Ellie help I have werewolf brain rot and Kirk has been living in my mind rent free the past few nights 😩 please tell me more about him, does he have a secret soft side or is being mean his love language and you know he cares about you if he's giving you a hard time? Why does he live in a dorm by himself? Where is he on the possessive scale? Honestly just tell me everything you know about him so I can simp to the best of my ability 🥺😫🙏
And actually while I'm here, anything about Elliott or Julian would also be tasty 👀👀👀 forgive me for the werewolf team fic altered my brain chemistry and I may never be the same
absolutely !! !!!!! i am at your mercy uwu <33 (this is mostly stream of consciousness so if u want more i am READY)
(cws: kirk being a sap + lore)
Kirk is very much that way--giving you a hard time is generally how he shows he cares about you. He's only truly mean to those he doesn't care about, and trust that there is a difference even when you get frustrated over his attitude in the beginning. He didn't grow up with a lot of love in his household so it's really not his area of expertise, he never really learned how to show it and only started experiencing affection when he joined the pack and made friends with all the other werewolves. Being snuggled, having his hair stroked instead of pulled, listening to his friends talk about him being handsome and smart even if he's got a shitty attitude.....it's weird to him. He doesn't hate it deep down, but he hates how it makes him feel vulnerable when he doesn't want to be.
'Vulnerable' is barely even in his vocabulary, which is why he comes at you with so much heat at first. He'd been hoping and praying that you two could boink, have a good time, and then you would pretend like it never happened so he wouldn't have to face any of those feelings he has when he looks at you. But when you don't, and when you're just so sweet, Kirk can't handle it and has to revert to what he knows: being a dick. Not nearly to the extent of how he is with other people, but just enough to keep you at arm's length in his constant fear that you're gonna end up making him feel like he isn't totally worthless. Because what would he do then? He's accepted the role of being an irredeemable, raging douchebag for pretty much all his life. He's got an attitude, his temper is awful, he doesn't consider himself that good-looking, he's got some of the worst grades out of the whole pack, he fixates on things and lets them consume all his thoughts, and he hasn't even got any palate to boot and will eat just about anything, even if it's on the verge of spoiling. He's total garbage and he's friends with a pack of people that couldn't be more perfect; Julian is incredibly charming, Portia's practically a genius, Nick is insanely handsome, Elliott is so gentle and really funny, Priam is a total sweetheart and Athos is the pinnacle of cool in his eyes. How could he even think of measuring up to all that, much less stick out among the rest and prove he's worth even a little bit of your love?
That may be the most frustrating part about Kirk--he can be the prickliest guy you know and he would die before he ever says those things out loud, but he seriously admires his friends and you yet he has little to no belief in himself. Granted, growing up he would've gotten his ass beat for showing that kind of weakness, so it's still deeply ingrained in him as an adult--especially since the pack are pretty much the first friends he's ever made on his own. And at his core, he's jealous. Jealous of them and their nice families, jealous of how well they all turned out despite going through their own struggles, jealous of how easy it is for them to be open when he's terrified of people finding out he's bi, jealous of you for being so brave and so beautiful in equal measure....so that's why the best thing he can do--in his own opinion of course--is to be your collective guard dog.
After all, Kirk isn't afraid to bite. His instincts are hard to control in his human form, could you even imagine how feral he can get when he's full wolf, or even just close to the full moon? If anything it's what he's good at; hunting, beating ass, and taking a punch. If he can't be as good as you and the others deserve, the least he can do is make sure that sweetness and the goodness of your souls isn't ever dominated by someone else. He'll spill blood, he doesn't care. He would even get suspended if it came to that, expelled, arrested, whatever it takes and he'll let the chips fall where they may. You'll know his love for you is real when he starts acting protective over you, not only when other people try to bother you but as far as your daily needs as well. Have you eaten properly? Are you thirsty? Do you need to sleep? When's the last time you stretched? He acts like it's a favour he's doing for you, like you're a little wolf that needs caring after, but in truth it settles his own self-doubts and makes him happier knowing that he's doing something for you--that he's taking care of you like a mate would, and when you smile at him or thank him for his help he just melts. He would do anything to keep hold of that smile.
