#steven universe growing pains

[citrusella-flugpucker]

Posting snippets from that WIP challenge post one at a time, part 10

((This WIP challenge post!

Today’s fic from the random draw is #8: Untitled document - My doc for Auto-Injector, contains posted and WIP content

This doc contains completed/posted chapters 1 and 2 as well as partial chapters 3 and 4:

chapter 1 was a rewrite of Bluebird featuring a Steven with anaphylactic allergies

chapter 2 was exploring what happened just after Steven got home (well, to Vidalia’s) after his first reaction

chapter 3 is supposed to be a rewrite of Growing Pains featuring a Steven who has a GP and more reason to be concerned about things like swelling up, even though this is not a reaction situation

chapter 4 is an adjusted version of what was my original idea of Steven having a reaction on his road trip (originally it was supposed to be the first time something like that had happened to him, the rewrite is just it’s the first time he’s had it while alone)

A snippet, which is from chapter 4 because chapter 3′s whole chunk is very small:

He rubbed a hand up his face. He wanted what he just said to be funny but it was more depressing. "Ugh, at this point, I'm mostly just bummed I'm probably not gonna get out of here until at least 1am… And the buses probably aren't running and I've never been on one anyway, and I don't wanna call a cab--I guess I could spring for a Hitchhyke? Or walk—"

"--Steven, what if you just… wait to worry about that? Focus on… Maybe let's talk about something else."

"Like what?"

"Hmm. Well, I know the Dondai's in Florida, which means you didn't fly there… how long was the ferry ride?" Steven could feel his father squinting on the other side of the phone.

He squinted back. "...Twelve years," he said, trying and failing to put on an old seaman's accent.

"Steven."

"What? It felt like twelve years," he squeaked. "It smelled like home, though. That was nice." He focused on the memory of the saltwater smell forcing itself into his nostrils. It wasn't exactly like the ocean back in Beach City, but the scent had been a welcome, familiar feeling compared to his new everyday normal of old-car-smell, compared to the chemically-enhanced sterile stench that currently surrounded him.

The vibe of chapter 4 is so good and it’s probably closer to complete than even I think... why is chapter 3 fighting me?

You know what? Have literally the entire chapter 3 snippet too:

"So what makes you think there's no way this is allergies?"

"Well… I mean, I'm not having trouble breathing or covered in hives or anything. I'm just… swelling. And pink."

And sad. Tell her you're sad. You're upset. Devastated. Heartbroken. Lonely. Sad, sad, sad, sad

"I'm fine. And the pink's obviously a gem thing, I know it is." He crosses his arms and tries to ignore that he's puffed up ever so briefly. This whole thing is a waste of time. He knows why Connie was worried, he does, but he's been around the block enough that he can tell he's fine. She's overreacting.

"I'd like to keep you for a few hours' observation--just in case—" she adds when she can see him straighten up to protest, "and then I think it should be okay to turn you loose. Maybe with a prescription for a steroid or something, for the swelling.”

...Maybe something is missing.

(The complete randomly generated order is this:  9, 2, 6, 10, 18, 19, 22, 20, 15, 8, 14, 26, 11, 17, 16, 23, 21, 1, 3, 12, 24, 5, 13, 25, 4, 7 FWIW XP)

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#steven universe #steven universe future #steven universe fanfic #steven universe fanfiction #steven universe wip #posting snippets from that wip challenge post one at a time #cw: allergic reaction #cw: anaphylaxis #steven universe growing pains #suf growing pains #growing pains

[minjimunji]

Growing pains is so,,,,, why am I sobbing

#Steven universe future #growing pains #Steven universe growing pains #su

[screwpinecaprice]

I know it’s not a question but i can’t help but appreciate the fact that you draw adult Steven as a chubby guy! We big boys need some positive representation in here. Also, i’ve been following you for almost a year now!

Btw sorry for my English lol.

Hi! It's very pleasing to know you've been around for as long! 😁😁😁 I absolutely appreciate the appreciation! And no worries, your English is super fine! 😁 (Relatable actually. I am also apologizing in advance if I can't exactly have my point clearly across because I'm not well at English myself! lmao)

It took me quite some time to learn how to draw chubby characters but it's so satisfying to have eventually. ( *`u*) (I mean, there's still so much to learn, but still.)

Having a chubby main protagonist is so wonderful to have. And a good kid at that. (Ngl I'm attracted to kindness. haha So of course it's very important to me that he's fat AND kind.)

