#trying to be better but I can’t

[loserhoneyy]

…

#I don’t love him and he clearly doesn’t love me #he’s using me I can tell #he knows he can manipulate me easily because he’s fucking smart and ive told him things I haven’t told other people #I need to get out of here #Fucking hell #Do I just go back or what #I mean the easiest option is to try kms again I don’t see any cons to that and I’m trying to get the thought out of my head because I’m #trying to be better but I can’t #Oh my God I can’t do this

[ruushes]

artisanal hand-crafted durge memes

#nox #shadowheart #karlach #gale dekarios #bg3 #my ocs #my art #anyway. screaming crying throwing up trying to find a drawing process that doesn’t take one million years continues #actually pretty successfully this time! these were all fairly low effort #they only took one million years bc i can’t focus on one thing at a time to save my life #oh and #blood #gore #trying to get better abt tagging that

[extoriuse]

I LOVE THEM

#spooky month #spooky month fanart #spooky month kevin #spooky month radford #I can’t believe my other ancient spooky month art is still getting notes right now AJDJSJD #Guess who decided to stop being stubborn and actually try doing bgs B] #ALSO I LOVED THE ANIMATION THIS EPISODE??? IT GOT SO MUCH BETTER LIKE WOWIE

[doctorsiren]

I saw an interesting post a while back that said “Capcom made us [Miles and Diego/Godot] only have like two(?) interactions because they knew we would be unstoppable with a brother dynamic” and tbh it stuck with me bc it was intriguing.

So yeah that potential brotherhood, but that Godot/Diego AU I made (that I still need a name for)

Also I bet Gregory Edgeworth would have smelled like a bit like coffee, and so Diego just reminds Miles of that comforting presence 😭 (the von Karma estate was a tea household, so he didn’t smell much coffee after DL-6 and didn’t realize how much he missed it/reminded him of his father)

#doctorsiren #ace attorney #ace attorney au #diego armando #prosecutor godot #miles edgeworth #comic #ace attorney fanart #good guy godot au #art #digital art #my art #fanart #procreate #loving the inconsistent styles for Miles in the panels HAHA #that post also made me think of an AU where after the Fawles case. miles goes to Diego asking for help because he can’t stop thinking about #what happened on the stand and he can’t go to his mentor bc he’s showing weakness and that’s not allowed #and essentially long story short. miles decided to drop prosecuting after one case and be a defense attorney and he asks Diego to protect #him from von karma and also to be his mentor #so it’s like Mia and Phoenix but it’s Diego and Miles and then after Diego gets poisoned. Mia has to mentor Miles and she’s a little #hesitant at first because of how cocky he was in that trial but she sees that he’s genuinely trying to be better #also Diego would ask miles: you’re trying to be what von Karma wants you to be…well..what do YOU want to be? #and miles would answer: I want to be my dad #JUST LIKE IN MY 1985 ANIMATIC #ANYWAYS I’M BRAINROTTING SO HARD RN EXCUSE ME LMAO #ALSO MY FRIEND SAID THAT IN THIS AU (the one in the post) DIEGO AND PHOENIX ARE ENEMIES TO BROTHERS #and that’s the best thing I’ve heard all day it’s such a funny statement AND IT’S TRUE!!!!

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

mmmmmMMMMMMM

#sigh #I wanted this break to be nice and relaxing #just allow myself to recharge maybe do some silly personal doodles #but we finally got the quote from the mechanic and it’s #it’s bad but it’s either get this repair or get an all new car we can’t afford #this whole month has been a terrible downward spiral and I’m #trying so hard #I’m not well #things aren’t letting up #I have no motivation to do anything enjoyable #nothing feels enjoyable #I just #I want to sleep forever #I don’t want to deal with this anymore #I still can’t seem to get a job #Q’s job is mentally destroying him because of the things he’s now being exposed to #but he’s been trying to get a new job since mid April #I #no longer feel any hope that things will get better #Christmas? #I feel no Christmas joy #I feel no joy #I picked a shit time to get off my meds but #I don’t know I’m tired of taking pills #there’s nothing wrong with needing them I get that but I just #I didn’t want that anymore #sorry I just needed to yell into the void before I lose my fucking mind #I’m fine things will be fine they’re always fine in the end they have to be

