#'well thats a what if scenario I'll let you get IVs on me then'

[strawberry-cowmilk]

Can i uh request for the brothers and the side characs for mc thats like atsushi from bsd? Btw if u dont know that its fine and just do a detective mc. Love your works btw and one of the best ive read!

Hello anon! I have only watched one season of bsd so far, so I don't know how accurate my portrayal of an Atsushi-like character will be, but I'll try my best.

I'm happy to hear you enjoy my work, I hope this one will be to your liking as well!

the obey me cast with a detective mc

-> brothers and side characters

-> mc is based on atsushi nakajima from bungo stray dogs

a/n: since luke is gonna be here, this will be a non-romantic scenario

mc's gender is not mentioned, not proof read

content warnings: mild people pleasing mentions (not explicitly)

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Lucifer:

he's happy you are actually able to figure out who did something

the broken vase on the floor? yes, you knew who did it

you do ask lucifer to go a little softer on his brothers when punishing them

sometimes, when he is working late in his office, you'll bring him some coffee and snacks

you do encourage him to drop work and get rest, but he, as the avatar of pride, doesn't quite listen to your advice

Mammon

'you're a detective? can ya tell me smart ways to cheat at poker, then?'

you think such questions mammon asks you are funny yet worrisome

you actually do end up giving him some tips to cheat in casinos, but you also tell the demon the cheating is a terrible idea in the first place

sometimes, you help mammon out when he is in severe debt and needs to pay many witches back, he really appreciates your help

Leviathan

there's definitely a bungo stray dogs rip-off in the devildom called bungo stray cats

levi will point out you're kind of like the main character in that anime, therefore he likes you

he will invite you to play detective games in his room, and will ask for your help when he's stuck on an especially difficult part

thanks to you, levi gets really high scores in these games

Satan

you two instantly bond

we all know about satan's detective novel addiction, so meeting a real detective is like a dream come true for him

whenever there's a 'case', like a broken coffee machine in the house, and you're asked to figure out who broke it, satan is happy to be your personal helper

having an assistant actually boosts your confidence in solving the case, so you're glad satan helps out

by the way, belphie broke the machine

Asmodeus

asmo will ask you to answer the weirdest mysteries for him

mysteries like who stole his expensive bath bomb while he was in the kitchen at 12:36pm 50 years ago

honestly, you don't expect yourself to be able to find the culprit, but you still try to because you don't want to disappoint asmo

whenever you actually find the answer to such a mystery, he will cling onto you, praising and thanking you for your work, that's actually a nice feeling

Beelzebub

he thinks you're very sweet, he admires your personality

a whole new world opened up for beel the first time you let him try chazuke

now you and beel occasionally beg lucifer or diavolo to let you go to the human world for a while pure for the chazuke

food aside, beel believes your work must be exhausing at times

so, when you're hanging out, he makes sure you're at your most comfortable

Belphegor

belphie assumes you must be good at stealthy things, since you're a detective

so, he asks you to take sneaky pictures of lucifer, so him and satan can have a good laugh

you think it's a horrible idea, but you do it anyways because you want belphie to be happy

lucifer actually catches you and figures out what was going on

rip belphegor, he was a good man

Diavolo

let's just say he's happy you got selected for the exchange program

diavolo is very interested in your work and will ask you many questions about it

but, when he finds out detective work can be dangerous, he feels the need to assure your safety

before you go to your work, diavolo will stop you and hand you a hockey stick for self-defence

you thank him, it's nice of him to worry about your safety

Barbatos

you're the kind of person barbatos can really bond with

he will invite you for tea when he has a free day from his work

during your little tea parties, you mainly talk about work, but also about other things

barbatos is a very nice host, you feel the need to thank him for his efforts

so, you learn how to bake and make him a nice, fancy cake to bring to your next tea party

both of you, being very polite, keep throwing thank yous, it's nothings and no problems at each other

Simeon

he didn't really know exactly what kind of work detectives do, since he lives in the celestial realm and crime is very rare there, so there's no real need for detectives

once you tell stories from work, he is very invested in your words

so much, he writes a detective into the TSL franchise

but, when you write a book, you always have to do research on the topic aside from stories and simeon eventually finds out the work may be dangerous

so, as an angel, he decides to use his powers to protect you in silence

Luke

luke doesn't quite get what the concept of a detective is, as in he knows, but he's too innocent to understand they work with cruel criminals

like, he'll ask you where he can find the best apples for apple pie

you actually end up searching every store and market for the highest quality apples, and you bring luke some when you've found them

then, luke will insist you make the pie together

Solomon

the first thing you want to know is why his cooking is so terrible

turns out, that's a mystery nobody can solve

solomon will ask you to solve questions that can actually be solved by anyone

for example, he'll ask you why asmo is mad at him after he stole his bath bomb

jokes aside, he has great respect for you and the work you do

#obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me swd #obey me scenarios #obey me imagines #omswd #om #gn!mc #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #beelzebub obey me #belphegor obey me #obey me diavolo #obey me barbatos #obey me simeon #obey me solomon #obey me luke #lucifer #leviathan #mammon #asmodeus #beelzebub #belphegor #diavolo #barbatos #simeon #solomon

[psychrolutidae]

