#violent intrusive thoughts

[rottengutzuserboxes]

[ID: A red userbox. The background is red, and the border is a darker red. The text is in a reddish-black. The text reads "This user has violent intrusive thoughts.". To the left is a picture of bloody hands holding a bloody baseball bat. END ID.]

#userbox #userboxes #angry userboxes #angercore #wrath.txt [he/it] #tw blood #violent userbox #violent intrusive thoughts

[heavenly-halcyon]

Rewatching msa just makes me think about how many times Lewis could kill Arthur

Like “yeah no shit electric what are you getting at?”

Listen okay? You know after Lewis becomes good or whatever (idk it’s like 4am I can’t words) what if he still thinks about killing Arthur

And he has the ability to do that at any time. Sitting next to Arthur? He could use any of his powers to end him. Even if he doesn’t want to he still finds himself entertaining those thoughts which makes him distrustful of himself and emotionally drained

There’s always a part of him born out of wrath and revenge and it’ll always be there, taunting him dangerously every moment he spends near his friend. Or rather “friend,” is he really Lewis’s friend if he thinks about hurting him so often? It doesnt help that he can do that at any time and it doesn’t help that his soul is originally tethered here to do exactly that

#mystery skulls animated #Lewis pepper #intrusive thoughts #Tw intrusive thoughts #cw intrusive thoughts #violent intrusive thoughts #also you know what new tag for me saying stuff #but about msa bc yeah #elec won’t shut up about msa

[neurodivergentbraingoblins]

My diagnosis of my rare genetic disorder may be recent, but my knowledge and understanding of my mental illnesses have always been there. Just like every ND person knows they are different, I always knew I was different.

I came to terms with my mental illnesses back in middle school and again in highschool when I asked for help to get away from my abusive mom and was literally told by adults that I wasn't worthy of help.

I learned to work WITH my mental disorders, not against them. As a result, I have not attempted suicide since I was 17. Today, I am 28. I have survived month after month of violent intrusive thoughts and suicidal ideation because I learned so young that if I can just make it through tonight, there will always be another tomorrow.

My PMDD and OCD combined leave me craving death every single month. But one thing that has never failed me is that there will always be another day for me to keep fighting as long as I'm willing to stay alive to see it. ❤️

#actually ocd #ocd #intrusive thoughts #violent intrusive thoughts #pmdd #premenstrual dysphoric disorder #actually ptsd #complex ptsd #ptsd #abuse survivor #survivor #abuse survival #childhood abuse #rare disorder #genetic disorders #mental heath awareness #mental health

[algumaideia]

CW: intrusive thoughts, violent intrusive thoughts, anxiety, anxiety attack

@a-dotrivenitupontop and @i-can-be-your-blorbo thank you guys so much for helping me!!

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Dakota was scratching themself. They had been such a disaster last night, leading their cohort to such a terrible and humiliating defeat. They just wanted to ignore all of the things linked to it… how dumb they were, how many people got hurt, how it was all their fault…

But of course it was like all of it had been haunting Dakota. The stares their legionaries had given to them, the whispers, the accusations said loudly with the purpose to them hear it...

Because of those things their stomach hurt all day, and in a lot of moments they felt like crying. After an entire day of those things, Dakota was reaching their breaking point.

They were shaking.

**However, even though they were in such poor situation, Dakota thought they had it under control.

Until the dinner happened. Out of nowhere it was like the voices and noise around them was too much. They needed to go away, to calm down. They just needed some peace so they could recompose themself.

But then… but then they saw Julia… she smiled, so damn happy to see them. And Dakota? Dakota saw themself doing terrible things to her. And in that moment they broke.

Dakota couldn't remember how they got to the place they were. They didn't even knew where they were. All they could feel was their trembling body, their hot tears, and the difficult to breathe which was the worst part. They were breathing so fast and it was like it was impossible to get enough air, to breath normally.

All Dakota could think was how bad they were. For failing their cohort so badly. For not knowing how to make good decisions. For thinking about doing such horrendous actions against a child...

"Dakota!?" Octavian's voice came out of nowhere sounding so worried "What happened?"

Dakota tried to talk, they tried to explain how overwhelming everything became, how they felt like such a failure, how they saw themself doing despicable things to poor Julia. The words were in their head, ready to be spoken. However, with the way their breathing was because of the panick Dakota found themself incapable of speaking.

"Hey, Dakota. I need you to start breathing slower okay? Do you think you can do it with me?"

Dakota wanted to shake their head. It wasn't possible to breathe normally. They couldn't get any air.

