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𝑨𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒍𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 - 𝑳. 𝑯𝒆𝒆𝒔𝒆𝒖𝒏𝒈

𓆩♡𓆪pairing: heeseung + female reader!

𓆩♡𓆪warnings: smut, unprotected sex, oral male receiving, cum eating, amazon position, angst, fluff, heartbreak, break up, crying, cursing, sub heeseung! Jake playing match maker, heeseung is a big momma’s boy and a lil jungkook slander cause why not? lol I think that’s it.

𓆩♡𓆪summary: with your reputation of being a heartbreaker and a player, you find yourself finally breaking away from the terrible title after years, but what happens when the lonely nerd at your school catches your eye? Will he be your next unsuspecting victim, or will he be your last stop?

𓆩♡𓆪genre: smut, mature content read at your discretion, romance, tear jerker, inspired by Miley Cyrus - angels like you.

Number of words: 18,811k

Find your way around!

Message at the end contains spoilers, so please read the story before proceeding to the end.

“Okay, hear me out,” you say to your best friend Jake, whose currently sitting in front of you, stuffing his face with the god-awful food they serve in the cafeteria.

“NO,” he says after taking a drink of his water.

“But -“

“I said NO,” Jake repeated and gave you a look, one that said (Don’t start your bullshit again.)

It had been a while since your last victim, and since then, you swore that you were done with your old ways of being a heartbreaker. You even promised Jake you wouldn’t do it anymore cause you knew how much time you two spent apart whenever you went on one of your man-eating sprees, and you knew just how much he hated it.

But how could you resist the temptation of the boy sitting in the corner sipping on his apple juice while looking out the window?

You had your eye on him for a while now, but you never told Jake that, of course, and as much as you tried not to, you just couldn’t help but be attracted to the boy.

Only visually, of course. You haven’t been seriously interested in anyone since your ex.

Said attraction was named lee heeseung, and he fit your criteria perfectly from head to toe.

You watched his big round curious eyes, looking at all the friend groups throughout the cafeteria. After a while of envying them, he looked down and played with his fingers sighing to himself.

He looked so lonely sitting there all by himself, so why not give him some company?

Without saying anything, you stood up from your chair walking over to his table.

“If you talk to him, we’re done being friends,” Jake threatens you, but you know it’s all talk, and he’d be up texting you late at night like he always did, talking about his latest developments with his crush.

You just ignored him and continued to walk towards the wide-eyed confused-looking gentleman in the corner of the cafeteria. You pulled out an empty chair and sat next to him as he scooted further into the corner. “Hi, I’m y/n,” you say in the softest voice you could possibly muster.

He sat there frozen. You noticed his chest rising and falling rapidly and the nervous tapping of his foot as he looked around the cafeteria, wondering why, out of all the free seats, you decided to sit with him.

No one had ever sat with him before, not even in preschool. He was an outcast everywhere he went. He was like a walking people repellent.

So why, out of all the years of him seemingly being the world's most hated person, you decided to break that cycle by sitting next to him?

Before he got too lost in thought more than he already was, he certainly recognized your face, and it didn’t take long for him to connect the dots with you and your very, very poor reputation, and he didn’t want to be linked to a person like you at all.

He quickly got up from his seat, nearly knocking it over in the process while running out from the cafeteria, leaving you somewhat surprised but not really. You figured he probably knew what you were about from all the rumors people spread about you that all happened to be true, but you didn’t care, and neither did all the other unsuspecting boys you hooked up with cared well, until you broke their hearts, but this one seemed a little different.

You glanced over to your friend, and you couldn’t help but smile when you saw him laughing hysterically at your failure. You walked back over to Jake, sitting in your original seat. “Finally, someone that doesn’t want you.”

“Oh, he does. Just give me some time,” you replied, taking his apple from his tray, and he didn’t even bother stopping you from your daily routine.

“That confidence would be admirable, but right now, it’s just revolting,” he fake gagged. Hearing this from him didn’t surprise you one bit. In your many years of friendship, Jake always told you the truth, one of the many reasons you two became such good friends, and he was the only one that saw through all your bullshit, including how you did a complete 180 after your first relationship had ended.

Which ended bad, hell, bad was an understatement.

Jake remembers seeing you at your lowest point, crying your heart out cause the man you thought loved you had broken up with you for the “new popular girl” and told you he was only ever into you for your looks.

Of course, that made you feel like shit. It made you feel like you were just a piece of eye candy, and you never meant anything to him, and you’d never mean anything to anyone else, either.

It was hard not to believe that wasn’t the truth when you did everything for him, yet he still broke up with you.

So from then on, you decided to use the one thing your ex told you you did have, which was your looks. You used it to your sick advantage picking, unsuspecting men to lay with and ditch them in the morning ever since your ex-boyfriend you swore off relationships and decided from here on out you were going to make it your goal to break the hearts of many men making all the guys out there suffer because of what your boyfriend did to you.

All men were the same anyway, no different from your ex, and before they broke your heart, you’d break theirs just for revenge and maybe a sprinkle of your own enjoyment.

Jake was literally the only guy you got close to cause he was your childhood friend, but any other guys were ripe for your picking.

“Thanks, Jake,” your voice was laced with sarcasm as you bit into your (his) apple.

So the first attempt was a complete fail, you admit, but that didn’t stop you from making several.

The school halls had emptied out, and you knew heeseung was always last to leave to avoid the crowd being the awkward boy he was. You noticed this cause you always did the same exact thing, which you were mentally patting yourself on the back for cause it gave you this golden opportunity to stalk your prey.

He was humming a familiar tune while you silently watched him placing his books inside his locker until you made him jump in his place at the startling sound of your voice. “Hey”

He quickly turned around, gasping in shock at how close you were, which resulted in him accidentally dropping all his books to the ground.

You were quick to pick them up, and so was he. He bent down with you as you helped him pick them up one by one, you giggled when you spotted a romance novel amongst many other books. He silently prayed you wouldn’t see it, but he knew that was impossible cause it was on top of the other books you had neatly stacked and handed to him after rising to his shoulder level.

He hugged the books to his chest, pushing up the bridge of his glasses and awkwardly thanking you for helping him even though you were the cause of the accident.

He tried to walk past you, completely forgetting about putting his books away and shutting his locker door, but you stood in front of him, blocking his path.

A shaky sigh passed his lips as he looked down at you.

You always knew he was a cutie, but you had never seen him this close. He looked breath taking, and you couldn’t help but notice the adorable dangly earrings he was wearing. “What are you doing after school?” You asked, smiling up at him.

He faltered a bit from the queasy feeling he felt rising in the pit of his stomach. He didn’t want to say something stupid to you or embarrass himself, so he kept his answer short and to the point. “Study,” a cold tone accompanied the word, and his eyes widened in panic. He didn’t intend for it to come out sounding so rude.

Leave it to him to make a fool of himself with just one word. He was just trying to sound confident, but obviously, he failed. “I usually study for an hour when I get home,” he added softly, hoping you’d understand that he wasn’t trying to sound mean in the first place.

“Same,” you replied, contrary to the rumors of you not paying attention in class. You were actually quite smart, and you loved to learn. You just didn’t listen to your stupid boring teacher and his dumb way of teaching. If it wasn’t for getting a degree, you would have never even attended school.

“Really?!” He asked enthusiastically, surprising himself and you, but when it came to studying and school, it didn’t take much to get him excited.

You nodded with a small smile.

He looked down slightly. He didn’t know what else to say now to keep the conversation going, if you even wanted to call it that.

Unfortunately, this had always been a big problem for him. He was happy to answer any questions, which is probably the reason he’s always the first one raising his hand in class, confidently stating the answer and going into way more detail than he needed to, which pleased all his teachers but not the other students that were groaning in boredom every time he did so.

But right now, for the first time in his life, he was actually happy to have been at a loss for words cause he realized that, in all actuality, he shouldn’t be getting close to someone like you, so with a tiny shake of his head he turned back to his locker and placed his books inside before locking it he was about to walk away, but you stopped him once again, and he let out a little panicked squeak.

“Maybe we could study together sometime?” you innocently tilted your head to the side, waiting for his response to your offer.

He gulped as his eyes trailed down to your lips, that held a tiny smile. He couldn’t lie.

The offer sounded great. Who wouldn’t want to be accompanied by someone while doing their most favorite thing in the world and on top of that, you were so so pretty, and that’s what made him realize you were far too pretty for him, to put it simply, he was a loser so why would a smart, beautiful girl like you even give him the time of day and him being the smart boy he is instantly formulated the correct answer.

He heard all about you, knowing that any guy you talked to only ended up with a shattered heart and broken ego, and he was smart enough not to be like the rest, so he politely declined your offer once more. “I don’t think we should” his whole body shook with nerves. This was the first time he ever really stood his ground on something.

You fake pouted, trying to use your looks to make him give in, but you could tell he wasn’t going to, at least not yet. “Why?” You said in a sad tone.

He hated how weak his knees felt at the cute expression your face held, but he knew it was all just bait, and he wasn’t about to take it. “I’m just really busy so…” he trailed off as the air surrounding you both began to feel stuffy.

“So you can’t make time for me?” You ghosted your finger up his necktie, looking at him with puppy eyes.

His eyes darted to your fingers playing with his tie, and by now, he was sweaty due to how nervous you were making him. The last time he talked to a girl this long was the lunch date he took his mom out on last week.

He used every muscle in his body to pull himself out of this trance you had him in and moved his tie away from you. “P-please just let me by,” he stuttered helplessly, staring down at you with an uneasy expression on his face.

You moved aside and decided to let him go for now. You didn’t want to scare him off. You knew he’d come around sooner or later, but you figured with him, it’d most definitely be later.

“So, how about you?” You and Jake sat at the park bench. He had just finished telling you the details of how he scored a date with his crush next Friday, and you were happy for him. He’d been eyeing her for quite some time now, and you were happy that she reciprocated his feelings. “How’s it coming along?” He was currently asking you about your latest mission.

“He’s playing hard to get,” you scoffed and folded your arms.

“Or maybe he just doesn’t want to be got,” Jake says. “Everyone knows how you are.”

“He’s a nerd with zero friends, probably is a virgin, and literally has conversations with himself about astronomy stutters, and to top it all off, he keeps romantic novels in his fucking locker,” you deadpan. “He definitely wants to get got.”

“Ouch, imagine how he’d feel if he heard that” Jake empathized with the boy who he had never even spoken to a day of his life.

“He’d probably tell his mom and cry about it. That’s how much of a fucking loser he is,” you say with absolutely zero emotion.

You didn’t notice the concern written on your friend's face. This definitely wasn’t the y/n he knew back then. You never cursed, let alone made fun of people for being slightly different than others. Sometimes Jake would question his friendship with you after everything that happened with your ex, and so would others. He’d get weird stares from the whole school just by being seen with you, but that's not why he questioned it.

He questioned it for who you’ve become. He wonders how he even stayed beside you this whole time, especially after you cut him off for a whole year and then came back as an emotionless man-eater.

But he soon figured out why he stuck around. He knows deep down you’re still that sweet innocent person he met in grade school. He knows you’re still the y/n he became best friends with. He just hopes one day you’ll see your worth and not let that bastard of an ex-boyfriend still control you even after being out of your life for years.

Jake really had hoped that one of the guys you hooked up with would somehow be the one someone who could repair your broken heart. Of course, he never told you that, but even now, as you made fun of whoever this heeseung guy is, he still had this hope that maybe just maybe, he could sweep you off your feet and save you from this never-ending state of hurt and pure denial that you were in every since your ex broke up with you.

You were too lost in thought you didn’t even notice that Jake had stopped talking to you long ago.

Just then, you saw heeseung walking out of school, fingers clutching onto his backpack as he looked to be heading home for the day. “Gotta run” You left Jake behind and fastened your pace to catch up with your prey.

“Go get ‘em,” Jake sighed and watched you disappear in the distance. "There she goes."

“Hello again,” you chimed after catching up to heeseung.

“H-hi,” he gripped his bag tighter and moved away from you slightly. He didn’t want to be rude, so he greeted you as politely as he could despite his better judgment to just run to the other side of the road.

“Sorry about yesterday” You apologize for your actions towards him even though not an ounce of it was sincere. “And the day before that,” you added with an airy laugh.

He was pleasantly surprised that you were actually apologizing, and it had him rethinking about your personality. Maybe you weren’t as bad as the rumors made you out to be. “It’s okay,” he assured you.

“I guess I can be overbearing at times,” you nodded to yourself.

He felt bad that you felt the need to apologize because of him. You weren’t overbearing. It’s just he didn’t know how to handle you approaching him so suddenly, and he also didn’t know how to communicate that to you either. “You’re good,” he replied in a whisper.

You smiled at that cause you knew you were already making progress. “I think I maybe know why you’re hesitant to,” you said slowly, referring to him not wanting to study with you. “You’ve heard things.”

He was quick to stop you from your assumption, even if it was true. He didn’t want to make you feel bad about it. It was your life, and you were old enough to make your decisions and own up to your actions. “It’s not that.” He quickly denied.

You laughed quietly. “No, I get it. I wouldn’t want to be seen with me either, but I’m not all bad.”

He figured you couldn’t be, not with such an innocent smile. He heard the rumors, but it couldn’t be that bad, could it? Plus, he’d keep his guard up. It was only studying what could go wrong. And it would be nice to finally have some company every now and then and end this drought of being alone all his life. “What time?” He asked suddenly.

You were shocked that he was already letting his guard down so easily after putting up such a fight in the beginning. “You pick” You smiled brightly at him, and he awkwardly returned it.

“Maybe tomorrow after school. I know you and your friend hang out all the time, so I don’t want to interrupt” At some point during the walk home, he found himself being able to talk to you a little bit more freely, which was very, very uncharacteristic of him but he couldn’t miss his shot.

Long before you got a boyfriend, heeseung was quite fond of you. He stole quick little glances in your direction. He thought you were absolutely breathtaking, and he wanted to talk to you so badly he remembers many times he was so close to just saying you only live once and introducing himself to you.

But before he grew the balls to do so, you apparently had gotten a boyfriend, and he completely backed off. He didn’t want to disrespect you or your relationship, so he gave up on the idea of getting to know you entirely and judging by the way your new boyfriend looked, heeseung figured he never had a chance with you to begin with he was basically the opposite of your boyfriend in every way.

But one day, he overheard talk about your sudden breakup, and that only made him think about making a move on you again, but a new turn of events happened and a few months later, he heard some pretty harsh rumors circulating about you. Word got around his school like wildfire, and just like before, he was going in your opposite direction, knowing he shouldn’t get involved with someone like you, especially with his fragile heart.

But now that he finally got the chance to get to know you a little better and talk to you, he wasn’t going to let this golden opportunity slip away to hell with rumors, and even if you did try to chew him up and spit him out like all the others he was going to be cautious enough for that not to happen to him.

“After school is fine,” you quickly agreed.

“Okay,” he breathed out, and once again, he couldn’t think of anything else to say, but luckily his mom was calling him just in time to avoid the awkward silence that would have ensued. “Sorry,” he apologized to you and laughed awkwardly. You smiled softly while telling him it was alright. “Hi, Mom,” he smiled while taking the call. “Oh, that’s tomorrow?” His smile faded, and he bit his lip at the realization of accidentally making plans without thinking of his schedule first. “Okay…. No, it’s fine, I’ll be home by then… okay, bye, Mom, I love you!” his ears burned from embarrassment after he realized you had been next to him this whole time overhearing his conversation. “I uhh, I actually can’t meet you tomorrow. I promised my mom I’d take her shopping, sorry” he felt slightly guilty for standing you up just a few minutes after making plans, but nothing ever came before his mom.

You discreetly rolled your eyes, so he was the type to go home and cry to his mom. Pathetic, you thought, but you continued to put on your ever-so-convincing show. “No worries. How about Monday?” You say with such an alluring tone, a tone that nearly swept him right off his own two feet.

“Yeah,” he agreed instantly.

“Okay, see you then” You smiled and patted him on his shoulder. He looked at your hand, and you swore you saw him blushing.

“Yeah,” he replied in a daze-like state, still looking at where you had touched him. He’s never been touched by a girl ever, and just the small contact made his stomach do a flip.

“Bye, heeseung,” you waved with a convincing smile.

“Bye, y/n,” he waved back.

Once you turned around, your smile instantly faded. “So gullible,” you said to yourself.

The study date was rolling around, and normally, you probably would have stopped the chase by now and moved on cause he was boring and not worth your time. He was cute, but his personality was vomit-inducing, but as you slowly broke down his walls brick by brick, the anticipation was building, and you knew by the time you finished with him, there’d be nothing left which would give you the ultimate satisfaction.

You didn’t just want to break him. You wanted to bring him to his knees.

Heeseung was as nervous as all get up since he’d be meeting with you today. Even though you chatted briefly throughout the week, he couldn’t seem to calm himself down around you.

“Look at you all dressed up,” heeseung’s mom cooed, watching her son fixing a few loose strands of hair in the living room mirror.

He just blushed and the comment and smiled bashfully.

He didn’t think he was too dressed up, but he’d be lying if he said he didn’t try a little harder than usual on his appearance. After all, today was the day he’d be studying with his crush.

His mom came closer and fixed the loose knot on his tie, getting a strong whiff of his father's cologne and smiling at his blushing face. “Who is she?” She said teasingly.

He pushed up the bridge of his glasses. There was no point in denying it. His mom could always see right through him anyway. “Her name is y/n. She's from one of my classes,” he explains nervously, fidgeting with his fingers.

His mom nods in understanding and doesn’t ask too many questions. She knew it’d only make him even more fidgety. “Don’t be nervous, pumpkin. I’m sure she’ll be happy to see you,” she reassures him kissing his cheek and sending him off with his lunchbox and his favorite apple juice.

