odd vibes kori- if thats korimax then im not interested tbh he rubs me the wrong way, we know eachother from EM and he joins calls sometimes and idk!!! we will see but ill prob target him at some point unless he kisses my ass Rhone- rhone is going to be my best friend if its the last thing i do. what a cool fuckin guy. i am so intimidated by him but also intrigued because i want him to take me under his wing and we can fly to f2 together and talk everyday and ya kevin- ok i wish i had a video from kevin!! but he was in the watch group for hogsmeade and he's a big fan so thats a good and bad thing because he knows how i play and hopefully he doesnt see me as a threat bc honestly HE is a threat!!! im gonna attach myself to him quick MO- is this the famous mo everyones talking about? seems like a fun guy lol but why bring up your "bad ass plan" in your video lmao like that makes me feel icky!! he has a big reputation from the vl from before i left so idk im interested in seeing what he's about Nicholas - bye didnt finish the video Andrew- he seems cool and basic and like he'd be a good ally im bored dani- ok ryan- not sure what i just watched but im going to jump directly in his pocket bc he seems powerful and scary wtf theres too many ppl on this cast im not happy Bodhi- im bored video was too long didn't watch the whole thing but he seems like someone who is going to overplay ryan m.- o no i hate ppl with the same name send a video or i dont care about u bye jake- is he on my tribe i wanan be his friend amanda- she knows LITERALLY ALL MY MOVES BC SHE JUST HOSTED ME!!!! shes gonna kick my ass ladies and gentlemen she is going to KICK MY ASS blake - cant wait to meet u boy who seems like every other boy on this cast nicole- im going to befriend her thank god is this the last person theres too many ppl OVERALL im really excited theres 2 many boys tho honestly likeeeeee where the girls at????

https://youtu.be/HQbqx2g2wZ8

Well, I think I'm getting along fairly well with the tribe thus far, at least I don't think I've done anything wrong. I've made jokes about making a 4-man alliance with the voice-chat group which may end up happening, ideally if I can find myself in the majority or just not in the minority would be ideal. I'm guessing this won't be like my first season where I win the first 5 challenges and don't go to tribal. But I could be wrong, that's a previous game luck that I'd like to repeat.

Kori: Amanda! You just found yourself in an alliance! How do you feel? Amanda: I feel... alright! (episode title)

Also, Kori says that 28 is the new 22. I like this kid.

we love a 4 hour call on night one accompanied by a majority alliance. I'm already werkin that social game. So yeah um the game just started tonight and things are going perfectly?? I get along fantastically with my tribe, we're probably super strong challenge wise, AND (it bears repeating) I'm in a majority alliance night 1 bitch!! And going back to challenges, it's a MUSIC VIDEO. I love music videos so much. It's gonna be so much fun. I ain't gonna be first boot! I love being extra so here's my overall first impression of my tribe mates Amanda - if I had to choose right now, she'd be my f2. I'm so excited to work with her Bodhi - He is... a character. I think I might have trouble personally connecting with him but I need more time to feel him out Dani - QUEEN. I don't know her but she seems so fun, and she seems like she's gonna be insanely useful in the music video challenge bc she's an editing queen Kori - He is absolutely nothing like I expected. He's very strong socially and strategically, and I'm actually insanely excited I get to work with him in our alliance. He just seems super fun and interesting, prob one of my faves Nicholas - King. Legend. Definitely going to be a threat later on. Honestly could have been part of the alliance if he had been on call lmao Timmy - This is my 5TH game with this man. Everytime we play together our dynamic is different. But now we have are already officially working together this early, which has never happened before. Maybe this time I'll get to work close with him. I'm excited either way! So yeah! Great start! Great game! wig!

Really happy I was on the call last night because that ended in an alliance. It was funny how while on call Kori was making his document about everyone and actively saying his opinions on people while we can all hear him. If it's ever useful I'm going to throw that out there (not the doc, just what he said). But also I feel he is going to forget that he gave us the link and he is going to add other alliances he is in throughout the game to his other facts section, and I now have that link saved on chrome so I will be checking back at it periodically. But Amanda and I were messaging each other during the call kind of in shock that he was saying all that and we were wondering if he would give us all that information, AND THEN HE DID. It wasn't even that difficult to get. Kori is really nice and for now it is smart to work with him but I feel that down the line he is going to become a liability. Really hoping we win this first challenge so we don't have to go to tribal but if we somehow lose then I'm going to push for Bodhi to go because he is too cocky and I don't like him.

Hello, the robbed king of navarino is back and ready to snatch the win this time! So where do we begin? I’m on this tribe who’s name I don’t remember because I never remember tribe names, oops. Most of these people are familiar faces to me but not many are that close with me, so I’ll do a quick tribe assessment. Anna - This is my first time meeting her. We’re only talking about Netflix shows right now to hit it off. I didnt follow her season too closely but I think she’s the girl who went to every tribal and lost at FTC, and some people were mad at her?? She said in her intro she’s ready to be the villain again so hmmm, first off there can only be one villain, me. Second off, makes me know to be a little bit weary of you. Andrew - I am SO happy he’s cast. Definitely the closest person to me on this tribe, and hopefully he feels the same way lolol. I want to work very closely with Andrew and hopefully we make it deep. Kevin - We player enchanted together and were on good terms but he went out on a tribe swap. Don’t have much of an opinion game wise. Nathan - Just player furby with him, just gave him third in that, oops. We had a rocky time together in that game and he gave me red flags all the time there because I felt like he was doing a lot of stuff behind my back (which he was) but I just want us to be on good terms here to start. Nicole - Nicole is a really nice person, we aren’t super close though and haven’t been that close in games before. I also know she’s a good player, so I am gonna keep an eye on here. Rhône - Oh Rhône, player my first ORG ever with him. We were the first tribe to go to tribal, he was targeting me, i got people to flip onto my side and we voted him out and then he called me a dick and deleted me. 6 months later... we’ve added each other back LOL. But he extended an olive branch and I never held a grudge against him anyways so ofc I’ll move past it so he doesn’t have a target on me. But we’ll see how things go down later on!

Okay so, um the Athena Goddesses must love me. I went to go to do my first idol search with a random guess. And with a literal 1% of finding the idol... I FOUND LUKE’S IDOL. Literally EVERYONE in my host chat including myself was S H O O K. I’ve never found an idol in an ORG before, so to get this lucky day one. Yeah... these auras are looking nice. My spirit guides are clearly looking out for me and I am going to manifest an Unfinished Business win <3

https://youtu.be/k6N3ffzXOsQ um hello plz dont get seasick watching this

Hi! I’m here! My tribe is amazing and that means I’ll probably go home if we lose! Can’t wait!

