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cu7ie · 11 months

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rehab.

✧( ु•⌄• )◞◟( •⌄• ू )✧ oh joy, being taiju's favorite little toy.

taiju shiba x reader.

cw; implied/referenced drug addiction and usage, reader has a vagina (no pronouns mentioned), blowjobs/throatfucking. blood (reader's nose is bleeding.)

author's note: for deeper immersion/greater context PLEASE listen to "rehab", this fic is based off that song. i wrote this for @pupicunt <3 i hope you appreciate this taiju thirst.

When Taiju wipes the blood from your nose, it reminds you of how much he loves you.

Patience. A virtue in which Taiju is most prevalently lacking in. That's why the others could never last as long; any defiance or any slight can warp his perception of anything, any one.

(Taiju has killed men; scorned the hearts of lesser whores over trivial things, he is not a merciful god, but you don't mind being burnt, holding the fire of him in your palm,)

You are the exception that defies all logic. You are his little angel. As long as you bend over backwards for him, jump when he says how high, he seems to stretch himself infinitely for you. (He feeds your addiction, your drug dealer and the kindest daddy you could ever want, as long as you give him those baby doll eyes; bat your lashes for him; bend over and touch your toes for him,) Every second of everyday you think about what he means to you,

the things he does to you, and for you.

He's not home right now, and your chest hurts. Vague feelings of panic bubble up in your stomach, paranoia clamping down it's jaw; around your neck, dry throat sticking together, and all you do is sweat, sweat, sweat,

watching your blood drip down your lip like drool.

…

…plink!

Your consciousness settles in your body. Air filters into your lungs, n' suddenly you can see and hear and feel it: your chest and ribs expanding—

the door unlocking.

You suck in a breath, turn in what feels like slow motion, your hands slipping over porcelain as you try and straighten your spine, stroking your hair because you think it looks a mess (getting distracted by the numbness in your face, your eyes staggering twitching)-

"So this is what you've been up to." You don't know where you put your phone - you feel hypersensitive to that fact as your whole body perks up at the sound of him. "I'm sorry, baby." A voice that is a mockery of itself emerges, tired yet so excited to see him. You stumble on nothing in your effort to scamper into Taiju's arms;

stepping over a thin razor and pill bottle, an empty baggy.

He's staring at you from the doorway, expression grave.

"Aww. Don't look at me like that.. Taiju,"

You're fluttering. Stepping on clouds and walking into his arms and knowing he's not happy with you. But he lets you be close anyway, allows your forehead thud dully into his chest,

get close to his beating heart; the hot magma that lies beneath his skin.

His fingers weave into your hair and he pries you off of him, pulling your head back until your neck arches and the marred skin is exposed to him.

(Taiju isn’t always nice, if the bites and bruises are anything to go by.)

"Have you seen yourself? You're a fuckin' mess.” His eyes looked hard and beady, but soften into something unrecognizable. It makes your stomach flip. “Whole bathroom's a mess. When I call you," he jostles your head, "I expect you to pick the fuck up. The fuck's wrong with you?" His teeth look razor sharp, and for a moment fear strikes like a brand - you're wise enough to appeal to his sensibility; an expert in placation.

"I'm sorry, Taiju." You lick your lips slow, holding his probing gaze with confidence that doesn't quite suit you. "But let me make it up to you.." His grip relaxes as your hands smooth down the front of his shirt, going down, and down,

Running your hands along his bulge, thick cock leaving an impression as you gently stroke him through his pants. "I'll kiss it just how you like…" you murmur, a fog cloud rolling over your rational thought. In the next instant, you're already on your knees; unbuckling his belt with a new found feverishness, desperation exuding from you like the sweat from your pores; you need him you need him you need him—

That pang of anxiety congeals in the back of your mind as you work his head into your mouth, cupping his balls with your free hand as you feverishly jerk whatever doesn't fit with gusto. You're so sensitive that the feeling of him being inside you like this makes you moan,

And as you begin to suck, blood mixes with saliva mixes with the taste of his dick,

(n you put up with it because he's your precious hubby, your Taiju,)

You look up for some mite of praise or approval. It pleases you greatest that Taiju doesn't look an ounce as mad as he did before.

But the expression on his face doesn't look like love either. His eyes bore into the top of your head and you're too senseless, too focused on sucking this dick like your life depends on it, the sound of your sloppy head drowning out the sound of his grunting and cursing.

He thrusts his hips into your mouth, which throws you off of your rhythm, but he doesn't care how much you sputter and gag as he forces the rest of his dick down your throat, your nose pressing up against his fuzzy trail; tears that you can't feel run down your face. You frantically squeeze his thighs as he uses your mouth, getting more and more bothered as breathing through your nose feels so hard-

And maybe this is what he loves about you. You are boneless, letting him debase you like this, bound to ask for more when he gets you back to the bedroom; just a delirious little slut - nothing more.

You just moan his name so sweetly.

He forces your head back, your breathing staccato as with a wet schlop your lips are forcibly removed from his cock, still bobbing and wet and hard. You give it a sweet, parting kiss. He groans, but doesn't allow himself to be distracted by your ministrations.

"Can you get up?" It's rhetorical, because he forces you up by your arm and your legs feel too weak to stand on but you do it anyway, for him. He's a little gentler as he keeps you from tottering, bringing you back to the bedroom and just tossing you onto the mattress. You curl into the sheets instinctively, cold now that he's not touching you.

"Taiju. Where’ d you go..?" You call out to air, your hands sliding down the front of your shorts. When he doesn’t respond, your head gets all floaty again, your pussy oozing at the thought of being used-

The door slams and you don’t stop, easing fingers into yourself to the knuckle. One finger, then two. So preoccupied with yourself that, in your haze, you don’t notice the bed shifting from a weight that's not yours.

“‘Nough of that.” Your head snaps up to attention, panting and tongue lolling; so desperately aroused.

Taiju is out of his shirt, pants still unbuckled - having made their way around his ankles. He doesn’t have to utter another word. You excitedly climb into his lap, fumbling with your shorts and pulling your panties to the side because you’re simply too impatient to take them off. You sink onto his cock with a grateful sigh, the sound of Taiju’s booming laughter making you giggle too.

“Tai… let me take care of you. How you take care of me.” Peppering kisses along his neck, along his collarbone, leaving a litter of hickies behind.

He can do no more than oblige.

#taiju shiba #taiju shiba x reader #tokyo revengers smut #tokrev smut #taiju shiba smut #tokyo rev smut #🌩️ L1GHTN1NG_STRIKE5.pdf

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finedinerofmoths · 10 months

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Actually hold on I can't sleep so let me tell you what I think about Kevin, the smiling god, Strexcorp, and how it all ties together.

(rant incoming)

So! The podcast of WTNV contradicts itself sometimes as to who founded the congregation of the smiling god, and I find it interesting! (I'll try to to source my findings but I'm kinda trash at that so sorry in advance.)

First things first, it was before strex for sure. This is confirmed by the episode with past Kevin and I think a priest of the congregation actually? He talks about smiling, uses friendly language, and overall seems like a happy guy pre-strex in a somewhat similar fashion to during-strex Kevin. Personally I love the contrast, but that's not the point whoops. And after his disconnect with strex, there are still many! people that worship the smiling god.

Here's what I think, and take it with a grain of salt because I hadn't read any of the books or seen the live shows (wiki fandom is my best friend on this), but it seems like the corruption of a religion to further a social/political goal on strex's part.

I refuse to get too political on this but my thoughts on this was the OG religion was positive and harmless, centered around a more spiritual belief of goodwill, optimism, and respecting life (maybe the energy of every living thing via blood and bones and the beauty of just... Life and living thing? Only to turn into a blood and bone fixation? Hm.) Smiling has been proven to help your brain make happy chemicals, and laughing is literally contagious! I read a post that while science is Night Vale's religion, religion is Desert Bluff's science, and I agree. It makes sense that a guy like pre-strex Kevin (as little as I know him) would understand and appreciate these values. Hell, I even think cutting a gaslow smile into yourself could've been an original thing, some religions are like that man, especially not surprising in WTNV.

