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xiaoming56 · 1 year
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So i wanted to make a street clothes design for mic but then my writers brain started goin brrrr and now itsa mic-is-also-an-underground-hero au ! Here’s a mini comic i made on it :D
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Also u can thank @zxcantdrawmen for convincing me to draw this next bit :P (slightly nsfw???? Not really but jic)
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ANYWAYS more about this au under the cut!
So this au is set a few years after mic and eraser graduate. The last time they saw each other was that final graduation scene in vigilantes. Mic is both a daylight hero and underground hero, kinda hiding in plain sight since ppl dont expect a daylight hero to also work underground and mic looks q different w his hair de-cockatooed.
This mission is the first time mic n eraser meet again after graduation and FEELINGS are involved. Eraser doesnt like mic working underground cos its more dangerous. Mic worked underground to try and reach eraser cos hes fEd up w being ghosted. Through this mission eraser learns that mic can hide more than he initially thought, and starts to get worried. I dont show it here but mic wants to hug and punch the living daylights out of eraser for ghosting him for several years. The rest of the au is still a wip n whether im gonna draw more depends on whether i get another brainwave or not but hav these random scribble for now :D
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saftmaus · 2 years
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vent cw; ed and more
i feel like im dead. i technically am alive but everything feels dead.
i can’t eat and its hard to drink, i don’t feel hungry or thirsty at all and i feel nothing but sadness 24/7. i can’t sleep, even if i try and i don’t feel tired i just feel exhausted even tho i do fucking nothing at all.
i don’t feel any human needs or feelings i just feel emptiness, sadness and exhaustion all the fucking time.
i also realized that im balls deep in my ed again. like i said i cant eat,drink or sleep which makes it worse. idk if i really cant or if i just dont want to. sometimes i want to eat but i won’t let myself eat for whatever reason. probably bc of my psychotherapist who weighted me. i thought i was skinnier but ig not… i thought i was on the way of being a bit happier with my body, but ig i am not. i thought i alr hit rock bottom a few times and DAMN that was bad but comparing to my situation, thoughts and feelings rn, that was nothing.
THIS is rock bottom. or at least i hope it is because if it gets EVEN FUCKING WORSE THAN THIS i won’t be able to… continue
i want it to stop but idk how and i also dont want to but zhe weight of my mental wellbeing or my ed onto other people bc im extremely fucking scared of ruining their day (this applies only to my bf HAHA i have no other friends) which is basically the next problem.
i have a few ppl around me like julian, kim, elias, alisa and so on and they’re kinda my friends but they’re not friends.
i want someone with the same hobbies and interests as me and not ppl i hang out with once a month or meet to go drinking.
i want someone who i can text every unnecessary thing
i want someone who likes me how i am, who likes my weird sides and someone who is weird with me so i dont feel alone
someone whos always down to do anything at any time
someone who i can call/text when im bored without having to fear that i annoy them
someone where im the first choice and they’re my first choice
someone who ACTUALLY like me and my „emoness“ and who doesn’t think its weird or cringe (music,style n everything)
someone whos always at my place or where im always at their place
someone im never seen without
someone i can vent to without feeling bad
someone who is actually always there for me.
someone who fucking answers me fast and not 2 hours later after i wrote them back in like 10 seconds.
someone who’s the same as me
someone with kinda the same style as me
someone who accepts me for who i am
someone who does everything for and with me
someone real
someone who is not my fucking boyfriend who seems like he doesn’t care at all about me lately.
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iwadori · 3 years
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Haikyu boys when they make you insecure PT 1 (Kenma,Kuroo)
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Part 1 Part 2  Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6.
Word Count:3k 
genre: angst, fluff
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Kenma:
You and Kenma have been in a long distance relationship for a while.
Both of you stream, Kenma doing it seriously for his job and you just playing it for fun,
Sometimes you stream together of course but because of your difference in audiences and games you don’t do it all the time
“Bye guys! Hope you enjoyed todays stream” You wave off to the camera and shut off your PC taking a few sips of water.
Kenma: Hey.. nice stream today Y/N are you going to watch mine?
Y/N: Of course I will 
Kenma: Ok talk to you later
Y/N: okayy <3
Kenma is what inspired you to stream, he also taught you all the ins and outs of streaming making sure you were set and ready. Your gaming style was very relaxed and friendly as you obviously weren’t streaming as a career just for fun and to make friends with your online viewers. The games you played were usually: minecraft, COD, Sims 4, Roblox, Animal crossing and *Insert your favourite game here* the way I literally named all the games I play 
You wait for Kenmas stream to start, kind of excited as you’ve always loved seeing your boyfriend in his ‘element’ when it comes to playing to games. As your boyfriends stream starts you see he’s already chosen what game he is playing today which is to your surprise Call of duty, since that was the game you were playing earlier.
