#why do i even need a name

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

signing my legal name like ohohoh they want my super secret identity name?? you want that one?? hehehe they are so bamboozled. they get the fake name :)

#i say this as someone that only goes by a different name at home and like. only 2 people are willing to use it #it's fine for now but idk if the name i have rn is vibing well #how do people even pick names #why do i even need a name #i like not needing a name. i mean. i'll answer to whatever but i've never had any attachment to names #in my head i don't have a name and you can talk with people without one #ugh #the struggle of creating an identity #you know what i do like? titles. #L's ass overlord is welcome because it describes me in ways that no name has #and i'll probably have to get a doctorate too so then i could just be doctor #that or i find a way to become a captain (<- is afraid of the ocean. i would never sail anywhere) #i've been browsing some naming websites for weeks but nothing feels right #part of me wants something really long and unnecessary because that's fun #but my legal name gets a lot of mispronunciation and it's annoying to correct people #i just answer to any variant i hear and i hope dearly that no-one runs into someone who says it differently with me around #so maybe something simple? idk #ughhhhhhh if anyone has any advice tell me i am struggling and i'd like to have a solid association with a name by the time i graduate

[originalartblog]

Apparently much-needed reminder that reposting artists' art (by saving the images or screenshotting them and reuploading them yourself) on other platforms without the artists' expressed permission and without credit is theft and an insult to their passion and craft. You are profiting (in views, in attention, in feedback) from someone else's work and ideas, who do not get that feedback for sharing their creation.

If you are an art reposter, you are a thief and I have no respect for you.

#learn basic internet etiquette i am begging but also holding a knife. yes i'm mad. more about others than myself. #do you know how many artists i have seen leave social media because their art started being reposted all over? #tip: way too fucking many #i've had many people tell me about people reposting my art on tiktok #no one ever asked to repost my art on tiktok. ever. they just save super fried bad crunchy jpegs of my art and repost them #they get 20k likes and don't even bother naming me #also a reason i started signing my name more legibly and why my blog web address is always there but apparently no one can even read that #a few people got an ok for translations on other platforms though #i'm going to be annoying with this post and reblog it a few times to try to catch the people who apparently need to be told #tiny skk adventures #nawy's comics #nawy's doodles #apparently those are reposters' favourites so here look at this

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Unsolved Mysteries.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #Spoilers: It was Wei Wuxian the whole time! #Once again this one was on the chopping block but I saved it for just a better comic flow. #Admittedly I do have a critique of the pacing here. Namely that we really should have ended the flashback when WWX fell. #And then gone back to present time for a bit - or even go to a different flashback. #The sense of time passing isn't as strong as it *could* be. #We get *told* three months pass and that they've been looking for WWX. But to the audience it's been...15 min. #Less than seven minutes if you count the flute playing. #This guy when through a whole aesthetic and persona shift in less time than it takes to walk through a corn field. #Guy who listened to less than half an emo album and dyed all his clothes black. And jorted all his jeans. #Timeskips can be sudden and work out just fine! I personally feel like this one would be stronger with better pacing. #Feel free to disagree with me! #In case anyone is wondering why JC and LWJ are still holding hands: 1) Haunted house episode. #2) I needed to practice drawing hand holding at some point. Might as well get the rough and sloppy ones out with these two.

[francy-sketches]

sorry I got posessed by the wattpad demon I'm normal now (lying)

+alt version that didnt fit the #aesthetic but it better represents my #vision of them ^_^ hashtag couplegoals

#I am not immune to 'she can fix him'-ism. jk that's not why I like them #got #game of thrones #joffrey baratheon #margaery tyrell #my art #sorry 2 the marg fans I haven't drawn her in so long and this is what I give you. if it makes you feel better I'm also disappointed #ok jokes aside im actually really happy w the like. messy scrapbook vibe it was so fun :3 I need to do it more ^o^ #I'm so jealous of people who fill up their canvas like this n I finally did it yipeee #whats their ship name btw is it just a slightly misspelled version of one of their names that would be funny. does anyone even ship them #...I know what this looks like but um ackchually I like them in a ironypilled divorcecel way. it's different -_- #and I also like drawing them being cute but um its because ☝ um. well its fun :3

