#At least I experimented with the colours!

[dragengyrr]

Dealbreaker

I found a fic "The Last Bus Stop in Hell, Now Boarding" by @prince-liest and… well, some scenes just stuck around in my head (read: tormented my artistic brain) long enough to get me down to sketching them out. Then a few hours, a few brushes and a few different colouring experiments later, it was no longer barely a sketch, at the expense of actual lunch... Oh well.

For those who haven’t read it (spoiler free), Angel and Alastor got their bodies swapped involuntarily, and the horrendous expression on Angel’s face belongs respectfully to Alastor.

Now, bear with me, because I’ve been overthinking this scene the whole time I was drawing it – Angel made a promise to Alastor, but one that is much more of a gesture of reassurance and what-happened-will-always-remain-in-this-room kind than anything resembling actual deal. And then, mere moments later, Angel realises that helping Al AND keeping the promise is impossible, so he dismisses the fact that he even said anything, and just jumps right onto the helping part, because he knows that that’s best thing to do for a friend. But Alastor doesn’t share that view – maybe it’s a mix of trauma, shame and the loss of control over almost anything, but he doesn’t think clearly at this point – normally, he’d sooner or later agree with Angel. But not there, not then – he’d rather expect the impossible to happen, and rage when it doesn’t.

And there’s the interesting choice of words – he could’ve called Angel anything at this point, we know how rich Alastor’s vocabulary is – but the word he chose was dealbreaker. Maybe, just maybe, from a perspective of hellish overlord, a sinner that twists and turns in an attempt to get rid of their contract is nothing less than pathetic, but what if the deal was only verbal, no signing, no contract, just "trust"… There are probably no other beings in Hell that, ironically, have less trust in somebody’s WORDS than the overlords, knowing what extremes the sinners are willing to go to just to squeeze their way out of a sticky situation. Also, one can only become a dealbreaker exactly in that scenario, when nothing was set in stone.

For Alastor, dealbreaker is a knife in the back. The worst kind of liar. The very being that reminds him so painfully that trust doesn’t exist without force applied to it by a binding contract, which, if you think about it, is a paradox. Dealbreakers are the reason he distances himself from everyone.

And here’s the sugar on the cream (pun intended): Angel is only trying to HELP. What a beautiful tragedy.

To end this little overthinking session: it’s been a long while since I’ve read anything that would make me genuinely terrified, and it’s even more amazing that it began as something quite hilarious. Do mind though that the topic is HEAVY, to say the least.

I can’t say I’ve read a lot of Hazbin fics, but so far Princeliest writes Alastor probably the closest to his original character, which I love. Please, keep up the good work!

#hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin alastor #radio demon #hazbin angel dust #hazbin angel #fanfic #princeliest #the writing is too good #i forgot: describing alastor’s bodily reactions from angel’s perspective is amazing #the deer ears living their own life #cw blood #cw trauma

[terrifyingly-overthought]

Uzi thunk…pls…

"Uzi Doorman those things killed your frikin' mother"

Did you know that Uzi's on the villains wiki? Bc I sure didn't.

Anyway Uzi Doorman hcs under the cut

Main character time lets go, jumping straight into this one:

Uzi will eventually turn into a murder drone (see my post about N for details)

Uzi absolutely refuses to say that she's dating N on principle (this is a lie and she knows it)

Uzi is always really tired, doesn't matter how much sleep she got

Uzi got over killing people waaayy too fast for everyone else's liking

Uzi's slover runs hotter than the dds but she needs to be colder, so she has to drink a LOT of oil

Uzi's tail sometimes gets stuck to things with it's spines

She tries to have a decent relationship with her dad sometimes: but it's hard to get through to him

Uzi wants to be a parent just solely so she can prove to Khan that she would be a better parent than him

Uzi sometimes experiments with her admin rights for N and V while they sleep (she once set their eyes to flash with rainbow colours and had a midnight disco on her own)

Uzi uses the healing powers of the solver to make even more dangerous tools and weapons without the risk of getting hurt

If Uzi ever found Beetlejuice the musical, she would spend days just listening to the soundtrack

