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a-reads · 2 years

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I still forget we're not even friends // I still wake up with things to tell you // All my friends are three years away // I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you // Thinking about the friendships that just dissipate and the unresolved grief that comes with that // How can something be there and then not be there // Some day I'd love to know how you've grown since out last goodbye // And thou I can't recall your face I still got love for you // I don't know what to do with it, with all the love I have for her I don't know where to put it // You are still the first person I want to share new things with // One day I woke up and we no longer spoke the same language. I haven't heard from you since // And in the end I'll do it all again I think you're my best friend // You are a language I'm no longer fluent in but still remember how to read // Cause you were my best friend and I will love you till the very, very end // It takes two to be a stranger // We don't talk much but I just gotta say I miss you and I hope that you're okay.

#You're my best friend and we're dancing in a world alone #I still think about you on your birthday #lost friends #lost frienship #frienship #friends #friends to lovers #taylor swift #red taylor’s version #folklore #swifties #lorde #quotes #growing up #mitski #phoebe bridgers

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bigcats-birds-and-books · 3 months

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Books of 2024: WELCOME TO YOUR WORLD: How the Built Environment Shapes Our Lives by Sarah Williams Goldhagen.

#books #book photography #books of 2024 #welcome to your world #sarah williams goldhagen #i've stared at this caption for fourteen years and can't come up with anything reasonably concise to say lol #i like architecture as a concept!#i used to collect floor plan clippings out of newspapers when 1. we got paper newspapers and 2. that was a Section in them #my parents got me some floor plan books for my birthday one year and i still have those #i just. like architecture?? as a Thing??#but i know very little about it so. i saw this (can't remember where)#and i'm hoping it will Tell Me More!#this has been on my shelf for a few years but i think it is Time #(brought to you by: i also got an architecture book about obsolescence that i want to read soon too)#(but i feel like i should Start With Background and THEN do technical textbook lol)#anyway!#excited!! this is not a one armed bedtime read though it is so fucking DENSE and has very thick high quality glossy paper XD #lots of pictures too #it feels like a LOT of book but it's not actually that long (~300pgs)

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quinns-art-box · 7 months

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and an extremely late thing i did for saimatsu week day 7!! tiny little comic the prompt was birthday :] absolutely adore the hc that kaede's bad at cooking but she is trying so hard and that's always good enough. plus they can just do it together <3

#danganronpa #danganronpa v3 #kaede akamatsu #shuichi saihara #saimatsu #noticed a critical lack in my art of them smooching on the mouth so here #once again i dont know about the dialogue but i tried jfhgjkf #i like that shuichi is somebody kaede feels like she can admit her fears and insecurities to.... 'i'd be a mess if you weren't here' yknow #she's like 'my food sucks again but i know you see and admire how hard i try and that makes me feel better about not being perfect'#'but still let me make food for you on your BIRTHDAY oh my god'#coming back to love languages i think she also does acts of service. touch is her real one but of course if she can make someone smile #with music or a nice meal?? she will #and shuichi just loves her sooooo much she is everything 2 him #also i think everything is just better 4 them when they do it 2gether yknow...... they are so besties for life good bf and gf ilove them

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year

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Just curious what the average level of personal investment in these sorts of things is. Like, how much do people usually get into silly stuff like this their friends ask of them? etc. etc. Which I know, only surveying a small sample on a very specific website means I'm not getting an exact average idea lol, but.. curious nonetheless .. Maybe reblog for bigger sample size but also this is not very serious at all/not worth a call to action gbhjbhjb

