#place to be ever and all my friends call it the autism room because it’s filled with all my favorite things

[whumpy-wyrms]

basement is flooding 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥 :(((

#my most favorite magical amazing silliest place in the universe (my room) is in the basement :( #it’s not like Actually flooding but Someone (we don’t know who. might be our new neighbor.) turned on the hose outside and just. left it on #and the water leaked into our basement and into the walls and shit. there was a huge pool of water in the furnace room or whatever it’s #called and. there water literally underneath the floor. like literally water is leaking through the floor boards and i found out when i sat #on my rug and realized i was getting all wet. like i literally walked across my room and water was seeping through the cracks of the floor #water was EVERYWHERE #in like over half the basement. the floor of the main area is ruined i think and holy shit apparently like the inside of the walls or #foundation or whatever is so like wet and soggy that we might have to take out the entire wall that separates my room and the furnace room #and if we have to do that my stepdad says he’ll just remodel the entire basement while we’re at it. which means my room would basically be #gone. this is so fucking stupid #all because some idiot left the hose on. and we don’t even know who it is either. i think it’s our new neighbor because he kinda just #comes to our house a lot and talks to us or just hangs out in our yard. and sometimes he shows up when none of us are home #idk it’s stupid apparently there’s a shit ton of damage and that’s freaking me out because i literally love my room so much it’s my favorit #place to be ever and all my friends call it the autism room because it’s filled with all my favorite things #like my walls are bright neon lime green i got collections and shit i’ve got minecraft posters and like a million plushies everywhere #my room is literally so autism coded #ANYWAY. probably nothing will happen but yeah #side note i have a shit ton of asks to answer and tag games to catch up on and stories to read but i’ve had literally zero spoons lately #i’m gonna play minecrafttttt (in the process of building a pc so soon i’ll be able to get mc java!!! excited about that!!!!) #wyrms says stuff

[strazki]

School Bus Graveyard headcanons no one asked for but will still get 😤

Ashlyn has autism. Honestly pretty much canon at this point, considering what we've seen of her, but still

The whole group took a hot second to adjust, but they are now so accommodating to it

Obviously there's the noise issues, but they also recognize when she needs to be alone, and they don't bother her too much about her being so asocial

I’m projecting but I just love these guys

ANYWAY, on a completely different subject, I think Taylor is actually a really good singer! She's just very shy about it

I also think Aiden can definitely play drumset

Top that off with Tyler canonically playing guitar, all you need to do is give Ben a bass or something and then they're basically just a little band!

I think they would be called the Phantoms or some shit like that

Ashlyn can do backup vocals, and I love my boy Logan but he's giving stage manager vibes a little bit lol

Someone's gotta do it

Taylor and Tyler share their clothes all the time. We already see that they have the same room, which most likely means the same closet, and since the two of them have a relatively similar build (and thus, similar clothing sizes), they just don't really bother separating their clothes (probably why they're matching so often)

Aiden does so much stupid rich kid shit. Not obnoxiously, but just out of a lack of understanding

Probably says some shit to the others like "Wait, your parents didn't get you a car? I know we can't drive yet, but you can still like... take pictures with it."

Bro has no idea he's that rich

The twins absolutely love going over to Ashlyn's place to get self-defense training from Mike and Emma. With their father being gone for a while, and their mom being not all there (for lack of a better description), it's been a long time since they've had a stable parental figure in their lives

Ashlyn's parents are just so nice to them and treat them like their own kids. I just think it's something they needed in their life that they found in an unexpected place :(

Ben loves to paint! He took up art and drawing ever since he lost his voice, and finds painting specifically very calming

He's been working on portraits for each of his friends that are all lying half-finished around his room

Even when he finishes them, though, he probably wouldn't show them for a while because he's quite nervous about it

If he DOES show them, he would definitely give Taylor her's first, because that's who he feels closest to

She cries

I feel like Logan, with working at the flower shop and all that, probably spends a bit of time putting together little bouquets for his friends

Not as like a grand show of affection, but just little gifts to show his appreciation for them being around and caring about him

Probably personalizes them a LOT too. Not only does he coordinate them to match the favorite colors/flowers of the person he's making them for, but he knows all the symbolic meanings behind each flower

Like, for example, I bet he gets yellow roses for Ben to signify friendship, and pink roses for Ashlyn to signify gratitude, that sort of stuff

His love language is gift giving and he's never had friends as close as these guys, leave him alone >:[

Okay that's all I got right now send tweet

#sbg #school bus graveyard #taylor hernandez #tyler hernandez #aiden clark #ben clark #logan fields #ashlyn banner #ashlyn sbg #logan sbg #ben sbg #aiden sbg #tyler sbg #taylor sbg

[jinx-blackout-84]

Been trying to put a finger on why the Dream situation pisses me off and I think I figured it out.

I spent nights staring at my ceiling listening to change my clothes and dreaming about a future that I'm scared I'll never get to have. I watched every single one of his videos, read the fanfiction, sang the songs, knew the memes and jokes, couldn't look at a kettle or fork or the goddamn color green without thinking about him. And yeah, maybe it was weird, but I was TWELVE and he was the first person I had ever seen in media that was like me. That couldn't sit still, that talked weird, that just didn't quite fit in. I had a community when I was watching tiktoks about him and reading countless Tumblr posts about the dsmp lore.

It was covid and I was a kid and I was lonely and I needed so badly to have a place where I didn't have to watch the walls in my room seemed to get closer every moment.

I started having panic attacks when I went out in public, the people I was friends with started to realize I wasn't normal, that full body twitches and flappy hands weren't the typical reaction to a good song or too-bright lights. I was so lonely.

And then I found Dream's videos. And they helped me have a place where I wasn't alone in my room, feeling like a crazy person for my tics and my gender.

I cared so fucking much about this guy, trusted him with that naive trust that kids have that people are telling the truth, and then he turned out to be taking advantage of that in his fans.

It really fucking sucked to find out that my idol wasn't a good person.

And I had him on a pedestal, I thought he was perfect, I would have taken a bullet for him, alright? I cared so much because he was the only person I had ever seen who was like me.

It wasn't normal. It wasn't just me being a normal fan. I was a stan, was a parasocial fan, whatever you want to call it.

Burt he didn't do anything to stop thousands of kids just like me from being parasocial, in fact he encouraged it.

It just bothers me to think that the entire time he was telling us he cared, 12 year old me was just another viewer. Not because I was just another viewer, but because he lied to me and told me I wasn't. I am fine with just being a fan, but being told that I'm important and significant by someone who has no way of caring about me really sucked. It sucked because it really felt like he cared, but I was always just another view, another like, another subscriber, commenter, buyer. Just another consumer.

I was emotionally dependent on him and he did nothing to discourage that behavior from thousands of fans and it's disgusting because now he's taking advantage of those same fans, using them for money, flirting with MINORS that have been conditioned to care about him.

And now a huge portion of my childhood, a huge portion of the happiness I got from being part of his community, feels so gross and tainted and I will never get to have that again. I will never get to have back those days where I could watch his videos and listen to his songs.

And I fucking loved the songs.

I loved the music, music has always been a huge deal for me, and I loved it.

