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ourdreamsareneon · 7 months
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okay *cracks knuckles* I did a post about gale, time for his better half - astarion
Some of you don't have media literacy and it shows.
I dont know where to start so I'm gonna go hard before getting soft (insert sex joke.) Act 1 astarion is an asshole. He's manipulative and toxic and uses his power as a ~230 year old vampiric high elf to manipulate you into (among other things) having sex with him. I understand falling for him at that point, that's not your fault it's just the game gaming and the writers are really good at how they write his manipulation. However, it does strike me as strange that some of y'all get to the scene where he confesses to using and manipulating you and you....don't care? 'He's just damaged! its not his fault!' babygirl, someone can have a good reason for hurting you, but that doesn't take away the pain. I'm not saying that you shouldn't still love him, but it's strange how many of you disregard that scene. I know for me at least I was saddened by it and definitely was a little wary about him afterwards until beating Cazador and unlocking the nice happy healthy Astarion relationship.
Now here's where we get soft to prove that I actually like Astarion. The reason that confession stings for me is because I have many a memory of being SA'd then being told "I'm not even into you, you were just there." Ever since I stopped being a girl and became a woman, something that happened all too early in my life, I have been used and abused. And hey, sorry for making my Tav the exact same way but I like processing my trauma through D&D. I relate a lot to Astarion. Hurt people hurt people and I know that better than anyone. I also know better than anyone that picking yourself up and healing from that hurt sucks ass. Which brings me to two points. Um apologies for getting hard on you again.... insert another sex joke here.
1) Astarion isn't ace. I've seen this briefly and while I appreciate the need for queer rep, and love headcanons, I do think this discounts the struggle a lot of SA survivors go through. Okay, back to my life so we can compare. When I was chin deep in my abusive relationships and just general shitty time of my life, I was fucking and sucking literally so much it hurt. However as soon as I got out of that situation, I basically became celibate for 2 years. I didn't know how to have sex in a way that was healthy, or that wouldn't make me feel awful about myself. It was only this year that I was able to finally have sex in a way that made me happy. I think you'd be blind not to see Astarion in the same way. He's just a hurt man that is trying to rediscover and heal himself. Which is why he doesn't care about Tav and Halsin, and why you can have sex on his grave. He is very sexually open he just needs some time.
2) Ascended Astarion isn't sexy and I don't think some of you are ready for that conversation. Look I don't have time to go through this because I have a meeting in 30 minutes because I'm an adult with bad time management. But I just. Come here. Come real close. Abusive relationships aren't hot and sexy. We all love a little bit of kink but if you don't see Ascended Astarion as clearly the bad choice, I'm very confused. He's so sweet and loving and kind and HEALED if you don't let him ascend, I can't imagine not wanting that. And like I said, kink is fine! And ascending him because you're doing an evil run or whatever is also fine! Just please, I need teenagers to stop romanticising abuse because the media you consume does rub off on you.
TL;DR I love Astarion with all my heart, but by the writers own admission he was created as a Try Not To Overly Sexualise an Abuse Survivor Challenge and y'all are failing left and right!
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ragingtwilight · 6 months
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why the fuck is everyone asleep when im awake and chronically online!!!! wake the fuck up so i can annoy you!!!!!!!!!
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bonefall · 1 year
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What about catnip tea? I’ve seen it made for cats before and have thought about including it in my fanclans as a faux alcohol, though the effects are a bit different.
The big difference between catnip and alcohol is that for cats, catnip is a stimulant where alcohol is a depressant.
You could use catnip as a faux alcohol, but more likely is that catnip tea would be more like drinking coffee than having a beer.
Funny enough valerian root has very similar effects to catnip for cats, which is why I used valerian specifically for that Dried Minnows entry. Like having a straight shot of caffeine, it could really give a warrior a boost during a hard journey.
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depression-permanent · 4 months
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Body check below + drug tw
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I thrive on stims i do good on stims I am a better person to be around on stims
I have no idea how much I weigh but I know I’ve lost some weight. I’m bonier in my chest I’ve noticed. I haven’t weighed in because my scale is broken and I kinda want someone else to replace it since I’m broke
I’ve had a horrible year, it’s December 31st 2023 and to sum it up it was traumatic and damaging and wasted. Here’s to 2024, cheers to stims for fixing me
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bigshot-furbiestm · 10 months
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ill be having a full blown panic attack and my music is just like
😝😝💗💦💦👁👄👁✨️✨️🌸🌸
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castelias-cat-queen · 3 months
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If you could permanently fix the gilding issue, what would you do with that power?
