#yeah I’m add this to my belief system

[prokopetz]

It’s important to understand that when I say “yeah, I’ll add that to my belief system”, what I mean is that I’m going to remember it specifically because I have a friend who will find it intensely irritating.

#tumblr #blogging #social media #memes

[sophieinwonderland]

You didn’t say they are “anti/pro endo in disguise” >:|

It’s so fucking annoying that people take one BIT of what you say and add whatever they want to make it what they want to hear you say

You said these ppl tend to say they are neutral but lean towards one side

I was raised in a very religious household and only left that shit recently so please forgive me for not knowing what other way to explain this

So tw: religious mention?

(Please again I just can’t think of a better way to explain this and it’s been carved into my thoughts bc is upbringing so if I say something is my belief it’s not it’s just a miss wording as I am no longer religious)

When I was raised I was taught that you can’t be for god and the world, you couldn’t have both and you couldn’t have neither as as example I was told said “you can’t sit on the fence you will always fall to one side”

Just because someone wants to be neutral it is extremely difficult to be such

With religion you can’t do “worldly things” and life “ur life for god” and even if you try you will always see then end up leaning towards one side

With system origin/syscourse I do believe it is possible to be neutral but it’s very difficult

I hope this made sense

I’m extremely sleep deprived and fucking sick of ppl taking a slightest bit of what someone says and mis-construe what they say to fit what they believe or what they want to complain about

Yeah, I think I get where you're coming from. Maintaining true neutrality is incredibly difficult in any situation. And you're often going to be leaning to one side or another. Sometimes, it's not even intentional.

And one person's neutral isn't the same as another's.

Just to clarify my position a bit more:

Some neutrals will be more pro-endo, others will be more anti-endo. That's inevitable.

I don't think that it should be controversial to suggest that people should be wary of those claiming to be in the middle without knowing what side of that middle they fall closest to. I also think it's fair to say that blogs which regularly interact with a hate group are not safe to interact with for victims of that hate group.

Let's look at the OP of that post, for instance. The aptly named Syscourse-Misinfo says they're "syscourse unaligned" and "anti-misinfo." These are their official labels.

So what does that mean for them?

Well, looking at their history, it means exclusively promoting anti-endo talking points, reblogging and celebrating prominent anti-endos like SAS (who has a history of screenshotting and mocking endogenic systems they happen across), and calling transgender pro-endo systems transphobic for using the word "sysmed."

(Not to mention the really weird stuff posts implying psychologists and anthropologists shouldn't study religious practices with science.)

Does this seem like a safe blog for vulnerable endogenic systems to interact with?

Say there was a blog that bills itself as being trans-neutral and anti-information. Say this blog exclusively posts about trans discourse that parrots common TERF arguments. The blog reblogs notable TERFs and goes on long rants claiming the word TERF is a slur and TERFs should be called gender critical instead.

Do we think that this type of blog is going to be safe for trans people?

Again, I am not saying to just assume every single neutral blog is anti-leaning. But I am saying that you should do your own research into a neutral blog when determining if they're safe or not, rather than trusting blindly that a neutral or unaligned stance means their positions actually will fall in the middle. In the above case, it doesn't actually take much looking at their blog to know which way they're leaning towards and whether you can trust them.

#syscourse #endogenic #religion #religions #pro endo #pro endogenic #terfs #terf #transphobia #endo neutral #lgbt #lgbtq #plural #plurality #actually a system #multiplicity #systems #system #ask box

[neurotheascars]

Re: the post about bullying people on misspellings and reading comprehension and such.

no real, I’m the person people talk about when they say dyslexia

(I have all the other ones too, dysgraphia, dyscalclia, dyspraxia too)

And so my reading comprehension and also spelling is kinda trash, not in a bad faith way but in a “I genuinely completely missed like a whole paragraph” way.

which just sucks, I’m still extremely new to the whole “writing” thing.

genuinely if you saw something from a couple years ago vs now you’d be flabbergasted at how much we’ve improved.

but I always thought it was extremely rude to bully and or be mean about people who don’t understand or read things right or write things right.

you just genuinely do not know who they are and why they do it, whenever I try to correct someone I say it kindly and give constructive feedback.

Like genuinely it’s not hard to be kind, some people are still learning, sometimes it’s someone’s second language, sometimes they use speech to text and text to speech.

it’s just such a deeply ingrained belief that anyone who misspells or misspeaks or misunderstands is dumb or stupid.

