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sennqu · 2 years

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the sticking point for me is like....a lot of the IH takes are based on subtext. so it's kind of...like, he's doing these things because of IH. it's not, "it's IH because he's doing these things".

the thing is, it's hard to accept if you're a byler shipper but Mike does think he is in love with el. That is what the text is telling us. What the text is also likely telling us is that his love isn't romantic, but Mike doesn't know that.

just wrote these like stream of consciousness style so, ya know. kinda messy. but here we go, a play by play complete with examples from the text! because i like to base my analysis from the text.

he's afraid of his feelings for will. where? when he defended will's honor against homophobic bullies? when he stayed up to wait for will waking up? when he says he was the only one who cared about finding will? when he stayed with will for days at his home and the hospital? when he held will's hand? when he, as we keep saying, keeps making heart eyes at will?

he doesn't know what he feels about will but unconsciously feels it is "wrong". where? when he told will his girlfriend and will's savior wasn't a stupid girl? when he asked will if he really thought they wouldn't have girlfriends and grow up because will was being childish about insisting on playing a game while his friends were worrying about their girlfriends? when he and will spent a day at the cinema next to each other and mike's only moment of discomfort was when he thought will wasn't ok? when mike was angry at will for not reaching out more after moving to cali? when he told will "it's not hawkins without you"? "i feel like i lost you"? when he immediately goes to hug his mom after the byers and el move away?

ok so he doesn't want to break up with el because he's afraid of hurting her. when he insensitively told her "she didn't look fine" after she physically assaulted angela? when he told el, "you're being ridiculous"? Mike tries not to intentionally hurt people but he's not above thinking he's in the right and acting on that impulse.

he wants to stay with el because he wants to be normal. when he already thinks he doesn't deserve her? when he thinks el doesn't need him? what is it about him thinking he can't even be the lois lane to el's superman makes you think this guy is gunning for normal? he's insecure because he IS normal. and el's a superhero

mike wants to stay with el because he loves her and doesn't want to lose her in his life. it's not about thinking el fixes him or about thinking el needs him to stay to be happy. mike wants to stay with el because he believes he's in love with her but is afraid el doesn't need him and may even realize she's now beyond him. he practically spells this out for us in S4. he only begins to regain his confidence when he thinks el needs him after all. because of will. whose feelings he doesn't know. because he thinks they're el's.

mike's monologue is him trying to tell el he loves her in the way he thinks she'll understand and appreciate: praising her superheroism because that is what he thinks she wants and because that's what he loves about her. then why did he hesitate? because he was still insecure about her being a superhero and him just being some guy. one pep talk isn't gonna magically fix his insecurity. then why the cliches? because he thinks she'll understand that better? because he doesn't actually know her beyond these cliches? because he doesn't realize his romantic love for her is superficial?

bonus: "then what about the kiss in front of the open closet? he obviously looks like he doesn't love her there. plus, you know. open closet" he looks like he was surprised. literally that was it. he and el don't talk about their relationship for 3 months and she suddenly goes "ILY too muah" before she moves away. his ex tells him she loves him back 3 months later just before she moves. what does he do with that? he's only like 14 years old.

#ku blarghs #strangely blogging #contrary to popular belief i was not angry while writing this lmao #i'm just trying to get everything out #ku why do you care about this so much? why not. defending mike against IH allegations is a good mental workout #also not all people deal with IH. people are saying they see their own IH experience reflected in him #i say i see my own dumbass oblivious self in him. and i think the text sides with me.#but truly in the grand scheme of things it just doesn't matter #since we don't actually 100% know where S5 is going to take us #but so far. text points to oblivious mike. and it's a hill i'm willing to die on #you gotta pick your silly battles #byler #like why not. i was already asking for it earlier lmao

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daz4i · 9 months

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bro i hate my country's politicians so much it's unreal

#i truly and sincerely hope they all die in a fire i am not even slightly joking #they promote violence and encourage an even deeper split between the people. bc it helps them #and it's disgusting. they don't care who they hurt as long as they get more power #actually they DO care who they hurt. they WANT to hurt people!! that's how they get more right wing voters!!!!!#they openly and proudly announce they want palestinians dead and out of their homes and it's sickening #(the fact this is WHY people vote them is even more sickening. they fact they were allowed to get this far is awful)#in addition to that they ofc want the lgbt community dead and they actively hurt women's rights bc how can they not :^)#i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here #sorry for talking politics. i try to avoid it but everyone on social media is talking about it. i'm so tired i hope we all explode fr #actually i'm not done i really need to vent lol #it really feels like there's no hope. the fact it keeps happening. and it gets worse every election cycle #and it's all bc fucking netanyahu is trying to avoid going to jail :^) i hope he dies today right now actually #for years everyone on the left jokes abt moving to another country but now it's becoming literally real #many people already HAVE left the country!!!!! like how fucked up is that!!!!!! that's how bad things are here!!!!!!#there's been rallies and protests for months now. i think nearly half a year at this point bc i remember it started in the winter #but obviously it doesn't do jack shit. bc why would it. if none of the right wing politicians literally get murdered -#- there is no real threat to them and so they have no actual reason to care. i sincerely think someone should take one for the team -#- and kill one of them lol i truly think this is the only solution at this point.#not to mention many of them are literally just. gross people. you hear them talk and can tell they have no experience in politics #they're all violent and constantly yell and this is how they appeal to the other violent people here #which is also why i think violence is the only way they'll understand. but alas if the left becomes violent we will be hated even more #ignoring the fact they have been violent this whole time yeah? they literally try to RUN OVER PROTESTERS #do you see why i have no hope here. do you see why i hate this so much. how can one be optimistic about this. everything sucks

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twilightarcade · 8 months

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Would you rather. Make time faster or slower?

