#yall know i need to add the tag

[anastacialy]

tracked down this clip just because of this post! have jokes from skizz and scar

#i spent way longer than id like to admit doing these captions. autocaptions was completely busted so i did em manually #please let me know if i missed / should change anything! #i am a person who needs captions trying to make captions for others lmfao. are the colors ok? too subtle? i wanted them legible still but #anyways sdkjhg here have this #txtly described #(bc i made the captions) #though i will probably also add a video descrip later just. not rn sorry guys #also blease if you can find the post LINK ME i have been searching the tag for ages #hermitcraft #skizzleman #goodtimeswithscar #grian #edit: thank you to the person who linked the post!! :D #second edit: yall ive been trying to swap the video out for the corrected one and it wont swap help

[muchmossymess]

GUYS okay hear me out majoras mask boat boys au

I love legend of zelda I love boat boys this is like the ultimate combination of my interests you cannot understand the brainrot. Idk what to call it yet tho... majoras minecraft? Anyway prepare for an essay

OKAY so we have the Hero of Time, Etho, who stopped ganons plans before they started, and would be stuck in a child's body if not for the fact I think that'd be a lil weird for the more shippy aspects of this au that all the running through time aged his soul and his body followed suit (he's still got a young appearance, and the mask doesn't make him look older like he thinks). Same reason he has the scar over his eye (from the ganon fight); no matter how much the body may heal or rewind the mind will not forget.

Then navi (maybe bdubs?) left him, and he went with epona (maybe bdubs instead? (eponas a horse iydk)) and he sets out on a journey aka the beginning of mm:

Wandering through the woods on epona, gets jumped by skull kid. For those unaware, there is skull kid, a lonely lil sweetheart, and he wears the mask, an entity on its own. He also has two fairies, siblings tael and tatl.

So I was a little unsure about this for a while, but I think I've decided on grian for the skull kid and Jimmy for tael, grian bc watchers and Jimmy bc skull kid is not very nice to tael (bc of the mask) and like a listeners reference or smth blah blah blah

TATL. that's who's interesting. At the beginning she gets separated from her friends and becomes your companion. So naturally for this au she is our favourite joel smallishbeans. It works so well. Tatl is mean but cares, and that's joels dynamic with the bad boys and with etho, guys it's literally perfect idc what you say

I think it doesn't change much throughout like the story of the game, but just taking dialogue tatl says to link and its so perfect for a sassy joel to a "can't believe I'm dealing with this shit again" etho. Uh one thing different though; in hylian form etho doesn't have an ocarina but instead a mini marimba. Just because. I think it's cool, and for potential things later on.

Now, fairies in this au are just tiny glowing people shaped things with wings. The glow around them is their magic, and depending on emotions/energy the brightness changes (thats why they look like flying balls of light). Some fairies have the ability to make projections of themselves, more hylian sized in nature. This can be intimidation or distraction or w/e, but they cant do it for long periods of time bc its exhausting. These forms aren't physical. Just sized up light projections of their actual bodies.

So for a lot of their journey, joel is just a cute pocket sized ball of rage and sarcasm, who helps with ethos aim for fighting. Bc that's a game mechanic and also ethos like half blind. But like when joel calms down imagine him crawling into ethos hat and just dozing off. He can fit in the palm of your hand like guys it's so cute. But he is also capable of being worse than a mozzie

Oh probably a good point to put in what I imagine etho looks like. So it's typical link green (maybe a bit dampened?), weird pointy hat, short hair (white ofc), his shirt is more of a jacket with a fluffy cold weather collar, it's a bit too big for him but he knows he'll grow into it, he's all knobbly and thin (underfed a lil, boy was never taught how to care for himself beyond basic survival). His injured eye is red bc of ganon, and often gives him phantom pains. It can't be healed.

Anyway, at some point in their journey together, etho and joel learn a song that let's fairies have a larger physical form, no wings, sorta like the great fairies (who they learnt it from prolly). It isn't permanent, slowly draining ethos magic meter, the spell ends when you run out of magic. This is because I want them to actually be able to stand side by side or maybe hug, and also bc its hard to block a blow with your body when ur tennis ball sized.

Aaaaand, this ties back in with with marimba. What if ethos injured, or unconscious, and he obviously can't defend himself, so joel panics and plays the marimba in what he hopes is the right order to give himself a body. I imagine that being that small, you could not play an ocarina. And hey maybe joel carries etho away after that, and when the spell ends he has barely any light emitting from himself because he spent nearly all his magic (what he is made of) saving etho.

