#not only that he gets such a good support system

[tommy-evan]

also this episode was so beautifully done in showing where each of the character focuses are in their healing, not just their own, but the others around them

hen and karen have gone through the ups and downs of their fostering and adoption journey. we saw them take the news of mara so graciously at the start, and then this episode we see them react emotionally to mara being hurt by someone not showing up for her. their emotions are still strong, the fear of something happening to their babies still wrought no matter what. but it ends with them getting what they had wished so badly for mara, and it shows where they are in their growth and healing

maddie gets a domestic violence call that ends happily. but in between that, we saw the parts of maddie that we were once worried about with her: getting obsessed over calls and borderline gaslighting herself for not being enough. but this time, she doesn't do it alone. she leans into her support system, on her husband (!!!) who understands her enough to take her out of her spiral. she leans into athena and the support she provides throughout the whole journey

eddie is in a good place after season 5/6. he is smiling, happy and carefree, but we know that he struggles with shannon. the memory of her forever embedded in his mind and heart. he's forever trying to fill a whole in his heart that is shaped by shannon and the love she leaves behind, and for a moment we think he's okay. making steps and recognizing where he's going wrong with marisol. and then he meets kim, and she's a bright, beautiful reflection of his dead wife, and we're hit with just how much he truly hasn't healed

and finally bobby. we don't see much of bobby here, but we know amir is there. and amir is from that apartment fire that will always be a part of bobby. and like eddie, he hasn't grappled with the loss of his family. we knew that from the start. his family with athena does not fill the void that that marcy and his children left behind when they died. and him surviving, thriving, living his life on the other side of the country doesn't change the fact that people had died in that fire, or have been hurt and marked by that fire. and sometimes, healing means grappling with it head on, and while bobby doesn't know at the moment that a ghost from his past has just made an appearance, it'll only be a matter of time until amir makes himself known

#9-1-1 #911 abc #911 spoilers #beautifully done by the show honestly #911 meta #eddie diaz #bobby nash #hen wilson #karen wilson #maddie buckley #chimney han #shannon diaz

[brucewaynehater101]

"It's A Wonderful Life" AU with Tim and Jason

I only know the very basic premise of this movie, so we're going off of that.

Tw: death, suicide, violence

This could be a Titan's Tower AU, but I do think this could be a bit more fun after the BruceQuest.

Tim, who's had his support systems (even the JL ripped from him) and is seething in paranoia, gets cornered by Red Hood. The last time he saw Jason alone, he got a batarang to the chest (Battle of the Cowl). Tim has no reason to suspect this interaction will be friendly.

Red Robin is geared up for a fight. Red Hood has his hands up in surrender and far away from his hip holsters. It's not exactly reassuring (Jason can probably whip out his pistols in the same amount of time it takes Tim to grab a birdarang), but it does communicate that Jason isn't looking for a fight. Tim, who's one mental breakdown away from taking over Lex Corp for the hell of it, doesn't see this as a good sign. Why would Jason, the original Cain instinct, want to talk "peacefully" with his Placeholder? What's the aim?

Jason kind of just wants to apologize and is low-key concerned with how he's so isolated from everyone. He doesn't truly care about Tim, and he doesn't think it's his place/right/ability to be the support for the kid, but he can at least say sorry. Tim doesn't need to accept it, but he deserves the acknowledgement that it was indeed fucked up and not Tim's fault in the slightest. It's not much, especially with the scar on Tim's throat and the trauma, but it's a start. He still holds some resentment for the kid, but he's starting to learn that's more Jason and Bruce's fault than Tim's.

The conversation doesn't go great. Maybe Tim is being defensive and an asshole (which is fair since Jason's attacked him twice at least). Jason gets a little upset over this and snaps back (which is not what he's trying to do and counterproductive).

They get interrupted by this magician that sighs. They explain how fucking exhausting it is hearing them continue to misunderstand each other so they will show them what the world was like if Tim was never born.

Cue something similar to the movie I described. I haven't seen it, so here's what I think happens in that movie combined with this AU.

Tim and Jason stumble around Gotham at the current date in this alternative universe.

It's hell. They constantly run into crime on every corner, and there's no order.

They find out that Bruce had died within a year of Jason dying. Gotham fell to shambles due to Batman's declining reputation at that point. They had no hope and were hostile to any heroes that tried to help (due to the last hero they had turning on them). Gotham was eventually abandoned by the US government.

With his death, people found out Bruce Wayne was Batman. This causes Alfred to be sent to jail, and Dick could never return to Gotham. Dick only survived due to the Titan's refusing to let him destroy himself. He's still not okay.

