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1. Any fics where wwx dies and becomes a water spirit? Or any plain water spirit wwx stories?

the past drifts away with the waves by thelastdboy (E, 5k, wangxian, WWX & Wen remnants, LWJ & LSZ & WWX, graphic depictions of violence, major character death, canon divergence, fall of lotus pier, major characger undeath, YZY being an asshole, implied/referenced child abuse, minor character death, major character injury, amputation, loss of limbs, transformation, merpeople, fierce corpse WWX, kind of, merperson WWX, resentful creature WWX, undead WWX, riverspirit WWX, it gets worse before it gets better, heavy angst w happy ending, no sunshot, hurt/comfort, politics, not cultivation world friendly, slow burn, getting together, revenge, demonic cultivation, WWX pov, dark WWX, monsterfucker LWJ, wen remnants live, sect leader WQ, WIP) i recently started this story

You still sound like a song by Moominmammashandbag (M, 64k, wangxian, WIP, Ghost!WWX, Mystery, LWJ plays inquiry, AU from after the Wens came to Lotus Pier, Most people lived, not everybody died, Angst with a Happy Ending, river spirit!WWX, Angst and Feels, description of murder, imminent smut, Execution, bad dog names, Poisons, Discussion of Attempted Murder, BAMF WWX, Family Feels)

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2. Hi! I recently saw the rec about a fic where WWX was pregnant and didn’t know, it was called blood, google and love, I believe, and I‘ve read that, and the fic inspired by the same post. So now I‘m in the mood for that „he didn’t know he was pregnant“ scenario. I don’t really care who the one pregnant is. Thank you so much! @desperation-is-my-middle-name

Little fall of rain by luckymoonly (M, 10k, wangxian, canon divergence, fix-it, WWX didn’t now he was pregnant, mpreg, family feels, soft LQR, misunderstandings, jealous LWJ, fluff & angst, happy ending, smut, breastfeeding, thirsty granny, JGS being usual self)

Impermanence, Transience, Permanence by Best Bepsy (BepsyGray) (E, 39k, wangxian, canon divergence, unplanned pregnancy, mpreg, gore, sunshot campaign, assumed miscarriage, medical procedures, childbirth, golden core reveal) And there's the, "I didn't know I was /still/ pregnant" fic

Surprise Baby! by trulywicked (M, 10k, wangxian, modern cultivation, ABO, mpreg, unplanned pregnancy, accidental baby acquisation, didn’t know he was pregnant, birthing scene, blood, established relationship, fluff)

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3. hello!! can you guys suggest some hidden/secret child or any stories like lwj didnt know he had a child with wwx

The time we’ve lost by Anye (T, 54k, WIP, WangXian, Modern AU, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Everyone Is Alive, But they don't know that, Eventual Happy Ending, Slow Build, Twins, Misunderstandings)

Nothing but your heart by airinshaw (E, 21k, wangxian, modern, ABO, implied mpreg, first time, getting together, drama, angst w happy ending, anal sex, whump, breeding kink)

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4. Hello! If this ask is repeated please ignore it I’ve got a memory as bad as wwx and I forgot if I asked this already or not (Not to worry even if it WAS a repeat ask! ITMF posts have a lot of popular asks cycling through frequently ☺️ Repeats are even encouraged since there might have been found even more fics fitting those asks later on ~Mod L)

Anyways, for the itmf I’d like some kind of time travel but starring their parents, like Madam Lan or Canse or Wei Chanze or even Qinghengjun. But please it’s gotta have at least a little bit of wangxian too

Thank! Again sorry if I already asked this

🧡 All will be well when the day is done by abCEE (T, 76k, wangxian, time travel, canon divergence, fix it, not YZY friendly, not Jiang friendly, butterfly effect, no sunshot, madam lan lives, lan WWX) /technically/ a YZY time travel fic?

An Inch of Grass, and All The Sunshine of Spring by ChilianXianzi (T, 1k, wangxian, CSSR/WCZ, CSSR & LWJ &WCZ, time travel, grief/mourning, parent-child relationship, found family, fluff & angst, CSSR & WCZ live, WIP) Does it count if it’s to the future? Either way, CSSR/WCZ time travel

The Long Winding Road Home by Admiranda (T, 12k, CSSR/WCZ, wangxian, time travel, post-canon, not JC friendly, fluff, family reunion, mocking LQR to his face, mocking JC to his face, wild rumours) another CSSR/WCZ travel forward in time

Love you always, in any form you come in by YumichanHamano (G, 7k, wangxian, CSSR/WCZ, post-canon, time travel, fluff) CSSR/WCZ time traveling forward again

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5. Hey ! This is a request for a very specific fic (not a fic finder ) Modern setting is preferred!

Is there any story where either lwj or wwx struggle with understanding social cues /jokes having trouble not being able to hold small talk etc.and people ( friends) making mean comments reactions to , etc..

Like struggling with mental health or

Basically struggling with neurodivergency not knowing their condition/ late diagnosis .

The Bunny Next Door by detailsinthefabric (E, 43k, WangXian, Modern AU, Bottom LWJ, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, LWJ Has Feelings, Soft WangXian, Internally Screaming LWJ, Neighbours)

this author writes neurodivergent wangxian in a very soft and gentle way her fics are locked to the archive so I don't know if I can link any fics?

leave all your love and your longing behind by ScarlettStorm (E, 143k, WangXian, Modern AU, no magic, Meet-Ugly, Panic Attacks, autistic lwj, neurodivergent wwx, the neighborhood asshole dog, if you’ve met one then you know, Hurt/Comfort, Pining, Minor Angst, major shenanigans, Happy Ending, for everyone including the asshole dog, Eventual Smut, switch rights, Sex Toys, horny yearning, Masturbation)

maybe together we can get somewhere (any place is better) by AlfAlfAlfAlfAlf, tardigradeschool (T, 49k, LXC & LWJ, wangxian, LXC/NMJ, LWJ & LQE & LXC, modern, coming of age, QHJ raises his kids, child neglect, implied/referenced child abuse, teen romance, angst w happy ending, first kiss, implied/referenced suicide, implied/referenced self-harm, neurodivergent wangxian)

When we were small by deliciousblizzardshark (T, 7k, LXC & LQR & LWJ, LQR & WWX, modern, kid fic, good uncle LQR, neurodivergent LWJ, baby LWJ, baby WWX, parenthood, homophobia, implied/referenced child abuse, LQR pov, implied/referenced underage sex, grief/mourning, hurt/comfort)

deliciousblizzardshark also writes neurodivergent wangxian as well !

Lan Wangji and the Artificial Phallus by deliciousblizzardshark (E, 15k, wangxian, LWJ & MM, LWJ & LXC, modern, neurodivergent LWJ, virgin LWJ, WWX has ADHD, single parent WWX, trans WWX, implied/referenced trans male pregnancy, getting together, fluff & humor, panic attacks, anxiety, implied/referenced ableism, unreliable narrator, masturbation, bottom LWJ)

Heaven, Wait by sunflowersfield (T, 2k, wangxian, modern, fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, neurodiversity, falling in love, getting together, happy ending, first dates, first kiss, hyperfixations, strangers to lovers, meet-cute)

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6. Hi. I’m kinda new to the whole tumbler asking and all 😅. But I would like to know if you have an fic where it

A) yu ziyuan bashing or the whole jiang family bashing

B) Everyone loving Wei ying and protective of him

C) The junior squad ABSOLUTELY LOVING wei ying ( i LOVE this prompt 😅🥹)

6A)

💖 Lessons relearned by Iamnotawriter (T, 44k, WangXian, LQR & WWX, Not Madam Yu Friendly, Time Travel Fix-It, Angst with a Happy Ending, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Inventor WWX, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better, No Golden Core Transfer, YZY Bashing) link in #10

A Curse Upon Your House (Nearly Worn Wings Take Flight) by Preludian_Staves (T, 5k, wangxian, canon divergence, curses, not YZY friendly, off-screen death, rogue cultivator WWX, happy ending, canon-typical violence, no war au, WWX leaves Jiang sect, JFM chooses YZY over WWX)

💖 Hoards and treasures by apathyinreverie (T, 21k, WangXian, Siblings, Family, not particularly Jiang friendly, YZY Bashing, slightly darker Gusu Lans, LXC being the best brother, Some manipulation, But with the best of intentions, and not between wangxian, Dragon LWJ, Fox WWX, Smitten LWJ, Fluff, perfect happiness, adorable WWX, Romance, Some worldbuilding, courting)

Through the Storm by marhikit (T, 33k, WangXian, Wen Xu/Male OC, WWX has siblings, Canon Divergence, Not Jiang Family Friendly, No golden core transfer, JZX & WWX friendship)

Debts of a Child by Hauntcats (M, 115k, WangXian, dark, YZY Bashing, Not Jiang Family Friendly, Angst and Feels, lots of anger, JC Bashing, not Jiang friendly, Angst with a Happy Ending, Content warning for icky spiders in later chapters.)

💖 Let the Heavens be the judge) by A_Mirror_of_memories (T, 4k, wangxian, time travel, fix-it, not JC friendly, not YZY friendly)

the world wags on by justdoityoufucker (T, 5k, WCZ & WWX, WCZ & LQR, WCZ/LQR, canon divergence, pre-canon, WCZ lives, not everyone dies au, not Jiang friendly, past child abuse, canon Jiang family dynamics, not YZY friendly, parent- child relationship)

Haunted by FlautistsandPeonies (M, 8k, CSSR/WCZ, CSSR & WWX & WCZ, canon divergence, revenge, not YZY friendly, not JC friendly, not Jiang friendly, non-linear narrative, canonical child abuse, child neglect, WIP but chapters can stand alone)

💖 Xiao-Ying of the Third Refugee Village by abCEE (T, 31k, wangxian, WWX banished from Jiang sect, not Jiang friendly, found family, mpreg, fluff, flirting)

💖 Light Source by abCEE (M, 31k, wangxian, not Jiang friendly, no golden core transfer, fall of the jiang sect, happy ending)

💖 in payment, a hand series by justdoityoufucker (M, 10k, wangxian, not jiang friendly, amputation, injury recovery, self reflection, abusive YZY, families of choice)

💖 To Speak Up by Vrishchika (M, 7k, wangxian, modern, child abuse, child neglect, not jiang friendly)

💖 crying like a fire in the sun by cl410 (T, 10k, wangxian, runaway WWX, not YZY friendly, rogue cultivator WWX, post-cloud recesses study, grandmother BSSR, angst w/ happy ending)

re 6a, I think we have Jiang Cheng bashing comp lol which might be up their alley

6C)

🧡 the stone-filled sea by yukla (T, 9k, WangXian, LSZ & WWX, Post-Canon, senior wei defense squad, [Podfic] the stone-filled sea by yukla by Beria1021, the stone-filled sea [Podfic] by BrickGrass) THIS ONE for #6c (junior squad loving wwx) but it’s mostly sizhui and jingyi

The Absolutely True Story of the Yiling Patriarch: A Manifesto in Many Parts by aubreyli (T, 19k, WangXian, In-Universe RPF, Romance Novel, Post-Canon Fix-It, The Absolutely True Story of the Yiling Patriarch: A Manifesto in Many Parts by aubreyli [Podfic] by Rhea314 (Rhea))

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7. Hellooo, for the next itmf; I'm looking for a fic with alpha wwx and omega lwj. preferably a long fic but it doesn't really matter. Thank you!

