#my own room at least

[adhd-worlds]

Adhd ppl should have adhd friends where you just go and clean each other's house/room for them bc its easier to tidy up someone else's place than it is to tidy up my own

#adhd #adhd problems #adhd hyperactive #adhd inattentive #neurodivergency #adhd vibes #adult adhd #i have adhd #adhd post #actually adhd #adhd brain #adhd things #executive dysfunction #i hate cleaning #my own room at least #neurodivergencies #neurodivergent solidarity #neurodivergent #neurodiversity

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some fantasy traveler inventory details (like what they would carry in their bags), based on two of the recent costumes I did.. love finding random little scraps and items and putting them together lol

#it's obvious who's is who's since they match their outfits HOWEVER.. consider if they were switched lol #evil villain looking man carrying around pressed flowers in a cutesy lacy pouch #fantasy costume #what's in my bag #actualyl that would have been funny to make a video. I should make a video #I'm sure someone else has already done this #but like.. lifestyle vlogger type content however I'm dressed in fully costume as some weird elf or something #pulling things out of my bag and showing them to the camera and talking about how they're useful for whatever #but it's all fantasy scenarios and talking like it's very common #'and of course. i know it's a bit cliche #EVERY traveler has one of these. but you know. theyre just useful! thats why everyone has one!' *pulls out a completely unrecognizable item #thats like some weird fantasy world prop and doesn't even explain it because In-world it's normal and wouldnt need to be talked about* #'room tour' video and it's just like 'yeah I sleep on this mat under a bunch of trees uh.. over here by these rocks. at least right now. I #kind of wander around a bit. so' #Like a clothing haul but it's a potions shop haul or something and they ramble about some obscure drama in the potions community and how the #y hard to barter and steal and entire flock of sheep or something just to get one of them. etc. etc. #I could do ones for different characters too like. multiple people from different walks of life showing what they carry around with them. #just like this but more interview sort of vlog format instead of photos #This is where not having much money and not having my own house with land becomes an issue though #I think it would take you out of the illusion if the background was always the same. I can make small sets because there's one blank wall in #a room that it's easy to move all the stuff away from in front of and clear a spot and like hang up fabrics or whatever but still.. hmms #So one of those 'fun idea but dubious about handling the execution' things. also One Of Those Things where without looking it up you're 100% #sure it's already been done and you don't want to look weird since it's vaguely niche. Like if 100 people have done something it's fine but #if only like 3 other people have then you look weird maybe ghhjbj.. or only one other person gods forbid. looks even weirder potentially #Or do people not care about ''copying'' anymore?? idk. I'm not updated with the internet's changing culture. I just have a fear of accidenta #lly doing something like that and then people getting mad even though it's really just that I competely had no idea it had been done because #again.. I live under a rock and am unaware of everything lol. ANYWAY. also would require my face being on video which I don't like. Though I #would be in costume so that helps. I think to be fully comfortable I'd need light modifications to make my face look different. which isn't #hard but is more effort when it has to be translatable in multiple angles. ANYWAY. ghjbhj... Now I think it would be funny actually. maybe #one day. I haven't made any videos (aside from on the gameplay/sims channel) in a long long time actually. hmm'st

[apelcini]

there is a hollowness inside of rich kids that truly terrifies me.

#no wonder some of them don’t know how to be people #like. i was never poor growing up. we were two disasters from bankruptcy instead of just one. but at least i had normal child experiences?? #did my own first aid and was so proud of that. getting dragged to my mom’s work when i had a sick day and getting basically all the regional #colds over in that waiting room. making a grilled cheese or a pbj when my parents weren’t home yet #gotten really annoyed about having to take care of siblings and drive them places #like man sometimes i think I’m so clueless and then others I’m like. how the hell are you people still alive #you look like a deep sea fish collapsing under the lack of pressure on the surface

[blinkpen]

brainstorming mechanics for a bloody mary of my very own

#mog art #artists on tumblr #horror #monster #this is for a self-contained horror project with its own story entirely unrelated to MantleDwellers #and by project i mean... possibly live action..? never thought i'd say that but anyway- #she might cameo in MD though or show up once as part of its Monster of the Week format bc My Original CreepyPasta Monster My Rules #speaking of rules there's more to this setup obvs n other effects n powers and i'm still playing around with her appearance #adjustments n such; already will be changing 7 nights to 12 bc Clocks #blood cw #death cw #want to get the specifics just right so there's room for protags to get fucked over when they think they've won #AND there still be the loophole that lets you Actually defeat this thing #or at least neutralize it after summoning so you don't have to commit 2 sit in a chair u cant ever move every night until you die

[doubledyke]

it doesn't really make sense in the logic (lol) of the show but part of me loves the idea that edd is being raised by his grandparents.... kids who are raised by grandparents tend to be overly mature and a little uhhhhh off-beat. i feel like it could explain a lot.