As he gets into the stream you are entertained, as always since Kenma was being his usual self laughing at his own deadpan jokes and interacting with his viewers. He is currently waiting for his capture the flag game to start so as he waits he decides to read some comments in the chat.
You’re used to the usual ‘Kenma where is Y/N I miss your usual streams together’ or ‘kenma please RAIL me’ which always makes you laugh. You were also used to the common hate comments Kenma and You both got on your streams but you were definitely not ready for this..
@ Ihatewomanandiamadick : Hey Kenma did you see your girls stream today she is so dog shit at COD lmaoooo jhdfkjdrhdrr
“Well hello ihatewomenandiamadick” started Kenma “but yes I did see Y/N stream and obviously she is not the best at games and I would definitely NOT ask her to team with me for any serious gaming competitions ... but she’s fun to watch I guess” as he finished speaking about you his game loaded up so he focused his attention on that the words he just spoke going to the back of his mind as they end up at the forefront of yours.
You obviously knew you were no match for Kenma’s gaming expertise but you didn’t expect him to publicly agree with a hate comment let alone add more of his imput on you. Did he really think that about you? ‘She’s fun to watch I guess’ did he not even enjoy your streams that much?
You wanted to distract yourself, and you definitely couldn’t do that watching him so you close off of his stream and get in your bed deciding to watch your favourite show. 
Waking up at 6pm after your sad nap, you see that Kenma has left some messages to you,
Kenma: hey did you watch my stream?
Kenma: do you want to facetime later and play some minecraft..?
Kenma: y/n r u ok??
Y/N: oh hey cnt play minecraft w you rn not really in the mood..
Kenma: oh ok..
Time passed since then a month to be exact and you basically dropped off of the face of the earth, you weren’t in the mood to do anything let alone game and stream, which was a constant reminder of your boyfriend (something you didn’t want at the time.) 
You felt embarrassed over all the things he said about you and all the things you now think he thinks about you and the way you play. Maybe he thinks even worse things about you, beyond just how you game? What if he doesn’t even genuinely like you...or he has someone else...it does make sense, you do both live miles and miles away from eachother AND he’s a big streamer you see the amount of girls in his comments.
You shake your head to erase your protruding thoughts coming in your mind, but it doesn’t really help. You and Kenma haven’t spoken much over this month he tried to constantly reach out to you at first but you assume he got bored over your constant, repetitive dry texts. So you were almost content with you and Kenma not even being in a relationship anymore.
However on Kenma’s side, he was beyond worried about you. Since you haven’t been streaming or barely responded to his texts he thought something happened to you, but he didn’t want to be seen as ‘overstepping boundaries’ if there was nothing wrong at all with you and you simply were just ‘not in the mood.’ 
So here he is, in Kuroo’s apartment trying to get him to help him out on finding out what is wrong with you.
“So kenma can you remember what happened the day when Y/N went ‘ghost’“ asked Kuroo in a mock detective voice
“Y/N didn’t go ‘ghost’ Kuro, and take this seriously” said Kenma “I’m worried bout her”
“Okay fine, but for real what’s the last thing you remember before she started acting all weird.” 
“Umm I think it was around a month ago I did my saturday stream and I think she was on it but she didn’t leave her usual nice comments throughout”
“Ohh that was the stream when you sai-” Kuroo said before pausing his words as the memory of what Kenma said about you on his stream came in his mind, as even Kuroo thought it was a tad bit harsh for Kenma to say all those things “I think I know why Y/N has been so distant kiddo”
“What why?” Asked Kenma
Kuroo pulls out his phone and brings up the clip off what Kenma said and Kenma’s face cringes ‘did he really say all those things about you’ he thinks. 
“Shit.. I didn’t know I said all of that” he said quietly “how do I make it up to her?”
“There’s only one thing you can really do Kenma” said kuroo
You are woken up out of your sleep by a knock on the door. Getting out your bed like a zombie, you trudge to your front door only surprised by what you see. There in his 5′6 glory stood your ‘boyfriend’ Kenma with a controller and a kitten teddy in his hand. You were very tempted to shut the door in his face and get back to your dreamless sleep but you waited on him to speak.
“Hi Y/N” he said quietly “wanna play some minecraft...?”
“Why so you can ridicule me on how shit I am?” You ask bitterly ready to shut the door on him
“No! No not all” he said stopping you from shutting the door entering your place “Y/N i’m really sorry on what I said, I wasn’t thinking AT ALL... I love watching your streams and I think you’re great at playing games...I was just being a dick,”
You take a deep breath before tears pool in your eyes “what you said really hurt me kenma..” you say “ I know people say shitty things on the internet all the time... it’s the internet. But I wasn’t expecting you to agree with the hater and say even more shitty things on top of that.. I don’t think I want to even stream anymore”
Upon hearing that, Kenma’s mouth parts open with shock ‘you dont want to stream anymore’ were his comments that bad? Now he feel even worse as he should and is now more determined to make things right. 