My ass is on vacation rn and a dumb music video challenge is not on the itenerary. Hopefully we either win or my alliance will keep me safe if we have to go to tribal. #bulliesRus if we do lose I think Ryan 2 or whatever his last name is an M I think? He’s the one to go. And everyone else on my tribe I love Julia of course 😍 Isaac seems loyal and I wud like to play this game with him and RTP idk I’m watching him but i have to trust him rn. John C. He’s super fun to talk to when he talks to u smh. Mo he is so boring to talk to when he talks to u . And Ryan M.? Like he leaves me on read 24/7 and hopefully he does that to everyone and not just me 🤷🏻‍♂️

the final 2 is gonna have me and Kori. I'm calling it right now! Facts are facts, America

Well after a full day has gone by it seems I'm in a majority alliance, which in theory is good for me. Though I've also been working on Dani and she says she was approached for a majority alliance, that COULD be the alliance I'm already in and put in the effort of having formed, but it could also be another alliance in the works that I'm not part of, so I'm gonna have to keep my eyes peeled. (It's possibly that the alliance I'm currently part of is not even like a real alliance, in that I could be the only one who's considering it seriously.) Meanwhile Bodhi as much as I like the guy, I feel like he was being a bit too stubborn about the song selection, that could have rubbed people the wrong way, and I think he'd be safe person to recommend for elimination, but with this other alliance potentially floating around, I dunno could be dangerous.

https://youtu.be/Hk0ol_R_QkU

ok I have NO fucking idea if we're doing the intro to this song or not. We picked the best song on the list (not for the comp, but just best in general), but of course we're doing a BULLSHIT COVER OF IT. It's from a movie I think? I've never actually heard of the movie but Colin and Amanda seem to actually care about it so maybe it's a thing? Those two have completely taken over creative control for this challenge, aside from tasking Dani with editing the whole thing. But no one has ANY idea what Dani is going to do. Basically I don't know if we're doing THIS version (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8nfDvZVDYAQ) or THAT version (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gwpaA5HGo9k). All I know is that we aren't doing the music versions, we're doing one of these shitty ones. Yesterday I was feeling rather sick, and it HURT MY HEAD to have to listen to this song. Nicholas told me that Dani wants to align with me/him/Kori. I don't have an issue with that, because four in seven is in. The target is apparently Amanda? So I'd love if this was real. I don't really know if it is though. Dani and I haven't really talked all that much. I'm not throwing this comp, but if we lost I wouldn't be sad. I'm completely alright with Amanda Leaving. I keep saying things like "hey maybe we shouldn't do the dialogue," and then she's like "hmm no let's," and then NO ONE ELSE GIVES ENOUGH OF A SHIT ABOUT THIS SONG TO COME DOWN ON EITHER SIDE OF IT. So I think we might be including DIALOGUE from a MOVIE but COMPLETELY THE FUCK OUT OF CONTEXT SO IT MAKES NO SENSE. This is the worst music video I've ever been a part of, and that includes when someone changed the song last minute, but used the same footage as before. I fucking hate lip sync videos. No one should ever have to do this. I can't help but thinking: what if some day I want to get a job?? Like, an employer is definitely going to stumble upon me lip syncing the WRONG VERSION of "I put a spell on you" and decide not to hire me for that reason alone.

henlo hosts i wrote this out yesterday but was too lazy to submit it... im really excited to be first boot of this season! but honeslee my tribe is really iconic and cute andrew - my homosexual father! i love this man and i really wanna work with him. he's won 2/3 seasons that i've played with him so...my impact. also i think he's the only taveuni representation so wig rhone - king. he's hosting me in new zealand which kinda scares me cause he knows how i play so i'll either have to change how i play or like. vote him out anna - QUEEN?? i loved her in hogsmeade just from watching and now i get to PLAY with her??? nicole - she...never responded to my message....and she's been talking in the chat so like nathan - he seems nice. typical tumblr gay jake - i love him i played with him in atomic (nicole too) and he wanted to work with me so hopefully that carries over anyways i think we're gonna lose this challenge bc idk we have no theme for our lipsync so like...yay...

https://youtu.be/QofCMRW42mU

Bitch that fucking edit took me all fucking day so these motherfuckers better appreciate that shit and won’t vote me off first on our tribe. Fuck y’all.

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175390519838/rewardimmunity-results-1

UGHHH SERIOUSLY? Literally every time I play a Survivor ORG I go to tribal first. I AM SICK OF IT. But I haven't been the first boot yet... So let's hope it continues? It's really annoying being on a small tribe because no one is really "inactive" so there doesn't seem to be much of an easy way out. I guess Kevin could be an easy name to say because he didn't participate, but I still talk to him and he probably has connections on the tribe. I don't want to get into hot waters by saying any names RN... So my goal is to talk to everyone, see if names comes to me, and keep close with Andrew because I'd hope he would tell me if I'm in danger. If worst comes to worst I may have to play this idol round 1... Just like Luke did :o But I hope that isn't the case fdjdsfnjdsfjnfd

Not exactly how I expected my first week back in the Athena series to go... but I can’t say I’m surprised either. Going into tribal, I feel like I’ve made the most connections I possibly could have and I’ve got Anna and Jake for sure on my side. It’s deciding WHO I want out that’s the problem. I could get out Rhône who is a clear threat to my game later on, or Kevin who didn’t participate at all. It’s all about balancing out when to make personal game moves and game moves to help the tribe... and I’ve only got one shot at redemption. So it may be time to go for the jugular and ensure my safety later on by campaigning against Rhône.

The Quality of Talio’s fucking video gave me explosive diarrhea. Who edited(?) using a potato? It’s wild Maury. If our tribe ever loses Emily WILL be bullied out of this community. Anyways I’m in an alliance with Julia, Blake, and Ryan called “Bullies R Us” in honor of the late Toys R Us company and we’re all bullies so the name stuck.

I feel calm now, I can breathe. It's a good day. It's such a great feeling to have immunity and know I won't be first boot. I'm really proud of the tribe because we were able to get it done. I am so thankful for Dani being able to edit that video because that must have taken a lot of time and energy, and also really happy that we were the only tribe to have all of our members participate. Good luck to the person on Talio who didn't...although I don't know why they didn't so they could be fine. Also really happy I don't have to deal with tribal tomorrow because I'll be at a party so I wouldn't be able to talk to as many people. Like yea I have an alliance and I trust them, but I would have liked the ability to make my plan happen if we were going to tribal. But we're not so I'm happy.

My tribe winning?? no surprise there <3 Ryan #2 (M) got lucky this round :) he wud of been bye bye if we wud of lost. BUT SPECIAL THANKS TO RTP GOING ALL OUT FOR THIS CHALLENGE HE DID AN AMAZING JOB AT EDITING! and MO ur lip syncing amazing and the theatrics amazing. RTP THE COSTUME CHANGES AFREAKINMAZING! i owe it to my team for winning this one i pretty much did nothing :D and whats with nicholas looking like a scary adult baby during his lip sync parts??

