#please sort yourself out

[youstupidplonk]

I love Veronica Sawyer as a character, she’s been one of my favourite characters in literally anything since I was about 14 but GIRL please sort your “I can fix him complex” because no. You can’t fix him. Stop trying. 

#heathers #heathers the musical #veronica sawyer #winona ryder #I saw heathers the musical last night #and bestie #please sort yourself out

[sirenium]

'If you're doom scrolling this tag-' shut up. Get out of the tag that you, yourself detest, block it, and move on. You're helping nobody with these corny ass posts; if anything you're exposing yourself to the very thing you hate. You're triggering yourself. And if you doom scroll, get out of the tag and block it. It's that simple.

#yes this is about radqueer tags #reminder that you can be anti rq without infiltrating their spaces and breaking your own DNI #I only know you people do this shit because I find myself on RQ tags from time to time. #no not by 'doomscrolling' but out of boredom and curiosity #and what do I see? multiple 'stop doomscrolling! take care of urself! úwù' posts💀 #stop exposing yourself to things that actually harm you. stop it with the savior complex #You aren't a baby that needs their hand held either. I will not coddle you like a four year old that fell and scraped their knee. #you did this to yourself. #show some maturity and rationality and distance yourself. breathe. etc #cuz crosstagging? actively going on tags when you know it harms you? that ain't the way to go about things. #I say this as someone who's been knowingly queer on the internet for about six years #it's super easy to develop a sort of complex where you put yourself in situations with the false idea that you can change minds or whatever #but you aren't going to change minds. you aren't helping anyone by throwing yourself to the wolves so to speak. #so again please get the fuck off rq tags if you're 'doomscrolling' or telling people to stop doomscrolling as it only does harm. #anti radqueer

[oifaaa]

well the great thing is there’s a Peeta renaissance rn, he’s getting his dues. All I’ve seen is gale slander

Gales had it too easy for too long and I'm not even talking about the whole he killed prim thing no I'm talking about that scene in the book where katniss is like "hey let's run away together" and gales like "dope thats a great idea" until katniss is like "great let me go tell peeta" and gale is instantly like "oh nm I'd rather die lmao"

#ask #anon #gale was so ready to leave peeta behind #like bitch stfu #im pretty sure josh Hudson also said peeta would of been open to like a thuple with gale and katniss #bc he gets it #stop being a jealous lil bitch gale #he was also just very manipulative towards katniss which #please sort yourself out boy

[loaflovesdoodling]

HSHSHSHDNSJFJSSBSHDHSJXSB I JUST HAD MY BRACES TIGHTENED YESTERDAY AAUAGSHHSHSS THE PAIN OW OW OWIE OUCH I JUST WANNA BITE SOMETHING AAAAAABAHXBDBDHDHD

#loaf's rambles #braces #tw biting #tw hand biting #GUYS DW HELP THIS AIN'T NO SELF HARM AAAAA #I BARELY EVEN LEAVE MARKS HELP IT'S OK ABDBDHDBDBD #GIVE IT A COUPLE DAYS THE PAIN IS GONNA BE GONE :'DD #AND TO ANYONE THAT DOES BITE THEIR HANDS AS SELF HARM #please stop punishing yourself #it's going to be okay #if you need to physically let it all out I suggest you use a stress toy of sorts #just please don't hurt yourself #alrighty? #I'll be here if any of you need to talk <33

[pierswife]

Gentle reminder that it's okay to take a break from self shipping and social media in general if it is negatively affecting you. Taking time to look after yourself on and offline is important.

