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britneyshakespeare · 8 days

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i have been working with kids for four years and i had to write my first ever note just now about a seventh grade boy being inappropriate towards me. i don't know what the hell this could possibly lead to or what. he was trying to feel my legs repeatedly to the point where i had to stop sitting next to him (and i was subbing for his one-to-one para!!!). he's got high support needs. in that kind of job, you're supposed to sit next to them all day and look over their work.

the teacher whose classroom this was happening in could also tell something was wrong. the whole class was acting kinda crazy because it was the day before school vacation week and there was another class coming in to share projects. so like, he was swamped with keeping order already. but we were sitting two feet away from his podium at the front of the room. the kid was giving him and me a hard time when he wouldn't take out his chromebook as he was instructed. and then when he did take out his chromebook, he immediately, for some reason, places it on my lap. he had been ogling my legs the whole time. he puts his computer ON MY LAP. and i'm just like, stunned, because what the hell? can you not keep it on your own lap, for some reason? i don't even know what to say, i just hold it a little above my lap while i'm thinking why on earth would this be happening? he would NOT do this to his regular para if she were here, would he? this can't be normal.

and the teacher sees this and within a minute places a stool in front of the kid for him to put his laptop on. and i'm like. oh ok. yeah. he notices exactly what's happening and that that's not appropriate. and then when the other class comes in to share projects he tells me "miss b——, you don't actually have to sit next to c—— this whole period if you don't want to." and he grabs me a chair for me to go sit with the other paras in the back opposite corner of the room. like he KNEW. and thank you mr. d—— for recognizing that because i was just kind of shocked and didn't know if i was overreacting in my head to all of this.

when there's a point in the class where the kids are discussing stuff, i privately mention what's happened to the para who's sitting closest to me. and she says that the thing about him calling me pretty is something he's been known to do, but the fact that he kept trying to touch my legs is new behavior. and that's a completely different class of behavior. i was telling him NO, don't do that, and he kept doing it. and the fact that he was calling me pretty repeatedly, even when i was giving him instructions that he wasn't taking. and this is the second to last class before the end of the day, so she says she'll take a walk with him before learning center and talk to him about it, and i'm grateful for that. she does. the kid apologizes to me as soon as i come into learning center. but like. WHAT the hell.

i'm STILL like what the hell. this is unfathomable to me. the other adults who i told about this or who witnessed it were supportive of me. but. what to do??? i wrote a long note to his regular para about this, because i knew she was going to hear about it at least from the first para i told. the second para i told about it after school had a kind of... i'm not gonna say enabling reaction, but i suppose since it had already been "taken care of" (or at least, he had been spoken to and apologized) she didn't really have much to add in the way of discipline. i told her what happened after school and she was just like... a little bit, laughing? like oh, yup, that dog. she at the very least confirmed he KNEW what he was doing, that that was not an accident. she said to me "i had a feeling he was going to develop a crush on you" (me and these other paras were together for most of the beginning of the day too). but it's like. it's not about that.

i have worked with children for FOUR years. children have had crushes on me before; i'm quite unfazed by it. boys from the ages of 5-to-15 have told me i'm so pretty before and asked me to marry them. i've never had them feeling up my legs before. i've never had them making me physically uncomfortable. it's NOT about this seventh grader having a crush on the pretty substitute. he is NOT unusual for that, at all. but i've never had a boy of any age or education level repeatedly touching my knees and thighs. THAT is problem behavior!!!

because what if i wasn't assertive enough with him to tell him to stop? what if i was a girl his age? worse, what if i was an adult who encouraged this behavior? i don't come to the middle school to be a seductress. i had no intention in putting on a pair of tights and a skirt this morning of being viewed as an attractive object, especially not by a pubescent boy. what if i did though? what if his interpretation of me wasn't so incorrect and offensive? what if i let him keep touching me inappropriately and saying flirtatious things to me? me, an adult in my mid-twenties, towards a middle school boy?

in no world would that be ok. if i had been feeling up and overly-complimenting a CHILD at my place of work, holy shit would there be reports about me. so a child acting that way could never be ok either. if it'd be firable for me to be reciprocating that action, then that action should not be happening to me. ever. and that child should never repeat that action again to any other adult again.

like i am simply not there to be treated as an attractive young woman. i put on a skirt that shows too much knee and get paired with a boy, though, and that's apparently just a natural consequence. hooo-ly shit. like i don't know what to do. first of all, the more time passes since this has happened, the more i am just unable to stop thinking about it. i wasn't "hurt" or too emotional in the moment but i'm just still processing it and it gets worse. i'm just more and more disgusted.

i don't know what i expect to come out of this, or the email i sent to his regular para. like, am i gonna have to attend a fucking meeting? what is the precedent that this sets for him? WHY do i feel BAD for him about this? well, because he's a child, of course. a child who has done wrong he may not be able to understand. but he knows WHAT he did. he just doesn't know WHY it was wrong.

and i couldn't even say something to him that was like, "well, how would you like it if i was touching you like this?" because young boys do not understand how inappropriate it'd be. i'm sure this kid thought he was gonna get away with what he was doing at the very least. but probably not unlikely he (being a child with no concept of how wrong it'd be) thought he could get some sort of "positive" attention for treating me like this. either way he was simply doing what he wanted to do, with no perspective of how it would make me feel or that it could be classified as harassment. teenage boys think it'd be awesome if the older attractive woman would reciprocate their affections. they're wrong. i, as the older attractive woman of his affection, cannot be the one to convince him of that, though.

