#literally my intrusive thoughts bye

[joyaphoria]

bokuto literally does anything with your pussy because his impulsive thoughts just take over. like u could be chilling on your bed together and in less than a second there's a huge figure underneath the sheets, between your legs. you lift up the sheet to give bo a questioning glance, but he's quick to yank your nightgown up over your hips, pull your panties down, and just press his face against your plush cunt. you'll jump and drop the sheet to gasp and arch upwards, but thats really all it is. you have to stifle a laugh when you hear the sound of a deep inhale, and lift back up the sheets to find out what your baby is doing under the covers. honestly, you're not surprised to find bokuto just breathing in and out, his nose almost flush against your pussy. "so intoxicating," he'll sigh, his hands gripping both sides of your hips as he just breathes your cunt, and you have to sigh and lie back, wondering what the hell's gotten into him this time.

#—joylovesyou #mdni #haikyuu #hq #haikyuu smut #hq smut #bokuto kotarou #bokuto koutaro #bokuto #bokuto smut #bokuto x reader #bokuto thirst #haikyuu thirsts #boktuo x reader smut #literally my intrusive thoughts bye

[stardustkrishnaverse]

this is so random but like its so funny to me that the krishna actor from radha krishn said "fr" on his ig story like ik he's only a few years older than me but idk

#is this even worth a post #im literally posting all my intrusive thoughts #feast? #okay bye #krishnablr #krishna #my rando thoughts

[voids-cave]

Man. My mental health has been doing so bad, I feel stuck, like I'm waiting for something to happen but I know it isn't coming.

I haven't been able to draw a single thing, anything else that's not a sketch and even sketches take such effort, it is actually painful (it gave me a headache).

I got excited to draw once this past week, but at the end, I just couldn't do it. Every fucking line felt like I was moving a boulder uphill.

I feel so fucking tired, and I really wanna give in but I need to keep going. I have to.

#cw vent #sometimes i wish i wasnt a system so that i could just say bye bye. but now i know ill take the others w me. #ig in a way im alive bc of them but damn. it fucking sucks being alive. #ill look into professional help again. just been so exhausted. #the last days i have just been playing shit off an on just so that i can survive the day bc fuck #i literally cannot think for a second cuz all i got is constant intrusive thoughts. #i cannot even hear my headmates lately cuz how fucking loud intrusive thoughts are #its fucking hellish but dissociating and hyperfocusing is the only way i survive yay

[cupcakespie111]

Random tips for entering the void state;)

Disclaimer- these are the tips which work for me and this is my opinion :) so idk id these tips will work for you

(Before that we have to understand that void state is a deep meditative state not something magical 🧙‍♀️ to help you get your desires ,ofc while in dis state whatever you affirm or visualise manifest instantly!.

( the whole point of void state is to relax yourself!

………..

꒰ঌ ໒꒱-

1) don’t force yourself to enter the void! Let it naturally happen guys😭

2)if you are having trouble getting distracted by the 3d then use a guided meditation or whatever so you prefer for yourself.

3) do not try to at-temp the void when you are feeling anxious i think i do not have to explain this one . Just use a guided meditation as i said before also !! If you get intrusive thoughts like me this may help you.

4) do not procrastinate the void 😭💀 ,( i relate to this one tbh) once you decide to enter it just stay loyal to your commitment.

5) persist persist persist!

6) find a method which you find easy and works for you.

7) stop overconsuming about void .( do not think about it 24/7 , stop putting it on pedestal

The reason why you find the void hard. for you is because you are literally over-consuming it and finding some same mfs like you who be like its so hard omg😭

Also I prefer to enter the void when y are feeling tired:)

:) i hope these tips can help you!!.

Bye.

#law of assumption #loa success #loassumption #void state #loa tumblr #void success

[luvrrgirl444]

chapter 14: genius

“hi, y/n and i’m here today with genius to explain the lyrics of my song ‘kill bill’.” you smiled at the camera.

“so, fun fact about kill bill is that it actually only took about 6 hours to produce. i, uh-” you laughed. “i saw this thing online and it made me feel some type of way, and i was like ‘i need to release what i feel right now.’ so, i took out my songbook and went crazy. i called up my friend jean, my producer, and i was crying,” you laughed again, and made a phone gesture with your hand and brought it up to your ear. “and i was like, ‘bro i just wrote these lyrics, can we make a song right now?’ and we did, in like 6 hours.”