Until There Was You Series by farawayanddreaming, InTheGreySpaces (E, 50k, WangXian, LXC & LWJ, Omega Verse, Non-Traditional Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, LWJ In Denial About Sexuality, Bottom LWJ, Omega LWJ, Beta LXC, Sibling Incest, Sex as Therapy, LXC is the Best Brother, Worldbuilding, Lore creation, Canon Divergence, Submissive LWJ, but only kind of, Jade-cest, Chronic Pain, Terminal Illnesses, Grief/Mourning, Heavy Angst, Gentle Dominant WWX, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Top/Bottom Versatile | Switch WangXian)

to eclipse the night by quillifer (E, 15k, WangXian, Courtesan AU, alpha courtesan wwx, Omega LWJ, Bottom LWJ, Top WWX, Canon-era AU, light Violence, off-screen mentioned noncon (not btwn main ship), noncon, A/B/O, minor mentions of future mpreg)

your heart of shadows, your eyes like stars by DrPanda99 (E, 62k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Omega LWJ, Alpha WWX, Bottom LWJ, Top WWX, YLLZ WWX, LWJ Has a YLLZ Kink, Immortal WWX, Identity Porn, Humiliation, Voyeurism, Overstimulation, Orgasm Delay/Denial, Canon-Typical Violence, Strangers to Friends to Lovers, Slow Burn, Mildly Dubious Consent, Happy Ending, Alternate Sunshot Campaign, Marriage)

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8. Any fanfic about Lan Wangji not growing up in the Lans? WangXian centric if possible. @catmaid-san

The Dreams of Youth by sami (E, 86k, wangxian, time travel, fix-it, family, not lan sect friendly, canon typical violence & gore, childhood friends to lovers, hurt/comfort, mothers who live, some people live/not everyone dies, [Podfic] Cold read of The Dreams of Youth by kisahawklin) Lwj leaves the lan sect and is raised by his mother.

My Boy Builds Coffins by enbysaurus_rex (Not Rated, 48k, WangXian, Coffin Maker AU, YL WWX, Location: Yílíng, LWJ builds coffins, Autistic LWJ, falling in love over a coffin, Hurt WWX, Mutual Pining, LWJ Has Feelings, Deathscapes, Death as a bittersweet community thing, accidental ecofiction, Farmer LWJ)

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9. Hi, please recommend some of the best dark lwj fan fiction @dog-89

A Matter of Time by mrcformoso (E, 34k, WIP, WangXian, Time Travel Fix-It, POV LWJ, POV JC, Dark LWJ, Manipulation, Grooming, WangXian Get a Happy Ending, Consensual Underage Sex, Except problematic please read warning in first chapter, Blood and Violence, Insane LWJ, Manic LWJ, Conditioning, WWX is a Lán, Minor Character Death, Confused JC, Golden Core Reveal, Good Friend NHS, WWX Isn't Adopted by the Jiāngs, Abusive Jiāng Family, Jiāng Family Bashing, Jiāng Family Critical, POV NHS, Dark NHS, Anal Sex, Marathon Sex, Dual Cultivation, Qīnghéng-jūn Lives, LWJ Has a Big Dick, WWX Self-Lubricates, Plot Twists, Porn With Plot, Scheming NHS, Manipulative NHS, BAMF LWJ, BAMF WWX) After slaughtering many cultivators lwj travels back in time and takes wwx for himself. Not dark as in cruel, but on the dark end if morally grey- lwj kills anyone who tries to get in the way of him and wwx

💖 Ominous by 3neetee (T, 5k, wangxian, pre-relationship, established relationship, character death, fae & fairies, changelings, dark LWJ, dark WWX, BAMF WWX, graphic description, suicide, implied/referenced domestic violence)

💖 I just wanted to see you so bad by Blackberreh, ThatOnePlatypus (T, 1k, wangxian, canon divergence, dark LWJ, minor character death, blood)

💖 demons run when a good man goes to war by Miranda_Aurelia (T, 20k, wangxian, LWJ & NHS, JYL/JZX, canon divergence, angst w happy ending, NHS & LWJ friendship, not JGY friendly, dark LWJ, revenge, (presumed) major character death, not LXC friendly)

💖 Somewhere Sits an Empty Throne by Siamesa (E, 19k, WangXian, Crossovers & Fandom Fusions, tgcf fusion, Gods & Goddesses, Ghosts, Romance, vengeance, Dark LWJ, Grief/Mourning, Explicit Sexual Content, Angst with a Happy Ending)

💖 Do you want to hear by allollipoppins, dameauxgentianes (T, 12k, wangxian, time travel fix-it, canon divergence, not everyone dies au, epistolary, Madam Lan lives, minor character death, dark LWJ, Lan WWX, bad parents JFM & YZY, good uncle LQR, no sunshot campaign)

💖 Like the sea loves the shore by Say (E, 15k, wangxian, LQY & WWX, implied/referenced WWX/WC, F/F, rule 63, dark LWJ, protective LWJ, sirens, childhood friends to lovers, fluff, angst w/ happy ending, eventual smut, human WWX, siren LWJ, age difference, non-human genitalia, minor character death)

💖 Buried in the Sky, Hallowed by thy Depths by themunchking (T, 9k, wangxian, supernatural elements, sirens, dark wangxian, canon-typical violence)

💖 The Way You Tremble by themunchking (E, 6k, wangxian, murder husbands, vampires, blood, violence, supernatural elements)

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10. In the mood for a timetravel AU where it's not wangxian that timetravels but someone else.

Heliocentric by Aki_no_hikari (T, 13k, Time Travel Fix-It, slight angst at the beginning, badass wq, Murder, dark!wq, although not as dark as she could be) Wen Qing time travel

Who You Condemn by osiesaur (M, 53k, LXC/NMJ, LXC & LWJ, LXC & JGY, wangxian, time travel, canon divergence, semi-successful fix-it, 3zun dynamics, grief/mourning, chronic illness, angst w happy ending,not everyone dies au, WIP) LXC time travels (the other two fics in the series also have non-wangxian time travel)

Lynchpin by ShanaStoryteller (Not Rated, 103k, WangXian, JC & WWX, Time Travel, Fix-It, Lynchpin [PODFIC] by Opalsong, [PODFIC] Lynchpin by Gwogobo)

Baby Of Mine by pupeez4eva (G, 3k, wangxian, time travel, humor, canon divergence, everyone lives, gusu school days, family) I really like this one where baby a-yuan time travels

💖 Alternative Choices by StarClearWaters (Readoutloud) (T, 20k, wangxian, time travel, butterfly effect, LXC pov, protective LXC, temporary character death, mpreg, panic attacks) LXC time travels multiple times

💖 The blame game by apathyinreverie (T, 13k, wangxian, LXC & LWJ, LSZ & WWX, WWX & WQ, LXC & WWX, canon divergence, time travel fix-it, possessive LWJ, oblivious WWX, fluff, siblings, romance, golden core reveal, golden core fix-it) LXC time travels, link in #16B

💖 secondhand regrets by spookykingdomstarlight (T, 18k, JGY/NHS, wangxian, NHS/WWX, time travel fix-it, canon divergence, curses, cloud recesses study arc, jealousy, misunderstandings, petty LWJ, pining, minor romantic experimentation between NHS/WWX, jealous LWJ) NHS time travels

💖 With Surgical Precision by metisket (T, 20k, WQ & WN, WQ & WWX, WangXian, Time Travel, Families of Choice, sibling bonding through murder) WQ time traveling

Jiang Rising by eebee (M, 134k, wangxian, JC & WWX & JYL, JC&WQ, JYL/LXC/NMJ, canon divergence, time travel fix-it, JYL is out of fucks, WQ never even had many, epistolary, polyamory negotiations, WIP) JYL time travels

Keeping Our Promises Unbroken by ColdBloodedReptile (M, 80k, JYL/JZX, wangxian, JC/WQ, JYL & WWX & JC, JYL & WQ, LWJ & JYL, canon divergence, time travel, fix-it of sorts, not everyone dies, angst w eventual happy ending, fluff, family feels, slow burn, JYL pov, found family, sibling bonding, protective siblings, occasional LWJ pov, canon-typical violence, WIP) here's a Yanli (and surprise other) time travel fic

💖 How Much Love Has the Inch Long Grass by Vainwyrm (M, 12k, WIP, WangXian, ZhuiLingYi, XuanLi, Time Travel Fix-It, Permanent Injury, Disability, Canon Disabled Character, Physical Disability, Non-canon disabled character, Self-Worth Issues) The juniors time travel

💖 The Stuff of Legend by pupeez4eva (T, 21k, wangxian, JYL/JZX, time travel, humor, cloud recesses study days, post-canon, matchmaking, misunderstandings, WIP) Another time travel for juniors

💖 Who Ever Said the Past is Set in Stone? by Tekia (T, 24k, time travel, not a fix-it, and then a fix-it, canon-typical violence, sunshot campaign, canon divergence, suicidal ideation, suicidal thoughts, depression) juniors time travel multiple times

💖 The night sky is vast and wide by RedWritingHood (not rated, 5k, WC & WWX, canon divergence, time travel fix-it, WC the embodiment of fear and anxiety, PTSD, WC suffering, WC & WWX... friendship?, concerned WWX, frightened WC, sweetheart WN) Wen Chao ends up time traveling

💖 the peaceful old broad river by Sienne (not rated, 11k, WQ & WWX & WN, WQ pov, time travel, found family, family feels, no golden core transfer) WQ time travels in this one!

💖 A Brother's Choice by Admiranda (G, 8k, gen, time travel, yiling bros, animal death, minor character death, WN has no time for fools, YZY’s canonical cruelty, post-canon setting) WN time travels

💖 aim to repaint these days by NinthFeather (T, 2k, time travel fix-it, junior shenanigans, humor, sunshot campaign) Juniors again

💖 Drag Me Into Your Coffin (I Will Drag Your Sins Into the Light) by the5leggedCricket (G, 2k, canon divergence, temporary character death, time travel fix-it, BAMF LXC) LXC time travels

💖 Back in time by LilacNeko (T, 32k, wangxian, time travel fix-it of sorts, angst, family feels, good kid LSZ, sad JL)

💖 i’ll keep walking by justdoityoufucker (orphan_account) (T, 2k, WQ &WWX & WN, wangxian, time travel fix-it, not JC friendly, everyone lives au, found family)

💖 parent trap by tongzhi (T, 23k, JL & LSZ & LJY & OYZZ, wangxian, JYL/JZX, time travel, cloud recesses study arc, humor, bad matchmaking)

💖 无别无离 | Without Farewells, Without Parting by dragongirlG (M, 30k, Junior Quartet, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Fix-It of Sorts, Burial Mounds Settlement Days, POV Alternating, Jin Ling’s Hundredth Day Celebration, qiongqi path, Family Feels, Hopeful Ending)

💖 Mission: Ensure A Better Future by a_dancer (Not rated, 21k, wangxian, junior quartet, time travel)

💖 Truth, Like an Arrow by Nahiel (T, 3k, wangxian, character death, time travel fix-it, WN is a good boy)

To Fix Your Twisted Reflection by Dgcakes (ficsnfun) (M, 167k, 3zun, time travel fix-it, slow burn, trust, healthy relationships, or at least trying)

Snapping brushes by Kayo_San (T, 63k, NHS & NMJ, time travel fix-it, Nie sect theories)

from the top, this time with personality by thunderwear (G, 15k, JYL/JZX, wangxian, time travel, JYL stands up for herself, family feels, WIP)

Sunlight Through Pines by handsofstardust (M, 66k, JGY/NMJ, wangxian, JZX/JYL, JC/NHS, time travel, eventual romance, pining, verbal abuse)

Wandering Eyes series by AstaraelWeeps (M, 14k, JGY & NHS, NHS & NMJ, JGY & NMJ & LXC, 3zun, time travel fix-it, outsider pov in the first part, JGY pov, murder, JGS being a creep, self-assigned honeypot, dub con, attempted rape/non-con, scheming NHS)

You might like fics in #4 and #16B also

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11. ITMF request! (for when AO3 returns from the war): I am looking for WangXian fic that includes very close and loving Twin Jades (not Jadecest). Fics where LXC mercilessly teases his didi, where LWJ makes it his mission to pull his brother out of seclusion post-canon, where LXC and LWJ are "battle bros" of the highest order, where they try their damnedest to embarrass each other in front of other people in the most stoic, staid, subtle Lan way possible! @kimboo-york

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12. i wanted to ask if there are any recs for fics in which wwx is saved by lwj, like from the jiangs or whatever, doesn't even have to be heavy whump, but very much jiang slandering.

