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hollythius · 2 years

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dearly detested ; howl jenkins-pendragon x reader

have i ever written enemies to lovers before? no. wait actually this is more rivals to lovers oops. also canon divergence i think. mix of the book + movie. female reader is implied but i use they/them pronouns.

also michael = markl. michael is howl’s apprentice, and is like…15. he’s just the book version of markl. (and also i like him way more than markl lmao).

rivals to lovers > enemies to lovers. there i said it.

hmm. it appears that the man upstairs gave me the ability to write angst. there’s some hurt/comfort mixed in there.

tw; blood, howl is a lot crueler i think, slight gore?, howl kinda kidnaps reader but they could leave if they wanted, non-sexual nudity, howl and the reader definitely have history, y/n is emotionally constipated, they take a bath together, you can cut the tension with a knife.

there was not one person you hated more in the entirety of ingary. everything about howl made you see red. every time his name crossed your ears, you bit back with doglike rage.

there was a time not too long ago where you felt differently, perhaps with even the slightest crush on the young wizard. but that was years ago, when you were still a student. now you were a full-fledged witch who saw through howl’s trickery. how could any respectable user of magic be such a dirty coward?

you sighed, the black masses fizzling away after leaving you bloodied. the witch of the waste was still on the prowl, and as sanctioned by the king, you were expected to rid of her. your dearly hated howl, however; was tasked with finding the king’s brother, prince justin.

his victory would surely trump your own, which of course angered you like nothing else. everyone would forget about the witch of the waste once the prince was found. so you decided to take your time with your contract. but now that you were rendered almost defenseless in the valley of the waste, the familiar puffing of the castle was once again something that stirred nostalgia and not hatred.

you lumbered closer to the castle, clutching your wounded side. the huge hunk of metal chugged closer to you, though you were sure that was coincidence. howl most certainly was not home. if he was, you would’ve ran back up into the waste.

you slung yourself at the back door, shoving it open with your shoulder. howl’s apprentice stood there, wide-eyed with a half finished spell on the table in front of him.

“m-master pendragon isn’t here right now,” michael stuttered. his wide eyes blew wider when they reached the deep gash in your middle.

“good.” you responded harshly, heading for the shelves of ingredients. your plan was to make a quick salve to stave off infection, but the creaking of the door made you freeze.

“oh? and what did the cat bring in this time, michael?”

his voice sent a chill down your spine. you dropped the vial you were holding, the glass breaking on the floor.

“and what manner of rodent may you be, my dear?” your rigid body turned around to find the horrible blond grinning down at you. his fingers traced your side, your body flinching as he flicked your blood off of them. “my, my, y/n. what in ingary has the king been making you do?”

you scoffed at his false curiosity. “i suppose you wouldn’t know,” you spat. he was only concerned with himself. “how has your contract been going?”

howl chuckled, and you had half a mind to punch his lights out. bang up that pretty face of his. “almost as well as yours, by the looks of it,” he said.

howl folded his arms, raising a brow. you knew what he meant. why had you come here, of all places? he was well aware of your loathing of him.

“it was close. i was sure you weren’t home.”

“so it was your intention to steal from me and then leave? calcifer would have told me everything,” he smirked. you narrowed your eyes.

“of course. but would you have sought me out? made me pay for whatever i had taken?”

howl’s face was stern, but you’d won. as you stared into his cold eyes, they finally darted away. you stopped the grin that pulled at your lips. howl turned to face the fireplace.

“prepare a hot bath. and lock the doors, calcifer. we can’t have our rat escaping just yet.” your heart dropped. “it appears they’re injured,” he sang, running a hand down your side. this time he didn’t bother flicking the blood off his fingers.

“i wouldn’t call them a rat, howl,” calcifer bit back before flaring up and doing his assigned tasks.

howl shoved your cloak off your shoulders. “michael, wash that for me. and you,” he turned and faced you, “accompany me to the bathroom, would you?”

you followed howl up the stairs, watching as his bloody hand trailed up the banister. he held open the bathroom door and steam fell out in thick tufts. “after you, my dear.”

you scowled. you stepped in, sitting atop the toilet seat. “so now what? going to watch me bathe, jenkins?”