[catastrxblues]

EVERMORE by taylor swift (feat. bon iver) — “and i was catching my breath, floors of a cabin creaking under my step. and i couldn’t be sure, i had a feeling so peculiar, this pain wouldn’t be forevermore.”

my #swiftiegiftexchange2024 for @lovesickallovermybed!!!! 🫶🏽🫶🏽

#HIII HII HII how are you <3333 SO sorry for being slightly to the party but HII #i saw that you are currently recovering from surgery and i‘m wishing you all the best and =a faster recovery 💗💗 i hope you’re okay and #are feeling and getting much better every day 💗💗💗 #i’m your anon swiftie and it was really nice to get to know you!! 🫶🏽 you’re super super talented and your gifs are so so STUNNING #it was such an honor to be your anon for this event and i had such a fun time making this ! #i was SO excited when i saw that some of your favorite ts songs are evermore and idsb. really really sorry i didn’t have the time to make #something for both because my laptop went dead for sometime and i ended up only having the time to make this 😭 #evermore the song is something i hold and cherish deeply in my heart too and it was something that has seen some of the worst of my days #and so i decided to do this song for your gift instead! #i can’t really gif much and couldn’t even try #because my laptop in which i had installed ps in went rip so i decided to make you this #(slightly messy sorryy) scrapbook of my view of the song! i tried to incorporate some of the descriptive lyrics and the objects mentioned i #the song and i hope you like it 😁! #and because i think evermore is also something that IS meant to be incredibly personal to the people that listen to it #i decided to include some photos (+added highlights on every lyric that has ever touched me which is almost everything as you can see 😭) #of some of my journal pages on which i rewrote the entire lyrics (except bon iver’s addition 😅) in ‘21 when the song meant to me the most! #i hope you're having a great dayy love 🫶🏽🫶🏽 #SwiftieGiftExchange2024 #taylor swift #tswiftedit #evermore #*my edits #nadine.mp3

[vic-does-battlecats]

Minor spoilers for the already revealed chapters of the next A Starless Clan book Wind

#a starless clan #a starless clan spoilers #wind spoilers #asc spoilers #warrior cats spoilers #warriors #warrior cats #tigerheart #tigerheartstar #tigerstar 2 #tigerstar #Squirrelflight #squirrelstar #frostpaw #Nightheart #I’ve been wanting to draw this ever since the chapters were revealed and what better time than like two days til the book comes out #i actually think tigerheartstar is an interesting character in this arc he genuinely thinks he’s doing the right thing and he does honestly #want to help. he just does it by trying to crack dad jokes to lighten the mood while trying to run a group that doesn’t want him there #i also think it’s funny that he’s consistently just chill with taking in cats thrown out of their clans. ESPECIALLY from RiverClan #don’t get me wrong he’s super weird in omen of the stars and avos and I think in his super edition (I haven’t read it in a while) #but he’s also a good dad. he’s such a perplexing character I can’t help but find him interesting. at least he DOES stuff yknow #I’ll eat my words if he does turn out to be completely evil or something. but I’ll hate if he does his behavior really isn’t like Tigerstar #-the first. this guy isn’t out here trying to seize power #but ENOUGH ABOUT HIM!! Nightheart asking squirrelstar if frostpaw could come to thunderclan with him was so sweet #i wish she’d accepted I don’t want them to split up I’m worried the writers will forget the entire last book and they won’t be close again

[monkeybebop]