VERSE 1

i’m still a fan even though i was salty

hate to see you with some other broad, know you happy

hate to see you happy if i’m not the one driving

“the person that this song is about is actually also an artist, and he’s actually really talented. so basically, i was saying that even though i hate that nigga,” you stuck up your middle finger. “he’s still a great artist, unfortunately. the next two lines are literal, uh, about a month, maybe a month and a half after we broke up, he was posted up with another girl. which was honestly really shitty because he broke up with me to ‘focus on his music’” you quirked your eyebrow and used quotation marks. “basically this whole song is about me being a jealous heartbroken bitch.” you sarcastically smiled.

PRE-CHROUS

i’m so mature, i’m so mature

i’m so mature, got me a therapist to tell me there’s other men

i don’t want none, i just want you

if i can’t have you, no one should

i might

“i was tryna convince myself that i was strong, and that this wasn’t hurting me as much as i thought it was, but it definitely was. literally wrote a whole muthafucking song about it.” you laughed. “we we’re dating for a long ass time to be honest, so with the ‘i don’t want none, i just want you’ lyric, it’s basically saying that i’ve been with you for so fucking long, it’s always been you, how am i supposed to move on, y’know? it’s lowkey corny but yeah. the last lyric is very um, yandere simulator vibes but it relates to the theme of the song, which is like jealousy and vengeance and possession.” you put your hands up. “don’t worry y’all, i’m not a criminal.”

CHORUS

i might kill my ex, not the best idea

his new girlfriend's next, how'd i get here?

i might kill my ex, i still love him though

rather be in jail than alone

“i can explain y’all, i’m not a killer or a criminal but imma be real, i was definitely having some intrusive thoughts. but everyone does. like, anyone who says they’ve never had thoughts about hurting someone that did them dirty, or fucked with them, they’re fucking lying, 100%. and relating to what i said before, we were together for so long. no matter how much i try to deny, the love is still there. it’s been built up for years, as much as i want to, i can’t magically forget it overnight.”

you continued on with singing the lyrics and explaining them until you completely finished the entire song.

“kill bill was an impulsive creation and release. we recorded and finished the song in like 6 hours, and i was like ‘i want to release this today’” you pointed downwards. “but everyone told me no.” you rolled your eyes. “so i asked when was the soonest we could release it, and it was like in 2 days. so the next day i posted on instagram saying that i was releasing a song tomorrow and that was it. there was no promo for it, which is why i’m so fucking shocked that it did so well. but, thank you to my fans, friends and family, i love you all. stream kill bill, album coming soon, bye!” you blew a kiss to the camera, before smiling and making heart with your hands.

comments

erenjaeger: whole lotta yip whole lotta yap

⤷ y/nsinterlude: BITCH

y/nsbby: ALBUM COMING SOON? HOW SOON IS SOON GIRL??

⤷ y/nsinterlude: im doing good wbu

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⤷ y/nsinterlude: im the realest i love u too 🤍

conswife: stop talking shit about connie omfg

shyshiloh: i just died 😵😵

⤷ y/nsinterlude: i’ll revive u bae

user182: not u still in love with that sick man..

⤷ y/nsinterlude: I DIDNT SAY THAT SHIT

jkirstein: professional yapper

⤷ y/nsinterlude: i’m beating your ass

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🦋 !

- this chapter is fr just a whole lotta yapping but 🫣🫣

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[tia-222]

okay so I don't really have a question for ya but I will tell you what I am doing in order to wake up in the void state tho

so what I am doing in order to wake up in the void state is by repeating the affs that is from your 'void state affs to master the void state' blog on repeat daily no matter what idgaf if the results shows up within the 3d or not bc guess what my desired results exists within the 4d/my imagination already anyways

am a affirm & a perist girly

that is the only thing that matters since well the 3d is not at all important only the 4d/your imagination does

remember my little lovely loa lovers

once you imagine it within your own head it's yours that's it

it haves literally no choice but to come to you as long as you continue to perist in the new story & never ever go back to the lame looking old story

always

because it sucks

just remember to always perist in the new story

than boom the work is all done you officially have all of your desires

don't give up love

if they succeeded at it than why can't we

also if I do ever make it to the void state I will let you & as well as this other person know @arisuworld