Restless legs syndrome is prbably my least favorite knee sensation. Heres some childhood stuff that also makes my cpu overclock (reddit rant#2)

r/chronohaul

Man i wish i coud just do an audio message on here but im not doxxing myself im a [probably] autistic highschool girl who gets mass downvoted every few weeks. Anyway ive been thinking 🤔 I've been thinking 😁 idk how the Yakuza works and idc to learn cause thats a little too #real yanno so if I'm off the mark here i dont give a dam. But theres two ways the whole school thing can go: they go to whatever school together and probably don't speak to anyone other than each other (kai out of disgust, sickness etc, hari out of "ok that's what kais doing and i dont really have the desire to do anything else so I'll just follow him around [thats actually a pretty succinct chronostasis character analysis in general]"). i imagine kai would struggle with germs and stuff and hari would stand guard casually outside of broom closets and bathroom stalls while he had breakdowns in there (lost kitten by metric moments! listen to it now When you come undone i cover you uuuuppp) and then kai would just come back out not really looking any better and say Okay lets go.

And the other angle is the two of them confined to the hideout, the youngest in the building so having next to no one to ask for help with questions from the textbooks tht were requested to be procured by pops . This one Low Key makes me insane cause it completely recontextualizes them. Like wdym you two literally only had each other through your entire childhood and now you just say shit like "sorry 4 the wait i was trying to keep our trail clear" "thanks" likw HUH HUH

even the idea of them going to school together does that to me cause i doubt they ever talked to anyone but each other so. A little more socially adapted but still very isolated situation.

This would create The most insane codependency youve ever seen. Literally only having one other person your age who completely understands your living situation would drive you insane. The more i think about them the less likely i feel like it is to ever do deep character analyses on either of them without coming to the conclusion that they Cannot survive without each other. And that's gay as hell.

One more thing. Is the idea that they knew what their roles as adults were going to be. At a certain age they would cease to be friends and become boss and employee. And. They knew thjs the whole time. Allll the training chrono did tk become a marksman was done with the knowledge in mind that he was going to directly serve kai. How do u liveeee with ur best friend knowing ur gonna be directly subordinate to him indefinitely.&."!&!&!"!*!_!&! What did this knowledge do to their baby psyches. (It made them more codependent).

So non e of this stuff about them growing up in the organization together is evr confirmed but like ... if chrono was friends w kai as a child and then joined the shie hassaikai later in life i kinda doubt he would have as much admiration fkr what kai does for ut bc chrono does show a devotion for the SH. Hes like This is 4 the gang!!! And gets stabbed its like that vine with the guy shooting a basketball and saying This one is to end racism and then missing the shot. So to me this is my canon just cause it makes sense. And if it came out that chronos joining the sh was a "quit yr job" "why" "join my emo band" scenario well I'm gonna be really upset

Anyway just to be clear the potential autism isnt the reason i talk weird i just think its funny and Freeing to use weird diction and go off on tangents. The potential autism is definitely the reason i spend half an hour writing these things though. Love you all (no one is reading this) 💖

#p #chronohaul #chronostasis #hari kurono #OVerhaul #kai chisaki

[kqtmansmokeschronic]

holy shit

3 weeks of editing and basically 2 years of game play to get the best clips edited in the very best way and holy shit the montage is so close to done there is only room for 1 more clip and i just have to wait for my guy to be able to send to me and as bad as i want him to just see it because its so good its TOO good to spoil i cant show him it unfinished i need him to see it completely finished so he can experience the the little mini movie event that ive put together in just under 4 min i did so much editing and touched up the clips themselves even to make sure none looked dull or flat and i brightened up night time clips and etc etc etc i just want this video to be perfect cause i think of it as a legacy in a silly way in however many years we'll be able to look back and go "remember that time we started getting pretty good at beach aw in gta online?" and just having the proof to myself and not having to rely on memory and being able to relive those things, thats really what i think the channel is all together, i never made it to be a big youtber i made is for personal prosperity and now its just in prosperity for me and my guy. Our channel is just going to be a little section of memories and as much as i love gta its why i want to post other stuff too because i feel like eventually a large amount of memories and things will be had uploading different things and being able to capture that is really precious. I couldnt do that in my childhood, what i would give to have streams of me when i was little playing crash bandicoot with my sisters or spyro the dragon. I have these really faint flashes of memory but not much else and i wish i could just have those moments preserved like me and him do right now. I think im gunna start really doing different things with the channel now that im fully realizing this just uploading whatever we wantg to anything and eveyrthing because i basically just want it to be a time capsule and i know i know "youtube is a private service its not guaranteed your videos will always be there" okay we'd lose some stuff a little bit of raw footage here and there and we'd lose most of the streams but all the public videos on the channel i have backed up to a hard drive and now that im also realizing that in context i'll need a hard drve to start backing up the raw footage of streams to preserve those in perpetuity as well. Growing up we had photo albums that was like your definitive little book of memories but you can have so much more now, you can have almost every part of a person you can have their face and their voice and their presence you can re live those moments without having to try as hard as you can to remember and human memory sucks and is flawed you dont remembers things how you think you do, you think its like finding a file on a computer and putting it away but the brain doesnt work like that every time you remember something you remember the last time you remembered it. So the more often you remember something the likely it is details to change but it can make entire scenarios change because everytime you've remembered it you're altering the file its like your pulling up the file, trying to copy it really quick, we're human so we have certain tendencies and those play out subconsciously, copying the file and adding your extra human brain goo smudges to it and putting it back and very time you remembers it this happens those smudges build up more and more god damn i nailed that metaphor lets go OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH's in the chat folks