Now every time I hear those stupid songs I'm taken back to when I was twelve, picturing high school and thinking about my friends and all of the things twelve year olds care about. And I miss it, and I miss the stupid songs, because I can't hear them the same anymore and they should be special to me. They should be honey-dipped nostalgia and now they are gross and unsettling.

It fucking sucks to see him parade around and talk about how he deserve sympathy because he is autistic, however true that may be, because I am autistic, and it's not fun. It's not just being a little too blunt or developing a little slower. Those may be symptoms, but that's not what autism is. It's sobbing in the middle of the lunch hall as a year 8 because you have the wrong number or apple slices in your lunch. Autism isn't some excuse for behaving like a manchild, is is something that has fucked up so much for my life. And he uses it for sympathy points.

It sucks because I related so much to him and now that I know who he really is, I am left to wonder if I will be like him one day.

It took a big part of my childhood that I should be able to look back on with fondness and sort of ruined the memories.

It sucks because part of me will always care so goddamn much even if he's fucking terrible. Even if I would avoid him if I saw him in public. Even if i have him blocked on all social media. Even if i threw away every fanart i drew of him and the dream hoodie i bought with my own money. Part of me wishes he would redeem himself so I could love his songs again. Even if I really wish he would just lose his platform right now and never fucking speak again, I miss my childhood so damn much.

Kinda fucked me up to have something I cared so much about sort of destroyed in front of me just because a man that I thought could do no wrong was a shitty person.

Anyways, I hope he burns.

#jinx screams into the void #Dream neg #dream situation #Vent tw

[autistpride]

Autism Acceptance

Prompt day 6: April 6

Amnesia AU

Word count: 1500

@wolfstarmicrofic

Remus was worried that his parents would say no. That they wouldn’t even listen to what he had to say and shut the conversation down. Remus knew he needed less support than he used to, but he was doing so well.

Remus had scripted his pitch in his head daily, sometimes multiple times a day, for the last week. As the number of days increased, so did Remus’ anxiousness. He began to pace and wring his hands. He started to withdraw and stopped speaking.

The change did not go unnoticed and finally Hope called a family meeting to have it out.

“Okay Remus, you’ve been wearing holes in the carpet again and I am pretty sure you should be wearing your compression gloves from how much swelling you’ve caused in your hands over the last week. What’s going on?”

Remus’ knees bounced and his hands clenched on the trousers of his pants. He took a breath and shook out his hands before he rose to his feet and started to move around the room in laps.

“I was talking with Sirius when we had our last date. We went to the skating rink and then had ice cream, you remember?” Remus asked pausing to look at his parents who sat together on the settee.

Lyall motioned with his hand to continue. Remus started to speak and then paused. He tried again and then again. His carefully planned out proposal instead fell from his lips in a single sentence that sounded more like a demand.

“Sirius asked me to move in with him and I want to do it!”

Sirius had asked him to move in with him and Remus wanted to. He wanted to so badly. They had been dating for three years now and while Sirius had his own struggles at times due to his traumatic childhood, he understood Remus in a way no one else ever had.

Sirius and him had met at an autism family event. He was there with his brother Regulus who Remus was sorta friends with already. Of course Remus hadn’t known that Regulus had a brother or that he was as handsome as he was until the day they met.

According to Regulus, it took Sirius two months to coax up the courage to ask Remus out. Remus didn’t believe him with how smooth Sirius was when he finally did ask. But apparently Sirius kept asking Regulus questions about Remus until Regulus got annoyed and dragged Sirius to their weekly autistic adult meet up at the library so Sirius could pester Remus instead of him.

“Okay,” Hope said softly from her place. Lyall smiled a half smile when Remus spun from his pacing and stared at her.

“Really?” he asked, surprised and trying hard not to let his excitement sound in his voice.

“Ya, really. You both have been together for over two years now. He knows your triggers and glimmers and I’ve watched him calm you down from a meltdown as well as support you through your shutdowns. Ya. I think if that’s what you both want, then you should do it. I just worry about your epilepsy dear.” Hope said honestly.

“Sirius knows what my tonic clonic seizures look like mam. He even went with me to my last EMU.” Remus pointed out.

“I know, but what if they get worse again?”

“Hope darling, you can’t keep Remus here forever just because you worry that someone else will ignore all the signs like what happened in the past. Sirius is a very kind and attentive partner. He won't hesitate to call Remus’ provider if he notices anything.”

Hope let out a sigh and stood, pulling Remus down to hug her. Remus mouthed a silent thank you to his da over her shoulder and Lyall returned the gesture with a thumbs up.

Now Remus just had to tell Sirius yes, pack up his stuff, and he would be all ready.

Two years later saw Sirius and Remus happily living together. Oh they had had their fair share of disagreements in the beginning. Remus has resorted to masking around Sirius because he was afraid Sirius wouldn’t love him if he saw the real him all day everyday and not just for their small dates and random sleepovers in the lounge of the Lupin home. This led to a slow shutdown. Sirius tried to communicate to Remus during that time, but Remus was nonspeaking and wouldn’t respond to Sirius’ texts outside of simple replies to questions like, ‘do we need milk?’ After five months, it resulted in a fight that blew up so spectacularly, Remus was surprised that the police hadn’t been called on them.

“Hey Sirius do you know if we ha-” Remus began to ask when his words stopped. His eyes blinked and his plate fell from his hands and clattered onto the floor before Remus shook his head slightly.

“What were you looking for?” Sirius asked as he knelt down to pick up the plate.

“Huh? I'm not looking for anything. Why do you have my plate?” Remus asked, annoyed and took his plate from Sirius’ hands and stalked back to the kitchen.

Sirius sat stunned for a moment before following Remus. “You were. You came in to talk to me about something. Started to ask if I knew if we had something but then you stopped.”

Remus blew the situation off, but the scene replayed in Sirius’ head over and over the rest of the day.

The next time it happened, Remus had been cooking. He was peeling potatoes for supper and that time Sirius ignored the forgetfulness and panicked over the fact that Remus had dragged the potato peeler over his finger and peeled some of his skin away.

The third time, Remus had just finished brushing his teeth and was putting his tooth brush away. Afterwards he argued with Sirius that he had not in fact brushed his teeth and proceeded to brush them a second time.

Multiple times a week Sirius noticed these little things. Forgetting to turn off the hob, looking for his shoes after just putting them on, feeding their cat Fidget two hours after feeding him the first time, and more incidents than Sirius could count of starting to say something and then just staring at Sirius for a moment and having no recollection on what he was saying or even wanting to say.

Sirius finally broke down and demanded that Remus speak to his provider. And despite telling Sirius he was worrying for no reason, Remus agreed and scheduled with them.

Three months more of waiting, where Sirius noted mentally everytime something would occur and then typing them into a long list in the notes app on his cellphone. Three months of Remus telling Sirius that he was wrong, that he didn't or wasn't doing something, and telling Sirius he felt fine.

Four months and another EEG confirmed that Remus’ epilepsy had gotten worse. He now had not one, but three types of seizures, and one of them was causing Remus to have a type of amnesia and the medication he was on was making the third type worse.

Five months and the medications Remus was on were completely different. It had taken a month to safely wean down on one medication and rise to a therapeutic dose with another. But the side effects of switching meds caused Remus to be irritable and lack any appetite. Sirius stuck by Remus’ side through it all and had taken to buying pizza once a week because it was the only food Remus would eat more than a few bites of.