#before you ask yes this is me projecting #i know some folks hc his parents as being a bit long in the tooth which i like too #but idk i just think it would explain so many things about edd to learn that he was in fact raised by senior citizens #and shit i still call my grandma 'mom' so to me its not weird at all that he'd call his grandparents 'mother and father' #everything else about them stays the same though #theyre still aloof and neglectful #and i still think the worst of them #anyway i love projecting my trauma onto edd specifically for some reason #he's such an easy target for angst i can't help it #oh and speaking of angst #for anyone who saw that post a while back and is interested in an update on my whole bastard landlord/roommate kicking me out situation: #i found a room and will be moving in 2 weeks 🥴 kill all landlords etc etc but hey at least i'll have my own bathroom #and won't be living with the final boss of millennials/reddit incarnate #unfortunately for you guys though that means i should be able to indulge in my tomfoolery again soon (shit posting and shit drawing) #even though it seems like our tiny fandom has gotten even smaller recently #alright i'll shut up now biiiiii

[recurring-polynya]

howl, zabimaru

bonus: here it is in two other colorways

#zabimaru #my fanart #is this...folk art? #this is a birthday present for renji because srsly who wouldn't want a linocut of their own bankai? #happy birthday renji! #i think this was more process than product but i had a pretty good time making it #sorry i couldn't decide between the colors so you get all of them #this is so awful but the purple version is actually based on RENJI'S STUPID TOQUE FROM ROLLING STAR #or at least at made it at the time that i was trying to color-correct that screenshot #i was just going thru the gradient maps that i had and was like 'oh no this looks good' #this is all digital btw #made possible by the bardotbrush art maker's club block print toolkit brushset. thank you lisa! i hope you never see this!! #i actually did take an actual block printing class once. it turned out it was less of a class and more of open studio for 3 old dudes #and as a result it took a ton of time outside of class that i didn't really expect #and i had a baby at the time and i also sucked at art then so i didn't re-enroll when it was over #point being: i think it would funny to go back and do nothing but 20-year old anime-themed block prints #you laugh but there was a big ass print someone made of totoro hanging in the room and it slapped

[puppyeared]

if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified

#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing #i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though #at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself #as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed #escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date #although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL #ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting #workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety #i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back #AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO #im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts #i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem #in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material #and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school #maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess #only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard #hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms #i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work #not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall #anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh #yapping

[s0fter-sin]

when midoriya punches the zero pointer at the entrance exam, all might says “show who you are, embody what it means to be a true hero, nothing is nobler than self sacrifice” do you think aizawa heard kill bill sirens

#he said that very loud and very confidently #i hold true to the hc that midoriya is so reckless due to his horrific self worth from being quirkless #but a good chunk of it is definitely bc of all might #who through his own issues encourages his self isolation and the worth of his power and what he can do with it over midoriya himself #and then you have aizawa who has spent his entire teaching career hammering home that living is just as important as saving someone #all might nedzu and probably everyone else in the room saw that as a heroic moment #midoriya saved uraraka with an unbelievable move with no reward for himself #aizawa is the only one that sees a kid break three out of four of his limbs and plummet to the earth with no plan to save himself #if uraraka hadnt managed to hit him he wouldve at the very least shattered his other arm #he very easily couldve died #and aizawas the only one that notices #thats why he grills him during the ball throw #he says midoriya cant be a hero bc being one will lead to him killing himself if he doesnt change #bc he saw a kid that would destroy himself at every given chance to help someone else #and hes the only one that realises how wrong that is #its been a minute since ive watched this scene and damn it hits a bit different now #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #go beyond plus ultra #aizawa shouta #midoriya izuku #deku #all might #bnha #mha #save post

[spockandawe]

i ate'nt dead

Here's a VERY mediocre midnight picture where i managed to lose the reflection on the foil i was photographing while catching it for every other book on the table, but! BUT! I haven't forgotten this all exists. All the binderary books are ready to photograph, as soon as I can scrub the green paint from my fingers, apply new polish to the nails, clean a table, and find a few minutes when I'm not running late for a meeting. This year has been.... so tired and lethargic, but simultaneously, so overstuffed and frantic. Honestly not super into it!!!!

