#musical soulmate tag

[enigmasandepiphanies]

one of the best realizations I have had as I have grown up is how amazing it is to show up for the people you love, unashamedly and unapologetically. show up to their classical music productions when you don't know anything about that kind of music, their chemistry club meetings when you are a literature student and don't know anything about chemistry but your bestie is doing cool experiments with copper sulphate, the very alluring blue portion you were tempted to drink in school cause it looked so magical. show up when they wake up from a long nap and have missed dinner and are feeling shitty, make them maggi and get them their fave chocolate. show up when they rant about animal documentaries excitedly and listen when they tell you the plot of jujustu kaisan at 4 am during exam week. take a walk with them at 11 pm in night because they told you you have no classes tomorrow so come down (it's their emotionally suppressed way of saying I miss you). cuddle with them to sleep because they are scared of thunderstorms. make them an art piece and write them a love letter for their birthday to show them you love them so much and you will never stop probably and that scares you sometimes but their presence will reassure you always. I know you know that they know that you love them but when you gift them your "an incomplete list of things you love about them" in your shitty handwriting they will smile and cry and choke you in a hug for 5 mins, it will be a smile spilling out of the sun and it'll be so worth it always. reply to their messages of hey "your name" except your name gets weirder and weirder cause they are bored and miss you and wanna talk and even if you are busy and tired , do return some of their affection with a small message that yes, you missed them too even though you are too tired to express. give them your fave drawing and you'll see how they have hung it up on their cork board in their dorm room. tell them to spam their earring collections and marvel over their strawberry earrings. send them a video message when they send you their jiggly caramel pudding video because omg they can cook now and you are so happy for them that you want to portal through the phone and hug them (you're gonna give them a recipe notebook for their birthday). let them rant on the phone while you fold your laundry, it's manageable mostly.

there are days when you can't show up and it's okay and they'll understand, most people who love you do, they should. but gosh, putting in effort in any relationship isn't that the best thing? because they are not just worth your love, the point of worth never even comes cause they are the very meaning of love. because God remember what Miyazaki said when you love someone you inspire each other to live and grow even when you recognize how hard living is. growing is difficult but you love growing with them.

I used to think I love people too much but you know what they love me too much too. so when someone asked richard siken what do you do when you love someone too much he said congratulate yourself. and today I am congratulating myself cause I know the loves of my life are doing that too.

#okkiee its 5 am and i am verh overwhelmed with love #these are all real life events that happened that made feel very loved #eni life stories #lovecore #found family tag #friendship #val tag #smn tag #musical soulmate tag #hiraeth tag #dee tag #inn tag #vish tag #love #romanticism #romantic academia #richard siken #poetry #this also includes my parents actually so uwu #yes incomplete list inspired by rwrb dont @ me

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I think when the guys have basically been writing their own RPF literally since the beginning of their career it's ok

#saturday mv the thing that you are... #mostly I was thinking about the ybc bc that's like a full on au fanfic an angsty high school freshman would write #but saturday mv is like. was that their FIRST music video? who does that!!! it is basically weird metaphorical fanfiction!!! #self recognition through the other/murder-suicide/red string of fate soulmatism/whatever the heck that was #I can't stand it bc the camera cuts annoy the heck out of me but the very brief narrative and implications thereof are just ??? #yeah I'm saying this on main with my whole chest it came to me in a vision mid conversation and made me laugh. it's fine I'm fine #everything is fine #Lu rambles #fob #this is about 40% a joke and 60% my genuine thoughts on the matter #so long as you aren't like tagging the actual people in your weird stuff do whatever 👍

[sam-loves-seb]

music tag game

tagged by: @creepkinginc <3

rules: shuffle your "on repeat" playlist and list the first 10 songs that play, then tag 10 people

first time by hozier

modern girl by bleachers

down by 408

walk the line by orbiter

bad idea by the broadway cast of waitress

sun to me by zach bryan

so american by olivia rodrigo

not ready to make nice by the chicks

rainbow by kesha

orange show speedway lizzy mcalpine

tagging: @karenandthababes @jessbakescakes @thefinestmuffinswrites @suchagallabitch @svltburn @gallawitchxx @technotrousers @energievie @mikhailoisbaby @deathclassic