(not yanli or jiang chen necessarily, but feel free to include anti madam and fengmian propaganda :3)!! @clawmark

🧡 rain falls and soaks into the earth series by RoseThorne (T, 48k, WangXian, WIP, Near Death Experience, Attempt Drowning, Madam Yu Bashing, Recovery, No war AU) also preludian_staves

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13. In the mood for fics where people mistake Lan Sizhui as the biological son of WangXian / Lan Sizhui showing habits & similarities to WangXian (based off a reply to a previous ask - Mod C) @ihaveasoftspotfora-yuan

the-marathon-continues-nip: 13a, I have a fic that fits this in my bookmarks , I just have to find it , can the requester bookmark this post cause I might take a couple days to find it. it's a modern AU and it was a 5 times type thing where the premise was 5 times lan zhan got mistaken for being wen yuans dad or something like that over the years. it's very sweet. maybe somebody might remember it?

Just Like His Father by narikanyan (G, 2k, WangXian, Kid Fic, Mistaken Identity, A-Yuan is WWX's, Fluff, Falling In Love) I found it !!

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14. Hi! For the next ITMF I wanted to ask for fics where WWX relates to YZY when he has to hide A-Yuan to save him at the siege (I don't even know if there's a fic like this lol) Like, both of them had to make the difficult decision to leave alone their child and go back to fight, and that was the last time they saw their children before dying. Thank you mods! @jiangclaritybell

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15. Hi, I'm looking for stories where Lan Zhan overprotects Lan Sizhui. He is so overprotective that he won't let him leave Cloud Recesses without company. Sometimes he won't even let it out.If you can find stories that deal with that would be amazing. Thank you. @majhe2026

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16. itmf for outsider pov fics

A) wangxian's relationship development through an outside perspective

B) time travel (doesn't matter who time travels back) through an outsider's perspective

16A)

💙 Su She Eats his Heart Out by KizuKatana (T, 16k, WangXian, 3rd person pov, implied offscreen wangxian sex)

16B)

I Have Been Selfish, Too by osiesaur (M, 176k, 3zun, JGY & NHS, JGY & JZX & MXY & QS, canon divergence, time travel fix-it, everyone lives au, outsider pov, happy ending, fluff & angst, scheming NHS, protective NHS, 3zun dynamics, anxiety, PTSD, mental health issues, chronic pain, chronic illness, canon-typical abuse & bigotry)

💖 That Moment When You Find Out That Your Classmates Apparently Have a Fighting Kink by BonBonWaifu (T, 2k, wangxian, canon divergence, time travel, outsider pov, NHS pov, sexual tension, fighting kink, cloud recesses study arc)

💖 Marry for Love by tuesday (T, 3k, JYL/NHS, canon divergence, time travel fix-it, minor character death, outsider pov, political marriage)

💖 bleed by justdoityoufucker (T, 5k, WangXian, Sunshot Campaign, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Post-Sunshot Campaign, Families of Choice, Love Confessions, First Kiss, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Canon JC Characteristics, Not Jiāng Chéng Friendly)

💖 Targets by nirejseki (G, 10k, NHS & NMJ, JC & WWX & JYL, NHS & WWX & JC, canon divergence, time travel, outsider POV, families of choice, unexpected consequences)

💖 things happen, don’t ask by MarbleGlove (T, 6k, wangxian, time travel, outsider POV, Mojo’s post)

💖 rerun from the outside by Eicas (T, 2k, wangxian, time travel, outsider pov, jiang cheng POV, Mojo’s post)

💖 Wei Wuxian’s Terrible, Horrible, No Good First Meeting With His Future by Enigmatree (T, 3k, wangxian, time travel, outsider pov, YLLZ WWX)

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17. ITMF teen wangxian shenanigans

Fentao-laoshi's Guide to Cut-Sleeve Pleasures by occultings (microcomets) (E, 31k, wangxian, canon divergence, pining while fucking, friends w benefits, cloud recesses study arc, first time, practise kissing, sharing a bed, smut, loss of virginity, getting together, confessions, happy ending)

Wei Laoshi, Poonslayer by FeelsForBreakfast (E, 6k, WangXian, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, POV LWJ, straight boy wwx, Loss of Virginity, Getting Together)

when you love somebody, bite your tongue by sophiahelix (E, 17k, wangxian, cloud recesses study arc, first time, just the tip, only one bed, horny teenagers, sharing a bed, fantasizing, size kink)

your petals that bloom in the snow by lulu_kitty (T, 10k, wangxian, modern w magic, cloud recesses study arc, skaterboy WWX, everyone lives au)

Conjunction by DrJLecter (T, 12k, wangxian, cloud recesses study arc, soulmates au, soulmate identifying song, WWX is a menace, pining, supportive LXC, meddling LXC, LWJ pov)

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2023.11.18 - https://weibo.com/l/wblive/p/show/1022:2321324969502629822558

I'll stream for a small~~~bit~~

LYN: Hallo everybody, good evening I am Modern Brothers Liu Yuning. Welcome! LYN: I already told you I would find time to stream, so this counts as having made good on my promise. C: What a surprise. LYN: It’s not really. Honestly I am a little tired, because I just started my new work so I’m a little weary and I was planning on coming back home to take a shower and sleep. But since we wrapped up so early today, I felt like if I didn’t use the time to stream I would be letting you down. Our main focus, fam’, is “company”, isn’t it?

C: Your hairstyle is hard to explain. LYN: I just got off work and had to have it under a wig for my guzhuang drama. Now my hair is pressed flat and shapeless so I’ve just slapped on this white hair. Today we’ll cosplay as a “leng shao”- someone who looks distant and cool.

LYN: My new drama has just started filming, and I know a lot of fans were planning on attending the open. But since we’ve been a little low-key, you didn’t make it and have instead decided to come to Hengdian to play. You made a trip out of it. I saw many of you are checking in at various restaurants- restaurants that I’ve been to- to have a meal or hang out. “Ning-ge ate at this place, and as expected, it’s good! Why else would he keep coming here otherwise?” “This place has to be good because I always see people take photos of Ning-ge, when he’s leaving it.” “When Ning-ge, comes here next, he’ll be checking in where PF’s (his fanclub: peng-fei) have checked in!” LYN: It’s great. Hengdian is a nice place to come for travel & sight-seeing. You can take a walk around at see- the House of Sunset Drizzle, and other such places. You can wander around and check them out.

C: Has Leng Shao come out to eat in the past few days? LYN: No, because you’re all there, so I will not be eating out. Let’s say for example you’re eating out at a restaurant and I- “GWA!”- walk in with messy hair and swollen face. As soon as I walk into that restaurant and you see me, I’m sure that your psychosis will start. You’ll all go crazy in a split second. Then, you’ll pick up your phone and contact all your friends around the Hengdian area and disclose my location. Everyone will swarm the place. That’s the first thing. The second is usually- since I am from Dongbei, and we are more kind- if I walk into a restaurant that has 10 tables and 6 of them are of my fans who have come to sightsee… should I pick up the bill for these 6 tables or not? Do I pay for their meals, or not. Friends, you can ponder this for a minute. If I don’t pay the bill, would people think I am stingy, being such a big artist as I am? If I DO pay… I would feel sorry for my money. XD LYN: I don’t want to offend anyone- so I’ll just stay at home eating take-out. You can have your fill of fun and when you’re done you can go back home to work or whatever, okay? I will not be accompanying you, nor will I be paying for your bill. Please do not have a meal at the restaurant and when the boss tells you to pay, say, “Add it to Leng Shao’s tab. My friend, Leng Shao, works in Hengdian all the time. Do you not know him? Add it to his tab and make him pay later.” - C: How long has it been? LYN: I just started not too long ago. 3 minutes. (t/n: 8 minutes…) You didn’t miss any exciting content. - C: I got it. Ning-ge, I’m in Hengdian right now. Later, wen I got o eat I will tell the boss to put it on your tab. LYN: If you’re going to do that… you’re going to get reported. That’s running away without paying. YOU know who “Leng Shao” is, but the shop owner doesn’t. Forget it, okay?

C: Ning-ge, change into a hat. LYN: What do you care?? What’s it to you what I wear. I’m just going to do what I want. Just listen for entertainment. Even if you think that you can’t stand to see another second of my face and this messy hair, just listen to my voice. Listening to the audio alone is also very nice. Friends, isn’t it nice? - /purposely makes it... not nice/ - /laughs at himself. LYN: I turned into a frog./

LYN: A lot of people watch my stream and many of you know that I’m a singer, but not that I am also acting. But they have seen clips of my streams, so they always say, “I’ve watched a bit of LYN’s stream, but why does he talk with such a heavy Dongbei accent? How can he act like that??” Uh… can you hear my Dongbei accent when I’m singing? No, right? I just like to use my hometown dialect when I’m streaming, but I actually can speak putonghua. C: People from the Northeast have a few different sounds they can use. LYN: Not always. It depends on if you know how to use them or not. But they’re also not immediately interchangeable.

C: Ning-ge, how much money is is the opening red envelope? LYN: I don’t know about other people but actors get- what’s it to you?? How is how much money is in my red envelope any business of yours? Did you want me to treat you to a meal? No way. I can’t do it. C: 100 // 200 // 5. LYN: You can’t be like that. Now you’re being impolite. The red envelope given at opening is for good luck- it doesn’t have anything to do with the amount. It’s not as if your whole finances are dependent on this one red envelope. It’s a token meant to bring good luck. The amount is not important. LYN: Someone said “100”. Let’s say for example that the ZLYM envelope did not have up to 100 in it; how do you want me to explain that to the crew? Now it seems like we’re very stingy. That doesn’t work, right? What if it isn’t 100?? C: At least 100. LYN: The amount won’t be too much. I’ve received a few opening envelopes, and some of them were 10-20-50, and even some 100. ZLYM is a big project, so… they gave us 100. 100 is the upper limit for opening red envelopes. It doesn’t have to do with lack of resources or not, it’s just not worth it to give any more than that. It’s a small token of appreciation. C: Give me 5. LYN: You’re just a kid. You can’t spend money. I’ll save it for you. When you grow up I’ll give you 100 to spend. For now I’ll save it for you.

C: How long? LYN: Just a small while. You didn’t really miss anything. I can’t stream for too long, either. I was planning to wrap and wash my face properly and get some rest so that I can be in good condition for filming.

C: Are you still drinking the plum juice? LYN: Not lately. I don’t drink it after filming starts. I was drinking it earlier, because we hadn’t started yet. But the juice- just fruits blended into a juice- is helpful for uh… swift going. It will make you use the restroom more often, let’s say. After a few trips, you’ll start to lose water weight and therefore look a little thinner. For a period of time, I was drinking that juice- one pack a day- and I became… too swift. LYN: Yesterday I was in hair and makeup, and after that I was supposed to go to set. The car was parked in the front and my staff came to get me like, “The car’s ready. Let’s go.” But I told them I needed to use the restroom. So they let me go. After staying in there for about two minutes, I… wasn’t successful. So I thought, “Forget it. Let’s just go. If anything, I can take care of it when I reach the set.” After you drink this juice, you’ll feel the need to go more often. Anyway, I decided to take care of it on set, but three minutes after the car had started moving, I couldn’t take it anymore. I told them, “Find me a bathroom, quick. I can’t hold it anymore.” We had the navigation search for the closest restroom, but it was ten minutes away. I was not going to make it ten minutes. They needed to find me something within three. We found a hotel, and I walked right in and was able to take care of it. LYN: If your digestion is poor lately and you want to drink some, that’s okay. But if you have a normal work schedule, try not to drink that thing. You won’t be able to control it. XD C: Don’t talk about it so uncouthly. LYN: I think that as an actor, you have to have a clear and realistic approach to expressing yourself. Because when you’re talking to someone about things, you have to give them a sense of the picture. Even though you can’t satisfy them in terms of smell and hearing, you have to give them a sense of sight to be considered an outstanding actor. That’s one of the base requirements for being an actor. That is- even though you weren’t there, through my description, you should be able to get an idea of the situation. You had to get an understanding of and feel my pain. C: I’m eating dinner! LYN: I apologize. It’s around 7p, I thought you were done already. Because I always eat at around 5-6p, and by 7p I’m laying down watching tv. I didn’t know. My apologies. That was my mistake. Excuse me. C: What does the plum juice taste like? LYN: DZW recommended it to me. He said it could help with weight loss.

