#tw for personal reasons

[syrren]

“The artist becomes the canvas!” - TMAGP 002: Making Adjustments

#tma #the magnus protocol #tmagp #the magnus archives #fanart #the magnus protocol spoilers #tw: body horror #kinda??? #this is the most vague fanart i could possibly post im so sorry #i swear i've also started drawing the actual. yaknow. characters? #but for personal reasons episode two hit so close to home for a second I thought Alex j newall had acquired access to my medical records #so I had to get this out of my system LOL #myart

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[crimson-rain-smoked-flower]

I’m not trying to attack you, but do you know that proshipper means someone who supports and romanticizes pedophilia, incest, and abuse? Your reblog on that post seems to read that you think antis just hate on people for having ships they don’t like. But it’s completely different than that. Just looking on the proshipper side of Tumblr and the internet and you can see people happily shipping children and adults and making nsfw content of such things.

i appreciate that you're not being outright hostile, but i have to say, that on its own put you above basically every anti i've interacted with.

i understand where antis are coming from, i really do. there are a lot of things on the internet that make me deeply uncomfortable, including the minor/adult ships that you mention. i don't want to anything to do with those kinds of ships and i would be happiest if i never saw them again. which is why i'm proship.

nine times out of ten, if i see that kind of ship brought up on my dash, it's because i was following an anti without realizing it, and they brought it up unprompted and untagged, to talk about how bad it is that they exist. they are the ones putting that kind of content in front of my face and making it harder to avoid.

the thing about people who ship those ships is that they're generally very aware that not everyone wants to see that kind of content, and so they tag it. they make sideblogs to talk about it. they don't go out of their way to shove it in people's faces. that means i, and everyone else who doesn't like it, can avoid it.

what antis want is for it to not exist at all. they want the tags to be purged and blocked, and for anyone who uses those tags to have their accounts deleted. and sure, that might get rid of some of it, but do you know what would happen to the rest? it would stop being tagged. people who don't want to see it wouldn't have the tools to avoid it. this isn't just a hypothetical, that's what's happened any time a fan space has tried to do that.

that's not even getting into the rabbit hole of what should be banned and what shouldn't. obviously any content that depicts real children or real life abuse shouldn't exist and shouldn't be allowed to be posted, but basically any platform that people use already enforces those policies, and there's not much of a slippery slope to go down there. if it involves real living breathing people being abused, it's bad. end of discussion.

but the same can't be said for fiction. ask ten antis for a specific list of all the content that should be banned, and you'll get ten different answers. what about kink? what about roleplay? what about horror and murder and anything that involves fictional characters being graphically tortured? what about people using art to process terrible things that have happened to them? what about art that uses dark themes as a horror element? if you just want to ban anything questionable to anyone, that's the line of thinking that gets any mention of lgbt existence banned. and again, this isn't just a hypothetical, this has happened before, and that's generally where it leads.

i know, from personal experience, that antis do, in fact, send harassment to people just for shipping things they don't like. i've gotten accused of absolutely vile shit for shipping two fictional characters who were both consenting adults. i've seen ship wars turn into moral battlegrounds, over ships that an average person wouldn't bat an eye at.

the thing about "romanticization" is a whole other can of worms. the anti logic goes like this: if someone sees something (even if it's very obviously fictional) in a positive light enough times, they will start thinking it's okay in real life, and go on to hurt real people. the problem with that is that it's just. blatantly untrue.

if it were true every horror movie fan would be a serial killer, every person that studies dark media would be an unhinged psychopath, and everyone who is into ddlg would be a pedophile. but they're not. they just aren't. people have directed movies just as fucked up as the darkest shit on ao3, and are still capable of being normal human beings who know right from wrong in real life.

even if someone is that impressionable, scrubbing away the existence of every piece of questionable content isn't going to solve their problem, because they're still going to be vulnerable to con men, scams, and cultists. the only thing that would actually materially help someone like that is developing their own morals and critical thinking.