He impulsively drags your arm into your game room, catching your surprise ‘what is he up too?’ you think. He stops for a second seeing your usual pristine gaming set up, collected up with dust. 
“What are you do-” you start 
“Just wait!” He says, as he rushes away turning on all your stuff and logging onto his twitch account as he sees the views go up he starts to speak
 “Hi guys, its me kodzuken and today I’m here on stream with my beautiful girlfriend and today I want to say..” he turns to you “Y/N im so sorry for the horrible things I said to you that day... I was just being a dick and I’m sorry I really am.”
You look at the chat and you see some confusion and some people recalling his words from last month. “It’s fine Kenma, I forgive you” you say giving him a hug”
“Okay Y/N, so what do you say... wanna beat my ass at bed wars?” He says with a smirk 
“When have I ever loss?” you return his smirk
Of course you did beat his ass as bed wars for rounds on rounds never losing proving yourself to actually be a good gamer girl. You enjoyed your time with Kenma, forgetting what he said before about you and moving on. 
Eventually, you guys moved in together and streamed together all the time and yes you still do play for fun but you’ve gotten way better at COD (some may say better then Kenma) but who is better didn’t matter to any of you, as long as you got to play together that’s all you both cared about.
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Kuroo:
Kuroo and you have been together since you were in your first year of high school 
You met as friends first when you got him to tutor you in chemistry ( a subject you still aren’t that good at.)
Now you have your upcoming entrance exams for university in a month so your school has you doing mock exams in preparation for them.
20%
You look down at your chemistry paper that your teacher just handed you. 20%. You’re surprised, very surprised since out of all your subjects (that you go 90+% on) you studied on the chemistry test the hardest ensuring Testurou, that you didn’t need his help at all. But I guess it turns out, you did.
This failing mock grade put a blunder on your day, you didn’t interact with anyone and didn’t want to see your boyfriend so you skipped your usual routine of meeting him on the rooftop and went to the library instead ‘might aswell start early on your studying’ you thought.
As you were going over your chemistry topics, you hear an ‘ahem’ next to you and you turn your head only to find your boyfriend and his friends next to you. Kuroo with his usual goofy smile on his face. 
“Hey kitten where were you at lunch?” he asked 
“Needed to go to the library, Chemistry is kicking my ass” you mumbled 
“Oya” he said as he noticed your chemistry test laying under your textbook “20%, well damn Y/N I knew you were stupid, but I didn’t know you were that stupid” he laughed doing his stupid usual hyena-like laugh.
Ouch well that hurt. You slightly flinched at his words, “Really your name, you didn’t know the molecular formula for ethanol, that’s first year work” he said continuing to laugh “I’m pretty sure that’s one of the first things I tutored you on when we first met” 
His overbearing laughter was not good for you, you were already having a bad day and yes you do know your not that good at chemistry but you didn’t need your chemistry-enthusiast boyfriend to make fun of you for failing. Kenma and Yaku stood there awkwardly obviously aware of how bad Kuroo is making you feel but they didn’t really know how to stop his friend in the moment.Whilst he’s still dying of laughter you decide to pack up your stuff and leave the library.
You managed to get your Chemistry tutor to let you retake your mock paper in a week so that means, extra hard studying with no distractions you definitely can’t fail again. Since studying on your own was definitely not a good option, and you couldn’t go to Kuroo (especially after he ridiculed you) you decided to ask the second smartest person you know to tutor you.
Y/N: Hey Yaku! Can I ask you a favour?
Yaku: Hi Y/N what do you need??
Y/N: I have my chemistry retake next week, and as you know from your loud-loud friend I failed my recent test so can you tutor me?? 
Y/N: Pleaseeee
Yaku: Ok Y/N why can’t you ask Kuroo you know that he’d be more than happy to help
Y/N: Yakuu pleasee just help me out 
So there you was, nearly a week done with your study sessions with Yaku and you’re feeling way more confident than before. 
“Y/N what is the functional group of a Carboxylic Acid” Yaku asked
“umm... COO?” 
“Great! that’s correct Y/N” he praises i dont actually know if it’s correct or not
You then hear a knock at Yaku’s front door and hear his mum let the person in, Kuroo then enters Yaku’s bedroom with shock plastered on his face surprised to see you here.
“Y/N...hey?” he says confused “what are you doing here?”
“Oh Mori-chan is just helping me with chemistry for my retake tommorow” you say nochalantly internally smiling at the twinge in Kuroo’s face at the purposeful use of Yaku’s first name.
