#Also I apologize for the vent-

[inkly-heart]

#feeling bit better #thank you guys for the comments #I really appreciate it #I also apologize for these negative moods #I try avoid getting these but they just likes to pop out time to times #gore #blood #ink #bleeding #question mark #horror #dark #Life is huge question mark #vent #teeth

[indulgnc]

this kink is so stupid im torn between posting like “please i just want to be loved and feel special i wish i was sick so someone would care for me” or “what if a guy being humiliated by wearing a too-short skirt had to sneeze but they couldnt cover bc their hands were too busy trying to keep the fabric in place” So im posting both. heres both.

#thumbs up emoji #dont have privacy to jack off so im rlly pent up #and also under. probably the most stress i have been in my life (ill be fine #but im really. needy. i wish i was sick bc then id be worthy of tsking care of IDK my brain is so melted #i want someone to care for me so so so badly #or like make me sneeze. that would be cool too #this is dipping vent territory my bad im genuinely going crazy i want to feel loved #idc where it comes from i just need it(looks like pathetic little cat scratching at a couch #alright looks good. lets press post #excuse my craziness 4 tn #im like almost stress delirious lmfao #apologies #text

[rencoons-trashcan]

Gawd.

Beautiful.

Your face.

Its like.

I'm looking at a sunset cast over an ocean view, with the breeze tickling my senses.

Erererer.

#sorry for ending up making a sad/vent comic #(also prior apologies bc I might do another one with one of the other asks) #just needed to let out stuff #ask #answered asks #ask me things #ask me anything #art #my art #self ship #self shipping #undertale #undertale self ship #sans #undertale sans #undertale self insert #my husbone 🦴💙

[cathalbravecog]

veep dad comfort art

#veep dad :] #i have Not been well mentally tbh the second im with friends i DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE anyways ill be VENTING A TINY BIT HERE #i need excitement in my life but im like #has no social life #oopsies...! #so i thought yknow what would make me happy rn. My Veep Dad #yea thats it #also ive been struggling with motivations to play ttcc and draw so.... #apologies for being in the game less. especially as im in the post game with almost everything done #im usually kinda really goal oriented in games and yeah having no tasks or close friends to play with #im just kinda THERE and getting that initial push to do stuff is very hard #my motivation has just been at an all time zero (again) and it upsets me bc i do wanna do stuff...not bc ohh productivity but bc #i just wanna HAVE FUNNNN #anyways erm.... thanks for listening to my little rant here again. i dont know where else to express this sort of stuff. feels wrong to dum #it on strangers who i know are there for my art but. whatever. yknow #just wish i was more motivated in general but my life is Just Kinda Sad and im an Antisocial Anxious Wreck Dear Cog #senior vice president #sr vp #veep dad #personal tag if i dont wanna main tag.... #doodles #traditional art #guz art #toontown

[kineticallyanywhere]

the amount to which I am furious on Normal's behalf is perhaps too much but also this that this kid is going through with no emotional catharsis or support from the people around him is awful. perhaps there's my "odd one out of the friend group" experience bleeding in here but like. hhhhrrrrrraaaaaaggggggggggggggggGGGGGGGGGGG if he doesn't keep throwing hands or start throwing words at everyone (except probably Scary right now) next ep I might start doing it for him

#I get that all the other characters are also going through a lot and that's why i dont wanna get into specifics of whats driving me nuts #but every other teen is an only child and it SHOWS #if I write even a bit more specific than that it's gonna make it look like I dont love the other teens when I DO #I love them SO MUCH that's why I'm INVESTED in them #i want the best for ALL of them #but when you dont have something nice to say dont say anything at all #BUT my close venting friends are BEHIND and stuff is starting to BOTTLE #might write out a rant to send once my buddies catch up #if i get to meet Will on sunday and im brave i'll be like #pop off king #do it for all of us #youre not henry anymore #get mad #don't apologize #when Normal went feral this ep I wanted to CHEER #dndads #dndads 2 #dndads spoilers #normal oak

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

#ramblez #little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao #this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it #hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD #hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions #it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting #But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent #dw Im not going anywhere <3 #also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently #old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD #also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns #he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs #and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get #and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they #dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves #to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent #mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did #so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!

[turtlecleric]

Hey cleric? Random ahh thought but you got recommended to me

What should I expect?

Hello dear! Oh. Ummmm.

1) Being insane about Symphony. I'm deeply, deeply unwell over it.