#im high #i love you #your my guy #i hope i dont look crazy i just think alot #uhm i want bacon #and cuddles #in that order

[rrxnjun]

ok. i was gonna reply to ur comment but it got a bit too long of a rant HAHAHHA sorry😭

but girl i will never stop raving about ur fics istg like something about the way you write and your characters always seem to hit home for me like i always seem to connect with your characters. you make their emotions and the scenarios they're in so vivid and raw and IBFIWRFO i eat it up😭😭😭

i never used to like reading angst but you execute it so well that i'll literally love it when you do it (e.g. fics like two people, when nobody's watching, potential) IDK MAN it physically hurts my heart I FEEL THE EMOTIONS OF THE CHARACTERS MAN IDK

when nobody's watching: when the reader's looking at renjun thru the years from her perspective when the reader wants to reach out, I WANT TO REACH OUT LIKESJFGOWRG WHEN RENJUN SMASHES THE BOTTLE AT THE PARTY YK????

two people: the way you describe jeno and y/n's suffocating one way relationship, I UNDERSTAND THE READER!!! jeno is perfect, he tries to fix the relationship but IT JUST DOESNT WORK THAT WAY the relationship was way over before he tried to fix it and ITS SO REAL!!!! the inner turmoil the reader went thru and the slow changing feels for mark WAS JUST- UGH *chefs kiss

potential: man. where do i even start with this fic. it's a storyline that i never knew i needed to read in my life. like bar u don't understand, potential had me in despair for the next 4 days. i can understand chenle's pain, y/n's confusion, their complicated love for each other. i don't think words can describe how special this story is to me.

this.... became a lot longer than i anticipated and IM SORRY FOR RAMBLING ON ABOUT THE SAME THREE FICS OVER AND OVER OSBFOWRGO but seriously tho, i genuinely love everything you put out, keep up the hard work💗

(i think this is the longest ask i've ever sent lol)

i treat writing as my therapy session so maybe thats why the characters are always so raw- NO but omg this is such an honor bc i really focus more on the characters than the plot i think and i really try to develop them really well and stuff and i focus a lot on the feelings and emotions so >:((( i am so happy that you like that about my writing !!!

the paradox is that i HATE reading angst. like if its in a long fic where its mixed up i dont mind and i think its important to have angstier parts in a long fic too but if its a drabble and its angsty i just won't read it LMAOOO

when nobody's watching was such a spontaneous fic istg i wrote it in what. two days? at uni LMAO. i got the idea when i was like,, watching this guy from afar and then i realised i ALWAYS DO THIS like i always have those silly crushes on ppl and never tell them bc im scared but i care so deeply for ppl that dont even know i exist 😭😭😭 but also i find that i used to change myself a lot to fit into social circles and even tho uni was really lonely for me at first that i kinda let go of that the same way renjun did so it was definitely cathartic to write :,)

honestly to this day idk how i even managed to write two people. like i think its the only fic i have thats about adult mature ppl LMAO all my other fics are like college aus and shit. like where did all of that pain and angst even come from ???? but i am so glad u liked it, i didnt expect ppl to enjoy that kind of fic >:((

DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON POTENTIAL why are my best fics always the most spontaneous. its literally like in my top 5 fav fics ive ever written so i am insanely happy that you like it sm !!! <33 chenle's character in this fic is insanely personal to me also :,) the readers and his dynamic is also one of my favs ive ever written,, idk idk theres just something about this fic...

i am really honored to recieve this in my inbox its so sweet of you and i definitely appreciate it a LOT hope you dont mind me rambling about the fics i just enjoy talking about my writing :,)

#💌ask #j 🌱 #feedback !! #fic: when nobody's watching #fic: potential #fic: two people

[somnolenceses]

may 1 2022

cant describe it. maybe "foreign emotions" perhaps? if that makes sense

like i cant tell what these emotions are coming from. why do i feel like this? these emotions aren't me, and if they are they shouldn't be. i thought i would be feeling better with less stress on me but somehow i got way worse again. i don't get it at all, it's maddening.

why am i so sensitive? any sort of rejection has me spiral into some super negative thought even if it's minor and i don't get it. i can't stress the phrase enough. i've heard some say ohh it's a good thing but i don't see it that way. maybe it's that way in general with emotions. like it's okay to be sad or act out in this manner but i can't see it that way. no one ever in my life lets me be upset or gives me time for this. and that is a thing i can say wholeheartedly. it's not like a few individuals do, it very genuinely feels like NOBODY in this sad little life gives time for it. and if i express this, even less. so i don't see why i should be like that, atleast outwards. and i recover very fast, so even less.

maybe i do see why people become little sad sacks on the internet now. it's hard to understand the "14-17 year old who just watched serial experiments lain" types unless you get put in the mindset. those types are annoying, honestly, but i understand. it feels like "real life" outcasts you and makes you virtually nonexistent or too useless, but you can act as you want on the internet, so why remain connected with the real world? is that how the quote goes? i don't know. i didn't really like lain anyways lol.