children are also more impressionable, and there's a lot of content that's not suitable for them, but that doesn't mean that content shouldn't exist. it just means that they should stick to spaces designed for them (which most social media sites, tumblr included, are not) or, if they're old enough to be responsible for their experience online, they, or a trusted adult in their lives, should block and filter out things that they aren't comfortable with.

which is what everyone on the internet should be doing. it's what i do, and it's made the internet a much more pleasant place to be. and it's why i sometimes worry for antis mental health, especially teenagers, because they're being told it's right and moral to seek out content that makes them uncomfortable and to engage with the people making it. and that's just. really bad. it's not good for the creators that they're harassing obviously, but it's also really bad for them! it's not healthy to seek out things that make you feel bad, and it's a terrible internet safety lesson to teach minors that it's okay for them to seek out and engage with people making adult content.

individual harassment and crusading is never going to succeed at removing dark content from the internet. it just isn't. at best you might get a small percentage of people who create that content to stop sharing it, at worst you're just going to make people stop tagging it, and either way, you're exposing yourself to things that make you feel bad, when you don't have to.

if you want to materially change the type of content you see, you can. the block button is your friend, use it liberally. same with content filtering and tag blocking.

#oops this got really long #cd.ask #proship #disk horse #tw pedophila mention #uhhh what to tag #tw shipping discourse #this doesn't even get into the antis that i've seen proudly professing that they care more about fictional characters than real people #because i don't know how to explain to someone that real humans matter more than cartoon characters #or how to avoid content on platforms other than tumblr bc frankly thats a lot of the reason i don't use them #i don't trust an algorithm #also im turning anon off after posting this so if you want to send me hate you cant be a coward about it #also be prepared to get blocked and ignored #the only reason i answered this person is bc they weren't being hostile

[uncanny-tranny]

The whole "breasts shouldn't be politicized because the primary purpose of breasts is to feed babies!" can be a fine jumping-off point, but I really wish people thought deeper than that when we talk about the ways in which bodies are politicized and restricted.

Like, why's it that when we talk about breasts, they must have some Higher Purpose? It's true that breasts aren't inherently sexual, but they aren't valuable solely because they can potentially feed a baby. A human body doesn't have to serve a Higher Purpose in order for it to not be legislated against or policed, and I just wish people would remember it isn't always about babies, about other people, about anything else other than the people who have that body.

#feminism #dysphoria tw #your body doesn't need to have an Intrinsic Worthwhile Purpose so that you can live without fear #and it is fine if people say this to criticize the way breasts are overly sexualized and fetishized or what have you... #...but i encourage people to not see this as an end-all-be-all argument #because this opens discussions about how we politicize bodies and how we interpret them #i see overlap between this and the way trans bodies are politicized and policed honestly #and i guess personally i'm just so tired of the idea that to be safe your body Must Have A Good Reason To Be #and i fear this may reinforce the idea that we Must Serve Purposes and Be Useful and Used #ask to tag (genuine) #and what would this say for childless people? or people who cannot bear children? if they have breasts are they 'useless bodies' #because i have seen the ways some people's bodies are treated when they do not 'work PROPERLY' and that scares me #it scares me to potentially start treating people with different bodies as Defective and Unworthy and Unproductive #and i don't always trust when people latch onto purpose-driven arguments for human bodies that it stops at that y'know #have seen some discussion amd whatnot so 👍 #is it now time to clock put and be a silly goose yet?

[bubbarnes]

from lisachristinwinchester' tiktok - february 21, 2024.