@arisuworld is helping me out with loa so I'm sure she will be a great help with my loa journey

also I'll be making my very own loa success story pretty soon I'm sure if I just continue on with the new story

just watch me fr have a glow up

am just so sick & tired of looking at other people's loa success story's & getting all jealous at their success story's

I think it's about time that I have my own & that it is my turn to make someone else extremely jealous

oh & btw one last thing before I log off

ignore all negative/intrusive thoughts when manifesting

it does not matter

seriously

that is just the ego talking

trying to just make you fail at achieving your own goal

I think I might of have also found my own way to ignore all of my negative/intrusive thoughts when it comes to manifesting & you know what that is super duper great

also you guys are free to check out my void state wishlist that is on my profile if interested

I wrote down all the things that i wish to manifest in the void state

anyways bye babe

I hope that you & everyone else have a good day/night

stay safe

Hiii angel ♡

Your ROUTINE is just amazing!! I love how you phased everything, seriously. But most definitely you are correct, persisting means you just putting your awareness on the 4D. The 3D doesn't matter at all, I know it's gets hard sometimes because the 3D is always in our faces😭, but we have our imagination. Anything that doesn't happen according to you, dismiss it immediately and start to imagine what could've happened instead. But sticking to your new story , you are creating an assumption. And yess, intrusive thoughts are your ego but remember you are pure awareness in an human form, simply let all thoughts pass.

And tysm for coming here and telling everyone your routine which is simply amazing <33, I love it sm. Also, @arisuworld is a wonderful and a helpful blog, I adore her blog sm.

#ask answered #void state #law of assumption #void state tips #the void state #manifestion #void thoughts #neville goddard

[rinafucks]

PAIRINGS. yoo jimin x female reader

WARNINGS. spitting, tribbing, toe sucking, oral (reader receiving)

SUMMARY. karina went to your dorms to visit her sister but ended up in your room instead.

it was already 3 in the afternoon when you woke up because you had been up all night studying and working on your projects that had to be finished today. you were kinda shocked seeing a new face in your dorm other than your dormmate.

“oh, hi, you woke up late,” your dormmate greeted when she saw you, “anyway, this is my older sister karina, she’s just paying a visit today, i hope you don’t mind.”

the woman literally made your jaw dropped. she’s so pretty and fucking hot. her big tiddies immediately caught your attention. it was so big that you wanted to squeeze it but decided to fight your intrusive thoughts.

“hi, it was nice meeting you, and no—it’s okay, i don’t really mind.” you answered excused yourself to get a glass of water in the kitchen.

after hours of spending your time inside your dorm room, you decided to go out and watch television on the couch.

“[y/n], i’m going out. i need to buy something at the mall! i will leave my sister with you for now, okay? bye!” your dormmate shouted from the outside.

karina approached you on the couch and sat right beside you, leaving just a small space between the two of you. you didn’t mind the action and continue what you were watching.

“you know, you’re really pretty,” she stated, “my sister’s really lucky to have a dormmate like you.”

you giggled shyly at the compliment, “thank you, you’re really pretty too.”

“you think so?” karina asked and started caressing your exposed thighs.

“h-hmm,” you hummed in agreement, feeling the wetness between your thighs.

she helds your chin in her hand and leans in for a kiss. it started slowly and became sloppier when she entered her tongue in your mouth and that’s when you starts sucking her tongue while holding her nape.

“you taste so sweet, baby,” she moaned between the kiss, “makes me wanna taste your pussy too... are you gonna let me?”

you and karina decided to continue what you were doing inside your room so that her sister won’t disturb the two of you when she came back from shopping.

after minutes of making out with karina, she took off your clothes and underwear revealing your body to her.

“don’t be shy, baby, you look so pretty right now completely naked for me,” she said when you hid your breast and pussy with your hands.

“open your legs for me, baby, wanna taste that wet pretty pussy of yours.”

karina rubs your pussy with her two fingers in a circular motion, admiring your wet cunt. she then proceeds to kiss and lick it in a slow pace while caressing your mounds with her hands.

you can’t help but bite your lips and moan as she devoured your pussy, sucking your clitoris and pumping her fingers in and out of you.