Damian never came to Gotham cause Bruce had died. He's still set to become Ra's vessel, and no one (like Dick, the JL, Jason, etc) knows about this plot.

Jim Gordon was killed, and Barbara had to move out of Gotham.

Steph joined Helena for a bit. They made a kickass team, but they didn't survive to the current day.

Duke and his family moved out of Gotham before the gates closed, but he lost his parents in the escape.

Cass was never taught language.

Jason killed the Joker and then himself.

Anyways, Gotham goes to shit and Bruce kills himself on patrol (let's himself be hit and doesn't give himself needed rest). That's the basics of what they learned in this alternative universe.

This causes Tim to feel a bit better about all the sacrifices he made. He was vital and important to the Bats. He did good. He was necessary. It doesn't erase all the pain and hurt, but it boosts his self-esteem just a small bit.

Jason didn't realize the extent of what Tim did for them. He didn't realize the impact of Tim's decision and how he saved everyone. The two of them part, and Jason starts to uncover all the sacrifices the teen made.

Tw: suicide

If you want extra angst, maybe the magician reveals that Tim was planning to kill himself before he saw that Bruce needed him (thus the world is what happened if Tim went through with his OG plan). Tim has severely unhealthy coping mechanisms now, but his tendency to help people allows himself to feel needed. Lots to unpack there.

#dc comics #tim drake #dc universe #jason todd #dcau #dc au

[ranidspace]

i don’t get the whole rap battle between Kendrick & drake because, obviously kendrick’s the better one here but he apparently knew all this shit about drake being a pedophille and groomer the WHOLE TIME and then only spoke up in order to win a fight, and kendrick had Kodak Black on his last album, who was charged and plead guilty for sexual battery in 2016 for raping a teenage girl and also got in hot water for child neglect. same kinda shit as drake. idk, no matter how good his bars are and how good he pretends he is, kendrick still just seems like a typical man who protects and supports predators when they’re his friends and calls women bitches while he’s at it

yeah. context to those who dont know kodak black was convicted of rape in 2016 (6 years before mr morale dropped) and has a history of violence

i really cant argue against that, but i believe he wasn't added to the album as an endorsement of what he did. Mr. Morale is an album about personal growth, and about Kendrick himself. Kodak said himself that him and kendrick are very similar in a lot of small ways.

while kendrick's never said why kodak was added to the album, many believe it's the contrast of despite the fact they're similar, kodak has a history of violence and has went to jail many times, highlighting how even though kendrick is successful, others like him are still struggling with systemic racism and the cycle of violence and crime pushed by that same system.

The line as well "like it when they pro black, but I’m more Kodak Black" is literally telling the viewers he's not a Savior or a Mr. Morale, he's closer to a Big Stepper who makes awful mistakes

i can't say it was a good idea to include a rapist on an album, that does deserve criticism. but i believe it wasn't him supporting rapists, it more read as "there's growth and change both individuals and the entire system needs to do"

I'd definitely say i didn't explain this part enough because i didnt know too much about kodak black so i'd really appreciate others chiming in.

as for the "people have known about drake being a groomer the whole time" yeah. people have. he's gotten away with it until now. and it's a good thing that a well respected and incredibly famous person is bringing light to it.

kendrick had fuck all to do with drake since poetic justice so he didnt say shit about him. a lot of the industry kinda hated drake the whole time, and have been speaking out against him. kendrick's just the second (shout out megan thee stallion) to make it into a popular catchy song, which is a good thing as well because it gets more people talking about it!!!

Drake was the one who made Push Ups and Taylor Made and constantly went online to told him to make a response track. like the feud would have been over at Like That but it was Drake constantly provoking him to make content. Straight up doing things that kendrick said "hey if you do this i'm going to retaliate" and then drake did it, and kendrick retaliated exactly like he said he was. This whole thing is Drake's fault, he's the one constantly pushing it.