#so american has been my car jam to and from work lately #sun to me is the inspo for the title for flower mark soulmate au #rainbow by kesha is just a jam #but also fueling my pride month headcanons for gallavich #/inspiring a Pride fic idea that may or may not get written who knows #walk the line is by my friend's band !!! #down is by a band my friend saw in concert #and i'm obsessed with their new album #no one asked for my explanations and yet #here we are #anyway #tag game #q #music tag game

[trannydean]

spn aus you say..... (please tell everything I am begging)

GIGGLING LIKE AN IDIOT!!!!! OKAY!!!!! warning this is a really long post kgjhjkgrjkd.

i've got 11 so far, but two of em (rvbnatural and spidernatural) barely have anything. rvbnatural is spn guys in the red vs. blue universe with dean, sam, and my oc jaime being a part of a special elite military project, similar to project freelancer in rvb. it's in the 2550s so it's set in same time frame as the halo games do. spidernatural is the spn guys in some sort of spiderverse, idk if it's like itsv/atsv or what, but it WAS inspired by atsv coming out. azazel is a spider demon guy wanting to take over the world with spider demon kids. he gives baby sam some spider demon blood and then little dean comes in and tries to protect him and he ends up bitten. both of them end up with spider powers and are spider-men.

but then i've got more in-depth aus! my most recent one is a modern au where jaime's family and dean's were next door neighbors for about their whole lives. jaime had to witness john abusing and neglecting his kids, and eventually he just decided he wasn't fucking having it anymore. he tricks john into coming into the woods and beats him to death with his baseball bat. garth is there and he helps bury the body.

john's sudden disappearance gets chalked up to be him going missing, sam and dean (and maybe adam, idk if he's gonna be here yet or not) go to live with bobby, and jaime thinks his problems are over. he and garth never speak of it again.

UNTIL several years later when some kids were digging around in the woods and they dug up john's body. it was obvious that john was murdered, his case is reopened. jaime becomes the main suspect. cas is going to be his defense lawyer.

there's my farmer au. sam and dean were born and raised on the winchester farm, being basically the only ones who worked there outside of their father. sam eventually goes to college, and john has to hire a farmhand. dunno who it is yet, but a few years later, that farmhand quit right before harvest time, so now it's just him and dean. he orders dean to make ads and put them up so that they can get a new farmhand.

enter jaime, who has just moved to their area of texas. he's never been living out of his guardians' house and though he thought moving across the state to be on his own was a good idea, he's sort of scrambling because he didn't have a real plan. he sees the ad and though he's never done farm work before, he has done manual labor and he figures he can pick up on this stuff fairly well.

plus, in exchange for working, he also gets to live in the farmhouse on the property, and he doesn't have to pay for food or rent (though he DOES get less pay due to this). he figures this is a pretty good deal, and ends up going to apply for the job. he gets it, despite the fact john doesn't like that he's kind of scrawny. (he reflects that dean's always been on the leaner side and he gets the job done "okay", and this is also the best he's got, so he has to go with it).

jaime and dean quickly become best friends--they're working together side-by-side almost all day, almost every day. come harvest time, dean and jaime are tasked with selling their crop at the farmer's market.

enter cas, the youngest of a wealthy family who has always been big buyers in the winchester crop. cas and dean have had fleeting encounters and both have a crush on each other tbh. jaime sees cas for the first time when cas comes to their stall on his first day at the farmer's market and definitely understands where dean was coming from.

next i've got my modern au that's got dean as a famous music artist. tbh i don't have so much for this one, but basically, dean is a music artist and he's been hitting a writer's block (or whatever you call it for songwriting) but something makes him remember his high school best friends/crushes (jaime and cas) and he ends up writing a song about them. and he doesn't use any pronouns in the song referring to them, and TECHNICALLY both "jaime" and "cas" can be considered gender neutral, so while the song is a huge hit once he releases it, there's also lots of discussion/controversy about it because "okay so are these two people girls or guys??? or one's a girl and one's a guy???" but it's funny because it's none of the above, jaime and cas are both non-binary. but anyways both jaime and cas end up hearing it on the radio and they're both like "oh my fuck he remembers me…"

and they've been living their separate lives far away from each other for many years but now they all begin reminiscing their high school "friendship" (they were all extremely gay for each other) and debate whether to try contacting each other again. i mean, dean wrote a song about them and it became a big hit and is currently being played all across the country right now. it would kinda make sense to do so. and they're all kinda missing each other, which they dismiss as nostalgia but it's really a lot more than that.