Its a constant increase/decrease you cant change it. How much faster/slower would you go?

OH OH!!!!!!!!! WMRMRMEMM!!!!!!!!!!!!??!?!?!!!!!!!!!

OKOK UM. IT DEPENDS ON um the logistics I think. I'm not gonna ask you though so I can jsuf keep talking needlessly. Um. Okok. Logistics. You know like??????? Superhero movies. I'm specifically thinking of megamind let's not lie to ourselves you know megamind. And super whatever his face slows down time for a bit. If it's like that I don't think I'd want to do either really. Slowing down sad would make me a bit sad and speeding up time would kill me instantly (metaphorically and literally I think. Gonna get run over by a car or something) maybe If anything just slow down time.... then I can do things but everything would still be so horribly slow. I could do a lot of stuff thoucg

ermm!! If I was just slowing down like... all biological processes n stuff of the sort,,, like the earth spins slower (days longer) and people last longer (technically the same amount of time but it feels longer because years are relatively (to before) longer) and stuff, slow down time 100%. Never have enough time to do fuck all. Remaining unaffected biologically (and therefore being shitfucked in terms of sleep schedule n such) would be really funny though.

How much well. That really depends. It seems selfish, regardless of much you slow it down, you know? dragging everyone down with me. It's not really dragging them down persay but like..... eventually the novelty would wear out for most people I suppose. Who wants to be 13 any longer than they have to be. I do wonder, though, how many people would like... take the time . slow it down or whatever. Like there's a million storylines out there about extending life n such with characters who choose not to because they've already like... lived and whatever. Basically I wanna know if this is just a me thing or if everyone's content with how time is always running out

I don't think I would want to speed up time unless it's like a.... I remaining unaffected biologically type situation. Literally if I'm just going to die faster what's the point. Don't have enough time as it is. I DO think it would be funny to watch like. Time speed by. Like one of those "character sadly sits as life zooms by them" type things. That would make me really sad though.

#askstag #I HAVE heard that like. Death is supposed to get easier as it approaches #not that I'm near death or anything hopefully I think #but for now we are stuck thinking about it. Boo hoo poor you.#it's tiring #anyways speeding up time would suck ASS imagine ur just standing there and a bunch of stuff happens.#the continents merge back into a super continent. Niagara falls erodes into lake erie. There's a ice age but don't worry!#Climate change saved us. I believe we're already dead in this timeline anyways.#plants die out because all of a sudden there's a super mega lack of co2 I never looked into. only around 1% survive.#there's a huge meteor somewhere along the line threatening to hit us unless we stop it #(I was on Wikipedia earlier because I forgot the theories for the end of the universe)#That's crazy though. How we're just sitting here predicting events past our human life span #do you think the hypothetical guy from 1000 years from now will remember us #will they care #will we drive ourselves to extinction before then? That would be funny #end statement

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dmclemblems · 2 years

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the way it’s felix who runs to rodrigue when he’s dying in the bad ending of ag and says “no!” AND LITERALLY THROWS HIS FUCKING SHIELD TO THE SIDE before dimitri even has a chance to turn around just GETS me.

it’s not that dimitri was busy/concerned about byleth/sothis. it’s that felix didn’t even wait more than a second of byleth running off to literally fucking drop everything and turn around to see if his father was okay and felt immediate panic when he realized he wouldn’t make it and held him in his arms as he died.

#Three Hopes #Three Hopes Spoilers #if you have not seen that cutscene and only recruited Byleth #I do not recommend watching it unless you're prepared to die with Rodrigue #bc there's no hope of a Rodrigue fan surviving that cutscene #and it's the fucking no! and IMMEDIATE SHIELD THROW that gets me most #the way they have no idea if Byleth/Sothis running away was a fluke and could come back to attack #but Felix doesn't FUCKING CARE HE JUST DROPS EVERYTHING AND HOLDS RODRIGUE IN HIS ARMS #DIMITRI DIDN'T EVEN GET A CHANCE TO REACT ABOUT IT YET BEFORE FELIX HAD STARTED RUNNING TO RODRIGUE #SLAMS AND SMASHES MY DESK AND THROWS LARGE BOULDERS OUT OF THE ATMOSPHERE #SHUT UP FIRE EMBLEM THREE HOUSES AZURE MOON ''YOU RLY HATE UR DAD'' ''YES I DO'' FELIX LYING FRALDARIUS #AND THE VERY WORST PART IS THAT RODRIGUE'S A SUPPORTS ARE /L O C K E D / UNTIL AFTER THIS CHAPTER #WHICH MEANS FELIX AND RODRIGUE NEVER GOT TO APOLOGIZE TO EACH OTHER IF YOU DON'T RECRUIT BYLETH #BUT MIND YOU FELIX IS STILL DESTROYED ABOUT THIS EVEN WITHOUT THEIR A SUPPORT #I WILL NEVER ACCEPT NO BYLETH RECRUIT AG AND I COULD HAVE SURVIVED IT YOU KNOW #I COULD HAVE SURVIVED NO BYLETH IF IT DIDN'T MEAN WE HAD TO LOSE RODRIGUE #AND IF I DIDN'T HAVE TO SEE FELIX FALLING APART IN ABSOLUTE FUCKING REAL TIME #SMASHES KEYBOARD BC I ALREADY SMASHED MY DESK SMAHES MONITOR SMASHES TV #CAUSES DESCTRUCTION ON THE SCALE OF MY EMOTIONS UNTIL I REALIZE #THERE IS NOT ENOUGH DESTRUCTION I CAN POSSIBLY CAUSE TO EQUAL THESE EMOTIONS

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57sfinest · 1 year

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I know this must be a weird ask, you don't have to respond if you want but how would a poly relationship work with Jean and Harry? Like in general, not really specifics about who is with them or anything just like how a dynamic would work when they are still in the very codependent relationship but then they both fall for the same person. Am I the only one who sees the similarities to Rene and Gaston(?), Like that's how their relationship will end up.

