psychoticangel

[psychoticangel]

I've waited for you for years,

But now that you're here

When I am too broken to have you

That means it's too late

I don't deserve you.

[psychoticangel]

she is not weak.

She is more dangerous to herself than anyone else in the whole world.

#sadbeautifultragic

[psychoticangel]

The little girl in me dreams about you as

I don't want to be just loved

I want you to accept me the way I am

I want you to hold my hand even though I would never ask you to

I want you to never let me go when I push you away

I want you to forgive me when I'll screw up

I want you to trust me the way I'll trust you with my heart 

I want you to stand by me when I am all alone

I want to get lost with you in our own world

I want to hide you as my secret so no can ruin us.

#my writing #sad poem #venting #sad lonely girl #lonely nights #want to be happy #want to be loved #run away #with me #loveislove #dream of love #sad love

[psychoticangel]

A girl who craved for attention so much

That when she got it from evil and monsters

She accepted it and played along.

A girl who always keep waiting for her knight in armour to save her has changed into the villian of her own story.

A girl whose dreams were crushed by the crucial reality

#my writing #break me #no soul #no home #sad lonely girl #damaged #heartbreak #heartless #not anymore #crucial #reality #i hate it here #cant take it anymore #this is who i am #sadbeautifultragic #my story #dreamwastaken #i am bad

[psychoticangel]

Today, the two closest people in my life discovered marks on my wrist and asked me about it. And like the world class liar I am I gave them fake reason behind those marks. But the funny thing is I don't even feel a little bit of remorse for lying or no anxiety for them to discover my vulnerability. This is crazy right? What the fuck is wrong?

#what am i doing? i am not feeling anything why it has to be this way #why cant i leave this all behind

[psychoticangel]

Why am I getting worst and worst at socializing?

#venting #dont know what im doing #why is it hard #social issues

[psychoticangel]

I am who ruin everything

And I run away from problems

I am a fighter but a coward

I treat people like shit and expect them to treat me like a queen

I want to be loved but

Sometimes I hurt people and I feel no remorse

I act before realizing what I am doing

And then I am into denial as if it was not my fault in the beginning

I crave attention but I also want people to forget about my existence

#venting #dont know what im doing #i dont deserve anything #self loathing #i hate my existence #i hate my brain #sick brain #what is this #is this normal

[psychoticangel]

My demons, you are back

Darkness, you are looming all around me

Hatred, you are making me the worst

Hope, you are long gone

#darkness #self loathing #numbness #inner demons #i hate my brain #i hate my existence

[psychoticangel]

Anyone knows that feeling when you hate yourself to that extreme level that you start to harm yourself and ruin your dignity because you feel you are worthless?

#vent #tw selfhate #i hate myself #at my lowest #i dont deserve anything #dont know what im doing #need help #theres nothing

[psychoticangel]

You can't piece together my broken soul,

No one can.

You can't bring light to my darkness,

trust me many tried but never got lucky enough.

And that's why you should walk away right this second,

because I am afraid I am about to break one more heart by giving you false hope.

#venting #sadbeautifultragic #sadcore #i dont deserve this #i dont deserve anything #darkness #heartless #heart been broke so many times #love is a curse #love is pain #sad poem

[psychoticangel]

The past is haunting me,

The future is out of my league,

And in the present I am stuck with guilt and shame.

#venting #cant take it anymore #take me away #darkness #am i the only one? #dont know what im doing #sadbeautifultragic #sadcore #quotes #guilt tripping #why am i still alive #i have issues

[psychoticangel]

Where do I belong ?

Is there any place in this world, where I could belong to ?

Because, I am certain there's none.

Sometimes, I don't understand my role or my place in this world.

It feels like a passenger in an unknown train not knowing the destination.

#my writing #venting #dark academia #sadbeautifultragic #darkness #sadcore #sad poem #literature #quotes #failure #losing myself #left alone #no home #no one gets it #no one cares #devastated #falling #falling inside the black

[psychoticangel]

You were so desperate to be loved,

that you trusted wrong people.

You got too attached to others,

and it broke your heart everytime they left you.

#my writing #dark academia #literature #quotes #sadbeautifultragic #darkness #sadcore #chaotic academia #loneliest #sad lonely girl #this is what falling in love feels like #this is who i am #how i feel #love is a curse #trust issues #trust no one #always alone #feeling alone #left alone

[psychoticangel]

What is rain ?

That soothing sound of water splashing on my window.

That strong moist wind that feels like feather on my skin.

That sharp roar of storm that calms the storm inside me.

That drops falling down from heaven to mix with the tears falling down my face.

As if to say I am not the only one crying in this cruel world, that even God's cry someday.

#my writing #my poem #rainfall #rainy season #rain aesthetic #soothing rain #rainyvibes #rainyseason #rain storm #rain poetry #rain poem #relaxing rain #love rain #rain lover #dark academia #literature #quotes #sad poem #sadbeautifultragic #sadcore

[psychoticangel]

Why do I chase after light,

When I shed tears alone every night.

#my writing #my poem #sadbeautifultragic #sad poem #sadcore #always alone #feeling alone #loneliest #self loathing #no one gets it #no one cares #lonely nights #moonlight #dark academia #dark souls #literature #quotes #darkness #chaotic academia #sad qoutes #sad poetry #loathe #dying alone #feelings #i feel numb

[psychoticangel]

Everytime you touch me,

It feels like a home to me.

#my writing #dark academia #dark souls #literature #quotes #darkness #sadbeautifultragic #sad poem #sadcore #chaotic academia #chaotic mind #soulmate #lovers #gentle touch #devastating #heartbreak #lit #literally #match made in heaven #match made in hell #losing you #loving you

[psychoticangel]

I realized we share a kind of love that can't be cherished.

#my writing #dark souls #quotes #sadbeautifultragic #sad qoutes #dark academia #literature #darkness #soulmate #heart break #nervous breakdown #sadcore