Your friends and F/Os will be here when you come back and will be overjoyed when you do <3

Proship please DNI, thank you

#self ship #selfshipping #self ship positivity #this is a just because post cause I think it's something good for everyone to hear sometimes /gen #it's helped me a lot in the past while I sorted some stuff out #and part of why now I'm really only active during the afternoon and evening my time most days #especially post 2020/2021 it's very important to try and find that online/offline balance again #so please look after yourselves when you aren't feeling well <3 #one of your biggest advocates is always yourself

[funpuddle]

((pasted from my twitter))

(NIGHTMARISHLY VULNIRABLE PARAGRAPHS AHEAD) Hi feel free to ignore literally all of this if you want I'm not going to die or get kicked out but i can't live here anymore  (by my own will but also i'm not wanted) and need help getting my shit together  

https://www.paypal.com/donate/?hosted_button_id=BD6UD4ARCUER8

(EDIT: the images are pasted out of order on some reblogs, before i could edit them into the right order, sorry if that’s confusing)

#don't feel like you have to help pls #don't even feel like you have to reblog this #just sort of flipping out #do not donate if you yourself are struggling or if youre a minor please #i feel CRINGE AS FUCK #Thank you to whoever may donate and to everyone who has ever #ever given me any money at all #pls don't see me as helpless tho i just need some help

[barnbridges]

im so angry when people dont understand the difference between hyperfixation and special interest. do you think i LIKE being only happy around donna tartt's weird ass novel no but it's the only thing that makes me not kill myself, it genuinely makes me feel pathetic

#im not IN LOVE with anything i just simply need to talk about and engage with my special interest #to not fall apart as an individual #im simply um #i dont exactly feel FULFILLED by girlblogging i just have no fucking language to connect with people #its really maladaptive and i think this sort of thing can nly be maladaptive #so yes please keep your hyperfixations to yourself and go on about your day #if i dont have a blog i'd kill myself but also if i blog too much i feel burnt out

[thiswaycomessomethingwicked]

you know, I think that all the murder business in aknh-morpork would once again plummet if vetinari let downey and his people do their job again. he initially made the assassins' guild and thieves' guild legal for crime prevention and let them deal with people who performed unlicensed inhumation/theft. and then he got a new favourite toy in vimes and was like "actually no guys, let him do it, it's funny" "people are dying, dog-botherer."

Right??

Downey and Boggis are all about crime prevention. Cops aren't, by their very nature. They're reactive.

If the Assassins and Thieves' approach to prevention is colourful and florid—especially if you like the colour red—it is hardly their fault that this is what works best.

--

Vetinari: To be fair, Downey, under your methodology people still die.

Downey: Correct, but it's a lot less of them and it's all far more efficient. Plus, I make more money.

Vetinari: I'm not sure I can put "Lord Downey makes more money" into my cost-benefit-analysis chart on how to better approach crime prevention and reduction.

Downey: Look, if you do it my way, the city saves money! There's less murder, since everyone knows who will come for them in the dark of night if they're a little too knife happy. Or the bright of the day, I like shaking it up. With less murder the city spends less on the police budget, less on food and board for prisoners, and the hang-man might need a second job. It's a win-win, really.

Vetinari: I think some people might contest that point.

Downey: Just. Think about it, babe.

--

Downey argues that fine, fine, if they can't get regular-degular murderers, can they at least get serial killers. He had so much fun hunting down that guy the last time! It was a highlight in his recent life!

Vetinari says he'll think about it. He wants to know what Downey constitutes as a serial killer. Downey is like, 'anyone who has killed, in a sequential manner, more than two people. If it's a mass killing, I'll leave that to the Watch. Unless it happens more than once. Then it drops into serial killer bucket.'

Vetinari points out that this is a very low bar. The scope is wider than the ocean. The Assassins' Guild could lump so many people into that category. Really, if it's so broad, Vetinari isn't sure the definition is entirely useful. Downey beams at him.