“Thanks, Mom. I’ll see you later” he smiled and headed off to school.

Today is the day you thought.

Your place of business was at the school library, where your target unsuspectingly sat in the corner reading a huge textbook with his round frames perched atop his pointy nose.

You approached him slowly, and he noticed you in the corner of his eye. He quickly stood up once he noticed your presence and pulled out the chair next to him, gesturing for you to take a seat. “Hi, y/n,” he mustered up the courage to greet you first after you sat down.

“Hey, heeseung,” you said his name sweetly, and you could definitely see the blush on his face. You couldn’t help but wonder how just, within a few days, he had gotten more comfortable and completely let his guard down while he was around you.

Truth be told, after your apology for your earlier interactions with him, he felt a little more comfortable around you and figured people just liked to exaggerate when it came to spreading misinformation about you.

So far, from what he could see, none of those rumors had even been true, and you were a perfectly nice person.

“So what w-would you like to start off with?” He cleared his throat and lowered his head, feeling ashamed that he could barely even talk to you without stuttering.

“How about your favorite subject?” as soon as the words left your lips, he smiled brightly, maybe even a little too brightly.

“I’m so glad you asked!” He giddily rummaged through his bag, taking out loads of books and showing them to you excitedly, one by one, reading each of the titles to you out loud.

You smiled faintly. You’ve never seen someone so excited to study, not even Jake.

This was going to be interesting.

Three whole hours passed by, and to your surprise, you were actually having a really nice time. He patiently explained the things to you that you didn’t understand. His voice was soft and delicate as he took his own sweet time reading through paragraph after paragraph with perfect punctuation.

“Have you ever thought about being a teacher?” You asked genuinely curious cause he was scarily good at it. You learned more in these three hours with him than you had in all your other classes combined.

He blushed slightly and looked up at you. “M-me?” He pointed his index finger to his chest, and you nodded softly. “No, no, I could never,” he chuckled and shrunk back in his seat.

“Why’s that? You’re literally better than all my teachers, especially Jeon Jung, stupid kook” You rolled your eyes, causing heeseung to chuckle.

“He’s my least favorite too. He has such an odd way of explaining things. He makes everything more complicated than it really is,” you laughed along with him.

He looked at you, getting distracted by your pretty smile before he cleared his throat and answered your original question. “I don’t know. I just don’t think I could be. I’m sure, as you can see, not a lot of people like me, so…” he looked away from you, and you took note of the sadness in his eyes.

Instead of comforting him, you took his act of vulnerability and used it to your advantage. If this was years ago, you would have never even thought about doing something so evil but the new you didn’t care. “I like you” You put your hand on his thigh and rubbed it softly.

His breath hitched at your movement, and he looked down at your hand, swallowing thickly. “Y-you do?” He questioned, his tone slightly higher than before.

“How wouldn’t I?” you leaned into him closer, so close that your thigh was touching his, as you whispered to him. “You’re smart. You’re tall and handsome” You looked into his eyes and inched your hand up his thigh higher, dangerously high to be in such a public setting.

He looked at your eyes with his glazed-over ones completely transfixed by you. “You really think so?” You could smell the faint mint on his breath. That’s just how close you had gotten to him.

His eyes flickered to your lips as you reduced the space between the both of you to just a tiny little gap.

“I know so, who wouldn’t want someone as perfect as you?” You could tell he wanted to kiss you from the desperate look in his eyes. As he looked down at your inviting lips, you ghosted your lips over his, and he flinched from the contact.

To say he was nervous would be an understatement he could feel his entire body shaking as he clutched onto the side of his chair, squeezing it for dear life as he tried to press his lip’s against yours, only his glasses somehow slid down his nose at some point and got in the way slightly bumping your nose before your lips could fully meet. “S-sorry,” he quickly apologized with a tiny voice, heart nearly flying out from his rib cage, and as if things couldn’t get any worse, he hiccupped out of nowhere and startled you slightly. “Oh god, sorry, I’m so sorry” his eyes widened in fear as he looked down and held his head in his hands, completely horrified by what just happened. He had finally gotten his chance with you after all these years, and within seconds, he had just ruined it.

You unknowingly smile at his antics. It wasn’t that serious, but he was acting like it was the end of the world, you were thoroughly enjoying how nervous you were making him.

“I’m such an idiot,” he mumbled and started gathering his things, getting ready to leave. “I should go. I’m really sorry” You held his wrist and stopped him from getting up.

“Wait, would you like to try again?” You asked softly. You don’t know why, but you kinda felt bad, and you didn’t want him to go home and be embarrassed over something that there was nothing to even be embarrassed about.

“You w-want to? With me?” He had no idea how you could still even want anything to do with him after that public display of embarrassment.

“Of course, you silly. Who else?” You smiled while taking his glasses off and putting your hand behind his neck, bringing his face closer so you could kiss him properly this time.

He was timid about it at first, but he soon closed his eyes and firmly pressed his lip’s against yours for about three seconds. He leaned back and searched your face for any reaction.

You fluttered your eyes open, smiling at him, and that’s all it took to calm some of his nerves. He closed his eyes and did it again, surprising you with his slight assertiveness, but you gladly accepted his kiss and tugged softly on his hair. He breathed through his mouth, silently inviting you inside. He moaned into your mouth when he felt your tongue swirling around his, and maybe he wasn’t a virgin like you had initially thought cause he was a really good kisser.

He, unfortunately, broke the kiss first, but he had to. He was getting too overwhelmed by the taste of your sweet lips, and if he wasn’t careful enough, then he would have gotten fully hard in the school library. If that happened, he’d never be able to live it down. “Was that good?” He asked, looking at you with wide eyes, curiously waiting for your approval.

You didn’t even answer. You went back in for another kiss squeezing his thigh, and he moaned softly. “Is this okay?” You asked with your lips still on his, inching your hand higher and higher to the tent in his pants.

“Uhh,” he backed away slightly, and you figured you were a bit too eager, so you pulled back some.

“It’s okay. We don’t have to” You lowered your hand, but he quickly grabbed it and placed it over his bulge, groaning when you added slight pressure to the hyper-sensitive area.

“I want to,” he whispers. He knew full well it was way too soon to be engaging in such acts with you, but what could he say? He’s a twenty-one-year-old virgin with hormones that he can’t control.

You were surprised by how hard he was just from kissing you. You continued to palm over his clothed cock, and even through the thick material of his jeans, you could feel that he was big.

You started to have second thoughts about this. You didn’t want this to happen in public, let alone at the school you attended with him nearly every day. You were low, but this would be an all-time low even for you.

You removed your hand from between his legs, but he grabbed your wrist and placed your hand back over his crotch, only for you to move it again. “Why?” He whined.

“Not here, baby. Wanna come to my place?” You rushed out, the make-out session had you quite worked up as well, but in your defense, it had been a while since your last time.

“Yeah, I wanna,” He replied excitedly, packing up the rest of his stuff as quickly as possible.

You led the way to your apartment, impatiently fidgeting with your keys at the door.

You practically dragged him inside and took him to your bedroom right away. You pushed him back on your bed before he could even register what was happening.

He gasped in pure shock as he watched you quickly getting undressed. His eyes were glued to your body until you unclipped your bra, he hastily covered his eyes before he saw anything.

You giggled at his reaction and walked towards him to move his hands away from his face. The poor baby had gotten so red at just the mere sight of your bare tits, and you’re not sure how he’s gonna be able to handle you with nothing on. “You like?” You asked teasingly, he bit his lip while nodding his head, now shamelessly staring at your boobs and smiling like a complete dork.

You guided his hands to your breast so he could fondle them. He nervously cupped them in his large hands, squeezing on the soft flesh, you sighed in pleasure at the feeling of his warm palms rubbing all over your chest. “Further on the bed for me,” you instructed him after a few minutes while you worked on taking your bottoms off.

He did as you told him and rested his back against your headboard.

Even though he lacked experience, he didn’t need to be told what to do in a moment like this. Admittedly he had watched enough sex scenes in his life to know.

But still, that didn’t stop him from being a total nervous wreck.

He undressed himself along with you, whimpering softly when the material of his boxers brushed against his shaft. His cock rested on his tummy as pre cum pooled at the tip.

He sighed in relief after freeing himself from the tight restrictive material.

You finished taking your clothes off and when you looked up and saw him fully naked, lying down on your bed, you nearly drooled at the sight of his massive size.

Once he saw you staring a little too long, he shrunk back and slowly covered himself with his discarded boxers. He knew you’d probably been with other guys and that you were more than likely comparing his size to the men you were with before, which deflated whatever little self-esteem he had.

Insecurities and jealousy made its way into his system, and he was starting to rethink all of this.

You, on the other hand, were not rethinking anything at all, especially when you saw how good he looked, all laid out and ready for you. You couldn’t wait to feel him inside you cause you just knew he’d fill you up so well.

He tried to cover up, but you didn’t miss the way his cock twitched under his boxers, and you slowly peeled the material back so you could get a better look at his huge cock while you straddled his waist. “You’re so hard,” you whisper in amazement, running your fingers over his thick veiny shaft.

He shuddered from your touch, and he felt like he could pass out just from the overwhelming feeling of you sitting on top of him. He looked down between his legs, and you were not wrong. He was so hard that his tip was a deep red, and it was almost starting to feel painful from being like this for so long.

He blushed slightly from your comment, and his dick twitched again. You smiled and took him inside your palm, wrapping your fingers around his cock and jerking him off slowly. “Mmmh,” he moans, gripping at your bedsheets while tilting his head back in pleasure.

You giggle at his reaction and continue to pump his length. “Y/n, wait” he quickly gripped your wrist, stopping you from moving. “Please tell me you’re not just playing with me,” he breathed out, and he prayed that you wouldn’t get upset at his insinuation, but he just needed to know that you actually wanted him and this wasn’t all just a game for you.

“I’m not playing with you, baby,” you said emotionlessly as you lined yourself up with his tip, and just when you were about to sink down on him, his stupid phone rang.

“Oh no,” he looked at you with fear in his eyes as he realized he had lost track of time. He was supposed to be home at least an hour ago.

“Just forget it” You kissed his cheek.

“I can’t. I’m sorry, it’s my mom” he looked at you apologetically.

You leaned back and sighed, letting him take his stupid phone call.

He reached over to his pants pocket and pulled out his phone. “Hi, Mom!” he chirped.

You trailed kisses on his neck, and you could hear his moms' voice asking what time he’d be home. You smirked against his skin, wondering what his mom would think, knowing that you had her precious son lying under you in your bed minutes away from defiling him.

He squirmed as you were kissing him, trying his hardest not to make any suspicious sounds while he was on his phone.

“Are you still with y/n?” You stopped kissing him and froze at the mention of your name.

You couldn’t believe he told his mom about you.

He was thankful you had stopped kissing him cause now he could answer his mom properly. He took a deep breath to compose himself before he replied.

“Y-yeah, I’m sorry, Mom. I guess I just lost track of time. I’ll be home soon,” he informed her while trying to calm his beating heart, hoping he wasn’t in too much trouble for being out so late.

“Oh no, dear, it’s fine. It’s already so late. Maybe she’ll let you spend the night” By now, you were full-on listening to the conversation, and you nodded your head right away, letting him know he could spend the night.

His face lit up, and he looked genuinely happy. You zoned out the rest of the conversation while he was talking with his mom, and you were starting to have second thoughts about all of this. His mom literally trusted you enough with him to spend the night, and here you were just seconds away from crushing him, but you shook off those ridiculous thoughts. You were so close to completing your mission you couldn’t stop now.

He shyly thanked you for letting him stay the night after he ended the call. “My pleasure,” you say as you lean down to kiss his neck, licking and sucking under his earlobe earning whimpers from the trembling boy under you.

You noticed he was just kinda laying there, and when you looked up, you saw the hesitation in his eyes. “You can touch me. I don’t mind” You guided his hands to your waist, and he lightly rested them on your hips. You chuckled slightly. This was definitely a first for you. Normally, the guys you were with made the first move but with him, it was the complete opposite, and you couldn’t lie. You kinda liked it better this way. “Sweetheart, you’re not going to hurt me” You moved your hands from his pecs to cup his cheeks and peck him on the lips softly.

He laughed and loosened up a tiny bit, trailing his shaky hands up and down your curvy waist. “Okay, not gonna hurt you,” he told himself as he breathed out, looking everywhere except your chest, that was literally inches from his face.

You definitely knew there was something else that was making him hesitant, and it didn’t take long to figure out what it was.

“Is this your first time?” You asked cautiously, running your fingers through his hair to get him to relax a little.

“Yes,” he whispered as his eyes fluttered shut. Just when he thought you’d kick him out or make fun of him, you said something that made his heart feel at ease. “We’ll take it slow. I promise” You rubbed his cheek with the pad of your thumb. “If you ever want to stop, just grab my hand, okay?”

You waited a few more seconds, and he opened his eyes, nodding softly. “Okay”

You kissed his forehead and sat on top of him properly this time. He moaned out loud when he felt your core throbbing on top of his dick.

He squeezed your hips, whimpering softly as your slick coated his shaft.

You peppered his face with kisses giving him some more time to get used to the feeling before you started moving back and forth on him slowly. “Y/n… I don’t know” he closed his eyes tightly, trying to compose himself and settle his erratic heartbeat. “I don’t know if I can d-do this” Everything felt so sensitive and foreign, and it was all starting to become too overwhelming for him.

“Shh, sweetheart, I know you can just relax,” you reassured him while rolling your hips and feeling his thick length slipping through your wet slippery folds.

There wasn’t a word to describe what he was feeling right now. Everything was just too much. His heart was pounding in his chest, his body was trembling with anticipation, and all he could focus on was how beautiful you looked sitting on top of him. “You’re so beautiful” he looked at you with a shy smile as he sighed softly and nuzzled his face into your touch.

You felt something you haven’t felt in forever. For the first time in years, you were feeling butterflies from his simple words of endearment.

You ignored it, though. You just chalked it up to nerves since you hadn’t been with someone for a while. “Are you ready for me?” You asked quietly.

He just nodded, but you needed verbal confirmation, you were evil, but the last thing you wanted to do was pressure him into something he didn’t want to do. “Yes,” he whispered.

You didn’t want to just rush into it for his first time, but the ache between your legs was unbearable. You had never been this wet and impatient before.

You grabbed his length, aligning it with your entrance. You lifted yourself up slightly and sunk down on him with a little less ease than you had initially expected due to his sheer width.

He moaned as soon as his tip went in. He couldn’t control it. You felt so warm and tight around him. “Y/n I- you- oh god,” he whimpers in pleasure while looking up at you with his blown pupils. “It feels s-so good,” he panted.

“I know. Feels so good for me, too, sweetheart” he held your thighs for support as you slowly rocked your hips. “You’re so big, heeseung.” You moan his name lewdly.

“T-thank you” he blushed at your comment, his neck and chest turning a bright shade of red from your compliment.

You leaned back, putting your palms onto his thighs to hold yourself up while grinding on his cock. You moaned from the feeling of his tip reaching so deep inside you. Your head was already spinning from the overwhelming sensation you’d never felt anyone as deep as you felt him.

The sight in front of him was magical. Your body was literally perfect to him. The way your tits bounced up and down while you threw your head back, moaning his name in pleasure as you rode him, was utterly mesmerizing.

Don’t get him wrong, he was loving every last little bit of this, but he felt as if something was missing. He just couldn’t place his finger on it.

You noticed how he was less vocal than before, and you sat up from your position sitting on top of him once again. “You okay?” He just nodded his head slightly, but you could tell something was off about his behavior. He was very expressive, so he wasn’t a hard guy to read. “Just tell me, baby, it’s okay, I promise” You don’t even know why but ever since you found out he was a virgin, you felt this odd sense of responsibility to take care of him and make his first time memorable.

“I want to kiss you, but you’re too far away,” he mumbled with a pout on his face.

Adora- never mind.

You nodded and lifted yourself off of him gently so you could switch to a position that might be more comfortable for him. “Lay down” he laid flat on his back, resting his head on your pillows, giving you a quizzical look while doing so.

You lay between his legs and held onto his thighs, signaling for him to lift them up slightly. You leaned down and kissed him. You could feel him smiling into the kiss, and so were you.

He spread his legs open at your sides, loosely wrapping them around your lower body. “Can I?” He asks you timidly while grabbing his length between your bodies and rubbing himself through your folds to get wet enough to push back inside of you comfortably.

“Please do” he messily pushed his tip in and bucked his hips upwards, filling you up again. “Mmm, so good,” you breathed out. You’ve never felt so full before. He was definitely the best you’ve ever had by far.

He moved his hand back up to your waist once he was nestled deep inside of you, and confidently strummed his fingertips along your bare sides.

You began thrusting yourself on his cock, loving how the new angle gave you even more control over him. “Better?” You questioned with your now swollen lips above his.

“Yes,” he whimpers at the feeling of your walls dragging against his cock so perfectly it hadn’t even been a minute, and he was already so close. “Y/n” Just after he said your name, he was moaning loudly into your mouth as he came inside you without any warning whatsoever.

You rested your forehead on his while he was panting and moaning. You could feel him twitching and pulsating as he shot his hot seed into you, and you’ve never felt a better feeling. You bit your lip in pure ecstasy while listening to his moans as his warmth invaded your insides and slowly started seeping out of you.

Once he was finished, he opened his eyes painfully slow, feeling upset with himself for cumming first. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to” his lip wobbled, and you swore it made your heart ache to see him beating himself up over something he really had no control over.