Well, we won our first challenge, which is great, my idol search has been uneventful, and Dani wants to form an alliance of me her and Nicholas, which is good because she wants to work with me, but could backfire with me already in an alliance with Amanda, Colin, and Timmy. In a perfect scenario we won't ever go to tribal more than once so I don't have to worry about betraying anybody. I'm also trying to maintain a relationship with Bodhi to keep that avenue open as well, I'm in a weird middle position, and I think my decisions going forward are gonna keep ramping up in importance.

https://youtu.be/zmEEJaaXSHY

Okay ladies, let's panic. So obviously my lazy dumb ass is being grilled and I'm an obvious first boot. In all honesty I deserve it. BUT mama didn't raise the kind of bitch who gives up. Mama raised the kind of bitch who wants to stay in this game. I've been told by a few people that they wanna keep me around because I'm so likable and cute and social and pretty... Some of those details weren't explicitly said but I'm sure they were thinking it. Anna, Andrew, and Jake in particular all told me they wanna keep me around. Wiggy. Luckily that's four and four's enough in this tribe. I would like a fifth just for safety but I'll take what I can get. Honestly Nathan wants to ride Andrew to the sunset so we could probably pull him in. Maybe if I "accidentally" send a selfie and say I'm like 18 I can pull him in... Okay fuck me Rhone just said he wants to keep me. Well bitch what the fuck do I do now. I mean Nicole's socially inactive but she carried our tribe in this challenge. Shit.

ok so we had our first challenge which was the music video and i was like...fuck yeah ive never lost this....then i looked at my tribe...honestly most of them look dead and im not sure they have pulses or have ever felt emotion past "eh." so i was little worried but i think with my editing skills and mo's fantastic performance we fucking rocked it. (even tho emilys mom yelled at me) a few days ago both isaac and julia messaged me saying that blake wanted an alliance with us four....and i couldnt love that idea more...im not sure how i feel about mo and john...and ryan is an old friend of mine who i think i can at least trust even tho he has shown up like twice since the game started. rn my first choice to go would be mo...ryan and john seem a little more inactive and i think will just stick with our group if we swap or something...mo is more active and actually has a mind of his own...and unless that mind is aligned with mine its gotta go! also queen simone!

Hello I AM SO UPSET. Kevin should by all standards be the one going home there’s been no social connection with him, he’s busy and didn’t even attempt. But here we are AGAIN as in every org I’ve ever played with rhone, people want Rhône gone first and it f*cking sucks. Every single time. Why? Like it makes me livid, at this point I rather flop to see Rhône thrive because they deserve it. In an early TS season work ethic represented outcome a lot more than now, now it’s all who messaged you hello first. Get me AWAY from these cows I am so angry. Like beyond angry, LIVID. Rhône is one of the best people I know and it just makes me upset when people think less of them because they don’t do the whole social butterfly fake ass bullshit we are all so accustomed to. Anyway so that’s my thoughts, these bitches better vote out Kevin because if Rhône goes I’m gonna fight to the death to make sure each of their asses are gone. (Unless I get voted out, even better.)

Okay so we lose the first challenge, great. My goal is to make sure I’m not a target so I talk to everyone. I feel the most secure with Andrew, and he mentions wanting to work with Kevin and I’m fine with that. Problem is, Nicole and Rhône both mention him as a vote to me. But Kevin tells me today that he is interested in going for Rhône. And everyone who I’ve talked to today says they’ve heard it’s between Kevin and Rhône... so hopefully that is the case? Problem is, Kevin is an easy vote but the people I trust don’t want him to go. So that leaves Rhône, but I also feel kind of guilty if I push for him to go since we targeted each other the first round of Crossroads, but as of now it seems like he wants to work with me? If I based it off of who I feel the least connected to on our tribe, it would be easiest for me to vote out Nicole right now. But... she took the time to edit our video so that’s kinda rude. UGH I hate 7 person tribes so much.

https://youtu.be/LTlCKkTT5nc

So much drama has happened lol so the vote was between Kevin and Rhône because Kevin didn’t participate and Rhône was inactive. So Rhône comes on today and messages me saying “what are you thinking about the vote?” And I said “I’ve heard Kevin” and he said “oh I’ve heard my name” then he adds me and Nicole to a group chat to try and save himself and I’m lowkey interested. Then Andrew messaged me saying rhone told him that I was the one who spilled the beans to him about him being on the chopping block... so then I confront Rhône and he legit just gives up and asks us all to vote him. Easy first tribal np!!! Also Nicole is worried about Andrew and Kevin being friends and thinks me and her will be on the bottom if we lose again but like.. I have relationships with Jake and Nathan.. and Andrew AND kevin. So no, I’m not gonna be the target, she might but I won’t.

https://youtu.be/cT9514s6eLI

John and RTP wanted to align with me as soon as we hit the beach running. Julia and Blake also reached out to talk... so they're clearly social. Too bad I don't like Blake. I didn't do the first challenge because I don't like music videos and June 29th was an important date for me. I feel bad but ya kno oops

Hi! My phone is on 4% so this may be short. I have barely been around to talk to my tribe members but I made sure to do my part in the challenge cause I love music videos! So here's a little synopsis of my tribe. Ryan M - one of my good friends in this community. We just got out of a game together a few months ago and we are both very stubborn players. I'm not sure how I feel to see him as much as I love him Blake - I talk to him probably the most! He's really cool so far RTP - only ever heard of this guy but he's an icon. Great guy so far but I'd say he's my biggest threat moving forward Julia - love her!! She's so easy to talk to Mo - I like talking to him though we don't get to much. we have bonded over our gayness LOL Isaac - he has hosted me and I looove him but we haven't talked very much in this game so far?? Also jake price lives literally 15 minutes away from me. He was in crossroads with Ryan and I and he knows exactly how close I am with Ryan, while ryan knows the same about myself and Jake. This could come to bite me down the road for sure so I sorta hope those two are not in the game together for very long with me unless they will get the fuck along. They stress me out LOL

By a vote of 6-1, Rhone becomes the first person voted out of Survivor Athena: Unfinished Business. Here is Rhone’s preseason interview.

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175413949688/tribal-1-talio

Final 21 Cast Assessment: http://youtu.be/of-ZIE11l6Y

#writeanewchapter #episodes

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i need more money to buy little art

honestly tho feeling like for that ideal goal existence i’ll try get to someday, i’ll needa be making proper money comfortable and good so i can spend all i like on society 6 and other to buy shirts and bags and just everything to a house all in different art prints (mostly florals) bc just those pictures are like everything i want but just so expensive. i’m trying to sum down like 10 to stickers, bc i wanna do up my laptop, but dedicating to a single decal (thats like 25 ON SALE) is too much esp since i love so much. so ive kinda decided to get a hard cover for the laptop just in case i break it, and just in case i do break my laptop that i can keep the stickers on the hard case and dont lose them to replaced parts. idk seems smart. ill probs buy a kinda shady cover off of ebay for 5 or 6 pound and then spend 20 on stickers for it :] since theyre on sale till 8 am today and its 3 am im probs just gonna settle and order them. might order cover tomorrow w my dad bc i need trust assurance. hes not all on board on the stickers so im just gonna go for it. theyre gonna be like my post cards. i buy so many every place. and no. not trashy postcards. i want art. i have so many postcards of paintings in galleries and so many from comic con art valleys (guess who wants to get so much more and 100% will) i love original art the most when its pretty to me and like everyone who sees it. simples okay but i prefer soft and detailed. excited now i can go to con and also be looking for stickers bc maybe ill get a few cool ones that wont cost me as much as the society 6 ones do. and then my laptop can replicate my walls, displaying all the art ive loved that ive been able to take with me (bc theres so much i obviously dont have on my walls) anyway im looking at these and making some small bc i suddenly realise this laptops got realestate. and the saddest thing w stickers (literally why i had one of those waxy paged sticker books as a child) is that i cant dedicate stickers to a single spot. its so much dedication. what if i buy a bigger sticker and it wont fit? what if i get the perfect sticker for that spot and it wont fit? (over lap i guess) how can i be sure i put them in the right spots to start with? augh i dont really wanna cover just half of it and obviously leave space bc that puts pressure on finding stickers and i might get ones i dont love. i cant get sick of any one bc itll be there (joy of having multiple mean theres less getting sick of anything). anyway i think im happy w the sizes of these 10 stickers and can work w them (also for now i think im just gonna be going around the edges and leaving the apple logo as it is, esp bc it glows and theres already this shitty old smiley face sticker from my old psych teacher and i kinda dont wanna get rid of it, i just wanna add things around it so it doesnt look so: clean (actually dirty) laptop that a child marked as their own)

