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[lemon-wedges]

My 2023 art summary

#the art of a lemon wedge #WHAT A YEAR #looking at this like #1 #stressful stuff was happening during summer and mayhaps being so productive then is whats kinda kicking my ass these last few months #and well getting sick too but #eh #anyway #comparing this to my last art summary aND MAN #i last year i was crying over how much i was struggling to paint #then january happened #and suddenly #well im here #strange to think ive only been painting like this for only a year #i feel like ive finally found something i can connect to in my own art #in the sense that like #i look at it and can feel myself #'style' is a very hard word to use #since its somethig i associate more with #consistency #having a set way of drawing/painting #while this was more exploring #the best days were the ones i realized i didnt have to make my newest painting look like me last #and learning something new from it #ive got 10 bajilllion things i gotta learn how to draw and paint #and u know? #i cant wait to figure that out #ahahah #i wonder what ill end up making next year :D

[just-gay-thoughts]

So today is my last lecture from my Religion and Gender class and I've loved it and there's one thing we talked about that is just sticking in my head, and it's the idea of gender as a performance. And the idea that that's all gender is for anyone. Everyone is performing their gender constantly, in the way they dress, how they carry themselves, all that jazz.

Like I know the idea of gender being a social construct gets talked about, but idk the wording of performance just makes more sense to me. Like yeah, the cis guy really into going to the gym and afraid of looking 'gay' is performing his gender. The cis woman who wears a lot of dresses and grows her hair long and gets acrylic is performing her gender. Like yeah those are the stereotypical 'male' and 'female' but there just as much of a performance as drag queens.

Idk I like it because to me it takes away from the 'x thing is a female thing' and just is like gender can be what you want it to be and it doesn't have to be deeper than you want it to be.

It's just a performance

#gay thoughts #ill try to find time later to find the reading we had attached to it because it does such a good job of talking about it #but i jist like the idea of #distancing actions/how you look from gender #in the sense that like #hair length should be an indicator more of how someone likes their hair to be than gender #and if things have gender meaning to you thats great thats wonderful! perform that gender in the way that makes sense for you! #reminded me of some discussions ive seen about how there isnt one set of steps trans people take when transitioning #not everyone will have the same goals in their gender presentation just like how not everyone will perform gender in the same way #and thats good thats great thats wonderful

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[teaboot]

When I was a kid one of my moms would call her period "moon time" or "her monthlies" or shit like that and my other mom straight up stealthed it, but when I'm a dad I think I'm gonna go straight down the middle and call it Werewolf Week. Like sorry kids, dad can't roughouse right now, it's Werewolf Week

#Plus my sense of smell always goes crazy like a couple days prior #So #I feel like I could really lean into the mythos #They'll get the talk of course but Werewolf Week sounds way cooler than Lady Time or whatever the fuck

[linktoo-doodles]

resurrection is sort of romantic, isnt it

#farcille #falin touden #farlyn thorden #marcille donato #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #my art #Linktoo art #lets get that yuri on the road. who has a good analysis of these two. they have a lot of symbolism but I want to see like #someone get into the feelings they have for each other about how they see each other romantically. if that makes sense #tw blood

[ruporas]

don’t worry about me. goodbye, big brother

#dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #laios touden #falin touden #blood tw #ruporas art #the anime adaption of this scene was kinda crazy i wont lie… the development and build towards #this reveal was likee woahhh Damnnnn…. even with all the knowledge of the rest of the manga #it gave me a diff sense of horror to laios’ loss

[mydairpercabeth]

Percy “I am impertinent” Jackson really looked Zeus dead in the eye and said “Your family is a mess”

#LIKE PERCY YOURE ON THIN ICE ALREADY #NO SENSE OF SELF PRESERVATION #BE SO FR #IJBOL #percy jackson #zeus #pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson the lightning thief #annabeth chase #percy series #pjo tv show #percabeth #walker scobell #pjo tv #i am impertinent

[lastoneout]

People don't like to admit it bcs cringe or w/e but Homestuck really did revolutionize the webcomic as a storytelling medium and I am endlessly frustrated that before webcomic artists could really stretch our legs fucking webtoonz swooped in, set a new, more restrictive standard, and then monetized and monopolized the ever living fuck out of the concept of The Webcomic until it drove away anyone who couldn't be a professional quality manga artist for free, and now the only webcomics that actually feel like spiritual successors to Homestuck are so obscure they're basically cult classics that you have to beg people to read.

Like it's just so wild to be in high school and see Homestuck be like "we're using like fifteen different artistic mediums to tell this story bcs we can" and be really fucking inspired by that, only to grow up and see basically every webcomic ever have to conform to One Single Standard or fucking perish.

