#post meltdown

[monachopsis-11]

I’m super curious what other self diagnosed, late diagnosed people thought about their meltdowns prior to discovering the autistic community. For example I remember a girl in my class missing a few days of school and when we asked about her the teacher just said she had a mental breakdown and I was like, so what? Something had happened in her family life and everyone was really worried but I could not for the life of me understand why everyone was making such a big deal about a mental breakdown, like hello- I have those every other day.

Of course I understand the difference now and have certainly experienced both but I had such a hard time understanding why everyone cared about her and not about me at the time. She missed a week of school and with how poor my mental health and accommodations were at the time I probably had four to seven meltdowns of varying intensity in that amount of time. I’d even tell friends and family that I had mental breakdowns and they were like “sure awesome go help with dinner okay?”

And of course I thought I was having some type of breakdown or psychotic episode, I was depressed, burnt out, overwhelmed, isolated, and every day I either collapsed into bed the second I got home or sat on my bedroom floor sobbing, pulling my hair, hitting myself, hitting my walls, pacing, rocking, and covering my ears.

The point of writing this is that I’d be incredibly interested in other late or self diagnosed peoples experience and thoughts with meltdowns before knowing what was really going on.

#autistic experiences #actually autistic #autistic women #late diagnosed autistic #self diagnosed autism #invisible disability #sensory issues #actuallyautistic #asd #autism #autistic meltdown #sensory overload #autistic community #disability #emotional dysregulation #please give me advice #post meltdown

[kelpk0re]

post meltdown hate this feeling

so so tired and dull like grey blob

everything hurts

#asd #meltdown #tw meltdown #post meltdown #autistic #medium support needs

[netscapenavigator-official]

Tumblr’s Twitter account wasn’t banned with the others because only accounts that promote social medias get banned, and what Staff is doing over there is the equivalent of showing someone a used car and telling them that the frame is rusted through, and that it only comes with three tires.

#shitpost #shit post #joke #staff #tumblr #twitter #elon musk twitter #elon musk #fuck elon musk #twitter takeover #twitter meltdown #musk #fuck elongated muskrat

[purrvaire]

if I had a nickel for every time David Tennant has played a genderfluid, trauma-filled immortal having the worst day of their life in 2023, I'd have two nickels which isn't a lot but apparently it's enough to making me going insane

#like at this point it's a pattern #that post about attracting mutual with specific content? IT'S HIM #i'm back in the fucking building again #you know it must be good if dt is having a huge meltdown in it #im going to lose my shit again but please keep going #david tennant (belovedest) #fourteenth doctor #crowley #doctor who #doctor who 60th anniversary #good omens season 2 #tumblr text meme #user purrvaire

[spacefaringamoeba]

I hate that I'm considered "high functioning". I barely qualify for any "level" of disability in my country and I will never get a disability income. Yes. I'm able to go to work. But I will not be able to hold it for more than a few months before getting burned out and having daily meltdowns. No, having 10 minutes extra work break won't help me. Neither will wearing headphones or carrying fidgets. I'm literally not able to work 40h a week without severe negative consequences... How do i fucking exist in this society!

#Post brought to you by me quitting another job #autistic #autistic adult #meltdown #autism #actually autistic #disabilties #disabled #high functioning autism #low support needs #anxeity #cptsd problems #ptsd #complex ptsd #burnout #send help #mental health

[charaznablespeteevee]

I don't do Warhammer, but as a Gundam fan, I feel a strong sense of solidarity with another model-heavy fandom that attracts incel losers who only care about the military aesthetics

#Pike's Posts #I saw the warhams losers having a meltdown over female characters the other day. actual fans you have my sympathy as a gundam fan

[beep-beep-robin]

quinni gallagher-jones + common autism traits

had to make gifs of her again, and felt the need to make a list (does anyone get that feeling?) - so, i combined both and more gifs are incoming soon-ish <3

#vanessas gifs #original post #quinni gallagher-jones #quinni gallagher jones #quinni heartbreak high #autism #autistic #asd #actually autistic #autism traits #heartbreak high #heartbreak high 2022 #heartbreak high gifs #quinni gallagher jones gifs #tw: sensory overload #tw: meltdown

[monachopsis-11]

I think I may have just realized that my strongest masking trait is disassociation. For a long time I thought it was shutdowns but now I’m not sure because a lot of people talk about not being able to move and talk during shutdown and I could always do that, it just didn’t feel like I was doing it.