But this song isn't used much, because of its draining nature, and you can't really do any other magic things while it's going. So it's mostly just in the final fight (over and over) or tough moments or maybe joel wants to experience something like hoe hylians do. It's obviously inferior to how he experiences things as a fairy, of course, he's just curious thats all. He totally doesn't want etho to do it more.

Okay I think ill sorta stop here, I am NOT done, I will probably post some art I've done for this later lol, and I want help with who everyone else is (mumbo is the moon. You cannot stop me nor change my mind) with mcyts to npcs

#oh it feels so good to get this out of my system i have been sitting on this for MONTHS #apologies of it isnt SUPER coherent i never said i was eloquent and i was really just word vomitting my ideas onto the screen #if anyone had any questions or stuff to add i would cry /positive #yeah like yall are so good if you want to take your own spin on this or anything i would love to know so bad #i need to like scream from the rooftops #majoras minecraft au #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans #jimmy solidarity #grian #ethoslab #etho #majoras mask #boat boys #smalletho #majoras mask au #trafficblr #moss' madness #i think thats all the tags...?

[comicdez]

Do you think an ambition can have regrets?

+ a quick colored Mark. Bition i just finished today!

#spspsp ambition likers #i had to get the urge out i need more art of this bastard man #will add a image id later very sorry im just in a rush rn #i will quickly say that i know and am aware that he is a rat bastard but i also have the belief that #the psychometer just amplified that part of him #making him do the recent awful things he contributed to #can You imagine how fucked up that would feel after for him #in the hypothetical that he gets turned back to normal #please i am tearing up my walls do yall see my vision? #m. bition #mark bition #dimension 20 #dimension twenty #dimension 20 mentopolis #also made this rq before the new episode comes out tomorrow #so well see if this gets completley debunked if mark shows up somehow lol #m bition #forgor to add those too #HI I SPELLED MENTOPOLIS WRONG SO I HAD TO RE DO A BUNCH OF TAGS FBSNJFJDJD I TOLD YOU I WAS IN A RUSH #mentopolis m. bition #mentopolis ambition #mentopolis mark bition #mentopolis m bition #mentopolis #mentopolis fanart #myart #dezart

[renrooked]

i need to get this off my chest otherwise i'll explode but i am so unbelievably tired of the "older sibling who takes care of everyone" narrative

give me more youngest siblings who fill the oldest sibling stereotype, youngest siblings who mediate, who take care of everyone, who are reserved and more oldest siblings who are actively independent, who aren’t caretakers, who are stubborn, who are "the trouble makers"

every time i’m introduced to an eldest sibling and expected to respect them because the writer thinks it’s assumed that by making them the older sibling they were a selfless mini-adult who was forced to grow up in the family (and no one else) it takes so many years off my life

not every oldest sibling is going to be a parent figure with a sense of duty

not every oldest sibling shows they care openly/communicates well

not every oldest sibling is easy going

you can write well liked and relatable eldest siblings without making them a wise mini-adult

and their problems and struggles can extend past the side effects of being an oldest/older sibling

also, you can create a character that knows the burden of having to take care of someone without having to make them an older sibling at all!

and you can create younger siblings who aren’t selfish and sporadic. i promise, not every younger sibling is chaotic and causes a scene in order for their needs to be tended to

you can create a character that has the flaw of being brash and codependent without making them the youngest

not all younger siblings are wild and reckless

not all younger siblings are spoiled by their parents/put on pedestals

not all younger siblings are attention seeking

you can write flawed younger siblings without making them forever-children

personally my older sister never filled the whole “i’m meant to take care of you” role. she actively made it clear she didn’t want me around well into adulthood, and would often actively ignore any time i was hurt or upset to make a point for me not to bother her

and she near constantly got into arguments when we were younger that i had to mediate (mind you, she's 6 years older than me) and would make a habit of smacking me on the arm out of annoyance/frustration if i was doing something she didn't like

so sorry, but i just find it lazy a lot of the time when entire personalities are implied of "older sibling so obviously wise second parent and younger sibling so obviously messy selfish baby" and i don't think people realize how absolutely constant this dynamic is implied as an inherent fact in media

anyway, this is all probably doing nothing more than just revealing deep rooted familial trauma but i'm tired of being expected to just believe your oldest is the genuine kind hearted caretaker and youngest is the loose cannon, show me!

make me believe that it’s a natural progression of their personalities! why did the oldest decide to take on that role rather than reject it! what about their situation made the youngest feel the need to be so rebellious!

