#seriously i should go to sleep

[mothdean]

thinking about how there's never gonna be another ship like destiel because shows simply don't last as long as spn did anymore therefore no ship could ever have the build up and history destiel had that spanned 12 years on and off screen and still continues now

#seriously though like im so glad i got to experience it #yeah destiel and spn has wrecked me in ways i can never fix but i wouldnt change it #not a thing #i should sleep #nah #back to my fanfic i go #getting emotional over destiel #destiel #spn

[gregoryeddiesgoldchain]

avanine truthers come to the front of the class

ummm GUYS

okay first of all - ava popping up on janine at work is SO cute! they kinda framed it like this was ava's first visit to janine's office at the district but there's noo way she's been there for five months and this is the first time. like i'm imagining janine there late one night that first week tidying up her office and ava stops by with food like "i knew you'd still be here"

janine being ava's mole in the district office is absolutely coming back around this season and i look forward to that with delight and glee

"i'm more important than whatever you're doing for Jacob" ummm need i say more???

side note: ava in this purple like be still my beating heart

ava immediately being like "that doesn't sound like janine i think the fuck not" and springing into action when she hears that she's struggling really shows how far they've come. season one she would've made some joke about her but now she's like - the girl who never gives up is giving up??? NOT ON MY WATCH. immediately yes and i need more.

this was not directly avanine content but ava going "well, gregory? is no?" was absolutely about janine and i won't be told otherwise lol

"I don't need to schedule a meeting to see my girl" it was right there i'm just sayingg

the way janine's chin, face, and whole body lifted up when ava said they were friends is replaying in my head on a loop!!! and so is the way ava lets that slip and sees her reaction nd immediately draws back just a tad like PLEASE. they love each other and that's all

also love that ava can't resist throwing out that bit about tariq on her way out and then teasing her about him later. she's such a menace and i really love her for that

#okay i was supposed to be sleeping but i had to get this out of my brain lol #avanine #its just so good i love their relationship so much #like no matter where it ends up going there's real love and affection and care there and it's so lovely to see #i mean i think they should kiss sloppystyle but ya know #we love to see black women that care for each other period #seriously can someone get to writing because i also wanna read about those five months the cameras were gone and what they got up to #in fact i might make a separate post of all the scenarios i'm imagining cause there's a lot lol #abbott elementary #abbott elementary spoilers #janine teagues #ava coleman #janine x ava #ae s3

[boypussydilf]

so fascinated w everything abt akira kurusu!! hes overconfident & way too willing to sacrifice himself & he is the nicest politest boy ever and hes so so angry and he cant shut up and hes quiet and hes hiding from the world. he is driven by his morals and there are also timelines where hes so extremely painfully selfish. hes chosen by god and hes the worlds most average 16 year old. hes completely insane and hes literally normal. his relationships are more genuine and close and earnest than anyone would expect from friendships only a few months old and he’s avoiding fully opening up to people. he needs his brain scrubbed with an industrial brush. hes completely fine. his best friend is a cat

#he hangs out with akechi. on purpose #he likes the guy #GOD #WHAT MAKES AKESHU MEANINGFUL IS ALSO WHAT MAKES IT HILARIOUS #‘akira genuinely likes akechi for akechi’ spoken seriously and w heart #vs ‘akira genuinely likes *AKECHI*. AS A PERSON. FOR WHO HE IS. AKECHI’ in disbelief #Something wrong with him #We should’ve been allowed to have real akira dialogue bc we should’ve been allowed to have an akira version of the i kind of like it line #I should go to sleep #basilposting #beneath the mask

[anabetel35]

If you like Kuwei, whatever you do, just don’t think about how he probably grew up isolated from his peers because of his father’s status. How he probably took to reading because no one around him could spare a single second for him. How, when he and his father had to flee the country and were captured by the Fjerdans, he probably realized that what happened to him was a perfect backstory for a main character of some epic story. How, when he had to watch his father try to create a drug that could enslave and kill nearly all Grisha in the world, people just like the two of them, his biggest comfort came from the silly belief that at the end of his story, he too would have everything that he wanted — a family, a lover, a friend, just anyone who would finally care about him. Recognition. Joy. Love.

