#sorry ik its been a while

[ur-old-tv]

omg... the guy of all time

Individual drawings under the cut

I love this expression ^^

This one too^^

These ones^^ are based on these screenshots vv

#sorry ik its been a while #schools been kicking my ass #art #ink #yugioh gx #yugioh #yu gi oh #yu gi oh gx #chazz princeton #jun manjoume #manjoume thunder #manjoume

[ritasanderson]

why does Loid have boob window, we will never know

#its been in my head for a while sorry i had to #warframe #my art #albrecht entrati #warframe loid #ik imma see myself out

[kaidabakugou]

the new girl at one of my favorite bakeries called me pretty this morning and it literally melted all my stress away 🥺

#kai.rambles #i was feeling sad bc my grandma is in the hospital and when i went to visit her they wouldn’t let me pass bc my license is expired #which okay ik that’s my fault but i took my passport with me just in case and the guy straight up told me that it wasn’t a valid form of id #and im like yeah tf it is ITS A PASSPORT and he said no #and while i was waiting for my mom to come down to the lobby an old lady came in and he turned her away for the same thing #and dudeee okay you turn me away fine fuck off but an old ladyyy??? at that age they don’t pay attention to that just let her pass #and then he argued with another woman bc she brought a flower arrangement and it had water so he couldn’t allow it HELLOOO??!? #so i had to leave and went to go get breakfast for my mom at least bc she stayed the night and i was supposed to stay the day #and when i came back to give her the food she told me that the nurse that was with my grandma asked what happened bc she wasn’t expecting #my mom to return and when my mom told her she immediately got so angry bc that same guy #didn’t allow her and a couple other nurses to bring in a cake for one of the residents #who’s birthday is today and they had a full on argument this morning #so it was all in all awful and now my mom has been there for more than 20 hours until later tonight when my aunt goes over :( #anyway this turned into a whole rant im sorry but im so mad bc i know for a FACT that a passport is a valid form of id #and he was just being a fkn dick #but the girl called me pretty and it took some stress off and she really liked my blush #and i liked hers so we had a little makeup 101 exchange and it was so nice at least 🥺 #and i have a couple cute asks to answer that have made my day as well so i’ll get to those in a few 🥰

[avpdpossum]

“your self-diagnosis will never be as good as a professional diagnosis” yeah, my self-dx isn’t “as good” as a pro-dx would be, it’s better!

most psychs have spent maybe a few days maximum learning about the absolute basics of my diagnoses, while i’ve spent years taking in every bit of information i can find, including lots of information from the same sources they’d be using and more — chances are i know more about my diagnoses than the average psych ever will

psychs who do have more knowledge got that knowledge from deeply stigmatizing sources, and most have never bothered to learn from the people who actually live the experiences they claim to be experts in (ex. “npd experts” who actually just specialize in “evil abuser disease” or people like martin kantor)

a psych will never be able to know what’s going on in my head the way i can because they can’t read my mind, so even if i was able to articulate my internal experiences really well (which i’m not — i’m a semiverbal avoidant with often disorganized thoughts/speech; explaining something like that is hard if not impossible for me), hearing it secondhand can’t compare to the 20 years i’ve spent living it

the vast majority of psychs operate based on sanism and profit motive — they’re more than willing to take obscene amounts of my money, only to deny me a diagnosis based on not meeting some shitty stereotypes or say there’s no point in giving me a diagnosis if i don’t want a cure or give me the diagnosis and then have me put in a psych ward because my diagnoses make me one of those ~scary mentally ill people~ that none of them want to deal with

a misdiagnosis from a psych could potentially lead to me being put through intensive therapies or put on medication for the wrong thing, which can have very bad results, and the label might stay on my medical record even after being proven wrong; if my personal assessment is wrong, nothing happens — no one gets hurt, i just go “oops, nevermind”, keep whatever useful things i learned from it in my “toolbox”, stop using the label itself, and move on with life

coming to my own understanding of how my brain works and using the labels that actually make sense to me means i actually get to have some autonomy for once — i get a community of people who understand my experiences and a better understanding of how to manage my symptoms and accommodate myself, without having to fear things like forced treatment or intensified discrimination

the idea that my neurotype makes me incapable of self-awareness and introspection is ridiculous — some people might feel that way about their own situations and need to rely on outside assessment as a result, but that experience is not universal

my understanding of my own mind is NOT second-rate compared to a psych’s, and i don’t need to put myself at risk just for a stranger to tell me what i already know