so jaime and cas find each other and then decide to attend to dean's next concert, bc he's on tour rn. they somehow get dean to notice them in the crowd (jaime's gonna do smth stupid prolly) and dean sees them and is SO HAPPY and he puts his whole pussy into that concert. and then they reunite and are all super happy to see each other again. and they can't just ignore dean's confession in the song.... they all end up getting together again, it's good.

next my merfolk au!!! MY FAVORITE HEHEHE!!! jaime and cas are two merpeople who live on the coast, next to an older fisherman's cabin owned by bobby. i'm not sure if in this au, merpeople are social beings in the way they live in pods or not, but either way, cas and jaime are rejected by basically anyone (cas is too weird, jaime is too aggressive (protective of cas!!!)) other than gabriel, who is cas' guardian, and then jaime's once he comes around (jaime's parents died, jaime ran (swam) away from the rest of his family and got lost, then found by cas).

dean has been visiting bobby's place since he was a little kid, and the first time jaime and cas saw him, they were instantly fascinated. they'd never seen a human their age before. jaime wanted to introduce themselves to dean but cas was shy and not ready so jaime was cool with that. they stuck to hanging out with bobby when sam and dean weren't there.

fast forward 15-20 some years. jaime gets captured by fishermen and sold to a freak show. cas comes up on land disguised as a human and begs dean for help (bobby's in town rn). it takes a while but with sam's help they're able to locate and rescue jaime. by this time, dean knows about cas and jaime being merpeople, and he's definitely awestruck by them when he sees them both in trueform. and they're both fascinated by him, which he finds embarrassing, because he doesn't believe beings so magnificent should find him, a measly human, fascinating.

then there's my dystopian/post-apocalypse au!!! cas lives in a glass-encased bunker that's been the "one safe place" since earth's nuclear fallout nearly 100 years before. dean and jaime are two people living outside the bunker, otherwise known as purgatory. jaime and dean have been best friends their whole lives and have gone through literally everything together--losing their parents, raising their little siblings (in jaime's case, cousin, but jackie has always been more like a sister to jaime rather than a cousin).

jaime, dean, sam, and jackie all go out searching for the bunker, wanting to see the real thing. they've heard stories about it, and the oldest people they've met remember being rejected from entering the bunker during the fallout due to the bunker being "too full". it takes years, but they do find it. cas sees them, and cas, who has been obsessed with learning all he can about purgatory for basically his whole life, is bursting with excitement about finding people on the outside.

chuck, cas' dad and the president of all the people in the bunker, is just SO MAD that his son found the outsiders before his people did. because see, ever since the higher-ups of the bunker realized there was still people surviving outside, they began to capture them, bring them secretly to secret labs, and basically experiment on them to find out how they can survive outside the bunker until they die. chuck did not stop this tradition when he became president and found out about all this.

so basically, chuck tries to find an excuse to get these four outsiders to "disappear" so that he can get them to his private labs to experiment on. there's a problem, because cas is attached to them, to two in particular really. and cas doesn't know about what chuck's doing--if he did, he wouldn't stand for it. so chuck has to try to do all he wants while keeping it hidden from cas. it doesn't end up working btw.

i've got my hunter!jaime au, which is basically what jaime's life would've been like if he'd grown up knowing about the supernatural. there is SO MUCH i have for it, i cannot put it all here, but i CAN make separate posts about it if you want me to!!!