I can’t even count on my fingers how many times I’ve misheard, worded something trash, or misunderstood or misinterpreted something.

but that’s just how I am and I can’t change it, but I can change my reaction and outcome and make friendships even after fucking up.

it’s just a sad feeling that even if you have the best intentions you still fail horribly, subtext and tone are hard to parse through, so much meaning and context gets a bit screwy when you write it down.

and sometimes life is filled with mistakes and failures and there’s nothing wrong with that, I can’t know everything and I probably never will.

I love the quote

“a jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one.”

because yeah, I’ll never be a master at English or talking or anything.

but I can be a jack of all trades, I can try to learn and be better.

more skills even though I’m not a master at any, helps so much.

We beat ourselves up and others for things we can’t control rather than lift ourselves and others up.

that’s just my thoughts on it, I just didn’t want to add it on the main post it’s pretty unrelated to the original lol.

-pop

You are so very nice to write all this pop. Sorry I take a bit to respond. The system has been super busy.

The "trouble" that I mentioned in the tags that I got into was when I said I unfollowed someone for being rude about reading comprehension and had a complete stranger come out of nowhere and correct me like I was talking about them when I wasn't and then when I said I wasn't and was frustrated that people apparently do this enough to assume unrelated call outs about it are vagues about them, they acted like I was "rude" and like...

I'm an alter that has slammed doors hard enough to crack walls. I've said such utterly fucked things. I am trying my hardest, my best, to be nice when I'm upset. I have come so far and it hurts. I use all my energy when I do it. Tumblr is almost like a kind of language thinking therapy for me. It's a good place to practice being as polite as I can, because it's safer to fail online as opposed to IRL, where backspace and walk away are not options.

To try as hard as I did and still be called rude is... Ugh. It's just awful. Especially when it was an otherwise cool blog that said that about me. They even said on their blog separately if another alter apologized on my behalf that they'd be friends with them and just avoid me.

And that's actually trauma for me! That kind of thing seriously destabilizes my system. I've had people literally abuse my system by manipulating us like that and talking about me, calling me an asshole like I can't hear. But I get that that's just a mistake too.

It's all mistakes!

I think the world would be a better place if more mistakes were seen as harmless.

Also I vibe with the jack of all trades bit. We definitely as a system feel that.

[the1975attheirverybest]

I know we don't do concepts anymore and I didn't ask if I could do this so feel free no to answer.

Do you think Matty would be a willing to participatant in his gf Christmas activities if she was super into it? You know handmade decorations, baking, decorating together, maybe she has her little traditions and she wants to make him part of them but she also doesn't want to be pushy. How do you think he would be?

Also I want to add, I know you're Muslim but we talked a bit about Christmas traditions and Matty in private so I felt like asking, but of course if this is inappropriate or even offensive feel free to not answer it and I apologise in advance.

Yeah I’m gonna receive a lot of hate for this probably but idgaf so it’s fine. I actually love the Christmas season as a holiday and don’t see a problem with Muslims/ really any religion celebrating or enjoying it. At least the way that consumer capitalist culture has turned the holiday into something else. It’s not like you’re altering your belief system or “worshipping” some other thing. And contrary to what conservative Christian evangelists want white people to believe, Muslims believe in Jesus so lmaoooo. My point is I don’t mind at all and I think it’s cool that there a time of the year where expressing your gratitude to loved ones with gifts and cards and stuff, being kind and extra giving or charitable etc is a thing. (Suck my dick haters idc)

I actually have a little blurb coming about that where his gf drags him to stores to do christmassy things while on tour for some sense of “normalcy” and stuff.

I think he’d definitely moan and groan and complain at first but like seeing how happy it makes her makes him smile and then he like starts giving his opinions about which garlands are best or which candle they should get or what to put in George’s stalking or whatever and he’s like fully into it before he even realizes haha

[spacetravels]

as a fellow noahmc shipper in the trenches And a starkid fan -- have to say npmd if i loved you reprise gave me war flashbacks to the end of ilitw so passing the psychic damage into your inbox (also i love all of your aerinmc art soso much your mc is so cute)

UR KICKING ME WHILE I’M DOWN <- voice of a guy who’s been looping that exact scene. and also the og if i loved you cuz it just bangs that hard… ur killing me . u walked into my ask box with a nuke disguised as psychic damage…. yeah sure i’ll add this to my noahmc belief system

(&& THANK YOU!!! i like drawing them i wanna put them in situations. Forever. and tyyy i love my lil marlow i’m glad ppl think she’s cute 🥺)

#amanda answers #npmd being my fav hatchetfield tho like. inevitable. horror w high schoolers is my fav. lautski is my bread and butter. no1 is shocked

[spookyheaad]

New KenUno AU!