“So why didn’t you ask me to help you know I’m a chemistry whiz” he asks
“Maybe I’m too stupid to be taught under your tutelage” you mumble “since I seem to forget whatever you teach me, even when it’s 3 years ago... but ok”
“Y/N I-” he starts 
“Oh save it Kuroo, I have studying to do” you say cutting him off
“But I-” he tries
“So Mori-chan COOH is the function group of ethyl ethonate right?” you ask ignoring your boyfriend who is now at a lost for words
“ummm yeah it is” says yaku who is clearly feeling heavily awkward at the tension in his bedroom.
Kuroo leaves and you and yaku finish off the studying for the night, you did feel a little bad for being a bit mean to Kuroo but it’s karma for him being a dick to you. 
You wake up the next day ready for your exam which was first thing in the morning, before you hand in your phone you see a message from Kuroo,
Kuroo: I know you’re still mad at me, but I think you’re going to do so well on this test. You’re not stupid at all, you’re really smart and I love you < 3 
Kuroo: Good luck Y/N
You don’t respond to the message but smile at the sincerity of it and thankful for the boost of confidence it gave you before you start your exam.
Finishing the exam with a smile, you were confident you did well as everything you and Yaku went over was on the paper and you’re almost certain you atleast got more than 75%. You have to wait an hour before your teacher can give you your results, so in the meantime you might aswell reconcile with Kuroo.
When you exit the classroom, standing there was Kuroo who seemed to have been waiting for you for the whole duration of the exam.
“So how was it?” Kuroo asked, apprenhensive as he assumed you would just ignore him like you did at Yaku’s house.
“It was fine, I think it went alright..” you say
“Kuroo”
“Y/N”
You say simultaneously, he pauses for a second to let you speak “I’m sorry I was being so stand offish when we were at Yaku’s I just wanted you to see I could do it on my own, and when you called me stupid I really took that to heart since you and I both know that Chemistry wasn’t ever my best subject” 
“I’m sorry too, I didn’t mean to make you feel bad, and since it was only a practice test I didn’t think you’d take it to heart but I am sorry I know you aren’t stupid.”
Before you got to say anything else, your Chemistry teacher exited the room with your chemistry paper in hand. Kuroo grabbed your hand anticipating your nerves and gave it a gentle squeeze.
“Miss L/N” said your teacher “Well done on your chemistry test” he turned your test around to sure a perfect 100%. Both you and Kuroo gasped, you were elated to say the least you wanted to jump up and down in excitement but a PERFECT 100%.
“I’d also like to add that you have now got the top chemistry score in the school beating the previous title holder Kuroo Testurou” said your teacher, this made Kuroo open his mouth even wider in surprise nearly making you giggle at his response. 
Your teacher took his leave, leaving you and Kuroo in the hallway “ I guess i’m the chemistry whizz now “ you say wiggling your eyebrows just as Kuroo did to you before at Yaku’s this made him chuckle as he came to put his arm around you.
“Y/N don’t get ahead of yourself now, you may have won this battle but I will win the war” he said smiling
In the final exam, you continue your winning streak also getting a near 100% and still beating Kuroo which didn’t matter to either of you, now you’re just like him cracking chemistry puns and jokes all the time which none of your friends appreciated but atleast Kuroo found them SODIUM funny.
AN: Please kill me for the last line of Kuroos, I didn’t really like Kuroo’s since it was a bit self indulgent with my hate for chemistry but what do you guys think?
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stevethehairington · 5 years
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for yo character headcanons: our bois sam, steve and bucky ILY
thank youuuuu for the ask my dear! this is gonna be a fun one haha. ily tooo
character headcanons
Sam:
1. sexuality headcanon
i feel like sam could probably fall under the pansexual label; most of my ships for him are with females so it wasn’t until i got into the sam/riley ship that i really gave his sexuality a lot of thought. but yeah i adore sam being with riley and honestly the idea of him being with like steve or bucky too is good too, i could defs see him getting his flirt on with those two dorks. 
2. otp
this is. so hard. bc like. i can see sam with literally so many different people. like i love sam/riley, but i also really love sam/maria, and then sam/natasha is nice too, and really really oddly i thought of sam/becca today and like. at least in the fic i’m considering writing atm, it works really well so yeah. idk if i have a solid otp for sam. i guess i usually stick with either riley or maria though depending on the situation. 
3. brotp
oh man. literally the steve/sam brotp and the sam/bucky brotp and the sam/steve/bucky brotps give me so much life. all three of these losers are so good together they play off of each other so well theyre really the Dream Team.
i also really like sam and natasha’s friendship too, i’ve seen some fics get it really good.
