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prof-ramses · 2 months

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Hollow Sorrows Trailer Breakdown LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOO

Obviously, if you don't want spoilers, scroll away. If you've already seen the trailer, LET'S GO!!!

So when we first see possessed Patty, she looks mostly normal, you can't even see her demon teeth through the mask yet. John and Jack probably only came in since they heard a scream and/or struggle coming from the morgue.

So we get a shot of the boys being too chaotic, something Gregor points out and what will likely cause the "bad character development" Pelo ahs mentioned.

Also, since it's 100% what Pelo would do, Costume Bob is the guy in the HF suit. Mark my words.

The scene with the hatz is really interesting to me, since Skid and Pump just annoys Roy for a moment and leave. I think this might be all we get of the hatzgang this time, similar to how Frank only had a brief Appearance in Tender Treats. If my theory that episode 7 will focus on Roy is true, this little scene will be very interesting to dissect when the full episode drops.

We actually get out first proper glimpse at a new character and I think this old man is the very last character in the line up teaser

And there's also a pretty good chance he Roy's grandfather and given the way he reacts to the boys antics here, I can definitely see him being a another reasons Roy's the way he is.

If he actually is Roy's grandpa, then @crossover-enthusiast and I's Roy discussions are going to get really fun pretty soon.

Here, Skid is clearly holding a framed photo, meaning this will almost certainly be the first time his father is brought up directly.

Also, yeah, with Pump's line about "hangover spooky month", it seems my theory about Lila in this episode was at least half right.

Yet more proof that the boys' absent parents will be more of a focus. The trailer as a whole gives me some ideas regarding the Wonder parents, but I feel they're best saved for another time.

The boys get into trouble with the cops and I have 2 theories regarding when, either Gregor tries to get them sent home before going to the hospital, but they talk their way out of it, or they actually do get sent home at the end of the episode.

John's expression here immediately makes we think that something Skid or Pump said reminded him of his daughter. Another plot thread that has yet to be directly acknowledged.

Ignacio watches Gregor lead the boys away, maybe he lives down the street from Skid and Lila to keep an eye on them for the cult?

Either way, I'm surprised his appearance won't take place in the hospital as I previously predicted.

"I will be your guide. And I know your parents would be proud of you."

There's something undeniably sinister about this line, but how sinister hinges on whether Gregor is a cultist or ex-cultist. Whatever the case may be, he definitely knows more about or sees more in the boys than he lets on.

A great title card, and thought the blood everywhere is definitely concerning, I don't think there's anything to really say here, just wanted to get a screenshot of it.

And it would appear the character I've referred to as the cat lady will have the unenviable role of a hapless victim to the episode's villain. But honestly, I'm more surprised by her being at the hospital in the first place and why that never occurred to me before.

The actual progression of Patty's possession confirms to she's possessed by something other than Moloch. And what seals it for me is, fittingly, the eyes. The white of her eyes becomes a more vivid yellow, yet her pupil snot only don't form Moloch's typical spirals, but they're a more vivid shade of baby blue, a color that has never had any significance in the series before. Moloch will mostly be trapped in Dexter before eventually possessing Gregor, I will die on this hill.

AND THE FUGGIN' RELEASE DATE!!!

Alright, that's all, only a month now. We're so back!

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an-au-blog · 5 months

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Just craving fluff and imagining College Au Shuggy celebrating the holidays by just doing very unchristmassy things together. They both seem like the type to like certain aspects of Christmas only to then be hit by waves of depression when the actual holiday arrives, so they just huddle under the covers together and watch Christmas classics such as “Die hard” or Gremlins together instead while eating Pizza and drinking eggnog till they can’t stand this stuff for another year. Buggy gives Shanks his gift at 2 am in the morning, an extremely ugly and old tacky sweater he found at a thrift shop a while ago. Shanks can immediately tell that it was cheap and Buggy most likely just went out and got him… SOMETHING, but also it’s hideous in a way he just adores and it has one of his favorite childhood cartoon characters on it and the fact alone Buggy went out and got him something is PERFECT and to Buggy’s horror that thing is gonna be his favorite sweater till the end of time. Buggy on the other hand suffers a mild mental breakdown and “Oh god I am the scum of the earth” reaction because Shanks actually went into a makeup store and got him an expensive eyeshadow Palette that Buggy has been eyeing for a while now. Kicker is Shanks didn’t even know that’s the Palette Buggy wanted, he legit just spent an hour in there with a picture of Buggy describing what Buggy looks for in makeup and what colors he likes and such and such and accidentally just landed on the correct one and rightfully deducted that he would probably like this one.

“WHY DID YOU GO AHEAD AND BUY ME THAT YOU HORRIBLE, UNFLASHY FANTASTIC BOYFRIEND?!” “I thought it would make you happy.” “IT WOULD IF I GOTTEN YOU ANYTHING GOOD AS WELL!! JUST A BED BATH AND BEYOND GIFTCARD WOULD HAVE BEEN WORSE!!” “Come on Buggy I love this thing-“ “THIS IS LIKE GIFT OF THE MAGI IF IT SUCKED EVEN MORE THAN IT ALREADY DOES!” “You could always kiss me to make up for it.” “I ALREADY DO THAT.” “Then let me kiss you… AND you’ll have to let me do it for the entire day without telling me I’m being sappy or disagreeing with me when I talk about how much I love you.” “…. Okay but you’re not allowed to say weird shit about my nose.” “…Can I kiss your nose?” “Ugh. I’ll allow it. But not in public!” “Deal. I won’t talk about how cute and kissable your nose is and I especially won’t talk about how cute and kissable it is in front of other people.” “YOU JUST- AUGH! You’re horrible! An absolutely awful boyfriend!” “Glad to have landed someone as amazing as you then.” “You-“ “Ah! We agreed on not disagreeing when I talk about how great you are!” “….fine.” “I love you... and I love how hard you blush when you can’t answer with a sassy comeback” “….mmmmnnnggghh!!! loveyoutoo.”

At first I was like "awww this is so adorable:')" but thwn I got to the dialogue part and went "ok, so we're assuming they're gonna get together, now are we ahahah"

I'm guessing you're the same anon who sent me a couple other college au asks - so first off: Thank you, you honestly keep me productive and remind me to finish this fic lol (since I named some of the others, maybe I can call you ogan - bc og anon or something idk, you can refuse or give me another nickname if you want...)

But also... have I given any indication that this will be a story with a happy end? Because, I've written ends with a doomed one sided love triangle, one of the main characters being hated by the love of their life and in a hospital, while the one the other was chasing rejected them indefinitely... it was my magnum opus for quite a while, so who's to say I'll give this one an ending like that?

I'm joking, I'm joking... or am I >;]]]

Anyway, I love the idea of them spending the holidays together! Buggy doesn't really have any close relatives to go to, all his friends went home, and thinks that Shanks is the same way, because why else would he stay behind with him?

Shanks is just so happy that he can finally be with his boyfriend. He makes hot cocoa (and it's horrible, but Buggy remakes it), he buys a cardboard cutout of a Christmas tree and they put stickers on it instead of decorations. At one point they start printing out memes and pictures of themselves and stick them on there as well. (Shanks secretly writes a wish, something cheesey like how he wants them to be like this for the rest of their lives, on the back of some of the photos)

In all reality, I believe that "Die Hard" and "Home Alone" (because these two franchises are basically the same, just one is kid coded lol) would be both Shanks and Buggy's favourites. I mean look at how they turned out ahahaha tho I must confess, I've never seen Gremlins, so I'll just trust you on that one':)

I also think thay Buggy would get horrible gifts very purposefully. Like he would look for hours to find the most raggedy and washed out looking sweater with the ugliest print of like... a green cow on red mars with a Christmas hat on both the cow and mars saying "moo-ry christmas" in comic sans or something horrifying like that. Like that one video of the guy who bought a card for the wrong occasion, for wrote a message to someone else and scratched out the name to look like it was a second hand card. I couldn't find the og video but I found this tiktok, hope it helps with the explanation.

In my mind Buggy thinks it's hilarious. Him and Shanks both love pranks and just jokes like this in general, so he would get it, right? Shanks liking it unironically wasn't in the plan. But then bad comes to worse and Shanks takes gift giving seriously - Buggy is caught off guard.

I love the image of Shanks standing in the cosmetics section of a big store that was one of the best according to google. He's just staring intensely, and color checking, and googling, and staring again - trying his best to remember everything Buggy had told him about make-up.

At some moment in the time he's searching, one of the workers there goes up to him to see if he needs help thinking "aw, poor lost man looking for something for his girlfriend, he looks like he needs help" and then Shanks shows her a picture of an honest to God clown going "I want the best for my boyfriend". And they have a little "This is your man?" "yeah" "Look at the picture" "that's mine :')" "and you're ok with this?" "imma stick beside him " moment. And then they just start looking together. Before they notice it's a whole horde of helpers and Shanks going all, "is that teal? I think he said he loves teal, but not one with glitter, wait, bring back the cherry red. Can you compare it to the sour cherry. Which one would match his lipstick best? This one's his favorite." and they're like a council, super invested at that point.

I also like to think that on new years eve, they're watching a marathon, and Buggy just falls asleep on Shanks's chest halfway through. He does that often and Shanks loves it. He doesn't even care that much that sometimes his make-up would be imprinted on his shirt .