#sorry for how long my posts have been recently djsjd #like i said in the post articulating stuff is hard so sometimes it takes me A While to explain things well enough to post them #im Trying to break them up well enough that theyre not unreadable walls of text but ik they might still be hard for some people #poss.speaks #personal #discussion #not avpd #(well...its not Not about avpd but its not Directly related) #self diagnosis #pro self diagnosis #pro self dx #psych critical #anti psych #anti psychiatry #time for the Generic Disorder Tags™️ #avpd #actually avpd #actually avoidant #avoidant pd #avoidant personality disorder #cluster c #npd #actually npd #actually narcissistic #narcissistic pd #narcissistic personality disorder #cluster b #stpd #actually stpd #actually schizotypal

[milkbreadtoast]

Sakura Kiss English Lyrics

Was suddenly overcome by nostalgia and in a frenzy wrote my own english lyrics for Sakura Kiss (Ouran HSHC) just now while in the shower MFNSMND it was fun and I'm actually p proud of these... Sharing in case anyone wants to do a cover w these lyrics!!🥹 (pls credit and show me if u do🥺)

I also did a v quick recording (v out of breath😵‍💫) to show how the lyrics match up w the song 🫣 LMAO (i dropped my phone in the beginning KFJSJ)

EDIT: I did a new cover here! A bit less out of breath this time🤧

(raw text under cut)

Sakura Kiss

(milkbreadtoast ver)

KISS KISS FALL IN LOVE (HEY HEY HEY)

I've realized that all this time... you've always been right here with me

But is it hate, or like, or am I going crazy?

If i could look inside my heart

and see my feelings clear as day,

lady or host, it doesn't(/wouldn't) matter either way.

When love comes into our lives,

we dont always know why

but when i look in your eyes...

MAYBE YOU'RE MY LOVE

I want(/need) to see you now

so I can give you a cherry blossom kiss, and if your heartbeat skips then it's love you know!

Tomorrow's far away, let's focus on today

It's just you and me,

and this beautiful spring

is a flower's blooming hour of love!

(HEY HEY) MAYBE YOU'RE MY LOVE!

#ouran high school host club #sakura kiss #ouran hshc #ohshc #english lyrics #english cover #anime cover #lyrics #my lyrics #writing en lyrics for anime songs has actually been a lowkey hobby of mine for yrs lol #im p proud of these tho they work p well w the song and keep the gist of the og jp #and its fun to make the lines rhyme... (esp sneaking in internal rhymes n stuff) #OH BTW i didnt reference any other en cover or ver for this bc i wanted it to be my own ver... #ik there r a lot of other en covers out there (ive only heard the cristina vee ver back in the day #and i remember being unsatisfied w the lyrics bc they didnt match the jp and also didnt make much sense KFJJD sorry #so ive been wanting to write my own for a while... FINALLY SPONTANEOUSLY DID LMAO #o btw i didnt look at/listen to the en dub ver at all JDJSKDJ i hate it so much that i cant stand hearing more than a few secs #ouran #OH BTW (again) I purposely took out 'maiden' from the last line :) #(otome in the jp) #nonbinary moment... #singing #cover

[stick-by-me]

This whale shark is a star!

New follower sticker for: @kineticsatomb!

