#sugarenia

[sugaroto]

I've seen a lot of posts saying that "It's okay if being lgbt was a phase for you", and I know that you're gonna say it's not a phase

And it's not. For most of us

But there are people who may have identified as bi for a while and later found out they were gay, lesbian maybe even straight

Maybe people thought they were lesbians but were actually pan

Someone could identify as asexual but later figure they're demisexual

Maybe they identified as something, but later figured out they were straight

All this journey... is personal and maybe you're not sure for your identity yet, maybe you want to keep it personal, maybe you're coming to terms with it

When someone is figuring their sexuality, or maybe they already have, they don't owe it to anyone else

When they feel like it, maybe they tell people who they care about

Maybe they shout it from rooftops, maybe they whisper it to the mirror

So many posts telling people "you don't have to come out. Do it when you're ready. When you're safe"

And yet... an 18 year old boy was forced to come out

Why? Because he's famous? There could be a million reasons he didn't want to come out yet (or never)

Kit is just a year older than me.

Why did he have to come out?

I don't think I would come out to the whole world in a year either, the only reason *I* am out on the internet is because I'm no one, I'm anonymous here, you know me as Sugar, you don't know where I live, who I am and what I do

What If I was in the cast too? No one in my family knows I'm lgbt, let's say I had the chance to play a character, cool, then what, would the internet force me to come out to the whole world? To my mom? My aunts and uncles? My Grandparents?

I did came out when I was younger, to my friends, and I have regretted telling 2 people, because we weren't close then or because we lost touch later

I also came out earlier than I should have, I was still figuring it out at the time

But I did, and it was my choice

I came out as bi,

But now I'm questioning I might be on the ace spectrum too, would I need to come out twice?

If I was famous too, would people say I queerbaited them for figuring stuff out? About my personal life?

What if I never wanted to came out? I'm also a demigirl, but I don't want to come out, that's my thing, it's personal and it doesn't change the way I dress or act, or even my pronouns cause 'they' can't be used in my 1st language

I want to keep this thing for me

If I was famous and had the chance to wear a binder, would people say I queerbaited them? Would they force me to tell the world I'm not cis?

I'm not famous, but Kit is just a year older than me. We could have been in the same school (in a different world)

You don't know his personal life, he could be dating someone he knew for years, he could be single, maybe his parents know he's bi, maybe he doesn't want to tell them, maybe he was figuring stuff out, maybe being bi was his thing, his thing that he wanted to keep to himself

And people took that away from him

#im not sure if this post makes much sense #but i just wanted to say some things #its weird comparing myself to someone like Kit #but hes not that older than me and it was easier for me to see that maybe we're not that different #just one year difference and we're both bi ... so i just started comparing #we're probably Nothing alike i don't really know. i haven't been so *in* the fandom to know everything about him #even though i said im now questioning my sexuality again ive been identifying as bi for years so.... #sugarenia talks #sugarenia #sugarenia thoughts #sugarenia ted talk #sugaroto #lgbtq #lgbtqiia+ #lgbtq community #kit connor #heartstopper tv show #heartstopper comic #hearstopper #heartstopper alice oseman #alice oseman #oseman tag #osemanverse #maybe I'll delete this later who knows #to delete later #to delete

[sugaroto]

She just came into class today and went like "Guys we need your ΜΑΝ tomorrow" and some people just wrote ΜΑΝ on their hand so they wouldn't forget to bring their ΜΑΝ tomorrow. Now all the class is in search of their ΜΑΝ and we have only a day to know our ΜΑΝ. They could've said it sooner oh god

#i did find my ΜΑΝ tho #also this is a lot funnier without context #MAN #man #ΜΑΝ #does anyone understands this? ahshajs #sugarenia talks #sugarenia school stuff #sugarenia has friends #sugarenia teachers #sugarenia #meme #sugarenia memes #pun

[sugaroto]

WAIT

IT JUST OCCURRED TO ME

HOW DO THE FOXES HAVE MONEY???

Like Neil has a bunch of money so he doesn't need to work whatever- but like what about the rest?? They're like adults, and half of them are parentless

Like ok maybe Matt's parents sent him money, and we already know that Dan used to dance at night as a job for a while but she no longer does that right?