I would get to this point of complete overwhelm bordering on a meltdown and then if I was with people it was like a switch would go off in my brain telling me it wasn’t safe and then I’d just feel all floaty and blurry and unreal. Now I think this has a lot in common with shutdowns but it’s more like being on autopilot then completely crashing which is how a lot of people describe shutdowns.

I remember this even as a kid in the grocery store feeling like I would float away from the world, like I was inside of my body but not connected to it, like the whole world was out of focus, I remember telling people my dreams were more vivid than real life.

And especially in high school I had two modes, unbearable anxiety and overwhelm and just this constant feeling that I was dying vs. complete disconnect, like I couldn’t feel things when I touched them and it would last for hours every day for months.

So anyway I’m starting to wonder if I have DPDR (Depersonalization and Derealization disorder) so if anyone has experience with this I’d really love to hear your thoughts, experiences, or good sources of information on the topic. And for people who experience shutdowns and disassociation what are the differences?

#actually autistic #autistic experiences #self diagnosed autism #autistic women #late diagnosed autistic #invisible disability #actuallyautistic #autism #asd #autistic community #sensory issues #disability #autistic meltdown #spoonie #post meltdown #autistic shutdown #please give me advice #please respond #dpdr #depersonalisation and derealisation

[exhuastedpigeon]

I want to be your fantasy (maybe you could be mine)

Buddie | Explicit | 7.2k Bachelor party, former stripper Eddie, pole dancing, lap danced, smut, getting together

“Let me get this straight,” Eddie asked, voice as deadpan as Buck had ever heard it. “Chimney wants a classic bachelor party, but he doesn’t want to go to Vegas and he doesn’t want to go to a strip club and he thinks we’re too old to go to a regular club.”

“Yep,” Buck had his feet kicked up onto Eddie’s coffee table, a beer held loosely in his hand, his thigh pressed against Eddie’s even though Chris wasn’t there tonight so they didn’t actually have to sit so close. 

“Which is why you made us watch The Hangover.”

“Correct.”

“Even though Hen is his best woman and she’s the one in charge of planning the party.”

“She asked me to help. I-I’m pretty sure I’m getting on Maddie and Chim’s nerves trying to help with the wedding and they asked her to give me something to do.”

“Well, did you learn anything about bachelor parties?” Eddie asked, voice no longer deadpan and instead a little teasing. Buck couldn’t help the flutter in his stomach when Eddie smirked at him, but he could ignore it.

“Maybe we can just go golfing?”

“Yeah, that could work,” Eddie took a sip of his beer. “Make a whole weekend of it and stay at one of those fancy ass golf resorts.”

“T-that’s actually a great idea,” Buck pulled his phone out to text Hen. “Getting drunk on a golf course feels like a very classic bachelor party.”

“It’s what we did for my cousin Diego a few years back,” Eddie smiled at him as he spoke. “We also went to a strip club that night though.”

“No strip clubs,” Buck said with a sigh. “This would be so much easier to plan if he wasn’t marrying my sister and if he didn’t have so many requirements.”

“You’re the man with the plan, you’ll figure it out,” Eddie said, clinking his beer bottle against Buck’s with a cheeky grin. 

Buck sighed when Hen said no to the golfing and texted her back that maybe they should just go to a Dodgers game, Chim loved baseball. Baseball could be a bachelor party activity. 