anyway society 6 has random discounts all the time which is p rad and maybe the day im ready to invest in my own living space and dont feel obliged to check w my parents about just about any purchase, i’ll then subscribe to something thatll tell me what discount is on. that in mind, i think i’ll only get the 9 now, that hopefully wont cost too much, and leave a bunch in my wishlist, bc there’ll be another discount (this is 20% off everything) and maybe that’ll be like 50% off stickers and boy then when my collection is underway you bet ill go for it. and like maxx sticks on their sketch book, if i dedicate to a new book maybe ill get more for that and have a pretty thing to keep and reminisce over (tho knowing me, ill not use it much bc i have a need for pretty things to stay perfect and presentable, and i have a need for everything that i might show to others to be like near perfect otherwise its sucks and ill feel bad bc i dont wanna show it off to people. like my art book, sure i couldve made it all experimental and crap and then edited the real pages together on the computer. but no. i needed everypage to be presentable and pretty and handwritten and creative. and they must go page after page, its so awkward showing someone something and then going “oh wait now these few are empty sorry yeah heres the next page” so i baasically have a book with mhmmm 20-26 pages of beautiful spreads that im quite proud of inside beautiful covers ( i knew id want to be presenting it for years to come) and the back pages are just...empty. and theyll probably stay that way bc i no longer have projects to be doing to fill them with. maybe one day ill grow into myself and grow out the fear of ruining what ive achieved and fill some with new projects to please myself and be an indepenednt artist not just a teacher pleaser. you know its like that with my work too, like it has to have a direction and a plan that will be achieved, and its terribly frustrating when that vision doesnt happen. but i think thats the same with everyone.

anyway on a side note, dont you guys think its so fun and cool how ive not done my post labs that were due last friday? how every night ends up being 3-4 am until i go... mhmmmm yeah i guess nothing is happening. like i hope id bloom and do work at that 11pm-3am window and then i get here, suddenly having lost all track and sense of time and just sigh. its wasted, its basically tuesday already. have to keep telling myself dates bc it moves so weird. i planned on getting shit done two days ago. here we are regardless. and the most ill get done is get those stickers ordered bc that is i guess what ive been half focused on for mhmmm5 hrs. then ill save my 7 dollars or whatever, have stickers on the way, tomorrow order the case and thats one insignificant thing done. then the question will be have i looked at summer jobs? no of course not ive looked at ballet courses. shush. i havent showered for days bc theyve just slipped by too laying in bed, maybe tomorrow ill take a shower and pick up all the trash and tissues on the ground. maybe i will. i know i wont get real work done tonight, and already ill be sleepy till 1 pm and by then mom will be again on me abt sleeping to latesoo... yeah no point. and here i thought id make a quick totes relatable short post about how i need more money to buy stickers and maybe a brief my ideal life is to have enough money to spend on art being in every part of my life and all this being unique so people love coming to my house and go wow its so original and cool. and that turned into a word vent thats so far taken me over half an hour. hi my batterys dying.

lng story short, i’ll order the stickers currently in my basket after so much though, suck it up and do it and know that i have a bunch over in my wishlist for that next maybe even better sale when it happens. the only thing is im taking all the rest as transparent which for sure dulls them down (yeah white background looks sick but for some its just more classy w transparent, then theres this one bear i’m 100% naming wojtek thats in white bc i feel it’ll be best for him, and i guess having him in white will set that theres no clear rules to follow and worst case if it doesnt fit he can come chill on the keyboard side next to my mouse pad thing) honestly i cant tell if i should be getting them all in white and just hope that theyll look gorgeous no matter what. yikes 3 dollar shipping for stickers, ok itll actually be 19.62 pound and using euro card 22.50 in euros.... am i dumb? maybe. and tho im supposed to be saving money up so i have some, i also did get birthday money sorta recently soo... birthday gift from them. first set of stickers. deep breaths ok. my parents told me when i bugged them that i just have to make a decision and not ask them all the time, and he said to get 3 stickers i told him id pick 12 so i think getting 9 is reasonable. also oh shit realising that the delivery time is 1-3 weeks and im staying here only 1 and a half more so i should really order it to scotland even tho it might get ther ebefore i do bc my parents might not rly want to send them up to me. idk ok order to scotland, thank f at least one of my flat mates is staying and tbh i should really bring her some chocolate... shes done me faavours.

#another thought trail rant #this time on buying art in form of post cards and now stickers for the first time and being unsure about everything #when am i sure tho

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survivor-switzerland · 7 years

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EPISODE 5: BACKSTABBING ME BEHIND MY BACK - ABEL

ok so if we lose this next immunity challenge i kinda want brett out. he's a huge fucking threat that needs to go. i don't trust anyone enough on this tribe to make that move happen but im also pretty sure he has an idol because of the tasks challenge. i know that someone on that tribe has an idol so. guess we'll see.

max needs to go. he's rubbing me the wrong way and tried to tell me i didn't need to study for my exams and implied i can do the challenge? bitch don't fucking tell me what i can and can't do. i sure as hell CAN and WILL vote your ass out.

Yeah so Trent goes with 5 votes for him and 3 votes for (QUEEN) Renee..

I'm happy that the OG Monte Rosa members did not lose a number during the tribal and now Luke comes in to the Monte Rosa. Putting back the OG tribe ratio back to 4v4.

I wanna know how these last two votes went so bad! Both of them had been 5 - 3. I wanna know who got C'iere out because I wanted to work with him SO bad! And there's this vote where it was 5 - 3 again... What a time to not have a third eye or whatever.

Anyway I've been bonding with Ashley Sarah and before the vote she told me that Logan is friends with Daisy and stuff. Hmm Logan is becoming a bit dangerous for my taste, I'm still weary on that alliance that Tyler suspects of Logan, Nick and Dom. I need to continue spreading my network of information because if that tight alliance of three is legit they're dangerous!! But I'm gonna continue and be the friendly person I am because that is the foundation of my mad social skillz!!

This current tribe is the purrfect (oops) time to solidify something with Ash and Brett! Me and Tyler need to rally our own army if we're going to go against Nick and Logan's.

Now in my previous confessional I mentioned how I wanted to work with Zack, but now... I kinda don't wanna?? Idk after composing myself a little I feel frightened by him plus he turned his status on skype to "away" just because I talk to much? asdfghjk buddy if you wanna stop talking then come up with a lie, jeez that's what I would do. So right now I've just been quiet today since I've gotten self-conscious lol.