Also design-wise, I personally think it fits his character so well. Soft and huggable, shaped like a friend. Thick arms to hug people with snuggly. Body wide like a shield. etc. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

And I just really like to capture these elements when I draw him as an adult. Also that it's just fun to draw.

Simply personal thoughts about it, nothing against any other ways he's being portrayed by others of course.

#And it's not even because English isn't my first language. Just generally bad at language. RIP #I had this conversation with someone once where they headcanon he'd get lower back pains if he slim down because of how his gem will #poke or stab his spine #I really like that he's chubby/fat just because. and that he's happy and confident about it #but him being fat not entire by choice is an interesting angle to look at. #I mean obviously he's naturally chubby because of DNA too but you get when I mean. or I hope you do. ;u; #Yo I had a theory.... or at least a headcanon about how his gem is arranged inside his body and how it's practically designed so it can be #passed down eventually without killing him. But I never get to a cohesive written explanation about it so I kept procrastinating. #I like to think the Pink Diamond gem will become like an heirloom. But I digress. #Steven Quartz Universe #Connie Maheswaran #I guess implied connverse #connverse #TFW growing up in media where 'look at us we're different but we are all friends!' And the differences were just personalities and status i #society but the body shapes are practically the same. 😆 #They were the same shape because the merch used the same mold. ^^; But I think that contributed to messing up my perception. #Like. The level of unawareness I had in drawing fat characters is crazy back then. #when I thought I drew a chubby character but the reality was that she was still slim! I still have her saved in my Deviant Art account #Nobody would've known because she's my OC. #If I were to argue with that past me that she's not chubby. Past me would be extremely confused because she is totally convinced that she #drew a chubby character. Mind you I was above 18 then too. #I had another OC I wanted to be really chunky but I was so bad at it that I found an excuse why she's so slim so I can avoid drawing chunky #I did eventually made her chunky but I almost never posted any of my OCs lol. She also have a black and pink theme. 🤔 #Same with skin color but it happened in my own Sona. I have a tan skin tone and I thought I gave my Sona the same skin...but like... Bruh. #I'm even looking at it now. That is kinda pale. RIP #It still baffles me how different I've been seeing thing in the past. Eugh I'm digressing again. :/ #sc answers #ask #luisnavarro04 #meme

[yahoo201027]

Day in Fandom History: March 13…

Worried about what happened in the previous episode, Connie decides to take Steven to her mother at the hospital for a checkup, only for him to find out that there’s something more than the failed proposal to be emotionally unstable and going pink. “Growing Pains” premiered on this day, 3 Years Ago.

#Day in Fandom History #3 Years Ago #Steven Universe #Steven Universe Future #Episode 14 #Growing Pains #Cartoon #Animation

[fourteentrout]

"I guess...I kinda freaked out when they cancelled my favorite ice cream."

#third times the charm #why isnt this posting #steven universe future #steven universe #steven universe fanart #steven quartz universe #my art #digital art #season 1 episode 14 #Growing Pains #steven universe spoilers #constructive critism welcome

[grailbot143]

I mean, sure. . . if you want the shortened list.

Here's the first season worth of trauma.

#suliveblogchrono #liveblog #Steven Universe #grailbotliveblogs #Steven Universe Future #UniverseF14 #Growing Pains #And The Stevens Intrude #At least one from each trauma #Ready for some healing #And so many more of them! #DON'T FORGET ABOUT US! #oh #the trauma never stops #when time travel is possible

[picturejasper20]

Something that’s interesting about Steven’s speech in ¨Growing Pains¨ is how despite knowing that gems can regenerate themselves after being hurt, he still considered them poofing as them ¨dying¨. It’s like regardless of knowing gems work differently, he still saw them from a human point of view, in terms of human mortality and life speaking.

#Steven universe #Steven Quartz Universe #su future #Growing pains

[nowhere-space]

Steven Universe Future Episode 14: Growing Pains

#steven universe #steven universe future #growing pains #i need froggy mug #the crystal temple #the hospital #backgrounds #screenshots #my screenshots

[fanfoolishness]

Guess who loves suffering and is watching the back half of Steven Universe Future again? THIS GUY

#only watched together forever and growing pains so far #I’m already emotionally destroyed again #suf #Steven universe future

[toyota12]

Steven Universe Future: Pink State Analysis (Growing Pains) Part 3

This post continues where part 2 left off.

