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saleeba · 2 months

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Arguing with Levi over something stupid and ur honestly tired of the whole thing so you just him with “Whatever you say beautiful” and he just turns his nose up and starts stumbling over his words

summary ♡ what the request says!

pairing ♡ levi colwill x gn!reader

content ♡ fluff, attempting to settle a classic british debate, cursing, reader is so over levi

a/n ♡ this is most probably not the argumentative scenario that anon had in mind but i fell into my silly guy tendencies >_< tysmm anon for requesting this & i hope u enjoyyyy <3<3

it’s been over forty-five minutes of the same aggravation from your boyfriend, or at least you assume so — you stopped keeping tabs a while ago, so incredibly tired of arguing with him over something so silly. sunday afternoons were supposed an agreed time for relaxation but today’s snack time was far from that after levi clocked the way you prepare your scones.

“it’s clearly jam first; you spread that shit with a knife then dollop the cream on top,” levi’s hands move maniacally, mimicking the same actions that he’s describing. “how would cream first make sense?”

“i dunno, babe. spread the cream then dollop the jam?” between brief chews of sweet cream-first scones, your words come across as way too nonchalant for the chelsea boy and a shrug from your shoulders to pair with them makes him even more incredulous.

“that’s fucking disgusting.”

an exasperated groan leaves your lips as you push back the stool that you’re sitting on at the island and reach your destination of the fridge, routing through tubs and packets for a refreshing bottle of orange juice.

“levi, if you don’t like it, don’t eat it.” there’s silence from levi as the sound of juice pouring into glass fills the atmosphere, and you can tell the cogs of pettiness are turning in your boyfriend’s brain. it’s the way his eyes narrow at you (you swear that if he were a cartoon character, he’d be shooting lasers at you right now) and his bottom lip juts out just the slightest, thinking about how to get one over you since he actually does want to eat the sweet treats that you had gotten up extra early to make.

“no, no, i have to show you how to do it properly, yeah?” a little point of the butter knife in his hand at you and the boy’s now giving you an unsolicited demonstration of how to layer that jam-cream combo. “so, what you do, yeah, is put the knife into the jam jar and the–”

you seriously can’t take this anymore, fearful that your eyes may get stuck in your skull if you roll them one more time.

“yeah, yeah, whatever you say, beautiful.”

and it takes just that to have your boyfriend drop the butter knife in the jam, falling over his words as he struggles to get them out and make his case. it will always be the way you say that word and more so say it to him, about him, that will run his mouth dry of anything against you.

“uh, yeah, well… look, uh–”

a playful smirk from you has his heart squeezing in the best way.

“are we done here, levi? because i would really like us to stop arguing over fucking jam and cream and go cuddle on the couch now.”

you call the shots every time and levi can’t help but drop his case entirely, following you like a lovesick puppy to the sofa where you’ve taken the plate of scones along with their matching condiments, laying them out on the coffee table for him.

“show us how it’s done then, pretty boy.”

#levi @ reader after they called him beautiful: fragmen- woo uuhh- sca- uhh fragment foot bullet fragment foot bitch!!!#hi btw . if u even care #this came out a little later than intended bc mental illness is beating me arseee #rlly hope u all like it tho!!! 💕💕#levi colwill #levi colwill imagine #levi colwill fluff #levi colwill x reader #levi colwill x you #levi colwill x y/n #footballer fluff #footballer imagine #football imagine #anon #˗ˏˋ ✉️ ˎˊ˗#-ˋˏ✄┈ saleeba’s snippets

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honeypleasejustkillme · 1 year

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i push away the people i want the most in my life and i tell myself that it's because i need to learn to live w/out attachments. but deep inside, all i want is for someone to resist my efforts at pushing them away and tell me i am worth holding on to even when i’m acting like a child

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #all i want is for someone to truly care and WANT to fight to keep me in their life #all i want is to feel loved #n loved for the fucked up parts of me #all i want is true unconditional love

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sunburnacoustic · 5 months

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I just need a second to sit and take in this gif. This 2-second moment. Just need to break it down and appreciate it.