#which I know this could be context dependent like.. maybe you'd normally dress up but on a week that #you feel sick you wouldn't or etc. etc. - but I mean.. GENERALLY. in the most general average scenario #where you have the average amount of health and free time that you always do. etc. just based on your personality #and level of investment in these things - what on AVERAGE are you most inclined to do #also of course assume they communicate with you ahead of time and are not like planning a part last minute #like 'throw together costume in 5 hours and show up tonight randomly' or etc. I would hope that if we're going with the #AVERAGE of things - most people's friends have better communication skills than springing entire parties #on people last minute lol #assume you have like.. a few days-a week or so to prepare. however ealrly people usually start talking about #birthdays. In my experience it's usually one or two weeks ahead of time. Like 'oh next weekend' or 'oh two weeks from now' etc.#ANYWAY.. feeling a little Sick again of course but still trying to get some photos or something posted #AGAIN i promise I am not going to exlcusively post polls and ntohing else forever hgkjgnekj #I just really really love the ability to post polls and have always my whole life been obsessed with surveying people #I used to think I wanted to do that as a career somehow like.. be one of the people that does psychological interviews #or produce interview asessments for a company or etc. etc. I am always the one friend in the group thats giving out custom made #surveys or asking for other simialr stuff (did you ever take an mbti quiz? how about enneagra #m?? oh yeah I know they're not really scientifically valid or antyhing but like... DID you take them?? huh?? did you??please?? ghjj)#I simply cannot resist.. posting a little poll every once in a while.. as a treat #whilst I still fall behind on like actual content and costumes and stuff gbjhbjh #New poll adventure should be not as much of a wait as the last one was though since I already have the writing #for it really. I just have to do the ms paint sketch. hopefully no unexpected other health issues will get in the way #*** *** ***#< (anytime I do these three star patterns it is an ocd compulsion not me bleeping out words or something just ignore it lol)#(it means something secret in my evil brain just pretend you do not see it. significant only to me)#BUT YEAH.. ... poll... what type of costume party atendee are you?#:0c

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museenkuss · 7 months

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OCTOBER. the first lines in a new notebook. chestnut mousse. studying runway shows. the scent of leather. rainy nights spent reading. mini perfume atomisers kept in overstuffed handbags. chai. hunting down the perfect paisley scarf. poached pears with vanilla sauce. jotting down thoughts on scraps of paper that’ll be found inbetween the pages of a book, years from now. honey face masks. learning poems by heart. dark chocolate and red wine. Draculean nightmares and Wildean dreams (opulent, melancholic, homoerotic).

#Museenkuss #monthly thoughts #dark academia #it’s Oscar Wilde’s birthday on the 16th #don’t forget!!!#Bosie was a libra too btw. THE libra x libra couple imo #I was about to say it’s a cautionary tale but tbh there’s a ‘goals’ aspect to it isn’t there #Libra are just like that #Dracula daily #<- I’m still stuck at the beginning of September and since I do read it at night the horror does translate #also I do think those two - D nightmares and W dreams - can be very similar #weren’t Stoker & Wilde friends?#anyhow. I do love horror and Dracula really does hit. I was surprised to be honest #because of course you know the story etc your it still REALLY sucks you in #October

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bidoofenergy · 11 months

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god laurel hell is such a good album mitski im sorry the yts were so disrespectful

#mitski #bidoof thinks #still not over tickets being $300 when they were sold at $25 she was in my city the week of my birthday #THAT SHOULDVE BEEN ME 😭😭#im sorry the yts disrespected strawberry blonde and your best american girl and nobody and #HOW YOU HEAR YOUR BEST !AMERICAN! GIRL AND GO 'well i think it's just about gender' GIRL #okay im fine im fine #i just think if youre a yt mitski fan you should be quiet when poc especially mixed poc speak #mixed kid tag

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dootznbootz · 2 months

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I think some folks MAY have gotten the wrong idea about how I feel about Circe with some of my posts. So, to clear the air...

Homies, I love that fucked up sorceress.

I love how we're never given a reason why she turns people into animals. That's so funny and so awful. And another potion-making magic gal?!?! I love that she's just basically vibing on an island doing whatever she wants. I even love the fact that she scares Odysseus shitless! She's morally gray and that's why she's FUN.

I just sincerely hate when people try to girlboss her or have her be a victim of SA when she never was Looking at you, Miller. Especially when she was actually the one who coerced Odysseus in exchange for his men being transformed back into humans. And even then, while he was clearly afraid of her, (it's in the language of the Odyssey) she likely meant him no harm after a certain point. He just didn't know that.