“more, please...” you begged.

after a while of eating you out and finger fucking you, karina took off her clothes and underwear to position herself on top of you. she lifted one of your legs and began rubbing her pussy on yours—bouncing on top of you, whilst your hands find its way to her tits, caressing and pinching her nipples.

“fuck! you feel so good, baby...!” she released a high pitched moan.

karina starts licking and sucking your toe fingers while still rubbing her pussy on yours, the sound of your clits clashing filled the whole room.

“k-karina...! haah, i’m gonna... gonna cum...” you moaned breathlessly.

after reaching your orgasms, karina kisses you before reaching for a towel to clean the mess you both made. she laid down you down after that and cuddled you to sleep.

you have no idea what will happen when your roommate finds out that you had sex with her sister but you don’t care about that at the moment.

#aespa smut #yoo jimin smut #karina smut #gxg smut #karina x reader smut #aespa fic #aespa imagine #karina fic #yoo jimin fic #karina imagine #yoo jimin imagine #aespa x reader #kpop smut #gxg imagine

[syrcaljirk]

Hi Tumblr it's time for sleeve theory

warning: this is gonna be a really rambling post, I sound a bit deranged. I don't believe this theory is canon whatsoever, but I'm analyzing sleeves like an English teacher

Okay so the origins of this was, as many things, a thought that crossed my mind: why is Roman the only light side with long sleeves?

and I kept thinking about it. And thinking about it. And I came to a conclusion that I like to call sleeve theory.

The sleeves represent hiding the self. now I know I sound like your high school English teacher, but let me explain.

Let's start with Janus, the most obvious example of sleeve theory. His behavior is the closest thing to proof I have.

Janus is lies, deceit, self preservation right? He's literally hiding parts of the self, that's who he is. and he's the most covered out of all of them. During his name reveal, he removes a glove to be honest and vulnerable. That behavior is really what helps prove it.

Onto Remus. So Remus is the quote unquote bad creativity and intrusive thoughts. He's got the sleeves. And he doesn't hide himself exactly, but he is hidden! He is not socially acceptable or pleasant, he isn't moral, he is hidden and surpressed! The sleeves may not be self imposed, but they are still there.

Onto Virgil, former dark side extraordinaria. He has both a long sleeves shirt and a jacket he's worn since introduction. Pre accepting anxiety, he hid major parts of who he was and still does so. Anxiety and fear are also for protection socially and physically! Sleeves.

Now the light sides complicate this. But they make sense too.

We all know about Pattons cartigan sweatshirt jacket thing. He has been known to hide negative emotions. He wears his heart on his sleeve. The cardigan is there for a reason yall. He isn't currently hiding, at least not as much, but he could be at all times. Also in that one episode where he's hiding from the present in memories, he wears the cardigan! Makes sense!

Logan is the hardest to justify. He hides having emotions and claims to be completely logical and nothing else. However, if he were who he said he was, he would not wear sleeves. He wouldn't need to because he does not have the need to lie or hide. The sleeves are a lie.

Last side, last but certainly not least, Roman. Our light side with sleeves. He uses a facade of egotism to hide his true self. His mask is visible. Everyone knows about his self worth issues, since s1ep1! His sleeves are visible but not acknowledges. Also he dresses up as the phantom of the opera. Make sense, Tumblr? Because I think it does.

Thanks for reading about sleeve theory! Also, Thomas is/was a theater kid. He would know about symbolism within character design.

I still don't think this is true, but it's a kinda cool little thing to think about, you know!

alright bye thank you for tolerating my English teacher the curtains are red because of the characters rage tactics

#sanders sides #sleeve theory #roman sanders #logan sanders #patton sanders #janus sanders #remus sanders #i sound crazy #but i promise it makes sense

[butterscotch-goat]

aughh the art is not fucking arting but I couldn't stop thinking about them so here. rambles under cut

OKAY so recently I've been thinking about these two and how they each deal with aspects of their neurodivergency, especially with their intrusive thoughts (I get intrusive thoughts.the real ones. I'm not saying this means I will write them perfectly but just know that I'm not talking about the "omg I dyed my hair the intrusive thoughts won" kind of thing which aren't actually intrusive thoughts btw. BUT if I do say anything insensitive or anything that could be improved please let me know!!)