"Come on, raise your head. Yes, this way. Now, breathe with me. Deep breathe in. Deep breathe out. Deep breathe in. Deep breathe out. Deep breathe in. Deep breathe out."

Octavian repeated the commands over and over again, slowly. Like he had all the time in the world. It felt like a miracle that it started working. Dakota had no idea how, but they were able to start breathing almost normally again.

The panic was still there though. They felt like they could come back to that desperate breathing at any time.

At some point, Dakota realized Octavian had put his hands on their shoulders. It was somehow calming and helped them a little.

After what felt like an eternity, Dakota felt safe enough to open their eyes. Octavian was standing right in front of them, knelt. His face was frowned in concern.

Dakota felt terrible that they were the reason Octavian was so worried.

"What happened, Dakota?"

Still trying to keep their breath under control, Dakota realized they never heard Octavian's voice so soft and gentle.

"Ju-Julia"

"What happened to her?"

And there it was again the sensation they would lose control of their breathing again.

"Hey, hey, hey. Deep breathe in. Deep breathe out."

They were seeing it again. The way Dakota hurt her... there was so much blood everywhere on her.

Dakota closed their eyes again.

"Deep breathe in. Deep breathe out. Deep breathe in. Deep breathe out."

Dakota put their head on Octavian's shoulder. Their entire body was trembling.

Finally they got into a state where they were still shaken, but at least they wouldn't lose control of their breathing.

"Do you want to talk about what happened?"

Dakota shook his head.

"Okay."

Octavian hugged Dakota and caressed their hair like he had nothing else to do. Bit by bit, Dakota finally was able to caml themself.

#dakota #dakota hoo #octavian #octavian hoo #intrusive thoughts #violent intrusive thoughts #anxiety #anxiety attack

[insane-control-room]

WARNING : imagery of self harm, violent intrusive thoughts

i'm fine.

#violent intrusive thoughts #self destruction #self harm #not acted upon #vent #mental health #personal

[violentviolette]

I really like reading your opinions around psych and in general cluster b, so do keep sharing them. I agree that HPD/NPD fit more as subtypes of cptsd, and your point that they receive treatment more effectively makes a lot of sense (but again, these are opinions and I simply see where yours are coming from). Also, I had no idea you had a degree in psych or something under that. That is very epic.

I do want to ask while I'm here; are there any other prevalent disorders that struggle with anger/violent (intrusive) thoughts in the same sorta way that ASPD does? That may be too broad of a question, but hopefully what I'm asking adds up. Could such things also simply be a symptom in and of itself without being linked to a disorder, similar to how one can experience psychosis without being psychotic?

thanks anon, i really appreciate that! i have a bachelors in sociology with a focus on behavioral psychology. its very much nothing fancy and since its a bach its really only scratching the surface. i just have a solid base knowlege and some first hand experience but im by no means a researcher or an expert on anything

but absolutely. anger problems can arise from a number of things and can be present without any larger disorder. anger is a really complex emotion, and it arises for such a huge number of reasons, and so its present for so many different reasons things like cluster b pds, ocd, bipolar disorder, psychotic disorders, ect. they're also a symptom/side effect of abuse across the board, any form of abuse can manifest anger and violent intrusive thoughts, as well as more generalized trauma like accidents or sudden deaths or extream life changes like losing ur job and becoming homeless, being incarcerated, during addiction recovery, ect.

#jack.speaks #anon #aspd #anger #violent intrusive thoughts

[severalratsinatrechcoat]

Please stop talking next to me, i don't want to be haunted with visions of you being mutilated by my hand

#violent intrusive thoughts #intrusive thoughts #mental illness #mental health #If I’m even slightly annoyed it happens #Not fun

[warpaint-sys]

I keep getting intrusive thoughts about murder and violence again, which is never fun.

Thankfully my coping mechanisms have been helping tremendously.

It's just odd that they start up again once I get myself into a stable home, does anyone else have similar stories or experiences? I just settled in and found peace away from pain, and now my brain is deciding to pour these thoughts onto me, it's strange.

#intrusive thoughts #violent intrusive thoughts #bad intrusive thoughts #ocd #diagnosed ocd #ocd intrusive thoughts #actually ocd

[riskyvents]

I nearly assaulted you last night. It wouldve been easy. I wanted to wrap my fingers around your throat and choke you and kill you, but all you saw was me just laying there, on my phone. I did become frantic to take a shower, to get away from you. Not out of fear of you but fear for you. I dont want to hurt you, youre my friend.