i don't know. i don't know. like it's just so not ok. but if i didn't tell another adult about this, he would've gotten away with it. he would probably do it again. and him being in trouble for it is not the same as him understanding that it was wrong. unless someone has a REAL talk with him about inappropriate attention and consent, it's not unlikely that he'll just repeat the behavior in a setting where he thinks he won't be caught or told on. THAT'S the problem. me, i could just never have to be this boy's para again. in my email, i didn't say that i would never be ok working with or around him ever again. he already knows i didn't like it and i'm not afraid to tell on him; as far as that lesson applies to me, individually, i think he's become too ashamed to repeat that.

i don't know. i don't know. i very much expressed that i, i guess, "forgave" him in the email that i wrote. i clarified that i was writing it for the sake of having it on the record. i think that could potentially be very important for the purposes of preventing further similar or escalating behavior from him in the future. i don't want him to be in trouble. i don't think i will be blamed for this, especially not with how promptly i acted, although i don't know to what extent this will be framed as me thinking i'm a "victim." i'm not... i don't feel victimized. i feel disgusted. i feel afraid for the sake of what could happen to or with him in the future, if he thinks behavior like his towards me today is ok.

i feel like if i end up having to further respond to this, this will be made about me. in a way it kind of was. is? in the moment it was happening, it was certainly about me. because i was the one this boy was giving all this unwanted attention to. but to make the consequences of this about me and to involve me any further, i also don't want. because i said what i said already, i don't care if a student has a crush on me. this isn't about me being the pretty substitute. i'm the pretty substitute all the time, to tons of people. that's not really something i've been concerned about up until now.

but do i have to reexplain my personal embarrassment? that i was wearing a skirt? that he was ogling my legs? really? what more do i have to gain from sharing that, other than having the adults at my place of work confirm or deny me in their heads as the pretty substitute? i don't know. perhaps that's REALLY overthinking it. but i don't want to be the substitute that caused a problem for this special ed kid. i don't wanna be the reason that he can't be around me anymore, the person people think of when they're monitoring how he's acting around girls and young women. i DON'T want to be the one people think of when they think of his past misbehavior. i'm NOT here for that.

that's just fucking humiliating. and in this being a thing that could follow him, i have to be ogled and touched over and over again in people's minds for this to be taken seriously. but for this to be swept under the rug would be even worse, no? i don't know. i hate this. the principal is a nice guy; i wouldn't be surprised if he and/or people from the special ed department reached out to me sympathetically about this. but i don't wanna be reached out to. i don't wanna have ppl i work with tell me "sorry that kid was just so attracted to you he couldn't help himself" like come on. if the kid himself doesn't change then i don't really care to remember this incident. and no one reaching out to me and saying they've talked to this kid will actually prove to me he understands. this is the kind of inappropriate behavior it takes years for people to understand why it was wrong, especially a child who has no idea. i mean come on.

#tales from diana #long post #sorry i should probably put this under a read more but it was just a long stream of consciousness #and idk. im tired. im so tired #do you wanna be known as the substitute teacher a kid kept touching inappropriately? probably not #thank god for the first para i told bc she took it really seriously seemingly. i mean idk what she told him in their conversation #not EXACTLY what she told him. she obviously said this was wrong and she reiterated in learning center again #that if that were her daughter she'd be through the roof and that she'd be telling his regular para #i mean of course i had to tell the regular para directly. i would rather it come from my mouth #i'm the one who has the most information of how and why it happened. i think other ppl telling it would just reduce it to #'he thought she was so pretty and he kept staring at and touching her legs cuz she wore a skirt' like come on #the indignity of that!#i already feel undignified enough.#and also thank god for the social studies teacher. the more im processing this the more im like thank god #i dont know him well. he had already been a nice dude to me before in my interactions w him #like as a sub you notice the people who are really affirming of the strange and irregular work you do #earlier this week i was subbing for the math teacher across the hall for instance and he came in before class started and said #that if anyone's giving me a hard time to just send them to him. bc that group can be a little rowdy/wild #my classroom discipline skills are not that bad where i felt the need to have someone more experienced defend me so to speak #like i know i look young and am assumed to be new. but with most classes. i can handle most misbehavior #i can put my foot down in a way kids normally respect. i know how to keep em on task #and for MOST of the day with this kid that's what i was doing. but if that social studies teacher hadn't done what he did #i might not feel so bold in just straight up walking away from that kid. after saying stop stop stop repeatedly #like he had his own job to do independent of me but i remember the gestures and like. i could cry. he KNEWWWW #that's just a very trustworthy person i feel. he didn't want me to suffer through that any longer #a lot of teachers (unfortunately) largely ignore the kids with paras and/or expect the paras to communicate to the kid exclusively #that teacher is not like that. he was willing to mind that boy while i escaped that situation. so so grateful to him

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stuffedsand · 4 months

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four and sixteen for milgram? :3

4- what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

Ok imma be real I've never blocked a person,,,,, I've blocked plenty bots tho

I've gotten reeeaaaallll close to blocking someone but like. I like seeing people's opinions even if I think they're unreasonable. It's a mix of a strange type of entertainment and kind of to keep me open minded? Cuz if I have to look at it and I wanna talk about it I gotta read it through in detail to make sure I'm reading them right so yeah I don't have anyone blocked 💥

16- you can't understand why so many people like _______

............ok I won't that theory because I have another ask that I'll do that for....