The look in Matt's eyes like 'shit's gonna go down'. The finger point: potent, like 'you're ready Chris, Dom? We're gonna blow some minds.' The nod of readiness from Chris. The shortest moment of breath intake from Matt, and then the way he fucking lets loose. Full-body loose. Eyes shut, he needs to lean away from the mic because it would be too much. The way you can just HEAR this gif. "*breATH* waAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!' The instant heavy headbanging from Chris. How many minds were blown indeed in that one moment. Just a two-second gif. What a work of art. An artistic statement. I just fucking love Muse so much.

#Muse band #Musers #Muse #Matt Bellamy #Chris Wolstenholme #Showbiz era #I bet it was haha #I'm sorry Muse mental illness descends HARD during exam season #I was just thinking about this gif for a full 10 minutes #I've got an assignment due in an hour or so I'm gonna go finish that n all #but. I was updating the Chris' curls post (this is definitely on that) and every time I do I keep thinking about this gif #what a work of art #musicians #music #art #artists

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lil-vibes · 7 months

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need me a fem! skk ballet and/or figure skater au so bad yall dont understand

#my mental illness is hitting and i think this will cure it #been spinning it in my head #imagine fem!chuuya in these beautiful outfits doing jumps and spins and being all graceful in the air IMAGINE it rn this is a threat #and my fav girl failure dazai being like :OOO n thinking thats my future wife up there !!#or dance duo skk grrrgrrrr #n the way the public catches on that there is something going on is bc when one wins first place they run straight to the other to #give them the medal or trophy #and ofc they r like 'just so u know who is better' and they they make out in the changing rooms #broooooooo i need i need this so bad #figure skater fem!skk au call that shit yuri on ice #... wait a second #bsd #skk #fem!skk #pebbles (me) ramblers #i need this so badly 😭😭😭#honestly wasnt uuuuh the other side of paradise (?) chuuya a dancer ?? gotta check #gotta finish the fic actually #o7 mission received me im going

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theeflowerofcarnage · 1 year

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Scenes from inna’s life before you know ...

#simblr #ts4 screenshots #inna cents #drove myself crazy all week by trying to remember the name of this classical song that i only knew the tiktok version of 🤕🤕🤕#it was 90mh trefuego sampling relfections by toshifumi hinata #i think i might be a bit mentally ill abt music #Anyways!#reading Picninc at hanging rock n its definetly bleeding into my inna lore

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lemongogo · 4 months

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can i ask.how u guys practice ur creativity <3 how u practice ur imagination or like.. how u experiment with ur art, how u come to ideas and how u develop them.<3 pretty please <3

#smthing i have always struggled w.is feeling like i can only draw things that r handed 2 me.#as in.an idea or concept that already exists #chara or conflict that already exists.Scene that alr exists.#and i think it can be soo limiting bc when i have that sort of creative desire but nothing 2 reflect off of it #i feel like im unable to do anything/get anywhere bc im unable to do that mental legwork myself ykwim #like comic artists r SOOO JAW DROP INSPIRING TO MEE bc not only are u envisioning ur own sequences/situations #but u are able to imagine even the most MUNDANE interactions within those scenarios u know #like the transitory panels and the quiet moments and the every day stillness #and i feel like.its not even a poor attempt on my behalf its like.i cant Even attempt it.like my brain is soo empty #and soo static and noiseless that i am like gauhh......#i can practice lines all day long and practice colors and practice anatomy or Whatever bc its something concrete #and its in front of me and i can pry apart the physical technicalities until i understand it better #but my MIND???ABSTRACTION>? THOUGHTS .ough its so hard #and i really want to push past that but i dont know how and its so .. demoralizing to think that ill get there One Day but i feel #one million and two days away.and not making active process towards it.#i know the first step is to build ur visual library and i feel liek. idk i FEEL LIKEEE theres more 2 it that im missing #but also im depressed as hell n my job is killing my creative drive and the seasonal stuff isnt helping #so maybe i just need 2 give it time (true) but i also like.man i dont know. i want 2 do something w my hands #but everything ive been doing so far has felt soo .hard and fruitless and i definitely dont want 2 turn art into such a stressful thing #fruitless as in like.i dont get any personal satisfaction w it.idgaf abt monetization or algorithms or any of tht #but smtimes thats just what happens and i have 2 weather through and know ill be more equipped 4 this some other time #SAWRYYY IM ALWAYS GOING ON AND ONNN im nromal im normal<3 i just rly like art and it sucks balls whn it feels out of reach #sigh cry fart scroll.(:salute:)

