#ive been like this since i was a baby

[onlyfangz]

when i say im an insomniac, i dont mean i fall asleep at 2am and feel a bit run down the next day. when i say im an insomniac, i mean once when unmedicated, i didnt sleep for three days, hallucinated, and was hospitalised, and when i am medicated, it takes 10mg of melatonin before my body decides it might fall asleep before 7am, so i hope yous can understand my frustration that "i overslept" isnt an acceptable excuse.

#charlie.txt #my entire life has just been a massive cesspit of sleep deprivation #i feel like insomnia is seen as this kind of normalised thing that everyone deals with #and whilst its like #im not trying to say people with regular insomnia dont struggle or have it bad #i have never met anyone in my entire life who has such trouble sleeping as i do #ive been like this since i was a baby #an actual baby who couldnt even hold his own head up #right through my entire childhood #teen years #and then up to now #theres never been a single period in my life where ive known what its like to sleep well #im constantly running on near empty and yet society expects me to give up more than i have for it #and its like. im not trying to be condescending here. but my issues with sleeping have made me suicidal in the past. #ive just wanted to end it all so i can get a moments fucking rest #and it feels diminishing when someone tells me they stayed up til 3am last night so they get where my frustrations lie

[cherrirui-official]

"You know... You didn't have to take that with you."

"But I promised him I'd take him out to see the ocean one day."

#for context uhmm how do i explain this #so around a few weeks after Jd arrives Bruce is like “Hey... where are the others?” #and Jd is like “ooooh 🤪🤪 he doesnt know...” #Since at this time JD believes that the entire tribe is dead. including his brothers and grandma #so Jd has to take Bruce to the now abandoned troll tree and give him the bad news #Bruce doesnt believe it at first. even if the tree is abandoned they cant be dead? right?? they cant be #so he rushes over to their grandma's pod. thinking that theyre just in hiding and waiting for them to return #and all Bruce is able to find in the empty pod is Branch's old stuffed toy Croco #which solidifies to Bruce that everyone is dead. their friends their family. everyone #Bruce is obviously devastated by the news. he doesnt show it a lot but he doesnt take it too well #he ends up bringing Croco with him back to Vacay Island and patches Croco up #since Croco is a bit worn out due to being left in the pod for years #and since then Bruce always keeps Croco hidden in his hair. both as a memoir of his baby brother #and also a reminder of how he failed as an older brother... ouch #ofc the others arent dead. its just that now both Jd AND Bruce believe that the rest of the trolls are dead #also King Trollex is there bc i wanted to put him there. I like Trollex :] #a knee ways more bb au art i promise the next bb au art will be lighthearted #tho now im gonna work on the next violet gijinka batch bc ive been starving my friendlocke audience for too long #sorry friendlocke fans ill feed u next dw #cherris canvas #trolls #trolls band together #trolls john dory #john dory trolls #trolls bruce #bruce trolls #king trollex #beach bros au #sorry for rambling in the tags i hope u dont mind ahaha

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Been thinking about the X-Files recently. A show I have a hazy, but fond memory of.

#the x files #x files #fox mulder #dana scully #poorly drawn x files #is this going to be a thing? maybe? #iirc: The x-files is about two FBI agents who are trying so hard to be professional and not fall in love. And everything is a conspiracy. #...It *has* been nearly a decade since I saw the x files. I think I'd have a hard time rewatching for a few reasons but I did enjoy it. #This was initially just a work doodle I wasn't going to clean up #but the amount of x-files fans that Ive seen about + Lazycranberryart's wangxian x-files art got my brain too fired up. #Mulderscully vibes are like: "I'm her silly rabbit. she doesn't call me that outloud. But I believe in my heart it's true.' #Its about having faith and trust in each other! They might not always agree either but they have each other's backs! #Scully is 100% the one that kills the spiders in the relationship. Mulder wants to rescue them but his ideals aren't strong enough #Girl Daddy and Baby Girl Boy. That's who they are to me.