Shanks showing love to Buggy's nose, despite his insecurities, makes me melt. (spoilers ig:) I was going to have a little dialogue/confrontation that portrayed that, but I was going to make it a "Shanks not caring about it and just acting like it's not there" thing, but him actually thinking it's cute and being all loving towards the one thing he's most insecure about is actually way better. I might utilize it later on lol :))

#shuggy #college au #shanks x buggy #buggy x shanks #answers #op

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smolstarthief · 10 months

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Ok sooo I need to share this AU concept since I feel like it wouldn't make sense in the actual timeline and among other things but still it won't leave my head:

So remember how people came up with AUs where Joker and Maruki are related? Well... This was inspired by a part of me and Creepy's RP but what if Rumi had a surprise for Takuto and her parents on the day of their visit which obviously ended badly and put an end to that plan? That surprise ended up being Ren but unfortunately, Maruki already removed himself from her life so neither of them were aware of being related until present day and 3rd semester.

Poor Rumi would just be so confused on why she's carrying a baby after the (accidental) memory wipe but considering how her personality was described she would no doubt keep him despite the potential stigma she would be hit by. She starts living with her Grandparents and remaining family members after getting out of the hospital who were apprehensive about her having a child alone out of wedlock but take her in anyway. Also having probably met Maruki before at some point... They already assume that the father is him and believed that he abandoned her so therefore end up not mentioning him to avoid hurting her. Her grandparents at least cared more than them though and try to support her as she gets back on her feet.

Come the day Ren was born and Rumi absolutely dotes on him but does note something being a little familiar about him appearance-wise and she starts to feel off whenever she thinks more about it. Namely kinda like how, "Kasumi" ends up having random slumps/depressive episodes. This worsens as he gets older and starts showing similar quirks and behaviors as Takuto which her relatives (except for her grandparents) start to resent him for, especially when he starts asking questions.

At one point, Rumi ends up having a sudden breakdown due her own filter further weakening (curse the lack of power consistency with Maruki in canon) and an older Ren asking about his father which scares Ren and then herself when she almost hurts him in the process (probably not physically though since I don't see her doing that to her own child regardless of her mental state). This gets her sent to a mental health facility which Ren does visit more than her relatives (this would be part of why he was heading home late when he encountered Shido). Each visit can vary for him: One day she was her usual loving and energetic self that he knew as a child, the next she was hardly responsive despite his best efforts to talk to her. He also often brings a book or even a chess board since they both liked playing it ("Checkmate") to cheer her up.

He's still just as confused about his father and who he was but from what did learn and even overheard in the past about him, he starts to resent him. Even more so when his relatives start acting distant and cold towards him due to blaming him for Rumi's current situation.

And the lack of contact throughout the game? Blame the relatives as they wasted no time in sending Ren away for his probation which leaves her shattered but to them, it's better for her health in the long run. Being the stubborn woman she is, she still tries but is blocked and prevented from doing so each time which actually worsens things with her as opposed to helping her. It doesn't help that her Grandparents also passed away already by this point and they were actually her primary support system while everyone else in her family was just tolerant at best, uncaring at worst.

How Maruki would piece everything together I'm not entirely sure but maybe like this: He starts to notice Ren showing similar personality traits as Rumi and even himself but doesn't think much of it at first but then Ren decided to randomly bring a chess board to a session which surprises him but plays along as Ren states it cheers him up sometimes, his mom especially. Now I can see Maruki maybe playing it with Rumi when they were younger so when Ren starts showing more of Rumi's quirks as they play, Maruki starts to pale a bit. Again, kinda tying into that "Checkmate" line. Not sure how Maruki would finally figure it out since idk how he would get DNA test done while not seeming suspicious but maybe Shibusawa makes a comment about Rumi having a kid while they were catching up alone? Either way, he would probably also have access to medical files from Shujin and once he sees Rumi's name as his mother with the father not being listed...

"It can't be..."

Plus, I feel like once he gets the ability to warp reality then maybe he would have probed Ren's memories a bit for more confirmation. Needless to say, he's extremely guilt-ridden.

And poor Ren when he finally puts two and two together... Compared to canon, he's PISSED that the person he bonded with and confided to was also the person he resented the most and he just ends up making rash and impulsive decisions without thinking like Sumi before her reveal. Which is something that would startle even AKECHI of all people a little since he's so used to Joker showing more empathy. I would also utilize Raoul because fuck Atlus for making him a DLC Persona.

He would basically represent Ren's acceptance of everything and how he still wants to change Maruki's heart but not out of spite or revenge but to save everyone and HIM since he realized that Maruki is hurting too and needed help. He wants to reconcile with him. To summarize:

Also the departure for the "Leave" ending will be changed quite a bit with Maruki initially parting ways like in canon but then excuses himself with a break to catch up with Ren to give a proper goodbye (bumps into Sumi too). It leads to an emotional conversation until they see a familiar face that Ren immediately hugs. It was an astonished but slowly recovering Rumi. Her filter is gone too. Granted, it's a little bittersweet since Rumi would be kinda pissed that Maruki more or less up and left her alone (even giving him a good punch or smack) but she won't forbid Ren from seeing him either. She's just still a nice person at heart so she wouldn't be mad for long. Especially when Ren pleads his case and she trusts his judgement. That and she would acknowledge that she should've told him about her carrying Ren sooner before that visit to her parents.

The context behind her showing up would be sad initially... She came to Tokyo because she saw the news report of Ren's "suicide" from the facility and was heartbroken. But then she decided that she had enough of staying in that place and demands that she be released which the orderlies complied. She then decided to cut ties with her more toxic family members when they showed little to no care about that report and even insulting Ren to her face. She basically went to Tokyo to find Sojiro and a temporary place to stay as she decides what to do next. Obviously that changed when she sees him alive and hugging her. The filter would wear off after reality is back to normal too during her train ride hence her impulsive response to seeing Maruki.

It does get happy again though when she confirms that as soon as they come back to retrieve what's left of Ren's belongings, they're staying in Tokyo full time. She's also willing to talk with Maruki to catch up and try to give closure as well. Before they both depart, they each give him something to keep him company and remember them in the meantime: Ren gives him his favorite childhood plush toy that he carried around (which suspiciously looks like Mona) and Rumi... She gives him what she wanted to give him before that tragic day... An ultrasound photo showing a small silhouette of a baby. To say that Maruki cried quite a bit is an understatement as he hugs Ren tightly, apologizing repeatedly and promising to step and provide for them as much as he can.

Is TakuRumi gonna be endgame? Idk since a lot of time had passed and I honestly liked the aversion of expectations the game did by having him not get back together with her and deciding to start over on his own (I do wish that more closure was provided with her at least but oh well). Past TakuRumi is a definite but present day? Maybe not likely. But they would still get along since they both care about Ren greatly. Also just imagining Rumi going mama bear mode towards Zenkichi at the beginning of Strikers is too damn funny too.

#persona 5 #p5 #persona 5 strikers #p5s #persona 5 royal #p5r #p5r spoilers #starchild rambles #au idea #I guess ''Rumi Amamiya'' AU?? Idk yet #ren amamiya #takuto maruki #rumi #p5r rumi #rambles #ramblings

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faofinn · 8 months

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1. Hopelessly Bad At Self-Care

Fao had been home from hospital about two weeks now, and was settling into life again. It had been slow and shaky to start, unused to living with Fred and Sheila and relying on them so much for everything. He felt 17 again, and it frustrated him. But they’d done so much for him, been through so much because of him, he was nothing but grateful for them. That didn’t make it easy, though, and there had been plenty of shouting from both parties.

But things had settled now, Fao’s head had started to get better, but it still wasn’t perfect. He struggled to look after himself, still struggled to find a point in why he was still alive. He neglected his pain meds more often than not, desperate to feel something other than guilt or worse, nothing.

He’d been slowly building up more and more with what he did day to day, more walking, things around the house. He’d done a lot yesterday, gone for a walk out that had ended up being further than anticipated, and he was paying for it today. He wanted his proper meds, the strong stuff they’d sent him home with, but he couldn’t find it. He’d put it somewhere, and now he didn’t know where, and he was in pain and overwhelmed. He’d tried to do more that morning, stand and make himself breakfast and coffee and have a cigarette, and all it had done was made it worse. He felt so frustrated, and uncomfortable, and useless.

He’d gone back to bed, feeling sick and awful, and curled up on top of the duvet, face buried in the pillows as he tried not to sob, clutching Eeyore tightly. The bad thoughts he thought he’d left in hospital were teasing him, calling for an easier way out, and that just made it worse. He didn’t want that, he just wanted the pain to stop, and it just wouldn’t stop.

Sheila had tried her best to not smother Fao, his breakdown over his breakfast not unnoticed. She'd already been told off for hovering, so left him alone as much as she could, though her every instinct screamed not to. She let Fao return to his room, though had expected him to take his medications to at least get a little relief. When he didn’t come back out, she grabbed his bottle from the kitchen cupboard, from where he'd asked her to put it, and headed to his room.

She could hear Fao trying so hard not to break, and it brought a lump to her own throat. She swallowed thickly, tears welling up in her eyes.

"Fao?" She knocked gently. "It's just me. Can I come in?"

His face buried in the pillows, he didn’t even have the energy to tell Sheila to piss off. In fact, he actually rather wanted some comfort from his mum.

“Yeah.” He said thickly, his voice muffled.