“it’s nothing foreign, love,” he breathed, tipping salts into the bath water. “i’d rather not have poor michael be forced to supervise you.”

howl shrugged off his overcoat, letting it fall to the floor. he stretched his arms over his head, shoulders popping. he was left in a loose white shirt.

“i suppose you’re right, howl,” you sighed, finally giving in. “now, am i right in assuming that you have no intention of letting me leave until i heal?”

“would it please you if i said you are indeed correct in your assumption?”

you let a dry chuckle escape your pursed lips. your eye wandered, seeing all of howl’s beauty products. how many women had he charmed using these? immediately the homely aura returned to one of forced intimacy.

“of course it would,” you sang bitterly. howl laughed as he kneeled down to untie your bootlace.

“don’t play like that, my dear. i’m well aware of your…complicated feelings towards me.”

“what about them do you find complicated, oh great wizard of ingary?” you teased. however no amusement was in it, and none was found in his annoyance at the title you’d given him.

“i realize that i am a coward, there’s no reason to rub it in, dear,” his voice came out strained, and his eyes were shifting around.

you hummed. “i’m glad you’re self aware, howl. perhaps that fact brings you up a notch.”

“do you want my help or not, y/n?” he snapped. “or are you just here to berate me?”

you froze. he’d scared you many times before, but never once had howl jenkins ever raised his voice at you.

“i- howl, i didn’t mean it like that,” you sighed.

“of course you didn’t,” he sang, mocking you. his focus returned to your boots, swiftly pulling them off along with your stockings. the look in his eyes was distant. his hands edged towards your bloody blouse. “with your permission, my dear.”

“you know my answer, howl.” he seemed to lighten up at that. he did know the answer, which would always be yes.

soon your blouse was discarded on the floor along with your boots and trousers. you dabbed at your wound with a cloth howl had handed you.

“be grateful this gash wasn’t so deep that you needed stitches. i can fix this with magic.”

“go ahead,” you replied. howl’s hand moved to cusp your side, the warmth being replaced with the hot sensation of magic.

“this’ll leave a nasty scar, my dear,” howl said. but you weren’t paying any attention to him. your eyes focused on the thin flesh of his lips, pink and barely there. “though it doesn’t seem like you mind much.” his other hand grabbed your waist, pulling you atop him.

“i miss you, howl. every day,” you whimpered, burying yourself in his shoulder.

“then stay here. masking your longing with anger must be tiring.”

“i…can’t. not after how i’ve treated you,” you whispered.

“my dear, i know you only said those things to cope. it was the only way you knew how.”

the burning in your eyes ceased when you finally let your tears flow onto howl’s shoulder. he flinched when he felt your body quiver against him.

“howl,” your shaky voice barely audible as you gripped at the blond’s back. “i-”

“shhh. i know, my love. relax yourself.”

the two of you spent the next hour in the tub together, simply enjoying one another. howl calmed your shaky breaths, and made you feel like the only one in the world. you missed this. you missed him.

howl magicked up sleepwear, dressing himself and leaving you to sift through the pile of overzealous fabric until you found something suitable. you end up in something a tad too large for your figure, but you don’t mind. the softness of the silk garment is enough to make you even sleepier than before.

“howl?”

“yes, my dear, i know you’re tired. but please, let me speak for a moment?” he breathed, his blond hair brushing against your forehead. you respond with a sighed yes, and howl pressed a kiss to your forehead.

“never stray away from me again, my dear. it’s not good to keep things like this pent up for so long.”

your hands grasp at his back, and his lips make contact with your own. “i know, howl.”

howl’s lips parted in a kind smile, and he let out a small chuckle. he pressed his forehead against yours. “i love you, my dear.”

you answered him with a kiss on the lips. i love you too.

