#too many associations

[soldier-poet-king]

everything is making me emotional lately i have so many reads kinda put on the back burner, not bc i dont love them, but bc theyre affecting me TOO much and i cant handle it rn, and i cant handle the emotions of a reread of anything beloved rn yet either, so pick smthn i have on my shelves that i havent read yet and have few-to-nonexistent preconceived notions of/emotions about, so i can read it and hopefully cleanse my brain palate and stop being insane. classic fantasy is usually helpful when im in this sort of mood. but like. doesn't have to be

EDIT: for the 'smthn' categories - pls give me specific suggestions/titles i am a ball of horrible indecision atm

#fran reads #i have SOOOOOO many unread books #but everything is just. TOO emotion rn #i have too many preconceived emotions abt everything #too many associations #i dont have the brainpower to read classic lit rn #too emo for my religious and existential angst shelf #cant reread anything i love too dearly bc i feel so fragile #and i have atfots and trk both on the back burner bc i got TOO attached and insane #and i was fraying a bit at the edges. mentally speaking #i want smthn fun and engaging and distracting and yet also not TOO engaging yknow #i want to feel and be invested and not bored. but not to the point of emoitonal turmoil and takeover #bc i am just. so ????? rn #what i really should do is play mindless hours of sdv #but im trying to limit screentime and besides i have to go to my nonna's tonight for several hours #and will need a distraction #and have too much of a hdeadache to drink #still havent read bloodladders OR the last tuyo book.bc emotions.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Turtle Takedown Teamwork.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #tulu xuanwu #Something about changing the action sequence to something gentle is hilarious to me. #The lesson here is “Be nice to turtles. They are gentle creatures. And many are very endangered.” #don't get me wrong here; I love this scene a lot. LWJ's string technique is one of my favoyrite things. #We do get a fair amount of LWJ fighting but I always loved how the theme of strings comes into play. #There is actually a lot to unpack with LWJ being associate with 'strings'. #The musicianship: Of dedication and rigor in one's practice. #The tension between following along a path or composing your own way forwards (playing what has been written vs composing) #A string is a tightly coiled/taunt entity; The same tension that makes it sing so beautifully can be it's downfall if pushed too hard. #And as a non-musical string - something that binds. Be it to his sect and family or how he binds his fate to WWX - #LWJ cannot exist without his binds. It is not something which ties him down though. It keeps him together. #And he himself *is* a bind. He 'ties wwx down' in ways that are initially negatively viewed ('come to gusu' - feels like: come be trapped) #But later it is shown how (despite being introduced as a free spirit) WWX truly wants to be bound to something and someone. #Marriage is a bind he wants. He wants to be tied and grounded by LWJ. #It's starting to sound like innuendo. Let's call his fondness for being literally tied up smart thematic writing. #Finally. Sex scenes that are important to the plot and characters

[dreameroftheblue]

And guilty I may be But don't give up on me In the wake of the Odyssey We will still be thick as thieves You and me, still thick as thieves

#desperate creatures #lyrics pulled from one of the many songs I associate with them via my four hour+ playlist. shinedown my beloved #also as usual I used this art as a reward for getting actual Responsibilities™ done #“spent an hour on Important Owed Art! time for some gay old men :)” #showed my mom and she doesn't know a thing about this show other than what I've splurged about... but she wants it on a shirt LOL #actually I'd really like some kind of print with it too. with the gold foil parts all shiny or holographic somehow? might look into it #good omens #good omens fanart #aziraphale x crowley #aziracrow #david tennant #ineffable spouses #michael sheen #screentone #angel wings #winged humanoid #feathered wings #PS I used a chain brush for aziraphale's robes #like heaven's bonds he's currently latched to

[royalarchivist]

Fit: Pac. I have a gift for you.

Pac: A gift for me? It's a good gift? 'Cuz like, you sound like, excited, you know?