“No baby, don’t be. It’s normal for your first time” Your reassurance helped him feel a little bit more at ease, but he still felt disappointed with himself. He was silent for a few moments. You gave him some time to calm down a bit as you stroked his cheek lovingly. You didn’t even realize the longer you spent in bed with him, the more you were starting to fall for him. “Please don’t be upset, sweetheart, it’s okay” Your heart has never felt this heavy in years, and you’re not even sure why you felt such a strong need to cheer him up and make him feel better about himself, but you did.

Once he saw the concern written on your face, he was filled with worry and instantly hugged you out of nowhere, hugs always made him feel better, so he thought maybe that would work for you too. You melted into his embrace and kissed him reassuringly. “Is it okay if we try again? I won’t mess up this time,” he whispered in your ear, causing a shiver to run down your spine.

“You didn’t mess up, baby. You did so good, but if you want, we can still try” You kissed his shoulder.

“Let’s try.” He said determined.

You slowly lifted yourself up off his chest, pecking him on the lips as you gently rocked against him. He had already gotten hard again within seconds.

You maintained intense eye contact with him, sensually bucking your hips into him in your dimly lit bedroom.

“Slower, please,” he whines with furrowed eyebrows gritting his teeth from the stimulation. “I just don’t want it to end,” he confesses.

“Me neither, hee, you’re making me feel so good” his heart rate increased by a thousand at the nickname you had just absentmindedly given him.

Unfortunately, now it was you who was on edge. Your clit brushing against his abdomen was making your toes curl in pleasure, and you couldn’t take much more.

The wetness of his previous orgasm made it easier for you to penetrate yourself on his cock as you thrust back and forth on him with ease.

He blushed at the lewd sticky sounds of arousal biting on his lower lip the louder they got with each one of your sensual thrusts.

You ran your fingers up his slim thighs tickling his sweaty flesh as he arched his back off the bed, unintentionally thrusting into you, making you both gasp and moan in pleasure.

“Kiss me again, please,” he begged in a soft voice as he wrapped his arms around you, hugging you close to his chest.

You instantly gave into his wishes and lowered yourself on your elbows, connecting your lips with his.

Halfway through the make-out session, your orgasm was approaching quickly, and he tightened his legs around you when you involuntarily clenched down on him.

He was twitching inside you again, and you could tell he was close, especially from how his mouth was hung open and he was moaning desperately into the kiss.

You couldn’t hang on anymore. You let go allowing your orgasm to finally wash over you. “Oh heeseung,” you cried out his name so soft and vulnerable.

You clenched around him so tight that he couldn’t resist the strong urge to cum, but he still tried. “Y/n I-“

“It’s okay. Let Go. It’s okay,” you repeated over and over again, guiding him through his high as you felt him squirting his warm cum inside you for the second time tonight, and you were already hooked on the feeling.

He whimpers in your ear when you rest your head beside him, breathing heavily while you ride out your orgasms together.

“Breathe, baby” You could feel his heart beating against your chest and his body shaking under you. You ran your fingers through his sweaty hair to soothe him as he hummed into your neck, taking deep breaths and inhaling your scent.

You lay like that for a few minutes until his breathing steadied out a bit. “Did you like it?” You ask nervously for some reason, maybe because deep in the back of your mind, you were scared you weren’t able to give him a good first-time experience.

This was so uncharacteristic of you. Normally your clothes would have been on, and you would have kicked him out the door, but you couldn’t even think about doing something so harsh to him, and on top of that, the warmth of his embrace felt too good to let go of him any time soon.

“I umm,” he stumbles over his words going back to his shy self once he is able to calm down a bit more.

Your heart skipped a beat. What if he didn’t enjoy it? An unnerving feeling settled in the pit of your stomach at the thought.

He was nervously searching for the right answer good would be an understatement, but there was no word to describe the pleasure you just had given to him, but he still tried to. “It was perfect,” he finally said, and you felt a sense of relief wash over you. “How was it for you?” He asks timidly, feeling the same emotions you had felt. He just prayed that it felt as good for you as it did for him.

“It was amazing” You leaned back to see the giddy smile on his face, and you felt your heart melt.

You.

Were.

Fucked.

It had been a day since then, and apparently, heeseung had plans, so you didn’t see him today, which was actually great for you cause you needed time to think about what the hell you had gotten yourself into.

“What are you thinking about?” Jake gave you a good minute before speaking again when you didn’t answer him the first time around. “Earth to y/n,” he waved his hand back and forth.

You snapped out of your daydream and looked at your friend. “Hmm?”

“I said what are you thinking about? You’ve been spaced the heck out this whole time.”

“I'm thinking,” you reply and take his apple off his lunch tray.

“Oh, you don’t say,” he glared at you.

“Fine, me and heeseung had sex” You rushed out and looked at Jake with wide eyes at the realization of what you just spilled out.

“And?” He looks at you, confused. This was nothing new for you.

“And I think I fucking like him” You reached across the table and grabbed jakes collar looking at him with crazy eyes.

“Oh,” is all he says.

“Oh? That’s all you have to say is fucking oh!” You shouted and drew the attention of the whole cafeteria.

“I c-can barely b-breathe,” you notice the red hue on his face and let him go apologetically.

“Oops,” you giggled. "sorry."

Jake took a deep inhale, trying to process what you were saying. “You what now?” His voice was hoarse, and he took a sip of water before loosening his tie.

“Ok, so the other day, we studied for like three hours, and one thing led to another, so I took him back to my place,” you explained.

“So that’s why you didn’t answer my calls” Jake taps his chin. “Now it makes sense.”

You looked at him with an unamused expression. “Are you fucking serious?” You can’t believe he was paying more attention to the fact you missed his calls than the fact you might actually like someone since your ex.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” he chuckled awkwardly and cleared his throat. “Continue”

“We were about to do it, but his mom called, but then she let him spend the night 'cause he told her I was a friend, and then we fucked” you sighed. “Very slow and sensually, passionately even, and then we cuddled and kissed for like another hour before going to sleep, and I think I like him” (you definitely weren’t going to tell him you went two more rounds in said hour he didn’t need to know all that) you went through every emotion right before your best friends eyes, and you felt like you were going to go crazy.

“Woah, that’s heavy” he took another deep inhale.

You just pouted and slouched in your chair.

“Hey, it’s okay” Jake was quick to sit next to you and pat your shoulder comfortingly.

You looked at him, and it didn’t take long for him to recognize that look. He knew you were just seconds away from crying. “Oh, come here, you poor thing,” he side-hugged you, and you rested your head on his shoulder while he stroked your back.

“I’m scared, Jakey,” you admitted.

“Why?” He whispers, ignoring the people staring at you two in the cafeteria.

“Cause I don’t think I can take being hurt again,” you sniffled.

“Y/n, not everyone is like him,” he says, referring to your ex. You both swore never to say his name again. “I’m sure heeseung is not that guy. I mean, as you said, he talks to himself about astronomy. He can’t be a bad guy,” Jake added, making you giggle.

That’s true. He wasn’t a bad guy. He was literally a sweetheart. No matter how much you tried to ignore it, everything about him attracted you, even his stupid little romance novels he tried to hide from you. You liked how passionate he was about what he liked. You love how awkward yet caring he was, and somehow even after hearing all those things about you, he still trusted you with his body, his feelings, and, most importantly, his heart.

After doing a little more thinking, you might have even liked him since the very beginning. As much as you tried to deny it by telling yourself you didn’t like his personality, in reality, it was a lie.

It was you trying to suppress feelings that you promised yourself you’d never feel again, but how could you not like him? He was adorable, and the little conversations he had with his mom made your heart swell. You had only spent a short time with him, but it was enough for you to fall for him.

And now that you have come to that realization, you know he was too good for you. He deserved someone equally as great as him, and you were far from that. You were the opposite, and after what you’ve done to so many others, you didn’t deserve to love, and you definitely didn’t deserve to be loved.

“I know you’re thinking hard about it, and I just want you to know that I’m here for you no matter what, okay?” He kissed the top of your head gently.

“Thank you, Jake,” you whispered.

“Anything for my little sister”

You had already texted heeseung the very next day to come over to your place so you could end this.

You couldn’t string him along longer than you already had. You were going to end it now. If you could go back in time and erase all this, then you surely would have.

Cause he, out of all people, didn’t deserve to get his heart broken.

♫I'll put you down slow. Love you, goodbye♫

If there was a bright side to this, though, it would be cutting him out of your life now so he didn’t waste any more of his precious time on an undeserving person like you.

He immediately agreed to meet at your place after school. He was feeling so nervous, but he was also so excited to see you again.

When he saw your text earlier, he blushed, thinking back to when he spent the night at your place.

He remembered it like it was yesterday. Well, technically, it had only been like two days, but still.

He couldn’t stop smiling on his way to see you, and before he could make it out the door, his mom was teasing him. “Date night already?” She noticed his attire just like before he had made it a point to dress up for you.

“Mom!” He whined and stomped his foot like a little kid.

“I’m only teasing you. You look handsome as always” She couldn’t help but smile at how bright and lively her son looked.

“Thanks, Mom,” he chuckled and headed to the door. “Hey, mom?” He calls her a little hesitantly.

“Yes, pumpkin?” She answers him with her usual sweet tone.

“Can I come home an hour later?” He asked.

“Oh, I don’t know. Isn’t that kinda late?” His curfew was already eight, and nine would really be pushing it.

“I know, Mom, but just this one time, please? I’ll even clean the house for a whole week” She saw the pleading look in his eyes, and how could she say no to such an adorable little face?

“Okay, fine, but no later than nine, young man” he rushes over to her and quickly pecks her on the cheek.

“I love you, mom, no later than nine, I promise!”

She watched him giddily running out the door with a huge smile on his face.

She remembers before when heeseung used to be a baby and had absolutely zero friends at school.

Those times were the hardest.

He was always so quiet when he came home from school she automatically took notice of how being an outcast was affecting him and took it upon herself to be his playmate.

She built Legos with him and even took him to the park with his dad to play basketball. Over the years, she quickly became his best friend and, sadly, his only friend.

Her heart ached for him, but at least he was happier after she started hanging out with him. She just wished someone would notice him. Sure, he was shy and reserved, but he was a sweet person. If anyone just took the time to see past his cute round frames and nerdy little exterior, they’d grow to love him in no time.

And apparently, you were that person that saw through it all.

Heeseung was always happy no matter what, but she could see the glow literally radiating off him after meeting you. She had no problem being there for heeseung, but a boy his age needed friends and to live a school life, not take her out to brunch every Sunday. She enjoyed all the time she spent with him, but she just really wanted to see him happy with someone else that wasn’t her or his father.

And she knew you must really be a special girl to have him acting like this. He was more outgoing and less shy about expressing himself. He spoke with so much more confidence, and she was forever grateful for you. Now her baby had someone to hang out with and something to laugh and talk about during dinner time, and maybe she’d just have to meet this one and only y/n someday.

You heard the soft knock on your door. It pained you so much to do this, but you had to. He didn’t deserve to hang around someone like you longer than he already had.

You could barely get your door open before heeseung was holding you close to his body and pressing his lip’s against yours. You didn’t have the power to even pull away cause his kisses were too addicting.

He stumbled into your apartment, and you shut the door behind him, messily pulling on his hair and deepening the kiss as he stuck his tongue inside your mouth, kissing you feverishly, kissing you like he hadn’t kissed you for years, yet it's only been two days he breathed heavily against your mouth as his nose brushed against yours every now and then.

He finally pulled away to give you a breather. “Sorry, I just missed you” his warm breath fanned across your face. “A lot,” he smiled sheepishly.

“Me too” You put your hands on his waist, and you heard him whimper slightly when you turned him around and backed him up against the couch. He fell back softly, and you straddled him, never disconnecting your lips from his for even a second.

He put his hands on your waist just like the other night bringing your body closer to his.

Once you felt his lips on yours, you completely forgot what you even called him over for, just his presence alone made you forget about everything else in the world except you and him.

He abruptly cut off the kiss. “Do you want to study?” Yes, it was random, he knew that, but the last thing he wanted was for you to think he only wanted to come over and have sex again. Sure, that would be a major plus, but he’d go home happy after just spending a few hours of quality time with you.

You laughed softly, and you thought only he could change the mood so quickly from a lust-filled kiss to a sweet innocent request for you to be his study Buddy, but that’s one of the many things that attracted you to him no matter what he was always so genuine and even if he was uncomfortable he’d still say what’s on his mind.

You pushed his glasses back up to the bridge of his nose. “Sure,” you smiled and pecked his little cupid's bow.

Heeseung was a little hesitant to speak about this topic with you so soon, but he knew he could trust you. “My mom said she likes you” he broke the silence while writing down notes.

“You talk to your mom about me?” You asked, a little shocked, but you should have already known by the way he talked to her over the phone.

He shrunk back a little at the sound of your voice, mistaking your shocked tone for an angry one, and maybe this was a bad topic to bring up after all. “N-nevermind,” you noticed the sad look on his face and quickly cleared up what you meant.

“Sweetheart, I’m just shocked, that’s all,” you reassured him by placing your palm on his cheek and kissing him softly. You visibly watched him relax under your gentle touch.

“Maybe you two could meet sometime?” He said feeling hopeful.

“I don’t know, baby,” you say reluctantly.

“I-it’s fine. It's just I never brought anyone home before” he paused before speaking again. “My mom is just excited that I’m finally talking to someone, and I know it’d make her so happy if you came over, but yeah, just forget I said anything,” he fake laughed, trying to act like he wasn’t hurt but you could still see the frown on his face.

You hated seeing him down like that, so like a dumbass, you were setting up a date to meet his mom even though you knew you’d never actually go. You just wanted to see him happy again. “Actually, I'll check my schedule” You ruffled his hair, and just like that, he was smiling that beautiful smile once again.

“Really?” He said excitedly. “I know she’ll fall in love with you right away.”

The guilt was slowly building inside you at this point, and you’re not sure if you've ever felt this bad in your whole entire life.

How were you going to break up whatever this was that you and him had after this?

“And maybe I could meet your friend too?” He was tilting his head curiously while asking you.

You just smiled and nodded. He went back to writing down notes with a smile on his face while kicking his feet cause he couldn’t contain his excitement.

Yeah, you definitely never felt this bad.

Heeseung was walking to your and jakes table in the cafeteria with a nervous smile on his face, and it didn’t leave even after he sat down.

Jake was looking between the two of you, doing his best to contain his smile at how awkward you both were. He decided to help you both out a bit. “You must be the infamous heeseung,” Jake says.

“Y-yes,” heeseung mutters and offers a smile, still not being able to meet your friend's gaze.

“I’m Jake. It’s nice to finally meet you y/n told me about you.” Heeseung wiped his palm on his slacks and shook Jake's hand timidly.

The boy had gone red at the thought of you talking about him to your best friend. “Nice to m-meet you” he glanced up at Jake, who was smiling brightly at him, which made him feel just a bit more comfortable.

“I can see why y/n likes you” Jake chuckles and looks at you. “He’s adorable,” he mouthed to you while heeseung was still looking down. You smiled a little happy that Jake was approving of him so far. “I don’t see how you like her, though” Jake laughed, and you glared at him playfully.

Heeseung looked at you, and he didn’t know if Jake was joking or not, so he stayed silent.

Jake cleared his throat once he saw the older boy’s indifferent expression. “I’m only joking!” he patted Heeseung on the back, and he laughed awkwardly. “You looked like you were going to beat me up.” He joked.

Heeseung’s eyes widened in fear he’d never lay a finger on anyone in a harmful manner. “Again, I’m only joking” Jake could definitely see the boy's uneasiness, so he backed off and changed the topic. “So y/n told me you hung out the other day. What did you two study?”

Heeseung was full-on blushing, remembering that studying definitely wasn’t all you two did that night.

Jake looked at you, and you weren’t any better off. Neither of you were giving him much to work with to avoid any more awkward situations. “Physics is my favorite subject,” he adds, hoping to get either of you to say anything at this point.

Heeseung’s ears perked up at the mention of physics. “Mine too!” You rolled your eyes playfully at these two nerds in front of you. Of course, they would bond over school.

As they talked on and on about different school subjects, you tuned them out, just watching heeseung’s face light up as he held a proper conversation. You were happy that he wasn’t on the outside looking in anymore. Now he was a part of his own little circle, and you were thankful that your best friend was nice enough to give heeseung a chance cause you know not many would.

Heeseung’s phone rang, and you were knocked from your little trance. “Oh, that’s my mom. Sorry I have to go now, but I’ll see you Tomorrow?” He asked Jake as he was packing up his bag.

“I’ll be here,” Jake replied and gave heeseung a tiny wave.

Heeseung gave you a soft peck on your cheek before leaving. “Bye,” he waved to you both with a blush on his face, and just like that, he was out of sight.

♫Everyone says I look happy When it feels right♫

“You look happy,” Jake teased, and you just blushed, not bothering to address his playful comment. “If you get rid of him, I’ll kill you,” Jake said, and for once, you couldn’t tell if he was joking or not.

You saluted and chuckled. “Yes, captain”

You tiredly dragged yourself out of bed. You couldn’t get any sleep after thinking about heeseung all night.

You had no idea what to do, especially after he met Jake. How were you going to tell your best friend about breaking things off with heeseung after he told you he liked him?

You shook it off and did your daily routine. You’d find a way around it somehow.

Your phone was ringing loudly from your bedroom, and you shuffled back to your bed, clearing your throat to get rid of your morning voice before answering. “Hi, y/n” You heard his sweet, honey-like voice across the line, and you swore your heart skipped a bit.

“Hey, sweetheart,” you replied back just as sweetly as you took a seat on your bed.

“Do you want to come over? I-I mean, My parents took a mini vacation, and they won’t be home for a while, so I was wondering if you maybe wanted to keep me company?” He rushed out, anxious to hear what you had to say.