I can't say kendrick isnt also pushing it now, but everything's pointing to he's just making more songs to bring more people to talk about it. There's no ads on the videos. He's not copyright claiming anything. He's making serious songs to highlight issues and catchy songs to spread this info far. it's a genius use of the medium to bring light to the issues drake brings.

which is what kendrick is fucking known for. using music to bring light to the issues the world face

#ask #Anonymous #kendrick lamar #kodak black #drake

[shelyue99]

An incomplete list of Lewis Nixon’s roles during the war. ( it’s incomplete because certainly there are more, the following are just what I get from reading Beyond Band of Brothers and the Biggest Brother):

Nix's job titles during the war: Assistant platoon leader of Easy Company - 2d Battalion S-2 (Intelligence Officer)- 506th Regiment S-2 - 2d Battalion S-3 (Operation Officer)

• Briefed the men before the jump

• In Normandy, brought the maps Dick found at Brécourt Manor to Utah Beach

• Brought back two Sherman tanks from Utah Beach to help Dick clear the areas and secure the causeway

• Brought up the 81mm mortars from battalion headquarters company to reinforce Easy in Holland

• Made way back to battalion and brought trucks to help with the withdrawal when Easy was pulling back from Nuenen

Though tightly squeezed and under heavy fire, Easy held its ground. The Germans did not enter Nuenen. As the sky drew dark, Winters, badly outnumbered, finally ordered his men to withdraw. A short distance west of the village, a line of American deuce-and-a-half trucks waited for them, as did Lewis Nixon. He had been with Easy when it ran into the Germans. Knowing Winters would need help, he made his way back to battalion and ordered up the trucks.

"Thought maybe you could use a ride," Nixon said to Winters as his friend approached.

• Checked roadblocks with Dick, when Dick checked one direction Nixon checked the other

• Made rounds and checked on men during the night while Dick did the same during the day

One main difference between the two was the hours they kept. Winters was an early riser. He loved getting up early and getting a start on the day. Nixon was a night owl. He did his best work in the afternoon and at night. When they were out on the line, this proved an ideal arrangement. Winters kept tabs on the men during the day; Nixon made the rounds at night. This kept company commanders on their toes because they never knew when one or the other would show up and expect a status report.

•Accompanied Dick on a battalion inspection tour, but because of the urine incident instead they drove to Nijmegen to look for hot showers

• In Bastogne, Nixon acted as a liaison between battalion and regiment to clear confusion and keep the 2d Battalion out of a lot of trouble.

It is difficult to comprehend the confusion that characterized our first night at Bastogne. No one seemed to know where our boundaries lay, nor did anyone understand our precise mission. Since Colonel Strayer remained at regimental headquarters, I ordered Captain Nixon to locate Colonel Sink's command post and to coordinate with Major Hester, the regimental operations officer, to ensure we had our orders correct. Over the next few weeks, Nixon made many trips back to regiment to keep us informed and to ensure we understood our orders and our boundaries with adjacent units. This system worked well and kept 2d Battalion out of a lot of trouble.

Nix's greatest contribution to the successful defense of Bastogne was serving as a liaison between battalion and regimental headquarters. No man contributed more to keeping the regiment together during the ensuing battle. Nixon performed exceeding well in interpreting regimental orders and coordinating operational support while I positioned myself close to the forward edge of the battle area.

To give you an idea how dedicated Nixon was to the 506th PIR, at Bastogne he had his name drawn from a hat in a lottery that would have given him a thirty-day leave to the United States. Nix refused the offer, saying he wanted to stay with the outfit on the line. How do you explain that kind of dedication? Such devotion is never discussed by the men, but it is never forgotten. At the time, the 506th PIR was very short of men and officers, especially good, proven officers.

The young German Winters captured wasn't the only one confused. Officers on the line were often uncertain about their responsibilities and instructions. Not the least of these befuddled men was Strayer himself.

After attending briefings at regimental or division HQ, Strayer would gather his battalion staff around him and fill them in. Unfortunately, Winters often found Strayer's information vague and confusing. He cast questioning glances at Nixon, who would respond by rolling his eyes. After these briefings, Nixon would walk back to regiment to meet with Major Hester for clarification.

"Strayer had no goddamn idea what he was supposed to do," Winters said sixty years later. "But there's more than one way of skinning a cat, and the system Nixon and I had worked. Nixon did a good job. He kept 2nd Battalion out of a lot of trouble."

• Bitching with Dick about the brass and the army

"You know what this is, don't you," Winters told Nixon after receiving the orders. "Taylor's finally back and now he has to show off for Eisenhower." "Yeah," Nixon replied. "He probably figures we've just been sitting on our asses back there in Bastogne, and now he expects us to go out and kick German butt."

Winters' awareness of Taylor's return was based on firsthand experience. Shortly after the commanding general's arrival, after the siege of Bastogne had been broken, Taylor had visited his men in the field.

While inspecting 2nd Battalion's front, he strode briskly along the line with Winters and the other officers trailing along behind. Finishing, he turned to Winters and said, "Watch those woods in front of you." Then he left. Winters' jaw dropped, then he turned to Nixon.

