#texts i’ll never send

[m00sebl00dd]

after five whole years, and two failed attempts - why is it you i still crave at 2am, when the vodka and cigarettes can’t scorch your name out of my god damn fucking throat?

the tears still slip silently down my cheeks like a shower in spring - the way they did the day you decided i wasn’t what you needed anymore.

god, why did i let you slip through my fingers… twice?

#depressive #depressed #depression #alone #sad #lonely #heartbreak #quote #quotd #slam poem #writer #female writers #excerpt from a book ill never write #texts i’ll never send #texts i wish i could send #texts i can't send #relationship #breakup

[tohelpmecopewithanything]

Hey, I’m not trying to like keep bringing this up or dragging it out and I don’t think/don’t remember if we talked about it on Friday, but what are the visiting rules for east Virginia? Especially after last weekend, I’m trying to manage my expectations for my own mental health.

#texts I’ll never send

[honeylendri]

After you left, I fell out of the world. Nothing feels right anymore. Madness consumed me, and now a year has gone by. It feels so much longer. I still see you in my dreams. Nothing is the same anymore. I find myself consumed with self-loathing, but the thought of your eyes brings me back to a state of reluctant peace. I don't know if you'll ever forgive me. I probably wouldn't, if I were you. I was jealous of them, your partner. Did they know you were with me? You always looked so nice when you came over, I felt so special in your arms. I wept at the thought that something might have happened to you. The world caved in. I fell through gaps between worlds. I met Morrigan. I found secret places I hope I may yet get to show you. I'm not the same as I was, but then- when am I ever? Do you still think of me?

-- Texts I'll probably never send him--

#poetry #love poem #texts i’ll never send #breakup #mentally tired #celtic gods #spilled thoughts #spiritualpath #spirituality #i hope he’s okay

[cosima-nova]

But what am I supposed to do with this storm of love I have for you? 

#texts I’ll never send #words #I’ve posted many of these #and deleted them #might keep this one up

[sun-square-moon]

your fairytale voice telling me i never stop surprising you with how sexy i am, ringing in my ears

#he makes me feel things #distance #soul love #missing him #just why #spilled ink #random thoughts #spilled thoughts #texts i’ll never send #long distance love

[blugrlgroup]

It just sucks. It just sucks that one day you cared the most about me and the next to you don’t at all. It hurts more that that’s not the truth and that you hid how your feelings changed from me for so long all to protect your own feelings. I just wish you considered my feelings more than you said you did or tried to. I wish I didn’t have to deal with all this shock and betrayal and confusion. I hope one day I’ll thank you for this and that I’ll find someone who actually appreciates all that I do and feel and care for them like you obviously never did.

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[sunfielddundrop]

where im at lately :P

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[queen-of-everything]

You’ve got my devotion but man I can hate you sometimes🤧

#texts i’ll never send #journal

[themostfinalofpams]

Texts I’ll probably never send part 2

The last time things felt good and almost normal was when I was with you. The way you treated me, I felt valued and taken care of. I felt like I was beginning the first chapter of something new and beautiful with you. I felt like things were finally going my way for once, that I’d finally found someone. Not to sound cliché, but you melted my heart. I was ready to let someone in and love them. I wanted it to be you so badly. I still wonder if it could be. I’m sorry if I’m a loser. I’m sorry if it’s too soon, but I love you. I love you so much. Come back to me. Please. Please.

#texts i’ll never send #me being pathetic #I’m so miserable without them #holy fuck #personal romance #romance

[letterstomygirl]

I will never forget how you memorized all my fears before you did this.

#the end #i loved you #text #texts i’ll never send #words i never thought i would say

[katnisscarter]

Hey baby I hope you had a good day today. I miss you a lot, I bet you looked so cute today. Then again, I think you look cute every day. I’ve really been wanting to hold you lately, like when we would lay in bed facing eachother but I was up higher so your head could rest on my chest. I’m so much shorter I probably only covered half of you haha. I just want to lay like that and run my fingers through your hair and sing you songs about how much I love you. I miss you so so so much. It’s so hard. I wish you’d come home so bad. I want to experience so many things with you. Mainly I’ve just been missing the mundane shit of day to day life with you. I want to go grocery shopping and put away the food with you. I want to ride with you while you run errands. I want to walk around the mall holding your hand seeing if there’s anything we want. I want to hold you and kiss you so badly. I want to kiss you like it’s oxygen. I want to give you so many kisses you wonder how you lived without them. I think you’re so beautiful, you’re so handsome. You have the cutest fucking smile, god your lil dimple. I bet you have your summer freckles by now, peppering your cheeks and nose. Those are my absolute favorite I want to kiss every one. I love you ryker, I always have and I always will. I love you in every universe. I hope I get the chance to tell you. I pray to god above you want to hear it come across my lips.

#texts i’ll never send #fuck #ugh

[03182020]

When you come into my life after I let go of you and feel better again after the heart ache and you offer a new beginning then disappear again I feel so much. I feel everything. I feel hopeless. I feel myself slipping again. I feel hurt. Wounded. Because why would you show up just to disappear again. Why give me your number when you have no intention of actually talking. Why bother disturbing me?

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[tohelpmecopewithanything]

Is it weird if I reach out to you

and tell you that I feel so stupid right now?

idk I feel like shit

I feel like I’m ruining this

I feel like

idk

I’m trying not to overthink

And I don’t want to freak you out

Cause it’s not like I’m trying to idk

I don’t even wanna give any examples because like that’s not even on my mind. Like idk I’m not saying let’s fucking move in together or anything like that cause that’s crazy.

Like not trying to even make you think I’m thinking of anything like that or trying to jump into this too quickly

But idk

I like spending time with you

I like talking to you

You’re the name I’m hoping to see when my phone buzzes

idk if I’m really bad at this or just hate this because I don’t like to be vulnerable but

I don’t even wanna say what I am thinking cause it’s fucking like romantic and mushy and shit which makes me feel even more stupid

When this first started I was just trying to go with the flow and not overdo it. I didn’t want to seem too eager. Now I’m just trying to keep going and idk what to do to get what I want. idk how to move forward while still trying not to be too eager, trying not to bother you, trying not to be too messy or at least not too often

trying to play it cool while I’m dying for more..

#stream of consciousness #texts I’ll never send #how many times can I say idk #I’m such a pick me #I hate myself

[poemsinaugust]

good night

i hope you sleep tight

#words i didn’t say #texts i’ll never send

[candleinyourwindow]

sorry i keep messaging you

i never really know if you want me to

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[overtake]

my favourite daniel ricciardo fact switches between his nut allergy and his fear of dogs. just hard to believe that man could be taken down by a walnut or roscoe hamilton.

#he’s so vulnerable. able to be struck down at any moment. #also when i found out hayfever is often worse if you have a particular nut allergy i was connecting so many dots #to when he was absolutely murdered by hayfever at silverstone #i never post anything but gifs on here because i usually harass my friends w thoughts like these #but i think i’ll be hunted for sport if i send one more text ab daniel ricciardos nut allergy #*