I've decided that Grace gets the existential intrusive thoughts (o...obviously...). You know, reminders of one's mortality and what waits for you in the other side, that sort of thing, and gets them pretty frequently. Usually she can shake them off or distract herself quickly enough but if a thought lingers then she just...stops. like she can't think about anything else and even her vision can feel blurry and all she can see is the void that she's terrified awaits her (from personal experience it genuinely can feel like the thoughts were altering my vision. It was horrifying!!) Martha and Elijah recognize when this happens and do their best to distract her or ground her in any way they can, but considering they're all just kids, most of the tine they just end up holding her hand and waiting until the thoughts die down, which can either be within a minute or over an hour, typically. Grace has come to accept this part of her mind but that doesn't mean she's used to it by any means.

MARTHA on the other hand, gets every other kind of intrusive thought. By the way did I mention that she's super Christian? Yeah she's super Christian. And this being the 1890s, Martha didn't know intrusive thoughts didn't reflect her actual desires, so if she ever got one she would silently apologize profusely to God, praying that he knew Martha would never do anything that came to her in an intrusive thought. It's scary for her, but luckily she's good at shaking them off. She does what I do, which is intentionally flinch a bit to get myself thinking about literally anything else. Martha doesn't open up about her intrusive thoughts like Grace does because she's deeply ashamed of them and believes everyone she knows would despise her if she shared what her subconscious did to her. augh okay that's it for now bye

#buttersketch #oc #art #original character #oc art #buttersketch escapism

[vibestillax]

SPIRITS OF MOONS DIALOGUE

tags: @radio-to-trenchcoat-demons @wiblursaystuff @somebody-v @pheliiaa

CHP 1.PAG 30

i forgot i couldn’t meet the band because of my mom,she wanted to confiscate my phone since 2 weeks passed away..she called me some sort of things like: Jerk,aerial..you know?...things like that.

“I don't think I will meet Spencer’s band…and i know why,.....” i spoke to Mendi

“why? you are 17..”

“my mom…literally her..she just ruins my life by being locked in my room..” i spoke

“It's so bad! you stay only an hour at us just because you got a four in math? how rude..”

“yeah i should head home now…”

“Be safe,I will tell Spencer the reason why.”

“thank you Mendi,bye..” I spoke to her and walked home.

as i walked home..and tied off my sneakers..i forgot that my mom is in the house,with someone else,of course is my dad,my intrusive thoughts won..

“She is very lazy and she is indeed a jerk,she is failing school!” I hear my mom saying..i was right there in the living room,but then i sigh…and walk into my room and start crying quietly..i look out the window..the moon was awake..

“It was getting so good..why did this need to get worse by my mom…give me a sign…just one sign and i will leave you alone,Moon..just give me my last sign…” I beg the moon…the wind blows on my scarred pale wrist..and whispers that are telling me these words:

“you are doing great”

“Keep on winning and never lose sight of it..”

“is getting better,friend..is getting better..”

the moon really knows me well…i think the moon that i talk with manifests my life to get better i don't know…yet i talk with the moon since i was twelve but..now i am seventeen..and it is a hard age to deal with controlling parents…even at 13…but is not a bad habit for me to talk with the moon..when we are all stressed out,we have a coping mechanism.it is not wrong..it can be healthy..we all can have healthy coping mechanisms but let’s not add the unhealthy ones here please,it disgusts me..sorry..

but now you should know that having a healthy coping mechanism is not bad..even though you're older or younger..or even if you relapse…you can still keep it going,..I'm proud of you…we are worth to be healed for a reason sometimes..

#SOMD

[spamgyu]

:･ﾟ✧:･ﾟ✧ taking a quick moment to say thank you:･ﾟ✧:･ﾟ✧

backburner has only been three parts so far and we're nearing the end.

im so so so thankful to all the responses, replies, comments for each part. i literally originally wrote just to push it out into the void bc my intrusive thoughts had me thinking too much of diff scenarios with svt (mental illness fr omg)

some of u guys have been here since INFRUNAMI (confession i want to rewrite that fic so so so bad but it's out and im just going to let her do its thing) and some who came during my ALWAYS fic which ugh that shit was so fun to write because of how gutwrenching it was,

but anyways thank you seriously. i have so much fun reading and replying to you all im really sad that BACKBURNER will be wrapping soon lol

okay bye i got emails to send lol

#spamgyu thoughts #also im not ignoring those in my inbox theres a lot but i gotta clock in babes i gotta make money to survie lol

[adveturousend]

Tonight is your lucky night,ma'am

pairing : Hangman x reader, a*hole bf x reader

Summary: a bad night turns into a lucky one

"This is not the way it's supposed to be" - these words were ringing inside your head constantly for the last 3 days. 3 days ago you were hapilly getting off your plane to FINALLY meet up with your boyfriend,Roy. Tall,handsome ,charming Roy. Caring, loving, insanely hot Roy. Head over hills , cross my heart and hope to die,love of your life Roy.