NOT A WEIRD ASK I LOVE WHAT-IFS

since you're specifying the codependency i'm assuming we're talking a pre-martinaise j/h so that's how i'll be answering. i can definitely see where you're coming from about rene and gaston with the whole "constantly bickering rivals who both repressed the fact that they loved the other" thing but i feel like describing j/h as "in love" (the way rene & gaston were described) is a little too generous for a relationship that is based first and foremost off necessity and convenience. however the end of the rene & gaston situation definitely feels like how j/h could have ended if they both lived to that age without killing themselves or each other.

anyway like... i can't see them being able to rope a 3rd person into their bullshit. not without heavy coercion or substance abuse or some complicating 3rd factor because they genuinely are so toxic and fucked up that idk who could possibly want to be in the middle of that. BUT if it did happen, you have to keep in mind that harry is in control in the j/h dynamic. jean can bitch and moan all he wants but at the end of the day, what harry says goes-- he's got tangible authority at work + he's a decade older than jean + that's just the way their personalities collide. so it doesn't actually matter if jean likes this hypothetical 3rd person: if harry wants them involved he's gonna get them involved. and i can't see jean as wanting anyone else involved, so it would almost definitely be harry forcing it with someone he likes and jean doesn't care for.

harry takes up all the oxygen in any given room so it's going to be jean + Hypothetical Third supplicating to harry, essentially, and jean is going to make it known that he is NOT happy about sharing, but he's gonna put up with it anyway because harry threatens to leave him if he doesn't (harry wouldn't actually leave jean, they're too deeply enmeshed, there's too much between them. but he has no problem threatening to.) and neither jean nor harry will ever say they're in a relationship because that would be GAY, but they sure act like it, because if one of them ever gets attention from anyone else, the other one will immediately get jealous and defensive and possibly try to drive that 3rd away. even if they managed to get a 3rd involved who they did both like, i still think they'd be like 80% about each other and maybe a generous 20% towards that 3rd, so the 3rd would have to tolerate that. i guess also calling back to rene & gaston yeah i could definitely see them trying to take the Hypothetical Third for their own, but they'd be doing that to make the other jealous, not because they actually wanted the Third. anything that happens with that Third will always have some element of "is he looking? what is he thinking? what is he feeling?" like in the end it will always come down to the two of them and no one else.

#genuinely i can see harry going off and fucking somebody and the whole time just thinking #'how is jean gonna react when i tell him about this?'#harry straight up lying about hookups/relationships to see how jealous jean gets.#and they'll never admit to it. they'd rather die then admit they have any kind of formal relationship #also with luiga saying jean is possibly schizoid i don't see jean wanting to form a close relationship with someone else #like he just wouldn't be interested in that effort and added social complication #with harry there are no expectations of normalcy so he feels safer there. no pressure to perform a Normal Relationship(tm)#which i think would add to the jealousy.#like. harry is My Guy. i don't care about people but i picked This Guy and he's Mine so fuck off. respect my ownership of my One Guy.#POTENTIAL FOR JEAN AND KIM CONFLICT LATER DOWN THE LINE WITH THAT but we arent talking abt post martinaise rn.#i promise this isnt a weird ask this was really fun to think about #the conclusion is that it would somehow complicate their fucked up Thing even more than it's already complicated #that third person would really just become a tool for jean and harry to attack each other more.#goddd they are so fucked up. they suck so fucking bad. they need to be euthanized #hdb meta #jv meta #kiwipost #jean vicquemare #harry du bois #ask

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shivunin · 1 year

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Happy anniversary to me and AO3!!

Here is the aforementioned more coherent post. I have divided it in two parts: a little note and a silly and self-indulgent section (affectionate) where I give some of my fics fun lil superlatives. I'll add a couple little factoids to the latter section, too, just for giggles.

But before all that: I'm not gonna get emotional this time, but I have greatly enjoyed writing Dragon Age fic. I told myself three things when I started, all of them comically incorrect now ("I'm only writing this one story," "I will never write a soulmate AU," and "I will never write a DA2 story; no way could I ever hold a candle to what already exists") and I am so, so glad I was wrong on all counts. I have grown so much as a writer because of fic and I have met some genuinely remarkable people. If you have ever commented, written something in the tags, kudo'd, or bookmarked anything I've written (and especially if you have ever sent me a writing prompt, bless you), from the bottom of my heart: thank you. It has been genuinely incredible to share my love of this series with y'all, and I can only hope you have felt as glad of the experience as I have.

That's really all you need to know---that I'm glad to know you, in whatever sense that means. Thanks for sticking around c:

(and thanks to Cullen for scrambling my brain so thoroughly that I am still doing this a year later when I swore it was just going to be the one story lol)

Anyways! (she says, setting up the cake and candles and kazoos even though the room is otherwise empty)---

I was thinking about what to do for this anniversary that only I am keeping track of, and I decided (because of a trip I took when I was sixteen, which I originally recounted here, but which has no bearing on any of this so I cut it) that it would be funny to give my fics their own imaginary certificates. You know, like participation trophies. For my own entertainment (only a few though; there are twenty-three of them, and that's too many awards). Awards follow:

Best Punch: Your Fate for Mine; after I finished Trespasser the first time, I really wanted to deck Solas, so I let Cullen do it for me. It's the best one because it was the most satisfying to write C: (fun fact also: bless him, my husband proofread all the smut in this fic for accuracy lmao. special side award to my husband for being the best)

Best Kiss: Wander the Drifting Roads; nothing has yet felt as satisfying to me as Emma and Cullen kissing in the rain after all that time. I think about it Often. Also I wrote the first draft of this fic in roughly a week and a half---which is why it needed so much editing later :)

Most Persistent: To the Bone; because I swear to whatever higher power is out there, I tried so hard not to write a soulmate story but Salshira would not be stopped. In the end, I couldn't let the idea go and well, here we are.