Maybe how some characterize yuno as just "girl boss" n not much else? Honestly jokingly it's totally fine but c'mon there's still a bit of girlfailure and inability to let others in there yk it'd be fun to talk Abt it more

Alternatively I do have things I don't understand about what people DISLIKE in this case es milgram I've talked to quite a few ppl (on disc mainly I don't think Ive seen it on tumblr much) who despise es and like!!!!! Bestie that's my silly lil guy you're talking about what'd they do to you!!!!!!!!!

I mean I understand why but also,,,,,they're just a lil creature man they're 15 and in a position of power with no memories of course they're gonna be a bit egotistic in this situation

#sand speaks #this is what i get for saying i dont get asks huh(joking joking it was a nice surprise to get asks hehe)#but yeah i dont block people! i dont like dojng that i need to see their opinions no matter how rancid i think they are!!!!!!!!#its enrichment its entertainment its expanding my horizons its morbid curiosity idk man #and yeah idk theres not a lot that i completely dont understand why people like things #like. i dislike purge march but thats personal opinion so i understand ppl who like it #i dont understand why people simp over characters but im aroace so no shit #idk this just made me realise how unopinionated i am haha #ph the yuno point is kinda moot cuz i saw quite a few ppl talking abt her character completely recently lmao #ah well i dont have much to talk about in terms of what ppl like. i can usually see why they think that way even if i dont #literature class has helped me so much i love literature #listening to others takes even if theyre kinda surface level or a reach. seeinf how others think and relating it to how you think.#its fun idk im being too poetic in tags onto the next ask so i can show you what i mean by akother ask tot alk abt the thing!!!!!!#oh incase you see this before i finsih writing my toher answer the thing is the organ harvesting theory. it always is. i will have a Time #have a good day if youve read this far!!!! i type too fast and tooooooo much for anyones good

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autistic-shaiapouf · 1 year

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Am I the problem. Do my coworkers hate me

#scrambling to restore my reputation so they can at least put in a good word for me when i switch jobs #it's like. it's hard bc all my experience with communication and emotions is terrifying for me bc of my trauma #so i act really irrationally and passively; occasionally passive aggressively and everyone has picked up on it and it's like #i cant just say i didnt go directly to someone and speak my mind bc i was afraid of violence. i cant just say i was afraid #oh also to be able to freely express displeasure with someone without the fear of debilitating guilt.. a theme for me #I'm just. i can only say i have a lot on my mind so many times before it just sounds like an excuse #there is so much effort involved in the masking process and i can only keep it up for so long before i burn out #i try to be a good person i swear on my life i do; i just struggle and feel like I'm expected to not let that become other ppl's issue #like let me be absolutely clear when i say that i was in the wrong and was being frustrating and annoying with what i was doing #I'm just sitting here like. why did we wait so long to say something. i dont know what my behavior looks like #not to express profound sadness on main or anything but. a lot of things feel quite difficult for me #and it feels like the best thing to do is to keep that quiet so i can meet everyone else's baseline #i think. i may need a new job for my mental health. and physical bc my joint pain is worsening with the pharmacy work U_U #hoatm rants

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snekdood · 8 months

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i could give these bitches a million dollars and they'd still treat me like im not doing enough. like im done w yall fake progressives yall dont care about shit for shit. yall only care about yourselves and shit that benefits you specifically and if it benefits anyone else thats an after thought and just a bonus to you, you dont actually *care* if other ppl benefit from the shit you do.

#hell you'd prolly demand more money bc you're so inside your own ass and ego that thats all you care about.#YOU getting money. THATS IT. thats ALL its ever been.#you'd rather play on my guilt and get more money (abuser behavior btw) than decide 'this is enough for me now lets ask him to donate #to charity'#bc you think its FUNNY. you think its morally fine and neutral to do that kind of shit.#you think its FUNNY to be abusive and play on peoples guilt. thats literally it. you get kicks and laughs out of it. thats all you care #about. thats literally it.#you care about manipulating ppl outta their money and you think being abusive is funny and being manipulative is funny and thats your entir #personality. this is just an example btw just tryna speak on a phenomena im observing #yall would do this shit too if i 'apologized' for all supposed 'crimes' i committed #you'd demand more apolgies for more shit i either didnt do or is tame asfuck that other people in your life do but that you dont bat an eye #at bc you dont hate them. but bc you hate me you think your hatred of me is a moral justification to treat me like shit #and youd demand those apologies bc you think me humbling myself before you is FUNNY. you think of it as if im a peasant and your a king bc #its the only way you can feel power over me.#you dont *actually* care about me righting wrongs. thats never what its been about. you want to feel power. thats it #which is why- by the way- dont often apologize for shit you guys demand me to. because ik its alll just a power play thing for you.#you dont care.#not that i even have money like that- by the way- but im trying to point out how yall would be about this #i could give you 10 billion dollars- if i had it- and it still wouldnt be enough.

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gorefetishizer · 1 year

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Back to [city where i study] tmrw!!!!! Dont know if i wanna go by i dont wanna stay here either!!!!

