#so scared of doing something wrong

[durzeh]

This week is a fucking nightmare and I just want it to be over 🙃

Had my first thoughts about self-harming in a long time and I'm a little scared.

#think most of it is based on panic around my job #so scared of doing something wrong #missing something #not doing enough #that little part of my brain screaming I'm worthless and can't do anything right

[miwtual]

im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

#kai.txt #negativity tw #(sorry these are gonna be a lot of tags. i have a lot of feelings and i dont know where else to put them) #we make gifs and nobody reblogs them #when they do get reblogged all people want to tell you is that your gifs arent good enough to them and rip it to shreds #'you're missing x' 'why didnt you do y' 'if i made this i would have abc' 'hey op ur wrong and this is why' 'i dont like this op' #reposters dont even reblog your fucking gifset but they'll save your gifs to repost later asking for how to do something #that they could have asked you how to do in the fucking first place #we reblog ourselves constantly because nobody else will and maybe to make our work look like it has more notes than it does #to make ourselves feel better about the lack of interaction we're getting #and then when we TALK about this frustration we have. people who are too afraid to say it to our faces #go on anon in our askboxes and tell us how we're somehow selfish for wanting people to interact with the sets #that we spent time on. hours. days. WEEKS in some cases #or we get anons who tell us the reason we dont have notes are because we arent good at gifmaking in the first place #but this is all on anon. because they're too scared to tell it to our faces #they're too scared for us to see that they ARENT a gifmaker and that they dont know how to do it any better either #they dont see us as people doing something we love as a hobby. they see us as content machines that dance like court jesters #im just so fucking tired of the disrespect #and this sentiment goes for more than just gifmakers. graphicmakers. artists. literally any creative hobby shared on this site #we get treated like shit and for what? literally for fucking what.

[petricorah]

lee from the tea shop boutta get it (wip) [id in alt]

edit: completed illustration here

#zuko #zukka #i wanted this to be a guiding hand #encouraging or like he's surprised it's happening but holding sokka's hand comfortingly #but something about the expression and the mouth makes it seem like he doesn't want it or he's afraid #i don't know i'll workshop this #mywips #i also havent read any ba sing se zukka fics but i do wonder how they'd work #like i totally buy that zuko was SO tunnel visioned to the avatar that he literally wouldn't know what sokka looks like #but i don't know how Sokka couldn't Not know who he is #unless maybe they met as blue spirit vigilante and sokka falls for him and this is the unveiling moment and zuko's afraid of his past #but sokka's like it's okay you're changing you've helped people as the blue spirit and i care about you. those feelings are real #even now #and zuko almost decides to change for the better right then but he gets scared and turns back and canon happens idk #mistaking his father's approval for love and his love for sokka as wrong #whatever. idc. something something i just wanted to draw short haired zuko

[awsok]

Do you push deeper? Yeah.

#critical role #imodna #critteredit #imogen temult #laudna #laura bailey #marisha ray #critical role spoilers #criticalroleedit #c3 #bell's hells #something about like. imogen hates reading thoughts she hates knowing the worst of people she hates being so invasive #but laudna's scared. so of course she'll do this thing that she thinks is wrong #will she push deeper? yeah of course #* #*gif #bh #just saying. on the delilah to orym scale of would you do terrible things for the person you love. this is leaning slightly delilah-y #100

[caducus-kt]

really rushed festive moon i made for a discord pfp to keep up my tradition of yearly festive pfps for the month of december

merry christmas :>

#i dont normally #post doodles #but yk what i thought this was cute #so #fnaf sb #fnaf security breach #fnaf moon #moondrop #dca #dca fandom #daycare attendant #artfolder #im honestly just trying to get more comfortable with posting #because im SUPER uncomfortable even reblogging stuff rn #(im scared im doing something wrong) #so uh confidence building exercize

[k1tty5]

we are big joel smallishbeans fans in this house

#trying to mesh these two themes together is so hard #i wanted to throw some cyberpunk stuff in his design but i had nooo idea what to do jdhdgdhn #and i dont know much about japanese culture either so im just soo scared to like. get something wrong #i hope?? this looks okay lmao?? #my art #smallishbeans fanart #smallishbeans #hermitcraft fanart #hermitcraft season 10

[emry-stars-art]

