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It's August. All my friends are leaving and, soon, this season won't feel real again. How I wish I could tell myself from three months ago not to sleep in so late so as to enjoy the morning dew on the grass and the carefree feeling of summer mornings, with so many possibilities ahead and no worries in wait. Now, I'm only met by syllabuses and goodbye 'til fall breaks.

#august #fickle writing #college #dark academia #light academia

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This and ♡♡

there is more love stored in <3 than anything else in this world. pass the word along

#reblogs #<3

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Being a good person is so hard. I get it, I'm supposed to be the bigger person, I'm not supposed to do this and that, I need to be moral, but that often conflicts with my own self interest and I'm sorry, but life is too short to not be a little selfish sometimes.

#maybe im just a bad person at heart #but uh #if i had to pick between enjoying myself and being happy and doing 'the right thing' #i will pick what makes me happy about 80% of the time #fickle thoughts

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!!

i want to be inconvenienced by you. i want to wait for you, i want to hold your things while you do something else, i want to make adjustments to my plans to make space for you. someone at your side who takes up no space and has no needs of their own is not a person, but a shadow. i don't want a shadow, i want you. i want my life to be altered by your presence in it. please, inconvenience me.

#reblogs

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Kafka had his diaries I have my notes app

#reblogs

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Trauma.

what is a trait that you give way too many of your ocs

#reblogs

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“And I’d choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I’d find you and I’d choose you.”

— Unknown

#reblogs

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THIS

#it just makes sense #reblogs

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We all just want what they have: Part 2

#easily one of the greatest love stories of all time #i will not take any arguments #romantic academia #walle #eve #pixar #disney #disney pixar #pixar walle

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Ah, yes. Comfort characters.

#stranger than fiction #ferris beuller #ferris bueller's day off #the truman show #9 to 5 musical #9 to 5 #the perks of being a wallflower #alice in wonderland #parks and rec #parks and recreation #juno #the secret life of walter mitty #walter mitty #will ferrell #cameron frye #truman burbank #jim carrey #perks of being a wallflower #the mad hatter #mad hatter #johnny depp #andy dwyer #elliot page #ben stiller #comfort characters #movies #movie aesthetic #tv show

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Why can't I look like this?: Disney Villain Edition

#dark academia #light academia #maleficent #disney #sleeping beauty #fantasy

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the masculine urge

the feminine urge

the human urge to yearn for the existence of dragons

#reblogs

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I am but a simple girl; all I want is a cup of tea with honey, fruit smelling candles, a cat at my feet, and an answer to what my meaning in this world is.

#dark academia #light academia #dark academism #dark acadamia aesthetic #light acadamia aesthetic #light academism #fickle thoughts

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if I don't sit in my room alone for at least 4 hours a day, I will go crazy

#reblogs

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Oh nothing, I just share a birthday with them.

No big deal.

#need i mention cindy crawford and trevor noah #bunch a spicy pisces #olivia rodrigo #kurt cobain #rihanna #nirvana #fickle media #fickle thoughts

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Okay, tick, tick...BOOM! as a whole just wrecked me but this scene, especially this part in particular, really got me:

I relate to Jonathan so much throughout this movie (I could write a whole essay on that lol) but this part, specifically, hits especially close to home. The choked, "Actually, I'm right here." Ugh.

I'm a daydreamer. I want something more. I want bigger, grander things and I feel like I'm in some sort of chase for something. Something better. So I try not to focus on the bad things at hand. The rough things happening in the now. Hard decisions and relationships and tasks are all shoved aside in this search for something better than what I have.

But I'm aware of them. It might not seem like it, but I know all these awful things are there and all these hard choices I have to make are there. It's all there and I am here, having to deal with this monumental amount of things and it's all so overwhelming and so crushing that I just want to escape even more than I did before. And it's all a vicious cycle and I am here. Feeling stuck, searching for something new because reality is just so hard.

"I'm right here." I am feeling a mountain of emotions and dealing with a mountain of tasks. I am not a million miles away. I just wish I were.

#tick tick boom #andrew garfield #jonathan larson #netflix tick tick boom #netflix #anxiety #mental heath awareness #mental health #escapism

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"Pisces are the sign most likely to make the first move" this and "Pisces are the sign most likely to say 'I love you' first" that.

Sure, I definitely fall in love first but you underestimate how damn shy I am and how nervous I get when things get real intimate lol

#pisces #zodiac #pisces sun #pisces moon #astrology