♫Before you let go, just one more time♫

“Sure, what time, baby?” It couldn’t hurt to see him. You were already in a fucked up position, so spending one more day with him wouldn’t make a difference. Right?.

“Can you come over now?” He whined cutely.

“Of course,” you smiled even though he couldn’t see you.

“Okay, I’ll send you the address. See you soon!”

“Bye, baby,” you chuckled. He had already hung up before you could even reply. Just as you were about to get up, your phone rang again. “Hello?” You said with a tiny giggle.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to hang up. I guess I was too excited to send the address” Without even being able to see him, you could tell he was fidgeting with that cute little nervous look on his face.

God, he was so adorable. “It’s okay, baby” You smiled at his thoughtfulness. “I’ll see you soon, yeah?”

“Yeah,” he breathed out. Just the sound of your voice was giving him butterflies. “Bye, baby”

Now you were feeling butterflies. Did he just call you baby? This boy was going to be the death of you. “Bye, hee”

You plopped face down on your pillows, screaming into the soft material and kicking your feet like a love-struck teenager. “What’s happening to me?” You rolled over on your back and stared up at the ceiling clutching your racing heart.

♫Flowers in hand, waiting for me♫

Once you arrived, heeseung greeted you at the door immediately. “Hey, baby,” he blushed as he extended his hands out to you with a bouquet of flowers in his hand.

“Hi!” You smiled brightly and wrapped your hands around his waist as he welcomed your hug. “You smell good,” you giggled.

“Thank you” he whispered.

You pulled back from the hug, taking the flowers from him to smell them, and they were absolutely lovely. “They’re beautiful, thank you.”

“You’re welcome.” He closed the door behind you and awkwardly scratched his nape.

“You’re so cute” You couldn’t contain your smile. Everything he did was just too adorable.

Lee heeseung, why do you have to be so lovable?

“T-thank you,” he blushed while taking your hand in his leading you to his bedroom.

It didn’t take you long to get comfortable on his bed in his room. He was currently resting his head on your lap, telling you about his plans for the week while he had the house all to himself. You ran your fingers through his soft hair, and the boy couldn’t help but get distracted by your touch.

His eyes fell shut, and he let out a soft breath. He didn’t mean to, but he was getting just a little bit excited below the belt, and he moaned quietly when your fingertips brushed past his ear.

You looked at him and smiled slightly. He looked so good with his dusty blonde hair. He swallowed thickly when you stroked his cheek, and your eyes darted to his prominent Adam’s apple. You unknowingly licked your lips at the sight, your eyes raking over the rest of his body that was sprawled out on his bed, and you didn’t miss the bulge that his khaki pants did absolutely nothing to hide.

He looks up at you with a desperate expression on his face hoping you’d get the hint.

You didn’t need him to say anything to know what he needed. “Sit back for me, sweetheart” You loved how he did anything you said without even asking questions cause that’s how much he trusted you, but at the same time, you felt so guilty.

You lay between his legs leveling your face with his crotch, lightly kissing over the bulge in his pants. “O-oh,” he gripped at his bed sheets, and you looked up at him, watching the way his muscles flexed thanks to the lack of sleeves on his white tank top.

Slowly you ran your palm over his hard cock, feeling it twitch under your hand. “Up” You tapped his thigh, and he lifted his hips up, allowing you to easily remove his bottoms, revealing his delicious cock. “So pretty," you said to yourself, but he heard it somehow, and of course, like any other compliment you gave him, it made him blush.

“Thank you,” he whispered.

Gosh, he was literally the cutest.

You kissed all the way up his shaft until you reached the tip, tasting the first bead of precum that pooled at his slit.

His body was already on fire, and every touch was making him feel little sparks on every inch of his body. “Ah~” his mouth fell open, and he moaned from the feeling of your tongue tracing over the veins on his hard cock.

You opened wide and took him halfway inside your mouth, sucking him off slowly. You moaned around his cock, satisfied with the little sounds he was making just for you.

♫ Won't call me by name, only baby♫

“Baby…” he looked at you, sitting between his legs. He let out a low groan, and he refused to believe that he was anywhere but heaven right now.

You lowered your hands from his thighs so you could fondle his full balls. You caressed them softly while hallowing your cheeks to take him deeper down your throat.

His sounds were driving you absolutely wild, and the way his cock rested heavily on your tongue felt nothing short of amazing. “Y/n?” He grabbed your hand so you would stop, and you immediately pulled off of him.

“What’s wrong?” You ask him with worry stroking his hand with your thumb while he squeezes yours lightly.

“Nothing, it’s just I didn’t want to, you know…” he trailed off shyly, and you knew what he was getting at.

“Baby, don’t worry, just enjoy yourself” You winked at him playfully, and just like that, your pretty plump lips were wrapped around him as you started sucking on his dick once again.

As soon as your lips made contact again, he knew he wasn’t going to last much longer. “Oh god, I think I’m gonna- so- so close,” he warned you. He tried to push you back cause he didn’t want to cum in your mouth without your permission, but you moved his hand away, and not even a second later, he came down your throat with loud, broken moans. His sounds only increased in volume when you gently squeezed his balls and sucked him through his high.

You closed your eyes, focusing on the way he tasted. It was salty with a hint of sweetness, and you could have sworn you never had anything better inside your mouth than his warm cum.

After you felt the faint pulsating of his cock disappear, you pulled off him with a quiet pop licking the corners of your lips.

♫Take off your clothes, pretend that it's fine. A little more hurt won't kill you♫

He had his hands outstretched to you, silently asking you to come closer. You stood up momentarily and undressed. He used the opportunity to quickly pull off his tank top, leaving him completely naked you smiled and climbed back on top of him. “Was tha-" he cut you off by pressing his lips on yours, kissing you in a way he hadn’t before. It was sloppy wet messy, and rushed. You could feel how eager he was to kiss you by the way he was gripping tightly onto your waist.

He wanted to tell you so much, but he just couldn’t stop kissing you long enough to convey just how strong his feelings were for you.

He didn’t even give you space to breathe. He just held you closer, tighter, and kissed you rougher.

You willfully gave in and didn’t even try to resist anymore. He groaned when he tasted himself on your tongue as he dug his nails into your sides while unknowingly bucking his hips into your core.

He couldn’t help but moan out loud when you met him halfway, rutting yourself against his growing cock.

He didn’t know what came over him, but he suddenly flipped you over, and now he was on top of you for the first time ever. He clasped your hands with his while grinding his crotch into you.

The kiss was a complete mess drool was leaking at the corners of both of your lips. His breathing was rapid and unstable, but neither of you cared at this moment. Every single thing you did to each other felt perfect. “I need you s-so bad,” he panted.

“Take me. I’m all yours” he looked down at you with eyes full of need, and it only occurred to him that he was suddenly in the dominant position, and a nervous feeling began settling in his stomach.

You immediately noticed his unsure expression, and he was so thankful when you flipped him over and got back on top, taking charge of him once again. “Good?”

“Good,” he agreed with a tiny smile on his face. You were both in the same position when it was his first time, he grabbed his base and angled his tip at your entrance, pushing it in slowly, You were so wet that he easily slipped inside you with little to no resistance, filling you up just the way you needed.

Neither of you uttered a word. You only stared deeply into each other's eyes with your mouths parted in pleasure.

You rocked back and forth on him slowly at first, but you quickly got used to the feeling of his thick cock stretching you open and you rolled your hips faster.

His face was so precious, all twisted in pleasure, eyes deeply focused on you as you rode him.

He coyly moved his hands around your body, kneading your bottom with his large hands. He bit his lip softly, groaning as your walls contracted around him.

Usually, it took a while for you to cum with others, but with him, it was nothing. It had only been minutes, but that knot in your stomach was all too telling of the orgasm that was soon to come.

You moved your hand from his shoulder and gripped his wrist, guiding his hand to your clit. You threw your head back in pleasure. As soon as his warm fingers brushed over your nub he felt you squeezing around him tightly.

You picked up the pace, and he instinctively circled your clit faster and faster. You knew he was a quick learner, but not that quick. “Is that okay?” He asked, making sure you were feeling good too.

“Yes, baby,” you cupped his cheek, kissing him roughly as you felt your legs starting to give out due to your high coming in hot. “Don’t stop, hee. Please, I’m so close.”

He twitched at the sound of your voice when you called him baby. He absolutely loved it when you called him that.

He wasn’t thinking about stopping after hearing your moans of pleasure. He rubbed your clit even faster, and that sent you over the edge immediately. You clenched around him, triggering his own orgasm right after yours. “I’m cumming” he whispered breathlessly while filling you up with his seed, the convulsions of your pussy milking him until you were filled to the absolute brim with his sweet release.

“Heeseung,” you tiredly choked out his name through your sounds of ecstasy. You have never felt such a strong orgasm before. You couldn’t stop convulsing around him even if you tried.

“Baby,” he moaned while drawing out your nickname, you heard him sobbing quietly from the overwhelming orgasm.

You could feel him shaking with pleasure as his cum flowed into you like a never-ending stream. He painted your walls with spurt after spurt of his hot white release, making you feel warm inside and out.

You collapsed on his chest, your body still trembling with pleasure.

His bedroom fell silent only heavy breaths could be heard as you gently caressed each other's sweat-covered bodies.

About ten minutes later, you gained enough energy to get from on top of him, not worrying about the mess you both made on his sheets. After he pulled out of you, you both lay beside each other, and he covered you with the blankets holding you close to his side as he looked at you with a huge grin on his face. “I was scared of you for no reason” he carefully stroked your cheek with his thumb as he spoke softly. “You’re not a bad person at all.” He giggled.

You smiled at that, but boy, was he so wrong about you.

“You’re an angel,” he continued letting all his feelings pour out like an endless waterfall. “How did I get so lucky to have someone like you?”

His words were just a reminder of what you were slowly working up the courage to do, and you felt sick as tears welled in your eyes, but you fought them back. Instead of giving him an answer, you leaned in and pecked his lips, and his face instantly lit up like a christmas tree.

“D-do you umm… want to take a bath with me?” He asked tiredly, still stroking your cheek with his thumb as a blush dusted his cheeks.

“Sure” he got up and reached for your hand, helping you up out of his bed.

“Hee!” You squealed when he picked you up and walked you to his bathroom.

His loud laugh echoed in the tiled restroom as he set you down carefully. He kissed your cheek before running the warm water for you both.

You caught a glimpse of yourself in the mirror, and your smile instantly faded. You turned away, too ashamed of the reflection that stared back at you in your attempt to cut him out of your life. You had only got closer to him, and now you didn’t know how you’d be able to stay away from him, especially when he was smiling so sweetly at you and offering you his hand to help you inside the tub with him.

As you lay pressed against his warm chest feeling his gentle heartbeat on your back and the soft touches he left all over your body, all you could think was that you could stay like this forever.

Weeks had gone by since that night, and so many events had taken place heeseung had taken you on a date and worked up the courage to ask you to be his girlfriend, and you couldn’t find it in your heart to tell him no cause you knew it would crush his little heart.

It’s funny, isn’t it?

The reason you even talked to him in the first place was to destroy him break him down til there was nothing left, and now you were doing everything in your power just to make sure he had a smile on his face at all times you had even met his mom, and she was the sweetest lady ever. You knew exactly where heeseung got his kindness from. They were both literally angels.

♫ Baby, angels like you can't fly down here with me♫

And here you were, the devil in disguise.

You still haven’t told Jake about anything, at least not yet, anyways.

You were all currently sitting on the living room floor in a circle playing go fish at your place. Jake and heeseung had also grown closer over the months, and it warmed your heart to see they acted like real brothers.

You remember after heeseung first met Jake. He was nervously asking you. “Do you think Jake likes me?” He twiddled his fingers, hoping for a good response. “I hope he does,” he mumbles.

You just giggled at your boyfriend’s cuteness and pinched his cheeks. “He wouldn’t stop asking when you’re gonna have lunch with us again” heeseung smiled brightly after hearing that. “So yes, I think he likes you,” you added with a smile.

There was no one happier in the world than lee heeseung. After befriending you and Jake, not only did you like him, but so did your best friend. He finally felt like he belonged after all this time. He finally found people that he liked, loved even and people that he could trust.

Finally, for once in his life, he didn’t feel like an outcast. He finally felt acknowledged, and that’s all he’s ever longed for.

“No peaking,” Jake giggled and held his cards to his chest.

“Do you have a…….” You drew out the question, wondering which card you could ask for, not that it really mattered. Your hand was literally full of cards. “A nine?”

“You’re in luck” Jake passed you his nine, and you got rid of just one of the many cards in your hand, leaving Jake with two cards.

Heeseung had one card left, and he needed just one more pair to empty his hand and win. “Okay, does anyone have a” He looked back and forth between you and Jake, building the suspense for absolutely no reason other than to tease you both like he always had. You were both on the edge of your invisible seats, waiting for him to say which card he needed. “Wait, I have to go to the restroom” You and Jake both let out exaggerated sighs and groans, and heeseung just giggled. “No cheating, I trust you guys” he left his last card on the carpet, trusting you guys not to look at it or even change it, for that matter.

You sighed and picked at the carpet, waiting for your boyfriend to get back, and Jake noticed the uneasy look on your face right away. “I know that look, what’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” you lied literally everything was wrong.

“Come on, y/n, you know you can talk to me” he was right. If anyone could keep a secret, it was Jake, but he was the one you were keeping the secret from, but it was time for you to come clean about everything.

“Please don’t kill me when I tell you this” Jake was searching your face waiting for you to laugh, but you never did. He just nodded his head and let you continue. “So you know how I was deciding if I was going to continue to see heeseung, right?” Jake nodded again, and you sighed. “I’m going to break up with him soon,” you said dreadfully, knowing full well your friend’s reaction wouldn’t be good at all.

“What the fuck, y/n?” You quickly shushed him, and he lowered his voice. “I thought you were done with that shit. You said you liked him. What the hell happened?” Jake whisper, shouted in anger.

♫I know that you're wrong for me♫

“I know, I know, and I do like him, but he deserves better,” you groaned and held your head in your hand while sighing as a painful expression made its way to your features at just the mention of breaking up with him.

Jake's expression softens at your reason for wanting to break up, and his heart never ached for anyone more than you right now. He couldn't imagine how you were feeling. “Y/n,” he sighs. “Don’t go so hard on yourself, okay?” You nodded your head, but your mind was already made up.

“It’ll be better for all of us this way” You smiled sadly. If Jake knew anything about you, he knew that whenever you said something, you meant it, but that doesn’t mean he always agreed with it, especially right now.

Jake just sighed and put his hand on your shoulder, squeezing it lightly. “Don’t worry, it’ll be okay” he was sure going to miss the hell out of that kid and the late-night gaming/studying session he had with him, but you were his best friend. He had to stand by you no matter what happened. “When are you going to break up with him?”

Heeseung was just coming back from the restroom. He had taken a bit longer than usual to keep adding to the suspense of the outcome of the game, knowing how easily it ruffled both of your feathers.

Just before he turned the corner, he heard you and Jake whispering about something, and he didn’t know why, but he stopped to listen, and he almost wished he hadn’t. “Break up with who?” He whispered, revealing himself from behind the door.

Your stomach dropped when you saw him standing there with a confused look on his face.

Jake froze in place, not having the courage to even look at heeseung.

“Who are you guys talking about?” Heeseung’s lip trembled as he tried his hardest to fight back his tears, praying that this wasn’t what he thought it was. “Baby, answer me” Your heart shattered at the sound of his pained voice.

When you didn’t answer him, he looked to Jake instead. “Jakey?” Tell me you guys are joking. Please tell me this is a game,” Heeseung muttered.

Jake wanted to say something so bad, but for the first time in his life, he just didn’t have the right words to say.

“Baby, please just liste-” You looked at him, tears pooling in your eyes and blurring your vision, but you could still see the distraught look on his face, and it broke you.

The pet name he had once loved hearing from you was now making him feel disgusted. “D-don’t call me that. Just tell me what you two were talking about,” he says weakly. “Were you planning on breaking up with me?”

“Yes, but-"

“I can’t believe you. I trusted you!” He shouted and looked over at Jake, who still had his head down. “And you, you knew, didn’t you?” He asked Jake.

“Hee, I’m sorr-" Jake tried to speak up, but heeseung was quick to cut him off.

“Just stop! I don’t want to fucking hear from either of you ever again!” you flinched at his tone. You’d never heard him cuss like that before. “I should have never trusted you. I should have listened to the rumors and stayed away” tears spilled from his eyes as he yelled in frustration. “I should have known somebody like you was incapable of having real emotions” he laughed pathetically at himself and wiped his tears. “I’m such an idiot! This is what you do. You use people up until you don’t want them anymore, and you throw them away.”

♫I'm everything they said I would be♫

It was the truth. Everything he said was the truth, and you couldn’t even fight back.

“Don’t say that. You know nothing about her!” Jake shouted back. He wasn’t just going to sit there and listen to heeseung talk about you that way.

“You know, you’re right. I thought I did, but I don’t, and I thought I knew you too turns out I don’t know either of you. You were like the brother I never had. I shared everything with you, but I guess it all meant nothing to you cause the whole time, all you did was talk behind my back."

♫It's not your fault I ruin everything♫

The room had gone completely silent. You were in a state of utter shock. You ruined your relationship. You ruined Jake and Heeseung’s friendship everything was destroyed all because of you.

“I believed that you had changed, I really did,” heeseung’s voice cracked as he directed his words at you. “I gave you my heart” he paused for a moment to composes his thoughts before continuing. “I trusted you with my body,” he gritted through his teeth, and you could hear the pure disgust in his tone. It broke your heart to hear him say such things to you. “I-I loved you” his voice sounded so weak and broken with the last words he spoke.