Strex is obviously sadistic, faux-friendly, manipulative and gaslighting, etc etc etc. It wouldn't be the first time a company or group would use and corrupt a popular religion to seize control, and brainwashing is how cults work! That mixed with torture and meds, no wonder strex employees were so loyal. And they most likely used his own religion (albeit an essentially bastardized version) to condition him. By telling him pain is good (yikes) and "crushing the weak" to paraphrase Kevin himself is all part of this religion HE FOUNDED, they could've easily twisted their own virtues into his. Despite being a prophet, I don't think Kevin has had contact with it for a while now.

However, the smiling god is obviously malevolent, I am not sure about that bit. It either drive him just a bit mad upon first meeting it (valid tbh), it killed him but didn't?? because what is logic in night vale honestly, or somehow tricked him into believing it was a more benevolent presence. Or, maybe he worshipped it because why not, Cecil was totally ready to adhere to the demands of the glow cloud, the distant prince, all of them due to a healthy dose of terror and cosmic fear. Kevin might've gotten luck of the draw.

A thing I don't know yet that's driving me crazy is Kevin met the smiling god via oak door the first time, and it makes me wonder if the desert otherworld is it's domain or something?? And dbt is there now, just thinkin' thoughts about that.

He's shown to be a bit controlling, opinionated and stubborn even before strex (only heartless people don't like cats, Cecil!) and I think strex amplified these traits to terribly negative proportions. As well as using his own trauma, maybe? He compares his father to a thing always watching (in the walls, I think?), the sun to an overbearing father, let's not even mention the burning hot caramel situation. If his father was strict and abusive, it might be easier to say "hey, wasn't that actually a good thing? All that pain, what a great dad!" And turn his brain into a functional positive feedback loop.

Sorry for the whole essay, ack, but I've been thinking about this way too much lately. To summarize, smiling god came first via Kevin, Strex ruined everything as per usual, and religion and science and this podcast are soooo flipping interesting!!!! Okay thanks for coming to my Ted talk, Mothy out

#wtnv podcast #wtnv #kevin wtnv #kevin wtdb #strexcorp #tw religious mention #tw child abuse mention #welcome to night vale #how do you tag rahh

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fujianvenator · 7 months

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Honestly, wrt that masking post, I see unmasked people I immediately know that my life isn’t worth anything to them. They’d rather spare themselves the inconvenience of wearing a mask than consider others for one second. I hate it. “Oh it doesn’t do anything on a large scale” a) and argument and b) even if it didn’t. You’re admitting that you consider me and people like me not worth the effort. It’s awful! Not to sound like a child but it hurts my feelings?? Like oh okay cool you don’t care whether vulnerable people live or die. Cool.

literally. like, if i cant rely on someone to do something as small as masking to protect others how can i ever rely on them for other shit? like theyve basically confessed that they dgaf abt other peoples literal lives if it comes at the cost of their own convenience. i also love the assumption that everyone who says to mask up is just a Performative Screeching Virtue Signaling Soapboxing Abled Pretending To Care and not. disabled people? like does op think we all just died off already HELLOOOOOO

and like, its one thing for the average everyday joe schmoe whos pretty unaware of the systems that affect the world (kind of guy that says "i hate mondays" but doesnt understand capitalism is why they hate mondays) to not care, but seeing Self Ided Leftists say "well the government gave up so stop trying it doesnt matter" while still somehow thinking theyre in the right coz they use terms from theory is like. wow. you are a horrible fucking person. i dont know how you can consider yourself a Hashtag Progressive while openly saying Well actually idgaf about disabled people begging for their lives, thats just Posturing and Performative Moralizing ☝️🤓☝️🤓

side note i love how op threw around the word Moralizing™©®™®®™©™©™©® like. believe it or not i think carelessly getting people infected with a severe disease that disables and kills is pretty fucking immoral. holy shit.

like yea one person masking is not Large Scale Collectivist Action but its also literally your community? like. i always see people going "ohh u have to connect with ur community so u can unite u have to have mutual aid u gotta reach out thats how we survive" but i guess that doesnt fucking apply to keeping the vulnerable people in ur community alive lol. going by this logic everyone doing harm reduction by distributing resources like narcan and hygiene kits in their community should just stop coz thats just Individuals too and not part of widespread legislation after all

sorry for using ur ask to drop this absolute dash stretcher of a rant but god fucking damn. im just fucking blown away by the inordinately moronic bullshit and straight up evil rhetoric in that post. jesus fucking christ.

#asks #jevilcore #[stares into the camera with a pained smile on my face]

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bearsgrove · 3 months

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❈ the uquiz post 😔 ❈

finally had somewhat of a motivation to go through a bunch of uquiz tag games i was tagged in by @gwynbleidd thank u 🐏

what is your oc's core theme?

the griever you mourn your losses. it is as if something has been torn from your soul and you are forever a lost fragment seeking what you have lost. it will take you time to accept some things are better floating through the universe, taken from us with vice and leaving us incomplete. your corners will drift through the ocean and each grain of sand you brush by will sand you down. you will reach the beaches healed, and your sharp corners will become dull and smooth to the touch. your painting is "anguish" by august friedrich schenck.

the creator your existence is to make. it fulfils you. there is joy in making, bringing something from nothing. you create to fill a void, you pull from thousands of inspirations encircling your mind to birth something all your own. it is yours. you care for it. you love it. you make it into the best it can be, you guide it into your image. you pray that it does not stray and you fear it falling into the wrong hands. but you cannot hover over your creations forever. they must become their own, too. a creation can only withstand so much control from its god, but you know a god's people cannot hear their god cry out in anguish when they stray from its image. have mercy on your subjects and they will repay you in kind. your painting is "return of the prodigal son" by rembrandt van rijn.

ocs as types of cannibalism

filial cannibalism the eating of one's own offspring. eating offspring has been documented in a variety of mammal and bird species – as well as fish, insects and spiders. hunger and quality control are among the many reasons proposed for this counterintuitive survivor of natural selection. you think of yourself as a logical person, and you probably went through a hardcore atheist phase. you consider this logic a virtue. to you, logic and emotion are two opposites, where one is superior to the other. wait until you find out that logic is an emotion. you are a great problem solver. your partiality towards objectivism though, is often less helpful than you realise. you have a hard time taking criticism.

epicurean cannibalism eating human meat because it tastes good. you appreciate the finer things in life. you are an extrovert. why waste your life thinking about what might have been? you certainly won't. your biggest fear is to live a boring life. subconsciously you harbor a deep sense of emptiness. you distract yourself from this emptiness with extravagant behavior, risk-taking, and pleasure-seeking. you may have a gambling problem, binge eating problem, or substance abuse issues. you are also impatient.

what color is your aura?

Jade islands, sketchbooks, rainy windows, pendants, puzzle pieces, tree frogs, sea glass. your essence is jade: you are withdrawn and observant, like a sailing ship watching others pass. you struggle between giving too much and too little; it is a hard thing to be both authentic and loved. your sensitivity makes you gentle to others. you are the spirit. you are the philosopher. you find kinship in like-minded individuals of seafoam, teal, blue, and green, who share your thoughtfulness and creativity. you are also drawn to the purposeful chartreuse and fire, who will help you grow and connect to the world around you. however, you may struggle to get along with the ambitious personalities of wine and terracotta who push too hard.

what does your soul look like?

Dog teeth You're vicious, but you're afraid. You have to make the first punch, and make sure your opponent can't land one. But you need to stop seeing everyone as an enemy. The only one being violent is you, your anger and your defensiveness is killing you. Take a nap, rest your head and clear your mind. Come back in the morning.

#tag games #oc tag #ravell #kaz #evan #fälenas #not all of these are 100% accurate but they are interesting nonetheless #the one singular bit that took me out was just kaz having the ''return of the prodigal son'' painting. man.

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wormgremlin · 7 months

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I wanna say something else on the topic of rude comments on AO3. I know a lot of people just choose not to respond to trolls. I also know it's probably a waste of my time to respond. But I have a sliver of hope in me that people genuinely don't know why what they're doing is fucked up. And I lean on that sliver and I reply, yes perhaps a bit snarkily or rude. But all the while telling them why what they did is wrong. That being said, I will not stop deleting comments. That noise doesn't belong on anyone's fic, not even mine.

I'm not a fast writer. I'm not a prolific writer or a popular writer or even a particularly GOOD writer. I'm aware that sometimes my verb tenses are bad or my characterization off. I have a lot of words I overuse or awkward wording patterns I can't leave behind. But I get a beta to fix what can be fixed, then publish it.

