#why do i dont like myself

[soranker]

my girlfriend

#trigun #trigun maximum #nicholas d wolfwood #i saw a tweet the other day that was like. do u ever like a character SO MUCH that u feel shy/embarrassed even drawing them #AND I WAS LIKE .... YYEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #yall dont even kno how hard i cringe at myself whenever i post abt this guy.. but i power thru OTL #these r a few weeks old btw ive been busy so i havent gotten to draw him in like a month and it feels so JHDSGF&UY EIY$NU&RHGFJDG!@JFHBD #save me. save me nicholas d wolfwood #why did i write all of this DO U SEE WHAT I MEANN my head is in my hands rn

[pinkgibbon]

anton chigurh goes to stardew valley

#every1 in the notes asking me why I made this 🙄 art isn’t about why! it’s about why not! why don’t you marry safe art if you love it so much #i got a better shirt for him eventually but i dont have a pic of it #roleplaying as him was the only way i was finally able to bring myself to do joja route #no country for old men #stardew valley #i like to think of him as being magically stuck there for an indeterminate amount of time and trying to survive w/o murdering the whole tow #anton chigurh #marnie stardew valley #i better not see ANY marnie slander!!! #how do u tag them #stardew valley marnie #sdv marnie #morris stardew valley #sdv morris #stardew valley morris #i was not gonna romance anyone obviously but i really enjoyed drawing that pic of him w morris so i got the marry morris mod and it is so #goddamn funny. just the idea of. anton chigurh x morris. me and friends r having the time of our life with it. i even made fanart. #which i may post later if i feel like it #my art #fanart #ncfom

[obsob]

the accolade ( the...the cat-olade...)

#mine #original #i cannot even begin to explain the anguish. the torment. this drawing has brought me #and i STILL dont like it. i simply cant work on it any longer i cant i cant. i must be rid of it #eating drywall as we speak #you want to know how many weeks ive worked on this. THREE. ALMOST. #you want to know how long my other cat drawings take me ?? 3 days absolute MAX #anyway. begon foul creature etc #i havent left extremely long tags for a long while hello everyone good lord there are many of you #we are going stratford this weekend very exciting #its going to be a little chilly and i want to take my new coat with me but issue its not chilly right now so i cant wear it onto the train #i do not think. i can. stuff it into my suitcase i dont think that will happen #i am sure i will figure it out #also. no longer vegan . eggs have won me over. egg egg egg. #im having to restrain myself SO hard from buying more wool i want a shawl i want a shawl #i want more cute DRESSES why are nice comfy dresses 10000£ #i look on vinted and its like dresses for popping your pussy in like not. the vibe im going for thank u #anyway. im going to eat crackers now

[nxctern]

Why, as a man, are you blond

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #nanami kento #jjk nanami #nanami #this was meant to be a black and white doodle to try out inking w a different brush/re finding me style but then #i was like ‘i should doodle a bg’ and then ‘hm i should add some local colours #and then i found myself rendering for hours -_- #i dont even know why i decided to do a bg. I WAS GONNA BLUR IT ANYWAY #WHATS MY ISSUE

[hinamie]

i have so much band!au content in the pipeline my brain is Rotting but enjoy these two for now

jjk band!au

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #itadori yuuji #yuuji #ryoumen sukuna #sukuna #fanart #jjk fanart #jjk band!au #every time i dress sukuna i stray further from gods light. what is that. what did i do why did i do that. #the pants...the mullet mohawk..the tanktop that might as well be Off...am i cooking or committing a cardinal sin who can say #i realized that i probably couldnt give him rings bc the priss wouldnt want to scuff his guitar #which goes directly against my religion that says that any modern au sukuna has to b iced up #that being said the bracelets r probably pushing it but he needed /something/ so he can deal. #but oh my god the guitars like dont get me wrong im thrilled w how they turned out but god i wished for death #looks around accusingly whose idea was this >:c (me it was mine) #anyway i am feeding myself on this au this will not be the last u see of it :) #HARD pivot from emo yoi content oops

[realbeefman]

robert chase one of the characters of all time. hes blonde. he went to seminary school. he purposefully murdered a patient. he’s a vapid slut. allergic to strawberries. was caption of his college bowling team. desperately needs to be on antidepressants. he’s divorced. his ex-wife was/is in love with his dadboss. it’s heavily implied that this is part of why he married her to begin with. he’s been fired multiple times but he keeps coming back like a fucked-up obedient boomerang. he’s the best surgeon in the hospital. all this while having the personality of a sopping wet cardboard box of corn flakes that somebody poured milk into and let mildew.