#tbh it was the same before coming here only im not having a panic attack about it #im speaking it into happening i am NOT having a panic attack tonight🙏‼️‼️‼️‼️#ill miss my cats #but i wont miss anyone here enough #i think my family. specialy my mom are hurt over me not particularly missing here and therefore them more #they havent said it but #ive been trying to understand why they keep asking if i like it here or there better and i think thats what theyre actually asking.#if i miss them #how do i tell them i dont miss ppl. like at all. of i dont see them #like ill see someone after a long time and be like oh!!!! this is so nice i wish this happened more!!!!! but in the time i am not there wit #with them i just dont. feel it #i mean #i miss my mom and i miss my partner #i dont think i miss anyone else #i mean i miss my former best friend but thats because we are not talking like ever again its different #but when i know ill see someone eventually even if its over 6 months and i dont see them irl ever then i just. dont think about them #im an awful friend and relative 💀

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thevalleyoftriumph · 2 years

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yknow i change my mind i dont want to be in an ava discord That badly 😊😊

#some of the ppl in that server r um......yeah #not naming namez but some ppl need to think before they speak and im incredibly uncomfortable in the fan server #kitkat chitchat #might leave it actually. i dont like it there lol #I THOUGHT ITD BE FUN. YKNOW. TO CONNECT W PPL. BUT UM. I REGRET IT IMMENSELY SOME PPL THERE R KINDA. WEIRD /NEG #thiz iz exactly why i wanted to make my own /hj so i could Avoid thiz nonsense

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cherry-ari · 3 months

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Okay, now having seen the hazbin hotel episodes i just cannot fathom why so many people talk about it like it's the worst thing ever or that it is unfathomable people would like it.

There's valid criticism I've seen, and I agree with some (like the pacing and dialogue is a bit whatever sometimes.) but like cmon. I think it's a good show with a lot of promise.

P.s. it's hard not to feel like this is just another case of everyone being harder on queer creators than if they weren't, and if they don't make something perfect it's torn to shreds.

#also i cannot believe people said this show had too much cursing like genuinely that is so funny #like full offense it was not that much cursing way to tell youve never seen an adult show before lmao #also my opinion on viv could not be more neutral #1.) bc im not going to pretend i know her #2.) the amount of times people have just LIED about her to make her seem bad i just cannot tell when people are not lying #<- literal boy who cried wolf situation here #3.) i honestly could care less she blocks ppl on twt like why should i #could she have thicker skin? probably. i think she shouldnt be on twt for her own sanity tbh #but i cant blame someone for going a little bonkers when half the “criticism” is bad faith takes #and honest to god insults #this is getting long ANYWAY #like the show or dont idc im just tired of seeing ppl act like this is worse than south park or family guy #or has no merit or value and is 100% hot garbage #and ur cringe for liking it #ari speaks

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nomaishuttle · 5 months

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the thing abt me is i do hsve goals for therapy snd i do want to delve deep into my psyche but i also never get to talk to ppl irl so when i go in and realize i have a captive audience for the next 50 minutes i just cannot shut up.

#I NEVER CONSIDER MYSELF A CHATTY PERSON BUT THEN I HAVE AN OPPORTUNITY TO CHAT AND IM LIKE TEEHEE #i think im just selective abt who i talk to bc i truly am quite quiet. oh thats cute quite quiet theyre like sisters or cousins maybe.#but i am rly quite quiet i will legit just stand there like 🕴️and i never initiate conversations #but the second i realize somebody actually wants to listen to me talk isrg i suddenly have to recap everything that has ever happened to me #and my opinions on everything that has existed since the big bang occured #AND I TALK FAST SO I FEEL LIKE THAT KIND OF MAKES PPL NOT WANT TO TALK TO ME. BC YOU GIVE ME AN INCH OF INTEREST oh thats cute inch of #interest thats fun.. bc they sound kind of similar thats awesome. anyway you give me an inch of interest and i will take a mile of..#monologue ? closest m word related to talking i can think of but it isnt especially close to mile. oh well #but its literally so bad and then ppl dont want to talk to me bc ill talk for 30 minutes straight but the contents of the talk will be 1.5 #hours worth i just talk rly fast and im constantly looping back to things i talked abt before and also leaping to things that are #tangentially related and basicslly . i think i am not very fun to talk to #i also told leslie abt my white man disease of thinking I could totally start a podcast. and she was like well normally i would say i think #they should make microphones cost 5000000 dollars to dissuade people from starting podcasts but i think i would enjoy listening to yours #which is tempting fate. i will not start a podcast #but also if i did she would hypothetically like it.. idt she so #would actually lisren bc i think thats kinda likee. yk its oversrepping the therapy boundary #it would not be an issue to me but i have heard that like. if a therapist hss a yter as a client they shouldnt watch that yters videos yk.#sooo unfortunately she wouldnt actually listento the podcast but yk. BUT I SHOULDNT MAKE A PODCAST IT IS MY INNER WHITE MAN SPEAKING.#idk why i said inner bc hes also outer i am a white semiman. semiman... itis mesnt to be prounced semi man (sim i man.. or sem e man if #you prefer.) but its also fun to read as simmuhman.