Same with a lot of musicals and bands actually

The last time Khan left Uzi alone in the house for more than 12 hours, a large section of the bunker was lit on fire and destroyed

Uzi is oddly supportive of all the weird things N gets up to in the worker colony

V however has been shouted at multiple times for dropping on top of drones from the ceiling

The books Uzi uses to reach her locker are textbooks on doors that her dad wrote

She is the only one in her class that finds it weird that they can't just download the knowledge into their storage like, you know, a robot would

If she could find the spare parts, she would modify herself in any way possible (starting with extendable legs)

Uzi loves any weapon she can get her hands on and is thoroughly disappointed by her lack of claws from the solver

Uzi has a personal vendetta against a pipe that runs through her classroom after it burst and nearly short-circuited her

Uzi would be top of her class if she ever bothered to do the actual work

And if Lizzy didn't always get her dad to lower Uzi's grades

Uzi still hasn't figured out how to bypass her automatic censors, so every time she tries to properly swear she just goes *beep*

Khan fully blames N and V for activating Uzi's solver

Uzi occasionally will sleep hanging upside-down with N if they are caught out by the sun while hunting together

That's about it for this post, there are more but they start going a bit off the wall after here

Currently writing this instead of preparing for my art exam on Monday, 10 hours of lovely silence to enjoy being understimulated as all balls in... yay :(

At least I might get in some more thinking then

#answered #murder drones #n murder drones #murder drones uzi #uzi doorman #n x uzi #nuzi #biscuitbites #have to get the tags in somehow #hello connor #again #pls request things I need more to posr about #does anyone even read these #sorry normal people

[lucky-slice]

Something that TSC has me thinking about is the contrast between Kevin and Jean after leaving the Nest.

Like Jean is very confused by being confronted by the fact that his treatment in the Nest (and the Raven's as a whole) is deemed as fucked up and weird.

But you don't see that same dissidence from Kevin. Part of that is that the timelines are off so we never got to see Kevin's acclimation into the real world and we never got Kevin's pov, but another part is how different their experiences were. And I don't mean like in terms of actual treatment in the nest.

Kevin and Riko were the only ones permitted to do press. They were out of the Nest and presumably talking to other teams / people outside of games even if it was still in a controlled environment. It is more than likely that Kevin was aware that the Ravens and the abuse against him was not normal even if he didn't view it as abuse. Riko was his brother and Tetsuji was not just his coach but also his guardian. He was very aware of his place and fully bought into the Raven mind set.

However, he had media training from a very young age for a reason; to lie his pretty little face off.

Which is why I think Kevin was probably very good at hiding his coping mechanisms and trauma. Obviously, we see him using alcohol to deal with anxiety attacks, but besides that, Kevin blends fairly well into what could be deemed as normal (at least by fox standards). Wymack explicitly states that Kevin does not talk about his time at the Nest. He only reveals what is necessary for Wymack/ the foxes to understand the situation with Riko and the Moriyamas and that's it. There are no hints of anything personal.

There was a post going around about Kevin doing night training partially because his body was accustomed to doing 16 hour days for the majority of his life, but how many other things was Kevin doing (whether subconsciously or consciously) to cope? Even something as small as allowing himself to wear colours other than black.

#kevin day #i think kevin was very experienced with lying not only to the public but also to himself #the mental gymnastics that boy must have been going through when he first moved to PSU must have been insane #gnat be quiet #tsc spoilers

[beartitled]

Can you do some more comics with Francis mosses

I can, but the problem is

That I’m pretty much out of ideas and I’m progressively getting tired of tnmn fandom

Ppl who look at my tags probably noticed that 😓

More of my thoughts under read more for curious ppl

(short answer maybe I will do more, but I desperately need a break from tnmn)

! Just a general warning: this came out kinda long + sort of venty

Originally I planned to do 1 comic drop and move on, but got stuck bc ppl liked tnmn comics and kept asking for more (and still do-)

Generally I don’t mind doing more if the ideas are there, but I want to address this: I’m tired

I know blowing up is usually a good thing and I appreciate people enjoying my stuff

But it’s exhausting to see that tnmn is the only type of content which is relevant, to the point that my own projects or stuff I enjoy are just kinda.. ignored