#the concept for chase was #‘what if house had like. a surrogate son. and he kind of wanted to fuck him and also hes like catholic’ #‘ohhh and he can be australian!’ #‘why would he be australian?’ #‘just cuz’ #house md #robert chase #beautiful loser very virgin mary coded man #i do like chase but i find it amusing that i also find him boring #bc objectively theres no reason he should be? #hes a great character i love his story arcs i love how sarcastic he is i love how hes doomed to repeat houses fate #but compared to say. foreman? there is NOTHING #im very sure ill manage to gaslight myself into loving him later #dr robert chase #i didnt actually fact check the bowling thing. dont quote me its late

[gunsatthaphan]

"I might have to cancel our agreement."

#pit babe #pit babe the series #pit babe ep2 #babe x charlie #pavel naret #pavel phoom #pooh krittin #thai bl #bl drama #why do I like them wtf is wrong with me #i dont recognize myself when im watching this show #dkjhfkd #help #charlie is such a little devil child I love it lmao #also cant believe we have daddy pavel back dkjghf feels surreal

[lesbian-sunshim]

see art up to the day before or leave a tip!

rare pairs for your consideration - applejack x carrot top

#my little pony #mlp #applejack #carrot top #golden harvest #appletop #this series is a great excuse to draw my rarest of pairs that i've been into since i started in this fandom #i genuinely dont remember if golden harvest has a canon personality but for some reason to ME she' #she's always been sort of like a country rarity???? #probably largely due to her being The Rarity in shimmer verse #so yea this is a big fav of mine actually #also i took out the counter cause why would i do that to myself

[moeblob]

Help this trio + another guy was specifically designed to target me.

#villainess level 99 #yumiella dolkness #patrick ashbatten #eleanora hillrose #i genuinely am so weak for these designs bc i love blonde menaces #i love side characters which helps a different blonde whomst i only met for like an episode #and i love patrick so much you guys i have adopted him #also im only through ep4 please dont spoil anything from the other eps #also uh outing myself as a fan of kon*suba and how the lead will just say yeah thats me when someone yells his name #so yeah have her just saying yes im 99 in spirit of he #okay i dont usually draw fanart of anime and idk if ill draw more but just .... these babies.... #why do i like yellow bgs ? idk but i do

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[manchesterau]

random dnp gifs 11/?

#dan and phil #daniel howell #phil lester #dpgdaily #phan #how do we get him to do this again but seriously #can i even call myself a lesbian if i dont say im obsessed with dan as carly rae jepsen #'i look like a strangely beautiful woman''i bet i could hold a males attention for at least 5 seconds' ohhh i bet you can dan i bet you can #also idk why this is so pink idc #random dnp #dnp #.gifs #my edit #mine #dangender of course #dangender

[sweetgaleria]

Help a college student graduate by answering a survey!!

Hey!! Are you over 18 and in the miraculous fandom? Then this is for you!!

Hi everyone, this is my last semester of uni, and one of my final projects to be able to graduate is to write a scientific paper. I'm writing an article about adult fans of children's animation, specifically Miraculous Ladybug. My goal is to understand what makes adults (like us) want to join fandoms centered around shows aimed primarily at children, and to do that I'd love to hear directly from the source! The survey takes around 10 minutes to answer, it's 100% anonymous and it would help me immensely!

>>Click here for the survey<<

I need at least 30 people to answer, but honestly the more the merrier! I've also made a little thank you gif at the end, so if you see it let me know! If you have any questions feel free to send me an ask, as well!

Please reblog so it can reach more people! Thank you so much!

#what do we love (or hate!! I know people are here bc they dont like the show as much too) abt miraculous that #makes us want to spend so much time thinking and creating things for and about it? #miraculous ladybug #i am once again asking for your support #insert bernie sanders meme here #alskdjasd #no but really if you answer this it would help me so so much #and i'll be so thankful #i will reblog this post a bit frequently so please be patient with me 😭😭 #also the point of this is not to shame anyone for watching kid's shows in any shape or form #i just love animation and kids cartoons too #my first intentions with this research were to ask why do we mostly view animation as a kid's genre instead of a technique to tell stories #in the west at least #but it was too broad of a question and I dont have enough time to dedicate myself to it #so i narrowed it down to something i'm familiar with #which is why i went for #so uh anyway #pls reblog #and answer my survey #thank you so much