3 days ago you wouldn't hesitate for a second to leave your good life in Europe and become domesticated wifey if he'd ask you to. 3 days ago you would move to a cabin in the woods or a freaking cave if he'd asked you to. You would do absolutely and totally everything just to be with him. But this was 3 days ago. 3 damn days change your perspective entirely.Now, all you could think of is how stupid and naive you are. How blind you are. What a damn idiot you are. What a sad and insecure person you've become. Since you saw him on the airport you knew something wasn't right. He kissed you with his eyes open, he didnt even take your luggage on his own will,you literally put it in his hand by yourself. Not really subtle,but ok. When you had sex first time in 6 months ,it was quick and not really passionate. He seemed annoyed all the time . You wanted him to show you some of the beautiful sunny San Diego, but he wasnt willing to. He didn't even took a day off work just to be with you. It all was jus't not right. Alarms were ringing in your head but being a polite,well mannered girl ,you stayed silent. You clearly saw that he was not the same person you thought you knew ,which caught you by surprise. When you met for the first time roughly 8 months ago, he was a perfect match . 10/10. He litterally swoop you out of your feet. Dinner dates , long phone calls, flowers, chocolates ,romantic walks,gazing into your eyes, great sex, fun and outgoing- everything you ever wanted in a man...yeah well,you thought that until 3 fucking days ago.

"Let's go back ,its freezing and it's getting late" -a harsh voice snapped you back to reality and put an end to your intrusive thoughts. Well, just put them on hold ,to be more precise. You looked up to meet Roy's eyes - dark and unfeeling. If you weren't feeling cold before , the look he gave you sent shiver down your spine. Or maybe it was an ocean breeze. Or maybe both. "Let's stay just a couple minutes more?" you asked quietly . " Sky is gorgeous tonight" you added. He just scoffed and said " you can stay here all night if you want to but I am your ride and I am going ,bye" - Roy started walking away from you. You couldn't believe what you heard . And what you saw. Your bf was literally leaving you alone here!! "Hey,Roy! What are you doing??!!" You cried after him ,but he didn't respond,just kept walking. So you stood up and started running after him. Once you got to him you grabed his arm and yelled "Seriously???" You leaving me here alone? What the hell is wrong with you?!!?

His eyes were even more cold than before ,he gritted his teeth and literally hissed " I am sick and tired of entertaining your ass. All you do is holding onto me like you cannot fucking do anything without me! Since you flew in here all I do is babysit you, gimme a break woman!" With every spoken word his voice was raising and made you feel even more small than you already did. You stared at him with wide eyes and all you could say was quiet " but I came here for you... because of you, you wanted me to finally ..." "well maybe you shouldn't come,maybe I shouldn't string you along"- he cut you off. "What?" you almost choked . "What are you.." - you fight with tears that are coming ,damn,these stupid eyes of yours in the wet place ,always crying so easily. "Y/n, I cant pretend anymore. I dont want you,not anymore,6 months apart is a lot and things changed, just leave me alone" - he said and walked away leaving you alone , on the beach ,in the middle of the night, in a foreign country. He broke up with you,just like that. On the beach,in the middle of the night. IN THE FOREIGN COUNTRY. You stood there in shock. Eyes wet ,but your mind and body freezed. You seemed to not really know how to process what have just happenned. It was like a bad dream. So you just stood there, looking into the abbyss of the ocean , feeling cold breeze chilling through your bones.You haven't even registered when you started walking. You walked and walked and walked. Mindlessly. For hours.For eternity,that's what it felt like. You were slowly coming into your senses when you heard noises.Sounded like music,so you turned your head in this direction and saw faint lights in the distance. "People" you thought. "I need people right now". That was your focus right now. To not be alone. To get back safely to your hotel. Broken heart can wait. Well,it will catch up to you if you want it or not. But now, basic instinct was kicking in - just be safe. You wiped your tears, straighten your back and put on a brave face as you walked on to the door of what looked like a bar full of people you so desperately needed right now. A little drink wouldnt kill you too. You went in, awkwardly smiling and met a gaze and a smile from a very pretty lady behind the bar. You went straight to her "hey,what can I get you?" The woman asked "Hi, um whiskey on the rocks please" "I'm on it" she winked at you and started preparing your drink. All of a sudden you felt someone right beside you leaned on the bar. You looked up and saw a very handsome face and a pair of green eyes boring into you. "Penny,sweatheart ,4 more beers please" . Handsome face spoke never breaking the eye contact with you. "Just a sec ,Hangman, ladies first " said the bartender as she put your drink in front of you and smiled warmly at you. You smiled back and thanked her, pick the glass up and gulped it like water. You hissed as the alcohol burned your throat but it felt good in a way.Liberating.