C: What are you drinking now? LYN: This- /picks up his glass/- is tea. I usually drink soft drinks, because I quite like sodas and “lei bi” (sprite = xue bi; the characters for xue (snow) and lei (lightning) look similar). But I’ve been trying to cut my sugar intake, so I’ve been drinking these sugar free drinks. But I can’t take just clear water- I don’t really want to drink it. So I’ve bought things like this- this is pu’er tea.

C: Ning-ge, you’re not seeing HZT today? LYN: What are you talking about? I know- he has a concert today. But… I attended a cosplay event today, so I didn’t go. See- look at the white hair? Normally I would be at his concert, but I’m filming a drama. We just started filming today. I have scenes in the next few days so I dont think I can go. I’ll see if I have time later to attend any of the other stops. That doesn’t need saying- of course I’ll go if I have time. LYN: I sent him a flower stand for a successful concert, though.

C: Ning-ge, you’re cosplaying as [???] LYN: I’m cosplaying as a head of garlic. Do you want to peel me apart? [t/n: ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)]

C: Ning-ge, change into something green. LYN: ? Are you cyber-bullying me? Let me tell you- don’t think that artists are so well off. Actually, they are under an immense amount of pressure. So one day if I turn emo, don’t you think I would find you (as the cause)? You might think that your unintentional words online are amusing, but you know, sometimes- /plays the sad bgm/- sometimes your unintentional words can cause an adult to instantly have a breakdown. I really hope that when you’re on the internet, you can reply in a more cultured manner and with kindness. Okay? Let’s return to everyone a peaceful and quiet online environment. C: That’s about enough. LYN: I’m only using a humorous method to advise someone who harbors ill-intent for me not to.

----- drama chat

LYN: Friends, have you been watching Wonderland of Love (LYY)? I think it’s airing pretty well. I don’t know what episode it’s on, but later I’m going to make an appearance. [E36] I cameo’d for three scenes, so I think it’s about time for me to appear. I’m guessing. I know friends were curious as to what sort of character I cameo’d as. C: I’m watching it! // I’m watching right now. LYN: Who are you kidding?? You have my stream open, and you’re telling me you’re watching LYY right now??

C: Ning-ge, then how long do you appear for before you die? LYN: /sigh/ Do I HAVE TO die??? That’s a line from my drama (Heroes 2022)- “Do I have to die?”

LYN: I used to play as supporting characters or villains, and at the end of the drama I always had to die. I finally got the chance to go to this drama and cameo for three scenes, and you want me to die there, too?! What- Do all the characters I act as have to die or something?? LYN: Sometimes I chat with other actors and they say, “I think for this drama.. at the end I have to die.” This happens a lot when we talk about the script, so I asked them, “Why is that?” The response was, “That way the viewers will feel sorry for you.” Ah… 😬 LYN - “Is that so…?” A - “Yeah. If your character dies at the end of the drama, the viewers will definitely feel for you.” LYN - “If that’s what works, then I guess I can die.” LYN: I even started to believe it. But there’s a problem: I’ve shot around ten dramas now. My rate of death is about 70%. Any role I play… they die. Now I’m having a bit of a mental breakdown because based on the response from the dramas that have already aired, it doesn’t seem like the viewers feel very sorry for me at all. They still call me ugly. The Chinese have a saying, “Respect the dead”, right? In the drama I’m already dead- viewers don’t care, they still curse at me.

LYN: So, friends, when I receive a script there are a few questions I have to ask before even looking at the role: I ask, “Is the script complete?” It is. “Who am I playing as?” and “In the end, are they dead or alive?” If the production team says that they aren’t dead, okay, I’ll look at the script. If they tell me that the character I play dies, then... I’ll have to consider it. I can’t keep taking those roles, because I feel like it is ominous for my life. You might not know, but much of the acting industry depends on fengshui (superstition). It’s a big part of the industry, and we’ll light incense at the start of filming, too. LYN: For me, someone who often acts in scenes where I am dying/dead, the crew will prepare a red envelope for you. You get a red envelope at the start of filming, and if you die in the drama you get another one. If they know you will be acting such a scene coming up, they will give you a red envelope to put in your shoe- under your foot. That will help ward off evil. If you die in the drama twice- the first is a fake death and the second for real this time- then you will get two extra red envelopes. It doesn’t matter how many times, if you die, you get a red envelope.

C: How much? LYN: I already told you- the opening red envelope has nothing to do with money- it’s just a good omen. You can put 10 or 20 RMB in there, it’s all good. Usually that’s the general rule. C: Is paper money okay, too? [t/n: the money you burn for the deceased] LYN: 去你的! // I might just punch you for that!

C: Ning-ge, in that case, if you act as a jiangshi, do you get a red envelope every day? LYN: /laughs/ ! Hey, does a jiangshi get paid a daily salary, then? It doesn’t sound unreasonable…

C: Pei pei pei! (“Knock on wood”!) LYN: It’s okay. I was joking around earlier. Honestly, as an actor, you don’t really care about these things. I acted in- Ultimate Note- you all know. So you also know what the content is. In one of the scenes, I was lying down inside a coffin. They closed it and left me with a walkie-talkie. The director said, “On the count of three, push open the coffin and come out of it.” That’s how the scene was designed- a lot of you already know it. So that day, everything was ready- we opened the coffin. The co-director came and said, “Liu Yuning-laoshi, please (lie down).” Ahh? I said, “No problem” and climbed in. I went in, but asked, “After it’s closed, it’s going to be 3-5 seconds, and I can come back out, right?” They said, “Yes.” Ok. I went in and laid down. They closed the lid. After the lid closed I don’t know what happened- there was something wrong with the lighting, or the camera wasn’t in the right position- it wasn’t long. Maybe 8-10 seconds, or 20, but no longer than a minute. I was just laying in there, staring at the lid. I was in there. I was waiting. Just staring at the lid. Thinking, “Wow, it’s been so long already. Why aren’t they cueing me?” “They didn’t forget about me and leave, did they?? I’m still in here!?? Don’t scare me!” It probably wasn’t long on the outside, maybe 20-30 seconds, but on the inside it felt like time was passing so slowly. Every second felt longer than it was. When you’re lying in there, you have an inexplicable feeling of fear. It’s lucky that I encountered such a scene at the start of my career, so everything that came after in a similar vein felt acceptable. C: Ning-ge, you discovered the Jade Woman’s Immortal Sutra in there. LYN: And then what, I started practicing it? C: How many red envelopes did you get for lying in the coffin? LYN: Just the one.

--------- some singing coming up next!

C: You’re trending. LYN: … Really? I don’t believe it. How could I- at my rank- even fancy the notion of having a trending topic?? Stop trying to trick me. I’m not worthy. My rank is too low. LYN: Are you serious? #25? LYN: Why don’t I believe it?? Let me take a look. LYN: :D - /plays celebratory/new year music/

LYN: I really never would have thought. Judging by the radiant smile on my face, you know- C: Quick, fix your hair. LYN: There’s no need. This sort of weird style is what I’m going for. People seek new things. Let’s say I looked normal and was just sitting here in a suit- there’d be no highlight to focus on. This “fried” hair is the way to go. So that people click in and think, “Is this person crazy??” XD

C: Show your talent. LYN: I’m a little tired today… I don’t know if I have enough energy to sing. But since you want me to show my talent, then… I’ll try, Second Aunt. Okay? Let’s do one. // Hold on. Let me find the lyrics.

C: Ning-ge, don’t sing. What if people start running away again? LYN: … You- I know that I’ve ben acting lately, but I’m still a singer. I still have to hold my concert, release my album, and accept OSTs. I still- how could I, as a singer, make people leave BECAUSE of my singing?!? Even if it’s true, you can’t say it out loud. You can’t escape. Just stay here. Friends, how about this, I’m about to show my talent. Because every time I start trending I need to show you respect and to do that I will sing a song sincerely, to brighten your mood, and to express my respect for everyone who has come to my stream. So if I sing a song and you don’t like it or you think it sounds bad, turn the volume down and sit in silence for a bit. When I am done singing I’ll show you the “OK” sign, and you can turn the volume back up and I will continue to chat with you all. Okay?

C: It dropped to 27. LYN: I haven’t even started singing yet, so that drop has nothing to do with me. It used to be that when I was trending, I would sing a song. But as soon as I started singing- GWA- I dropped off the trending topics list. I choose to believe that was a coincidence.

LYN: Lets sing a song. - /clears his throat and starts prepping for an opera/musical XD/ LYN: I’m a little tired. I don’t know if I can sing it well, but just listen for entertainment. The way I sing during my streams is not representative of my real skill, friends. I’m sure there are plenty of producers secretly watching my stream on the down-low. If that’s you, I want you to please remember: All the songs I sing during my stream are for bringing happiness. It does not represent my actual singing skill. If you have any jobs for me, please still continue to be in contact. I just don’t want this to affect my market value. You can do anything but cut-off the way I make a living. -- 笑红尘 (Laughing at the Mundane World)

LYN: Thank you~ This is the version I sang at an event. I was looking through my playlist on my phone the other day and found this song, so I copied the track over. Now I can sing it for you during my streams. I hope you like it. LYN: Did my trending topic drop? No, right? C: Second Aunt says it sounds good! LYN: It didn’t drop though, right?

C: It sounds like flowing electricity. LYN: Your standards are so high. Our main focus today is the sound of electricity.

C: Second Aunt says, ‘Another song!” LYN: Another? What should I sing…? How about this- I think I sang it once but not very (well)… -- Above Jianghu (就在江湖之上) [Mysterious Lotus Casebook OST] LYN: For this song, I can say I killed it. The original singer can’t do it better than me.

C: Ning-ge, “Music is a man’s greatest cosmetic medicine.” LYN: … Are you trying to say… that when I was singing you saw a bit of charm in me, but now that I’ve stopped I look really bad? Is that what you mean? /sigh/ - /lets the lyrics speak for him? ~ As long as I don’t care, nothing can hurt me ~/ LYN: If you’re going to be like that, friend- the internet is full of terribly timed photos of me. People are good at finding my dead angles and taking pictures of me from them, and then posting them online. If you’re going to be like that then every time I’m filming, if I feel like someone is trying to take pictures of me, I’ll start singing. I’ll do some cosmetic medicine right then and there. Even if the pictures look like this- /makes funny faces/- then my fans can explain for me, “Oh, Ning-ge, was singing. He doesn’t look like that usually; he only has that expression when he’s singing. That’s why it came out ugly. Be more understanding. Who can keep a straight face when they’re singing?” It sounds doable. At least now my fans will have an excuse to use. It makes sense, right?

LYN: I’m already used to this, though. Because ever since I started acting as the male lead, on the first day of filming the first thing that comes out is ugly photos. But I know I don’t look handsome, so I acknowledge it. I’m just average-looking. But that doesn’t mean that you can treat me this way. Also, it’s not as if I’m trying to get through this industry on my visuals. I can’t. That path is closed to me. I’m just trying to get by. But it’s okay, because I always monitor my performance. If I discover a scene where I am ugly to the point where it will affect the visuals of the drama as a whole, I will get on my knees and beg the director to please delete that scene. “Director, I’m sorry. Please delete this scene. Don’t let it affect the quality of the drama.” LYN: Don’t take that seriously. Please don’t. Sometimes I just say nonsense. LYN: I know I look kind of weird, but it’s okay. I will just focus on doing well on acting.