Hope suggested and offered many times to have Lyall pack and move everything back into Remus’ old room so that Sirius wouldn’t have to deal with it. Each time though was met with a narrowed glare and a polite, “no thanks” from Sirius.

Six months and Remus was finally feeling more like himself, despite still not eating much. Remus had read over the list Sirius had made for his neurologist and apologised fiercely to Sirius for the way he had acted. He felt terrible and suggested couples counselling due to the fact that over those few months Sirius had withdrawn and seemed to walk on eggshells around him. Remus hated that he had caused Sirius to feel scared, gaslighted, and condescended to.

Nine months Remus and Sirius were communicating better. They had completed their couples sessions but both still continued on individually.

One year and the two were doing better than ever.

Two years on the new medication was also their seventh year together and one year with Remus’ seizures under control, Sirius insisted on a celebration with all their family.

Remus spent nearly a week pacing holes into the carpet anytime Sirius wasn’t home. He scripted his words until he knew them by heart. None of that practice mattered as Sirius and Remus proposed to each other at the same time. They said yes.

#mauraders #my writing #wolfstar #actually audhd #autistic adult #autistic remus #autistic reggie #autistic pride #epileptic remus #epilepsy

[stawpny]

NY headcannons I’ve been thinking about all day so I could give u guys some!!

yay!

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-New York is one clumsy fella. He has broken many bones, and he has broken many peoples bones too, but that’s not important. I would feel he breaks his hands or legs the most from kicking/punching.

-I feel like he will just bite you. I can imagine him just getting in a fight and just biting someone, stunning them out of confusion and hurting them too. multitasking. smart fucker.

-get called a dumbass a lot, is a dumbass.

-Mass is forced to take care of this idiot every time he hurts himself bc if someone else hurt him that person wouldn’t be alive anymore. Mass and Gin made their own ‘nurses office’ because of the clumsy states.

-man’s cannot physically walk in a straight line, always bumping into something and tripping. they all make fun of him for it.

-has very shaky hands and is just very shaky in general. Caffeine or not, he has a tendency to drop shit and is never trusted with glass.

-eyelashes always on fleek cause he wears mascara. the good stuff too, making him look so very pretty.

-cannot be left alone or he will do shit that he shouldn’t do. Especially not with New Jersey. Two idiots in the same room together never work out 😭. that duo will do all sorts of crazy shot together.

-I feel like NJ and NY would be close friends when they aren’t fighting (which isn’t often). they could garden together, do dumb shit, make each other laugh, then get yelled at together. just like when they were younger.

-has the most specific insults ever. he’ll bring up any dumb law or shit that states had or tried to pass years ago and still make fun of them for it. (I feel like all states do this to each other, but York does it on random outta nowhere whenever it gets too silent) examples: Indiana trying to make the math term, pi, 3.2, and trying to change it by law or maybe when the AGE OF CONSENT was 7 in the state of DELAWARE?! UNTIL 1972??!

-Mass has a specific box of medicines and health things that’s labeled ‘York’ and it’s usually all the things to fix the things York does to himself.

-if someone gives him a sticker sheet, he will go autism mode and place them everywhere and on the persons face. (looking at you, California.)

-is a very restless sleeper, will squirm outta anyone’s arms unless they are warm or they have a very tight grip on him,

-loves baggy clothes. sweatpants, t-shirts, hoodies, sweaters, etc. (HOW CUTE WOULD HE LOOK IN A STRIPED SWEATER??! HELLOO? MATCHING WITH CAL TOO?!)

-when he spaces out, he sticks his tongue out a bit, telling whoever in the room with him that he is dissociating.

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WOOO IM BACK BABY!!

more hc’s coming yer way soon!!

my ankle still hurts :(

eeek!

ily guys <3

byeeee!!

#wttt #wttt new york #welcome to the statehouse #wttsh #wttsh new york #wttsh headcanons #wttt headcanons #wttt shipping #if you need any silly cat pictures #hmu B)

[autisticgirliesbracket]

What makes Futaba Sakura from Persona 5 the autistic girlie ever of all time? Here's what the people have to say:

Futaba-related asks/reblogs: x This post will be updated after each round!

Image ID in alt text and under the readmore.

[Image ID. White slide with a screenshot of Futaba in the bottom left corner. She is surrounded by text boxes which read,

"She’s a hikkikomori and a hacker genius. She initially has bad social anxiety due to trauma and does not leave her room."

"She's just like me fr fr (im autistic girlie)"

"Generally described as being incredibly introverted and socially anxious, however having no problem opening up if the conversation is about something that interests her. She also has a deep interest in hacking and computers (if the protagonist claims to have built his own PC, she asks for the specific details on it, such as GPU, CPU, RAM, ect.) There are more details I feel are autistic but I'm not sure how to word them !!"

"Talks in Video Game references and wired expressions. At one point she leaves a conversation because an Anime she wanted to watch was on. Helped me come to terms with my own Autism. Covered her face with a weird mask and a towel (separate events) because she didn't want to show her face in Public. Gets pissed off that someone messes with the her Neo Featherman Figure (basically the Persona equivalent of Power Rangers or Super Sentai). Overall just a massive nerd."

"First of all: The way she sits . little gremlin girl. Second of all. Social awkwardness (she has SO MUCH). Third. She's 15 years old and an international hacker, i mean come on, you cant DO THAt unless youre at least a little autistic. 4. Constantly tries to wear things over her head to avoid being looked at. Five. Her room is the dirtiest place on the planet, filled with snacks and figurines etc. Sixth. Look come on please shes autistic"

"She has social anxiety, doesn't really understand social norms and relates a lot of her real life experiences to video games. She also hyperfixates on the things she's working on and says a lot of strange things without thinking about it."

"Futaba is intensely afraid of social interaction (living in her room for years, unable to exit the house without a meltdown), including her almost constantly wearing headphones (which, to be, read as sensory comfort items). She's only really comfortable around her close friends and family, around who she becomes a lot more excitable and energetic. She has deep and passionate interests in the things she loves, and tends to become hyper focused on whatever shes tasked herself with, even neglecting her own health during which. It's very easy to equate her love of video games to a special interest, as it influences the way she sees the world, to the point where she calls the main character her "key item", since he helps her agoraphobia, saying she needs to "level up" to improve her social skills. To top it all off, her voice actress, Erica Lindbeck, has stated that she played Futaba as if she was autistic."

"Girl had so much autism stored in her body."

"It is very obvious in nearly everything she does that they intended for her to be autistic. Literally just watch almost any cutscene with her and you'll see it (well. Ideally after her palace is taken care of since she's going through stuff and the 'tism is less obvious as a result)"

"she is soooo autism girlswag coded. When you first befriend her and hang out, the characters all have trouble sort of connecting with her, but once they realize they are being way too obnoxiously formal/normal they start asking her about stuff she is interested in, which then she talks very excitedly about. Im sort of passively watching someone play persona 5 so i might have gotten something wrong but eee she is so coded to me <3 and not in a bad way imo ik sometimes things can be TOO stereotypical but yknow yknow"

"Struggles with social interactions, special interest in computers and video games, her English voice actor intentionally played her with the idea that she's autistic."