So we're doing a music video and I'm quite excited on how this turn out. The song were doing is something from Eurovision which I don't know what that is but I just went along because I've got nothing better to suggest, unless if this tribe was packed with otaku's I'd probably go at it. One last note, I'm going to the beach for 4 days tomorrow so wohoo for me!!

Ciao!

I'm now on the Monte Rosa tribe! Since coming back from Exile Island a few people have asked me "what happened" which is code for "did you find an idol?" and like...I don't think these people realise that the idol clues are literally relevant to the challenges HOW am I supposed to have gotten an idol when I couldn't do the challenge on Exile. It makes me laugh that these people apparently don't realise that but oh well. This tribe is pretty cool, I feel well connected so hopefully it goes well for me. Daisy spilled her guts to me about how Logan betrayed her at the last vote and lied to her so I know I have Daisy in my pocket again. Logan and Nick are obviously working together but Logan would more than likely choose me over Nick so I'm cool with that. Renee doesn't really speak to anybody but I know that Zack would expect me to look out for her so I'm going to do that as best as I can. Zack and Renee will be trouble if they meet up again so it might be time to take Renee out sooner so I'm conflicted about what to do. I'm Abel's only friend so THAT'S fun, he trusts me a lot. Benjamin and Lily are from OG Monte Rosa but I think they'd work with me if push came to shove.

My Tatzelwurm and I are doing well, we love that we got a round to sit and do nothing but I need to survive 2 more rounds until it can hatch and help me win this game.

The dreaded music video comp ugh how I feel right about now

I'm super nervous about this tribal. I feel like there's another swap coming up after this round or the next one. I need to start talking to people more but like I have a gut feeling that people are going to want me out. If anything they should want out Tyler for not doing... anything.

ok so i talked to zack and he doesn't have an idol. or so he says. it'd be stupid to not tell me because im literally trying to save him. but i know that i need to keep my mouth shut because this is literally the same situation that happened last time. i really want to work with zack and jev but at the same time, I'm here to win. I'm trying to beat my old placement. God i hope we just fucking win this immunity challenge.

whew... I really hope our music video wins? I'm not entirely too confident in my position in the game at the moment, even if I do have some loyal allies. And plus, this kinda scenario was what killed me in Solomon, so I don't wanna deal with the same scenario again, but just slightly further into the game.

Here's what i was venting about sorry.

so Ashley sarah and I may flip to jev and zack

at least making it 4-4

but what might also happen is I might try to get the 6 monte rosa to split 3 and 3

by planting a seed of doubt by telling them zack or jev has an idol

or at least telling them that I think they do and by being safe by splitted 3-3

Ashley sarah and I would vote opposite ways

so for example

me brett and ian vote for jev

ashleysarah max and tyler vote for zack

But Ashley sarah and I don't actually vote for either of them, instead we vote for Max/Brett making the vote 4-2-2

but that would take a lot of work and convincing

Thank GOD we won that immunity challenge because I feel like I'd have been in trouble had we not won, so thank you Monte-Rosa for serving Valentina teas with your lip sync!!

tired

Daisy's fake ass pretending to talk game to me when she throws me under the bus to everyone here. Our conversations go nowhere bc she talks in circles and won't ever be straight up. Also her handwriting is ugly. Flop ass flop.

Ugh! This game man. I just can't wait until it's all done and I never have to talk to these people again!

Ok, so Abel, Renee, Logan, Ben, and myself blindsided Trent last round... I am really glad it worked because it hopefully means that we should have a majority going into this round. Immunity is this ugly ass music video challenge... so I record me doing the entire fucking excruciating lipsync and then Logan forgets to edit me in the video :( I am not gunna hold it against him because he def put a ton of work into editing but I was really made. Since I lied to Daisy and Lily last round I had to mend some bridges this round. I try and tell Daisy that Logan and I were looking out for her because it was either Trent or her. Also I really want to have those bonds, especially with Lily down the road... you never want somebody in the game who will never work with you. So we lose immunity AGAIN and end our asses back at tribal council :/ I think this should be a fairly simple vote because we can just vote out Daisy for being a crazy ass messy player who legit throws names out the wazoo whenever we lose an immunity competition. However, I have this sneaking feeling that somebody might be trying to pull a blindside TM tonight, maybe Luke? I just hope im not the target of get blindsided... I think i have been playing a very lowkey game upto now, not the traditional crazy antics of my other ORGs, sure I have generally good connections with all my tribe mates, but I dont think thats enough to land my torch in the snuffer for a couple of rounds. I think this game has bigger fish to fry before I get served with a side of tartar sauce.

The time is here. I finally get to face Daisy in the face. The one who's been backstabbing me behind my back. This ends tonight. With hopefully...her blood...on these hands.

Honestly I'm probably going home but if I don't I need to CHILL OUT. Too many people are coming to me for plans with votes and I'm not here for it. I don't want to be seen as someone calling the shots, regardless if I am or not.

WHEW I WAS LOOKING AT THE WIKI AND ORIGINAL MATTERHORN IS TRULY IN SOME HOT WATER. 4 of us have already gone home and tonight it's looking like a 5th may be leaving so AHHHHHHHHH I brought it up to Renee and she was shook so. Whew.

I've been approached with two different plans tonight. One plan is to vote out Daisy and the other is to vote out Abel. I think I'm leaning more toward where the numbers are tonight and voting out Daisy. It's great for my game because people think she has the advantage (teehee) and she's also paranoid and doesn't trust me 100% so.

I'm predicting the vote tonight to be:

Abel - Lily, Daisy

Daisy - Luke, Abel, Renee, Nick, Logan

and Benjamin is in a gray area right now because nobody knows what he wants to do. I'm hoping this goes right because I'd be 4/4 for voting in the majority and controlling the vote teehee

So we win immunity again woo!!

So I'm now in an alliance with Ashley, Tyler and Brett!! Woo my faves!! Right now we're trying to figure out if there's indeed a GIANT pre-made alliance in this game. Ugh pre-mades... Anyway we think that Logan is the one running it and he has his hands on Nick, Dom, Daisy, Lily and Luke. That's dangerous as hell and if there is a pre-made well it needs to be killed like right now!!

So it seems like tonight it's either me or Abel. Daisy vs. Abel: The Showdown! Basically, I thought I had my numbers for Abel. I had me, Luke, Nick, and Lily and all I needed was Logan or Ben to have that majority. Ben's not answering me, so I talk to Logan and tell him to just be honest with me and tell me whether he's voting with me or not. He says he doesn't know yet, but it might be me tonight and he thinks people are lying. Which means that he's now gonna try to figure out what the majority actually is, and he might vote with me he might not. Ben gets back to me and says he's heard Abel. And right now I'm confident about Lily voting with me, maybe Ben because it seems like he's been busy. But I'm nervous about Nick and Luke. Luke is trying to comfort me and reassure me everything will be fine, and I can't tell if this is similar to when he would reassure me when I was just being overly paranoid, or if this is similar to when he reassured me that Abel was going home pre swap. Also I've barely talked to Nick, and he totally lied to me last round. So he could easily be lying again. Apparently Renee is voting for Abel too? Which shocks because I was told that they're a pair. I don't know, maybe she's just trying to make sure she doesn't get votes again. Or maybe she's not actually voting for Abel. I have no idea. I'm just scared, and I feel like anything could happen tonight. I hate going into tribal feeling like I have no idea how the votes are gonna fall. It's nerve wracking.

