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[creatingnikki]

see I told you this would happen. I told you you’d get to know me better and you’d fall out of love with me. it’s like an old cassette jammed in the car stereo. I’m driving this banana yellow car and you get in and sit next to me and for the first few miles you write me verses of love poetry. you see my gorgeous smile and hear my sensual laugh and the breeze in my hair always makes it look like I’m some goddess you can’t get enough of. but after enough miles you see me, really see me and then what you want to do the most is to get out. and so I warn you. every time we stop for gas, I tell you this is a good time to say our goodbyes, a great time to exit. you laugh like you can’t believe I’m saying this and pull me in for a hug. then tell me, what exactly happens, a hundred miles later that you jump out of the moving car? now you’ve broken your arm and the blame is on me. I had warned you, I always do. so please don’t put any of this on me.

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[takingstockofwhatmattersmost]

Cinco De Mono

I was tagged by the man who puts the banana in bananahammock, @definegodliness, to answer 5 questions. Thanks!

1. A song I would like played at my funeral: Yngwie Malmsteen ~ Prelude to April. One, Malmsteen is my favorite guitar God. Two, Prelude to April is beautiful. Three, my birthday is in April.

2. A book I enjoy rereading: It should come as no surprise to those who know me here...Stephen King's IT!! Brilliance. The best-crafted book regardless of genre.

3. Last new movie that I watched for fun: Top Gun: Maverick...because ~ that's why. You can't judge me.

4. An old movie I enjoy rewatching: Tombstone! Nuff said!

5. A song I enjoy but doesn't fit my aesthetic: Tones And I ~ Dance Monkey

TAGGING: @noorshirazie; @vbkpoetry; @daisylongmile; @fantodsdhrit; @gracebriarwoodwrites; @heartofmuse; @justscribbledwords; @kristensnotebook; @lilysofthefield; @creatingnikki; @moderateclimates; @eternallycoilingserpent-blog

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[livingthroughwords]

Today I write for you and

today I cry for you and

in the middle of the afternoon

on a Tuesday I find

that our hearts are heavy

i see no respite

our words of comfort

while precious they may be

the pain is still there

for us to feel.

Far away yet not at all

a click away and we have it all

that's what they say

you can have it all

but then why are we struggling

on a Tuesday afternoon

trying to finish work soon

just to have a few

a few things we've always wanted

to leave a few things that are always haunting

our eyes are so dark

they're meant to glitter

not glisten

with struggles that prolong

wish our joys too prolonged.

Tuesday afternoon

let's finish work soon

let's talk

talk forever

like we always do

for atleast we have you

you and i

against the world

maybe not

but against our demons

we can't run away

from sad girl hours

we can simply run

run so fast

the wind takes away our tears

and our hearts are lighter

even for seconds

it's enough to make us

anticipate Tuesday afternoons

without pain

that i hope will come

really soon.

@creatingnikki

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[lyd-fashion]

"Shameless people are everywhere. They will say what they have to say to get what they want out of you. Even if don’t mean it. Even if they know they don’t mean it.

Shameless people will do what they have to, to get what they want out of you. They won’t care about your well being. They will not care about your loss.

The thing is, their shameless-ness makes you feel ashamed if you don’t oblige with them. Because they are so persistent about what they want.

But that’s just messed up. So be shameless when you have to deal with shameless people. Be shameless about the fact that your time, your life, you are only yours. Not in a selfish way. Only while dealing with such people." via creatingnikki

[dg-fragments]

I never understood why people hyped long drives so much Was it driving aimlessly that gave them a sense of freedom? Or was it feeling the wind on their face and breezing through their hair that they loved? Perhaps jamming to their favourite songs that made them feel that life was one big party? But it was the day we met that it finally hit me - it's about the person sitting next to you. I never realized a long drive could ever be this meaningful, And a meal so fulfilling as the one that day, together with the sense of humor you brought, Perhaps even then it is indeed about the company. I have never been much of a talker but I listen and remember, For you see there's this fear in my sturdy heart, of saying the wrong thing, So I stay quiet and feel grateful for even the tiniest of moments I get to spend with you. But you...you talk in a way I could forever listen, With this passion and fierceness that I have not witnessed before. You strike me as a woman who knows what she wants and will not once fear going after it. But there's also this softness to your smile, to the way you carry yourself, A subtle grace, a lightness in your stride. And within this softness I melt, without realizing without meaning to either, Such is your charm that has caused me to be ensorcelled. With subtleness I wonder what lies ahead, what is going to come, For I know moments with you, I will cherish for sure. - creatingnikki & fragments-of-my-mind

A first time collab with the ‘daebag’ (awesome) @creatingnikki ^^

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[autumnsunshine10]

Sometimes when we aren't looking

We find the brightest things

Like a rainbow arching across

The sky on a dreary rainy day

Coloring the clouds, the gray

Bringing a smile to a streaked

Once downturned face; wide

Eyes of wonder lighting up

At the sight, delightful sign

Grand design signified

Meant to be in your life

And you in mine

Thank you for adding vibrancy

To my sky

@chronicallykalene

@creatingnikki (Happy Holi!)