i've got two soulmate aus--a soulmate tattoo au and a soulmate journal au. in the soulmate tat one, it's a lot like your usual au with this trope--you've got your soulmate's name tattooed to you somewhere. but sometimes, people are born with more than one name on them, or none at all, and those with more than one are mostly shunned by society, while those with none are pitied. jaime, cas, and dean all have two, ofc, and grow up with different reactions to it--jaime gets it an accepting family, though they're a little misguided in their support ("he's confused, but he's got the spirit" sort of deal). cas' is an outcast at school for it, and half his brothers despise him for it while the other half do their best to make sure he knows he's not alone. then dean gets the shittiest bit, with his godawful father hating him and definitely mistreating him for this. i'm using this au to be a thing in support of polyamorous and ace individuals, and i just hope i can do good with my representation.

then with the soulmate journal au, every baby has a journal pop up when they're born that they can use to communicate with their soulmate/s. jaime and cas talk with each other for several years and think only they are each other's soulmates, but dean is also their soulmate--john just confiscated his journal after mary died and never let him get a hold of it. however, jaime and cas fill up their initial journal and another one appears for each of them, and that ALSO makes another one appear to dean. he gets to write to his soulmates for the first time and it's a big whirlwind for him bc woah, finally, he gets to talk to them!!! but then again, the only examples of soulmates he's seen is his dad and the awful way he handled mary's death, so dean's not the fondest of the idea. he has to keep his journal hidden so no one ever finds it and takes away what becomes one of the only highlights in his life.

finally, my last one!!! this is just a regular modern au. jaime moves into a new town and tries to fit in. he gets a job at cas' bakery, and he meets dean at the mechanics shop, and they all fall in love :] it's very nice and sweet.

I'M SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG!!! this was a lot to type out 😭😭😭

#answering machine #my aus #omg i gotta tag all these... #au: jestiel merfolk #au: jaime kills john #au: hunter!jaime #au: modern jestiel #au: jestiel post-apoc/dystop #au: jestiel soulmate journals #au: jestiel soulmate tattoos #au: jestiel farmer #au: music artist dean #au: spidernatural #au: rvbnatural #PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS OR COMMENTS #PLS ASK/TELL ME #I'D LOVE TO HEAR WHAT EVERYONE'S GOT TO SAY ABT THESE

[thschei]

Translation adapted from both this and this (pages 1-3)

Thanatos [Θάνατος]— He loves the living [you], just as much as he loves the dead [us] He reaps the old and the young; Poets and heroes, all equally. "Welcome to Hades!" [Καλώς ορίσατε στην ᾍδης!] You've died; you've simply died [Πήγες μόνο πήγες] Not knowing why you came here, Toyed with by the hands of fate You've died; you've simply died [Πήγες μόνο πήγες] He, with eyes that convey death, is I. The night he murders his mother, I shall go and offer my welcome And two will become one One day, You will learn that this world has no fairness— Except for him [Θ] Ruled by the ruthless goddess of destiny, This world has no fairness— Except for him [Θ] Mother [μοῖρα]… if you continue to bring forth life, And inflict pain upon those frightened children, Then… Thanatos [Θ] will— Bring salvation to the living, by bringing them death!

#erin talks #video #SH #erin's music rec tag #why I can't be passed the aux #sorry this is so long this song rewrote my brain's chemistry it is everything to me #it's an 8 minute long song summarizing an album that's a greek epic that had to be trimmed bc all of it wouldn't fit on 1 CD <3 #In 7th grade I downloaded this album before a school trip & spent like 6+ hours listening to just this track on repeat <3 hashtag autism #what if u just wanted to reunite with your sister but (the) god (of death) said no ❤️ we're soulmates in murdering our mothers ❤️ #someone in the discord said they want tsukihito to cover this if we get another tte/asshora type concert 😭 #yeah that would fuck

[joequinns]

tagged by @infatuatedharleys thank you my love!  ♡

tagging @elsamars @robinbuck @laurennbacall @josephfakingquinn @ncllcraines @anathenma @betharmon @cishiya @maximoffpeters​ @rorygilmoore @tommishelby @ronandreams @und0miels @userquinn​  ♡

#harley we're still soulmates even with different music taste okay ily #moots feel free to ignore this btw #tag games #mutuals tag <3 #nicole.txt

[nofr1lls]

horsemusic what r ur thoughts on the death note musical?

hiiiiii tdsierra sooo mixed feelig some of the songs r so ass (where is the justice, hurricane) and some have fun, relevant, and homosexual lyrics (playing his game, stalemate, mortals and fools). it's so funny to watch them sinfing sooooooooo seriously. REM is so ethereal and beautiful 🌬️🌬️🌬️.