While Steven's body continues to fluncuate in size, and out of control Connie re-enters the room to see what's going on. When Priyanka mentions asking Steven about any stressful experiences, Connie assumes Steven's proposal may have been one. When Steven tries to explain his power problems are due to his past and not her, Priyanka asks what he's talking about, to which Steven gets shocked when he finds out she didn't tell Priyanka about the proposal.

Steven, Universally, in their own review of Growing Pains points out how telling it is that Steven is shocked Connie didn't open up about the proposal when he wasn't planning to tell anyone himself. They also explain how this is due to how Steven believes everyone except himself should open up about their issues.

This mentality could be due to Steven believing how he's the one who gives help, not the one who recieves it, which could also explain his refusal to seek out help since it would ruin that mindset of his. Steven then thinks Connie and Priyanka should just leave the room, to which Priyanka refuses to do so. Steven eventually grows to point of destroying the lighting on the ceiling, still pleading with them to leave.

Eventually, Steven yells that he can't be around the two of them, unfortunately, his destructive powers from Volleyball cause him to destroy the walls and damage the window in the process.

Around that time, Greg noticing this, runs into the room. Steven asks how Greg knew of his whereabouts, to which Greg mentions Connie calling an hour ago to tell him about Steven. Steven then thanks Connie for doing so before she leaves, with the look on his face showing how he's needed someone to make a big enough deal about his problems to the point of not taking his word for it.

Although, when Greg tries to apologize to Steven for not knowing about his problems, Steven is quick to tell him not to worry about it, showing how he still doesn't want to worry others about him even when they're taking notice of his issues.

When Steven finally opens up to Greg about the proposal, he still misinterprets Connie's "not now" as a "no," which is important because it coincides with Steven saying that his body's reacting as if it's the end of the world. The reason for that is because of how Steven still percieves that event as being worse than it actually was. He goes on to say that he should be happy now that it's Era 3 and there's nothing threatening the Earth anymore, but is swelling up over what he refers to as "third era problems." He then cries, asking how he's supposed to live life now that he treats everything as something getting worked up over.

When Steven says that he should be happy now that the Diamonds are defeated, it appears that he's expecting himself to just get over everything that's happened and just move on now that there's peace in the universe. Steven referring to minor stressors as "third era problems" is reference to the phrase "first world problems" which is synonmous to minor problems or frustrations. It could also be Steven blaming himself for his own reactions, basically saying that he's making a big deal out of nothing.

When Greg mentions how he'll be there to help Steven through his problems, Steven's pink glow dissipates and he returns to his normal size. This again, is because of Steven realizing he has those who will be there to support him. Also, even though Steven doesn't realize it yet at the time, people like Greg won’t abandon him even if they see an imperfect side to him.

When the two return to Steven's house, Steven beats up on himself for thinking he could follow Connie to college through the attempted marriage. Greg tells him that it's okay to have doubts on what to do about the future, as well as making mistakes. As Greg goes on, Steven remembering about Greg's tour, begins to think that he messed up Greg's plans. That is before Greg cuts him off, saying he shouldn't worry about him and that Steven should get some rest, to which Steven agrees to.

This last exchange shows that even as Steven is beginning to accept the help of others, he still can't help but think of himself as a burden for worrying them about him. This is again due to Steven thinking of himself as the one who's supposed to be there for others instead of the other way around.

#steven universe future #su steven #steven universe #steven universe character #pink mode #priyanka maheswaran #su connie #connie mahaswaren #su greg #greg universe #growing pains

[spinnedcycle]

love the mr. universe ep of suf

#steven gets to grow up and be a teen and have shitty emotions too #and that includes being mad at the parts of your upbringing that you believe contributed to the pain of who you are #yes yes lucky to have freedom and love #but maybe if someone forced discipline and order you wouldn't be a mess #grass is always greener #anyways i have other appreciative thoughts about suf i might write some other time #steven universe #and also i feel for greg too #i too have had the possibilities shown to me by a fiction and felt it so deep in my soul i felt a naming was warranted #still wanna name a son Simon if I ever get one #hurg I have a lot of gushing to do about su and it's theme of love

[errorid-mt7lt7k7unfr9ttfua5]

the fact that steven has never been to school or the doctor (prior to growing pains) :/

#su #steven universe #mirror gem #growing pains

[arainmorn-art]

Franny-boo and her big little brother Edgey is clearly used to it. In their dynamic Miles's emotional stability just shines through, he is her rock, he has a wide warm chest for her to cry into, I love it.