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wtfcl0ud · 5 months

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#spotify wrapped #halsey #mother mother #girl in red #ashnikko #twenty one pilots #rema #afrobeats #truly i am disappointed with my top songs this year #bc those were all songs i repeated during my mental episodes at/relating to uni #so listening to them got me thru the day #whenever i had attacks n episodes which was A LOT i listeneed to them #so it's just like #spotify really said ahahha you're mentally ill cri #cloud nonsense

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killemwithkawaii · 1 year

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Love sick Sal with a nurse darling headcanons ?

I honestly kind of think he would hurt himself on purpose to get touch by them <3

Love Sick Sally with a Nurse Darling-

[CW: Yandere, delusion, metal illness, self-harm, manipulation, unsanitary. People in the medical field, feel free to correct me if any of this is super inaccurate!]

>Sal fell in love about two minutes into his physical. It took that long for him to confirm that the nurse that had been assigned to examine him, nurse [darling], was exactly his type: They were polite, but not too serious. Strong, but gentle.... Passionate, knowledgeable, dedicated, empathetic, caring, understanding, and level-headed with a stomach of steel... Not to mention the ability to make scrubs look good. 👀💓

>[Darling] didn’t skip a beat when they entered the room and saw Sally bare-faced, sitting on the examination table in nothing but the paper gown he’d been given to wear. They looked him in the eye and smiled warmly while asking him all the usual questions and taking his vitals (though they were a little concerned about his blood pressure being high, and joked about him having a ‘shy bladder’ when it took longer than expected to get his urine sample...). Despite the butterflies in his stomach and the smell of their shampoo distracting him, he managed to make small talk while [darling] gingerly (and thoroughly) poked and prodded him head to toe. They seemed interested in his ‘unique’ hobbies, chuckled at his bone-dry jokes, listened intently to his concerns, and they didn’t judge him at all for taking medications and going to therapy for his mental health issues. When he mentioned those things to them with a hint of shame in his voice, they said that there was nothing to be embarrassed about, “Your mental health is just as important as your physical health! It’s great that you’re taking care of yourself on both levels now. Keep up the good work, Sally.” ☺📝

>That verbal pat on the back was the last nail in his coffin. Sals head was so high in the clouds when [darling] finally gathered their things and left the examination room, he almost wandered out into the hall without dressing. After getting home, He couldn’t stop thinking about his appointment- about how kind [darling] was, how good it felt for them to praise him, the tension and intimacy he’d felt while they were looking him over, how warm and gentle their touch was (and how he wished it would have lingered and not been obstructed by the glove)… he found himself daydreaming about them, wondering if they'd thought of him since they'd shut the door behind them that day, if they'd felt their connection, too, but knew it would be inappropriate to acknowledge it, given the constraints of a nurse/patient relationship... Considering this, he felt the need to start coming up with appropriate reasons to see them again, as soon and as frequently as their schedule and his insurance would allow him to. 🤔💭

>Luckily, with his range of medical needs, Sal needed more checkups and minor treatments than the average person. So, if he plays his cards right, he gets to see a lot of [darling]. On those highly anticipated days when he has a visit, he makes it his mission to be the BEST. PATIENT. EVER: He’s freshly showered, arrives 15 minutes early, never complains about long wait times, has a few interesting anecdotes at-the-ready, tries to impress nurse [darling] with his tolerance for discomfort and knowledge of his own conditions, and always has plenty of thoughtful clarifying questions about his treatments and medications. [Darling] thinks that Sal is a very responsible person who puts a high priority on his health, but in reality, it’s all just an excuse to extend their time together and hopefully get off-track with small talk that will allow him to get to know [darling] better, or will lead to more examinations and treatments that will get [darling] to touch him. Either way, it’s a win. ✅