#downey is a mischievous sort when he wants to be #comes out every few years #the inner Elf that's like 'what if we had more chaos and i watched things burn' #and Vetinari is like: no. #he hauls out the file he has of people he needs Taken Care Of But It's Not Pressing and takes out a hit on a couple of them #to keep Downey entertained #Vetinari is like: have you thought about giving yourself an insanely intense research project? #Downey is like: great idea. Weapons Design! The Gunne But Better And More Artful #Vetinari: HALT THAT THOUGHT. NO. NOPE. PUT THE IDEA BACK IN THE BOX DOWNEY #Downey: but what if I made it aesthetically pleasing and not so easy to kill people with. we do need to keep it challenging. #vetinari: I'm sending you on fifteen diplomatic and / or assassin missions over the next twelve months. that should calm you down. #Downey is a cat. sometimes he likes to knock things off the table because he is bored and it entertains him to do so. #discworld #lord downey #vetinari #ask #reply

[iqmmir]

Istfg are they for real right now

#.mimiming ❜ #seriously? two entire fucking years for this? #man i give up #i just keep trying and trying to fix my friendships and trying to get over my issues #can someone just please fucking meet me halfway???? #'youre too good for us' can you please stop being so fucking entitled and stop deciding for me??? #if i wanted to stop talking to you i would #im not so fucking noble that ill spend my energy if i dont want to unless i get something out of it #i enjoy talking to you guys i like you all it's unfair that you just decide to stop talking to me because of shit like this #it's frustrating and annoying #'youre too kind' shut the actual fuck up shut the fuck up #if im too kind and nice and good then pay me back #all the effort i put into this for you. pay me back for that #im sick and tired of being the one who's expected to just. bear it all and stick with you regardless #im tired of it #stop trying to paint me as some sort of ultimate great and nice and sweet person and pretending all the bad parts of me dont exist #stop acting like im not asking you to put in some effort yourself #i get you have baggage but it's frustrating being the one fixing everything always #im supposed to be your friend not your mother not your therapist not your teacher #your fucking friend #'im not good enough' stop thinking im some sort of saint who should only hang out with sweet and nice people #i seriously just want you to shut the fuck up and listen to me for oncw #im doing this of my own free will so can YOU PLEASE JUST FOR ONCE SEE THAT I WANT YOU TO PUT SOME EFFORT AND WORRY FOR ME AS WELL #AND BE THERE FOR ME AND NOT FUCKING CUT OFF CONTACT AND EXPECT ME TO FIX EVERYTHING AGAIN #im tired im done if they think theyre not good enough i dont care anymore if they think im not someone they should be friends with then sure #im not putting up with this any more im done

[lqvesoph]

ferrari feeding us thrists to distracted us from their bad strategies and cars

#i see what you did there #i appreciate it #but still please sort yourself out #scuderia ferrari #charles leclerc #.x

[f1-obsessed333]

#he does not thrive in these conditions #please sort yourself out Singapore #f1 #daniel ricciardo #singapore gp 2022

[catd2014]

I desperately want Tim to win a set on No More Jockeys (even if he is a complete idiot for playing Jemima Puddleduck when one of the categories is no more people who can fly ffs she’s a duck!!).

I also want set 5 to carry on for a while as I am having too much fun with it and am still waiting for Ted Lasso to reappear for my Friday double-bill of Ted Lasso and NMJ. Mark is already on set point.

However, game 9 was at the end of March, and seeing as they didn’t start showing set 5 until the set was done, can I assume that there are a lot more games to come?? Perhaps 5 months of games though I appreciate they struggled to timetable games at various points this year.

Which means there is plenty of time for Tim to win 6 on the bounce and win the set!! Seems entirely plausible to me at this stage

#nmj thoughts #desperate for him to win but my god he’s testing me #though the shaving was a fun interlude #I was having some Thoughts about that #ahem #anyway #please sort yourself out tim #no more jockeys #tim key #alex horne #mark watson #nmj

[lunarharp]

a random draft where i was ramblingg about witch hat & art to myself for myself :)

rare time i feel like actually going off about the thing i’m having fun with right now in more detail ... but not on twt where strangers might try to discuss back at me lol sorry but that is scary. (not that you even have the room to soliloquy on there)

i love how there's characters for varying types of artists to relate to. people like agott who have been adept at drawing from a young age but feel overwhelmed by feelings of not meeting their expectations. and are driven mostly by feelings of wanting to prove their worth..