Specialest Baby: Tidal Lock; because it is my special baby and the first fic I ever completed. I have a soft spot for it, and oddly enough it has the highest kudos: bookmarks ratio of my works at over half. It was extremely fun to write Cullen as a kid (he is soooo serious) and (for me) there's such a pleasant full-circle element to the narrative.

Best Smut: More than Memory; this one is my imaginary people's choice award, since it was received far and away the best of any smut I've written. I think, and it's just my intuition here, that it's on account of all the yearning. But maybe it's actually cus Cullen is, as always, a hot, hot mess C:

Hyperfocus Award: This one's a tie between Misericordia and Saccharine. As soon as I knew what to write for both of them, I achieved that beautiful state of not noticing the passage of time, anyone around me, the existence of my physical body, nor any of my pressing irl tasks. I wrote both of these in a delightful fog and then came back to it later as if seeing it for the first time. Extremely nice experience, 10/10, would recommend.

Blue Ribbon, Gold Star: A Golden Bell Hung In My Heart; this one gets a special extra award because I think it's probably the best thing I've written so far (at least from a technical standpoint, but it has a lot of my favorite elements, as well). It's one of the few for which I knew what I was trying to write when I set out to write it, and I think I achieved it unequivocally. Also, you know. Presents :)

Tumblr Ficlet Award: lol I am not picking only one. Here're my top three ficlets, based on how pleased with myself I felt when I initially typed them out: Lock and Key (I loooooove a good hurt/comfort), A Fool and His Gold (love yearning, too), and A Bond Beheld (because it includes that knight/liege thing that makes the Cullen romance so!!!).

For posterity: Unless I finish this short fenris/hawke piece open in the other tab, my final word count last year is 516,937 which is....a shocking amount. I probably won't surpass that this year, which is fine. I had no idea I had at least 450,000 words to say about Cullen, but hey, here we are.

That's it for this year---and I have no idea if I'll do this again next year---but thanks if you've read this far! I really wanted an excuse to think back on what I've written this year and have a little laugh to myself :) Have a good Thursday and...yeah. Thanks for reading!

#bleh #is it weird to give your fics lil awards? maybe #i don't care tho i will take my joys where i can find them #i was gonna do oc awards too but it felt mean-spirited #i love all of them #search your hands gets the honorable mention for dithering bc i had that bad boy mostly finished for six months #before i was encouraged to post it #i want to be clear: there's nothing wrong with soulmate fic or stories in general #obviously. i just thought there were too many out there already for me to write one also #briefly considered making a poll lmao but like lbr maybe five people have read all of these #that's a self-indulgent step too far #nb: by 'love of the series' i mean 'love of the framework of da which i have twisted and changed for my own ends' ofc #anyways damn that's a lot of tags if you've read my fic i adore you and i am offering a hug of your preferred level of intensity #no editing we die like kings (willfully ignorant of the wrongs we have committed upon the less fortunate)

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clarabosswald · 2 years

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yet again i'm fascinated by how suicide baiting just became the casually popular way to do and is seemingly so ingrained in contemporary tumblr culture that it's literally part of a "welcome to tumblr" newbies' guide

#i don't care that it's the shitheads - transphobes fascists etc - that are getting told to die #(do they deserve to be told off? of course but that's absolutely not the point)#because we ALL know that eventually people will just suicide bait anyone they Mildly Disagree with #people are just gonna become desensitized to the idea of suicide - fuck people probably already are #and it's stupid that i even have to say that it's fucked up?????#so like. maybe. don't do it #at all

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yeslordmyking · 2 years

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I'm so lonely and bored, but the company I want and the hobbies I want to engage in aren't holy, and I don't want to have to repent for doing what I like. I hope the changes my heart need to make come soon and with as little pain as possible.

Put on the new self. Even if you have no idea how not to be the old self anymore..

#I just wanted to be myself. now she has to go away forever and somebody else has to become my new self #someone I don't know. someone I don't feel like I'll enjoy being. someone who's not really real just someone i know I'm supposed to be #someone better. holier. more righteous. more pure. a good example... until that person becomes who I am naturally #a saint. I must become a saint. God will make me do it if I don't willingly die to who I am now. who I've always been #we're not supposed to miss and mourn our less holy selves. but I will #and I'm scared of the spiritually mature woman I have no choice but to become if I am to claim that I love God and want to go to Heaven #maybe this mentality will all be in the past #when i'm old and boring and want Heaven more than I want any future on this evil earth #but right now it feels like death even though I thought I already died when I got baptized. maybe I was still young and foolish then #this is the mature spiritual mindset I should've had when I got baptized but instead I was too caught up thinking I could get what I want #die to your flesh every day brothers and sisters. I guess the phrase 'even if it kills you' makes sense now #I just hope the people I pray for will be saved before the end even if I stop keeping up with them and knowing what to pray over them #at least let me have that Lord. if my life must become a wasteland of what I usually used to love please at least save what I love #so we can reunite in Heaven in purer holier forms that are acceptable to you #yeah... Ok rambling instead of sleeping.#nobody on here cares I scared away all oomf s long time ago... back to lonely full circle. goodnight to myself 🫂♡#night depression #late night thoughts #oversharing #tmi #christian struggles #personal #random #may it please the Lord