[chocmoch]

ive just been thinking of a radiorose sequence where rosie (because she's named rosie yk) hands alastor a rose... and then it withers in his hands, and then she gives him another, and it withers, and then it's just half an hour, from a side view, of them continuously exchanges roses

#hazbin hotel #radiorose #radiodoe #i think thats the ship name lol #i don't rlly ship them #i just love them so much #like #rosie is peak character design #and do i even need to explain alastor #alastor x rosie #rosie x alastor #alastor hazbin hotel #rosie hazbin hotel #WHY DOES IT TAKE SO LONG TO TAG STUFF AAA

[kenmaiii]

after two years i finally draw the favorite

#my art #still learning honestly. idk how to explain it but some medias youre so fixated on and obsessed with u instantly want to draw everyone #for me dunmeshi has always been the opposite. series and characters i enjoy sm i cannot bring myself to pick up a pencil #for some reason. it got a lot worse once the anime started airing idk. simply forcing myself to get some of my energy out. in a way #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #thistle #dunmeshi thistle #thistle dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #>_< series i was into since late 2021. yet u wouldnt know that unless u follow my side twitter account. sowwy ig #i do this with a lot of franchises honestly. cannot bring myself to draw even if i think abt the characters constantly. ie skip to loafer #u will nvr catch me calling this guy sissel sorry. save that name for Mr. Ghost Trick. another thing i. also. dnt talk abt. which i adore #i need to get better at talking abt and expressing myself for the things that i enjoy. ive been wanting to draw laios for a good #while too but im scared. for some reason. u-u should nvr let a white man do that to me honestly. #for now i'll thistle tho. maybe we will get kabru namari or mithrun next from me >_< i have to talk myself into it #i think the closest way i can explain why i cannot bring myself to draw for some series is that i dnt want to mess up somehow #like 'ilu so much [character] what if i cnt draw u the way u deserve even tho i love u sm what if its not enough.' <- leaves it to sm1 else #tbh [scratches head] i prefer the version with less coloring ^-^ but i realize the one thats more colored would get more eyes on it... hm

[crimson-nail]

annoying yaoi for my friend nico, the original klrw annoying yaoi enjoyer

#charlie’s art #how the fuck do i even tag this. there’s four names #trigun #trigun maximum #livio the double fang #razlo the tri punisher of death #millions knives #nicholas d wolfwood #kniveswood #knivio #knivwoodio. kniviowood. millions livwood. girl i’m at a fucking loss here #klrw sounds like a radio station #this is why people come up with catchy names for polyships. i’ll fucking call this orphans with knives don’t test me #i like drawing the claw hands and the expressions #the voice in your head telling you that you need to draw expressions realistically is the devil and you should never listen

[cerealmonster15]

a jamiazu sketchy sketch bc oh my god i am LOVING the energy these two are bringing with each other in this event!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a win for the jamiazu community!!!!

#twisted wonderland #twst #jamiazu #azujami #ashenviper #wtf why do u guys get 900000 ship names GOD #jamil viper #azul ashengrotto #cereal tries to draw #goddddd i knew it was gonna be good just seeing that theyd be in the event together #but somehow it's even better than i expected #theyre somehow both bickering and bullying each other and also getting along and scheming together #IT'S CUTE THEYRE FUN TOGETHER #and most importantly. jamil is having a good time #idk theyll probs get a bit stressed later but SO FAR JAMIL VIPER IS HAVING A GOOD TRAVEL TRIP #and that's all ive ever wanted for him #AND ALSO HIS CHEMISTRY WITH AZUL IS OFF THE CHARTS #god that scene when theyre bullying each other when the designer was talking about azuls outfit #and ace is like SENPAIS THE VIBES R BAD PLEASE DONT FIGHT #im like ace my beloved son. they are Flirting. u do this same thing with juice every day. #ok god i need to go to bed but im havin a great time w/this event #shoutout to youtuber ekala for the translations i owe them my life

[kombucha-enjoyer]

i got team fortressed

uhhhhhhhhh 'msorry

#tf2 #idk WHY i got into this ship #it's not even because of emesis blue #i just..... like them... #ew cringe #if i have to look at this first pic one more time im gonna blow up #not in a good way #i hate it #tf2 medic #tf2 scout #scout x medic #medic x scout #mediscout #do they have a silly ship name?? i need to know #artฅ⁠^⁠•⁠ﻌ⁠•⁠^⁠ฅ

[pyrepostings]

imagining a defiant interrogation whumpee who gets sick of saying "I'm not telling you" so they start going into what sounds initially to be them finally telling whumper what they want to know, but ends up being whumpee wasting time by just quoting a song.