EPISODE 5

Now Trent's gone. Great. Literally the only two people I was excited to play with have already been gunned down and I didn't get to share so much as a hello with them. It's rather depressing. I'm going to do everything in my power while I am in this game to avenge both Keegan and Trent. The good news is that with so many of original Matterhorn destroying one another, we are now up 10-6 and now I only have 6 people left on my kill list.

There has been a lot of speculation as to how original Matterhorn's hierarchy was. The first two votes were unanimous, but in the tribal council in which Ci'ere was voted out, three votes were cast against Abel. Ci'ere was the first, obviously, and I'm thinking at this point that Trent was the second--and likely the reason original Matterhorn didn't attempt to draw him in when they were swapped an even 4-4. Now it's just a matter of figuring out the third vote. Furthermore, there were three votes against Renee, leaving two players in the minority of last night's vote. Did all of original Monte Rosa and Renee vote out Trent? Or were there fractures among Monte Rosa's votes? There's a lot more uncertainty about where you actually stand in the game when you haven't attended a tribal council. I'm really curious how everything is going to unfold.

The challenge was uh...it was a god damn music video. Shoot me in the face. I immediately volunteered to sit out only to face the revelation that Luke was on Exile and had now joined the new Monte Rosa, so we were EVEN and I couldn't fucking sit out! After pushing host Amanda into a vat of monoxide, I relaxed and was able to focus on the win.

How Music Video Challenges USUALLY Go:

1. Literally everyone has different awful taste in music and pushes for something they like to be the song of choice.

2. No one agrees on anything.

3. No one wants to be the editor (and can you blame them?)

4. 7/8 people begrudgingly learn a song they don't care for and roll their eyes through their entire recordings.

5. Shitty de facto editor puts together a slapstick, shoddy video.

6. The judges brutalize.

How Music Video Challenges SHOULD Go:

1. First establish the editor. Without an editor, you don't have anything--this is the most important step to the entire thing and really should be the only thing considered at the beginning.

2. You let the editor pick whatever fucking song they want and you shut the fuck up about how much you hate it for the sake of unity and in gratitude that you're not stuck with editing said video.

3. You film your scenes enthusiastically.

4. The editor, who has gotten their way with song choice and everyone has treated with a modicum of respect, is passionate about editing said video and puts together something actually passable.

5. The judges only brutalize slightly.

I want the above steps to be circulated to literally everyone who will ever play Tumblr Survivor or any similarly formatted series because I feel like people don't understand this formula and will continue to make asshats of themselves because of it.

So Maximilian stepped up to be the editor and that was the first time since this game has started that I've ever appreciated Max. Max fucked up in the scavenger hunt. Max was useless in endurance tasks. Max has just been generally useless. So the fact that Max stepped up to be editor, a major key role in this challenge--all the respect in the world. I could not be more grateful to Max for this. Max chose a rather annoying song by a Swiss artist, but it was a good song choice because if you're like me and don't want to learn the words to an annoying song, there is a lot of instrumentation and whistling in Sebalter's "Hunter of Stars." I did find it funny that Max chose a song with chorus lyrics: "Want me to go 'cause you think I'm lying." It's not lost on me.

I told the team that it would be cute if we were to all wear red/white in coordination with the colors on Switzerland's flag. I don't recall how many of these goobers actually complied with that, but for me, I had a blast with it. I remembered that my Harley Quinn shirt that was a part of my Halloween costume is those colors and it struck me that it would be fun to dress as Harley and have the baseball bat as a prop. In my first take, I attempted to fake-hit my phone with the bat, but I actually ended up hitting it dead on and I bashed my own phone! It made for a very funny music video closer and an excellent gif, but that was not my intention! Zack made the gif and I love it so much. I told Zack, "You are my favorite Matterhorndog." The rest of the scenes went much easier and I used an umbrella and a pinata in addition to the baseball bat as props. The following day, I learned that Tyler Fennessy was unable to participate and I printed out his picture and shot another whistling scene while I was at work, in my suit, at my hotel's lakeside patio.

All in all, Max edited a really fantastic video and they killed their scenes as well--the lip synching and violin playing as on point. I think my scenes were great and Ian was a terrific dancer and lip syncher as well. It was a brilliant team effort.

Can we talk about Monte Rosa's video for a second? Yikes. Renee was so cute and animated and I feel like I would really like her personality--that is all of the positive critique I have on that video. The guys were all terrible. Lily was terrible. Daisy...she really needs to reconsider her lipstick. I've gotta say. She looked like an extra from Glee. Logan's interpretive dance was ridiculous, but he has a pretty smile. The whole thing was an utter mess. And I feel Logan's pain. Finding someone to edit the video SUCKS. And if Logan had been voted out, I would have been pissed on his behalf. As far as I'm concerned, if you step up to be editor, especially if it's because no one else can be bothered, you are IMMUNE from being voted out. The loss cannot be put on you. So points to Logan for actually doing things and points to Renee for being cute.

The original Monte Rosa members on New Matterhorn are now 5-0 in challenge wins. Ashley Sarah, Dom, Ian, Maximilian, Tyler, and myself have never had to attend a tribal council in the first five rounds of the game. It's kind of awesome, but not being involved in votes really makes it difficult to cement bonds. Tyler finally got around to pitching the idea of an alliance to Ashley Sarah and now we are an alliance of four with Ian rounding out the squad.

A few things were discussed in this new alliance of four, titled "H4rmony" (I hate the name, but I don't care):

1. Ian believes Lily was one of the two who didn't vote out Trent last round due to a voting confessional that looks like something Lily's said before.

2. Zack has allegedly told Ian and Tyler that he believes Ashley Sarah has a hidden immunity idol--it makes us believe that he is actually in possession of one. That and/or the huge advantage that came with throwing the endurance tasks challenge.

3. No one trust Logan.

4. We want to keep a line of communication open with Jevvon as a potential wild card.

5. According to Tyler, Zack claims Dom has approached him about having an alliance including Dom, Tyler, Zack, and Ashley Sarah.

6. Everyone seems to have something going on with someone except for Maximilian. Because of this, I volunteered to speak with them to see where their head is at.

So I went and talked to Maximilian and conversation literally could not have gone worse. Max was already someone I found it very difficult to talk to and this conversation just made that concrete. Conversing with this loser is EXCRUCIATING. It is so bad. Max has this air that asserts their intelligence is higher than others (but with no actual credentials to speak of). And they're just so standoffish that I left the whole conversation feeling super uncomfortable. My strategy in speaking to them was to start with pleasantries and then ease into how never losing a challenge has lulled me into a sense of security I shouldn't have and I've found it difficult approaching people because I've been warned about a massive pre-made that exists (that last part actually is the truth).

