lindruethers

[lindruethers]

I‘m no fan of you lily fame clan

First goal of my life is to strive

Arrive at a different home on the safe side

How do you know to tell spell from quell?

Love from religion, from state,

from cult from need from fate?

Seems so unavoidable, a cramp to circumvent Freud’s wet dream

But really why is all human life organised

in families?

Does it even make sense to pose this question?

#family #poetry #writing #feminist poetry #german poetry #i write #writers community #spilled poetry #poets on tumblr #spilled thoughts #writeblr

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Oh.

Ich habe eingegriffen. In den Lauf der Dinge. Wieso nur? Wieso? Jetzt habe ich den Salat. Jetzt muss ich mit dem Gefühl leben, es manipuliert zu haben. Es. Den natürlichen Lauf der Dinge. Natürlich? Natürlich nicht. Ich habe mich eingemischt. Ganz einfach. Und ich bin es nicht gewohnt. Als Frau. Zu machen. Mich zu ermächtigen. Ich dachte immer, als Frau kann ich keine Macht haben. Ich will auch keine Macht haben. Ich will nur frei ja und nein sagen können. Ich habe nein gesagt. Und jetzt sage ich wieder ja.

#poetry #poetry writing #german poetry #stream of consciousness #lind #natural course of events #intervention #yes #no

[lindruethers]

Frieden

Heute hab ich gespürt, dass du kommst,

als plötzlich der Tag länger dauerte,

ein Vogel zwitscherte.

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Zwei mal noch sah ich aus dem Fenster.

Immer noch nicht dunkel,

wollte ich raus zu dir.

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Der Tag so lang,

noch nicht gegangen,

gehe ich dir entgegen.

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Ist der Winter überstanden,

erwacht um mich herum die Stadt,

erwacht in mir ein Kind?

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Mit dir will ich gehen,

Freiheit Zukunft Frühling.

Mit dir will ich gehen,

Zwilling Mutter Vater.

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Mit dir will ich gehen.

Gut, dass du kommst.

#peace #spring #poem #lind

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Did you know?

When I loved you,

every single day

was I so scared of losing you,

forgot about myself.

Did you know,

how I not allow myself to eat

and love nobody else

to always be ready?

 

And when I finally reached out,

you just disappeared,

me too, I was a crooked skeleton.

 

How could I ever forget myself?

I don’t blame Linda anymore.

But it’s hard not to blame you.

I am so ashamed, I still hate you.

#mental illness #healing #depression awareness #shame #hate #writing heals #lind #please just say sorry for not being there

[lindruethers]

No squeeze

Please I cant‘t strive

Let off

It’s too tight

Wanna decide for my side

Flow

Or let go

Isolate

Oh isolate

And strive

#freedom #independence #solo poly #poetry #writing #german poetry #i write #writers community #feminist writing #poem #feminist poetry #writers on tumblr #writing poetry #deutsche poesie #ich schreibe #lind #prose #feminist #female voice #poeta #poetry writing #writers of tumblr #spilled ink

[lindruethers]

Sieben Jahre später

Und ich mache immer noch keine Politik, mache immer noch keine Kunst, keine Literatur.

Und in sieben Jahren dann?

Finanziere ich mit meinem Doktortitel, meinem wissenschaftlichen Knowhow einen Partner, der Künstler ist?

Ist das die neue Stufe der Emanzipation der Geschlechter? Bin ich dann immer noch die, deren Arbeitskraft ausgebeutet wird, dafür dass er sich künstlerisch ausdrücken kann? Weil ich ihn liebe?

Muss ich auf diese Liebe verzichten wenn ich lieber schreiben will? Dann sei es so.

[lindruethers]

Why sad?

We had a special connection they say.

See you at the next family gathering they say.

You want to marry me next time you say.

I say marry me on the festival next time.

See you in Brussels I say.

And I go away to stay two more hours in my car before I‘m able to leave and I don’t run back and crack in your arms.

#goodbye #hello #writing #poetry #prose

[lindruethers]

Couple Bubble Ego Trip

So you want a real relationship. To commit to a real girl?

Fuck off.

#couple bubble #ego trip #relationship anarchy #naive texting #anger

[lindruethers]

Kann mich einfach einer in den Arm nehmen? Bitte? Ich weine. Hallo?

Vllt die Person, die das verursacht hat? Fühlt sich irgendwer verantwortlich?

#mutual care #self care #calming #soothing #attachment needs #poetry #prose #writing #i write #lind #spilled poetry #spilled prose #prose poem #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #writers and poets #german poetry

[lindruethers]

Life crush compilation

Comes place comes time how the road is long when we carry on to stay alive if we give it a try have fun in the meantime

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How the effort to be free is pointless from the point where it all comes back when time‘s falling into the space

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Lucky ones are we all cause it will never meet the ground suprise suprise we lived another day and if you love me now the chain will keep us together

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With words I share this lovely view where we’re going where we‘re going where you go and call everybody else baby cause I‘m your baby still

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Whatever turns us on is thought to be a lie but we feel it Feel it.