I'm not a good writer. I write because I have ideas that I would rather have written out than have live forever in my head. I write for fun. I write to see the representation I want to see, even if I write it badly.

I repeat. I am not a good writer. However I am a stubborn writer. I am a resilient writer. And I reply to the people who think it's okay to criticize fic writers because I can deal with it. Because I don't care. And because I know it hurts others. And I hope, desperately that they do so unaware of the effect they have. Because that means they might be willing to change.

There seems to be a bizarrely short logical jump from "unasked for criticism is okay" and "telling people to kill themselves is okay." I don't write particularly problematic ships. No judgement or shame, I just don't.

But every fic is problematic under a bad faith reading. If you don't like something, it's a very short leap to "problematic." It's like that one post said: coffee shop AU? Workplace harassment. Genderswap? Transphobic. Queer relationships? Fetishizing. And if all someone needs is not liking something in a fic to begin criticizing an author or accusing an afab queer person of misogyny and homophobia... Well. It's a short leap from that to telling someone to kill themselves, isn't it?

And I may seem strangely fixated on the "kill yourself" angle. But I remember just a few years ago. People were doxxed. Lists went around of blacklisted individuals, and blocking them was a way of virtue signaling. So was using that blacklist as a mailing list for telling people to kill themselves. People were in my friends' ask boxes telling them to commit suicide. My friends who were not always in the best mental space. Over fanfiction. Over problematic things in fanfic. When I insisted that perhaps it is inappropriate to leave such comments, several other people stopped talking to or blocked me simply for saying "telling someone to commit suicide is inappropriate" and being associated with blacklisted individuals.

Of course, escalation isn't necessary to make it harmful and inappropriate, on a lesser scale. What was it that one particularly dense person said? Something about my characterization. So what if my characterization was bad? Back button exists for a reason! Don't waste either of our time reading it! "Don't like, don't read," dldr -- there are whole acronyms about it! You would think the point has gotten across by now. I am a self proclaimed bad writer. You're right! I don't always get Bucky's characterization right. A cis white ex-military man has immensely different lived experience from me. Hell, I've never even handled a gun before. Sometimes that means what I think makes sense for his character... doesn't. But also consider: I didn't ask; therefore, it's inappropriate and not "concrit" as some people like to call it (which I also have opinions about).

Someone commented after I posted about people leaving rude comments that I was how was it phrased? "Crying on tumblr," I believe. I'm not asking you to specifically stop commenting on my fic, I'm asking you to stop entirely. I'm asking you to take a step back and consider the real life effects of sending anon-hate or leaving unnecessarily critical comments on people's works they are making available to you for free. And if you're still under the impression that you are in the right to leave these kinds of comments... This is not me crying on tumblr. Let's be perfectly clear: this is me calling you a bitch on tumblr.

#we love the block feature #and you get a block and you get a block and you--#i swear #this is not a fucking invitation to tell me to kill myself #suicide mention #like u aint my mom u aint my brain u really think u can hurt me?#the fucking audacity of some people #lowkey entertaining tho #oh yeah uhuh yup thats really hurtful ooh you got me you sure did #still fucking dying over the hospital thing tho #gonna write a triage rant later #to go eith the concrit rant i will also write later #fanfic discourse #again #as in keep the discourse as far away from me as fucking possible #back baby back #dont like dont read #seriously #and yea yknow i dont really have the patience anymore to be nice #you get told hey that wasnt good buddy heres why #then you get told wow fuck off little bitch #i have a zero fucking tolerance policy for this shit #you get ONE FUCKING WARNING #anyways i guess u should thank them tho. now im legally obligated to write a sequel #fuck neolib purity culture #god #i do not have to sanitize myself and my life for your consumption #i dont owe u shit cause u aint paid for shit #gonna start charging $20/hour for responding to obnoxious comments

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menalez · 1 year

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Women HAVE the same exact rights as men:

education with so many scholarships/grants given for simply being female, property ownership, career choice, marriage/divorce choice with benefits for child custody for simply being female, voting, running for office

You have equality. You are not oppressed. It is not the “patriarchy's” fault for your unfortunate experience. You are not the blunt of a discrimination conspiracy theory—you’re simply blame shifting. If you come across discrimination TAKE ACTION. You have the legal right. You can’t be stopped, as you are not oppressed.

You are only hindering yourself. No one is controlling your destiny except for you. So, stop simplifying your façade of an enemy—men—into a straw man argument. It’s detrimental to an already rising male suicide rate. It’s detrimental to your own success. You will gain nothing by continuing a first-amendment-silencing movement.

for one, im from bahrain and these msgs are so stupid because they assume there's only one country in the world ever. which is ridiculous.

scholarships and grants are given to women on the basis of sex because there is bias in the education sector. women are paid less. women do not have reproductive rights in a lot of the west. women are not even allowed to get voluntary procedures done like tube tying in a lot of the west. women are not let to get their uterus removed if its causing them significant health issues bc their fertility is placed above their quality of life. women often face harsher punishments for killing their abusers than their male abusers receive for killing them. women are raped at high rates and sexually abused at extremely high rates too, and the law tends to side with their rapists & abusers over them. sectors dominated by women often devalue by virtue of women's work being devalued. in various jobs, women risk being fired or not even hired to begin with because they do not wear makeup or heels-- a standard that is not placed on men because men's work is prioritised over their looks. as for being in leadership positions, women are less likely to put in leadership positions because of misogyny where it is assumed that women are more emotional, less logical, and less fit to be leaders, despite these assumptions being baseless. when men actually want to get custody, theyre more likely to get it than women (and despite that, the myth that women have privilege over men in this regard persists becaus men get to control the narrative):

these are just a few examples off the top of my head.

if you think male suicide rates (which often also counts men who partake in murder-suicides... such victims!) are somehow the fault of women wanting better, then you're an idiot. women are far more likely to attempt suicide and have mental health problems:

MRAs, if you want to convince a middle eastern woman that misogyny is a thing of the past based on your assumptions of women's rights in the west, at least ensure your arguments are logically sound.

#anonymous

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gaymerasmus · 10 months

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Hello! May I request a romantic match up?

Appearance: nonbinary, 5'8, straight black hair (dyed) to my shoulders, pale, square body, big natural eye bags, beauty mark on side of chin, bad posture, skinny but with some muscle, and I got big round eyes and a long nose (I'm also a big mixing bags of dark styles but mostly emo, metalhead and corp goth)

Intrests: comics, zombies, horror, superheros, plants, books, video games, fashion, music, my pet bird, learning, morbid stuff, metal, collecting, creating (sewing, painting, dancing ect.), animals, gore, running, working out, and just anything I can do to not be bored YOLO

Personality: anxiety, ADHD,witty, sarcastic, curious, supportive, go get it sort of person, confident but insecure about my looks as a non binary person, impulsive, persuasive, passionate, blunt,logical but also emotional, creative, oldest to sec oldest of 5, chill dad or uncle basically,traumatized (PTSD) , smart, eccentric, ditzy, and it kinda just depends who I'm around because I change a little depending on who I hang out with I'm easily effected by others ( I may become more aggressive with someone or get a habit from them on accident)

I also tend to push people away sometimes, my ideal date is going to a amusement park or exploring, my ideal type is just someone interesting, supportive and at least a little bit honest! (They also have to be prepared for lots of emotional baggage to show at some point but I deal with it like a caring champ)

-🍷

Hope you like it :) you've been paired with

Pyro C8

Omg everything about you makes them SO excited! They think your looks and your personality reflect each other very well. They love hanging out with you and doing all different kinds of creative things.

You guys definitely end up in some kind of arts and crafts hijinks. Probably at the expense of Spy's designer suits, but Pyro swears it looks better that way.

Pyro is extremely physical, so I hope you like cuddling and holding hands and kisses and hugs and kisses and maybe getting your butt pinched sometimes and kisses and

You bring out their sweet the same way they bring out your silly. They can't help but love you when you're next to them smiling and covered in miscellaneous glitter and/or bloody bits.

Did I say bloody bits? Sorry, I meant hacked body parts of anyone who dare stand in your and Pyro's way. If you were up for it, they'd love to give you an "up close and personal" view of what their day-to-day killing spree looks like.

They may or may not find the idea romantic tbh. Serious power couple vibes going on with this one.

I'm not sure if it's "official canon" bla bla bla but I think Pyro is nonbinary as well, and what better support system could you have than one with first hand experience?