people like oru who have always been around the art but now are burnt out from commissions and wondering just what they're drawing for... and ones i relate to the most personally like coco and qifrey, who started drawing at an older age to the skilled people around them. like coco i'm so happy that i'm in the world of drawing(/magic) now and excited every day but also weighed down by fears that i'll never get to what i where i need to be after starting at this late stage and also whether i'm really cut out for this....

and like qifrey i only started drawing after a narrow escape from trauma... i started drawing to make sense of what my life is now, just as he was invited by beldaruit to become a witch because it was the only safe path he could take. (although i've not been through anything quite like what he's been through... ouagh)

and there’s tetia who just wants to draw to make other people feel happy about what she’s made, to have fun, and spread hope and happiness and gratitude. who feels so happy whenever someone thanks her for what she’s created - i understand now how it feels to want to thank them for thanking her and how making art, when you get a meaningful response, can be a truly warm communal type experience. but you do need that response - her overwhelming happiness when the dragon thing was happy and she said it was the first time she’d ever felt fully appreciated for her magic and it made her soooo happy. she had been drawing until then, but it was the last puzzle in place to make her realise the breadth of what magic can be for her.

and riche who is determined to not lose the “her”-ness from her art, doesn’t want to learn new techniques and become more regular and orthodox in style if it means she feels she’s losing something... i get that!!! precious autistic-coded child... the ways we feel about our art differ depending on our own mental landscapes. hahhhh... shirahama said she began this series because she was having a conversation with artist friends about how it feels like drawing just really is magic. i mean..... it is.

i think writing feels like magic too, and i’m glad i can do both now. any creation is total magic. i’ve drawn scenes that were in my head and that’s let other people see them and if i can trust their comments about it, has moved them in some way or at least let them imagine a scene or a situation that they wouldn’t have imagined otherwise. but it’s different from just telling someone about it. when you draw something, or write something it really exists now - outside of you. THAT’S SO WEIRD.

i liked drawing a lot of takarazuka things (before i realised i got kind of burnt out drawing all this transcore stuff that people were not exactly responding to because it’s so niche and weird lmao) but drawing fanart for something that also ONLY exists in art is so special. it’s not acted by real people. like.. they’re just little people that someone drew and now i draw them too. total magic. and she gets up and draws them every day the same as me...

i love that a manga isn’t just art, it’s storytelling too. doing both writing and drawing at the same time - it feels like such a perfect and fascinating combination of skills and facets of creation. i’m better at writing than drawing, so i don’t feel like i can express my original stories well enough in comic form just yet. but i might just get there.

the world is so confusing and overwhelming and terrible every day. only creation is something i can understand. sometimes i can’t understand it - when i feel REALLY bad, it’s definitely like, what’s the point. and i wish i had more things to experience at present than just creation - i want to be outside and just feel and be as well as create. and at some point i’ll definitely stop posting my creations online. but creating has become something that i don’t need to understand the reason for it - so at those times when i wonder what the real point to any of this is.... lately, i usually still create anyway. just as you’d still breathe and sleep even though you’re hurt and confused by the horrors of the world. it’s becoming how i express myself. i find myself drawing pretty much every day because it’s part of how i make sense of shit now and i naturally want to do it. not doing it is painful.

i hope this magic continues. i hope it becomes far more wonderful than i can even imagine from here.

and i won't lose.