"Hey." She murmured softly, pushing the door open and moving to sit on the edge of the bed. She reached to run her fingers through his hair with a sigh. "When did you take your meds last?"

“Didn’t.” He whimpered. “Didn’t need it an’ then couldn’t find it.”

"Oh, sweetheart." She soothed. "Why didn't you say? Do you want some? I've got it here."

“Oh.” He sniffed. “Please.”

She hummed softly to herself as she drew up a dose before passing the syringe to her son. "Here, take this first, and then I've got some juice."

He forced himself to sit up, rolling onto his back first with a whine. He reached for the syringe, taking it with a grimace, and followed it with the juice Sheila gave him, feeling pathetic.

“Thank you.” He mumbled. “Hug?”

"You're welcome." She murmured softly. "Where do you want me? I'm staying with you."

“Don’t have to stay.”

"Why wouldn't I?"

“Sick of me.”

"That's just the dick part of your brain talking." She chided gently. "Come on, get comfortable. I have snacks in my hoodie pocket, and I've got a film I want to watch."

He laid back down with a sigh, curling up with his Eeyore again. The nausea hadn’t gone anywhere, but he wasn’t about to ask Sheila for his antisickness, so he just settled down. Maybe some sleep would help, if he could get it. He curled into her, burying his face against her.

"There you go." She hummed. "You just relax, try and get some rest. Do you need anything else?"

He was quiet for a minute, seeing if he could ignore the nausea. But it was still there, and the painkillers had made it worse. “Antisickness?” He asked softly.

"Which one?"

“Whichever.”

"Here, then. Swallow the cyclizine, and then you can melt the ondansetron." She passed them to him from her pocket.

“Juice?” He asked, taking them from her.

"Here you are."

He swallowed the Cyclizine with the juice, wincing at the taste, and then took the ondansetron to melt. That wasn’t great either, but it would help the nausea. He snuggled back down on the bed, curling back into his mum with a sigh. “Sorry.”

"Don't you apologise."

“I am sorry though.”

"What for? Being hopelessly bad at self care? Because that's the only thing you've done wrong, and we all know you've got a problem with that."

“Still.” He said, sniffing.

"Hey, you’re not going to cry on me, are you?" She nudged him gently. "We're being as happy as we can be, positive thinking and all that bulshit, yeah?"

“Sorry.” His voice cracked. “Jus’ feel so shit.”

She drew shapes on his skin with one hand, the other playing with his hair. "I know, I know. It is shit, really, I know."

“I want to be better.”

"Look how far you've come."

“Not far enough.”

"You're home, you're here. That's more than far enough for today."

He sighed. “Love you.”

"I love you too, Fao." She stretched down to press a kiss to his messy hair. "I'm so very proud of you."

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marbl3-v0rt3x · 8 months

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❤️ Nina Headcanons ❤️

She is probably my all time favorite Creepypasta characters and I think about her literally all the time, so I thought that I'd write out some of my headcanons to share ^-^

I'd like to just put a little trigger warning here because my depiction of Nina is a bit more realistic/gritty, and there will be frank talk of death, violence, and mental health issues (OCD, psychosis, and delusions). It's not particularly gorey or cruel, but if that makes you uncomfortable than this post isn't for you.

Anyways, these are just my headcanons and you don't have to agree with any of them. I'm just here to have fun and think about my blorbos :)

-I think Nina was raised by a single mother after her father walked out on the family

-Nina’s father left due to his mental illness and his own delusions that he was suffering (schizoaffective disorder and OCD)

-In my opinion, Nina suffers from Delusional disorder. Specifically suffering heavily from erotomania and grandiose symptoms . I think it’s both induced genetically (from her father, she inherited his OCD) and environmentally (the loss of her friends and the bullying she suffered). Her delusions obviously revolved around Jeff, and caused her to obsessively research him constantly. She felt like if she didn’t keep up with every detail about him that he wouldn’t love her anymore.

-Nina usually researched Jeff’s killing online because she didn’t have access to things like police radio. Usually she trolled websites like 4chan, reddit, liveleak, etc. Anywhere that like- gore and/or internet detectives would lie, she was there. She managed to track him across the country by regularly taking part in message boards and things like that.

-This is all starting at the age of like 13-14. It definitely got worse over the years until she was 16 (which is when her story takes place in my headcanon) when Jeff actually showed up to KILL her because he thought that she was a cop who was close to catching him. When it turned out not to be the case, he decided to pour bleach on her etc as like- a test?

-Of course, this only ended up furthering her delusions and caused her to have a total mental breakdown. Which of course led to her cutting her face and killing her family.

-After that, she packed a bag, took her laptop and pretty much just ran away into the woods to find a place to hideout/research on where Jeff went next.

-For a while she essentially followed Jeff to town after town, trying to show him that she had become just like him. At this point she was fully delusional and in a psychotic state.

-She actually ended up getting a mouth infection because of her cuts, and had to go to a hospital where her psychosis was properly diagnosed. Once the doctors had treated the infection and stitched up her mouth, they called the cops

-However, instead of being sent to jail, she was placed into a psychiatric ward because her attorney made the case for insanity.

-While awaiting a proper trial (she’s 18 at this point in the story) she has a breakthrough and is able to break out of her psychosis. The delusion is harder to break out of, but she does manage to push it down into her mind (which is why she is always conflicted when thinking about Jeff. The delusion is not fully gone, but she keeps trying to push it away and force herself to act “normal”)

-After breaking out of her psychosis, she escapes the mental hospital. Grabbing her shit and literally just bolting, however this time, she wants Jeff’s attention for a different reason.

-Nina essentially goes from town to town breaking into houses and killing people to try and lure Jeff out to her again in order to kill him. But anytime he gets too close (or really anywhere near her) she freaks out and either skips town or goes quiet for a while. She doesn’t really know what would happen if she actually came face to face with Jeff (if she would fall right back in love or kill him on the spot. She’s kind of scared to find out because that would mean her life’s purpose would be completely gone.)

-She can’t escape her obsession with Jeff, and is constantly reminded of her obsession whenever he comes up. She also feels a compulsion to kill due to OCD, and that if she doesn’t kill people he will forget about her entirely. Her OCD also flares up when stabbing people (if she doesn’t stab someone a certain amount of times it won’t be right or it won’t get Jeff’s attention.)

-She doesn’t really kill out of love anymore, and now more or less kills people as bait.

-She is still a very bubbly and vibrant person, and she is extremely extroverted. She enjoys talking to people, especially when she has good days and doesn’t feel the compulsion to kill.

-I think that Nina is obsessed with scene fashion because It reminds her of her childhood and lets her reclaim the parts of her childhood that she feels like she missed out on.

-I headcanon Nina as being half-mexican on her mom’s side, and that she inherited a lot of her mental health issues from her father (who left due to his own delusions that he was suffering.)

#creepypasta #nina the killer #nina hopkins #jeff the killer #creepypasta headcanon #creepypasta fandom #creepypasta hcs #alex writes content

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acedia-blankly · 7 months

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SPOILERS FOR SHARP OBJECTS EPISODE ONE AND THE NOVEL/PLOT IN GENERAL BELOW THE ASTERISKS, WHICH ARE Y'KNOW, GILLIAN FLYNN TYPE SHIT. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

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This is a liveblog/reaction to sharp objects, the tv series not the book.

I've read the book several times over the years, most recently in a mental hospital after a breakdown. No, I don't know why on earth I was allowed to have it with me. I relate to Camille more than I'd like, excluding the murders and sexuality, which i suppose rather differentiates us. I rather feel like the metaphorical AC to her DC, so to speak.

Jesus, Camille's a wreck. A severe alcoholic sent to her hometown to sniff out a story of a serial killer whose snuffing out little girls and dumping them around town, with about a year between killing. First Ann Nash then Natalie Keene, and Camille sticks her nose in everything she can about the case. She badgers the cops, the families, everything and everyone she can, which causes more than a few arguments and a lot of strain with Adora, her mother and the employer of much of the town. I'll talk more about Camille in a bit, but first lets touch on her family, the people I found msot interesting in wind gap, starting with her wonderful mother.

Fuck, Adora's a miserable shrew of a woman. She reminds me of my aunt in how she needles, dresses, and wears her makeup in a similar manner. It's freaky, and not at all helped by the horrid way she treats Camille and Amma. Equal parts infantiziling and infuriating, her actions suggest a social diva who commands utter control of her home and social image. Everything from her picture-perfect house (mirrored in a certain dollhouse that Amma shows Camille) to the time capsule she's made of Marian's room screams "total control freak". She's still got the empty IV stand and doll dresses laid out like Marian's just stepped out for tea, rather than ashes.

Amma is... Well, we haven't really gotten much of a taste of her yet. I must've missed her in the crowd of teenagers that raided Natalie's shrine, but she was there, and later acts eerily possessive and close to Camille in what seems to be just a typical teenaged attmept to avoid punishment and look cool in front of an older sibling she doesn't know.

Alan was a surprise, since all I remember of him from the novel is a grey, unemotive man who let Adora run roughshod over everything. He's got a bit of a spine here, actually standing up to Adora a few times on minor arguments. Curious to see if he'll keep it up. Not a change I was expecting, but I could also be misremembering him.

Marian: for a dead girl, she sure takes pride of place in the story, a throbbing, aching wound that Camille tries and fails to treat with chemicals and years of avoidance. A sickly girl who died in her teens, we see flashbacks of her (dressed as a doll in contrast to her sister) ending with her funeral, where she's wearing a shade of pink lipstick that really doesn't fit her, which is as good a bridge as any to return to Camille.

