#im still just like this isnt ok

[pollinatedpansy]

Unhorny dysphoria post below the cut :/

Genuinely don't think I can sexualize myself or have enough idk external validation to ever like how my body looks and idek why I don't like it either, totally get that I have hip dysphoria but that's not fixable in a way that isn't working out and because my lungs don't fucking work I probably won't be able to do anything about it for like a long time and even then it takes a long time to show effects, and on top of that I'm like 90% sure hip dysphoria isn't even like all there is?? Like there's definitely stuff that I'm dysphoric about that I just don't have words for and it genuinely hurts so much that I don't like how I look, and that I can't get over it, like it feels stupid to care about this shit so much but it genuinely just ruins me sometimes

Edit: I know hrt and testosterone would help with the hips but but I honestly don't know if that's what's right for me yet, the mental debate with that one has been strong, just bc I'm fucking terrified of getting my blood drawn amongst other various reasons, including monetary stuff and just unease with change

#god sometimes is just right now #i don't even like look at my body but i just know it's wrong #dont actively avoid mirrors but like i dont focus on that stuff because of how it effects me #and no matter how much people are like “great tits” or “you look hot” or whatever positive shit i might get from them #im still just like this isnt ok #im finally putting this into words just bc its gotten so bad but jesus fuck i genuinely cannot stand my body sometimes #main reason why i dont do pics is because i genuinely hate how i look #not to say i dont have moments where i like how i look #but it just takes me feeling good and being mentally stable to do so but eventually it just all shatters and im reminded of it all #im just tired and needed somewhere to put this I'm sorry #hopefully none of u guys relate but like 80% of my following is trans so u guys probably get how i feel #im so sorry to anyone who feels the same way #we dont deserve this shit literally nobody does #tw dysphoria

[haunted-xander]

I guess old feelings don't disappear that easily

#thinking about her always and forever #trauma isnt easy to overcome and even if/when u do its not like it just leaves #rynes so used to living in anothers shadow that figuring out herself must be hard #especially when its interwoven with the complicated relationship youve had with the person you cared for the most #like ryne clearly looked up to and cared for thancred deeply even when he was fucking up #a big part of why she was struggling so much the entire time was because she wanted thancred to care for her as HER #and not just minfilia reborn #but she couldnt really see herself as anything else and thancred had his Whole Deal going on #so even after things get better and their relationshop mends itself #shed probably still have some fears about the whole situation #like what if im just a replacement still? #and such #okya thats enough ranting. im so Normal about her ok im the Normalest ever. #ryne waters #thancred waters #minfilia warde #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art #xander being insane about ryne

[pinkd3mon]

I just wanted an excuse to draw my Galacta with a cape propaganda

#kirby #kots #kirby of the stars #kirby fanart #taranza #galacta knight #i think galacta would look cool with a dimensional cape #and it would be fluffy because of their fluffy wings #i know they're supposed to be an angel but common you cant take galacta bird away from me #im just a lil guy its my birthday #i originally made this for galacta's birthday but i slowed down when it was obvious i was not gonna finish it anywhere near that #taranza is a close friend of galacta knight in my mind and you just have to deal with it #galacta asks taranza where did he get the cape and he's like 'i got it from meta knight!!!' #galacta just looks at him unimpressed #and taranza then admits that he actually asked dedede to secretly ask meta knight and that's basically the same thing #meta knight still isnt used to galacta being not murderous so he won't help them if he can help it #meta knight has trust issues #i promised myself i wouldn't mention meta knight if i didnt draw him but im an unreliable narrator #i think dedede and galacta would get weirdly along #ok im gonna stop bye this is really self indulgent

[robotpussy]

in the case of being black and nonbinary, this requirement for any nonbinary person to "look androgynous" just doesn't work because regardless of how we present our blackness masculinizes us through the eyes of nonblack people, especially white people who think they have ownership of and leadership over gender by default.

