#made me calm but like

[sicker-thingz]

well the downside of being off T is that i realize i DO have emotions after all and they never stopped being intense and i never learned how to cope cause i was just numbing it out. ugh. lame

#hello darkness my old friend #on the verge of losin it and going back to old coping strats #looking foward to it tbh #i dont know if ill ever go back on T or not. rather not think abt it #wish people would stop asking and leave me alone. stop fucking telling me im trans all the time im going insane #just want normalcy #just wanna live a calm peaceful normal life #im not saying T numbs ur emotions but it did for me #i think cause i was on such a high dose for whatever reason #made me calm but like #if emotions range from 0 to 100 #i only felt the 40-60 range #yakno what i mean? #i didnt feel the rage or the intense sadness #but i didnt get any sort of real joy or excitement or satisfaction in anything either #i dont know which i prefer to be honest #neither. both. depends #i crave the intense ups #makes me feel alive rather than just standing there in a storm #i want to be the storm #ramblings

[pangur-and-grim]

the golden compass is real, and this is my dæmon

#pangur #I remember the first night when I came home at like 3am and then fell on the crutches and had to crawl to bed #she curled up on my arm and made me feel calm again

[cherrirui-official]

I hope u guys don't mind me posting these au doodles while I work on things ahaha

I also gave JD slightly longer hair in these doodles as a funny haha but I don't think it's funny anymore he looks genuinely good with his hair like that ahahaha I hope you're not mad at me for changing his au design a bit

#first of all ahem DONT TAG THIS AS SHIP OR WHATEVER!!! ILL THROW ROCKS AT YOU!!!!! BITCH!!!!!!! #troIlcest (or whatever you call yourselves idk) DONT TOUCH my SHIT! Ty :] anyways... #For context I like to hc that when he was younger Bruce would always have JD brush his hair #and like... whenever lil Bruce was upset it would help calm him down i think ahhauysgjiodk do u guys see the vision?? #and since it's my au i can make reality whatever i want it to be sooooo :] #I like to imagine that it still helps Bruce calm down even tho they're older now.. Big bro brushing his lil bros hair to soothe him UUGH #Let JD be a good older brother pleeease #also gave JD flowers in his hair too bc he deserves them me thinks... Now him and Bruce are matching!!! #i dont have any specific flowers in mind for the ones in their hair i just picked a color for the flowers that looked pretty and ran with i #also saying it again i love love LOOOOVE the crayon tool in mspaint using it to make gradients is so!!!! UUUGHUHHH!!!! /pos #the pattern on JD's jacket fur will never be consistent shhhhh #trolls #trolls band together #john dory trolls #trolls john dory #bruce trolls #trolls bruce #beach bros au #cherris canvas #I made that last image btw #everytime i saw that screenshot of jd it made me think of the spongebob scene where its a pov of flats waking up #and the first thing he sees is spongebob waiting for him with flowers in his hand and smiling

[orionsangel86]

Suddenly remembering the best and funniest Good Omens fanfiction I ever read which was set at a mutual Heaven and Hell "work party" and all the demons had bets to see who could bed an angel by the end of the night. It was hilarious and of course you read it presuming that Crowley will win but be gentlemanly enough to not claim the prize - which of course is what happens, but at the last minute it hits you around the face by revealling that Beelzebub hooked up with Gabriel

and well.

I think I'm gonna go reread that fic...

#true story this fic was the first time i even considered ineffable beurocracy #i dont think i even knew the ship name until after i read that fic #I hope the writer is having a great day today #once my emotions have calmed down and I've stopped spiralling over the last 10 mins of GOS2 #I think its really gonna hit me that they made a former crack ship canon #BEFORE CROWLEY AND AZIRAPHALE #unbelievable #Neil Gaiman I do wonder if maybe you've spent too long on tumblr #you clearly think like one of us #lmao #good omens #good omens season 2 spoilers

[charles-leclerc-official]

So Red Bull really did put a picture of their star driver marking Charles as his territory with a sticker on their Christmas tree. They also made sure to highlight this on the tree.

And in the same week they put out a video and make sure to include a tweet by same driver calling Charles sexy, and this same driver enthusiastically says "it's me ME I said that!" and this is how they start the video??? Hello???