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stuckinakillingjar · 2 years

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just realized that i fucking hate headcanoning characters as siblings

#i literally wrote like 10 tags ranting about why i hate people hc sns as brothers but like that wasn't my point #actually a bucci gang post inspired me to post this because i saw someone call fugo and narancia or giorno and mista or narancia and trish #siblings and it does not feel right to me like #i love love love the gang as found family but to me that term never really entailed the whole siblinghood thing #for me found family always meant people OUTSIDE of the character's actual family being there for them and caring for them #like they're not real siblings they shouldn't call each other that #omg this is incredibly weird and a totally subjective opinion just fyi like feel free to disagree with me #but like i personally have a younger brother and i always feel incredibly uncomfortable calling people outside of him brother or sister #like my best friend once said to me that she thinks of me as a sister and internally i was like nooooo don't say that #or my literal cousin said that she wished we were sisters and i was like uhhhh #I DON'T KNOW THIS IS WEIRD TO EXPLAIN #to me (in fiction) it's just a way more beautiful concept that you're both bounded by fate and meant to be with each other #or have incredibly obvious parallels #idk why i keep thinking about narancia and trish but like #that one scene where narancia goes 'trish is me. i am trish. her wounds are my wounds' or something like that #ig it's just me finding the concept of soulmates and fate more interesting than just headcanoning characters as siblings #omg don't assume that i hate my little brother after this post btw i would die for him just fyi but this is gonna sound mean 💀#with siblings you're kind of already stuck with each other right from the start like there's no escape unless you're like completely #abandoning you're family #you're kind of forced to love them #but with sasuke and naruto or narancia and trish for example it's like #naruto and narancia saw the parallels in sasuke and trish they saw the hurt and they chose to follow them #they weren't born in a family they aren't bound by blood they just kind of chose to love them #this post is a whole lot of nothing no one will get what i mean anyways 😭#i'll just stop now #nica.talks #jjba #golden wind #just to clear that up this is a different scenario when we're talking about characters or people that are adopted like omg #my hcs

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violettierre · 7 hours

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I : majored in english, has a masters degree in it, studying philosophy, and have been an English teacher/Junior translator for almost a decade now.

My grandma : there is our future doctor <3

#i still to this day don't know if she's in denial or thinks what i'm doing is a hobby #it gets funnier every time #especially today #i was like 'mimma i just came back from work i'm so tired' and she was like 'i make food right now for our future doctor'#like ???????#grandma i love your food pls don't give it to someone else #who doctor ? doctor who ?#me ??????#that is so NOT my career #my already existing one that i fought my entire bloodline for put aside #i can never be a good doctor let alone willingly choose it #1) i suck at biology and science and those pure memorization shit #2) i'm really sensitive to blood or injuries i might faint at just the mention of certain stuff (surgeries are crossed off i would DIE)#3) it's just not meant to be and that's okay #as a society we can't survive with one or two careers all of them are important in their own way #an exercise i would usually tell my students to do at this topic #is everytime you feel like someone's job is useless to close your eyes and imagine a world without it #if i managed to convince them hurray to them #if i didn't i ask them to imagine someone they care for work hard then get told their job is useless #(that on usually does the trick)#the thing is even if you're stuck with a job you hate or can't find a better one #there's still some impotance to that job in a way like they offer service or blah blah #yet it will suffocate you because it's not the career you were meant to have #that summed up means the work environment/pressure/nature are what we really define as useless because they can be unfair #but not the work itself #when we delete those previous stuff off the definition all careers are equally important #i hope i was clear #and i also hope my grandma remembers that too #story time

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aashiqq · 1 month

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I lied

#so #dni #idek where to start man #the first thing i can remember is that im a misogynist now apparently #wait not now #ive always been #that i judge girls for living their life and guys for having what I don't have #surely not what i want to be like literally the last thing i want to be is a misogynist #the world is not a sunshine place i imagine it to be where nobody is a racist or sexist or homophobic or ableist and everybody sings hakuna #matata or sunshine songs its pathetic it makes me wanna vomit i want to be happy but it forces me to become nihilistic with my thoughts #its fucked up its just so rotten at its core that even the smallest emotions feels like a huge generosity from the gods themselves #im at the pojnt in my life thaf if i dont act now im going to lose the years ive already lost #my entirety of teenage is gone now and im unprepared and unequipped to fight around for my life #im left catching up and apparently ive been sleeping on the track even though im the turtle #it fucking sucks to be me yk #im so so soo self centred btw i cant think of others i cant care for others unless its about me somehow #i deserve to die for whatever goes on in my head its so blasphemous to existence itself its pointless to even exist anymore #i have everything a person could ask for #loving parents a normal life a good college friends who care for me and who i care for not that financially fucked up a good career #lined up in the future #i could be stable yk i could be happy grateful satistfied #i should even be working harder to achieve what i want without losing up on reality chasing my dreams #and what do i do #what the fuck do i do?????#cry over a girl just because she was supposed to *save* her virginity for when we got married???????#how stupid is that?????#she doesnt owe me anything she can do what she wants with her life she isnt someone i control or any such thing #who am i to judge people im literally just a loser npc simpleton who's been left alone and normal so long he's forgotten how to exist #i feel disgusted with myself #its just like the times i have the wild theories about whos doing what behind my back