Turn every atom on the planet into gold and then immediately kill myself.
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That adhd moment when you suddenly get hyperfixated on wanting to do a project and the impulse to do it is so strong that you're fighting every fiber of your being not to buy all the supplies and do it for 15 minutes then get bored and now you have a bunch of supplies that might never get put to use again
(had to stop taking the meds a few days ago because very bad stomach issues and I can't afford them, so all I have is anti anxiety meds and caffeine. Other than that I'm going back into life raw pfffff-)
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hawnks · 2 years
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all of the nurses at the clinic being extra special nice to me becuase i came in looking like this:
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roseofcards90 · 1 year
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“This may cause high blood pressure when taken together” okay bet
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infectbait · 2 years
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"It’s not a ‘rights of that fic child’ situation it’s a Youre weird for that situation"
Using it/its pronouns is also weird, but it's not harming anyone, is it? Being transqueer is weird. Being nd is weird. You are weird. People are, in fact, allowed to be weird - including in ways you don't like, actually. The reason people make it into a "'rights of that fic child' situation", as you call it, is because the only "person" being harmed... is that fictional child, who isn't actually a person.
You're 17 years old. That is plenty old enough to have figured out that "being weird" is not a crime and that your moral standards should be based on whether real people's rights are being violated, not whether you personally find something weird or icky. You really should be beyond that by now.
And before you try to go all "how dare you compare being queer to these icky things", please take a moment to remember that conservatives vilify queerness because they find it "disgusting" and "perverse", and the reason they are wrong to do so isn't because they are morally obligated to like queerness but bc being queer doesn't harm anyone and they are basing their morality on their personal feelings of disgust rather than a system of "does this cause harm?"
so many words for your sentiment being ""i finger myself to cartoon children being molested and thats okay because being gay was wrong back in the day too""
come off anon next time or are you aware that the majority people, shipcourse engagers or not, would find you disgusting
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ragingtwilight · 5 months
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BRUH
EVERYTIME I feel like im starting to feel better my body just turns around and flips me off
mf sends me off w a shove down the stairs, nausea, sweating/tremors, headache, confusion, dizziness, it pantsed me, it stole my lunch money, it gave me a swirlie, i cant fuckin win
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boxedforyourdemise · 2 years
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Made a new friend but I infodump and occasionally traumadump because I get stimmed and go straight to their DMs cuz they're always so nice and understanding and supportive. Open minded, good at listening. Closer to my age than any of my other internet friends excepting ones I also consider irl friends bc we know where each person lives and their jobs and personal struggles and just. Talk n act like friends who meet up every week to chill do. + Planned meetups (like international or interstate travel) when time and circumstances and finances allow
But like @geeseinatrenchcoat was the gem I was looking for in the wreckage of my last friend group. And honestly I feel bad for spamming and talking all the time about so many things for so long and blowing up their DMs but also I love them and default to them when I think of who to turn to in times of need or boredom outside of my fiancée.
Like uhhhhhhhh send them love cuz they are truly the best system friend we have ever made. And it was completely accidental. Just cuz I was making that server and needed help and they just so happened to know it was wanted by at least a few systems. And they liked doing the technical work while I handled aesthetic and small details.
And we put it together in three days and it went up a day ahead of schedule.
I've not clicked with somebody so fucking fast in so long and it's scary and I'm worried some part of me or opinion or secret or action will turn them away or that they'll turn against me or hurt.me or start some petty unhinged crazy shit on me but then
Then I say the things and they respond with support, even if we disagree we still accept that people disagree sometimes and it's often not a great reason to bail on a relationship. Especially a new one with lots of strength and potential.
Lol not trying to make y'all uncomfy. I just felt like expressing love and appreciation for the people I view as important to me.
I may not know much about you guys but I look forward to every nugget of knowledge I glean from our interactions.