HIGHLIGHTS

Max: "I've gotten to a point with this community where shouting about premades is a surefire way to get me to vote you out the next round, to be honest."

Me: Yikes. Well you can write down whichever name you like, Max."

Max: Not threatening you. It's just the pattern I've developed."

LITERALLY WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT? Who fucking says that? Jesus Christ that was so uncomfortable. This asshat is non-committal and wants to just sit on their ass while this whole game happens around them. You do you, Max. But you know what's not good game? Not playing ball with someone attempting to play ball with you for no apparent reason. Zack might very well have an advantage or an idol to use if we lose the next challenge. I have a simple solution and Tyler agrees with me completely: play up that we are splitting the votes between Jevvon and Zack (3-3-2), forcing Zack's hand in using their advantage/idol, but actually voting out Maximilian, someone no one will be playing an idol on (4-2-2 or 4-2-1-1 or some variation of that). Even though I'm a Neda in nature, the Ika Wong can and will come out from time to time. And I'll take a shot at this guy when he least expects it. And I won't miss.

#ihopeiseeyounever #confessionals

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Episode 5 “I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON” -L.A.

Well I don't know what is going on with these other tribes, I'm confused how they went from voting a rookie to voting a veteran which makes me think I can't just rely on reconnecting with my veterans which means I might as well go ahead and lock in some alliances with the rookies on my tribe, who honestly I want out because they kinda annoy me. But I've learned a lot from my past experiences, I really feel like this is a redemption season for me, I have to suck it up sometimes that people rub me the wrong way, I have to play a game, lie to people, align myself with whoever will get me farther in this game. I'm not bringing the chaos this time I'm bringing the sneaky snaky self, hiss hiss. I've officially placed higher than 17th like I did last time which is good and right now I'm eager to make it to the merge so my game can really just explode and I can take control.

*SCREAMS* THAT WAS SO STRESSFUL, FUCKIN' HELL. AFTER I SAW MY NAME ONCE I WAS LIKE WELP I'M GOING HOME BUT NAH MONTY IS ACTUALLY TRUSTWORTHY. Looking back, I feel stupid for considering to work with Linus, but he was the person I talked to the most so I wanted to work with someone I liked. I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON. (that's a lie, i'll probably make a rookie mistake later on) But I can pretend I'm older and wiser for now.

I found out that Linus went home during my 11-hour to home from college today, so I was planning out some confessionals outlining my next-step strategies because Linus was a close and valuable ally for me in this game and someone I really liked, but I watched the Survivor episode I couldn't watch live as soon as I got home and... all I want to say is that this puts things in perspective for me, truly, about how this is a game, and the tears I cried tonight, in my opinion, will have a profound impact on how I will play out the remainder of this game. I was reminded in the most dramatic way possible how this is all a game. Especially being someone who has, at times, blurred the distinction between real life and game in things that I've said and done, I'm looking at things through a completely different outlook after what I just witnessed transpire on national television. This is a game. This is literally just an online game. I'm going to make sure that I keep people reminded of that, that the experience can be as fun and enjoyable for people as possible, and that should I come close to blurring the line between game and life again... that I think back to the raw emotions this evening incited among the Survivor community and I remember how low-stakes this all is. I hope that this experience brings all of us in this game together so that we may approach the remainder of the season with respect, passion, and fun. I'll get back to you on strategies when there are less tears running down my face.

https://youtu.be/Q1XPLeE__oc This one BETTER BE UNLISTED.

we won reward and slither.io is fucking terrible so fuck that and let's catch y'all up with my strategies Linus went home, which was truly a wake-up call. Linus was someone I trusted and someone that I was fully aligned with and vibed with, so losing him - potentially at, as Zakriah suspects, Monty's hands - was rough. I've been playing this game on Easy Mode; we've been on cruise control since Day 1, going to Tribal Council once where Chrissa self-voted herself out 10-0, and have been immune ever since. This is literally my longest immunity streak in Tumblr Survivor history - 3 rounds - and it hit me that I haven't even been playing. No votes, no alliance-building and strategic developments... I'd been just winning everything and not worrying about jack squat. And then I see that Linus' ass is gone and suddenly my ass is grass - I've got one less ally in this game. I got woke up real hard and have now attempted to get out of cruise control and start course-correcting. I approached Dana with all this, because she's my closest ally in this game, and she agreed. On my way home yesterday, I was planning it out - form positive working relationships with the rookies because, if we keep winning, why not feel good with them in a potential swap or merge? I was planning on getting info out of Willow, and striking a deal with Allie. Instead, after having more convos with Willow, I elected to strike a deal with her; it's not official, but we've both got each others' backs, which loosely means that we're working together. I'm happy that Willow is the one I've formed a stronger relationship with because I truly see Allie as the bigger threat; we can boot Allie if we need to, and I can keep Willow around as my Katie. In Malaysia, I had a great and honest partnership with Katie; we were each others' ride-or-die, Katie because I was loyal to her and me because I felt like I could beat Katie in the end. I've got the same vibe about Willow here. She can be my partner and extra vote to the end of this game where I'll beat her - it sounds good. Now, I wanted to form good relationships with both Allie and Willow for two reasons: if we keep winning they're good allies in the advent of an inevitable future swap or merge, and if we do lose, then they won't be targeting me. Now, should we lose, my thought was to get rid of bigger rookie threat Allie, and should we lose again, take out Karen; the Karen/Monty/Lexi obvious trio shouldn't have a chance to reunite, but at the moment Karen is still a number with me, even if we hardly talk. I could be convinced to oust Karen first because Allie, while a bigger threat, might offer more future connections for Dana and myself, while the only connections Karen has are to a well-known solid clique that may have already turned against the veterans. The time will come to decide that. Until future events come to pass, my head is now back and placed firmly and square on my shoulders. No more easy mode, no more cruise control, and hopefully more premeditated and beneficial progressions.

me: finds idol clue that says in no uncertain terms that the idol is in the plane wreckage me: checks the cute vets' idol hunting doc and sees that someone has already checked there and, presumably, found the idol me: what the fuck now i'm sAD me: checks the plane wreckage anyways me: ...............fINDS THEF UIEDHFCUIEWDHXJ FUCKING IDKJCIOKWDHFNCIWS IDOL HUDEUWSIDHXS JESS CHRIST