4. notp
uhhh, there aren’t really any sam ships that just out to me as a Major No. i guess i’m not super into the idea of sam and clint being a thing? but like it doesn’t really bother me as a ship in general or anything.
5. first headcanon that pops into my head
okay in any fic i write in which it’s a no powers au (so like most of what i write lmao) i have this hc that sam is dubbed the bird whisperer in anyone’s phone. so he was at the park with steve or bucky or whoever he’s mainly friends with in the fic and while he was there he ended up doing something (not quite sure what, maybe i’ll figure that out and write about it one day who knows) and whatever he did brought all the birds to his yard and they l o v e d him, and some even followed him around a little, thus he was dubbed the bird whisperer. 
6. one way in which i relate to this character
i too would do anything for steve rogers. lmao no for real though, sam has a really good loyalty about him and he’s willing to do anything for his friends (i.e. take them in, fight with/for them, etc. etc.) and i like to think that those are qualities i have as well.
7. things that give me second hand embarrassment about this character
i honestly can’t think of anything rn?? like sam’s a p cool, suave dude, he hasn’t really done anything, at least in canon, that makes me super cringe in embarrassment.
8. cinnamon roll or problematic fave?
cinnamon roll for sure!
Steve:
1. sexuality headcanon
BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISEXUAL MY DUDE. listen there is no way n o w a y steve rogers is not a bisexual man. i mean, come on. have yall seen the movies? steve rogers is in love with bucky barnes, peggy carter, sam wilson, natasha romanoff, and the list probably goes on. no but for real, bucky is literally his life partner, the love of his entire fucking life. tws?? a romcom for fuckin sure. but he also really was in love with peggy carter in tfa, i mean who wouldn’t be she’s fuckin badass and hot af and just a kickass woman. i’m in love with her too steve. and then you cannot tell me he isn’t flirting with sam at the beginning of tws because he so is. and i bet while bucky was Gone he probably somehow got his hands on some of thor’s asguardian mead or whatever at some avengers party and he and nat drunkenly kissed a little just to see what it was like (yknow before she got with clint ofc). but seriously this boy is a Bisexual Disaster and we all know it. 
2. otp
is this even a question? obviously its stucky. they’re my reason for breathing tbh. no jk but i love them to death and listen you cannot tell me that they are not fucking soulmates okay? bc they are. they ARE. there is literally not a single heterosexual explanation for a n y t h i n g they do. the “keeping the uniform” bit in tfa? gay! the “shared experience” line? gay! breaking through 70+ years of brainwashing by reciting your wedding vows? gay! they are so in love it hurts!!
3. brotp
i have a lot of steve brotps tbh. i love the steve/natasha friendship so so sooo much. i really love how they did it in tws and i really just love the idea of them being close with each other like that. i also really love the steve/sam friendship ofc too. they play off of each other so well, and their flirty banter gives me lifeeee. i do like a good steve/tony friendship as well, and i like steve/wanda friendship too, i feel like they have a good relationship. 
4. notp
steve/sharon lmao. okay so like. i don’t exactly hate it, as in i don’t have a problem with the ship if it were done right. but bc it was so poorly done in the mcu i Do Not like it and i Do Not support. like the timing was horrible, it was all very no homo, the fact that she’s peggy’s niece and they flirt literally right after her funeral was in such poor taste and it makes me seriously uncomfortable, and also the way the mcu totally made sharon’s character nothing more than a love interest, and a really poorly done one too, just pisses me off bc she couldve been a really badass character if they wanted to make her one. so yeah. there’s just a lot of reasons why i Do Not like this ship. but it doesn’t like squick me or anything and i can tolerate it as like an old ship in fics, like she was steve’s ex before he met bucky or smth like that. 
5. first headcanon that pops into my head
6. one way in which i relate to this character
i too would wbecome a wanted government fugitive and fight anyone who got in the way for bucky barnes
7. things that give me second hand embarrassment about this character
again, i can’t really think of anything that gives me too much second hand embarrassment about steve… i guess maybe just the fact that he’s a disaster when it comes to his feelings for people can make me have to look away and shake my head at his dumbass antics lmao. 
8. cinnamon roll or problematic fave?
cinnamon role fo sho
Bucky:
1. sexuality headcanon
BIIIIIIIIIISEXUAL AS WELL MY DUDEEE. i could see bucky as straight up gay as well, but i like to stick with the bisexual label bc 1. im bisexual and i like to see my faves as bi too lmao and 2. i do think that he genuinely did like going out with girls back in the 40s and taking them dancing and shit. like he was definitely flirty and suave and good with the ladies but i dont think it was all for show. like i think he really did like those girls. ofc he loves steve though, like i said, soulmates! but yeah, my boy is defs bisexual too!