[moncuries]

i'll wait up for you, i'll wake up for you

#id like to thank the libraries of various aged universities for their abundant reference images #my art #its been a long time since ive drawn him #library baby #fanart #wolfstar #marauders #mwpp #mwpp era #remus lupin #i find remus eye contact very unnerving in this but in general i am TERRIBLE #at eye directing in my art

[extra-somethin-somethin]

If nothing else Koenma is a Kuwabara stan and I'm right there with him o7 (I need to write the kuwameshi fic that goes with this fr)

#maybe one day i'll write that au i have sitting in my head #ever since the comment he made about making kuwa spirit detective instead ive been thinking about it #like...what if yusuke is still recruited same as canon but like #kuwa was already spirit detective? doing assignments for the guys upstairs and all #and they made yusuke help him after his resurrection instead of going solo #and it's hilarious because they still have the ''rivalry'' set in place so it's like #now i gotta be coworkers with this guy i was in a fist fight with last week? #yusuke is like you can't be serious you want me to fight DEMONS with the guy who cant even beat ME? lmaooo okay #kuwa would be more in tune with his powers atp in this au and super offended like hello #why would i use my reiki on a FELLOW HUMAN CHILD you DICK i can hold my own on my assignments just fine #but he's actually really excited to be able to spend time with yusuke doing something besides getting his ass handed to him #they're both genkai's students (she's endlessly annoyed but they grow on her) #i just think it'd be fun cos like #it'd be harder to exclude kazuma from shit if he's literally been involved in this shit before he even met #kurama and hiei #kuwabara isn't really told about yusuke's resurrection so things go mostly the same up til he's brought back #they're both called to koenma's office and it's the spiderman pointing meme 💀 #it's koenma's first time seeing kuwa in person as he usually just sends assignments with botan #yusuke has already seen him cos of the resurrection arc #and koenma is SUCH a fanboy ''kuwabara it's such a pleasure. you know you're my best worker 🥺'' #''um urameshi am i seeing things or is that a fuckin baby'' yusuke will NOT stop laughing #it fucks koenma up so bad he makes sure he's in his adult form when he's around kuwa next #cos he wants to be the respected boss but also guy that you can chill with!! he's so cringe #okay yeah i need to write this it's such a fun concept #kuwameshi #yu yu hakusho #kuwabara kazuma #yusuke urameshi #koenma

[thelemonsnek]

finally got around to drawing things from my figure shelf :]] (video of my figures below - if nothing else, click to see the litleo figure. its horrible [affectionate])

[image id: a sketchpage featuring many different pokemon, Ingo and Emmet, and Hatsune Miku. In the first drawing, Miku sings cheerfully into a microphone, while Ingo and Emmet look up at her - they're significantly shorter than Miku, and have to look up quite a ways.

Beneath this is a drawing of Ingo and Emmet doing their signature point pose, and they stare down and to the center, both smiling. Between them is a Lucario mimicking their pointing pose, riding a very happy Boltund.

To the side of this is a drawing of an exasperated Emmet, bent over from the weight of two Galvantula crawling on his head and shoulders. Emmet fruitlessly pulls the leg of one away, saying, "this is verrrrry unprofessional of you two." Above this is a sketch of Ingo being haunted by a Gengar. It looms behind him, grinning hugely as he stares ahead in dread.

Finally is a series of pokemon sketches. First, there is a Pikachu and Slowpoke sleeping together, then a very small Pikachu sitting on top of a very large Pikachu's head. Then are a number of sketches titled "Knockoffs 🤍". All of these are very silly sketches. There's one of a wide eyed Arceus titled "He has seen The Horrors", two very silly galvantula, a pink zorua, a blocky stunky, and a litleo that barely resembles a litleo. End id]

[video id: a soundless video panning over a shelf with lots of pokemon figures on it. Most notably are the figures depicted in the drawing - Ingo and Emmet, Miku, as well as the various pokemon drawn above, such as Litleo, Arceus, and Galvantula. There are many more figures on the shelf that were not drawn as well. Many of them are very small knockoff figures of questionable quality. End id]