*patiently waits for the context, kickin my feet off an imaginary ledge*

Thank youuuu, Ash ♥️♥️

(and thank you emry)

Oh the context for this ask here?? DONT MIND IF WE DO

I don’t have much else to add on this one so. Here’s a link to the scene and here’s what happens in the scene:

Enjoy

Find the royal au writing masterpost here 💕

#Andrew definitely notices that no matter what Abram says something is wrong #obviously #but he DOESNT immediately realize it’s just abram getting overwhelmed #rather than abram being actually scared or uncomfortable #but abram says to continue #so Andrew will do what he can in the time he has 🫡 #get that hair sleek and shiny boi #fan art #my art #my writing #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #andrew minyard #andreil #royal au #asks

[bonefall]

How many posts do you have on dotc? also, i havent seen it before if you have, but you talked about the huge battle where starclan spontaneously pops into existence in order to tell everyone to stop fighting

TONS. It's the most frequent canon material I post about here. It's usually tagged #Warrior Cats Analysis.

I am also doing a live re-read and have been for a couple months. It started on this blog as #Bonefall Reads DOTC, and continued over on my other blog @bonebabbles as #Bones Reads DOTC, so that I was spamming my followers less.

I usually tag my harshest posts with #DOTC Hate out of respect to the main tag.

#Yes i have talked about the Firbst Babble before #I want to break it down into a serious analysis because it was during my read #And I was mostly just screaming. I want to articulate my thoughts on it #Because every character is so *fucking stupid* during that exchange it's oscar-worthy #Gray has the KING of worthless ideas to attempt Appeasement 4: It Will Totally Work This Time #And it turns out the big ass plan that he came up with. The closer. The silver bullet... #Is blinking puppydog eyes at the sadistic tyrant and going ''do you remember how we used to run'' #But also youre unfortunately a little wrong about how the fight ends. #Clear ends it because killing women and children is fine but not his bootlicking brother. HIM he'll just emotionally abuse. #You see this is because hes misunderstood and was good all along but just very scared of not having jesus. #Or something. #Dotc hate

[moon9931]

me when me when me when me when me when

this took me 2 days

I wanted to draw all the mutals I have according to my following count so far

Here's everybody

@noodletime

@the-little-knight

@oddpizza

@whereismyhat5678

@marclef

@ijusthavefun

@lucia-the-mii

@misdreavusplush

@cyberrw

I love you /plat

that also goes for anyone that...cares..about the thingies I do, I love you as well /plat

#idk I just felt like it and I hit my motivation back #I will be answering the 5 things I have in my inbox soon #time to tag #my art #mutals #dsaf jack (I think) #does the spiky shading look good #why was I so scared to post this #OH I KNOW #because I think I did something WRONG #did I do anything wrong guys #did I forget a detail #did I?????? #okay #*hyperventilates* #anddd post

[yrrtyrrtwhenihrrthrrt]

More Nonsense from My Ambrosius Stan Account Post:

As someone who got on Tumblr a couple years ago not really knowing the culture and rarely posts because I don't think anyone cares about the silly worms in my brain I'd like to give everyone who thought it was funny and left a like or a tag or a reblog a very I Love You and here is some more thoughts about it I had through the day that I thought nobody would care about but am posting now

The account was named @gold_loin_love and gained notoriety for being the only stan account Ambrosius actually followed

During the live stream Ballister answered the questions (that he had his followers submit beforehand) while still in character, despite the fact that he was laughing his ass off and Ambrosius was with him.

Example: "'Do you think Ballister and Ambrosius are going to get divorced?' Absolutely. They're terrible together and honestly not even cute. They probably had some cringy beach wedding with their weird pink child officiating. Ew, next question"

Ambrosius would frequently interject

"Do I think Ambrosius was toxic for cutting off Ballister's arm?"

Ambrosius, stealing the phone: "Yes he needs to be cancelled immediately."

Ballister, taking it back: "Wrong that weird creep deserved it to be honest"

He read a couple questions that were defending him and after giving them his joke answer about how they were wrong, thanked them sincerely

(sad time) The first thing he posted after the events of the movie, during which he obviously wasn't posting although how fucking funny would it have been to be Ambrosius and see Ballister's fake stan account post "lol get his ass I hope he died" over footage of him MAIMING HIM in light of all that was happening was "I'm sorry that I've been gone, the death of the Queen really took a toll on me, she was a real role model and inspiration of mine. I'm especially sorry to Ambrosius. I wish I hadn't run away. I wish I'd been there for you through all this, I know it must have been so hard. I really hope everyone forgives him."