When I was playing AA2, oh gee, how much I disliked Franziska because she was violent and rude towards my himbo babies Phoenix and Gumshoe. I even was pissed that the Judge is so spineless he could not stop this little girl to whip people in the courtroom! But... ungh. Of course I was touched when she cried in front of Miles. And in AA3 I got warmer feelings for her. And in AAI she was adorable. And when she met Debest in AAI2, oh, oh, it was so satysfing when she whipped him x) And when you think a bit longer about her backstory, that she's lost her dad, almost lost her brother, tried to fulfil unrealistic expectations of being a personified perfection most of her life...

So... yeah. I almost like this little dominatrix :D What I've used: • craft paper sketchbook • acrylic markers: white, blue metallic, golden • water-based markers or felt-pens • pencil, black and white pens, ballpoint pen, calligraphy liners • a tiny bit of digital touch (the one with Edgey is coloured digitally) Oh man, it was such a mess on my fingers to mix white and metallic blue acrylic markers on her hair. And altogether trying to paint the skin with waterbased feltpens over white acrylic, baaaaaaaaa, was a pain. I've drawn unnatural skin colours for Undertale and Steven Universe characters like this before, but now I'm figuring how to use the same technique with real skin tones. I love craft paper, but man, it's tricky! The last sketch with Edgey was digitally painted though, as I've almost ruined the lineart with not dry enough acrylic on the same spread sheet, aaaa. Plus there're too many little detailes to easily mess it up with white marker x)

And I've enjoyed drawing Franziska too much. I object. She is still a rude little beast. You will not grow in me, Franziska. I will resist your tsundere charms.

But it was fun.

#arainmorn's art #my art #ace attorney #sketches #miles edgeworth #franziska von karma #ace attorney trilogy #von karma siblings #edgeworth #craft paper #sketchbook #traditional drawing #traditional sketch #traditional art #acrylic #pencil #marker drawing #artists on tumblr #gyakuten saiban #mitsurugi reiji #karuma mei

[agentofagony]

The owl house has done a great job at showing the forgiveness trope better than Steven universe.

I love the message that some people do deserve forgiveness like the collector, because they actually need it in order to grow and they do want it. The collector was just a misguided kid,who in all actually did nothing wrong intill they imprisoned him. He's just a child who has no idea how to socialise with too much power in his hands.

BUT not everyone dose like Belos,who don't even care to be forgiven or for anyone besides himself. He's not a misguided innocent soul,he's a possessive asshole who's obsessed with power and who deserves pain and suffer. And I love how Luz after trying once and twice didn't bother with him in the end and just let him die.

What I'm trying to say is the final was amazing and I loved it so much.I don't think I ever liked an ending for a story this much.

Edit+ p.s : Let me make it clear I don't hate Steven universe and I like redemption arcs. I am full aware that Steven didn't forgive the dimensions in fact no one did and the fact that most people pretend that he did is just sad. I'm just saying it would have been nice if at least one character was just pure evil and didn't deserve forgiveness and got pain and suffering to deliver the message of forgiveness better. There are so many good messages the show has delivered.

Like jasper was close to the point expect the point was that you shouldn't force everyone to change their ways because some people are comfortable being just the way they are and that's okey,Like jasper and even in the end Steven freaked out once he harmed her which he shouldn't have. Luz looked belos dead in the eyes as she watched him die and didn't pretend that he didn't deserve it.

This is not to say she's better as a main character but that Steven should have also gotten the same treatment/character development. Luz and Steven are actually very similar even lmao.

#the owl house #the owl house finale #the owl house spoilers #toh finale #toh spoilers #toh belos #toh the collector #the collector #luz toh #the collector toh #emperor belos #belos toh #belos the owl house #luz the owl house #the collector the owl house

[yahoo201027]

Day in Fandom History: March 13…

Worried about what happened in the previous episode, Connie decides to take Steven to her mother at the hospital for a checkup, only for him to find out that there’s something more than the failed proposal to be emotionally unstable and going pink. “Growing Pains” premiered on this day, 4 Years Ago.

#Day in Fandom History #4 Years Ago #Steven Universe #Steven Universe Future #Episode 14 #Growing Pains #Cartoon #Animation

[nowritingonthewall]

Absolutely loved your 👶 and 💍 headcannons for Steven, not to mention Marc’s marriage headcannons. If you don’t mind, could you do 👶 headcannons with Jake and Marc (and possibly 💍 for Jake)?