2) Very short fics (if you'd even call them that) and imagines that sometimes occur multiple times a day but more often are very spread out

3) A fair amount of dark (?) content, including non con/dub con, somno, yandere behavior, and anything and everything angsty (mind the warnings, tread carefully)

#do you know how hard it was to answer this without being self-deprecating #I'll tell you: insanely hard #asks #although i will say you may also see some self-deprecation and vents and the like so if you're sensitive to that #maybe don't follow just for your own mental health you know? #i know negativity can be draining to see so again if that bothers you just be aware that you may see that here #i try not to do it too much because i don't want people to feel obligated to contradict my negativity or get annoyed with me #but yeah you will see it occasionally #sorry #oh. another thing i do. apologizing a lot #Anyway! it's insane to me that someone would like what i make enough to actually recommend it to others! #kind of blown away by that #(thank you!!)

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Gah, might delete (I’m a bit embarrassed that this bothers me to the degree that it does in the first place cause it’s so inconsequential), nevertheless I guess I feel the need to vent about this so

I wish people would stop being so unnecessarily rude and hateful about gothcleats? Like, in general I’ve found this fandom to be pretty decent about avoiding senseless ship hate but for some reason this ship just gets held up to a standard that none of the other ones seem to and I guess it irks me a bit. Obviously if a ship isn’t your cup of tea for one reason or another that’s cool, and I completely get like interpreting a character a certain way that conflicts with a ship… I guess what I don’t get is why with this ship in particular people feel the need to rain on other people’s parade so much??

I’ve noticed that there are a lot of anti-gothcleats posts that are like “Well this [canon interaction] doesn’t strike me as romantic” and use that as a basis for invalidating the ship, but like… When has that ever been a requirement for shipping characters??? Like, idk, I think swiftli is cute, pretty fair to say that I ship it, but I’d be fucking lying to you if I said that a single one of Linc and Taylor’s interactions in canon has ever struck me as romantic… And so what? But that’s what I mean by like people hold gothcleats to a weird standard that they don’t hold other ships to. Obviously people are gonna latch on to whatever interactions they can get between two characters that they ship and roll with it, of course in practice for almost any ship very few if any of those will actually have romantic undertones… That’s normal? And you can not like a ship without going out of your way to rip those moments away from the people who do like it?

I feel like to some extent, subconsciously or otherwise, the hate this ship gets probably stems from some fear of it becoming canon. Maybe that’s wrong but that’s the impression I get. And to that I say… It’s literally not going to. No but seriously of course at the risk of being dead wrong like, it’s really not. Will ships it, I’m convinced, but Matt has shown no interest in canonizing any kind of romantic relationship between PCs, and that ultimately matters much more at the end of the day. So… Relax I guess is what I’m saying???

Blugh, might delete like I said, I hope this doesn’t feel targeted cause it’s really not meant to be, but idk I guess I’ve just been feeling a bit bummed out about this. I don’t really like having this kind of ship discourse so I tend to just keep my mouth shut with this kinda thing but… Lost the battle today I suppose, gotta vent about it. Aaand send post.

#I get anxious being salty here over this sorta thing #but also… Whatever pass the salt #dndads #dungeons and daddies #gothcleats #scary marlowe #lincoln li wilson #this post really isn’t targeted at any specific person #So apologies if it feels like it is! #But if I don’t vent about this it’s gonna bother me all day #I need to stress also that I absolutely get not liking this ship #But I think if there was as much open hate for other ships that people do like more people would understand why the treatment of this ship #- can frankly be pretty uncomfortable!

[chubs-deuce]

This has been occupying more and more space in my brain in the recent weeks, so I figured I should try and get it out and on paper before it starts making a nest in there ^^"

What I feel about this whole thing isn't even jealousy so much as me missing the dynamic that old group had without missing the individuals who have hurt me.

Having a distinct place to "come home" to everyday, someone to talk to that you're close with at any given point in the day, people who regularly hang out with each other in any and every constellation and mutually care for each other...

I miss having that sense of belonging, and it bothers me that it has started eating away at my ability to appreciate the friendships I already have, that I do my best to maintain. It admittedly only got worse when I moved out, since this also meant I wasn't seeing my immediate family as often anymore.

I genuinenly don't know why I feel this way, or how to make it stop.

I feel awfully selfish about it, and imo my friends deserve a better version of me than that :').

#vent #vent art #long post #also apologies if my handwriting is shit I just couldn't be bothered to make it look pretty ngl

[cookiebonbon]

Hi I kinda. Uhm. I. COUGH

Uhhh thank you @blackkatdraws for making silly hot wife and the pink clone, I will never forget your generous donation (💀??)