.....Which is why he's got a plan in his head for after graduation. He and Nick are the oldest and thus are going to graduate first of all of you, so once that's over and done with he's got plans to start building a place for you all to properly call 'home'. It's nothing crazy--just a cabin in the woods--but if there's one thing he can confidently say he's good at it's woodworking, and he's sketched out the designs to make it everything you could ever want.
Personal rooms for you, him, and Portia who has trouble falling asleep when it's noisy. A big living room with enough sofas to fit you all. Polished oak walls like Julian grew up with and always wanted to see again. A bathtub big enough to fit Nicky's giant, muscly legs without spilling over. Tables and chairs to fit everyone and more, to fit all the family gatherings and maybe even the pups you might have one day. A garden out back where he'll plant those ugly little flowers Elliott loves. Trees and greenery around where they can run and hunt and play during the full moon, totally obscured by the rest of the world. A big fucking chandelier in the dining room to intimidate any friends you bring over that think they're hot enough shit to snatch you. It's gonna be perfect, it's gonna be the one thing he can say he's proud of in practically his whole life. It'll be a gift to all of you for putting up with his assholery for so damn long, for sticking with him even when he couldn't find a single reason why you should.
That's the kind of love Kirk shows. Words don't mean much to him--actions and acts of service are how he expresses his affections, because it's much simpler for him to put work into something he can touch and measure and paint rather than throw some flimsy words around and call it love. Plus, one of the reasons why he lives in his own dorm is because his downtime is incredibly important to him. Usually he would request a private one-bedroom apartment, but this year he was assigned roommates that he very quickly drove away with his annoying habits almost entirely on purpose. If he's not comfortable with someone, then like hell is he going to share an intimate living space with them--and after a long day he just needs time to be completely alone. He has to think, work on his projects, exercise, chew on something, and have no prying eyes around that will impede his progress in trying to figure out how the hell he can try to make himself worthy of being loved by you. A dumb, violent wolf reaching to grab the very moon from the sky.
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Call for Interviewees: Fanfic Edition
Hello! I am a queer video essayist, currently in the research process of a video on FANFICTION!
I’m looking to interview:
- Writers of Big Name TM/popular fics
- Big Bang/similar community fic event organisers
- Old school readers (e.g. 70s kirk/spock shippers)
- Anyone else with a particularly interesting/unique viewpoint of fanfic
If that’s you - please reach out at
[email protected] with “FanFic Interview” in the subject line!
FAQ: Will this just be a video that sensationalises/demonises fanfic and makes it out to be a “weird internet thing”?
Absolutely not.
I have been reading fanfic since I was about 12, I picked my literary agent partly because of her love and respect of fanfic, have made some amazing friends bonding over our favourite fic writers... this video is not going to be an outsider perspective looking in at a “weird internet thing”, but instead a deep dive based on the idea this is interesting and complex enough to analyse and study.
I previously made an hour long video about the omegaverse, which hopefully shows the vibes - you can check it out here.
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Gideon Taaffe at MMFA:
Right-wing pundits are drawing lines in the sand over whether to oust House Speaker Mike Johnson (R-LA). The slim GOP majority in Congress has enabled the possibility of a few members of the party forcing a vote on removing the Republican speaker, and many MAGA-aligned personalities have stoked the flames while others say they back Johnson.