Camille: if you've made it this far, I'm not going to sugarcoat it. Camille is a woman one step away from the deep, and she clearly knows it. There's alcohol soaked all over her life like a bad stain, mostly absolut vodka, a cheap brand that many serial alcoholics drink, my family members included. Shit burns like fire goign down but she chugs a good sized plastic flask/bottle of it without flinching. Granted, Amy Adams was probably just drinking water on set, good considering how fucking hot sets get. She delivers a wonderful performance, showing Camille as the slowly burning train wreck of ptsd and chemical dependency she is, covered in scars.

Camille carves words into her skin much more legibly and widespread than I've ever managed, and I'm a human charcutierie board these days. Y'know that thing where shows put the title of episode into somehow? Yeah, Camille's got "Vanish" on her right forearm, the title of the first episode. We see her in the bath or shower a lot, actually, usually with her body submerged entirely. She also masturbates during a flashback to a weird lodge filled with porn and bloody strips of meat, at least that's what I think those were.

I haven't really touched on the mystery or the people of wind gap not related to Camille because they didn't really get my attention, but I took 3.5k worth of notes during episode one, and noticed the homophobia. The show really hits us over the head with the small town bigotry throughout the episode, from the bartender to the father of Ann Nash. I'd kinda forgotten about the level of homophobia, and was a bit startled by it.

Moving to the murders, we don't get any information about either body I think, just a shot of Natalie's dumped body, which, how does one dump a body of a teenaged girl in an alleyway in a small town and not be seen? Small towns are nosey as shit, I would know, I spent 13 years living in one. Natalie's mouth has a lot of blood coming from it, and she's pretty dirty, but has a bandage on her knee. Bit of an odd thing for a murderer to give her, but she might've had it before she got grabbed.

Overall rating for the episode: 4/5 stars so far, review may change after I finish the show. I intend on one episode a night. I enjoyed Camille and Amma's interactions, found the homophobia rightfully irritating and familiar (the joys of small-town America are not so different from Missouri to Indiana), but found the actual murders to be lacking in detail for now, which makes sense but is also frustrating. Camille is just a bit too familiar for my comfort, which is a theme with anything Flynn's made.

Her works are dark and slippery, rich with the quiet tensions of dysfunctional families and buried traumas that always come to light. Theres something comforting but revolting about it, like sitting down at a seedy bar and knowing the drinks are probably watered down, but accepting the rotten deal for what it is because it's the best you'll get here. Kinda like a family reunion, actually. But uh, I don't think the Crellin-Preaker bunch (now that would be a sitcom, huh?) Is the sterling example of family by any means. Still, I'm eager and afraid of the roller coaster to come. I'm not claiming to have perfectly watched this episode, nor did I exhaustively go through my notes for this (I'm not confirming whether or not I made quotes in Chicago format [the one True and Rightfully Used Format of Quotation, may all nonbelievers perish in the trenches of MLA and APA format] for fun. Cause only weirdos do that, right, and I'm all normal-like)

P.S. I apparently called Curry a "Santa-wannabe" in my notes. He kinda twisted and turned in my opinion, going from a dick to a nice guy and back again, but I enjoyed him as a character and want to see more. I can't say more for chief Vickery, the detective (whose name I managed to miss and I don't intend to look it up) or the bartender, all of whom have a machismo and swagger that clashes poorly with Camille in different ways. Vickery cares more about the town's reputation than potentially solving the murders, the detective is trying not to mix business with pleasure with Camille, and the bartender is typical small town trash, gleefully hateful and all too happy to share that he's illegally serving beers to Natalie's brother, which the detective ignores as well, for some reason. Most likely to avoid the town turning on him. One doesn't fuck with the guys who give out the alcohol.

#liveblog #sharp objects #spoilers #sharp objects spoilers #canon typical topics #marking this mature and calling it good tag wise #ya know what yer in for #or google is free #theres lotsa trigger warning list sites out there #ya gotta curate your own online experience

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For the Thenamesh doctor AU. There is this patient (adult or kid) who has a mental breakdown and nobody can calm him down. So Thena calls Gil and ask him if he can give it a try :)

Maybe you can put a soft moment in the end?

"Gil?"

"Hey Honey," he grins at her, dropping his sandwich and wiping off his hands. He frowns at the look on her face. "What's wrong?"

Thena nods her head for him to come with her, which he does in an instant. "Husband of a patient in surgery. He's utterly beside himself and no one can get him to calm down."

"No one?"

"Not even Ajak," Thena pauses and looks up at him before they cross into the waiting room, "not even Sersi."

This is bad. Gil looks through the window of the swinging door and back to her. "And you think I can help?"

Thena shrugs one shoulder and looks up at him. He can't be sure, but he swears she's trying to look extra cute. "Well, you're the best at calming patients on the way here."

"That's-" he pauses, looking down as she rubs the zipper of his hoodie between her thumb and finger.

"I always find your company very soothing."

Dammit. She has to know how cute she is--she just has to! Gil sighs, "I'll try."

He pushes through the door and walks over to the man with his whole head in his hands, weeping and gasping for air. Sersi is beside him, speaking softly in that gentle accent of hers. But if not even she - the GP known for being as gentle as a butterfly - can calm him down, Gil really doesn't know what he's supposed to be able to do.

Thena must have told Sersi she was going for him specifically, though, because Sersi catches his eye and nods him over.

"Gil, this is Mister Wells. He's waiting for his wife to get out of an emergency bypass."

"Hi there," Gil begins gently, sitting in the seat Sersi vacates for him as she returns to her work. He leans forward in hopes of getting a look at the poor guy. "I'm a paramedic here at the hospital. Your wife is in surgery?"

The man mumbles something, still holding his head in his hands and now pulling faintly at his hair.

"Listen, I know you've been told a million times that we're doing everything we can, but," Gil pauses. It's true, sure. But that doesn't mean anything to this poor man. This poor bastard who is beside himself, sitting out here, unable to do anything. "But I guess I can't really promise you anything, huh?"

The absolutely haggard man finally pulls his head up and looks at Gil. At the very least, he definitely heard what he said, because he looks nothing short of aghast. "They sent you to comfort me?"

"I know," Gil shrugs, his hands in his hoodie pockets as he moves. "But my...someone asked me to come and talk to you. So I did."

His eyes run over Gil critically, "and what makes you so special?"

"Well, nothing, I guess," Gil purses his lips momentarily. "I'm not even a doctor, so I'm not really obliged to have any bedside manner or anything."

"I'll say."

"But," Gil pauses, his smile fading. "A few weeks ago...I guess I found myself in a situation a little like this. Nothing quite as serious, but...sure did scare me."

The older man finally looks at Gil--really looks at him. He sits up just a little, looking somewhat more like a human and less like a broken shell of a man. "Yeah?"

Gil nods, still haunted by the sight of Thena under that car. "Have nightmares about it and everything."

Mister Wells thinks for a second, sidestepping the question of what actually happened. "How'd you get through it?--the wondering, I mean. How'd you get through the...the what ifs?"

Gil takes a deep breath, thinking about the feeling of Thena's freezing cold hand in his and how she had let just a few tears slip out. "I...I guess I couldn't really get all the way there. I couldn't fully imagine what my life would be like without her."

Tears come to the poor man's eyes as he starts to curl up again. "I-I don't know-! I don't know what I'll do without her!"

Gil just pats the man's shoulder, letting him cry. He's sure that's all he would be capable of if Thena...

He had said those exact words to her; he had told her that nothing would happen to her, because he was there. But he didn't actually have that power to guarantee that. He would have put his very life on the line to do so, but sometimes things just don't work out that way.

It is true: he has had nightmares. Dreams of walking into the hospital and feeling something wasn't right. Looking for someone he can't name and yet whose absence he feels like a hole in his chest. He's had dreams of her dying in his arms, under that car, in the rain, and the cold, and him trying to help her entirely in vain.

"I can't tell you either," Gil offers, rather lamely, if he's being honest. Which he is. "But I can tell you that she'd tell you she loves you."

He looks at Gil again. "What?"

"She would tell you she loves you," Gil can guarantee. "And I'm sure she wouldn't want you out here tearing out the rest of your hair over it."

Wells gives Gil a look, which only encourages him.

"Look, I don't know what I'd do without Thena either," he professes entirely truthfully, hand - out of his pocket - to his heart. "But while she was in her surgery, I thought about all the things I love about her."

Finally - at long fucking last - the guy smiles a little.

Gil smiles too. "I thought about her laugh, about what jokes make her smile and which ones make her slap me on the arm."

Wells almost chuckles at that one.

"I thought about how I would tell her how beautiful she is, and how I can't imagine a single day without her."

The greying man nods, tears in his eyes, a smile on his face. Gil has finally found the right chord to strike.

"I thought about all the time we've had, all my favourite things about her," Gil sits back again, "and then, just like that, she was out. She was right in front of me again."

Wells sniffles a little, blinking away the last of his tears. "Yeah?"

"Yeah," Gil nods. "And I guess I should promise that it'll happen for you too."

Wells shrugs. He knows just as well as Gil does that there's no such guarantee.

"But," Gil shifts uncomfortably. He hasn't let himself think about this much since it happened. Why would he? "But if she...if she hadn't..."

Wells doesn't press him.