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inf3ct3dd · 7 months

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ellie headcanons pt.2! :))

warnings: mentions of weed/alc , injuries/blood, VERY mild sexual content (boobs and ass 😕)

content: loser!ellie x reader :3

authors note: im back w another BANGER🔥🔥🔥 since ppl loved the last one IM BACK W MORE 😈

pt. 1 ! taglist.! masterlist!!

- CANNOT handle spicy food. my porcelain princess has the spice tolerance of a victorian child she is coughing and crying at the slightest spice 😞😞

- speaking of food…my girl is a CHEF!!! she hates leaving the house and she’s too broke to buy food so she’s just in the kitchen whippin ts!!!! she even has a goofy chef hat that she wears when she cooks. (this is so ellie coded i dont know why)

- loves commentary youtubers . kurtis,danny,nickisnotgreen,jarvis, and chadchad 🔥🔥

- knows so much niche internet drama…she tries to talk abt it and ur like???? literally what are you talking about….which gives her the perfect opportunity to ramble

- so many random injuries CONSTANTLY. she’s constantly covered in cuts and bruises and has no idea where they come from (mostly her awful skateboarding)

- “this ones for you” before she devastatingly fails to do a trick on her skateboard and falls on her face, and her entire lower face is covered in nose-blood

- whenever she gets hurt, she always asks you to “kiss it better” 😞😞 so cute im dying!!!

- follows you around like a puppy all day. goes with you on all your errands, sits by you while you do work. she is ALWAYS THERE

- if u think shes bad when shes sober, she’s literally the clingiest drunk in the world!!!! she will literally be constantly attached to you. even when you go to the bathroom, she’ll literally hold ur hand through the door while u piss cuz u wouldn’t let her in 😞

- she’s even worse when she’s high, cuz shes so BOLD. will literally just randomly motorboat ur tits while ur talking with zero explanation.

- loves sitting on the floor???? literally will just be down there. sometimes when you’re on the couch she’ll sit by your feet and cling onto one of your legs

- NEEDY!!!! oh my godddd so needy. every time ur doing something not involving her she’s trying to get your attention. most of the time shes doing really stupid shit in front of you for no reason. “babe look” is her favorite thing to say

- literally had a huge bruise on her leg cuz she tried to do a cartwheel inside and banged her leg on the kitchen counter

- whenever you lay on your stomach, she loves laying her head on your ass

“it’s my favorite pillow!!”

- sometimes she just randomly squeezes ur boobs when she walks past you. always with some random sound affect too. she’ll just walk by you while you’re cooking and just honk ‘em 😕

- sleeps DIRECTLY ON TOP OF YOU. like literally lays on you like a starfish all night

-sleeptalker!!! its always the most non-coherent things ever, and it’ll last for like 30 minutes.

“no papa john i don’t wanna hit a nae nae 😞”

- cannot be trusted on the road. she is actually a hazard to public safety

- this is such an unpopular opinion but she is DEFINITELY a passenger princess. she likes staring at you too much she can’t drive she’ll crash!!!!

- does NOT exercise. but she’s like. randomly strong. she’ll carry all your groceries in one trip and push ALL your luggage when you go on vacation

- literally turns into a child when you take her to the beach. building sand castles, swimming in the water, and finding rocks and shells and bringing them to you like a dog

- definitely wears those stupid snorkel goggles when she goes swimming cuz she likes doing flips underwater and hates water in her nose

- LOVES CAMPING!!! that girl can be OUTDOORS.

- has binders full of pokemon cards. she goes to this card shop by her house that has pokemon saturdays and plays matches for like…the whole day. she can and WILL trash talk a 7 year old little boy after beating him

- follows so many niche meme pages

- orange chicken enthusiast.

- this is literally canon in the show but she HATES COFFEE. she is a chai latte woman. with oatmilk cuz like…duh….lesbian

- absolutely goated at just dance for NO REASON

- really good at making string friendship bracelets

#loser!ellie #ellie williams x reader #ellie x reader #ellie x y/n #ellie x you #ellie williams headcanons #ellie williams fanfic #ellie williams #ellie williams tlou #tlou x reader #tlou fic #lesbian

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mistachesme · 2 years

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They pretend to be your boyfriend pt. 2 (ft kazuha, childe)

With surprise cameos ofc <3. Highly unedited. Not sure if it came out good tho :')

Tw- drinking, some creep in childe's part

Kazuha

- it came out as surprise that kazuha of all ppl was asking you to pretend to be his lover for one evening

- "It's to get my moms to stop setting me up with random people." He explained to you.

- you recalled the first time you met his mom, you were so nervous. But, beidou's easygoing personality and her infectious laugh made you feel at ease at once.

- kazuha was your dear friend. Despite having feelings for him, you never acted on them 'cause you cherished his friendship and was afraid of his rejection.

- looking at the way he seemed so troubled, you couldn't reject his request.

"This doesn't change anything right?" You tentatively asked. There was an odd look on his face, before it was gone. He nodded.

"Fine then. I will come by your house."

- you felt so loved. all your favourite food was on the dinning table.

"I had to ask kazuha what your favourite dishes were. I hope you enjoy my cooking." Ningguang smiled at you.

"I thought they were your friend. Why didn't you tell us before." Beidou laughed, nudging a blushing kazuha.

- soon the dining hall was filled with laughter, and you can't help but feel guilty for lying to the two amazing women.