☁❤💛💚💙💜☁

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[wnq-writers]

What I would tell my teen self about mental health 1. Mental health will become a “trend” in a few years but nobody talks about it now. But you need to know it’s just a basic part of taking care of yourself. 2. Stop being a doormat/pushover thinking you’re being “kind” or “nice”. Listen, you can be at peace for a couple of years this way but at some point you are going to burn out and then become the opposite extreme. Don’t let that happen. Speak up. Be kind and be nice but first and foremost to your own self. 3. Love is whatever you let it be. Love can be jealous. Love can be possessive. Love can be abusive. Love can be whatever unacceptable shit you let yourself be subject to. People do unspeakable things on the name of love. Love has no definition. That’s dangerous. Whatever happened happened. But from now on know this, love is overrated. But freedom, joy and safety are not. 4. People say you’re the writer of the book of your life. Bull shit. There’s a lot we have no control over. We are not the writer of our life. However, we can be the editor. Whatever is handed to us, we can edit. That power is solely ours. Even if a chapter is so bad and painfully written, we can somehow salvage it so that it holds the book of our life together, so that we can get through it and still continue. 5. Their mental health is important. But so is yours. So you have the right to leave. It’s okay. It’s not selfish. But if you expect to get back in touch when you see them doing better, that is. Because then you leaving wasn’t for your mental health but because you simply didn’t care enough. 6. People apologize and do the same things over and over and over. They don’t need the benefit of the doubt after the 2nd time. Every other chance you give them is taking away a chance from you for living a better life. Don’t do that to yourself. 7. Don’t take everything you read/hear on face value. But don’t have your eyes on auto eye-roll either. Find that balance between ignoring and believing. 8. Just because you express and feel emotions more intensely than most others doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with you or that you’re emotionally or mentally unstable. You’re just more capable of feeling, more aware of everything and more reactive to every word and sensation than those around you. It may seem like a drawback at first but it’s your strength, you’ll realize that in the long run.

creatingnikki

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[theprocast]

Things I’ve said under the stars

How do you exist so casually yet magically amidst all our chaos?

I want to live outside of this city.

Are you friends with the moon?

Do they look up and almost trip too?

I know the truth but I’m not ready to accept it yet.

Does the sun make you envious?

Okay. Let’s write some poetry.

Am I a fool romanticising everything unnecessarily?

It still hurts.

Can I borrow your acceptance for a bit? You stay where you are but never get restless.

What really is your name? Do you even care about humanly things like that?

How does it feel to be almost immortal?

Do you look down upon me after knowing all my secrets?

I miss her, can I reach out?

Is there any other planet we can escape to? Do we deserve to?

Is there anything in me 1% as bright as you?

Did Van Gogh get you right?

// creatingnikki //

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[666angelwing]

Sunset out back. It looks like a Hobbit's dream of the Shire. LOL

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[bermuda-buttercup]

Your best is enough.