#the misgendering i get when my hair is short.... full face of makeup and a dress on and ppl still think im a man cause im bald.... #like being nonbinary isnt an option for them #even when i have tried to fit into the whole looking androgynous thing ppl just default to seeing me as a man #like ok!

[mintypsii]

probably won't finish this but yay screenshot redraw

what are they even gossiping about

#trying to get used to procreate im kinda sad that i can't recreate some brushes from ibis perfectly but sigh we ball!!! #it's been fun tho :3 super cool app i don't regret getting it #it changed my style up a little cuz of the colouring technique but idk i hope it looks ok #USOPP ISNT MEANT TO BE MAD BHKJFD im posting this as a wip but i still hav e the urge to fix things up but i have class in like 5 mins ARGH #he's just very passionately shit talking #or whatever they were doing in the screencap i forgor (it was just sitting in my gallery) #op #one piece #sanji #usopp #boss luffy historical special #edo period #sanuso #usosan #okkk nothing shippy ab this art ik but when i was drawing it i was like hehe boyfriendsss so it counts. TO ME #black leg sanji #vinsmoke sanji #art #mintart #my art

[yarboyandy]

Calendiles Ella Enchanted AU ⁉️⁉️

I will maybe. expand on this one day. but I also say that sooooo

#buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #rupert giles #jenny calendar #calendiles #buffy summers #willow rosenberg #xander harris #wesley wyndam pryce #whats her fucking name hold please. #Gwendolyn Post #ok she was kind bad tho...... #andy drawz #I did this over winter break when I still had brain worms. Now Im normal #(NO HE ISNT.) #if you havent seen this movie this image set is so confusing #I'll explain more one day. he says like a liar. #next on da list: my shes all that au #but tbh. i think i just like a third act break up lololol I wanna do a bones shes all that au

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

#crazy that the mindset some people on here have is that theyre the only ones allowed to post their opinions #ive repeated this a lot on this blog but i rlly think people forget that the person on the other side of the screen is in fact a person #if ur harassing people and publicly making fun of them then ur just as bad as any real life bully #that shit isnt as funny or harmless as u like to pretend it is #not once have i ever targetted anyone or went on someones blog to harass them over my opinion #yet people think its fine to do the same to me and treat it as if its like. revenge or something #like ? me saying 'i dont like toxic yaoi' is not equivalent to someone going on someone elses page and going 'how tf do u like toxic yaoi' #I DONT CARE !! all ive ever done is sit in my own little bubble and had opinions and that makes people mad #honestly though the people who will publicly talk and post abt it are significantly meaner #and i want to act like im not bothered by it because i know most of them r just angry that someone has a different opinion #and they want all their followers to bandwagon off of them (idk why maybe for validation or whatever-same reasons anyone would bully) #but seriously if u actually do think that something i said was out of line and crossed thise boundaries- just fucking tell me ? #im a person bro. ur solution to disagreeing with me shouldnt be 'lol im gonna post abt this and make everyone harass them' #have a conversation with me dude i dont bite ? if u cant talk to me like a person then just dont fucking say anything wtf #its so cowardly to be like 'well no i didnt wanna say anything to u cuz i didnt wanna be rude.. so instead i publicly made fun of u!' #LIKE WHATTTT STOPPPPP </3333 #ok anyway this post wasnt supposed to get THAT serious. #MY POINT IS just be considerate of other people and dont base ur hatred off of assumptions #ur deflecting the blame onto someone else because u dont want to admit that ur just a fucking bully lol #being inconsiderate on here is something ive also been guilty of back when i first joined the fandom and was clueless #but grown ass adults who have been on here way longer r still doing that shit which is crazy #and i cant say anything because they have so much leverage over me and idk if its on purpose or if they dont even realize #ok im putting fandom tags cuz i want people to see this sorry. this is my one post thats actually targetted but its at a lot of people #so if u look at this and think 'hey i do that' pls evaluate urself<3 #i mean its also targetted at everyone who does this anonomously so i dont know who it is OKOK IM DONE BYE SORRY HOPE THIS IS UNDERSTANDABLE #watch nobody read this fr #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #meows post