#art #my art #digital art #pokemon #pokemon art #subway boss ingo #subway boss emmet #submas #pikachu #slowpoke #arceus #zorua #galvantula #gengar #lucario #boltund #stunky #litleo #hatsune miku #lemon yemon #ive been wanting to do this for MONTTHHHS #the idea of ingo and emmet staring up at tall miku was the thing that initially inspired this and this has been in my brain since JANUARY #i think my favorite from this has to be emmet w the galvantula though #really delighted with how it came out #and the pikachu on the slowpoke.. #i dont know where drawing pikachu like those tiny baby bunnies came from but im SO glad it happened #also i hope yall enjoy my figure shelf :]]]

[elfsyellowflowerzart]

take two of yesterdays little doodle, using the ref this time

#flight rising #flight rising art #flight rising gaoler #gaoler dragon #fr gaoler #hes one of my sonas 👍 #yew art #dragons #its not the most splendid drawing because ive been up since pretty early in the morning #but i had fun with it and thats what matters #my passion in life is making dragons way too fluffy #still pretty scribbly but thats ok i draw for fun #im trying to expand my lair rn but im short like 85k (dies) #gotta make that in like 6 days cause i have nests incubating lol #i know eggs dont rot and you can keep them in the nest as long as you want #but i want to see my special babies as soon as i can #i love seeing the new babies its my favorite part of the game tbh #im slooowly figuring out genes and keeping them in my memory #also if anyone wants to be flight rising friends my username is yellowflowerzzz #ive only been on it a few weeks so i dont have much experience at all and im mostly fumbling around doing my daily tasks #but my lair is huge now bc when i was newer a few incredibly kind people sent me a bunch of treasure #which still makes me tear up strangers can be so so so so kind i love the world sometimes

[nullbutler]

something something identity something something culture

#jumblr #jewblr #i dunno if this is the kind of thing that really belongs on my silly blog but ive been wanting to draw it for two days #this is just about feeling connection to culture #and i dunno i know the whole 'is judaism considered a race' thing is iffy as all hell #because it IS an ethnic group and i see it in basically every bloodline person ive met #there is a familiar look #our grandparents and babies look the exact same #of course converts are lovely and welcome and i'm not gatekeeping #but so long of just being like 'who am i? ah. i am nobody #i am a white girl from california who knows nothing of nothing' is a drastic understatement #i've dealt with anti semitism since i was a child #it has been everywhere #not many people understand it because its just...well we dont look that different (to the people who matter) (bad people can tell right awa #the immeasurable trauma of the holocaust and the weight of our grandparents and everything else is just so crushing...AND we look caucasian #is there no fate worse??? lmao #not saying i'm not caucasian of course i think two things can be true at once #but i think meeting someone and realizing we have the same face and with it faced the same hardship is really really meaningful #because to just say i'm some 'stupid white girl from california' is a butchering undercut of everything i actually am

[skitskatdacat63]

2024 Chinese Grand Prix - Quali - Fernando Alonso

#idk if i like these but must post nando..... #i think ill do his interview as well like the typical one not the grid one #cause hhe looks very cute #these are just weirdly lacking to me ig #BUT P3 IM SOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!! #AGH WE'RE BACK BABY #<- kinda. only a bit. a bit. we stay hopeful #its been so long since ive been able to gif this type of thing 😭😭 #literally not since brazil im p sure #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #2024 chinese gp #we do a little bit of f1

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 749: The last Straight Road*

(NdT.: same pun Kinaka always makes with his name and the word for straight road)

Pag 1

1: I....

3: Imaizumi-san!!

4: Go- good work!!

Good work!!

You were taking a long time for this lap

Pag 2

1: Yes, teh, I got a fl-fl-flat- my bike!!

Yessir!!

2: It's the tire!!

4: Only tires can get a flat

Ah- damn, yes, that's right

Right!!