Hello lovely Nonnie, here comes part two 🥰

!Content warning for pregnancy, parenthood, and past trauma!

Please be aware that I am neither an expert on DID nor on trauma.

Angsty because it’s Marc, but also fluffy because he deserves it.

👶 Family headcanons with Marc Spector (x female reader)

- When you first find out that you are pregnant, Marc is absolutely terrified of the idea of becoming a father. No matter how far he may have come on his healing journey, a part of him is still grappling with the guilt of not being able to save his little brother, while another part keeps telling him that he wasn’t able to protect Steven the way that he should have.

How could he, Marc Spector, who ruins the life of everybody that he gets in contact with, be trusted with the responsibility of taking care of something as precious and fragile and helpless as a newborn child? And what about when they grow up? What will happen if his child witnesses him being triggered into a melt down, what kind of pain will he inflict upon them if he isn’t able to control his rage and aggression in front of them? And his nightmare of all nightmares: What if he turns into his mother?

- So, while Steven dives straight into learning everything possible there is to know about pregnancy and child birth, as Jake launches ‘Project mission impossible: making your flat child safe’,  Marc falls back on his instinct to retreat and let Steven and Jake be the fathers that your child deserves. Of course, neither you nor his alters are ready to accept that.

It’ll take a lot of love and patience to convince him how much he is worthy of being a father, but fortunately, he has got you and Steven and Jake to help and support him (and he doesn’t deserve any less).

- During the first few weeks of your pregnancy, he carefully avoids your bump as if he could hurt your unborn child just by touching it.

When his hand lands on your belly for the first time by pure accident and he can feel the little one reacting to him, it suddenly hits him in all its brutal force, the reality of it all and the small and precious little life growing inside of you. But before the rising panic can get a proper hold of him, you carefully lay a re-assuring hand over his, while you gently cup his face with your other hand and remind him how to breathe and that he wasn’t alone and that everything was going to be okay. When his breathing returns to normal, you ask him carefully whether he would like to see the first sonogram of his son. Not letting go of his hand, you wait until he nods ever so slightly before presenting him with the very first ultrasonic scan of your child. You can see a whole galaxy of emotions pass through his eyes before he looks back to you with a soft yet determined gentleness.

Marc is a protector. And while his unshakable need to protect the ones he loves may not erase his fears, it is certainly strong enough to pose a counterweight to be reckoned with. And you are there. And Steven. And Jake.

And maybe… just maybe… it is going to be okay…

- His protectiveness doesn’t only go through the roof; it flies right to the end of the universe and back again. You so much as think of lifting anything heavier than a cup of tea and he is at your side immediately, offering a helping hand. (He respects you way too much to simply take anything out of your hands, but he is always there to offer his help.)

At the slightest sign of you showing any discomfort, he’s there, with no need or wish of you being too ridiculous or too exhausting to fulfil. Even though he may struggle to put his feelings into words, his actions more than speak for themselves.

He would take all the pain from you, if only he could find a way to do so.

- Your sudden mood swings are particularly hard on him in the beginning. Every time you start to cry for no apparent reason, he defaults to assuming that he must have done something wrong. Even after Steven has had a long and detailed discussion with him about “those bleedin’ ‘ormones”.

Yet, no matter how much it may hurt himself to see you in discomfort and no matter how helpless he may feel upon having to watch you being in pain without being able to do anything to ease it, he swallows it all down, as he lies down with you, gently holding you and hugging you and stroking your back until you are feeling a little better.

- The first time that Marc finds himself completely alone with your son lying in front of him on the changing table, he struggles to fight against the all too familiar rising panic of doing something wrong.

As his son looks up at him with his bright and shining eyes, he can see Steven in them, his wonder and curiosity. He can see Roro in them, his innocence and admiration for his older brother. He remembers how his mother would shush him away harshly, whenever he wanted to help her take care of little Roro. As if he could hurt his little brother, simply by being there. And somehow it was always his fault whenever Roro started to cry.

But instead of starting to cry when Marc cradles his head with his warm protective hand ever so softly, his son squeals and kicks his little legs into the air, before trying to grab for Marc’s curls.

And then he can see himself. Innocent little Marc who never understood what he had done to deserve to be treated like that by his mother. Before he had given her a reason to hate him. And as his silent tears start to fall, Steven’s words are echoing through his mind, “It wasn’t your fault!”