#literally the only media i've ever accepted this dynamic is arcane and supernatural #they're the only two i've watched and been like okay yeah this shit makes sense this checks out i believe it #everything else i'm just annoyed #it skips all the showing and any setup and starts right in the middle like well obviously we ended up here #no! no it's not obvious! what made y'all this way #what did yall go through. how did your parents raise you or not raise you. what made y'all feel like you needed each other #just one older sibling who is a piece of shit is that too much to ask in this economy god damn #anyways idk what to tag this now #rennie talks in tags #rennie rants #writing #sibling dynamics #familial relationships #if i miss any tags just lemme know and ill add them :D

[petrichoraline]

Thai BL Favorites List Tag Game

i got tagged in the summer lmao i've been struggling cause i simply can't make a completely honest list - my taste is too fluid and the definition of "fave" is a blur to me

thank you to my lovely @tenprem and @littleragondin for tagging me, consider yourselves tagged again in case your answers differ vastly from your previous ones hahah

💓Fave bl: default answer is Bad Buddy, current - Last Twilight and Cherry Magic..and Cooking Crush

👨🏻‍🤝‍👨🏻Favourite pairing: as in actors? if i say GunSing am i gonna get ToddBlack again? (im fine with DrakeSing too y'know, im just being teased atp)

honestly i don't know, i think of actors i really like but i'm not big on their counterparts..? i enjoy it a lot when they mix and match, i don't have anyone i particularly follow.. i will say MaxTul were super powerful, i really appreciate the bonds between a lot of pairs like ForceBook and i think some of them have amazing chemistry like FirstKhao but even though there are a few i would always try to tune in for like OffGun and YinWar, there's no one i can call a fave, i don't think..currently JimmySea are eating it up tho

🎭Most underrated actor: just the Wayufilm crew in general, I see them do fundraiser lives on yt all the time and I don't think they're that well known by the fandom

🧍‍♂️Favorite character: ig it is Karan currently, Tay really made the character shine in a different way than Machida Keita's Kurosawa and i can't get enough of those puppy eyes

🕴Favorite side character: rn it might be Metha from Cooking Crush? he's just a bit too charming for someone i'd punch if i met him irl..or Fire, i think writing about him made me fond, they're both so..this

📽Favorite scene: from all the thai bls i've seen?? there's beauty like THAT ITSAY scene, there's unexpected scenes i come back to like WaanTul in the last episode of Between Us, there's Nuea and Toh finally getting everything out in the open..there's the Kitty Gang in FUTS going up the elevator, the ep.5 KinnPorsche scene..most of PatPran's scenes!! like how am i supposed to even start choosing lmao

i'm gonna say (after i catch up with my shows this whole list would prolly be different, it could be Karan's scream soon) the one from my recent shows is the rooftop scene from LTTS..sue me for being basic, i'll plead guilty

📝Favorite line: nth has ever quite stuck with me as "do you want us to be friends?" "no." so let's go with it

🃏Most anticipated bl and why: let's say Jack and Joker hahah, I hope it works out <3 i want to see a project YinWar have certain freedom over completed successfully - even if it ends up not being my thing, they deserve to share their talents and artistic vision. they are trying something new, maybe there will be a nice balance between comedy and drama and also it seems like those characters are meant to be whipped for each other and YinWar can pull that off splendidly

👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨Healthiest relationship in a bl: PatPran and PuenTalay are the first to come to mind, the communication and conflict resolution skills are on another level

💢Most toxic relationship in a bl: I suppose it would be VeeMark before the end or maybe DimGreen from 2gether? I also personally don't like Mayom and Nadia from My Ride but I can't tell if they're actually toxic 😄 and im reminded of GramBlack cause that friendship sucks imho

OH WAIT PiMork is pretty bad. yeah, maybe not the worst but they've got a spot on the list..and ig TehOhAew but I have not actually seen s2 so overall I don't have a definitive opinion :')

🍿Guilty pleasure series: i guess it would be Cause You're My Boy (My Tee) because everyone hates on it but I binged it and had a good time 🤷‍♀️ also I Will Knock You cause it has some questionable elements but it's also very special

❎Most underrated series: out of what I've seen it would obviously be Rainbow Lagoon but it's two episodes, not sure if it counts as a series.. really sweet short watch though, you should give it a try here 🥰

also maybe The Best Story? I didn't like it that much because of the ending but it's younger YinWar and I never hear anyone talk about it; I'd say they were pretty good at it 😊

i'm tagging @sommmnus @forcebook @catboyjosten @sparklyeyedhimbo @lovesickfolly @sollucets as per usual no pressure and sorry if youve done it ❤