"'Watch those woods in front of you'? " he said. "What the hell did he think we've been doing while he was back in Washington?"

Now that the men were no longer living outside in the ice and snow, the army saw fit to ship them sixty-one hundred pairs of winter shoepacs, arctic socks, felt insoles and six thousand yards of white cloth, enough to make two thousand snowsuits.

"Oh my, how we could have used them six weeks ago at Bastogne," Winters said to Nixon as he looked at the stacks of cold-weather gear his men no longer needed.

"Guess we should be glad we got them at all," Nixon said wryly. "They could have shipped them to the Pacific."

• Accompanied and drove around with Dick on various occasions in Germany/Austria, including inspecting German surrendered troops, the weapons, the mess hall, etc.

• Being Dick’s close friend, confidant, companion, the one Dick could talk to and unburden himself

As different in temperament as Nixon and I were, he was the one man to whom I could talk. He provided an outlet that allowed me to unburden myself as a combat leader.

#lewis nixon #dick winters #winnix #band of brothers

[chaifootsteps]

Vikdecai headcanon anon, since it's been awhile!

I think there's a pretty good argument for a lot of the cast having kind of a clear demarcation in their identities from before & after they met Atlas - so like with Mitzi she played in the band, then after she met Atlas she had to quickly grow into the role of the bootlegger's wife - hard as nails and not easy to rattle, even when she still had insecurities about their marraige or the safety of their band

And this was also true of Mordecai, though he had a lot more disdain for his old self of the impoverished cat who had to flee New York because of his own prickly nature and an attempt to provide for his family that went wrong. But with Viktor it's sort of interesting because Viktor saw the transition from a Mordecai who was skinny, hungry and desperate to please Atlas before he became his triggerman and even more feared than Viktor himself

and every time he thinks he's lost Mordecai in the new persona, even though he loves him either way, something will happen that reminds him of Mordecai's old self - some lingering trauma related to Mordecai's old home or family, waking up from nightmares where his New York accent creeps out when he's scared, etc. Eventually he realizes he's the only one Mordecai trusts to let his vulnerable side creep out, maybe even more than Atlas due to his desire to impress his boss and him spending so many hours on stakeouts with Viktor

the tragic part is that Viktor had a 'before' self, too, when he had his wife and child. He sees himself as damaged, a family man with no family - but Mordecai never knew that Viktor. And the more Mordecai relies on him, the less Viktor wants to talk about his old life - because in this new one, he gets to be the support system for this infamously prickly cat. No matter how much they fight he feels strong again, because he's the one person Mordecai leans on

But then Mordecai kneecaps him and he takes away not only his strength but also shatters the last foundation he was building his identity around. Because there's only one of two options here - either Mordecai kneecapped him to keep Viktor out of the fight and out of danger (he didn't think of Viktor as the strong one after all, Viktor rationalizes) or he kneecapped him to be malicious and never cared for him at all

Viktor isn't sure which is worse

I'm choking up like a motherfucker, Anon. The betrayal, the before selves that only they ever get to see of one another...these two are a rabbit hole of pain and lord help me, I'm not prepared for whatever canon's probably going to throw at them both.

#Anonymous #Vikdecai anon #Vikdecai #Lackadaisy #actual blog post

[sugarpasteltmnt]

tbh haven’t reached out beyond my lil bubble here, and I like for other AU creators to feel totally comfortable with any kind of interactions between their AUs and my silly little guy— especially since there are some Intense Themes in TNV and I don’t wanna intrude too much on others’ AU settings—

but with @intotheelliwoods ’s 2AL @dianagj-art Sep-Leo I think the silliest (and chillest) interactions would just include TNV-Leo getting fashion pointers from Sprout, Poptart, and One because those boys have Drip and my Leo does Not LOOOOL

#I would only make a Gnarly headcanon if both creators would be chill with it 👍 #but of course the Gnarly would be on TNV Leo’s end not the others #there’s so much potential for the interaction between 2AL and TNV Leo #because Poptart is the version of himself that succeeded where he failed #not only that he gets such a good support system #I imagine TNV Leo would be very Petty about it #pastel prattling #tmnt au competition 2024

[mecachrome]

Alex Albon for High Performance

It was this weird thing, because — for example with Yuki, I wanted to take his seat! He was a potential candidate that I could replace. And I remember having that chat with Helmut Marko, and he told me at the time, "You need to driver-coach this guy." And I was like, "I'm not going to. That's a potential seat." And he said, "No, he's already signed. He's guaranteed." So I was like (throws hands), "Okay, fine. Then I'll help him."