#I decided I wanted to be a comic artist bcs homestuck inspired me #in the sense that it was like “fuck it tell your story however you want to” #and now it's like “tell your story this one specific way or fucking die” #wtf

[seriousturd]

#tumblr polls #random polls #poll time #i love looking at usernames and wondering what it MEANS #so many of you guys have such cool sounding usernames #i just picked random words i like LMAO #serious because people always see me as super serious irl (i'm just a very anxious perfectionist lol) #and turd because i have the sense of humor of a toddler and think poop jokes are funny

[zytes]

this manatee looks like it’s in a skyrim loading screen

#misc #I encourage anyone dyslexic to try rotating him in your mind. I can’t do that; which is why I’m asking you to. #also: a bunch of tags are surprised this isn’t ‘shopped #it’s the lighting. backlit by the sun (which is diffused through the water) but also forelit artificially #the artificial light - a flash pack or something - casts a hard shadow under the creatures arm #which normally wouldn’t be possible if backlit by the SUN; you’d see a less-hard/more-fragmented shadow above water #as light sources ‘compete’ in a sense - and since there aren’t any light sources which can outshine the literal sun #it looks a bit weird when the darkest shadow is being cast from any other origin point - which is what’s essentially happening here #I don’t know the mechanics of how light travels through water; but I know the effect is substantial even with relatively short distances #also: it’s been balanced and color corrected by the author of the photo - who made deliberate choices to bring out the full potential #so it’s not like it’s a fresh and untouched export #but the kind of ‘tacked on’ appearance of the creature is a result of the lighting conditions within the image

[stil-lindigo]

frankly, the people whose kneejerk reaction to bisan asking for a global strike form the 21st-28th is to say that it takes years to organize a general strike are really unhelpful! no one is saying otherwise, but palestine will be a smoking crater if we all wait for years to do anything - bisan is asking us to do something now. Like are we only supposed to do something if we can do it perfectly??? At some point it’s a valid critique about the work that goes into social movement, and at another point I feel like some people are just trying to absolve themselves from not putting any effort into observing a week of economic inaction.

like idk! I get it, okay! People have bills to pay that don’t magically go away for a strike, we don’t have nearly enough social infrastructure in place to support people to fully stop going to work for a week. But fuck, dude! Stop immediately responding in such a defeatist way! Cut out unnecessary purchases! Try to shop local! Put more effort into promoting Palestinian voices online! Attend a protest, call a local rep, do something!

#like am I going insane #why did I see a post with thousands of notes on it talking about how it doesn’t make sense to be asking for this sort of action #it doesn’t make SENSE? #like god! I hope you’re taking other more sensible courses of action then! #fucks sake man #bisan is living through a waking nightmare and some of you are so pedantic and miserly #palestine #free Palestine

[cracklewink]

My Mane 6 Redesigns all together! I was going to post them separately but ended up finishing them all before I got around to it lol

#mlp #my little pony friendship is magic #my little pony #mlp fim #mlp redesign #earth pony twilight truthers where are you #bat pony fluttershy truthers where are you #dark color palette rarity truthers where are you #ALL OF YOU RISE WITH ME #im ESPECIALLY an earth pony twilight truther ever since I saw the old G5 concepts #I love the idea that Twilight's bonds with others are her true magic rather than beams or spells and I feel earth pony twi fits that well #since “the five elements brought together creates the sixth element magic“ aka friendship since FIM she embodies ”magic“ in a #more metaphorical sense #the star in her eyes is also a reference to the first ep when twilight says “the spark” ignited inside of her heart #plus the earth pony to alicorn pipeline is so cool and i like the idea of an earth pony being the bearer of the element of magic as a #fun contrast/its unexpected

[gunpowdercarousel]

You know what? Fuck it.

Githyanki Cleric of Selune

Romance~

#baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #bg3 memes #shadowheart #bg3 tav #tav #my tav #honestly tho i really like her design #also it makes sense that gith would worship selune #since lae'zel is literally from the tears of selune #like #why not

[kelddaa]

I was plagued by a vision

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #laios touden #laios #wondered what laios would look like in a crop top #don't ask me why #“someone should do something about this" #remembers I’m an artist #blacks out #this appeared #dunmeshi #shit post art #redraw #kelds art #kelddaa #anime-onlys I promise this will make more sense later

[bitterpngs]

the more i struggle with executive dysfunction the less silly i find the idea that maaaybe i could have adhd

#i mean i’m ngl it doesn’t seem like i do but then again i’m not an expert and it can show up differently in women etc etc #i don’t know for sure #feels a little bad seriously considering it #in the sense that like #‘no ofc you don’t have it wdym?’ #but this is my nth time looking up the causes of executive dysfunction (admittedly not the most in depth research) #and ignoring adhd - considering how long i’ve dealt with this #nothing else really applies #THEN AGAIN #idk #there’s always more to be discovered about executive dysfunction #also #i know skills strategies and all that that help ppl w adhd can be used by anyone if it helps etc etc #so in a way i just need to figure out what works for me - at least as a stepping stone #but IDK #idkkkk #wondering if meds would help -_- #eugh #maybe i should go back to writing down certain things i notice #in case i ever need it :| #i dunno #g ggh hnn #angel.txt

[colourmeastonished]

Body swap movie where one of them has invisible disabilities and when the other one lands in their body they immediately collapse catatonic on the floor from the pain and fatigue and the first one is like 'oh damn guess I don't have to worry that I'm faking it anymore'

#i have this fantasy of one my able bodied friends and or coworkers occupying my body for like an hour #just to get a real sense of how much i am truly weathering hellfire every day of my life #sometimes i take stock and im like holy crap ive gotten so used to so much #im a frog in a pot and ive convinced myself the bubbling is just fun ambience #my thoughts #invisible disability #chronic illness #chronic pain