How, when his father died and he was left alone, a small, delusional, cruel part of him was almost sure that it was necessary for him to then be loved. How, when the Crows came for him, deep down, he fully expected them to be his new family. How, even when everyone was cold to him on the ship, he still tired to convince himself that it was because one of theirs was on the brink of death. How he dumbly tried to tell himself that they won’t actually turn him over to the merchant that wants him because they’re reasonable people. How he spent his days and nights in a cold tomb, pushing down the memories of his now dead father and his grim future, all alone, curled up in a corner.

How he had developed a crush on Jesper, bright, kind, warm Jesper, as if he could do anything else, and then had to watch helplessly as that ray of sunshine ignored him, as he got closer to the boy that had his face. How his skills and efforts were ignored just because what he might know seemed far more important to the people around him. How, not more than two days before the auction where his death would be faked, he got kissed by the man he began to adore and then was disliked for it by the only member of the team that actually tried to befriend him for a while.

How he had to stand tall in front of all the people, all those merchants, the royalty, the warriors, the guards, the farmers, the children, everyone, all the people who came to the Church of barter just to see who he’d be sold to. How he had to trust the six teens who only had qualms about killing him because he was worth a whole lot of money, with his life as different governments called out numbers that could feed the whole world for an entire lifetime. How the last thing that he could’ve seen before he died if the bullet that hit his chest missed his button even by a single hair, was the chaos ‘Brekker and his Crows’ started.

How, when he woke up, he barely had any time to calm down because one of the teens, the Drüskelle, was dead. How he now had to mourn him now, too, along with all that he lost. How, when he was laying down on the ship to pretend he’s dead, he realized that the people he saw as his saviors less than two months ago, and as the thing that he wanted more than life, didn’t care for him at all anymore. That they might even be happier if he died. How, as he neared the sea, he couldn’t help but feel like he’d let his one chance at happiness higher along the canal and that he was now destined for a life of despair.

How, when he arrived to the Little Palace, he wasn’t met with kindness or friendly faces. How he had to hide the fact that the thing he worked on day and night was the cure to a drug that his father had created, a drug that could’ve destroyed Grisha all around the world. How he was their only hope in the war against Fjerda. How he spent his nights awake dreaming of being a part of the family that the Crows clearly were. How he couldn’t seem to fit in anywhere he went.

Most importantly of all, don’t think about the fact that he’d been alone all his life.

#since no one else seems to be rambling about him I had to do it myself #but seriously why do we as the entirety of TWO fandoms sleep on this man so fucking much??? #he’s an amazing character we just didn’t get to see him a whole lot #but Zoya’s description of him (as snobbish as he is talented) should be enough to make us go feral about him #like yes he’s a little shit but 1) we love him for it and 2) so is Kaz and we love him too #and there is so much possible angst we can put him through??? #and the relationships he’s have with the other characters??? we’re robbing ourselves of the duo that would be Zoya and Kuwei #or Wylan and Kuwei or Nina and Kuwei or Inej and Kuwei or Tamar and Kuwei or— #also he’s one of the most lonely characters in the damn Grishaverse and yet we haven’t done anything with that #(I’m here if anyone else wants to scream about this fifteen years old traumatized inferno (possibly) orphan) #kuwei yul bo #kuwei my beloved #six of crows #grishaverse #wylan van eck #wylan hendriks #jesper fahey #crooked kingdom #kaz brekker #wesper #soc #ck #rule of wolves #king of scars #inej ghafa #nina zenik #matthias helvar #inferni #the grisha trilogy #grisha

[that-vampire-loser]

Someone needs to tie me to my laptop and force me to write

#the writers block is BAD at the moment #it doesn’t help that I’m sick #and just have no energy to do anything in general #I seriously need to work on something but I cannot think #I’ll probably just go to sleep instead #one nice thing about being sick is it’s like my insomnia fades away #writer problems #i really should write #writing community #fic writing #aspiring writer #writer's block #writers #writer #writing #writers on tumblr #writeblr

[augustsails]

I will actually sob and ugly cry if MCR releases a new album, you don’t understand

#my chemical romance #I should not have looked at tumblr before going to bed #now I won’t sleep haha #but seriously I will cry #I will flip #happy birthday to me:)) #MCR

[rainy-days-and-cabbage]

[ ...Liking women wasn’t the least bit shameful, but treating women like saviors, cowering within their embrace and seeking courage from them…even without anyone saying it, Shen Qingqiu knew that was horrendously shameful. ] I always understood this as SJ saying 'It's so shamefully unmanly of me to be protected by a woman.'

but lately I've began to wonder if it's more like 'I crave to be a malewife for a big strong woman but it is unmanly thus shameful so I can not achieve my desires. :c Alas gender norms'

TLDR; Does anyone know of any fics of SJ being a sub or just getting topped by a big strong woman?