[treasureplcnet]

someone on the bodies production team you have to release more layout/bts pictures of charles whiteman's flat please. this is a great start but i need to know him better. particularly if it's got about as much mould as a second year uni house and if he owns as many chairs as it seems LOL

#ok the joke is at his expense but im already romanticising this shit #20-something loser karl weissman moves into the worst flat of all time and makes it a home #hangs a picture of his parents' wedding against the worst wallpaper you've ever seen #just buys what he likes and calls it decor #how else can you explain the fucking model boat next to the fucking telephone. AND YOU MAY TELL ME 'oh thats just random set stuff' #NOT TO ME! #and it stays until he's in his mid 30s. develops a habit of not cleaning up along the way #the shot where he seems to have taken off his shirt/tie/jacket and then dropped them off on various pieces of furniture. HE LIVES LIKE THIS #also entertaining the idea that its his parents' old stuff that he can't bring himself to throw out .. #i will created a fully fleshed out character using 8 episodes and fever dream visions if i have to #karl weissman #bodies netflix #edit: the original tags are above but since then i joined the discord and got to add these pictures LOL #saved this post as a draft bc i was like. i cant annoy people on the tag any more than i already have #doesnt matter. forcing this into the tag like a week after i made it anyway #im still so interested in the fact that it seems like there are more rooms that we never see #outside this bedroom and living space (and the bedroom isnt clear in the show either) #like. i rly need a 360 house tour NOW. #ALSO I FEEL LIKE A TOWN CRIER NO I DONT THINK HE HAS MOULD BUT IT WOULD BE FUNNY!!!! #the chair next to the liquor rly is something. hes MY babygirl

[linkneol091]

JOSUKE MY GUY

#FUNKY FELLA #had so much fun drawing this omg #apparently I think school might posses me #everyone there are preparring for big deals and I seem to get involved #eh #I’ll try for a while #and after that itll be normal #I still can do whatever I want at least for 1 #for several hours and breaks in school #also its SOOOOO HOT in here like omg Im melting #theres that girl who camt take cold at all and she doesnt even let me open the windows which is like #CMON WERE SPENDING AROUNG 8 HOURS IN A CLOSED PLACEMENT WERE GONNA DIE ITS +20 OUTSIDE CMON IDC IF ITS APRIL HOT MEANS HOT #why tf I shared my anger of being all sweaty under a funky jojo post lmfao #well at least some random people will know that the poster isnt a cool guy #im just a smart fella trying my best #ok time for tagging #my art #fanart #jjba #jojo’s bizzare adventure #jjba fanart #diamond is unbreakable #josuke higashikata #Spotify #btw the inspo for this one was this song its trolls remix and me seeing some fancy stuff in shop the other day

[allgremlinart]

and I KNOWWWW book 3 is usually everybody's favorite Korra season by, like, a lot but ngl... its the first season to introduce Avatar characters that I just straight up didnt like..

#sorry Opal and Kai. and the other forgettable Beifongs. I uhm. dont HATE you. but you're just.... there. #tlok #this isnt even haterism ok im still tlok's biggest dickrider. that hasn't changed. #but man. Jinora you can do better. I know this. you would make such a wonderful lesbian tween.. #you know what .. maybe if Kai is a trans girl... that would turn my opinion around 100%... #it would A) make the smarminess bearable B) make the undercut hot and C) make like.. a fuller character arc.. doesnt have #to be on the run anymore... surrounded by people who care... can finally spend time discovering herself.. #I cant start making trans hc about characters I dont even like. how'd we get here.