>Sal probably wouldn't self-harm as an excuse to see [darling], or at least, if he did, he would have to do it VERY sparingly and be VERY strategic about how and what he does. Since [Darling] is a medical professional, chances are that they could easily spot the difference between purposeful and accidental injuries, even if he continuously switched up his methods. He could probably get away with an occasional self-inflicted burn from the oven, cut from shaving, irritation from using household cleaners without gloves, maybe some mild food poisoning if he has a few days to kill… but eventually, [darling] would start to notice a pattern. If he keeps coming to [darling] with injuries they suspect are from self-harm, they might refer him to a different nurse with more psychiatric experience than they have, or, if it seems serious enough, insist that he be hospitalized because he's a danger to himself. No, if he wants [darling], specifically, to dote on him without raising suspicion, he has to convince them that he’s just clumsy- any injuries or ailments he comes to them with have to be (or at least look like) an accident. 🤫⚖

-Thankfully, Sal does a lot of adventuring in run-down buildings, forests, and in other places where it’s easy to trip or become injured if you’re not extra careful. Knowing that he can use those injuries as an excuse to get [darling]s attention (with both medical treatment and the story of how he got his injury), he attempts more risky climbs, braves thickets of thorny overgrowth, is less careful when he runs along uneven terrain than he would be otherwise, etc. On top of the treachery, all those places are pretty unsanitary, so he makes sure to get all those cuts and scratches checked out, ‘just to be on the safe side’. If he's particularly lucky, he gets to limp into [darling]s office with a sprain or dislocation, and the jackpot would be needing stitches, since he gets to come in to get them, AND he’ll have to come back to get them removed! (Bonus points if said injury leaves a scar. He has plenty, so he doesn’t mind having another, and having something as a permanent reminder of [darling]s skilled and gentle touch on his skin makes him feel all mushy~) 🩹💖

Bonus: If [darling] is a friend who is still studying to be a nurse…

>Sal is happy to volunteer as their pin cushion/ practice dummy. He’s got a high pain threshold, so he’s able to sit still while [darling] tries to find a vein to practice inserting an IV or drawing blood, and he has the patience of a saint while they meticulously go through the protocol they’ve studied for dressing different wounds and doing various examinations. 💉🩺

>Since he’s had to go through so many medical procedures with so many different physicians, Sal can give [darling] honest and constructive feedback about their technique and bedside manner. They don’t have a ton to improve on, since [darling] is a natural-born healer, but it’s always good to get a current patient's perspective so you can do even better with the ones you treat in the future. By the time [darling] has their degree, they practically know Sally inside and out, and are very grateful to him for all his help on their journey to becoming a REAL nurse! 🎓

-He worries about [darling] a lot, especially when they’re preparing for exams or have gone through a streak of difficult days on the job. They put their all into their studies/work and often end up putting more pressure on themselves than they should, so Sal is always happy to help them go over their notes, offer to hang out and do something fun to relax, or lend an ear when they need to vent. 👂

>Once they’re confident in their skills, Sal can probably convince [darling] to do a good deal of ‘pro bono treatment’ for the minor stuff he’d otherwise try to deal with himself. He (says he) doesn't have the money to keep going to urgent care every time he needs something looked at, and [darling] wouldn’t let him go untreated, right? Of course not! It’s their duty as a health care professional to help people (and friends) in need, and it’s always good to see someone who knows your medical history (and you) well and makes you feel comfortable. And, since they're friends first and nurse/patient second, it wouldn't be totally inappropriate if their relationship evolved into something more intimate... (a little taboo, but that just makes it interesting 😉)

Additions by our resident nurse, @thegracelessfaceless:

>What Sally doesn't know, is that Nurse Darling risks their job quite a bit in order to care for and spend time with him.