- so when you and kazuha were finally left alone, you tell him that his family was amazing.

"Thank you for agreeing to this. My mothers were really happy you came." Kazuha said, truthfully.

- you nod and went back to eating the almond tofu on your plate.

"Your mom makes the best almond tofu, I swear."

- "Almond tofu is not the only good thing my mom has you know." Kazuha whispered in your ear with a smirk.

- your mind went blank with a *windows XP shutting down sound*

Childe

"You're blind date didn't go well huh? Hu Tao told me." Childe slurrs, drunkenly putting his arm around you as he laughs.

"I suggest you to shut your shitty mouth."

- currently you are out drinking with your friends after a long week and of course this bastard had to tag along.

"I think I know why you get dumped so easily." He side eyes you with a smug face.

"If you don't shut up, I'm gonna shove this glass of wine up your ass."

- zhongli watches the two of you fight in amusement as he sips his wine.

"Is this how they get every time they get drunk?" Hu Tao laughs.

"Indeed." He responds with a knowing smile.

- "I'm gonna take a piss. Be right back." You say, slipping away from childe's hold, before disappearing into the crowd.

"Oi.. don't go alone it's dangerous."

You ignore childe's worried calling as you navigate your way to the washroom. The club is too crowdy.

-Not too long after, you hear footsteps behind you and you sigh, knowing who it is.

- "I told you not to go alone." You feel his arm snaking around your waist as you walk.

"Fine." You sigh, leaning on his arm. "Wait outside the washroom, okay?"

- but when you come back, you find childe talking to someone on call. So, you keep your distance. It's probably teucer.

- you dont notice untill later someone approaching you.

"Are you alone, sweetie?" This dude asks, stepping too close to you with a disgusting grin on his face.

"I came with my friends. And, leave me alone, you creep." You snap at him.

"Now, now don't be like that." He says, grabbing your arm.

- at this point you were so pissed. Before you could land a proper punch on his face, you find yourself being pulled away from him and into a familiar set of arms.

- "Don't you know better than touching someone's lover." Childe speaks to him in a warning tone. "They got a boyfriend, you know?"

- "Boyfriend?" The creepy guy looks questioningly at you and then at childe.

- "Yeah, he is here you know." Childe whirls around looking through the crowd, making the other guy look around.

"Where would he be?" The other guy scoffs.

"Why, he's right in front of you." Childe chirps, turning back to him with a smile. You roll your eyes at that. What a dramatic ass.

- "I need to teach you a proper lesson for touching my things before you leave."

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May I ask what aspect in a man would make him someone who want to take care of his wife financially? A provider kind of man i heard of venus aspecting jupiter making a man provider?

Is he a provider? 💸

This is such an interesting question! I will answer this based on my own personal experiences, opinions and what Ive seen so it might not be true for everyone!

What energy a man have touching his Venus & 7th house says a lot about his view on relationships and roles in a relationship. I also think planets in the 2nd or 8th house because of how we view ”theirs & ours”.

Here is my experience with the Venus aspects:

Venus aspecting Pluto: The men I met with Venus Square Pluto had nothing against providing for a woman, i think this might be because of the control it gives and keeping his wife in the house which lessens the chances of her meeting other men since these men can be kinda paranoid. I dont know about the conjunction tho because with the conjunction Ive seen both men who were ok with providing and men who was against it and found women who want to be provided for ”golddiggers”. I also noticed these men very likely to be baby trapped and therefore forced to provide. They love a manipulative woman even tho they swear they hate manipulative people they aaaalways end up with someone shady.

Venus aspecting Saturn: This might seem shocking but men with Venus aspecting Saturn were actually least likely to be a provider and Ive seen men with this (especially the hard aspects) have their wife be the provider. Ive also noticed that these men love a hard working woman and can be kind of lazy, especially if they have Libra placements. Ive mentioned it before in my posts that Ive had men with Venus/Saturn ask me about about how much i make etc on the first date which for me is a no no.

What I find odd with Venus/Saturn men is that I find them to be VERY traditional about everything except from money, like wanting to get married before moving in, wanting their girlfriend to convert incase shes from another religion, caring about social status, not liking ppl with a bad rep etc, but when it came to money they completely lost this traditional mindset. I dont think this is purely bc of them being lazy i think its bc Venus/Saturn men tend to be attracted to the typical strong large and in charge business woman since thats typical saturn. They love a milf.

Venus aspecting Jupiter: These men can be VERY generous and they enjoy giving. Some of the most generous people so mer had this placement. Ive only seen this with the Square and Conjunctions tho so I cant speak on the other aspects. Men with Venus aspecting Jupiter loves to spoil all their loved ones. But the man I dated with the conjunction had this conjunction in his 6th house so he loooved to work which is also why he could provide. He tied his self worth(venus) to his ability to work and be of service(6th house) so house placement plays a huge role. A man with this conjunction in the 8th house would probably have a huge appetite for other peoples money and in being on the recieving end & probably used to being spoiled himself.