And what about the others? Like the twins? They don't have any parents to sent them money- was Andrew like working at Macdonalds during his free time throughout the trilogy?

Wait now I remember that they were working at the club for a while

But what are they doing now? That was in the past

Is there like idk any rule to give the Foxes money money bc they're students or "Why the fuck did Andrew sent Neil to do the shopping on my shift? Fuck off Josten I'm not helping you find anything 🖕" -Aaron

I need answers

#good night #aftg #dan wilds #kevin day #andrew minyard #matt boyd #aaron minyard #seth gordon #allison reynolds #nicky hemmick #renee walker #neil josten #all for the game #the foxhole court #aftg fandom #aftg textpost #andreil #aftg incorrect quotes #sugarenia talks #sugarenia #sugar talk #sugaroto #aftg headcanon #aftg thoughts #aftg trilogy #aftg andrew #aftg hc #aftg shitpost #all for the angst #all for the memes

[sugaroto]

[This was supposed to be about the twinyards but I think I started venting, feel free to interact or ignore]

Some months ago I realized the relationship I "have" with my sisters reminded me of the twinyards

Not how they are in the books, and without all their trauma and killing

But when Aaron found out he had a brother

He wanted to meet him

And in reality, he didn't know whether Andrew would want to see him, and when he got the "fuck you go away" letter things went, well, to hell

I relate to them in in that phase

I have two younger half- sisters, I don't know if they want to see me. I want to see them, but I don't want anything to do with my "father". Andrew probably wanted nothing to do with Tilda too

We're not twins and they're a lot younger than me, I actually met the youngest one just some weeks ago, but she must be like 4 so when my father was like "Hey that's your sister" she obviously ignored me. She has a sister she sees daily, she doesn't know me.

Do they want to meet me? I don't know. Do they hate me for not being there? Do they know what I've been through? How many lies have father told them? Is he blaming my mom?

I have a letter too, the older one sent me some years ago "I miss you a lot, and from you I want a kiss and a hug" how can you miss me you don't know me, I miss you too. But if I'm honest, some days I forget you exist. You probably do too, you have 3 siblings of your own, you see them daily, your older brothers are there for you. I don't know them and never will

Maybe they hate me. I don't know what their father told them about my mom and me, or why I'm away

Maybe we'll meet one day

If they want to see me after all

#sorry for the vent #this wasn't my intention at first #aftg #all for the game #andrew minyard #aaron minyard #twinyards #sugarenia vent #sugarenia talks #sugarenia #sugarenia thoughts #sugaroto #the foxhole court #aftg fandom #aftg textpost #sugarenia has family #sugarenia diary

[sugaroto]

How come in movies like Zootopia and Beastars the herbivores are ruling the world?

Like in both, herbivores were the good ones while the carnivores were suspicious and dangerous and nobody liked them and they were shown to face this like racism or something

(* it's been a few years since I watched Zootopia so I may be wrong bc I just remembered Bunny also had a problem with getting a job for being a bunny but this may be cause she was small)

Anyways as I was saying-

So, you mean to tell me for like thousands of years the carnivores were out there being kings eating anyone they liked till one day herbivores were like "Nah me want more equality papa" and the carnivores were like "Yeh sure don't worry bro imma stop eating you for the greater good"?

Like imagine there's the Lion King and his dinner, a pig, is like "Hey your majesty I think you shouldn't eat me I have a family"

Do you think Lion king in the 1600' was like "oh nawr you're right" or did he have a laugh while he ate?

I mean... how the fuck did herbivores took the upper hand? Did they create weapons (cause it always seem that the carnivores are strong enough to no need ones, while herbivores do) did they have a secret society #how_to_take_down_the_king #herbivores_lives_matter ?

How many world wars were there???

And how did they won?

And did they instead of equality chose revenge and made the carnivores live in "You're born bad society"?