Seriously though, they love helping you come out of your shell! They adore the thought of dressing you up in different dark styles (and adding a little pink bow if you let it happen).

And you just know they'd be so damn supportive when you get insecure. Always a sweetheart, they'd give you whatever you need to make you feel good about yourself.

They might be a little confused if you push them away, but Pyro has never been one to hold grudges with people they care about. Patience is a virtue you wouldn't expect them to have mastered, and yet they let you explain what's upsetting you before helping you out.

To summarize, Pyro really is just a lovely partner and would be super supportive and caring :) your personalities build off each other super well, which gives you a great dynamic! Also Pyro mask kisses. Muah.

#Idk if this is obcious but thags a smiley dude by his name #tw gore #tw gore mention #thank you for the ask!#tf2 #tf2 headcanons #all i can imagine is askee and pyro dominating the world in spiky boots and pink outfits. help #tf2 x reader #pyro tf2

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citadelofmythoughts · 1 year

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I posted 2,584 times in 2022

That's 751 more posts than 2021!

1,398 posts created (54%)

1,186 posts reblogged (46%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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I tagged 683 of my posts in 2022

#bumbleby - 304 posts

#rwby - 76 posts

#yang xiao long - 32 posts

#my writing - 20 posts

#personal - 14 posts

#the witch from mercury - 9 posts

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#cute - 7 posts

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Longest Tag: 128 characters

#this is a jackass spewing conjecture to somehow feel superior to the people who write the show he's making money off of trashing

My Top Posts in 2022:

So is the logic that the Rwby girls should attempt to kill anybody that has killing intent for them? Because uh, that would be a lot of bodies n blood on their hands. Not sure if that would be the morally correct thing for the heroes to do, especially since they aren't anti-heroes. They're supposed to set the right example, not be as bad as the villains and kill people just because they can.

1. I told you nicely once to not put this hot garbage in my asks so this is literally the last time I'm answering this. 2. Yes it is acceptable to kill someone *ACTIVELY TRYING TO KILL YOU RIGHT AT THAT MOMENT*

3. Go fuck yourself.

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The precise instant Blake knew that things were good between her and Yang.

Bless the animators for this scene. So much caring, emotion and LOVE in just a few seconds.

377 notes - Posted April 1, 2022

My bestie was telling her wife about one of her characters doing something unexpected and her wife was like "How can characters do something unexpected when you're the writer?"

Raise your hand if you're a writer and it happens to you all the time.

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Watched the RWBY VS AceOps fight again and who taught the Ops strategy? They’re just flailing around in blind anger while Team RWBY is watching them and figuring out their weaknesses.

My guess is the Ops were used against Grimm and random civilians and were worthless in a stand-up fight. Atlas had the best military by virtue of having a military.

748 notes - Posted February 4, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I said this would start happening after the attacks on trans people. We fucking warned you.

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zapphattack · 1 year

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[Excepts] Moments in Time - Dialogues

[moments in time was my old document of random writings i did for pathologic, looser than my current works in between streams of the gorkhon. these dialogues don't mean much to me but they may be interesting to someone out there]

"How does one cope with their failures?" "I suppose one should let it go and move on, so as to not be dragged down by past mistakes." "But what if such failures had yet to happen?" "Then one would not need to worry about them." "You have a point. An exceedingly simple point that I don’t completely agree with, but nonetheless..."

~+~

"You both choose to lend credence to only what you arbitrarily believe to be possible, refusing to accept what you’ve witnessed of me before your own eyes. How is following Lines and observing microorganisms more believable than miracles of which you’ve experienced firsthand? You speak of a town that does not listen to reason and yet go on to complain when it is your reason that’s shunned, while being samely unjust in disregarding my own work, which you deem impossible by virtue of your own ignorance. You fear that which you cannot explain, just as the townsfolk do, and that is the difference between us."

~+~

"It seems you live up to your reputation, both good and bad. How goes it, Ripper? Divining any answers from the entrails you spill?" "Is this about that name you presented me with? Regardless, it’s unsafe to wander the streets so late at night, little Changeling." "Better the streets than the alleyways, wouldn’t you agree? And besides, the most dangerous thing wandering the pavement is undoubtedly you." "I concede to you that, but I may not be for long. You remain in danger of greeting the lesser evils anyway, my presence changes little. I cannot scare away all the dangers with my mere being, and even that does little to dissuade desperate bandits." "In the end, my smaller stature may be more advantageous to me than your bulk, then. I blend with the shadows that you cast, the light reveals you as it hides me. Even the biggest bull with the sharpest horns may be slaughtered if caught unawares, but prairie mice hide in his shadow. Careful you don’t fall victim to a butcher who cuts your pockets just as you cut flesh now." "Your concern touches me, little mouse. I promise I won’t be long in my work. Do try to keep safe yourself."

~+~

"Changeling. Care to explain what I just witnessed?" "What needs explaining to you, oh dandy Bachelor?" "You’ve killed a man without touching him. I want to know how." "I can do miracles. I’ve stated as such many times. The work of my hands does not limit itself to healing." "Would you cease toying with me? This is serious. One cannot simply wave their hand at a bandit and walk away unscathed. What did you do?" "Why even accost me and ask such things in the dead of night if you refuse to believe in what I say and what you saw? Your logic no longer serves you here, if it only leads you to disbelieve what you witness with your own eyes." "What you tell me just happened cannot happen. It’s an impossibility. I must understand how it came to be." "There are things you must learn to cease trying to understand, Bachelor. Especially since it’s so convenient to you to dismiss me as fiction but stare at the Polyhedron as fact. You choose to enrapture yourself only with wonders which serve you, and scorn those of others." "You cannot deny what is true and blur it with falsities. There is only one truth, what you speak of is opinion. Your opinion is that you perform miracles, when in fact you cannot explain rationally the acts you claim as your doing." "And how can you be so certain that what you see as truth isn’t only your opinion masquerading as empirical, as you men of logic call it. You have no leg to stand on." "I have no time to debate this with a child in the middle of the night. Go back to your nest and keep out of the way, street rat." "Better an honest street rat than a slithery snake poisoned by its own venom and conceit."

~+~

"Oynon. Put that thing down, you’ll hurt yourself." "Are you sure of that? Or are you only afraid of me deeming you worthy of a bullet in you as well?" "It seems we both forsake the hippocratic oath. I wonder why you choose to wander at night shooting at any shadow that so much as moves the wrong way." "Is there such a thing as a shadow moving the right way? Regardless, I do not owe you any explanation. I need only say I was in the right to defend myself." "A shadow must always move to accompany its source, I thought you’d be aware of that. Walking at night is not an activity I’d advise you partake in, not if you value your life and your purse." "It figures this town would consider brutes and savages as commonplace as rats. It’s a wonder you didn’t succumb to bandits far earlier than this plague business. Even the children partake in gang activity. What else, will you loot the corpse of its organs just as he had taken the few valuables in this house? I wouldn’t be surprised if you were indeed a butcher just like your kin folk." "Don’t forget I learned part of my practice in your capital, emshen. The only difference is context. I’d say you couldn’t possibly understand the reasons which motivate me to do what I do, but you could attempt to comprehend. Alas, you refuse to."

~+~

"If you were to choose a finger of mine to cut off, which would you?" "What sort of absurd hypothetical are you presenting to me?" "I’m only curious, Bachelor, lighten up. Besides, it’s merely a simple hypothetical. Indulge me this once, you dull man." "Why insult me if you wish for my cooperation, then. Regardless, which is your dominant hand?" "I’m ambidextrous." "Well, then I suppose this one, if I were to choose." "My right little finger? How come?" "It’s expendable and out of the way, hardly noteworthy if you were to lose it. You wouldn’t miss it and would retain use of the hand." "Ah, I suppose if one can hold a teacup without such a finger it is superfluous, then." "Quite, if you want to put it that way. I only ask that if you’re to lose a finger as punishment for theft, you not come to me seeking help, Changeling." "What a brutal practice. Is it common?" "Cutting limbs as punishment for crimes is a barbaric and antiquated concept, however, I wouldn’t put it past this town." "I was asking of your blatant disregard for my health and safety, actually."