#alex albon #* #so many good quotes in this.... saying he only developed his competitive drive upon losing his childhood privileges amongst them #the continuous professional struggle against natural temperament & symptoms of empathy & selflessness truly gets me every time #alex's propensity for self-dissection but also his simultaneous understanding of the drawbacks of such awareness 😵‍💫 #also #it is interesting that finally having his support systems in place and being the most mentally resilient he's ever been in his career #unintentionally stressed logan's rookie environment and replicated the media scrutiny & narratives he underwent his 2nd year with max #i will stop but..... alex albon i adore you

[statementlou]

So I see folks pointing out that Louis' circle A tattoo is more likely an aesthetic choice than an announcement of a political commitment to anarchism, and saying basically that that maybe makes him a bit of a poser and I mean- I GUESS. But I don't like to look at things that way and I don't think it's useful. As I see it the subversive sexiness of the symbols of resistance have ALWAYS been gateways for people who are drawn to the struggle in vague ways and that's GOOD. Aligning yourself with those values is good no matter the reason, in my book, especially given the wretched options available out there, but also the journey doesn't necessarily stop there. Gatekeeping queerness victimizes people who are just trying things out and starting to discover that it may run deeper than just trying on a new look who should instead be welcomed and helped along their path, and I fail to see how gatekeeping political affiliations is any different (plus how counterproductive to actual movement building is that?)

ANYWAY. What I really want to say about Louis is that while I KNOW that Louis is probably not secretly a theory reading anti-state communalist anarchist, I think that actually Louis' optimism and idealism (and his unwavering commitment to allying himself with the working class and embracing those roots) are a perfect fit for the philosophy and always have been. I know that anarchism is mostly understood as being about throwing molotov cocktails and fighting the state (and the allure of its symbols are that they signify this, a terrific aesthetic for him to choose to sign on with in my book), but that's honestly largely cartoonish stereotyping that comes directly from anti-anarchist state propaganda. That resistance is necessary in this hellscape of oppression we live in and is super important, but in its heart anarchism is only about the state in that the state and capitalism currently stands in the way of its goals. The whole point of anarchism is that it's NOT about the state! It's about being able to imagine something better than a state, it's about how we live and about how we SHOULD live, it's about HOPE and picturing something utopian and something free of the ways capitalism pits us against one another! What could be more Louis than that?

"I need you and you need me and I love that" is as beautiful a way of talking about the cornerstone of anarchism that is mutual aid as any long winded essay I've read (even if what he meant was contextually different), and I think when he talks again and again about how special the space fans have made around him is he is expressing an intuitive understanding of the importance of autonomous zones, places and moments outside of the shitty life imposed on us by the system (also a huge part of anarchist thought). Maybe I'm just being an optimist but I think that Louis DOES understand that caring for people and wanting self-determination and freedom for all and allying himself with the working class involves a certain amount of resistance to and positioning yourself in opposition to the state. Thinking the symbols of smashing that state are cool isn't meaningless; it's a CHOICE. There are other cool symbols out there and I just happen to think that feeling a resonance with certain ones is something in and of itself, even if at this moment he does not choose to start a fight with the media about it all.

#long version of this part maybe later… (orrr maybe here and now oops lol): #I believe we are all born natural anarchists with a desire to live in mutually supportive ways and in freedom #it only gets beaten out of people by the trauma of the system and being forced to struggle to survive #Louis shares with many privileged people a certain immaturity of not understanding those struggles #but I think that 'immaturity' can include- in smart and good people- not having lost sight of that utopianism #because they are able to conceptualize it because they live the way we all should be able to #free of so many of the survival struggles #(I think that in some areas maturity is code for 'beaten down to a good capitalist') #anyway and that's why autonomous zones are important: #because you HAVE to have the experience of freedom sometimes to be able to move towards it #you have to experience wins to be able to keep fighting #it's the candy crush theory of organizing lol like: people will simply give up and lose hope if everything is struggle and despair #and nothing is hope and success #you don't have to win the whole fight to get glimpses but you have to have moments #anyway a song I love that is about that is Saturday Night by the Coup it's a BOP go check her out she feels like winning #boots is a commie but that's okay he Gets It :P #anyway #anarchism #blah blah blah #I love being a louis apologist I should add that to my header what can I say: I love him #also look how many WORDS I can churn out when there's no show😂gotta fil the time somehow #send me questions I beg you we've got a long couple months ahead #comrade louis

[supjello]

bold move honestly to have all the characters yell every argument they knew fans would have at ted for why he should stay, and not have him say they’re wrong, or offer anything to counter it. Because at the end of the day it was his son. It was only his son. His son was the period at the end of the sentence, and always was going to be. Nothing else mattered, he was going home to his boy.