@p-riama @girlwiththepapatattoo

Ok, my fellow Kenpachi lovers, I need you to read this because I’m about to pass on (context: I’ve convinced my parents to watch The Mandalorian with me & I got them hooked):

Then read the caption here:

I lost my fucking mind.

I became very enamored with Mandalorian culture after finally getting towards watching season 2 of Mando, and I’m actually kinda shocked as to how much it is reminiscent of the whole Kenpachi lineage in Bleach (Much less severe tho).

So yeah, KenUno Mandalorian!AU

Mandalorians aren’t a species, they’re a creed, so anyone can be a Mandalorian. Their lifestyle revolves around combat, I just got more info abt this stuff the other day and I’m actively looking more stuff up. Admittedly as I grew up watching the clone wars animated series, I wasn’t too interested in the arcs that dealt with Mandalorians (mainly Pre Vizsla & Death Watch. Thought they were cool & all but I was still in grade school and wanted to see cool lightsaber fights).

But now that I’m older and much more interested in the lore of SW, I’m fascinated by them; I’m also going to rewatch all Mandalorian centric episodes because there was a lot that was put into both clone wars & rebels (for research, and because I still need to watch Rebels, this might give me my reason).

I’m still thinking on solid designs for Unohana and little Yachiru, I have an idea of Kenny’s armor and what he looks like.

My whole idea is that both Kenpachi & Unohana have been longtime Mandalorians, have followed the creed for years; found one another through the creed. They follow a branch of Mandalorian belief that allows them to remove their helmets (compared to Din Djarin, who was raised in The Children of the Watch, who refuse to remove their helmets to any other living being unless necessary). Bo Katan even Tells Din that The Watch is an old Mandalorian belief system, bordering on cultists. Zaraki & Unohana adhere to a more lenient form of Mandalorian lifestyle in that sense.

Of course, Unohana found Zaraki (not as a child, though, he’s an adult when they meet.) and she offered to show him the ways of the Mandalorian creed; he accepted. They grow an incredibly strong bond both on and off the battlefield, wandering the galaxy together. Eventually they fall in love, and declare themselves a clan of two (Mandalorians refer to family units as “clans”).

Then, they find a lost little girl, that being Yachiru. Knowing what this entails, they both accept that the child is their responsibility, and must take it to more of her own kind or raise her until she may choose her path. So then, they become a clan of three.

I’m still trying to determine what faction they both belonged to & some other AU related things but, uh yeah, I could cry rn at how perfectly this fits.

I’m probably going to stick to the short hair for him because it just makes it easier. With Unohana I plan to give her a typical pulled back braid; she doesn’t really have a need to wear it in the front, and also it would restrict her head movement if she wore her front braid and her helmet. Much more convenient.

More head studies for Kenny

Started planning his helmet design. I gotta give his helmet horns, that’s just a given. Not sure if I want to add any sort of designs, and I’m also unsure of what color both of their armor sets should be, I have to look up if the colors have any connotation.

Final head study. I plan to do more variations in expression digitally.

Very basic head study with helmet on

Mando Kenny defending his foundling, Yachiru!

I’m also gonna change what Yachiru is wearing, I just wanted to do something full body for Zaraki & I gave Yachiru the typical robe since it’s easy and drawing kids is a bit of a challenge for me (they just end up looking like small adults lmaoo).

#kenuno #unoken #kenhana #bleach #bleach tybw #Star Wars #the mandalorian #crossover #kicking my neurodivergent little legs at this AU because I’m feeding my KenUno obsession & my Star Wars obsession #I win #it’s just perfect #not the Mandalorians settling power disputes by fighting??? WOW KenUno Muken fight? #I can’t believe the Mandalorians are less severe abt it tho (as far as my knowledge goes) - they do fight to the death tho #but I feel Mandalorians also engage in simple combat as well - to see who receives positions of power & such #minus anyone dying - especially because they do have a code of honor so they don’t just go around killing without good reason #anwyay watch out everyone I’m becoming fucking annoying again #art #anime #manga

[runawaymun]

Yeah as a member of the lgbtq+ community, i think the smut and marriage question is complicated to say the least.

On one hand, I find anyone who is willing to write smut about their community but not willing to be married in it to be full of internalized homophobia. As you mentioned, a lot of self loathing. I struggle with some internalized homophobia because of society and society’s perceptions and expectations of queer people and of the lack of healthy love and representation of us so I definitely get it.