Why does she need a reason to do awful things? Why can't she just be a goddess who does whatever she wants? That's the reason why I love her!!! She's fucked up!!! :D

I hate what the Telegony did to her as well! >:( You're telling me, this sorceress goddess, who makes potions (!!!) wouldn't have magic contraceptives??? Would WANT CHILDREN?!?! WITH THE PATHETIC WIFEMAN?! No. Fuck no. Eugammon of Cyrene, I have beef with you 🤬

Anyways!!! Understand all the "#anti circe" I have is simply Anti "Girlboss Circe" or the book. I genuinely think she's neat af as her morally gray, fucked up sorceress self and just get frustrated with...everything :'D

#I have these same feelings with Medea and Medusa and so many others. Penelope too. Let them do something fucked up just to be fucked up #I'm a “god forbid women do anything” in the sense of 'she did a fucked up thing. That's why she's fascinating. Don't take her awfulness #away from her!!! please! I wanna study her under a microscope!'😭#PLEASE #...I actually kind of don't like the idea of her actually caring about her nymphs :P maybe she “protects them” but like...#I see her as a “Why are all of you dancing? Oh. it's a birthday? hm okay. Just make sure your duties are done.” while not caring #whose birthday it is. She's not really shown to be close to them during the Odyssey and idk just seems in character for her to not give af #save me morally gray circe #<-making that a tag now because...yeah. She absolutely wouldn't save me though.#Mad rambles #shot by odysseus #anti madeline miller #anti circe #<-THE BOOK! I HATE THE BOOK! LET HER BE AWFUL YOU COWARDS #Why do women need to be SA'ed to be strong Miller?! >:(#...Ima say it. The pathetic wifeman is more relatable to me than Hot Snake Monster Lady when it comes to this stuff.😤#I just sincerely hate the fact that people erase what happened to him you know? It's silly but it means a lot to me.#Also I think she got bored of him immediately and simply let him chill at her place.#She's a goddess. She's got better things to do and she absolutely doesn't love him and he absolutely doesn't want her.#I don't have with Eugammon btw. He's dead and I'm exaggerating but I STILL hate the Telegony >:(#tw sa #kind of??? idk #barely mentioned but yeah #Calypso though?? Yeah. I hate her in practically everything except Pirates of the Caribbean because that's not Odyssey Calypso

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wifegideonnav · 4 months

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tbh when mitski said “you’re my best friend/now i’ve no one to tell/how i lost my best friend”

#my freshman year of college my best friend and I were both a wreck #and on opposite sides of the country #during winter break I made the decision to share certain information with their parents bc I was actively concerned for their safety #they were deeply upset about me betraying their trust like that and asked for a break in our friendship #(a few months later (which happened to be early March 2020. lol) they did shrooms and realized they wanted to talk to me again lmao)#(so we talked and cried and now we’re still best friends almost 4 years later)#and my birthday is in january so it fell right in the middle of the period we weren’t talking #and my friends at school actually put together a really lovely party and it remains to this day the best bday party ive had #(most of my bdays have been sad and shitty lol)#but i just remember being drunk in my friends dorm room with my friends all around me #it was the end of the night people were just kinda chatting in little groups or whatever #and i was lying on my friends bed just miserable bc all I could think about was how my best friend was supposed to be there too #bc my parents were going to fly them out for the weekend as a present #and obviously that just got dropped #and id been talking to my friends about it kind of but all I wanted was my actual best friend #I left them a very embarrassing drunk voicemail that THANK GOD they deleted without listening to #but it’s just. the quiet agony of being angry and sad and hurt because your person doesn’t want to be ur person anymore #and still wanting to talk to them about it. still needing them to comfort you and give you their advice and insights #i don’t want to talk to anyone else about it. they’re not you.#sigh. anyway. ive actually lost several close friends for various reasons ranging from reasonable to bullshit #and it always blindsides me how much I want to talk to THEM about it #so thanks mitski for expressing that so artfully #op

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bmpmp3 · 7 days

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i do think its kinda funny when i see someone in the year of our lord 2024 talk about vocal synth music like its all gone downhill since like 2010 because like dont get me wrong i love a good niconicodouga-ass 2008 ass vocaloid joint BUT also like. the past couple years have had the most fascinatingly creative and expressive uses of vocal synthesizers ive ever heard in my life DJFSKHJDFS dont write it all off just yet!!