C: Is Hengdian really cold right now? LYN: It’s alright. These two days we’ll be filming in a tent, so the temperature is ok. It’s warm. LYN: I’m planning to start wearing my thermals tomorrow, though. I feel more secure wearing them.

------- his acting journey

C: Ning-ge, why do I get the feeling that you are still not used to filming? LYN: ? Did I see that incorrectly? I’m used to filming already, but at the start it’s true that I wasn’t. My very first drama- the one with HZT- that was the first time I ever shot a drama. At the time it was very unnatural. I didn’t have a sense of confidence. 1. I didn’t actually know how to act. 2. Once you’re in the crew you’ll feel like everyone around you is a celebrity. (You’re starstruck.) Honestly. Most of my scenes were with HZT or ZXY. But when I first entered the crew I thought of them as celebrities. I acted as Wei Chengfeng and was meek- I was super nervous when I had to act in a scene with them. Before we start recording, we’ll go through the scene first: reciting lines, checking for smoothness, walk to our positions, checking for any problems before we start filming. When I had to go through my lines with them I was so timid. I was afraid of saying the wrong thing. What if they yelled at me? At the time I thought HZT had a bad temper. I was worried he would yell at me. For this drama, I was really unconfident. LYN: I wasn’t used to acting. That was a period of time I was under a lot of pressure. I didn’t think I would get another chance to be an actor after that drama. I just thought I would shoot it, and since we didn’t know how it would be received, I didn’t know if I would get another chance to act again. So I just did the one- Hot Blooded Youth.

LYN: After, I didn’t think that I would have a chance to be an actor. But then another drama, UN- the second drama I filmed- came to me because Bai-laoshi gave me a chance, and asked me to play as Hei Yanjing. I agreed, and tried it. I didn’t know that so many people would like the character so much. But even after filming that drama, I didn’t think I had a chance at becoming an actor. It’s not that I didn’t want to be, I just didn’t think the opportunity would ever come to me. I didn’t have resources, and my company at the time was still YY, the streaming platform. Acting wasn’t really on my mind, then. I didn’t have any confidence.

LYN: The third drama was CGX, and after I shot that drama I started to think that maybe I DO have a chance, and I WANT to be an actor. I’ve been shooting drama after drama since then, so you might ask me if I’m nervous when I have to film. There’s no way I can NOT be nervous. Because for every drama you enter, you’re trying out a new role. There’s a period of adaptation. You have to make sure you are receptive. You have to know the other actors level of performance and their style, their rhythm for reciting lines. The director’s preferred filming methods, or how they understand the character. You have to be quick to adapt to how the director thinks. When I first enter a drama crew, there is a nervousness there. It’s not a physical nervousness, but you have to be on high alert so that you can quickly adapt to the character and environment; so that you can work together will the rest of the actors and get through the drama smoothly. It’s about how well we all work together.

LYN: That’s why I haven’t felt like streaming in the past couple of days. When the drama first starts filming we’ll only do a few scenes to start, because all the groups are trying to figure out how to work together. We’ll shoot a few scenes to see if the the actors are in the right condition and the characters are coming off as planned. Once we’ve got the character set and the right conditions are met- and even before that- with the costuming. We might come out of wardrobe, hair and makeup looking great. But once we’re seeing it through the camera, with all the lights, it might look wrong. I always think I come out of makeup looking nice, but once I get to set look like a ghost. So it needs to be quickly adjusted. Even hair- sometimes it will look like the wig is missing a piece, and needs to be fixed. The first few days of filming are pretty nerve-wracking because we are all adjusting. Later it goes much more smoothly.

----- Yan Zijing (ZLYM) vs Liu Yuning

C: Yan Zijing is pretty handsome. LYN: Ah… He’s okay. I will try not to influence your thoughts- my fans, of course, will not care either way. But the best thing I can do is make sure that any passersby who might watch the drama are not turned off/negatively influenced by our comments. I’m confident I can do at least that.

C: YZJ has a lot of money, right? LYN: This character is very wealthy, yes. It’s not only that he’s wealthy- he’s not lacking money- but also that he has a brain for making money. Despite that, he has other pursuits in mind. Money is not very important to him. He’s just using it to fulfill a different desire. There’s something else he wants to do. The money isn’t all that important to him. Also- in that period of time, what’s the money going to do for him? It’s not like now- he could buy an iPhone with it. If you have money now, you can buy a house in Beijing or Shanghai. But in the old days, even if you had money there’s nowhere to spend it. It doesn’t matter how much money you had, it’s not as if you could just go out and buy two computers with it. XD At the most, you could eat better? But some regions were poorer, and you can’t buy what’s not there, so I guess you couldn’t even do that. So it doesn’t really matter how much money you have. LYN: That’s why there’s an old saying that money is just a material object. But now it’s not the same- money is everything: white shirt, expensive shoes, beads (XD), an iPhone to stick in your pocket, some computers, a house you can renovate really nicely, an elevator in your house, air conditioning- all of that costs money. Even if you had money in the old days, there was not much luxury you could spend it on. LYN: Now if you have some spare funds, you can get yourself some Pomellato, or something. :) Wear it on your hands, hang it around your neck. If you get thirsty you can buy some Chunzhen to drink. If you’re afraid of being hit by wind and sun you can buy some skincare, like L’Oreal. Right? Nowadays we have plenty of places to spend our money. People like making themselves pretty, too. Now that life is easier going, everyone can make themselves up, and that’s where Givenchy cosmetics comes in handy. It’s all good- all places to spend money.

C: Marketing with ease. LYN: This is my own stream, and I’m not marketing. This is just… offhandedly mentioning. It’s okay. We’re not talking about any big celebrities or anything. I can just mention them.

C: Does YZJ know martial arts? LYN: He does. LYN is basic, but YZJ is pretty charming. A master of pen and sword. He has intellect and knows martial arts. Maybe not at a very high level, but he knows it.

C: Can he ride a horse? LYN: Yes. Definitely better than LYN can. He can ride.

C: Is he well-educated? LYN: Um... he has talent. Maybe he didn’t have many chances to go to school, but he is a self-learner.

C: Does he know how to pan chuan? (traditionally wooden beads) LYN: He doesn’t do anything that LYN does. YZJ shows up and just starts with jadeite, wouldn’t that be terrifying? The plain type the LYN plays with are beneath him. He’ll be playing with the jadeite and it just shatters in his hands- he can throw it away and find a new string.

C: Does YZJ talk back at people? LYN: If you’re human, it’s only natural to have a temper.

C: Can he cook? LYN: /laughs/ I can’t keep a little talent for myself??? Just because LYN is a man of many talents, doesn’t mean that YZJ also has to have all of them! YZJ can cook and wrap dumplings. He knows how to cook Northeastern dishes, too?? It doesn’t work that way! LYN: YZJ can sing. He sings popular songs. In the drama he’ll orchestrate a scene where he holds a concert. Is that what you’re getting at??

C: Can YZJ dance? LYN: He probably, based on his figure, does not have that inclination. /sigh/ You want him to dance?!?

C: Does YZJ have abs? LYN: Stop provoking me! What are you trying to get at?

C: Ning-ge, aren’t you supposed to be a merchant from the Western regions? Then wouldn’t you ride a camel? LYN: I ride an elephant, not a camel. It must be elephant. I’ll grab two and ride them.

C: Does YZJ have any bathing scenes? LYN: … I’ll stop spoiling the drama now. We won’t discuss the complexities of the drama, but you asked me about his abilities, so I have generally described them.

C: Can YZJ livestream? LYN: /laughs/ He can even do influencer marketing! Why do you think he has so much money? He must be influence marketing. He finds a driver, fills up a cart of merch for 9.99, and gets to work. He’s a businessman.

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C: What dramas has LYN acted in? LYN: I haven’t been in much. All my previous roles were supporting, so it’s normal that you probably didn’t see me before. I honestly probably didn’t act very well either, so I wasn’t outstanding. That’s why you don’t know me. But it’s okay, because very soon dramas where I am in more of a lead role will be airing. You can take a look, then. YNGS will be airing soon, so you can start from there. If you don’t want to watch any of the old ones, don’t. Just start with YNGS and wait for the future ones.

C: When is YNGS airing? LYN: Even if I knew I wouldn’t be able to tell you. How can you expect to hear it from me? Do you think I’m really an yxh? I wouldn’t be able to tell you even if I knew- let alone if I don’t know- so don’t ask. When it airs, you’ll be able to watch it. Just wait.

C: When will TXJ air? LYN: …. SOON. LYN: /sigh/ LYN: Now I’m getting scared.

LYN: /pained/ Let me tell you something- I… my stomach hurts. /laughs at himself/ I was thinking of going to the restroom earlier but I figured I’m trending right now. I feel like if I use the restroom right now it would be impolite. Then it might even affect the upwards trajectory of my trending topic. I was thinking I would hold it, to see if I could force it back… but I can’t hold it anymore. Then, let me play you a video, and you can be alone for a little bit. I need to- please wait for me. I’m sorry. I’m really not doing this on purpose. I’m really not. I’m so sorry. I’ll play you two videos and you can stay here a while. Wait for me just a little while, friends. I’m sorry. Excuse me.

---------- break #1 (it’s an emergency.) LYN: I’m back, friends. C: Did you succeed? LYN: I am all cleared out.

C: Ning-ge, are you full? LYN: ?! /picks up his glass/ Look at how smooth that was- I was ready to pour this glass out on your face. You stay away from me. Online you’re a dragon, but in real life you’re just small and weak. You talk big online. I said “Let me use the restroom” and you asked me “Are you full?”??? [t/n: eat… shit…?] LYN: How wicked… how lacking in respect for others must you be??

C: Ning-ge, today is my birthday. Could you wish me a “Happy Birthday”? LYN: Of course I can. Today is Beijing time 2023/11/18, 8:26pm. I wish you a Happy Birthday and I hope that in this new year you can be happy and everything goes swiftly for you. Happy Birthday.

LYN: My stream is a really nice place. This person is celebrating their birthday, and everyone else in the stream is also wishing you a Happy Brithday. This place is so full of love.

LYN: You’re still spamming?? I already wished you a happy birthday, were you even listening to me? Or are my words just a fart on the wind to you? I literally just said it. I already wished you a happy birthday. You can watch the playback later.

C: Ge, wish me a happy marriage. LYN: Of course I wish you have a happy marriage. Many of you are getting married, right? Have a happy marriage. I wish you a wonderful married life.

------- a man not moved by money, who watches some pretty odd sounding mini-dramas

C: Can you sing Above Jianghu (就在江湖之上) again? LYN: Maybe you didn’t hear it earlier, so you want me to sing it again? You really don’t treat me as a stranger. From the tone of your comment, I think you consider me a very good friend, a best friend, the bestest of friends. Because it sort of sounds like I owe you something? If you like the song that much, you can go listen to it on various music streaming platforms. You can go have a good listen. I also really like this song.

LYN: Later when I stop streaming the playback will be up. You can listen to it a another time- even if it’s your second time or thousandth time. It’s all good. Just watch the playback. C: Why don’t you sing it acapella? LYN: …

C: If I give you 1M, would you sing it? LYN: Friends, isn’t this scary? Would I sing it if they gave me 1M? First of all, I’m sure that this friend is very wealthy. They also think that if they give me that much money, I would give in. “You aren’t going to sing? Well what if I give you 1M, would you sing then??” I would. How about this- why don’t you contact my studio account immediately and within 10 minutes we’ll send you a contract. You should sign the contract first and return it to us. A 30% deposit to start would also be acceptable. Right now! You’ll have to excuse me- because this is my own stream so my assistant is not close by. The only thing I have is a small dog, and I don’t think she can do it. Contact my studio and we’ll start our agreement as soon as it’s signed and the 300k deposit is received. We can start right away. The opening notes will start right away. I already have the track prepared. Let’s go through procedures first, though. What do you think? I’ll wait for you. When I receive notice from my studio that we have the money, I’ll be ready to go. I’ll be waiting for you. C: Slash it a little. LYN: You mean that since they are a viewer, I should give them a discount? Alright. We have a little promotion going on, so since you are willing to spend so much I can personally give a small discount. I think I have the right to do that. Let’s say that for every 10k you spend, I’ll give you a 5rmb discount coupon. Alright? Then, since you spent 1M for this song, that would save you… 500 RMB. You can send 1M through officially, and from my personal WeChat I will transfer you 500 back. Ok? Contact my studio first though. LYN: Friends, see? I made money. 1M, just from streaming. XD

C: Ning-ge! In that case, doesn’t it mean they could add you on WeChat? LYN: You mean to say that they spent 1M, and you won’t even let them add me on WeChat? I can add them! Then, after I send the 500RMB, I can block them! This is a one-time transaction. If you want to hear another, then you can start the process over again. I can still block people, you know. After I add them and send their 500RMB back, I’ll just block them. We do things cleanly and efficiently.