(sad time over, silliness resumed) He'd use the account to make fun of Ambrosius and himself in every capacity imaginable

"Check out what Ambrosius wore to the national conference, I love how it's so shiny you can't tell how busy and incongruent the patterns are 😍 we love a maximalist king!!!"

"Ballister Ballhard surprises nobody wearing armor he got at the emo booth of a Renaissance Fair."

There is so much potential for this and I'd love to see more of Ballister being a silly goofball

#nimona #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin #goldenheart #idk tumblr culture if i do something wrong pls tell me #im always scared to post if i might commit a faux pas #and to the people who said they'd want to draw this or write or read about it #you have my every permission #and i love you #if someone made something inspired by my cringe brain? #id cry so hard i threw up from love #ive stolen so many people's headcanons for the jumbled fic in my google drive that will never see the light of dat

[aingeal98]

You would think that since Bruce and Cass's morals are so aligned I'd be rooting for Bruce in his confrontations against Jason but you'd be wrong. If it's Cass vs Jason I'm team Cass she has the moral high ground and I like her more. If it's Bruce vs Jason neither of them fully have the moral high ground even though technically Bruce and Cass's codes are quite similar. Because unlike Cass Bruce has been used as a mouthpiece by multiple right wing writers and also just plain bad writers to the point that you have to ignore a LOT to simplify his morals down to "Killing bad." Like yeah if Jason's going around murdering people I'm rooting for say, Cass or Dick to take him down. With lots of angst and challenging their codes and making sure everyone has a bad time. But Bruce is just such an asshole and yeah, bad person, in so many other ways. (You can ignore the comics where he's horrible if you want but they exist and there have been so, so many of them it's a consistent character trait post Jason's death. And it's never character assassinating him for anyone else, he's always presented as the Protagonist even when he's going through his edgy punch the kids moments. Which sucks but that's what DC chose.)

And also Jason was sacrificed for Bruce's pain and meant to just stay dead and smeared to let Bruce get the angst without the bad dad allegations so hell yeah son. Come back to life and torment your father. Be more than just a costume in a cave. Just get better comics and better fans because when you're not fighting Bruce you've been Lobdell's pet for so long that most casual readers associate you with his godawful writing right after the UTRH movie.

#after alfred I think bruce is my least favourite batfam member even though I enjoy so much of his interactions with my faves #But the way he treats Babs Steph Helena Dick Jason... Tim Damian and Cass too in a slightly different way #i like good batdad content but I was also rooting for gotham war to end with them jumping him and breaking his legs. u know. #dc #dc rambles #scared to tag this with any character tags because it's not coherent it's just something that's been brewing in my brain #like one part of it is that even when cass is wrong i care about her more than the people she's wronging. #and one part of it I do genuinely think despite their codes being so similar at this point Cass is the pure essence of what batman should b #whereas bruce is just. head stuffed up his own ass by so many different writers it gets boring.

[ten-cent-sleuth]

I have just finished Chapter 10 of Northanger Abbey. Some thoughts:

I kind of wish I had read this book first out of Jane Austen’s works, if only because I would have related to Catherine more

since I’m mostly familiar with Pride and Prejudice and Emma and Persuasion, and a little knowledgeable of Sense and Sensibility, (I have yet to even touch Mansfield yet, I am so sorry) I was immediately like what the heck do you mean Catherine’s got a brother

who is this man?? what is he doing here???

I’ve read too many P&P fics,,, the state of being brotherless is just so ingrained into the story conflicts and character dynamics in my head, whoops

Mr Thorpe was annoying from the first, and he has only gotten on my nerves even more (and do I smell a fortune hunter??)