Red Bull is just out here on main going "Charles look how good you look with Max and a Red Bull logo on you. Look, Max thinks you're very sexy, pst pst pst"

None of this is subtle!

#lestappen #literally red bull are the biggest lestappen shippers at this point #they want Charles so bad it's hilarious #of course they will have to fight every Italian man to get him away from Ferrari #but like damn Red Bull calm down you're gonna put me out of a job #red bull racing #charles leclerc #max verstappen #these are all CHOICES made my multiple people on the team it's insane

[pain-in-the-butler]

A compilation of art for my Dadbastian fanfic Coattails that I commissioned from the incredibly talented @tomoyoo! They went above and beyond with the details... Each picture feels as cozy and warm as a storybook, right? I'm so delighted with how they turned out!! Thank you for making each one so beautiful! 🥹🥹🥹

#coattails #not sebaciel so please don't tag as such! thank you! #kuroshitsuji #the backgrounds are just gorgeous.. thank you for your research and dedication to them #the outfits in the first one are amazing! I love Ciel's shirt and Soma's whole ensemble is so cozy yet regal #look at Ciel in the cardigan in the third one though? he is cozy #the expressions are my favorite. they're so animated! just as I imagine them to be.. #I really like Ciel's in the first pic because I imagined him looking annoyed but you actually made him seem curious #and I actually like that more I think it's cute... he really does want to be friends with Soma huh 🥺 #Sebastian's expression in the third picture is great. >:o #he's about to throw hands with an old lady #Edward and Ciel's competitive faces! being silly... I love Them #Ciel needs to get swept up in silly competitions more often I think... #and then the last one!! bonding over tea! it's so amazingly tender 😭 #I don't think I imagined it coming out so calming and gentle... it's so emotional #it makes me want to keep writing! #if you are a Coattails reader I hope you love these as much as I do! #and if you aren't a Coattails reader... maybe these will convince you to become one? 😏 because they are so full of personality! #thanks times a million tomoyoo!! #(I should wait till tomorrow to post but I want to do it now...)

[valkaryah]

GO CON thats MY man thats MY fucking president. put that lil slimeball in his place... who the fuck does he think he is to air quote willa, connors wife and the peoples princess.

#succession #connor roy #conwilla #and when he got up he reminded me of logan because of his size like con actually is a big man especially when he's next to his short #feeble younger brothers. Logan wasnt as tall as Con but he was a bigger man in size and he always occupied every room he LOOMS and #in that moment when Con got up and put his hand on Romans shoulder to put him in his damn place I saw Logan's large presence but calm #and kind like do you see where im getting at?!?!?! anyways fuck yeah Con you're my fucking president and fuck you Roman #you got a little bit of power fucked up with gerri and then decide to treat all women - your brothers wife included - like shit? calm down #this scene made my night! sorry for the rant #valkaryah talks

[sandeewithtwoe]

In the past, tomatoes were believed to be poisonous because they were related to the Nightshade family, which were mostly toxic

Something Farmer probably said at least once ^

Farmer belongs to GuinongTale_AU

#art #utmv #farmer sans #farm sans #drawing him actually made me feel better #he’s got such a calm vibe to him #like an old man

[einaudis]

ALL OF US STRANGERS (2023) dir. ANDREW HAIGH

#filmedit #filmgifs #movieedit #moviegifs #All of Us Strangers #aousedit #filmtvdaily #filmtvcentral #cinemapix #fyeahmovies #dailyflicks #mine* #mygifs #movies* #I can't believe this is done. and you won't believe how long it took me to make it. insane... because it's just a scene #I didn't even use different fonts. or a cool template. or transitions... it was a single scene... but look... I made captures for 10 gifs #and things kept happening and I kept finding little gestures and beautiful things and I just couldn't keep them out the gifs #I mean look at Harry and that slow realization. please look at the glow around his shoulders at the beginning #and how ethereal and out of this world he already is AND THEN when Adam says 'I found you' he becomes more... real and present! #and those eyes and the intensity of that 'you're here' and their eyes and faces and smiles and how Harry's desperate but Adam calms him dow #and his voice when he asks 'how come no one found me?' the realization that people didn't care to check on him. it screamed to my soul #I haven't stopped thinking about that scene since the moment I first watched it #honestly... I wish I could live in this scene forever #now this is a super long post and I know it won't get many notes and it was surely made before... but I needed to make this for myself... #so here it is :) I'm tired but I love it #GOD the way Harry goes full baby when Adam caresses his cheek and he SMILES LIKE THAT! AHHHHHHH! #*runs down the hill screaming*

[hamletthedane]

For the record: I do not hold a secret position in Kensington Palace.