Because like, in Beastars they were like "ooh the predators 😱 dangerous we can't trust them" (I mean yeah ok someone was eaten at the school- can't really blame them for being sus)

But like what do the carnivores eat? If they can't eat herbivores and not eating meat makes them sick or something (at least in Beastars it was a little more explained, there was even a night market and all, Zootopia was more family friendly)

Do they just expect people to die? So they can eat them?

Have the scientists created artificial meat?

Is there a farm In which they grow Humans?

(Also where the fuck were the humans in both?)

(Humans no existy)

Ok I confused myself now

But I think what I'm trying to say is..

The history they're teaching at their school is very hard and a lot fuck

Yeah I just realized I wrote this whole thing instead of studying history and I ended up with that 🙃

BUT

IM TRYING TO MAKE A POINT HERE

#i just.... lost myself somewhere along the middle #but like imagine if this was with humans #i mean black people uses to be slaves and treated badly and all #what if now they decided to treat white people like that in return #wouldn't white people also rebel at some point? #wont carnivores rebel? i mean how the fuck have carnivores not rebel in any of those movies? #also im not saying herbivores = skin color carnivores = this skin color #no not at all #im just really confused with their history and laws #there are always some kind of messages about racism in those movies #but we're also not cannibals so... you know #jesus what am i even saying #i need to study bye #zootopia #beastars #anime #disney movies #sugaroto #sugarenia talks #sugarenia #sugarenia ted talk #sugarenia thoughts

[sugaroto]

When I was younger I used to read the dork diaries and in one of the books there were like questions about yourself and stuff and one had a "letter to 18 year old you"

I'll be reading this letter in a few months

The thing is, I remember some of the stuff I wrote... I'm not sure how old I was but I was in primary school for sure

I think one of the things I wrote was like "is P still bothering you and T? No huh? You're still friends right?" And some things about that I guess, I'm not sure, bc you know me and T were BFFE

As you can guess, we dont talk anymore, me and T

And it's not like we stopped talking years ago, it's recent

And we would still be talking if things didn't go the way they did

I don't really miss her to be honest, I have better friends now. And I can't recognize the person she is now, I see her stories and her snaps. I don't know that person, the girl I knew is long gone

But I know once I open that letter, past me, so sure about our forever friendship is asking questions about her most important person

Hope I wrote other stuff too besides the 10-year-olds-friendship-drama we had bc I don't care about that tbh, hope past me wrote something worth it

#past me would start crying if she knew P and T are friends now bc they go to the same school but me and T aren't cause she changed #not just changed schools- a whole personality too #but past me would be happy to know how many friends we had over the years #she'd be surprised to know that the girl we met once at a beach is now one of our closest people and that #we became friends cause she recommended shadow hunter at us when we were 14 #past me would be sad that my hair is short #but she would like the colors #sugarenia talks #sugarenia has friends #sugarenia #sugaroto #sugarenia does not have friends #sugarenia story time #sugarenia school stuff #sugarenia vent #dork diaries #past me #future me #barbasta8i

[sugaroto]

Me writing at 2am when I'm tired and barely can keep my eyes open:

#also i dont remember if this was yesterday or the day before it but if it was the second then i also had alcohol in my system lol #(i wasn't drunk but yeah you get the point) #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #the foxhole court #andrew minyard #andreil #aftg fandom #aftg textpost #aftg incorrect quotes #nicky hemmick #aftg fanfic #ao3 #sugarenia ao3 #sugarenia #sugaroto #ao3 update #ao3 works #sugarenia fic #fanfiction writer #fanfiction

[sugaroto]

I made a meme about my fic💀

"Who is the man in the relationship"

#pls dont tell me im laughing at my own jokes #again #andrew minyard #the foxhole court #neil josten #andreil #aftg fandom #aftg textpost #all for the game #aftg #aftg incorrect quotes #kevin day #aaron minyard #all for the angst #all for the memes #all for the gay #ao3 #sugarenia #sugarenia ao3 #sugarenia memes #sugaroto #zc freaking out over ao3

[sugaroto]

I was trying to sleep, it's 4:38 am and I just fucking realized one of the most famous Greek TV shows is literally a coffee shop AU enemies to lovers, and the other thing what's it called? Different status? He's the mayor and she's just the coffee woman

Well fuck- Hari Roma. Keeping me awake like that

Oh wait just realized...