Prominent House Republicans have called for Johnson to be removed from the speakership for his role in pushing for foreign aid spending without ties to spending on the U.S.-Mexico border. Earlier this year, Senate Republicans struck down a bipartisan border and foreign aid spending bill amid opposition from House Republicans, including Johnson, and former President Donald Trump. Reps. Marjorie Taylor Greene (R-GA), Paul Gosar (R-AZ), and Thomas Massie (R-KY) have all called for Johnson to step down or risk a motion to vacate. [NBC, 4/19/24; CNN, 2/8/24]
Following the passage of over $60 billion to fund Ukraine’s defense efforts, Greene said, “Mike Johnson’s speakership is over.” She added: “He needs to do the right thing to resign and allow us to move forward in a controlled process. If he doesn’t do so, he will be vacated.” [CNN, 4/21/24]
@mediamattersforamerica takes a deep dive on the right-wing media's divide over whether House Speaker Mike Johnson (R-LA) should stay on as Speaker in the wake of securing passage for a bipartisan foreign aid bill for Ukraine.
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TAG DROP - ELEVEN
[eleven; appearance] ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ's ᴀ sᴛᴀʀ ᴍᴀɴ ᴡᴀɪᴛɪɴɢ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ sᴋʏ
[eleven; aesthetic] ʙᴜᴛ ᴍᴏᴏɴᴅᴜsᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴄᴏᴠᴇʀ ʏᴏᴜ
[eleven; answers] ᴛʜᴇʏ ɢᴏᴛ ᴀ ᴍᴇssᴀɢᴇ ғʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴ ᴍᴀɴ
[eleven; about] ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴅᴏɴᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ ɴᴏᴛ ᴍᴇss ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴀᴊᴏʀ ᴛᴏᴍ
[eleven; verse one] ɪ'ᴍ ғʟᴏᴀᴛɪɴɢ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏsᴛ ᴘᴇᴄᴜʟɪᴀʀ ᴡᴀʏ [come along pond]
[eleven; verse two] ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ sᴛᴀʀs ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴅɪғғᴇʀᴇɴᴛ ᴛᴏᴅᴀʏ [impossible]
[eleven; verse three] ᴡᴇ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴍᴀᴊᴏʀ ᴛᴏᴍ's ᴀ ᴊᴜɴᴋɪᴇ [ellis kirk]
[eleven; verse four] ғᴏʀ ʏᴇᴀʀs ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴇᴀʀs ɪ ʀᴏᴀᴍᴇᴅ [alone]
[eleven; starter call] ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴀsɴ'ᴛ ɴᴏ ᴅᴊ; ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴀs ʜᴀᴢʏ ᴄᴏsᴍɪᴄ ᴊɪᴠᴇ [starter call]
[eleven; headcanon] ɪ'ᴠᴇ ʜᴇᴀʀᴅ ᴀ ʀᴜᴍᴏᴜʀ ғʀᴏᴍ ɢʀᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴄᴏɴᴛʀᴏʟ
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Actor of the Week: Ellis Kirk
Actor of the Week: Ellis Kirk
Ellis trained at D&B Academy of Performing Arts.
His TV credits include: Emmerdale (ITV), Jericho (ITV), Billionaire Boy (BBC), Hank Zipzer (Kindle for CBBC).
Ellis is currently making his West End debut as an understudy for Evan and Connor in Dear Evan Hansen at the Noel Coward Theatre.
For all the latest from Ellis you can follow him on:Instagram: @ellis_kirk_Or head to the Dear Evan Hansen…
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@strtravels asked I had half a grapefruit. | from Ellis
"Half a grapefruit? That doesn't count as lunch, you know. Come on." She gets up, grabs her bag and her jacket. "If I remember properly you've got what? Half an hour 'til your next tour? So we're gonna go to the café and you're not allowed to say no. It can even be my treat. This time. Next time I'm making you pay, got it?"
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Revisiting The Last Of Us Game's Haunting Ending Before The Show's Finale
Screenshot: Sony / Kotaku
10 years ago, The Last of Us’ unexpected and morally divisive ending made history. Choosing to land in a place of uncertainty, the conclusion bucked what many other games chose to do, and often still do: present a straightforward, neat, conventionally satisfying end where the good guys are the good guys and the bad guys have been vanquished. Lines between protagonist…
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