But on the other hand, (imo) while there’s something to be said in cultures and communities who cannot be open with their sexuality or face death, shunning, violence, etc., OP sounds more like they’re just trying to adhere to their faith. Which is understandable to a certain degree, especially when it’s a big part of their lives, but in the end, Christianity is a choice, any religion is a choice and sexuality and gender identity is not. You can choose not to be Christian if you feel that your holy book doesn’t believe in your safety and existence (it doesn’t obv because the current bible is just mistranslation after mistranslation for the original language so it’s not as accurate as people would think). And to think that your religion is the only way and the only religion is religious supremacy and is a very common belief in Christian communities (and others, as well. It’s especially common with Abrahamic faiths).

Even if it’s someone who is queer, the vibe is very similar to those very commonplace straight women in fandom who watch yaoi or men who watch lesbian porn but won’t let us marry or adopt children because we’re “deviants destroying the fabric of society”. I’m not trying to be mean (and I genuinely hope this doesn’t come across that way) but that’s how it feels to other queer people, especially if they’re not Christian.

And I know it’s complicated and I know it’s hard. Society as a whole doesn’t love us and support us. But we should also do our best to support ourselves, too, I think whether that means finding a more liberal or welcoming church or delving into the first translations of your holy book or something else. Just know there’s options and that you can love yourself and enjoy a life with a person you love, OP.

oh hey it's good to have you in my inbox!! <3

I agree with you so I'm not gonna add anything except to gently say that for queer Christians, for us, especially those who were raised in the church like nonnie and I...there isn't a sense of our sexuality or our faith being more integral to our sense of self then the other. That's what makes this so hard. So yes, Christianity is a choice and being Queer isn't. But oftentimes our faith is where our families are, our entire support system, our communities, our personal histories, and our values of right and wrong. And when you grow up being taught that homosexuality is a sin full-stop, and then you get a bit older and you have to deconstruct that...well then you have to deconstruct your entire life. Possibly your childhood. Your entire paradigm, possibly. And that's really fucking scary. If this thing that I was taught is wrong, what else is wrong, is anything I believe real? I guess that's why I'm being so cautious about this whole thing. Especially because I have no idea about nonnie's age or home situation.

I do think everyone should experience an honest existential crisis at least once in their life (preferably way more than that). It's really healthy. And I absolutely encourage nonnie to please -- don't be afraid to go down that route. Like my bud here said, there are options and you can love yourself and have a life with a person you love.

#out of uniform #cw religion #tw homophobia

[joshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh]

Josh trivia: my first tumblr URL was the-legend-of-elder-scrolls (I actually can’t remember if the dashes were there though lol), with “the legend of” referring to guess what, and the Elder Scrolls referring to, uh, yeah.

Skyrim’s a game that throughout my life I’ve probably put over 2000 hours in. I don’t actually know the exact number - I’ve played it through I think 3 different Xbox 360s with lots of corruption across them all, and even outside of the Xboxes failing me I’ve had plenty of 200+ hour files where I got bored of the character I was playing or bored by having done every major questline and would just start new files that would get however far they do.

Obsession went beyond just playing the game as well - my favourite YouTube channel was Fudgemuppet and I’d watch tons of other channels too, especially modded content, I think longing for the PC version of the game while I remained trapped on console lol. I’d stare at the UESP for hours, get into arguments in comment sections, Facebook even had a political beliefs thing you could add in your personal info for some scuffed reason where I established myself as a firm follower of the Stormcloaks. I was too stupid to get dosbox running on my laptop so I couldn’t play Arena and Daggerfall, and I was too “I don’t have a way to digitally use cash at all” to play Morrowind, but I could certainly get Oblivion on Xbox 360 as well and... not quite play the fuck out of it to the same degree because man that core gameplay feel is very rough around the edges, even compared to Skyrim. But still! For a few years I lived and breathed Skyrim and it was the best.

But yeah that, did kinda stop. Primarily because of how long I’d played the game for. It was just very easy for me to get bored of it. “Seen it all” mentality because true enough I’d finished every main guild questline and DLC story and Daedric quest like ten times over. I knew how to game the systems so strongly in my favour that I wasn’t so much “playing Skyrim” as I was just menuing all the challenge out of the game. I was also so committed to roleplaying specific characters with specific equipments that I’d almost lock myself out of doing fun things as well as purposefully kind of cheat the game (as much as 360 allows anyway) to achieve my desired build faster. But that’d mean once I had all the components of a build I’d kind of lose all desire to play that character anymore lol. I just lost the ability to actually enjoy the game anymore.