<3
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krockat · 8 months
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hi i was randomly reading tags late at night on videos, and i saw yours you added onto https:// www dot tumblr dot com/krockat / 726501511214022656 a while back asking for the source of the music and not sure if you ever figured it out so apologies if you did, but its part of the ost from the anime black butler, not a game! but if someone did use it in a game i hope you find it too!
ouffh..... anon........
see... in that post in those very tags you speak of.. . I.. i did promise i would give plenty praise and love to those who would help solve my mystery.....
and you did nothing wrong anon.
you are a beacon of light, a shining example of a person just randomly going out of their way to be a nice little light-shedder-on-er-er, while prev just doing some'n simple n pleasurable (as pleasurable as the mixed crockpot of reading random strangers tags Can be) for themself.
but.. lemme tell you.... this is rough news.
to have a rare glance of something so similar to this great (i mean no, the quality of said game itself might be questionable, but a great soundtrack and alternative Weirdness and nostalgia of a seemingly never discussed old playstation game relic of my memory lossy past - it is despite it all quite great a) mystery -
it was so hopeful and enticing!
and then i learned.. and then i learned.. it was actually from my number one enemy-anime Black Butler!!
you see, black butler and I have history.
apart from it being a creepy show where two adult demons thirst for a child boy (that for some further context also had an unfairly banger ost that deep inspired my youth), it was, infact, and here comes an actual Real trigger warning for the content ahead:
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warning you, here it comes! the tags will have what specific triggers this is about.
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a tool used in grooming me.
so, while i really am grateful for your kind message and explanation - to find that this music that was so similar to what i remember from the soundtrack of the game - was actually from that show? Oh real unfortunate. just realllll unfortunate.
lemme tell ya when i woke up to read i got a notif w the beginning premise that someone had figured out this mystery song - meaning also maybe the coveted mystery game?
even barely awake and conscious as i was, and just really there initially wanting to check what time it was, because my alarm certainly hadn't called yet and the darkness seeping from my curtained window spoke of other promises -
and when then i ofc immediately opened that shit up and was left face to face with the reality of KROCKAT ENEMY-ANIME NUMBER ONE - ?
oh i knew it was gonna be a special kind of day.
so, sorry for no earlier reply but i was put into a certain state of reflection these last couple days.
and it's been interesting, actually
which might sound a tad bit morbid to those inclined,
but well you know us Aquarius Suns(TM) Hahoo - who often find morbid and sad stuff fun and entertaining to think about and toss and turn around like an old sausage in a corporate bodega hot revolver grill. just a lil interest in that
it actually got me to get into a creatory headspace. thinking about all that shit.
so yea pretty good now, but the first hour of gripping w that? yeah. idk how or that i would or could or would want to explain perhaps why or how or in what way that little fact did affect me.
but. you've still done me a great service. and i intend to make good on that reward i did promise whoever would solve my inquiry.
thank you you kind little folk! very very nice of you to come in to my ask and give me answers! you seem like a nice type.
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but yes a post this long and involved (?) does got to have an end, and one useful trick to end things you don't know how to end is to put music at the end of whatever it is.
now, Best ending would be to have the music of the Actual game's ost i was talking about. but i still don't know what the game is.
Worst ending is probably just that bl*ck b*tler song that baited me (yes i am now "blurring" it out as this is the end part of the post that's meant to end as a reprieve)
and not to say that would necessarily be a bad way to end the post. hells, it might be the interesting (♒🌞) way to conclude this post.
but i think i will just leave you with this.
(sorry that it is a link to spotify. and that it is a from a corporate-y compilation album. and w songs i haven't vetted. i had no choice in what release it was. do you still like me)
(here also comes a youtube link. )
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Black and white picture of Swedish jazz singer Monica Zetterlund - on a youtube thumbnail and link to a video upload of her singing the song "Att angöra en brygga".
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#tw grooming mention#tw csa mention#krockat answers anons#anti black butler#krockat krockar#idk how to tag black butler so ppl can block that tag - but not have fans of it have it in their tags n open myself up to shit from em.#also i rly don't know what my anon tags or asks tags are lol. i don't remember.#also haha to be clear with the astrology joke#- i like to use astrology as a for-fun personality test and sometimes day-to-day vibe advice for my own self. i am fine about it#and no i don't just laugh or schadenfreude at people's whatever else misery - more like that its often a stimulating topic and interests me#to talk w ppl about their shit. and of plenty at/w myself and my imagined blorgbos or whatever.#<writing that cause i know it's the internet and ppl like knife-at-throat-ing ppl when its a sport to assume the worst.#also to be clear - that video visually is just that still image. not of her performing the song. was unsure how or if i should word that in#the image ID. seemed too much.#oh shit now that i have written an image ID after already writing all these tags on mobile - damn it.#image described#also i am tired of this post and having it actually be any good now (which i dont think it is at this point) but idc.#better to just post the beast than not at this point. right#man these tags are too serious overall than what i did w the post. like I said. ♒🌞so to me it's fine to be silly w it#also the song I chose just cause it has a whimsy while also being very vibey and dreamy and jazzy. and there's inherent silly w its namesak#and also more specifically and esp because it's one of the main songs I've been listening to lately. so it's just a glampse into my state#i would explain the lyrics (them being in swedish and all) at a request. otherwise this posts just too long and idc :D#att angöra en brygga#monica zetterlund#my music tastes#long post#also yea i didn't give anon the full promised compliment hoard or wtvr tf I said in those og tags - but i just wasn't feeling it!#you gotta match the vibe of who you're talking to - right. what point is there to just ham it and no one wants to have ham at the table.