~+~

"You know a great deal about the human body, yes? If I were to request you to cut off one of my fingers, which would you favor?" "Is this a jab at my infamy as the Ripper? I’ve not left any corpses fingerless, Clara." "Oh no, it’s merely a thought exercise. Humor me." "You’ve been spending too much time with Dankovsky and his theoretical rambling. Still, I’ll answer. You’re ambidextrous, right?" "Yes, how’d you guess?" "It’s observable. In that case, pragmatism dictates the left ring finger go." "How so?" "The world favors right-handed people, and the ring finger cannot move independently from the others anyway. Most importantly, the wound would be at less risk of infection or reopening due to carelessness or nerve damage. If one were to cut the little finger, it’d be fairly unavoidable to bump it against surfaces callously, especially if the stub becomes numb. It leads to ease of infection, soreness, and brittle bones. As well that losing it would cripple your grip strength more than the ring finger. "Oh, how thoughtful of you to consider my long-term comfort. I am a menkhu, a surgeon. My priority is my patients’ health and safety. That being said, try to keep out of trouble, Clara. If you’re hurt, you can come to me for help." "You’re kinder than a saint, Haruspex. I would know, I am one."

~+~

"Stop looking at me like that. " "Like what?" "Like you know everything. It's unsettling and unbecoming." "What if I do know everything? Might I look like this then?" "It's impossible, one does not and cannot know everything, least of all you." "Well, I don't know what I don't know, therefore I know everything. It's simple logic, as you'd say." "That's a childish sentiment."

~+~

"A raven is very similar to a writing desk, if you think about it." "How in the world are those two things even remotely similar?" "Well, they both exist, for one. That's a very specific thing that unites them." "Many things don't exist. Unicorns and dragons don't. fairies, mermaids, demons, angels. A fairy has more in common with a raven than the writing desk." "Ah, but think of a fairy. As a concept, it exists. As an observable thing? Many illustrations or statues depict fairies. Perhaps one cannot prove or disprove the existence of living creature fairies, that much is true. Still, the fairy exists." "A raven and a writing desk are still far too dissimilar. One is alive and one is an object, for one." "I never specified the raven to still be living. Perhaps it is dead and taxidermied. Stuffed, if you will. And a desk is only a dead tree mutilated beyond recognition, anyway, so it was once alive as well. I still hesitate to believe your assessment that they are at all similar. I would propose to you then to think of something that does not exist. Not a concept that can only live on as words and feelings, not lofty and unreachable ideals, but the true non-existent. The ideal equivalent of a new color, unfathomable. Take then, that feeling, the vague idea of what does not exist, and compare it to a raven and a writing desk. What you see is that they are far more alike than such a thing that does not exist." "What I find does not exist is the point of this conversation, Changeling. You have proven nothing to me so frivolously. It was a fruitless use of time."

#ZapphAtext #pathologic #pathologic fanfiction #pathologic changeling #pathologic bachelor #pathologic haruspex #changeling #bachelor #the haruspex

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scelestic-reveries · 1 year

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The Famous Proust Questionnaire.

So I was tagged in this questionnaire by fiktivnilik which was also done by David Bowie and I was inspired by the answers from both of them so I figured I’d give it a go. These are the questions, I shall do my best to answer them honestly and heartfelt. If you are a mutual please feel free to copy and tag me in.

What is your idea of perfect happiness? What is your most marked characteristic? What do you consider your greatest achievement? What is your greatest fear? What historical figure do you most identify with? Which living person do you most admire? Who are your heroes in real life? What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? What is the trait you most deplore in others? What is your favorite journey? What do you consider the most overrated virtue? Which word or phrases do you most overuse? What is your greatest regret? What is your current state of mind? If you could change one thing about your family, what would it be? What is your most treasured possession? What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery? Where would you like to live? What is your favorite occupation? What is the quality you most like in a man? What is the quality you most like in a woman? What are your favorite names? What is your motto? *My own land and home, all my bills paid, my dog and cat with me, no one to answer to and someone to share it with. *My most marked characteristic...either my eyes or my voice. Both are used like a weapon when needed but also are just there. People have always given them more worth than I have. *I don’t know if I’ve done it yet. I’ve lived a big life I don’t know how to quantify it into one moment or achievement. I’ll get back to you one day. *Losing my dog. I know it’s going to happen and I can’t stop it but as it approaches I can feel it like a dark mass. I’ve had people try kill me, shot at, stabbed and pushed through warzones, but that fucking dog kills me. *What historically figure do I most identify with, well that’s a tough one. But I’m going to go with Hunter S Thompson. By every sense of the word that fucker is a historical figure. *This is a tough one. I admire a number of people in real life, both known personally and from a distance. I like people who approach it different from the rest. *Who are my real life heroes, I guess it’s people I admire in the top of their fields but also people I know intimately. Hunter S Thompson, Valentino Rossi also one, Anthony Bourdain, Nina Simone, Clint Eastwood, Danny Glover, D’Angelo, My grandfather. People that have inspired me. *Ah..what trait do I deplore in myself...Honestly, pushing things to the edge. pushing things sometimes to ruin and pulling it from the fire time and time again. Sometimes it feels like self sabotage. * Now as for what I deplore in others...honestly ignorance. Fuck that, we live in an age where we have access to the most information in human history and it’s fucking squandered. And someone doing “research” which consists of facebook links and posts from friends. Seriously, fuck off. If you studied for years and spent your life interested in a field I’ll listen to you all day if you base it in logic and fact. *My favourite journey.. learning, experiencing and doing. I believe the day you stop moving and learning is the day you start dying. * An overrated virtue..company loyalty. Unless they are giving you a % of profits or a share then they are in it for their own profit and not yours. You can do better. *What words and phrase do I overuse...well fuck...that’s one. *laughing* fuck that, hmmm, ahhh. eat a dick. bless your heart, dear, darlin, fair is fair. I think that’s enough. *My greatest regret...well that’s a tough one. I have a few, and I try to live my life without them but that’s not always possible. I’m still raw over my grandparents when I look at it and I’ve hurt people that truly loved me and that’s all on me. *Current state of mind. Optimistic and determined. I’m not having another year like last year, ever fucking again. * I’d have my grandparents still alive. *Ah I’d say my dog. He is a possession, but very much more so a companion and guardian. I’d kill for that mutt. *Ignorance and doing the same thing every day for most of your life. That is misery to me, the same as everyone else and never questioning or trying new things. Sounds like a lvl of hell to me. *Many places, but I’d love a house in Thailand, US, and Oz. That would make me happy for the rest of days. *Favourite Occupation...tough one. I’ve always wanted to fly planes, I can see how I wouldn't enjoy doing that each day, and let’s be honestly playing basketball or anything tactical and involving weapons would make me happy each day waking up. Just because it would. *Quality I like most in a man. Ability to learn. You find a male willing to do that and isn’t threaten by other males or females then you can work with that guy in almost anything. *As for in a woman...confidence in themselves and what they are capable of. Women are formidable creatures who are capable of whatever they set their mind on. It’s intoxicating and demands more attention. *Favourite names...I have a few, but hearing my own out of the lips of someone I love, does hit a spot. And I’m partial to Nordic and terms of endearment that is earned by putting up with my shit and also the names of those I adore. * I don’t know if I have a motto, but something I’ve always repeated to myself and to this day is one of the first things I’d get inked on me. “The reluctance to put away childish things may be a requirement of genius. “ And always be learning and moving forward, we are ever changing an evolving and try to be open to learning new things. You never know, until you try. Ah that’s it. That took longer than I thought and shared more than I usually ever would, but that’s it to the best of my ability. It’s not easy going through it, but there is a worth to it. I hope you guys enjoyed a rare peek behind the curtains. -s/r.

#Fuck what do I ever tag.#proust questionnaire #have a shot but also plan whiskey and weed.#hahaha #s/r #scelestic reveries

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etherealsign282 · 2 months

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Wow, you're so empathetic and a bleeding heart now, almost makes me forget the fact that you bragged about being compassionless, apathetic, amused by certain suffering, lacking in morals (and only virtue signaling because it's what J would share/believe), while also wanting to kill people, and having so much entitlement that lack of consent pissed you off and you'd whine until you got what you want.

No I totally believe that this caricature you've sculpted online, which of course smells like the bullshit of a whole community of fake leftist martyrs, is suddenly magically real- after you specifically took the biggest L in your history and lost several people for being the human equivalent of a trash can in real life.