QSMP Fit and Pac are taking baby steps, but Stardew Fit and Pac are running a marathon. 💍🏃

#FitPac #Hideduo #FitMC #Pactw #Stardew #May 1 2024 #Edited #THIS WAS SO SWEET... I was holding my face #This took forever to render sorry for the wait! Had to do it twice because Sony Vegas is a hater #I keep trying to move away from the color green for Fit because there are way too many streamers associated with green #but it fits him too well I can't commit to that weird red/orange color I kept trying to use #No full transcript because I've got work to do for my actual job #sorry!

[tinylittlelilac]

Thank you guys for the love always . constantly nervous abt what I’m posting but you all always make it worth it 🫶🫶 my love to u!!!!!!!!

comes on here to drop you this ..

thinking about Yuzuru becoming more and more enamored and he doesn’t even realize it 🗣️🗣️ can anyone in the crowd hear me 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

I will be back on to browse enjoy and repost later. Rn I’m going to snooze ^^ good night to all hokuto enjoyers specifically

#enstars #lilac.art #ensemble stars #yuzuru fushimi #midoyuzu #midori takamine #idiots in love #wow #when someone’s in your ear telling you much they love you #and somehow you start to love them too #how we feeling about the upcoming midori fs #personally I’m slamming into walls #also #General question #if you happen to see this #what bird would you associate w midori #rn I’m leaning towards quail or grouse #also pondering mockingbird #feel free to dm or send submission… #I love birds tbh #reached day 200 of entraining #on that grind #I have so many mdyz drafts #you wouldn’t believe it

[saltyyetbland]

ngl im fucking terrified of how the fandom will act when the asian ccs get added and they are confronted with asian customs such as honorifics, asian cultural norms, and the language itself (ie words that are common in one language that sounds like a slur in another) and i know most of the fandom will be open and welcoming but idk im probably being way too pessimistic as someone who is asian and has seen the bs that people can spew esp regarding things like stereotypes

#qsmp #im being really negative rn cause im just really scared #im excited to see asian representation and i really hope to be proven wrong in my pessimism #but i will dropkick anyone who purposefully tries to misinterpret or villainize or sexualize or whatever my culture #its on fucking sight for those kinds of people #even people that just associate one thing for one culture ie japan with anime or korea with kpop #like i swear these countries and cultures are more than just that so please be open to learning more and not just make assumptions #also i am so very scared when it comes to cultural norms esp because qsmp is so damn western ethics and morality focused #i have many thoughts about this in particular but theyre way too complex #but yeah i really hope this event goes well and the new members feel welcomed

[flamemons]

It's alright to scream

I'm screaming too

Why'd you think I do the things I do?

For shadows haunted me like ghosts

So I became what I feared the most

I conduct fear like electricity

A manmade monstrosity

Killer — The Hoosiers

i woke up from a nap with this song stuck in my head and. yea

#kouichi kimura #koichi kimura #digimon frontier #digimon #AGH ok drawing to a song is. a new level of vulnerability for me and im trying to get past the mental block of OH THATS TOO CRINGE #because cringe isnt REAL #((but it sure feels like it)) #i fucked up and accidentally made a kouichi playlist and so many of my favorite edgy songs ended up applying to him #and i was like....hmm ok.....this kid is suddenly very interesting #...not that he isnt already very interesting like. he is but hes still sort of hard to grasp since he never had time to really be himself #....anyway #i have. so many thoughts about songs i associate with takuya but. i cant draw that #because i would go through organ failure #like i would literally explode and die #oh the struggle of admitting i have human emotions