And if not, why is no one writing them!? I think it'd be amazing for that bastard's mental health!

We know of one person he's canonically slept with (thought probably not in a sexual sense). Where are the fics!?

#Shen Jiu #I should probably go to sleep instead of making these unhinged takes #well shit #but seriously fic recs?

[lifemod17]

"to swallow my desire and choke on it" to this day is my favorite Sleep Token lyric.

on it's own, this line looks unimportant, boring, nothing special about it. but really this is the last thing (in the first verse) on Vessel's list of things that he would "give anything" for. and how heartbreaking is that, to ask someone- a person, a god, anyone- to offer them everything, just to make the longing and painful memories and yearning and heart ache, go away. I'd give anything to swallow my desire and choke on it. I would pay any price, just please make it stop.

#Missing Limbs my beloved #sleep token #this place will become your tomb #im getting way too sad on main i really should put away the laptop and go to bed its almost midnight #seriously tonee. THREE (3) sad/yearny post in ONE (1) night?? be ffr

[bambiraptorx]

me relistening to the little women broadway soundtrack for possibly the first time since i was in a production of it a few years ago: what if i made turtle angst with this

#bambi's rambling #i'm seriously brainrotting over this crossover now lol #i'm still working on the doodles for it but those should be up in a day or two? maybe? #gotta finish the information i'm writing up to explain the crossover first #it's not that much but i might go to sleep before i finish tonight

[twilightarcade]

that's a weird dog

#wordstag #notwordswordstag #neptune wgen it's being normal about that eclipse thing #drawn at late oh clock it's like 2am right now . I think I'm gonna darken the eyes in the morning #or I won't. You never know with this guy. #anyhow I'm in bed now and I'm sooooo cozy. #ok so [mr beasts] this drawing was a 'let's use all the brushes in the sketching section & see what happens' thing #I think we're going 2 do another one w/ a smaller canvas size because I wanna . Try something. & this canvas was way too big #(<-I've been using the same canvas 4 like . Ages. And some IDIOT refuses 2 just move the sketches over( #literally whoever invented patterns on clothing should go explode . Do you have any clue #it's ok though . Fun exercise in whatever it's called. Perspective. If it was evil. ( I am failing the exercise) #ummmmmmm I thibk that's all. Spent way longer on this than I meant to. But the REAL criminal here was anzu because #That was supposed 2 be a warm up. Of sorts. I don't really do warm ups much if I'm going 2 be honest #trying 2 get into the habit but me drawing is more like . I'm going to draw 5 things in one sitting take it or leave it #ok guess who just . Fixed it. #I could point out like a million other things wrong but I'm not going to [smug cat picture] I'll leave that up to your imagination #ok umm how many tags is that . Not enough ? I want 2 do those whatever u wanna call those things again #yyou know. Peeks in my inbox. #ddude I might want to uh. I might want to crop this thing. #landscape is fun and all but seriously I can't #whatever. Officially a tomorrow me issue. Guess who's headed to sleep baby. #tomorrow neptune here I ended up cropping it after all.cod bleAmerica.ca. #anyhow I don't think I mentioned the . The Animal?

[ereborne]

✨⚡️ Seven(ish) Sentence Sunday ⚡️✨

Tagged by @acountrygirlsfun (a couple times by now, though not actually this most recent time, but I figure it still counts!) Thank you, Caitlin <3 <3 <3

Helix took a deep breath in, counted four flashes of the desperate direct-@ lights coming in from his side chat panels, and breathed out.  His voice came out steady, and miraculously casual.  "We understand why you did it. You were trying to keep our brothers safe." He watched Harp's eyes go wide at the 'our' brothers. Like he hadn't expected the rest of them to claim the Corries. Because he'd been hiding from them just like from the longnecks, he had falsified his— Deep breath in. Two flashes, no time for longer, leave no silence for Harp to panic in.  Breathe out. Keep going. 

This is not seven sentences, but it's also largely not complete sentences anyway, and it is literally what I just seconds ago finished writing. Still counts!