Literally if they were right I'd agree but it's them they know, not me. Now there's a way and I know that I have to go away. I know I have to go.

#ted lasso spoilers #ted lasso #do I like it? NO. does it feel good? NO. #did it have to happen? YES. #and he certainly wasn’t going to rip his son out of HIS home #his country the rest of his family his support system #just to force him to adapt to Ted’s lifestyle and circle in london #I get the escapist fantasy of that and I’m here for it in fic #but I think people are seriously underestimating how hard that is on a kid #moving is one of the most traumatic events a child can go through #so is divorce lmao #like would it be better for ted in england? abso-fucking-lutely #but he’s taking the L for his son #and is saving him some points on his future therapist’s ACE questionnaire lmao #ANYWAYS <-girl who only uses her workplace training about a child’s developing brain #to write hot takes about fictional families

[simplyender]

look i love spot just as much as anybody else but if i see somebody actually unironically siding with him and saying hes in the right, im gonna think theyre fucking insane

#WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS MILES FAULT--------- #the only legitimate grievance spot has with miles is how upsetting it mustve been to have his traumatic backstory be so easily dismissed #otherwise #how the fuck was miles supposed to know ohnn was there? how the fuck is it miles fault he SAVED THE ENTIRE GODDAMN MULTIVERSE? #spot legitimately needs help and he wont be finding it in KILLING MILES DAD #(not that spot can seem to get help considering his condition which explains his severe mental deterioration) #(which probably also resulted from the isolation that came right after a trauma conga line of becoming disabled+getting ostracized+ #+losing his job+losing any support system he mightve had) #but i am not blaming miles for any of that. thats THE SYSTEM #babey!!! #another note: spot worked for evil inc. literally what was he expecting would happen? he was down to shoot spiderman for trespassing like #he was very much not working for the good guys. #mind you even if im firmly on team 'actions have consequences'i still think what happened to spot was downright horrific and #he didnt deserve to be hurt to such a degree but. shrug. im gonna make a whole post on him some day i swear. #the spot #spiderverse spoilers #atsv spoilers #atsv #across the spiderverse #johnathon ohnn #miles morales #<- dont you dare touch a hair on his or his familys head wretched bagel man (affectionate) #spot

[v7n5]

Feel like pure shit, just want a smutty multi-chapter Howard Hamlin fanfic that recounts the many secret sexual affairs that he has had with different people throughout the course of his life, most of which he sought out to recompense for the lack of intimacy in his marriage because both him and Cheryl were iron-closeted and only got married out of familial pressures (things took a turn for the worse after the fight that ended with Howard moving into the guest house). Ultimately, none of them could fulfill his wants and needs because they're all cold and distant in their own ways: there were the handsome strangers he met at some gay bar like Nacho who were emotionally unavailable and only wanted to dick and dash like they're in denial themselves; Jimmy whom he was smitten with and trusted to be able to keep a secret, but it didn't take him long to realize that Jimmy being selfish and cruel and rougher than Howard had liked and not paying any mind to Howard's own pleasure in bed was his way of getting back at him for being a jackass of a boss; Chuck whom he'd got especially close with ever since he was still studying pre-law, so close that he would make up any excuse to be alone with him and suck him off in his office from time to time to seduce his mentor because the daddy issues that had been developing throughout his father-absent youth came to fruition the moment a wiser and older man gave him a sliver of attention, Chuck allowed him to live out his fantasy but never reciprocated in that sense but they remained really good friends, hence Howard's desperation for his approval and affection and the idea of "I still have a chance" kept brewing in his mind even when he could see Rebecca out of the corner of his eye (the incident at the end of ss3 scarred him for life and talking about the intimate details of their relationship before it in therapy did not help). The latter half of 607 didn't happen because he decided that he was in fact the bigger person and the right thing to do was to drink himself into reflecting back on his life choices and wallowing in his own self-pity. Though he didn't storm Mcwexler's condo, the whole ordeal was still his Joker moment, so he put his foot down, got a divorce and resigned from his CEO position because fuck you, he deserves to do that. And maybe after a year or so, he met a certain Salamanca who got out of a certain shoot-out unscathed (haven't determined if Howard happened to stumbled into El Michoacáno or he went back to the gay bar), their chemistry was through the roof, they bonded over the loss of families/ lovers and "being a nepo baby is oh so hard", their romance blossomed because Lalo was textbook definition of charming and exactly Howard's type. One date led to another, and Howard ended up getting the best pipe he'd ever had while trying to hold back the tears stemmed from indescribable emotions. Would Howard find out who Lalo actually was? Would it matter? Would they last? Those are problems for future them.

