#Ephemeralities

[apipefullofdreams]

clean

nearly four years older than i was back then

and i feel my heart as it pieces itself back together,

forgetting you, forgiving you, finding me

amidst the parts of myself i’d given up

to be who you wanted.

i wore pink to my graduation,

a color you would have scoffed at,

and i listen to live videos of taylor swift’s concerts,

my favorite singer, even though

you hated her.

i laugh a little harder, walk a little crooked,

write poems late at night but never in the middle

of the morning,

and i dream, you know,

because now that the sky has cleared

i feel like i can.

nearly four years older than i was back then

and i can see it now,

the haze that covered us, that made me believe

you were supposed to be the everything i thought

you were.

i used to wish the worst for you,

and i lied when i said i didn’t.

maybe then i thought i meant it.

but for a long time, i wanted you to miss me,

wanted you to hurt,

wanted you to feel the way i felt,

wanted to read a poem about me on your tumblr

that you never wrote.

and i wished the worst for me too.

thought that leaving you would scar me,

painted me a shade of gray no one could ever love.

that leaving was the crime you said it would be,

that i’m the same as all the ones before,

that i betrayed you in my final act

of my performance of the girl who would never leave.

but now, i wish the best for both of us.

i hope you have a big apartment and you can see

the toronto sunset from your windows.

i hope you have someone to love and who loves you.

i hope you finally took yourself to therapy

and that your wounds are healing from all the cuts

you gave yourself.

i hope you love yourself a little more than you did before.

and i hope if you think of me, it’s more than our last words.

i hope someday i stop writing poems about you.

i hope i stop fearing that all the ghosts

in my closet will come out

in the shape of someone new.

i hope i stop thinking i’m unloveable, thinking

everyone will fizzle out of love with me

the way you did.

i hope someday your birthday passes

and i don’t think of you.

and i hope someday thinking of you

doesn’t feel like losing

a sober chip.

nearly four years older than i was back then

and the horizon seems closer.

i can’t make out your face clearly in my memory,

but i know it used to make me smile

before it made me sad.

nearly four years older than i was back then

and i wouldn’t change a thing, you know.

at one point i would have thought that heartless,

but if it’s heartless to protect your own,

then so be it. call me heartless.

i know i did it to keep mine beating.

nearly four years older than i was back then

and ‘i think i’m finally clean.’

#written as taylor performed clean live #love #ephemeralities #forgiveness #poetry #you were my first love #i don't know if you'll ever know that

[lambergeier]

truly can’t believe the entire internet used to be about playing little games. it was about having adobe flash and playing little games on nick.com

#spent just a few hours trying to find the old wild thornberrys wildlife rescue game tonight #turns out that game is officially 'lost media' #which sure is a weird term for something i so vividly remember playing for hour after hour in the evenings in 5th grade! #truly sometimes the ephemerality of internet media is not only bad but profoundly disorienting #there used to be so many WEBSITES on the internet

[tsunosagun]

smoke and mirrors

#trigun #nicholas d wolfwood #vash the stampede #vashwood #tsunosagun art #ok adding to the tags cuz i unironically love explaining my own art bfnejfs #smoke cuz literal smoke but i also wanted to have a sense of ephemerality #and mirrors cuz of how they both see themselves in each other (but in such different ways) and it drives me bonkers #also in case it isnt clear thats ww's hand but still vash's body in the smoke in the 2nd pic.. #taking comfort in the idea that their similarities mean its like he carries ww within himself.. still there even if only figuratively

[stuckinapril]

Idk if this is a me thing but sometimes I feel like I’m in a constant state of forestalling grief. Scared that I might lose someone, scared that something might end, scared what I’d do if it did end. I have to be extremely intentional to live in the moment & not consider the long-term consequences of truly immersing myself in something or someone, for the undeniable fact that all things have an end. I wish this was a thing my brain chemistry accepts, but it really does fuck w me every now and then. Sometimes it feels like no moment will feel better than the current one, and that’s one of the most bittersweet things ever

#basically in a state of grief over the fact that I have to experience grief #things being ephemeral is both lovely and gut wrenching and I HATE the duality of it #on grief #text

[rui-drawsbox]

remembering the most memorable mc's (with canon appearences) from the otomes i played

all of them are phone games btw. and looong rambling about the games after the cut!