#helpful holly ☎️#if you’re going to like you should reblog too #howl pendragon x reader #howl x reader #howl pendragon #howls moving castle #howl’s moving castle x reader #howl jenkins pendragon #howl jenkins x reader #i love this fic so much #it’s a labor of love #please don’t let this flop tumblr i’m begging

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aidenknow · 6 months

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#Aiden Rambles #Palestine #Moots please I’m begging you to speak out about it #Eventhough that the Palestine tag and Free Palestine tag is trending Tumblr will still attempt to silence it as much as possible #So please speak out if you can #Free Palestine #Gaza Strip #Israel #Israel is a terrorist state #Ceasefire NOW!!!#Ethnic cleansing is genocide #Reblogs > Likes #More people need to know and aware at this point

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kyouka-supremacy · 1 year

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Ok here's how Atsushi can still get major character development via shin soukoku. Akutagawa is attacking Atsushi, but stops because he's becoming aware of himself. He's standing still, then looks up and his eyes are normal again. Atsushi smiles in relief, but then sees Fukuzawa is right behind Akutagawa, swinging his blade to get rid of his "defective tool."

And then its like slow motion, and we see Atsushi's thoughts as he moves forward, along the lines of, "Ah. I get it, now. Why Akutagawa saved me." He pushes Akutagawa down and away from Fukuzawa, but doesn't have enough time to dodge for himself. Atsushi's thoughts come up again, "I didn't realize it until now. That I really-" and then we see a large blood splatter on the ground, Akutagawa's horrified face, and Aya's screams cover the rest of the page.

(In my little scenario, we see the shadow of Atsushi's body without a head, calling back to Fukuzawa's comment in chapter 83.5. Akutagawa then violently kills Fukuzawa in blind rage and grief, stabbing through him a bunch like he did to Margaret but a lot more gorey. Then we see Tanizaki emerge holding Atsushi, alive, and the illusion of Atsushi's dead body disappears).

Sskk can still win i swear (smiling through the tears)

I'm proposing

This was such a ride oh my God. I swear to you there's NOTHING ///NOTHING/// better than the feeling of opening the askbox to an ask starting per “Ok here's how Atsushi can still get major character development via shin soukoku” followed by long text. I could get addicted to this.

“I didn't realize it until now. That I really-” is the new “You know the reason yourself don't you”. Like, it's just perfect in everything. You can't imagine how much I'd ADORE to have Atsushi return the favour and sacrifice himself for Akutagwa!!!! Like seriously peoples listen to me. Sskk is ALL about mirroring each other and story repeating itself and I NEED THIS FROM ATSUSHI. I need this growth for him I need Akutagawa to have changed him just as deeply and thoroughly as Atsushi changed Akutagawa. I need Atsushi to save Akutagawa I need Atsushi to require his love I need the circular narrative I NEED THEM. Like Atsushi looking up AND recognizing Akutagawa’s eyes AND smiling? The whole thing about him looking at Akutagawa's eyes and seeing Akutagawa in them - his Akutagawa - and that eliciting pure joy in Atsushi. The fact that Akutagawa is now okay and he can feel him by his side again and can feel his warmth and knows that he's okay. Atsushi being relieved beyond words for Akutagawa being safe. I’m so weak for them I’m going to faint. But seriously all theories aside after this I NEED Akutagawa to snap out of the vampire curse due to the power of love. I’m sorry, peoples' too good theories for my own good set my bar too high and now I need them to make out on screen by the end of this arc otherwise I'll die.

You’re right about everything I swear. Akutagawa's horrified face I SWEAR it's such a relevant, precious? side of how his feelings for Atsushi effect him, how they make him experience a range of emotions - terror and care and dread and love and horror – that he //literally// never experienced before. And Akutagawa killing Fukuchi on the spot after he thinks Atsushi is dead- just, yes. As a side note, that’s exactly how the Beast version of chapters 84-88 would play out for me. Akutagawa's fury for losing Atsushi... The thing is, one would think that Akutagawa's death is tragic, but I believe that for him having to live in a world without Atsushi would be a way crueler fate. And it would be… kind of meaningful to bring a Tanizaki produced dead Atsushi illusion to the equation, as it would make a nice parallel to him doing it in chapter 4; a recall to how much Akutagawa has grown since then, from causing harm to Atsushi and trying to kill him, to being so inconsolably upset by his death he'd completely lose control and kill someone else for him. And this is the same “I'll kill you in six months” guy. What a loser