However, my former neighbor’s boyfriend is the scandalously gay grandson of Earl So-and-So (living in sin with the son of a Texas Democrat - the horror), and he liked my cancer theory so much he told all his fancy Oxford friends about it before the news broke, and they apparently got several very stern call from their fancy peered parents about where did you hear that and stop gossiping, it’ll get out.

So while I’m not a palace papers source, I did get Earl Black Sheep Jr. calling me at 6am this morning excitedly confirming that I was right about the third cousin once removed of his childhood friend having cancer 💀

#shut up e #yes my neighbors are the discount version of that one gay amazon hetalia fanfic movie #(red white and blue royals? royal blue?) #yes they won’t shut tf up about it it’s like their entire personality #they made me watch (listen to) it when I had a SEVERE concussion and I was like #guys I’m glad you’re having this transcendental moment but I am not the target audience of this content #also your mom is just a house rep and your dad is just an earl there is no press on you let’s all calm down here #but at least they have fun with it #anyways my former neighbor’s boyfriend woke me up at 6am to tell me a lady had caveat #anyways my former neighbor’s boyfriend woke me up at 6am to tell me some lady had cancer

[itsthegirlinthebowtie]

hi I am deceased and I want to stare at this picture for the rest of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#yes I made these crocheted characters #and yes they were impressed and complimented them #and yes I am still freaking out about it #alSO HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN HAD HIS ARM AROUND ME AND I CAN STILL FEEL IT LIKE A PHANTOM LIMB #I have this vividly imprinted on my mind for the rest of time #ok I need to calm down #but OH MY GOD #that’s me #star wars #anakin skywalker #hayden christensen #ahsoka tano #rosario dawson #awesome con 2024 #leah rants

[puretopia]

got a bit carried away with Heidi’s office

#the 3rd office i've made her now like calm down me #i always wanted to use those half moon windows #ts4 #sims 4 #the sims 4 #ts4 interior #ts4 inspo

[ganondoodle]

im kinda glad i was a tiny child when windwaker came out and i only played it years later without having internet access for the longest time bc i would have NOT survived the hatred i know ww got when it first came out bc it wasnt what most people expected (ww is my fav zelda)

loving botw but not liking totk and seeing the vast majority praise the latter like its the holy grail while alot also discrediting and needlessly hating on botw for it is already making it hard to stay calm about :U

#ganondoodles talks #special interest go brrrr #sucks when you care so much about a piece of media thats out of your control and it does something you hate #i do not control the hyperfixation #it wouldnt be so bad if people wouldnt keep hating on botw just to praise totk more tbh #and before people say but arent YOU doing the same thing in reverse??? #welll ... its suppposedly a sequel yes? #direct sequels should build on the first title and totk does the opposite doesnt it? #again one of my biggest problems is that it was advertised and called a direct sequel qhen it really isnt #like at all #how some characters also made a weird turn in their personality it really does feel like it did a majoras mask thing without admitting to i #like majoras is GOOD #it was weird and kinda nonsensical but ultimately worked #can you imagine if totk just went with the whole other dimension thing properly and really went ham with it- #.... i am coming up with even more ideas for totk rewritten arent it.. #anyway i dont think im gonna get a collectors edition ever again given the risk of me not liking what its for #regret spending that kind of money on it after i calmed down my fears and in the end they turned out to be mostly right #;__;

[bootyful-seventeen]

Oh gosh okay so I went back to marinating more on long haired Jihoon, but specifically long haired Jihoon getting pegged has me chewing on the bars of my enclosure to get out