This is legit so fucking weird. In the google docs, somebody searched there... and if they did they should have the idol... but I HAVE THE IDOL???... So someone's fabricating where they're searching??? On paper, that kind of makes sense; lie about where you've actually been to hide places that you haven't searched and leave open places where you know it's not, so your alliance can search there and not find it. That makes sense. But this edit was literally the second edit in the doc. It doesn't make any sense at all how that edit is in there and i have the idol rn. I'm legit sketched the fuck out LOL but... I lied to Dana that i searched the pile of ash (lol) and that I found the clue that I really found days ago there, and she's on a tear now. On the topic of vets being shady, she thinks that Karen's out to get her. now that i've got the idol and am feeling ballsy... karen's a lot more expendable to my conceited ass now than she was when i was vulnerable. i'll take an idol, allie, and the risk of allie's people being out to get me over an idol, karen, and a trio getting allowed to reunite. letting karen stay definitively gives a clear-cut clique the chance to reunite. there's nothing clear-cut about allie, but even if there was unbeknownst to me, i've got the idol as leverage and protection. without that protection, i would've taken the known of karen/monty/lexi over the unknown quantity of allie's allegiance, but now... karen's ass is grass. But this is all conjecture. The immunity challenge is Jeopardy!, with only one tribe representing. Kendall and I fucking dominated this challenge in Malaysia and I'm optimistic that I could do so again, so I'm thinking our chances of going to Tribal Council this round are less than likely. But if we do... Karen :~) maybe u should've tried talking to me or dana ever lol

https://youtu.be/X8GKSbyfVX4

shitshitshithsit Im screwed ;_; ill try my best to try and create a legit looking fake idol but I dont see it working at all. Fuck you Mitchell!! Fuck you Ryan!!! and Fuck you Monty!!!! I hope you all get eaten by a bunch of crocodiles

mitchell: 2 tumblevivor jeopardy!: 1 :)

Okay so last night after we got the reward, I didn't get an idol clue, but I decided to look because it's smart to look every round. Anyway I went to the sunken ship again because me and Allie have been looking in there, and I went to the flooded control deck, and then to the old map, and I found a clue, I'm so excited! [Friday, April 14, 2017 12:22 AM] Isaac (Solomon Islands Host): <<< You pick up the map You notice something written on the backside Congratulations you have found the clue to the hidden immunity idol "While you want to be soaring and flying. These people did not and ended up dying"Isaac (Solomon Islands Host), Yesterday 12:22 AM I'm just really happy about finding this clue, because I think I know where to look now, but I'll just have to wait until next round. I told Allie about the clue and that she should look this round, so that we can find the idol faster, but I don't think shes looked yet. I'm just hoping whoever got the idol clue from the reward challenge doesn't find the idol before me and Allie. It's weird because at the beginning of this game I thought the idea of someone looking for the idol was crazy, but now I realize it's not, and I've been looking every round. On another note, Mitchell came up to me and told me that he got good vibes from me, and that he's got my back, which is really great because Mitchell is an awesome person, and hes someone that I really want to work with. To enable screen reader support, press shortcut Ctrl+Alt+Z. To learn about keyboard shortcuts, press shortcut Ctrl+slash.

Ok so Im ready to start throwing literally everything at the wall. I have a pretty cray cray move planned, hope it works out but atleast I would go down fighting.

Because Monty flipped on the vets - I already knew it, but Mitchell confirmed it after the jeopardy challenge - Aromal is screwed tonight and we got a rat in our midst. What Mitchell is thinking is since Monty is so quick to vote out a vet, we should scoop in Allie and Willow and take out some of his allies in a potential second swap situation. It's put me in a pickle bc I do want to work w Karen but I know I probably can't bc of the shit I've talked about Lexi already. So if worse comes to worst and we have to vote out a vet it'll be one of those three.

So while I am excited about winning immunity again I am kinda peeved that fricking Ulawa lost again and I can be expecting another vet to go which means the veterans are going to be down in numbers which I don't want because I want to be in a position where I can have both nuTemoana and the Veterans to work with, but if the rookies get the numbers than I may be at the mercy of the rookies in nuTemoana who I have been building bonds with slowly even though I will quickly get rid of any of them. I kinda wish Makira would like throw it or something because they have 4-2 over there and like again I find myself sitting back and waiting for the game to reach a point where I can be making moves and taking control. But if winning immunity every time is what gets me to the merge than I guess I'm okay with that because that would give me plenty of time to hide just how deceptive I can be.

So a lot has happened since the last tribal. Aro was our target - until he revealed that he has an idol, and showed us screenshots. Leaving us at a huge disadvantage, considering me, Monty, and L.A. have an alliance together and Aro is our only conceivable target. So Monty and I came up with a plan. Me and L.A. are voting for Aro, and him and Aro are voting for L.A. That way, if he plays his idol, L.A. goes home and not me or Monty (even though we don't really want her gone, at this point, we may not have a choice). And if he doesn't play his idol, me and Monty are the deciding votes and get rid of Aro instead. Our biggest worry is that Aro votes for Monty instead, meaning it ties between Monty and L.A., and then if Aro really wants Monty gone I have to make the decision of either voting out my closest ally, or going to rocks and risking myself. Actually no, if Aro plays his idol he'd be immune at rocks. So there's no way I wouldn't vote for Monty in that situation, because I'd be the only person pulling rocks. So really, this hinges on Aro doing what he's telling us he's doing, which is something really risky to bet on. I told Aro that I wanted to vote for L.A., just to solidify his vote for her. I really hope this goes as planned, and that Aro doesn't play his idol.

I need a better social game, coming into this game I knew it would be my tragic flaw and now I think I might go home because of it. It's already been established that Monty was unsure about me because we didn't talk a lot, and we don't. Daisy and I only became close-ish, after the Lily vote because we both felt in danger and needed someone to have our back but now she has an idol and better social game. The only person I talked to regularly, I voted out because I wasn't able to trust him and now I'm stuck with these people I am not close with at all and I get the feeling that they are close. Daisy and Monty seem to talk a lot and I'm not sure about Aro and where he stands. I feel like if I don't do something I'm going home tonight, Aro says he has an idol which I believe and Daisy and Monty are just saying lets vote Aro anyways, and it makes no sense. If he has an idol then he's going to use and since they aren't worried I'm clearly the target so now I have to do something to try and save myself. I'm worried about coming off paranoid, too aggressive, or untrustworthy but I have to do something, otherwise I feel like I'm just letting myself go home without a fight.

I talked to Aro, and basically told him everything. I wasn't wrong about possibly going home tonight, Daisy put my name out to him. Apparently, I'm good at challenges and that scares her. TBH, all I do is put effort in, I can go hard like I did with the word game, but besides that I haven't put that much effort in. I considered down playing when I first started but whats the point? I'd rather be seen as a strong challenge player rather than someone who doesn't try. At this point I can only hope Aro doesn't flip again, so we'll see how this all works out.

Okayyy I actually might have found an opening. Heres whats goin down tonight Daisy and Monty are voting me to try and flush my (very fake) idol. However they dont wanna be at the receiving end of my (very fake) idol so they told me to vote L.A . I figured out what they were planning and went straight to LA. We are now voting Daisy because she thinks both Daisy and Monty are voting for her. Oh and apparently Daisy has an idol too so if we manage to get rid of her we might send her packing with the idol. So the vote is gonna be 2-2 and L.A HAS to draw rocks or else Im screwed. PLEASE LET THIS WORK

okay okay me and LA are voting Monty not Daisy OH GOD PLEASE LET THIS WORK

I kinda feel bad for Ulawa since they've lost every immunity challenge. I'm also worried that after tonight's tribal there might be another tribe swap since Ulawa would be down 3 members (I think?). And if there is a tribe swap and I end up on a different "beach" then that'll be a little scary bc I'm so close to finding this idol. I know I used to complain about the first tribe swap but everyone on Makira has been really nice to me, even though I came into the swap down 4-2. Anyway I should I probably stop assuming that there might be a swap because I'll never know until it actually happens.

#thequeenstaysqueen

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