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Sightings of a modern dinosaur. I'm joking, it's a monitor lizard. Just chilling there. • #monitorlizard #reptile #lizard #reptiles #lizards #reptilesofinstagram #nature #wildlife • suggest me more tags https://www.instagram.com/p/CDN-KJbhTvx/?igshid=13ln052kdlge7

#monitorlizard #reptile #lizard #reptiles #lizards #reptilesofinstagram #nature #wildlife

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I finally own this one meter long shark. This BLÅHAJ (blue shark) now is my roommate. • #ikea #soft #plush #toy #shark #blahaj #sharks #blåhaj #blueshark #blahajshark #softtoy #plushtoy • yes, i like using a lot of tags (at IKEA) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDLspiuhtFb/?igshid=a1ksuokalc6h

#ikea #soft #plush #toy #shark #blahaj #sharks #blåhaj #blueshark #blahajshark #softtoy #plushtoy

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Seventeen fans: omg woozi is so small and vulnerable he needs protecting he’s too pure for this world the purest cinnamon bun soMEBODY GUARD THIS CHILD

Woozi:

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Two strikes in a row on the previous game and another strike on the final throw of the last game. I dont like these 2+1 promo because I get super tired by the end of it. • T: me, Nadia 🐭 C: bro-nana, Daniel 🍌 • #bowling #bowling🎳 #amateur #sports #exercise #recreation (at Dream Bowling Airport Sport Complex, Nilai) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCan5MqBMps/?igshid=1gz6ks0jezled

#bowling #bowling🎳 #amateur #sports #exercise #recreation

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Post-bowling drink. • #coffee #coffeebeans #mocha #iceblended (at Coffee Bean Mesa Mall Nilai) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCajR-GhML8/?igshid=1t6233mo101z4

#coffee #coffeebeans #mocha #iceblended

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The actual cardigan isn't done yet but I had my head in the clouds and instead of adding more stitches, I made some pixels. My back hurts and also my right hand. Curse that mouse for being so difficult to work with. And also, to heck with the ulcer that's on my tongue, I hate you. • #drawing #digitalart #animeart #animegirl #animedrawing #chicken #chick #teddybear #bear https://www.instagram.com/p/CCRjzf7haWm/?igshid=1s2y0pv5102fo

#drawing #digitalart #animeart #animegirl #animedrawing #chicken #chick #teddybear #bear

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More books to indulge in while this MCO goes on. Now if I can just get a sewing machine and some fabric. Thanks to @bookxcess for the great discounts and thanks to my dad for buying me these books :D • note: the piano and music book is my brother's. • #BookXcess #BookXcessHaul #book #books #bookstagram #music #piano #craft #crafts #crafting #sewing https://www.instagram.com/p/CAGrMkMhJf-/?igshid=1hmrwar04t3pm

#bookxcess #bookxcesshaul #book #books #bookstagram #music #piano #craft #crafts #crafting #sewing

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made sugar wax

Used apple cider vinegar. My microwave smells terrible now.

Did not use the right proportion. I was either dyslexic or amnesiac.

Did not time it properly. I most likely almost burnt the sugar.

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Finished rearranging my stuff. This my quarantine set up. Also, a corner for me to hide in during my down hours. • #quarantinelife #quarantine #bookstagram #books #bookworm • disclaimer: those shelves were really heavy for me to move around. nearly hurt myself but I did it :D https://www.instagram.com/p/B_gCT5FltqX/?igshid=1cvur4ynlq9j1

#quarantinelife #quarantine #bookstagram #books #bookworm

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Rearranging my books and having a moment, looking at how dusty these books are • #book #bookstagram #bookworm #books https://www.instagram.com/p/B_fm_l6Fnjy/?igshid=1jwmzhv06tlx

#book #bookstagram #bookworm #books

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something that I relate to

#life #lifestyle #average #mediocre #9to5life

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I made something to celebrate (and also distract myself from my impending doom) • From children's books to shoujo manga and many other. Happy World Book Day 💕📚🎊 • #worldbookday #worldbookday2020 #bookstagram #bookworm #book #enidblyton #manga • Disclaimer: No books were harmed in the making of this arrangement. https://www.instagram.com/p/B_UgLp6lmO8/?igshid=1sw9m1v1o8shy

#worldbookday #worldbookday2020 #bookstagram #bookworm #book #enidblyton #manga

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Minok (2018) 🦢

Minok (2019) 🐊

😆😂😂😂

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how i cope with life

roughly based on the self defense mechanism in Sigmund Freud's psychoanalytic theory

reaction formation/denial due to my inherent disability to socialize and make meaningful relationships, the statement "I don't need any friends" has become a very common phrase in my life. deep down, I'm aware that I feel lonely and left out but instead of expressing my desire to make friends, I act out the opposite and deny my feelings, to protect my ego.

fantasy for the past few months, I realized that I live most of my life in an imaginary world. I've been so detached from reality that I forget what's real and what's not. to me, this imaginary world is an escape; a place where, what I don't have in real life could become real. however, recently, it has reached a point where i became quite delusional. I’m extremely attached to a world of figments that leaving it has become difficult.

repression ignorance is bliss. unpleasant things are almost always completely pushed back, somewhere I would never recall them ever again. though to some, knowledge is power, to me, it’s a torment.

regression rather than regressing only when I'm in a state of distress, I feel that I'm actually constantly in regression. I reject the notion of growing up and feel repulsed at those who act grown up. I act exaggerate my incompetence to the point where I actually believe that I am that much incompetent. 

humor self depreciating jokes is the norm when I talk about myself. rather than letting other people point out my flaws, I would rather say it myself. it makes things less painful for myself.

anticipation expectations are one of those things that either doesn't exist or is just set so low down that it might as well be non-existent. I tend to expect things to be terrible. and I make sure that everyone else around me also know to expect the same. because most of the time, the things that comes out of me will always be subpar or worse.

also ( self fulfilling prophecy ) to some extent, I feel that certain things that happened in my life are just the result of what I brought myself to believe. because there has been occasions where, with enough grit and effort, I could do things that I would usually not be able to do. but because I brought my own self esteem down and made myself believe that I am inherently incompetent, it has resulted in the mess that I am today.

ok, that’s all, bye

#psychology #sigmund freud #self defense mechanism #self fulfilling prophecy

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5 habits i have on social media

note: only applies to messaging apps, facebook, twitter and instagram

the first thing i do when im added to a group chat is mute it forever

if the content of the group chat stresses me out, i would just leave

i only follow idol fan accounts and meme accounts because they’re what gives me a smile in my day. no real people accounts. they stress me out.

if the person is irrelevant to me (example: schoolmates, teachers, etc), i wouldn’t add their number or account, EVER

in desperate times, if i dont like someone, i would just block them so they would never find me

#social media #sns #habits #lifestyle

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something i hate but cant live without

“ the internet ”

i hate it because it allows people to contact me easily (ie. social media) despite being a gen z, i just cant come to like it. maybe it’s cuz im anti social.

but i need the internet to watch anime and drama. so im in this huge dilemma rn

#random things #random thoughts #why am i like this

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Half asleep injuries

I clearly remember accidentally kicking my side table while I was half asleep.

but I sorta forgot after I properly woke up some time later.

and now I just finally re-discovered that I kicked the corner of that table so hard, that there’s a nice line of scraped skin.

great.

#sleep #ow #like why