"She's obsessed with and so good with computers she was a world reknowned hacker before the story even began, she struggles with interacting with people and was bullied through out her entire childhood for being "weird" and being able to memorize books and other things. Her outfits almost always include her wearing headphones (which i personally hc to be to reduce sounds) and there are scenes where she experiences sensory overload that turns into panic attacks. A lot of her character arc is about how after a personal tragedy she completely isolated herself from the outside world and now shes trying to ease back into interacting with people with the support of her family and new friends. When trying to connect with her, the quickest way they got her to relax and open up was when one character got her talking about an in universe sentai show she loves. Also her English voice actor said in interviews that she performed Futaba with her being autistic in mind because everything abt her character just reads as autistic and seeing someone struggle w the same issues I did was super important to me when i got into p5."

"Futaba is incredibly autistic-coded. She couldn’t leave her room or speak to strangers due to trauma, but she also was “quirky” before the trauma. She’s a computer genius and can get so obsessed with her work that she doesn’t hear or acknowledge other people. She wears headphones almost all the time and sits with her knees up (odd posture). Lastly, her mother was known to also be “odd” and was also very absorbed in her work. Autism is often inherited, so my personal read is that both of them are autistic. I’m missing lots of things I’m sure but she’s the best."

"All of her interests are special <3, major social anxiety, partially nonverbal (just like me fr), one of the only people she's constantly jokingly mean to is also very autistic coded which idk if that's a me experience but i can only be joke mean to other autistic people. allistics wouldn't understand. She cannot sit properly!!! Very important she has that autistic ball sitting position"

"She’s a genius hacker nerd who up until certain events in the game never left her room or her house due to trauma. She’s gets nervous and overwhelmed very easily once she starts expanding her comfort zone, but she doesn’t let that stop her. At certain points when she has to interact with people she isn’t comfortable with she puts on a disturbing doll head mask. At one point she has a miniature meltdown in the middle of a crowded store, because she tried pushing her boundaries a little too fast and got overwhelmed until the protagonist was able to find her. She loves anime and collects figurines and gets annoyed when her display of them is messed with. Her personality is socially awkward and kind of bratty when she’s comfortable and I don’t mean that in a negative way at all, she’s great!"

"very bad with people, obsessed with programing and Nerd Shit, i love her and she is very cool"

"she has a massive special interest in technology, her entire character arc is helping her learn to socialize, she sits like a GREMLIN"

"she is a epic hacker gamer girl so we are within the margins for trans and autism, she has a hard time with eye contact, she has intense social anxiety and wahooooooo she has the special interests !! on a side note she has chronic fatigue so damn just like me fr!! and shes so fun!! ack!!!" End ID.]

#autistic girlies bracket #autistic girlie masterpost #persona 5 #futaba sakura

[strawbrygashez]

any hcs on p1dude and p2dude?????? :0000000

YESSSSSSS!!!!!!!!! I’m sure I’ve made lots of posts of my hcs about them in the past but that’s been a while so 😈😈😈😈😈

P1-

•He has multiple mental illnesses.. and autism.

•He has old and new sh scars

•He is a HUGE nerd. He lowkey wants someone to share all the knowledge he knows with but yknow..he’s scared of everyone and paranoid. He would say he’s fine being a loner but he really wouldn’t mind having a friend. It will just take him a while to get used to having one.

•If he makes a friend, he’s gonna be at their side all the time. He swears it’s only because he wants to protect them from others because ‘they don’t know what’s going on like he does’ but it’s really just because he wants human interaction.. so if he trusts someone somehow, they have to deal with him a lot.

But I can also see him having times where he just suddenly ghosts them bc he’s having mental breakdowns and doesn’t reach out.

•He’s shy!!! And he can have a hard time talking to others. I feel like sometimes he doesn’t even wanna talk while he’s around a friend tho, like being just around them while he works on his own thing makes him happy. He both hates and loves silence.

•Has a really hard time sleeping. He doesn’t like letting his guard down. So he stays up probably on his couch in his living room all night, gun near by until he either falls asleep or he just doesn’t go to sleep for days on end. (Which leads to him getting eye bags)

•He loves baggy clothes & clothes that just covers him up a lot in general. That’s why he decides to wear that trench coat AND sweater :/

•Has a weird relationship with religion. Sometimes he will just think about god and whatnot for hours on end but other times even slightly thinking about religion sends him into a mental breakdown.

•His hair is greasy af!!! I think he actually does have a semi normal shower schedule but he just gets the cheapest shampoo ever. That or he doesn’t even use shampoo… like he just gets his hair wet and calls it a day.

• OKAY SORRY FOR A ROMANCE HC BUT…. I think he would love someone holding his hand :3 or laying on him.. He’s very touched starved. Oh he also blushes easily 💃

• Animal lover!

P2-

•Has lots of mental issues too.. but he’s learned how to deal with them a bit better.

•He LOVES nu-metal. He’d dress even more goth if his wife wouldn’t give him shit for it.

•He’s kinda good at socializing but also not??? Like he can talk to restaurant workers and all those types of people pretty well and can actually be really friendly but he’s also accidentally really creepy. Like sometimes he zones out and will just end up looking at someone for a long time without noticing. And if he likes someone, he gets in their personal space without thinking about it as well.

And he’s also kinda easily annoyed. It doesn’t take much for him to make him feel like threatening someone lol

•Bi :3 He goes to the gay bar near his place somewhat regularly on the weekend since around the time him and his wife started having issues. (Why don’t people make fics about p2 going to that place,…like??? It’s canon he lives close to a gay club and no one does anything with it?? 😭) I think he has a male lean also.

•He’s not good at standing still most of the time. If he’s up he has to be moving in some type of way and if he’s sitting, he’s bouncing his leg.

•Tsundere. He has to make jokes or tease someone when they are being nice to him. He’s not used to it so it’s how he copes :/

•Sleeps on the couch bc his wife takes up the bed. He doesn’t wanna sleep near her or touch her anyways.

•Once he leaves him, he doesn’t clean up after himself at all in the trailer LOL so many things are just thrown around (it’s kinda canon but whatever)

•He never eats a good meal and doesn’t bother cooking for himself often. He needs someone to look after him when it comes to his health like p1. Smh

#asks #SORRY THESE ARENT THE BEST #ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I TALKED ABOUT MY HCS FOR THE #*THEM

[painttoolyamanaka]

consider: shino sai friendship. the autism bros.. their parallel play would be incredible

YOU ARE SOSO RIGHT ANON and even though I made a post about them already, I’m willing to say it SO MANY TIMES, they’d be incredible friends to each other.

And NOW, I have an excuse to expand on my Shino-Sai friendship ideas, thank you anon 🫶

shino 🤝 sai

younger brothers with tragically young deceased brothers who they miss a lot

I like to think their relationship really progressed after the war, when Shino learned about Torune and ROOT. He could vaguely remember the masked men taking Torune away in his place but Shibi refused to talk much about it because of the grief of losing a child. There was only one ROOT member that might have anything to tell him about his brother before he died and it was Sai.

Sai didn’t know much, but he attempted to tell Shino everything he did know. At first, it was just the basic shinobi report/rundown. Then, he talked about Torune and Fuu and their relationship from what he saw. Sai didn't know much because Danzō made sure to keep the ROOT soldiers apart but he went on a mission or two with Torune and he seemed to genuinely be a good guy, even if he was a bit withdrawn. Sai apologized for not knowing much but Shino cried and told him it was enough. Just knowing his brother wasn't completely broken-in and emotionless, that even if it was terrible, Torune still had the ability to love made him break down. Sai tried his best to comfort him through it.