it's just still very confounding. i know for a fact these emotions aren't mine. they aren't cq's nor [redacted]'s. the sensitivity? the ability to fuck everything up? the instability? these weren't, nor was ever me. it just begs the question of who the hell's feelings and mannerisms these are. this isn't like, a DID faker arc or whatever. it makes me just wonder who's body i am in sometimes. kinda. see, it's hard to explain. this sucks. just when i thought i was getting better from the first few months, it just keeps returning. i wish i could kill it

wow that was stupid. anyways if i still did for fun kinning i would be a really good mafuyu asahina kinnie. between the putting up a front (or rather, having to sometimes), good student, pressure to be 'normal' and do something successful, and the random vanishing and having a hard time trying to find who i am, and the "if i can't find myself, then i'll have to disappear" (implying suicide, now that i think abt it, but it goes both ways) in the unit story. or maybe mizuki. hmm, thats a hard choice. but i do genuinely resonate with mafuyu a lot it's kind of eerie. maybe it's just proves prsk did really good with writing the 25-ji, nightcode desu characters. yeah, that's what it is. good game. it's fun to play. marionette set cards solo. my favorite mafu cards are the marionette one and "thrown words." i forgot why i was writing now that i think about it. speaking of good games. card thief is also one. challenging but entertaining.

anyways stan 25ji. if you don't, whatever i don't care piss yourself its either this or band kid music

still fighting for the title of family disappointment. i think ill win. with the way im being (rightfully) criticized and put down everyday before being lectured right after being apologized to dont know how longer ill take it before i start seriously considering things.

sometimes i think there would be nothing better than completely vanishing because i contribute nothing to anybody ever in this life. running away would be nice in concept but awful in execution. so i wish something happens soon since ive already mentally prepared for it (well, only one scenario, by my own hand, but nonetheless.) it's like finally killing the final boss that's been plaguing the village or whatever. i dont know whats with me causing stress to the people who need it the least

ive realized ive been a horrible manipulative being this entire time because i keep pretending ive been wronged when i do nothing but cause active harm and me being dead would make things better actually. i used to be afraid of dying in my sleep randomly as a kid and no longer being able to think but now i think if i finally got pushed too far im not really attached to anything anymore anyways. its natural if i have already mentally prepared this i have also mentally prepared for total loneliness and thus this. nothing could really stop me if i finally complied and gave in. i can't imagine anyone being really sad over it, really. it's like the daughter of evil (vocaloid song) where they finally had enough and stood up to the evil princess and guillotined her. by the way that song fucks and it was one of my first vocaloid songs and im still fond of it

but also im lit rally a minor and i have a english project to complete tomorrow. and i'm really nowhere close to the breaking point so there is that. i need to be realistic by saying this im still being the awful person im aware of being

[redrobin-detective]

I want to know what is up with patients refusing care lately. Half my patients yesterday were saying No to everything from the mundane (finger stick checks) to the the clinically important (refusing IV access and blood draws to determine treatment) and, with how exhausted and overworked all of us are now I don’t have the time or patience to get on my knees and talk them through every single nitpick they have about the food or bedding or whatever. 

Hospitals are overflowing and overrun and even my good will and patience can run out. Here is what I want to say to my patients who come to the hospital and won’t let us help without explanation: Go Home. Stop taking up a bed someone else desperately wants if you don’t want us to treat you. We told you what we need to do to get you better, multiple people have come in and explained in varying different ways. I don’t have the time or energy to cater to your every little desire, to wait on you hand and foot like you’re at a day spa. 

I am here to fix or at least manage your medical condition and if you will not let me or others do what we need to in order to get you to that point then Leave.

#adventures in nursing #sorry I'm just still in awe at this lady with perforated intestines refusing lab draws to make sure shes not BLEEDING OUT #'the sticks hurt and they don't do anything' #YES THEY DO MAAM WE MAKE SURE YOU'RE NOT DYING #I explained in an emergency sitaution we'd have no access if we needed to resucciate her #'well thats a what if scenario I'll let you get IVs on me then' #like Maam if you are crashed we don't have time to lovingly search for good veins #we drill straight into your fucking BONE to give you life saving drugs #that shit h u r t s #and its not just her! the last few months more and more patients are like 'I'm not doing X Y Z' #and not giving reasons #like I promise I dont want to do these things either but I want YOU to get BETTER and this is what NEEDS to happen #if youre gonna take up a bed and act like a prissy prima donna bc I was late bringing you coffee #then go home #come back when you're *really* sick and suddenly want all the care you denied earlier #seriously what the FUCK is wrong with people #I'm willing to educate and compromise and understand why they dont want things #but when everyone says 'this will help you' and you say 'fuck you' then don't expect me to all friendly about it #nursing fuckign SUCKS ass right now

[actualbird]

// main story 6.2 spoilers

continuation from the prev post!! so heres all my reactions and thoughts from when mc and artem go to [REDACTED IMPORTANT LOCATION, BUT IF U KNO, U KNO] all the way to the end

very heavy on the Overthinking Thoughts on Story Themes because holy shit, the Plot. the THEMES. GUYS....

