My father gifted me my first multichaptered fanfiction for Christmas.
My first book.
He knew too late the mixed thoughts I had about this story, I told him when he'd already ordered the book.
I cried nonetheless.
It became an inspirational thing instead of just a book.
It's a "You wrote a book."
"You wrote a whole damned book, Nico, that's not nothing. That's not I can't to anything. That's something you should really be proud of this, because you can, you can."
I'm always one to bring myself down, if you've followed me long enough maybe you've read some shit about always being not the best not the worst but just in between, not enough but not nothing, those kinds of posts that tend to stay in my drafts.
All this perfectionism shit.
But I can.
This is proof, hell, the Bachisagi is proof, the Possession AU is proof and even the Medieval AU, even though these last two aren't finished yet, they are all books, not just fanfictions and as many better fanfiction as there are out there this is me and something I can do.
There is my life in Tutta Questione Di Sfiga.
Parts of me in my characters, parts of my life in the situations narrated, my name Nico (Niccol貌) is ripped off of Niccol貌 Gentile from TQDS, parts of it became my life long after I've written them, still, it's me, it's all me and maybe that's why I resented it so much, because I went too far (and because the narrative style isn't the best because it's the first, like, actual first book I've written in its first draft, so there's also that) and I should have been more careful.
I am grateful.
I dunno for what.
I am happy, I think, right now I still can't think straight about this, and he gave me the book yesterday, ha.
I don't know, I'm not trying to... I don't know.
I just thought it was important to tell the people here, the three or four people I post for, because I am happy about this.
I don't know.
Merry late Christmas, I hope you guys are well.
Here is the link to the story, (it's in italian), if you want, you can also laugh with me at my beginning writing, if not, that's oke.
It's a story I've written for me, for everyone but for me first, I debated multiple times to take it off of Ao3, but I think it's important it stays there a while more.
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made even more ocs with this adorable picrew because i think it's my favourite one 馃グ
dahlia valendil (if verse), kauri surana (da:o)
charlie park (twc), vesper graves (if verse)
sofia ryder (me:a), vivianna armani (cp2077)
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