Like literally that's all I want tbh.

#howard hamlin #He's my girl. My fucking princess. #Idc like he's still rightfully owed a soft dom who's gonna take good care of him and appreciate him #(as much as I feen for power bottom Howard) #The slutification of this middle-aged man HAS to be riddled with angst or else I'll die #1 of the worst things that could ever happen to me is getting ideas that I think are good but cannot for the life of me do anything about it #That and becoming a **** ****** but we're not trauma dumping today #Being a bilingual with an English-leaning brain is not the W that people made it out to be #Honestly Nacho came into the picture when I was deadass half unconscious. I was like 'Ariana what are you doing here???' #But it's hot. And I kinda wanted Nachoward to win a bit #I also wanted to squeeze Gus in there too but in my head it'd be an 'admirer from afar' type of deal. Like Howard would have a crush on him- #-but decided against making a move cuz he would think Gus is out of his league or sth #This is essentially a Howard x everyone who I think could be compatible with him fanfic #For clarification. Cheryl and Howard don't hate each other. if anything they're each other's emotional support system #But I feel like there's only so much pretense you can put up you know #And yes. Lalo and Nacho were in love there. #Ok I've got it all out there now. Time for me to go marinate in shame #nacho varga #jimmy mcgill #chuck mcgill #lalo salamanca #better call saul

[theokusgallery]

I freaking love your au and your latest comic because MAN

I FELT THOSE LAST WORDS AND I WAS LIKE "OH FUCK"

First panel was already a bit unsettling itself - like you get it's just intimate manners as you do as a couple but he felt so possessive already and

Sunny's inner thoughts

I'm sure 100% his abandonment anxiety will increase drastically the more he stays with nick and honestly slay

I mean it's kinda obvious

But like I felt that

Yeah

Nick is unhinged

Nick is crazy

Y'all are gay for him

Good 😵💥

Sunny has soooo many issues. So many of them. He's so vulnerable and he makes himself vulnerable to Nick while still being intimidated by him, it's... Dude's got some problems.

#ive talked about mental illness and nick before but not sunny... #well. only a bit. ive said sunny's autistic #but he's also got other problems-- such as abandonment issues as you said #sunny's very insecure in relationships - partly because he has a very limited experience with them #and partly because he has self image issues. #when you grow up as an undiagnosed autistic kid you tend to be very aware you're different while not knowing how to change it #everyone thinks and says you're weird but you have no idea what's weird about you so you can't even try to fit in #a friend of mine told me once that she thought i was so brave for not being scared of being different in middle school #i wasn't. i wasn't brave. i just had no idea why people thought i was weird #sunny in this au knows how deeply different he is from other people but he doesn't know /what/ makes him different or how to change it #and as a result he just doesn't open up very much. he's very reserved and doesnt talk to many people. he has like two friends total #which also conviently makes him easy for nick to isolate #sunny also has bpd! and he gets deeply attached to people who show him any kind of affection very easily #as i mentioned before he also tends to fall for people who intimidate or scare him -- people he sees as mentally superior to him #his self image is constantly oscilliating between 'im the greatest person to have ever lived' and 'im the worst thing to have ever existed' #he's extremely unstable. he has mood swings. he gets obsessive easily. he seeks out relationships with mostly toxic or older people #he doesn't have a good support system. he's socially anxious and an introvert. he's openly trans. most people think he's weird. #he has no stable sense of self. he has panic attacks. he's both hypervigilant and oblivious to lies and attempts at manipulation #all of this makes him a very easy target for someone like nick. #at least- at /least/-- nick genuinely loves him. #ask #tosteur-gluteal #rant #arsenic #i start talking about psychology and i get lost. my apologies

[dannyric333]

INSANITY

#it only took an hour into the session an one call for it all to happened??? #helmut marko truly have been waiting for that moment jesus christ #this man is a pure evil omg #then you read the last paragraph and get it why yesterday announcement feels kinda rushed #this is why probably there's no goodbye post or anything from the AT/RBR/F1 social media #they wasn't happy about it going out into media when they planned it to be quiet and want to announced it for later #probablr after they tyre test is done #like it was really crazy they announce it in the mid of tyre test! #as much as you can't wait for someone to be kicked out #announcing it in the middle of on going test is just really crazy #and i'm sure RBR is a pretty organized one not to do this #idek what i'm talking about anymore #GAHHH #i wish nyck the best and hopefully he is surrounded by family or a good support system right now #daniel ricciardo #dr3