ALSO THIS IS LONG, IT'S 1.3K WORDS

but before i talk about plot i need to say that having the investigations between the 4 rooms in the building---each room filled with fucked up shit---being interspersed with TENDER, LOVING CONVERSATIONS BETWEEN ARTEM AND MC, COMPLETE WITH THE TRADEMARK TOT ROMANTIC MUSIC PLAYING is by far

the funniest series of mood whiplash i ever got in my life

mc and artem: o damn this room has all the evidence of criminals ava has been blackmailing to do her bidding and also a video of jerry and naomi being forced to KILL THE OTHER and if nobody makes a choice, ava kills both of them

mc and artem: damn, das fucked up

mc and artem: ok, next room, and otw, let's chat and be in love :')

me: KJBKJDBFKSDKFSFS??????

i do have to admit that having the tension repeatedly built and stopped was quite nice. it gave me a breathing period and also the absurd hilarity of romance during a high stakes snooping around of evil place filled with evil evidence, well, it was FUN ASS HELL.

LIKE, I WAS CLENCHED AND THEN

me: awwww, you two are adorable :')

me: //takes a brief moment to think about the context and setting of this all

me: //INCREDULOUS WHEEZE CACKLE AT THE ABSURDITY

and then the sleeping gas came in and i knew it was time for that tension to metaphorically come hit me in the ribs with a baseball bat repeatedly

as artem LITERALLY gets hit in the ribs with a baseball bat repeatedly

the laYERS TO THAT SCENE, JESUS. the fucking Saw Movie tempered glass cage, jerry being used as a puppet, ava egging on the violence and god. the reveal of her past. like, what her late husband did to her was absolutely terrible but ofc shes still abSOLUTELY FUCKIN EVIL. the entire theme of how cruelty begins and it doesnt stop, ava wanting to take everybody down to hell with her

i got chills when she said those lines (dont have a screencap cuz by this point, i was so immersed that i could focus on nothing but playing) that were like "why should i be the only one with sin?" and "i like to see what happens when humans are made to choose between sin and deeper sin."

I'LL GET BACK TO THAT BIT LATER BUT

PLS KNOW

THAT THE CHOICE FOR MC TO EITHER SAVE HERSELF OR SAVE ARTEM

WAS THE HARDEST CHOICE IVE EVER MADE IN A GAME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE

please enjoy my livetweet breakdown from twitter

i was literally so torn i had to discuss the choice with my girlfriend before clocking in on a decision kjbKHBSBFKSD

AND YES, I KNEW THAT WHATEVER I DIDNT CHOOSE, i can go back to replay the other choice. but u dont understand, the choice i chose, that was gonna be the Canon in my mind. the other scenario? thats canon divergent for me.

so i made mc save herself. in my mind, in my interpretation of who she is---a character full of determination and dedication who has grown from little self doubts into a character with a greater self assurance that would hold strong even in a situation like this---this is what she'd do. this is now My Mind's Canon

and god, the utter satiSFACTION I FELT WHEN MC WAS LIKE "there was a hammer made for breaking reinforced glass in the other rooms!" i was like YES GIRL, I DIDNT THINK OF THAT, THANK GOD U DID, DONT MAKE ME THINK ANYMORE OK, UR SMARTER

mc: now which room was it?

the game: //poses another choice testing my memory on which room it was in which section of the building

me: R U KIDDING ME?? NOW I HAV E TO REMEMBER LOCATIONAL DETAILS??? WHO DOES THIS GAME THINK I AM, A FAN WHO HAS BEEN WORKING ON A MAP OF STELLIS CITY AND THUS SHOULD LOGICALLY HAVE A GOOD SENSE OF CARDINAL DIRECTIONS AND MEMORY?????............

so i actually managed to get the room right KJBKAJSBFKJSAKF

the uTTER SATISFACTION I FELT MAKING MC SMASH THAT GLASS OVER AND OVER AND OVER HOLY SHIT. that was fucking incredible.

i was so goddamn emotional when artem said these bits

me thru absolute mcfuckin tears: he trusts her sO MUCH. HIS LIFE LITERALLY IN HER HANDS, AND HE TRUSTS HER WITH IT //SOBS

and then

the rest of that scene

and holy fuck

like, before i go into that, i do wanna jump to the hospital scene after and say my silly reactions

artem, this is a VERY SWEET and genuine and hopeful speech you did about the value of justice and the law, but pls. pls, u r recovering from internal injury, stop talking so much. SIR. UR RIBS.

vyn, just say u care about artem, even just a little bit, lol. u wont have an allergic reaction to saying u didnt want him to die

im gonna need like 100 or so fanfics writing out the scene of the NXX Rescue. idk if i will contribute one as well, who knows, but i need to see marius caLLING FOR A HELICOPTER AND JUST FLYING THERE

luke back at it again with "okay how can i purpose my niche but crazy good skillset to improve the situation" last time it was cybersecurity, now it's RESISTANCE AGAINST KNOCKOUT DRUGS

NOT MARIUS SENDING THE FLIGHT PERMIT FINE TO THEMIS LAW FIRM AKJBFKJFKFA

also plEASE, WAIT, WHY DID THEY END THIS CHAPTER legit beginning the next one. knowing that we wont get the next one in like, sevERAL MONTHS. HOYOVERSE, ANSWER ME

okay now that thats outta the way i wanna talk about the scene after mc saves artem

cuz holy shit

first off, the dichotomy between ava and mc as characters.