Read on ao3

#buddie #my fic #buddie fic #911 #ao3 had a meltdown and when I posted the fic it disappeared so I had to post again (I AM WEEPING)

[almightaylor]

RWRB is Prime’s favorite popular golden child

#rwrb #red white and royal blue #rwrb movie #months after and they’re still using it for their posts they know the power that it holds #announcing the sequel as a joke for april fools would’ve caused a mass meltdown #rwrb sequel

[steveharrington]

eldest daughter posting is quickly becoming the new gifted child

#that post that’s like ‘you have to acknowledge what your eldest sister has done for you’ well she actually hasn’t done anything for me #other than steal stuff and have narcissistic meltdowns and be mean to our mom

[wolvierinez]

Honestly sometimes when reading posts ppl make on here it feels like ppl forget autism is a disability and it. Yknow. Disables you.

#its more than just stimming and having a special interest or whateverrr #and while i love and appreciate that part of autism i rarely see any acknowledgement of like. other aspects of it #qmd when i do its in relation to allistics bringing it up #i have meltdowns. i had one tonight. #the only tkme people fucking talk about them is when allistic moms post their kids having meltdowns onto facebook #them doing that is bad. obviously. #but we can say more about them. we should give and share advice on how to cope with them more. #whatever #autism #actually autistic #neurodivergent #ok 2 rb #i guess.

[bruciemilf]

The justice league taking pictures with Bruce like men do with fish

#just thinking abt bruce and co again djdjd #when bruce joined the team he forgot one critical issue: they're a band. they're a glorified boy band. at that #and as an eye witness to dick's meltdown when 1D broke up - he knows he can never leave #and unfortunately some of them are so popular that they MUST HAVE PR #basically give me the JL treating bruce like the autistic orange tabby cat they found in an alley #bruce wayne #dc #dc comics #batman #clark kent #diana prince #arthur curry #hal jordan #oliver queen #the justice league #jla #text post

[hajihiko]

Yall ready for angst

let's see if THIS readmore works yknow what no no readmore. We suffer

Jojo Voice BREAKDOWN BREAKDOWN

#Cant blame the guy hes got. Like. Every Problem. no way he doesnt have a meltdown at least once #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #Someone once said 'I like that you draw the sad difficult parts too' and it made me more able to post those parts #An art #Sdr2 #Super danganronpa 2 #Danganronpa #super danganronpa goodbye despair #Kuzuhina

[autisticdreamdrop]

You're gonna have sensory and processing issues. You're gonna be over / understimuated. You're going to have meltdowns and shutdowns. You're gonna need breaks. You're gonna deal with autistic burnout. You're gonna have verbal loss / shutdowns. And that's okay. And if you don't deal with all, or some of all of these, that's okay too. Autism is a spectrum after all.

#blurry #group post #autism #autistic #asd #actually autism #actually autistic #autie #autism spectrum disorder #neurodivergent #sensory processing disorder #sensory #sensory problems #sensory processing issues #sensory processing sensitivity #breaks #accessibility #accommodations #accommodation #meltdown #autism spectrum #autistic spectrum #meltdowns #shutdown #shutdowns #verbal shutdown #verbal loss #verbal shutdowns #burnout #autistic burnout

[artingstarvist]

Here's a teaser of some select sketch panels as I plan out this comic's colors. For right now I'm just illustrating from that first panel of Xie Lian coughing up Cuo Cuo till Hua Cheng carries him off towards paradise manor. If I'm still feeling sufficiently motivated by the end I'll illustrate him pulling the needle out of his foot but idk its so long already haha.

#tgcf fanart #tgcf #hualian #heaven official's blessing #xie lian #hua cheng #my art #not included in this teaser: xie lian's gay panic meltdown #there will likely be more teasers- this comic will take me several weeks to complete #its looking like I'll be posting it in about five parts as is tho #hualian first kiss comic