Venus aspecting Neptune: This one is a wild card. Ive seen men with this one who wants to be saved by a woman and men who themselves wanted to be a saviour. These men could be generous as hell if paired with a Jupiter aspect and sometimes to the wrong woman because they overidealize people. But this aspect can also make someone very lazy and make them dream too much. Some men Ive met with Venus conjunct Neptune loves a damsel in distress and therefore wanted to be a provider for her while other men with this placement were completely helpless and wanted a strong woman to take charge. So with this one I have to say i dont know if they are provider or not, it depends on what other planet their venus aspects. I think venus/neptune and a saturn/venus aspect can make a man a real leech especially if his venus is in the 8th house.

Venus aspecting Uranus: These men have a very modern view on relationships (depends on rest of the chart ofc) and are therefore likely to feel like we are past the whole men being providers thing. This is another wild card. Ive seen men with this (the conjunction and Square) who even had a woman provide for them. They are less likely to feel ”ashamed” for not fitting into whats considered the norm. I actually know of two guys right now with the conjunction who moved in to a womans apartment and shes the sole provider. They dont find that weird in any way while the men i know with venus square pluto would feel embaressed.

So yeah in MY opinion Venus/Pluto is the most likely and Venus/Saturn the least likely. I also think Juno plays a role here, the providers i checked the charts of had their Juno in signs like Cancer, Virgo and Pisces. Oh and another interesting thing i found: women with Juno in the 10th house had nothing against providing for a man. I also think synastry plays a huge role here. 💜

I would love to hear what everyone thinks & what your experiences are!

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sapphicsigh · 6 months

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I don't want a 3rd szn without Izzy. I just don't. Call me dramatic or whatever, but I'm so genuinely heartbroken by his death. I feel so betrayed. Izzy was the heart of the show, and now he's gone.

The aftermath of his death felt rushed, he wasn't buried at sea (like what the fuck, a lifelong pirate like Izzy would've wanted to be buried at sea) and the crew was just happy to get back on the revenge and set sail without their unicorn? Everyone just gets a happily ever without Izzy? Izzy died a painful death shot by a pompous asshole and for what? Some metaphor about the end of the golden age of piracy? Piss off. Closure for Ed? That could've been achieved a number of other ways. Izzy couldn't get any assurances that HE was loved? Even on his fucking deathbed? The man who protected the crew with life and limb? It doesn't feel right, and it never will. Izzy deserved so much better, and so did Con.

And worst of all, perhaps, is that Djenkins was planning on killing him all along. The whole time, while we were falling in love with the little angry man, rooting for him and rejoicing when he wore makeup in front of the crew and was vulnerable with them...he was a dead man walking.*

*I've seen ppl make rlly good points about how death was treated throughout the show and I wanted to add that context here. If I can find whose post I'm thinking of, I'll tag them

**Edit: Izzy's death was an incredible shock. EVERYONE ELSE IN THE SHOW survived their near death experiences!!! Stede got choked near to death, stabbed (twice!), and survived all of that unscathed. Ed got his head smashed in by a FUCKING CANNONBALL, pumbled by the crew and made it out with barely a scrape. Even Calico Jack could've (apparently) escaped death after being shot with a goddamn cannonball. The Swede was poisoned but was already immune to it. Wow! We (at least I felt this way), as an audience, believed that there wouldn't be any character deaths due to the overwhelming evidence we'd been given thus far. So after alllll the in show evidence that the laws of medicine or physics don't apply to ANY of the pirates, why suddenly apply it when it comes to Izzy? Hmmm??? It makes no fucking sense. It's cruel and unusual punishment. They really killed off the queer disabled elder??? Jesus christ. Did not a single person in the writer's room have a qualm about it? The optics alone are bad. But more importantly, killing off the queer disabled elder is inherently political, whether djenkins thought of it that way or not (& i dont think he did). The mere existence of queer people is inherently political in a society (the US), which wishes for our eradication. So killing off a beloved queer disabled elder, on a show which seemed to promise us queer joy and a happy ending, IS POLITICAL. it's a slap in the face and a punch through the fucking gut.

It feels doubly awful because we, as an audience, were given something we've never had before, an unapologetically queer show. One that didn't soften or censor itself for straight viewers. It was created with such love, at least it felt like, for us. So to be given that gift, and to feel recognized and seen and appreciated, only to have it snatched away...

I can only speak for myself, of course, but it's genuinely heartbreaking. I'm so utterly disappointed. I wish so badly that Con got more time with Izzy. I think Izzy means a lot to him, and he means a lot to us, too.

❤️‍🩹🦄❤️‍🩹I love you, Izzy, and I always will. Rest in peace, my little meow meow, you were and are so loved.❤️‍🩹🦄❤️‍🩹

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vesora · 1 year

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is law of assumption real? yeah

i have come across an individual vilifying the loa community and i find their statements kinda funny and stupid but i love having my beliefs challenged bc i can know why i believe in this. please also read my response to this other girl who thought loa ppl were crazy. it is ok to think if it’s crazy. ur welcome to criticize it. also, i am using aesthetic pictures bc of my ocd, i need things to be divided.

this is for the people who want to listen whether LOA is real from MY perspective:

firstly, i was primed for law of assumption from a young age. this means that i experienced many and i mean MANY spiritual things from a young age. i saw spirits (not hallucinations, it was my dead grandma who i had never seen and i described her down to her ring to my dad and he started crying because it was her), started speaking french at random points without ever having consciously learned the language, heard random piano compositions in my ear which i had never heard before, had visions which protected me/warned me about the future/informed me about the future and many manyyy more things. this proves to me the power of the subconscious mind.