However, I’d never say I lost interest. There’s a classic question - if you could replay any game again for the first time, what’d it be? - obviously it’s purely a hypothetical you can never really do but, my answer’s probably Skyrim. And while I can’t replay it for the first time, perhaps if I give myself a good few years away from the game, it can feel fresh to me again? And that’s what I’ve done. After god knows how many years, I’ve gotten the game on PC and started finally replaying it. Several times before now I’d considered pulling the trigger and buying the Switch version for ease of accessibility - but the £50 price tag for an 11 year old game is steep lol. So we’re on PC now using Steam’s family sharing thing, since my little brother owns the game. It was actually helping him out with mods that kind of inspired me to push myself towards playing the game again, and yeah, here we are. I have Skyrim on Steam. We gaming.

Since it’s a relevant detail, I am running a couple of mods - but it’s important to me to fundamentally preserve the vanilla experience here. That’s what I fell in love with in Skyrim in the first place, and it’s what I’m here to re-experience all these years later. Accordingly, I’d describe basically every mod I downloaded as just adding a bit of atmospheric and some gameplay flavour. I didn’t even wanna fuck with Nexus so I’ve just gone workshop and downloaded the entire cities and villages enhanced collection, the entire sounds of Skyrim collection, what’s basically an immersive armours substitute adding the armours individually (I deliberately excluded one set that pushed outside the lore a bit too much for my taking) and an actual immersive weapons substitute just to get a couple more weapon types that still work with the world. I actually think the only gameplay mods I really got are a few that make like Daedric and other unique weapons a bit stronger to justify their lore position a bit more. For all intents and purposes though I really am just playing vanilla Skyrim but with a touch more atmosphere by way of sights and sounds. And that’s what I wanted.

Aside from that, the one other rule I’ve really set for myself in order to get the most out of this is just try play it like it’s my first time. By which I mean, let myself get distracted. Don’t lose myself in overarching goals. Wander into that cave. Take your time exploring. Chat with NPCs. I have a character, but I’m not really roleplaying. I’ve not specifically decided on an armour set I’d really like. I’m playing on apprentice even to avoid getting bored by damage spongy combat encounters. On finishing Helgen I walked westward, away from Helgen and that first main story segment I’ve done to death. I’ll get back to it eventually, sure, but I’m not interested in the urgency anymore. Instead I met Angi in her cabin in the southern mountains of Skyrim, where she trained my archery - which is not a thing I think I was ever even aware of having existed. Then I went down to Falkreath, where I learned that the current Jarl is a lazy bastard whose uncle the former Jarl was basically demoted in what almost seems to be an Imperial ploy. It’s weird, a younger Josh got so wrapped up in Tamriel’s version of the creation myth or whatever that I didn’t even really engage with the minutiae of actual current lore in just Skyrim as a place. And sure, reading wiki pages for hours has its charm, but just playing the game itself and talking to people and reading books? This is what I missed. This is what’s making Skyrim fun for me again.

I don’t know if I have a fun or interesting or really at all conclusive way to approach this post. I’m really just playing Skyrim again and wanted to talk about it, for nobody’s sake but my own. I’m just so happy to finally be playing it again.

#29.12.22 #skyrim #elder scrolls #the elder scrolls #thing is i might actually have one of those as a tag but i'm not sure which #and either way they're not actually completely up to date at all #i just #eh #want ease of access i suppose

[peniscat]

i’m late for the roman hobby-posting but. he does the wordle every morning in bed and sends his score boasting to shiv, ken & connor. shiv always beats him. he also rts e-girl thirst traps from his secret twitter account and when he was in high school he started a pirate radio station but no one listened so he got angry and quit

you can never be late for hobbyposting, it's always a relevant topic <3 i feel like roman's defining quality is sending his scores to boast only to find out that someone is better than him. shiv always beats him, kendall beats him occasionally but connor never does, but he's just happy to see his siblings doing well. you made me chuckle with the rting e-girl thirst traps so it's of course immediately true <3 also yeah a pirate radio that he quit bc no one listened to it? absolutely, i'll add that into my belief system

#these are amazing ily <3333 #answered #hobbyposting #dee tag

[griancraft]

ok I just wanna add onto this (slip btw) but 1.) OH MY GOD YOU HAD THE GHOST THING TOO??? Like, word for word what you said was my experience. I’ve always had a belief in the paranormal and looking back on it a lot of that is definitely due to system stuff. But yeah, I thought I was haunted and one day I just said “thank you, I’m ok now. Where did you put this though?” And then it stopped. That was a few years ago. 2.) yeah tommy stumbled in that way too LOL. For a few days before I discovered him I kept getting just like, an extremely strong urge to rebuild c!tommys house. Specifically redesign and rebuild too, like it had to include moss and a prayer room and that whole lot. But because i was super stressed, under a lot of pressure and didn’t have much time on my hands I kept pushing it. Tomato tahmahto push comes to shove there was an moment where a piece of hay broke the camels back and I could just feel him there SO clearly. Like incredibly clearly to the point I knew he was there, and there was no way around it

Luckily I knew What was up, since I had already done a lot of research on it beforehand, I was actually just in like, serious denial about being a system up until this point. And has someone who did have that more slow realization story, as in 4 years slow it’s a lot like a slow symphony and then it hits you all once. And there are going to be a lot of moments you look back on and realize there was someone else in the front seat

YOOOO SIMILAR EXPERIENCES…. That’s so cool omg…. Thank you for sharing!!!