Some close ups too, I mean why not? :3

#goddamn Im awkward Im too shy akndksnfjsndnf -😭 #also kitty if you're reading this I wanted to let you know that I saw your vent (?) post and Im letting you know that Im pretty much going - #- through something similar. I dont want you getting fully taken by this feeling like I did. Its not nice at all and it hurts a whole lot #Sooo I just want to remind you that you're loved by many many people and we care about you dear kitty <3 #Apologies if that sounds strange- I mean its our first time ever talking- But just wanting to let you know because you're important to me! #but yeaaa I want to make out with Black I MEAN WHAT- #(also I drew this for the whole night. I started at 11 pm and finished at 6 am :333 yes Im okay :33) #the stanley parable #tsp #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tspud #narrator #tsp narrator #gip!! #I gib gip eheheeh >:3

[shortkingvi]

i’m in such a shitty place right now physically because like,,,,, i’m in my cousin’s wedding in october and i��m wearing a dress because i want to be a good cousin and not pull focus or look out of place but in doing that i’m also growing my hair so i can check all the femme boxes for literally one single day and i must say i feel like SHIT every time i look in the mirror currently

like,,,,,, i want to cut all this hair off and i miss my undercut but i also don’t want to disappoint my family or be the weird cousin or anything but i’m also like,,,,,, miserable thinking about the wedding day and was miserable trying on dresses and i just keep thinking that i’m 25 and STILL dealing with this bullshit and i’m kinda really over it idk

#it’s so frustrating because his fiancée was even like yeah you can wear a suit if you want! #but i just… feel bad about sticking out but also don’t want to be singled out and talked about #but at the same time if i WASN’T in the wedding i’d be in a suit so i really don’t know #all this is to say i’m cutting all my hair off in october once this wedding is done #idk man i apologize if anyone read this #i am trying to be good about not venting on here because i know most of you don’t follow me for my bullshit personal life #but this just kinda sucks idk idk #personal

[shroom-gloom]

girl anachronism - the dresden dolls (gore warning)

ive never made an animatic before but through the sheer will of an intense oc fixation and way too much caffeine i made this all in one night B)

the character is my demon hunting gal Lena who i am currently insane about :)

#my own art #animatic #lena #fantasy oc #gore #RIGHT SO #i have not done this sorta animation/whatnot since middleschool and even then it was barely surface level #so apologies if its rough #also i really shouldve picked a slower song for my first attempt fuck #lena u are my favorite empty husk of a person #<3 #honestly ive been stuggling with expressing my self lately so this is sorta a vent piece in a way #lena gets to feel empty and performative because if i have to suffer so do my characters >:(

[stanleyvampire14]

Hi so here’s a little rant/vent I do apologize as I normally don’t post extremely negative things

TW- Transphobia 💀

My mother was rambling about “If yOu hAvE a wEiNer tHeN yOuR a BoY aNd viCe vErSa iF yOuRe a giRL” bs and I just sat there and listened because she was talking to someone else in my family about it and my face was cringing so hard oh my god shut up shut the FUCK up You are bullshitting you don’t know what you’re talking about you don’t understand what’s going on in trans peoples’ heads they’re that way for a reason they aren’t trying to stray from the “normal” they want to FEEL normal within themselves please shut the hell up oh my god

Anyways sorry about that I had to let it out I’m so unbelievably pissed she needs to shut her mouth but I can’t SAY that also I’m not trying to like speak on trans and other peoples behalfs I’m just saying that she doesn’t exactly understand yall and I really wish that she’d be more open but nOOO.

Also if you find yourself agreeing with her “You can’t just change who you originally were” ideas then please feel free to block me because I’m not having that shit infecting my profile. Aka, if you’re ANY kind of LGBTQIA+ phobe then please for the love of all that is holy block me, thanks.

#tw vent #apologies I really had to say something #I can’t exactly talk to anybody else #I am a safe space for anybody that wants to talk #except zoophiles and y’know that whole thing those people are…something… #Even if I don’t get reply back when you dm me #I will still try to reply back as soon as possible. most of the time when I don’t reply to people I’m sleeping #love y’all and take care of yourselves #drink water and all that! chug! also eat- eat stuff that’s good for you! at least one thing! eat blueberries or smth #will get back to regular silly hehe posting tomorrow or later today

[scarlet-alleyway]

Small Update

Hi, guys... First things first, I am so sorry for suddenly disappearing on everyone after the last update for this story in late November. I've spent the last week trying to figure out the best way to word this, but it's still a bit difficult for me. It's a bit of a long post, so I'm adding a cut here to let you keep scrolling if you'd like, no worries! TLDR: Story update(s) expected within the next two weeks ^_^

December was great! A little rough, but I actually did a daily drawing challenge on my main account and had a lot of fun right up until New Years. Then January happened, and uh - Things didn't go great. I really don't want to get into detail, and I'd hate to make anyone feel even the slightest bit uncomfortable, but I unfortunately went through something that completely wrecked my ability to trust and feel safe around people larger and stronger than me.