the difference between someone who was born with their third eye awakened versus someone who has no spiritual experiences + is not open-minded to it, is that they will view spiritual phenomena from a materialistic practical sense.

this is saddening, because humans before being impacted by materialism were so spiritual and we were the ones who created the pyramids and all the structures you see on earth. we did that.

anyways,

is it real?

my opinion: yes.

no i am not in a cult waiting to pounce on the next vulnerable piece of meat. in fact, my future career is removing people out of cults and helping trafficking victims but anyways.

i have manifested things far beyond logic. you know how and why? because manifestation is the most basic human trait. and awakening to the fact that you are the creator of your reality is the most liberating amazing feeling and practice. i manifested one of my dying cats becoming free of cancer. that is not luck. that is manifestation. i manifested bad circumstances away. not luck, manifestation. i manifested all my exes leaving me the SAME way because i had assumed they would. not a coincidence, manifestation. there is definitely a lot we don’t know about the universe. i can’t say with certainty that all things are attributed to us which is also why i hate any form of victim blaming. but one thing is for sure is that humans have more control over our lives than we think. we don’t need a divine presence outside of us to dictate us the circumstances in OUR lives.

also, law of assumption is not law of attraction. law of attraction is “AHHH DONT THINK BAD THOUGHTS OR U WILL GET BAD JUJU” very fear-based, also seen in dogmatic religions. law of assumption uses a CBT based approach to change assumptions and therefore, influence reality. you have every right to not believe in this and even chastise me for it, i understand. however, i know this is real for me.

i was a victim of many racist attacks, however, as soon as i decided that the outside world is safe for me, i never had ONE negative experience. is this a coincidence? not for me, no. this is a human taking control of their life. this is a human not bound by societal expectations and leaning into divine energy and expressing the truest essence of one’s self. i am not blaming myself for being a victim, it is the racist’s fault. i am not blaming other victims, it is the perpetrators’ fault. however, if there is any fucking chance i can help a victim, i will take it, i do NOT care.

things i manifested regarding other people towards me:

1. no more racism towards me, family and friends.

2. parents being emotionally available with me

3. my friends expressing affection the way i want them to

4. my mum making me the exact food i visualised many times

5. my professor saying the exact words to me as i visualised

6. my friends saying to me the exact words i visualised

7. this guy flirting with me out of nowhere because i visualised it

8. and many more stuff this shit is too easy so

maybe i feel this strongly because i am a fighter for the working class. my main goal in life is to help liberate all oppressed people. if there is any chance that it can be done by mind, i would take it. would you not? would you not help people by the means you have helped yourself?

how can you so strongly and with such conviction without ever practising the law come to a conclusion that is a harmful new age ideology when the maxim prevalent in so many esoteric practices (yes, non-white too) have preached that reality is made by the mind? will we ignore the science behind it too? will we ignore the cia declassified documents? will we ignore ancient accounts of reality shifting? will we ignore hermes trismegistus? will we ignore rumi? will we ignore plato?

you can ignore this. i won’t, however. this is the liberation of the human soul. having said this, anyone is welcome to criticise the LOA community, look at us as vultures, think we are crazy. i value all opinions (even if they’re wrong HAHA sorry).

how is loa different from dogmatic religion?

well for one, there is evidence for conscious manifestation (e.g. dr joe dispenza’s books). i personally do not like religion. i have religious trauma so if you are religious, id advise you to not read this section. abrahamic religion is based on fear to oppress minorities, trap human potential and it also makes you rely on luck and wishful thinking (this view is only if the holy books were to be taken in the literal sense and abused by ministers etc) whereas the human is able to decide its own fate. law of assumption liberates the human by putting the human from an us vs them view to an us AND them view, meaning everyone is one and the same. this is not a christian thing, this is a well documented thing featured in asian philosophy. consciousness is the thing that unites us all. it is within you and it is within me. religion (abrahamic) forces you to look at the people who are not like you, aka dont believe what you do, as these other creatures who have defied the will of God and ahhh will face wrath. LOA instead empowers the individual and promotes free will. i understand if you think this is dangerous, the woo-woo stuff, just dont practise it.

how is loa not a cult?

loa CAN be misused in a cult but on its own it is not a cult. no one in the loa community is forcing the individual to join this practice which lowkey is just manifestation. however, i get your concerns and i advise you to read this reply: x

i wish i took pics of my cat when she was sick so i could provide u guys evidence but of course i didnt take any pics.

anyone is welcome to leave. anyone is welcome to adjust loa to their lives the way they see fit.

the void state

i doubt that so many people are lying about manifesting in the void state. i do think it’s not a big deal but i definitely don’t think it’s fake. besides, whats the harm in trying?

thing is right, if you are not garnering results or whatever, u dont need to stay. i stayed regardless of whether i manifested my shit instantly or not (which in the beginning was hard for me) because i believed in the philosophy, it resonated with me and it didn’t make me alienate my fellow man. however, if you feel you have a chance of being manipulated here or idk what, don’t join this practice. seriously, it’s okay. i am not being sarcastic or anything, because you are welcome to stay or leave. you are welcome to compliment me or insult me. i will love you either way for you are my fellow man.

also this is so random and a general thing but only psychoanalytic/psychodynamic psychologists use the subconsciously thing.

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