♫And it's not your fault I can't be what you need♫

You couldn’t fight back the tears anymore. You dropped your head as the first of many tears fell to the carpet.

He swallowed thickly, a fresh stream of warm tears rolling down his cheeks. “And I can’t even count how many times I wanted to tell you that, but I’m so glad I never did,” he spat, voice laced with venom as he walked past the both of you, grabbing his jacket and running home with tears in his eyes.

♫Gonna wish we never met on the day I leave♫

“Y/n, I’m sorry,” Jake whispers, feeling like this was all his fault, but it wasn’t. This was going to happen sooner or later, maybe not with this outcome, but the hurt that it caused was inevitable.

You stood up and ran to your room, bawling your eyes out as you heard Jake calling for you.

You’ve never felt so much pain in your whole entire life, not even when your ex told you he never loved you. It hurt so bad, and you felt so sick to the point you thought you might even throw up.

You couldn’t believe what you had done. If you had of just broken up with heeseung sooner, this could have all been avoided. You could have kept Jake out of your drama, but instead, you decided to be selfish, and because of that, now everyone was hurting all because of you.

♫Cause they say that misery loves company♫

The memory of his hurt face and teared stained cheeks gnawed at your guilty conscious.

You clutched your chest tightly, feeling like the air was slowly being sucked out of your lungs as you sobbed harder and harder. “I’m so sorry, baby,” you repeated over and over again while hugging yourself.

Even after hours had gone by, you still hadn’t moved an inch. You couldn’t stop crying, but this is what you deserved. You imagined this is how all your hookups felt after you used them up and threw them away like yesterday’s garbage.

Maybe somehow, this was their revenge and a catastrophic reminder that no matter what happens, you'll always reap what you sow.

♫Tonight, Mother says, "You don't look happy."♫

Heeseung went home and slammed the front door shut.

“You don’t look happy, pumpkin. What’s wrong?” He didn’t want to just ignore his mom like that, but he knew it’d break her heart if she saw him like this, so he locked himself in his room and cried all alone.

He sat down on his bed, but he couldn’t even get comfortable. He couldn’t stand knowing that this was the same bed you once laid in with him, the same bed where he cuddled you so lovingly and gave you every last drop of his love.

All the memories he had with you flashed before his teary eyes from the first day he saw you to just a few moments ago.

He couldn’t believe that you lied. Everything felt so real to him, the way you’d kiss him, the way you’d make love to him, and just knowing it was all an act made everything hurt ten times worse.

And the more he thinks about it, the worse it gets. He could see you wanting to play games with him but Jake too? What was in it for him? Why did he have to lie? Was it all just some sick game to the both of you? Was he just that naive and easy to fool?

The absolute worst part of all is that you came to his house and met his most beloved people in the world and lied to them straight to their faces like it was easy, like it was fun.

He knew he should have gone with his gut feeling and stayed away from you, but he was never one to judge a book by its cover, but this time he wished he had of cause. You know what they say.

The evilest girls have the prettiest face.

He curled himself up into a little ball in the corner of his room, hugging his knees tightly and slowly rocking back and forth. “Why does it hurt so bad?” He choked out. His breathing started to get uneven, and before he could even register what was happening, he started to hyperventilate, and his eyelids slowly fluttered shut while everything else around him went black.

You woke up to hundreds of texts from Jake asking you if you were alright, and you were beyond thankful for his concern, but you just didn’t have the strength to reply.

Instead, you went to your old texts with heeseung. By this time, he would have already texted you with a cute little message.

Good morning baby! flowers for you! 💐

That’s the text he’d always send to you every morning, and to see absolutely nothing from him, it broke your heart.

You tried to call him, but after several rings, it went to his voicemail. You sent more texts than you could count, hoping he’d respond, but he never did.

For the rest of the day, you stayed curled up in a ball on your bed, not even thinking of going to school today.

I’m sorry for last night. Can we talk?

Heeseung opened his phone and looked at the message Jake had sent him. He instantly blocked jakes number without a second thought.

He opened your messages next, and he teared up right away. He read through a few of them, and every single one made his heart hurt.

Baby

I miss you

I’m so sorry

Please let me explain

He didn’t bother reading anymore. He blocked your number along with Jake. There was no point in letting you explain last night was enough of an explanation for him.

He curled on his bed and sobbed quietly into his pillow, trying to ignore the agonizing pain he felt in his chest.

“Pumpkin?” He heard his mom's voice call from behind his bedroom door. She frowned when she didn’t hear his voice on the other end. “Heeseung?” She twisted the knob and saw him all bundled up beneath his blankets, and she heard his quiet sniffles. “Oh no, my sweet boy, what happened?” She sat down on his bed and stroked his hair.

He pulled his covers back and wrapped his arms around his mother, wetting her shirt with his teary cheeks. “Y/n, broke up with me,” he said in between labored breaths.

Her heart instantly dropped at the news. She couldn’t believe it. She didn’t want to believe it.

How could you have done such a thing to her precious baby, especially when you always looked at him so fondly whenever you came over for dinner.

How could you possibly even fathom breaking up with him after you professed such love, and how could you break up with him after you told her straight to her face that you’d love him unconditionally and take care of him no matter what? “Mom, can I stay home? I don’t feel like going to school today.” He mumbled.

“Of course, you can stay home, sweetie” She smoothed her hands over his back gently. “You can talk to me whenever you’re ready,” she whispered softly and waited for him to open up.

By the time he finished telling her everything and crying his poor little heart out, it was nearing midnight, and he still didn’t look like he’d be done crying anytime soon.

“Shh,” she patted his back, trying to calm him down. After a few moments, his breathing evened out a bit, and shaky breaths left his quivering lips.

She let go of him and allowed him to lie back into his pillows. “I know it’s hard, but try to get some rest, okay, sweetie” he nodded weakly and wiped his tears.

“Okay,” he whispered shakily and closed his swollen eyes. She placed one kiss on his forehead before shutting off his light. “Goodnight, baby,” she tucked him in, and she could already hear his breath becoming more stable. She quietly left his room and shut the door behind her.

She rested her back against the door, and tears welled in her eyes. She felt like it was all her fault for trusting you with her son to begin with.

It had been officially one week since your and Heeseung’s unofficial breakup, and you were just laid up in bed pining over him, but you quickly realized you had to do something. You had to get your baby back. You couldn’t just sit there and let someone like him get away so easily.

You called Jake, and he picked up right away. He had been waiting by his phone for your call all day. “Y/n? Are you okay? What can I do?”

You smiled at hearing your friend's concern for you. “Well, Jake, I’m as okay as a person can be after losing the love of their life,” you let out an airy laugh.

“Y/n…..” you heard him sigh. “I’m sorry,” he apologized even though it wasn’t his fault.

“Jake, don’t apologize. It’s not your fault, and if anything, I should be sorry to you because I ruined everything,” your voice cracked.

“Don’t be hard on yourself, y/n. You’ve been through enough” he paused before asking you a question that’s been on his mind since yesterday. “Did you try contacting him? I tried texting, but I think he might have blocked me.”

“I tried, but he didn’t answer” You sighed deeply, and you couldn’t hold back your quiet sobs.

“Hey, hey, it’s okay, don’t cry. We’re gonna explain everything, and we’re gonna get him back. I promise you hear me” he heard your silence over the line and continued. “Besides, he owes us a rematch of go fish,” he chuckled to lighten the mood.

“Yeah, you’re right” You laughed a little, before you finished the call with Jake. You both made a plan to go to heeseung’s house and apologize to him.

Cause no matter what, you were going to get him back.

You and Jake met up later that day, and you were both currently standing outside heeseung's door. “Take a deep breath. You got this” You half smiled at Jake and knocked on heeseung’s door quietly.

His mom came to the door after a few seconds. “Hel- oh,” her face dropped a little once she saw you and Jake, and it took everything in her not to just slam the door right in your guys' faces.

You smiled sadly, and you assumed she must have already gotten the news about what happened between you and heeseung. “Hi, Ms lee,” you muttered. Jake just smiled awkwardly behind you.

“Well, it was nice seeing you both, but I have work to do” She closed the door halfway, and you spoke up before she could shut it.

“Wait, I-is heeseung here?” You asked timidly.

“Mom, wh-“ heeseung stopped midway on the staircase when he saw you and Jake standing at the door. He made eye contact with you, and he quickly turned around and went back upstairs.

You parted your mouth to say something, but nothing came out.

“Have a good day,” ms lee said with a stern look and closed the door.

You turned to Jake, and your lip quivered. “Jake,” you broke down into tears, and Jake immediately wrapped you in his arms, frowning when he heard your sniffles.

You both stood outside the door for a solid three minutes before you decided to leave. “Come on,” Jake whispered while patting your back and carefully walking you down the steps.

Heeseung peeked out of his blinds, and when he saw you and Jake getting further away from his house, a tear rolled down his cheek.

He sat down on his bed and stared blankly at the floor, fiddling with his fingers. “Are you okay?” His mom asks when she went to check on him.

“Yeah, I’m okay,” he gave his mom a half smile. “Its just gonna take some time,” he sighed while she nodded her head in understanding. “What did they want?” He asked curiously.

“Well, if I’m being honest, dear, I was too angry to let them explain,” she told him truthfully. “But I’m sure it’s nothing to concern yourself with” She patted his head softly.

“Yeah,” he agreed. There’s nothing that you or Jake needed to explain. He got played by you, just like the rumors said. He thought he was smart enough not to let that happen to himself but look what that way of thinking got him.

Nothing but a broken heart.

“Come down for dinner soon, okay?”

“Okay, Mom” She left him alone for a little while and gave him some time to himself.

He caught sight of his phone, and he knew he shouldn’t, but he unlocked it anyways and scrolled through the many pictures you had taken together. The more he scrolled, the more it hurt, and when he came across the selfie you all took the night he overheard you talking about breaking up with him, he relived that moment all over again.

He quickly shut off his phone and tossed it to the side before wiping his tears with his shirt and going downstairs.

“Y/n, we just have to try again, that’s all,” Jake explained to you while watching you bawl your eyes out on the couch in your living room.

“Can’t you see he wants nothing to do with me? He saw me, and he walked away” You sobbed loudly and buried your head in your hands.

Jake never thought he’d ever see you this hurt. Even when your ex broke up with you, you didn’t take it this hard. “Come on, we barely even tried. We can’t just give up that easy,” he patted your shoulder. “I know you’re not trying your hardest cause you think you’re no good for him, but you have to see past that, okay? He still loves you. I know he does. I’m sure if you just explain, he’ll understand, and I mean, come on, it’ll be something straight out of those romance novels he’s so in love with,” Jake giggled.

Jake was right, and you knew it. You just had to get over yourself long enough to believe that you deserved an angel like heeseung. It would be challenging, but you promised yourself you’d change so you could make things work between you and him. “Thank you, Jake,” you cried on his shoulder and released a deep breath. You really don’t know what you’d do or where you’d be without him.

“I told you anything for my little sister” he hugged you back and comforted you for the rest of the night.

♫Every word in poetry♫

So the plan was to act out a scene in a romance novel, his favorite scene, as cliche as it was, you would stand outside his window with big, bold letter lights that said “I love you, and I’m sorry.”

If the plan went as well as it did in the novel, then by the end of the night, heeseung would be yours again.

You and Jake waited till nightfall to set everything up cause you’d probably get caught if you did it in broad daylight.

The letters were absolutely huge, and they nearly lit up the whole freaking neighborhood cause of the big bulbs that were in them. You sprinkled rose petals on the ground, and you searched for tiny pebbles to throw at his window to wake him up.

“Okay, I think that’s everything” Jake stood up and dusted his hands off. “You got this!” He gave you a thumbs up and hid behind some bushes a couple of feet away.

You took a deep breath and tossed the first pebble at his window, completely missing your target.

You shook the nerves off a bit and threw another, this time hitting your target right down the middle.

You waited a few seconds before throwing some more, and eventually, it woke him up.

Heeseung stirred in his bed at the foreign noise against his window, after a moment the strange sound had woken him up. He peeled his covers back as he made his way out of bed to see what was happening. “Y/n?” He mumbled tiredly and rubbed his eyes before opening the window.

“Hi!” you waved when you saw him peeking out the window.

He gasped once his eyes adjusted, and he realized that it was actually you standing outside his window, he nearly teared up when he saw your elaborate apology. This was the absolute last thing he was expecting, but he loved each and every last second of it. He put his glasses and his robe on before running downstairs and going out to his backyard.

You lowered your head in defeat when he left from the window. You had no idea why you even thought that this would wor-

“Y/n!” Heeseung said your name way too loud for it to be past midnight, but he couldn’t care less. All he cared about was the fact that you were standing before him once again and apologizing for your past mistakes. “Hi,” he said breathlessly while squeezing you in a tight hug.

You broke down in tears the instant you saw him running to you, and when you felt him in your arms again, everything felt so complete. “I’m so sorry, baby,” you apologized to him over and over again.

Him being the sweet boy he is, forgave you instantly as he stroked your back with his palms enjoying the feeling of being in your arms once more. “Baby. I’m sorry for not letting you explain” he leaned back and stared into your teary eyes. “I love you,” he confessed as his eyes watered.

“I love you too. I love you so much, and I’m so sorry for breaking up with you. It’s just I felt like I was wrong for you and that you deserved someone bett-"

It’s been way too long since he last kissed you, and whatever nonsense you were spewing out could wait til later.

He pressed his lip’s against yours softly, and you both melted into each other instantaneously. Your lips molded perfectly together with his, and even if his goofy little glasses were in the way, it was still the best kiss you both ever shared.

“Ahem!” Jake came from behind the tree when you and heeseung started to get a little handsy. “Hey there,” Jake waved to Heeseung timidly and shoved his hands into his pockets.

Heeseung's face lit up. He couldn’t believe he had both of his favorite people standing in front of him, going through all this trouble to apologize just for him. No matter what happened in the past, he didn’t care. All he cared about was the fact that you were all finally together again.

“Group hug!” You cheered as Jake joined your tiny little circle, and you celebrated the small reunion.

“I love you guys” You were about to keel over from his cuteness as you kissed his cheek. He was thankful it was dark. Otherwise, you would have seen his red cheeks.

Jake ruffled heeseung’s hair as he smiled at you both. It felt great to have you both back. He looked at you, and he recognized that smile from anywhere. It was that same smile as the day he first met you, and he knew the y/n he became best friends with back in grade school was finally back, all thanks to a nerdy guy named lee heeseung, who read romance novels and talked to himself about astronomy. “You owe us a rematch,” Jake said once you guys broke the hug, he pulled out a box of playing cards from his pocket.

“Deal!” Heeseung said excitedly while you all walked to his house and upstairs to his room.

Once you all got into his room, you sat in a circled and set up the card game heeseung had two cards, and you had one, while Jake had five.

You just needed one more match to end the game and win. “Does anyone have a queen?” You squinted your eyes, hoping that someone had your matching card.

“I do!” Heeseung shouted happily, even though that meant he lost to you, and Jake giggled at his excitement. “And she’s right here” he put his arm around your waist and kissed your cheek while giving you his second-to-last card.

The beginning was rocky, the middle was terrible, but the future was every bit of bright.

And now that you think back at it, you weren’t everything they said you would be.

FIN.

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So quick little note even though I don’t normally make these, I wanted to explain a bit of this story. Obviously, this story was made with inspiration from angels like you by Miley Cyrus. Maybe I interpreted the song wrong, but I feel like it was a sad song. I thought about making an ending where they did not get back together, but I figured most of the audience would not really be happy with a sad ending, and neither would I, so I decided to make this one happy anyways. I chose the whole player plot for y/n cause I think it fits the lyrics well. When it says, “I know that you’re wrong for me,” it’s almost like y/n realizing that hee was too good for her, and even though he loves her, she doesn’t feel like she deserves his love after everything she’s done. I feel like this story is pretty self-explanatory. I know the whole story doesn’t replicate the entire song, but I feel like I put a different little spice to it that I hope you guys enjoyed. But yeah, let me know how you liked it, and also, would you guys like more of these little explanations at the end?

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THE TASTE OF YOU

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GENRE

university au, vampire au, vampire!jake, fem!reader, romance, angst, smut

PAIRING

jake sim x reader

WARNINGS

18+ MDNI, slight blood, oral sex (f recieving), unprotected sex, lmk if i missed anything

WORD COUNT

5.3k

btw this is not proofread so bear with me 😭

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the 7 boys walk in, swaying their shoulders slightly with confidence.

you roll your eyes at them, then find yourself rolling them again when you see your friend gawking at them.

“jesus mae control yourself” you say, shaking your head.

“what!! theyre so fine y/n.” mae relaxes back in her seat with a slight smile playing on her lips.

your eyes follow the boys as they take their respective seats on the fountain they claimed as theirs in the beginning of the year.

the youngest, niki? you think they called him? kicked a soccer ball back and forth between his feet. the rest of them sat around the fountain, laughing and pushing each other around. you didnt bother to learn their names, theyre just obnoxious boys that everyone else seems to think are hot.

you cant deny their attractiveness, but their looks will never be enough to make you enjoy being in classes with them compared to their annoying personalities.

mae says her goodbyes, she has a date or something. you go back to your book, slipping your headphones over your ears.

you get lost in the story and your music, perfectly silencing out the world around you. you felt at peace, the chilly breeze blowing against your hair as you turn a page.

only for that peace to get broken by none other than one of those painfully obnoxious boys pulling your headphones off your ears and onto his own.