C: Ning-ge, I’ll give you 2M, come to my house to sing. LYN: … LYN: It’s like this, friends. Don’t listen to the internet when it tells you I drink with people to get my jobs. That’s complete nonsense, so don’t read that stuff and think it’s the truth. I sell my talents, not my body. 2M, to be called to your house?? I don’t accept home-calls. I don’t deliver “take-out.”

C: 10M. LYN: Why do I get the feeling that in my stream, all the online friends- I never knew what having money was like. But now everyone in my stream is showing off their wealth. Someone was going to give me 1M to sing a song. Someone else offered 2M for me to go to their house to sing. Now someone is offering 10M. Is money just a number to you?? I always hear that saying, “Money is just a number” and now I’ve experienced it here in my stream. Money in your eyes IS just a number. Just a random number you make up for nonsense. I saw someone say they’d offer 100M. I won’t go even for 100M, because it’s not even worth that much money. I don’t think I can provide you service worth 100M.

LYN: Friends- I know people in this industry who have been telling me that I can make a lot of money doing mini dramas. I didn’t really understand it at the start. People invest so much money to make a drama good, but why is it that these dramas that people spend so much time, effort, and money on don’t seem to air well. Yet on the other hand, why do the dramas that are roughly put together, where you can spend 7 days to shoot very many episodes, have a very good market? Today, because of this stream, I know why. It’s because everyone likes the instant gratification. - /describes a mini drama he’s watched (?) where someone gets hit by a car and when they come back to their senses the world has shifted. Money has appreciated. So now the paycheck they were on their way to deposit into the bank for the 3k they used to make a month is now BIG BUCKS and all of a sudden they are super wealthy because of it./ LYN: Isn’t that instant gratification? You watch and you keep on watching. LYN: I’m sure that mini dramas do have a good market.

LYN: There’s another one- I watched a different one… - /starts describing a drama with an abusive husband, who later ends up in the hospital. his daughter comes and pulls his oxygen mask off, effectively killing him. But after he dies, he time travels back to twenty years before. but he now has guilt for how he treated his wife, so he vows to start treating her better. through what he remembers of his past (currently his present) he finds ways to make more and more money (via lottery, investments, etc.), to give his family a new life./

LYN: I watched another one a few days ago- I seem not to watch anything normal… - /describes a modern drama where a girl was taking video of her family’s construction project, and backs into who she believes is just a construction worker. she propositions him and tell him she’ll give him 10k/month if he marries her, because her family will only let her inherit her family fortune after she’s married. they get married within the first 10 minutes of the first episode. after they’re married she finds out he’s one of the richest guys in the city, and he was just taking a look at his property when she bumped into him, she proposed to him, and he agreed to marry her. she thought he was just a poor worker but slowly comes to realize his real identity./

LYN: Anyway- that’s why I feel like the tune of my stream has suddenly changed. “100M” comes so easily out of your mouths. To you, 100M is just a number.

C: Ning-ge, I’ll give you 10B to watch you act. LYN: /unhinged giggle/ LYN: That’s enough.

C: Ning-ge, I’ll be more realistic- 3k. Will you come or not? LYN: 3k is okay. It’s acceptable. I can sing for you, but I don’t have the time. Let’s talk again when I do.

LYN: Okay. You can stop trying to trick me now. Ten minutes have passed and my studio has not contacted me. They haven’t notified me about your contract, so… there’s no helping it. I won’t be singing. You can watch the playback later.

LYN: It’s not to say that I am someone who is moved by money. I just think you should save it for better things. I’m afraid you really would waste your 1M. When I stop streaming you can watch the playback. It’s not good to spend 1M just like that. If I were to lecture you- don’t you think it would be a lot better if you donate it? You’d spend 1M just to listen to a celebrity sing? You must be crazy. There are so many children going hungry- you should be doing something about that! Am I right? Don’t spend your 1M willy-nilly. Do something meaningful with it. This is not the way to spend money. If you really have it, you shouldn’t spend it this way.

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C: Is Dandong’s food mostly sweet? LYN: Not particularly? Most of it is based on salty, but we do put some sugar, and that’s very normal. Sweet. Sweet and Sour. Spicy. Rich. It depends. Every restaurant has their own way of cooking.

C: Ning-ge, in your last stream you said you’d order malatang for us. LYN: I said in my last stream that in my next one I would order malatang for you, did I? It’s like this… I don’t really have the funds. I was thinking if that 1M contract for singing Above Jianghu came through, I really would order malatang for you. I wouldn’t think it a waste if I even ordered two bowls for you. But I was not able to make that money this stream. I have to pay for the electricity, my makeup, the wig, my new clothes, performance fees- I haven’t made my capital back. So I’m sorry- we’ll have to do a raincheck on the malatang. I’ll keep it in my mind, though. If I promote dramas in my upcoming streams and I make some money from them, I’ll take a portion of that money out for you. I’ll raffle it so you can buy malatang. Okay? I don’t have the money for it today. I don’t really want to start a fight about it- otherwise when I think about streaming I’ll feel a sense of terror.

LYN: Someone just asked something very… naively. They said, “There are about 20M people watching your stream, so if each of them gave you 1RMB, wouldn’t you have 20M?” Friends, don’t you think what they’re saying makes sense? If everyone gave me one dollar, I would have millions. I’ve thought about this ever since I was little. If China has a population of 1.3billion people and each of them gave me one dollar, wouldn’t I have 1.3B dollars? Let me tell you- that thought alone is enough to write up a drama script. There’s a man called “Xiao Shuai”. He puts an d out across the country, that reads every person should give him one dollar. That way, he could become a billionaire. I also thought about this when I was a kid- if everyone on earth gave me a dollar I’d be a billionaire. Is there anyone else present that has also had this thought before? LYN: It’s a thought I only had when I was a kid, but because of that comment I’m realizing that maybe it is possible.

C: You’re using a wine glass to drink tea? LYN: It’s all about the ceremony of it. While I drink tea, I even have to listen to LYN’s songs.

---------- politics of the entertainment industry

C: Ning-ge, has anything fun/interesting happened during filming? LYN: ... Yeah. // But we only just started filming two days ago. Even if I did have something fun to say, it wouldn’t be very funny. LYN: Something did happen today that I want to talk about, though. I don’t really like to talk about these things, but I think this one is pretty positive, so I decided to share. I saw that Tang Xiaotian’s fans- I think it was his fans who released it- released an article. I saw it, and it was a nice gesture. Because yesterday the drama was announced, so there were a bunch of articles spreading around that TXT is overpowering me. But I’ve had contact with him and his crew, and I don’t think he is that type of person to instigate any of this. So I saw a bunch of the articles and I really didn’t feel any particular way about them, but his fans are very clear-headed. After I saw their response, I thought “Wow! They’re so open-minded!” They’re so nice!

LYN: But I also want to say that when you see things like this, you don’t need to get too worked up over it. Because I am someone who made his way up from supporting roles. It’s not many, but I have mostly been taking supporting roles, and only this year have I really started taking leading roles. I understand each of the actors in a drama. I’ve been in the fourth or fifth leading roles, the relatively more side characters, and I’ve even done cameo roles before. What I want to say is every actor in a drama is very important. Also, in order for one person to show what they can do and charm the viewers, it’s all based on four words: based on individual talents. I would never say, “This person’s acting is too good. They’re going to steal my spotlight.” There’s no need. If someone else steals my spotlight, that’s because of my own inability. I wouldn’t tell anyone not to perform to their best in fear of losing attention on myself. No- it’s all based on what you can show for yourself.

LYN: I was a supporting actor for a long time. You have to make every situation mutually beneficial. When you’re running a business, you have to know how to make money in order to know how to distribute it. Acting requires cooperation. Let’s give an example- say you’re a highly skilled martial artist. The strongest in the world. You stand five meters in front of me and “push” me- just like this /acts out the motion/. Let’s say I am the opponent. In a normal situation, I would be pushed flying. But say I don’t cooperate with you and I just: /looks down at his chest where the blow presumably lands/ “Ouchie”. Would you still think this person is the strongest martial artist? /gives a non-reaction/ “Ouchie.” /hisses/ “Oh. That hurt a little.” Do you get what I’m trying to say? So for every scene, it requires the actors to cooperate with one another. Only then can you create something brilliant, something good. Everything is like this. It’s not one-sided.

LYN: For the fighting scenes- you know when you slash out and the enemy flies out and spins a bunch of times before they hit the ground? The person getting hit is the one whose martial arts are the highest! What skills do we as actors have? The actors who spin a bunch of times before hitting the ground are truly the unbeatable ones! It’s their reaction that makes it seem like we are very powerful. One thing I know deeply about acting is that it is all about mutual support and cooperation. So if there is a role that is truly outstanding and good enough to capture the viewer’s attention, I think that’s great. It’s well-deserved and based on your own performing abilities. That’s true for every drama. How well you perform is based on your own ability. What’s the point of caring too much about others? If you can’t perform better than someone else, that’s your own inability. At least that’s what I tell myself. That’s why I never worry when they say others will steal my spotlight. I started out as a supporting actor, so it’s not something I worry about. If they can steal my spotlight, then that just means that I am incompetent. That’s really what I think about it. I just have to keep working hard and make sure I am doing better and better. That’s the best I can do, and that’s enough.

LYN: So if you encounter this type of situation again, there’s no need to fret or get nervous. I know what I am in a drama crew to do- all I have to do is take my work seriously. Let’s not worry about all the nonsense and rumors online, because they’re a normal occurrence. I’m sure that if they stop discussing me, very few people would even know who I am. Even if I become known to some people as a “very ugly man”, then at least they would still know me. It’s alright. It doesn’t matter.

C: You’re not working? LYN: I just came back! But I saw a notice on my phone that I have to be in hair and makeup at 5am tomorrow. I have a bit of an early start tomorrow, so I will just chat for you a while longer and then go. Okay? I’ll stay with you a little longer before I wash, look over the script, and sleep for I can get up early.

LYN: Of course, this bears repeating. All that I said before was only about myself. I’m not trying to throw shade on any other person. And if you think I was, then you’re overthinking it. I was only talking about myself. If one day I am overpowered by someone else, that’s only because I was incompetent. I’m ugly. I’ll admit it. But I was not throwing shade on anyone else. Please, PLEASE- don’t mess with me.

LYN: Even before, when I said if one day YNGS airs and FYL decides to release articles like that, I would hit him. That’s all a joke, because I am really close to him. We have a really close relationship! In Hengdian when we have nothing else going on, we even go out to eat together. We’re friends! But through this I understood something that I didn’t think about before. That is- the relationship between people, and the relationship between people and the entertainment industry. All of the people I can mention in my stream are people I am very close with. We talk a lot in private and can be considered good friends. But once you take that relationship and put it in front of the masses, it becomes uncomfortable. So ever since, I don’t really like to talk about my friends. But in reality, we are really very close in private. Sometimes I feel like maybe it’s not very good (to talk about my friends), because people are always trying to find something to use against you. To say that I am of bad character or something. But honestly- maybe I do have a bad personality? That’s why in the future I will stop or very rarely mention my friends again.