With the excited babbling of his son bringing him back to the present, he begins to smile through his tears. One of those rare and real Marc smiles.

Placing the softest of kisses on his son’s forehead, he whispers, “Hey, little one. I am sorry that you’re stuck with me as your dad. But you’ve got the best mommy in the whole world and your other two dads are there to make sure that I don’t screw up, okay? And… I promise that I’m always gonna be there for you, little one!”

- In the beginning, Marc feels somewhat anxious about never knowing what to say to your little son (and later your daughter) and just chatter away like Steven would. He doesn’t really know any lullabies, either, because he can’t remember his parents ever singing to him and the memory of his mother singing to Roro is still too painful to explore. So at one point he starts to gently hum whatever melody comes to his mind and your little ones don’t seem to mind at all to be softly lulled to sleep by hard rock or metal melodies.

The first few times you catch him doing so, he immediately stops, all flustered and maybe even a little ashamed. So you start to listen from the next room, which may be a little sneaky, but you can’t resist that beautiful sound of his voice, gently floating through your flat like a soothing and nourishing balm for everything that is hurting in your mind and heart and soul.

One night, though, when the both of you are particularly exhausted and your son won’t stop crying, no matter how hard you try to soothe him, and you are fighting to get up again, Marc softly tells you to go back to sleep, even though he is hardly able to keep himself up on his own two feet himself. A few minutes later you find them on the coach, your little son curled up on Marc’s chest, his little fingers buried into the fabric of his dad’s shirt, slumbering peacefully as Marc keeps gently humming what happens to be your very favourite song. When he doesn’t stop upon noticing you standing in the doorway, you tiptoe over to them, carefully smooth a stray curl from his face and place a soft kiss to his forehead before whispering, “You’ve got a lovely voice, sweetie. May I join you?” Probably too tired to protest, he just smiles and nods, reaching out his arm for you to invite you to snuggle up to him. 

So now, whenever you are the one who can’t sleep or you are just yearning for a little peace of mind, you ask Marc whether he could hum a little tune for you with that beautifully soothing voice of his. And he is always happy to hold you tight while softly lulling you to sleep.

- Marc prefers structured baby carriers to buggies and strollers. With his kids safely secured to him, it’s so much easier to keep his hands free for fighting off villains and potential kidnapping attempts. Even while constantly scanning your surroundings, he keeps checking on your kids every few seconds, making sure that they are still comfortable and their head doesn’t loll into a weird position. You don’t think you’ll ever get used to the warm feeling that caresses your heart whenever you see his eyes soften as he looks down at your children in complete awe, the little wonder so close to his heart.

- Marc never leaves your little ones to cry on their own. Especially after you have reassured him that it is literally impossible to love and comfort a baby too much.

As soon as he hears the tiniest of sobs in the next room, he needs to check on them. Always careful, never overwhelming them with his protective yet calm manners, but always there in case they might need him. And your little ones know that he’ll be their safe haven as soon as they reach out their little arms for him.

Now and then he has to stifle a sob over how trusting your children are towards him. And even though you always notice, he usually acts as if it was nothing. But he’ll still allow you to pull him into a hug and melts into you as you gently stroke over his hair, placing a loving and knowing kiss on top of his head.

With every reassuring word from you, the raging screams of his mother in his mind are fading a little more and every time that his kids are reaching out for him with nothing but endless trust in their eyes, another wound in his heart begins to heal.

- Marc doesn’t let loose easily. Even though his frown is turned upside down a lot more frequently ever since your children came into your life, it still takes a lot for him to let down his guard. So you are more than a little surprised when you come home during your kids’ very first mummy wrap game that quickly turned into a full blown toilet paper battle and it’s actually Marc fronting and laughing until is beautiful eye crinkles are sprinkled with tears of happiness.

Instead of stern looks or even screams reprimanding him, he is met with the delighted squeals and giggles of his children, which are soon accompanied by your wonderful laughter. So he doesn’t stop until every piece of toilet paper is destroyed and you are all lying on the floor cuddled together for official peace talks. The moment that he properly takes in the mess and the first signs of guilt start to creep up on his face, you pull him closer and cover his face in soft little kisses so that those nasty feelings immediately surrender and retreat to where they came from.  