It’s fair – again my blog is heavily fandom based

(+Tsp were and still is kinda the focus)

But with tnmn fandom it’s a bit… different

Maybe I’m biased and it’s just my negative experience with tiktok comments

Remember this art?

cleaning up transphobic comments was.. um tough

Again, I get that you can’t be in that neat bubble completely sheltered from negativity

Humans are just assholes by nature really/j

So I was expecting the backlash, but not that much

I think maybe tsp fandom spoiled me a bit (in a good way), bc I got a feeling that everyone in tsp was positive of any lgbt+ headcanons and just generally more supportive

(don’t get me wrong, there ARE problems in tsp community too, taking narrators design controversy into account as one of the examples)

Obviously every fandom always has it’s own issues, show me at least one fandom that didn’t have some sort of meaningless controversy or some sort of problematic people in it

It happens

But it leaves a bad taste in your mouth sometimes

And for me personally it only added to not so pleasant experience

The thing I also noticed, when I interacted with other fandoms

Ppl wrote positive stuff first and foremost, not really asking for anything

Here it’s just “hey more. I want more. Do more. Do this character. Do this. Do more.”

The only reason I kept doing more, because likes, reblogs, views – these comics get a ton of attention

there is a audience to please alright

But this thing comes with a pressure tho

and it shows

so let me illustrate

This bookcase

Is my shame

Because I was so rushing, I just copied and colour corrected this bookcase from my diploma comic and pasted it here in hopes for the best

💥IT LOOKS HORRIBLE OKAY💥

Usually it’s normal to take materials used in other projects

the not so normal part is

to leave it like that because your stress reducing tea doesn’t work and you don’t really have time to redraw it

my m en ta l s t a t e i s f i n e ah ah h ah ah

Ok but jokes aside: it’s really tempting, to just abandon everything and produce content like some sort of content farm

But I don’t want to, I’m forcing myself and it makes my art worse

Yes it’s subtle, new people won’t even see this

But I’m not improving

And I don’t enjoy just anxiously popping out comics because everyone keeps asking

I can give it my all to something when I’m passionate, but just “hey I’m getting attention” is not the best motivator

Attention like that does get to my head, I know that I will probably give in again and do more, bc I will compare my posts engagement

But what’s the point of recognition, when you feel.. so numb about it…

Sorry for a mountain of text and thank you for ppl who actually took their time to read it

It’s been building up for a while and I feel like people need to know the reason why I’m not so enthusiastic about making “more”

I’m not necessarily completely abandoning this fandom

I still plan to do ask/suggestions event for STP (I’m just making sure I can dedicate my time to it, that’s why it’s taking so long) and I can add tnmn to the mix

Like STP+tnmn kind of deal

But for now – I need a break

At least for a little bit

#bear answers #vent post #nothing serious just a bunch not so positive thoughts #tnmn #that’s not my neighbor #tnmn fandom #thoughts #fandom thoughts #apologies for possible mistakes/typos

[amarearts]

Trying to participate in OC kiss week this year, cause it's fun to draw smoochin!

Darliev belongs to @juczerro <3

#OCKiss24 #swtor #darliev kavok #Mira Lane #art #republic trooper #I need to get better at drawing kisses #it sure is hard to make it look good #At least I experimented with the colours!

[cakemousse]

so toxinelle has snuck up on marinette and alya in marinette’s bedroom and this is what they see when they finally notice that she’s there, toxinelle hanging upside down listening in on their plan (click for a clearer image!)

reference below the cut

#yea as you can tell i’m no artist lol #i cant draw to save my life and this was more of experimenting with colouring #why does tumblr fuck with the quality :(( #finally done with colouring it lmaoo #this has been sitting in wip for at least a month uncoloured akdhjs #since the design came out i followed accordingly #the hair was so hard omg #i really can’t wait to see her in the special aaaaaa #shadybug #paris special #toxinelle #miraculous ladybug #my art

[theecholegend]

”Don’t you dare touch my brothers again”

Red flashed in his eyes with disturbingly controlled fury. Legend stepped forward, the master sword held tightly in his hand. He raised it, the flat end of the blade turned towards what was left of the enemy- its infected blood coating the steel. 