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sunmiyane · 9 months
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No catching up with all ur amazing posts today 😕
My mom had the fantastic idea of having a "girl day" where we go eat to a fast food and then go shopping. The fast food... amazing. It definitely felt like satisfying a craving on my periods, so a win, BUT I've been missing great events and even classes bc of the amount of people and she had no better idea than taking me in the main shopping street of Brussels...
There were so many people, so many odors, and so much noise that I felt over-stimulated during 7 long hours bc she loves shopping, and I don't... we went bc she supposedly needed ONE thing (now, if I showed u, y'all would go crazy, I personally even didn't know myself that we could afford her shopping spree) and offered to go to the theater after she would've found it YET bc she took so long and dragged me to all those stores when it hit 15h30, we were too far from the theater for the 15h45 movie I had ask to watch so she... decided it was "too bad" and that we should just go home.
We came back at 17h, she offered the clothes I PICKED and PAID for to my dad and my brother (thank God they knew and thanked me bc "she would've never picked smth we liked"). I got into the sofa at like what 17h20? 17h25? Put my DPR playlist on and... didn't even hear the end of the 1st song. I just napped... for 4h, longer than any of my last 6 nights. And I now am going to bed, all bc I did so well working on my anxiety meds dependence that it now works the way it should (knocks me out instead of popping multiples in just to feel smth).
So at the end of the day, yes, the fast food was good, and yes, I found a nice sweater and a pair of jeans that fit my hips and ass but it lasted 7h, she didn't consider my period cramps, and that's not her but bc of my nap and going to bed now I have only seen my little brother and my dad less than 30 minutes today.
She's like the woman I love the most, but the person I'd rather die than turn out like... it's always been difficult our relationship.
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toaster-boi · 1 year
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why the fuck does a handgun have to produce some of the best stimulation i've ever experienced. just...something about the recoil, the reloading, the tactile feel of hitting the slide release, the sound of it all
why do i end up so interested in things built to cause damage
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yanderestarangel · 1 month
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HEADCANONS JKK | DILF!NANAMI KENTO
A/N: It was very strange writing this to the sound of "snowy", sometimes I question my musical choices for inspiration ╰⁠(⁠⸝⁠⸝⁠⸝⁠´⁠꒳⁠`⁠⸝⁠⸝⁠⸝⁠)⁠╯
TW: afab anatomy, ftm reader, fluff, soft!dom nanami, hard!dom nanami, gentle sex, rough sex, v!sex, fingering, praise, body worship, age gap, vulnerable!kink, degradation, daddykink, eat out, mild bdsm.
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♡ SFW :
He is a man so tired of the life of working and being a wizard at the same time that he just needs a release. You are his younger partner, a few years younger than the forty-year-old man. He was afraid at the beginning of the relationship because he didn't think he was as attractive as men his age, but as time went by he saw how much you loved that he was older than you, there was a charm in every dark circle cold expression on his frown that was too sexy in your eyes.
You'll also have to keep him updated on things that happen in your social circle ── he doesn't really mind but seeing you smile and talk so excitedly about a certain topic also makes him happy and much more relaxed from the daily routine. He doesn't understand half of the slang you and Gojo say when you get together, but he doesn't mind at all (just don't call him 'boomer' Satoru already does that a lot and it gets on the blonde's nerves.)
He likes to be greeted by you when he gets home. It may be a simple gesture but it fills your chest with a warm and fulfilling feeling as he kisses you on the top of your head, smelling you while an almost invisible smile appears on his tired face. "Did you behave while I was gone baby?" Nanami spoke with a hoarse and low voice, listening attentively to you about your day while smiling when he saw that at least his daily effort was worth it because it could give you a more tolerable and comfortable life. Even though he was tired, he would help you with dinner, lightly rambling about how tiring his day was and what you could do at the weekend.