- We know that Marc is the most ticklish one of your boys and he loves to draw those little giggles from your kids after finding out that gently tickling them is such a lovely way to make them smile again, whenever they seem close to crying (though he always goes through his little checklist to make sure that everything else is okay, first).

That is, until your kids become a little older and Jake sneakily teaches them how to tickle back. Your beloved cosy morning cuddle sessions with Marc and your little ones quickly turn into absolute mayhem after that.

- Marc has a hard time saying no to his children, unless there’s an immediate threat to their safety (and even then it breaks his heart to see their disappointed faces). Sometimes you come home to find him covered from head to toe in finger paint as your kids are discovering their artistic talents. Sometimes you find him with a hundred little tails and bows in his hair. And sometimes you just have to rescue him after being tied to a chair for hours.

- Marc used to love the original Star Wars trilogy when he was a kid. In fact, those were probably the only movies that came even close to rivalling his love for Tomb Buster. And despite all the pain that comes with remembering how he used to watch them with his little brother, re-discovering that universe with your children gives him a chance to balance those painful memories with more happy ones.

When your little family sits down in front of the tv to watch The Force Awakens for the very first time together, it doesn’t take long for your kids’ eyes to grow larger than the moon. As a certain dashingly handsome and brave flyboy appears on the screen, your son’s eyes dart to his dad. And he looks back at the screen. And he looks at his dad. And he looks back at the screen. And he looks at his dad. And he looks back at the screen. And he looks at his dad. And then he lowers his voice, whispering conspiratorially, “Dad, are you… are you a hero in disguise on a secret undercover mission?”

As you involuntarily snort into your tea, your daughter explains matter-of-factly, “Of course he’s a hero, dummy. That’s why there are never any monsters under our bed. Have you seen the size of the spider he caught in the kitchen yesterday?”

Needless to say who Marc has to disguise as for Halloween for the next couple of years. And your kids are very persistent in their opinion of believing that of all the boys, Marc is the one that resembles Poe the most. Even more so when you’re able to convince him to grow those poe-tic mini sideburns (which only takes, like, two days).

And after an exciting evening of guising (or trick-or-treating), he turns into an X-wing and carries his little rebels safely back home. 

- Marc gives the warmest, most comforting and reassuring hugs imaginable. And your children never completely outgrow their longing for being welcomed by his open arms. Whether they just need a shoulder to cry on or a moment of really basking in the warmth of feeling unconditionally loved and cared for, completely safe as if nothing in the universe could ever hurt them.

His hugs were really born from his endless need to protect and comfort his children, while at the same time being convinced that anything he might say would only make things worse. So he had just hoped that your children would be able to feel at least a fraction of the love and care that he put into each of his hugs.

When your daughter gets her heart broken by a boy for the very first time and you aren’t home yet, he sits with her for hours, desperately trying to ignore all the things that he would like to do to that bastard. Just holding her close to his heart, gently stroking up and down her back. Answering each of her sobs with a soft kiss to her temple. Hugging her a little tighter whenever a new wave of tears begins to fall.  

When her sobs begin to subside, she looks up at him, smiling through her tears, and gives him a heart-felt kiss on his cheek.

“Thank you, Dad!”

“What for, Sweetie?”

“For… well... you never try to talk me out of my shitty feelings. You just accept them and me, and… and… and are just there for me. And… I love you, Dad!”

Now it’s Marc that needs a hug. All this time he has thought that nothing he could try would ever be good enough. And now it looks like the parts of him that make him feel like failing his children the most are actually exactly what they seem to have needed all along.

He gets that hug and so much more when you find him on the couch that night, after having a long comforting session with your daughter yourself. And it seems like you know exactly what’s going through his mind. Somehow, you always know.

Wrapping your arms around him from behind, you slowly let your hands wander down his arms until your chin comes to rest on his shoulder and you can intertwine your hands with his.

“You’re a wonderful dad, Marc.”

“Yeah… because of Steven and Jake and you.”

“And you!” You gently cup his cheek and guide his head to make him look at you.

“Your children love you, Marc. We love you!”

Before his first sob can really break to the surface, you catch it with your wonderfully warm lips. Your own tears are threatening to fall when you can feel how easily he melts into your embrace. How readily he buries his face in the crook of your neck as if it was the most natural place for him to rest his head. How he completely trusts you to hold him and everything that he is carrying in his heart.

How so much of his pain and despair has turned into trust and love.

And maybe. Maybe it really is going to be okay.

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