Gil leaves the statement as it is, but looks up and smiles at him as best he can. "I think I'd just keep thinking all that stuff. I would think about her every second, of every minute, until the day I die."

Both men nod, a level of understanding passing between them that far exceeds any well wishes or empty promises. Gil has offered what he can, and nothing more.

Wells extends his hand, which Gil shakes firmly. "Thank you."

Gil raises his brows, "I don't know if I can say I'm happy to help, but I'm glad I got to talk to you."

"I-"

"Mister Wells?"

Gil stands with him as Eros comes into view. He's not Gil's favourite of their co-workers, but the guy knows his way around a heart.

The Brit pulls off his mask to give the man a smile, "your wife has pulled through rather beautifully, sir. She'll be back in her room by the time you get up there, then I'll come see you about the plan moving forward."

Gil catches Wells before he can collapse to the floor in relief. Gil tries to keep the completely boneless man upright and nods to the surgeon, "thanks, man."

Eros offers Gil a stiff nod and leaves.

"Hey," Gil gets Wells back in his chair and pats his back. "Hey, it's okay. Everything worked out."

He nods, at least, his head in his hands again, although at least the tears are happy this time.

"Come on, you've gotta get hydrated," Gil pats his shoulder, offering his arm to help the man to go see his wife (and any water coolers they can find along the way).

"Th-Thank you," he pats Gil's arm as they shuffle along in elation.

Gil smiles at the man, happy he can go tell Thena all the good news. And finish his sandwich. "I'm happy I could help, sir."

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So I am one day on T now and lemme tell you about it! Im going to go through my whole expirence!

I live in the US where there is informed consent and I was able to pay for everything out of pocket due to me saving money for this all and having personal issues where I am not going to use my health insurance.

So this morning I had an appointment with a Nurse Practitioner from Planned Parenthood. It was a virtual visit where we just talked and I used my phone. She asked me about my sexual history, asked me to describe my experience, walked me through the process and gave me some resources. She talked about the changes I might expirence on T and since I did a lot of research over the years I was able to just nod, awnser questions and the whole appointent took 25 minutes. She prescribed me testosterone and sent me to get bloodwork done before I started T.

I drove and got my bloodwork done which was very easy, they just needed one vial of blood which is a lot less than the blood work I have needed in the past.

Once that was done I went to the pharmacy and I had to wait while they finished up my acript. It was pretty easy and I pulled up a GoodRx coupon which made the testosterone cost go down to 27 dollars. Note that you will have to pay for needles, syringes, bandages, shraps disposal bin and alcohol swabs. I got more than enough supplies for months and I got one month’s supply of testosterone. The total cost of everything was 63 dollars. Here a breakdown of that all

13 dollars for syringe disposal

7 dollars for alcohol prep pads

6 dollars for needles

6 dollars for syringes

Then another few dollars for bandaids

I have more than enough of those supplies to last me a long while but if you are first starting T injections make sure to factor those into costs and talk with your pharmacy. I only need one syringe a week and I was give fifteen I think, so lots to last me and 100 alcohol swabs and plenty of bandaids. This should last you a while so the cost goes down once you have the supplies.

I am still waiting for the bill for my blood work but it should be less than 40 dollars

I prepaid for my doctors appointment and it was 115 dollars and my follow ups will be 70 dollars

Usually there is not a follow up appointment until three months have passed at which point I will have to get bloodwork done after that appointment as well.

Now onto actually injecting T! I looked up some youtube tutorials from actual hospitals and was able to find a few good ones! Something of note is how I was given two different needles, one already on the syringe. I used that one to draw testosterone into the needle and then swapped them and used the next needle to actually inject my testosterone. It was fairly easy once I got over the nerves and now I have my lil frog bandaid on! I put all of my needles into my sharps bin and put away the rest of my testosterone vial in a safe place for now and put away all of my needles and syringes as well as my bandaids. It helps to get everything you will need out onto your table before you get working on injecting. I was a lil clumsy with a needle but felt more comfortable at the end. My thigh, I chose to get the kind that I could inject in my muscle is a bit sore now and it hurts a bit but actual injection was extremly easy.

It took less than one week from scheduling my appointment to the first injection. If you are in the United States and are in a position where ypu will be safe, I cannot reccomend planned parenthood more. Everyone I spoke with two was extremly nice and it was easy and simple. It was honestly the best medical experience I’ve ever had and thats coming from a disabled guy.

Overall easy, not as expensive as I had planned for and for the next few months it will be the same 27 a month which is less than a seperate prescription that I already pay for. I will probably talk about it more but I think there needs to be more things outlining the whole expirence!

This is not medical advice at all but just me sharing my experience in hopes that it will help someone else.

The most important thing that I found is how nice everyone is. I had a lot of questions for the pharmacy and they were so kind in explaining for me. My doctor was fantastic and I am telling you that I cried from joy on my drive home from the pharmacy. Trans joy is real and today I felt it as I took my life into my own hands and became a man.

#trans man #testosterone #tw needles #medical discussion #trans joy #transmasc

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fluorescentpipedream · 2 years

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Aurelio Chavez - I like this picture more for Aurelio, it’s more playful

Markus Reana (Re-Ana) - I have had Markus forever but it’s taken a while to finally find someone that can fit the image in my head for them. Markus is non-binary, pansexual though tends to prefer men, they do have a soft spot for a couple of women in their lives. An independent film maker and cinephile, Markus is very out, very proud and really doesn’t care who knows it. They are friends with Dylan Connor and Maxwell Stevens, and by extension, Skylar Valois.

Morpheus (King of Dreams, Dream, Nightmare Lord, etc) - Morpheus has been down a roller coaster through much of his existence and there’s a lot to try to catch up on and remember but the short story is that he had been held prisoner in his own mind by a curse put on him during the Ethereal Coup which happened several millenia ago. He was transformed into a demon, altering his appearance and locked out of his own memories of who he really was and what his purpose was. Before the coup, he had been walking the waking world as a man, in love the granddaughter of the Queen of Egypt. Their love was not meant to be, when she fell for someone else and ultimately led to her death, though in his jealousy and pain, he wasn’t the one that caused it. Morpheus would later find the same soul again, several times over and took express interest in protecting it and attempting to guide it, since it is the essence of the woman he had loved. When the demon is purged from him finally, and he is back to himself again, he regains control over the Realm of Dreams and lends his aid to the Oracles once more. He ultimately finds a way to connect himself to the soul he’d lost so long ago, in the form of one of her daughters who walks his realm as freely as she does the waking one, creating dreams and nightmares of her own before he ever takes any kind of wing over her.

((A note about the picture, I did not make all of it, the original is here:

watermark and all :D. I loved this design so decided to alter it a little for the character))

I have one more character/picture to make but I need to find some other pictures for it so I can get the right look. In the meantime though, this is Gage Robards, otherwise known as Gabriel Toussaint, the “lost” brother to the Toussaint girls.

He has been in and out of mental facilities since he was about 12 and in one of them had his vocal cords damaged, though I am not exactly sure if it was from having them scorched away or because he had his trachea crushed during an altercation with one of the orderlies. Either way, Gage cannot speak and either uses sign language or he used to have a notebook he’d write down what he needed/wanted and gave it to people when he needed help. Now that he’s in a better living situation, he has an app on his phone that speaks for him.

Gage isn’t special needs and really has no actual mental problem, he was locked away after seeing something he wasn’t supposed to and when he threatened to go to the police about it, he was silenced. His sisters may or may not even remember his existence, though from what he knows they were told he had a mental breakdown and tried to hurt their mother or father...one of them and for that was sent somewhere ‘safer’ to live out his days.

This would have been all find and dandy if the person paying the bill in the home he was living in had continued to do so. For one reason or another, Gage was uprooted out of the mental hospital he had been living in, in New York and left somewhat out on his own. He had known Noah Walker before, as they were in the same home, and ended up going to where Noah was. Gage’s only real health concern is epilepsy, but otherwise he’s pretty healthy all things considered. He wants to try to get in touch with his sisters again.

Gage can usually be found outside under the tree in Sylvia’s home writing, though he barely lets anyone actually read any of it. Ariel managed to get it from him once, though he sat with her while she read it. From what she says, it’s a very forlorn love story with some ghostly elements in it (I keep thinking something along the lines of Crimson Peak)

@musesnotebook @fat-and-nerdygirl

#tom sturridge #new #characters #updated

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awellboiledicicle · 1 year

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The more i think about Osk in the Osk au, the more i think the only way she finds out SPECIFIC specifics on how her family got fucked over is because Hermes exists.

Why do i think this?

Because, one, that motherfucker is a gossip. Two, can you imagine how jazzed he’d be to stir up some shit? Just to watch what would happen while he’s zipping in and out of contact with Charon.

Thirdly, however, Osk knows him as a trickster and god of secret things.

So she literally just plies him with nectar she finds until he’ll tell her whats going on with her family/what happened. Since she can’t exactly go get a lamb, anyway.

Which is fine when he’s giving non-answers like “Hel is in Helheim, as per usual.” or “Fenrir? Still in chains.” or “Wyrm boy’s still in the ocean.”

Where it gets Exciting is when he decides to tell her the Whole ordeal of exactly HOW the chains holding Loki were fashioned. And what happened to her brothers in that situation. And that its less that Loki is withstanding the pain for so long between earthquakes his actual breakdowns are that strong, and more that’s just how powerful a convultion the venom causes in the like two mins it takes Sigyn to empty the bowl of venom out/get back. And knowing Sigyn just... has to keep tending her husband, bound in the entrails of her son, until he breaks free at the literal end of time.