ava so sure of humanity's inherent evilness and always working towards encouraging it and making people worse. that kind of character beaten by mc, a character defined primarily by hope and the enduring belief that somehow, maybe somehow, a good ending can happen. a just ending can happen. mc beating ava by saving artem, by proving ava wrong cuz ava thought mc would just run due overwhelming guilt, THATS SOME GOOD KUSH.

second off, jerry's resulting revenge

my goddamn heart broke when jerry was like "i had a chance! there was a chance for both naomi and i to survive, just like these two!" and godddddddd. i knew jerry was gonna kill ava the moment he got outta that cage, so that didnt shake me as hard. what did shake me was jerry killing himself + the parallel of his reaction to greene. relief. it's all over. no more nightmares.

third off, this is the first story chapter without a court trial

ive seen some ppl say this made em feel unsatisfied but the lack of a court trial not only DELIGHTED ME ON A NARRATIVE LEVEL but also was like....the only way for this case to go.

cuz heres whats happening with every main story chapter: the stakes get upped, the cases get more complex.

up til main story 5, no matter how complex the cases got, somebody could still get brought to justice somehow

here, that threshhold got broken. the case was complicated, the cruelty rippled out and spiderwebbed into so many lives and crevices, the evil ate at those involved to the point that it all collapsed in on itself. ava is dead, but so is naomi and jerry. who exactly did justice help, here?

artem's (too long, plS REST UR VOICE AND LUNGS) speech at the end was very nice and mc did believe it. but also mc now has this growing unease inside of her due to the magnitude of this case. so many people, she thought.

this case got so Much that the literal narrative pattern of the chapter has changed. things are now at a level that the story is deviating from the classic structure of a court focused game, and this is just the beginning. the story will escalate, the effects will bleed further outwards to others and further inwards into mc and

it makes me so, so excited for what more is to come.

#tot spoilers #tears of themis #fuck it. adding main tag cuz this is read more'd anyway and i had a bUNHCH OF THOUGHTS ABOUT STORY N THEMES. U WILL SEE IT #dootdootdoot

[thecampfirestory]

If I had a soul I would be willing to sell it for more Logan hcs. (you mentioned that asks are slower so I thought it wouldn't be a bad time to ask) Hope you have a good morning/day/night time zones are weird

Ok so i dont have any hcs but i do have a lil scenario between him and Patton i was JUST thinking about

Since Patton and Lo live close to each other, Patton is constantly going to Logan's place

And its always super sudden most of the time Patton just texts him "hey im outside open up"

And Logan immediately answers cause hes the type of guy to have different ringtones for each of his friends so he knows its Patton and goes to open the door right away

But this time Logan doesnt even sees Pat's texts

So Patton stays outside for like 15 minutes still texting Logan in hopes the spam of messages will make him check his phone

He groans especially cause he knows Logan is home. He didnt have a shift at work today

And even if something last minute had happen like idk Roman asked him to hang out Logan would STILL check his phone

And Patton is not going back to his home his dad is there ew

And after some other 5 minutes of him tapping his foot in annoyance he goes fuck it and enters through the kitchen's window

"You spend the whole day on your phone why not now? Ive been out for like an hour " He yells. No response

"Logan???" Nothing

He goes up the stairs and hears music blasting from Logan's room. Ah. Maybe thats why

"If youre dancing like an idiot im not gonna have mercy this time and im gonna record you!"

Once Patton gets there Logan is nowhere to be seen.

His phone is charging and the music is BLASTING from Logan's tv and its so loud Patton had to turn it down a little

"Okay NOW im getting worried" Pattom says to himself as he leaves the room and starts going down the hallways checking every room looking for his friend

"Logan???" He calls one last time

Then Logan's head pops down FROM THE CEILING and it took Patton a solid second to realize he was in the attic

"JOHNATHAN!" Logan calls very enthusiastically yet nearly giving Patton a heart attack

"What are you doing up there?"

"Im checking out my dad's stuff! Theres TONS of instruments here! Come up, check it out!!!"

As Patton goes uo the stairs to the attic Logan starts explaining "I was rather tired of playing just my guitar and i thought that maybe my dad had some instrument saved up in here i could try. He used to be a musician, you know? So i gave it a shot and came up here and theres so many of them! And theyre all in perfect state! Im taking the bass, the electric guitar, the keyboard, and i found a kalimba, i left it somewhere...im taking them all to my room to learn how to play them"

"I think youre getting just a tad obsessed with music, Lo" Patton mentions with a teasing smile

"I cant help it!" Logan replies with a smile as well "Its so fun, and interesting, and fascinating...I...I havent picked up a book in a good while now, I just cant get music out of my head" and for some reason Lo sounds a little embarrassed about it

"Well thats great. Youre our music guy now." Pat smiles "Still a nerd, though. Our music nerd"

And then Patton starts checking out the things in the attic as well, and just like Logan said, theres indeed TONS of instruments there, all in perfect condition"

"How about you learn how to play the banjo? thatd be pretty cool" Pat jokes at one point. And he chuckles when Logan says "oh DEFINITELY. Just let me get the hang of the bass and electric guitar first and i'll get my hands on that banjo". Especially because he sounded genuinely serious

After a while, Patton finds a big case

"Whats that big one?" He asks

"Oh? Oh. Thats my dad's drum kit"

"And you dont wanna try it out?" He asks, getiing closer to it

"I dont think i have enough coordination to play it. That and i think its too loud, at least for me" Logan shrugs

"I could use some loudness back at my house, if im honest"

"Do you wanna keep it?" Logan asks

"What?"