#usually i only see that from people who havent actually listened to any vsynth music from the past 15 years so i understand why they got to #that conclusion. and also usually theyre people who didnt listen to much vsynth music in the first place LOL they just dont know #but it is still a little funny. brother there are things beyond your wildest dreams if u just look #like some personal highlights: the stuff by rinri - particularly their use of the meika girlies #dont carry our memories away is LIFECHANGING the whispers. the spoken parts. the BELTS #plus the haunting and unrelenting instrumentation. fantastic song #and naisho no pierced's propose + birthday + gift sort of trilogy of songs. gift especially has been unreal #again the dynamics of soft intimate whispers to belts but also those fuller high notes with edges of growlyness.#plus the songs just generally rock. and those LYRICS. absolutely intense like physically painful and frightening like #yearning and codependency and possession. and the tuning and production just amps it up more #OH and slave.v.v.r has been doing crazy things for even longer but i only started getting into his stuff recently and holy shit #love eater is like. the scariest vocaloid song ive ever heard not because of the lyrics. but because of the tuning #im like. scared. i cant stop listening to it. the heavy synthesized breathy main vocals and whispered harmonies plus the VOCAL FRY #i didnt realized vocaloid5? i think? has a vocal fry option built in i heard? thats crazy #but specifically in love eater the fry and growl is amped up so deep and loud and clear compared to everything else it like #emphasizes the artificiality of the voice while also amping up the expressiveness #its awesome. and on the older slave.v.v.r songs i heard i will hit you 8759632145 times with this piano. also so fucking cool #addicted to that song. 1) its a great jazzy rocky piano tune with this piano flourish at the end of each phrase that sounds fantastic #but also 2) the lyrics are insane. using kanji to write english??????#people are doing wild ass things with vocal synths rn you guys #this isnt even getting into some of the really unique synths themselves too. adachi rei is awesome i love that shes just like #the perfect inbetween of sample based and reconstruction based vocals. shes a sample based synth #but her samples were drawn by hand LOL shes like dectalks granddaughter to me.....#a really good use of adachi rei is iyowa's heat abnormal/heat anomaly/whatever its called ITS AWESOME thats what it is hjrkfdgfd #i think the fact that vocal synths can be so realistic and clean and noiseless out the gate now has made people really stop worrying #about like. realism all together and looking more into expressiveness. omg vocal synth modernist movement

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whimsycore · 4 months

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I think what people don’t understand about having a narc parent is how isolated you are and how they make you feel on the daily. I had major oral surgery today and I woke up in a dark house tonight.

She literally raised me with the belief that she’s terrified of a completely dark house. And because of that I would make sure a light was turned on for her. Whether she was inside the house yet or not. This woman left one light on and it’s where she was today before she left.

The entitlement and inconsideration is part of daily living with her. But I’m supposed to stay with her because she’s scared to be alone. I’m supposed to not want anything for myself. I’m supposed to not DO for myself because she doesn’t. Imagine your entire life they make you a caretaker and they complain every minute of every day about you to someone so you can’t even trust other adults in your life. And you can’t count on your parent either because they let you down often but expect the world from you.