#the other two thirds of my books are on a table across the room #an impossible gap to cross #yes this is misvil at least.... v3. yes i still have all of them. no I haven't finished tooling v2. what about it #this one tho.... so teeny tiny #i should have turned my own tooling graphic into the cricut covers for these tbh #jk im not weeding that #i am NEVER doing half-legal again if I can help it #every part of these was a huge pain #except the snake leather that was a doll

[shima-draws]

Really wish I could fight the schmuck who invented allergies with my bare hands

#Seasonal allergies suck ASS. #Usually it's not too bad but like. Our air conditioning has been out for like 3 days now #And it's not getting fixed til Monday #So I've had to sleep with my windows open bc otherwise I'd ROAST like a pig in my room #(Which is upstairs. Where ALLLL the heat in the house travels to) #But bc I've had to sleep with my windows open. ALL the pollen keeps blowing in #So I'll wake up with my eyes streaming and my nose streaming and EVERYTHING just. Awful #I could close the window. But then I'd cook. But my allergies are SO bad. But it's hot. But I literally cannot breathe through my own snot. #HATE IT HERE #I hate summer. I HAAAATE summer so much #I can't wait for fall and winter.....snow please come back..... #Shima speaks #I'm so angry bc I've been stuffy and congested all day. And I've taken at least 3 allergy pills #Still dying btw! Still dying. Very much suffering rn

[a-s-levynn]

"Even if the sky cracks in mourning / And the heavens just won't open up for me" A Series of Small Offerings - II/12 - day20

#a series of small offerings #sleep token fanart #elaboration on this piece further down in the tags because this one may confuse people i think #(also please note that i firmly believe that the from the room below version of this song is the superior one) #(so the art was made with that version in mind because that is the version that lives rent free in my brain for reasons) #i've been thinking so much how to approach this one.. i knew pretty much since i've made the challenge that i will go with this line #specifically because i refuse to hear it as the lyrics sites and spotify tells me to hear it (as it appears in the post) but instead #i don't hear the 'the' in any version of the song i'm sorry that is just not there #so i'm convinced it is 'as the sky cracks in mourning' #(sky cracking-lightning;sky mourning-rain) #which is also exactly how the song feels to me #being a sad wet cat of a person standing bare feet in a strom and just crying 'why i was i so blind to my own hubris' #specifically in relation of finally (and far too late) understanding you fucked up a relationship so bad it still hurts years after #if you've ever felt anything remotely similar you know what i'm talking about #and you get why i refuse it being 'in the morning' instead of 'in mourning' #vessel i #vessel #vessel sleep token #vessel fanart #sleep token band #sleeptoken #levynn tries to draw #sleep token #edit: i don't mean to offend those who stand behind the line being 'in the morning' btw i just don't hear it #and i don't think i'm correct. i'm correct for me. not in your stead. half the lyrics can be heard at least two ways #edit2: appearently i'm actually right about something for a change.. a truly unusual turn of events #see comments for referrence pls #also edited this post to the correct lyrics #but leaving the tags for context 'cause thw original version of the post has been rb-d before editing i think

[hermanunworthy]

GUYS GUYS heres a basic explanation of my idea for a dndads warrior cats au bc these have been two of the biggest interests of my ENTIRE LIFE. i am insane

s1: the dads are all from different clans (darryl thunderclan, henry skyclan, glenn windclan, ron riverclan. and then jodie shadowclan technically) and they meet up at a gathering. at the gathering, their kits go missing, and then the riverclan, skyclan, and windclan leaders get possessed by dark forest cats (the omega daddies) and deliver a prophecy to the dads to go save their kits. so they all travel together on a journey to a different forest (the forgotten realms) in search of their kits while the dark forest cats continue to torment them

s2: the apprentices (the teens) are unaware that they arent living in the original homes of their clans. their dads led a mission back in the day (code purple) to migrate all the clans (under the threat of something, idk what the doodler would be in this au but its like how in wc canon how they all had to move to the lake) to the forgotten realms forest where the clans all pretty much live together. their dads have been taken and the apprentices have to go to the original forest to save them, while dealing w the big bad riverclan dark forest cat (willy) whos training scary in her dreams. hell arc(s) = visiting the dark forest, heaven arc = visiting starclan, etc etc this is so exciting to me

#i will expand upon this more at some point #AND I WILL DRAW THE CHARACTERS AS CATS. AT LEAST THE APPRENTICES. TRUST #u have no idea how fucking NUTS i was over wc back in middle school i literally still own 50+ books theyre in my room rn #plzzzz tell me theres some overlap in these two fandoms. i think a couple of my mutuals like both iirc #PLZ TALK W ME ABOUT THIS I LOVE KITTYFYING MY FAVES #dndads #dndads au #siren says

[drbtinglecannon]

The first morning after moving in Darius has to console a confused & panicked Hunter over the dead rat Eber left outside his bedroom door, promising it's supposed to be a sign of affection

VS

The third month after moving in Hunter is all smug & bragging the entire morning that he's gotten FIVE (5) dead rats that month whereas Darius has only gotten one (1).