Isabella is also hmm

at first I was leery of her and Catherine’s friendship because of how she’s older and more polished; I was sceptical of the sincerity of how quickly they seemed to get attached

also I get the vibe that she’s hiding something from Catherine (has she met Tilney before…?)

but if she’s really James’s love interest, then I see her as more harmless; more of a disappointment, less of a threat, I guess?

still absolutely relieved Catherine’s not overly attached to her now though

Miss Tilney intrigues me

I like her so far

might be my favourite character but we’ll see we’ll see

Mr Tilney also intrigues me but less decisively of a favourable bent

I’m kinda suspicious but idrk why

tryna withhold judgement since he hasn’t actually done anything sus yet (that I can think of)

plus I genuinely enjoy his and Catherine’s tête-à-têtes

so mostly on the fence

I am most curious about General Tilney, idk why but he is piquing my interest

the exposition about the late Mrs Tilney seems very deliberate

the whole family is just intriguing I s’pose ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

loving the writing, unsurprisingly

I put off Northanger for a long time because I hadn’t expected it to be as lighthearted as it is due to some reviews I’d read but

there do be plenty of funny parts

and of course Miss Austen’s characteristic wit is ubiquitous <3

Please forgive me for any egregious mistakes, I am no literary academic and cannot spot themes or symbols or meta details for my life. 🙏🏽🙏🏽

#a detective’s gallimaufry #austen #northanger abbey #jane austen #i am low-key scared to be putting this in the actual jane austen / northanger abbey tags #because i do not want literature geniuses to see any terrible ““analyses”” that my unlearnèd self has put forth #but ultimately #i think it would be funny #if i have gotten The Very Wrong Impression about something #and educated and/or dedicated fans of jane austen can point and laugh #eta since some people are reblogging the original post saying they hope to see how i like the rest of the book: #check my self-rbs for my reactions to later chapters! #and thank you so much for your validation and encouragement 🤗🤗

[inkperch]

*sits bolt upright*

Vaggie and Emily roleswap where Emily figured out Sera was keeping something from her and snuck out down to Hell to learn what, and happened to meet Charlie while disguised as a Sinner and is just. Actively sneaking back and forth from Heaven to try and slowly peel back the beuracratic interference with Charlie's dream from Heaven while also actively helping her run the Hotel in hell-

*goes back to sleep*

#Meanwhile Vaggie I'm imagining like. Just got fired? When she didn't kill someone? And got reassigned a desk job #Which like. Could even be how Emily figured out something wasn't right in hell- #Ngl Chaggie would not be off the table in this au #As a like. 'Vaggie knows all along the exterminations are wrong but is too scared of Lute doing Canon Things to her to do anything about it #And then Hell's princess comes along singing about how she has a dream and cares so deeply for her people it hurts and reignites that fire- #Plus the 'oh god the one person who believed in me was lying to me' would. Yknow. Hit a LOT harder with Em actively lying #Instead of Vaggie hiding from her past so hard she doesn't even want to acknowledge it- #vaggie hazbin hotel #emily hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel #charlie hazbin hotel

[orchideae]

A little unpopular opinion on something I've seen happen more commonly throughout November/December and wanted to address quickly for my own blog: Please never hesitate to reblog anything from me. You see me reblogging a sentence starter list that you like? Go for it and reblog it from me directly without any pressure on you whatsoever to send anything into me before doing so. You like a GIF-set or musing that I reblogged? Nab it from me, it'll brighten my day to see that we share an interest in something. I like to see interaction between me and anyone who follows me. I like to see that little activity notification light up.

Honestly, it simply reminds me that we're all part of a community, and more specifically, a fandom that consists of characters and nations that we all came to love and then share that amongst ourselves. And honestly, seeing a reblog happen shortly after me but it's from the source, creates (in my opinion) an odd sense of chosen disconnect between people that can feel awkward, it's as if we're walking on eggshells as to not rub each other the wrong way. But what's wrong about going 'Hey, I see what you reblogged, I like it too!', it even gives you potential common ground to start a conversation. We're a community, and I don't know about you, but I like seeing people interact with each other beyond merely threads and notes. It's the little things that matter, after all.