[zaacoy]

watah adventacha!!!! !!! :3c

#I can draw people other than Tang surprise surprise #I don't draw non-lmk content enough; I only ever talk about lmk here but I love the crk cookies too they are all so creature #ESPECIALLY sorbet shark!! little guy!!!! #Speaking of which!!! For those who don't know anything about crk all the characters present are associated with water in some way #There are so many characters here I'm gonna be tagging foreva auagahhh #sandy lmk #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #Lmk #cookie run kingdom #crk fanart #sorbet shark cookie #squid ink cookie #princess cookie #knight cookie #mango cookie #sea fairy cookie #captain caviar cookie #black pearl cookie #I could go back through and put the crk tag in for each character #But I'm lazy teehee :3c #Character identifying that literally nobody asked for: #The one on the top right is mango #The two standing on his arm are princess and knight #The one sitting on his shoulder is best cookie sorbet shark #The one holding onto Sandy's other arm is captain caviar #Directly below the last one is black pearl #And the higher up one on the other side of Sandy is sea fairy- below her is squid ink #My little creechurs heeheehoo #Zaacoy art💫

[x688plsloveme]

#there are a lot more robots with personalities in 3 than i thought #i didnt even include cerberus or godfrey #76 has a lot of robots but a lot don't feel special #4 has a much deeper focus on synths so i think they didnt want to add too many robots to keep people from associating 'machine'with'friend' #and take away from the focus of synths as machines or as people #new vegas has less interesting robots but the ones they do have really shine #fallout new vegas #fallout 4 #fallout 3 #liberty prime

[spicyicymeloncat]

Ninjago fans hate old people. Unless that old people be Garmadon. Garmadon is a dilf. He got pretty emo boy privilege apparently.

#edit: I’m turning reblogs off bc I have a more nuanced opinion and I feel like this is being used to make arguments I don’t necessarily agre #with #also too many ppl agreed with me so the post is actually wrong lol #/lh this is an exaggeration Ik not everyone hates the old people #Tbf I’ve been rewatching and wu rlly do sit there and fuck up #like in s3 there’s just a whole episode where Garmadon is like ‘Wu. Wu what the fuck. your red ninja is literally gonna blow himself up’ #‘what the shit. Wu. Don’t let the ninja go to spa- Wu YOUR NINJA ARE IN SPACE’ #‘WU MY SON IS STRANDED ON A DISTANT PLANET WTF’ #like man was so stressed that day #but yeah wu often makes plans that backfire spectacularly and continuously tries to sacrifice himself and I still love him #i find it funny #seriously tho - the vilification of old people is just a bit annoying imo #like some ppl on here associated oldness with trnsphobia and it shows #victims of extreme vilification are wu Misako dr Julien and apparently Krux?? lol #ninjago

[doctor-octiddius]

Gayest baseball team known to man !!!

THEY PUT BASHIR AND BASEBALL TOGETHER, I CAN DIE IN PEACE. I don't even care for baseball in real life, but give me a movie or something that revolves around baseball and I go insane. So you can tell how I feel about this DS9 episode, it's one of my favourites just for that reason :(

#I FUCKING LOVE BASEBALL (fictional) #sorry i am just thinking too much about this episode today. it sparks so much joy #i wish there was more sid and baseball #that is all i care about #also julian's nr being 22 is so funny to me bc i associate people with numbers and there's another julian that is 22 to me #maybe bashir is kinda 22 as well... but he's also very much like 27 #ds9 #deep space 9 #deep space nine #star trek #star trek ds9 #star trek deep space 9 #star trek deep space nine #st ds9 #take me out to the holosuite #julian bashir #julian bashir ds9 #so many characters to tag. should i really... #feeling favouritism today sorry #the star of the blog is bashir #i do feel bad about only half of nog in the first screenshot tho 😭 but they just framed it like that #my gifs yeehaw #my screenshots yeehaw #JULIAN IS SERVING C U N T BTW WHAT IS THAT ALL ABOUT FUCK IT UP TWINK