#some extended thoughts for the tags: #the fact of misas part in stalemate is the gayest thing ever it's my fav bit tbh #bc L and light r singing abt eachother and misa comes in to sing abt how she n light r soulmates #but they just ignore her part completely so what ends up being conveyed is the soulmatey nature of L and lights relationship and #I just think that is SO NEAT AND CLEVER FHE WAY THEY DID THAT #but yeah the actual music is generic as hell and a lot of the lyrics are painfully literal #misas english va is an amazing singer with completely the wrong voice for the character:/ #LOVE the general themes of love in all its great and terrible forms #definitely worth watching it made me laugh #ask #tdsierra #death note #death note musical

[charlescoded]

ty ty to @fabbyf1 & @drivestraight for the tag <3

share 5 top songs you have on repeat right now!

ordinary (UMI)

taste it (sam short)

ride of your life (ouroboros)

i'm yours (ORYL)

time of my life (UPSAHL)

(honourable mention to the most listened song of may on my phone 'bleeding for you' which got deleted 💔)

tagging @cupidskissx & @xiaoluclair 😊

#tag game #i love listening to music that vibes with what i'm writing #aka 'i'm yours' is my most listened to song while writing my abo/soulmate au

[kqluckity]

hoyoverse was so sick for that tbh

#SOULMATES!! PING AND GUIZHONG WERE SOULMATES!! THEY ARGUED AND DRANK AND MADE MUSIC TOGETHER AND THEY WERE SOULMATES!! #AND PING MADE THEIR SONGS ONE AND THEN NEVER MADE MUSIC AGAIN!! AND SPENDS HER TIME LOOKING AFTER THE PEOPLE GUIZHONG LOVED!! #this is a gacha game man it shouldn't make me feel like this 😐 #sorry for being normal about grandma yuri. as if it's my fault #gi tag

[enigmasandepiphanies]

love is when my friend puts her head on my lap while we are all sitting on the floor and dying in laughter

#the one where we laughed in the common room thinking about making a sitcom of our shenanigans in common room #eni life stories #i tell her i love her so much everyday and still its not enough we should be able to say this more no? #musical soulmate tag

[arch-lightbaund]

Take Me Home — Jess Glynne | Izuku & Shoto ( @roguesenses )

Wrapped up, so consumed by all this hurt

If you ask me, don't know where to start

Anger, love, confusion

Roads that go nowhere

I know there's somewhere better

'Cause you always take me there

Came to you with a broken faith

Gave me more than a hand to hold

Caught before I hit the ground

Tell me I'm safe, you've got me now

Would you take the wheel

If I lose control?

If I'm lying here

Will you take me home?

Could you take care of a broken soul?

Will you hold me now?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

Hold the gun to my head, count 1, 2, 3

If it helps me walk away then it's what I need

Every minute gets easier

The more you talk to me

You rationalize my darkest thoughts

Yeah, you set them free

Came to you with a broken faith

Gave me more than a hand to hold

Caught before I hit the ground

Tell me I'm safe, you've got me now

Would you take the wheel

If I lose control?

If I'm lying here

Will you take me home?

Could you take care of a broken soul?

Oh, will you hold me now?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

You say space will make it better

And time will make it heal

I won't be lost forever

And soon I wouldn't feel

Like I'm haunted, oh, falling

You say space will make it better

And time will make it heal

I won't be lost forever

And soon I wouldn't feel

Like I'm haunted, oh, falling

You say space will make it better

And time will make it heal

I won't be lost forever

And soon I wouldn't feel

Like I'm haunted, oh, falling

Would you take the wheel

If I lose control?

If I'm lying here

Will you take me home?

Could you take care of a broken soul?

Oh, will you hold me now?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home, home?

Oh, will you take me home?

Oh, will you take me home?