No-pressure tagging uhhh @ialpiriel, @goingsparebutwithprecision, @anaclastic-azurite, anybody else who might want to play?

#tagged by #acountrygirlsfun #I should be taking a shower and going to sleep but this scene isn't clicking so rather than getting frustrated I'm posting it here #I will have to go back through in my rewrites later and make sure everyone doesn't have their breakdowns in the same way #I do a bit better when the characters are speaking out loud #but for internal thought processes I tend to end up with them all sounding suspiciously similar to my own. whoops #anyway this is more of the good data management AU! we've just learned that the Corrie Guards Are Not Okay #and now most everybody else is also Not Okay! we're having bad times today folks #in the story I mean. I had a fine day! #and though it is emotionally fraught and currently fighting me I am still very happy to be getting back to my beloved Guard #Harp's a medic OC and I adore him and he and the Guard he's trying so hard to take care of really deserve a break #and now their brothers are a little more aware (seriously they have only just nicked the tippest bit of iceberg) of how not okay they are #a break they shall shortly receive!! #(it's gonna come with a double helping of Bother so they won't be very grateful. but they will be better rested and that's what matters)

[sweetbabyrayray]

its so strange to me how so many people argue donnie over mob in @autismswagsummit because donnie is “canonically” autistic

there are so many tags and comments mentioning this and i’m just like

this is not something stated in the show. its something the creators confirmed outside of it. which is awesome, and im super glad! ive watched rottmnt and i love donnie and having confirmation of autism rocks!

but like, what i dont understand is all the people saying this is why donnie deserves to win over mob. is the text of the show not enough? are his very personal and real autistic struggles not enough? do you really need a creator to go online and tweet “btw hes autistic” to feel a character is being properly represented?

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #ray speaks #dont take this too seriously im just rambling at 2am bc i cant sleep #its just something i noticed that i find strange #like the implication that mob ‘isnt autistic’ because the creator didnt go public and say it outright #as if thats what he Should be doing — rather than putting his autism in every nook and cranny of the show — which he DID do

[miallurk]

In these days i realized i like art and writing and creating and shopping and taking walks and talking to people and cleaning and helping and studying and doing things but i'm just. too stressed, tired and burned out to do them. How great!

#i am losing my sanity day by day #drowning myself in the nearby lake seems better and better every day #why am i even writing this i have literally no mutuals or even people who'd care about #don't mind me crying myself to sleep haha #ooooh look at this pathetic baby. sitting in their little bed crying stupid tears. i should at least get tissues now while my crying isn't #fuck history fuck school and fuck me i quess #am i gonna start treating this as an actual blog and make a sideblog for reblogs? who knows! certainly not me; stay tuned for the story! #i'm gonna go and just let it all out into a pillow #vent ig #my mom is blasting holiday music in the other room lol #nice to have a whatever the fuck im having while “jingle bells” plays #at least i'm not hearing mariah carey ig #anyway i've probably hadn't been taking care of myself lately it has been worse despite me promoting it to everyone who needs #when i vented last time and it wasn't taken seriously so woop #anyway imma go try to calm myself and back to my notes i go #please gods what did i do to deserve thi s shit. fuck you #i hate it here i really do. i hate when these people talk to me i hate them. i at least can be sorta accquaitances with one but they just. #all stare and laugh? i actually can't. like i'm some fucking clown and laughing stock. just kill me at this point. i have been enduring this #for YEARS and suddenly i'm being a little bitch about it?? what the fuck. why am i so mushy all of a sudden. being shown an ounce of respect #and care made me expect it more? fuck #i'm just setting myself up for failure. i am just a giant loser and failure of a person. #everything seems so fucking hard. and pointless. i am tearing my rotten little heart apart with this. i am once again grieving things #long ago and things i never had. my everything has to be pleasing to an outsider #my value is my suffering. am i breaking enough? is this beautiful to look at #at my self destruction? i hate myself. i treat others so cruelly. i am a horrible fucking person. #my problems are not their burden - i forced it on them. wept like a baby because she left me. and what happened in the end? my paranoia got #to me. i left them. i fucking. i fid the thing i was afraid of being done to me. #this is showing so many issues. #so many things wrong with me. i shouldn't even be alive by this point - i wasn't supposed to survive past 12 #i am being forced to do this every day. someone please just end my fu king suffering