[yaboisnelf]

im so tired. have dickroy sketches cus i havent posted in 2 months. i wont post again ❤️ when i do itll have duke prommy

#digital art #sketch #dc #procreate #dick grayson #roy harper #they are the worst couple ever. i hope they die happy together. #dg pussy is an illness ☹️☹️☹️ that roy is happy to have 😏😏 its terminal ‼️‼️‼️ #'jason isnt the angry robin' ok well. have you considered hes a 12 year old boy. with evil older brother. yeah. #hes still not yk but also all of them aee because thats (imo) the point of robin. childrens rightous anger at a world that harms them yk #i have a timeline. theyre very on and off couple core. they argue on vacations. theyre never not touching eachother #how many jokes can i fit in here #one time dg was sobbing at the kitchen table and roy was like 'omg r u ok :(' and dg went 'LOOK AT HIM :((((' and sticks his arm out #and shows the ugliest fucking action figure roy has ever seen of himself and roys like 'hes really ugly' and dgs like 'IK I LOVE HIM SMMM' #sometimes when that happens roy asks if dicks on his period #when dg is mad at roy he'll whine to people about him w roy right beside him. roy is normal and just whines to any animal or child he finds #ok im done ❤️

[pup-pee]

jokes @ night r not funny in the morning,,,

originally the blue was green but then i decided 2 b pan

#dont even ask me what i was trying 2 accomplish #CAUSE IDKKK #sighs @ least they look cute igg #bart is still hard 4 ne 2 draw idk sobbs #also i seem 2 draw him in a lot of tanktops while i draw kon in a lot of crop tops #i just ????????? #anyways i literally have no idea wtf this means #it was supposed 2 b silly & funny but if ur evil u could make it angsty #not me thoo…..i would neever #cause what kind of sick freak does that #((its me im the sick freak)) #no but this is supposed 2 b silly ITS JUST RLLY NOT FUNNY IDK #konbart #kart #still 2 scared 2 but it in their main tags or whateverrrr #NO BC LIKE I DONT WANNA GET RIPPED APART #omggg the reason y it looks more angst is bc i put the ‘dw’ isnt itttt #ughhhhhhh #ok sure whatever GRRR AAAAAA #i have a better kart drawing idea but this 1 was easier 2 draw #brrrr #i feel like im just mostly going 2 b drawing kart 2day oh man #((i say this like i dont draw them everyday)) #puppee art #holy u can rlly tell i h8 stabalizers batman #i say ‘line arts my fav part’ but i dont actually do nice line art idfkkk yyyy but mayb its bc u dont need clean lineart 2 render stuff??? #@ least i dont #man i should render smth its been so long since ive like ‘completed’ a full drawingg #HELP IM STILL UPSET HOW I DREW BART I LIKE I JUST DONT WANT 2 DRAW HIM LOOKING LIKE A KID BUT LIKE OTS KINDA HARD WHEN HES NEXT 2 KON THIS I

[taikanyohou]

i love you actors that just get their characters like ta does macau.

#macau #kinnporsche #ta saying macau is whiny? but also brave enough to question things? how he's needy and wants attention? how he only has vegas? #YEAH. YEAH. YEAAAH. #him saying that macau feels like bc hes the youngest of the lot he feels so average with nothing to offer?? #so his dad just overlooks him and dismisses him COMPLETELY. GODDDDD. and THATS why he does feel loved. #compared to vegas who does EVERYTHING asked and still he made to feel worthless by his dad #OOOFT. yeah the minor family dynamics are where its AT. #god its SO interesting to me how ta's like macau knows he wants attention and care but the difference is that #he isnt shy to ask for it. compared to vegas who wont but CRAVES it but wont Say It. #and thats ALL BC vegas all his life has TOLD macau to TELL HIM WHAT HE NEEDS and that vegas will give it him #so GOD that smile in the epilogue??? hospital scene?? WHEN HE SEES HOW HAPPY VEGAS IS WITH PETE?? #AND HE SMIIIILES AT THEM??? BC FINALLY VEGAS SPOKE HIS DESIRES??? OH GOD IM OK IM OK IM OK.