And that's when they became friends. I think after that, they hung out a LOT. Sai would randomly show up in Shino's house (you know how people headcanon that Kakashi just shows up through the window. well, I think all ANBU do that and Kakashi is the only one polite enough to slam open your window as a warning. Sai and Yamato are just 🧍‍♂️ in your living room).

I think Shino never really got many guests, especially since the Aburames are like the reserved bug family, so he's absolutely delighted to have another friend over that's not his team. He can show Sai his clan's huge bug collection and Sai will not bat an eye at a giant spider in the living room. He'll probably say hello to it.

Shino, pointing at a giant spider in the corner: This is Fluffy she's very sweet but people are scared of her a lot so just don't scream and you'll be fine. Sai, internally: How does one befriend big spider? Hmm...

I also think that after the war, Sai moved from the apartment Danzō gave him and into a small house or something, as a fresh start now that ROOT was disbanded. I know in my heart that Shino is the friend you would call on to help you move.

They try their best to make everything match but then Sai’s house ends up monochrome and Ino has to step in 😭

I think a big part of their relationship is just them understanding each other. Autism parallel play is real!!

Shino can tell on some level that Sai is like him. They’re strangely similar actually, I think they resemble each other more than Sai ever resembled Sasuke, especially later in life.

Shino, standing nearby Sai, waiting for him to start a conversation:

Sai, knowing Shino is right there and waiting for him to start a conversation:

Shino: You’re just like me :)

Sometimes they’ll just talk about every niche topic under the sun, and sometimes they just accompany each other. Shino will be walking around and then see Sai following him, and then ask Sai if he wants to help him do whatever mundane thing he’s doing. And Sai will do the same for Shino.

Imagine like two baby ducks following each other around all day, that’s them.

I also think in Boruto, Shino asks Sai to teach art lessons often. Sometimes his students need a break, and other times he just wants Sai to teach for a bit, because he can see how much Sai enjoys sharing his craft.

Shino: And now a special guest for class…

Inojin and Sumire, internally: please don’t let it be dad please don’t let it be dad please

Shino: Sai!

Sai: Hello! :D

Inojin and Sumire:

(The class loves him but he is still a Dad. Very embarrassing at times, and his Dad jokes are either out of pocket or horribly cheesy)

so, YEAH, anon is very right, those two are best friends and I think they’re really close after the war! It took me sometime to make this so have a little doodle of these two trying to pick a carpet! 💖

#sai naruto #the shino and sai friendship that canon was too cowardly to give us #shino aburame #anon!! #my [insert synonym for art here]

[nonbinaryaubrey]

God I want to talk to you(or anyone, but you seem very friendly!!), about my OMORI AUs. I'm like- mentally ill about them all, tbh. Especially bout my magical girl au(or maybe moreso on my delinquent Sunny au, or just- all of them tbh).

Cuz like- last night, I had a dream,, and tbh it was just me as a magical girl and after having a meeting with Wooly(not from Amanda The Adventurer, since tbh the creature that was ig the one who gave me magical girl powers(lying, awesome *lie*), was just a sack of wool that had a face or smth I dunno), and at the end I got some like- roller skates, and my mind went like: “for balance”. And then once I woke up, and I had that idea for my magical girl Sunny design n stuff

Mari is bedridden, due to her bad knee getting worse(me not having an idea on how to make her a magical girl🤭). Sunny wants to help her(oh yeah, all of the cast of Omori here are all fem or ambiguous,, more fem leaning so yayay!! all lesbians !!!), and so she wishes for Mari to “be back to normal”(weird ass wish but my gal is, :autism:).

Sunny's design is like,, soft and puffy at first(like a cat or a sheep!!) but after like- some major stuff ig she can change her dress n stuff to be more like,, mature looking in the future(gives that white gown feeling to it, and stuff ig I dunno a wolf?? dhsjhdbeshb).

Sunny has an undercover magical girl name(the rest do as well) and her name is “White/Black Swan”(White for good/true ending, Black for bad/knife/hikkiomori ending)

More on her design tho!!! She wears the roller skates, that are colored red, also with the red hands(“to be normal” implies that smth was abnormal to her with Mari when she made that wish, and so she has the red hands and roller skates for comfort/balance. The red hands help her legs to focus on running!). Her dress design color is like, how headspace kinda is(purple/violet/lavender, light blues, and pastel greens with yellows and bright reds abit). Her dress is very puffy, like Madoka's,,, The insides of her hair are dyed purple, and is long like Mari's(even tho that's rlly long for a 12yr; yea she was 12 when she made that wish).

Oh yeah! This AU is called “OMOGIA: Winter hell”, cuz it's based off of four things. LMK Winter au, “Alice of Human Sacrifice”, OHHELL OMORI(my au on where Kel dies, Delinquent Sunny, etc), and Madoka Magica(the records moreso).

Her witch form. Okay so witches here, are called “Boxed Spirits” <- minor, “Boxed/Caged Demons” <- major. Sunny's Caged Demon form is called “Dorus Gray”(first name was "White Wing", then changed to "Dorian Gray", now it's this). Caged Demon form, takes the looks of 12yr Sunny, with abnormal long hair, that then (ig) kinda swallows Sunny or goes to hide her eyes(“Dorus Gray” uses he/it pronouns, as it moreso looks like canon omori,, ina way- like that mystery potion but reversed n all)

Sunny turns into Dorus Gray in her room, but the barrier also looks like a Hospital('She couldn't get the place out of her head, now that Mari is gone... All because she fell out of her bed, and messed with some of her wires that kept her alive..' Sunny failed Mari. How could she!). Dorus Gray just sits on the bed, while having his familiars stay with it. The familiars all have Mari's hair, but they also look like combinations of her friends(Kel, Parsley, Aubrey, Hero). The “Parsley” familiars are also much closer to Dorus Gray, and stand out the most due to their blond/light baby blue hair. The “Aubrey” familiars also stay close to Parsleys. Kels and Heros, stay close as well but they are also.. they seem distant in personality and relationship(“it's strained ever since Hero's girlfriend(not "gorlfriend" what), died in the hospital.. she was never okay after that.. ... now here I am! Stuck in this place, and I get saved by you..!” Kel said with a smile towards the now mature-looking Sunny, but it looked weird in a way).

Heros are also the ones farther away from Dorus Gray, while the others are closer to Dorus Gray(but also father as some want to stay away from Dorus Gray). Dorus Gray doesn't mind that though. He doesn't need to. All he needs to do, is “be normal”, so with that? It'll sleep. While it covers Sunny's eyes, it sleeps to show Sunny a utopia. Sunny didn't fail Mari, she's normal.

Oh yeah! I think I forgot to say, that I gave Sunny a full name! Her full name is; Zen “Sunny”(a nickname) Yanagi. Zen can have an ‘O’ or an ‘A’, but Sunny doesn't rlly care bout that, so yeah. (Sunny is Greek/Japanese here, learning English! ,,, that's where the "Dorus" part comes from,, it comes from the Greek/Greece(?) side of her family). I work on Sunny too much- I need to give her/him a break honestly,, djbdjsbdnsb

(if I told you I am just coming up with this along as I go, would you believe me?? Cuz tbh I can't believe meself too,, making lore out of words- woa)

Sorry if this was wayy too long!!! Djbdhdbs

ohoh!!! forgive me if im not able to add much (sleepy...nothing in my brain) but :O!!!! sounds prrretty interesting ^_^ !!! neat!