Like i want to stress that Osk was 100% sold the idea that Loki was being punished somewhere for a span. He did cause Baldur to die and possibly was why he couldn’t return. This she understands. Her dad’s kinda a dick if you’re not his kid. Even then, it depends. She assumed, like every other fuck up, Odin would kick his ass and be done-- or Loki would piss off Hel by stealing Baldur out of her realm. That said she also didn’t know Fenrir was how Tyr lost his arm, she just assumed he pissed someone off. She also wasn’t told where Fenrir was, between her stints in midgard. She only found out about broad strokes things because Thor, as he does, got drunk and laughed when she made a comment about speaking to Loki ‘when he returns’. And then didn’t shut up once he was asked, obviously, what was funny. Odin didn’t shut him up expressly because she’d find out eventually, and if her anger was more at Thor, he’d take it. This was when both her attempts to free Fenrir started, and about two months after Odin had talked to Zeus.

What i’m saying is Hermes drops a truth bomb on her and dips to go prepare popcorn for when the norse pantheon next want to check in on if Hades is actually keeping an eye on her.

I’m also saying that Achilles is 80% convinced Osk is going to try throwing down with Hades when she returns via the pool. The room is oddly silent when she asks, very tersely, if she could be allowed to waive the rules of hospitality next visit from the north. She’s denied, but only because he has no context and even if he DID have context its not his business.

Which changes when Zagreus unlocks Secret Bestie Lore on his new pal and she of all people breaks down sobbing on his shoulder in the lounge because she keeps thinking of her beloved brothers and her lonely sister. Sure she didn’t know Jormungander longer than a few years, but blood is blood. Fenrir and her were raised together, though him being older was fun if only because having a wolf taunt you over a growthspurt is annoying. She got on well with Hel, because few others could or would bother to try before she was sent to Niflheim. Osk just wasn’t cast away anywhere because she was half human and Freya felt she could be useful if kept watch on. Mostly because by the time a Valkyrie comes to check, Zagreus has had his bi little fingers all over her contract of service to edit it a bit. What surprises him is when he tells Persephone about it all--because sometimes you gotta vent to your mom about your friends problems--it makes it to Hades. Because Hades does actually value Osk’s work a lot. And he doesn’t have the stick up his ass about it like he does with Zag, so he actually bothers to commend her on it. She just was too stubborn to like... tell him directly why she wanted the hospitality rule waived. And you don’t fuck around with hospitality rules lightly, especially with other gods. But what you can do is very clearly, in all future correspondence, define your home as very specifically The House of Hades. Meaning anything outside of it is Hades’ realm, but hospitality only covers his house.

Zagreus deadpans to Osk about Hades liking one of them, at least. Osk just snorts.

#osk au

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Ok but like. B.J from M*A*S*H = David from Giovanni’s Room hot take.

So. Y’know. This is obviously only if you accept the popular headcanon that BJ is gay, repressed, and in love with Hawkeye.

So anyway. David has sex with his childhood friend and then immediately starts repressing shit. He flees to France, somewhere where it’s not illegal to be gay, because he’s feeling the heat and knows he’s going to have to get married soon and he needs to put a pause on his life, to get away from that.

Then he goes to France. And yes, he does get to know a few people in the gay community. But what’s the first thing he does? He finds himself a perfect wife. Gets into a committed relationship to her. Until proposal is literally the only next step.

Ok. So BJ gets sent to Korea. And meets Hawkeye. And, yeah, this isn’t all that canon. But a lot of people in the fandom like the headcanon that BJ was immediately attracted to Hawkeye.

He’s away from home. If BJ was ever going to experiment with his sexuality it would be now. Now, I’m not saying he should have cheated on his wife but like y’know. If he was ever gonna let himself be gay it would be now.

But he doesn’t do that. He clearly has attachment to Hawkeye, but his whole personality revolves around his wife back home. Every time she has a problem at home, he becomes obsessed. His wife gets a job and he throws his ring into a poker table. He has a breakdown over her cleaning the gutters. He literally tells a woman who’s interested in him that he’s tethered to a little house with a wife back in California. He’s tied himself to his wife in the one place where it’d actually be better to let go a bit (again, not meaning cheating but like. Going to shambles bc somebody innocently hit on her).

So. For David, France represents his homosexuality. For BJ, it’s Korea. And both times, they completely reject it. Tether themselves to home and the heterosexual lie they’ve been telling (did I mention David’s girlfriend is American! Bc she is!)

So. David proposes to his girlfriend. Bc what else would someone escaping hetero standards in the US do in France? And she says SHE has to think about it and leaves for a trip around Spain.

Meanwhile, BJ gets some incorrect travel orders and gets to go home to his wife. He rushes off without even leaving Hawkeye a note and then. Gets caught. And gets sent right back to Hawkeye and the war.

Ok. Now what. David meets Giovanni and they get into a heavy relationship. Living together. Etc. meanwhile his girlfriend writes him back saying yes to his proposal and that she’ll be back, which is now a problem, bc like. Whoops. He now understands he doesn’t want her. Giovanni is sitting there, realistic and understanding, saying well you can have her and I’ll still be here no problem. But David just can’t think like that. Because in Giovanni’s room he can be gay, but this is his whole life, and he’s still repressed as hell.

BJ gets sent back. And the peace talks work out and the war is ending. And he refuses to say goodbye to Hawkeye. He refuses to admit they’ll never see each other again. They’ll meet up all the time. Even though BJ lives in California and Hawkeye in Maine. Meanwhile Hawkeye, who just came out of the mental hospital, is the voice of reason. Saying that they will never see each other, and that their relationship deserves a goodbye. They have a huge party talking about the future and BJ gets drunk and jokes about cheating on the wife he’s been obsessed with for so long, only a few days before he gets to see her again. Which seems a bit odd. Y’know, unless he actually didn’t want to face real life.

With both, only once the reality of the heterosexual love life is staring them in the face do they panic and allow themselves to want what they want.

And then what happens. The reality becomes too close and they’ve actually got to choose.

So. David doesn’t tell Giovanni, goes to pick up his fiancée, and writes his dad saying he’s coming home with a wife. Doesn’t acknowledge Giovanni again.

BJ goes home to his wife, says goodbye forever.

Giovanni’s Room ends with Giovanni getting put to death bc of a crime he wouldn’t have had to commit if David had just gotten his shit together. Meanwhile David gets caught in a gay bar by Hella, his fiancée, and she leaves him. He has no one and finishes the book in guilt and anguish.

So………… should I write a really fucking depressing M*A*S*H fanfic?

#mash #bj hunnicutt #giovanni’s room #Giovanni’s room spoilers

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howaminotinthestrokesyet · 2 years

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I Swear Its True: Mikey Welsh

Michael Edward Welsh was born on April 20, 1971 in Syracuse, New York. His music career began by playing in a number of Boston area groups such as Heretix, Chevy Heston, Jocobono, Left Nut, and Slower. He also played bass on tour for Juliana Hatfield and Verbena. In 1997, he joined the short lived side project, The Rivers Cuomo Band. A year later, Welsh joined Weezer replacing departing bassist and founding member, Matt Sharp. He continued to play with Juliana Hatfield and Verbona as Weezer continued to remain on hiatus. The guitarist also played with Patrick Wilson’s side project, The Special Goodness. At this time, he wrote a tremendous amount of original baselines that he sent to Cuomo for inspiration, but the singer never used any of them. He also sent them to Juliana Hatfield, which were used on four tracks on the album Juliana's Pony: Total System Failure. Mikey toured with Weezer beginning in the summer of 2000, His first appearance on any Weezer release was the Christmas ep at the end of the year. He would tour with Weezer in support of the Green Album after playing bass on the release. In 2001, Welsh sadly suffered a mental breakdown, newly diagnosed mental health issues brought on by heavy drug use, and the stress of touring with the band. Mikey left Weezer after he attempted suicide with a drug overdose. The musician talked about that period in his life in an interview in 2007. ‘

Basically, a lifetime of doing drugs and being undiagnosed as having bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, and borderline personality disorder finally caught up with me when I was 30 years old. At the beginning of a 3-month European tour with Weezer, I started slowly falling apart. Without getting too graphic, by the time the tour was winding up, my weight had gone down to about 140lbs (I'm 6'2") [63,5 kg – 1,88 m] and mentally completely wiped out. When I returned to the States, my family had made plans for me to see a psychiatrist in Boston. First though, we had to play a few dates around the U.S., and perform on The Tonite (sic) Show (which ended up being my last performance with Weezer). By the time I got to Boston, I was having a complete nervous breakdown. It ended with a severe suicide attempt (an overdose). I was found and rushed to the hospital where I had come to within minutes of my heart completely stopping. I was in a coma for a few days, and woke up in a lockdown psychiatric ward.”