#i look like such a bad buddy fan? which i dont really define myself as #but you gotta understand that was the show that got me into this fandom and its honestly just soo good #also now im aware pairing means like characters but pls dont make me choose im at my wits end hahah cause id have to consider sides as well #and ill straight up postpone this by three more days #i have so many tag games to catch up on that if i start tagging everyone yalls notifs would go crazy #so pls just consider yourselves tagged if you want to participate in smth ill literally add you to the post lmao nobody needs to know shh #ppg #tag game

[gremlinbean]

WIP Wednesday

This weeks WIP Wednesday post comes from a Tim Drake-focused WIP I've had on the back burner for a couple of years now, adding to it as and when I feel like. I'm hoping posting this here and getting some feedback might encourage me to work on it more lol

Anyways, this part of the WIP is the direct aftermath of Tim getting kidnapped and slightly tortured, and happens in a universe where Tim did become Joker Junior, although it happens differently than in cannon here. The fic will also take place a couple years after Brucequest, and have Jaytim.

Anyways, WIP under the cut

When Tim finally woke up properly, rather than just the in and out moments of consciousness he occasionally had, he was in a hospital, judging by the sounds and smells around him. He... Last thing he could remember was the taser and his... memories. Maybe he heard Jason, his voice distorted by his helmet, but he couldn't be sure... Was probably his mind playing tricks on him. Although, he must have been rescued somehow. Else he wouldn't be here... 

With a small sigh and more effort than he appreciated (morphine, his mind helpfully supplied), he opened his eyes to look around and confirmed that, yes, he was in a hospital. And, unsurprisingly, he was alone. That... Although it was to be expected - there was no way any of them were willing to visit him in hospital, except to reduce the chances of a publicity scandal - some part of Tim ached. He was used to being let down and alone, but still... Another sigh escaped him as he tried to get his body to move with him. He must have been out for a while - he didn't seem to have any of the after-effects of being tasered. That was good and bad he guessed. It meant he didn't have to deal with uncontrollable limbs, but it gave Bruce all the more reason to be disappointed and provided Damian with even more ammunition to cut Tim deep... Oh well. His head was too fuzzy for him to care. Besides, he had no reason to give a shit. He'd accepted a long time ago that he wasn't one of them, he acted as a solo vigilante more than a team player now (had since he returned with Bruce two years prior, if he were being honest), and he'd learnt how to be alone years ago. He didn't need them, just as they didn't need him. He would be fine. He-

"You're awake!" a familiar voice declared, informing Tim of the new presence in his room. He tensed, focusing on the doorway, where he found Bruce and Jason stood. Bruce, having been the one that had spoken, rushed forward, a frown tugging at his brow as he quietly asked, "Are you alright?"

That... Right. A quick glance at the nurse that had followed Bruce and Jason into the room told Tim all he needed to know. They weren't really there for him, he guessed, even as he faked a small, tired smile, they were there because they were expected to be. Well, Bruce was, so Jason's presence didn't make sense, but he was probably there on behalf of Alfred. The butler probably wanted someone to run interference so that Bruce wouldn't start on his lecture as soon as Tim woke up... With a barely perceptible sigh and a scratchy voice (damn, Tim hadn't realized how thirsty he was), Tim replied, "I... Fuzzy."

"That'd be the morphine, Mr Wayne," the nurse explained, carefully pouring a glass of water. As she did that, Tim attempted to pull himself upright, but he didn't get a chance to move. Instead, Jason stepped forward and, with a surprising amount of gentleness and care, helped him, adjusting the pillows so he was leaning against them. That... Tim's heart fluttered at that, but he scolded himself for it. Jason was just doing it to keep up the image and keep the nurse happy. He didn't give two shits about Tim... With a sigh, he accepted the cup the nurse held for him, taking it in shaky hands. For a second, it looked like Bruce was going to help him with it, but Tim was able to force his hands steady. He was already weak enough in Bruce's eyes, he didn't need to give the man any more reason to be disappointed... He-

"We have some tests we need to run, Mr Wayne. Are you feeling up to it?" the nurse asked, distracting Tim from where he'd been carefully sipping at the water. For a second, he hesitated, but he soon nodded. That earned him a soft smile from the nurse, before she ushered Bruce and Jason out of the room. That left Tim with just her, until the doctor arrived a minute later. With his umpteenth sigh since he woke up, Tim got ready for the usual uncomfortable tests...