Like just think of how pretty he'd look when he's on all fours and your fucking into him!! His chest blushed and heaving from how needy he is for you and the way your touch just feels so good and electric running along your skin! Your fingers then threading through his hair to pull his head up to see his thoroughly fucked out and flushed face in the mirror you placed in front of the bed. His eyes rolling back into his skull as cute little whimpers and cries slip from his lips when you brush your lips along his shoulder and licking up his neck before nibbling on his earlobe. Aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh and even the louder moans he'd make if you gripped his cheeks in your hands and pounded him into the mattress, his back arching so nicely that you can't help but run a hand up his spine and wrap his long hair around your fist while he trembled underneath you whimpering about how he's gonna cum. Your eyes dropping down to watch his slick hole swallowing your strap on with ease from being played with for so long before getting bent over. Jihoon's whines getting louder from hand slipping between his thighs to jerk off his leaky cock until he's releasing spurts onto the sheets under him. Tears springing from his eyes as you fuck him at a harder and faster pace until he was left gasping for air, his thighs shaking from keeping his ass up when your strap slips out of his trembling hole and a relieved smile on his face as you cooed about how good he was for you, and how he looks so pretty all fucked out like this between kisses along his spine

#seventeen smut #woozi smut #jihoon smut #i'm sorry i'm back in my geto jihoon thoughts of him with some long hair. like long ass hair like him and this started cuz #i saw a post on ig from the alley saying that they'll have more jjk merch coming soon and i really wanna get the keychains #especially since my slutty little toji is included too like oh my god #but yeah i think i might be good enough to try writing again but bit by bit #mostly cuz the ways i've been coping with stress and anxiety hasn't been as effective but writing this has helped me calm down a bit #and get me focused on something else cuz i've had too many peer reviews that i think i should probably get assessed by a doctor soon #but yee ya girl sammy is making baby steps of a return rn since writing this didn't feel draining at all and it made me so happy!!! #this shit has me feeling like austin powers when he got his mojo back lmaooooo #m:jihoon

[suncaptor]

When Lucifer cups Sam's face so gently and Sam's horrified expression shifts slightly and he's just standing there staring forward and then he's trying to convince Dean he needs to go see Lucifer and he's like. Lucifer TOUCHED me. And I felt CALM. And he says it. through his disgust. I feel literally sick to my stomach.

#ITS SO DISGUSTING #also not to credit dean but he literally was like yeah my long term torturer touched me and it made me feel calm. this means god wants me to #see him again. like. dean responded so normally to the sam lucifer s11 stuff tbh #tw abuse #ask to tag #spn #incoherents #sammy #supernatural #sam winchester #lucifer #o brother where art thou #s11 #sorry i keep saying the same things but he held Sams face in his hand and forced Sam's brain to be calm at it. #and they made me waych that on mt screen #thinking of Toni. hhHHHHH #the parallels between 11x09 and 12x02. okay

[sonknuxadow]

theres multiple reasons i dont like s/urgeamy but one of the things ive seen people do with it that annoys me a bit is the idea that surge and kit are going to become good because surge is gonna fall in love with amy and thats gonna be her only motivation to change.. and im sorry but am i the only one who thinks it would suck so bad for such fun antagonists to instantly switch sides just because one of them was "fixed" by romance and no other reason

#that is not an appealing storyline to me at least not for something like sonic where i dont wanna see canon romance #i DO think it could be interesting if amy being nice to surge and kit is gonna somehow be the start of a redemption arc for them #but not in a romantic way . not in an instant ''well i guess i have to switch sides now because i have a crush on sonics friend'' way #and ive seen some people assume that surge and kit are actually being serious when they come to the restoration as if theyve changed #i definitely dont think this is the case i dont think theyre good guys now #at least not yet it is possible they could calm down one day. but i dont think thats whats going on right now #i dont get why people are so obsessed with shipping amy with everyone anyway #shes just a little guy she should be doing average middle school aged girl activities like playing neopets or whatever #not entering serious romantic relationships . come on #especially considering most of her friends are a bit older than her #also the constant ''haha surge stole sonics girlfriend'' posts are getting on my nerves too #like my reasons for not liking the ship + the fact that the joke has already been made a million times aside. #it just always annoys me seeing amy be reduced to sonics girlfriend when theyre not even dating