By the time I was able to get out of that warped state of mind, months had passed? I genuinely feel like I just blinked, but here we are at the end of March now. Time flew by, just like that. Anyway... I didn't want my experience to seep into my writing. At all. And now I'm feeling a lot more confident that I can actually do that again.

So, hopefully within the next two weeks we'll be back on track ^_^

Thank you all for your patience. So much.

And if you've reached out to me in anyway during my disappearance, thank you so much.

I'm still gathering the courage to respond to people individually again, because it's been so long, but I have most likely seen your message and stared at it for a long while trying to figure out what to say in gratitude and failing miserably. Wishing everyone a wonderful day/week/month, as always.

#apologies to anyone who felt ignored or wronged during my disappearance #the explanation it doesn't make it right but it also felt really weird responding as if i wasn't dead online for a few months #anyway #update #vent #idk what this is #i'm rambling again #because i can't send you all warm food and beverages as thanks for staying and sending well wishes :( #okay... okay bye #thanks for reading

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

every night i wake up and say "this is the night i respond to my friends' messages" and every morning i say "i swear i'll do it when i wake up"

#repeat repeat repeat until you get stuck on that cycle of guilt and forgetfulness and guilt and stress and guilt and Oops Forgot Again and- #see this is why i'm really bad at making/keeping friends!!! #bc i meet someone and then they text me and then i Never Reply #bc i wait too long dithering on how to answer or i forget to open it and then its Been too Long #biting myself so so hard #mentally. not physically. im not into that. ....probably #hmmm apologies for Venting On Main im just feeling this intensely before i turn in #yet another day of telling myself ill do something important and another day of not doing it #absolutely unprompted #unfortunately i also tend to do this with asks/replies and it kills me inside every time #not as much as accidentally ghosting people i care about but Wowzah #i simply cannot escape this mental block when it comes to anything #i still have to reply to my grandpa's responding father's day text. its been a week. #wailing howling clawing my way into the cold dark earth etc

[artificial-horizon]

Being visibly mixed race/racially ambiguous and visibly trans/GNC is being inherently confusing and unreadable to white cis people. Like, they can tell you're sure as hell not a white man or woman but they can't decipher you beyond that; they don't know how what to do with you because they can't put you in any category.

You are both masculine and feminine, but not enough of either to fulfil the white criteria for manhood or womanhood, and regardless, brown people are gendered differently to white people anyway. You could tick off almost all the criteria for "male" features (such as, and notably, body hair) and still be read as a cis woman, because the level of masculinity white people accept in brown (perceived) women is higher than what they accept in white (perceived) women, because brownness itself is masculine to them. (Though it can be feminine and androgynous at the same time, too. Again, POC are gendered differently than white people.)

They have these set ideas of how they're meant to relate to people, set ways that they treat, let's say, white women, Black men, East Asian women, Middle Eastern men - but they can't even tell what you are, so how are they meant to treat you? How are they meant to relate to you?

I don't doubt at all that this is why I've always been ignored in public, even before transitioning; never treated as a fellow person to connect with, but an anomaly that happens to occupy the same spaces. I scare them by defying categorization, so it's better not to engage and risk upsetting their preconceived notions of gender and race. Alternatively, they will just be bigots instead, though I can tell that's hard for them too as they aren't quite sure what specific flavour of bigotry to throw at me.

[cw for following paragraph: non-graphic description of an incident of racist and transphobic harassment]

I always think back to this one time, having recently come out, when I was harassed by a white man on the bus. Seeing me in all my gender ambiguity and reading me as Black, he expressed his disgust at us Black people, at how "you can never fucking tell whether they're girls or boys". Honestly, in all my interactions with white cis people from then on, I never stopped feeling the echoes of his words.

#im venting so apologies if this is worded badly and/or some of it isnt good analysis #i have many thoughts but i'm really struggling to put them into words #also @ the last paragraph i am a mixed black person hence saying us jic that needed to be said #me writing things #racism #transphobia #mixed race #biracial #multiracial #brown and trans #trans poc #idk any tags that are about the intersection of gender and race or transness and race #also is there a term for that type of oppression anyway? #like if not there definitely should be cos POC are oppressed along gender lines in white supremacist society #and its not necessarily transphobia or homophobia or misogyny #its specifically the oppression that comes from not meeting gender standards because they are inherently based on whiteness