6: I thought something like this might have happened, so I brought these

Replacement tubes, tire levers, and a pump. Use them

Pag 3

2: This is unusual!! I never thought Imaizumi-san was the attentive type – is it just for us!?

Yeah!! I thought first and second years were just not important to him....

3: You don't want to use the,?

We'll use them, thank you so much!!

4: You saved us, teh....!!

That's true

6: Ah, uhm... but..... Imaizumi-san

Earlier you said that

7: Sugimoto-san won't come”, what did you mean?

Pag 4

1: He retired

Pag 5

1: He's still displayed on the board, but

3: There's still time until midnight

If Sugimoto-kun....

4: Please leave the possibility open in case Sugimoto-kun wants to come back!!

5: Onoda insisted

6: Re... tired.....

Sugi..... moto-san....

Pag 6

1: He used up all his stamina and mental strength in his fight against Danchiku, and he was defeated

2: You didn't notice because you've been on the course the whole time

4: Ah... actually, when it got dark, Sugimoto-san and Danchiku-san passed us various times... teh

Huh!? That? So at that time-!?

5: You have no time to talk about unimportant things

As soon as you're done with the repairs, run, first years

6: Soon

Pag 7

1: Waa, ye-yes, teh, thank you for the tools

Yeah, there's still 40km

2: If we join our strengths....

Don't cooperate

5: Teh!?

7: From now on, you can't allow yourselves to run like friends

8: Huh....

Our “buddies” stickers.....!?

You have to fight

Pag 8

1: And win the last spot to be an Inter High member!!

Pag 9

1: Fa.... ight....

2: Against.... Kinaka-kun

3: Against.... Rokudai

4: 35km left!!

Gooo!! Kinakaa, Rokudaii!!

Do your best...!!

5: I feel like they'll be able to run the 1000km!!

Amazing!

Ah, but there was no distance between them just now?

Pag 10

1: Fight....

2: The spot as a regular in the two-times national champion, Sohoku....

3: I can't take it by just being friendly....!!

4: And also

5: There's Sugimoto-san's wish!!

Pag 11

1: Wa- wait, please, Imaizumi-san

But.... if in this training camp the condition to become the sixth regular was to finish the 1000km first....

2: Then why did Sugimoto-san and Danchiku-san race!?

4: I came here to give you a message from Sugimoto

5: I think, I think it's necessary, you know

Sohoku is a team that connect and support each other

6: Just like during our first year, you, Naruko, and Onoda, connected your wishes and aimed for the goal

7: And last year Kaburagi ran with Aoyagi-san and carried the team until the mountains on the third day

8: So I think we need it

9: Our third year Inter High members

Pag 12

1: Definitely need a “first year”!!

3: Even if he knew he was making his own situation worse, he thought about the best shape for the team would be

4: He accepted it, and fought

Pag 13

1: For the fifth place

3: Among the first years, those two are left, I look forward to see what they do!!

That's too much food

4: Danchiku probably understood it, too

That's why he fought with all his strength

6: Now you two have to run with the weight of those expectations on your back!!

7: Fight, against your opponent and against yourself!! Use all your strength

Pag 14

1: And pull to yourself that last jersey!!

2: Straaa-

Pag 15

1: Straight roaaad!!

2: - traight!!

3: …. ngh

Ugh.....

4: Kinaka-kun.....

5: Don't cry, Rokudai!!

Pag 16

1: What are you doing, oi!! I'll leave you behind like this!! I'll tear you off!!

If you give up, then it's lucky for me!!

2: My goal has always been the Inter High jersey!!

To get back at those senpai who made fun of me!!

3: To show it to the Onii-san who taught me how to ride bikes!!

So, for that....

6: So I'm telling you not to cry!!

Pag 17

1: But, Kinaka-kun....

It's that your “Straitgh road”, wasn't fast at all....!!

4: You knee? It's your knee, right?

Since when? Since a while ago?

5: Since when we were at about 800km

Pag 18

1: It's a race, Rokudai

2: You should have told me, teh

I didn't notice, teh!!