#things really are different if you start drawing in your mid/late 20s or onwards. #you haven't developed your idea of yourself as an 'artist' at the time your brain was developing your identity. #but reading something that is basically saying- it's not too late and you have your own magic that only youan do... is so heartening. #also the manga is very gay. it's not THAT shockingly original and fascinating a story- but like... #i just don't know many ongoing fun series with interesting lovable characters where there are also major representations #for disability race queerness etc. #esp if tetia is trans. shirahama-sensei you can tell me... #MOSTLY IM LOSING MY MIND AT WHERE THE SERIES IS GOING LIKE I AM SCARED. my theories are dark and i fear for qifrey SOMEONE HELP HIMMM.. #ONCE AGAIN LET SOMEONE HLEP YOU YOU QUESTIONABLE AND TRAGIC GAY LITTLE SKIRT MAN #i hate that i had to just let my fic be so short. I CANT WRITE ANY MORE RIGHT NOW...i would have to make up so much plot stuff #bc orufrey CANNT happen they cant freaking KISS until so much is sorted out between them which requires the plot moving forward and.. #AUGHHH !!!! sensei please just tell me what happens please please please please please please please please please #the next chapter looks hella plot-ful but STILL..it's going to take YEARS..i just want to know if qifrey IS GOING TO SURVIVE THIS SHIT !!!! #if the brimhats [redacted] then he'll [redacted] and THEN WHAT IF [redacted] has to [redacted] I FEEL LIKE SENSEI'LL DO THAT !!! SCARED #SURELLLY she'll have [redacted] have to [redacted] but i dont think shed go as far as [redacted] ?????? #i plan to go to japan next year if possible anyway but what if it's too early for an anime-fuelled merch section in animate. please #this is like the first new and non-zuka thing i've been hyperfixated on for years. i need official qifrey and oru items. I need the items #once again i feel weird putting my personal feelings and theories on the internet to an audience of nobody but once again we will die. #am i going to be on my deathbed thinking 'oh i shouldn't have happily gone off about witch hat on tumblr that time how embarrassing' no. #do you know how worthwhile it is to enjoy something. and to basically avoid other fanworks for the most part so you're just surrounded #by your own pure and enjoyable feelings. #i actually went to a local queer art place yesterday and like. man i was very different to them but #there are people somewhat like me out there huh. somewhere. i'm going to make zines and art and express my world. even if just a bit. #literally why would you priv reblog something like this i think there is something wrong with you? i feel better about myself now #i will find the ones like me not the ones like you <3

[bcneheaded]

"Hush, now. I've got you." (oh how the turn tables, old skellybones ;P)

𝐒𝐞𝐧𝐝 “𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮” 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐡 𝐨𝐟𝐟 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 (with @winterfollows !)

Long, bony fingers are plucked with the utmost care from within their blood-soaked gloves-- once a pristine white-- the material catching stubbornly. Coat long since discarded, the sleeves no doubt ruined-- he stands rather despondently by the guest-room's bathroom sink, Haleir at his side. Determined for some reason or another to help in ridding him of the ghastly crimson that spattered most of his arms and upper body. A creature. A mindless abomination roamed the streets, causing chaos among the area and striking fear into its inhabitants. It could not be allowed to live and infect the city. So he killed it. It was.. perhaps a tad more difficult than he'd anticipated, and as such, he may have gotten a little frustrated by it. But in all fairness... in all his time, he had never encountered one of these. He did not know they exploded upon death. He does now. Had he the key components of doing so, surely he'd have retched when the half-digested blood of the creature's victims sprung from it's swollen belly and spattered his attire. Hot and rancid in feel, even upon his tar. And now he was here. Had it been that the other had already been at the shop, wondering where Artemis had been-- only to be shocked at the sight of the poor, reeking sap walking through the door? Perhaps so. But now... He takes Artemis' bare hand in his and sponges clean the stickiness from the bones and tar as gently as one would for a Living. And for a long moment as he stares down at their hands, he finds himself... confused. Why was he so gentle with a creature such as he? Yellow eyes languidly wander up to meet Hal's gaze in the mirror before glancing back down at the mess upon his button-up shirt; red and black alike soaked through the material. Audibly, he tuts; silently admonishing himself for ruining so much of his tailor's fine work. And when Hal looks at him, for the first time in.. perhaps a little too long, he speaks again. "Truly," he tries one more time, not nearly as convincing as he'd been the first couple tries. "you needn't... I can clean myself." A long pause, and he sighs quietly, eyes falling back to Hal's hands, pale as porcelain compared to his own. "You'll... dirty yourself with tar--" he tries, pushing once more, voice barely but a croak. "It's... difficult to wash off."