"The drum kit. You could take it home and learn how to play it" he replies "You definitely have the coordination, and, i dont know, since hitting things helps you let some anger out, this could help. You could, like, pretend its your dad's face or something"

"That sounds very tempting" Patton replies, and both him and Logan chuckle a little bit

"No, but seriously, i mean it"

"Logan, no. Its your dad's"

"He gave up on these instruments a while ago. He only plays piano and my guitar if he feels like it. Im sure hes okay with it!"

"Even so, if my dad sees this on my room he will get rid of it the moment i leave my room!"

"Then we can just keep it here and you can come to practice whenever you want!"

Patton just gives him an unconvincing glare

"Come onnn... lets be music buddies, Pat!"

And after a while of Patton eyeing the drum set, he sighs. It does sounds very tempting

"Okay. But ask your dad if hes okay with it"

"YES!"

#ask #campfire!logan #campfire!patton #campfire!concepts

[actualbird]

can the nxx boys dance?

wc: 1.4k

notes: pls open the links, i will die for u, dance is so beautiful

vyn richter

yes, REALLY FRIGGING WELL, the stuff of FAIRYTALES.

his first birthday ssr told us that hes classically trained in MANY forms of ballroom dance. "many"???? i'd like to think this means ALL actually.

hes most adept with waltzes but he really enjoys a fast paced swing, he can do one HELL of a saucy tango. hes got a wonderful ear for music, just a few seconds of listening and hes clocked in the type of dance and the beat and just what kind of performance people are expecting from it, and he'll lead the way, the picture perfect image of elegance and beauty

perhaps it's not that vyn is good at dancing, it's that hes good at PERFORMING. and at roping you into the performance as well. he's a DAMN GOOD lead, he can do it perfectly, telegraphing the exact movements you need to do to complete the dance alongside with him

but thats the thing, vyn can only ever dance with a partner

(which, sidenote, of all the boys i would put into an ice dance figure skating AU in, itd be vyn richter. and he'd dance like this. REALLY FUCKIN GOOD.)

he doesnt dance without a partner. never has. hes been taught forms of dance ONLY as a part of a pair, ONLY as the one in control. so hes out of his element when hes alone (dont expect him to dance with just himself, theres nobody to direct, what does he do????) or when the other person is leading.

this would make for some cute scenarios. vyn richter may be the ballroom dance genius, but perhaps you know how to dance at a club. he'd gasp in surprise as you move his body for him. when you (or anybody else he trusts) teach him, hes in your care.

all in all, dancing for vyn has a history of being a performance for other people Only. not for him or his happiness. when dance becomes something a bit more "selfish" so to speak, hes surprised and is willing to see where this surprise will take him

artem wing

yes but he is SO SO SO STIFF (note: i know nothing about the artem dance card where mc is in red dress, these are ALL just hcs, pls dont flame me)

guys, this is artem wing we're talking about here. he's stiff at work, he's stiff when hes supposed to be relaxing, im sure on his first date he needs to be TOLD to like, fuckin exhale. this is the most clenched man ive seen in his life, and it's to his detriment.

so much of what makes art FUN is letting a bit of yourself go and artem is like "BUT WHAT IF THAT MEANS I'LL FAIL." before he tries any dance (and maybe it's for the company uhhh...party or some shit? ur not getting this dude to dance because he initiated it, u'll have to finagle a situation where he HAS TO), he watches all the videos and reads up on the history and he has a perfect theoretical understanding of all the moving parts----

and then when he sees u (or insert whatever ship u like, mc, nxx boy, maybe forgo the nxx polycule tho bc 5 people dancing is hard to coordinate so artem will just lie on the floor and die) all that information goes OUT THE WINDOW. he is clenched once more, reblog if u cry every time

see, the REASON he gets so stiff is because of the pressure from the situation (must be perfect), the pressure from you/other (must not let you down), and the pressure from himself (obviously if he fails at dancing he is a horrible terrible no good man who deserves nothing in life [artem wing depression spiral])

he'll only calm down after he makes a mistake, actually. he stumbles and steps on your foot and hes SO SO SO SORRY but you laugh it off, pull him closer, and tell him it's alright. youre both learning together, yeah? mistakes and successes, you'd like to share them both with him

marius von hagen

yes and you WANT HIM TO STOP (...u dont actually, it's HOT)

ive written several past posts where i am CONVINCED marius has no personal grasp of musical elements whatsoever, so hes got no beat, he cant dance in time to any song, not even ba ba black sheep.

tho his lack of beat doesnt bother or stop him though from dancing like a SLUT (affectionate)

i think marius learned how to dance at smarmy rich kids parties he was invited to as a kid and he hated those because everybody sucked but the alcohol was good and the inhibitions were loosened. desperate to have SOME KIND OF FUN at this hellish gathering, he starts dancing

marius is a shameless person, he doesnt do dance moves so much as just let his body move in whatever way it wants to. the result is a dance thats electric. full of energy yet flowing at the same time, completely spur of the moment, and really, really...alluring. like, it's not slut from the get-go, marius only MAKES IT slut when he wants to. but his dancing is wholly something you cant take your eyes off of, despite the fact hes dancing to a song that only he can hear in his head.

because marius doesnt dance to music. he dances to the tune of himself.