#violent intrusive thoughts

[intrusive-confessions]

whenever i hold anything sharp or pointy i always have intrusive thoughts about stabbing myself until i draw blood & it makes it very hard for me to draw because sometimes the urge and thoughts are so strong i actually do it

❤️

#intrusive thoughts #ocd #violent intrusive thoughts #self harm mentioned

[bog-bitch]

consider: intrusive thoughts described like shitty Buzzfeed articles

“Top 10 Reasons Why You’re Actually a Pedophile”

“People Are Sharing the Best Slurs to Scream at the Top of Your Lungs and Honestly I Am So Here For It”

“Tell Me Your Favorite Color and I’ll Tell You You Can Jump In Front of A Moving Train Right Now”

“You’ve Heard of [Normal Activity], But Have You Heard of All the Horrible Ways You Can Die While Doing It???!!”

“This Quiz Will RevealWhich Hand You Could Hypothetically Stick in a Blender!”

#ocd #ocd memes #tw ocd #tw self destructive thoughts #obsessive compulsive disorder #intrusive thoughts #tw intrusive thoughts #mental health memes #mental illness memes #coping with humor #tw violent thoughts #pure ocd #dark humour tw #dark humor

[disabledunitypunk]

The reason intrusive thoughts are morally neutral is not because you don't actually want to do them.

Intrusive urges and desires are also morally neutral.

And no, I don't mean "impulsive urges or desires". I mean the ones that are still disturbing but have a compulsive or alluring element to them to. I mean the way the idea of slicing my body into thin strips like a julienner is a craving that I have. I mean the way that I sometimes get a feeling like my body wants to move to hurt others around me, and I only know that I have control because I've been dealing with this shit for most of the time I've been alive. I mean the way I get turned on by thoughts of torturing people (which is where paraphilia overlaps with OCD).

I mean that someone CAN even actually want to act on their intrusive thoughts and as long as they don't, that's all that matters. People can fantasize about something and be deeply disturbed by the fact that they fantasize about it. It doesn't make them any more likely to act on it, but if it causes distress, it's still an intrusive thought.

I see a lot of posts which are like "no, intrusive thoughts are not secretly hidden desires of yours" and that's true for a lot of people! It's a good message!

But sometimes they are, and that's okay too. Sometimes they're not even hidden desires, they're blatant. But thoughts, urges, desires, feelings, anything in the head at all, are all completely amoral.

Morality only applies to actions.

If you have violent (physical, emotional, sexual, or otherwise) urges or desires, intrusive or otherwise, this is a safe place for you. You are welcome here. They do not make you a bad person and you deserve not to be left out of OCD/intrusive thought positivity.

#OCD #intrusive thoughts #intrusive urges #intrusive desires #psychosis #schizospec #<- tags because they can also cause intrusive or violent urges or desires in my experience #mental health positivity #disability #unitypunk #neurodivergent

[bumblingbabooshka]

Context: Transporter Accident Species Swap Kathryn. C'mon. Patreon | Ko-fi

Episode where Janeway and Tuvok have their species swapped by an accident or entity and while everyone's figuring out how to undo it they expect Tuvok to be the one acting different but he's generally the same* meanwhile Janeway's newly Vulcan brain is terrorizing her with nightmares and violence 24/7. *He has trouble with his human body more than any emotions. Like, he keeps burning himself on things he'd normally touch without thinking. He can't stay up and stay focused as long as he normally would (two days straight) and he isn't as strong as he was before. Anyway, Janeway's sort of suffering with both. She has telepathic abilities that would be normal for a Vulcan of her age and this along with the intrusive thoughts and overwhelming emotion are...a lot. Tuvok: Have you tried meditating? Janeway: I'll rip your throat out. Sorry. Sorry. I've tried. Tuvok: Allow me to assist you. Janeway and Tuvok have a conversation about how she's not a bad person and Tuvok has to struggle with and control these sorts of intrusive, violent thoughts all the time. What makes someone a bad person? To what extent are someone's thoughts 'them'? What does a 'true self' mean? Basically Tuvok's like "These Human emotions have literally nothing on me" meanwhile Janeway's getting the shit kicked out of her - DAMN! These Vulcan emotions have hands! They also retain their personalities because they're still the same people. Janeway doesn't suddenly become stoic & logical and Tuvok doesn't suddenly become more outgoing. Tuvok also does not immediately turn into 100-year-old dust because it's a star trek episode and certain things are handwaved. In the end Janeway's like "Well that was absolute hell but in some ways it was interesting to get an up close and personal look into the Vulcan mind and I feel closer to my good friend Tuvok!" whereas Tuvok learned that he actually likes rum raisin ice cream. The B plot of this episode is that there's a certain light that keeps flickering in sickbay and everyone keeps passing off the task of fixing it so eventually the doc tries to fix it himself but he ends up causing a black out (which effects the A plot) and at the very end of the episode Harry's like "THERE. It's fixed."