Mystic messenger has been in my radar since i was in elementary school but i played it for the first time after the spanish traslation came out (2017 i think?) Seven shaped my type in such a specific way that im not really sure why loved him so much (it was the whole "he loves you in every route" stuff). I like a lot the default mc, most of the fandom did and that was enough to won me over

Rosa is top tier protagonist tbh, Tears of Themis has really good story and characters (as far i played, not a lot but i enjoyed it) The reason i'm not that much of a fan is bc the game is expensive asf and not very free to play friendly. You're either lucky or have a big wallet with the gacha

i miss my wife man(Marius)

Ephemeral has to be one of the best free to play otomes i've played tbh (if my memories aren't tricking me, it's been years) Good artwork, good storyline, good characters and as far i remember you can unlock one chapter of the character route per day (mabye two days, idk) and the mc's background has an important role in every route (she's a zombie! she's pretty now but eventually will fall apart, aaaaand her story gets expanded in one of the routes!) ((shes also adorable)) There's also a sequel, if you wanted more of the boys! never finished it but i'd recommend it

Honorable mentions! Huellitas Mágicas is a great game! has a really good cast with well fleshed arcs for all the characters, even the scondary ones! The game shines more for the development of *all* the characters rather than just the protagonist/ml. The main theme is overcoming insecurities! Each love interest has a different way of helping our (very insecure) protagonist and helping different characters with their own struggles :DD

10/10 i recommend this game if you want something cute and can be finished in a few hours, if i remember right. It also has a sequel! with like- 12 new love interests, also never finished it bc i didnt found a guide that worked for me but ñek

A3! is my canon event as a gacha player. Discovered the english/global server, tried it and got bored, left it for a few months, tried it again and fell in love, noticed the game was going to shut down bc low sales -HAHA :(-. This is not a otome btw, this is here bc Izumi has to be one of my favorite protagonists in gacha games ever

last but not least! Obey me! Shall we date? oh dear, what have they done to you :(. The original had intense powercreep to force you to pull cards -multiple times bc that makes them stronger- and even now, the company showed a lot of favoritism to some characters, leaving others to dust bc they don't make the same money. Not to say, they released a new game with the same cast and new main story (ignoring all what happend before). And let me say: THEY LITERALLY WANTED TO KILL THE ORIGINAL GAME.

Nightbringer might be a decent game but i don't trust the devs anymore, i still remember what happend with Asmo's birthday right after the release, and honestly i don't want to sit there watching how they disrespect my favorite characters again and again and again. Loved the characters hated the devs. 5/10 you can play it if you want but i don't recommend spending money on it, it's not worth it, just search #obey me here in tumblr and enjoy the amazing fanworks that i can assure you have a lot more love than the game itself

i miss my wife man (mammon and levi)

#got sting by the nostalgia mosquito #thinking about it i kinda want to play huellitas magicas again #mystic messenger #mysme #tears of themis #rosa tears of themis #ephemeral #its that the right tag? #huellitas magicas #a3 #a3! act! addict! actors! #izumi tachibana #obey me #obey me shall we date #otome game #tot

[geopsych]

Hey Mom, just in case you can see Tumblr from wherever you are in the afterlife, if there is one, I’m still going out to woods in spring looking for bloodroot all these years later thanks to you! ❤️

#pennsylvania #flowers #wildflowers #native wildflowers #bloodroot #spring ephemerals #sanguinaria canadensis #march #springtime

[sluggoonthestreet]

Lennie is available to be the elephant in your room.

#street art #sidewalk chalk #augmented pareidolia #stone wall #ephemeral art #elephant #not a big deal

[im-cici]

Inventa una excusa y volvamos a hablar.

#ephemeral #mynameislucii #escritos #frases #notas #pensamientos #amor #citas #love #citas en tumblr

[quartztwst]

MORE TWST OC CONTENT

Moira Epheremal!!! (Based on the Fairy Godmother)

Information on Moira:

Moira uses light magic (good guy magic like Silver/Kalim/Rook)

His Unique Magic is called "Bippity-Boppity-Boo!"

It can grant wishes to anyone Moira wants to give

However the wishes have a time limit. If Moira sets up the wishes to last longer, it will drain his energy.

The wishes will disappear at their exact time

Has Azul running for his money because more people come to Moira than Azul

Even worse is that they're in the same dorm

Age: ????????

He's a fae so he's like really old but he's in his second year

He thinks the Octatrio are silly

Air headed but also gives out BANGER ADVICE (RUN AZUL. RUUUUNNN!!!)