(art has always been the one avenue where he can be who he is no matter what, yeah? no roles, no expectations. just him, for once, letting go and being him.)

(he will absolutely dance on his own, especially at his studio. if anybody sees him, he'll smirk all smug and transform his dancing into whatever is going to get that person to blush and stutter the MOST. among all the boys, marius von hagen is most likely to give you a lap dance, if you wanted one.)

luke pearce

no. he cant. and when he does, hes a HUGE AWKWARD DORK

see, luke just has so much trouble moving his body in situations where hes not fighting/sports-ing. he can do mid air spins with a gun, can scale a rock climbing wall in record time (never getting over it), can show off SO MUCH how hes SO STRONG OOOHHH, but ask him to dance and he'll wiggle. it's excruciating for everybody involved

the NSB TRIED to train him in dance (it would be useful for undercover missions) but the dance instructor nearly cried because luke's body is SO BEAUTIFUL AND YET LUKE IS INCAPABLE OF MOVING IT. after a few hours luke is on the floor, panting, whining, "can i please just kill some people?" so the NSB just lets him go kill some people

but luke isnt immune to the magic of music. when he hears a banger he taps his foot along to the beat, he bops his head, and NSB CCTV camera footage has recorded many instances where hes dancing alone in the elevator. and hes ADORABLE, he mindlessly dances in a way that exudes joy and happiness. no actual "dance moves" from a certain dance style, just luke bopping and vibing like a huge dork. it's the kind of dancing that makes everybody smile and actually heres a visual peg for how i think luke dances

but he stops the moment somebody else is there. bc his issue is that he gets bashful when he knows hes being watched. thats when the shame trickles in because how DARE he let himself have fun

(the good news is that once he trusts somebody else and once that other person bonks him on the head like "I LIKE IT WHEN UR HAPPY, PLS LET URSELF BE HAPPY" he'll come out of his shell and dance in the little moments. when hes cooking, when hes feeding peanut. maybe it's okay to have fun, especially since it gives you joy)

(additional visual peg: this is just a very good luke/mc dance, case closed)

last sidenote: given everybodys HUGELY DIFFERENT styles, motivations, and overall vibes of dancing, please expect that the nxx investigation team new year's eve party---where everybody gets drunk on like 3 bottles of wine vyn made---is an absolute disaster, in terms of people drunkenly dancing.

nobody meshes with one another AT ALL.

thats not stopping them tho.

(mc's got videos of the night. the law is the only thing stopping her from using marluke_dance.mp4 as blackmail material)

#tears of themis #vyn richter #artem wing #marius von hagen #luke pearce

[actualbird]

// lost gold spoilers, luke route 03-02, angst (but not in the canon story i just got carried away with train of thought LMAOOO)

oh myyYYYY GODDDDDDD. well there you have it, conclusive evidence that luke pearce is ABSOLUTELY an enneagram type 2 personality. i mean just look at this, people pleasing at its HEIGHT. "I'll always be the person you like when I'm with you" gets dissected into "I will be exactly what you want me to be" because thats how luke thinks he can achieve the good he wants to be

but THEN i am also thinking about how he says this truth hes hiding could be construed as overly protective and ohhh my GGGODDDD

behold, luke pearce, who is not only hiding his illness, not only thinks himself a selfish and burdensome person, NOT ONLY disregards his life and sees himself as an inevitable tragedy, BUT HE ALSO

is protecting mc from himself.

luke is so protective, i dont think i even have to cite sources because it's splattered everywhere over so many of his stories. mc getting hurt/being scared is his worst nightmare. he wants her to be safe.

he apparently sees himself as a danger to that.

ohhhhh luke pearce, an absolute garbage bag of misery, hiding so much of who he is and who he can be and what he's been through because he wants to be good for mc, he wants to only be a positive experience on her life.

but where will that lead him?

heavy angst worst case scenario is that thatll lead him to a point where he starts hiding everything about himself, the notion that how he's bad comes to infect the rest of who he is, making him think that everything about him has to be put away and unseen. thatll lead to mc slowly beginning to wonder if she even knows him anymore. thatll lead to luke pulling away and away until she wont be able to take it and she lets him go.

hey, want a terrible heavy angst fic idea? well, ive got one for you. luke pearce, in his quest for goodness, his quest to eradicate the badness of himself, self destructs so much to the point that nobody is there anymore to even see the aftermath.

in a way, he got what he wanted, right?

(i will not write that fic LOL i need some kind of happy/bittersweet ending somehow HAHA so if anybody wants to scoop this idea up, be my guest! also im scared of you!)

#me @ myself: HEY KIDS CAN WE LIGHTEN UP??? #tot spoilers #dootdootdoot #anyway i have SO MUCH MEDICINE and NOTHING OF EVERYTHING ELSE #STOP PRAYING FOR VYN RESOURCES!! HES GETTING TOO STRONG!!!