They are in love guys, I promise

Nacho’s just waiting for Lalo to stfu

#based on some image I found on insta lmao #DUDE I’m so tired I’ve been getting to sleep deprived trying to finish art #once I start I can’t stop #it just be like that sometimes #will I ever learn how to like the way I draw them?? who knows! #I just wanna dump this somewhere lmao #my art #versacebong art #digital art #artist on tumblr #character art #doodles #better call saul #lalo bcs #lalo salamanca #nacho varga bcs #nacho varga better call saul #lalo x nacho #lacho #tengo un chingo de sueño no mames #mátame #alright guys hope you all have a good day or night :)

[whaliiwatching]

noir ideas…

#spider man: into the spiderverse #spider noir #peni parker #ignore me i can’t draw people running #curly haired noir brought to you by sephardic jewish noir truthers #supported by the lovely hobie gang #i rlly love the idea that he has ptosis i am keeping it from heRE ON OUT #the curly hair just doesn’t fit imo but i’ll try again another time #i’ll drop a bigger better sketch tomorrow dw #this is just prep ;)

[unicyclingdogs]

blue shirt buddies!!! :)

#lu fanart #linked universe #lu wild #lu wind #THIS DRAWING WAS FIGHTING ME GUYS #I’m not 100% satisfied with this but I can’t look at it anymore 😭 #but it looks wayyyy better than it did earlier #so I’ll take it 👍 #my art pre rendering always looks so rough 💀💀💀 #also increasing the saturation of the color helped so much it’s literally a lifesaver #ASLO ALSO GUESS WHO GOT INTO AN ART SCHOOL 😎😎😎 #dude im so excited for september!!! trying to transfer colleges was rlly stressful and I can’t wait for it to be behind me #but yeah that’s whats been going on for me :) #WAIT‼️‼️‼️ art tag #uni art :)

[crybaby-bkg]

Bakugou finds himself trying to live up to an expectation he never thought he would have to—being some kind of sex god. He’s not really sure how this rumor started, or from who, seeing as most of his experiences were with close friends that he knew didn’t run their mouths about his sex life. But after so much ‘news’ being spread about his uncanny abilities in the bed, he finds himself trying to live up to its expectations.

Which makes sex with you…entirely too awkward. It’s not that he doesn’t wanna do it, or that he’s not attracted to you (couldn’t be farther from the truth, actually). It’s the fact that he’s sure you’ve heard the rumors, read the stories from tabloids and shitty Reddit posts. You must have, with the way you smile all sultry up at him and rub a hand down his bicep and grin all prettily at him.

It’s why he cusses extremely loud in the otherwise quiet room when he’s above you, and slips. He’s still not sure how it happened; you were laying beneath him and he was on his knees in between your legs, resting his weight on his hands beside your head. He knows it couldn’t have been a strength thing, with his arms giving out, but he’s embarrassed nonetheless.

Especially when the slip makes his head knock against yours.

You groan loudly, rubbing your head as Bakugou cusses again, pulling his body weight from on top of you as he sits on his knees. He’s irritated now, at his stupidity, at the weight of being better than he knew he actually was weighing on him so heavily, that it’s fucked up your first time together. He opens his mouth to apologize, ask if you want him to drop you off back at home, but he stops himself when he sees your wide grin and hears your quiet laughter.

“Me almost knocking you unconscious with my head is funny to you?” He asks accusingly, but he can’t help the small smile tugging his lips when his words only make you laugh louder. You nod at him, giggling all the while you pull him down on top of you again. He gives a little resistance before he falls onto you until his nose brushes yours.

“Yes, actually.” You chuckle, soft eyes searching his. “It’s nice to see that Dynamight is actually human, and still occasionally fucks up.” You whisper, smile diminishing but genuine all the while. It makes Bakugou soften, a huff escaping his nose as he mashes his lips against yours until you feel teeth and giggle again.

“I never fuck up,” he grunts against your mouth, smiling when he feels your smile against his own.

“Tell that to the knot on my forehead.” You snark back before he’s pulling you in again.