2. otp
again, obviously stucky, see above for my rantings and ramblings about why lmao.
3. brotp
i have a lot of brotps for bucky too lol. i fuckin love the banter between bucky/sam, like the mcu did that right! and i hope that their show can deliver more of this Good Content. they work so well, it’s that love/hate realtionship and i am Here For It. they secretly love each other as best friends despite what it may seem. i also really really really love the bucky/natasha friendship, like sign me the fuck up!! they would be the best of friends and i just. love this friendship so much. i also like the bucky/clint friendship too, i feel like these two dumbasses would get up to some good shit together lol. 
4. notp
hmmm, i guess i could say bucky/tony for this. like. i don’t know much about this ship and i dont read for it or anything so i really just dont like it bc i cant see them together romantically or anything. so like idk if i can call that a notp bc i dont hate it or anything, it’s just not my cup of tea.
5. first headcanon that pops into my head
this one is tried and true but it’s always the first bucky hc that pops into mind. bucky was drafted, he didn’t enlist on his own. he refuses to tell steve that though bc of how fucking scared he is about it and bc he knows how much steve wants it, he doesnt want steve to think hes ungrateful or doesnt care about his country or anything like that. so he hides his letter away somewhere he knows steve will never find it. 
steve only finds out when he finds bucky on the table in azzano reciting his number which evidently, gives up the fact that he was drafted. 
6. one way in which i relate to this character
i too would follow that little guy from brooklyn that was too dumb not to run away from a fight to the jaws of death klgsj. no but really, bucky doesnt like to fight, he doesnt. he never wanted to go to war in the first place, he’s not the one that starts the fights, only finishes steve’s when he can’t, and he’s tired of war and fighting and all that. and i think that that’s something i have in common with bucky, that i dont want to fight unless it’s the last resort. like i’d rather try to civally solve a problem than jump straight to the arguing and fighting bits yknow?
7. things that give me second hand embarrassment about this character
again, i can’t think of much that embarrasses me about bucky. he’s a p chill dude. 
8. cinnamon roll or problematic fave?
cinnamon roll and you can’t tell me otherwise. 
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myheart-elsewhere · 6 years
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im bored pt3 || 11/22/17
1. Do you bite or lick ice cream? lick
2. What is home to you? i havent yet figured that out
3. What was the last lie you told? that i was doing great lol
4. Does everyone deserve the truth? for the most part
5. What is the creepiest toy ever made? there are hella creepy toys tbh
6. Describe a moment in which you did something unacceptable in a bad situation. most the shit i do is unacceptable but its whatever.
7. List two things that are more easily done than said. (No, I didn’t mix them up.)  1: using a cell phone bc it can be hard to teach adults how to use them lol. 2: seeing a color vs describing it
8. When was the last time you worked really hard to achieve something? probably in school idk
9. How many all nighters have you pulled? over 15..
10. If humans didn’t evolve to laugh or smile, how would we express our happiness instead? talking excitedly about what made us happy
11. How many romantic “things” or “flings” have you had? depends on how serious you mean, so between 2 and 5.
12. What is your paradise? lisetning to music
13. What is your favorite background noise? (Ex. Water dripping, people talking.) i like the sound of nails tapping on something
14. How many hearts do you think you have broken? hopefully none
15. What is the most important thing about electronics? you can stay in touch with loved ones. 
16. Why do people care about celebrities? Do you care about celebrities? oh jesus here we go. first off, yes- i care about quite a few celebrities. they can make us feel a happiness like no other. if you’re having a bad day, all you need is to hear their voice and the pain goes away. they speak on things that are important and meaningful. they can be our inspirations and role models. when they have a new interview, song (or movie or something else.. whatever your favorite celebrity does) it always gives us something to look forward to. they make you feel less alone. they make you feel loved. i could keep going on but i have 134 more questions..
17. What is the most annoying thing someone can do to you? make plans then cancel last minute.
18. Do you overexaggerate? What are the pros and cons of this? at times, but rarely. pros: it helps get your point across. cons: it can be annoying idk
19. Have you played any instruments before? Which instruments? guitar and piano
20. Do you like taking selfies? Why or why not? if im wearing makeup, yes. i dont have a good reason except that i like my makeup lol
21. List 3 things you like about yourself? im loving, forgiving, and supportive.
22. What is the best advice someone has ever given you? “be yourself”
23. Do you have what it takes to raise a child? Why or why not? currently, probably not.. im basically still a child myself.
24. How do you cheer yourself up after a bad day? listen to 5h
25. When was the last time you felt awkward? today at work
26. Are you introverted or extroverted? Or a mixture of both? i can be both depending on the situation or social setting
27. What constitutes a good friend? them being there for you when you need them, being supportive in everything you do, and loving you unconditionally.