#pyreprompts #whump prompt #I have a scene or two for Kevin specifically #'Why have I taken up arms against you you ask? Well #I was walking down by island bridge #Just rambling about- going as I please #That day was warm and there was such a gentle breeze #It was the month of April I believe #I strolled up by the monument then laid down in the grass #Then I heard a soldiers voice behind me. It said #Meet me at the pillar son meet me there at noon. I need you brave young Irishmen there's something we must do... #He said his name was Padraig Pearce and he just kept on calling me' #Meet me at the pillar is such a good song even if extremely call to action #But that's just been my vibe so youknow #Doesn't even have to be an interrogation really #'So what's with the red hair and green eyes combo? Isn't that a little on the nose for a fenian?' #'Well first off- it has been incredibly difficult to hide while trying to cross boarders you're right #Secondly that's just kinda what happens when you have a county cork mother and an ulsterman father. #It's just a horrid color problem I've been left with- this orange and green.' #I imagine Kevin specifically would take it as a challenge to 1. See how obscure a rebel song he can pull up and #2. See how long it takes for the other guy to notice not a word he is saying is actually true or relevant #The exact scenes I'm imaging are in a au idk if I'll ever actually post publicly #But I might write them as him messing around with Zander #I still need to post something with Zander maybe this will be it

[3-aem]

i also don’t want to portray myself as faultless. my work isn’t ai and it isn’t copied. but nk will say i Had old pieces that were copied and referenced ai. Yet it isn’t good faith when i apologize, state how i took accountability, and explain thats definitely not the case today because i learned my lessons- to respond with well you made these mistakes in the past so how can i believe you, you are lying, and have not changed.

so i quit. how can i prove myself then besides what i mentioned in the last post. my question is will you even ALLOW me to prove myself. each time i must explain, i place a spotlight on something that was resolved agreeably with the artists, resolved by removing the works, and resolved within myself by learning from it. but by not saying something i also allow You to concoct narratives and have to watch people spread them around and come to me demanding apologies. it is a very uncomfortable very distressing process that has worn me down completely.

never mind that other artists who have copied have not nearly been requested to apologize as much as i have been. never mind that they were forgiven when they removed the works or even when they just say sorry and don’t remove the work at all. But you still choose to hound me afterwards for doing just that?

nk has stated that i have not fixed this. and that i must address it. how many times though? for how long also? who on this planet starts the conversation by recounting all their mistakes, especially when they know they are resolved.

i have had to learn my lessons through cruelty like yours. trust me its a trauma i have to bear and they are not lessons you then forget.

my anger and my feelings of defeat come from the fact that even after nk was still talking like i had not even attempted to make progress. just look at your tone here.

#im going to fking throw up this is the last time i will ever say this #do not come begging to be for another apology i am done #i will never address this issue again okay #i need to say this because no matter what when i see people supporting me now i feel guilty #i recognize it is just because i hate myself #it is because i havent accepted i made mistakes #but i cant accept it because people cant accept it #i cant accept it and i cant move on #and that is why i think its best to leave art #i cant make work i am proud of anymore #i dont want to list names of artists #but i will say that when king chris reposted my work without credit i viewed it the same as when i referenced other artists work #but there was no callout no request even from the comments for credit #and he has millions of followers #i felt like i could not stand up for myself because i have this history #because of this history i can never properly defend myself i feel i must always kneel to it #even though i have changed and realized i was wrong i still have to acknowledge it always

[supercalime]

I’ve been lurking in the 911 tags for only a week and I’m already exhausted of most b*ddie shippers holy shit