LYN: If there is something fun I’d like to share, I can use other ways to replace that friend’s name. I won’t name them specifically. Honestly we’re all pretty close in private- me and some friends. But there are discussions online that will inevitably make me want to try to… avoid conflict? I just don’t know what the other party is thinking, so because of the discussions we will start contacting each other less. They might think differently than I do. With some people, you can tell it to them straight, “(I heard this but) It’s nothing. I’m not overthinking it.” but with others it is harder to be direct with them. So… /sigh/ I’ll stop mentioning these friends again. I’ll only talk about myself. Even if I do mention my friends, it will only be to compliment them. :)

LYN: Even today, FYL reached out to me to ask me where I was. I told him I was in Hengdian, and he said he’d come find me on the weekend. Honestly, we’re all good friends. I can only joke around with them like this if we’re good friends.

LYN: I really want to share fun stories about this industry with everyone, because honestly I am just a very ordinary person. When people talk about a pu-xin-nan, that’s me. The “most trustworthy man in all the world.” (普天之下最适合信任的男人) I’m just an ordinary person, and one day I won the lottery and got a chance to become a celebrity, and started acting and singing. After I was able to do these things, I thought it really meaningful. So I want to share about the people I’ve met in this industry and the fun things that have happened here to people who might be curious about it. I want you to know more about it, yet it seems like there are some people who are also gatekeeping the information. After I tell you about it, it becomes a bigger topic of conversation. Even when I talk about myself, people say that I am being low; but I don’t understand why. I think that every industry plays by its own rules, so I’ll just try my best to stick to them. Next time I’ll just stick to sharing/commenting on my own business. I won’t talk about anyone else anymore. LYN: Not only am I a pu xin nan (普信男), I am also a ma bao nan (妈宝男). (哎哟妈呀! 宝藏男孩. / My goodness! A treasure-boy.)

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LYN: There’s another thing I don’t really understand- my friends or my fans like to post things in the Super Topic, to help ensure that people are discussing me. After they post, sometimes I go into the Super Topic to thank them for posting, and while I’m there I reply to people. I share what I ate or watched recently, things like that. As an artist or a “celebrity”, I think that if I am able to do something for my fans or people who like me, I should do it. If someone gave me 2M to go to their house and sing them a song, I wouldn’t be able to do it. But if I can respond to your post or message you in the fangroup, I would do it. Yet inexplicably interacting with my own fans is also considered “low”. They say I’m just using you to drum up numbers. ?_? I don’t really understand this. LYN: My fans do a lot for me- they organize so much and stay up late at night, and they do so much for me. And I can’t even reply to them??? Is that wrong of me? I have to be high and mighty and act like a “celebrity” and not interact with them? And if I do, that’s considered “low” of me???

LYN: What sort of logic is that?! Somehow it makes sense and there’s a consensus that it’s not allowed. I just think that’s really strange. Let’s say you have a decent paying job, but you have a friend who’s not making as much and they keep treating you out to eat. One day, you treat them back. It’s not allowed. // Honestly, I’ve always thought that no matter if I am an artist, actor, or singer, we’re all doing the same thing- customer service. To put it nicely, we are playing it up for all the audiences. We work hard so we have something to show to everyone. That’s putting it nicely. If we’re being honest, it’s just customer service, isn’t it? It’s all the same, really. I used to be a waiter in a restaurant. Now I’m a waiter in the entertainment industry. It’s the same- customer service is the key. We “wait on” all the people who like us, because who would you even be, without them? LYN: It’s okay, though. I’m not really bothered by it. Otherwise I wouldn’t be telling you this so calmly. I understand a little more, now. That it is better to say less, to lessen the chances of something being taken the wrong way. I can tell you about my own stuff, sure, but I won’t be talking about anyone else from now on. I can talk about myself.

----- Daimi chat

LYN: This comes up because of the fan support for the drama, that was later cancelled. But I heard people made Daimi banners, and some of me. I hear that Daimi’s were very professional… and mine less so. When the fans were handing them out, they didn’t want mine. They wanted Daimi’s. “I’ll trade two of LYN’s for one of Daimi’s.” I’m being overpowered by my own dog. In my fans’ hearts my dog is more important than I am. /sigh/ from today moving forwards I’m going to start messing with her. LYN: Where did she go? // She’s sleeping in the house somewhere. Let’s not call her.

C: Call her over to play. LYN: Let her sleep, she’s had a long day. When I get up to work, she comes with me. She probably wakes up even earlier than I do. When she reaches the hair & makeup room, she needs to greet everyone present first. There are about 20-30 people in that room- she greets each and every one. During the process, there are a few makeup artists that really like her and will prepare treats for her. She gets up in the morning to get breakfast from the makeup artists. They’ll give her sausages, and then some have an egg for breakfast- they’ll give her the yolk. I’ve never taught her anything like how to shake, sit, lay down, roll over, turn a circle. I’ve never taught her any of that, because I wanted her to have a happy puppyhood. I didn’t want her to have to sell her talents for food. I didn’t want to maker her go through that. But now after spending time with the makeup artists every morning, she’s learned how to shake. After my hair and makeup is done and she’s finished her breakfast, we get on the car to head to set. When she’s on set, she has to sit around- she has to wait for me to wrap up for the day before she can go home with me. It’s tiring, for a small dog. LYN: These past few days I feel like she’s not comfortable (?)- because she always sleeps on my bed. D: But after a while- if she hasn’t had a bath- I don’t really want her to sleep on my bed. She’ll usually find a corner to sleep in. But since she’s been running around, I think she’s gotten dirty so I don’t want her to sleep on my bed. So I bought her a dog bed- one with a roof. It’s said that dogs under 20lbs can live in it. It’s a large, and stated dogs under 20lbs can fit, so I bought it. It arrived yesterday and I discovered- only her butt can fit in it. So I bought another one. I’m very good to my female artist. I bought a bigger one- one that 50 lbs and under can fit in. LYN: I bought it in a size too small. Why don’t I raffle it? I’m being serious. If you have a small dog at home, I can take the one I mistakenly bought and raffle it.

C: How heavy is Daimi? LYN: She’s not very heavy- only in the tens? But everyone who touches her says the same thing: she feels like a rock. Is that something you would use to describe a dog?? Probably not, right? At most it would be “This dog is quite fat.” but people call her stone-hearted! She’s quite round, so she feels very sturdy- like a rock.

---------- ning-ge's autobiography

C: Are you shooting your new drama yet, ge? LYN: …No, I’m at home picking my feet. I don’t know if you’re a student or if you have work? If you’re a student then do well in your studies so that when you grow up you can develop well and become a big boss. When you have the chance you can invest in your Ning-ge. Okay? Jiayou. If you’re working, then do well at work. Find stable footing and make your way up. One day when you become the top you can lead me, okay? I’m counting on you. My future depends on all of you. LYN: I had friends who said, “Ning-ge, I’m in high school” or “Ning-ge, I’m going to college now. I can’t watch your concert. I’m a student.” I told them, “It’s okay. When you graduate from school, get a job, and are making your own money, you can come watch my concert then. Don’t come watch me when you’re still a student. Live a good life and learn well in school.” I’ve been waiting for the past three years. Almost four. I had my first concert when they just got into college. Now you’re about to graduate. If you still say that you’re a student, there’s no more excusing it away. You should be working about now, and you can make money. When it’s time for my concert you should be able to come watch it. C: Ning-ge, I’m a sophomore in college. LYN: It’s okay. No need to rush. I know a lot of you are university or high school students- some of you might even be in middle school. But I want to say- especially those of you who are in college- that I really think you’re amazing. Because I didn’t go to college. So I’m jealous of people who are highly educated, but I also admire you. I’m sure that all of you who are in college right now will make it big one day. You’ll have wonderful growth/development. So I hope you learn well and gain knowledge. One day when you are doing very well in society, remember to give me a hand. Remember me, okay? I’ll wait for you. There’s no rush. LYN: Right now your Ning-ge, can still make a living. I can still work, still act, still sing. I’ll wait for you to develop, until the day that you can lead me, okay?

C: Ning-ge, we are not as outstanding as you. LYN: You’re wrong. It’s like this- some of you may be thinking, “I’ve put in just as much effort as you have, but I’ve gotten nowhere. How do you expect me to lead you?” It’s like this- I cannot deny that whether being an artist or a celebrity, our incomes may be higher than those of you with normal jobs. Right? I can’t deny that. But here’s something to consider: how many wealthy people in the world are celebrities? Let’s not even talk about in the world- how many in China alone are celebrities? How many artists are in the Top 100? I’m asking you. If I asked you, who’s the hottest artist on weibo right now, you might be able to answer. But if I asked you who the richest person in the world is, you might not be able to answer. Why? Because artists are always under the public eye, so people know of them. But honestly you can make money in every/any industry. I was telling you before, wasn’t I? If you sell Chinese pancakes you can make 30k/month. I’m being serious. The major that you’re learning in school- I’m sure that at the top of whatever industry you chose, you’d be making more money than I am as an artist. What I’m trying to say is that the people you see appear to be well-off, but when you really think about people who have money… they come from all industries. Just keep working on your profession of choice, and if you make it to the top I’m sure you will be just as successful. Of course, money is not the scale for which you measure success. But it’s also very important to have money. So, learn well.

C: Minimum wage is so low. LYN: I can’t comment on that, but let me tell you about when I was learning to be a cook. I learned in culinary school for two years. One year of tuition was 1700. I thought that after two years of learning I would be able to jump straight into a restaurant and start cooking and earn 3-5k/month. I learn for two years and do you know what happened after? I got hired in a restaurant to wash the vegetables. To prep the fish. To clean the shrimp. Prep the veggies. I did that for a little over a year. My wage was 200/month. Not including food or housing. The restaurant only took care of- two or three meals, I forget. But it was never anything good. Let’s say they have a batch of kidney beans that aren’t too fresh- we’d prep them and they would become the employee meal. Things like that. 200/month, but they would take 180 as a deposit. That was in the early days- in the early 2000’s. Only 20 of it would make it to your pocket. C: What was the deposit for? LYN: The deposit was because they were afraid you would steal the dishes. Afraid you’d be working and steal a dish. Steal a pot. Or take 2 or 3 ribs. A rack of ribs is a couple hundred dollars, right? They were afraid we’d take 2 or 3 and run off with it. The deposit was for anticipated losses. And then- they would dock you pay for the smallest infraction. A lot of you may know that I have an experience- it’s haunted me to this day. I was working in a restaurant. It was a little over a year since I’d been working there, and through my talent and wits- I don’t know about anything else, but I can learn fast! I spent three months there and went from washing the vegetables, to washing vegetables AND prepping dishes. Let’s say for example you want a plate of fried shrimp- I would season it with salt and spices and add the starch. If any of you are cooks, you would know. In any case, my salary didn’t rise, but the amount of work I had to do did. One day, our restaurant was preparing for a wedding banquet- you know the kind. The customer reserves four tables, and all the dishes served to those tables are the same. I was in charge of frying the meat. Battered Fried (Meat of Choice). It’s the lean meat you eat in hotpot, really. I had a huge pot of meat and I was adding ingredients to it- the salt, msg, pepper, cooking wine, etc. I was mixing it, and started to create the batter- just egg, cornstarch, and oil. I fried a whole pot. That was my first time cooking so much of it at once. You can imagine- the lot had to be separated onto four plates. So I cooked all servings at once.

- /comment that asks what “msg” is, but that’s only because they call it by another name in the North/

LYN: So I fried a whole pot of it and that day I didn’t really think. It was cooked and fried, and sitting there. So I thought I would try a piece. I wanted to know if it was too salty or not enough, and I didn’t want anyone to complain about me. So I took a small piece from the side- the whole of it probably cost 2k or more. But I took a small piece to try. Coincidentally the boss walked in right at that moment. They came from the back kitchen and saw me try that piece of meat. They saw me and I saw them, but I didn’t think anything of it. I was just trying the dish! I tried it and thought, “Oh, not bad.” It was delicious! The salt was just right, the pepper added a hint of spice, and the batter was fried just right- crispy on the outside and soft on the inside. It was seasoned perfectly and the texture was spot-on. I was proud of myself for frying so much and not messing it up. But that restaurant didn’t allow the cooks to sneak a bite. The higher ranked chefs could, of course, because they needed to test the dish. But that day I was in charge of frying the meat- me, with my 200/month salary. I was not considered a high ranked chef, but I was already in charge of a lot. They just didn’t give me a raise for it.