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lxnarphase · 3 months

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ah-ah, barbie, you're so fine! ๋࣭ ⭑

special treatment : thighs edition

☾₊‧⁺...ft. : kamo choso + itadori yuuji + higuruma hiromi + ryomen sukuna

☾₊‧⁺...cw : pussy eating, facesitting, somnophilia, dirty talk, fingerfucking, overstimulation, praise kink, degradation, desperation, oral fixation, squirting, creampie, choso being whiny, yuuji being a little shit, yuuji is 21yrs & a college student, hiromi being pussydrunk, sukuna being whipped

✧ k. choso : poor choso, ever since the first time he's gotten a taste of what's between your thighs, he's begging you every day just to eat your cunt. but today? today must be a bad day, because choso is desperate. his already between your thighs, whimpering and whining as he mouths at you through your underwear, tears in his eyes as he begs you to give him a little taste. once you do, his eyes are rolling back just from the first lick.

"you taste so good, fuck, so good, thank you, thank you, mmph, so delicious, i can't get enough." "can you cum again? i know it's been 4 times already, but please? please, please, pleaase, pretty thing, i need itttt..." "oh my goddd, you're cumming? yes, yes, cum on my tongue, pretty please, i'll fuck you so good after, just keep cumming, don't hold back." "stop-stop running away, i know your pretty pussy is all sensitive b-but i just, i can't stop...but you know you can say the safeword and i'll stop, right? ...what? you-you like being overstimulated...? fuck, fuck, okay, let me make you squirt on my tongue then i'll fuck you good, okay?"

✧ i. yuuji : yuuji's always been a smug little shit whenever it came to teasing you. what starts off with him tickling you and blowing raspberries into your stomach turns nto hot kisses against your stomach that let down to the waistband of your underwear as he pushes your shirt up higher on your body. he can't help but grin up at you when he notices the wet spot on your panties from his little kisses.

"d'awww, bunny, y'so cute! look at how wet you are. is that 'cus of me? ehehe, i know, i know, teasing is mean, but i can't help it...you're just so adorable." "y'know i can practically feel your heartbeat whenever i kiss it? mhm, i can feel that, pretty girl. don't cover your face, baby, you're so cute!" "your thighs are so soft. i could stay between here forever, fuck goin' to classes or missions, i'd rather just eat you out until you pass out." "open up these legs a little more, let me get my fingers in there...thereeee we go, such a pretty lil' bun, aren't you?" "you're so messy! did i do this to you? yeah? aww, my pretty girl likes meee! i felt how you squeezed on my fingers! so cute!

✧ h. hiromi : ever since you made a comment about his nose, saying 'doja is right about big noses' in passing to him, hiromi has been curious. curious enough to the point where he looks it up, seeing the video of said woman. so, you wanted to sit on his face and grind on his nose, hm? you've never sat on his face before but he was sure to change that.

"i don't care if you think i'll die, i want you to sit on my face. i'm giving you the chance to either have control of your pace or let me do what i want with you. so, what's your decision?" "see? it's not that bad, angel, you forget your husband isn't some weakling...now c'mon on, get yourself right over my mouth, let me taste you." "god, you're so beautiful like this. i need you on my face more often, you're dripping all over my mouth...such a good girl for me." "heh...i knew you said my nose was perfect for sitting on but i didn't realize it would get you this riled up. go ahead, sweet thing, you can keep grinding that clit on it...just like that, just let me make you feel good." "good lord, i never wanna leave between your thighs. so fucking sweet, shit, angel, you've got me wrapped around that pretty finger. c'mon, let me devour you all night, i'll let you get up when i'm done."

✧ r. sukuna : getting sukuna to lay on his back without him instantly taking control of the situation was easier than you thought. hell, even crawling up higher so that you were hovering over his face was too. but little did you know, sukuna was intrigued, liking the side of you where you would just take control of him, knowing that only you had the right to do that...especially if it meant he got to eat you until you soaked his face.

"you know i should kill you for thinking you can just sit on my face like i'm some kind of personal chair. i am the king of curses, not a piece of furniture...what? ...hm. i guess you do look...good over me like this." "...huh? sorry, i wasn't listening. when are you going to sit on my face? you keep blabbering, but i can see the way that sticky cunt is dripping for me. are you gonna just let it go to waste?" "oh. shit. you've been holdin' out on me, haven't you, diamond? shit, i can see all of you from down here...nah, keep grinding on my face, little one, use me for your pleasure...let me see you cum on my mouth." "such a fucking slut. my mouth is coated in your cum, but you still wanna keep going? my tongue that good for you?" "no, no, i'm not letting you back down until you beg, diamond. tell me how badly you want me to fuck your pussy with my tongue...hm. good enough."

#choso smut #itadori smut #higuruma smut #sukuna smut #jjk smut #jujutsu kaisen smut #choso x reader #choso x you #itadori x you #itadori x reader #higuruma x you #higuruma x reader #sukuna x reader #sukuna x you #kamo choso smut #itadori yuji smut #higuruma hiromi smut #ryomen sukuna smut #𖤐 ── lxnarworks.

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cripplerage · 6 months

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My wedding is next month and I haven't planned anything lmao oops

Feel free to drop some music recs for a wedding playlist if you'd like, we like acid jazz and j-pop, we'll probably have like Gorillaz and stuff like that in there too

If you suggest Taylor Swift I will block you /joke

#ok tbf we have our suits and the cake and the rings and that's basically all a wedeing is right?#this is why we chose a backyard wedding. if I had to book a venue and shit I'd fucking die #also because people tend to judge young people getting married - it's fake. no paperwork just a party #we're already defacto married so we don't really care about the legal shit #wedding #marriage

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nerdynikki94 · 9 months

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Man, I'm still bothered by DTAMHD last night. Afterwards, I had to watch MFHP (I watched the dance 3 times) just to remind myself that once upon a time, Sunny actually took serious risks for character growth. Like, i just sat there, crying with my wine, saying "Remember when they fucking did that".