filthytruths

~~~

@creatingnikki it truly is xxx

#creatingnikki

[creatingnikki]

falling in love.

there are not many people I come across that impress me. few that amuse me.

amusement may spark an interest. but it takes so much more to brew love.

tonight I don't crave being loved. tonight I crave falling in love. and you know, you know there was not much I knew when I was fourteen but I knew one thing right — you cannot fall in love, the true kind of love, if in that equation you are not loved back.

love is energy. that energy is an exchange. it is not one sided. not the love you know soul-deep.

and tonight that's the love I crave. the man I will fall in love. whose existence will make my heart happy, my soul calm, and my mind eleated.

yes, that's what I crave. falling in love.

it's equal in its presence, in its intensity, in its gentleness. it's the meeting of two souls. that's what the spark is. and when those two souls stay? that's what the spark evolves into — true love.

I've felt the spark one too many times but it always flickered too soon and extinguished if I was lucky or charred everything around me if I was not.

when did the spark get to evolve fully? never, not once.

but now that is what I want. the evolution of the spark. the stability of love. the surety. the equality of love. the meeting of two souls. the building and nurturing of a language of the two souls; a universe only they know and in the presence of which they glow with peace and contentment.

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[mycosmicbackyard]

Hi there ^_^ Happy Valentine's Day

Awww Happy Valentine’s Day!! And thank you so much This really warms my heart, indeed!

#creatingnikki

[souls-lostandfound]

Ways to Love Yourself

1. Know yourself  You cannot love someone you don’t even know. 2. Accept that you have strengths and weaknesses. You have skills and problems. Do a SWOT Analysis (strengths, weaknesses, opportunities, threats) of yourself if you want but remember, opportunities and threats are external. You don’t have control over them. But you can use your strengths and improve on your weaknesses, both of which are internal, to handle the external. 3. Disliking certain things about yourself is normal. That gives room for improvement. Improve. Don’t be lazy and choose the path of self loathing.  4. Forgive yourself  Understand that making mistakes is the way to grow. If you hadn’t fallen on your bum a couple hundred times you would have never learned to walk. If as a baby after one fall, after one mistake of breaking something, you would have decided to just sit in the corner and never try again, you would still be sitting there with the broken pieces. Don’t do that. Learn from your toddler self. Get up. And the only way you can do that is by forgiving yourself.  5. Accept that as of now you do not love yourself.  Lying to yourself won’t eventually lead you to believe it as the truth. Lying to someone you love is not a way to love them.  6. Disregard what others say about you. So much of the good and bad they tell you really has more to do with themselves; their mindset and mood, their motives and interest. Don’t let people fill in blanks for you. That won’t lead to a happy ending, it won’t lead to a story you can call your own.  7. Be patient with yourself, be kind. Being hard on yourself is a really stupid thing to do. It isn’t productive, it isn’t one bit effective and it is completely unnecessary.  8. Discard the idea that you are breakable. Reject the concept that someone can leave you broken. They can hurt you, yes and they can cause you an immense amount of pain but they cannot break you. You aren’t made of glass. Give your cells a little more credit. Give your heart a little more of it too.  9. When you realize that the grass is greener on the other side, don’t draw up plans to ruin that grass or come up with a way where you can camp on it and abandon your own grass. Instead, take a trip to the shop to buy some fertilizer and tend to your own grass. Upskill yourself constantly.  10. Learn new things. Invest time and energy in things that interest you.You didn’t learn to play piano in school but always wished to? Who said there is an age limit. In most cases the saying, ‘it is never too late’ stands absolutely true.  11. Look yourself in the mirror. You can admire or just observe. Look into your eyes. Look at your reflection. Just look. Have a see in what’s inside. Don’t look away. Have the courage to see the truth.  12. Spend time with yourself. Buy yourself flowers if flowers are what you love. Don’t wait to meet the right person to do the things you always wanted to. Go star gazing, skinny dipping. Solo travel. Do whatever you want to and can. Write your future/past self a letter. Cook yourself a meal. Buy yourself some ice cream. Click goofy selfies.  13. Learn to accept compliments. Be graceful. All you have to do is say ‘thank you’. And please don’t feel the immediate need of returning the compliment. You don’t always have to give when you get. Especially when you don’t really have anything to give. A ‘thank you’ and a smile are more than enough.  14. Learn to be okay in silence. The voices in your head? They terrorize you, I know. But trust me, they go away. They go away if you face them. There are no demons in your head. These are just echoes of your fears and insecurities. Listen to them. Breathe deep. Know that they are weak. Face them head on. And then ask them to leave.  15. Accept your body. However it is or it isn’t. It has accepted you in every possible way. Accept it and see how it accepts you even more. Accepting doesn’t mean not changing something that you can in a healthy way. It only means that your love is unconditional. Your love is whole. And that is the only way to love yourself. Wholly. 

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[justscribbledwords]

it gives me solace and peace to think that in another universe i am okay, i am happy, i am not as fucked up or sad, i am living

inspired by @creatingnikki ‘s post

#justscribbledwords #creatingnikki #inspiring #happy #theprocast

[autumnsunshine10]

Bubblegum smile

Can't help but smile when seen

Tickled pink, big and bright

Sweet yet sassy, vibrant

With delightful vivacity

But beneath that eye-catcher

Fascination runs deep

Every facet, every heartbeat

Another shade in

The glorious masterpiece

Even the smeared parts

Set aside from searching eyes

Have meaning, their own place

In the detailed work of art

Always in progress, expanding

Even if some simply skim

Refusing to peruse

Past the stunning surface

Wanting only a smile

They miss out on

The electrifying whole

A woman, a human

Well worth getting to know

❤💜💗❤💜💗❤💜💗❤💜💗

Happy birthday to my dear, stellar, outstandingly talented, intelligent, empathetic, genuine gem of a friend who is a joy to my heart and soul, @creatingnikki ! 🎉🎊🎂💐🌟

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[wnq-writers]

Things that were hard to accept 1. Your expectations are just that. Your expectations. People are not obligated to live up to them or abide by them. Even if they are in certain cases obligated to do so, there is no guarantee that they will. So don’t base your plans on that. And don’t base your life on that. 2. You can walk away. But so can they. You can be hurt and you can be mad. But they will still walk away. They have that option. They can exercise that choice. People can get toxic for you. Believe it or not, so can you. 3. People have bullied you. And teased you. And judged you. But the person judging you constantly and the most harshly is you yourself. 4. They don’t respect you because you don’t respect yourself. 5. Not letting go is only keeping you sad and frustrated and stuck. They are unaffected. They are living their life wonderfully. They are free. 6. Taking care of yourself takes effort. It’s not just good feel quotes and pretty aesthetics. It’s work. A lot of work. It’s doing things that take time and sometimes it’s doing things you don’t want to do. 7. It’s gone. The past. You can regret as much as you like. But you’re only wasting more time. 8. Sometimes you are going to use the word love even though you don’t 100% want to. It’s because like is too little and there is no word in between. It’s because we use the same word for fries and for people. It’s because love means so many different things to every individual. It’s because you do love them. In one of those several meanings. 9. Sometimes you have to suck it up. It’s okay. Not every situation is meant for you to show your ‘true courage’ or real feelings.

creatingnikki 

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