#[ psa. ] seeing isn't always believing. and if you can't trust your eyes; you certainly can't trust rumors. #[ i feel like this whole 'reblog karma' rule has scared people so much into stopping with behavior that... ] #[ i think was healthy. interaction; no matter how small; makes it so much easier and comfortable for people to... ] #[ interact because you almost become 'familiar faces' through these tiny little asks. ] #[ the amount of times i've entered dms kindly/respectfully after someone's reblogged something from me-- ] #[ and the person and i proceeded to just gush about the reblogged fanart in question. or something similar. ] #[ which then makes any further ooc interaction so much easier and nicer-- the initial anxiety people may face is lessened. ] #[ because you've already found common ground. ] #[ like i don't mean to force anyone to reblog from me-- but it's like it's so obvious so often when people... ] #[ see something from you but then reblog it from the source. i dunno if it's just me but it feels odd. ] #[ it feels as if someone thinks reblogging from me would step on my toes or rub me the wrong way and i don't see?? ] #[ why that's a thing? it's so silly. reblog from me; feel welcome to do so. we all love this fandom. we all love our characters. ] #[ and each others' characters. it's why we interact; right? ] #[ any way. hi-- yes. i just mean never feel odd to reblog from me. if anything i encourage it. ] #[ i'll smile and nod at you in my activity; and you'll also pique my interest to be like 'hey! good taste 💙 ] #[ any way; i hope people are having a good weekend! ]

[orcelito]

Super sexy me is so sexy I accidentally set off the fire alarm while baking pie shells for my pumpkin pie. And now I don't know if I should've even baked them in the first place. But well. Too late now 👍

#speculation nation #i am not a fucking baker so something always goes wrong when i make these pies 😭😭😭 #but i am craving my grandma's pumpkin pies... i gotta bake them myself if i want them rn... #see the thing is ive previously bought pre-baked like. graham crusts #but i was like 'that crust sucks lets get a different thing' #so i got tbis dough shit that i put into pans. the box said to bake it. and so i was like ok cool #then as they were in the oven i looked at the pumpkin pie recipe for starting the filling #and then saw that it says 'unbaked shells' and so 😥😥😥😥 #but too late now and it worked fine with the graham. and well. the filling is what i care about the most. #the crusts are just an excuse for having pie filling. #anyways i did set off the alarm. i think it's bc the oven was on so hot #the box says 450 which is hotter than i ever usually do. the pies themselves ask for 350 #so well i turned the oven off and i have the microwave fan running #which oh yeah the fucking handle to my microwave fucking broke. it fucking broke. #i think i'll duct tape it or smth lol. microwave itself works fine still. and i dont want people in my apartment. #it's just the bottom part but it sure did just. splinter off. that shit is Broke broke. #and i scared the shit outta my cats And me with that damned alarm. and now i am just waiting. #calming down some. chilling the crusts. soon i will resume making the pie filling. #it's not like it even takes much time i am just. Nervous now. #i wanna let the oven cool off more b4 i have it going for like 45 mins lol #the crusts are kinda ugly. one of them is inflated on the bottom. these pies r going to be disasters. #so long as they still taste good......thats what i care about the most... #maybe my crusts will end up nuclear... if that happens tho ill just eat the filling out of the crust... its fine... ill be fine... #😭😭😭😭😭😭 why is everything so hard

[mattodore]

kiss me till you bite ♪

#river dipping #ts4 #ts4 edit #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #🦇 #these are from an animation not a pose so if you wanna see this in motion just go to my video tag <3 #and that gnarly ass bite on theo's throat prompted me to use this song from their playlist as the caption #anyway. more editing practice :3c there were actually six screenshots but i decided to just do the first three... #also i didn't actually end up finishing these while jerma was streaming last night bc i got too distracted watching him play #instead i finished them like riiiiight before i went to sleep as i was listening to his sorcery streams #normally i just hop between jerma videos or listening to something #really my editing go-tos are jerma / mattodore playlists / podcasts / khadija mbowe or tee noir #i don't listen to a ton of podcasts tho. it's either relistening to i am in eskew / the magnus archives / wolf 359 #or listening to behind the bastards / if books could kill / pick me up i'm scared / you're wrong about / or maintenance phase #...once again making a post where the tags have nothing to do with the actual post. well. <3 #uh. say something abt this post river. um. i like when mattodore kiss but you can't actually see it :) #they only ever kiss in private so... i think it's fitting :)<3 #something abt mattodore being so physical in public but having this line where they almost never kiss around others... brain buzzes #it's bc of theo... kissing is too personal to him. and with matthias he's never cared about it before but... kissing theo... woof. #the way theo melts when he gets kissed... matthias likes to keep that for himself. #now that this is finished i need to get to that ask in my inbox... which i definitely should have started answering by now... 🧘