#Spotify #( i feel this song fits both of them ) #( shoto and your izuku and wish izuku ) #— (tag tba) music. #— midoriya izuku | what's a soulmate? well a soulmate is like a best friend but more. it's someone who you carry with you forever #— izuku & shoto | it's the person who knew you and accepted you and believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would #— midoriya izuku (roguesenses) | you say i won't be lost forever. and soon i wouldn't feel like i'm haunted — like i'm falling #— izuku & shoto (roguesenses) | came to you with a broken faith. gave me more than a hand to hold. could you take care of a broken soul? #— v. wish (roguesenses) | bring me a dream. make him the cutest that i've ever seen. then tell him that his lonesome nights are over

[cinnabeat]

ANYWAYS i just finished the new ep i have many thoughts

#FIRST i caught claras and azzs hands and their NAILS ARE THE WRONG COLOR. EVIL #SECOND god i missed this show but i also was forcibly reminded that its lowkey embarrassing but its fine i had Fun #also i realized i disnt remember like. anything lmao #ALSO there was so much purson in the beginning omg they even showed a bit of his bloodline ability im so excited for the music festival when #whenever it happens #but the harvest festival!!! im ao hyped #kinda feels like things are going a lil fast but again i dont actually remember the manga so maybe the pacing is on point #the ending song was cute and i love it?? the way the scenes matched the song? adorable #showstopping #will never be topped #the op is ok like it was good but it will nwver be no no satisfaction lmao #BUT the scenes the showed? exquisite #wish it sidnt uhh spoil so much like it couldve been subtler? but the anime is just Like that so its whatever #like the fairy tail ops lmao #michi tag #the nail color thing is actually kinda bothering me bc in all of nishis color art it shows azz with pink nails and clara with green and irum #iruma has blue and the symbolism of them sharing each others colors bc theyre SOULMATES is lost if u give clara hot pink and azz fucking red #???? like bro come on #also theyre uniforms!!!! theyre different but?? im pretty sure thats not their winter uniforms?? like it looks like a midpoint between summe #summer and winter but i might be making that shit up and its their actual winter uniforms #or soemthing idk im about to reread the manga again lmao #anyways thats all my thoughts for today <3

[spaceofentropy]

@salthat tagged me, so here I am, late as hell but here nonetheless!

Rules: shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and post the first ten tracks, then tag ten people. I don't have an on repeat playlist, but I just made a playlist with the 50 songs I played the most, which incidentally are the songs I use a background/inspo when I work. So...

"Heat Waves" - Glass Animals

"Fools" - Troye Sivan

"Small Doses" (slowed down version) - Bebe Rexha

"Solstice" - Beyond Infinity

"Horizon" - Long Distance Calling

"Black Water" (Chris Taylor of Grizzly Bear Remix) - Of Monsters and Men

"Monument" - Royksopp ft. Robyn

"Stand Your Ground" - Confrontational

"Wolf" - Yeah Yeah Yeahs

"Army of Me" (live in studio version) - Bjork

I'm supposed to tag people, but it's too much pressure right now so... If you see this and want to do it, go, you have my blessing! <3

#music #me #tag game #my soundtrack #Wolf is basically the soundtrack for my brain coming up with a good chunk of “Of soulmates and colors” #and Stand Your Ground for a WIP I don't even know if I'll ever complete let alone publish

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big. #the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort. #but it still feels like... #when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing. #they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly? #and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go) #and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW." #''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.'' #and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.

[h4m1lt0ns]

HEARTBREAK SYNDROME.

episode eight :: GOOD DAYS

꒰꒰◌‧₊ ⬪˙⋆ pairing ︴max verstappen x ex!y/n (barely), multiple x y/n

꒰꒰◌‧₊ ⬪˙⋆ genre ︴social media au

꒰꒰◌‧₊ ⬪˙⋆ summary ﹔it’s a good day to be y/n, to be a y/n stan and a red bull hater.

꒰꒰◌‧₊ ⬪˙⋆ face claim ﹔ wonyoung jang (28)

꒰꒰◌‧₊ ⬪˙⋆ warnings ﹕ hot dilfs, none.

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y/n singapore gp ft. george stealing my phone and queen alexandra doing god’s work 😮‍💨

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y/n ‘is there someone else/starry eyes’ 🎬 mv & behind the scenes are both out now 💐 had the absolute pleasure and honour of working with my closest best friends and literal soulmates on this one and they looked like princesses ⭐️💗 can’t be happier than this 🫧 love u to death!!! directed by me btw >:)

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[beansandsprouts]

Sunshine

Female reader. Sparse use of y/n.