Hari Roma's other work was "and they were roommates" again enemies to .... well they got married for one episode bc a ghost told them and then broke up I think. A barwoman and a professor writing a book about ancient toilets

Fuck

As if Aliki Vouyouklaki and the man who's name I forgot haven't literally made any kind of AU fic into a movie with the two of them

Teacher x Student? Done

Student x Doctor? Done

Romeo and Juliette?(aka vendetta) done

Mulan? (Girl dressed up as a guy for half the film?) Done

Rich girl x her dad's worker? Done

Sailor x the captains daughter? Done

Mute x doctor? Done

Secretary x boss? Done

And much more I don't remember/know cause those movies are from the 50's-90's

#fuck #is that greek television or wattpad? #greek blog #greek tv #aliki vougiouklaki #to kafe ths xaras #Kwnstantinou kai elenhs #xarhs romas #ellinika #το καφέ της χαράς #Κωνσταντίνου και Ελένης #χαρης Ρώμας #Αλίκη Βουγιουκλάκη #ταινίες #sugarenia talks #sugarenia #sugaroto #sugarenia cant sleep again

[sugaroto]

Today a girl was highlighting something in class with different colors or something and the teacher was like "You're gonna turn it into lgbt" (λοατκι- είναι η δεύτερη φορά που το λέει λολ) and then they kinda started talking about colors and I get my paper out like "Hey look at mine"

And I had all my highlighters out at the time and just grabbed each one and said what they represent (blue= verb, yellow=subject, etc)

And he called me compulsive (ψυχαναγκαστική)

Jsjdjddhdh

#hey at least i can understand this- #i cant do the σύνταξη there and then understand my letters there's no space #however my deskmate is having trouble sometimes when she didn't heard something and is like hey whats that and she cant see my answer cause #its green and she doesn't know green means επιθ.πρ and i have to tell her #πανελελε #πανελλαδικές #πανελλαδική #πανελλήνιες #γ λυκειου #λύκειο #αρχαία #sugarenia school stuff #sugarenia talks #sugarenia teachers #sugarenia #sugaroto #ancient greek

[sugaroto]

People who follow me here either followed me because:

I followed them and they followed me back

All for the game

The owl house

OMG YOU'RE GREEK TOO???

Mutual-ism

And yknow this post that's like "sorry if you followed me for x content you're probably not getting any"

I have no idea what I'm even posting so lol bear with me friend

#i just saw i have 227 followers #jdbdjdhdh #hello??? #hi people #WAIT 13 more people and I'll have more followers on here than my personal Instagram lol #wow #sugaroto #sugarenia

[sugaroto]

Question because me and my friends had an argument yesterday:

What is more normal? Being afraid of butterflies or dogs?

For example you go for a walk, in like a forest or any place that doesn't have a lot of people, are you more afraid that you'll meet a butterfly that will attack you or a stray dog that will attack you?

#is there a word for it? like dog-phobia and butterfly-phobia? #cynophobia #lepidopterophobia #damn i just searched it #im not even surprised both words are in ancient Greek lol #argument #sugarenia #sugaroto #sugarenia has friends

[sugaroto]

Apparently there's this trend on tiktok, when someone goes and ask their classmates "Who do you think is the best looking at school?" They say a name and then they go and ask the "best looking kid" do you know X? How much would you rate them?

And today a girl from my class decided to do it lol

I wanna see the results

I saw her walking around with the phone and before, when we were in class, she said she wanted to ask kids that she knew "had something" going on so she could help them start dating

Προξενήτρα if you will, idk how to say it in English

#greek school #lukeio #γ λυκειου #λύκειο #tiktok trend #sugarenia #sugarenia school stuff #sugaroto

[sugaroto]

I want to delete stuff from my phone cause

I don't have space

I need to stop using my phone so much and focus on my studies

Should I delete Twitter?