3: I'm such an incapable former manager, teh....

4: Since when I lost to you in the first years' race

6: I've been thinking that I would definitely not lose the next time we race

7: Even though the truth is that I don't really care about that anymore

So, once again...

Pag 19

1: It's a race, Rokudai!!

3: Let's do it, Rokudai!!

I can't, teh

4: Race me, pedal!!

I don't want to, teh....

5: Fight me!!

I won't pedal, teh

Pag 20

1: Because, if I fight you now, Kinaka-kun, I'll end up winning, teh

Pag 22

1: With that kindness of yours, support our senpai during the Inter High

#yowamushi pedal #yowamushi pedal translations #yowapeda #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal manga #yowamushi pedal spoilers #ride 749 #the tags arent enough for the essay i want and need to write about this chapter #most painful chapter but also one of the best chapter of the whole manga imho #IVE BEEN CRYING SINCE YESTRDAY WTF WATANABE HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO MY BABIES #YOU NEED TO PAY FOR MY THERAPY NOW #kinaka and roku's relationship is probably the most wholesome in the whole manga i love them so much #and this chap HURT SO BAD OH MY GOD #kinakaaaaa you're so strong for this ;A; the way he didnt want to tell roku about his knee bc he knew that roku would break #the way he even tried to provoke him to push him to race!! and he says he didnt want to lose against him again! but!! #He actually doesnt care about that anymore!!! hes just doing this for rokudai!!! #And rokuuuu!!! baby boy ;A; hes the purest boy ever!!! He didnt want to win like this against kinaka he didnt want to leave him behind ;A; #leave me alone im gonna cry forever ;A; (no actually dont leave me alone keep me company in my suffering plz) #page 21 is forever ingraved in my soul #even tho imaizumi told them not to cooperate in the end they did support each other until the last moment ;A; #(on a lighter not im happy that we finally have a reason for the race btwn sugimoto and danchiku - they both knew the team needed a first #year* so only one of them could be on the team)

[prince-raisins-art]

i ♥️ soggy and pathetic men 🥰

#my art #loz #loz phantom hourglass #linebeck #hes been my f/o since like highschool 🥰 #my limp and faggy little babygirl #@ all 10 of you in the linebeck fanclub on here: i bring you sustenance. you are welcome <3 #ive been going through his tag recently too and i love that we all end up drawing him while solely controlled by our libido #nobody can draw him as the sweaty little bastard he really is and i find the phenomenon so fascinating #I SAY THIS WHILE ALSO DOING THE SAME THING I AM NOT IMMUNE TO LINEBECK BIMBOFICATION #also congrats to him for beating ghirahim at the tumblr sexyman competition last october im so proud of you baby #this was also a redraw of something i did in highschool btw :) #if you ask nicely i will show it to you guys but you cant laugh #kais f/os

[katabay]

Cette épée avait longtemps fait l’ambition de Porthos. Porthos aurait donné dix années de sa vie pour posséder cette épée.

-CHAPITRE VII. L’INTÉRIEUR DES MOUSQUETAIRES

The Three Musketeers, Alexandre Dumas (trans. Pevear)

Athos is haunted as fuck (which is my favorite type of character), and this whole thing with Porthos and this sword is going to rattle inside of my brain for a minimum of a week. the phrasing of it. oughhh. I love this book.

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#the three musketeers #les trois mousquetaires #athos #porthos #god GOD what a fucking character statement #anyway athos can have some grey/white hair as a treat for me because we're close in age and my hair is starting to go white lmao #salt and pepper baby lets go #its been a minute since ive done a color illustration like this and oh boy have i missed it #this was. a several days long project. i did it on a huge canvas. i halved the size (i always do) for posting so #unfortunately. the smaller details on the sword and lace can't be zoomed in on but i did have a lot of fun with it #(i did include some of the sword detailing in the close up crop. #we're ignoring period accuracy for looks. but also we're always ignoring period accuracy for looks #and because trying to look up period accurate fashion has been. difficult. stop showing me versaille court fashion google)