#wip wednesday #tim drake #bruce wayne #jason todd #jaytim #i honestly don't know how to tag things #tell me if there are any tags yall think i need to add #tw torture mention #tw torture

[napping-sapphic]

honestly pretty sure that if even one more man winks or gives me that creepy deliberate up and down Look™️ at work i might just start crying on the spot

#i am not having a good time #it just makes me feel so disgusting #and there is literally no way to dress more moderately #not to mention that im in a uniform so i can’t change it #i know it’s like shouldn’t be such a big deal but i hate it so so so much #it freaks me out and just makes me feel awful about myself #i just go home and put on ugly sleep clothes and feel awful #and yall know how much i normally like wearing cute pajamas #but now it’s just idk whatever covers the most without being too hot #ughhhhhh #sorry #i just didn’t really anticipate it #and how bad it would get to me Every Single Time #i just feel grosssssss #and it really sucks #vent post #rant #venting #sorry i can add more tags if needed #i try not to complain too much but im just so unhappy #and like it’s too embarrassing to talk about it to people i know #i can’t even tell my coworkers because i just feel ashamed about it ughhhhh #i dont know #it’s just A Lot and i dont know why and that just makes me feel WORSE #im good and all just really not vibing with this element of my job

[kiwibirdlafayette]

chaos and balance- the capsize

"i don't think you understand what's actually happening here. If you'd just open your bloody fucking eyes, it's pretty obvious."

Chaos and Balance is a narrative playlist that basically comprises, in a chronological order, my headcanon for the progression of cTom Syndicate and cJordan's relationship through the course of S1, S2, the divorce arc (post-canon part 1), Mianitian Isles and the Aftermath (post-canon part 2, aka Gays on A Boat, Aitheaca, etc.) It started mainly because I really love the potential of using music to tell stories, and how lyrics can be representative of feelings seldom expressed any other way- based on both canon moments, moments I've interpreted as significant to their relationship/overall arcs, and little interludes I've written that take place in between episodes/"off camera" that connect things together in my head. All this being said, it is primarily headcanons, and is purely for fun. dont like dont read lmao

This specific being how keeping in the canon nonsense of capsize x jordan plays a role in cSyndisparklez from my pov :] enjoy!

(Red lyrics are representative of Jordan’s voice, green is Tom! Bolded black is both of them)

The shenanigans of Capsize happen just after falling for the villain,

in which Jordan is forced internally for the first time to come to terms with the fact that yes, he is in love with his friend/enemy/however you wanna put it. Despite how much he annoys him, despite all of his questionable behavior, despite it all, he has fallen head over heels for this absolute bastard of a man, and hates to admit it, but deep down has longed for a kind of affection that he could have.

I'll take my timeI'm not the forward thinker; you read my mind-

But a part of him still remains hesitant, and for one reason or another, refuses to give in, to openly admit it to not just others but himself. It’s at this point (I’ve written in) that Tom’s kissed him twice. The first, just a little peck on the lips he was able to brush off as a joke, just a hahaa ok cool bro that's funny. But the second time, as a cheap play by the zombie to get a purge kill having already caught the Ianitee off guard. It's irritating for sure, to have him weasel his way into free points by taking advantage of a distraction that worked a little too well, but why could he not get it out of his head? It hadn’t felt so wrong, actually, and… he had almost hoped it had been genuine. If it had been genuine, maybe he would have returned the gesture.

Better to leave it unsaidWhy can't I leave it unsaid

Instead they dance around it in banter, blathering on and on to one another in often complete nonsense, refusing to address what’s really on his mind. (You know I talk too much) He could confess, sure. But what happens then? All the meanwhile, Tom is scared he’s losing him. (As I hold your face, I can't find the words I need, and soon the opportunity is drowning)

Never someone all that good with words, he kind of hopes that Jordan will catch on. He has to catch on, sooner or later.. Right?Z

And then Capsize and the Ianitee pirates show up. To Jordan, it seems like she’s interested in him beyond him just being another follower of Ianite, and there’s his escape. Play along, play the part and maybe- maybe he’ll get over this.

You know my type, tightrope across the table I can't keep holding my breath

She seems to be into it. She’s responding to his flirting at least. See. He doesn’t need Tom. An Ianitee and another Ianitee seems more acceptable to him in his head, and maybe would be easier. That about, he’s not really sure.

New wave, no time Red velvet under pressure

But what Jordan does know is that he’s drawn to her. To him, it could be a way to forget about Tom. To the varied onlooker, it could just be that he’s happy to have another Ianitee around. Someone who can relate to his experience, someone who’s out to find their goddess just as much as he wants to. But he continues to conflate the two and pursue her in a way that he won’t realize for years is less than ideal.