#system stuff #sorry for the late reply #I’ve been a bit bush #*busy???

[anonymous-dentist]

How old would each of them would have been when ending up at the camps? Were you picturing you picturing younger ages like eleven or older like seventeen? I think it could honestly go either way but I’m just snickering at the idea of seventeen year old Quackity stumbling through these random woods in jersey, crossing over camp borders only to find these weird ass kids in the ugliest t-shirts staring at him like he stepped in shit. And then they all start shouting at him about being a son of Some Lady and it is officially the weirdest Tuesday he’s ever experienced. Something about older teenagers finding out their absent parent was ‘absent parent: godly edition and also yea now you will have spiders harassing you forever’ cracks me up

I’m loving what you have so far!!! You have single handedly reignited my PJO phase good god

Okay so yeah that’s really funny I’ll add that to my belief system

Sapnap and Dream met at camp when they were really young, actually, like kids-kids. Sap was 9 when he first arrived, but he was dropped off by his adoptive father, who is just a guy that can see through the mist Yep nothing else is off about him. Dream just kinda showed up on his own at 10 like three months after Sapnap and already had a knife on him.

So yeah. Besties.

George showed up a couple of years after that, only after he moved to America when he was like 15 or something idk. (Sapnap complains about how it’s weird that there are so many British kids at camp.)

Tommy was Also Young-ish, but he latched onto Wilbur immediately. Wilbur was definitely on the older side and was very confused because what do you Mean his father is. Not his only father. No wonder Phil always joked about Wilbur’s mum being a refrigerator…

Quackity was also older, I think, like maybe 16. He could drive, and he only showed up because a fucking thing ran him off the road just outside of camp. He was convinced that he accidentally found himself in some cultists’ compound. He and Tubbo just kinda clicked.

And Karl? He doesn’t actually stay at any camp. Sapnap and Quackity actually ran into him on a quest and he just wouldn’t leave. He says the Romans are pricks and that the Greeks are pricks and he just likes hanging out and stealing from people, thanks. He’s cute.

#asks! #unnamed pjo au #q likes the idea of new rome but likes the idea of the White House better

[box-of-chaooos]

Excuse me but I saw a post where you used the term "aspergers". This is a harmful term. Nazis created the term "aspergers" to identify which autistic people they would kill, and which autistic people they would convert to neurotypical standards. The name aspergers comes from a nazi soldier who created the whole "kill or convert" system with autistic people. It also enforces the belief that autism is levelled, and not a spectrum, and by making people believe that people are capable of being "less autistic" instead of simply being less support needs. The autism community has widely rejected the use of this word, and the word itself has been taken out of use by medical evaluators. Any person previously diagnosed with "aspergers" is now labelled as having ASD by doctors due to the outdatedness and harmful nature of this term.

I thought I'd explain it for you since I saw you tell another anon that you wouldn't be changing your terminology because you've, "never heard it being used as a nazi term/linked to nazism" and because your dad was previously diagnosed with it.

PS: I am diagnosed as autistic. I know people who were originally diagnosed as "aspergers" that reject the term (as many people argue that most people originally diagnosed with it wouldn't want to change their terminology). I have heavily researched this topic and the sources. I know what I speak, and everything I said can be backed up with sources. Thank you for reading. I hope you change your terminology as to not cause harm to our community.

Not my dad but my uncle.

I’ve since learned that it’s very bad and I’m sorry for using said term. I just saw it as almost a completely different thing? Like adhd or add being different. But yeah no that’s not a good term and I’m sorry for using it.

The other anon was right i was just uneducated at the time. Since getting my own diagnosis however I learnt about that shit. I can find the post and change it up so it’s friendlier much more accepting to. I forgot all about that. Again I’m sorry.

Sometimes I need things thoroughly explained or explored cause the internet can make up a lot of bull crap. So to the other anon im sorry, I deleted that response cause ew gross of me to say shit that way the homestuck post doesn’t have that term no mores and I have learnt from my mistakes!