Realistic sex with him includes the time you both laughed when you released too much air while in doggy position and it made a funny sound. And when he accidentally stumbled while carrying you and you bit his lip too hard to be sexy. And when he collapsed from exhaustion on top of you after trying to initiate, instead finding comfort in pulling out of you so you two could just cuddle instead.

#I am so sleepy goodnigj #I love him sm tho #I thought about this a few days ago #and was like wow I love realistic seggs mainly bc you don’t see it often in fiction #which is TOTALLY fine by me lmfao but I like it #he has so much pressure to be perfect and inhuman and godly in a sense #that it’s just nice to see he’s really just some dude who’s working on himself and trying to better for those around him #and for his own peace of mind #okay gn fr #I had a touya Drabble I wanted to write but I can’t open my eyes fully #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫

[ohwellokcomputer]

my trust in goyim is so broken. I don’t think it can ever be repaired. I can’t believe how much people hate Jews for no reason other than we exist and they dislike that.

#jumblr #chelsea speaks #fuck JVP #organization of white goy trying to make themselves feel better and taking advantage of jews #can’t believe i used to respect and trust them #this isn’t directed at jvp volunteers who are working in the food banks and donating medical supplies etc y’all are doing gods work #it’s directed at the goyim who run that org and use jews as mouthpieces and puppets

[lavander-galaxy]

Something something Zac’s character having a sworn duty to protect Lou’s character

something something I’ve seen this film before and I didn’t like the ending

#the ravening war #dimension 20 #d20 the ravening war #d20 spoilers #colin provolone #thane delissandro katzon #amethar rocks #lapin cadbury #d20 acoc #IM TRYING SO HARD NOT TO MANIFEST ANYTHING #cause if Colin dies I WILL NEVER RECOVER #but I simply can’t help but point out similarities #I love colin and thane dearly #they are sooooooo #nothing bad better happen to them

[nightswatchdisbandmentera]

I really don’t think we should be treating morality as a linear thing in ASOIAF because what often happens is that we start to stray from the actual conversations that we need to be having regarding the depths of making a moral choice and even the circumstances involved. To try and blankly paint any one character as the “most morally good” isn’t really taking us anywhere. And it certainly isn’t helpful when people in this fandom want to try and prove that characters are “grey” but not moral (what does that even mean??) because they did one “bad” thing. If ASOIAF stans were to have their way, then:

Jon is not a morally good person because he threatened Gilly

Dany cannot be considered to be compassionate because she sanctioned torture against the wine seller’s daughters

Arya cant be good because she has killed people

and so on, and so on….

But this is such a draining, and oft times frustrating, conversation to have because you see just how shallow the above listed examples are? Readers are listing only singular instances across a narrative that spans thousand and thousands of pages, and there’s absolutely no context involved. Why did Jon threaten Gilly? Why did Dany resort to torture and at one point did she do it? Who did Arya kill and why? And why do those singular instances negate everything else in their arcs?

What usually happens when we have the 12847647282th unnecessary conversation about who is the “most good” character in ASOIAF is that we start getting blanket statements with no elaboration. And the only people ever considered are Ned, Brienne, and Davos, and sometimes the children like Shireen or Tommen. Mind you, Ned and Davos are not perfect or without their own faults either; much has been said about Ned’s abilities as a father and it’s implied that Davos was not entirely faithful to his wife. And based on her current arc, Brienne will surely have to make morally tough choices regarding oaths and knightly honor. Plus theres the irony of including literal children when they have not been put in situations where they actually have to make morally difficult choices and live with the consequences.

ASOIAF shows us that people who are capable of incredible kindness and compassion are also capable of doing unpleasant things.