[carlyraejepsans]

i was thinking about that ask i received the other day and how uncharacteristically upset the topic had made me when i usually just think "mh. gross!" and move on, and after mulling it over a while i realized it wasn't about the topic at all, it was the ask itself that freaked me out. i've mentioned sporadically before (for obvious reasons lol) that i used to be involved in fandom discourse when i was younger and that!! fucked me up quite a lot. between exacerbating my ocd and straight up getting cyber stalked (i almost feel guilty using that word, like i don't deserve it but. yeah that is 100% what happened to me), the topic is something I have very complex and personal opinions on but that i hate talking about in public because it still sets off my fight or flight response.

i know some people in the fandom are like "let me know if i ever rb someone who wrote/drew gross stuff" and that's entirely their choice and i respect it. but for the record, i am not one of these people. please, for the love of god, i am asking this genuinely do NOT come into my DMs about this, I don't want to know. assume I'm either living in blissful ignorance or my blacklist already covers me quite nicely & i wanna keep it that way. i vastly prefer the discomfort of stumbling into something unprepared and deciding what to do about it on my own, to the utter pit of dread i get whenever i open a message that starts with "hey just so you know-". i have blocked multiple people in the past over it. i WILL block more. be warned.

[note. this doesn't apply to people who have either hurt or behaved inappropriately with other members of the fandom, or spread bigotry and discrimination like racists and transphobes. please do let me know in those cases]

does this make sense? idk I'm kinda feverish you guys figure it out. I'm going to sleep.

#word from the wise for anyone peering into the jaws of discourse. there are only 2 types of people you can trust on their opinions on it #they are 1) people who have never heard of ship discourse like. at all. and 2) people who know too much about it #and with that i mean people who started off at one end of the discourse ricochetted to the other side and then came out #objectively refusing to associate with any of it. because they Know. that whatever issue lies at the heart of it is never gonna get resolve #with the way that discourse is conducted. and that the problems will never truly be fixed. and even then #you should take three or four of them at once from different starting and ending points and let them talk it out together first #because they all came from different point of views the others could've missed #i cannot WARN YOU ENOUGH. you do not want to be the second type. don't fall in #block who you wanna block and be kind any time you can. most people aren't inherently evil & that's a weird thing to assume about someone #and for the love if god stop fucking beefing with teenagers online #that is all you need to know about this. go have fun #i haveee so many fucking. thoughts about this topic i genuinely think i could have (and have had! seriously!) constructive discussions on i #about what would be helpful and what needs to be changed and what people get wrong. but it's always in private. because of the horrors #anyway shipping wars veteran discounts when

[marshmurmurs]

remember when velara's altars made use of a dagger? good times. he did not think to put the dagger down before going to sippy on the potion. the gods all agree it was a skill issue

#mcyt #captainsparklez #vault hunters #vault hunters smp #vault gods smp #vhsmp #blood cw #death cw #marsh tries #lmk if theres any more things i should tag #iirc at this point my guy had -1 with vel and -2 with tenos #dies on the altar of a god that doesnt like him then gets possessed by a god that likes him less #hes going through so many horrors #he is also lucky idona and iskall like him #<--i subscribe to the captains vg!iskall propanda #they have pity on him tho. for the horrors of how magically whelming it is to die to the gods influence #and how that lingers much longer than with fruit where itll just be a brief moment of woahg after you leave the vault #where it feels a little like standing up too fast #then youre good #also associating tenos with silence is so so fun #omniscient god. god of knowing and seeing. knowledge at a price. knowledge without the power to do anything but observe

[aquanutart]

I absolutely LOVE the Squirtle/Wartortle illustrations by kantaro in Pokemon 151!

The Squirtle jumping so joyfully from the rock into the ocean, the colors are STUNNING! I love the contrast of the Squirtle's aqua blue framed in the vivid orange sky, the soft bit of blue reflecting in its shell and its tail just catching the sun, how little and squishy its body looks as it launches itself towards the water with such tremendous excitement!

The lineless style of the background gives me the feel of a travel poster and I sense the tropical environment around it from the rocks and trees framing the corners, the waterfall splashing with as much energy as the Squirtle!