#asks #sotomogal #aubrey.txt #sorry abt not saying much again... dont know what to add -w-'

[axolozzy]

my friends said my room is very autistic so i’m making a post about all the silly autistic things in my room because i’m bored

first we have the three tumblr sexyman (and spamton showing his whole spamussy. sorry about that)

yes my walls are green screen color because my 13 year old self was obsessed with lime green and i still am

next we have garfield who watches me sleep. very silly. and also Rubik’s cubes because i’m autistic

this fucking thing

gay gay canada gay

my cousin kept beating up my minecraft bee with a hammer last night >:( also yeah there’s a whole ass blanket nest on my floor we were silly last night

speaking of last night, my friends threw my rubber banana behind my bed!!! what the fuck!!! i can’t get it out cuz there’s a shit ton of spiders under there!!! fuck!!!

gay 🌈

spot sitting on my shelf :) very cool

we can’t forget about my spamton carcass jar. spamton fucking DIED. there’s are his ashes. pay respect and donate all of your kromer or else

star box i made in ceramics kinda inspired by tawog end credits

ALPHYS!!!

i made william tawog last year but the rubber band broke and his wings fell off that’s so fuckign sad im sorry william

this realistic snake i use to scare people sometimes 🐍🐍🐍

what the fuck is this i don’t know what the fuck this is my sister gave it to me i’m scared

this is my stick wizard staff

MY JEVIL!!!! last year i made a jevil bobble head in ceramics and i never posted it anywhere so here’s my silly jevil!!!! and wiggly i got from etsy

erm. what the scallop (creepy spongebob creepy eyes they stare into your soul)

monkey i got in spain!!! i forgot what that place was called but it was a huge mountain with lots of monkeys and it was very cool!! :DDD i wanna go back it was so fun

my friends call this the autism shelf

MR SMALL!!!! I SPENT OVER 100 DOLLARS FOR THIS ON ETSY BUT IT WAS WORTH IT!!! MY FAVORITE THING EVER FR!! :D

ZEPHYR!!!

last but not least, here’s me with snakes 🐍🐍 i love snakes 🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍 so silly

#bluejay says stuff #irl axolozzy

[jadedrrose]

Not really an ask but I can't contain all of my thoughts about Law to myself and seeing how you're a fellow obsessor I thought I'd indulge you because this- - this is rotting my brain.

So like, we all know Law loves (y/n). It's painfully obvious, and if he could he'd mow down any person or thing that brought danger to not only himself, his crew, but to you as well. (Slight tw blood/injury reference)

But I can't help but to think, how maybe on one horrid, unexpected occasion, (y/n) gets injured. Bad. I'm like, talking about coughing up blood bad. On the possible brink of death injured bad.

I can see Law absolutely snapping at whatever caused it, losing his self control like blood in the water to a hungry shark, and using the last of his remaining stamina to call a huge ROOM to not only kill the enemy that did this, but his adrenaline would be pumping so hard that in the same space of time he'd Shamble himself and (y/n) back to the Polar Tang (despite his own injuries and remaining strength) and immediately operating on her. Just the mere thought of losing her would devastate him just as much when Cora died.

So he'd push himself to fix whatever was broken, cut, torn, fractured, anything, and even after everything is sewn and patched up he'd be practically glued to your side.

His excuse is to be right there if anything happens. Unforseen internal bleeding, sudden heart rate crash, blood pressure collapses, he'd pull any excuse out of his ass just to stay by your side. Even if it's something that has been proven to be impossible to ever actually happen, he'd still use it as an excuse.

His obsession with your recovery would get bad enough he'd personally move your hospital bed into his room just so he can keep a better eye on you while also doing his paperwork/command as the captain of his crew. Eventually (y/n) is so fed up with him being so overprotective she coerses Law to relax.

Of course he'd deny it at first, but after sweet words that comes out of your mouth stating how she wasn't in any danger with him being there, how she was pretty much in the best hands a doctor could ever be in their line of work, that she'll be fine. Nothing could possibly go wrong.

But he's still pent up, still punishing himself for allowing something like this to happen in the first place. Only after days of constant care do you prove it to him by lullabying him to sit down, undo his jeans, pull down his boxers and her sucking him off like a lollipop does he finally let all the tight muscles in him unravel. All of his hard work is paying off and he doesn't need to watch her like a hawk anymore if she's able to do that without being in some sort of pain or discomfort.

I find it as an, "You don't believe me? Alright. I'll just have to prove it to you just what good care I'm in. " Or something along the lines of that.

Sorry for the long message, as I said I'm kinda an obsessive fan of Law,, an seeing a fellow Law lover I just thought I'd bring some sort of fluffiness your way the best way I can,, (I have autism so I'm sorry if this is,,,direct?? Straight forward?? Not necessarily part of your hc's?? I gotta spread the love somehow 😣)

I literally constantly day dream abt Law just looking after me….. esp as someone who gets sick a lot 😭 and also protective Law??? One of my favorite things to think abt.

And also the “proving” she’s better part 🫣 omfg….. 👀👀👀😵‍💫 I- idk what to say other than 😩 (lol)

(Also as someone that has the ‘tism too…. Do not be afraid to dump these thoughts in my asks. It’s literally exactly how my brain works with my friends except I have to remember they either don’t watch one piece or don’t love Law like I do…. So if there’s anyone who wants to hear abt it ITS DEFINITELY ME LMAO)

#law #ask things lol #law thoughts #law thoughts nsft

[monachopsis-11]

I’m having a really hard time with my dad lately, my parents are going through a divorce and he brought his girlfriend and her kids home for the night the first time we ever met them. For months they were at our house six or seven days a week sleeping in our living room so I couldn’t watch TV and eating our food.

He even invites them on family vacations without asking us and tried to kick me out of my special room at my grandparents boat house so he could have room for my sister and his girlfriend and her kids in the boathouse while I have to sleep in a spare bedroom at the grandparents house.

Then my dad decided to have them move in with us without asking me and my sister even though we’d both struggled with the adjustment and I’d told him several times I wasn’t okay with the situation only to be met with variations of “you’re being too sensitive,” “you need to try harder,” “and it’s what x wants.”

One day he takes me and my sister to our favorite restaurant and asks us how we feel about moving into a new house with them which we both say no to (btw other option was still living with them in our old house, we weren’t given a choice at all even though we’re both teenagers and not little kids) only to be told that he already decided to sell our childhood home which was the place we all were as a family and where a lot of my memories with my old best friend were.

Now we’ve been living with him, his girlfriend, and her two kids half the time (the other half I’m with my mom) since April and I keep trying to talk to him about accommodations or literally anything to help me which he refuses because it’s ‘unfair’ and ‘he asks so little already.’