>They reliably spend too much time triaging Sally, resulting in multiple events in which the Doctor and Nurse Practitioner are waiting outside just staring at the door impatiently when Darling comes out. They've had to have a few meetings about their speed when triaging Sal.

>On a few occasions, Darling has stolen samples of Sal's migraine meds or antibiotics because Sal couldn't afford that months supply. She doesn't feel bad about it, what is Sal gonna do, snort up a big line of penicillin or Imitrex? Nurse Darling thinks not

#k.e.w.k. answers #k.e.w.k. writes #sally face imagine #sal fisher #yandere sal fisher #love sick sally #sal fisher x y/n #sal fisher x reader #tw yandere #tw mental illness #tw delusion #tw self harm #tw manipulation #i finally went in for a physical after 5ever so i actually know what all happens during them now lol #tw unsanitary #Edit: added gracies additions bc they could not be kept hidden in the replies ✅

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wishmemel · 6 months

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so. everyone thank taylor swift. because i do not believe that this part of now that we don’t talk isn’t about stsg

#GREW YOUR HAIR LONG FROM THE OUTSIDE IT LOOKS LIKE YOURE TRYIN LIVES ON #I MISS THE OLD WAYS #YOU DIDNF HAVE TO CHANGE???#I GUESS I DONT HAVE A SAY NOW???#why would she ruin me like this #half the vault songs on 1989 r about heartbreak and being left n i can see stsg in all of them #none of the vault songs missed #she did what she had to do #anyway this could just be me making everything about them bc i’m mentally ill but we’ll ignore that #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #stsg #satosugu #꒰ soon you'll get better. ꒱

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honeypleasejustkillme · 11 months

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how could you if you love me so much..?

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd fp #bpd vent #how could you #i don’t understand #i love you more than life itself #how can you say those things #especially about me #all i’ve done is love you with all i am and be there for you through thick n thin..

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spotsupstuff · 11 months

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Does Caper self-project onto his puppet? Even if just sometimes (Talking about the iterator cabin fever). Just curious since he'd have to interact with Sparrows through it and I'm wondering if that would do much.

ah! i thought about this as one of the first things when considerin their relationship!

Sparrows makes it a point to always bully him off of his puppet like the good Iterator Mechanic/Admin that she is (when they aren't havin a Cuddle Session). when they learnt about these type of things back in school, it actually all horrified her So much that one of her projects was a detailed exploration of ways to prevent mental sicknesses like that. it was... all "too" humane, according to the teachers, so much so that she got a bad grade. she uses these methods with Euros either way tho, gotta make sure her boy is as healthy as he can be

it does often end up with her sitting on the floor of his chamber with the puppet suspended above her, unresponsive, while she converses essentially with an empty room. it sometimes fucks her up a lil cuz like that there is nothing shielding her from the reality of an Iterator's sheer merciless size. it's a one hell of a mindfuck. Euros keeps making fun of her whenever she spaces about it a lil n she kicks one of his walls in response

here's their most common set up for interaction

one of the preventive methods for Iterator cabin fever Sparrows came up with is basically forcefully taking one of their Overseers (ideally capable of live feed to the rest of the Iterator- Euros Can do that since he's in the Phone Operator Guild) for a walk like a doggy. can't get a cabin fever if u take in the sights and get to interact with your caretaker/friend, Boy

#Spot says stuff #rw #oc tag #oc: three sparrows #oc: caper of euros #all IMs make sure the iterators dont fall (TOO) deep into mental illnesses like the cabin fever thing #after the ancients are all gone tho? -eyes Euros- yeaaaaa he gets a bit too focused on his puppet.#n hey lookit!! Sparrows with an actual design at last the fuck!!!!! u can tell i was fuckin dyin at the end of the comic there #so fuckin tired... either way yea the point of the walk combod with live feed is takin the Iterators attention away from their little box #'you are more than that love!!! you are this small thing in my backpack and you are the big thing under my feet. feel through it.'