If you mention that you saw something you liked in a store, Nanami will immediately write down the address and go buy what you want ── even if he works extra hours to pay all the installments, your smile is more important to him. "All for my boy right?" He would speak in a calming voice to your nerves, while his fingers tilted on your shoulder as a gesture of tender affection coming from the older man.
♡ NSFW :
The first few times you two fuck he will be a gentleman to you ── calling you "my sweet", "pretty little thing", "darling", "prince", "pretty boy"; talking about how your moans are the most beautiful thing he has heard. "Keep moaning boy... I want to hear everything from you." "What a beautiful voice you have, moan my name darling and let me hear more, say my name when you cum ok?" These would be some of the several phrases that Nanami would say while inserting two thick fingers into your swollen and wet pussy from the exaggerated stimulation he would do to your body.
He likes to eat out you, seeing you tremble and suffocate him between your soft thighs makes the blonde's cock practically cum without even entering you. He sucks your clit running his tongue in circles while his calloused hands keep your legs wide open for his warm ministrations ── Kento will whisper praises against your pussy making you shiver with each vibration welcome to your sensitive flesh. The blonde finds it cute the way you rub your hips desperately against his lips, making him place kisses on your abdomen and connect your lips, separating the kiss seconds later and looking directly into your eyes, watery with pleasure.
"Looks like you're in a hurry boy... Come on, come and ride my face, don't worry about your weight I can really handle it." Nanami moaned as he watched you obey his request and sat gently on his face ── your sweet smell and wet juices, the sound of your voice begging him 'not to stop' was like heaven to him. Nanami just wanted to make you ready for his cock.
When you reach your second orgasm of the night ─ crying and turning into a beautiful, stimulated mess for him, Nanami will finally shove his cock in your little pussy, moaning hoarsely and privately in your ear. "You can handle this, can't you little boy? You're going to cum on my dick again." Kento would groan, hands resting on the sides of your head on the mattress as he looked directly at every reaction you gave him ── from your breasts bouncing with each thrust of his hips, to the sight of your open mouth salivating and smearing your sheets, until your wet hole sucking his cock back into your throbbing heat. "Desperate to get fucked but too shy to do anything about it... my pretty little angel can't do anything but blush. Do you love my cock in you so much?" He smiled, as he accelerated his movements, intertwining your hand with his, feeling his balls hit your ass, making a slow, lazy wet noise.
However, if you want him to be rude and take out all the anger and stress on your body, Kento will do it with all the strength he has suppressed for years. Tying you with his tie and gagging your mouth with your own underwear ── you are not allowed to speak or ask for anything, at that moment you are his personal toy.
You saw Nanami's veins stand out from his forehead, neck and arms as he approached the edge of the bed, roughly opening your thighs ── your once gentle and sweet boyfriend gave way to a sadistic and cold dominator. He couldn't help but laugh when he saw your little fucked face just looking at him ── dazed and shaking, your pussy milking the air as he slapped your thigh hard, going to squeeze your breasts as you moaned against the fabric and tasted it of your own humidity. "That's what you get for being such a good boy." His voice was serious, as you watched him take the panties out of your mouth and take his cock out of his pants.
Kento would also have vulnerable!kink, meaning you will be totally naked while he will be clothed yet just taking his member out of his clothes and fucking you ── completely trapped by the weight of his body, gripping the sheets and whimpering as he pounds into your cunt, treating you like a personal cum dump. He would be rude and say the most vulgar things you had ever heard from anyone, the gentleman in him was gone with every thrust he made on your body. "You're nothing more than a pathetic cum dumpster," he hissed, his voice filled with biting contempt. "Do you like being degraded, my obedient whore?" he taunted, a sadistic gleam in his eyes.
He would fuck you to the point where you couldn't feel your legs anymore. With final painful strokes he breeds your pussy as he watches you cry his name. "shh... I got you boy, you were a good boy for daddy ok?" He spoke, returning to normal, holding your trembling body. After the rough treatment, you will be looked after like a prince by him ─ he will clean your body by giving you hot kisses on your face and offering you water. Kento would take you to the bathroom and clean up the traces of sex, while stroking your hair. "Sleep now, honey, I'll be here when you wake up." You knew he would be there like he promised.
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