[madhatter30]

I don't want to try anymore. Its like "whats even the point?" Nothing is ever going to work. Im never going ro get better. To be better. I've been trying so hard to get better, to not let my mind control me, but just when I think things are starting to improve I snap and end up right back where I started. Nothing is ever going to get better. I'm a lost cause. I'm too broken. I have too many problems. But it's all my own fault anyway. I wouldn't have any problems if I just tried harder. I wouldn't have an eating disorder if I just ate. I wouldn't have anxiety if I didn't dwell on the future. I wouldn't have depression if I didn't dwell on the past. The solution is to just be in the present. I don't seem like I have autism so it's probably not even real. I should just be normal. I just need to be better. It's not that difficult. I wouldn't be exhausted from trying to fix my problems if I didn't create them to start with. I don't have trauma, I'm just overreacting. Nothing even happened. I should stop wasting everyone's time telling them about my problems. I should tell them I'm better then leave so they don't have to deal with me anymore.

#tw depressive #tw depression #depressing poem #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #depressiv #anxceit #anxi4ty #anxienty #anxitey #anxeity #i dont care anymore #i want to disappear #why do i do this to myself #trauma #why am i like this #alone with my thoughts

[hajihiko]

......and they were roommates.

#Fuyuhiko is a good dude when he's not being a rat bastard #fuyuhiko kuzuryu #peko pekoyama #izuru kamukura #New AU to the roster Izuru is like '.... ok.' And just moves in with them #Keeping your insanely powerful classmate a secret from your crime kingdom parents #Also Izuru is like 'are you gonna use me as your tool. Are you ordering me to leave' #And Hiko is like no and also no. I just dont think this is right do whatever you want #HE GETS IT #Fuyuhiko and his two friends who don't consider HIM a friend and also barely consider themselves people #Ok ok done this is why I just grabbed screenshots and did a silly doodle I dont know how to express myself #An art #Fuyuhiko and his compulsive 'stick around with me' hes lonely :(

[bigkickguy]

daanmarcoh doodle - they're sleeping in shifts and keeping watch

#daanmarcoh #daarcoh #kickdraw #funger #i just wanted to draw them and try to punch through artblock ! #as soon as i have the energy to actually render something and draw a background its so over #the eternal struggle of 'do i use daan's portrait or map sprite for hair color' #really just wanted to draw daan with marcoh's jacket #thought to myself yesterday - 'idk why they aren't as popular' so figured i'd throw some art into the mix again #such good fanfiction coming out for them too #I really want to get back into a drawing stride for them :') #the shirt grab is to make sure he's still there watching - if marcoh turns around or leaves daan would feel it #i feel like they're walking a weird line in my mind #they just met and in some cases all they have is each other - but they dont really know each other in any way #they just have to trust the stranger who didn't kill them immediately won't be worse than the fucked up monsters around them

[undefeatablesin]

My angel, my pride and joy, my beloved AKA the Good Hunter Ruza lmao 🧡 ft. Her Lost Chikage and her fun outfit from these screenshots! + some lil headshots of her in the Yharnam Hunter Garb, a look I also care Deeply About ✨️

#sin scribbles #bloodborne #good hunter #good hunter bloodborne #hunter bloodborne #bloodborne oc #bloodborne oc ; ruza #(ITS DONE CAN U BELIEVE IT I SURE CANT!!!!) #(yes. i repeat. this was largely inspired and enforced by me playin d/m/c5 again. LOL.) #(look.......is it my fault my favourite games happen 2 both be about monster hunters with cool swords???) #(anyways whatever AHEM *shuffles notes*) #(i do rly like ruza in the knights garb tbf its fun and flashy. especially in game where everything is dark af) #(very fun to draw. but i prefer her in the actual hunting garb so THATS WHAT WE STICKIN WITH.) #(at least for now idk my mind changes like the weather sis thats largely why i havent given her a new ref sheet) #(or posted her new bio bc tbh im cursed!!!) #(as soon as i post a ref or a bio i immediately want to change it all. so. i just wont LOL) #(if yall still curious about her u can just send an ask or a dm or smth i dont bite 😂) #(this was supposed to be a sketch sheet can u tell i lied deceived played myself to filth) #(bonus cainhurst armor look bc i love that set SOOOOO....much) #(watch out yall sin is back at it with her nonsense cloth physics again)