#toh #darius deamonne #toh hunter #hunter deamonne #eberwolf the huntsman #toh shitpost #toh incorrect quotes #im gonna draw this as a comic someday but until then i will type it as a shitpost #anyway cant convince me darius & eber dont live together (or at least that eber doesnt have his own room at darius' house) #& that hunter ends up living with different adults. this is my truth until proven otherwise & even then it probably will remain #h: I'M the favorite ( ꈍᴗꈍ) #d: trust me I'm happy to not be the favorite #the owl house #tc posts

[running-in-the-dark]

waiting in the doctor's office now. it's so interesting how everyone is coughing and yet not wearing a mask. I mean, my ear hurts and I'm still wearing a mask (would be while going to the doctor, no matter what).

also I'm pretty sure my ear has stopped hurting 🤦 but it's fine, I'll still get it checked out. it was really bad for two days so I figure that still makes sense.

#like come on at least do it then? you don't have to all the time but when you're sick AND waiting at the doctor's office #but hey at least I'm not sitting in the waiting room itself :') I've got to wait until 9 and I'm in a different room on my own #personal

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

I really hate the inconsistencies that exist just to make SB (and CF technically) work, but also how hard Petra basically simps for Edelgard to the point it deconstructs aspects of her character.

In Houses she mentions her siblings being in danger if she died, but in SB she just doesn't even make any mention of them in this situation. She's just willing to possibly die all of a sudden for someone who never actually treated Brigid like its people were independent (which she could've done at literally any time from the moment she became emperor). She was relatively vocally I guess you could say "good" to Petra, but the way the writing handles Petra's response to all of it feels like Petra's just been brainwashed.

Petra says she would always choose survival and makes a point to emphasis that, but in SB she's completely and carelessly willing to risk her life and possibly throw it away... for Edelgard? Who still has not actually officially freed Brigid? And if Petra were to stop being Edelgard's ally?

"Reconsideration". Because Brigid was never freed and now they're not going to be as long as Edelgard is in charge, because their queen is no longer bending to her will and fighting for her. If she was ever truly planning to free Brigid, Petra's decision alone not to fight for her shouldn't have changed that fact (especially since she supposedly gives her the choice in Houses to fight for her or not, and on non CF routes she does this by sending a letter, to which Petra refuses).

It should, of course, be obvious with this that everything is very not hunky dory between Adrestia and Brigid, but then...

...eh wot hooligans???

I mean sure, if you considered forced vassalage to be "peace" and not being a free people "peace" then sure. But like... it's not a peace her people want and she should know that, but the game tends to do this back and forth with this topic. I hate it though because it makes it come across as being forced into submission and not having the means to fight back is "peace".

I know this game has lots of issues with uh, if you're attacked or if you were defeated by another military force you should submit and be happy about being taken over, and when you can't fight back anymore that's "peace" because nobody's fighting... but uhh... why is that only an issue with the Empire? I mean, we know why - the devs wanted to walk with her and they admitted it! But like... they should still know when they're writing something reeeeally icky.

Duscur doesn't have this problem and they're not under Edelgard's foot. Anything under Edelgard's foot though is treated like they should be thankful for her control and/or invasion(s). That just overall sends a really nasty message. I don't know that the devs meant to do that as far as an Empire, but I do think it's because they went a little hard with the Edelgard bias and somehow forgot what it would look like to an audience playing the game.

It's like they know it's not a good thing but they keep pushing the "Brigid isn't actually free but it's still peace because nobody is fighting" narrative.

Like... I don't care how much you love a character you're writing. You can't tell me that oppressed nations would just call oppressions "peace" or that their leaders would be more than happy to fight and die for the leader of the nation oppressing them. It gets even worse when you get into the racial territory of it, but that's a topic I've already covered so I'm not gonna go over it again here.

#DCB Three Hopes Run #I know ppl have talked abt this before but it's still smth that bugs me and #frankly this game is only a year old so the issues that were present in Houses #now being present again in Hopes means they were not fixed at all in the writers room #as recently as a year ago. I'm glad they went back to normal FE formula with Engage bc of shit like this #And yeah reminder I discuss some of the negative/harder topics here and not just what I like #I don't tag anything like this outside my own tag(s) though bc I'm not interested in discourse #but I still want to be able to talk about this stuff and I do have some mutuals who are interested in these discussions #which I say this bc I have a section of mutuals who don't like these discussions #and a section of mutuals who do want to discuss this stuff and typically the ones who do go into these topics #tend to be on/posting/etc around the time I'm posting this one so I try to balance when I post these things #around the time those mutuals will be on and when the others are sleepingggg zzzz bc I got at least a bit lucky with that! #Generally one side of y'all are awake at once so it works out pretty well #I talk abt things in equal measure with things I love abt these games so if it's just smth that #I want to talk abt then I do with all my little details and stuff bc that's what I do for all FE games #If I don't like smth I'm gonna talk abt it just like if I like smth I will talk abt it

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry im thinking abt death again #because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died #that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from #time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed #i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she #died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way #my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today #for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days #and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt #future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her #last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that #and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving. #sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless #others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club #i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her #stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i #dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my #family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters #probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno. #i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity. #again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a #full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length #unrelated