#stickers #sticker collection #New follower sticker! #SORRY IK ITS BEEN A WHILE. College is apparently difficult. Who knew #But you liked two of my posts one of which was Jinbesan so. Have a whale friend #cute #individuals #animals #Fish #From friends! #Sharks #My brain keeps going back and forth on if this is a whale or shark. Dw about it #Also #I made a ceramic dolphin with stars on its back like this #He's beautiful. Just FYI #Very important addition

[radiocity]

The L Word: Lookbook ↳ 1.11, Looking Back

#the l word #shane mccutcheon #alice pieszecki #tina kennard #jennifer schecter #bette porter #Dana Fairbanks #kate moennig #leisha hailey #mia kirshner #jennifer beals #Erin Daniels #Random Girl #tlwlb #lol sorry its been a while i turned into a gymrat i guess #so obsessed with alice's shirt (the one where shes closing the door) #also obviously her Origin Story was biphobic as hell but lol i love the lore of her being in a band OK IK ITS BC OF HER ACTRESS but ugh she #is just so funny and involved in the world . from fashion to music. they kind of failed making her a talk show host or w/e in the new series #or whatever she is i have no idea i havent watched it #also the scene of bette with the laptop is insane ok theres a parallel much later in the show i was thinking abt #she also has a really cute outfit in this episode but maybe itll get its own set idk we will see #also wow nearly finished s1!!!!! this took like 20 mins bc im out of practice i need to get faster again #whoops i forgot a tag #Laurel Holloman

[hexados-on-a-string]

spectragus dont get enough credit for being a sun and moon ship but like. destructive sun and moon ship. sun and moon ship but they're the forces of nature the sun and moon actually are. the sun is harsh and relentless and unpredictable in its evil but also it's kindness, the moon is sharp and cold and cruel, a harsh light that doesn't allow you peace, but can also guide you, a light in the darkness. even on nights with a new moon, with no light in the sky, the moon is always reflecting the sun, and it'll be that way until they come to their end.

#spectragus give me a dopamine high that any sort of drug couldn't even come close to giving me #its the loyalty. its the seeing each other at their worst and still staying. #its the being the only person still around who knows and understands what youve been through #its the being so important to each other's characters that u cant mention one without recognising the impact the other has on them #i dont rlly do shipping unless its funny but also im a huge gus fan so like. yea. plus my view on romance is a bit all over the place anyway #something something my skrunkles deserve complicated relationships that are more than romantic but something else #its the trust thats the most important thing to me. trust and loyalty and devotion and #im sorry but i would have exploded if i like. didn't write down these thoughts #anyways fucked up gay people who are a package deal and that is a threat thats them #ik the majority of my posts are hee hee funnie and i usually dont take things too seriously #but these two have taken up part of my brain permanently since i was 8. like. they just live there. rent free. #i am like rabid rn. i am feral and i am insane and i am crazy and there are so many things wrong with me #i cant even write down all my fuckin thoughts there's so many my brain is going to Explode pray for me #idk if u understand how important it is to me the times they show kindness even while at their worst #they're not good people but they have people they care about and they care abt each other and that matters SO much #i take 0 criticism on my posts i only take cash. however there is no possible criticism to be made bc i am RIGHT #also this all kinda sparked from me getting obsessed with a certain kh character who has a connection to the moon #who is also one of my favourite characters ever #and if u know who it is and u also like him ur very cool #im not tagging this w character tags. im like. very shy. but #i love gus i love spectra i love spectragus #anyways see u next time where i should hopefully have art maybe potentially #i found the brushes i used to use back when i did lineless art so i am rlly happy

[hermitcrossovers]

A God Brothers au thing because it's been a while lol.

Violence has always been a language the Minecrafts are familiar with.

Made from blood and death, pushed into positions of power, not one of them has ever been free of it.

To reject them would be to deny nature, to give into them would mean giving up their humanity, they all strike a balance, one way or another.

It's easiest for Phil, as the Angel of Death it is his job to keep the balance between lige and death, for others, like Wilbur, it's giving up living and coming back not quite right. For Tommy, it's a fight every day, but those who he cares for are the ones who keep him going. Grian and Techno are two sides of the same coin by design, so it comes as no surprise that they find that balance in eachother, it's Grian who teaches Techno to deal with the voices, and Techno who reels Grian back when he's gone too far.