#( asks ) #winterfollows #<:' ) hehe #yes hi hello please uuuuhhh please consider the fact my dear friend my beloved felspar-- #pls consider the fact that right here right then hes realizing that he has not been so much as touched in so very long by another person-- #not like this! not by someone he actually Likes on a level deeper than superficial or professionally !! he has not known a genuine kind #touch in. forever. if ever since he'd been out of hell tbqh ?? sure there had been humans but his mind was muddled with ulterior motives #and now that hes lucid and tired and self aware and in control and able to APPRECIATE and ENJOY it he finds himself so..... out of place #and out of sorts with it ? he doesn't know what to do with it at all. he doesnt understand why he wouldnt just leave it be and let him #clean his own self fkdkksfd cannot comprehend why he might want to offer some ?? form of comfort or idk ?? closeness? or w/e it is hes #offering (artie is ... unaware unfortunately to the reason actually) #if it had been anyone else at all he very well would have sighed and sent them on their way jgfjdgjdf hes not even that embarrassed to be s #seen like this by hal?? all dirty and gross and NOT proper whatsoever. ENTIRELY disheveled and practically naked without his coat and shirt #all buttoned up properly and his little cravat tie and stuff-- #soBBING THO HAL getting to see beyond the businessman persona is sustaining me rn ty for the food #also coming back here to point out that he definitely did just choose the phrasing ''dirty yourself with tar'' in relation to himself #and some sort of confused fear that he'll somehow see him that way too or SOMETHING IDK FFDSJ #im english teacher picking this apart rn im eating the tenderness right up #also x2 hi coming back again to just...... takes hal's hand. puts artemis' bare hand in his #this...... this hand is naked and u are the only person to see them ever jfdhjdfgdf

[therealbluespirit]

my fic writing celebration!

Writing is hard, you guys. 

So I’ve decided to do a thing for myself.

But if anyone else would also like to be the coolest and celebrate their own writing too, I’ve compiled a list of the rules I’ll be following for this very random but necessary writing celebration below. 

I have never done anything like this before, but I’m giving it a shot regardless.

The RULES:

- all fandoms are welcome, not only AtLA - just tag appropriately and we’re good

- you have to be #most pleased with this snippet of your writing

- snippet content rating: try to keep it gen or teen. Nothing explicit please!

- you have to be the sole author of this snippet (like, don’t steal from wattpad guys...)

- it doesn’t have to be published, but let us know at the bottom where it’s coming from (ex: Title of WIP)

- you can have ONE snippet per chapter

- you can share as many snippets as you like, as long as they are each from different chapters!

- if your chapters are monsters greater than 5k, then you can have two. I’m being generous c:

- snippets shouldn’t be more than 400 words! I know- but please, restrain thyself, it’s called a ‘snippet’ for a reason O.o

- write in the tags (optional) why you felt proud of this, and what makes it so special to you <3

- post them on tumblr for everyone to appreciate, with (IMPORTANT) direct links at the bottom to the work in question. (I mean, this is the whole point of the celebration, you guys)

- use the tag ‘#therealbluespirit’s writing celebration 2022′ or @ me, so that I can see and appreciate the fruits of my impulsiveness myself and reblog them on a new side-blog

- tag a writer friend or three and share the love <3

- the celebration’s open all year round! yep, there’s no deadline for self-directed wholesomeness (like we need an excuse)

- if you’re reading this and have some fic writing to share, consider yourself tagged!

Basically,

in a dream scenario, in which tumblr is this cosy lil’ writing cafe where I see you guys every week and we sometimes talk shop (fandom), this would be the equivalent to me hanging up framed quotes of my WIPs, saying, ‘here, look. These are my babies.’ And of course, you guys reciprocate, and we cry a little, and pretty much have a ball.

PLOT TWIST (okay not really, but) 

HI writer friends! :3 Tagging you because I like being a pain in your ass: @jade-of-mourning​ @blluespirit​ @stardust-steel​ @the-storyteller78​ and everyone else I haven’t yet got around to dm-ing.