It sparks my memory when we parked aside the shore, I kissed you there, the ocean air enchanting It escapes me quickly

Tom on the other hand, is for lack of a better word furious. Not in like a “I’m gonna murder this pirate captain for stealing my man” (because if he’s honest she’s one of the coolest people he’s met and he’s gonna befriend her whether Jordan likes it or not, with him claiming it to be ‘Mr. steal your gal’ which is??? Because does it really seem like he wants Capsize, if not as a spiteful thing)

When Jordan’s not around, Tom and Capsize hit it off, as she finds this zombie who doesn’t want to flirt with her at any given moment a lot more of an interesting person. As a Dianitee, he’s supposed to be their enemy, but for someone so supposedly dedicated to his god, he knows how to carve his own path away from being more than his god’s messenger- something she’s always admired in champions.

You call me poison, but you won't stop coming around- No, you won't stop coming around

For the purpose of perhaps getting Jordan to get the hint, Tom plays into their supposed love triangle, pretending to do things to ‘steal away Capsize’, only feeding into Jordan’s confusion. *Now Tom’s interested in her too? Is he trying to move on from me too? *- clearly to dense to realize Tom’s trying to get his attention back. She even admits to Tom that it's amusing that men seem to keep coming after her, when she’s very much more into women (abridged, but direct quote)

All I want is you- Your violet disposition, My unsound intuition

It all sort of culminates in that moment on Jordan’s ship where Tom, annoyed from his perch, watches his friend make an absolute fool of himself over Capsize, and decides to intervene, taking on the role of “fighting” Jordan over her. Capsize in a way is having a good laugh watching them roll around on the deck of the ship (I’ve drawn this, this is where it all started), starting to see it all sort of come together as to where Jordan could be coming from. At some point, Tom’s got Jordan pinned to the deck, and as one last desperate attempt at trying to communicate what he’s been trying to all along, he kisses Jordan, and much to his surprise, he kisses him back. They pull away, to Capsize’s approving nods, and it's all over.

(Jordan’s attempts at saving this are my interpretation of this conversation, aka one of my favorite chat threads of S1)

In the aftermath of all of that (If I had any semblance of a memory I’d pinpoint when exactly this interlude takes place, but im just ballparking it somewhere after Jordan dies in Tom’s vault bc Capsize doesn’t save him); in which he’s still thinking about what happened that day. Jordan reluctantly confronts Tom who spills it all. He tells him how much and how long he’s been in love with him, and how frustrated it made him that every time he kissed Jordan, Jordan never seemed to reciprocate no matter how obvious his feelings were. He’s tried so hard to make it clear that all he wants is Jordan, he wants to be loved back, he wants to be able to call him his lover. He did what he did in front of Capsize cause the fake ass courting set him over the edge because it pissed him off that Jordan would so quickly go after someone he just met just because she was an Ianitee or whatever to get away from him, because was he really that bad that Jordan had to try to hard to stay away from him? Tom knows he had himself to blame as well, but it felt like a step too far.

Always been looking for something to lose, when I needed something to hold onto.

(This sequence is followed by Pull Me Up, which. If you haven’t seen my CMV that’s the one xD)

Note. For my sanity I choose to perceive that any capsize x jordan moments following are more related to Jordan’s ‘holiest of all Ianitees’ attitude and feeling like he has to be her savior (which is a different aspect of his character arc from the romantic side, which is what I mostly wanted to focus on with this ramble, but i do touch on it a little. It's not as ever present as it could be because I haven’t found the right song to incorporate it into outside of Violet and Talk Too Much) But there is definitely more. This is from what i have notated in my stuff for these two sequences :] enjoy!

#FUCK #ok i finally finished this just. dont worry about typos #no beta we die like men #i had to use markdown for this because the colors on tumblr are atrocious im sorry #lafakiwi writes #syndisparklez #mianite by a gay man #chaos and balance- the story of syndicate and sparklez #no main tags for obvious reasons #characters. its fine yall dont need em #this doesnt need to b sorted into my character tags #if i forgot to expand on something ill add it back in later #put a read more bc this is technically 3 google docs pages worth of stuff its fine #song: talk too much by COIN #song: violet by bad suns #songfic #(?) #sorta #not really a fic tho #i dont know if i actually pickd up o what im supposed to but i can ensure all of this comes back into play in gays on a bat

[aria0fgold]

Promise to be careful

Kaito sat awkwardly beside Akira who has been frowning since the moment the two met, the reason for that was obvious… the wounds that Kaito hid away. It was a fact that quiet people can be scarily observant than your average person.

“Um… I can explain this time—”

“If you're gonna use the “I tripped on a flight of stairs and fell” excuse, I'm not buying it.” Akira retorted before even giving Kaito a chance to use it.