THANK YOU FOR YOUR PROMPTS they give me life please don't stop

#My love I’m guessing you meant Fukuchi instead of Fukuzawa right?#I was a little perplexed at first but I know exactly what chapter 83 Fukuchi comment you're talking about and it's. such a perfect tie #@bsd author I’m BEGGING you to take notes of Tumblr user @denkies' ideas.#atsushi nakajima #ryūnosuke akutagawa #sskk #shin soukoku #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd ch 107 #bsd theory #people asks me stuff

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blanketmoss · 16 days

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(There’s sound on this and it’s kinda loud, just a quick warning)

Her bald shiny roblox head…

#tumblr PLEASE don’t cut the text off I’m begging you #oc tag: silver the angel

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soaking-wet-cat-punk · 7 months

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ok but where's my scene in the mark of athena where leo's working on teh ship and he's leaving all his shit around again. and percy's on edge for some reason. and then leo drops his shoes on percy's bed for some reason. maybe it was the closest place. maybe he meant to ask percy to clean them later. whatever it was, it did something. and percy was angry. all the toilets flooded, and the whole ship came running becasue they could hear him yelling at leo to keep his own goddamn belongings in his own goddamn room. and the others stepped in, of course. hey percy, leo's been leaving his shit all over our beds, too, he's working. what's gotten into you?

and percy slams his fist on the table and the kitchen sink bursts at the faucet. and he storms out of the room. annabeth chases him and everyone's sure she's going to reprimand him, but then hazel almost stumbles upon them and hears her saying, it's okay, they won't hate you, they'll understand. he'll keep his things to himself. don't worry, it's okay.

and yeah, a couple days later percy comes out with bags under his eyes and dissheveled hair and says im sorry, i was out of line. please keep your things to yourself but im sorry. i shouldnt have yelled. um leo im sorry can annabeth and i talk to you for a second. sorry. um. yeah.

and that's the day leo learns about smelly gabe.

Where is my scene rick :( pls my crops are dying and my mother was yoinked away to the underworld :(

#percy jackson #annabeth chase #writing #pjo #pjo headcanon #please rick I’m begging you #Percy is just like me for we just come in different flavors #ah if only I were already tumblr famous

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celestialstars7 · 2 years

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HELLO BYLER NATION!!

id like to inform all of you that my therapist has seen stranger things and he has THOUGHTS about mike wheeler… here’s a few.

(important info: has a psychology degree [obviously lmao], he’s worked in the field for multiple decades, and lived through the 1980s)

Mike represses himself and his emotions to a very heavy degree (most likely because of his parent’s relationship + views on sexuality and men’s emotions in the 80s plus general reaction to his interests by anyone other than his friends)

he has trouble differentiating between platonic and romantic love. he confuses care towards girls for love (think about how he said “I care for you” easily but can’t say that he loves el), because many male/female relationships that he’s seeing that aren’t familial tend to be romantic— purely platonic male/female friendships were rarely a thing in the 80s. he’s never had a good example of actual love and you’re not born knowing the difference between types of love… (think of “Dustin, Lucas, they’re great but Hawkins isn’t the same without you” + “mom, Dustin, Lucas, everyone” meaning the same thing but will has actually realized his feelings for mike for what they are… there’s no reason for this parallel to exist but for only one of the two to have romantic feelings behind it.)