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sarioh · 2 years

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whats everyones life series episode that irreversibly turned u from casual viewer to crazyinsane sick in the head abt the series. mine was last life session 5 i have not been the same since

#i liked it before that episode but that was the one that compelled me 2 make a tumblr and talk to ppl abt it #like i watched all of 3l very casually just as regular entertainment #then bdubs went red in last life and etho brought him back and everything changed #and also Die for me. scar losing all his lived. etho boogey kill #that session is genuinely perfect in every way #i was obsessed w last life from the second bdubs killed grian in episode 1. but session 5?#that was when i became Mentally ill about it #sorry i am bored as hell in a hostel n all my friends r asleep #i need to talk to ppl #rio posts

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iwowzumi · 2 years

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the raven cycle is kind of about magic but mostly it’s just about how mentally ill teenagers without access to therapy do some insanely weird shit to cope. yeah blue is a tree but she’s also taking out her anger issues on the hood of some kids car. sure ronan can take things out of his dreams but it’s mostly, like, manifestations of his grief and trauma. adam may be a murderous little psychic but he’s also dissociating pretty much constantly until the end of book three. and gansey is dragging them all along on his mildly delusional magical quest in a desperate attempt to give his life meaning after a near death encounter like he doesn’t have massive amounts of ptsd. none of this is a criticism btw it’s perfect actually

#the raven cycle #trc meta #the graphic novels n greywaren release have me in my Thoughts and Feelings sorry #like. they r all sooooo mentally ill. they’re just like me fr <3 #syd text

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lovelywriting666 · 7 months

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Flufftober Petnames ♥️ -Sam Winchester

Warnings : None 😊

Word Count: I never know

Sam Winchester x Gn!Reader

I sit in the bunker library curled up into myself on one of the wooden chairs in the library, I’m hunched over a lore book Ive been reading, annotating, and taking notes. I have my own notebook to record my findings in, as I scribble down notes I hear.

“Sweetheart?” This little pet name makes my head pop up from my notebook and I see Sam standing there holding a coffee carrier with 3 coffees in it and a small bag he’s holding to his side. I blush a little out of embarrassment, ok, maybe Ive been up since 5 taking notes and reading, I just had the feeling to do something, it’s something I’d normally not do. Being completely honest but today just feels like one of those weird days. Sam lets out a soft chuckle.

“Love bug, how long have you been up? I know you weren’t in bed when I woke up but I thought you went to the bathroom” Sam says sheepishly like he did something wrong for not knowing. My eyes go a little wide being able to read the expression on his face and I immediately say.

“Oh no Sammy, baby, it’s really ok!” with an apocalyptic look on my face as to say Im sorry for not being in bed. Sam nods his head and lets out another airy chuckle.

“It’s alright hun, anyways, I got coffee and breakfast” Sam says motioning to the coffees in one hand and the bag in his other and a smile shows on my face and I quickly get up and walk over to Sam and grab the coffees from him and walk them over to the main table in the library and set them down. Sam does the same and I go back to my seat and I look up at Sam with a smile and then I smirk.

“Hun?” I question with a giggle and Sam’s cheeks get a little pink and he rubs the back of his neck in embarrassment.

“I- well, y’know….it’s just like a cute pet name…right?” Sam questions like he’s never been in a relationship before which makes me giggle even more.

“It really fine babe, I love you” I say sweetly reaching for the small bag of breakfast foods. Sam smiles softly.

“I love you to babe” Sam says repeating the pet name that i just said which makes me smirk as Sam passes me the bag of food and I start looking through it and yell

“Dean! Breakfast and Coffee! Get out of bed numb nut!” this makes Sam laugh hard and sit down in the chair next to me as I giggle and hear Dean’s loud tired groan come from his room.

Fin. ♥️

An: Hey guys! So Im probably gonna post 2 more in the next few hours so I can catch up also if you want to use our flufftober prompt list you can! So get ready for Cas and Danny!

#supernatural #cute #samwinterchester #sam winchester #love #pet names #flufftober #sam x reader #sam winchester x y/n #sam winchester x reader #sam winchester x you #sam winchester x gn!reader #lil bit of mental illness in their lolz all cute tho

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