“Ugh… Well… Kinda?” Kaito couldn't just possibly tell Akira that he's actually the infamous magician thief, Kaito KID and such injuries were merely something he got from a recent heist. Although most of his heists are harmless to other people, to him, it can get rather dangerous. One that he's already gotten used to.

Akira glared at him, a small pout on his face.

Kaito's lips curled into an awkward smile, hoping to appease a reasonably angry friend. He knows that Akira is just worried, this wasn't the first time that he was caught hiding his own injuries after all.

And in each time that he gets caught…

“How many times has it been anyway? I keep telling you to be more careful, didn't I?”

Akira would scold him…

“Seriously, Kaito—”

But in the end…

“I hate seeing you get hurt.”

Akira always cared for him.

“I know, I know! This time, for sure! I promise to be more careful!”

Akira sighed, “You've broken that same promise several times now, you know?”

“Eheh…” Kaito averted his gaze for a bit before looking back at Akira with a confident smile, “This time for sure! I promise I won't break it!”

Akira sighed again, but this time, a small smile crept into his face as he outstretched his arm to playfully and lightly flick Kaito's forehead, “You better.”

. . .

Kaito really did try to uphold such a promise, but it seems all he's ever good at is breaking things. Sorry, Akira...

#ariawrites #persona 5 #magic kaito #back at it again with my jokid agenda #but this time... they know each other! well... kinda. kaito and akira knows each other #joker and kaito kid? not really but hey they friends as their regular selves so i say its a win! #not so much as win with the contents of this oneshot tho oof. but dw yall kaito is fine! trust me! im trustworthy! #wanna use akiras other name next time cuz that renren nickname is so cute and its def smth kaito would use too #i need a proper tag in regards to these too holup im gonna use... The Tag #jokid #gonna edit the other oneshot i made too to add that tag if i hadnt yet

[thatoneluckybee]

I freaking alphabetized it. I alphabetized the new list I do not need and I am adding More.

#I started making a list of pretty words or words that I have on some of my other word lists #And i went to research more and #Yeah. #there's over 200 i do not Know here that I will Never Learn but they are ON THE LIST #I have my 10 letter word list #14 letter word lidt #12 letter word list #Words I didn't know list #Words I didn't know that aren't technically “words” yet or are obsolete now #Words I've learned from 2023 which I don't need anymore I've already beaten my resolution to get 200 new words #And now i have just a List #Help me. #i also have a list of words I haven't searched the definition for but i added them to THIS list so I'll delete the other one soon #I need help. #Word Lists Saga #I should start tagging this #Rambles #BUT YALL LABYRINTHINE IS A WORD AND I HAVE TO ADD IT OKAY? It's NICE.

[we-dont-talk-about-potato-nonono]

I agree with the last anon, you're quite the artist and it's not fair to yourself to say your art isn't good. I hope you keep drawing and if you do I'll keep following no matter what.

every time I got a wholesome message like this my heart goes Doki-Doki 🩷w🩷

and you’re right about that anon, i shouldn’t say something like that to my own art.. there are times I feel unsatisfied with it and doesn’t come out the way I wanted BUT I do have to admit I am still proud of what I can acomplish and though I know there's a lot of room for improvement, I know I did great. i’ll try to stay positive about my art after this i promise!

#and anon you’re so sweet for wanting to follow me no matter what 😩 #although this blog is soooo spammy with reblogs and some are text post mix with my own drawing hfjrj #idk how to organise my blog and i deeply apologise for that xDD #but hey i did put specific tags so feel free to filter as many as you like and let me know if i need to add another tags! #i want everyone to feel safe and comfortable here #but fr how dare youuu making me soft like that shhddjjej tqsm boo 🥺🩷 sweet sweet anon lemme send lots of hugs your way #my anons are the sweetest and im so grateful <33 #yall are the best on this app i swear #thanks for the ask nonnie 🩷 #ask #anon #wholesome #sweet message

[dandyshucks-moving]

proship ppl don't always like the shit you mentioned. You meant comship lol.

This is the only thing I'm ever going to answer or say about any of this subject on here. This blog is literally just a very silly and self indulgent space where I'm having fun, and I despise this subject in its entirety. The only reason I am answering this is to have something to point to in case it ever comes up again so I don't have to say anything further.

I could not give less of a hoot about the label somebody uses. If you think fiction has no affect on reality, and/or if you think creating (in any form) jerk-off material about kids is even remotely okay or normal, then I need you to leave and block me. Doesn't matter what label you use - just block me so I do not interact with you. I'm not interested in arguing; at the end of the day, underage and incest fiction make me incredibly uncomfortable, and that's reason enough to avoid it.