Summary: Growing up, Bucky never thought he'd find his soulmate. Years and years and years of searching. Even Steve had found his. But you were nowhere to be found. Until he was living in the Avengers Tower. Until you happened to join the team.

Warnings: none

Considering making this a series, let me know if you wanna be tagged in the next one. I may consider doing a bit of a rewrite of it all on my other fanfic blog and add in some sweet smut in there. Everything on this blog will be kept mostly PG.

Bucky was irritated. He didn't see why there had to be this big deal about a new team member. And he didn't understand why he had to be there. They hadn't been told much about you. All Tony had said was you were ex-military, and that everyone typically called you Grim. As in Grim Reaper. Bucky had to admit he was curious to know what earned you that nickname.

With a callsign like that, you had to be ruthless. Cold blooded. So he wasn't expecting this cute bubbly thing to practically skip in alongside Tony with a huge grin. Though he could tell that belt buckle you had on was hiding a knife.

He was immediately taken with you. He'd been a heartthrob in his younger years, had no shortage of women throwing themselves at him. Though he hadn't really been with anyone since being freed from Hydra, though he'd seen pretty women. You, however, were completely different.

The warmth of your smile and twinkle in your eyes made his chest warm. He admired the shape of your lips and the way your jaw curved. Even the little glimpse of your collarbone had him tingling with an unfamiliar excitement.

"Alright, everyone this is our new teammate. I'll let you introduce yourself." I gestured for you to step forward.

"Hi, nice to meet you all. Name's y/n but most just call me Grim." You offered a bright smile.

Bucky felt his heart skip a beat when you spoke your name. Hell everytime he heard that name he got his hopes up, and without fail they'd been dashed. There was no way it was you. You were technically a lot younger than him, it'd be ridiculous if you were his soulmate.

Right?

Everyone else immediately greeted you warmly, your sunshiney demeanor immediately brought a feeling of ease to everyone around you. It didn't take long before you and Steve were swapping combat stories. Bucky sat quietly the entire time, taking you in. He was hoping to get a glimpse of your soulmate mark, wondering if it'd be his name written in his messy writing. But your damned long sleeves obscured even the tiniest glimpse of it.

Your laugh was like music to his ears. He felt breathless hearing that beautiful sound and watching the way your face changed. You were gorgeous. Even the way you blinked had him enamored.

He swallowed hard as you giggled and playfully nudged Natasha when she made a joke. You hadn't even directly spoken to him yet and he was already absolutely whipped for you.

After a while, everyone dispersed, and Tony led you to your room. Which coincidentally was right across from Buckys.

He awkwardly stood in his doorway as he watched someone bring two duffels and a box into your room. You didn't have much. He had a feeling you had tactical gear in those duffels and a few sets of fatigues. He had to admit he was a bit surprised considering your bubbly personality. He thought you'd be the type to have a bunch of cutesy clothes to wear when you were off duty. And some pretty things to decorate your room.

Though to be fair you'd basically come straight here from the military. You'd hinted at having enhanced abilities, but Bucky doubted you'd been given the same serum as him or Steve. He had to admit he was excited to see what you were capable of.

You'd dropped the box on your bed and noticed Bucky across the hall.

"Hey! You're Bucky right?"

A bit embarrassed to have been caught watching, he just silently nodded.

"You're also a super soldier, yeah?"

He nodded again and you offered a soft smile.

"Steve's more the talker huh?"

Bucky huffed out a chuckle.

"Definitely." He responded.

It was the first time you'd heard him speak and it sent shivers down your spine and a heat between your legs. He'd caught your eye the moment you entered the common room, and now his room was straight across from his. If you had to describe the situation in one word it'd have to be "fucked." It woukd be heaven and torture to have such a gorgeous man living mere feet away from you.

"Well I look forward to spending more time together. I don't mind silence." You offered a sweet smile. You couldn't help but notice the way his cheeks tinged red at that, which you found incredibly adorable.

This was going to be an interesting experience.

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