28. Would you rather have a lot of friends to hang out with or just one best friend? my one best friend. i miss her.
29. In a regular day, what do you not want to hear? “do your homework.”
30. What is your dream job? movie director
31. Is it better to be lazy but smart or hardworking but unintelligent? hardworking bc at least you’re trying.
32. What is a truth about yourself that others find hard to believe? some people are shocked that im gay
33. What have you always wondered about the other gender? why men can treat girls like items and/or their property and just throw them away when theyre done..
34. Which fantasy world would you like to visit the most? hm idk
35. Describe the worst friend you have ever befriended. theres been a few but the first one who comes to mind is this girl who talked about herself 24/7 and didnt care about anyone except for herself.
36. Imagine that you have switched bodies with someone you don’t know. You can’t switch back. What do you do? try to figure out life and probably cry lol
37. If you found the recipe for immortality, would you sell it or would you burn it? can i do both?
38. What is the most important, applicable class you have ever taken? school doesnt teach important classes lmfao
39. Name the last book you read. “trials and tribulations” 
40. Imagine that you are unable to express emotion. How would this affect your world? i would feel empty..
41. When was the last time you made the first move? about a month in a half ago
42. What is your opinion on electronic music such as dubstep or trap? i love it
43. What was the last movie you watched? i dont remember bc i rarely watch movies
44. Do you like and appreciate your life? sometimes
45. Do you like and appreciate yourself? sometimes
46. When was the last time you cried? last night
47. What are you scared of? mostly irrational things
48. What is the most embarrassing, cringe-worthy thing you have ever done? let’s not talk about that lol
49. What are some of your hobbies? reading, listening to music, doing my makeup, social media, and fangirling lol
50. What is a superficial yet annoying mistake you constantly make? idk bc im stupid and dont understand what superficial means lol
51. Are you a good friend? What makes you a good friend? If not, what makes you a bad friend? i think im a good friend bc i always put others before myself and i do anything and everything i can to make them happy. and im always there for them.
52. Do you honestly learn from your mistakes? sometimes
53. What have you learned the hard way? how to lose someone you love
54. What is the most important thing to have in order to attain happiness? not rely on others to be your happiness
55. Which medium do you use for expressing your artistic emotions? (Singing, writing, etc.) writing for sure
56. Are you a creative or a logical thinker? both
57. What is the smartest thing you have ever done? smart moments are rare for me
58. What is your ideal meal? steak and potatoes mmmmm
59. What is the worst thing someone could do on a date? be on their phone
60. Do you like animals? Which kind is your favorite? i love animals, specifially dogs
61. If you could turn one legal thing illegal, what would it be? stealing 
62. Do you have any guilty pleasures? si
63. What is the best thing that the internet has ever created? youtube
64. Do you like playing video games? Which video games? supermario lol
65. What is your opinion on beauty in today’s society? everyone views it differently. in my personal opinion, ever since the word “thick” got popular around 2 years ago, more people are apprecating that and not focusing on being “super model thin” which i think is great.
66. Are you a morning person? When do you usually wake up? hell nah. if i have school, around 6am. if i dont have school, around 10am
67. Do you have a favorite Disney movie? Character? HERCULES!!!!!! meg
68. Would you rather live in the city or in the countryside? def city
69. Would you rather live near the ocean or in the mountains? either or
70. What are the best things about winter? COOL WEATHER
71. What scares you most about the future? idk what it holds
72. What makes you feel old? when i realize HSM came out over 10 years ago.
73. How many hours do you spend on the computer or phone on average? too many
74. What are some of your New Year’s resolutions? havent even thought about it bc they never happen lol
75. What is your life story in 6 words? i am really really gay bro
76. Describe yourself in one word. fangirl
77. What bad habits do you do? give out too many chances
78. What genre of music do you listen to? mostly pop, but i listen to a lot of different genres
79. Most prominent childhood memory? getting doughnuts with my dad every saturday mornning
80. Imagine if you had an older brother. If you already have one, what is it like? If you don’t, how would this change your life? i have a brother who is 20 years older than me. he lived in ohio and right after i was born my parents and i moved to florida. i only get to see him like once a year. it’s really sad. i think of him more as a distant uncle than a brother. but he always has done everything he can to make me happy and i appreciate that so much.
81. Spirit animal? jaguar
82. Do you believe in horoscopes? not really
83. What is the worst advice you’ve ever been given? ive been given so much bad advice i cant pick one specific thing lol
84. List the 3 most important people in your life right now. my best friend liv, my aunt lori, and lauren jauregui
85. Favorite memory of your family. being in ohio this past summer staying up til 2am with my parents, my brother and his fiance just telling stories and laughing our asses off.