#chaos personal

[muji-milk]

hey! same anon who said that the quotes around affirmation felt very terf-like. first i wanted to say that your response is exactly why i wanted to give you a chance to answer, but i was just letting you know how the way you wrote it came across to me (who is admittedly an american and maybe there’s a text difference for how things are written. we use quotes to dismiss an idea or to indicate sarcasm) and offer a reason as to why those people may have unfollowed without waiting to hear more from you. i think having a healthy conversation around how we treat dysphoria is important!

anyway! i think maybe the disconnect lies in what we call gender affirming care. i’m sure that’s the technical term for what results in medical transition in the UK, but it should be more general! i would absolutely agree that your experience where you sought counseling and worked out what your gender was and that transitioning wasn’t for you totally counts as gender affirming care. you weren’t pressured to transition and you were allowed to explore what you felt and what you needed. i have a friend who went through the same as you and feels better without having transitioned. i agree it’s also a shame that we have no way to keep track of people who have done this.

in a perfect world, counseling would be the best step for a young person who’s figuring out their gender. in fact, that was a requirement here in the US for a loooong time before someone could see an endocrinologist for hormones. to reiterate my point from my last ask though, not all counselors are one in the same about how they counsel people. i say this 1. as a trans person who (briefly) went through conversion therapy as a teen, and 2. as someone about to graduate with a masters in counseling. they drill into us in my program that we aren’t supposed to let our beliefs change how we counsel someone, but it does happen. so, just like many of the medical clinics here in the US that would turn away young ppl trying to transition, i also worry about how many of them would be affected by counselors who would steer them from the help they need. i hope that made sense, i just wanted to kind of add that to the conversation.

Tbh i tried to italicise the word affirmation but tumblr mobile kept fucking it up 🫠 so yeah the marks were just emphasis.

Like you said in a perfect world there should be more steps of evaluation. (Honestly, in a perfect world no one would be trans but that's another thing to discuss) but if we're talking about improving the current system, it should really be reframed 'gender related care'. Or gender considerate psychoanalysis. Or gender focussed counseling. Any of these terms instantly imply a more neutral and comprehensive approach.

But yes despite a rebranding or the terminology its still soo hard to get true impartially from anyone involved! Even you being trans, if you become a professional counselor that would create a personal bias within you. Just as being a woman or man, being rich, or black or old, etc, would do.

Regarding the approach to treatment of gender dysphoric youth, time is the biggest teller. Not statistics about trans peoples deaths and lives (which we don't even have enough of to draw conclusions. Its still a fairly modern thing!), not the opinions of your parents, not the advice of an affirmation clinic or a conversion therapist; but most importantly, not even your own feelings can be said to be true and trustworthy and permanent. People change their minds every day about trivial things and major issues, you feel like a different person every year, you learn and grow and its a humans' lifelong task to find and understand oneself. So, like you, I'm also worried about those being steered in a particularly firm direction at a young age. Whichever that direction is! Neither affirmation or conversion therapy should be the only immediately presented choices because you can't know how the individual's inner feelings will grow and change as they get older. That's why words like 'affirmation' and 'life saving' and even 'living your truth' are so loaded; they constantly present that one route as the best option and the younger you start the better, the way you think now is how you'll think forever, and you'll just die otherwise.

#but about myself: i didnt receive counseling related to gender #i never actually mentioned it to her #it was like over a year after i changed back to myself and it was no longer struggle for me by then #so i wouldnt count thay as gender affirming care #the literal definition of GA care: to support an individuals gender identity when it conflicts with their assigned birth gender #soooo that isnt a neutral approach to dysphoria.......

[discyours]

And for no true Scotsman… that’s an interesting dynamic…. Because it’s like for any ideology or system of beliefs theoretically yeah… we could get to a point that 99-100% of people claiming to be X are actually probably not X. It’s possible. It’s just a fallacy if you are making the definition sooooo narrow on purpose to get out of a jam in an argument. The fallacious/cheating reasoning existing doesn’t mean we can’t make good faith and meaningful arguments that would mean the majority of self-described X not being X. Especially if we acknowledge things like, ok maybe there is a historical X and a modern X and the modern people clearly have MOVED what X means at this point. But it’s now fair to emphasize that they aren’t meaningfully meeting the previous/ historical definition of X. You see that a lot with political ideology words tbh. Like here’s a fun one — what’s a conservative? What’s a liberal? It’s contextual in time and place and even then you will get disagreeing factions and people who think each other don’t count and each have good arguments for it.

I do think it’s just really interesting to think about how words for beliefs, movements shared across groups of people both are meaningful and will never be all that stable. With a political movement there is always disagreement within as well as without and it’s like the line between variations within a species vs super closely related but separate species. Where is that line? How much disagreement = broken up into factions? How much disagreement before one or more of those factions “aren’t” the original term?