"Whoa,easy ma'am! That kind od drinking gets you in trouble!" Handsome face spoke again ,this time directly to you flashing it's pearly whites in a wide smile. "I'm already in trouble so oh well I guess" you responded. His smile got even more wider and he said in a lower ,more raspy voice "Soo,do you need a rescue?" As he said it,he shifted his arms and for a brief second he touched you. His warm skin brushed against your icy cold one. You didn't know if it was just beacause he was hot,like,literally, and you were chilled to the bone or maybe it was just adrenaline washing down or maybe whiskey was doing it's job but sudden closeness of this random guy in the bar gave you some comfort. Something you needed badly right now. "I do ,actually" you heard your own voice coming out of your mouth and before you could react and take it back ,the Handsome face got a bit closer to you and said "Tonight is your lucky night,ma'am"

To be continued

#hangman x y/n #hangman x you #jake hangman x reader #top gun maverick #top gun fanfiction

[nerves-nebula]

"And don't worry about me taking care of myself, this is probably what I'd spend all my time doing if I didn't have work/classes. this is FUN for me."

Okay, mood though? I joke about the shit I've been through so much, like, I will say the most ass backwards shit to them in joke form a bout how me and my now ex best freind BOTH had every single one of our male friends targeted by a mutual now ex friend who literally raped them. Said via the form of a barbie meme. And I'll just be "hehehe that was fucked up" and they all "OMG, I'm so sorry that happened!" No!! Laugh with me!! If I think to hard I'll disassociate out of existence so help.me laugh at it!!!!!

Wow I got off topic quick ga'damn. ANYWAY.

talking about truama is, amusing. It's like, "cathartic" and shit. AND!!!!!! TALKING ABOUT TRUAMA IN A LIGHTHEARTED WAY IT ACTUALLY PART OF THE PTSD RECOVERY PROCESS!!! not demeaning or invalidating but it makes it less likely for thinking about your truama, and subsequently your flashbacks to be as devastating, if u attach more light hearted memories to the memory bank of recollecting trauma.

I think I explained that bad but my therapist said it literally on Friday lmao.

Like, if EVERYTIME u think of your trauma, you break down, it will just get a bigger and bigger psychological response out of you. So, joking about it is genuinely good for you sanity as long as you also acknowledge that they're the horrors of your mind.

Wow why am I speaking the way that I am.

Fuck I rambled in ur inbox again. Bye!

I wonder if u can tell what asks belong to the same people. U can ignore this

"OMG, I'm so sorry that happened!" No!! Laugh with me!! If I think to hard I'll disassociate out of existence so help.me laugh at it!!!!!

no literally. i wanna send ppl funny jokes/memes about the shit that happened to me & my siblings but my gf gets SO SAD half the time if i mention anything too specific. like girl! I'm not even that sad about it!!

and like its not JUST jokes either, I love writing stories that take incest seriously cause I feel like incest is one of those taboo things where it's almost never given the complexity it deserves. Even when it's taken seriously is just seen as a Bad Thing that happens sometimes and the effects aren't really shown or delved into past general ptsd symptoms. that or its just for shock value, or the author gets squeamish and just stops talking about it, or the victims don't display "gross" or "uncomfortable" symptoms and it's like!!! I'm over it!! that shit fucks you up, and it doesn't make you BROKEN but I think it would have helped me a lot to have seen depictions of kids with the same intrusive thoughts and upsetting sexual side-effects!!! AIHGAUHGAHUAG!!