86. What do you look for in a relationship? affection
87. Do you have a role model? Why or why not? yes, lauren jauregui. i love everything she stands for.
88. What is your opinion on social media? i love it. it’s what keeps you close with family/friends who live in different states or countries for that matter.
89. Are you a pessimist or an optimist? both, but im mostly optimisitic.. well i try to be at least
90. List some things that you think are overpriced? CONCERT TICKETS
91. What is your worst memory or creepiest experience? getting lost outside in the middle of n where after jingle ball 2015
92. What superpower would ruin the world? reading peoples minds tbh
93. What is something you swore you would never do when you grew up, but you did anyway? smoke
94. What lessons have you learned from movies and which movies were they? i cant think of any rn
95. If you could travel anywhere, where would you go? ohio to see my family
96. How do you approach people? i.. just.. do..
97. What is your opinion on first impressions? sometimes they change
98. What are some things you did as a child that you no longer do? bite my nails
99. What languages can you speak? english and quite a bit of spanish
100. What do you think society will be like in 30 years? who knows
101. What do you do on your lazy days? lay in my pjs, play on my phone and listen to music
102. What ended your last relationship? it wasnt an actual relationship, but she couldnt make up her goddamn mind and she wanted to be a fuckgirl
103. Favorite food? sushi and steak
104. What is the most terrifying dream you’ve ever had? oooo lets not talk about that..
105. When was the last time you got seriously angry? 3 days  ago
106. What was the last friendship you broke? one of my “best friends” bc she didnt like that i was friends with someone she didnt like
107. Do you have any pet peeves? people chewing with their mouth open
108. Who was the last person you gave a hug to? my papa
109. When was the last time you got seriously stressed? last week
110. What part of your personality do you want to change? that i procrasinate everything
111. Who is the most positively influential person in your life right now? lauren jauregui
112. What is your biggest motivation? my best friend
113. What did you want to be when you were little? a veternarian lol
114. What are some things that you are good at? makeup
115. What is one thing you want to be good at? singing lol
116. What distracts you the most, especially when you’re trying to work? probably my phone although i don’t want to admit it lol
117. How important is privacy to you? pretty important.. but it depends on who we want privacy from
118. If you could create one social norm, what would it be? everyone being nice to each other
119. What’s the craziest lie you’ve ever told? i trust no one so that stays to myself for my own well-being
120. What story do you like to tell about yourself at parties? i dont go to parties
121. What is the lamest thing that you have seen someone do? show off on a skateboard lmao
122. What is the stupidest thing you’ve done to impress someone? told them i have a pt cruiser but thats not even a nice car lmao
123. What is your morning routine? on a typical school day: wake up, check my phone, do my hair/makeup, get dressed, eat then leave.
124. What’s the last thing you did that is worth remembering? made a good sale at work today and it was my first day of my first job.
125. If karma was coming back to you, would it help or hurt you? both but mostly help me.
126. What is your opinion on playing “hard to get?” its stupid
127. What are the pros and cons of straightforward? pros: you dont have to be afriad of not being honest. cons: it could make someone really mad at you.
128. What do you consider “leading” someone on? telling them you like them and consistenly flirting with them.
129. Are you the friendzoner or the friendzoned? both
130. What do you admire most about your friends? they try to make me happy
131. What do you admire most about your family? they want the best for me
132. What is your opinion on “going with the flow?” ehh stand out, be different
133. Do you enjoy talking or listening? i enjoy talking, but i almost always listen
134. When is it time to end a friendship? when they become a selfish little bitch
135. What is the worst excuse you’ve ever come up with? the excuses i make up to get out of going to school
136. If GPA didn’t matter, what courses would you have taken? idk im not interested in school
137. What are your favorite baby names? paris
138. When was the last time you had a deep conversation with someone? few days ago
139. What instantly ruins a conversation? checking your phone
140. Biggest turn ons and turn on offs. turn ons: confidence (but not cockiness), being outgoing, being able to have a conversation, and a good fashion sense (fashion sense in my opinion haha). cons: ooo being conceited and only talking about yourself.
141. Biggest disappointment. me lmao
142. Do you have any self-restraint? i do.
143. When did you last do something outside of your comfort zone? last week
144. Prized possession(s)? honestly, my phone. and a bracelet my best friend gave me,
145. What is your opinion on second chances? most people deserve it.
146. Text or call? depends on the person tbh
147. What do you like about the 21st century? it has social media
148. What advice would you give to yourself 5 years ago? stay strong, babygirl. youre gonna go through a lot in the next 5 years, but you need to be strong and know you will fight through it all and come out stronger than you were before. nothing is what it seems. nothing lasts forever. expect the least and you’ll get the best. and remember, a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor.
149. How organized are you? too organized. 
150. Favorite mode of transportation. car
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