#bea art tag #st voy #st voyager #star trek voyager #Tuvok #Janeway #Kathryn Janeway #there is rambling under the cut #fake voyager episodes my beloved #Tuvok: (free of violent intrusive thoughts) Logic is actually even easier than ever before now. This reminds me of kolinahr studies. #Janeway: If Chakotay keeps SITTING there I'm gonna kill him. I hate how he's sitting. I'm gonna blow up this whole fucking ship. #Tuvok: -sneakily eating rum raising ice cream- Captain please try meditating. -tries to lift something that would be easy before but is #now too heavy- ah.........the difficulty. #There is a brief moment of collective tee hee hee-ism where Janeway just lifts a whole bunch of heavy things up #including everyone on the bridge (not at once) #Doctor: =_= Guys. Guys. Guys. This is SERIOUS people!!! #<- they can't hear him over the fun

[algumaideia]

CW: Violent intrusive thoughts, descriptions of violence and death, anxiety

@a-dotrivenitupontop thank you for helping me!!!

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Dakota saw themself disarming Gwen easily, raising their sword and then cutting her neck. She started bleeding terribly, and too quickly she was dead.

They felt the necessity to throw their weapon, run away and maybe scream. But instead they attempted to smile and shook Gwen's hand. They hoped it looked like they were fine.

"Good fight."

"Yeah..." Dakota tried to think something to say but nothing came to their mind.

They didn't know why those violent visions still bothered them so much. They had been in the legion for years, they'd seem dozens of deaths, they had killed people.

But every time this happened, Dakota would freak out. The terrible feeling would always be there.

They took deep breathes. Their stomach was hurting.

Dakota opened and closed their hands three times and felt a little better. Now they were finally good enough to pay attention on what was going on.

"Right, guys." Gwen seemed satisfied. "See you later then to talk about strategies. You can go now."

Shit. They lost the entire conversation.

Dakota felt like crying. Their stomach was hurting more. They already could see the disaster that the War Games would be and it would all be their fault.

Maybe they could ask for someone's help? But Dakota didn't feel like they could talk properly and basically everyone was gone.

Shit.

Dakota closed their eyes. They were seeing them killing Gwen again.

#dakota #dakota hoo #intrusive thoughts #violent intrusive thoughts

[feralboo-the-weirdo]

okay, weird thought, but does anyone else have like a "safe scene" for when you have really violent intrusive thoughts or repetitive triggers or ptsd flashbacks that just keep cycling in your brain over and and over so you try to force your brain into that scene because it's safe? like mine for example is someone rolling up a scroll (one with the visual memory) and putting it into a barrel and then walking away to a far away gazebo. like.... anyone else? just like a scene your brain reverts to when you just don't want to see a memory?

#ocd #depersonalization #ptsd #complex ptsd #childhood trauma #highly sensitive people #nerodivergent #high functioning depression #trauma #intrusive thoughts #intrusive thinking #intrusive daydreaming #intrusive images #violent thoughts #bad memories #emotional abuse #daydreaming #adhd inattentive #adhd #derealization #disociation

[antidotefortheawkward-art]

how fucked up would you be if you were told the embodiment of the worst parts of you was capable of killing members of your family

[ID: A sketchy two panel sepia comic. In the first panel, Sun Wukong is dressed in traditional deep mourning garb and kneeling before a grave, back to the viewer. The second panel is a close-up on his face. He has a hollow, terrified wide-eyed expression and half of his face is in deep shadow. He thinks, "Could I have done the same?" End ID]

#my art #journey to the west #jttw #xiyouji #sun wukong #monkey king #so. Six-Eared Macaque thoughts. #i think that in addition to simply being the worst parts of SWK (ie the actual parts of him that are flawed and bad)- #-he's also the worst of what SWK thinks of himself #cuz six-eared cannibalizing members of huaguo shan is good for hammering in how evil he is #but even for the 'worst parts' of swk i think swk doing anything like that is wildly ooc #so.... i think six-eared also embodies swk's intrusive thoughts #(intrusive thoughts as in actual violent reprehensible thoughts swk would never follow through on bc thats what intrusive thoughts are- #-not the tiktok misuse of the term 🙃) #so imagine how fucked up youd be if someone said This was the personfication of the worst parts of you and not clarifying* #* so youre just like. 'oh so my intrusive thoughts are right then' * #*'so they are actually a part of me and im a horrible person' #god the pilgrimage gave swk so much more trauma than ppl give credit </3 #sorry this is messy and sketchy i just wanted to get these ideas down gfdhjskd