I'm not really using it that much

Sometimes I just scroll and see aftg headcanons and shit

I need Instagram cause I use it to talk to my friends/classmates

Tiktok is kind of exhausting but in order to delete it I should clean up my drafts first cause I don't want to lose them

I spent the most time on Tumblr

But it's also the only app I can kinda control my time

I only use snapchat for streaks or to take pics

Idk

#im asking my friends (mutuals) for advice cause im indecisive #social media #apps #how do people 'take breaks' from social media so easily #sugarenia talks #sugarenia #sugaroto #sugarenia thoughts

[sugaroto]

It's really funny how in greek villages everyone is an it/the

Like the fam was talking and they were like "oh yeah the Katerenio- The Yiannio that- The Tsipourakia stole your bikes"

And im like what kind of name is "tsipourakia"? Is it their last name?

No jokes on you

Their father was an alcoholic, drinking a lot of tsipouro and they're 14 siblings so they're all called the tsipourakia

Wow

Not weird at all mom

Also- it's been 17 years and I still don't understand what the fuck the Kseklinio means but I think it's an inside joke older than me but our neighbors can't know we call them that even though it's not even a real word

#keep calm and koukoumafka #katerinio uses she/it pronouns and yiannio he/it 😎 #the tsipourakia are probably a big gang like mafia or something #also all these people are old(either my mom's or grandparents age) so i don't know any of them or what their deal is #they were just gossiping them #except yiannio he wasn't in the conversation but i just added him cause hes an it too #and i know him. hes like my grandmas bro #that sounds weird #ολοι ειναι ουδέτερα #το γιαννιο #το Κατερινιο #τα τσιπουρακια #το ξεκλινιο απο πανω #τους βαφτιζω όλους non binary #sugarenia talks #sugarenia thoughts #sugarenia has family #sugarenia mom #sugarenia #sugaroto

[sugaroto]

Like, this was 12 whole years of my life

I just signed the paper about participating to the Panhellenic exams

Huhwowoof

Nowwhat

We're gonna get called to the principal's office about it on Monday

12 years of my life

About that

I don't know if I wrote everything?

I kinda want to also give English exams as a special subject*, but I'm not really aiming for being an English professor or something like most people who give English, like I just think I'm good enough and if I write good and can get into like a translation thing? That wouldn't be that bad yknow

But, like, I just hope that it won't ruin the rest of my grades . It won't right? Like if I go for a kindergarten teacher nobody gives a shit about my English grade right?

Also? Will the "bases" (βάσεις?) fall? Like they do in the rest of the classes? Like if I'm helping the rest of the population by writing shit English I might as well do it yknow?

If it won't ruin the rest of the thing

Idk if that worth it?

Shsjshdhhelphelp

*btw for people who don't know how the Panhellenic exams work

You chose between 4 classes, I'm in the first one (theoretical/ or aka humanities studies) that means I give exams on 1. New-Greek language and literature(or essay), 2. Ancient Greek 3. History 4. Latin

The other classes are related to math & physics, health (biology & chemistry) and computers & economics (some of their classes apparently are together* but we don't care about that right now since I'm in the theoretical one) *for example math kids and health kids share a chemistry class

The "bases" are falling depending on how good the students wrote, for example, X school university needs you to have written 18.000 ....how do I say μόρια in English... I don't think the word is molecules... stupid translation.... ANYWAYS 18.000 points but if everyone wrote shit they're dropping their expectations and might except students that wrote 16.000 ...points

Ps: I'm not sure how this thing works but yeah it's something like that from my understanding

Wait did I mention we're giving this exam to go into university? Yeah that's what I meant above university not school ⬆️

But there are some special classes

Like different languages, English, Spanish, French, Italian, German, for people who want to usually be teachers about said languages

Or sketching, for architecture

Or musical instruments for music schools

But you have to note it in there if you're giving any of that yknow

Btw there's also a special box about people who want to get onto military stuff etc

But like as I said- English. I want to give English but idk if I'll use it. And if I write shit? Will the bases fall?

Goodnight

#panhellenic #freaking out about Panhellenic exams✌🤪 #sugarenia school stuff #sugarenia talks #sugarenia #sugaroto #sugarenia teachers #sugarenia thoughts #πανελλαδικές #πανελ��αδική #πανελελε #πανελλήνιες #λυκειο #γ λυκειου