For their part, Weezer shot a new video for the track “Island in the Sun” without Welsh, but not his replacement Scott Shriner either. Between 2001 and 2002, the guitarist returned to the Boston area joining the Kickovers, a group led by Nate Albert of the Mighty Mighty Bosstones. This return to music was short-lived as Welsh announced his retirement from music altogether shortly thereafter. He would move to Vermont with his family to work as a full-time artist. Welsh would attend a Weezer show in 2005 when Rivers Cuomo dedicated their performance of “Hash Pipe” to him. In 2010, the former musician actually performed with Weezer for a show in Essex Junction, Vermont for “Hash Pipe.” In 2008, Mikey began public exhibits of his art totaling 13 before his untimely passing.This is an excerpt from the description on his site, “Welsh attacks his canvases with pure spontaneity and aggression, almost never using a brush and preferring to work only with his hands and fingers”.His artwork would be used on a Burton snowboard called “The Farm.” In September 2011, Mikey Welsh wrote this on his Twitter…"dreamt i died in chicago next weekend (heart attack in my sleep). need to write my will today." He passed away in a Chicago hotel room on October 11 from a heart attack induced by a heroin overdose.

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Please read this. If I don't hear back from you I won't bother you again. I'm in deep trouble with JH. I just found out about an hour ago that I've not been communicating with you I guess for the last two years. I'm trying to understand where the breakdown happened and when it was that we actually last spoke. Last time I was sure it was you was two summers ago. I made you all those playlists and you said we could give it a go. Then I got a message on my phone that seemed to say that you were being arrested. I jumped in my car and started driving north. I'm going to skip details in the interest of getting to the point. My understanding was that you were smuggled out of the country. They tried to but failed to join me to you. I ended up in the hospital in Baltimore. Perhaps you didn't know I thought you were going to be arrested and thought I'd just run off and lost my mind. Maybe you stayed with me longer. Anyway while in the hospital I learned that when I was living in Staunton JH broke in one night, drugged me and put a chip implant in my brain through my nose. I'm thinking you didn't know this much and I beg you to believe me. I can't convince anyone but you might give me the benefit of the doubt. I've documented the terrifying ways that the chip has been used, and I'm telling you, you would not believe the psychological terror I've endured. For the past 1 year I've been under the belief that you and others have been working to trace the people who have been tormenting me on the chip. They can hear my thoughts and speak into my mind. Each time they reactivate the chip I seek shelter in the hospital and of course the doctors think I'm schizophrenic. Last summer I sent a Facebook message to your ex because on the chip they were threatening your family. I realize now that without any of this background information for context that it must have seemed a bizarre and unwelcome message. I thought you'd been communicating with me for the whole previous year and knew of the chip. Please believe me, there are some unfathomably evil people out there and they know who all of us are.

From the moment you called me your cute laptop I've been in love with you and never stopped over these past 10 years. Now I see that perhaps I don't know the real you all that well but I've been devoted to you and to the challenge of getting to you. Just about 2 hours ago I found out that we haven't spoken in 2 years. This entire time I've been trying to get to you. Now I realize you may not even reciprocate my feelings and if you don't I will understand and not pursue you. I'm asking you for help in figuring out what this chip is and how to get it out. I'm seriously afraid for my life. Maybe you did stick with me longer and did learn of the chip but stopped helping me for some other reason. The machinations they've inflicted upon me were so unbelievably real that I thought you loved me just as much as I loved you and wouldn't stop until we were together, so this morning I'm also heartbroken but if I can get you to help me stay alive that's good enough. I don't know how many of these people there are but the number is staggering by the evidence and like I said they know who you and your family are. Maybe if you try to help me you'll make yourself and them targets but if you don't help me then they stay at large. They know my feelings for you and might try to hurt you to hurt me. If you can call me my number is 434 422 1668. If you are willing to hear more but can't contact me directly please give a sign. I noticed your Facebook and Twitter are locked down and I hope it's not because you think I'm unstable and might stalk you. If you don't wish to speak to me I'll leave you alone for the rest of my life but I don't know what I'm going to be able to do about my chip. The doctors won't give me scans because they think I'm just crazy. Thank you for listening to me. I have no idea what your thoughts and feelings for me are but if you knew how fervently I've loved you all this time I think you'd want to help me. Would you be the guardian one more time?

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Family Matters, Greg House

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In the time I’ve worked at Princeton-Plainsboro teaching hospital, some might say I'm the bubbly doctor in our group. Although I don’t know how true this might be, I do know everyone can agree I'm definitely more bubbly than doctor Gregory House, but that's for another day to discuss. I'm usually the one people send in to try and cheer up patients. Because of this, I mostly work in the pediatrics ward where young, sick children are. Sometimes, I have an easy time talking to the kids and making them happier, and sometimes, I don't; usually, when I'm upset, I have a hard time.

Right now, I'm having a very difficult time.

A young New Jersey girl at the age of 11 had developed mastoiditis, an infection that affects the mastoid bone above the ear and is typically caused by a middle ear infection. Usually, this all clears up, but sadly, this infection had grown to be so bad that the girl ended up with only twenty-three percent of her hearing left in the one ear. Although this is the case, I'm not having a hard time because of the girl's loss of hearing, no.

I have my own problems at the moment.

Since I'm working in the children's ward, I don't get to see Wilson or Greg as much as I want to. Despite Greg's tendency to be an asshole, he's still my best friend and not to mention that Wilson is the kind of guy anyone can talk to about anything. However, our schedules are all different, so, as I said: we don't get to see each other that often.

At least they're still in my life though. For my family, I can’t say the same. Recently, I've just lost the closest person to me in my family; although it wasn’t through death, but through immaturity and childishness. Because of this, all of my other family members have closed me out as well, causing me to be alone. With all of my friends busy and my family shutting me out, I have no one to talk to or enjoy time with... no one. I can't even get a boyfriend for Christ's sake, and it's not like the guy I have my eyes on actually likes me back. Greg is the type of guy you can easily fall in love with, yet at the same, you really shouldn't.

"Doctor (y/n)," the young girl by the name of Jessie states. Putting all my focus back on her, I remind myself not become distracted anymore today. This isn’t the first time, unfortunately. "Will my hearing ever return?"

I smile sadly at her and shake my head. "I'm sorry, Jessie," I tell her. "Your hearing in that ear won't return, but it's not a bad thing!" I assure her. She smiles in relief. "We can always get you a hearing aid, and that will help get your hearing back to normal again, but the wait might be a little long," I explain. "Is that okay with you?"

She nods her head at my question. "I'm okay with that, doctor (Y/n)," Jessie tells me, "I'll have my family help me until then," she smiles brightly. "You can always look up to your family, right?" She states, confident in her words.

Tears slowly rising to my eyes at the thought, I nod and quickly blink them away. "That's right," I tell her, still smiling. "And don't you ever forget it," looking toward her parents, I nod my head. "The discharge nurse will be here in a few moments with the papers. If you'll excuse me..."

Without another word, I quickly leave the room and walk as fast as I can to the nearest empty room. I prefer going to James’ office instead, but it's two floors away, and I don't want any awkward elevator trips. So, before I have a mental breakdown in the middle of the hallway, I find an unlocked janitorial closet before walking in and closing the door behind me, ultimately sliding down the hardwood door once it's shut.

Sitting on the cold, tile floor, I begin sobbing as quiet as I can, my hand covering my mouth. I already had my family drama on my mind all day, but for that girl to unintentionally throw it back in my face? That was the frosting on top of the already leaning, three-layer cake.

Tears stream down my cheeks like raindrops as I cry my heart out. I can tell my cheeks are red by the sensation of heat I currently feel on them; my hands feel it too. I'm crying so hard my chest begins to heave up and down as if I were having a panic attack. Oh God, I can't have a panic attack. Not here, not now.

Behind me, I feel two knocks on the door, causing me to halt. The only problem is: the knock wasn't above me, it was where my back is against the door. Remind you, I'm currently sitting on the floor. The only way someone can knock that low is if there is a midget behind the door there or someone used something like a cane... it's Greg.

Slowly moving up a little, I shakily open the door and let the grey haired man in, watching as he looks at me with pity. I've never seen the confident doctor House look like this with anyone. It's like a... a totally different Greg.

Sitting down beside me against the door, Greg drops his cane beside him as he sighs and wraps his arm around me before gently tugging my body close to his. Shocked, I tense up, tears no longer pouring out of my eyes. Greg never comforts anyone like this. He always makes fun of them or says something that many people take offense to, but he never... he never cares. He always brushes it off his shoulder, yet for some reason, he seems like he actually cares this time.

"What's wrong?" He asks, his voice deep as usual with no emotion.

I wait a few seconds before lying. "Nothing important," I tell him, my voice wavering from my scattered emotions.

Pulling me back to face him, Greg looks me in the eye before sighing again. "I know you've been crying by the wet tears on your cheeks, slight puffiness, and redness to your eyes, and fast-paced breathing - and I don’t even have to be a doctor to notice that," he breaks down my current state, lifting an eyebrow. "Now, are you going to begrudgingly tell me what's wrong or do I need to stay in here with you until you finally give in to all my unrelenting sexiness."

His comment makes me laugh, causing a grimace of a smile to fall on House's lips. Out of all of us, I've been the only one to do that. I've been the only one to break Greg's stone exterior and interior. Plus, It doesn't help that I like Greg romantically. I like the fact that he's confident and witty; he's not afraid to be himself. Although, he can still be quite an ass to others, but to me, he’s always been nothing but kind. Even when I first started working here, he was still patient and sweet - a rare sight to everyone else. It used to hurt me to think he’ll never feel the same way as me, but I’ve gotten so used to that fact that it doesn’t even bother me anymore.