Jon threatened Gilly….because he was trying to save another child whom he believed to be at risk of human sacrifice(!!) and was stuck between a rock and a hard place. But why does that singular instance negate the fact that his arc has been about him standing up for the “lesser than”? Why does that negate the fact that he stood up for Sam against a superior when there was nothing to gain for him? Why does it negate the fact that he went out of his way to equip Arya in a way that society would have deemed inappropriate? Why does it negate the fact that he dedicated the entirety of his time as Lord Commander to fight an institution that had upheld racism/xenophobia for millennia? Why should we filter out all those moments of kindness, compassion, and deep empathy that Jon has even without him thinking?

Dany sanctioned torture….but she was trying to solve the murder of an innocent victim AND this brought her no joy. But why does that negate the fact that when she gained unimaginable power, she could’ve high tailed to Westeros to use it to her benefit and become queen, but instead chose to stay in Essos where she has no personal responsibility just so she could fight the institutional evil that is slavery? Why does it negate Dany who went to personally treat plague victims at great risk to herself?

Arya has killed some….but it’s in self defense or in defense of others who are disenfranchised. But why does this negate that she is one of the few people in the series how goes out of her way to show kindness and friendship to those who are not as economically or politically advantaged as she is (e.g., Mycah)? Why does it negate that she took fellow slaves under her protection when she herself had little power to fight for her own survival at Harrenhall? Why does it negate that when she saw those caged soldiers whom she was angry with for their actions, instead of leaving them to die instead offered them the only kindness she could at the moment: a drink of water?

Trying to have arguments about morality but stripping everything down to ‘x character did y bad thing (regardless of context) and that’s why they can’t be good’ is, to be blunt, ridiculous. And it isn’t a particularly interesting way to engage with the text. Character journeys, especially well written ones, are rarely ever in a straight line. There’s amazing highs and terrible lows. GRRM gives us so many characters like Jon, Dany, Arya, Sansa, Ned, etc. who even in their lows, have gleams of compassion and exceptional kindness. It doesn’t do anyone any good to filter those moments out to make the books more digestible; and I’m being a little generous here, because so many readers have a very shallow level of engagement with the series and it shows in conversation. And we also shouldn’t pit these characters unfairly against those who have never been in similarly difficult situations that required them to make hard choices. Because when we do, we start to completely miss the point all together.

#asoiaf #valyrianscrolls #yeah this came out of a particular thread on Reddit and I was just like….🫠 those people can’t be serious fjsnsnssjsb #trying to argue that jon is not a good person because he *checks notes* slept with ygritte and broke his nw vows #yeah let’s crucify a FIFTEEN YEAR OLD for not conforming to absolutely ridiculous norms that have absolutely no bearing to his true purpose #asoiaf stans when a literal child isn’t happy about dumb rules set by a penal colony that’s akin to indentured servitude: #surprised pikachu face #and the audacity to say garlan Tyrell is a better person that Jon or Dany or arya #what books are yall reading???? #what has he ever done that’s remotely comparable to these people that proves he is the height of honor or selflessness?? #nothing #we know literally nothing about this guy I’m- #tagging #jon snow #daenerys targaryen #arya stark #because it’s relevant in context

[blood-loving-leech]

“it’s time to lose your self loathin, excuse yourself, let hope in baby”

#yeah so this are my favorite lines #anyone who thinks husk is being a dick needs to listen to the song properly #he’s telling angel he can’t hate himself for how things have gone forever #he has to learn to live with himself and believe better days can come #once he accepts that things are shit and he’s a loser he can move forward #instead of trying to continue pretending everything is fine #i love them #anyway #huskerdust #loser baby #˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ jasper jabbers ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

[froggtogs]

still trying to figure out style stuff (this time with four!)

#i finally caved and got a physical copy of the fsa manga and it came early i can’t wait to read it i’m so excited #i have a long plane ride tmrw and i’m going to read the living daylight out of it #anyways #i was gonna draw the whole chain in this sort of style but i sketched out a few people and then focused way too much on four #i like this style but i absolutely despise doing lineart #trying to get better at drawing things that aren’t rocks or birds #we’ll see #anyways have a great day :) #linked universe #lu four #linked universe fanart #art #fanart #froggtogs