I hoped it would make me feel better about the prospect of Dennis' possible growth in the far off future, but honestly, the more I ruminate on it, the less invested I feel. Dennis isn't going to get that moment. I think RCG have related Dennis too much to their shitty fans (you know which ones I'm talking about), that they've decided he gets no emotional relief. (Which is so fucking counterproductive and harmful, because we are fucking constrained by a patriarchy that is getting worse and more controlling, filled with men who Dennis embodies, and it's just going to get even worse until those assholes get therapy.) Point being, giving up on Dennis' character growth will mean more harm than good for Sunny.

I literally woke up in a bad mood thinking about watching the ep last night. I even took today off (because it's my bday) to re-watch and analyze. But I just can't get myself to. I've rewatched every single episode of S16, at least 3 times each (even TGGB-which was painful), but I'm too letdown to watch DTAMHD a second time.

Maybe I'm coming across as a bit dramatic, but DTAMHD just confirmed my biggest fear that Dennis will never get that same chance to grow. His character is who he is, and he won't ever be held accountable for his actions, and he'll never acknowledge the fucked up trauma that he's gone through.

Great! Thanks, I hate it. Worst birthday present ever.

#iasip spoilers #iasip s16 #macdennis shit takes a back seat in this. Dennis is a tragic character & I just didn’t want to believe that this is it for him.#Question: has anyone here ever felt themselves slowly lose investment in a fave character's arc?#like RCG really did something with DTAMHD. because i can actually feel my hyperfixation begin to wither and die.#i never wanted to expect macden. but this was some next level for me. like just fucking forget Dennis as a character.#what made sunny so special to me was delving into these flawed ppl & acknowledging that they're products of a fucked up upbringing #Mac came out to his dad. Charlie faced the death & abandonment of his dad. but Dennis? he daydreams & it lowers his blood pressure???#one of these is not like the other.#also. is the ep enjoyable? Yes. Did RCG just give sunnyblr a slap & laugh in our faces? also yes.#there's been hype for a Dennis' arc for a while.especially for S16.then we get a Dennis centered ep. about mental health & it's the finale?#and then that's what they gave to us? an 'it was all a dream' delusion from a man that is already too protected by the narrative to grow #i sincerely don't care how long it takes for S17. if Sunny got canceled. i would probably laugh & say yeah. DTAMHD should be the finale.#it's a very dudebro ending & that's what Sunny is catering to.#haven’t been this upset post finale since TGGTH:P2 aired.Mac going back in the closet really bothered me.DTAMHD left me w/the same feeling #i remember almost giving up on Sunny when Mac jumped back in the closet. no point getting invested in character arcs. same message

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stsgooo · 5 months

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Look at Him.

✩࿐ summary: your attempts at reentering the dating scene is foiled by your ex-husband.

warning(s): past relationship, clingy!gojo, ex-husband!gojo, co-parenting situation, crack fic. wc; 1.6k

pairing(s): gojo satoru x fem!reader

a/n: this is purely just a goof fic because i've put nothing but angst out there so far sooo have a laugh. hope yall enjoy :3

“So, what do you do for a living?”

"A teacher."

"Oh, wow! What grade, subject?"

"Uh, highschoolers and the subject kinda varies on the day."

"Like a substitute teacher?"

"Um....sure, yeah! Substitute teacher."

"That's awesome. Mad respect, kids can be demons."

You were quickly discovering that the dating field had changed in the five years that you had been married. An endless back and forth about what someone did, what's their favorite color, what's their hobbies. Boring questions that you would ask your students on the first day was used in over the table date conversation. Until, until, they got to that question they so desperately wanted to ask.

Would you want to take this back to my—

There was a vibration against your thigh as your date started to go onto a monologue about how much he disliked kids. In all honesty, you couldn't really remember his name. The introductions had been awkward and a little nerve wracking— you were almost sure he had no idea who you were either.

You tugged your phone out of your pocket and resisted the audible sigh that threatened to leave you when you saw the notification.

Satoru please tell me why my beautiful, radiant, amazing, intelligent daughter just said her mommy is on a date. feeling sick to my stomach, don't tell me this is true.

You rolled your eyes. Your ex-husband had always been so overdramatic. His main focus was always on the bit that could come from a situation. However, this was a quality you do used to admire about him. His ability to make any situation seem like it was a funny happenstance that you'd never encounter again.

Now, it was nothing more than a nuisance.

Satoru oh my god, you left me on read. it's true. it's true. i hope you know i just threw up. i threw up everywhere. i might die. at least, tell me he's ugly. please god let him to be ugly.

A sigh, you typed out the quickest message you could without your date asking what's wrong.

You I hope you're not ignoring said daughter to ask me about some date. I'll be home later, please refrain from texting me.

You were about to set your phone down when another text came through. This one appeared to more distraught than the last.

Satoru o h your tone. it's over. it's really over. i might just kill myself this is the worst night of my life. y/n, i'm genuinely feeling sick. please, is he ugly? he must be boring because you're texting back.

You were almost inclined to remind Satoru you both had been divorced for a year already. That this was bound to happen and you two had, in fact, spoken about it months into the divorce. You had played with some 'what if's and there was a mutual agreement that the other wouldn't get jealous and be dramatic about the other getting in a relationship whenever the time comes. It was a surprisingly adult conversation.