Finally I tried to approach the topic of living with my mom more, I’m constantly overwhelmed and stressed at his house, barely sleep, am forced to do chores I cannot handle and expected to accept my role in his new ‘family.’ He freaked out about how unfair it was and how he had no idea we felt that way and that he doesn’t remember me ever saying I didn’t want to live with them or anything like that (he literally just forgot) and that I need to try harder while at the same time saying maybe I just need therapy or it’s an autism thing (still refuses to acknowledge that I’m autistic and says stuff like this only when it benefits him.)

He says that if what I said happened then he understands why I’m mad but at the same time defends himself by saying the divorce was my moms fault, he didn’t know he’d meet someone as amazing as x, and that he doesn’t know what he’s supposed to be doing. I told him he’s supposed to prioritize his kids and that he shouldn’t have moved in with anyone unless we were okay with it and he’s acting like that’s crazy while at the same time blaming it on me being autistic.

Like he didn’t actually make any mistakes it’s just a problem because I struggle socially and he still won’t acknowledge it’s a real thing when it doesn’t benefit him because me having different needs is an unfair burden on our ‘family’ he hasn’t done nearly enough research to know any of the language (in fact he looked at only one of two things I asked him to look at) and when he does ask me what accommodations I want I don’t even feel comfortable telling him I don’t want to do time consuming chores and when I do he gets annoyed like I’m being difficult and unfair on purpose.

He even has this awful perspective about me earning things I want by being productive in his new family, like he won’t buy me anything (clothes, bedroom stuff I need because of the move, snacks I like, clothes, Starbucks, or ‘family’ activities) and at the same time wants to spend more time with me???

He might not say it but I know he wants me to go back to masking more, even though I still am 97% of the time trying to be genuine about my emotions and struggles and ask for help has literally caused him to call me a burden and lazy even though I’m trying to get my learners permit, apply to colleges in another country, do online classes, apply to jobs, apply to grants/scholarships, apply to colleges in the US to appease my mom, navigate the awful living situation, and all the regular tasks you’re supposed to complete to be acceptable and productive.

It just makes me feel crazy and guilty, is asking not to have to do chores like mopping the whole house, cleaning the shower, washing other peoples dishes (the only thing I asked btw) too much? I’m pretty sure I’m right but I feel awful, if anyone has any advice or words of encouragement please tell me, I’m really desperate for some kind of validation or perspective and I have no one in my life I can talk to.

#divorce #child of divorce #divorced parents #autistic experiences #actually autistic #autistic women #self diagnosed autism #sensory issues #invisible disability #actuallyautistic #asd #autism #autistic meltdown #sensory overload #ableist bullshit #autistic community #disability #please give me advice #emotional dysregulation #post meltdown #spoonie #eldest daughter syndrome #eldest sister

[mercuryferns]

Not to “vent” on main, but i want to speak about pride and autism for a bit

I’m currently in a weird place in my life where im trying to accept many aspects of my identity that i considered ugly for a long long time. one of those being my autism, which i was diagnosed with a little earlier on this year. having that diagnosis fundamentally changed how i viewed myself in ways i struggle to describe to you. i had a brief phase where in desperation to dissociate myself from the stigmatized perception of autistic people that had unconsciously polluted my brain, i swore to use terms like “aspie” and “high functioning” “level one” as if allistic society seeing me as not human but in a slightly more appealing way (that being that instead of being seen as a four year old incapable of original thought i would be a weird carbon copy of albert einstein destined to cure cancer) would somehow make my life easier.

it doesnt, all it does is reinforce the same pseudo scientific eugenic hierarchy of what a clever worthy person is and what a broken unintelligible undeserving one is. realizing that was tough, because i grew up coping with my autistic traits by being whatever people wanted. i was like cheap air dried clay where the more i tried to mould myself into something i wasnt the more i started to crack, smooth over it meticulously with spit and desperation. im still in this spot of fragmented identity, in a liminal space between what i always wished i could be and the disappointing reality of what i actually am.

is it disappointing? is it only disappointing because i’m who i was taught was wrong?

i got what is known as an “unofficial” diagnosis. in other words, we went to a psychiatrist, did an evaluation, and was told hey yeah you’re right. this was because my mother wanted me to be diagnosed with asbergers, which is no longer recognized. i know she meant well. she didnt want me to feel like i was carrying a label too heavy for me. but theres a major part of me - especially after finding out exactly why the label “asbergers” exists - which is in violent opposition to it.

and. upon finding validation in the online autistic community i discovered just how unfounded my shame is. Being autistic is beautiful in so many ways. it makes me so sad that i would ever dismiss it as a part of me. I dont know how i managed to evade diagnosis for so long.

(when i look back on my childhood, i find it riddled with memories of rooms with yoga balls and swings; middle aged ladies with pixie cuts and the same lipstick spending hours trying to teach me how to write the letter C; pulled out of class “where am i going?“ “i think you need to calm down” “i am calm”; my father eyeing my ankles and calling “flat feet” as a reminder to let my heels touch the cold grainy tiles of our stoep, drawing faces on my erasers and sobbing for days when a girl threw penelope in the bin of the afrikaans class; reciting “just think about something else just think about something else just think about something else just-“ while attempting to get myself to eat egg and toast that was too toasted and anything with more than two identifiable textures; seeing someone in my spot in my spot in my spot in my spot in my spot thats my spot thats my spot thats my spot feeling something boil in my stomach; what are you doing i dont like it i dont understand are friends supposed to do this to me?)

Yeah. I have to study for my history exam now. But the point is that im autistic. And thats not only okay thats fucking awesome. Its a huge part of my life and if your idea of normal is what has caused me so much pain and dissociation throughout the years then deal with it when i actually embrace my own brain.

allistics who are cool, this is not intended to shit on you. just some thoughts ive had lately.

#i speak #ableism tw #tw #autism #asbergers #ugh #asd #neurodiversity #autistic #disability #i have mixed feelings about using the phrase disabled to describe myself #i feel like i havent really like #struggled to the extent that i can call myself that #but heck #learning disabilities #vent #identity #I was technically diagnosed first when I was 9 #but my mother decided I didn’t need to know that lmao

[soulvomit]

I went from not knowing the rules and being an eager puppy who didn't know how to make friends, and feeling like an alien.

To knowing the rules, being able to navigate society, knowing rules that people won't even admit to following, knowing rules on the absolutely Next Level about some things, and being great at reading the room... and being sick/disgusted.

And whenever I talk about this stuff? People try to gaslight me. (Thank fuck most of them don't know i am diagnosed Officially Socially Stupid and Naive. Not that NTs ever believe I have that label, anyway.)

All my life, I've observed people, I've learned... maybe not the usual way, but my way. I wasn't great at making friends but I know things that served me in other ways. I was encouraged to learn. Eventually in my 30s I finally learned to make friends with NTs and I can't tell the difference between what you are calling NT vs Hegemonic Culture. The 50s were more honest about this than we are being.

Knowing the rules existed, learning to read people, didn't get me normie friends, it didn't get me what it was supposed to

Because once I knew, then I KNEW what I was excluded from and I knew WHY and it had very very little to do with my manners! But in the US we are not allowed to say anything is wrong! Some people are allowed to be rude and some aren't and the whole reason is heirarchy!

I don't know how to tell you it's largely about class and hidden hierarchies and societal breakdown, Susan

The lie is that most ordinary people pretend their societies and values change, and they really don't. Most people have to say what they have to say, because they're stuck in a system. Most people are captive to the social worlds they're in.