He speaks, His words a threatening growl. “Don’t you dare touch my brothers again.”   ~~~~

blood warning! But don’t worry, it’s not his :)

click for better quality!

Without the lighting effects and his face isn’t covered

The sketch that was originally supposed to stay a sketch (they never do)

#This is the result of me trying to inspire myself out of artblock #I think it’s working #He looks kind of evil #and well… #maybe he is just a little bit #but I promise he’s doing it for the right reasons! #at least he’s trying to #linkeduniverse #linked universe #linked universe fanart #lu legend #tw: blood #Echo’s artworks #Echo’s colour experiments #No real context #Legend duel wielding

[nuclearanomaly]

I'm glad you're here with me At the end of all things...

#ffxiv #Endwalker #Ninira Nira #Estinien #Estinien Wyrmblood #Estinien Varlineau #Estinien x wol #wolstinien #art: mine #I started this picture 2000 years ago #I remember wanting to experiment with a different render style and surprise! getting frustrated #so it's been sitting as a sketch since #then the other day Cyan was like hey this song gave me Estinini vibes #And I was like l o l slides Estinini playlist back across the table and circles Sans Soleil like that's because it is #and I was like man I should go back to that picture #and just kinda yolo the render bc beating myself up about not being successful in my last render will never get it done #so here it is in the usual idk what's happening slap colours everywhere flavour #Nini could have used a bit more work re getting her size right maybe but we're not caring right now #I DID it at least checks the box and somehow does another piece of art in under a month idk what's happening rn energy I guess #Ultima Thule makes me normal #This part of MSQ was f i n e :')

[hils79]

Illusion

Favourite moments in every Ateez MV 7/?

#my gifs #ateez #ateez gif #hongjoong #kim hongjoong #hongjoong gif #yunho #jeong yunho #yunho gif #san #choi san #san gif #wooyoung #jung wooyoung #wooyoung gif #jongho #choi jongho #jongho gif #yeosang #kang yeosang #yeosang gif #the point of this series was to try different styles and experiement #these one seemed perfect to try more vibrant colours #still very much learning #but i at least know how to do it now

[poke-poke-poke]

I can't believe I've never drawn N before,,

#pokemon #n harmonia #pokemon n #natural harmonia gropius #pokemon bw #pokemon black and white #pkmn bw #pkmn black and white #poke's doodles #art #... #i was tempted to tag poke- mas since. him being in it recently reminded me that. Ive never drawn him before................. #anywaysssssss simple ol' doodle - but i had fun with the colours--- #im trying my best to . 'experiment' (meant Verrrrry loosely-) #i like to think that im improving - at least. a little bit??? #.... OH shout out to N for being. my first(?) pkmn character doodle outside of sw/sh??????? #i still cant believe it took this long to draw him though.................

[l-0puko]

daydream

#TXT #Tomorrow X Together #TXT fanart #SooKai #KaiBin #my art #experimenting #the dots effect is tricky for me as of yet #remade the lineart for this at least 3 times and the sketch still looks better... ah. but i like the vibrant colours here

[lunarharp]