You should've known better when Satoru proudly proclaimed he didn't care who you got involved with.

You Satoru, we talked about this. We're adults and we're divorced. Please bother someone else, like Suguru.

Satoru i don't wanna talk to suguru. i wanna talk to youuu (;﹏;) i can't believe you've done this. ten years. ten years of loyalty. im sick to my stomach.

You You asked for the divorce.

"Is everything okay?"

You eyes snapped up from your phone and towards your date. He had the good grace to be wearing a relatively concerned expression, eyeing you wearily.

You quickly tucked your phone back into your pocket, ignoring the insistent vibrations it gave to smile apologetically. "I'm sorry, my daughter had an accident and I had to, you know, send a quick text to her babysitter." It was easier to explain away a daughter than it was a clingy ex-husband who was well in his dissent into insanity. Really, you were doing this guy a favor keeping him in the dark.

However, his face still paled and he straightened. "You have a kidI'm so, so sorry. I just went on a two minute rant about how much kids are equivalent to demons." He seemed to spiral as he pressed his hands against his face, uttering curses to himself. "I get so nervous with these dates. I truly meant nothing by it."

You smiled in amusement, "It's no problem, really. I'm not exactly disagreeing." He peeked from between his fingers and blinked at you dumbly. "Just because I'm a parent doesn't mean I don't agree. I mean, my kid can be a bit much sometimes. I love her, but she's a lot like her dad in that way."

It always made your chest blossom. The way Saori was a carbon copy of Satoru. From the rambunctious personality, to the piercing blue eyes, and white hair. Your genes hadn't won in the battle, but you were almost grateful. Satoru tried to tell you that she had your smile and your wit, but you weren't entirely convinced. She was Satoru and Satoru was her.

You were extremely lucky that he was a good dad.

"Oh? Do you mind me asking if her dad's still around?" His tone was indication enough: a daughter and an ex of some kind was pushing it for him.

You tensed up, feeling deep regret already. "Uh, yeah." His eyes shifted away and you reached forward, taking his hand. "But, he's not, like, crazy or anything! He's just a good dad."

Your date chuckled nervously. "I-I just don't want to get involved in some, um, some family dynamic."

You thought it was a little presumptuous of him to think this would go that far, or he'd get in the way. But you were too focused on defusing the situation.

"Oh, no, it's not like that! We've got a healthy balance, y'know? He does his piece, I do mine— that's it!"

He scrunched his face. "So... an open relationship?"

"No!" You press your hands against your face with a huff. "No, we're not together anymore. We just co-parent."

He opened his mouth to further question you when your phone vibrated very audibly. His eyebrows raising. "Your daughter?"

You sighed. "Please give me one moment."

With jerky movements, you pull your phone from your pocket. The assortment of messages that came where spread over the ten minutes you decided to ignore him.

Satoru okay, you've got me there. but my big heart is breaking. i hope he's ugly and he smells. okay, i spoke with suguru and he said i'm an idiot who should apologize. in my defense, i'm a little itty bitty drunk. and no, saori is not awake. papa put her to bed before bringing out the whiskey. im so sorry my beautiful deity. that not ugly, not smelly man is so lucky to be in your presence and i hope you have a good date. also i hope he gets hit my a car. (＾▽＾)

You I'm going to kill you with my bare hands. Genuinely, count your days, Gojo Satoru.

Satoru hot, hot, hot!!! (●´□`)♡ did he actually get hit by a car?

You Is there something you want?

Satoru him dead. and you home :((((

You You don't want me home. I swear to god, if you're on my couch, drinking when I get home, I will ruin your life.

Satoru promise??? ╰(✿´⌣`✿)╯♡ but, actually, i wanted to ask your opinion on something

You For real?

Satoru for realsies. [Image Attachment]

Completely blinded by your irritation, you don't even hesitate to open the picture as it loads. Although you regret it the moment it does.

It's a picture of Satoru. He's at what seems to be the beach (must've been the fun activity him and Saori were going to join Suguru for), his sunglasses were on the top of his head, and he was grinning at the picture. One hand was resting against his pectoral and the veins in his hand was prominent. An obvious attempt at being charming and flirtatious. It was working too.

If it weren't for the fact that you knew him and were his ex, you might've just swooned.

"Oh, my god, is that him?" Your date was staring at your phone with wide eyes. His face even more pale than before. He started to shake his head as he stood, snatching his jacket from the back of his chair. "No way. I am not getting involved! I'm sorry, you're a nice woman, but I know when I'm not winning. And I'm definitely not winning against that."

Your eyes widened considerably, "What? No! Please don't leave. He's an idiot, I swear there's nothing—"

"He is... a hunk. I am not. In no shape or form am I at all comparable to that. Look—" He reached forward, grabbing your phone and holding the picture up to be beside his face. "Look at the difference! Model who has won Japan's hottest man at least eight times before he's 30 to me— Look at him!"

"It's not even like that!" You snatched your phone back and stared at him in frustration. "He's my ex, I do not want him!"

He waved his hands in front of your face. "I know how this will go. You think you like me and then your super hot and super sexy ex-whatever makes you realize the familiarity is good. Then I get dumped." He straightened, latching his hands onto the lapels of his jacket. "I just realized I am a side character. In my own life. Goddammit."

He barely glanced at you as he paid for the dinner, then left as quickly as he could. Still, you didn't even know his name.

Satoru oooo taking you awhile to respondddd still in love with me? (人◕ω◕)

#♡ oneshot #✩࿐ t writes #gojo satoru #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #gojo x reader #gojo x you #gojo satoru x reader #gojo satoru x you #gojo satoru x y/n #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk x reader #jjk fic

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