#like and sometimes other adults will ???? at the them for the way your parent treats you but then they bombard them with how ‘bad you are’#this woman never celebrated Mother’s Day but literally told her friends she was hurt me and my sister gave her nothing like she didn’t raise #Us for 20 years telling us that and birthdays were haram #she coincidentally went out to buy jewelry on her birthday and would always do something for her birthday #and completely ignore all three of her kids. she even ignores one of her kids deaths. she ignores the day every year #it’s not even just how inconsiderate she is it’s the fact she ALSO had a single parent in the 60s who #literally provided for her in ways only white woman at the time got pampered #it’s the fact she reminisces about celebrating Christmas with her family and still is focused on Christianity #it’s her deep fear of everything that gave me CLINICAL anxiety #and I’m overreacting #when you have CPTSD from your parent they also think all you are and all your worth belongs to them #she also would cry to me when I was at college because she was alone #but when I needed her she hung up on me because ‘it was too much’ but didn’t forget to tell her friends abt it :3

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bsotted · 7 months

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Tagged by @ladytaetae 🥹 omg thanks I always love an opportunity to talk ab myself lmao

I’m definitely finding this… a little funny um for context if it helps I went to the Coldplay concert in Seattle on my birthday a couple weeks ago so since I am the type who likes to do homework for that kind of thing and Coldplay’s discography goes back like 20 years… LOL

And for the rest basically my only explanation is #1 it’s been raining for weeks because again this is Seattle and #2 taehyung gets me and the layover vibes are frankly unmatched.

I really can not explain that very high zion t rating tho I’ve literally just been listening to yanghwa daegyo and anirago from time to time so that is a mystery to me

Tagging @edoras my beloved @somebodydoeslove if you haven’t done it already? @lamptastical @caprisunmom @ana-isnt-dead @whalesbians @namkookswife @lesbianslovebts again if u haven’t done it already @starburstfloat @tacozebra051 ❤️ hey love I haven’t forgotten how good ur taste is 👀 is that 10? Idk how to count. @ajaegerpilot just in case I know I can always count on u for music tags hehehe

Bonus Coldplay content:

Chris Martin also grabbed a lesbian flag out of the crowd and wore and waved it around for an entire song so that was 🏳️‍🌈 hahahaha I have video somewhere.

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akkivee · 9 months

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the reason ichiro’s under the impression people just text their feelings at each other is because that’s how kuukou love mailed him all the time lmao

#this is vee speaking #my all day everyday ichikuu agenda LOL #it is DISGUSTING how much i’m going to miss the bb stage actors 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#matsuda-san’s jiro had me by the balls from the moment i saw him and he’s only gotten more charismatic!!!!!!!#i can still write fcking sonnets about his long neck help!!!!!!!#nagashima-san using his higher key to harmonise with his bros was his own spin on the songs and it FCKS #AKIRA-SAN!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU FOR YOUR ICHIRO AND I LOVE YOUR AD LIB RAPS #he makes such a handsome ichiro bro 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#that skit was hilarious btw lmao #i didn’t know i needed ichiro having an entire crisis because he thinks he’s too bad to give a good impression on saburo’s hypothetical gf #so he makes jiro play the part of an actual princess bc of course that’s the kinda girl saburo would bag lmao #and saburo being brought to tears because he’s that overstimulated by his anxieties and his brothers’ sheer stupidity lmao #but i got it and i’m very grateful for it lol 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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icewindandboringhorror · 4 months

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reminders of the passage of time moodeboard