[todayisafridaynight]

no ones ever gonna understand how much i love daigo doin this stupid shit after dissolving the tojo

#snap chats #is this a gaiden spoiler. its been like five months catch up you nerds #ANYWAYYYYY NOO I LOVE HIM ....... this whole bit is like four seconds long but i love it so much #i just reminded myself i should probably make gaiden/y8 videos for daigo.. i'll make it a JP/ENG comp or somethn.. one day #not soon tho like its barely anything since he's not in those games Long At All but still. im lazy 💀 #excuse me while i gush about daigo for twenty minutes now because hehee HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T GET OVER IT #this is literally the middle aged equivalent of going yippee like YOU CAN TELL HE'S SO RELIEVED IT'S SO CUTE #got the energy of a student with crippling anxiety after they somehow get through giving a presentation without throwing up #AND his lil smile ......... thank you gaiden you made me wanna eat drywall with daigo's sad puppy dog eyes about kiryu #and then immediately made up for it a minute later #sorry i keep scrolling up to look at him and i love him so much. what if i threw up #i dont like using babygirl lightly but this is actually the most Babygirl frame of him ever ive decided #thats my boy .... i love my boy so much ..... he's so cute ... come so far in life congratulations king ..... ily ... #him lookin up at the sky for a minute just to breathe i know he thankin god for the fact he somehow isnt dead yet #im gonna ignore the fact all of this was for naught so i dont bash my head against a wall anyway stan daigo #im gonna be sick i love him so much #if i redraw this later shut up. i love him... #this is why i try not to look at cutscenes anymore cause when i do i feel my brain being put in a microwave and start to melt #its not my fault i love my guys so much .... ok bye i have work to do .... #and then when i finish that work i can go back to loving my guys YAAAAAY !!!!!!!

[sonknuxadow]

not gonna lie im kind of worried that if the mario movie is even the slightest bit good then people are gonna immediately turn on the sonic movies and decide that they Suck Actually because theyre not exactly like the mario movie. and its not that im against the sonic movies being criticized for anything, there are issues you could point out and i dont even care if you like the sonic movies or not (especially if youre an actual sonic fan and you dislike them from that perspective and arent just hating on them because Sonic Cringe), im just so tired of anything sonic being labelled as irredeemable garbage by The Entire Internet and people constantly trying to compare sonic and mario and acting like sonic is bad just because its not exactly like mario when its not trying to be

#but also all of the recent sonic stuff has been pretty well received so maybe im just worried over nothing #im specifically talking about people who liked the sonic movies before the mario movie came outbtw not people who hated them from the start #also personally from what ive seen i feel like the mario movie isnt gonna be the best movie ever #but its not gonna be the worst movie ever either its just gonna be an ok generally inoffensive other than the voice cast movie #but i could be wrong. its still not out yet and ive only seen like 2 trailers and nothing else

[oatbugs]

oh my god u rly are everyone you've ever loved !! for better or worse !! a part of you becomes them!

#i had a moment of lucidity idk im in this café the person i went on a few dates w is coming to see me i said come study w me #and they said okay immediately even though im a town over and i dont like them i really dont feel even a little attracted to them that way #but i did let them bite my neck a week ago and it still hurts i let them hold my hand i just #i never start anything #i let them kiss me. why do i do that? i dont feel anything towards them #and i told them ill probably never sleep with them and i thought thats enough but it really isnt is it #they write poetry about people they meet even once #theyre coming a whole town over to study w me but its not a date i feel nothing towards them romantically and i dont want to lose them as #a friend. this was her line of thinking wasnt it? i would take the train and meet her near her place in ldn and wed study together and #shed let me hold her and she would never initiate much and we were just studying together and it wasnt a date #like . fuck. i dont want to do what she djd to me to another person ever #their shared location map went offline at london bridge like ok theyre in the underground they are fr coming a whole town over #its a short distance but the point is i think i should have taken what my friend said more seriously . she told me i was kinda leading #them on bc what i thought to be just meetups dates might entail more for them #anyway im gonna be clear w them this time maybe #....IT JUST NEVER COMES UP IS THE THING #do i have to clarify even if it never comes up #i do in fact hear myself #ok #the parallels r lining up #aaa