OPEN INVITATION to all you guys to participate in this, if you’d like to and have the time. Please, do go for it! I say you need to be your own cheerleader sometimes. High-key anticipating your posts now, just saying :”)

#i'm tired of fic writers going unappreciated #not that i am but i know there a lot of you guys who feel this way #so please #be loud and proud #celebrate yourself and let us share in your joy #therealbluespirit's writing celebration 2022 #i really hope at least one other writer can get something out of this nonsense #fanfiction #atla #fandom #any fandom #writing #writeblr #positivity #self love #writers #ao3 #ffn #challenge of sorts #because writing is hard #and sometimes we just need to be reminded of why we love playing with these damned words so much

[softersinned-arc]

i think that as much as astoria likes most of the de clermonts her relationship with many of them grows tense with the passage of time. philippe’s death isn’t the cause of it but i think that’s when it starts to become clear, and irreversible. she and matthew get along well enough when they’re arguing but i don’t know if she ever fully forgives him for keeping the knights; she certainly doesn’t forgive him for refusing to let baldwin have his justice for philippe’s death. by time time diana arrives on the scene, astoria has been quietly seething for decades: matthew has been allowed time and again to endanger the family, his blood rage controlled but still present, and in her eyes his vices and failures are allowed and even indulged because of philippe’s whims and ever-shifting favor. she likes marcus very much (he’s her favorite nephew) but she thinks he’s a fool for trusting matthew as he does, particularly after new orleans, and then again after finding out he’s been lied to for so long. she like gallowglass but he’s never around, and with diana’s return she resents gallowglass’ willingness to ally himself with matthew above baldwin. same with fernando. i don’t think she spares ernst enough thought to have an opinion on him besides “entertaining company.” and i don’t think she quite knows what to make of jack.

          as always her relationship with the women in the family is the most complex. i don’t know how she’d feel about miyako or frejya or stasia yet, but i think she’d like them all. verin makes her uneasy, particularly considering the conditions under which she and ernst are mated, but she can tolerate her for the support she offers her brother. there’s a fair amount of tension between astoria and ysabeau as well—astoria as the head of the family’s consort means that she becomes the highest ranking woman at sept-tours when they’re there. astoria makes an effort not to blatantly disrespect her by making demands regarding the running of the household, but she also will gently correct anyone who refers to anyone but her as ‘madame de clermont,’ as if she can understand the confusion and it’s an honest mistake but one that needs to be remedied all the same, and any deference to ysabeau’s decisions is very clearly that (a gesture, a gift even, out of respect for her husband’s mother—not because she should rank higher than either of them). and she likes diana in theory but she’s furious that diana’s willing to risk the entire family for the sake of her own desires, and her disdain for matthew feeds into a disdain for diana. the formation of a separate scion doesn’t help matters. like ysabeau, diana is treated as having rank and deserving respect as a result of her rank, though unlike ysabeau, diana has not earned that respect, in astoria’s eyes. she’s much more willing to pull rank over diana. phoebe has done nothing wrong ever in her life, and while she shows diana the respect necessitated by her role and rank, it’s phoebe to whom astoria shows the affection and respect she would a sister.

          the twins, ftr, can do no wrong in her eyes.

#i. she had a marvelous time ruining everything. ( about ) #(i'm watching s3 and astoria's sitting in my brain furious about matthew at the head of the table talking about ~the darkest of days~) #(mostly she's angry that so many members of the family are willing to behave as though baldwin is an irrational tyrant)_ #(while still being SO willing to call on him to fix the problems they create and the messes they make) #(even as diana and matthew are preparing to separate and form their own scion specifically because they don't trust baldwin —) #(— who do they call to fix things? baldwin. even as ysabeau shows obvious disdain for baldwin who's her first choice to save the day?) #(it's not her blood son whom she insists is fit to run his own family! when matthew can't sort shit out long enough to find diana —) #(— whose number is being dialed? that's RIGHT. tho on a personal level astoria's pleased to know that now they actually can say —) #(— 'figure it out yourself it's YOUR scion' when they're getting interrupted constantly) #(it also makes her very relieved that her own daughters would never be in line to run the family bc the de clermonts are fucking insane) #(and if her girls get spared that all the better)