“give those back asshole” you frown at him, patience already thinning.

he smiles at your words, “didnt know such a pretty girl could have such a foul mouth.”

you roll your eyes at the cheesy line then take a second to look at him. you didnt expect an australian accent to come out of his mouth. his fluffy black hair blew back gently in the breeze. your gaze falls to his pink lips before you shake your head and snap out of it.

you reach up to grab your headphones, failing as he holds them above his head, stretching his arm out as long as possible.

he laughs at your failure and gives them to you. as he walks away you hear him call out, “by the way your music sucks!”

you scoff at him, muttering under your breath in annoyance. “my music doesnt suck.”

you look at your phone, seeing it was almost time to go to your new afternoon class. even though youd be early, you decide to go ahead and go. maybe you could talk things over with the teacher and get a head start.

you get to class about ten minutes early, talking to the teacher and taking your seat. as students start filing in, you fail to resist the urge to sigh and roll your eyes at the sight of the boy from earlier and one of his friends.

you recognize the girl sitting next to you, having had classes together before. you make small talk as you see the boy approach you.

“hey i didnt get your name” he rests his forearms on the table in front of you. his necklace dangles in front of your face.

“why should i tell you my name?” you glare at him. “maybe if you gave me a chance youd realize im actually pretty awesome” he leans in closer to your face. the close proximity flusters you, but you dont let it show.

“y/n. my names y/n.” you say, relaxing back in your chair. he smiles at you, his weirdly sharp canines glinting in the light. “im jake, nice to meet you. this should be fun”

his words send goosebumps down your spine, but you choose to blame it on the air conditioning blowing through the room.

Jake and his friend, Heeseung, take the seats behind you.

as class goes on, they act up. you shouldve predicted that would happen, but its just as irritating regardless.

they throw paper airplanes around the room or flick paper footballs at your head. youre about to snap, but your professor does it before you can. they apologize (even though you can tell they didnt mean it) and the rest of the class goes smoothly.

as you leave, you hear jake calling your name. “y/n wait up!” you roll your eyes -you seem to be doing that a lot lately- but turn around towards him.

he catches up with you snaking his arm around your shoulders. you try to shrug it off, but he doesnt budge.

“why dont you come to a party tonight? you look like you need to loosen up”

you look up at him and frown. “i dont need to ‘loosen up’ you and your friends are just impossibly irritating”

he puts his hand on his chest and gasps in faux offense. “i cant believe you would say such a thing!” he laughs then nudges you, “cmon itll be fun” he looks at you with puppy eyes, silently hopeful youll say yes.

maybe hes right, youve been tense lately. one party couldnt hurt. “fine,, but not cause you asked but cause i want to go.”

he beams at you, a smile spreading across his face.

“you can let go of me now” you attempt to shrug his arm off of your shoulders again. “oh yeah, sorry”

you two part ways as you go home to get ready.

you have no idea what to wear, you havent been to a party since your freshman year in college. now youre a junior, and you just feel like a loser.

you decide on a small black dress thats casual enough so youre not fancy but cute and slightly skimpy.

you show up at the house, looking for people you know. you scan the sea of people, and see jake sitting on the couch with his friends. you walk over to him, hes the one who invited you anyways.

“y/n!! you made it!” jake greets you, scanning your figure up and down. he swallows hard before telling you to take a seat.

you look around as there are no seats left and just stare at jake blankly.

“well cmon one of you has to be a gentleman and get up” he nudges the guy next to him with his elbow. “fine fine ill stand”

“thank you sunghoon!” jake says as he pats the newly opened spot next to him.

the more time you spend with them, the more you realize theyre not all that bad. youre actually having fun with them.

you realize they have a very close bond with each other, a special one that makes you wonder what made them so close. they have similar smiles, all pearly white with sharp canines. especially sunghoon, his teeth are almost like a vampires.

by the end of the night, its just you and jake sitting there enjoying one anothers company. he laughs as you finish a story about how you used to kick boys who pissed you off in elementary school. “remind me not to piss you off” he says with a laugh.

“hold on ill be right back” you make your way to the bathroom, having to relieve all that water you drank throughout the day. as you makd your way back to the couch you see a crowd of people and hear jake yell “do you really think you can get away with talking about women like that?”

you push through the chanting bodies and see jake pushing a guy up against the wall with his arm. by the looks of it, jake roughed him up pretty bad already.

“jake what the hells going on??” you ask from a safe distance. “he was saying gross things and i dont tolerate that” he tells you, pushing the guy harder against the wall.

“well obviously hes learned his lesson so just let him

go. its not like you can kill him” you try to push jake off of him and he looks at you, a slight glint of red in his irises.

you step back, thinking you must be hallucinating from the alcohol. jake dropped the guy to the ground and he scrambled on his feet, leaving quickly.

“you cant just fight people, it leads to nowhere,” you shiver in the autumn breeze. you and jake walk home together after his confrontation at the party.

“i just cant stand hearing people say shit like that. i dont understand why people cant just act like decent human beings”

“trust me, jake, i get it. but you have to realize that people arent gonna change just cause you slammed them against a wall”

“i know y/n,,” he mutters, looking at the floor. “its okay just, try to control yourself at least” you rub his back and smile at him warmly, consoling him. he smiles back at you before you two part ways once again.

later in the comfort of your own bed, you think about the events that happened. why was jake even talking to you in the first place? why do you feel immediate comfort in his presence? what did that guy say to have him react so strongly? why were his eyes slightly red?

so many thoughts swirled in your head, but eventually you fell asleep.

the next few days you find yourself looking forward to seeing and talking to jake in class.

when you see him your heart warms and when youre not with him you feel slightly empty, like somethings missing.

hes with his friends a lot, and sometimes they all disappear for a day or two at a time. its weird, but you disregard it. plus, you surprisingly enjoy the company of all seven of them.

jake takes you to his favorite coffee shops, buying you macarons and sharing them while you talk.

you could talk to him for hours, hes so calm especially when its just you and him.

one day, you got to class later than you usually do -which was still early- and saw jake sitting in the seat next to you. you look at him quizzically and he nods back to heeseung and the girl you made small talk with. you smile knowingly and get your notebooks out.

as you write, your hands brush against each other. when of you shifts in your seat, your legs touch ever so quickly. the gentle touches raise blush in your cheeks and little butterflies in your stomach.

“why am i feeling like this?” you think to yourself.

jake gets your attention by tapping his pen on your knuckle. “hey wanna go to dinner later?”

“is jake sim asking me on a date?” you tease, nudging him with your shoulder. “oh cmon ive taken you to lunch and coffee plenty of times. you know this isnt any different”

you ignore the feeling of disappointment in your gut and smile at him. “yeah sure lets go to dinner later.”

you spend all afternoon in frustration over what to wear. you wonder why youre even freaking out this much when its just jake. hes practically your best friend at this point, you two spend all your time together.

you just wear a skirt with a sweater over it, you cant be going anywhere fancy anyways.

jake shows up at your door wearing a black button down shirt and black dress pants. the sight makes your heart beat faster and your hands clammy.

“i didnt know we were going somewhere nice-” you start, “y/n, you look great. just cmon!” he puts his hand on the small of your back, ushering you out the door.

he doesnt remove his hand as he walks you to the car, opening the passenger door for you. “is this a special occasion? youre being such a gentleman” you smile up at him.

he makes his way over to the drivers side and gets in. “just shut up” he sneers at you, attempting and failing to hold back a smile.

you pull up to the restaurant, and its fairly nice. the dinner goes smoothly, just like everything with jake.

“listen y/n, you gotta promise me something,” jake holds out his pinky. “okay..” you hold out your pinky hesitantly. “we’re never not going to be best friends no matter what. even when we live across the world from each other, if we talk we’ll always be as close as we are now.”

you lock your pinky with his.

“of course” you smile big at him.

your pinkies never leave each other throughout the rest of the night. even as you walk to the car, your pinkies are still intertwined.

in the car, his arm rests on the middle console. his hand slowly moves closer to you, and it doesnt go unnoticed. he finally decides to man up and puts his hand on your thigh as he drives. you look over at him, but you dont tell him not to. you dont want him to pull his hand away.

when you arrive at your apartment, you offer for him to come inside. “yeah, sure”

you two sit on the couch as you turn on the tv. “do you care what we watch?” you ask him. “nah i dont care,” he smiles.

you turn on a random horror movie and get comfortable next to him. throughout the movie, the two of you make subtle but not-so-subtle movements to get closer to each other.

your head on his chest, his arm wrapped around your shoulders. you pick lint off of his shirt, “arent you uncomfortable in that outfit?”

“no, im okay. im comfortable here next to you.” as jake realizes what he said, you sit up and look at him, faces mere centimeters away from each other.

“i dont know if youd be okay with what i want to do” your voice has dropped to barely a whisper. “just do it y/n.” his voice had gone quiet too.

you snake your hand up behind his head and before you know it, your lips are on his.

his hands trail to your waist, pulling you closer.

“you dont know how long ive wanted to do that,” he breathes softly into your mouth. you silently tell him you feel the same as you reconnect your lips, moving in a perfect rhythm with one another. he picks you up gently and helps you onto his lap.

he kisses you gently but with so much passion, you never want this to end. your tongue flicks against his bottom lip, and he slides his tongue over yours.

you lean into him closer, if that was even possible. he pulls away slightly and kisses you hungrily, starting at the corner of your mouth and trailing down your jaw to your neck. he sucks on the flesh, sure to leave marks. he flicks his tongue on the marks and kisses them to ease the irritated skin. he leaves light butterfly kisses all over your neck, leading back up to your lips. at this point, his hair is completely messed up from your hands, youre both out of breath, and the blush has creeped all along your neck, face, and ears. you kiss him again, never wanting to stop. he nips at your bottom lip, drawing a little blood as he pulls away. “god, im sorry i didnt mean to-” he breathes out harshly, trying to get away. “jake youre fine why are you freaking out?”

his eyes are wide as you slide off his lap, touching your finger to the blood trickling down your lip.

“i-im sorry i have to go,” he mumbles, quickly getting up and leaving.

you sit there holding back tears, wondering if you did something wrong. you text and call him, only for them to be left unanswered.

every day following that kiss for over a week, jake ignores you. he sits far away from you in class, not talking to you, barely even looking at you.

and every day following that kiss, you cry wondering what you did wrong. wondering why he left. why hes ignoring you. after a few days, you stop calling. you stop texting. you pretend like it doesnt bother you, but it really, really, does.

you miss jake.

you miss talking to him and laughing with him. you miss the coffee breaks and sharing macarons. you miss playing games with him even though you always lost. you miss everything about him.

you cant stand it anymore, you need answers.

when you leave your apartment, dark and pouring rain. you try to start your car, but its out of gas. you lean your head on the steering wheel and start crying out of frustration. its pathetic, really.

you walk to his apartment, its not that far anyways. the mixture of the cold and your feelings and the wind and rain just keeps flowing tears down your cheeks.

you knock on the door furiously, waiting for an answer.

when the door opens, you see jake looking as perfect as ever even in his pajamas.

“why didnt you call?” you choke out.

he stands there staring at you with his mouth slightly open.

“why didnt you call, jake? why didnt you text? why have you ignored me?

did i do something wrong?” you sob, a new wave of tears dripping off of your face.

“why wont you fucking answer me?

you wont even fucking look at me anymore youre staring at your feet. how could you kiss me like that and make me believe you could possibly feel the same way and then just leave?” youre screaming at this point, but you dont care.

“i love you jake, i really do. i love everything about you, even the things you dont. you can ignore me all you want but ive never felt so strong about someone in my life. i tried to ignore my feelings, but i just cant. if you dont feel the same, just tell me now because i cant deal with this bullshit.”

he looks at you with tears glistening his eyes, “y/n, you should go.” those words were muttered ever so quietly, but that didnt make it any less painful. he wasnt going to answer any one of your questions, and he obviously didnt reciprocate your feelings. he saw your heart shatter by the look in your eyes as you whispered “okay then”, turned around, and left.

jake felt terrible. he wished he could tell you he felt the same, but he cant trust himself not to hurt you. hed hurt you more by being with you and losing control then he would by doing this. at least jake thinks so.

days pass.

you feel nothing but hurt snaking around your heart and squeezing it so hard it feels as though the pain will never stop.

you get sick from how much it hurts, and how much you miss him.

you hate that you miss him so much. he tore your heart into a million pieces, not even giving you closure. you realized over time how hard you had fallen in love with him, and he rejected you after kissing you so intensely.

when you see him in class, you feel the tears falling down your cheeks before you could stop it.

eventually, you just stop going to class.

you stay at home and just stare at the ceiling, unable to gather the motivation to do anything. you feel like youre drowning deeper and deeper in this ocean of hurt, and as if youll never be pulled back into the light.

jake notices youre gone. he notices immediately. he knows its his fault, but he cant help but feel like it was the right thing to do. he tries to ignore the panging in his gut telling him to go to you, but it grows extremely hard to ignore every passing day.

jake thinks it over.

the worst thing that could happen is that youd think hes a monster. well- he is technically a monster but literally not metaphorically. the cons are that jake would feel awful and spend the rest of eternity knowing he fucked up and ruined everything. the pros are that you wouldnt be heartbroken and just be angry. anger is easier to get over than hurt- at least in jakes opinion.

he knows deep down he has to tell you. he has to give you closure one way or another.

you hear a knock at your door. you slip a sweater over your head and open it. your eyes grow wide and your mouth falls open whdn you see its jake.

“y/n let me explain-”

“i dont want to hear it.” you snap, closing the door. he catches the door with his hand and pushes it open despite your efforts.

“please y/n,” you look him in the eye at his words, seeing the look of desperate pleading on his face.

“fine, but make it quick.” you step aside, letting him walk in the couch. you sit across from each other on the sofa, waiting for jake to speak.

“listen y/n,, i feel the same way about you. fuck, ive always felt that way about you. why do you think i talked to you so much and flirted with you and invited you to that stupid party and took you on dates and everything?

i love you. i love you so much it feels like my hearts bursting every time im around you from so much emotion and it hurts when im not with you. it hurts me so fucking bad seeing you hurt. and knowing im the one who caused it.

thats why im here today, because you deserve an explanation. ive tried so hard to stay away from you since the kiss. i know i sound like an asshole, but bear with me for a minute.

i never even thought id fall this hard for you. im fucking head over heels in love with you, y/n. so much more than youd think, more than i thought i ever could.

when we kissed, i drew blood on your lip. i knew i would lose control and i shouldve stopped it before we even kissed but i just wanted to kiss you so fucking bad, i couldnt resist. and when i drew blood and tasted you, i had to get out. i had to get away from you before i lost complete control of myself.”

the tears stinging your eyes had long since fallen down your pink cheeks. “w-what does that mean?” youre so confused.

“im a vampire y/n. i tasted your blood and it was too much to trust myself with.” you bursted out with laughter before you could stop it at his words. “a vampire? jake cmon just tell me the truth youre such an asshole” you giggle.

but when you make eye contact with him, hes very serious. “y/n just trust me, okay? dont you think me and my friends have had weird behaviors?

disappearing for days at a time, sharp teeth, anything?”

now that you think about it, you realize it all makes sense. you think of the days jake seemed stressed, would disappear for a day or two, then would come back completely relaxed. you think of the weirdly sharp teeth all seven of them had that you simply disregarded.

“was the reddish tint in your eyes a symptom too?” you think of the fight at the party, months ago when you two were still getting to know each other.

“yes,, it is. howd you do know that?” he looks at you, his brows knitted together in confusion.

“the night at the party, when you were pinning that guy against the wall with your arm and yelling at him. when you looked at me your eyes were slightly red. by the way, whatd that guy even say to you?”

he looks down at the lint he was pulling off the sofa. “he was talking about how good your ass looked in that dress.” he muttered, almost quiet enough so that you couldnt hear.

you laugh, hard. “thats why you got so mad? jake thats stupid”

“i know but i didnt like him talking about you like that. i wanted to be the one to tell you stupid compliments like that. hearing other guys talk that way about you just made me so angry.”

you dont know whether to blush or what. youre so confused by everything thats happened, but you know jake and his friends are vampires, and that hes in love with you just as much as you are with him.

“so.. you dont think im a horrible disgusting monster?” he looks at you with glistening eyes.

“dear god jake, no.” you cup his face with your hand, wiping the tear that fell down his face. “i dont care what you are as long as im with you.”

suddenly jakes lips are on yours. you kiss him back, running your fingers through his hair. he tests your lips with his tongue, and you open wider to taste each other.

you pull gently on jakes hair, earning a groan from him. you pull slightly harder, wanting to hear more of those beautiful noises.

jake stands up and picks you up, your legs wrapping around your waist. your lips never part, never wanting to be apart ever again. he lays you back on your bed, trailing his hand down your thigh. you grab the ends of his tshirt, pulling it off of him. you look at his toned abs and perfect body before he tilts your chin up to kiss him again. he toys with the end of your own hoodie, before you pull it off for him. you toss it to the side, not caring about making a mess.

he looks at you with so much adoration, he knows he wants to take it slow and cherish every inch of you like you deserve.

he kisses slowly down your neck, making sure to leave marks as a sign of whos his. he kisses down your sternum, you arch your back to make it easier for him to take off your bra. he gently kisses the flesh of your breasts before taking a sensitive nipple in his mouth, sucking and swirling his tongue around it.

you let soft moans fall out of your mouth as he switches to your other breast, not letting anything go without attention. he trails kisses down your stomach stopping at the waistband of your shorts.

“can i?” he asks, making sure you still feel the same. you nod quickly, brushing his hair out of his eyes.

he slowly pulls your shorts down and off, its tortuous but you dont want him to stop. he takes your underwear off even slower.

he kisses your leg, going all the way up to where you needed him most. he places a kiss between your folds before swiping his tongue against your clit.

you moan louder than you meant to at the sudden touch, feeling him smile against you. your grip in his hair tightens, making him groan, sending vibrations to your core.

he touches a finger and gently enters it into you, not wanting to hurt you. “so wet for me baby” he smiles before going down on you again.

he slides another finger in, then adding a third after a minute, thoroughly stretching you out. he pumps them in and out of you while sucking and swirling his tongue on your clit. only your loud moans and the wet noises of your pussy fill the room.