#my blog is in his last year of middle school. he'll be off to high school next year (at least I think so..? 13 yrs old is usually 8th grade #at least from my experience. 9th graders are usually 14. 10th are 15. etc. etc. and then you're in 12th grade #and graduate high school usually 17yrs old.) ANYWAY.. wow he is so ancient..#maybe he's still in a preteeny early teen emo phase or something.. I hope he gets some black and white striped armwarmers and black eyeline #r for his birthday. Maybe an MP3 player of course. Though because I don't really like most alternative music and he is my son he's actually #not allowed to listen to metal or pop punk or emo rock whatever stuff. I open the mp3 player and pre-stock it with only #disco and funk and classical music. he can have a little chiptune or techno stuff as a treat (sometimes emo adjacent maybe more #scene. I think a lot of scene kids were into that more.. emo's weird eccentric brother))#Also he starts taking iron pills his 13th birthday because he's probably incredibly anemic just like me #so on and so forth and et cetera (I'm just being silly.. I am not pro-controlling your children down to whatmusic they #listen to or etc.etc. lol)#THOUGH I love that it's in january... january is one of my favorite months if not my favorite. yeeaaay #just such a nice cool month. I like that it's the start of the year mostly and that it's sometimes snowy here. Like where I live nov - dec #isnt really actually snowy?? You always associate those winter Months with snow but I think snow happens later on this coast #so it's more like Jan - March or even april sometimes. Though that may just be climate change lol.. But it's cool that Jan is winter AND #ACTUALLY snowy. plus the Beginning Of Year vibes and energy.. hrm... nice nice.. ANYWAY #AND this is not even my first tumblr blog. I had a different one before it I think..#evviilll to be on one website for so long lol.. Very thankful that most websites I used to use as a 10 year old or whatever #are now defunct. There's something weird about how humans are just creating endless streams of words and pictures and all of this stuff #and it just goes out into the void and stays there long after the person themselves has forgotten it. not even like 'oh no what if i said #something bad!!' but more just the general sense of.. people create so much more ideas than they can actually hold in their heads. nobody #remembers exactly word for word every post they've ever made or etc. It's like parts of yourself that you've externalized and then fade awa #from you but they're still you but they're not so you just have little snapshots of yourself in time floating around entirely unbenknownst #to you. like making clones of yourself and then forgetting you did so but every once in a while going 'shit... there's clones out there..#of me and I don't even have track or awareness of them anymore.. what an odd concept..' etc. not EXACTLY like that ghbj..you know what I me #n.. or maybe you dont.. hrmm... ANYWAY #I am just now slightly recovering from my most recent mysterious illness spell and etc. so I would like to post more again and mAYBE even #do a costume if I'm being ambitious.. but after so many times of being randomly stricken by problems I'm now fearful of ever being too #hopeful lol.. always like 'I would like to go to the grocery store tomorrow! .... MAYBE.. if i CAN.. possibly... NOT getting my hopes up'.#etc. etc. etc. every statement has a caveat and a backup plan and so on and so forth and such is life.. anyway. happy birthday evil tumblr

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autumnhobbit · 1 year

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It is an odd and humbling experience to read the names on gravestones and the birth & death dates

#the gravestone i painted was for a guy who was born the same year i was #it's strange to think about because he died in 2020 and it's like. i was getting ready to spend my first christmas married #and you were dead before christmas #now i'm still here going on and your kids are fatherless for the rest of their lives #seeing people who got married on my birthday or were born on a loved one's birthday #or died on a loved one's birthday #seeing people the same age or a little older or younger than my parents' stones #knowing i'm probably the same age or around the same age as their kids #previously would have been bad for my anxiety but it does make you think about how many people are losing someone they love every day #and a reminder to hold your loved ones close and not take them for granted #don't put off spending time with them if you want to

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random-meme-bot · 1 year

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Been replaying WarioWare Gold lately and got reminded about the fact that Mina (one of @glitch-pep's OCs) is suposed to sound like Ashley from the newer WarioWare games so I ended up doing a drawing of Mina as Ashley & Karma as Red (That somehow ended up becoming a pseudo animation...)

Images under the cut:

Bonus: Version without ponnytails that I made but never ended up using.

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musashi · 7 months

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found out a while back that shitty ex friend i dumped for obsessively, uncomfortably copying everything i do (amongst a million other horrible things) literally fucking like. eyedrop tool'd the exact page colour i use in google docs and still use it to this fucking day

#wordy wendy #a friend informed me of this and i was like what and they sent me a pic and i'm #do you ever just violently celebrate the lack of a person in your life. like their absence makes you feel relief you did not think possible #im still thinking about how they basically faked sick when i caught covid #like i was not allowed to have anything #if anyone was paying attention to me where they could see it they HAD to make sure they were getting it too #literally like a younger sibling demanding presents on their older sibling's birthday

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