anywho. I can't really tell which asks belong to different people, no. sometimes I can kind of tell two asks might not be made by the same person, if i compare them side by side, but otherwise? eh.

im not very good at picking up on different tones through writing (and i use text to speech to read a lot of these too, so i'm hearing them all in one robotic voice)

#nnstuff #ask #asks are sweethearts #incest tw #rape tw

[priestofberath]

Hey melatonin takes a while to kick in right? I took one literally lik less than 5 minutes ago but i suddenly got really fucked up i was not this fucked up like 5 minutes ago. Like im not s wait. Maybe i’m a little skeepy? I’m not sleepy no. Edgar is okay. Like. Like is this some kind of placebo type shit? I just took a melatonin so my brains like pack it up boys we’re going to fucking pee poo nightmarew world now goodbye save the wor;d my final message. Oer is it. Or like does more melatnoni do more than less melatonin more faster? No. Does more melatonin. If you take a larger dose of melatonin, does it kick in faster than a smaller dose? Is that how it works? Because I’m pretty sure the melatonin gummies I bought are actually like, maybe too much. The lat gummies i took were 5 mg and you were uspposed to take two so that’s 10mg, right? So we got these new ones and i was like, yeah okay i’ll take two. Because that’s how the other ones work. But it turns out, well these are 20mg, right? So i took 40mg and then had an intrusive thoughts nightmare so vivid I didn’t realize it wasn’t a memory until literally like hours after I woke up. I mean I slept. But I only took one this time but that’s still like 20 whole mematons. Mettatons. But yeah if 20mg doesn’t work i’m taking 40 again nightmares be damned a Bitch has got to Sleeping. May god Strike me where i stand. Also I’m drinking a coke as I type this so I’m not sure if the cocaine will. No caffeine thye don’t put cokeaine in it anymore. So I’m not sure if the caffeine will have an adverse effect on Edgar Sleepy Bye-Bye Time.  Why am O literally typing like I just chuffed back a fat BongRip?

[soulyoh]

Brain Farts as Courtney

Confession 0.11 to 0.13! I don't remember

Uh huh hold on

0.11 She would definitely use my anger rant of "I was born to bring true terror into your eyes, making you want spit in God's right eye, but the problem with is, well probability is you, you pathetic fool, is you're going fall in love with me every step of the way but I hate you because I'm here hand you your own ass basically I'm your karma in a sense, you dumbass bitch!"

0.12 My favorite inner monologue about intense intrusive thoughts "That's not cool ranch! Or funky freezey freaky fresh funk sauces! Fuck you Greg, yeah I'm naming you Greg! Fuck off that's so not very Christian of you and the vibes are so fucking off now! This is so not useful at all, usually thank you very much now either time to murder the so called problem which so not worth the prison sentence, two shut the fuck up Greg! Please just let me get through this conversation with this idiot in peace, please!? Oh nevermind let's hand them a new asshole verbally speaking- no we cannot fight them that's not morally correct, nevermind let's see how to fuck up their rest of theirs day or life, I guess! Good job, team!"

0.13 My favorite out wack or bullshit things to say when I'm trying to fuck around and find out sometimes trying not confess my feelings failing horribly"I literally will to make love to you in a heartbeat but I'm like unemotional not no bueno y there's too much laws, rules, and cameras to hypothetically speaking make love to you right now, I'm sorry I don't where that came from but yeah my bad usually do that but around you I just throw my brain out the window and trying impress you with my horny fuckwits thoughts hah anyhow I don't know why I can't stop talking. Bye? Yeah-oh? I don't want to know I'm running away now too late you going have to speak louder or stop me from running ! I don't have a clue probably a trauma response!?"

#td courtney #total drama #courtney total drama #18+ content #Confession #word vomit

[c3ubs]

let me introduce myself ~ ♪

hi! my names secco / syo . only use it/its 4 me .. this account is literal ass lmao i js shitpost/post my dumb/intrusive thoughts or rant/vent on here .. if u rlly wnna look @ tht then u could fllw me .. but nyways thatz it lol .. BYE BYE !!

#introductory post #intro post #hiiii ^ ^