[braidwoods]

i hope mc makes mal wear a wig or im not buying a single scene with him in bolas2

#@ character designers who think its a good idea to have a male character with long hair cut it: why are you like this #oh im loving how angsty this book will be in the first half ugh!!! with all the lis its rough #tyril spent a year wandering around mourning feeling like he failed kaya only to watch mc vanish before his eyes not being able to help the #nias just figuring out who she is as a person and loses mc and her whole support system who helped her dismantle her entire worldview #mal never really trusted anyone besides his sister before mc and the rest of the group came along. hes abandoned #just like he was when his mom died. left all alone again after forming the first meaningful bonds hes had in over a decade probably #imtura had her crew obviously but i hc that there was always a divide between her and them bc shes never known what she should do #be herself away from the pressures of her mom and flotilta (flotila??) or reluctantly step up and accept she has to sacrifice herself #and kade!!!!! he spent months being tortured then he gets saved by his sibling only to have them be kidnapped in front of him #he knows whats capable of happening in the shadow realm so hes spent the year in the library poring over tomes for something anything #theyve all spent the year constantly thinking about mc being tortured or worse but kade has to blame himself for all this. after all if he #didnt get trapped mc wouldnt have absorbed the blade of light and wouldnt be a target. just ugh!!!!! fantastic angst

[piplupod]

I've been wondering why MH workers have been treating me like I'm The Lying Liar when I talk about emotions and other people's reactions to things and I found out today (by glancing at a medical form that my counselor filled out for my intake at a program) that my psychiatrist actually did diagnose me with BPD and the psychologist who disagreed with that diagnosis and instead PROPERLY diagnosed me with ASD didn't get BPD taken off my file..... I'M SO PEEVED. and I doubt I'll be able to get BPD removed from my file because MH workers act like everyone diagnosed with a cluster B disorder is an attention-seeking liar. dragging my hands down my face. this is so stupid oh my god. any BPD symptoms that I do have are better explained by OTHER disorders I have 😭

#i just want to be clear that the way cluster B folk are treated is so bullshit and fucked up #but unfortunately it is the reality of the situation so I would really love to get that diagnosis removed #but now they think im the Lying Liar right off the bat so it's going to be impossible to get removed 😭 #and to make matters worse... any BPD symptoms are either just ASD symptoms or the DID symptoms oh my god #but good fucking luck trying to get DID or OSDD diagnosed lmfao i am not even going to attempt that at this point #it doesnt need to be diagnosed anyways right now bc it will just make shit worse for me to have that on my records #one day maybe if i have a better support system and medical team but rn it'd be goddamn stupid to try #I'M SO PISSED ABOUT THIS WHAT THE HELL #i hate this psychiatrist so much fhdjdl he's so useless and condescending #unfortunately he's my only available option rn -_- #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[nspolaris]

read the sunshine court and have never been more impatient in needing a second book my god

#tsc #tsc spoilers #tagging bc im talking in the tags but holy fuck im ngl i came into the book as a jerejean shipper but now im shipping him with EVERYONE #him and renee were so sweet god i cant #him taking her photo and thinking about rainbows 😭 #but also excited for my man Jeremy bc he's got layersTM like an onion #need to know why he doesn't like his family and if he ever confides in Jean to convince Jean to confide in him #but also them oggling each other was hilarious #jean said his name once and had jeremy kicking his feet and twirling his hear #jean's braim shutting off whenever jeremy is shirtless avdhdj #need them to get together but i love Jean and his story and im so glad i reread aftg before reading this book #obsessed with jerejean as individuals and i love how much Jean appreciates the othrler Trojans #GAAAAH #also heart was in my ass when Grayson attacked Jean and thank god my boy neil sent out a hit on that fucker #also people realizing neil looks insane to other people like um yes...literally everytime he opens his mouth even in his POV #he says some scary shit bro 💀 #adding more tags bc i forgot to talk about kevin but i also can't get over their angst its just so good #their time together at evermore and jean teaching him french only for it to be the used against him by accident #they're too fucked up to ever really be friends again but they've both got their own support systems now #thinking about them meeting to do the interview ... chewing on glass #i have to go ravage ao3 now