“jake, oh god please dont stop” you moan, pressing his mouth deeper into you. you feel the knot tightening in your core, your eyes screwed shut preparing for release.

your juices spill out of you, your vision going white from the poweful orgasm. you chant his name over and over again, not able to make sensible words.

when you open your eyes, hes getting up from between your legs to kiss you again. your essence is dripping down his plump lips onto his chin, but he wipes his mouth before kissing you.

you taste yourself on his tongue, you find it oddly attractive. he deepens the kiss, and you feel his hard cock brush against your pussy through his jeans. he hisses at the friction, his erection painfully hard.

“y/n please let me inside you.” he whines, desperately wanting relief.

wanting you.

in response, you tug at his jeans, unbuttoning them and pulling them down. he kicks them off along with his underwear and you two make eye contact with each other.

youre so in love you dont care about anything else in the world, you just want him.

you pull him close for a gentle but passionate kiss, never wanting to let him go.

he aligns his hips with yours, pushing his cock in slowly until he bottoms out.

after a few minutes of letting you adjust to his size, he asks you if youre okay. “im okay jake, please just let me feel you.”

he slowly rocks his hips back and forth inside you, moaning at the pleasure you bring him. “fuck y/n youre so perfect” he pants out as he thrusts faster.

he kisses your neck, listening to the moans you let out in his ear. “keep making those angelic noises baby, i want everybody to know how im making you feel”

“you feel so good jake just please for the love of god dont stop” you let out in breathy moans.

he thrusts faster, kissing you and moaning into each others mouths. when you feel the knot building in your stomach, he starts to slow down.

“jake what happened?” you claw at his hair, whimpering at the loss of your building orgasm.

“i dont want to lose control y/n. i dont want to bite you and i dont want to have to turn you” he rests his head in the crook of your neck, apologizing over and over again.

“jake i dont care what you do. for the love of god just bite me i dont give a fuck. if turning me makes it so that i can be with you forever, then i want to be turned.

i want to be with you jake,

forever.”

at your words, he picks up the pace faster than ever before, kissing up and down your neck and chest vigorously. he leaves marks everywhere.

“right there jake!” you cry out as he hits your sweet spot over and over again. as you both chase your highs, he leans down and kisses a sensitive spot on your neck. he flicks his his tongue wanting to taste you more than ever.

“fuck y/n im gonna cum” he growls into your neck, his thrusts getting sloppier.

you feel the knot in your stomach come undone, screaming his name. when he lets out his own release, he simultaneously sinks his teeth deep in your neck.

you relish in the feeling both pleasure and pain, pulling him as close to you as possible.

jake loves the taste of you, having to put an immense amount of effort into pulling away from you. his fangs are dripping in your blood, you look up at him as he swipes his tongue over his teeth.

he then bites his own wrist, drawing blood. “drink.” he holds his wrist on your mouth, you take it in your mouth, sucking and drinking his blood.

“its gonna hurt baby, im sorry”

thats the last thing you hear before blacking out.

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years later

“are you ready?” jake asks nervously.

you scan the beautiful house you and jake had purchased together, ready to move in together.

you wrap your arms around his waist, smiling up at him, your fangs glinting in the sunlight.

“as ill ever be”

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TOMORROW X TOGETHER MASTERLIST

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> CHOI YEONJUN .. n/a for now

> CHOI SOOBIN .. n/a for now

> CHOI BEOMGYU .. n/a for now

> KANG TAEHYUN .. n/a for now

> HUENING KAI .. n/a for now

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STRAY KIDS MASTERLIST

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> BANG CHAN .. n/a for now

> LEE MINHO .. n/a for now

> SEO CHANGBIN .. n/a for now

> HWANG HYUNJIN .. n/a for now

> HAN JISUNG .. n/a for now

> LEE FELIX .. n/a for now

> KIM SEUNGMIN .. n/a for now

> YANG JEONGIN .. n/a for now

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ENHYPEN MASTERLIST

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> LEE HEESEUNG :

please, just listen

> PARK JONGSEONG .. n/a for now

> SIM JAEYUN :

the taste of you

> PARK SUNGHOON .. n/a for now

> KIM SUNOO .. n/a for now

> YANG JUNGWON .. n/a for now

> NISHIMURA RIKI .. n/a for now

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NAVIGATION & ABOUT MY BLOG

━ welcome to luvrhoons, i hope you enjoy !

━ clair || she / her || 04' liner

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━ latest work : the taste of you

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MAIN MASTERLIST!

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GROUP MASTERLIST

• ENHYPEN

• STRAY KIDS

• TOMORROW X TOGETHER

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n/a for now

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WELCOME TO MY BLOG!!

NAME : clair

PRONOUNS : she / her

AGE : 19 y/o

MBTI : enfp

WORK : this blog will contain nsfw content and i will not be interacting with people below the age of 18 in an nsfw manner. do not interact with my works if nsfw content makes you uncomfortable.

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ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ FURTHER THINGS TO NOTE

• everything i write here is pure fiction and it, in NO ways, reflects the idols' behaviors and actions in real life.

• i write in lowercase cause idc

• my asks and anon will be open 24/7, feel free to share your thoughts and ideas !!

• hate comments will not be tolerated and will be blocked + reported instantly.

• constructive critism and opinions are always welcome !

• requests are open as of now !

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ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ BLOG RULES

ABOUT MY BLOG

• i write 18+ content, minors are not allowed to interact with those posts. all hate comments and asks will be blocked and will not be tolerated.

• majority of my works will be written for afab!readers

• constructive critism and feedback is always welcome ! no racist, sexist, _phobic, ableist, etc. comments will not be tolerated.

• i will be mostly writing for skz, txt, and enhypen. i will write for other groups ocassionally.

[UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES WILL I WRITE NSFW FOR MINORS IN GROUPS.]

• i write with lowercase deal w it

• all works i post here are written by me and are not to be reposted, copied, translated, rewritten, and posted on other social accounts.

WHAT DO I NOT WRITE

• rape and cnc

• pedophelia

• extreme kinks and mxm fics

• piss kinks + scat kinks

• omegaverse or hybrid stuff

REQUEST GUIDELINES

• i take requests most of the time

• i cant promise ill be quick to respond so please be patient

• if im uncomfortable with a request, i will not respond

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i still dont get how that one shot got so many notes for my first post,, it was not good at all imo 😭

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please just listen - pt 2

this is literally just the smut part of the last one lmao uhhh go read pt 1 guys!

WARNINGS

18+ MINORS DNI, oral sex (m receiving), slight edging, sex, sex with a virgin, lmk if I missed anything

link : https://www.tumblr.com/luvrhoons/718728614722650112/please-just-listen-pt-one

That was all you needed. You left a wad of cash on the table and took his hand, dragging him out of there. You kissed him outside the restaurant door, unable to contain yourself. You two scrambled to his car, kissing, hands tangled in each other's hair. These are going to be the longest ten minutes of my life, you thought. On the drive back to your apartment, his hand snaked up and down your thigh. That one little motion was enough to cause goosebumps everywhere he touched. When the car stopped at your parking lot, you leaned over and kissed him. You got out of the car and grabbed him, pulling him close to you, not wanting to let go. You eventually make it to your door, panting and fumbling for your keys. As soon as you open the door, he pushes you against the wall with vigor. His soft lips crash against yours, tongue flicking on your bottom lip. You run your hands through his hair, slightly tugging on it. He moaned softly when you did that, the sound sending electric shocks through your body. You make out with him passionately, pressed up against the wall. His tongue whirls around yours, his hands moving up and down your body. You bite his bottom lip lightly, hands slowly trailing under his sweater. He growls into your kiss and pulls away, ripping his sweater off. You gasp at his toned body, he looks sculpted, he's so perfect.

He immediately reconnects the kiss, passionately moving his lips against yours. His hands trail down your body, grabbing at your waist and pulling you closer, if that was even possible, you pull your lips away from him, looking up at him. His eyes were half lidded with pure lust, and that made you want him more. You take his hand and lead him to your bedroom. You push his chest and he sits back on your bed. You sit on his lap, your skirt hiking up on your hips. You kiss him harder, his hands on your hips. You start slowly moving against him and he hisses at the sensation. His hands move up to your sweater, pulling it off. He takes a minute and looks at you with so much love, “You’re so beautiful, y/n.” He says in a low voice, sending shivers down your spine. You feel him getting harder underneath you every second. You grind on him faster, and he moans into your kiss. He touches the back of your bra, asking if he could take it off. You nod, and he takes it off and throws it off to the side. He cranes his neck to kiss your neck, trailing down to your breasts. He places gentle kisses on them, sucking and nipping at the nipple. You suck in at the action, moaning softly. You run your hands through his hair, tugging on it to hear more moans come out of his mouth. At this point, he feels rock hard underneath you. You reach one of your hands down to feel him through his pants. He groans, moving against you. You take that and start unbuckling his pants. You get off of his lap to take off his pants. There’s a wet spot on his boxers from his precum. You smile at him, tugging on the waistband of his boxers. “Y/n please,” he says, his eyes saying more than he could ever put into words.

You take off his boxers, his cock popping up against his stomach. You lean up to kiss Heeseung, then you kiss along his jaw, nibbling at his earlobe, you trail kisses down his neck, leaving marks every now and then. You kiss down his chest and get right above where he needed you most. You gently kiss his shaft, slowly trailing up to the top. You kiss his tip, flicking your tongue across it. He groans loudly, taking your hair in his hands. You take his cock in your mouth, earning for moans from his sweet mouth. You look up at him through your eyelashes, choking on his length. He moans, pushing your head down a little. You pull your mouth off, licking your tongue along the base of his cock all the way back up to the tip and start bobbing your head along his length. His pants get heavier, and he holds back with everything in him to not lift his hips to thrust into your mouth. His cock twitches in your mouth, telling you he’s getting close. “Jesus y/n,” he pants, tightening his hands in your hair.

The feeling of his hands grabbing your hair makes you moan on his cock. You go faster, pumping your hand on the rest of his length that you can’t quite fit in your mouth. You gag on his cock, causing him to moan loudly. “Fuck y/n keep going I’m so close” you flick your tongue around his tip, going back down and hollowing your cheeks. “Fuck y/n I’m gonna-“ you pull your mouth off of him and he whines at the loss of touch. “What the fuck y/n did you just cockblock me??” He manages to breathe out. You laugh at that, “No Heeseung, I just want you to fuck me already” you say, leaning forward to kiss him. “No need to tell me twice,” he says softly in your kiss. He flips you so your back is on the bed. He hovers over you, looking at you with so much love and lust. “Heeseung I have to tell you something,,” you say nervously. “What is it?” He asks, worried. “I’ve never had sex before.” You say quietly. He chuckles at your words, “don’t worry baby, I’ll be easy I promise. He kisses your neck, sucking and leaving marks. He kneads your breast with one hand, while trailing the other down to your soaking core. “Damn baby, you’re that wet for me?” “Oh shut up Heeseung” you breathe out, pulling him in for another kiss. He circles your clit, causing you to moan and deepen your kiss. He puts in one finger, then another, starting to stretch you out before he goes inside you. You wince at the slight pain, “you okay?” “Yeah I’m okay just keep going” you know he won’t do anything if you tell him not to. He starts pumping his fingers in and out of you. You moan loudly as he fingers you, his long nimble fingers going deeper than you’ve ever tried. The room is filled with the sounds of his fingers in you, your moans and pants. “Are you ready, y/n?”

You take a deep breath. “Please I just want you inside me”

He slides his length against your slit, lubricating himself before he inserts himself. He pushes the tip in, groaning as he does. After a minute he asks if he can keep going. You nod and he slowly pushes the rest of him into you, filling you completely up. Your eyes tear up at the pain but all you want is him, you ignore the pain. After a few minutes, the pain subsides a little “it’s okay Hee, keep going” he starts pumping in and out of you, slowly picking up speed. He groans at the friction. “God y/n you’re so fucking tight” he thrusts harder in you and you moan loudly. There’s so much to take in at once, but the pleasure is immense. He leans down and kisses your neck, leaning his chest against yours as he thrusts into you. You curse under your breath, “please go faster,” you moan. He happily does exactly what you ask, moaning as he pumps in and out of you. His cock twitches inside of you, already nearing his high. “Fuck y/n you’re squeezing me so hard you’re gonna make me cum already” you moan at his words, bringing you closer to your own high. He lifts your hips up higher, making him go into you even deeper, if that was even possible. “Fuck Hee right there!” You yell, grinding into his movements. “You like that, huh?” He bites on his lip as he fucks you. “I’ve been dreaming about doing this for so fucking long”

Your eyes roll back in your head and you feel the knot in your stomach become unbearable. “Hee I’m gonna cum” you curse loudly, vision going white with your release. He keeps thrusting into you, chasing his high. “Fuck y/n I’m about to cum” he whines. “Cum inside me, Hee, I want to feel all of you.” You moan, still riding out your high. He releases at that, filling you up to the brim with his cum. He slows down, both of you coming down from your highs. He pulls out of you, you wincing at the pain. He gathers the mixed cum dripping out of you on his fingers and puts them in his mouth. He kisses you, allowing you to taste. He curls up against you, your bodies fitting perfectly together. He sees the tears on your face and cups your face in his hands. “Oh baby please don’t cry,” he says, kissing your tears away. He lightly kisses your eyelids and cheeks, wanting to kiss all of the pain away. “It’s okay, Hee. I’m okay I promise” you smile at him, feeling more complete than you ever have in your life. He kisses you once more, passionate with so much love. You two fall asleep curled in each other's arms, happy and content.

You woke up the next morning, still in Heeseungs arms. You smile into his chest, remembering last night. “Good morning beautiful” he says, brushing the hair away from your face. You look up at him and smile, giving him a hug.

“I’m glad I listened to you Heeseung”

“I’m glad you let heard me out”

You’ve never felt so loved in your life. You feel complete with him.

“I love you, y/n”

“I love you with my whole heart and soul Heeseung"

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please just listen - pt one

GENRE

university au, childhood friends to lovers, romance, angst, smut, fluff

PAIRING

heeseung x fem!reader

WARNINGS

18+ MINORS DNI, oral sex (m receiving), slight edging, sex, sex with a virgin, lmk if I missed anything

WORD COUNT

6.2K (fic total)

SUMMARY

You never thought you’d see your childhood best friend ever again, but nonetheless, you ran into Heeseung at a coffee shop. You didn’t expect him to have a girlfriend though….

AUTHORS NOTE

wassup !! this is the first fic ive written, so please leave any suggestions ! and dont be too mean 😭 i hope if anyone reads this, you enjoy ! have a good day :)

pt 2 :

“This test is going to be my downfall.”

You look up from my textbook at your best friend, who has his hands covering his face in exhaustion.

“Jay, you can’t just give up because studying for more than half an hour is boring.” You tease, pulling his hands away from his face. “But y/nnnnnn it’s hard!” He replies, pouting. “Fine, let’s take a break to get some coffee.” You say, collecting your things and walking out.

You and Jay walk to the nearby coffee shop and sit at a table by the window. When your order is ready, you stand up to grab it from the counter. You pick up the drinks, but when you turn around you immediately gasp and almost drop them in your hands.

“Heeseung?” You ask, mouth agape in shock. “Oh my gosh, y/n?” He says in response. He smiles at you, causing blood to rise to your face. “I haven’t seen you in so long!” You say, holding him at arm's length. You get a good look at him, realizing how much he’s matured. He must’ve been 6’0 tall now. He’s wearing glasses, thin wired and round. He’s attractive, you must admit. Even though he’s always been, it’s a shock seeing him after so long. Jay walks up before Heeseung can reply saying, “Who is this..?”. “This is Heeseung, my childhood best friend! I haven’t seen him since,, must’ve been sophomore year of high school.” Jay looks him up and down, skeptical. Heeseung smiles. “It’s been too long. We’ll have to catch up soon, but I’m running late for work. I’ll see you soon, okay?” He says, waving goodbye. You and Jay walk back to your table with the drinks.

“Isn’t that such a coincidence? Who knew he’d be in the same area as me.” You say, still shocked at the interaction.

“Yeah, that’s crazy.” Jay says, uninterested.

“Well don’t get all grumpy. Let’s talk about how awful you are with procrastinating.” You tease, poking his cheek. “C’mon! You procrastinate too and you know it.” He says, smirking like he always does. You two spend a while longer chatting at the cafe, before you take an Uber back to your apartment.