The layered blues on the surface of the water and the bubbles rising at the corner make me FEEL the liquid rising to meet the Squirtle--I can just feel how the next moment it's going to break through and be immersed in a cool island swim!

And the Wartortle running along the sunset beach, this is somehow everything I always imagined for Wartortle! I adore the way the rich purple melts into the warm red/orange sky, the matching purple clouds and shadows in the foreground, and how the dimming sunlight glows red on Wartortle's deep blues!

I love how the yellow and orange of the sky illuminate the lapping waves, I can just feel the gentle motion of the sea at dusk. The aqua color of the ocean matches Wartortle's ears and tail and sets off the red-orange sand, I just love how the colors are here!

Wartortle looks so round and squishy, I love its happiness as it goes frolicking through the shallows, chasing the bubbles caught in the setting sun! The shine and deep shadow on its shell give it an almost jewel texture like real tortoise shell; I love the silhouetted splash Wartortle leaves as it goes running across the shore. It's so full of energy and delight at the end of a gorgeous day! The colors in these are SO vivid and harmonized and the style is so cute and bursting with energy and joy. I just LOVE it (also Squirtle is my starter)

#pokemon #pokemon tcg #long post #i have deep affection for bulbasaur as well though and i also love the bulbasaur/ivysaur cards in this set #i SO wish we'd gotten art of the final evolutions in the same style as the pre-evos' standard cards!! #(yes i do love the full art ones but i also love the illustrations on the standard cards!) #from the way the settings in these two were going; i would have imagined blastoise to be set at night (??) #i LOVE pokemon cards. i can't keep up with every set but i started collecting again now and then a few years ago #and 151 has really got me wanting the full set the way i haven't since childhood. SO many beautiful illustrations (but there always are) #it's like having little pieces of art of my favorite characters and it's only.. slightly... less expensive than actually commissioning .... #i KNOW it's less expensive to buy the individuals online but it's so much less fun #part of the fun is having YOUR own pokemon journey ((going to the store)) and seeing what YOU encounter ((when you open the pack)) #i do buy them online sometimes but i usually dont form as strong associations with them as when i open a pack in a certain setting or place #i tend to try to save them to open right before a significant event like starting something new or a holiday. so that i form associations #and it's like 'oh that's the galarian obstagoon from when my mom came home for christmas' #and 'that's the snorlax who reassured me when i was hurt' #i don't buy them too often so i've got to make it count #anyway i know i should wait for the prices on this one to come down because it's absolutely ridiculous #i didn't buy anything at release because i was like $6 for one booster pack??? but i couldn't take just sitting and watching them sell out #i really like the poster because i can look at so many beautiful pictures all together #i could say stuff like this about literally every pokemon illustration (if i had time to write it out) and sometimes i've wanted to #i just chose these two because these are a couple of my original favorite pokemon and i just couldn't keep it to myself. i LOVE these

[alexxcatboy]

hai.... pls draw Norm Allen bein gay pls pls

idk what ur wantin from me but i would've drawn him shirtless tits out slicked up in oil smoochin up on me(n) if this was twitter dot com

#digital art #fandom #dialtown art #dialtown fanart #dialtown #dialtown norm #norm allen #dialtown norm allen #fucking cowboy ass bitch #i got beef w this mf actually #too many memories associated with mister sergeant norm allen #anyways #sergeant norm allen meet lieutenant alexander catboy aka boy kisser #served two tours with the navy seals and spent the entire time finding a boyfriend #texan man meets space cowboy and kills him more at 10 #please tell me no one reads the fucking tags #shitpost #not serious

[danishsweetheartmp3]

on a relisten i feel like the volunteers in this episode are sort of a cross between breekon & hope and the students from anatomy class

#yknow #couriers of weird stuff; laugh too often; many associates; can't remember their names #i know its kinda pointless to make connections to tma but i just finished relistening and also i love her #trisha talks #tmagp