Also with all these political movement/faction terms.. so much depends on context. Once enough time has passed it can be the heir to the older idea, but it will never be the same and is probably different enough to start drawing lines and naming eras.

With radfem for example for better and worse, there is so little allegiance or even awareness to the ideology of the mid 20 c radfems that I am ready to describe that as a full split. An evolution with changes based on newer information available, experiences and reactions to events and other ideologies/factions rising, etc. Modern radfems are inspired-by but not the same as the earlier ones, with rare exceptions there are no second wavers who aren’t literally the women who were at their most active in that time period.

Again I think the evolution is a good thing — we do need to always be reevaluating, take in new information and new contexts — and a bad thing, when it’s out of ignorance of the past and not thoughtful sifting through it that’s leading to the change in what modern self-described radfem is vs the more stable definition

Overall I accept it’s changing and want to make the most of our chance to influence the shape of the new incarnation

Another thought is I call myself a feminist (no adjectives) even though i disagree in at least one way with 99% of self described feminists and strongly disagree with the majority faction on core points. I’m fighting for the space. I want my core concept of feminist to become THE core concept for the majority. And were unlikely to get what we don’t fight for. Still that’s such a delicate political question— when is it better for me to say I’m an ex feminist and define some new thing like, “women’s liberationist” and call myself that? Perhaps. Or perhaps not. There’s something to gain and lose either way. What matters I guess is which move most advances our organizing capacity.

I have nothing to add but I appreciate you sharing your thoughts.

#anon

[mythica0]

Parrot chicks, be prepared.

I have a big rant about my belief system (which is not a known or practiced religion, as I’m the only person who believes in it) prepared . It will be posted at some point this week, although exactly when I’m not sure,

It will likely be very long, but I don’t know how to add a read more thing so sorry about that. But yeah! It’s coming!

#parrot this is irrelevant #parrotconcepts #kinda? #parrotsramblings

[olivieraa]

tumblr back in the day stressed me out in ways nobody else would relate to

tags.

maybe people got a lil stressed, but I know it was not to my extent. to the point that I just stopped tagging. 

ocd and perfectionism go hand in hand. and perfectionism is a disease because the whole thing with perfectionism is, nothings ever perfect enough. so you just never win.

but with ocd... there’s a belief that you can reach perfect. ...but it’ll take an extremely long time and all of your focus and attention.

I skipped days in college trying to tag my blog.

because I was so in the zone trying to tag my blog appropriately but constantly changing it cause I was never happy. I just couldnt get a system I deemed perfect.

its been so long now I cant even explain how it went.

but if I was to connect it to something similar and current, I have a feminism folder on my laptop.

in this folder are categories, and sub-categories. and sub-sub categories.

and anytime I think I’m on a roll, I second guess myself and wonder how I can make it better. 

I was like that with my tags on here. like, ok, fanart of Joey. simple!

tag with his name, tag with the anime he belongs to.

...

go back and wonder if I should simplify it and just tag it as ‘joey’, no wheeler. make it simple so there’s lots of space. so change yugioh to just ‘ygo’. ok cool. 

...

go back and wonder if they should be capitalised or not. debate that for an hour.

come to a conclusion and have to change posts with other characters where I have ‘Greed’ and ‘Fullmetal Alchemist’ to ‘fma’. this takes me fucking forever

...

debate on whether that was a good idea or not. doubt myself constantly, over stupid fucking shortening of names and capitalisation.

move on

...

wonder whether I should be categorising characters on their levels of how much they like them. so go back to joey and greed posts and add a ‘my fave’ tag. realise that’s dumb. give them specific names. joey - my baby. greed - husbando.

move on

...

go back and wonder why even bother with their names if joey is now specifically my baby and greed is husbando. debate erasing their names.

LIKE

shit like this went on for weeks and weeks.

unsure how to tag posts with scenery, feminism, any form of social justice, funny posts, relatable posts, it just went on and on and I had so many tags underneath one picture it looked like I was writing an essay.

I think I have drafts at the bottom of my drafts on here about my tagging system. 

ultimately I had to give up on it. it drove me insane. I couldnt be simple about it. it was my intention from the start. easy peasy. ‘joey’ and ‘ygo’ to just 20 more extra tags. sometimes I tagged what he was doing if it was specific. I remember a tag called ‘always a blue ice-pop’, cause it seemed to be common in Joey fanart.  so I tagged it every time I saw it.

so yeah, my ocd doesn’t show on tumblr cause I wont allow it. I pop on here and I pop off. I make typos, I tag nothing, I poof away