#always gonna hate blue/purple lights because of reasons lmao #but he looks too fucking good so whatever #bless this person for posting this one #sebastian stan #sebastianstanedit #sebstanedit #fysebastianstan #gbbb #tw flashing

[murmel-malt]

decided to do a redraw of one of my Sansa pieces from 2 years ago to see if and how my art has changed and hopefully improved.

link to the original post: x and a repost of the old one under the cut

#my art #sansa stark #sansa stark fanart #shewolfsource #sansasource #iheartsansa #dailysansastark #thenorthsource #valyrianscrolls #tw: blood #look like i said in the tags of the original post: i love that she has retained her kindness and is overall a gentle person #but for some reason the thought of her tearing someone's throat out with her teeth and going feral is very appealing to me

[littlespidermonkey]

Just saw a post that said Scott and Stiles are not in love with each other. WRONG. they are so transcendentally in love with each other that they don't know they're in love and have instead resorted to saying shit like "I want to be the same person as you. We need to merge" and thinking it is normal. They are the epitome of weird, fucked up, closeted even to yourself, codependent queer friendship, guy edition. This is not projection

#lee rambles on and on #tw #teen wolf #sciles #in all honesty i have read all the st--erek fic out there and i've still never seen the appeal #sciles tho??? idk maybe im watching a different show than everyone else but it's the fuckin. core of the show to me #again. for reasons that could never ever have anything to do with projecting my personal experiences at time of watching onto the show :P

[shey-pancake]

TW: S/A topics ⚠️

so, I wanted to make a self-insert oc as this is my new comfort story, and that I feel represented, I had to !! I did two versions, a normal one and a "at work" one

meet: Yellow 💛

he is a friend of blue, and has also suffered from S/A.

Victaton has already clarified that blue is the only one man in the company, but this is just a silly self insert of mine for my own comfort, so it doesn't matter, both mutually support each other <3

#art #tw: sa #blue #gacha #gacha art #gacha community #gacha series #blue story #gacha oc #gacha life 2 #gacha edit #see that purple mark? #it isn't there for nothing #notice the size difference #I am very short irl so my self insert also is #the reason of why it isn't purple is because in the story purple in designs represents that the person is bad #and you can easily tell by their look #ye #will do thingys with yellow as a way to vent and cope

[oh-katsuki]

yk when someone dies and you just have to... sit with it.. and you're like... how do i tell people something is wrong. how do i tell people who never met them or knew them or spoke to them that something happened. and it feels selfish somehow to even talk about it out loud but at the same time for some reason you feel like you have to. like somehow you're telling a lie or being disrespectful or being self-indulgent. when the reality is that you just don't want to be alone in grief. but they didn't know them and even after saying something, you're alone anyway.

#i don't even know what to do with myself #for some reason #talking abt it here feels less intrusive than calling a friend and talking about it #but it still feels selfish for some reason #even though i know i just need to find a way to process #and i can't help but be like.. well i won't tell anyone because what if it's a mistake? #what if she's fine? and at home somewhere or in her kitchen singing? #or practicing for her next show #idk grief is weird #and i hate that i'll have to go to another friend's funeral. #tw: grief #tw: death #vent #personal

[bayleymania]

It’s unbelievable how wrestling fans judge wrestler’s bodies: “Adam is too skinny”, “Eddie is too fat”, “Jade is too muscular”, “Orange is too small”, “Bayley is too thick”, “Alexa looked better when she was thicker”, “Claudio used to be more muscular”, “Bryan has a weird body”, “Kota gained weight”, “Kevin is too fat”, “Charlotte looks too skinny and muscular”, “Deonna needs to lose weight”, “Jordynne looks like a man”… all of these are things I’ve actually read on social media and I feel DISGUSTED by it. No one is enough.

These people put their bodies through so much in order to entertaining us and THIS is what people actually care about. FUCK IT.