The reason I specified any label at all in my pinned post is because I think sometimes people skim through pinned posts to find that word specifically so they know if somebody is safe to follow or not. I included it to be easily visible so people will know I'm safe to follow. I'll probably take it out honestly at this point to avoid ... [gestures at this ask] happening again, and if someone can't be bothered to read through the post and see my clearly laid out stance, then that's on them.

#this is also making me laugh a little tbh like... you saw my sideblog with its silly pfp ... #... and u thought ''yeah this is someone I need to anonymously Um Ackshually about this'' ???? hello???? #i am absolutely FASCINATED by your thought process sjdfjkl but also please do not attempt to converse further w me about this #im just having fun over here my friend. what are u doing. why did u think this was needed LOL #gave me a good opportunity to lay things out though sdfjkl #dandyshucks #hmm i should add a tag to find it later for quick reference in case it comes up again. uhhh what am i going to remember later LMAO #stance #yeah we'll go with that fsdjkl #also yall let me know if you need this CWd at all !!! i am unsure if it needs any CW tags so pls feel free to lmk !! #i won't be posting anything like this ever again so this will be the Only Post here about any of this stuff!

[fishandships]

my yule gift to myself is gonna be getting back into a fandom i wandered away from largely for time reasons (and avoiding fandom drama) but im already looking forward to revamping my old SI 👀

#im 90% sure i used the name Aysu for said SI so im gonna need a new name which is the hardest part #but yeah to no one’s surprise there’s ANOTHER certain red-haired genius monster man ive loved for a long time #and also since im trying to be bolder i will probably also add Elegant Girlboss from the same game to my FO list as well 👉👈 #i will figure out which tags to let yall know to block since theyre from a very popular dating game so #river babbles

[lover-of-mine]

look. you have known him for 12 years and the way you describe your relationship- i- okay

let's just ask ourselves this: is there any possibility that you could make this a not long distance relationship? because if that is the dealbreaker then you should change that.

you know how they always say "marry your best friend" yes you should totally get on that because if i had a best friend in a messy on and off relationship (that clearly does not work easily because otherwise it would not be an on and off relationship) and i knew there is something there between us then oh boy. this is something if you do not try and find out if you can make it work in any way possible then you will regret it when you are 40 and 50 and 60 and 70 and you will keep thinking about the what if no matter what.

this sounds like one hell of a love story

Look, I know, I mean, am typing things out to tell you guys and this is surface level stuff, there's 12 years of stuff he did for me that are legit book stuff, I have used shit he did in fics before because it was all so *gestures vaguely* but I also know neither one of us are in a place where we could actually work in a relationship with each other, because I know that man like the back of my hand. And the long distance thing is more of a deal breaker for him than me, so not something I can fix (but there is a chance I might be moving to the same town he lives in the beginning of next year, so if we are both in a better place by then and I actually do end up moving there, I'm sitting him down and having this conversation) but he needs to work some shit out and I need to work some shit out, he's my favorite human, I don't wanna dive in when we are both not in a great place and that would definitely fuck our odds of working out up. And I know it sounds like I'm making excuses, but we talked a lot about relationships and about shit we want for the future and we both need to figure stuff out before getting into this relationship if it ever happens, because if we go there, there's no turning back and we deserve a fighting chance if it's meant to be.

#i need a tag for this mess #make it easier for yall to follow mapskspakspak #anna talks bff slowburn #ill add this to the posts lol #but yeah #i know #but also #i know us and it would work right now #maybe ever #but lets see #i really need a tag for asks #anon 😌

[constant-state-of-self-discovery]

Anybody know an equal alternative to anxiety meds for someone who just found out it would change their fucking life but can't afford fuck-all much less a dr appt or prescription????

#anxiety #psychiatry #anti psychiatry #-that tag is mainly bc yall would probably know the most #im not anti myself its actually my special interest #but i respect and understand yall #and i realize my incredibly good treatment at the mental facility was sadly not the usual case #i need help please #i cant keep fucking living like this #im afraid to talk to people #im afraid to talk at all for fear of saying the wrong thing #fuck i rarely even add commentary out of fear #im afraid to go outside #im afraid of everything

[possum-tooth]

might buy a pack of cigarettes just for my adam costume

#i really shouldnt bc itll tempt me to smoke but......... it would add to the look immensely #i need a white shirt and blood and need to look for my jeans tho.. i think i know where theyre at but idk for sure #anyway. whats the script for that just like. whats the cheapest cigs yall have?? idk cigarettes #talk tag