Yes, they're made from blood and death, but that doesn't mean they have to be aggressive or evil, it's a choice to speak with violence, one they've made before, one they'll make again, but in the moments that count, they choose family.

-mod jer

#dream smp #hermitcraft #grian #technoblade #tommyinnit #philza #wilbur soot #grian and philza brothers au #mod jer #its 12 am over here and i am laying down on the living room hammock having thoughts™ #i blame the heat if this is nonsensical sorry #ik its been a while since i talked abt it but this au actually owns my soul

[alex-procrastinates]

redrew one of those asterix doodles i posted like a year ago! i think i’ve improved a lot since then :D

#asterix #asterix fanart #my art #its been so long since i’ve drawn him smiling #ik i haven’t posted any asterix content in ages but i am cooking up something rn #it might take a while yet though sorry #but i hope y’all will enjoy it

[eirgachuair]

im 100% throwing shade rn right, but how r u gonna be trans and have the option to pick a name, pick an IRISH NAME, spelt the irish way, get mad when people mispronounce it (real) and then in the same breath turn around and say shit like “no wonder irish is a dead language” and just geniunely have no respect for irish as a whole. complain the whole time when ur being let out of class for an event where youre learning the basicest of irish and doing dances and all.

tbh gaeilge24 isnt the best but its still good craic liek as long as u arent a dickhead about it, like god forbid you learn how to say rainbow and shite in irish, do a quizlet, and dance for a little while while getting out of class like cmon calm urself irish isnt that bad.

dont get me wrong like, i complain abt french and spanish all the time right, and i make fun of it all the time but its all in good faith yknow, plus theyre some of the most spoken languages in the world. but in my head id never do that w an endangered/protected language bc its just punching down yk, bro even w cymraeg and shite i look at the consonants and get really confused but i dont shit on a whole language just bc i have no idea how the letters work😭😭😭

idk ur just punching down at that point in my opinion at least yk

but sure go say ‘tiocfaidh ar lá’ spell tiocfaidh as ‘chucky’ and say arán rósta as a little joke bc thats the only irish you know then sit there w ur wee defeatist attitude and complain abt the british for everything they’ve done here to ruin this country, get pissed when people call u british bc u live in the north (real) then turn around and say that everyone whos scottish and welsh are british even tho the exact same thing happened over there.

but dont let me stop u, just carry on and hang onto the tail ends of nationalism as you wear a caricature of your own culture. wear the bits you dont have to work for, the name(which you mock people for when they add the fada that should be there), the misdirected malice, the half informed hatred, everything you can put on within a seconds notice, using the least amount of effort possible;

and i wonder if the reason you mock others for putting the effort in is from a place of jealousy, insecurity maybe. the same way you give me shit for getting good marks, constantly bring it up and get pissy when i score higher than you, im guessing its like that.

(sorry im just really angry rn and when i get mad i go all poetic and shite😭😭 im being really over dramtic rn and i just need to rant so😭😭)

#ik its not that big of a deal but my annoyance has been bubbling up for a while and this was like idk #made all my respect that i had for them as a person completely disappear #im so sorry for the rant 😭😭😭

[4ggravation]

move like grey skies move like a bird of paradise move like an odd sight, come out at night.

#woah i drew the man #hes been plaguing my mind for a while now #so i thought id take a shot at drawing him #ik everyones fontaining it up but #taylor swift voice: everybody moved on iiiiiii i stayed there #im sorry but sumeru truly was the moment #also this is my new pfp #because its cute #kaveh #4ggravated