#crush on #poetry #writing #lana del ray lyrics #john frusciante lyrics #band of horses lyrics #fleetwood mac lyrics #warpaint lyrics #daniel norgren lyrics #norah jones lyrics #i write #writers community #poeta #lind #german poetry #spilled poetry

[lindruethers]

Steuererklärung

Wie kann es sein, dass das “Onlinefinanzamt” ELSTAR mich überall als Steuerpflichtige Person/ Ehemann/ Person A einordnet und mich ständig fragt, ob ich für eine Ehefrau/ Person B Angaben machen will? Als wäre es normal, dass Männer immer Person A und Frauen immer Person B sind, oder als würden immer Männer die Steuererklärung für sich und ihre Ehefrauen machen. Was, wenn Person A Frau ist? Was wenn Person B Mann ist? Was ist mit mehreren Partner*innen? Was ist mit nicht-binären Personen? Warum zur Hölle gibt es überhaupt diese Möglichkeit? Das ist einfach nur krank.

#steuererklärung #fuck the cistem

[lindruethers]

So viel Zeit habe ich damit

verbracht, mich gegen diese Welt zu stämmen

und so viel Kraft.

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Bis du mir gezeigt hast sie anzunehmen in einem Club

voller Menschen voll druff

fiel der Groschen.

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„Das ist der perfekte Ort“, sagtest du.

Und ich ließ los.

Hatte plötzlich keine Angst mehr

keine Hemmung mehr, dich zu küssen.

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Der perfekte Ort.

#perfect place #poetry #writing #lind #club #drugs #anxiety

[lindruethers]

My anarchy

Why you shouldn’t ask “are you together?”, but “are you open to?” or don’t ask it at all! And why you should always ask back: “Why?” “What do you mean, together?”

Why do you actually ask someone if they are “in a relationship”? To congratulate them, ask if you’re invited to the wedding and wish many children? Of course they are in a relationship. Everybody is.

“Do you two team up?” “Not necessarily, why?” “Because I have no partner for the night and was wondering whether you’re open.” What do people actually want to know when they see people attached to each other and ask “Are you together”?

Is it reassuring their conservative monogamist gaze? Putting people into boxes? Not knowing that they might push others into uncomfortable stereotypes. Is it jealousy? Checking for possibilities? Why would you do that before even getting to know them? You could also ask for a hug, if you’re starving for affection.

I want to cuddle my friends without being pushed to go home with them. Why do you have to know whether I am in some sort of relationship? What do you mean relationship? Do you mean, if we fuck? Well, this is none of your business if you are not interested in participating. I’m happy if you’re interested and happy to introduce you to my world, but please stop asking this shit.

Why you shouldn’t kiss them every time you say goodbye and hello but kiss everybody when you say goodbye and hello or don’t kiss when you greet at all

Sometimes I really hate this. The hello and the goodbye kiss. What is it good for? If you wanted to kiss me all the time and now had to do it before I went, please don’t hesitate next time. If I'm so happy to see you and couldn't wait to kiss you, please don't stop me. But what is the purpose of marking me with a kiss when I leave a group? Especially when you’re the only one kissing me on the lips. Just don’t do it except you were starving for one more kiss. I feel awful when being marked with a “We are in a relationship, so we kiss each other for greeting”-sign. I hate it. Instead think of what you really need in the hello/goodbye situation. It might also be a hug, a handshake or waving goodbye.

Why you should kiss them any time you want to instead

I think kisses are like sex. You should not have them if you don’t really want them. And you should really have them if you really want them.

Why you should invite them to your parents and invite all other friends too

Because you would invite all other good friends, too. Why make an exception or some sort of ceremony for that one person? Just make it a nice little encounter with cool people.

Why you should move together and move out again as often as you wish

Really, there is nothing wrong with moving together with a friend. As there is nothing wrong with moving out again as long as you understand each other. Why not?

How to describe me in conversations

Please don't refer to me as anybody's girlfriend. I don't belong to nobody. I will try finding different ways to talk about you, too.

#anarchy #relationship anarchy #writing #i write

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Melt them gay

If I was a boy right now I’d be gay. The way I look at women warm and sober Would it change with the way they look at me? Fierce, ready to fight, shy, or melting?

I’d chose melting. Melt me with your looks girls! Melt me away. And I swear we’ll all be gay.

[lindruethers]

Antibirth

#twin souls #relationship goals #space issues

[lindruethers]

Märtyrerin

Auf den Spuren des Mythos Liebe Für alles zu haben unbesitzbar Opfert sie sich für die Sache Wird den Alptraum mit ins Grab nehmen Vom Prinz gerettet zu werden Armes kleines Mädchen Es tut ihnen leid Doch sie will es so Oder?

#who's gonna save my soul now? #myth of love #please don't stop me #no possession #no slavery #lind

[lindruethers]

If you had only stopped me that day

Would Corona pandemic have happened, Monticule Festival have gotten bankrupt, Russia have started the war?

Would I have moved to Munich, changed my name, kissed that girl?

Maybe not maybe all But never baby, are you going to stop me.

#nonstop #lind