You must have realized that the only thing you can do to fix all of this is regurgitate memes all day to "prove" you're better and deeper as a person, even when the only explicit, opinion-based rants that continue to spew out of your mouth are mind-meltingly stupid (bc you can't logic your way into understanding it's bad, so you have to use the circular argument fallacy and be like "this is bad because it's bad"), internally sexist, or just personally offended tantrums because you think you deserve special treatment for being a leech. Just so you can have a little window time every day sucking your own dick by bragging about how much you've grown and changed.

Even though you condemn people exactly like you because they make the world a worse place. Hell you can't even stand to forgive a judgmental old hag. But yes I'm sure all of this is based on these ethics and morals that you magically discovered the second we left and there isn't some ulterior motive so you won't have to feel bad about yourself for justified reasons (bc you're shallow and can only "hate" yourself when it's not actually that deep and you don't have to meet the real you, and your actual soul).

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drwcn · 3 years

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follow up to [post] exploring the crack au if lwj was a girl

〒▽〒 ps im not trying to erase canon lwj representation, not at all, wangxian is mm in all my other fics, this is just stupid fun

in a ceteris paribus situation aka all other things staying equal:

1) Lan Wangji 100% still has a resting bitch face, which probably would get her a couple of “Lan-er-guniang 美若天仙 (beautiful as an immortal/goddess) but would benefit from smiling more” comments but nobody is that desperate to die yet so, she’s spared. But damn... imagine the sheer number of thirsty boys who’d try to secure a marriage with LWJ. None of them is good enough for Wangji as far as Lan Xichen is concerned. Okay - maybe in Lan Xichen’s opinion, Nie Mingjue is good enough, but he couldn’t be less interested. I see her as I see Huaisang, Xichen please.

2) Everything interaction between Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian in Wei Wuxian’s first life is now 500% more scandalous.

Exhibit A) Their first meeting at the gates; Jiang Cheng immediately felt his spidey senses tingling. —“You’d sooner have immortals flying out of your ass than get with someone like her. The second jade of Gusu? The pearl in old man Lan’s eyes? C’mon.” —“Shut up, A-Cheng.” —“Uh-huh.” —“Also, she’s not that pretty. Her brother Zewu-jun is much better. There’s a reason he’s ranked first.” WWX is still a disaster bi. — “LMAO, you? Zewu-jun? Please.”

Exhibit B) Just because LWJ is a girl does not mean WWX grew more brain cells.

WWX, straight up to Lan Qiren’s face, “Lan-meimei and I - we’re zhiji.” (he means it like we’re kindred spirits, peas of a pod, etc) LWJ: *does not deny* Lan Xichen: ⚆_⚆ Lan Qiren: ಠ╭╮ಠ

Exhibit C) Lan Wangji getting drunk the first time. Wei Wuxian knew he crossed a line the minute he invited Lan-er-guniang for a drink. Really, WWX, even for you, this is inappropriate. When Lan Wangji fell face first onto the table, Wei Wuxian knew, he fucked up. “Hey....hey...Lan....Lan...-er-guniang,” He poked her. “Don’t...don’t sleep here! You can’t sleep here! If your Uncle finds out or if Jiang-shushu finds out...they’ll skin me alive and then...and then they’ll make me marry you! I don’t want to marry you; you don’t talk and I’m too young!”

WWX, being a dipshit, “Hey Lan Zhan, call me Wei-gege.” LWJ, drunk as fuck, “Wei..gege.” WWX *((( heart )))* ???

Exhibit D) The Cold Pond. Okay, so I don’t think Zewu-jun would sabotage his sister’s virtue by sending a stupid teenage boy her way while she’s bathing, but doesn’t mean Su She is above all that. Wei “I didn’t see anything I swear!” Wuxian. Lan “I will gouge out your eyes.” Wangji. Somehow they still end up in the cave. Maybe WWX got in the water after LWJ got out and got sucked into the vortex and LWJ heard the commotion, turned around, saw WWX had disappeared. “Wei Ying?!” A panicked LWJ jumps back into the pond, “Stop fooling around, come out!”

Jiang Cheng and Wen Qing 👀👀 when LWJ and WWX fall out of the cave together. Also the fact that Lan-er-guniang and Wei-gongzi went missing, together, for two days. Who knows what could’ve happened. I mean anything really. I mean... that’s gotta stir the pot a little were it not for the Yin Iron stealing everyone’s attention away from this bit of juicy scandal.

Oh the whole story... so much to work with, so little time.

3) Because Lan Wangji is a girl, now suddenly there’s a high ranking member of the Lan Clan who can host the girls at Cloud Recesses. I mean, Mianmian, Jiang Yanli, Wen Qing, Lan Wangji - SISTERLY FRIENDSHIP. Other than Mianmian, none of the girls are really talkers which suits Lan Wangji perfectly. Even Mianmian’s chatter is endearing.

4) Lan Wangji is absolutely still a powerhouse during the Sunshot Campaign. The inherent aesthetics of fem!lwj telling the Wen goons to “kneel” - no one will deprive me of this. Also she will still cut off your arm if you cross her - Xue Yang and Jin Guangyao ya better watch out still.

I am TORN between two options: Lan Wangji tol and kickass or Lan Wangji smol and kickass. On one hand, the aesthetics of willowy elf-like LWJ, on the other hand, 5′2′’ of whoop ass who can and will throw an unconscious wwx over her shoulder firewoman-style and toll him to safety.

And amongst other things:

A) Lan Wangji still becomes Chief Cultivator, because excuse me who else is left to clean up this mess? Jiang “Short-fuse” Wanyin? Nie “I won’t do what I’m not intended to do” Huaisang? Jin “13 year-old” Ling? Or Sect Leader Yao? Technically, being a woman means that she was never Lan Xichen’s heir, but at the end of it, it’s not like Gusu Lan is left with a lot of choices. Just the poetic justice of Gusu Lan pleading for Lan Wangji to come back when she fully intends to 隐居山野 (retreat into the mountains) with the resurrected WWX.

Lan Wangji being Chief Cultivator would echo Lan Yi’s tenure and rectify the fact that Gusu Lan’s only female head of family “failed”. Lan Yi had to face a mountain of prejudice because she was woman; someone has to say “up yours” to that. A woman as not only the sect master of Gusu Lan but the Chief Cultivator? Love that for Gusu Lans. (⌐■_■) ☞ ☞

B) Because of ~ sexism ~ I wonder if Lan Wangji would get titled “Hanguang” at all even after the Sunshot Campaign. Even Lan Yi, the SL Lan of her time didn’t have a title. Chances are LWJ won’t either. (Note: Violet Spider is not a title, it’s a moniker). So — say after the way Lan Wangji is still just “Lan-er-guniang”, and she does not obtain the title “Han Guang” until after she leaves Cloud Recesses and become rogue. (srsly how did they come up with these titles in canon, did gusu lan just look at 21 year old lwj and be like yah he’s lord light bearer *cue trevor noah stand up joke* why do you call yourself “great” britain? isn’t that a bit presumptuous? shouldn’t you go around doing good things and then let other people come to the conclusion: oh britain look how great you are? same logic with lwj.)

Lan Wangji, a Jade of Gusu or a nameless rogue, still goes where trouble is, helping those who need it. After laying low for a year or two to heal, Lan Wangji began night hunting. Donned neck to ankle in white silk and tulle, and a weimao (wide brimmed veil hat) obscuring her face, she became known to the people as Hanguang Sanren, the lightbearing wanderer. Gusu’s highest power probably has some idea who she is - or at least they can guess - but the vast majority of people don’t.

C) Lan Sizhui raised by rogue Lan Wangji as his mum would be different. Still cultured, respectful, but definitely with an air of keeping others at arm’s length.

For instance, grown-up Sizhui running interference and saving a cohort of gentry disciples on joint hunts.

Jingyi: 这人谁呀？Who is this guy? Zizhen: 多谢兄台搭救之恩，小可看您眼生，敢问兄台尊姓大名，何门何派，改日当登门拜访. Many thanks for saving us. I don’t believe we’ve met, pray tell what is your name and sect, so we may visit at a later time to thank you for tonight. Sizhui: 在下无门无姓，单名思追。举手之劳不足挂齿，怎敢劳烦各位名门子弟答谢。My name is Sizhui, belonging to no family and to no sect. As for tonight - I only did what anyone would; it bears no mentioning and requires no thanks. Jin Ling: 你这人，看你工力不凡，想和你交个朋友，可你怎么遮遮掩掩的。Hey you, we see you’re a talented cultivator and want to make your acquaintance. Why are you so dodge-y? Zizhen：金陵 — Jing Ling - Sizhui: 若是有缘，还会相见。告辞。If it’s fated, we will meet again. Farewell.