LYN: I didn’t think anything of it. But then later that night the head chef came over and told me, “Xiao Ning, come here.” I went over, expectant. “What’s up? Did the customers compliment the meat I fried?” I had always seen that in high-end restaurants when the customer was done with their meal they’d ask for the chef and thank them for making such a lovely meal for them. Aren’t a lot of high-end restaurants like that? They thank the chef and it’s a sign of respect to them. I was actually kind of touched when I asked, “What’s up? Was it good? Do they want to thank me?” I said, “I won’t go out. Why don’t you go out and accept the thanks on our behalf?” XD But he said, “Today the boss saw you eat a piece of the meat.” I explained that I was testing the seasoning, because I wasn’t sure how it came out. Because I was frying them by batch- it’s not as if I could fry all of it at once. If the first batch came out and it was too salty, I could adjust for the next batches. If it was too bland, I could add some salt. If the flavor of the pepper wasn’t strong enough, I could add more. I explained that I only tried a piece to guage the flavor. He told me, “I know. But the boss saw and wanted me to let you know they will dock you 200.” I said, “Ge, 200 is all I make in a month. If you dock me 200, I would have worked this month for nothing.” He replied, “There’s no helping it. The boss said so.” /sigh/

LYN: And then... I just accepted it. Because I was just a worker. It was either that, or quit. I steeled myself up and told them I wanted to stay, and that I was there to learn before I quit. So I stayed for a little over a year. It was really a blow to the younger me. I was fresh out of school and that was the moment I really felt how cruel this society could be. They don’t care about your feelings, and they don’t care about what really happened. In this game, you are on the lowest level and you abide by the rules. Whatever they say goes. You have no power to fight back. The only choice is to stop working. But there’s another rule: You can quit, but you have to let them know one month in advance. Even if you wanted to quit, you’d still be stuck working there for another month before they let you go. Do you get the logic? Otherwise, they wouldn’t give you your deposit back. You can quit, but you have to let them know so they can find someone to replace you. I get it. It’s reasonable. But that month I didn’t have any money. If I wanted to quit, I would still have to work another month for nothing. If I just straight out left, they wouldn’t have given the deposit back. It’s just that cruel.

LYN: Someone said that minimum wage is so low. I’m not trying to tell you to… accept fate. That’s not what I’m trying to do. I just want to let you know how cruel society can be.

LYN: But right now is a lot better than before. College students are much better off. Why? Because the skills you’re currently learning can be applicable towards jobs. You wouldn’t be like me, who could only go wash vegetables in some back kitchen to start. That would be a waste of your degree. Your starting point would be something related to your major, right? So the environment would be a lot better than mine. It wouldn’t be as cruel as my experience, so you don’t have to be afraid.

C: Ning-ge, bosses with such narrow minds can’t run a business for long. LYN: Not necessarily. I went back to my hometown the year before last and their business was booming. I was driving past it and I could see that there was a line out the door. Really. So there’s no need to say that bosses with narrow minds can’t run a business for long. Honestly, it’s not entirely true. The world isn’t as nice as you imagine it to be. C: How infuriating. LYN: They’re still open! But it’s not important. I just think that these situations are very normal. After 1.5 years prepping ingredients, I made my way up to zan-rank! This doesn’t count as self-praise- but I’m a really fast learner! And, I am very adaptable. After a year and a half, I made it to zan-rank. It usually takes three years, but I did it in a year and a half! What does it mean? Let’s say the criminal- I mean, the customer!- wants to order. As the zan-bam your job is to /prep the ingredients and give it to the head chef, prep that plate and make sure nothing falls off of it, then hand the plate to the servers who give it to the waiters, who bring the plate to the table/. I made it to this rank and my salary had raised to 400/month. I used 1.5 years to double my salary. Friends, aren’t I hardworking? How many of you can say you’ve done the same? You must be dreaming. LYN: And then! I was in that rank for 2-3 months before I figured I had little to no chance of becoming head chef. It’s sort of in line- if your superior doesn’t move, you will never get the chance to cook. Not only will you not get to cook, you wouldn’t even have the chance to PRACTICE cooking. You can’t just come up and cook. There’s a training process- you have to know HOW to cook, starting from vegetables, then meats, then fish, and etc. You make your way up. But you won’t even have that, if the head chef doesn’t want you to. I had no room for improvement or advancement there. In the end I got to 800/month. But that was the limit.

LYN: Right around then I had a friend. His uncle was opening a restaurant in Shenzhen. He said, “Xiao Ning, do you have the guts. Let us young folk go out and do something with ourselves. Let’s go.” I asked, “Where are we going?” and he replied, “Shenzhen.” I told him, “I’ve grown to this age and I’ve never been away from home. I haven’t even been to Shenyang. Me, from Dandong, has never even been to Shenyang. You want me to go to Shenzhen??” C: His uncle? LYN: Yes! One of my classmates- his uncle has a restaurant in Shenzhen. The point was that we’d go there to work and make money. So I went. He gave me 600/month. /claps/ In Shenzhen! LYN: “Da Ye” is “Bo Bo”. Usually your dad’s older brother. We call them “da ye” here.

LYN: We went and sure enough, my salary raised. To 600/month. In Shenzhen. INCLUDING food and housing! It wasn’t bad, either. It specialized in Jiangxi cuisine, and that’s why I’m more familiar with it. It’s very spicy! That was my first time eating more Southern dishes- Jiangxi cuisine. We ate chilies every day. But once you’re in a new place, there’s no way you’ll be cooking, and there’s no way to be a prep-chef anymore. You just go where you’re needed. When the boss saw me, they figured I looked pretty decent. Let’s put it this way- with my appearance it’s hard for me to make a living in the entertainment industry. But in a restaurant? I’m pretty decent. Among chefs in the cooking industry, I think my appearance is pulling its weight, don’t you think? If someone says, “LYN, you’re too ugly to be an actor!” I will accept it. But if you say, among chefs, “This kid is pretty lively.” Then there’s no contradicting it. The boss thought I looked decent enough. So what happened? You’ve been to those restaurants- the first floor has a big glass window and there are some young kids in chef’s jackets chopping vegetables. /starts naming a bunch of ingredients he would be chopping, and imitates the customers ordering what they want/ I was one of them, and made 600/month. I was a visual.

LYN: I was in charge of cold dishes and stewed dishes. When I went, I started following a chef who was there to begin with. I could share some of his work. I made 600/month while he made 3800/month. I was concentrated, and went up to him and introduced myself. I let him know that if he needed any help from me, I would give it. He used one week to give me all of his daily work. What a generous guy. They all say that people with skills will never pass them down, but he sure did. All of it. I woke up at 6am every day to start chopping ingredients. After that, I would take the braised items out and make sure to bring the stock back to a boil. Then, I would work on my cold dishes. He would roll in at around 8am with his breakfast and say, “Oh, you’re done? Then, I’m going to eat breakfast.” I replied, “Yes, please do.” We’d eat. Then the customers would come and we’d get right to work. He really wasn’t shy about it. He passed everything down to me.

LYN: We had a bonus where if you bought a plate of cold dish, you could gain 50 cents (salary). So we made a cart full of cold dishes, and they had us push it around the hall, to see if we could sell any to people who wanted a side of cold dish. “If we don’t sell this in the afternoon, it will go bad by dinner. Why don’t you make a round?” So I took the cart, and did my round. But honestly, everyone was almost done eating, why would they even want to- C: Sell one dish, gain 50 cents? LYN: Yes. Ten dishes would be 5 dollars. In a month, that would be 150. I only made 600/month, base rate. If I sold ten dishes a day for a month, I would get an extra 150, wouldn’t I? It’s not small money. So I did my round. The problem is, people normally start off with cold dishes, who wants to order more when they’re practically done with their meal?? No one really ordered any extra. So the income there was actually pretty low.

LYN: Later, I was thinking, “Shouldn’t I be making some advancements?” I figured I would learn more, so I learned everything they had to teach me. I really do learn quite quickly. With the exception of the spices bag. You’ve all eaten braised meat, right? The only thing they didn’t tell me, was what was in the spice bag. Everything else was allocated to me, with the exception of that spice bag. It was a secret recipe that they didn’t teach me. I worked there for so long, and they never let me in on it.

LYN: On 600/month, I worked in Shenzhen for three months. Then I got a raise- to 800/month. Friends, aren’t I capable? I spent three months to raise my salary by ⅓ of the original rate. How many people can say they’ve done that? Can you? Think about it- at that point I had already graduated from school for almost two years, and I made 800/month. In Shenzhen. Let’s not talk about eating and drinking. If you lived on that salary, would you even dare to go shopping?? Would you dare to buy a pair of pants or shoes? On only 800/month?? /mentions his favorite store because everything in it was discounted 50+% off/ I could buy a few t-shirts, and I wore them beautifully. At that time in Shenzhen, you didn’t go anywhere, let alone shopping. I was happy to be able to afford McDonalds.

LYN: So for the person complaining that after graduating from college that working is difficult and hard…you have to remember these words: “If you cannot handle the difficulties of life, you cannot become a man amongst men.” You always see the better side of life, but never the hard side. Everyone is the same. Once you graduate from school, everything else that comes after comes step by step. If you aren’t prepared, even if the perfect opportunity falls into your lap, you would not be able to handle it.

C: There is no such thing as “easy” in the world of adults. LYN: Who doesn’t have their own hardships? No one’s life is perfect, it’s just that you are unaware of their imperfections.

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LYN: My studio just notified me and let me know that no one has contacted them regarding a contract for me to sing for them. No one has contacted them. It’s reached this point, so… it’s fine. I probably just encountered a scammer. Since they messed up our collaboration, do you think I could find their username through the playback and then sue them? XD I’ll sue them, and it will be considered a fraudulent business transaction. Do you think I can do that? Do we want to go so far?

LYN: I know many of you are my new fans, so I wanted to share with you my life experiences that you’ve never heard before. Let’s do this- I know a lot of you are tuning in for the first time. If you think it’s interesting, I can tell you about all the things I’ve done before. What jobs I’ve had, the people I’ve met- I can tell you all about it. You just have to subscribe to my weibo. Okay? It’s about time. Its not about the struggle. I think that every experience I had before I was an artist is really a precious experience. LYN: I’ve seen that people have commented that I am very social. That I’m “greasy”- that it’s clear I know my way around navigating people and have been around. To that I want to say… /sigh/ I haven’t been around. I was just… fighting tooth and tail for a period of time, is all. C: I’ll buy the first autobiography. LYN: My life isn’t interesting, why would I write a book about it??? Stop messing around. Releasing a book, with my education??

LYN: But I do want to say! I didn’t tell you all that because I was trying to make you feel sorry for me. I don’t need to do that, because I’m doing very well for myself now! I have so many fans, and I’m an artist now. I’m past that phase and I’m better off now. I have work to do and dramas to film. I make a fair penny, too. So I’m not trying to play the pity card. I just wanted to share with you what I experienced in the time between graduating and really entering society. I’m sure that none of you are worse off than I was then, making only 600/month. 200/month. At the very least now you would be making 1200-1800/month, right?

LYN: Alright. Many of you probably haven’t subscribed to my weibo yet, but please do. I need to go and wash up before I review my script for tomorrow and get up early. :( LYN: I hope you had a wonderful and relaxing night, and thank you for keeping me company. I hope you enjoyed yourself. Let’s meet again in the next stream. Goodnight, everyone!

#Liu Yuning #lyn livestream #(2:47:51)#i gotta get this out of the way before yngs starts and consumes my brain cells

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