#the annoying ones know who they are #this isn’t a personal attack #I truly don’t want them to become canon out of spite #why even tag your hate in the goddam tag dedicated to another ship #Tommy’s tag has a lot of hate and people talking about eddie how there’s clues etc etc #I haven’t been deeply involved in fandoms in the last few years for this exact reason #when it becomes too meta it kinda ruins it for me #people digging through interviews and trying to find evidence in situations that weren’t intended that way in the writing drains you #sorry to break it to you #but Bucky is into tommy and was since the beginning of meeting him #yall going #well actually #he’s in love with eddie but doesn’t know and misplaces it with Tommy #is tiring #I don’t know if b*ddie will be canon but not everything has to be about romance with them #they seem to have a connection that goes even deeper than romance #having them be a couple just kinda irks me #they don’t need to be two bros sitting in a bathtub five feet apart but they seem like soulmates in a way that I don’t see as romantic #I say as an aromantic person too #deep connections can be just as intense and interesting if even more than coupling up #obviously not tagging the ship name cause I’d be lynched if I do #and again this isn’t about the actual ship it’s more about the fandom and how they feel entitled to claim theories as facts #lety rambles #tommy kinard #tevan #tuck #911 #911 abc #911 show #bucktommy

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I saw @qourmet's young madam lan art, and knew what I had to do.

#better drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan furen #horse #we need to name her horse IMMEDIATELY #Qingheng-Jun #She is stunning and beautiful and the design has me in a death grip #AND she's a horse girl? It was not even and option to not draw her. #Lan wangji has to get his biting and tearing and killing genes from somewhere. #Its maternal. He inherited the hunting instinct from his mother and an attraction to people who do crimes from his father #btw if yall haven't seen them; All of qourmet's prev generation designs are *so* good. I have genuinely gotten brainrot over CSSR and WCZ. #On every god that exists I WILL find a way to have them show up in the pd-mdzs comic canon. I've already scripted the comics. Its happening #Also it's been too long since I drew an equine. Why are there not *more* equines in MDZS. This is why I had to make the equineswap au. #I''m still not sure how a horse works. but I'm getting there. #Slowly I am creeping towards the necessary skill set I need to draw Qiyan Agula. #JQWS audio drama....I am gazing at you so fondly. I will return to you with power and strength (better comic skills to draw you) #we are a long way away but...that's the dream project.

[lokh]

my first attempt at krita and. it turns out i cant draw felines from memory

#i meant krita the program but i guess his name is krita now LOL #art #furry #it is. not immediately intuitive i will say. and the ui setup is not agreeing with me (how i put my hand on the tablet) #it keeps. clicking things. maybe i just need to move it around (if u can do that??) #also i suspect this may be an issue with the tablet and not the program. but it did freeze. ghdfgdf #the image u see before u.... was worked off a screenshot i took #needless to say. back on my 'saving every 2 seconds' shit #can u adjust how the brushes blend and shit... #but tbh im pretty happy with trying out krita for a while over paying for clip. #i could always just. pay for clip later if it turns out i prefer it on tablet LMAO #THE ENTIRE TIME I WAS LIKE. WHY DOES HE LOOK LIKE A FUCKING SEAL! #even my sis agreed 😭😭😭😭

[bonetrousledbones]

whatever you do DON’T think about how papyrus undertale’s biggest motivations lie in encouraging the people around him to improve themselves and finding the joy in friendship and how he doesn’t have any of that in deltarune whatsoever and instead he’s just hiding inside of a dark house while everyone else is outside going about their lives relatively fine without him just dont think about it

#trousled rambles #deltarune #papyrus #undertale #its 1am and im having deltarune papyrus thoughts again dont look at me #was just thinkin more abt his possible knight motivations and. well what would he do when he has no one to keep on the straight and narrow #and when there's no one to keep HIM on the straight and narrow..........................yknow #his brother runs a whole grocery store by himself so i think its safe to say he didn't need papyrus to push him into it like in ut #and undyne's BORED sure but she's still okay. she's still forming a connection with alphys without papyrus having anything to do with it #alphys is more confident without ANY of papyrus's help at ALL #head in hands HE HAD SO MUCH INFLUENCE IN UNDERTALE AND NOW HE HAS HARDLY ANY AT ALL......HIS NAME ISNT EVEN MENTIONED...................... #i need to go to bed BUT DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHY THE VERY CONCEPT OF HIM FUCKS ME UP AM I MAKING MYSELF CLEAR #edit had to make this more accurate to what im feeling rn #blood //

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you