Later: Jingyi: 思。追。思追谁？Si. Zhui. To recollect and long for whom? Sizhui: 母亲的一位故人. Someone from Mother’s past. Jingyi: 你父亲？...Your father? Sizhui: 我不知。I don’t know.

I thought about how cute it would be if sizhui and jin ling knew each other but guys...Jiang Cheng literally thinks he killed Sizhui’s biological father. Like he literally thinks he orphaned Sizhui before Sizhui is even born. And Lan Wangji would never accept anything from Jiang Wanyin, not that it would stop Jiang Wanyin from trying.

A package of books here, a new robe for Sizhui there. Lan Wangji doesn’t know how Jiang Cheng keeps finding her. She and Sizhui are nomadic.

D) The inevitable conversation after wwx is revived.

You know what would be funnier than Jiang Cheng thinking Sizhui is a wangxian baby is if Lan Qiren thinks Sizhui is a wangxian baby.

#cql #the untamed #wangxian #lan wangji #wei wuxian #lmao what is this #cql ficlet #corie fics #lwj fic #f!lwj

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stardustprompts · 3 years

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the burning god - r.f kuang sentence starters change tenses/pronouns as needed !! some lines have been edited for clarity / length / ease of roleplaying tw : ptsd , addiction , death , murder , nsfw , language

‘do you think I’d ever let anything happen to you?’

‘you’re terrified. that’s why you’re fidgeting. you’re scared.’

‘soldiers are worth more than civilians, it’s just math.’

‘don’t cut off the head of the snake if you can tame it.’

‘none of this— our villages, our people, our freedom— will survive under their intended world order’

‘i’m the least terrible option you’ve got.’

‘I don’t mean to call you stupid, because I love you, but that plan is so stupid.’

‘i’m not sorry for this. you shouldn’t have gotten in my way.’

‘that wasn’t an insult. just being frank.’

‘they’re bullies. weakness is what they want to see.’

‘bad moral is a big weapon. don’t underestimate it.’

‘i’ve gotten you this far. trust me just a little longer.’

‘i’m not crazy right? this is clearly a trap?’

‘how do you think history will judge me if I throw away it’s fate for one person?’

‘it felt like you’d put the universe back in place. like you were balancing the scales. didn’t it?’

‘you don’t fix hurts by pretending they never happened. you treat them like infected wounds and then, maybe, you have a chance to heal.’

‘it’s not justice, it’s chaos.’

‘this is a revolution. it’s not a fucking tea party.’

‘cut me a fucking break. i’ve been fleeing for my life.’

‘I shouldn’t have counted on his virtue. but he didn’t count on my survival.’

‘they’re never gone. do you understand? they still come for you in your sleep. only this time they’re dream-wraiths, not real, and there’s no escape from them because they’re living in your own mind.’

‘your pain will always be mine.’

‘i’m not living my whole life like a beast on a leash.’

‘I should kill you. why can’t I kill you?’

‘you don’t behave rationally around her, you never do.’

‘’all right’ is not a term anyone would use to describe you.’

‘I used to hate myself for living, too. I didn’t think it was fair that I’d survived. that others had died in my place.’

‘it’s not fair. I should be in the ground with them.’

‘it doesn’t go away. It never will. but when it hurts, lean into it.’

‘this life you’ve chosen, you won’t get many moments like this again. but it’s the nights like this that keep you alive.’

‘give up, darling. trust me, this is easier. this is so much easier.’

‘you know, I think I’ve figured out where you get all that self - righteousness.’

‘their blood is on you. you killed them.’

‘I hate you. I wish we were all dead.’

‘do you think he loved you? do you think he ever loved you?’

‘this story will end. the way it was always meant to.’

‘I just want to sit for a second. in peace. can I do that?’

‘I don’t know, I thought maybe— maybe they’d realize that they need me.’

‘you are so bad at this. it’s cute.’

‘people are attracted to power, darling. they can’t help themselves. power seduces. exert it, make a show of it, and they’ll follow you.’

‘I killed him. and I don’t feel bad about it.’

‘stop pretending to care about ethics, it’s embarrassing.’

‘at some point, you’ll have to convince yourself that you’re above right and wrong. morality doesn’t apply to you.’

‘fear turns into despair, despair to panic, and then panic into utter submission. it’s incredible, the power of psychological warfare.’

‘knowing what I’ve done? yes, it hurts. unlike anything you could ever imagine.’

‘they want to erase us. they want to make us better, to improve us, by turning us into a mirror of themselves.’

‘any culture or state that diverges is necessarily inferior. we are inferior, until we speak, dress, act, and worship just like them.’

‘people pay you less attention when you don’t leave a trail of bodies in your wake.’

‘i’m just telling you what’s right in front of you. you know I’m right.’

‘you seem to have mistaken me for a dullard.’

‘it’s a tragedy we’re on different sides. you know that. we would have been so good united.’

‘he’s tried a million different things to break me. but he should have remembered he never figured out how.’

‘lost my mind for a bit. just starting to get it back now.’

‘you think we should just surrender. that we’d be better off under their rule.’

‘that’s the implication of your logic. and I won’t accept that. I can’t.’

‘i’m sure you said whatever you needed to to get them off your back. I don’t care about that.’

‘everything you do convinces them you should not exist.’

‘I did what I had to do to give him the only chance at peace he’d ever get.’

‘you are the worst thing to happen to this country. these people deserve better than you.’

‘you were only ever fighting to survive. I was fighting to win.’

‘we don’t need peace right now. we need blood.’

‘I don’t know what’s insane anymore. I just hope you know what you’re doing.’

‘there is no turning back. i’ve waited too long for this.’

‘I can’t take that from him. not even if he’s happier like this.’

‘there’s more, there’s something you’re not telling me, I deserve to know.’

‘let go of the man you remember. you’re never going to get him back.’

‘in times like these, you can’t let sleeping threats lie.’

‘if we ever feared him, it was because he was great, and great rulers always inspire fear in the hearts of the weak.’

‘you don’t get to forget. whatever you did, you don’t deserve to forget.’

‘she’s not a person anymore. she’s rage.’

‘it’s not just about the enemy. it’s about what the world looks like after.’

‘you’re trying to protect your people. I understand that. but I’m trying to protect mine.’

‘i’m not crawling into oblivion with a whimper, and you should have known that before you came here.’

‘I don’t care what else happens up there. but you come back to me.’

‘what’s this? finally developing a conscience?’

‘I know what you did. I know everything. and I don’t care. the past doesn’t matter. ____ is in danger now, and I need you.’

‘nature can’t be altered. only held at bay.’

‘don’t take on the burden of an entire nation. it’s too heavy. and you aren’t strong enough.’

‘you should know by now that when you leave your enemies alive, wars don’t end.’

‘she told me I’ll never be afraid again.’

‘that’s power. and you’re not giving that up. I know you. you’re me.’

‘I know how humiliation feels. keep your secrets if you want. but there’s nothing you can say that will make me think any less of you.’

‘i’m not going to survive this war.’

‘do you want me to say I’m sorry?’

‘what did I tell you? you were never meant to serve.’

‘if you try that shit, I will kill you.’

‘good luck. don’t do anything stupid.’

‘keep down. and when you get the chance, run.’

‘you never want to hurt them. but you have to. you have to put them through hell, because that’s the only way anyone else will survive.’

‘I would have spared them if I could have.’

‘I wasn’t a person to you, I was a weapon, and you needed me to work.’

‘it’ll never stop hurting.’

‘you love them like your own family, and a knife twists in your heart every time you watch one of them die.’

‘see this through to the end. that’s the least you own to the dead.’

‘I wish things had been different.’

‘I so hate when you’re right.’

‘you kill me and you accomplish nothing. your world as you know it will end.’

‘i’m not going to kill you. you don’t deserve that.’

‘why does everyone think this war is over. am I the only one with eyes?’

‘it’s hard to prioritize the enemy that you can’t see.’

‘don’t call me crazy.’

‘you are being crazy. you’re acting like a fucking maniac. shut up for a moment and face the fucking facts.’

‘they can’t do this to me. I was supposed to win.’