#wrestling #I am so angry #as a person who STILL deals with the consequences that two ED’s did to my body #the fact that every meal is still a fucking challenge #reasons this shit angers me bc you have no clue how much these things can affect you #and also people who look at them and say ‘hey they have my body type’ just for then read someone calling them names and insulting them #FUCK THISSSS UGH #lexie speaks #tw bodyshaming

[slavicafire]

facebook really wants to deal me psychic damage. why are you recommending this to me. why do I have to see someone doing this to themselves and their life because they want to be skinny. why

this sounds utterly utterly hopeless and heartbreaking

#żmija gada #tw ed #I assume #and before anyone tries to say something about keto for medical reasons. no. this is a person who wanted to be skinny and is now skinny #and tells others they should be skinny as well

[dailyloopdeloop]

DAY 17: tasty boiga

#codacheetah #isat #loop isat #tw food #they call me mister weird bad perspective shots. on account of the #look im an american when i realized i had never drawn a burger before i felt a bolt of shame. #also for whatever fucking reason for a solid 3 week span in february i had the overwhelming desire to draw this. loopburger haunted me #and now i have an excuse to make it real #'mr codacheetah sir why is that star person holding that burger so aggressively?' you may ask #idk a burger killed their grandma okay #i didnt really sketch this drawing out i just blacked out and a burger was on my canvas and then there was a loop around the burger #im on ms paint here i aint got layers. this burger is being gripped for burger crimes. thats just the way it is.

[vcrnons]

JUN [INSIDE SEVENTEEN] 'Rock With You' Special Video BEHIND.

#jun #moon junhui #wen junhui #seventeen #svt #*mine #my gif #tw eyestrain #one of those many many occasions in which i have a vision and then idk. i go blind midway through or something #regardless i love him and he's pretty and this needed to happen for personal reasons #helloooooooo mister that smoulder????? put me in the ground smh #heymax #maddieblr #they all looked sooooo good in this video tho #probably plenty more where this came from😔 so uhhhhh lets give it a tag #rwysvbh #why is his adam's apple always so. fucken. prominent ????? #why am i sweating over it lmao #send help

[quietmtntown]

cartman has a big history of CSA..trauma

@ccartman

#tw: CSA #south park #cartman #eric cartman #gifs #theres a reason cartman tries to maintain a domniant personality

[uncanny-tranny]

Whenever people who are entrenched in diet culture talk about how terrible chemicals are, I just want to whip out this:

#diet culture #diet culture tw #described images #image description in alt #'it's got CHEMICALS in it' and so do you! and me too! IT'S ALL CHEMICALS ALL THE WAY DOWN #instead of running from this world we must learn to embrace it #i'm not particularly angry at people who say this because it makes me think that they're incredibly invested in diet culture... #...i just don't want the whole 'food = bad' or 'bodies = bad' to go unchallenged... #...part of the reason why diet culture seems just as prevalent now (if not moreso) is partially because it isn't really... #...challenged or questioned without provocation. it's just assumed to be correct because it makes you 'feel in control' #when chemicals are bad you can control what chemicals you consume. it's individualistic and places the blame onto you for 'being good' #it places responsibility onto the person in such a way that it becomes impossible to fulfill #it isn't that i'm upset that people want to treat their bodies in a way they think is responsible... #...moreso that the *way* they go about it ensures that they're stuck in a cycle of self-blame and even self-hatred #because the METHOD is ineffective. not the desire to treat your body well #also the state of ohio looks stupid and i do Not respect it #it looks like a ball that is simultaneously deflated and over-inflated #also their state flag looks silly to me #it looks like the person who was making it fell asleep making it #i'm just clowning on ohio at this point. have never been to ohio but. are you guys okay

[dark-magical-ships]

Honestly the only thing better than being in love is being in love with a fictional character

#fictosexual #fictoromantic #f/o community #selfshipper #self ship #in system relationship #proselfship #proselfship please interact #🐉💙 cocoashipping 💙🐉 #i know sometimes we tend to get hung up on the negatives like not being able to touch them or limited content of them #but honestly I’d choose one of my other/ship-for-fun f/os over an irl partner any day of the week #Seto of course is in a class of his own. #he’s in a weird grey area that half irl (because real person) and half fictional (because fictroject headmate) #but a lot of the same reasons still apply #just… a bit to the left I guess lol #idk I have been drinking wine lol #tw alcohol #tw alcohol mention #<-in the tags but just in case