deep down mike didn’t mean “because I love her and can’t lose her again” romantically and looked shocked because he knew how it would be taken. this could also be why he “forgot” he said this when el asked about it. he didn’t (doesn’t) love her like that and that’s why it didn’t feel right to say it, despite the fact that he might think that he loves her romantically. that’s also the reason he avoids saying the words “I love you” but implies it, because he technically didn’t say the words, so he wouldn’t have to feel whatever feeling is causing him to avoid saying the actual words. he probably does think that he loves her like that, but for some reason “I love you” feels wrong. this is because he loves her platonically but doesn’t want to recognize that fact… he’s thinking all of these things unconsciously because his mind won’t let him recognize them. this is a form of self preservation he’s taken on to avoid his insecurities. Mike latched on to the first girl that showed interest in him because of those insecurities, and feels exposed without her. with her, he doesn’t have to deal with those emotions. he wants to avoid losing her romantically because he’d have to think about those insecurities and the nature of his feelings towards will.

mold is a toxic relationship and it’s not good for either of them, they’re both playing parts with each other instead of being who they truly are and it’s hurting them/their psyche… Mike hides his style (airport outfit) along with his nerdiness (not bringing any of it up after the first time el shot him down), and gets shamed for his goofier side (being told to shut up after singing)… Mike isn’t really interested in getting to know el as a person beyond her superpowers (possibly because that’s “his thing” and if she’s just like him AND has powers, that makes him feel so much more inferior to her— which we know is a sore spot for mike)

Mike is gay but mentally won’t allow himself to realize it until it’s impossible not to, possibly because of the public opinion of queer people at the time (his parents, particularly his father, being the main source for this) and the bullying he and his friends (mostly will, which he has watched) has experienced. His internalized homophobia is “unconscious” while will’s would be considered “conscious”. We can assume that Will is okay with other people being queer, but he consciously feels like a mistake for being gay. Meanwhile, mike has been more explicitly shown to be okay with gay people (not caring that people [particularly his father] think that Will is gay, insisting that he didn’t deserve what was happening during his disappearance) but can’t seem to get past his mental block. he ignores the difference between his feelings for Will vs Dustin/Lucas because he doesn’t want to think about what that would mean for him. Not only would he be gay in the 80s, but he’d be hopelessly pining for someone who’d never return his feelings. (from mikes pov)

I’m not going to explain his thoughts on the monologue in depth because his opinions are the same as most analyses on it— just know that he confirms the mental reasoning behind it and the fact that it’s riddled with lies, half-truths, and that it’s most likely a response to will’s veiled van confession (will’s words were so heavy hitting and mike doesn’t want to lose someone who thinks of him that way… he doesn’t want to lose someone who thinks the world of him when he doesn’t think much of himself. that and the stress of the situation are what pushed him into saying “I love you”. He wasn’t saying it to El, he was saying it to the person behind will’s words in the van.)

the only logical outcome for Mike, Will, and El’s individual stories would be byler. the byler dynamic is much healthier than mildew… mike and el staying together would undermine both of their personal arcs, specifically El. Why would she be shown gaining more independence and individuality, but stay with the person who doesn’t encourage that in her and makes her feel like a monster? Why wouldn’t they put Mike with someone he has been friends with for over a decade and is repeatedly shown to be fully himself with after hiding his personality from El for multiple seasons? Why would they leave Will alone after making him go through hell for four (most likely five) seasons and not put him with the person who doesn’t make him feel like a mistake? A millet breakup and byler relationship would tie up all of their personal journeys perfectly, so there’s no reason for mackerel to be cannon for any reason other than homophobia.

fun extra: byler becoming the most long-standing and mass case of “straightbaiting” in our current media would have a massive effect on the mental health and/or psyche of viewers. For the queer viewers (whether they know it or not), they’re shown a beautiful, healthy, accurate gay relationship… any queer person understands how important that is. for the straight and/or homophobic viewers, it shows them the same thing, shows them that gay people are real and exactly like them.

in conclusion, even straight professionals know what mike wheeler is and think that moldy mac and cheese is toxic <3

#byler #byler tumblr #guys please like this I spent so long on it #mike wheeler i know what you are #even straight people know what you are #my guy it’s so obvious #please end our suffering and kiss will #we’re BEGGING you #I’m swearing to a god I don’t even believe in for you mike #that’s how serious I am

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