You lay in your bed, thinking of old memories with Heeseung. You guys grew up together, basically inseparable. Your mom’s were best friends, so when you were younger you got to have sleepovers. As you got older though, they made you stop. You spent every waking moment together, he was your best friend and you never wished for anything else. You were teased as a kid, pushed in the hallway and whispered about in classes. Heeseung would always defend you. He played soccer, so he was cool on the scale of elementary-middle schoolers. After a kid dumped ice water on you and he gave him a bloody nose, people mostly left you alone. You think about the good memories. You remember being 8 and taking turns sitting in the wagon and rolling down hills. You think of being 10 and playing games together, screaming, trying to stay alive and help one another. You think of being 13 and blushing when he’d look at you. His voice had gotten deeper, and he’d gotten taller. You didn’t know why you had felt like that, you had never felt that before. You push that thought away and think of when you were 15. When you were 15, he moved away. He showed up at your doorstep, eyes red and wet with tears. His parents were waiting in the car, waiting for you to finish your goodbye. You didn’t understand what was happening, he never mentioned any of this. The past couple weeks he seemed down, but you thought he was just stressed. He told you he didn’t want to tell you because he didn’t want your last weeks to be sad. You hugged him, telling him you loved him and you would never forget him. He started to leave, he let go of your hands and turned away towards the car. Before he could get too far, you yelled his name. You grabbed his arm and without thinking, you kissed him. You kissed him because you were tired of staring at his lips when you thought he didn’t notice. You were tired of getting butterflies every time you thought about him for years and never doing anything about it. You knew he was leaving and if he didn’t feel the same you weren’t going to see him again, so he couldn’t embarrass you. You kiss him so fast, he only felt the light butterfly touch of your lips on his before you pulled away, eyes wide and teary, running back towards your house. Heeseung stood there a long second, before his mom called for him, snapping him out of it. He got in the car, ears burning and still trying to hold back his tears. You never knew he felt the same, you waited too long to ever do anything about it. After he left, you thought you’d never see him again. Not until now.

You realized you had fallen asleep thinking about him. You check your phone, seeing you overslept. “Oh shit!” You panic, getting dressed as quickly as possible and rushing out the door. You call Jay on your drive to the University, telling him you were sorry you missed breakfast and you overslept. He told you it was okay, and to meet for coffee after classes instead. You agree, hanging up the phone and getting to class as fast as possible. You look at your phone, fast walking to the doors. You run into someone, knocking books everywhere. “Oh my gosh I’m so sorry I wasn’t paying attention at all!!” You panic, helping the stranger pick up their things. You look up, almost nose to nose with Heeseung. Your faces are so close, you can smell the mint in his breath. You swallow, standing up and looking away. You hand him his things, apologizing again. You rush away as fast as possible, hoping he didn’t notice your cheeks erupt in red splotches. He turns around, thinking about calling out for you, but just watches you walk away instead.

You sit down in your class, barely able to listen to your professor. You try not to think about your interaction with Heeseung, but it seems to be the only thing occupying your mind. He smelled like spices, you couldn’t pinpoint just one. He smelled like cinnamon and pumpkin and nutmeg and so many other things. Maybe you were hallucinating scents in the autumn air. His lips were so close to yours, his brown eyes piercing into yours. If you were any closer, your noses would’ve touched. You didn’t know how either of you would react to that. You didn’t want to think about that. You spend the rest of class trying to focus, but it mostly ends up with you chewing on your pen.

You meet Jay after classes, like you promised. “Hey, you okay? You seem kinda off today.” Jay asks, reaching for your hand. He rubs comforting circles on your hand with his thumb, looking at you with genuine concern. You wave it off, telling him it’s just weird seeing Heeseung after so long. Jay asks you about your childhood with him, and you sit there looking at the table for a minute. You look up at Jay, saying, “We were just kids. We were inseparable until he moved away, and that was that. I never thought I’d see him again.” You give him a small smile. He changes the subject, seeing that you didn’t want to bring up old memories. He couldn’t help but feel curious about you and this random guy, though. Jay felt like he was missing out on years of history when he had only known you since freshman year of college. It’s only junior year now, so you and Jay definitely haven’t known each other as long as you and Heeseung.

After you leave, you decide to walk home. It’s a pretty lengthy walk, but you want to take your time going home. You walk along the sidewalk, yellow and orange leaves falling as you stroll. You take in the beauty of the scenery. The architecture was just beautiful in a cozy little town kind of way. When you get about halfway to your apartment, rain starts falling. The cold droplets fall on your body, causing goosebumps immediately. “Fuck” you mutter under your breath. You didn’t bring a jacket, much less an umbrella. You were only wearing your university’s sweatshirt and some loose jeans. You hold your hands above your face as the rain starts pouring, cursing yourself for not just taking an Uber. The rain suddenly stops and you look up, seeing someone is holding an umbrella over your head. You turn around and see Heeseung, grinning at you. “I think you’re a little soaked” he teases. “Oh really? You’re very observant Heeseung” you reply sarcastically. “I’m just messing with you, y/n. Hey, I was gonna ask you for your number so we can catch up!” He says, looking hopeful. You’re a little taken back, but you exchange phone numbers with him. You walk in silence for a bit, then you speak up. “So, how’d you end up here?”

“I was taking online courses for a while, but I missed making friends. All I have is my girlfriend, and while it’s nice spending time with her, sometimes you just need some other friends you know?”

Your heart pangs at the word girlfriend. You feel your expression falter but you notice quickly and smile again. “Yeah, I get it. If it means anything, you always have a friend in me, Heeseung.” You grin at him, noticing this is your apartment complex. “Oh hey, this is my place. I’ll talk to you later!” You thank him and walk up to your apartment. You try to shake the small feeling of hurt when he said he had a girlfriend. You should’ve known, he’s very attractive and you haven’t talked to him in nearly 5 years. You feel stupid for even thinking about him as much as you have been. You take a hot shower, trying to calm yourself. It works a little, but you still aren’t feeling that great. You decide to call Jay, he always makes you feel better. He answers after the second ring. “Hey, what’s up?”

“Can I come over?” You ask, pleading a little. “Yeah of course, everything okay?” He worries. “Yeah,, I’ll talk to you when I get there.”

You put on sweats and a tshirt and walk out the door. You arrive at Jay’s apartment in about 10 minutes. He opens the door, wearing nothing but sweatpants and socks. “Jeez dude, put a shirt on” you say, pretending to gag at the sight. “Oh you know you like it” he teases, smirking at you. You push him away, giggling. “Nah but seriously, is everything okay y/n?” He asks, his brows knitting together in concern.

You confess, “I don’t know, I feel stupid. I feel stupid because I keep blushing at every thought of Heeseung but I was talking to him and he told me he has a girlfriend and I felt hurt by it. I know I shouldn’t have felt anything at all, why do I feel like this?” He looks at you with understanding, pulling you in a hug. “It’ll be okay, y/n. You two clearly have a lot of history and it can’t feel great seeing him with a new person. You’ll feel better in no time, y/n, I promise.” You look up at him and smile, thanking him for the reassurance. “Now, what movie are we gonna watch tonight?” He says, grinning at you. “I’ll get the snacks!” You say, running to the kitchen. You watch the movie, leaning against Jay’s chest. After the movie, you realize he fell asleep during it. You’re not surprised, he never makes it through a whole movie. You look up at his sleeping face, knowing how lucky you are to have him as your best friend. He’s the sweetest person you’ve ever met, and he knows exactly how to make you feel better. He’s basically a brother to you. You snuggle up against him, closing your eyes.

You wake up to the smell of frying eggs and bacon. You rub your eyes and sit up. Jay’s standing in the kitchen, making breakfast. You wrap the blanket around your shoulders, padding over to the kitchen counter. He slides a plate of two sunny side up eggs on toast with strawberry jam, just how you like it. You sit together, eating in comfortable silence. “You feeling better today?” He asks. “Yeah, thanks Jay.” You smile at him. After finishing your food, you thank him and get in your car to head back to your place. You didn’t have classes today, so you were probably going to stay home all day. That plan was quickly changed, as you see on a billboard that tickets to go to the aquarium are discounted today!! You notice the parking lot is slightly crowded, others must’ve noticed the discount too. You buy your ticket and walk in, admiring the animals you’ve come to know by heart with how much you’ve come here. You walk in front of the huge whale shark tank, watching the beautiful beast slowly swim. “Beautiful, huh?” A low voice says in your ear, causing goosebumps to raise on your neck. You jump back, startled. You see Heeseung laughing to himself, with a girl grinning beside him. You look down to see their hands together.

Oh.

This is the girlfriend.

You plaster a smile on your face, “So, This must be the girlfriend! She’s very pretty.” You weren’t lying, she was very pretty with long dark hair with striking blue eyes. Her short stature made her look tiny compared to Heeseung. “Yep! This is Clarisse.” He replies. She holds out her free hand, shaking yours. “Nice to meet you! Heeseung was excited when he ran into you at the coffee shop the other day. He told me you guys have been friends since you were kids!” I wonder if he told her everything, you think to yourself. “Yeah, we have.” You answer, unable to think of anything to say. You wanted to get away from them, you didn’t like seeing Heeseung with another girl. “Well, we’ll see you, y/n. We’re gonna keep walking around.” Heeseung says, clearly slightly uncomfortable with the silence. “Yeah, cya Heeseung.”

You watch them walk away, Clarisse holding onto his arm and giggling. She runs up to the otter tank, pointing and gasping. “Hee!! Look at how cute!!!” She squeals. Ouch. You were the one who started calling him Hee. You were the only one who called him Hee. You bit back the tears swelling in your eyes, cursing at yourself for feeling so much for someone you haven’t known since high school.

You go home earlier than you wanted, desperately trying to get away from Heeseung and Clarisse. You collapse into bed, holding onto your stuffed bear your mother gave you. You start crying, letting the tears fall as you drift off into sleep.

Routine days pass, nothing unusual. It’s been almost two weeks since you’ve seen Heeseung. It’s gotten better, you’re not thinking about him as much but you can’t ignore that longing feeling in your heart. You’re walking to your car when you get a text. You look at your phone and see it’s from Heeseung.

Heeseung: Hey

Y/n: Hey..?

Heeseung: Sorry if this is weird, but do you wanna grab dinner tonight?

Y/n: Uh sure, what time and where?

He tells you he’ll pick you up at your apartment at 7pm so you send him your address. It’s 4pm right now, so you have plenty of time to get ready. You take a shower and do your hair, putting on some light makeup and a cute outfit. You sit on your phone for a little bit, then you hear a knock on the door. You stand up, smoothing out your hair and taking a deep breath. You open the door and see a grinning Heeseung standing there. “You ready?” He says. ��As I’ll ever be!” You reply, smiling back at him.

He drives to a cozy little restaurant, filled with plants and lanterns. You’re going to have to remember this place, it’s exactly the place you’d love. You two sit down and a waiter takes your drink orders. “So, what made you text me?” You ask, genuinely curious. “I just missed you, y/n.” He says, way too casually for you. You feel a blush creeping up your neck. “Missed me?” You ask. He grins at you, “Yeah, I missed you. We used to be best friends!” Oh, right. He misses having friends not having me.

You guys chat as the waiter comes back and takes your orders, then brings out your food. All throughout dinner, you guys get more and more comfortable with each other. By the end of the dinner, it’s just like old times.

“Oh my, this has been great” you say after almost choking from laughing so hard. “Yeah it really has been” he says, looking at you in a way that shoots butterflies all through your stomach. You look down at your lap, smiling. “You ready to go?” He asks. “Yeah, sure.” You say, and he offers to drive you home. The drive home is quiet, but comfortable. You look over at him and his jaw is tense, his hands gripping a little too hard on the steering wheel. “You okay?” You ask him. “Yeah, I’m fine, I’m sorry.” He answers, rubbing the back of his neck with one hand. You decide to leave it alone, wondering what happened. When you get to your house, he walks you up to your door.

“This night was really great!! Thank you Hee” you say, smiling up at him. He looks down at you, smiling a little bit. “Are you sure you’re okay?” You ask, seriously worried you did something wrong.”

“Y/n, I’m gonna do something and I’m really sorry in advance” he says. “What are you tal-“ you’re quickly cut off by the feeling of his lips on yours. You stand there shocked for a second, before your eyes flutter shut and your hand moves up to his neck. His hands do the same, moving through your hair. He pulls away, looking at you in a way you haven’t seen since you were 15. “I had to do that. I’ve been holding it since we were kids.” He whispers. You can’t do anything except stare at him in shock. “I’m sorry, y/n. I’m so sorry I don’t know what I’m doing.” He rubs his neck again, turning away. You let him walk to his car and drive away. Even if you called after him, you wouldn’t know what to say. You walk in the house, ears burning with everything that just happened.

You call Jay and tell him everything.

“Doesn’t he have a girlfriend??” Is the first thing Jay said when you finished. “Oh my gosh Jay you’re right. What the fuck have I gotten myself into???” You pinch the bridge of your nose, pacing around your room. “Relax, y/n. It’ll be okay. It might just take time to smooth everything out.” Jay says, trying to calm your nerves. “But what is ‘smoothing everything out’??? What the fuck is gonna happen?? I hate this right now.” You say, exasperated. Jay spends some more time trying to calm you down, but it doesn’t really work. You both say goodnight, and you try to get some sleep.

In the morning, you text Heeseung.

No answer.

The next day you text him, no answer.

He leaves all your messages on delivered, and multiple days pass. You’ve been a nervous wreck all week, not able to focus on anything.

You see him across the courtyard. He makes eye contact with you. You stand there looking at each other for a second, then you start walking towards him. He turns and starts walking the other direction. “Heeseung!” You yell for him. He doesn’t listen, so you grab his arm and pull him to look at you. “What do you want, y/n?” He says curtly. “Hello?? What happened the other night? And then you just felt the need to ghost me and ignore my messages?” He looks down at his feet at your confrontation.

“Listen, that night was a mistake. I have a girlfriend and I just got caught in the moment.” You stood there, shocked. He looks at you and you can’t help but get butterflies when his eyes meet yours.

“What the fuck Heeseung?” You start. “Just a mistake?? It’s been five goddamn years and I’ve never been able to get you out of my head. I’ve never been able to love someone like I loved you. When you moved away, it broke my heart. I kissed you that day because I thought it’d help me move on, by confessing my feelings in a way so I got them out. But I never ever forgot you, Heeseung. I never fucking moved on.” You feel hot tears start to stream down your face. “Seeing you with someone else makes me sick. I always wanted you. I only ever wanted you and this bullshit happening is something I don’t need in my life. If you’re just going to cause problems for me, leave me alone so I can move on and get out of my damn life.” You snap at him, choking back your sobs. He stares at you with so much emotion, you have to turn away. You walk away as fast as you can, wiping the tears off your face. You hear Heeseung call after you, but you just walk faster. You don’t want to see him right now.

You show up at Jay’s house once again. He opens the door to see your puffy red eyes and immediately his expression softens. He makes you food and doesn’t ask questions, he knows you don’t like crying in front of people. You slowly eat the ramen he prepared for you, trying not to think about Heeseung. You sleep on Jay’s couch while he goes to bed, telling you that you can wake him up if you need anything. You thank him and try to sleep, but you barely get any sleep that night.

After you leave Jay’s house the next morning, you drive back to your house. When you turn the corner to walk to your door, you see a very tired Heeseung sitting against the wall next to your apartment door. This only irritates you further, you just want to get some sleep. When he sees you, he quickly stands up. “Y/n, please-“ You cut him off. “I don’t want to talk to you, Heeseung, just go home.” He keeps trying to talk to you, even after you close your door in his face. He eventually leaves and goes home, but that doesn’t stop the texts and calls. After about 23 missed calls, you answer him to tell him to stop. “Y/n, please just listen to me-“ You cut him off again. “Heeseung, just stop. There’s no point in this bullshit.”

“No, y/n please let me explain!” He says, and you can hear the pleading in his voice. “Fine. Just make it quick.” You answer after a minute of silence.

“Listen, I broke up with Clarisse. I liked her, but I’ve never felt anything like I do with you. I love being around you, y/n. I keep thinking of when we were kids and how big of a crush I had on you in highschool. Even though we’ve only seen each other a few times as of recently, I can feel the connection y/n. I know you and I know all I want is you.

I ghosted you because I thought I did the wrong thing. I mean, I did. I shouldn’t have kissed you while I was with Clarisse, but after me and her talked, she understood and we broke up. But when I kissed you and you just stood there, I felt like you wanted nothing to do with me. I’m sorry I fucked up, y/n. I know I did and I’m so fucking sorry.”

His voice cracked at the last line and you can feel how emotional he was getting.

You knew Heeseung. You’ve known him since you were kids. You knew he was being sincere, and you couldn’t believe this was happening.

“Thank you Heeseung.” You finally say.

“What?” He says, sniffling.

“Thank you. Thank you for being so sincere and making me hear you out. I want to see you, okay? Can we meet for dinner tonight? At the same place we went to a couple weeks ago.”

“Yeah, yeah of course y/n. I’ll pick you up at 8.” He says, wiping the tears threatening to spill over his eyes.

“See you in a bit” you say, smiling into the phone.

Heeseung couldn’t believe what just happened. He poured his heart out, still expecting you to be cold, but he got exactly what he secretly hoped for. He cleaned up as quick as he could, putting on an oversized sweater and loose jeans.

You got ready at your own pace, putting on a black miniskirt, a sweater, and black platform mary janes with white lace socks peeking out of the top.

When he knocks on your front door, he’s holding white roses. “These were your favorites when we were kids, I didn’t know if they still were, but here you go” he says, blushing slightly in the moonlight and looking away. “They’re perfect, Heeseung,” you say, smiling at him. The drive to the restaurant is quiet, his fingers drumming nervously on the steering wheel.

You make small talk for a while, getting comfortable before talking too serious.

“What made you kiss me?” You ask once you both have your food. He looks up at you, swallowing hard before he answers. He’s always been shy about this kind of thing. “All night you looked so beautiful, I couldn’t believe my own eyes when I first saw you. That night when everything picked up right as it had been when we were 15, I couldn’t help it. I knew I wanted you.”

Hearing those last five words sent butterflies straight down your core. “I’ve always wanted you, Heeseung. I never stopped wanting you.”

“Me too, y/n. I was just too afraid of rejection to admit it.”

You two look at each other with more love than ever before, more than just the crushes you had when you were kids and more than when you kissed. This was intense, something that couldn’t be diminished. “Do you still want me?” You ask, testing him. He swallows hard, throat suddenly dry. “Yes, y/n. I’ve never wanted something more in my life.”

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