"It's just... my family," I explain, Greg pushing my head back onto his shoulder as he holds me. At this point, I'm not shocked by anything he does. The infamous doctor could be high for all I know. He probably took a few Vicodin tablets before coming down here now that I think of it.

"They've completely... shut me out," I explain, shrugging as I rest my hand on his shoulder. "They never talk to me anymore, they've blocked me in any way of even trying to talk to them. My cousin just sent me an email last night telling me that I didn't need to contact them anymore as they no longer wanted me in their lives," I close my eyes, tears rolling down my cheeks. "Plus, I wish I could work with you guys again," I take a breath before saying the next thing. "I miss you."

A few seconds of silence pass before Greg leans down to my face level. Opening my eyes, I'm greeted by his own sapphire orbs, watching as he continually inches forward until his lips plant themselves on mine. Our eyes close at the same time in response to the touch of our lips, and they stay that way too. With my heart beating fast and a different fire in my cheeks, I instantly respond to his kiss while placing my hands on the sides of his face, feeling his hands attach themselves to my hips as I do so. We kiss until we have to breathe, both of us pulling apart simultaneously.

"They don't deserve you," Greg tells me, a little out of breath. "You are wonderful; a decent and kind human being, inside and out," he takes a small pause, flashing his blue eyes down to mine. "I never thought I’d say this, but… because of you, I think maybe not everyone is a horrible person and that maybe I can be a bit nicer a time or two," he then smiles at me, kissing me once more. "You have made me feel love believe it or not."

Smiling, I lean up to kiss his forehead before sitting back down and resting my head against his chest, my eyes cast upon him as he looks down at me. "You've also made me feel love," I confess to him, my voice shy. "I've grown to love you as well. You and your sarcastic comments and witty comebacks and your insults to apparent stupid people," for once, he laughs, making me grin. "I can't help but love it all."

After a few moments, Greg speaks up. "I know I can't be your entire family," he murmurs, holding me close. "But I can try to be your... your..." He draws on, clearly trying to come up with an appointed title for himself. After a few seconds, I giggle and cut him off.

"Boyfriend?" I ask, making him roll his eyes.

"I was going to say significant other," he argues, looking over to me. "The term boyfriend is so, well, childish," he complains, making me giggle.

Leaning closer, I peck his lips. "Good thing you have a childish mind," I tease him, pressing my lips to his one more time before he responds to my comment with something horrible or completely inappropriate. It is Doctor House we’re talking about, after all.

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Yandere Boyfriend Leo (Otome)

Created by: ChatBook

Genre: Simulation/Romance

I got through this one a lot faster because I knew what I was looking for this time, so here is another one of those Korean Otome Phone games. Actually, this company has made two other male yandere-based ones, so you will probably see those in the future as well. I'll be riding this wave for a bit in terms of recommendations, haha. If you don't have an android like me or don't want to actually play through the game, here's a link to the whole series. This one is also one that has bad translations in it so it was sort of a pain to read through in that way, but the story is at least a bit interesting.

The way that this game works is that it's in the format of a text message, but the story is told as if it were a visual novel. There are ads sprinkled through it, which I found to be kind of annoying since it uses the main male's icon, and there are "phone calls" in the story of Leo calling the MC about something yandere-like (and usually vaguely related to the story). Personally, I found a lot of these phone calls to be out of place (they're usually found in the beginning and end of each chapter and sort of interrupt the flow of the story), but I did find the voice acting to be good on a lot of them.

The story starts with the MC moving into a new school, aloof towards everyone because she doesn't really want to make friends. However, a girl names Grace somehow befriends the MC and invites her to a club. In this club, the MC meets Leo, a boy who is the perfect student and a really good piano player. Things go smoothly until one of the other members, Ryan, gets into an accident over a broken chair, where it's later revealed Leo was the one who sabotaged it in the first place. Afterward, the MC and Grace go to the cafeteria, where Grace confesses that she has a crush on Leo, and we meet a boy called Eugene, who seems to have a crush on the MC. After Eugene brings the MC home late at night, she encounters Leo, who is not happy. The MC tells him to be friends with Grace because she has a crush on him, and Leo agrees, but only because the MC told him to. The next day, Leo has started to date Grace, though he still clearly has eyes on the MC. Eugene asks the MC out on a date to watch a movie with him, however, on the day of the date, Leo arrives at the MC's place and forces her to go somewhere with him, causing the MC to miss the date. The next day, the MC tries to hint to Grace that Leo might not like her (which, I don't understand why the MC just doesn't straight up tell Grace that Leo is using her but whatever) and Leo forces the MC into a kiss, which Eugene sees. Eugene, of course, takes it the wrong way and think that the MC likes Leo, and later the MC tells Grace that Leo is using her, only for Grace to get angry and stop being friends with her (which, god, what an overreaction, the MC was just trying to tell you that Leo is using her, what are you so mad at the MC for). Despite everything that happens, Eugene invites the MC on another date and Leo goes to her again, but this time has a bit of a breakdown. He threatens to make Eugene disappear, and wouldn't you know it, on the day of the date, Eugene is sent to the hospital after a hit and run. The MC goes to see him, then realizes that it was probably Leo who cause the hit and run, considering that Eugene didn't have his phone and that the MC was informed of his accident via text. Leo ends up kidnapping the MC when she tries to go home, and the two end up living in an apartment with each other, with the MC chained.

We get a flashback of Leo's past, about how he's part of a rich family that cared more about his older brother than him. He ends up poisoning his brother and becoming the sole heir to the family. Back in the present, Leo tries to take care of the MC and informs her that no one will be looking for her since he's faked her death via a fire. She attempts to escape, however, gets caught by Leo and she is forced to play nice with him until she's able to gain his trust. Eventually, she's able to grab ahold of her phone and calls Eugene for help (...instead of the police or something, good thinking MC). Eventually, Leo and the MC go out to a restaurant where she ends up escaping and calls Eugene, who saves her and lets her live in his house. Eugene and MC finally go out on their date together and the two live happily for a bit until one day Leo arrives at the house. Leo drags the MC away, and she tries to escape to Eugene, only to find out that Eugene has been on Leo's side the entire time ( I really need to stop falling for the second lead in these games, they always turn out to be a bad guy. Never again.) As it turns out, Eugene's family is in financial trouble, so Leo promised that if he helped get the MC onto his side, Leo would pay big money for Eugene. The MC is brought to a large estate with Leo and is trapped in the place for three years. There, she acts pretty annoyed towards Leo (for good reason) and starts to slowly befriend a worker named Caleb. The MC and Caleb slowly get close to each other and hatch a plan to escape from the estate. Just as the two are about to escape for good in a car, Leo comes by and rams into it, causing Caleb to fall down a cliff into the water below. The MC, not wanting to go back to Leo's place, falls into the water as well. Two years passed, and Caleb and the MC are living off the grid, having a little farm, and raising animals together. However, Leo somehow is able to find them, kills Caleb, and kidnaps the MC again, forcing them to live together forever.

The ending of this game is certainly way more tragic than My Psycho Boyfriends, and actually sort of reminds me of the ending of The Red Fox, considering the MC is forced to be with the yandere forever against her will. Again, I was tricked into thinking that the second lead would be the better person (I actually predicted that he was going to be killed by Leo, but I was only partially right on that), so I'm never making that mistake again when it comes to these types of games. It's too bad though since I actually did like Eugene way more than I liked Sean from My Psycho Boyfriends since he actually did like the MC. The reason for his betrayal is more understandable than Sean's (at least he was trying to earn money for his poor financial family, whereas Sean was just... jealous), though obviously, it doesn't mean that he should have sold the MC to Leo. The MC is kind of... I don't know, she's sort of annoying in the beginning, trying to act aloof, but as the story went on, I just felt worse and worse for her since she didn't deserve all the stuff that Leo did to her. It was kind of annoying that she didn't tell anyone about Leo's behavior (except for Grace, I guess, but her reaction ended up being pretty horrible, unfortunately) and instead of doing logical decisions, keeps on trying to jump on top of any nice boy she meets, though I don't think she deserves the ending that she got. Leo is pretty much a standard-born yandere boy, and there's not much reason to how or why he became so possessive over the MC. There's a bit about him and his brother, but it doesn't really explain why he acts that way ( I guess he might have gotten abused by his father) and overall, he just seems to really "win" in all situations. Not to mention he's considered a perfect student and rich, so there's not much to that either. Overall, I didn't really find him interesting as a character, and he was basically just the villain throughout the entire story.

In terms of art and voice acting performance, I thought the art was pretty alright. You can't really see it most of the time since the game is set like a text message and the icons for characters are pretty small, but you can tell that it's not bad artwork. I kind of wish there were more CGs in the story since most of the art was just pictures of locations. The voice acting for the story was really good, especially for parts where he either breaks down or becomes obsessive.

From what I can tell, the story relies on you watching ads, but if you don't want to do that you can watch it online. Again, this is probably something I wouldn't recommend playing or watching unless you're really interested in the story. This story does have Leo acting as a yandere though, and he's a lot more of a villain than a character like Jin, so if you're into villain yandere's or ones where the yandere wins, this story is for you.

I have a couple more of these Chatbook games to go through, though the next one I'm watching, Dangerous Ex-Boyfriend Ethan has a revenge story with a more active MC, which I find to be interesting, so I'm at least a bit interested in what will come next.

#male yandere #yandere boy #yandere #recommendation #visual novel #game #completed #yandere boyfriend leo

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