[mocha-tapioca]

eugh no bc like. ppl not wanting to share f/os is fine man!! completely understandable!!! if ur uncomfortable w someone sharing them there is a very affordable. nay. FREE OF CHARGE block button right there!!! but to then go on n be a whiny RACIST little piece of utter bs bc someone elses selfship w the same f/o is more popular??? girl. girl back up. unnecessary, unneeded, unwanted. also not a good look for ur digital footprint considering ✨actions can be traced back to u✨

like just curate ur own internet experiences man 😭

#ai.txt #sorry its an itty bitty tangent ik #might delete later i just wanted to get this out bc ive been in the same boat b4 #this is literally why i stopped f/o’ing a couple characters a while back tbh. like mm wow that is NOT very fun fun flowerle of u #like imagine bitching abt how ur f/o loves u more than they love someone else that selfships them n then proceeding to go after that person #w shii like DEATH THREATS of all things. man ur threatening to find where i live and off me over A FICTIONAL CHARACTER #like was there no peaceful civil way to handle this 😭 #anw that is why i no longer like che’nya or childe and mao is on thin ice despite them all being well-written characters i like #sorry for the ramble im just rlly feeling for that one selfshipper i rlly hope theyre doing better now :( that hate was uncalled for

[st4rguy]

ok so i was reading fanfiction and thought about the nightmare knight calling people "my child" (yknow like toriel in undertale) AND THIS MIGHT BE THE BEST IDEA I HAVE EVER HAD

#this idea hit me right in the feels and i love this so so much #also by “people” i mean peridot and the disaster masters etc but that felt to long so just “people” EVERYONE IS HIS CHILDREN NOW #oh if anyone has wondering the fic in question was "question of immortality by hinder (heilige_bos) #i had been planing on reading it for a while before now but its very long and i hadn't gotten around to it #i finsihed it today and ITS SO GOOD OMG IKE IF YOU LIKE CQ READ THIS ABOSOLUTLY #but you MUST be all the way caught up on cq or it will be SO SO confusing #oh also its 136k words sooo BE AWARE #nk doesnt call anyone “my child” in question of immortality but in an incorrect quote in the qna/incorect quotes bit at the end he says it #ANYWAY POINT IS QUESTION OF IMORTAITY MADE ME CRY SORRY FOR RAMBLING OK YEAH THATS ALL #also sorry about my horrible spelling. its late and i am way to lazy to correct it. sorry #cucumber quest

[pixelated-nooboos]

I'm in love with her 😍

#ts4 #candy behr #its been a while ik #uni is hard and i barely have time for myself #i dont go much on tumblr anymore #but i kinda want to start posting pics of i what play in here #games like rimworld #stardew and the sims #sorry for the mini rant on the tags

[todayisafridaynight]

Snap you are the king of sexy funny back when you did Yamtien just goes to show you have a talent for humor and cheesecake.

there's something about the title 'king of sexy funny' that's really tickling me thank you so much anon ill take that crown with honor

#snap chats #please 'king of sexy funny back' was my fathers name #the joke is that my dad would Nonstop play Sexy Back in the car every day he drove me to school. also hes funny. #which was every day while i was in elementary. and then he and my mom got into the Theyre Practically Divorced fight #and then Love The Way You Lie was added to the playlist theyre filipino they dont believe in divorce yk the works #not even a fight my dad just finally called her out.... anyways... #thats a dusty as hell crown i havent drawn yamtien in literal years #OH YEAH I DID DO SEXY HUMOR I GUESS I REMEMBER SOME OF MY COMICS BEING SUSPECT AS HELL #but of course... need the funny.... #im a different man now. i havent done humor like that In Literal Years 2x #like truly the last time i did that WAS those comics #what even was the last sexy or sexy/funny thing i drew...... its just been family sitcoms in my brain for months now.... #checking my folders hang on OH JO yeah. #ASIDE FROM THAT THO i really dont do anything. Saucy anymore #someone remind me to delete that actually ive been meaning to go on an art purge but i keep getting side tracked #not a MAJOR one just ones that keep bothering me #ik on the internet eveything is forever but id like to scroll through my own blog without getting flashbanged by stuff i dont like anymore #ive been meaning to delete some ao3 fics too but again... keep getting sidetracked... #THIS TAG RAMBLE IS SO DAMN LONG IM SO SORRY utterly off track.