Riddle and him sometimes have tea together. Riddle finds him nice to talk to

He respects Malleus although they don't interact LMAOO

Jade finds him interesting but that's about it

Kalim finds his unique magic amazing and sometimes requests things

Azul fucking hates this dude. Wants him to get out. STOP TAKING HIS CUSTOMERS-

Cedric and him are besties

Edmond thinks he's suspicious

Rene thinks he's cool

Rielle doesn't know this guy 😭😭

#twisted wonderland #twst #azul ashengrotto #twst ocs #twst oc #twisted wonderland ocs #twisted wonderland oc #moira ephemeral

[hawkeabelas]

this post but it's all just my catgirl son boy

#adrien agreste #chat noir #chat blanc #cat walker #ephemeral #mister bug #rabbit noir #i am rotating him in a microwave i am wrapping him in a blanket like a burrito #miraculous ladybug

[himekokosu]

 Erythronium japonicum

#wild plants #gardening #nature #片栗 #spring ephemerals

[gachahugs]

some of my favorite panels from the gomens comic I made

#good omens #i am sooo sleepy #ephemeral

[nicedracula]

KISS ME, [[Pygmalion]]

#art #abba reference in the fic title. pygmalion ref in the fic itself. #uncanny ability to create an ephemeral atmosphere while still mimicking spamton's weird speech. divorce. #gift for a friend's fic :D

[mylovelookup]

Cattonquick boarding school sweethearts/romeo & Juliet AU

In which Oliver also comes from old money and he and Felix fall in love in boarding school(?). The Quicks and the Cattons have been business partners since Queen Victoria was still kicking so Ollie and Felix have known each other their whole lives (summers and holidays always spent together) but when their family ties are suddenly severed after a hostile fight between their fathers, the boys’ last year at Eton is irrevocably ruined. As a reaction they decide (it was Felix’s idea and he succeeded in cajoling Oliver to agree) to elope run away on the first day of the Christmas holidays (imagine their respective chauffeurs endlessly waiting for them at the school gates lmao) and get married on a whim (also Felix’s idea to somehow "fix" things like ta-da! Can’t separate us now dad, we’re fucking married. Oliver is now a Catton. Family peace restored! No, not really Felix lmao.)

#needless to say they get caught the very next day #maybe they didn’t have much cash left and the only -pace they could’ve slept in for free was the hotel in the area that the Cattons owned #the reception prolly snitched but they both knew they would get caught eventually #also it doesn’t help that they’re the heirs of the richest aristocratic families in England #maybe they keep their marriage secret?it would be smarter to considering the repercussions but also maybe Felix it out first thing? #bc its Felix duh #as a consequence to their little escapade Oliver is pulled out of Eton for the rest of the year and the two of them only get to meet #the next year at Oxford where they have to keep things on the down low since Oliver’s father has threatened to transfer him to Cambridge if #if he’s seen frolicking about with Felix. it’s also difficult when Farleigh is acting as a (well-paid) spy for both parties #although both Jeff and James had sprinkled other eyes on the campus #oooh imagine them trying to hide in the back of the club. making out whilst crouching down behind dumpsters lmaooo #or or or! Felix attempting to throw them off by hooking up with indiabel and Oliver is so jealous he ends up doing the same thing #even tho he prolly knows about Felix’s intentions. (Farleigh doesn’t help with his catty comments about ephemeral love) #highlighting Felix’s well known shallowness. and then Felix gets jealous too so it’s a vicious cycle of pointing fingers at each other hehe #anyway they prolly end up like Romeo and Juliet #I was only supposed to do ONE canvas but got carried away and this shit developed a plot! sedate me #also this layout sucks wtf #saltburn #fanart #my art #felix catton #cattonquick #Saltburn fanart #oliver quick #felix x oliver #cattonquick fanart

[oatmealcrisp-freak]

headcanon: since kazuki and rei and miri don't have bio family to send family pictures, they spam uncle kyu

secretly, uncle kyu is not mad about this.

#buddy daddies #i mean theres miris ephemeral grandparents but...out of sight out of mind! teehee

[kiichilog]

2024.3.17 雪割草街道　妙法寺~村岡城址 オオミスミソウ　キンポウゲ科 越後の春を告げる花

#flower #spring #spring ephemeral #pink #violet #hepatica #nature #Niigata #Japan