What I discovered is that most people (but especially people neither at the top of the hierarchy, nor at the absolute bottom) place following these rules somewhere along the level of survival.

You are not supposed to mention that these hierarchies exist. Ever.

It's in race and class and gender spaces that I have seen this stuff discussed. Tony Attwood and various autism authors said these rules exist but even they won't tell us what they are! They wouldn't be allowed to function in society! They're in the system, too!

What if it was never our brain

What if we are normal and soon everyone will be as alienated as we are?

#The Obsoletariat #Whether asd

[sunflower-butch]

Well hello darlin'

(I guess a little fact about me is that i'm NOT from the south, and thus have never been called that before you. it makes me a blushing mess each time)

sorry it took me so long to respond I tore my room apart trying to find my wrist brace lol

I ALSO play guitar, though mostly electric!

Every time you compliment my singing voice i'm just like awww <333 but I also feel the need to let you know that I have a lullaby voice. which does not mean it;s soft and sweet but means tired, cranky babies don't mind it (but tired, cranky adults do)

Русская Принцесса is about how it's hard to be around a russian princess but they're already part of the inner circle and it's interesting (probably in a 'person observing an insane person' kinda way I think)

I've actually never heard of the song to recommended but the vibes are very 'neon green' (like the colour) if that makes any sense.

I forgot to say but I listened to the songs you sent me and Apple Tree Blues is probably my favourite out of the bunch!

we really are two peas in a pod lol. guess who also has a bit of a stutter! it gets worse for me when i'm having a bad day(thanks autism!)

very random but, if you have any house plants what is your favourite one? and if you don't have house plants just favourite plant en général

also forgot to add but a man had the audacity to ask me out today, and to put it nicely I was dressed very not straight (my shirt had the word boobs on it and i was wearing so many rings, and my pants were cuffed, to list a couple things things) also side note but i might dye my hair purple again, thought?

your damsel who is currently in distress - el

Good evening my lovely! <33 I’m always so excited to see that you’ve messaged and definitely don’t gay panic for a solid 15 minutes minimum ☺️

(That’s so sweet! If you like it, I’ll continue. It’s not even common here, it just makes me swoon when I hear it, so I thought I’d try it out. I like the way it sounds, and if I ever get to say it out loud, I like to think it’ll sound nice with my accent)

That’s incredibly okay! I hope your wrist is okay. I would kiss it better if I could <33

That is so incredibly cool, omg. And you play BOTH?! Be still my poor gay heart. I want to learn both so bad, and any new favorite song changes my mind which I want more, but I’m on a solid acoustic kick rn. I have spent too long on the Donner website staring at their guitars and daydreaming 😔

A lullaby voice is still really cool! I’m tone deaf as shit but I think there’s a song or two where I can hit the notes okay. I love belting songs alone in the car with no judgement. Hopefully someday someone will want to do it with me.

Oh that’s so interesting! I think I did find the right translation then, I was having trouble lol.

No that absolutely makes sense! I definitely don’t have synesthesia, but I think some songs definitely have colors, you know? I mean you must since you said it 😂 It’s fun to connect little things like that, just take a song or a movie and say “yes, this is indigo blue” because of some specific reason or even just Vibes

Oh I’m so glad! I love that one so much. I listen to basically anything, but folk music has a special place in my heart (bet you couldn’t tell 🤪). What genres of music do you usually listen to?

Oh boy do I feel that. Mine comes out with nerves or excitement. My brain gets to fast for my mouth and then I just get stuck on a word. I think it’s fun, and my friends are all nice about it. We all laugh every time I hit a new record for how long I was stuttering over one damn syllable 😂

I do have a house plant! Turns out I have the opposite of a green thumb and I can’t even keep succulents alive (I managed to overwater one and underwater another despite them being the same species on the same water schedule shekekks), but I’ve found my match. I have a little golden pothos plant, and I named her Becky because why not. She’s going strong! Do you have house plants and do you have a favorite?

Favorite plant in general would by hibiscus though. I have a hibiscus tattoo, because my Papa used to have some in his backyard and we’d go see what new ones had bloomed every time we stayed over <33

Okay, first of all, that outfit sounds sick as hell and I adore your style. Second of all, ew why do men. I wish I could have been there to defend your honor, my darling damsel. Purple hair sounds sick as hell!

Your knight in shining armor who’s definitely not plotting homicide on said man,

- Max/Lo

#elmax anon #shdjkskdksk I like talking to you so much #sorry I’m so rambly nandksks

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For context. This is a public diary of mine. I need somewhere to shout these things, having a little book in my room makes me feel like no one's ever going to notice. At least here, random people I don't care about will maybe notice if I'm lucky. There are lots of things I'm still figuring out, you'll have to bare with me. I'll detail my thoughts if I remember what I thought. Problems I'm scared that I have (not diagnosed nor do I have proof of them): Memory problems Laziness Depression Loneliness Gender confusion

Problems that I do have (Diagnosed or confirmed by other means): Autism Stupidity

Problems that I don't think I have: ADHD I'll describe problems when I get to them, you may not ever have a clear image of me, but that's not for lack of trying.

I may be trans, I treat myself as a girl online although I'm not sure if that's right. I feel like I'm only trans for attention, since without it I'd just be an annoying unfunny guy with an obnoxious voice. With being trans I can be both sexual and loved for being me, when I treat myself as a guy I get overlooked or ignored because I'm stupid. At least when I'm a girl people don't care about those things. I don't hate being called a guy, yet I can't tell how I feel when I'm called a girl as it's infrequent and often accidental. I'm fat and ugly anyway, I don't deserve to be called a girl because I barely deserve it.

Day 1 I played games all of today, ate more food than I should have, didn't excercise. Met a cute girl online, was lewd with her in a VC while playing swrp. Ignored my irl friends for it, made up an excuse for us playing games together as just "something came up" I regret not seeing them but I know that if I did see them I would've never met the cute girl and gotten close to her. She was so cute and fun to be lewd with. It wasn't creepy, I know that for a fact, we both liked it. She's just the better version of me. Stayed up late again, not because I was doing anything specific. I just did. I can't tell if it was intentional or not. I have to wake up for 10:30 to get to work on time and it's already 3am. I drank caffiene without thinking about it. I shaved half my right leg in the shower before giving up after the blade went dull. It wasn't a cheap set too, my hair is just that bad. I did it with shaving cream and everything. I also couldn't reach that far under my leg. Not cause I'm fat, I mean I am fat, but because it was an awkward angle in the shower. I hate hair, it's itchy, it's ugly, it's gross. It won't stop growing. I wanted to wax it myself ages ago but I don't want to do it with my family in the house. I don't know why I don't want to, my family are supportive and nice and won't intrude, yet I still don't want to. I feel like it's because I'm lazy and I don't want to put in the work to do it because I never even started to try before giving up. I wanted to look up how much it would cost to get it done at a guy friendly establishment but I forgot. Most waxing places don't like taking guys, I think I know why but I don't know for sure. I don't know how I forgot to, I've been at my PC ever since I had the shower yet I kept getting distracted by youtube videos that I don't even care about. I looked it up after writing this and the prices vary wildly from place to place. I can't tell if these places also do legs, ass, or genitals too as the websites only say chest and back. Why is this so hard, I just want this hair off of me.