‘we built an entire nation. we don’t have to let it collapse.’

‘what he wants is what we all want, which is to stop killing our own people.’

‘we’re about to have the world we fought for. can’t you see it? it’s so close, it’s just over the horizon.’

‘you can come back. I’ll bring you back. we’re in this together.’

‘we’re trying to broker a peace here. let’s not start off with death threats, shall we?’

‘i’m just trying to make this less painful for everyone involved.’

‘you can’t do this for me. I won’t let you.’

‘it’s not for you. it’s not a favor. it’s the cruelest thing I could do.’

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Hot takes about Severus Snape are a wierdly decent glimpse into how a person with progressive values analyses things. Literally every time someone talks about Snape, it’s like this tiny window into how one-dimentionally people actually think.

Recently saw a twitter post that was a fantastic example. Here’s how it goes (paraphrasing):

Person A:“Snape is POC and Queer coded, that’s why you guy’s hate him uwu lol.”

Person B: “Actually I hate him because he was mean and abusive to children under his care uwu but go off I guess lol”

Both of these takes are designed to be dramatic and/or reactionary. They each use partial truths to paint very broad strokes. These are get-em-in-one-hit quips. This is virtue signalling, if you’ll excuse that loaded phrase. Nobody had a substantial conversation, but now everyone who sees their statement knows the high ground they took.

At least a hundred other people chimed in to add their own little quippy hot takes into play, none of which add anything significant, but clearly made everyone feel very highly of themselves.

So many layers of nuance and complex analysis is completely lost in this kind of discussion. On tumblr, you get more of this kind of bullshit, but you don’t have a word count limit, so you guys just spew endless mountains of weak overblown evidence backing up your bullshit arguments, none of which was really about engaging in a real conversation anyway.

Here’s the thing about Snape.

He is a childhood domestic abuse victim. His abuser is a muggle.

He becomes a student at a magical school that takes him away from his abuser and immediately instills in him the idea that being a part of this magical world is a badge of self-worth, empowerment, and provides safety and security - provided that he keeps in line.

There is a war is being waged in that world over his right to exist (he is a half blood).

He is a marginalized person within the context of the narrative, forced to constantly be in the same living space as the children of his own oppressors who are being groomed and recruited into a hate group militia (the pureblood slytherins). They are in turn trying to do the same to him.

He is marginalized person bullied by children who are also part of his oppressor group, but who have “more liberal” leanings and aren’t direct about why he’s being targeted (the mauraders are all purebloods, Sirius, who was the worst offender, was raised in a bigoted household, the same one that produced Bellatrix.).

He had a crush on a girl who is a muggleborn, and therefore she is considered even lesser than him and carries a stigma to those who associate with her. That girl was his only real friend. In his entire life.

For both Snape and Lily, allying themselves to a pureblood clique within their own houses would be a great way of shielding themselves from a measure of the bigotry they were probably facing. There would have been obvious pressure from those cliques to disconnect with one and other.

Every other person who associates with Snape in his adulthood carries some sort of sociopolitical or workplace (or hate cult) baggage with their association. Some of them will physically harm and/or kill him if he steps out of line. He hasn’t at any point had the right environment to heal and adjust from these childhood experiences. Even his relationship with Dumbledore is charged with constant baggage, including the purebloods who almost killed him during their bullying getting a slap on the wrist, the werewolf that almost killed him as a child being placed in an authority position over new children, etc. Dumbledore is canonically manipulative no matter his good qualities, and he has literally been manipulating Snape for years in order to cultivate a necessary asset in the war.

He is a person who is not in the stable mental state necessary to be teaching children, whom has been forced to teach children. While also playing the role of double agent against the hate group militia, the one that will literally torture you for mistakes or backtalk or just for fun. The one that will torture and kill him if he makes one wrong move.

Is the math clicking yet? From all of this, it’s not difficult to see how everything shitty about Snape was cultivated for him by his environment. Snape was not given great options. Snape made amazingly awful choices, and also some amazingly difficult, courageous ones. Snape was ultimately a human who had an extremely bad life, in which his options were incredibly grim and limited.

In fact, pretty much every point people make about how shitty Snape is as a person makes 100% logical sense as something that would emerge from how he was treated. Some if it he’s kind of right about, some of it is the inevitable reality of suffering, and some of it is part of the cycle of abuse and harm.

Even Snape’s emotional obsession with Lily makes logical sense when you have the perspective that he literally has no substantial positive experiences with other human beings that we know of, and he has an extreme, soul destroying guilt complex over her death. Calling him an Incel mysoginist nice guy projects a real-world political ideology and behavior that does not really apply to the context of what happened to him and her.

Even Snape’s specific little acts of cruelty to certain students is a reflection of his own life experiences. He identifies with Neville; more specifically, he identifies his own percieved emotional weaknesses in his childhood in Neville. There’s a very sad reason there why he feels the urge to be so harsh.

Snape very clearly hates himself, in a world where everyone else hates him, too. Imagine that, for a second. Imagine total internal and external hatred, an yearning for just a little bit of true connection. For years. Imagine then also trying to save that world, even if it’s motivated by guilt. Even if nobody ever knows you did it and you expect to die a miserable death alone.

There are more elements here to consider, including the way Rowling described his looks (there may be something in there re: ugliness and swarthy stereotyping). These are just the things that stand out the most prominently to me.

J.K. Rowling is clearly also not reliable as an imparter of moral or sociopolitical philosophies. I don’t feel that her grasp of minority experiences is a solid one, considering how she picks and chooses who is acceptable and who is a threat.

All of that said, this is a logically consistent character arc. Within the context of his narrative, Snape is a marginalized person with severe PTSD and emotional instability issues who has absolutely no room available to him for self-improvement or healing, and never really has. And yes, he’s also mean, and caustic, and verbally abusive to the students. He’s also a completey miserable, lonely person.

There are elements in his character arc that mirror real world experiences quite well. If nothing else, Rowling is enough of an emotional adult to recognise these kinds of things and portray something that feels authentic.

In my opinion, it’s not appropriate to whittle all this down by comparing him directly to the real world experiences of marginalized groups - at least if you are not a part of the group you are comparing him to. There have been many individuals who have compared his arc to their own personal experiences of marginalization, and that is valid. But generally speaking, comparing a white straight dude to people who are not that can often be pretty offensive. This is not a valuable way to discuss either subject.

Also, I believe that while it’s perfectly okay to not like Snape as a character, many of the people who act like Person B are carrying Harry’s childhood POV about Snape in their hearts well into their own adulthood. And if nothing else, Rowling was attempting to say something here about how our perspectives (should) grow and change as we emotionally mature. She doesn’t have to be a good person herself to have expressed something true about the world in this instance, and since this story is a part of our popular culture, people have a right to feel whatever way they do about this story and it’s characters.

The complexity of this particular snapshot of fictionalized marginalization, and what it reveals about the human experience, cannot be reduced down to “he’s an abuser so he’s not worth anyone’s time/you are bad for liking him.”

And to be honest, I think that it reveals a lot about many of us in progressive spaces, particularly those of us who less marginalized but very loud about our values, that we refuse to engage with these complexities in leu of totally condemning him. Particularly because a lot of the elements I listed above are indeed reflected in real world examples of people who have experienced marginalization and thus had to deal with the resulting emotional damage, an mental illness, and behavior troubles, and bad decisions. Our inability to address the full scope of this may be a good reflection of how we are handling the complexity of real world examples.

Real people are not perfect angels in their victimhood. They are just humans who are victims, and we all have the capacity to be cruel and abusive in a world where we have been given cruelty and abuse. This is just a part of existing. If you cannot sympathise with that, or at least grasp it and aknowledge it and respect the people who are emotionally drawn to a character who refects that, then you may be telling on yourself to be honest.

To be honest, this is especially true if you hate Snape but just really, really love the Mauraduers. You have a right to those feelings, but if you are moralizing this and judging others for liking Snape, you’ve confessed to something about how you’ve mentally constructed your personal values in a way I don’t think you’ve fully grasped yet.

I have a hard time imagining a mindset where a story like Snape’s does not move one to empathy and vicarious grief, if I’m honest. I feel like some people really just cannot be bothered to imagine themselves in other people’s shoes, feeling what they feel and living like they live. I struggle to trust the social politics of people who show these kinds of colors, tbh.

But maybe that’s just me.

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