[abirddogmoment]

perpetually pingponging between having competitive dog ambitions and wanting nothing to do with the dog community ever again 🏓

#dogblr #dog sports #anyway i finally got a dt launcher #ive been wanting one since mav was a baby #they arent even that expensive i just was too nervous to ruin my dog #(a dt launcher shoots a blank and launches a toy to teach gundogs how to retrieve and be steady to gunshot) #i am semi confident in my ability to work rory to it without ruining her #if i get it soon i can spend like 6 weeks making her wild about the toy it launches #indoors and in the city #and then once the snow melts it should be simple to introduce the shot #anyway im having field test dreams #but at the same time LOATHE many of the people involved #anyway #thats where im at #i did buy the launcher though so we'll see #semirelated: the person who got top rally brittany this year got huge praise from the breed club president #who refused to acknowledge that mav won it last year #it doesnt matter but it made me so sad #someone on the breed club told me how important it was that i stay involved and i push for change #but they lowkey broke my heart by being so mean about mav #cant handle me at my worst (beautiful perfect out of standard dog) dont deserve me at my best (beautiful perfect in standard dog)

[vibinglikethat]

Happy 39th Birthday to the light of my life, Henry William Dalgliesh Cavill 

May 5, 1983

#hcavilledit #henrycavilledit #henrycavilledits #dccastedit #henry cavill #thewitchercastedit #mine #mygifs #HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY #i say as he's on the verge of turning 40 lmao #it's been almost a year since i posted a henry edit omfg #i also just havent been editing in general lately #mostly bc ive been preoccupied with other things #anyway i hope my man has an amazing birthdayyyy #hope yall like this gifset !

[transxfiles]

kids gotta start playing with physical toys again i'm not even joking. if you've got nieces nephews kids of your own even a family friend with a little one you've gotta at least give them a stuffed animal, blocks, dolls, a tactile puzzle, ANYTHING i'm begging you. if you've got the jurisdiction to enact screentime limits PLEASE enact screentime limits. please

#ive been on my ''stop giving babies ipads'' streak ever since i found out people were giving babies ipads #but my parents also work in a school so now my disdain for the ipad baby is backed up by evidence of negative effects #my dad works with elementary schoolers on and off and he says the 1st grade teachers are scared bc #this group of kids doesn't have any hand strength and they are having a hard time with #basic tasks like cutting paper with craft scissors... its the ipad baby effect #please give your kids physical things to play with and also put restrictions on the screens #cricket.chatterbox

[galaxygermdraws]

I don't usually post sona related art, but I just beat the SMRPG remake and it made me just. start crying. Like i was just sobbing my way through the end of the game, and my hope for the future of Mario RPGs has never been brighter. So it made me just. Feel a lot of emotions and I didn't really know how else to capture them.

I'm very happy I got to live during a time when this wonderful game got a remake that will be more readily available for people to play. And I am so happy this game was just as good as I have been told it was. Definitely looking forward to replaying it again.

Uh. Yea. Jus kind of a personal piece I 'spose. Bonus little doodle I drew the day before the remake dropped under the cut

#germdraws #germ draws #goop #sona art #smrpg remake #mostly bc thats what this is talking about #i dont expect this to get notes this was just like. a personal piece about my emotional state today #not too often does a game quite drive me to the point of drawing my emotional state about it #I didnt. expect to cry like a baby over it #i knew id prolly cry. most mario rpgs do make me cry #but i havent cried this hard since i replayed origami king earlier this year #and that was probably bc it was like. the same week as finding out mario was getting a new va #and bc i was witnessing my favorite piece of media travel into a new era #and i am beyond excited #especially because the second major game to kick off said new era....is a game from 1996 #a game ive been told about a lot in my life. every other mario rpg that was hyped to me never hit right. ttyd n bis both #i never finished ttyd. bis was rather tiring. maybe ill replay it one day. who knows #but smrpg was. rlly good. i rlly liked it. it made me very happy. i made me very emotional.