lazy scribbling of my baldur's gate 3 characters

#*emerges from 430 HOURS of life-changing playtime blearily like a lost and confused kitten* #i lost my interest in drawing bc everything is too sad & horrible right now. it was a luxury and privilege to lose myself in this instead #what follows will be my personal and trivial emotions about that #i'll do better proper drawings later. for me. they are both so very dear to me... deeply dear...unforgettable journeys of fate #truly have played like one possessed for the past few weeks. you have no idea. what do i do now. what do i do. #their personalities are so vivid to me though they mostly made the same choices. both intersex and they/them - canonically <3 #i missed out on FOUR PARTY MEMBERS in my first playthrough due to not understanding anything whatsoever. #gloaming ended up with wyll and pavane romanced karlach and astarion. and ended up with the one i did NOT plan on. this wasnt the plan #one of the most fulfilling romance paths i've ever..i cant say more..it all got too immersive and now i have to just.. MOVE ON ?????????? #live in THIS world where i can't gut imperialism personally and emerge alive from that? #without Long Resting? without my character requesting a kiss from their beloved after a tough day ?? #without preparing my little spells? without channelling divinity from my death god to keep us all alive? #without dyeing my man's clothes fancy colours for him? without him Approving whenever i lie and double-cross our enemies #without sharing clothes with my ex? without choosing to eat the heavy food first so that the weight is easier on her Carrying Capacity? #without orchestrating ways for all of my friends to kill the abusers that ruined their lives for a decade or even 200 years? #without experiencing degrading horrors on a daily basis but in a cathartic way where we always make it back to our rooms at the inn #WITHOUT SPEAK WITH ANIMALS??????????? #at least there's music. just like with persona 5 that will always be with me. always #like how p5 melodies take me back to those feelings. those rich and personal feelings.... BUT THIS WAS A WAY MORE NUTS EXPERIENCE #i thought i would hate it. i did at times. thought it would desensitise me to various things. it did. but there was so much more..it was... #Well anyway *continues my life* imagine if dnd was real..something to think about

[muckmage]

did you ever fall in love with the majesty of colors

every freaking day brother 🤝

#i love doing that thing where you flood your vision with a primary colour and exhaust the cells in your eyes that perceive it #and then when you look away for a little while afterwards you can't see that colour (or at least it's a lot more muted in comparison) #i mean it's kinda like giving yourself temporary colour blindness but i love messing with my perception of reality #gives me a better understanding and appreciation of the world outside of my own subjective experience #and in the case of the colour thing specifically it's like. when something's missing you appreciate it more #as well as noticing things you may not have before and gaining appreciation for them too #it's a very grounding experience imo. seeing the mundane again through almost literally a new set of eyes #even if it is through artificially limiting your senses for a time #i mean if a shrimp that sees 16 primary colours or something got limited to just what we see for a little bit #would it not be able to appreciate those last three primaries so much more? #would it not even more greatly appreciate the breadth of colours it sees normally? #i like this ask a lot actually fksjks ^^ #02

[possession1981]

jacob ig update 221231

#white walker blue or whatever #jacob #the boyz #tbz #*up #sns #ult #jacob bae #this was so cute i lost 5 years of life expectancy #the playboy bunny is so funny it’s like yes u are the designated bunny but also we need u to wear this shirt that looks like something edgy #middle school girls in 2009 would have worn to school (i speak from experience of such girls) #also i’m so thankful even when they have to put stupid contacts on him at least usually they are a mildly normal colour and not like #*ults

[ravene]

➕ Rei / Lilith ➕

#this was referenced from that openheimer video and originaly was going to say now I am become neon the genesis of evangelion but I'm not #sure if it actually reads very well as that image so i gave up on the idea #not even sure if it reads well as lilith tbh #I tried out a fancy colouring technique on the hair so at least I feel nice for experimenting something #my art #fanart #neon genesis evangelion #rei ayanami #rei #lilith #artists on tumblr #art #eva #nge #evangelion fanart

[feminetomboy]

Going through a really big frustration phase with my art rn, please be patient with me (and by you I mean myself I feel the need to wrap my spine around a lamp post bites bites bites bites)

#it's been a while since I had one of these #i want to draw something beautiful #but I don't like anything that I come up with #all of it is so fucking ordinary and then when I get inspired and I experiment I don't like it one bit cause it doesn't look like mine #*look mine #so I'm really just frustrated #I want to sit outside and colour something using my pencils and have a relaxing time #and I want to draw rooms and I want to draw washing machines and shit. but whenever I imagine myself actually drawing them it feels ordinar #and boring and not spectacular and beautiful #i need a drawing that will rearrange my personality as I know it #i wanted to draw a lot of blood and meat so I drew a lot of blood and meat and it just feels cheap #having a really bad time rn. i can't find anything that would make me really happy or at least invested in the drawing #well to be fair I've been that way since like february none of the Jaidens I've drawn make my brain spark #bites bites bites I want to achieve the beauty I see in other people's art but I know it's not for me I need to find beauty in myself #hard hard so fucking hard #rambles rambles rambles